1 00:01:09,659 --> 00:01:10,991 We've talked a lot so far 2 00:01:10,993 --> 00:01:14,594 about the nature of good storytelling, 3 00:01:14,596 --> 00:01:18,398 but judging from your stories, it seems like a lot of you 4 00:01:18,400 --> 00:01:22,035 are just flapping in the wind 5 00:01:22,037 --> 00:01:25,972 without a voice, an instrument. 6 00:01:25,974 --> 00:01:28,609 So how do we change that? 7 00:01:28,611 --> 00:01:31,344 I know I respond to something more real. 8 00:01:31,346 --> 00:01:33,446 Maybe something like a spontaneous overflow 9 00:01:33,448 --> 00:01:34,948 of emotion. 10 00:01:34,950 --> 00:01:37,717 Spoken like a true romantic. 11 00:01:37,719 --> 00:01:39,754 You give me too much credit. 12 00:01:39,756 --> 00:01:42,323 No, if you're writing emotionally, you're writing selfishly. 13 00:01:42,325 --> 00:01:44,491 You're not connecting with your audience. 14 00:01:44,493 --> 00:01:48,799 So, readers don't connect to a story with soul? 15 00:01:50,832 --> 00:01:53,901 Is it a well outlined plot you most respond to, 16 00:01:53,903 --> 00:01:58,609 or emotion that reflects your own human experience? 17 00:02:00,075 --> 00:02:03,978 What matters is where it comes from. 18 00:02:03,980 --> 00:02:06,514 That it comes from you. 19 00:02:06,516 --> 00:02:08,749 That's right. 20 00:02:08,751 --> 00:02:12,053 That is right, and in that way, 21 00:02:12,055 --> 00:02:15,523 the best moments of writing are instinctive, 22 00:02:15,525 --> 00:02:17,625 showing who we are, 23 00:02:17,627 --> 00:02:19,793 and what it is we're processing 24 00:02:19,795 --> 00:02:25,031 from a place each our own. 25 00:02:25,033 --> 00:02:26,969 You up for sharing? 26 00:03:08,443 --> 00:03:11,578 The church was small, but strong, 27 00:03:11,580 --> 00:03:13,447 resting along the low country banks 28 00:03:13,449 --> 00:03:15,382 where my father once preached. 29 00:03:15,384 --> 00:03:17,385 On summer mornings we'd have sunday school 30 00:03:17,387 --> 00:03:19,519 alongside the cooling creeks, 31 00:03:19,521 --> 00:03:21,388 listening to bible stories, 32 00:03:21,390 --> 00:03:23,990 and singing about this little light of mine. 33 00:03:23,992 --> 00:03:26,626 I'd sometimes sneak away, 34 00:03:26,628 --> 00:03:30,764 braving the gold and green marsh grass up to my neck, 35 00:03:30,766 --> 00:03:34,034 soft sun peaking through patches of spanish moss, 36 00:03:34,036 --> 00:03:36,605 heat and light upon my face... 37 00:03:39,008 --> 00:03:40,877 What I imagined god felt like. 38 00:03:44,413 --> 00:03:46,780 But as the tides moved out, 39 00:03:46,782 --> 00:03:50,785 that sun shrunk away 40 00:03:50,787 --> 00:03:53,887 on the journey 41 00:03:53,889 --> 00:03:55,691 of a single day. 42 00:05:44,634 --> 00:05:47,166 Hey, you boys want some of this while I got it out? 43 00:05:47,168 --> 00:05:48,868 Why don't you shut the hell up? 44 00:05:48,870 --> 00:05:51,137 Whoo! 45 00:05:51,139 --> 00:05:52,805 You ready? 46 00:05:52,807 --> 00:05:54,711 Keep your panties on. 47 00:05:56,312 --> 00:05:58,211 Hey! 48 00:05:58,213 --> 00:06:00,813 Pick you up at 10? 49 00:06:00,815 --> 00:06:01,951 Yeah. 50 00:06:04,153 --> 00:06:06,286 You'll be there, right? 51 00:06:06,288 --> 00:06:08,154 - Yeah. - Hmm, yeah? 52 00:06:08,156 --> 00:06:09,990 'Cause we need you. 53 00:06:09,992 --> 00:06:11,261 Shit. 54 00:06:14,663 --> 00:06:16,897 10. 55 00:06:16,899 --> 00:06:20,166 He'd been a friend since seventh grade. 56 00:06:20,168 --> 00:06:23,173 But my mom returned us to these waterways of her family. 57 00:06:24,607 --> 00:06:26,173 I got caught crying in a hallway, 58 00:06:26,175 --> 00:06:28,608 and he chased the other kids away as they laughed. 59 00:06:28,610 --> 00:06:31,678 Bye, Joseph! Whoo! 60 00:06:31,680 --> 00:06:35,519 A warrior suddenly at my side. 61 00:06:38,086 --> 00:06:40,988 Most of the time I shut myself off, 62 00:06:40,990 --> 00:06:44,959 drifting back into a dark cloud, 63 00:06:44,961 --> 00:06:47,760 a slow fall. 64 00:06:47,762 --> 00:06:50,831 They called it depression 65 00:06:50,833 --> 00:06:55,034 and asked if I was having thoughts about suicide. 66 00:06:55,036 --> 00:06:58,207 I lied and said no. 67 00:07:06,983 --> 00:07:08,685 Where you been? 68 00:07:10,653 --> 00:07:11,987 Nowhere. 69 00:07:15,658 --> 00:07:17,259 Allison called. 70 00:07:19,995 --> 00:07:21,597 They said you should be there by 8. 71 00:07:31,973 --> 00:07:35,009 The pain is a curse 72 00:07:35,011 --> 00:07:37,844 handed down from my father... 73 00:07:37,846 --> 00:07:41,014 Let's remember, as the bread nourishes our bodies and our minds, 74 00:07:41,016 --> 00:07:44,853 let it nourish your soul and your faith. 75 00:07:48,024 --> 00:07:50,894 Looking for something he'd never find. 76 00:08:01,870 --> 00:08:07,074 But at times, the pain explodes out of my mind and hand. 77 00:08:07,076 --> 00:08:08,778 A sweet release. 78 00:08:20,790 --> 00:08:23,057 - What up? - Nothing. 79 00:08:23,059 --> 00:08:25,759 I bet you $1.99 80 00:08:25,761 --> 00:08:27,330 You ain't got off that damn couch all day. 81 00:08:32,968 --> 00:08:34,303 Asshole. 82 00:08:49,118 --> 00:08:50,917 - What are you doing? - Nothing. 83 00:08:50,919 --> 00:08:52,219 - What did you take? - It's nothing. 84 00:08:52,221 --> 00:08:54,854 Dick, give it back! 85 00:08:54,856 --> 00:08:57,925 I'm gonna kick your ass, Howard! 86 00:08:57,927 --> 00:08:59,026 Right. 87 00:08:59,028 --> 00:09:01,031 You ain't gonna do shit. 88 00:09:15,745 --> 00:09:18,344 Joseph, come in. 89 00:09:22,283 --> 00:09:24,852 You all know Joseph, Charlie's little brother. 90 00:09:24,854 --> 00:09:27,286 Yeah, what's up? 91 00:09:27,288 --> 00:09:29,759 Come to drink all our beer and split? 92 00:09:34,996 --> 00:09:36,796 Where's Charlie? 93 00:09:36,798 --> 00:09:38,265 He's in the study. 94 00:09:38,267 --> 00:09:41,068 Go find him. He's been looking for ya. 95 00:09:46,408 --> 00:09:48,175 Quite the charmer. 96 00:09:48,177 --> 00:09:49,879 Let him be. 97 00:10:01,090 --> 00:10:02,388 The only thing that confuses me 98 00:10:02,390 --> 00:10:05,526 is how you got an invite to my party. 99 00:10:05,528 --> 00:10:07,297 Joseph. 100 00:10:10,198 --> 00:10:12,498 How you doin', buddy? 101 00:10:12,500 --> 00:10:15,169 I'm all right. 102 00:10:15,171 --> 00:10:18,272 Staying in trouble? 103 00:10:18,274 --> 00:10:19,473 No. 104 00:10:19,475 --> 00:10:21,241 Oh, bullshit. 105 00:10:21,243 --> 00:10:22,943 Hey, let me go say hey to some people. 106 00:10:22,945 --> 00:10:24,978 I'll catch up with you in a sec, okay? 107 00:10:24,980 --> 00:10:26,349 All right. 108 00:10:28,884 --> 00:10:30,854 Where's my wife? 109 00:10:32,254 --> 00:10:35,055 Charlie was my half brother, 110 00:10:35,057 --> 00:10:38,858 abandoned by my father when he was 10. 111 00:10:38,860 --> 00:10:42,429 He made good by being himself, 112 00:10:42,431 --> 00:10:45,168 a wide space between him and me. 113 00:11:20,336 --> 00:11:23,871 That's true. It's not... it's not bad. 114 00:11:23,873 --> 00:11:25,939 You seem to have all the answers, don't you? 115 00:11:25,941 --> 00:11:27,608 I'm not saying I have all the answers, 116 00:11:27,610 --> 00:11:30,209 but we've all had those moments that feel right, 117 00:11:30,211 --> 00:11:32,079 where we feel like we're at our best, 118 00:11:32,081 --> 00:11:36,116 where we're not bogged down with self doubt or fear. 119 00:11:36,118 --> 00:11:39,585 You know, where we trust in the world around us. 120 00:11:39,587 --> 00:11:42,289 - Which is what? - Faith. 121 00:11:42,291 --> 00:11:45,559 Striving for some sense of hope, of peace. 122 00:11:45,561 --> 00:11:48,094 Okay, the eagle soaring through the air achieves 123 00:11:48,096 --> 00:11:49,563 because of three things... 124 00:11:49,565 --> 00:11:55,035 His wings, the wind, and his faith in both. 125 00:11:55,037 --> 00:11:58,037 All right, our role is to accept that who we are 126 00:11:58,039 --> 00:11:59,605 is absolutely integral to that, 127 00:11:59,607 --> 00:12:03,209 and stop fighting against this concept of our value. 128 00:12:03,211 --> 00:12:05,177 And to recognize that the world cannot be 129 00:12:05,179 --> 00:12:08,949 what it's determined to be without us as we are. 130 00:12:08,951 --> 00:12:11,384 What did you think, Joe? 131 00:12:11,386 --> 00:12:13,587 I liked it. 132 00:12:13,589 --> 00:12:16,055 See there? There you go. 133 00:12:16,057 --> 00:12:17,590 Youth of america likes it. 134 00:12:35,644 --> 00:12:37,246 Yeah? 135 00:12:39,248 --> 00:12:41,714 What the hell you doing in here? 136 00:12:41,716 --> 00:12:42,918 Nothing. 137 00:12:52,327 --> 00:12:54,429 Car's in my way. 138 00:12:55,965 --> 00:12:58,434 Fine. I had to get jay anyway. 139 00:13:09,144 --> 00:13:11,210 You best get to cleaning this place out 140 00:13:11,212 --> 00:13:14,748 ...like I keep telling you. - Yeah, whatever. 141 00:13:14,750 --> 00:13:18,384 What the hell did you say? 142 00:13:18,386 --> 00:13:21,722 You live here for free. Barely got outta high school. 143 00:13:21,724 --> 00:13:26,059 Hell, you don't even have a goddamn job. 144 00:13:26,061 --> 00:13:29,365 You startin' to amount to jack shit, you know that? 145 00:13:32,768 --> 00:13:35,538 I don't know why you always give me such a hard time. 146 00:13:38,673 --> 00:13:41,944 You don't know what a hard time is. 147 00:14:06,434 --> 00:14:10,570 How is your mom doing? 148 00:14:10,572 --> 00:14:14,141 - She's okay. - Good. 149 00:14:14,143 --> 00:14:16,675 Do you want some of this? 150 00:14:16,677 --> 00:14:19,345 Yeah, sure. 151 00:14:19,347 --> 00:14:23,552 So, are you still thinking about school? 152 00:14:26,587 --> 00:14:29,689 Who said I was thinking about school? 153 00:14:29,691 --> 00:14:31,690 Charlie. 154 00:14:31,692 --> 00:14:34,661 You should, you know? 155 00:14:34,663 --> 00:14:36,399 You'd do well. 156 00:15:27,649 --> 00:15:30,617 I was alone, 157 00:15:30,619 --> 00:15:33,056 but I would on occasion take company in other folks. 158 00:15:35,691 --> 00:15:40,193 Not through easy conversation or eye contact. 159 00:15:40,195 --> 00:15:42,896 Instead, I'd make up stories about them, 160 00:15:42,898 --> 00:15:47,702 where they came from, based on a sideways glance... 161 00:15:49,538 --> 00:15:52,508 Or that night, a little more. 162 00:16:12,293 --> 00:16:13,663 How's it going? 163 00:16:16,932 --> 00:16:18,500 All right. 164 00:16:21,602 --> 00:16:23,505 You from around here? 165 00:16:27,275 --> 00:16:29,508 Yeah. 166 00:16:29,510 --> 00:16:32,411 You? 167 00:16:32,413 --> 00:16:34,182 Not far. 168 00:16:47,763 --> 00:16:50,199 Your daddy a preacher? 169 00:16:51,866 --> 00:16:53,568 Yeah. 170 00:16:56,370 --> 00:16:58,305 Yeah. 171 00:16:58,307 --> 00:17:01,541 You got the head of a preacher. 172 00:17:01,543 --> 00:17:04,611 They way it curves wide. 173 00:17:04,613 --> 00:17:06,382 Hmm. 174 00:17:16,424 --> 00:17:18,461 The holy spirit... 175 00:17:21,296 --> 00:17:23,231 It left its mark on you. 176 00:17:25,467 --> 00:17:27,901 The eye of god... 177 00:17:27,903 --> 00:17:30,405 There. 178 00:17:32,740 --> 00:17:37,244 You use that sight, 179 00:17:37,246 --> 00:17:39,248 you'll find your way. 180 00:18:02,336 --> 00:18:04,606 Best get to it. 181 00:18:08,410 --> 00:18:12,011 I saw something there... 182 00:18:12,013 --> 00:18:13,848 A light. 183 00:18:15,817 --> 00:18:19,322 An idea that would later live and breathe... 184 00:18:21,355 --> 00:18:23,826 Forming like the crest of a breaking wave. 185 00:18:25,961 --> 00:18:28,998 A reflection of what floats inside. 186 00:18:37,306 --> 00:18:39,939 - Finally. - Hmm. 187 00:18:54,021 --> 00:18:57,393 - Easy there, tiger. - Mmm-Mmm. 188 00:19:00,996 --> 00:19:02,898 We gotta get ready soon. 189 00:19:04,833 --> 00:19:07,801 What are we gonna do? 190 00:19:07,803 --> 00:19:10,036 Pay attention... 191 00:19:10,038 --> 00:19:11,738 And we'll get paid. 192 00:19:15,344 --> 00:19:17,811 You know my cousin down in ocracoke. 193 00:19:17,813 --> 00:19:19,712 Yeah, he's lousy when it comes to drinking, 194 00:19:19,714 --> 00:19:23,016 but he sniffs out the hot spots. 195 00:19:30,459 --> 00:19:32,359 Told me about a little juke joint 196 00:19:32,361 --> 00:19:35,495 around the island he'd been frequenting, 197 00:19:35,497 --> 00:19:39,535 and what happened one night when they was all drunk as hell. 198 00:19:46,907 --> 00:19:51,643 And some serious smoothness showed up with a plan. 199 00:20:32,053 --> 00:20:35,121 Tax time, baby! Let's go! 200 00:20:35,123 --> 00:20:37,423 These three dudes come in with shotguns 201 00:20:37,425 --> 00:20:38,924 holding the place up. 202 00:20:38,926 --> 00:20:41,661 One took on a cash box, gettin' it all emptied out. 203 00:20:41,663 --> 00:20:43,630 The other two watched the crowd making sure 204 00:20:43,632 --> 00:20:47,633 some hillbilly don't play vigilante. 205 00:20:47,635 --> 00:20:50,839 Anything come up, they all get the hell out. 206 00:20:52,207 --> 00:20:54,073 And by the time anyone was sober enough 207 00:20:54,075 --> 00:20:56,776 to realize what the hell was happening, 208 00:20:56,778 --> 00:21:00,078 They was long gone. 209 00:21:00,080 --> 00:21:03,682 Turns out they've been hitting joints all over the coast, 210 00:21:03,684 --> 00:21:05,718 stealing drunk folks' money while they was too drunk 211 00:21:05,720 --> 00:21:07,653 to do anything about it. 212 00:21:07,655 --> 00:21:10,923 And those folks sure as hell won't call in the pokey. 213 00:21:10,925 --> 00:21:12,659 Hell, they'd bust up the stills 214 00:21:12,661 --> 00:21:14,460 and shut her down in two shakes. 215 00:21:14,462 --> 00:21:16,766 Wouldn't give a rat's ass past that. 216 00:21:21,736 --> 00:21:25,004 So, they just kept on moving, 217 00:21:25,006 --> 00:21:28,177 hiding in the banks, the crannies. 218 00:21:30,045 --> 00:21:35,248 All anybody knew was it was three black fellas, 219 00:21:35,250 --> 00:21:37,650 smart as hell, 220 00:21:37,652 --> 00:21:39,755 Quiet as a pack of church mice. 221 00:21:42,958 --> 00:21:44,724 Legends. 222 00:22:12,887 --> 00:22:16,055 - It smells like pussy. - Mm-Hmm. 223 00:22:18,259 --> 00:22:19,859 This shit's serious, man. 224 00:22:19,861 --> 00:22:21,864 What, you think I don't know that? 225 00:22:29,270 --> 00:22:30,839 Ain't gonna do jack shit. 226 00:22:35,609 --> 00:22:36,910 How much you think we'd get? 227 00:22:36,912 --> 00:22:38,881 Enough. 228 00:22:42,784 --> 00:22:47,786 My man. 229 00:22:47,788 --> 00:22:49,692 Uh, uh, uh, uh! 230 00:22:50,692 --> 00:22:52,126 What? 231 00:23:00,134 --> 00:23:03,068 What do you think? 232 00:23:03,070 --> 00:23:04,336 You look funny. 233 00:23:04,338 --> 00:23:06,608 Yeah? 234 00:23:08,242 --> 00:23:10,943 Well, huckleberry here is gonna save your ass. 235 00:23:10,945 --> 00:23:13,645 - Shit. - Shit, nothin'. 236 00:23:13,647 --> 00:23:16,751 Sick and tired of busting my ass to buy a six pack. 237 00:23:18,853 --> 00:23:20,256 About to change that shit. 238 00:23:29,263 --> 00:23:30,565 Be a man about it. 239 00:23:32,968 --> 00:23:37,202 Puff it out a little bit. 240 00:23:37,204 --> 00:23:40,174 - Especially you. - Hmm? 241 00:23:41,776 --> 00:23:44,643 That shit you write. 242 00:23:44,645 --> 00:23:46,179 Yeah, that's right. 243 00:23:46,181 --> 00:23:48,280 I see what you do. 244 00:23:48,282 --> 00:23:53,621 You don't wanna tell me, ain't no skin off my ass. 245 00:23:57,826 --> 00:24:02,728 Folks look at me, they look at my pops, 246 00:24:02,730 --> 00:24:05,632 and they figure that's all they ever gonna get, 247 00:24:05,634 --> 00:24:11,371 a punk-ass brawler. 248 00:24:11,373 --> 00:24:14,974 But you... 249 00:24:14,976 --> 00:24:16,779 You're different. 250 00:24:33,361 --> 00:24:35,164 Step it up, jack. 251 00:24:36,730 --> 00:24:38,067 Hmm? 252 00:24:52,113 --> 00:24:54,980 We weren't gonna hurt anyone. 253 00:24:54,982 --> 00:24:57,784 Gun wasn't even loaded. 254 00:24:57,786 --> 00:25:00,719 Courage was his weapon. 255 00:25:00,721 --> 00:25:02,657 Let's go. 256 00:25:38,259 --> 00:25:40,128 Perfect. 257 00:25:47,801 --> 00:25:50,772 I don't know. I don't know, man. 258 00:25:53,107 --> 00:25:56,109 Look, no second thoughts. Just get in there and do it. 259 00:25:56,111 --> 00:25:58,478 Two minutes from now we're gonna be on our way. 260 00:26:05,019 --> 00:26:06,422 Put 'em on. 261 00:26:35,250 --> 00:26:36,484 Don't move! 262 00:26:42,156 --> 00:26:43,391 Fill it! 263 00:26:45,226 --> 00:26:46,361 God damn it! 264 00:26:49,196 --> 00:26:51,132 Come on! 265 00:26:57,404 --> 00:27:00,139 All right, then. 266 00:27:00,141 --> 00:27:01,777 That's it. 267 00:27:12,487 --> 00:27:15,287 What the hell? 268 00:27:15,289 --> 00:27:18,124 I'm sorry. 269 00:27:39,213 --> 00:27:41,847 If anybody asks, 270 00:27:41,849 --> 00:27:44,952 the name's Leroy. 271 00:27:56,530 --> 00:27:58,866 Come on! Come on! Come on! 272 00:31:43,391 --> 00:31:45,594 That's your memory? 273 00:31:50,664 --> 00:31:52,134 And now? 274 00:31:57,137 --> 00:32:00,408 I know what it feels like to be depressed. 275 00:32:02,710 --> 00:32:07,345 Mm-Hmm, but you have something he probably didn't have. 276 00:32:07,347 --> 00:32:09,681 What's that? 277 00:32:09,683 --> 00:32:11,420 Your imagination. 278 00:32:24,164 --> 00:32:28,133 In response to this memory, a story came to me 279 00:32:28,135 --> 00:32:32,438 of a quiet man with unseen strength. 280 00:32:32,440 --> 00:32:35,908 His horn, his voice, 281 00:32:35,910 --> 00:32:40,478 like the song that came from me... 282 00:32:40,480 --> 00:32:42,748 Seeking a home, 283 00:32:42,750 --> 00:32:45,086 a place in this world. 284 00:32:52,259 --> 00:32:54,392 Holy, shit! 285 00:32:54,394 --> 00:32:56,828 Dude, there's like a thousand bucks back here! 286 00:32:56,830 --> 00:32:58,863 See, what did I tell you, huh? 287 00:32:58,865 --> 00:33:00,732 Maybe you ain't such a dumb-ass after all. 288 00:33:00,734 --> 00:33:02,535 Whoo! 289 00:33:02,537 --> 00:33:04,769 That was messed up when that guy pulled that gun. 290 00:33:04,771 --> 00:33:06,575 That freaked me out. 291 00:33:10,944 --> 00:33:13,414 You saw it happen, didn't ya? 292 00:33:16,183 --> 00:33:17,549 Look, man, you gotta speak up. 293 00:33:17,551 --> 00:33:20,355 All right, that could have been bad. 294 00:33:24,525 --> 00:33:26,725 Whoa-Ha-Ha-Ha-Ha! 295 00:33:39,240 --> 00:33:41,675 Good, he's here. 296 00:33:51,986 --> 00:33:53,651 Rusty! 297 00:33:53,653 --> 00:33:56,223 - This place is a dump. - A fuckin' rager. 298 00:33:57,258 --> 00:33:58,556 Rusty? 299 00:33:58,558 --> 00:34:01,427 - He's sleeping. - No shit. 300 00:34:03,396 --> 00:34:05,232 Oh, what's that smell? 301 00:34:07,401 --> 00:34:08,633 I think it's piss. 302 00:34:08,635 --> 00:34:11,873 Rust! Rusty! 303 00:34:15,309 --> 00:34:16,541 Is he alive? 304 00:34:18,945 --> 00:34:20,614 - Two. - Three. 305 00:34:22,516 --> 00:34:23,816 I got it. 306 00:34:23,818 --> 00:34:26,784 What up, buddy? 307 00:34:26,786 --> 00:34:29,857 Yeah, take a shower, you stink-ass! 308 00:34:32,693 --> 00:34:34,963 Who the hell are you guys? 309 00:34:39,500 --> 00:34:41,432 How the hell you been? 310 00:34:41,434 --> 00:34:43,434 Good. 311 00:34:43,436 --> 00:34:45,574 I'm good, you know. 312 00:34:47,440 --> 00:34:50,376 You packin'? 313 00:34:50,378 --> 00:34:53,412 Man, that better not be the only reason 314 00:34:53,414 --> 00:34:57,682 you come to see me. 315 00:34:57,684 --> 00:35:01,287 Of course, it ain't. I love me some Russel. 316 00:35:01,289 --> 00:35:04,289 Yeah, right. 317 00:35:04,291 --> 00:35:05,492 What you got? 318 00:35:11,998 --> 00:35:14,066 You'll like this. 319 00:35:14,068 --> 00:35:16,271 Good stuff? 320 00:35:17,070 --> 00:35:20,338 It's the two f's of "stuff". 321 00:35:20,340 --> 00:35:22,608 Get your feet off my couch. 322 00:35:22,610 --> 00:35:26,311 Hell, yeah! Look, it's over an ounce. 323 00:35:26,313 --> 00:35:29,615 Only 'cause your boy here is such a bad-ass. 324 00:35:29,617 --> 00:35:32,383 Usually, there's a ceiling on this shit. 325 00:35:32,385 --> 00:35:34,889 Ounce of that shit, too. 326 00:35:36,090 --> 00:35:37,956 Sure you got this kinda dough? 327 00:35:37,958 --> 00:35:40,829 Yeah, I've been working. 328 00:35:43,364 --> 00:35:45,930 Hey, do you still hang out with that chick? 329 00:35:45,932 --> 00:35:47,700 What's her name? 330 00:35:47,702 --> 00:35:49,501 - Lydia. - Yeah, that's it. 331 00:35:49,503 --> 00:35:51,637 You all still talk? 332 00:35:51,639 --> 00:35:54,572 - No, it's been a while. - Smart move, man. 333 00:35:54,574 --> 00:35:56,742 That chick... 334 00:35:56,744 --> 00:35:58,610 She got elephantitis and shit. 335 00:35:58,612 --> 00:36:02,613 - That's what I said. - Yeah? She ain't that bad. 336 00:36:02,615 --> 00:36:05,583 Her belly button's so big you could eat oatmeal out of it. 337 00:36:05,585 --> 00:36:08,586 And get your feet off my couch! Do I have to tell you twice? 338 00:36:08,588 --> 00:36:10,356 Do you want me to write it down for you? 339 00:36:10,358 --> 00:36:11,557 What about 'shrooms? You want some of those, too? 340 00:36:12,793 --> 00:36:13,995 Somebody get the telephone, please? 341 00:36:23,503 --> 00:36:24,639 Hey! 342 00:36:25,940 --> 00:36:27,706 You the brains behind this operation? 343 00:36:29,677 --> 00:36:32,144 Not hardly. 344 00:36:32,146 --> 00:36:34,512 You don't talk much, 345 00:36:34,514 --> 00:36:38,717 But, uh, who else would you rather ride with? 346 00:36:38,719 --> 00:36:41,686 - Whoo! - Hey, you watch your neck. 347 00:36:41,688 --> 00:36:43,856 All right? 348 00:36:43,858 --> 00:36:46,391 See you soon. 349 00:36:46,393 --> 00:36:48,962 Sooner than later. 350 00:36:54,934 --> 00:36:56,438 Whoo! 351 00:36:58,172 --> 00:37:00,671 Dumb-asses. 352 00:37:00,673 --> 00:37:03,941 Man, that guy's cool as hell. 353 00:37:03,943 --> 00:37:05,878 When's the last time you saw him? 354 00:37:05,880 --> 00:37:07,579 He's kinda laying low. 355 00:37:07,581 --> 00:37:08,783 How come? 356 00:37:10,717 --> 00:37:12,483 It was about a year ago, 357 00:37:12,485 --> 00:37:14,820 Rusty convinced me to go see some chick, to his beach. 358 00:37:14,822 --> 00:37:18,490 He was drunk as hell when he picked me up. 359 00:37:18,492 --> 00:37:22,126 And three hours later, we was both gone. 360 00:37:22,128 --> 00:37:24,429 Hey! Howdy. 361 00:37:24,431 --> 00:37:25,664 Hey, you know where... 362 00:37:25,666 --> 00:37:27,699 You know where "it'll do" is? 363 00:37:27,701 --> 00:37:30,568 Excuse me? 364 00:37:30,570 --> 00:37:33,671 "It'll do?" It's my girl's place. 365 00:37:33,673 --> 00:37:35,740 Son, I have no idea what you're talking about, 366 00:37:35,742 --> 00:37:37,809 but I suggest you move on. 367 00:37:37,811 --> 00:37:40,612 - Well, I suggest you... - Oh, great. 368 00:37:40,614 --> 00:37:42,514 - Thanks for nothin'. - Mm-Hmm. 369 00:37:42,516 --> 00:37:45,617 You gonna let her talk to you like that? 370 00:37:45,619 --> 00:37:48,088 You know what? No. 371 00:37:54,862 --> 00:37:57,563 Hey! 372 00:37:57,565 --> 00:38:00,865 That's right, see? 373 00:38:00,867 --> 00:38:03,534 I know you know this place. 374 00:38:03,536 --> 00:38:06,104 What place is that? 375 00:38:06,106 --> 00:38:09,744 My girl's house, you bitch. 376 00:38:16,784 --> 00:38:18,519 Hey, where's the acid? 377 00:38:23,791 --> 00:38:25,757 Watch it. 378 00:38:25,759 --> 00:38:27,059 Rusty had brought a sheet of acid 379 00:38:27,061 --> 00:38:28,726 to share with the girls. 380 00:38:28,728 --> 00:38:30,762 Now, he didn't know what to do with it, 381 00:38:30,764 --> 00:38:33,865 so he did what any clear thinking drunk would do. 382 00:38:33,867 --> 00:38:35,804 He shoved them up his ass. 383 00:38:44,110 --> 00:38:46,480 Enjoy yourself. 384 00:38:50,751 --> 00:38:52,684 They never found the hits, 385 00:38:52,686 --> 00:38:56,822 so they just left him alone to sleep it off, 386 00:38:56,824 --> 00:38:58,789 but he wasn't doin' much sleepin'. 387 00:39:36,563 --> 00:39:38,500 What you writin'? 388 00:39:41,302 --> 00:39:43,834 - Nothin'. - Hmm? What you writin' over here? 389 00:39:43,836 --> 00:39:47,773 What is this? You gonna let me grab it like that, huh? 390 00:39:49,175 --> 00:39:51,545 - Come on! - I don't know. 391 00:39:53,646 --> 00:39:57,150 Just stuff. 392 00:40:06,092 --> 00:40:09,029 That's fascinating. 393 00:40:13,833 --> 00:40:15,235 Stuff. 394 00:40:43,630 --> 00:40:44,695 Ooh! Hey! 395 00:40:44,697 --> 00:40:45,831 Hey, baby! 396 00:40:45,833 --> 00:40:47,132 Your mama let you date? 397 00:40:47,134 --> 00:40:48,700 Why don't you get bit, asswipe? 398 00:40:52,639 --> 00:40:55,072 Now that's a piece of ass. 399 00:40:55,074 --> 00:40:57,708 Whoa, dude, who let shamu out? 400 00:40:57,710 --> 00:41:01,278 Yeah, maybe she'd let you bend her like a suitcase, huh? 401 00:41:01,280 --> 00:41:05,820 Doubtful. Doubtful. 402 00:41:52,833 --> 00:41:54,068 Yeah, I'm good. 403 00:42:18,224 --> 00:42:20,758 A-wastin' time. 404 00:42:20,760 --> 00:42:22,429 Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Whatever. 405 00:42:43,150 --> 00:42:46,150 Look, I just got a single. This is good. 406 00:42:46,152 --> 00:42:49,354 I mean, yeah, that's a good improvement. 407 00:42:49,356 --> 00:42:52,126 - I just... - Oh, yeah. 408 00:42:55,795 --> 00:42:59,498 He saw me looking. 409 00:42:59,500 --> 00:43:02,266 Way to go. 410 00:43:02,268 --> 00:43:05,202 How's it going? 411 00:43:05,204 --> 00:43:06,804 What? 412 00:43:06,806 --> 00:43:08,108 Nothing. 413 00:43:09,510 --> 00:43:12,010 I'm Alan. 414 00:43:12,012 --> 00:43:13,545 What? 415 00:43:13,547 --> 00:43:15,981 The name's Alan. 416 00:43:15,983 --> 00:43:19,383 Hey, Alan. 417 00:43:19,385 --> 00:43:21,286 What's so funny? 418 00:43:21,288 --> 00:43:24,555 Nothing much, Alan. 419 00:43:24,557 --> 00:43:29,329 - I'm Rebecca. - I'm Asia. 420 00:43:51,885 --> 00:43:55,954 My place of peace was always the water, 421 00:43:55,956 --> 00:44:00,124 where the loud buzz of fear and doubt washed away, 422 00:44:00,126 --> 00:44:02,561 and all that remained was me, 423 00:44:02,563 --> 00:44:04,465 Pure as a simple story. 424 00:44:14,541 --> 00:44:17,943 His horn was a gift, beats of grace 425 00:44:17,945 --> 00:44:20,347 that sprung forth like a fountain... 426 00:44:22,382 --> 00:44:25,286 Soaring over a saltwater creek... 427 00:44:26,887 --> 00:44:30,091 Made closer to the ocean with each stride. 428 00:44:36,463 --> 00:44:39,930 But when the last note drifted down and then away, 429 00:44:39,932 --> 00:44:44,101 he was left with the same dry sorrow 430 00:44:44,103 --> 00:44:46,938 where fear lurked, 431 00:44:46,940 --> 00:44:49,376 And touch was cold as midnight. 432 00:44:53,280 --> 00:44:57,883 In those small hours, he'd look up into a black sea 433 00:44:57,885 --> 00:45:01,286 dotted with stars like lanterns on a foggy shore 434 00:45:01,288 --> 00:45:04,958 lit for the lost fisherman. 435 00:45:06,927 --> 00:45:10,028 Fix me. 436 00:45:29,016 --> 00:45:32,083 Yeah, yeah, yeah, I do. Dude, there's no shaking the habit. 437 00:45:32,085 --> 00:45:33,318 Whatever. Oh, are you... 438 00:45:33,320 --> 00:45:35,287 - Cute. - Oh, are you kidding me? 439 00:45:35,289 --> 00:45:37,389 - Whoa. - What? 440 00:45:37,391 --> 00:45:38,657 Watch it, punk. 441 00:45:38,659 --> 00:45:40,157 Sorry. 442 00:45:40,159 --> 00:45:41,458 Yeah, you're damn straight you're sorry. 443 00:45:41,460 --> 00:45:43,330 I oughta beat your ass. 444 00:45:45,164 --> 00:45:47,000 Little faggot. 445 00:46:48,394 --> 00:46:53,164 Look at ya, a couple of sorry sons of bitches. 446 00:46:55,202 --> 00:46:56,971 Dude, get outta my face. 447 00:46:58,204 --> 00:46:59,940 Let's go. 448 00:47:01,708 --> 00:47:03,508 Where we going? 449 00:47:03,510 --> 00:47:05,079 It's gonna rain. 450 00:47:07,414 --> 00:47:09,713 It's gonna rain. 451 00:47:09,715 --> 00:47:12,385 Fuckin' weather man over there. 452 00:47:21,628 --> 00:47:23,293 Keepin' dry? 453 00:47:23,295 --> 00:47:25,131 My whistle sure as hell is. 454 00:47:26,333 --> 00:47:30,135 What can I get y'all? 455 00:47:30,137 --> 00:47:32,470 Three shots of bourbon. 456 00:47:38,177 --> 00:47:39,746 Y'all get yourself one, too. 457 00:47:43,150 --> 00:47:45,286 I can do that. 458 00:48:00,099 --> 00:48:01,398 To the barkeep. 459 00:48:01,400 --> 00:48:04,237 Whoo! Let's do this! 460 00:48:06,739 --> 00:48:09,807 - Y'all set? - Think so. 461 00:48:09,809 --> 00:48:11,545 Keep 'em coming. 462 00:49:14,840 --> 00:49:16,441 Oh, hey... 463 00:49:16,443 --> 00:49:18,242 Where the hell are you going? 464 00:49:18,244 --> 00:49:19,811 I gotta get outta here. 465 00:49:19,813 --> 00:49:24,684 Uh-Uh, we, uh... we have to finish this whiskey. 466 00:49:28,855 --> 00:49:30,155 Uh-Uh. 467 00:49:30,157 --> 00:49:31,688 I can't drink that. 468 00:49:31,690 --> 00:49:34,291 Yeah, you can. 469 00:49:34,293 --> 00:49:36,797 I don't want it. 470 00:49:38,164 --> 00:49:40,768 Aw, Joseph, quit being a pussy. 471 00:49:50,809 --> 00:49:52,846 You're an asshole. 472 00:49:56,750 --> 00:49:59,284 I'm the asshole, hmm? 473 00:49:59,286 --> 00:50:00,885 That's rich. 474 00:50:00,887 --> 00:50:03,588 You're a strange little bitch never talks to nobody. 475 00:50:03,590 --> 00:50:05,490 I never seen you with a chick, 476 00:50:05,492 --> 00:50:07,858 never seen you with anybody. 477 00:50:07,860 --> 00:50:10,628 You're just lucky Howard and I let you hang out with us. 478 00:50:10,630 --> 00:50:12,532 Fuck you! 479 00:50:18,771 --> 00:50:21,307 I'm nothing. 480 00:50:24,878 --> 00:50:27,314 You done? 481 00:50:38,891 --> 00:50:41,494 Was that so bad, huh? 482 00:52:48,355 --> 00:52:50,755 Where did you come from? 483 00:52:50,757 --> 00:52:53,360 Same place you goin'. 484 00:53:22,822 --> 00:53:25,956 This is all a gift, 485 00:53:25,958 --> 00:53:29,793 a guide to your truth, 486 00:53:29,795 --> 00:53:32,398 as real as this here sand and sea. 487 00:53:34,032 --> 00:53:35,402 What is? 488 00:53:38,538 --> 00:53:40,838 My story. 489 00:53:40,840 --> 00:53:42,643 The one you seek. 490 00:56:22,969 --> 00:56:27,604 Hey, man. You all right? 491 00:56:27,606 --> 00:56:29,606 Yeah. 492 00:56:29,608 --> 00:56:31,511 I'm fine. 493 00:56:32,679 --> 00:56:34,882 Where's J? 494 00:56:36,081 --> 00:56:38,048 Huh. 495 00:56:38,050 --> 00:56:39,719 No idea. 496 00:56:44,623 --> 00:56:46,025 Hey, man, you wanna get outta here? 497 00:56:48,360 --> 00:56:49,793 We need some women. 498 00:56:49,795 --> 00:56:52,829 Good luck. You look like shit. 499 00:56:54,300 --> 00:56:58,071 I still get more ass than an ashtray. 500 00:57:00,873 --> 00:57:02,909 Yeah, right. 501 00:57:32,639 --> 00:57:34,307 Hey. 502 00:57:36,242 --> 00:57:37,742 Hey. 503 00:57:42,981 --> 00:57:46,052 - How's it goin'? - Good. 504 00:57:47,887 --> 00:57:49,086 How are you? 505 00:57:54,893 --> 00:57:57,263 I'm fine. 506 00:58:15,782 --> 00:58:17,380 Stay clear. 507 00:58:17,382 --> 00:58:20,086 She swooned for the moon. 508 00:58:23,222 --> 00:58:25,125 Always be here. 509 00:58:31,230 --> 00:58:33,367 What was that? 510 00:58:37,402 --> 00:58:39,739 Just something I wrote. 511 00:58:45,478 --> 00:58:48,648 "Swooned for the moon". 512 00:59:01,927 --> 00:59:03,429 You're sweet. 513 00:59:38,764 --> 00:59:41,097 There she is. 514 00:59:41,099 --> 00:59:44,837 Oh, shit. She's smoking. 515 00:59:47,507 --> 00:59:50,407 Let's go talk to her. 516 00:59:50,409 --> 00:59:51,912 All right. 517 00:59:54,447 --> 00:59:56,012 Hey. 518 00:59:56,014 --> 00:59:57,447 Hey. 519 00:59:57,449 --> 00:59:59,215 Where you been? 520 00:59:59,217 --> 01:00:00,450 Just hangin'. 521 01:00:00,452 --> 01:00:02,952 Y'all should go with us. 522 01:00:02,954 --> 01:00:04,554 Where? 523 01:00:04,556 --> 01:00:06,259 We'll figure it out. 524 01:00:09,228 --> 01:00:10,260 What's up, chief? 525 01:00:10,262 --> 01:00:13,329 Why don't you tell me? 526 01:00:13,331 --> 01:00:15,365 You coming? 527 01:00:15,367 --> 01:00:16,934 Oh, where you going? 528 01:00:16,936 --> 01:00:18,469 That's really none of your business. 529 01:00:18,471 --> 01:00:20,503 I'm about to make it some of my business. 530 01:00:20,505 --> 01:00:22,072 That's a good one. 531 01:00:22,074 --> 01:00:24,941 You picked that up at playschool, hmm? 532 01:00:24,943 --> 01:00:26,811 No, we got no place for you here. 533 01:00:26,813 --> 01:00:28,479 Why don't you get your ass back home? 534 01:00:28,481 --> 01:00:30,347 And why don't you walk your ass back 535 01:00:30,349 --> 01:00:32,215 with your little cronies before you find yourself 536 01:00:32,217 --> 01:00:33,516 in a situation you can't handle? 537 01:00:33,518 --> 01:00:36,153 - Is that right? - Yeah, that's right. 538 01:00:36,155 --> 01:00:38,892 You keep pushing, I'm gonna lay your ass out. 539 01:00:43,862 --> 01:00:45,197 Whatever, man. 540 01:00:51,369 --> 01:00:53,239 You coming? 541 01:01:00,880 --> 01:01:03,282 A deep silence overtook the plain... 542 01:01:04,884 --> 01:01:09,286 Filling his heart with comfort. 543 01:01:09,288 --> 01:01:12,889 He was home, 544 01:01:12,891 --> 01:01:15,261 protected by the great oaks that lorded over him... 545 01:01:16,929 --> 01:01:20,097 Entrusted with a flock to pasture, 546 01:01:20,099 --> 01:01:24,168 planters and craftsmen trekking to hear him 547 01:01:24,170 --> 01:01:27,106 speak and sing each sunlit sunday morning. 548 01:01:29,242 --> 01:01:33,943 But darker waters lay yet another test. 549 01:01:33,945 --> 01:01:36,914 The youngest son of a humble maid, 550 01:01:36,916 --> 01:01:42,619 caught in the purse line of his daddy's shrimp boat. 551 01:01:42,621 --> 01:01:45,257 What world would allow such pain? 552 01:01:46,525 --> 01:01:48,258 Let's go. 553 01:01:48,260 --> 01:01:50,329 Okay. 554 01:01:56,369 --> 01:01:59,005 Hey, bitches! Wait up! 555 01:02:08,447 --> 01:02:12,316 What dark heart of god lay shadow to this story? 556 01:02:12,318 --> 01:02:15,255 I think we're all probably feeling the same thing. 557 01:02:19,090 --> 01:02:24,931 And there's never gonna be any comfort... 558 01:02:29,001 --> 01:02:32,670 And a love out there from god, 559 01:02:32,672 --> 01:02:36,106 but nowhere else... 560 01:02:36,108 --> 01:02:38,545 To lighten the load. 561 01:02:43,648 --> 01:02:46,383 When we... 562 01:02:46,385 --> 01:02:51,324 We stop and be still... 563 01:02:54,226 --> 01:02:57,961 And we know that ain't quite right. 564 01:03:03,034 --> 01:03:06,135 See, all this... 565 01:03:06,137 --> 01:03:10,441 This is born... 566 01:03:10,443 --> 01:03:16,115 From some strange, deep-Seated love... 567 01:03:18,184 --> 01:03:23,586 Some gentle hand that... that knows! 568 01:03:23,588 --> 01:03:27,494 And wants what's best for us! 569 01:03:30,596 --> 01:03:36,300 When fear and doubt comes down, 570 01:03:36,302 --> 01:03:38,338 we shouldn't be running from it. 571 01:03:41,306 --> 01:03:46,645 We shouldn't cower to that raging beast we call the devil. 572 01:03:47,679 --> 01:03:49,713 We should be beating it back, 573 01:03:49,715 --> 01:03:51,715 destroying it, 574 01:03:51,717 --> 01:03:55,452 with the one weapon we have: 575 01:03:55,454 --> 01:03:57,958 Faith. 576 01:04:01,226 --> 01:04:02,394 Faith. 577 01:04:06,565 --> 01:04:12,202 Without fear, ain't no courage. 578 01:04:12,204 --> 01:04:15,342 Without pain, no strength! 579 01:04:16,509 --> 01:04:19,342 Without doubts, no trust. 580 01:04:19,344 --> 01:04:22,713 We are all put on a path to do better 581 01:04:22,715 --> 01:04:27,351 in the wake of all that's not. 582 01:04:27,353 --> 01:04:29,318 Oh, shit. 583 01:04:29,320 --> 01:04:32,688 Will and weakness, 584 01:04:32,690 --> 01:04:35,995 and joy and pain! 585 01:04:37,329 --> 01:04:39,762 Carrying strength... 586 01:04:39,764 --> 01:04:44,603 To dry mouths and parched lips... 587 01:04:46,371 --> 01:04:48,375 Like water in a desert. 588 01:04:50,141 --> 01:04:53,443 And like the brightest stars in the darkest night, 589 01:04:53,445 --> 01:04:55,445 some good will come from this! 590 01:04:55,447 --> 01:04:57,415 From all this! 591 01:05:01,487 --> 01:05:05,224 Now, go on, boy. Go on and be free. 592 01:05:06,525 --> 01:05:08,494 Be free. 593 01:06:25,336 --> 01:06:29,375 Damn straight. Yeah, look at her. 594 01:06:31,277 --> 01:06:33,278 So what now? 595 01:06:40,753 --> 01:06:42,555 Where you going? 596 01:06:44,590 --> 01:06:46,459 Home. 597 01:06:53,565 --> 01:06:55,501 Guess we're leaving. 598 01:07:09,280 --> 01:07:13,849 The road is long, with a lot of bends, 599 01:07:13,851 --> 01:07:17,854 mapped in a way we're not meant to see, 600 01:07:17,856 --> 01:07:22,358 shifts that change everything we know. 601 01:07:22,360 --> 01:07:24,360 I could be strong. 602 01:07:24,362 --> 01:07:27,331 I wasn't useless. 603 01:07:27,333 --> 01:07:30,769 It was better when I wasn't alone. 604 01:07:33,871 --> 01:07:37,210 Joseph. Joseph. 605 01:07:38,811 --> 01:07:40,646 Joseph! 606 01:07:53,592 --> 01:07:55,461 Where are we? 607 01:07:57,829 --> 01:08:01,266 Joseph's staying at his brother's. 608 01:08:03,434 --> 01:08:06,436 Whatever. 609 01:08:06,438 --> 01:08:08,474 Just get me home. 610 01:08:19,350 --> 01:08:21,820 I'm sorry. 611 01:08:29,728 --> 01:08:31,631 I'm sorry. 612 01:08:48,947 --> 01:08:50,850 You be good. 613 01:08:53,484 --> 01:08:55,621 I will. 614 01:09:17,842 --> 01:09:19,979 I'll see you later, brother. 615 01:10:15,868 --> 01:10:17,437 When did you sneak in? 616 01:10:20,605 --> 01:10:24,540 Just a little while ago. I hope that's okay. 617 01:10:24,542 --> 01:10:28,847 Oh, of course. Everything all right? 618 01:10:35,854 --> 01:10:38,458 Yeah. 619 01:10:53,872 --> 01:10:56,376 Can I show you something? 620 01:11:20,198 --> 01:11:24,870 I released it for the first time, 621 01:11:26,637 --> 01:11:29,906 my own meager song 622 01:11:29,908 --> 01:11:33,809 Of my own simple journey. 623 01:11:33,811 --> 01:11:38,013 A march to courage, 624 01:11:38,015 --> 01:11:40,452 warriors at my side. 625 01:11:44,789 --> 01:11:46,822 Howard started working on one of the horse farms 626 01:11:46,824 --> 01:11:48,191 on Johns Island. 627 01:11:48,193 --> 01:11:51,561 He met a sweet girl there, 628 01:11:51,563 --> 01:11:55,165 a free spirit who liked him. 629 01:11:55,167 --> 01:11:57,099 They settled together at her family's old house 630 01:11:57,101 --> 01:11:58,934 on the river 631 01:11:58,936 --> 01:12:00,970 Where she paints old bottles and scraps of driftwood 632 01:12:00,972 --> 01:12:03,475 and sells them at a local gallery. 633 01:12:06,011 --> 01:12:09,513 Most nights they smoke a J before dinner, 634 01:12:09,515 --> 01:12:10,847 and after a few beers, 635 01:12:10,849 --> 01:12:14,086 skinny dip off the river shore. 636 01:12:18,923 --> 01:12:21,191 Alan became a rigger on one of the cargo ships 637 01:12:21,193 --> 01:12:23,162 we used to watch float by. 638 01:12:24,896 --> 01:12:28,098 About eight months ago, he'd go from a deck 50 feet up 639 01:12:28,100 --> 01:12:30,799 to save a fallen sailor, 640 01:12:30,801 --> 01:12:32,902 then held tight the unconscious body 641 01:12:32,904 --> 01:12:35,638 while the waves beat them both. 642 01:12:35,640 --> 01:12:38,174 The man lived. 643 01:12:38,176 --> 01:12:41,177 Alan was made third mate. 644 01:12:41,179 --> 01:12:43,746 He bought a small cabin on one of the marsh rivers 645 01:12:43,748 --> 01:12:46,583 that used to bind us, 646 01:12:46,585 --> 01:12:49,852 returning there every time they hit port, 647 01:12:49,854 --> 01:12:53,592 floating with the rise and fall of tidal creeks. 648 01:12:59,997 --> 01:13:04,567 I imagined he might watch me with pride from that perch, 649 01:13:04,569 --> 01:13:06,803 because gone are the days of the sort of fear 650 01:13:06,805 --> 01:13:09,606 that cut me at the knees. 651 01:13:09,608 --> 01:13:13,309 It began with that bold kiss under a comfort moon 652 01:13:13,311 --> 01:13:16,879 from the first person I shared my writing with. 653 01:13:16,881 --> 01:13:18,781 And despite all my doubt, 654 01:13:18,783 --> 01:13:21,985 those words didn't strike me down. 655 01:13:21,987 --> 01:13:26,755 They would return to me tenfold, 656 01:13:26,757 --> 01:13:30,595 with moments of connection that brought back that warmth... 657 01:13:32,163 --> 01:13:35,365 That born again feeling 658 01:13:35,367 --> 01:13:37,737 of the sun on my face. 659 01:13:50,916 --> 01:13:55,186 It's rough, needs some work. 660 01:13:58,023 --> 01:13:59,992 What do you think? 661 01:14:03,795 --> 01:14:05,797 It's who I am. 662 01:14:07,798 --> 01:14:10,733 The experiences that changed me. 663 01:14:10,735 --> 01:14:14,273 Well, you'll have plenty of those. 664 01:14:17,009 --> 01:14:21,980 Those are blessings that came with a voice. 665 01:14:23,948 --> 01:14:25,784 Now use it. 666 01:14:31,856 --> 01:14:34,089 - He's got nothin'. - No, man, he's great. 667 01:14:34,091 --> 01:14:35,191 Hey, Joseph! 668 01:14:35,193 --> 01:14:36,692 Hey, wait up. 669 01:14:36,694 --> 01:14:40,964 Hey, was all that real? 670 01:14:40,966 --> 01:14:43,002 Real to me. 671 01:14:44,368 --> 01:14:47,403 It's a good answer. 672 01:14:47,405 --> 01:14:49,171 Hey, let's go grab a beer. 673 01:14:49,173 --> 01:14:51,141 Can't. 674 01:14:51,143 --> 01:14:52,409 Gotta meet someone. 675 01:19:03,028 --> 01:19:06,262 So what you got to say, edwin and darius?