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I've gotta fix some things,

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so I can't do it here.

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- So I'm going.
- To where?

4
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Alaska.

5
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You're writing about
the messy and complicated stuff

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that people will be okay with.

7
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- So...
- So you're lying to everyone.

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I'm actually working
really hard on all my issues.

9
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Or you're working
really hard to avoid

10
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dealing with the...
that actually freaks you out.

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[keys clicking]

12
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How come you refuse
to see Matt for who he was?

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Like when he fell
for the teacher from his job

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- two years ago.
- What?

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Did you tell me that
so I could just hate him

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as much as you do?

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No, so you can see him
for who he really was.

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I am never going to hate him.

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[solemn music]

20
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[yells] [thud]

21
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- We can't do this.
- So it's over?

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Yeah.

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Leigh?

24
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Oh, I missed you so much. Oh.

25
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[laughs]

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- Hi.
- [laughs]

27
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- Oh, oh.
- Welcome back.

28
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- Oh, I missed you.
- Ooh.

29
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[laughs]

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Aw, let me look at you.

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Aw.
Oh, God, you're so beautiful.

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Aw. Oh.

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Why is there a hole in my wall?

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Do you wanna...

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[upbeat music]

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- Wow, that's just a lot.
- You have a girlfriend.

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I... um, I'm not really sure
what I have right now.

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- And you have a... um...
- a Danny?

39
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No, I definitely don't have a...

40
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I mean, I haven't even spoken
to him since the...

41
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Why didn't you tell me?

42
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Well, how are we supposed
to put all of that in an email?

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- No, no, I get it.
- I get it.

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There were... yeah.

45
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There were things I couldn't
put in an email either.

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Well, you're here now,
so tell us.

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Okay, um...

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there were, like,
800 people in this town,

49
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and I knew just about everybody.

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I made so many friends.

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I have never had
so many friends.

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[laughs]

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I watched the sunrise
every morning,

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and I was so still

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that all the animals
came right up to me.

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And at night, I stared
into the Milky Way,

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and I could see right
into the heart of the universe.

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And it was...

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everything made sense.

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I loved who I was there.

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[breathless laugh]

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We are so happy you're home.

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Yeah.

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[laughs]

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[insects chirping]

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[doorbell rings]

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- Hey.
- Hey.

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I was, um, glad to get
your text.

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Yeah, well, I had to see you

70
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before you flew
halfway around the world.

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[laughs]

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I got you something.

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What is this?

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Wait, a gift for ruining
our relationship?

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You shouldn't have.

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A lady sold it
to our store today.

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Uh, is it a fanny pack?

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- It's a money belt.
- It's to put your valuables in.

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So some asshole on a motorcycle

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doesn't zoom by and rip
your purse off your shoulder.

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- Uh, what?
- It's a thing!

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It happens in Saigon.

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I read about it
on a message board.

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It's...

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- And...
- And then... no.

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You gotta... yeah. It's a thing.

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[small laugh]

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There you go.

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[laughs]

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Um, I look I'm pregnant
with a FedEx package.

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You look like you're not
gonna get your stuff stolen,

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and that is
the coolest look of all.

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- Oh.
- [laughs]

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How much do you know
about what you're going into?

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Um, my birth mom's name
is on my birth certificate.

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There's a lot of women
in Saigon with that name,

97
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but I've been emailing
with my adoption agency,

98
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and they're gonna try
and help me.

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Well... when you get back,
uh...

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Oh, I should talk to you
about that.

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Okay.

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I didn't buy a return flight.

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I don't know how long
this is gonna take.

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You can get by on 20 bucks
a day in Saigon, so...

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I've got time.

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- Uh...
- [clears throat]

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Well, uh...

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when you do come back,
come and find me.

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[sniffles]

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[laughs] Hey...

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- See?
- Tuck it under your shirt.

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Okay, okay, I will.

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- I will.
- All right.

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Um, bye.

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Bye.

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I thought the couch was there
and the desk was over there.

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Yeah, Hunter
moved all my furniture.

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Like, I don't even know
how feng shui works,

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- and I know Hunter sucks at it.
- [laughs]

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I'ma put these over here.
Is that okay?

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Yeah, over there is... is okay.

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Okay.

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Thanks for helping me.

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- Well, of course.
- You got one hand.

125
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Can't do this all by yourself.

126
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Yeah, and I don't have
a million friends right now.

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I'm not surprised,
given your behavior.

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- Yeah, no, I get it.
- It's... it's all my fault.

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Another thing
you're right about,

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racking those points up.

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I'm not trying to be right
about your poor life choices.

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No, I'm not... I'm... I'm saying
I get it.

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- But do you get it?
- They're your choices.

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Own 'em.

135
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Mom, I don't know
how everything got so bad.

136
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I was doing all right
for a while.

137
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Matt was gone, but I thought
I was handling it.

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When I broke it,
I didn't feel it at first.

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I mean, I could feel
that something had happened,

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but the pain didn't kick in
for a while.

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Danny, listen to me.

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[emotionally] You are the only
one I have left.

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So you... something's gotta
change.

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[somber music]

145
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I'm sorry, Mom.

146
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- I'm sorry.
- I know.

147
00:08:03,483 --> 00:08:09,489
[somber music]

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[feet shuffling]

149
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Hey, you're awake.

150
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You're awake.

151
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Yeah, well,
you know I never sleep.

152
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Me neither anymore, Jules too.

153
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We're terrible at sleeping
in this family.

154
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Mm.

155
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Why are you up?

156
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Oh, I don't know.

157
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My room in Alaska was so small
that my room here

158
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feels too big. [small laugh]

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Why are you awake?

160
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I'm still trying to write
this stupid essay

161
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where I tell everyone the truth,

162
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except I don't even know
what that is anymore.

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I don't know the truth
about my husband

164
00:09:00,374 --> 00:09:02,375
or my marriage
or this other woman

165
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he was in love with...
anything.

166
00:09:05,879 --> 00:09:08,840
I just have a thousand
questions and zero answers.

167
00:09:08,841 --> 00:09:11,050
So what am I supposed to do,

168
00:09:11,051 --> 00:09:14,888
just, like,
scream into the void?

169
00:09:16,014 --> 00:09:18,599
You know I live
to solve problems,

170
00:09:18,600 --> 00:09:22,144
but I can't solve this for you.

171
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You're not even gonna, like,

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give me a Ouija board
or a tarot card or something?

173
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I would never bring
a Ouija board into this house.

174
00:09:32,030 --> 00:09:35,366
That's like placing a collect
call directly to Hell.

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You do not know what kind
of malevolent spirit's

176
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gonna pick up the phone.

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00:09:39,204 --> 00:09:40,956
- Are you joking?
- No.

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Also, a tarot card by itself
is useless.

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You need the whole deck.

180
00:09:48,046 --> 00:09:51,132
- Are you joking now?
- Yes.

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[laughs]

182
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You're not even gonna try
and solve my problems?

183
00:10:00,559 --> 00:10:03,227
You're an adult,

184
00:10:03,228 --> 00:10:07,316
and I can't micromanage
your life anymore.

185
00:10:09,026 --> 00:10:10,569
Wow.

186
00:10:12,487 --> 00:10:14,698
Okay.

187
00:10:18,577 --> 00:10:21,996
But you are still my mom,

188
00:10:21,997 --> 00:10:24,708
and I still really need you
right now.

189
00:10:26,126 --> 00:10:28,795
I just need to know
what happened.

190
00:10:29,838 --> 00:10:33,591
Like, everywhere I go,
there is a wall,

191
00:10:33,592 --> 00:10:37,930
and I just feel so trapped.

192
00:10:41,125 --> 00:10:44,727
You know, I felt trapped
for a really long time,

193
00:10:44,728 --> 00:10:48,732
and that's just not a place
you can stay.

194
00:11:05,749 --> 00:11:08,709
[children's voices
chattering in distance]

195
00:11:08,710 --> 00:11:10,754
[door hinges creak]

196
00:11:12,881 --> 00:11:14,882
Nina, hi.

197
00:11:14,883 --> 00:11:17,426
- Leigh.
- Hi.

198
00:11:17,427 --> 00:11:19,720
Um, the front office
said that you might

199
00:11:19,721 --> 00:11:22,014
still be in your classroom.

200
00:11:22,015 --> 00:11:25,518
- Yep, still here.
- What brings you by?

201
00:11:25,519 --> 00:11:29,647
My husband's brother told me

202
00:11:29,648 --> 00:11:32,359
that my husband fell for you.

203
00:11:34,236 --> 00:11:35,778
What?

204
00:11:35,779 --> 00:11:39,449
What happened
between you and Matt?

205
00:11:40,993 --> 00:11:42,702
Nothing happened.

206
00:11:42,703 --> 00:11:44,745
Well, it's the way
you say "nothing."

207
00:11:44,746 --> 00:11:47,498
You're not... saying it
like you're confused.

208
00:11:47,499 --> 00:11:50,459
You're saying it like you know
exactly what I'm talking about.

209
00:11:50,460 --> 00:11:52,588
So what am I talking about?

210
00:11:53,755 --> 00:11:55,173
Nothing.

211
00:11:55,174 --> 00:11:58,134
I just... I don't think
that's true.

212
00:11:58,135 --> 00:11:59,469
[strained laugh]

213
00:12:02,514 --> 00:12:05,725
Please tell me.

214
00:12:05,726 --> 00:12:07,810
He was my friend.

215
00:12:07,811 --> 00:12:10,688
If he was just your friend,
I wouldn't be here right now.

216
00:12:10,689 --> 00:12:12,398
He was my best friend.

217
00:12:12,399 --> 00:12:15,777
So, what does... what does
that mean?

218
00:12:18,864 --> 00:12:23,034
Everyone sees me the same way.

219
00:12:23,035 --> 00:12:25,661
I'm the person
that organizes birthdays

220
00:12:25,662 --> 00:12:28,414
and gets people
to volunteer for stuff.

221
00:12:28,415 --> 00:12:32,168
Matt didn't see me that way.

222
00:12:32,169 --> 00:12:36,339
He made me feel...

223
00:12:36,340 --> 00:12:38,841
I'm trying to think
of a better word than special,

224
00:12:38,842 --> 00:12:41,302
but that's it.

225
00:12:41,303 --> 00:12:43,930
He made me feel special.

226
00:12:43,931 --> 00:12:48,351
He made me feel like
I was so interesting

227
00:12:48,352 --> 00:12:51,437
and important...

228
00:12:51,438 --> 00:12:55,275
i-in this way that I hadn't
really felt before.

229
00:12:57,569 --> 00:13:00,864
How did he f-feel about you?

230
00:13:02,574 --> 00:13:05,243
I don't know.

231
00:13:05,244 --> 00:13:08,538
He never told me.

232
00:13:08,539 --> 00:13:10,706
But that's how he made me feel,

233
00:13:10,707 --> 00:13:14,460
and now, all I feel is

234
00:13:14,461 --> 00:13:16,797
how gone he is.

235
00:13:20,092 --> 00:13:23,719
When you were talking
to the kids about Matt,

236
00:13:23,720 --> 00:13:28,475
about there being this hole
where he was...

237
00:13:30,102 --> 00:13:32,938
I feel it too, all the time.

238
00:13:35,983 --> 00:13:38,943
- What are you doing?
- I didn't mean to...

239
00:13:38,944 --> 00:13:42,572
You know we're not friends.

240
00:13:42,573 --> 00:13:46,242
You worked with Matt.

241
00:13:46,243 --> 00:13:49,120
I was his wife.

242
00:13:49,121 --> 00:13:51,247
I'm sorry.

243
00:13:51,248 --> 00:13:54,333
You think that we're going
through the same thing?

244
00:13:54,334 --> 00:13:58,504
You think that you could
possibly, for one second,

245
00:13:58,505 --> 00:14:01,424
understand what has
happened to me?

246
00:14:01,425 --> 00:14:03,384
I really am sorry.

247
00:14:03,385 --> 00:14:05,762
I don't need an apology.

248
00:14:11,810 --> 00:14:12,853
[door thuds closes]

249
00:14:14,021 --> 00:14:16,480
[dance music thumps]

250
00:14:16,481 --> 00:14:18,232
[background chatter]

251
00:14:18,233 --> 00:14:19,901
Wow.

252
00:14:19,902 --> 00:14:21,986
Um, hey.

253
00:14:21,987 --> 00:14:25,198
Is... that a good wow?

254
00:14:25,199 --> 00:14:28,242
Um... uh....

255
00:14:28,243 --> 00:14:32,830
[music thumping]

256
00:14:32,831 --> 00:14:34,458
Yes.

257
00:14:36,001 --> 00:14:38,754
Okay, good.

258
00:14:41,089 --> 00:14:43,633
Do you want the studio?

259
00:14:43,634 --> 00:14:46,427
[chuckles] What?

260
00:14:46,428 --> 00:14:48,721
Well, I mean,
look at what you've done.

261
00:14:48,722 --> 00:14:51,599
I'm mean, this is your calling.

262
00:14:51,600 --> 00:14:54,061
If you want this place,
it's yours.

263
00:14:56,188 --> 00:14:59,524
Uh... I...

264
00:14:59,525 --> 00:15:01,734
I... I wanna say "yes."

265
00:15:01,735 --> 00:15:03,778
So, say "yes."

266
00:15:03,779 --> 00:15:06,697
- I can't.
- I wanna be home.

267
00:15:06,698 --> 00:15:08,366
I wanna run the studio.

268
00:15:08,367 --> 00:15:11,369
I wanna be in a relationship
with my girlfriend.

269
00:15:11,370 --> 00:15:12,954
I want all that.

270
00:15:12,955 --> 00:15:16,666
Honey, it's... it's okay
to not be ready to go.

271
00:15:16,667 --> 00:15:20,753
[small laugh] I am ready.

272
00:15:20,754 --> 00:15:23,256
Well, you were on crutches
two weeks ago.

273
00:15:23,257 --> 00:15:25,132
And now I'm not.

274
00:15:25,133 --> 00:15:27,134
I know, but, you know,

275
00:15:27,135 --> 00:15:28,636
you have a lot going on
right now,

276
00:15:28,637 --> 00:15:31,097
and you don't have to go
this week.

277
00:15:31,098 --> 00:15:32,723
[laughs]

278
00:15:32,724 --> 00:15:35,726
Yeah, I do.

279
00:15:35,727 --> 00:15:38,563
To be honest, I don't
really wanna go on this trip,

280
00:15:38,564 --> 00:15:41,316
but it doesn't matter
what I want... I have to go.

281
00:15:48,490 --> 00:15:51,075
Then you go.

282
00:15:51,076 --> 00:15:54,745
- Really?
- Yeah.

283
00:15:54,746 --> 00:15:58,417
And this place is...[laughs]
amazing.

284
00:16:00,586 --> 00:16:03,672
And you are amazing.

285
00:16:05,090 --> 00:16:06,550
[laughs]

286
00:16:09,803 --> 00:16:12,096
Come on in.

287
00:16:12,097 --> 00:16:14,141
Thanks.

288
00:16:19,271 --> 00:16:21,272
Am I supposed to lie down?

289
00:16:21,273 --> 00:16:23,274
Some people do.

290
00:16:23,275 --> 00:16:26,736
Is it like a test
to get on your back

291
00:16:26,737 --> 00:16:29,405
like you're talking to Freud
or sit like a normal person?

292
00:16:29,406 --> 00:16:31,157
[laughs]
It's not a test.

293
00:16:31,158 --> 00:16:33,034
[laughs]

294
00:16:33,035 --> 00:16:35,412
Ugh.

295
00:16:36,663 --> 00:16:38,748
My brother was always trying
to get me to go to therapy

296
00:16:38,749 --> 00:16:42,376
to work out my issues
with our parents.

297
00:16:42,377 --> 00:16:44,671
So it's ironic, you know.

298
00:16:46,673 --> 00:16:51,552
Like, I'm finally here
to work out my... with him.

299
00:16:51,553 --> 00:16:55,389
Am I using ironic
in the right way?

300
00:16:55,390 --> 00:16:57,266
I heard somewhere
that all the examples

301
00:16:57,267 --> 00:16:59,769
in that Alanis Morissette song
are wrong.

302
00:16:59,770 --> 00:17:01,687
So now, every time I say it,
I think that I use it wrong

303
00:17:01,688 --> 00:17:02,897
like she did.

304
00:17:02,898 --> 00:17:04,482
[tense chuckling] I'm sorry.

305
00:17:04,483 --> 00:17:07,069
It think it's right enough.

306
00:17:08,403 --> 00:17:10,947
Cool.

307
00:17:10,948 --> 00:17:13,699
Okay.

308
00:17:13,700 --> 00:17:18,246
So, Danny, tell me...

309
00:17:18,247 --> 00:17:20,957
what would you like
to talk about?

310
00:17:20,958 --> 00:17:23,293
Um...

311
00:17:33,220 --> 00:17:38,015
I think if I had been
a different person, um...

312
00:17:38,016 --> 00:17:44,063
[melancholy music]

313
00:17:44,064 --> 00:17:46,984
My brother would still be alive.

314
00:17:50,904 --> 00:17:53,239
I mean, who does she
think she is?

315
00:17:53,240 --> 00:17:56,492
That was my relationship
with my husband.

316
00:17:56,493 --> 00:17:58,536
That's what we had.

317
00:17:58,537 --> 00:18:00,329
I mean, look.

318
00:18:00,330 --> 00:18:02,081
- You know I've been there.
- Mm.

319
00:18:02,082 --> 00:18:04,375
No, you've kind of been there.

320
00:18:04,376 --> 00:18:05,877
Ryan fell for this dude,

321
00:18:05,878 --> 00:18:07,086
and then you guys
worked through it

322
00:18:07,087 --> 00:18:08,504
and then you got married.

323
00:18:08,505 --> 00:18:10,924
Matt fell for this woman,
and then he died.

324
00:18:12,551 --> 00:18:15,553
Okay, I've kind of been there.

325
00:18:15,554 --> 00:18:16,762
Would you rather be talking
to someone

326
00:18:16,763 --> 00:18:19,224
who hasn't been there at all?

327
00:18:20,976 --> 00:18:23,019
I just hate her.

328
00:18:23,020 --> 00:18:26,147
I hate him. I... I hate myself.

329
00:18:26,148 --> 00:18:30,359
I hate everyone.
I hate myself so much!

330
00:18:30,360 --> 00:18:31,903
Stop.

331
00:18:31,904 --> 00:18:34,113
You're a good person
who is doing her best.

332
00:18:34,114 --> 00:18:36,324
I don't think
I'm a good person anymore.

333
00:18:36,325 --> 00:18:39,994
I'm selfish. I'm a liar.

334
00:18:39,995 --> 00:18:42,872
- I hurt people.
- Oh, everybody hurts people.

335
00:18:42,873 --> 00:18:45,333
No one hurts people
the way I hurt Danny.

336
00:18:45,334 --> 00:18:49,754
He tried to stay away from me,
and I wouldn't let him.

337
00:18:49,755 --> 00:18:52,215
I forced myself into his life,

338
00:18:52,216 --> 00:18:55,385
because I needed him to love me.

339
00:19:01,725 --> 00:19:03,643
Oh, I'm a monster.

340
00:19:03,644 --> 00:19:04,977
Hey.

341
00:19:04,978 --> 00:19:07,939
You're not a monster.

342
00:19:07,940 --> 00:19:09,566
You just made a mistake.

343
00:19:12,528 --> 00:19:16,614
I think when Matt died,

344
00:19:16,615 --> 00:19:20,785
he took a piece of me,
the best part...

345
00:19:20,786 --> 00:19:23,454
maybe the only good part...

346
00:19:23,455 --> 00:19:25,916
and I don't know
how to get it back.

347
00:19:28,043 --> 00:19:30,127
I-I don't recognize this person
I've become.

348
00:19:30,128 --> 00:19:34,258
I just know that I hate her.

349
00:19:51,066 --> 00:19:53,150
How was your day?

350
00:19:53,151 --> 00:19:56,320
- You know how my day was.
- You saw me for half of it.

351
00:19:56,321 --> 00:19:58,573
Okay, so tell me about
the other half

352
00:19:58,574 --> 00:20:00,366
I didn't see you for.

353
00:20:00,367 --> 00:20:03,953
Uh... you know,
it's Wednesday.

354
00:20:03,954 --> 00:20:05,621
Mm-hmm.

355
00:20:05,622 --> 00:20:07,498
Kids still don't care
about President Harding

356
00:20:07,499 --> 00:20:09,083
or the Teapot Dome Scandal

357
00:20:09,084 --> 00:20:12,461
or anything else
that happened in 1923.

358
00:20:12,462 --> 00:20:14,589
I get it,
'cause I don't care either.

359
00:20:14,590 --> 00:20:16,299
[laughs]

360
00:20:16,300 --> 00:20:18,926
You think it's hard
getting them to read a chapter

361
00:20:18,927 --> 00:20:21,429
of "The American Pageant"
textbook.

362
00:20:21,430 --> 00:20:23,264
Try "Moby Dick."

363
00:20:23,265 --> 00:20:24,974
- I mean...
- Try it.

364
00:20:24,975 --> 00:20:27,727
To be fair, if you want
people to read your book,

365
00:20:27,728 --> 00:20:30,479
maybe don't spend 100 pages
on whale blubber?

366
00:20:30,480 --> 00:20:32,982
It's, like, 80, but okay.

367
00:20:32,983 --> 00:20:34,400
Okay.

368
00:20:34,401 --> 00:20:36,235
[glass clink] [both laugh]

369
00:20:36,236 --> 00:20:38,529
I can't believe
you actually bought salsa.

370
00:20:38,530 --> 00:20:41,240
I need to teach you
how to make it.

371
00:20:41,241 --> 00:20:43,951
Tomatoes and a food processor.
It takes, like, five minutes.

372
00:20:43,952 --> 00:20:46,078
I like the store-bought tastes.

373
00:20:46,079 --> 00:20:48,539
[silent scream] [laughter]

374
00:20:48,540 --> 00:20:51,834
[ominous music, muffled voices]

375
00:20:51,835 --> 00:20:53,545
[hyperventilating]

376
00:20:55,506 --> 00:20:57,256
I'm still here.

377
00:20:57,257 --> 00:20:59,133
[eerie music]

378
00:20:59,134 --> 00:21:01,093
I'm still here.

379
00:21:01,094 --> 00:21:05,432
[panting]

380
00:21:27,287 --> 00:21:29,331
You okay?

381
00:21:30,374 --> 00:21:31,874
I don't know.

382
00:21:31,875 --> 00:21:33,793
What's going on?

383
00:21:33,794 --> 00:21:36,420
- This is your thing.
- You tell her.

384
00:21:36,421 --> 00:21:40,091
- No, this is not my thing.
- I'm doing this for all of us.

385
00:21:40,092 --> 00:21:42,885
What are you doing?

386
00:21:42,886 --> 00:21:45,055
I'm selling the house.

387
00:21:46,515 --> 00:21:48,641
What?

388
00:21:48,642 --> 00:21:50,309
Well, I ever since I got home,

389
00:21:50,310 --> 00:21:53,688
I just... I still feel so trapped.

390
00:21:53,689 --> 00:21:55,898
This house
just feels like a cage.

391
00:21:55,899 --> 00:21:58,192
I-I need to get rid of it.

392
00:21:58,193 --> 00:22:00,903
I need to get free.

393
00:22:00,904 --> 00:22:03,364
But if you get rid of the house,

394
00:22:03,365 --> 00:22:04,824
where are you gonna live?

395
00:22:04,825 --> 00:22:06,284
I don't know.

396
00:22:06,285 --> 00:22:10,037
Maybe I'll build
a 300-foot tiny home.

397
00:22:10,038 --> 00:22:14,208
Maybe I'll get an Airbnb
and go and live in France

398
00:22:14,209 --> 00:22:16,627
for the summer
and come back in the Fall.

399
00:22:16,628 --> 00:22:18,171
And maybe I won't.

400
00:22:18,172 --> 00:22:20,131
Look, Mom,
do you want us to tell you

401
00:22:20,132 --> 00:22:22,008
if we think you're having
another breakdown?

402
00:22:22,009 --> 00:22:24,677
No, no, because I'm not
having a breakdown.

403
00:22:24,678 --> 00:22:28,932
I'm having a breakthrough,
and it's because of you two.

404
00:22:30,309 --> 00:22:32,393
- Us?
- Yes, yes.

405
00:22:32,394 --> 00:22:34,604
Look, I left, and you both...

406
00:22:34,605 --> 00:22:36,898
you have taken chances
and done things

407
00:22:36,899 --> 00:22:39,567
that I never would have
imagined that you could do.

408
00:22:39,568 --> 00:22:42,278
I'm so proud of you,
and I'm more than proud.

409
00:22:42,279 --> 00:22:44,780
I'm inspired by you.

410
00:22:44,781 --> 00:22:46,407
I just thought that
this would be a decision

411
00:22:46,408 --> 00:22:49,368
that we would make as a family.

412
00:22:49,369 --> 00:22:51,370
But you made this call,

413
00:22:51,371 --> 00:22:54,874
so it's you over there
and us over here.

414
00:22:54,875 --> 00:22:57,627
It's my house,

415
00:22:57,628 --> 00:23:00,588
and I am still the parent.

416
00:23:00,589 --> 00:23:04,009
So I get to decide.

417
00:23:07,387 --> 00:23:11,390
Look, I... I built a nest,

418
00:23:11,391 --> 00:23:13,936
and I never
really let you leave.

419
00:23:15,687 --> 00:23:18,814
I was too afraid of being alone.

420
00:23:18,815 --> 00:23:21,817
So I never let you grow
all the way up.

421
00:23:21,818 --> 00:23:23,736
So I'm getting rid of the nest.

422
00:23:23,737 --> 00:23:27,950
It... it's the right thing...
for all of us.

423
00:23:28,992 --> 00:23:31,786
Really.

424
00:23:31,787 --> 00:23:36,082
[teapot whistling]

425
00:23:36,083 --> 00:23:41,004
[laughing]

426
00:23:47,177 --> 00:23:48,970
Hey, what's, uh, funny?

427
00:23:48,971 --> 00:23:53,224
[laughing] Oh, my God...

428
00:23:53,225 --> 00:23:57,436
everything. [laughing]

429
00:23:57,437 --> 00:23:59,188
Just everything, seriously.

430
00:23:59,189 --> 00:24:03,025
Like, what crazy thing
is gonna happen next?

431
00:24:03,026 --> 00:24:06,612
A tsunami, an earthquake,

432
00:24:06,613 --> 00:24:08,531
an actual apocalypse?

433
00:24:08,532 --> 00:24:13,327
Because between Mom
and Danny and Matt,

434
00:24:13,328 --> 00:24:16,831
I just feel like
I am waiting around

435
00:24:16,832 --> 00:24:19,709
for the next bad thing
to happen to me.

436
00:24:19,710 --> 00:24:22,379
[sniffles]

437
00:24:23,797 --> 00:24:26,257
No, you know what I'm gonna do?

438
00:24:26,258 --> 00:24:29,552
I am going to get out of here.

439
00:24:29,553 --> 00:24:31,762
I'm gonna go with you to LAX.

440
00:24:31,763 --> 00:24:34,182
I am getting a ticket

441
00:24:34,183 --> 00:24:36,142
to the next flight
that has a seat,

442
00:24:36,143 --> 00:24:38,811
'cause I don't know
who I am anymore.

443
00:24:38,812 --> 00:24:41,480
So I will just
go somewhere else.

444
00:24:41,481 --> 00:24:43,316
I'll go be someone else.

445
00:24:43,317 --> 00:24:44,942
I will pull a Mom.
I'll pull a you.

446
00:24:44,943 --> 00:24:47,320
I'll pull a both of you.
[laughs]

447
00:24:47,321 --> 00:24:51,449
Uh, hey, are you also
having a breakdown?

448
00:24:51,450 --> 00:24:54,035
Wha... breakdown, breakthrough.

449
00:24:54,036 --> 00:24:55,328
If we're playing by Mom's rules,

450
00:24:55,329 --> 00:24:56,621
they're basically
the same thing.

451
00:24:56,622 --> 00:24:59,499
[both laugh]

452
00:25:03,253 --> 00:25:06,840
You know, you don't have
to go someplace alone.

453
00:25:07,966 --> 00:25:11,219
You could come to LAX with me

454
00:25:11,220 --> 00:25:13,764
and get on my flight.

455
00:25:17,059 --> 00:25:21,312
- Jules, no, this is...
- your trip.

456
00:25:21,313 --> 00:25:24,649
Well, hey, you need to
get out of here,

457
00:25:24,650 --> 00:25:28,069
and I need to not fall apart
over there.

458
00:25:28,070 --> 00:25:30,489
What if we helped each other?

459
00:25:31,782 --> 00:25:34,451
What if we make it our trip?

460
00:25:37,329 --> 00:25:40,331
Oh, let me hug you both
until your Lyft comes.

461
00:25:40,332 --> 00:25:42,333
Oh. [sniffling]

462
00:25:42,334 --> 00:25:46,128
- That's her.
- Okay.

463
00:25:46,129 --> 00:25:47,880
Hey.

464
00:25:47,881 --> 00:25:49,758
Good luck.

465
00:25:51,051 --> 00:25:53,094
- Are you Meghan?
- Leigh?

466
00:25:53,095 --> 00:25:54,846
Yep, it's us.

467
00:25:54,847 --> 00:25:57,682
- Bye.
- [smooches]

468
00:25:57,683 --> 00:25:59,726
- Love you.
- I love you.

469
00:26:05,732 --> 00:26:07,775
Bye.

470
00:26:07,776 --> 00:26:10,278
- Bye-bye.
- [laughs]

471
00:26:10,279 --> 00:26:13,906
- You guys are going to LAX.
- Terminal?

472
00:26:13,907 --> 00:26:15,199
Tom Bradley.

473
00:26:15,200 --> 00:26:17,493
- Music?
- Sure.

474
00:26:17,494 --> 00:26:19,036
Yeah.

475
00:26:19,037 --> 00:26:25,794
[bright music]

476
00:26:27,629 --> 00:26:32,008
- Hey, what's our ETA?
- Um, hour and two minutes.

477
00:26:32,009 --> 00:26:36,137
Okay, so if we get there
a little after 10:00...

478
00:26:36,138 --> 00:26:37,430
Stop the car.

479
00:26:37,431 --> 00:26:39,390
- Stop the car.
- What is it?

480
00:26:39,391 --> 00:26:41,517
Stop the car!

481
00:26:41,518 --> 00:26:47,524
[bright music echoing]

482
00:26:51,612 --> 00:26:55,990
[panting]

483
00:26:55,991 --> 00:26:57,867
[muffled, echoing]
I'm still here.

484
00:26:57,868 --> 00:26:59,535
[hyperventilating, whimpering]

485
00:26:59,536 --> 00:27:01,204
[echoing] I'm still here.

486
00:27:01,205 --> 00:27:03,998
[sobbing]

487
00:27:03,999 --> 00:27:07,877
[heavy, dark music]

488
00:27:07,878 --> 00:27:10,213
Honey, honey... oh.

489
00:27:10,214 --> 00:27:12,340
- [sobbing]
- Oh.

490
00:27:12,341 --> 00:27:14,050
Baby, what's going on?

491
00:27:14,051 --> 00:27:16,135
- [gasping]
- What's going on?

492
00:27:16,136 --> 00:27:18,596
Matt!

493
00:27:18,597 --> 00:27:21,182
What about Matt?

494
00:27:21,183 --> 00:27:22,308
[gasping]

495
00:27:22,309 --> 00:27:25,686
He... he... he...

496
00:27:25,687 --> 00:27:27,730
he won't...

497
00:27:27,731 --> 00:27:30,734
[laughs and sobs]

498
00:27:31,860 --> 00:27:35,404
He... he won't leave me.

499
00:27:35,405 --> 00:27:38,992
- Oh.
- Oh, honey.

500
00:27:41,203 --> 00:27:44,331
[gasping]

501
00:27:50,045 --> 00:27:56,051
[indie music]

502
00:28:34,339 --> 00:28:35,757
[sea birds calling]