1 00:00:01,293 --> 00:00:05,922 Drew is gonna publish another one of my essays. 2 00:00:05,923 --> 00:00:10,426 It's about a dream I had about Matt. 3 00:00:10,427 --> 00:00:12,136 I've been dreaming about Matt, too, 4 00:00:12,137 --> 00:00:13,930 and not good dreams. 5 00:00:13,931 --> 00:00:15,515 No one knows what you're going through more than me. 6 00:00:15,516 --> 00:00:17,225 We're not going through the same thing, Leigh. 7 00:00:17,226 --> 00:00:18,518 You see Matt differently than I do. 8 00:00:18,519 --> 00:00:20,186 How do you see him? 9 00:00:20,187 --> 00:00:21,854 Not as the Matt that made everyone feel loved 10 00:00:21,855 --> 00:00:23,105 and cared for, that's for sure. 11 00:00:23,106 --> 00:00:26,442 - I met someone. - That's great. 12 00:00:26,443 --> 00:00:29,654 What's happening with us feels really right. 13 00:00:29,655 --> 00:00:30,821 You're using me to get to Matt. 14 00:00:30,822 --> 00:00:32,990 You're so angry at him. 15 00:00:32,991 --> 00:00:36,202 What does screwing your brother's widow do for you? 16 00:00:36,203 --> 00:00:39,205 [dramatic music] 17 00:00:39,206 --> 00:00:41,165 [tires squealing] Stop the car. 18 00:00:41,166 --> 00:00:43,668 Matt! 19 00:00:43,669 --> 00:00:45,379 [truck horn honking] 20 00:00:54,721 --> 00:00:55,931 [gasping] 21 00:01:04,106 --> 00:01:06,191 [gasps] 22 00:01:18,662 --> 00:01:19,872 [grunts] 23 00:01:21,665 --> 00:01:23,208 What time is it? 24 00:01:25,127 --> 00:01:26,378 Where are you going? 25 00:01:28,255 --> 00:01:30,382 There's a full moon, and I can't sleep. 26 00:01:31,175 --> 00:01:32,967 - Gonna surf. - Mm. 27 00:01:32,968 --> 00:01:35,845 - You want to come? - Mm-mm. I'm tired. 28 00:01:35,846 --> 00:01:37,847 - Ask me the next full moon. - I won't be here. 29 00:01:37,848 --> 00:01:39,265 I have to give this place up. 30 00:01:39,266 --> 00:01:41,601 Running out of savings. 31 00:01:41,602 --> 00:01:42,977 All right. 32 00:01:42,978 --> 00:01:45,646 Is... is that why you can't sleep? 33 00:01:45,647 --> 00:01:47,523 No. 34 00:01:47,524 --> 00:01:49,859 I got an interview with that headhunter tomorrow. 35 00:01:49,860 --> 00:01:51,569 You're gonna be great. 36 00:01:51,570 --> 00:01:53,821 Thanks. 37 00:01:53,822 --> 00:01:56,408 Yeah, it's just weird going back to real life. 38 00:01:58,076 --> 00:02:00,161 - Sure you don't want to come? - Mm-hmm. 39 00:02:00,162 --> 00:02:01,495 Yeah, I have to get up early. 40 00:02:01,496 --> 00:02:04,999 I'm gonna meet Becca for coffee. 41 00:02:05,000 --> 00:02:06,293 Okay. 42 00:02:08,337 --> 00:02:10,214 - I'll see you in the morning. - Mm. 43 00:02:15,511 --> 00:02:17,929 - Stay safe. - Mm-hmm. 44 00:02:17,930 --> 00:02:20,349 Tell all the midnight surfers hi for me. 45 00:02:24,353 --> 00:02:26,145 [lock clicks] 46 00:02:26,146 --> 00:02:32,152 [upbeat music] 47 00:02:39,576 --> 00:02:41,410 It looks so good. 48 00:02:41,411 --> 00:02:43,120 - It's not even done yet. - Just wait. 49 00:02:43,121 --> 00:02:45,206 Oh, look at you, business lady. 50 00:02:45,207 --> 00:02:46,999 Kicking ass and taking names. 51 00:02:47,000 --> 00:02:49,544 Kicking is easier when you have two functional knees. 52 00:02:49,545 --> 00:02:51,087 Mm. 53 00:02:51,088 --> 00:02:53,631 Is that your idea, too? 54 00:02:53,632 --> 00:02:56,635 I'm fostering community. 55 00:02:58,804 --> 00:03:00,681 [exhales] Well... 56 00:03:02,099 --> 00:03:03,892 - Ooh. - Mm. 57 00:03:09,147 --> 00:03:10,398 Yeah. 58 00:03:10,399 --> 00:03:11,649 [laughs] 59 00:03:11,650 --> 00:03:12,900 It's supposed to be challenging, 60 00:03:12,901 --> 00:03:14,193 so I'm just gonna take that off. 61 00:03:14,194 --> 00:03:16,237 I'm sorry, do you know how expensive it is 62 00:03:16,238 --> 00:03:17,363 to get in these days? 63 00:03:17,364 --> 00:03:20,700 - [laughs] That's true. - Yeah. 64 00:03:20,701 --> 00:03:22,910 - Where's yours? - It's in my head. 65 00:03:22,911 --> 00:03:24,871 Install filtered water dispenser, 66 00:03:24,872 --> 00:03:27,582 buy bookkeeping software... That's a todo list. 67 00:03:27,583 --> 00:03:29,834 Okay, thanks for the feedback. 68 00:03:29,835 --> 00:03:31,210 [chuckles] 69 00:03:31,211 --> 00:03:33,796 Um... 70 00:03:33,797 --> 00:03:37,383 Here. Check this out. 71 00:03:37,384 --> 00:03:39,761 It's our summer calendar. 72 00:03:44,224 --> 00:03:49,145 Okay, it's 45 minutes of bodyweight exercises. 73 00:03:49,146 --> 00:03:52,899 I have more muscle now than I did before I busted my knee. 74 00:03:52,900 --> 00:03:55,443 You kick my ass in the best way. 75 00:03:55,444 --> 00:03:57,987 - You'd slay in that slot. - It's okay. 76 00:03:57,988 --> 00:04:00,489 I like chilling at the consignment shop. 77 00:04:00,490 --> 00:04:03,784 I'm in this mellow groove, you know? 78 00:04:03,785 --> 00:04:05,537 Yeah, no, I get it. 79 00:04:06,747 --> 00:04:09,332 Um, give it some thought, though. 80 00:04:09,333 --> 00:04:11,375 You'd be a rock star here. 81 00:04:11,376 --> 00:04:14,045 How about you be the rock star, 82 00:04:14,046 --> 00:04:16,631 and I will happily be your biggest fan? 83 00:04:16,632 --> 00:04:18,382 Aww. 84 00:04:18,383 --> 00:04:20,134 - Okay, I like that. - Okay. 85 00:04:20,135 --> 00:04:21,135 [laughs] 86 00:04:21,136 --> 00:04:27,142 [somber music] 87 00:04:56,755 --> 00:04:58,047 I read your essays. 88 00:04:58,048 --> 00:05:00,132 You know, you got a lot going on. 89 00:05:00,133 --> 00:05:02,802 - [laughs] - Your... 90 00:05:02,803 --> 00:05:06,389 all-night walk and that crazy casino trip. 91 00:05:06,390 --> 00:05:07,849 You're living your life right now. 92 00:05:07,850 --> 00:05:09,643 - It's... it's a good thing. - [chuckles] 93 00:05:10,894 --> 00:05:12,354 I just... 94 00:05:14,439 --> 00:05:17,108 Want to get to the place you're at. 95 00:05:17,109 --> 00:05:19,694 You got to tell me how you're doing it. 96 00:05:19,695 --> 00:05:21,946 Well, I started seeing someone. 97 00:05:21,947 --> 00:05:23,823 He's helping. 98 00:05:23,824 --> 00:05:27,660 - Like a... like a therapist or... - Mm-mm. 99 00:05:27,661 --> 00:05:30,079 - Oh, God, of course. Right. - [chuckles] 100 00:05:30,080 --> 00:05:31,540 For how long? 101 00:05:32,708 --> 00:05:34,501 Like about a month? 102 00:05:35,544 --> 00:05:40,339 I, uh... I did the walk with him, and the casino. 103 00:05:40,340 --> 00:05:42,216 Ah. 104 00:05:42,217 --> 00:05:45,094 I... it sounded like you were doing those things by yourself, 105 00:05:45,095 --> 00:05:46,304 the way you wrote about them. 106 00:05:46,305 --> 00:05:49,015 - No, he was there. - [chuckles] 107 00:05:49,016 --> 00:05:50,893 Well, where'd you meet him? 108 00:05:53,979 --> 00:05:55,647 It's... 109 00:05:56,899 --> 00:06:00,068 Uh, it's Matt's brother, actually. 110 00:06:02,446 --> 00:06:04,405 Danny? 111 00:06:04,406 --> 00:06:07,116 Yeah, I... 112 00:06:07,117 --> 00:06:10,787 I hadn't been happy for a... a really long time, and... 113 00:06:12,539 --> 00:06:15,834 I mean, he... he makes me happy. 114 00:06:19,254 --> 00:06:21,923 I just thought that you of all people would get it 115 00:06:21,924 --> 00:06:26,052 'cause, you know, everything in my life is messy 116 00:06:26,053 --> 00:06:29,430 and complicated, so of course the one thing that... 117 00:06:29,431 --> 00:06:33,851 that makes me happy is also messy and complicated. 118 00:06:33,852 --> 00:06:37,438 I... I get that, but you're not writing about that one thing. 119 00:06:37,439 --> 00:06:40,107 You're... you're writing about the messy and complicated stuff 120 00:06:40,108 --> 00:06:43,611 that people will be okay with and won't judge you for. 121 00:06:43,612 --> 00:06:46,364 You know, I... 122 00:06:46,365 --> 00:06:51,369 I'm actually not required to tell everyone on the Internet 123 00:06:51,370 --> 00:06:53,162 who I'm having sex with. 124 00:06:53,163 --> 00:06:55,623 No, but, Leigh, uh, 125 00:06:55,624 --> 00:06:58,334 all those people commenting on your essays 126 00:06:58,335 --> 00:07:00,044 think you're, like, the perfect widow. 127 00:07:00,045 --> 00:07:01,671 Well, I'm definitely not perfect. 128 00:07:01,672 --> 00:07:03,589 But people think you are. 129 00:07:03,590 --> 00:07:06,592 It's like on Instagram, 130 00:07:06,593 --> 00:07:08,177 where people's photos look perfect 131 00:07:08,178 --> 00:07:09,679 because they put a filter on it 132 00:07:09,680 --> 00:07:11,681 or they crop things out of frame. 133 00:07:11,682 --> 00:07:14,684 You've just cropped out this huge part of your life. 134 00:07:14,685 --> 00:07:17,645 - So... - So you're lying to everyone. 135 00:07:17,646 --> 00:07:20,898 I'm not a liar. 136 00:07:20,899 --> 00:07:22,526 But you're lying. 137 00:07:26,280 --> 00:07:27,823 I'm sorry. 138 00:07:30,367 --> 00:07:31,659 Maybe I would feel better 139 00:07:31,660 --> 00:07:33,954 if I was sleeping with my dead husband's sister. 140 00:07:36,081 --> 00:07:38,583 Except she's an asexual corporate attorney 141 00:07:38,584 --> 00:07:40,752 based out of Toronto, so... 142 00:07:44,840 --> 00:07:51,847 [solemn music] 143 00:07:57,060 --> 00:07:59,687 [exhales sharply] 144 00:07:59,688 --> 00:08:02,024 I saw my reflection in the door. 145 00:08:03,942 --> 00:08:07,029 I'm wearing the same rig I wore to both your funerals. 146 00:08:09,615 --> 00:08:12,159 You got me running around town in a damn death suit. 147 00:08:15,204 --> 00:08:17,163 I just want to sleep. 148 00:08:17,164 --> 00:08:19,750 But you won't leave me alone. 149 00:08:25,047 --> 00:08:29,050 Get out of my head, Matt. 150 00:08:29,051 --> 00:08:31,595 Get out of my head. 151 00:08:59,122 --> 00:09:01,207 Leigh, if you don't get off your phone, 152 00:09:01,208 --> 00:09:02,917 I'm going to come and take it from you. 153 00:09:02,918 --> 00:09:04,961 I'm just reading all the essays 154 00:09:04,962 --> 00:09:07,797 I've written this last month. 155 00:09:07,798 --> 00:09:09,465 I mean, I thought I was being completely honest, 156 00:09:09,466 --> 00:09:12,218 but now all I see are the lies. 157 00:09:12,219 --> 00:09:13,636 You were being honest. 158 00:09:13,637 --> 00:09:14,929 They're 500-word essays. 159 00:09:14,930 --> 00:09:16,180 You can't put everything in them. 160 00:09:16,181 --> 00:09:18,182 Yeah, and there's truth in there, 161 00:09:18,183 --> 00:09:20,726 like the casino essay where you had your existential awakening. 162 00:09:20,727 --> 00:09:22,061 I mean, it can't get realer than that. 163 00:09:22,062 --> 00:09:23,437 But would you feel differently 164 00:09:23,438 --> 00:09:25,231 if you knew that fell on the heels 165 00:09:25,232 --> 00:09:27,901 of a full night of sex with my dead husband's brother? 166 00:09:29,361 --> 00:09:32,572 [laughing] 167 00:09:32,573 --> 00:09:36,450 I mean, this year, it felt like almost everything 168 00:09:36,451 --> 00:09:39,203 was taken from me, 169 00:09:39,204 --> 00:09:42,790 but no matter how bad things got, 170 00:09:42,791 --> 00:09:44,750 at least I knew I was being honest. 171 00:09:44,751 --> 00:09:48,462 That was the one thing I knew about myself. 172 00:09:48,463 --> 00:09:50,048 [door opening] 173 00:09:53,177 --> 00:09:54,428 Hey. 174 00:09:55,846 --> 00:09:57,139 Hey. 175 00:09:58,473 --> 00:10:00,725 How was the headhunter? 176 00:10:00,726 --> 00:10:03,436 I decided not to go. 177 00:10:03,437 --> 00:10:04,854 Why? 178 00:10:04,855 --> 00:10:06,564 I just wanted to take a walk. 179 00:10:06,565 --> 00:10:09,025 You walked here from Venice? 180 00:10:09,026 --> 00:10:10,568 Yep. 181 00:10:10,569 --> 00:10:12,737 How long were you walking? 182 00:10:12,738 --> 00:10:15,114 Ten hours, give or take. 183 00:10:15,115 --> 00:10:16,699 That's a long walk. 184 00:10:16,700 --> 00:10:19,452 Yeah, sometimes you need a long walk. 185 00:10:19,453 --> 00:10:22,205 This one knows. 186 00:10:22,206 --> 00:10:23,956 So you just walked? 187 00:10:23,957 --> 00:10:27,960 No, I, uh, had lunch in Culver City. 188 00:10:27,961 --> 00:10:30,254 Second lunch downtown. 189 00:10:30,255 --> 00:10:32,924 I visited the Underground Museum on Washington. 190 00:10:32,925 --> 00:10:36,385 Strange to see the city all slowed down like that. 191 00:10:36,386 --> 00:10:38,263 Nobody walks in LA, so... 192 00:10:39,765 --> 00:10:42,016 Yeah, I'll go to the headhunter on Friday. 193 00:10:42,017 --> 00:10:43,601 I'm gonna go shower. 194 00:10:43,602 --> 00:10:45,228 You okay? 195 00:10:45,229 --> 00:10:46,563 Just beat. 196 00:10:47,814 --> 00:10:49,650 - See you upstairs? - Mm-hmm. 197 00:11:02,454 --> 00:11:04,748 Whoo, I feel like a new man. 198 00:11:09,711 --> 00:11:13,923 Hey, sorry for not being social earlier. 199 00:11:13,924 --> 00:11:15,425 It's okay. 200 00:11:17,427 --> 00:11:19,971 Is, um... 201 00:11:19,972 --> 00:11:22,266 now a good time to talk about stuff? 202 00:11:23,976 --> 00:11:26,060 What kind of stuff? 203 00:11:26,061 --> 00:11:29,647 Just stuff that's going on with you. 204 00:11:29,648 --> 00:11:31,357 Nothing's going on. 205 00:11:31,358 --> 00:11:33,025 Okay. 206 00:11:33,026 --> 00:11:34,527 But if it were, you know that you can talk to me 207 00:11:34,528 --> 00:11:36,487 about it, right? 208 00:11:36,488 --> 00:11:38,699 - And vice versa. - I know. 209 00:11:40,617 --> 00:11:42,743 Something going on with you? 210 00:11:42,744 --> 00:11:44,246 Uh, yeah. 211 00:11:46,331 --> 00:11:50,877 How would you feel if I wrote about our relationship 212 00:11:50,878 --> 00:11:52,713 in my next essay? 213 00:11:55,007 --> 00:11:56,632 You want to write about us? 214 00:11:56,633 --> 00:12:01,387 Well, I don't want to, but I feel like I have to. 215 00:12:01,388 --> 00:12:03,264 But if that makes you uncomfortable, 216 00:12:03,265 --> 00:12:05,391 that's fine, and I... I'm-I'm... 217 00:12:05,392 --> 00:12:07,393 - I'm okay with it. - Really? 218 00:12:07,394 --> 00:12:09,061 Do what you got to, 219 00:12:09,062 --> 00:12:10,688 as long as you mention my fiery calves 220 00:12:10,689 --> 00:12:13,524 and my ferocious stamina. 221 00:12:13,525 --> 00:12:14,817 [snaps fingers] 222 00:12:14,818 --> 00:12:17,570 - Goes without saying. - Cool. 223 00:12:17,571 --> 00:12:19,488 [laughs] 224 00:12:19,489 --> 00:12:21,241 - I'm gonna crash now. - Okay. 225 00:12:29,041 --> 00:12:31,584 Your sister and her boyfriend... 226 00:12:31,585 --> 00:12:33,920 That was... 227 00:12:33,921 --> 00:12:36,506 She needs to actually talk to him. 228 00:12:36,507 --> 00:12:40,885 Yeah, but I get why she wouldn't want to, though. 229 00:12:40,886 --> 00:12:42,386 [stammers] 230 00:12:42,387 --> 00:12:44,348 I don't. 231 00:12:48,894 --> 00:12:50,603 [exhales] 232 00:12:50,604 --> 00:12:52,231 Um... 233 00:12:54,525 --> 00:12:58,152 It's like there's this door, right? 234 00:12:58,153 --> 00:13:01,948 And you know you got to open it but you don't know 235 00:13:01,949 --> 00:13:05,743 what you're gonna find, so you think maybe 236 00:13:05,744 --> 00:13:09,413 it's better just to keep it shut. 237 00:13:09,414 --> 00:13:12,417 I feel like that when I think about going to Vietnam. 238 00:13:13,877 --> 00:13:15,378 Stuff about my birth family 239 00:13:15,379 --> 00:13:18,381 could be stuff I'm better off not knowing. 240 00:13:18,382 --> 00:13:23,135 Like, what if I... 241 00:13:23,136 --> 00:13:28,976 dig for gold and hit a sewage pipe? 242 00:13:31,061 --> 00:13:33,729 You just swim through the shit, babe. 243 00:13:33,730 --> 00:13:36,316 You hose off, and you move on. 244 00:13:39,403 --> 00:13:42,113 You got plans on Monday? 245 00:13:42,114 --> 00:13:44,532 Are we going to Disneyland? 246 00:13:44,533 --> 00:13:46,200 Yeah? Yeah? 247 00:13:46,201 --> 00:13:49,412 - Close. [laughs] - Aww. 248 00:13:49,413 --> 00:13:53,499 I signed you up for a CPR class. 249 00:13:53,500 --> 00:13:55,543 It's mandatory for all instructors, so... 250 00:13:55,544 --> 00:13:58,212 Yeah, but I'm not an instructor. 251 00:13:58,213 --> 00:14:00,299 This is so you can become one. 252 00:14:03,135 --> 00:14:05,136 I told you I didn't want that. 253 00:14:05,137 --> 00:14:07,430 But you're good, and you deserve it. 254 00:14:07,431 --> 00:14:09,140 This is not a handout. 255 00:14:09,141 --> 00:14:11,434 Oh, come on, Jules. 256 00:14:11,435 --> 00:14:14,812 You don't think that my job or my life are good enough. 257 00:14:14,813 --> 00:14:16,606 Right? I'm like a fixer-upper? 258 00:14:16,607 --> 00:14:18,107 You just want me fixed already? 259 00:14:18,108 --> 00:14:19,650 That's not what's happening here, Tommy. 260 00:14:19,651 --> 00:14:22,862 I... I can see the person you could be, and I believe in you. 261 00:14:22,863 --> 00:14:24,071 I want you to believe in yourself, too. 262 00:14:24,072 --> 00:14:26,324 I do believe in myself. 263 00:14:26,325 --> 00:14:29,452 Okay, I just don't believe in all of your classist bullshit. 264 00:14:29,453 --> 00:14:31,495 - Okay, I'm sorry... - No, I... 265 00:14:31,496 --> 00:14:33,497 [sighs] 266 00:14:33,498 --> 00:14:36,627 I can't do this. Um, I'm out. 267 00:14:43,800 --> 00:14:45,177 [door closes] 268 00:14:48,430 --> 00:14:51,433 [gasps] 269 00:15:00,067 --> 00:15:01,735 Did you have a nightmare? 270 00:15:03,153 --> 00:15:04,571 Yeah. 271 00:15:11,286 --> 00:15:12,788 You want to talk about it? 272 00:15:16,291 --> 00:15:17,501 No. 273 00:15:21,547 --> 00:15:23,047 Are you sure? 274 00:15:23,048 --> 00:15:24,466 Mm-hmm. 275 00:15:28,011 --> 00:15:29,388 Danny. 276 00:15:58,083 --> 00:16:00,877 - Hey. - What you doing? 277 00:16:00,878 --> 00:16:06,424 Eh, I'm just trying to write this thing about me and Danny. 278 00:16:06,425 --> 00:16:08,176 - How's it going? - I'm stuck. 279 00:16:08,177 --> 00:16:10,011 Every time I try to write something, 280 00:16:10,012 --> 00:16:12,722 it's like half the story is missing. 281 00:16:12,723 --> 00:16:14,807 I... I don't know what's going on with Danny these days. 282 00:16:14,808 --> 00:16:18,603 Well, if you don't know what's going on, ask him. 283 00:16:18,604 --> 00:16:21,355 Oh, I just... I mean, he's going through some stuff. 284 00:16:21,356 --> 00:16:23,149 I mean, you've seen him, and I'm just trying 285 00:16:23,150 --> 00:16:26,986 to give him the space to do that. 286 00:16:26,987 --> 00:16:28,321 [chuckles] Yeah. 287 00:16:28,322 --> 00:16:30,239 How's that been working out for you? 288 00:16:30,240 --> 00:16:32,658 - It's not. - [laughs] 289 00:16:32,659 --> 00:16:34,076 It's... yeah. 290 00:16:34,077 --> 00:16:35,953 [both laughing] 291 00:16:35,954 --> 00:16:39,457 Actually, maybe don't take relationship advice 292 00:16:39,458 --> 00:16:40,750 from me right now. 293 00:16:40,751 --> 00:16:43,044 Oh, no. 294 00:16:43,045 --> 00:16:45,171 What's happening? 295 00:16:45,172 --> 00:16:46,589 [exhales sharply] 296 00:16:46,590 --> 00:16:50,885 I created a job for Tommy at the studio. 297 00:16:50,886 --> 00:16:55,640 And she, uh, did not like that. 298 00:16:55,641 --> 00:16:57,642 Did she want a job at the studio? 299 00:16:57,643 --> 00:16:59,435 No. 300 00:16:59,436 --> 00:17:03,314 And you tried giving her one anyway? 301 00:17:03,315 --> 00:17:05,608 Yes. 302 00:17:05,609 --> 00:17:08,444 [sighs, laughs] 303 00:17:08,445 --> 00:17:10,988 - I'm an idiot. - You're not an idiot. 304 00:17:10,989 --> 00:17:13,407 You're just a Shaw. 305 00:17:13,408 --> 00:17:15,368 What do I do? 306 00:17:15,369 --> 00:17:19,872 Well, you have to de-Shaw the situation. 307 00:17:19,873 --> 00:17:22,375 Or un-Shaw it. Anti-Shaw. 308 00:17:22,376 --> 00:17:25,503 - I like de-Shaw. - Me too. 309 00:17:25,504 --> 00:17:27,129 - My first instinct. - Yeah. 310 00:17:27,130 --> 00:17:28,506 - Impulse. - It's my first impulse. 311 00:17:28,507 --> 00:17:30,592 - [laughs] - De-Shaw. 312 00:17:41,144 --> 00:17:43,272 - Hey. - Hey. 313 00:17:48,819 --> 00:17:51,070 I like you. 314 00:17:51,071 --> 00:17:53,656 I like everything about you, 315 00:17:53,657 --> 00:17:56,742 and I don't need you to be my employee. 316 00:17:56,743 --> 00:18:02,373 I do need to learn to hear and respect your needs. 317 00:18:02,374 --> 00:18:04,667 Did you memorize that speech? 318 00:18:04,668 --> 00:18:07,504 Yeah, I've been standing here a while. 319 00:18:10,090 --> 00:18:12,425 Look. 320 00:18:12,426 --> 00:18:13,926 If you're trying to turn me into something I'm not, 321 00:18:13,927 --> 00:18:15,887 this isn't gonna work. 322 00:18:15,888 --> 00:18:18,389 Okay, I had enough of that growing up. 323 00:18:18,390 --> 00:18:21,434 And I'm not perfect, 324 00:18:21,435 --> 00:18:24,187 okay, but I'm not broken, either. 325 00:18:24,188 --> 00:18:29,734 - Tommy, I'm really sorry. - I know you are. 326 00:18:29,735 --> 00:18:31,904 Look, but it's not enough to be sorry. 327 00:18:34,072 --> 00:18:36,032 Okay. 328 00:18:36,033 --> 00:18:39,035 Look, I just need someone that's got it together. 329 00:18:39,036 --> 00:18:40,620 You know? 330 00:18:40,621 --> 00:18:41,996 Someone who's working through their issues. 331 00:18:41,997 --> 00:18:44,124 - You know what I mean? - [chuckles] 332 00:18:45,918 --> 00:18:49,670 I'm actually working really hard on all my issues. 333 00:18:49,671 --> 00:18:51,964 Or you're working really hard to avoid dealing with the shit 334 00:18:51,965 --> 00:18:53,926 that actually freaks you out. 335 00:18:55,427 --> 00:18:56,637 [chuckles] 336 00:18:57,971 --> 00:19:00,015 Wow. 337 00:19:03,143 --> 00:19:05,311 I... I got to get back to work. 338 00:19:05,312 --> 00:19:07,647 Yeah. 339 00:19:07,648 --> 00:19:10,274 I got to get back to work, too. 340 00:19:10,275 --> 00:19:11,527 Okay. 341 00:19:12,986 --> 00:19:14,905 See you. 342 00:19:18,408 --> 00:19:20,536 [door opens] 343 00:19:22,079 --> 00:19:23,497 [door closes] 344 00:19:29,878 --> 00:19:32,839 Okay, so I wrote down some questions. 345 00:19:32,840 --> 00:19:37,093 I'm gonna record this so that I can listen and talk 346 00:19:37,094 --> 00:19:39,345 instead of typing and scribbling. 347 00:19:39,346 --> 00:19:41,806 - Damn. - So formal. 348 00:19:41,807 --> 00:19:43,891 - Does it make you feel weird? - No, no, it's cool. 349 00:19:43,892 --> 00:19:47,436 I just... what's the article about, exactly? 350 00:19:47,437 --> 00:19:49,981 The working title is 351 00:19:49,982 --> 00:19:54,318 "Sex, Lies, and My Dead Husband's Brother." 352 00:19:54,319 --> 00:19:56,153 - Subtle. - [chuckles] 353 00:19:56,154 --> 00:19:59,282 Right, well, it's not a confession. 354 00:19:59,283 --> 00:20:02,285 It's an explanation, 'cause I want people to understand 355 00:20:02,286 --> 00:20:04,954 the why along with the what. 356 00:20:04,955 --> 00:20:06,914 And the who, obviously. 357 00:20:06,915 --> 00:20:09,375 Which is why we're doing this. 358 00:20:09,376 --> 00:20:12,336 There's a lot I don't know about you, Daniel Greer. 359 00:20:12,337 --> 00:20:13,963 [chuckles] 360 00:20:13,964 --> 00:20:15,631 - You ready? - Yeah. 361 00:20:15,632 --> 00:20:17,008 First question, 362 00:20:17,009 --> 00:20:19,678 has being with me changed you at all? 363 00:20:21,180 --> 00:20:23,014 It sounds like you're fishing for a compliment. 364 00:20:23,015 --> 00:20:25,183 Well... 365 00:20:25,184 --> 00:20:28,436 being with you has changed me. 366 00:20:28,437 --> 00:20:30,271 How? 367 00:20:30,272 --> 00:20:36,111 Um, I feel lighter, maybe. 368 00:20:37,738 --> 00:20:41,240 Like you understand my grief 369 00:20:41,241 --> 00:20:43,201 so I don't have to carry it all myself, 370 00:20:43,202 --> 00:20:44,410 if that makes sense. 371 00:20:44,411 --> 00:20:45,662 Kind of. 372 00:20:47,706 --> 00:20:49,166 Do you feel that way? 373 00:20:50,542 --> 00:20:52,376 I'm happier, I guess. 374 00:20:52,377 --> 00:20:54,463 How were you before? 375 00:20:56,757 --> 00:20:58,383 Less happy. 376 00:20:59,927 --> 00:21:02,512 - Okay. - [laughs] 377 00:21:02,513 --> 00:21:04,139 Uh, next question. 378 00:21:06,517 --> 00:21:09,352 What are your nightmares about? 379 00:21:09,353 --> 00:21:11,312 It's not a big deal. 380 00:21:11,313 --> 00:21:12,688 Right, but if it's not a big deal, 381 00:21:12,689 --> 00:21:14,942 then why can't you just tell me what they're about? 382 00:21:17,986 --> 00:21:19,403 [chuckles] Yeah. 383 00:21:19,404 --> 00:21:21,405 Uh... 384 00:21:21,406 --> 00:21:28,329 this thing happened to me and Matt before he met you. 385 00:21:28,330 --> 00:21:30,498 Um, 386 00:21:30,499 --> 00:21:31,749 we're driving home one night, 387 00:21:31,750 --> 00:21:34,544 and Matt screams for me to stop the car. 388 00:21:34,545 --> 00:21:36,796 Just bolts. 389 00:21:36,797 --> 00:21:40,758 I see him talking to some dude on the overpass. 390 00:21:40,759 --> 00:21:43,135 The guy was about to jump. 391 00:21:43,136 --> 00:21:45,513 Jesus. 392 00:21:45,514 --> 00:21:49,393 If I had been driving alone, that guy would be dead. 393 00:21:53,689 --> 00:21:55,941 Sorry, that, um... 394 00:21:59,152 --> 00:22:01,737 He never told me about that. 395 00:22:01,738 --> 00:22:03,657 It was a long time ago. 396 00:22:06,243 --> 00:22:08,035 - What? - No, I'm just... 397 00:22:08,036 --> 00:22:09,537 I'm just thinking. 398 00:22:09,538 --> 00:22:11,081 What are you thinking? 399 00:22:14,668 --> 00:22:16,461 I don't know. 400 00:22:19,298 --> 00:22:21,674 Um... 401 00:22:21,675 --> 00:22:26,388 So Matt saved this person's life? 402 00:22:29,099 --> 00:22:30,684 Are you... 403 00:22:32,853 --> 00:22:37,440 You don't think that you were supposed to save Matt? 404 00:22:37,441 --> 00:22:38,774 Is this still for your article? 405 00:22:38,775 --> 00:22:40,526 I am not gonna use any of this. 406 00:22:40,527 --> 00:22:42,278 'Cause it's starting to feel like this whole thing 407 00:22:42,279 --> 00:22:43,863 was just an excuse for you to pry me open. 408 00:22:43,864 --> 00:22:47,116 - No, I am just trying to help. - You know what? 409 00:22:47,117 --> 00:22:48,367 [phone chimes] 410 00:22:48,368 --> 00:22:50,494 How about I ask you some things 411 00:22:50,495 --> 00:22:51,704 that you don't want to talk about, 412 00:22:51,705 --> 00:22:53,706 since you're so interested in the truth? 413 00:22:53,707 --> 00:22:56,918 How come you refuse to see Matt for who he was? 414 00:22:56,919 --> 00:22:58,628 Why do you stick a shiny gold halo on his head 415 00:22:58,629 --> 00:22:59,879 whenever you talk about him? 416 00:22:59,880 --> 00:23:03,841 Danny, you have got to stop doing this. 417 00:23:03,842 --> 00:23:06,636 We both loved him, and yet you have this thing 418 00:23:06,637 --> 00:23:08,679 against acknowledging his good parts. 419 00:23:08,680 --> 00:23:10,598 Maybe because there was more bad than good, 420 00:23:10,599 --> 00:23:13,392 and you're living in some wounded-widow fairyland. 421 00:23:13,393 --> 00:23:16,145 Just because someone dies doesn't make them a hero. 422 00:23:16,146 --> 00:23:21,067 You just told me that he saved a total stranger's life. 423 00:23:21,068 --> 00:23:24,529 You don't think that you have the volume turned up right now 424 00:23:24,530 --> 00:23:25,738 on the wrong memories? 425 00:23:25,739 --> 00:23:27,114 Which memories should I turn up? 426 00:23:27,115 --> 00:23:28,616 When he Sharpied my Pokémon cards 427 00:23:28,617 --> 00:23:30,451 - because I wouldn't trade them? - Oh, my God. 428 00:23:30,452 --> 00:23:31,953 When I accused him of becoming our dad 429 00:23:31,954 --> 00:23:33,621 and he didn't talk to me for four months? 430 00:23:33,622 --> 00:23:36,374 Why are you holding on to all this ridiculous shit? 431 00:23:36,375 --> 00:23:38,292 Because it affected me! 432 00:23:38,293 --> 00:23:40,169 You wouldn't think the stuff that affected you 433 00:23:40,170 --> 00:23:41,420 is ridiculous. 434 00:23:41,421 --> 00:23:43,172 Like when he fell for the teacher from his job 435 00:23:43,173 --> 00:23:44,758 two years ago. 436 00:23:53,433 --> 00:23:55,310 What? 437 00:24:01,692 --> 00:24:03,527 Sorry, uh... 438 00:24:08,657 --> 00:24:11,702 Was it... was it Nina? The... 439 00:24:14,580 --> 00:24:16,748 The one from the memorial? 440 00:24:19,459 --> 00:24:21,085 He wouldn't, uh... 441 00:24:21,086 --> 00:24:24,506 I... I told him not to... Did anything, um... 442 00:24:26,133 --> 00:24:27,842 Did they... No. 443 00:24:27,843 --> 00:24:29,135 Nothing happened. 444 00:24:29,136 --> 00:24:30,803 He had a moment, and it passed. 445 00:24:30,804 --> 00:24:33,307 But you just said that he fell for her. 446 00:24:38,145 --> 00:24:41,397 Did you tell me that 447 00:24:41,398 --> 00:24:44,609 so I could just hate him as much as you do? 448 00:24:44,610 --> 00:24:47,195 - No. - Then why? 449 00:24:47,196 --> 00:24:49,405 So you can see him for who he really was. 450 00:24:49,406 --> 00:24:51,407 But why? 451 00:24:51,408 --> 00:24:53,075 So you can see me for who I am. 452 00:24:53,076 --> 00:24:56,204 Yeah, I see you, Danny! 453 00:24:56,205 --> 00:25:00,082 I see someone who would rather set fire to the things he loves 454 00:25:00,083 --> 00:25:02,002 than deal with his own guilt. 455 00:25:04,171 --> 00:25:09,258 I am never going to hate him. 456 00:25:09,259 --> 00:25:10,886 Do you understand that? 457 00:25:11,970 --> 00:25:13,555 Go home. 458 00:25:18,227 --> 00:25:20,270 [Danny shouts, loud crash] 459 00:25:21,647 --> 00:25:23,106 Damn it! 460 00:25:25,234 --> 00:25:26,360 [grunts] 461 00:25:30,989 --> 00:25:33,075 [exhales sharply] 462 00:26:53,197 --> 00:26:56,200 [keys tapping] 463 00:27:33,695 --> 00:27:37,114 Maybe I'm kidding myself, but... 464 00:27:37,115 --> 00:27:39,243 I still think we can make it work. 465 00:27:41,161 --> 00:27:43,955 People don't slam their fists through walls 466 00:27:43,956 --> 00:27:45,624 when things are going well. 467 00:27:47,668 --> 00:27:50,294 I mean, we can't do this. 468 00:27:50,295 --> 00:27:53,006 So it's over? 469 00:27:54,299 --> 00:27:55,676 Yeah. 470 00:27:58,554 --> 00:27:59,720 You should go. 471 00:27:59,721 --> 00:28:01,973 I'm not leaving you here. 472 00:28:01,974 --> 00:28:03,933 Waiting in urgent care with someone is something you do 473 00:28:03,934 --> 00:28:05,560 when you're in a relationship. 474 00:28:05,561 --> 00:28:08,437 Then we will be in one until they call your name. 475 00:28:08,438 --> 00:28:10,274 - That's dumb. - I don't care. 476 00:28:13,944 --> 00:28:16,029 [exhales sharply] 477 00:28:17,614 --> 00:28:19,366 How long have we been waiting here? 478 00:28:20,951 --> 00:28:22,578 Feels like hours. 479 00:28:23,954 --> 00:28:25,538 Days. 480 00:28:25,539 --> 00:28:27,249 McKean. 481 00:28:28,834 --> 00:28:31,502 What if they never call your name? 482 00:28:31,503 --> 00:28:34,965 What if we're in actual purgatory? 483 00:28:38,010 --> 00:28:40,762 Then we'll never break up, I guess. 484 00:28:47,352 --> 00:28:49,896 Do something funny. 485 00:28:49,897 --> 00:28:51,355 Why? 486 00:28:51,356 --> 00:28:52,523 'Cause if I don't start laughing, 487 00:28:52,524 --> 00:28:55,110 I'm gonna start crying and never stop. 488 00:28:56,195 --> 00:28:57,737 Okay. 489 00:28:57,738 --> 00:28:59,489 Something funny. 490 00:29:03,702 --> 00:29:05,328 [snorts] 491 00:29:05,329 --> 00:29:07,998 [laughing] 492 00:29:10,000 --> 00:29:13,294 Do you remember my impression of the whale from "Pinocchio"? 493 00:29:13,295 --> 00:29:15,672 - Oh, God. - You do remember. 494 00:29:17,382 --> 00:29:18,799 Leigh. 495 00:29:18,800 --> 00:29:21,177 [snorting and sniffing] 496 00:29:21,178 --> 00:29:24,347 [laughing] 497 00:29:24,348 --> 00:29:26,266 [sniffing] 498 00:29:30,479 --> 00:29:31,729 Remember this one? 499 00:29:31,730 --> 00:29:35,775 [sniffing and grunting] 500 00:29:35,776 --> 00:29:37,610 [mimics sneezing] 501 00:29:37,611 --> 00:29:39,737 [laughing] 502 00:29:39,738 --> 00:29:41,781 - [mimics sneezing] - Shh, shh, shh. 503 00:29:41,782 --> 00:29:44,785 [both laughing] 504 00:30:03,720 --> 00:30:05,639 Greer? 505 00:30:17,693 --> 00:30:19,361 - Oh! - Welcome back! 506 00:30:21,697 --> 00:30:23,990 I had to see you before you flew halfway around the world. 507 00:30:23,991 --> 00:30:25,157 [laughs] 508 00:30:25,158 --> 00:30:26,701 When you get back, um... 509 00:30:26,702 --> 00:30:28,744 Oh, I should talk to you about that. 510 00:30:28,745 --> 00:30:31,539 Mom, I don't know how everything got so bad. 511 00:30:31,540 --> 00:30:34,375 - They're your choices. - Own them. 512 00:30:34,376 --> 00:30:37,503 You're not even gonna try and solve my problems? 513 00:30:37,504 --> 00:30:38,963 You're an adult. 514 00:30:38,964 --> 00:30:41,841 I just feel like I am waiting around 515 00:30:41,842 --> 00:30:44,760 for the next bad thing to happen to me. 516 00:30:44,761 --> 00:30:46,596 - Leigh. - Hi. 517 00:30:46,597 --> 00:30:49,807 What happened between you and Matt? 518 00:30:49,808 --> 00:30:52,144 Please tell me.