1 00:00:01,418 --> 00:00:03,252 You missed your deadline again. 2 00:00:03,253 --> 00:00:05,630 - You will have it in an hour. - 90 minutes, tops. 3 00:00:05,631 --> 00:00:08,466 [crying] Drew, you're not gonna believe... 4 00:00:08,467 --> 00:00:11,511 - No, you're out of excuses. - No, Drew, I... 5 00:00:11,512 --> 00:00:14,847 Whatever you have, just send it now. 6 00:00:14,848 --> 00:00:18,309 Let's talk about why we spend 7 00:00:18,310 --> 00:00:20,353 all this time putting crap on our eyelids. 8 00:00:20,354 --> 00:00:21,646 What's going on with Leigh? 9 00:00:21,647 --> 00:00:23,981 She's been bailing on her classes. 10 00:00:23,982 --> 00:00:26,776 She just stays in her room. She hasn't showered. 11 00:00:26,777 --> 00:00:29,111 - Stop making my bed. - This is so inappropriate. 12 00:00:29,112 --> 00:00:30,738 If that's what it's gonna take to get you 13 00:00:30,739 --> 00:00:32,698 out of this room, then fine... that's what's happening. 14 00:00:32,699 --> 00:00:34,951 You took me to a suicide walk? 15 00:00:34,952 --> 00:00:36,328 One mile. 16 00:00:37,663 --> 00:00:39,789 I don't know if I can keep walking anymore. 17 00:00:39,790 --> 00:00:41,165 - We've gone one more mile. - I know. 18 00:00:41,166 --> 00:00:42,792 - We're so close. - I'll carry you, come on. 19 00:00:42,793 --> 00:00:43,793 - I got him! - Oh! 20 00:00:43,794 --> 00:00:45,044 [laughs] 21 00:00:45,045 --> 00:00:46,754 What are we gonna do the next time I hang out? 22 00:00:46,755 --> 00:00:49,006 I don't think us hanging out is a good idea. 23 00:00:49,007 --> 00:00:50,800 Why can't you just be my friend? 24 00:00:50,801 --> 00:00:52,761 Leigh, I think I'm in love with you. 25 00:00:55,180 --> 00:00:58,182 [phone clicking] 26 00:00:58,183 --> 00:01:00,769 [sighs] [phone whooshes] 27 00:01:03,981 --> 00:01:06,567 [bottle spraying] 28 00:01:11,989 --> 00:01:14,366 [sighs] 29 00:01:32,509 --> 00:01:38,515 [soft music] 30 00:01:46,064 --> 00:01:49,150 "Great for work, weekend brunch, date night, 31 00:01:49,151 --> 00:01:51,485 "or for those days when a hole in the universe opens up 32 00:01:51,486 --> 00:01:52,987 where your husband used to be." 33 00:01:52,988 --> 00:01:55,239 I mean, I can't believe that you published this. 34 00:01:55,240 --> 00:01:56,824 I thought you sent me your review 35 00:01:56,825 --> 00:01:58,034 because you wanted me to publish it. 36 00:01:58,035 --> 00:01:59,619 - That's not a review. - That's a breakdown. 37 00:01:59,620 --> 00:02:00,828 Yeah. 38 00:02:00,829 --> 00:02:02,622 Yeah, and now it's a public breakdown. 39 00:02:02,623 --> 00:02:04,207 Okay, that's one way of looking at it. 40 00:02:04,208 --> 00:02:06,834 Here's another... you wrote something really good, 41 00:02:06,835 --> 00:02:08,794 and people are responding to it 42 00:02:08,795 --> 00:02:11,255 Great, so now there's a bunch of strangers out there 43 00:02:11,256 --> 00:02:12,507 who feel sorry for me. 44 00:02:12,508 --> 00:02:14,467 I mean, this is, like, my actual nightmare. 45 00:02:14,468 --> 00:02:17,011 - No, no, no, no. - No one feels sorry for you. 46 00:02:17,012 --> 00:02:18,304 They feel... 47 00:02:18,305 --> 00:02:19,805 [sighs] 48 00:02:19,806 --> 00:02:22,225 You should read the comments. See for yourself. 49 00:02:22,226 --> 00:02:23,851 I thought you weren't supposed to read the comments 50 00:02:23,852 --> 00:02:25,269 on the Internet. 51 00:02:25,270 --> 00:02:27,438 - These comments are different. - You should read them. 52 00:02:27,439 --> 00:02:29,649 When you feel up to it. 53 00:02:29,650 --> 00:02:32,610 If you feel... 54 00:02:32,611 --> 00:02:35,571 H-how are you feeling? 55 00:02:35,572 --> 00:02:39,325 - I don't know. - Um... 56 00:02:39,326 --> 00:02:41,369 I'm not crying on the floor of a bathroom, 57 00:02:41,370 --> 00:02:45,581 but I don't know where I am now. 58 00:02:45,582 --> 00:02:48,668 I was really worried about you, Leigh. 59 00:02:48,669 --> 00:02:53,840 If it gets bad like that again, you have to let me know. 60 00:02:53,841 --> 00:02:57,343 I will get down on that bathroom floor with you. 61 00:02:57,344 --> 00:03:00,221 - I don't care about diseases. - [chuckles] 62 00:03:00,222 --> 00:03:02,807 I never want you to feel alone like that. 63 00:03:02,808 --> 00:03:05,101 Yeah, I was in a pretty bad place. 64 00:03:05,102 --> 00:03:07,103 And I thought I was gonna be stuck there 65 00:03:07,104 --> 00:03:10,523 and that nothing was gonna help. 66 00:03:10,524 --> 00:03:14,026 But it was... actually, it was... it was Danny who... 67 00:03:14,027 --> 00:03:19,323 Danny, he came over, and, um... we went for a walk, 68 00:03:19,324 --> 00:03:24,537 and things started to feel a little bit better after that. 69 00:03:24,538 --> 00:03:26,330 You and Danny are hanging out again? 70 00:03:26,331 --> 00:03:29,542 No, no, no, it was just, like... it was that one time. 71 00:03:29,543 --> 00:03:32,044 Like you and I are hanging out right now. 72 00:03:32,045 --> 00:03:33,629 - Yeah, we are. - Yep. 73 00:03:33,630 --> 00:03:35,631 [laughter] 74 00:03:35,632 --> 00:03:38,677 [light switches clicking] 75 00:03:46,935 --> 00:03:50,188 [sighs] 76 00:03:50,189 --> 00:03:55,776 [soft music] 77 00:03:55,777 --> 00:03:59,280 [phone clicking, whooshes] 78 00:03:59,281 --> 00:04:02,283 [cell phone chiming] 79 00:04:02,284 --> 00:04:08,290 [music continues] 80 00:05:42,634 --> 00:05:46,972 [door opens, closes] 81 00:05:56,356 --> 00:05:58,025 [knock at door] 82 00:06:00,611 --> 00:06:05,239 - What... what's going on? - Your card was declined. 83 00:06:05,240 --> 00:06:07,074 - That's weird. - I just paid it off. 84 00:06:07,075 --> 00:06:09,952 - Well, I handled it. - Lucky I got paid yesterday. 85 00:06:09,953 --> 00:06:12,496 Didn't plan to cover my own bachelor party. 86 00:06:12,497 --> 00:06:15,041 - Although maybe I should have. - That's a bank error, dude. 87 00:06:15,042 --> 00:06:16,167 You could have just called... 88 00:06:16,168 --> 00:06:17,877 You weren't there to deal with it. 89 00:06:17,878 --> 00:06:19,587 That's a you error. 90 00:06:19,588 --> 00:06:22,548 God, you're so predictable. 91 00:06:22,549 --> 00:06:25,176 I mean, a girl looks in your direction, and you bail? 92 00:06:25,177 --> 00:06:26,385 You need to keep it down. 93 00:06:26,386 --> 00:06:28,095 She's in the bedroom, and I didn't bail. 94 00:06:28,096 --> 00:06:29,305 The party was over. 95 00:06:29,306 --> 00:06:31,224 There was a guy literally asleep on the bar. 96 00:06:31,225 --> 00:06:32,725 You had one job tonight. 97 00:06:32,726 --> 00:06:35,686 Matt, I had 12 jobs tonight, and they all sucked balls. 98 00:06:35,687 --> 00:06:38,564 You know hard it was to get your boring-ass friends to that bar? 99 00:06:38,565 --> 00:06:40,316 Like, what wild plans did Chris have 100 00:06:40,317 --> 00:06:42,318 that he couldn't commit until yesterday? 101 00:06:42,319 --> 00:06:45,112 And then I had to hang with those assholes for ten hours. 102 00:06:45,113 --> 00:06:46,906 If I had stayed any longer, 103 00:06:46,907 --> 00:06:48,908 I would have straight-up murdered one of those dudes... 104 00:06:48,909 --> 00:06:50,493 probably Chris. 105 00:06:50,494 --> 00:06:52,537 You know, I was, uh... 106 00:06:52,538 --> 00:06:55,831 I was planning on capping the night off in Glendora... 107 00:06:55,832 --> 00:06:57,750 uh, that place you buy strawberry doughnuts 108 00:06:57,751 --> 00:06:58,751 at 4:00 a.m. 109 00:06:58,752 --> 00:07:00,336 - Wow. - But instead I'm here 110 00:07:00,337 --> 00:07:03,923 at 4:00 a.m., listening to all your excuses. 111 00:07:03,924 --> 00:07:06,717 Matt, what are you talking about? 112 00:07:06,718 --> 00:07:08,135 Glendora? 113 00:07:08,136 --> 00:07:09,720 Strawbe... seriously? 114 00:07:09,721 --> 00:07:12,348 You can't be mad at me about a last-minute plan 115 00:07:12,349 --> 00:07:15,017 you made in your head and you never told me about. 116 00:07:15,018 --> 00:07:17,311 I shouldn't have to tell you about it. 117 00:07:17,312 --> 00:07:20,940 It wasn't about you. 118 00:07:20,941 --> 00:07:23,734 - You should have just been there. - [sighs] 119 00:07:23,735 --> 00:07:27,196 [bottle opens] How's surfing? 120 00:07:27,197 --> 00:07:29,657 - Huh? - I said, "How's surfing?" 121 00:07:29,658 --> 00:07:32,118 Have you made any friends out there yet? 122 00:07:32,119 --> 00:07:33,744 No, it's pretty quiet. 123 00:07:33,745 --> 00:07:36,372 Will you go put the food on the table for me, please? 124 00:07:36,373 --> 00:07:37,958 Sure. 125 00:07:41,128 --> 00:07:44,172 Do you have any napkins? 126 00:07:44,173 --> 00:07:46,632 Let's see. 127 00:07:46,633 --> 00:07:49,886 God, are you so selfish you can't handle one night 128 00:07:49,887 --> 00:07:52,221 being about anyone else? 129 00:07:52,222 --> 00:07:55,308 [sighs] 130 00:07:55,309 --> 00:07:59,562 I don't know, man. I guess I hit a wall. 131 00:07:59,563 --> 00:08:02,148 You know, planning your bachelor party's been weird. 132 00:08:02,149 --> 00:08:03,566 It's the end of an era. 133 00:08:03,567 --> 00:08:05,484 Wow, you're still making it about you. 134 00:08:05,485 --> 00:08:09,197 It was my bachelor party. 135 00:08:09,198 --> 00:08:11,657 And for the rest of my life, whenever I think about it, 136 00:08:11,658 --> 00:08:13,451 all I'm gonna remember is this. 137 00:08:13,452 --> 00:08:14,786 You know what? 138 00:08:19,625 --> 00:08:21,584 Never mind. 139 00:08:21,585 --> 00:08:23,503 You're right. 140 00:08:23,504 --> 00:08:25,881 I'm sorry, okay? 141 00:08:28,592 --> 00:08:30,010 I'm sorry. 142 00:08:35,098 --> 00:08:38,267 Are... are you okay? 143 00:08:38,268 --> 00:08:40,394 I'm fine. 144 00:08:40,395 --> 00:08:42,230 [exhales deeply] 145 00:08:42,231 --> 00:08:45,608 - How... how's Leigh? - I don't know. 146 00:08:45,609 --> 00:08:47,151 You two aren't talking? 147 00:08:47,152 --> 00:08:49,195 Why are you asking me so many questions, Mommy? 148 00:08:49,196 --> 00:08:51,198 Because I care about you. 149 00:08:53,534 --> 00:08:56,577 Danny, I know you're not doing well. 150 00:08:56,578 --> 00:08:57,954 Matt... 151 00:08:57,955 --> 00:09:00,248 Does everything in my life have to be about Matt? 152 00:09:00,249 --> 00:09:02,042 No, Danny. 153 00:09:03,961 --> 00:09:06,128 Sweetie, I'm just trying to talk to you. 154 00:09:06,129 --> 00:09:07,755 I've been here over an hour, 155 00:09:07,756 --> 00:09:10,258 and you haven't asked me a single question. 156 00:09:10,259 --> 00:09:12,051 Do you even care about your mother? 157 00:09:12,052 --> 00:09:14,846 Do you care about me? 158 00:09:14,847 --> 00:09:16,722 I can ask you some questions, Mama. 159 00:09:16,723 --> 00:09:19,350 Good. 160 00:09:19,351 --> 00:09:22,562 - How's work? - Ah. 161 00:09:22,563 --> 00:09:24,647 Tony... he's having another affair. 162 00:09:24,648 --> 00:09:26,357 [laughs] 163 00:09:26,358 --> 00:09:29,193 Tony, isn't that... that's wife three. 164 00:09:29,194 --> 00:09:31,362 - Four. Count it, four. - Ugh. 165 00:09:31,363 --> 00:09:33,322 [laughs] 166 00:09:33,323 --> 00:09:35,199 Damn. 167 00:09:35,200 --> 00:09:36,868 That dude needs to get it together. 168 00:09:36,869 --> 00:09:38,871 - Sure does. - [chuckles] 169 00:09:40,998 --> 00:09:47,003 [soft rock music] 170 00:09:47,004 --> 00:09:50,007 [indistinct chatter] 171 00:10:08,984 --> 00:10:10,443 - Oh, sorry. - I'm so sorry. 172 00:10:10,444 --> 00:10:12,528 Are you okay? Okay. 173 00:10:12,529 --> 00:10:14,322 She's okay. [chuckles] 174 00:10:14,323 --> 00:10:18,242 - She's okay. - That's good to know. 175 00:10:18,243 --> 00:10:21,621 What were you listening to? 176 00:10:21,622 --> 00:10:23,414 - Spiritualized. - Ever heard of it? 177 00:10:23,415 --> 00:10:25,041 - Yeah. - No, I haven't. 178 00:10:25,042 --> 00:10:26,918 I don't know why I just said yes. 179 00:10:26,919 --> 00:10:28,921 [laughter] 180 00:10:31,548 --> 00:10:33,841 I like your hoodie. 181 00:10:33,842 --> 00:10:37,762 The patch... good old John of the Mountains. 182 00:10:37,763 --> 00:10:40,306 - You know John Muir? - Mm-hmm. 183 00:10:40,307 --> 00:10:42,892 Oh, well, I'm kind of like a national parks nerd. 184 00:10:42,893 --> 00:10:45,937 I've hiked Zion, camped in Rocky Mountain. 185 00:10:45,938 --> 00:10:47,563 [laughs] Don't even get me started. 186 00:10:47,564 --> 00:10:49,732 No, you can get started. 187 00:10:49,733 --> 00:10:51,484 - You sure? - Yeah. 188 00:10:51,485 --> 00:10:53,736 All right, that's, like, five hours of your life 189 00:10:53,737 --> 00:10:55,571 - you're never getting back. - [chuckles] 190 00:10:55,572 --> 00:10:59,951 It's just... it's nice to meet a fellow parks nerd. 191 00:10:59,952 --> 00:11:02,328 Actually, I've only been to Joshua Tree and Yosemite. 192 00:11:02,329 --> 00:11:04,664 I think I need one more to be able to call myself a nerd. 193 00:11:04,665 --> 00:11:06,374 [both chuckle] 194 00:11:06,375 --> 00:11:08,626 Yellowstone, here I come. [laughs] 195 00:11:08,627 --> 00:11:11,420 - That's a solid choice. - It's actually my favorite. 196 00:11:11,421 --> 00:11:13,965 Is that where you got the patch? 197 00:11:13,966 --> 00:11:15,883 No, it came with the hoodie. 198 00:11:15,884 --> 00:11:17,844 Actually, I picked it because of the patch. 199 00:11:17,845 --> 00:11:19,846 I got it at Goodwill. 200 00:11:19,847 --> 00:11:23,224 - Which one? - Echo Park, on Sunset. 201 00:11:23,225 --> 00:11:26,185 Huh, yeah, that's where I donate. 202 00:11:26,186 --> 00:11:28,271 Huh, small world. 203 00:11:28,272 --> 00:11:30,399 Well, uh, you have a good one. 204 00:11:33,026 --> 00:11:36,196 Hey, can... can I see you again? 205 00:11:38,740 --> 00:11:42,201 Yeah, sure. 206 00:11:42,202 --> 00:11:44,413 What are you doing tomorrow? 207 00:11:52,212 --> 00:11:55,507 [indistinct chatter] 208 00:12:01,430 --> 00:12:05,349 - You look lost. - First time? 209 00:12:05,350 --> 00:12:08,019 No, but it's my first time here. 210 00:12:08,020 --> 00:12:10,688 Other end of the hall. 211 00:12:10,689 --> 00:12:13,024 This is my favorite part of the week, actually. 212 00:12:13,025 --> 00:12:14,650 - Your favorite? - Wow. 213 00:12:14,651 --> 00:12:16,194 I leave my regular spot 214 00:12:16,195 --> 00:12:18,196 feeling like I just broke out of detention. 215 00:12:18,197 --> 00:12:19,572 Ooh, yeah, I know what you mean. 216 00:12:19,573 --> 00:12:21,032 Some places can be kind of preachy. 217 00:12:21,033 --> 00:12:22,658 - Or cult-y. - Mm, definitely. 218 00:12:22,659 --> 00:12:24,827 [both laugh] This place is chill, though. 219 00:12:24,828 --> 00:12:26,954 It's mostly just queers and POC. 220 00:12:26,955 --> 00:12:29,165 People who have really been through it, you know? 221 00:12:29,166 --> 00:12:32,043 I'm Tommy, by the way. 222 00:12:32,044 --> 00:12:33,669 Jules. 223 00:12:33,670 --> 00:12:36,673 [indistinct chatter] 224 00:12:41,261 --> 00:12:44,263 - Hi. - [chatter continues] 225 00:12:44,264 --> 00:12:46,474 [door closes] What's up, man? 226 00:12:46,475 --> 00:12:48,185 Good to see you. 227 00:12:50,062 --> 00:12:52,855 Yeah, yeah. 228 00:12:52,856 --> 00:12:54,190 Boop. 229 00:12:54,191 --> 00:12:55,566 [laughs] What's up? 230 00:12:55,567 --> 00:12:57,276 Hey, do you guys mind scooting over? 231 00:12:57,277 --> 00:12:58,861 You can sit right there if you want. 232 00:12:58,862 --> 00:13:01,656 - Thanks. - Yeah. 233 00:13:01,657 --> 00:13:03,074 Mm-hmm, mm-hmm. 234 00:13:03,075 --> 00:13:04,617 Hey. Hi. 235 00:13:04,618 --> 00:13:07,495 - Nice to see you. - Nice to see you, too. 236 00:13:07,496 --> 00:13:09,288 [chatter continues] 237 00:13:09,289 --> 00:13:12,208 - Sorry. - Thanks. 238 00:13:12,209 --> 00:13:14,836 Welcome, everyone. 239 00:13:14,837 --> 00:13:16,712 We're going to start 240 00:13:16,713 --> 00:13:20,884 with a reading from Leviticus 25:35. 241 00:13:23,846 --> 00:13:27,723 "If any of your brothers become poor 242 00:13:27,724 --> 00:13:30,643 "and are unable to support themselves among you, 243 00:13:30,644 --> 00:13:35,189 help them as you would a foreigner." 244 00:13:35,190 --> 00:13:38,317 - You want to share? - "That he may live with you." 245 00:13:38,318 --> 00:13:39,443 Sure. 246 00:13:39,444 --> 00:13:43,114 "Take no usury or interest from him, 247 00:13:43,115 --> 00:13:47,910 but fear your God, that your brother may live with you." 248 00:13:47,911 --> 00:13:51,122 So, new girl, what'd you think? 249 00:13:51,123 --> 00:13:53,040 Uh, it was interesting. 250 00:13:53,041 --> 00:13:56,586 Although I'm not totally sold on the whole God thing. 251 00:13:56,587 --> 00:13:58,713 I'm in AA. 252 00:13:58,714 --> 00:14:01,174 I was trying out a new meeting in this building, 253 00:14:01,175 --> 00:14:03,426 and I figured out pretty early on this wasn't it. 254 00:14:03,427 --> 00:14:05,761 But, um, we were sitting so close to the front, 255 00:14:05,762 --> 00:14:07,555 it would have been weird for me to leave, so... 256 00:14:07,556 --> 00:14:09,891 Hmm. So you stayed for the whole damn service. 257 00:14:09,892 --> 00:14:13,477 - Yeah. - AA is pretty Jesus-y, too. 258 00:14:13,478 --> 00:14:15,980 [snickers] 259 00:14:15,981 --> 00:14:18,357 Well, you gonna be okay without a meeting? 260 00:14:18,358 --> 00:14:21,652 Yeah, I do usually need meetings. 261 00:14:21,653 --> 00:14:24,614 But tonight I kind of just wanted to get out of the house. 262 00:14:24,615 --> 00:14:26,574 Well, next time you want to get out of the house, 263 00:14:26,575 --> 00:14:28,367 you should call me. 264 00:14:28,368 --> 00:14:31,747 - That's, uh, neighborly of you. - Here, I'll give you my number. 265 00:14:42,341 --> 00:14:45,468 - Leigh? - I'm in here. 266 00:14:45,469 --> 00:14:47,595 I am so sorry I didn't make it to the studio. 267 00:14:47,596 --> 00:14:49,597 I totally lost track of time. 268 00:14:49,598 --> 00:14:51,390 Do you want me to send you a reminder 269 00:14:51,391 --> 00:14:52,808 for your 4:00 p.m. tomorrow? 270 00:14:52,809 --> 00:14:55,145 - It's in my calendar. - I will be there. 271 00:14:58,607 --> 00:15:00,691 Hey, what do you think about this? 272 00:15:00,692 --> 00:15:02,401 I think it's a dress. 273 00:15:02,402 --> 00:15:04,403 It was one of Matt's favorites. 274 00:15:04,404 --> 00:15:07,073 Oh. 275 00:15:07,074 --> 00:15:09,284 I'm going on a date tomorrow. 276 00:15:10,911 --> 00:15:14,372 Uh, wait. Like, with the guy you were sleeping with? 277 00:15:14,373 --> 00:15:16,833 Who? 278 00:15:16,834 --> 00:15:19,377 - Condom guy. - Oh, Postmates guy. 279 00:15:19,378 --> 00:15:21,170 No, no, no, that was just sex. 280 00:15:21,171 --> 00:15:23,464 This is a new guy. I met him today. 281 00:15:23,465 --> 00:15:25,633 His name is Javi. 282 00:15:25,634 --> 00:15:27,343 - So it's a first date. - That's huge. 283 00:15:27,344 --> 00:15:30,304 Do you feel ready? 284 00:15:30,305 --> 00:15:32,431 I don't know, but I want to be. 285 00:15:32,432 --> 00:15:33,599 Okay. 286 00:15:33,600 --> 00:15:35,685 So what's Javi's deal? 287 00:15:35,686 --> 00:15:40,231 He likes record stores and national parks. 288 00:15:40,232 --> 00:15:42,316 - Where is he from? - 1917? 289 00:15:42,317 --> 00:15:44,569 - Sure, that tracks. - [laughs] 290 00:15:44,570 --> 00:15:47,822 - Sexy time traveler. - Yeah, why not? 291 00:15:47,823 --> 00:15:49,449 [scoffs] Okay. 292 00:15:51,660 --> 00:15:54,871 Danny. 293 00:15:54,872 --> 00:15:57,248 [groans softly] 294 00:15:57,249 --> 00:15:58,875 For six months, 295 00:15:58,876 --> 00:16:02,545 all people have wanted to talk to me about was... 296 00:16:02,546 --> 00:16:06,966 how great my brother was... 297 00:16:06,967 --> 00:16:09,469 how tragic that he's gone. 298 00:16:11,638 --> 00:16:15,850 But he was a... brother sometimes, too. 299 00:16:15,851 --> 00:16:18,477 Nobody wants to hear about that. 300 00:16:18,478 --> 00:16:23,858 [somber music] 301 00:16:23,859 --> 00:16:26,194 Are you so selfish you can't handle 302 00:16:26,195 --> 00:16:28,029 one night being about anyone else? 303 00:16:28,030 --> 00:16:30,615 You want to talk selfish, let's go. 304 00:16:30,616 --> 00:16:31,991 Dad's funeral... 305 00:16:31,992 --> 00:16:35,203 you were so checked out, I had to do everything alone. 306 00:16:35,204 --> 00:16:37,955 Undertakers, caterers, Mom's endless crying. 307 00:16:37,956 --> 00:16:40,875 I even had to pick the casket. That was a fun conversation. 308 00:16:40,876 --> 00:16:42,585 I was having a hard time. 309 00:16:42,586 --> 00:16:44,962 And nine months later, when I got the job offer to Singapore, 310 00:16:44,963 --> 00:16:47,673 you said to really think about if it felt right 311 00:16:47,674 --> 00:16:51,302 to move 9,000 miles away less than a year after Dad died. 312 00:16:51,303 --> 00:16:53,346 So I stayed. 313 00:16:53,347 --> 00:16:55,598 And a couple months later, you met Leigh. 314 00:16:55,599 --> 00:16:57,850 And you started spending all your time with her, 315 00:16:57,851 --> 00:17:00,311 and it was like you lived in another country. 316 00:17:00,312 --> 00:17:04,524 Danny... you okay? 317 00:17:04,525 --> 00:17:06,275 Take your time. 318 00:17:06,276 --> 00:17:09,487 I mean, come on, you can't handle one night 319 00:17:09,488 --> 00:17:12,156 - being about someone else? - You are such a hypocrite! 320 00:17:12,157 --> 00:17:14,367 When you're being selfish, it's always for a good reason. 321 00:17:14,368 --> 00:17:17,537 But when I'm selfish, I'm the worst person that ever lived. 322 00:17:17,538 --> 00:17:19,330 You live in this fantasy world 323 00:17:19,331 --> 00:17:20,957 where you think you're this great guy, 324 00:17:20,958 --> 00:17:22,625 but you let me down so many times. 325 00:17:22,626 --> 00:17:24,544 And you can't even acknowledge it, 326 00:17:24,545 --> 00:17:26,462 much less apologize for it. 327 00:17:26,463 --> 00:17:30,591 [music continues] 328 00:17:30,592 --> 00:17:32,761 Danny? 329 00:17:37,307 --> 00:17:39,934 I was an asshole to my mom yesterday. 330 00:17:39,935 --> 00:17:41,686 And I didn't want to be, 331 00:17:41,687 --> 00:17:45,439 but every time she brings him up, I just go off. 332 00:17:45,440 --> 00:17:47,775 And I keep replaying 333 00:17:47,776 --> 00:17:51,404 this one fight Matt and I had in my head. 334 00:17:51,405 --> 00:17:55,908 And I'm finally saying all the things 335 00:17:55,909 --> 00:17:57,786 I should have said to him 336 00:17:59,538 --> 00:18:01,540 What's the point? 337 00:18:03,292 --> 00:18:06,169 You know, he's already had the last word, 338 00:18:06,170 --> 00:18:09,798 and he's never gonna hear the things that I want to tell him. 339 00:18:11,800 --> 00:18:17,598 [somber music] 340 00:18:22,394 --> 00:18:25,021 Well? 341 00:18:25,022 --> 00:18:26,815 Well, what? 342 00:18:29,109 --> 00:18:33,112 Does anybody have anything grief-group-y to say? 343 00:18:33,113 --> 00:18:35,865 You'll get through it. 344 00:18:35,866 --> 00:18:39,702 - Anger is normal. - Let yourself feel it. 345 00:18:39,703 --> 00:18:42,830 You won't be there forever. 346 00:18:42,831 --> 00:18:46,125 You'll remember the good things. 347 00:18:46,126 --> 00:18:50,296 What if there's nothing good to remember? 348 00:18:50,297 --> 00:18:53,382 What if the bad stuff is the real stuff... 349 00:18:53,383 --> 00:18:56,219 And... 350 00:18:56,220 --> 00:18:58,429 I'm just seeing that now? 351 00:18:58,430 --> 00:19:04,436 [music continues] 352 00:19:06,146 --> 00:19:08,439 [indistinct chatter] 353 00:19:08,440 --> 00:19:10,066 [laughter] 354 00:19:10,067 --> 00:19:12,944 Anyway, that's why I don't, you know, pray before meals. 355 00:19:12,945 --> 00:19:15,530 It just reminds me too much of my super-Catholic family 356 00:19:15,531 --> 00:19:17,448 and their super-Catholic rules. 357 00:19:17,449 --> 00:19:21,661 So, well, how do you access you-know-who? 358 00:19:21,662 --> 00:19:24,664 - Wow, hot take. - [chuckles] 359 00:19:24,665 --> 00:19:27,500 - You know God isn't Voldemort? - [chuckles] 360 00:19:27,501 --> 00:19:31,212 Uh, yeah, I don't know She's, um... 361 00:19:31,213 --> 00:19:34,131 my friend, my boss, my partner, my lover. 362 00:19:34,132 --> 00:19:35,967 - Sounds complicated. - Um, do you want some of this? 363 00:19:35,968 --> 00:19:37,468 Yes. 364 00:19:37,469 --> 00:19:41,556 I mean, I've learned that God is always there for me. 365 00:19:41,557 --> 00:19:45,476 She knows all of me, and She loves me exactly as I am. 366 00:19:45,477 --> 00:19:47,728 - Oh. All of you. - [laughs] 367 00:19:47,729 --> 00:19:49,689 Uh, yeah, God's gonna need to strike some things 368 00:19:49,690 --> 00:19:52,275 from my record if She wants to be friends. 369 00:19:52,276 --> 00:19:54,861 Yeah, well, we've all done stuff, Jules. 370 00:19:54,862 --> 00:19:56,696 People don't go to church 'cause they're perfect. 371 00:19:56,697 --> 00:19:57,905 [woman speaks Spanish] 372 00:19:57,906 --> 00:19:59,533 - Thank you. - Thanks. 373 00:20:02,327 --> 00:20:05,288 Hey, so, uh... do you get a finder's fee 374 00:20:05,289 --> 00:20:06,914 for every new person you bring in or... 375 00:20:06,915 --> 00:20:09,500 - Oh, okay, yeah. - Too much church. 376 00:20:09,501 --> 00:20:11,294 Sorry about that. I am... 377 00:20:11,295 --> 00:20:14,589 Look, I'm not good at, like, first-date small talk. 378 00:20:14,590 --> 00:20:17,258 - This is a date? - I wasn't sure. 379 00:20:17,259 --> 00:20:19,510 I mean, I brought you to my secret tamale spot. 380 00:20:19,511 --> 00:20:21,554 I'm literally holding a tamale for you. 381 00:20:21,555 --> 00:20:23,055 [both laugh] 382 00:20:23,056 --> 00:20:27,310 I thought maybe you were being nice to me 383 00:20:27,311 --> 00:20:28,978 because you felt sorry for me. 384 00:20:28,979 --> 00:20:31,355 Why would I feel sorry for you? 385 00:20:31,356 --> 00:20:33,733 My knee. 386 00:20:33,734 --> 00:20:36,194 No, because I'm an alcoholic and, you know, 387 00:20:36,195 --> 00:20:40,781 I don't have a life outside of work or recovery. 388 00:20:40,782 --> 00:20:43,743 - Jules... - Look, I'm sorry, I... 389 00:20:43,744 --> 00:20:48,206 Yeah, I don't know why I am, um... 390 00:20:48,207 --> 00:20:51,334 I don't know what I'm doing right now. 391 00:20:51,335 --> 00:20:53,503 You want to start over? 392 00:20:53,504 --> 00:20:56,756 Like God, I-I actually believe in second chances... 393 00:20:56,757 --> 00:20:59,300 and third and fourth. 394 00:20:59,301 --> 00:21:01,928 But that's it. Don't... no more. 395 00:21:01,929 --> 00:21:04,222 [chuckles] 396 00:21:04,223 --> 00:21:06,767 - Maybe fifth. - [chuckles] 397 00:21:10,312 --> 00:21:12,522 - Thank you, you guys. - Great job. 398 00:21:12,523 --> 00:21:14,106 - I'll see you next time. - Thanks for coming. 399 00:21:14,107 --> 00:21:16,193 - Good to see you. - Oh! 400 00:21:19,196 --> 00:21:20,863 Good to see you. 401 00:21:20,864 --> 00:21:23,366 Well, I guess I'm gonna go home 402 00:21:23,367 --> 00:21:26,118 and get ready. 403 00:21:26,119 --> 00:21:29,121 How is someone supposed to act on a first date again? 404 00:21:29,122 --> 00:21:30,790 Ooh. 405 00:21:30,791 --> 00:21:34,168 You are asking the wrong person for that advice, my friend. 406 00:21:34,169 --> 00:21:36,420 [laughs] 407 00:21:36,421 --> 00:21:39,799 I'm sorry that I was late. 408 00:21:39,800 --> 00:21:41,926 Um, thank you for covering. 409 00:21:41,927 --> 00:21:44,428 Covering is a strong word for what I did. 410 00:21:44,429 --> 00:21:46,806 I can't teach. I just stalled. 411 00:21:46,807 --> 00:21:50,226 - It was awkward. - Yeah, well, I really am sorry. 412 00:21:50,227 --> 00:21:51,602 I don't know what happened. 413 00:21:51,603 --> 00:21:54,564 I thought I set a reminder, but... 414 00:21:54,565 --> 00:21:57,567 - Can I say something? - Mm-hmm. 415 00:21:57,568 --> 00:22:00,653 I just feel like, um... 416 00:22:00,654 --> 00:22:03,739 even when you are here, you don't really want to be here. 417 00:22:03,740 --> 00:22:08,035 And I think that's why enrollment in your classes 418 00:22:08,036 --> 00:22:10,705 has dropped off. 419 00:22:10,706 --> 00:22:12,832 Okay, um... 420 00:22:12,833 --> 00:22:15,835 I think there's, like, a few people that stopped coming. 421 00:22:15,836 --> 00:22:19,088 It's almost 40%. 422 00:22:19,089 --> 00:22:21,842 Okay, that's a lot. 423 00:22:32,603 --> 00:22:35,771 Do you still care about this job? 424 00:22:35,772 --> 00:22:39,275 Uh... 425 00:22:39,276 --> 00:22:42,403 I don't really know how to answer that. 426 00:22:42,404 --> 00:22:45,865 - Well, I can answer it. - I still care about it. 427 00:22:45,866 --> 00:22:48,242 A lot, actually. 428 00:22:48,243 --> 00:22:51,078 Jules, you know that I've... 429 00:22:51,079 --> 00:22:53,623 I've got a lot going on right now. 430 00:22:53,624 --> 00:22:57,126 So does the studio, and I can't keep doing it alone. 431 00:22:57,127 --> 00:23:00,880 Look, Vanessa has been asking to do more, 432 00:23:00,881 --> 00:23:03,591 and maybe I should just let her. 433 00:23:03,592 --> 00:23:06,093 If you can't handle your workload, 434 00:23:06,094 --> 00:23:09,931 I can give it to someone who wants it. 435 00:23:09,932 --> 00:23:13,434 [laughs] Are you... 436 00:23:13,435 --> 00:23:15,687 are you firing me? 437 00:23:17,898 --> 00:23:19,482 [scoffs] 438 00:23:19,483 --> 00:23:21,400 I... guess? 439 00:23:21,401 --> 00:23:25,322 [laughing] Wow. 440 00:23:27,824 --> 00:23:30,117 Look... 441 00:23:30,118 --> 00:23:32,745 we don't have to pay rent on Mom's house. 442 00:23:32,746 --> 00:23:35,790 I can cover groceries and stuff. 443 00:23:35,791 --> 00:23:38,751 Take a month. Take two. 444 00:23:38,752 --> 00:23:42,505 Take the time. Figure things out. 445 00:23:42,506 --> 00:23:44,174 I've got you. 446 00:23:45,717 --> 00:23:46,927 Okay. 447 00:23:50,222 --> 00:23:52,307 Um... 448 00:23:55,936 --> 00:23:59,522 [door opens] 449 00:23:59,523 --> 00:24:01,942 [door closes] 450 00:24:03,694 --> 00:24:06,487 both: Thank you. 451 00:24:06,488 --> 00:24:08,948 - Cheers. - Mm. 452 00:24:08,949 --> 00:24:10,366 [chuckles] 453 00:24:10,367 --> 00:24:14,036 - Sorry. Weird day. - [chuckles] 454 00:24:14,037 --> 00:24:17,832 - So you work for the Internet. - Mm-hmm. 455 00:24:17,833 --> 00:24:20,042 Yeah, that might be a deal breaker. 456 00:24:20,043 --> 00:24:22,587 - Okay. - Well, have a nice evening. 457 00:24:22,588 --> 00:24:24,380 All right, I'll just take care of the check. 458 00:24:24,381 --> 00:24:27,133 - Don't even worry about it. - [laughs] 459 00:24:27,134 --> 00:24:29,343 So what's your problem with the internet? 460 00:24:29,344 --> 00:24:30,678 Mm. 461 00:24:30,679 --> 00:24:32,180 Screens in general. 462 00:24:32,181 --> 00:24:35,558 You know, I heard somewhere that people spend 11 hours a day 463 00:24:35,559 --> 00:24:37,768 just staring at a screen. 464 00:24:37,769 --> 00:24:40,062 It's kind of creepy. [both chuckle] 465 00:24:40,063 --> 00:24:42,690 - Want to sit? - Sure. 466 00:24:42,691 --> 00:24:45,109 Yeah, I mean, it is creepy. 467 00:24:45,110 --> 00:24:48,321 But isn't that just living in the 21st century? 468 00:24:48,322 --> 00:24:49,780 [chuckles] 469 00:24:49,781 --> 00:24:52,450 Ah, it doesn't have to be. 470 00:24:52,451 --> 00:24:54,619 - I have a flip phone. - Oh, cool. 471 00:24:54,620 --> 00:24:56,329 Congratulations. 472 00:24:56,330 --> 00:24:59,207 And I check my emails at the library, 473 00:24:59,208 --> 00:25:01,000 and I work as a handyman. 474 00:25:01,001 --> 00:25:04,212 And when I'm not working, I'm out there in the real world 475 00:25:04,213 --> 00:25:06,589 still doing real-world things. 476 00:25:06,590 --> 00:25:10,426 I go hiking, listen to music, meet new people. 477 00:25:10,427 --> 00:25:13,971 - That sounds really lovely. - It is. 478 00:25:13,972 --> 00:25:15,598 Come to the Dark Side. 479 00:25:15,599 --> 00:25:17,016 - Oh, boy. - Join me. 480 00:25:17,017 --> 00:25:18,684 [both laugh] 481 00:25:18,685 --> 00:25:20,811 Well, the next time I see my boss, the Internet, 482 00:25:20,812 --> 00:25:23,856 - I will put in my two weeks. - [laughs] 483 00:25:23,857 --> 00:25:26,567 I'm really glad you walked into the record store when you did. 484 00:25:26,568 --> 00:25:28,653 What are the odds? 485 00:25:28,654 --> 00:25:32,323 Well, maybe it was fate or a sign. 486 00:25:32,324 --> 00:25:34,617 A sign of what? 487 00:25:34,618 --> 00:25:37,370 I don't know. I'm still trying to figure that one out. 488 00:25:37,371 --> 00:25:39,163 [laughs] 489 00:25:39,164 --> 00:25:41,041 Cheers to that. 490 00:25:45,963 --> 00:25:50,550 - This is it. - It's really nice. 491 00:25:50,551 --> 00:25:52,260 Yeah, it was a... when I moved it, 492 00:25:52,261 --> 00:25:53,845 but I've been fixing it up. 493 00:25:53,846 --> 00:25:55,848 [door closes] 494 00:25:58,267 --> 00:26:01,060 [inhales sharply] Do-do-do-do... 495 00:26:01,061 --> 00:26:05,106 [record player creaks and clicks] 496 00:26:05,107 --> 00:26:08,067 Oh, I like this piece. 497 00:26:08,068 --> 00:26:10,069 Thanks. 498 00:26:10,070 --> 00:26:15,199 [soft music playing] 499 00:26:15,200 --> 00:26:16,742 All right. 500 00:26:16,743 --> 00:26:20,289 My place runs a little cold, so let me know if... 501 00:26:22,082 --> 00:26:28,088 [music continues] 502 00:26:40,601 --> 00:26:42,518 Everything okay? 503 00:26:42,519 --> 00:26:46,105 Yeah, could we, um... 504 00:26:46,106 --> 00:26:48,482 slow down a bit? 505 00:26:48,483 --> 00:26:51,777 - Yeah, yeah, sure. - No problem. 506 00:26:51,778 --> 00:26:55,489 You want something to drink? Some water? 507 00:26:55,490 --> 00:26:58,701 - How about something stronger? - Yeah. 508 00:26:58,702 --> 00:27:02,705 Uh, I'll make us some cocktails. You like bourbon? 509 00:27:02,706 --> 00:27:05,374 Yeah. 510 00:27:05,375 --> 00:27:08,336 - You sure you're okay? - Mm-hmm. 511 00:27:08,337 --> 00:27:10,922 All right, be right back. 512 00:27:10,923 --> 00:27:15,927 [music continues] 513 00:27:15,928 --> 00:27:19,013 [ice scraping, clattering] 514 00:27:19,014 --> 00:27:25,020 [tense music] 515 00:27:30,734 --> 00:27:36,448 [soft music continues playing] 516 00:27:53,090 --> 00:27:55,174 [gate creaks] 517 00:27:55,175 --> 00:27:57,177 [gate closes] 518 00:28:02,558 --> 00:28:06,602 [breathing heavily] 519 00:28:06,603 --> 00:28:12,609 [music continues] 520 00:28:17,531 --> 00:28:19,782 [grunts] 521 00:28:19,783 --> 00:28:25,789 [music continues] 522 00:30:10,060 --> 00:30:13,187 How much gas do you have in your car? 523 00:30:13,188 --> 00:30:15,815 - How is this gonna work? - We're gonna gamble, 524 00:30:15,816 --> 00:30:19,777 we're gonna drink, and we'll do other stuff. 525 00:30:19,778 --> 00:30:22,405 This is the best I've felt in a really long time. 526 00:30:22,406 --> 00:30:25,950 I think we're allowed to feel good. 527 00:30:25,951 --> 00:30:28,494 You know that this is rigged, right? 528 00:30:28,495 --> 00:30:30,329 I've never felt like the universe 529 00:30:30,330 --> 00:30:32,331 was more on my side than in this moment. 530 00:30:32,332 --> 00:30:36,252 [both laugh] 531 00:30:36,253 --> 00:30:38,129 I point to someone, 532 00:30:38,130 --> 00:30:40,756 and you tell me their deepest, darkest secret. 533 00:30:40,757 --> 00:30:42,759 Who's the first victim?