1 00:00:05,103 --> 00:00:07,000 [Vernon] In the Amish world, 2 00:00:07,000 --> 00:00:10,206 we abstain from electricity, we abstain from cars. 3 00:00:10,206 --> 00:00:12,793 [woman] We don't wear makeup or jewelry. 4 00:00:12,793 --> 00:00:15,172 [Allen] We work the fields, we go to church. 5 00:00:23,172 --> 00:00:24,793 [Vernon speaking foreign language] 6 00:00:26,586 --> 00:00:29,172 [in English] Our youth are leaving in record numbers. 7 00:00:29,172 --> 00:00:30,896 [James] Dating in the community is hard. 8 00:00:30,896 --> 00:00:34,172 If I look around, I'm related, I'm related. 9 00:00:34,172 --> 00:00:36,586 [Vernon] Our population is shrinking. 10 00:00:36,586 --> 00:00:39,827 So I will be inviting people in from the outside 11 00:00:39,827 --> 00:00:43,689 in hopes of repopulating the church. 12 00:00:46,103 --> 00:00:48,413 [Kendra] Modern life is exhausting. 13 00:00:48,413 --> 00:00:52,206 Having a chance to live a simpler life like the Amish... 14 00:00:52,206 --> 00:00:53,379 hell yeah. 15 00:00:53,379 --> 00:00:56,379 I want to be Amish 'cause I love that lifestyle, 16 00:00:56,379 --> 00:00:57,896 I love the traditional sense. 17 00:00:57,896 --> 00:00:59,586 [Judah] I don't like that I wake up, 18 00:00:59,586 --> 00:01:01,379 the first thing I do is get on Instagram. 19 00:01:01,379 --> 00:01:04,206 I feel like it would be better for me, like, spiritually to become Amish. 20 00:01:05,275 --> 00:01:08,000 I ain't never seen no cornfield up in person. 21 00:01:09,310 --> 00:01:11,896 You'll need to integrate into the Amish community. 22 00:01:13,068 --> 00:01:18,379 In our Amish house, there is no electricity, no AC. 23 00:01:18,379 --> 00:01:20,068 This is our outhouse. 24 00:01:20,068 --> 00:01:22,689 [Billie Jo] You've got to be lying. 25 00:01:22,689 --> 00:01:24,482 [Esmeralda] Women do the laundry. 26 00:01:24,482 --> 00:01:26,000 Oh, no. Ew. 27 00:01:26,000 --> 00:01:28,103 [Sarah speaking] 28 00:01:28,103 --> 00:01:30,379 -[Billie Jo] Oh, like period pads? -[Sarah] Yes. 29 00:01:30,379 --> 00:01:32,689 [sighs] Oh, my gosh. 30 00:01:32,689 --> 00:01:34,206 We left a completely different world. 31 00:01:34,206 --> 00:01:35,931 This is a huge culture shock to me. 32 00:01:38,378 --> 00:01:40,448 They're not gonna make it. 33 00:01:42,896 --> 00:01:45,103 [Kendra] Real change only happens 34 00:01:45,103 --> 00:01:47,620 when you're willing to get out of your comfort zone. 35 00:01:55,275 --> 00:01:57,206 I'm so used to living a certain way 36 00:01:57,206 --> 00:01:58,827 that I'm coming here and it's completely different. 37 00:02:00,310 --> 00:02:04,068 You don't feel like you owe all of us an apology for how you both acted? 38 00:02:04,068 --> 00:02:05,482 [Esmeralda] Giving, like, mean girl energy 39 00:02:05,482 --> 00:02:07,103 like, a gaslighting situation. 40 00:02:07,103 --> 00:02:09,000 -[sniffles] -Wait. What? 41 00:02:09,000 --> 00:02:11,000 -Are you kidding me right now? -[squeals] 42 00:02:12,103 --> 00:02:14,310 I just felt the need just to yell it out! 43 00:02:14,310 --> 00:02:17,896 [James] I'm escorting you off the property. Go! 44 00:02:17,896 --> 00:02:19,724 They're going to want to go back to their easy life. 45 00:02:19,724 --> 00:02:24,827 Do we or don't we accept these applicants to continue finding their way here? 46 00:02:24,827 --> 00:02:27,103 My life completely changes after today. 47 00:02:27,103 --> 00:02:29,000 [Kendra sobbing] 48 00:02:29,000 --> 00:02:30,482 [Vernon] You are willing to conform, 49 00:02:30,482 --> 00:02:32,517 you are willing to submit. 50 00:02:32,517 --> 00:02:33,689 [sobbing] 51 00:02:43,689 --> 00:02:48,275 [congregation singing] ♪ Amazing grace ♪ 52 00:02:48,275 --> 00:02:52,586 ♪ How sweet the sound ♪ 53 00:02:52,586 --> 00:02:57,275 ♪ That saved a wretch ♪ 54 00:02:57,275 --> 00:03:00,000 ♪ Like me ♪ 55 00:03:01,000 --> 00:03:03,000 My name is Vernon Coblentz, 56 00:03:03,000 --> 00:03:04,931 and I am the bishop of this community. 57 00:03:07,379 --> 00:03:10,068 Primarily, bishops make the rules. 58 00:03:11,689 --> 00:03:14,620 In the Amish way of saying it, it's called Ordnung. 59 00:03:22,068 --> 00:03:25,310 If you're disrespectful to theOrdnung of your own church, 60 00:03:25,310 --> 00:03:26,827 that's just a no-no. 61 00:03:28,275 --> 00:03:33,517 To be Amish is like a culture, faith and lifestyle all in one. 62 00:03:33,517 --> 00:03:35,103 We have our own language, 63 00:03:35,103 --> 00:03:37,067 which is a German dialect. 64 00:03:37,067 --> 00:03:40,689 [speaking foreign language] 65 00:03:40,689 --> 00:03:42,275 [in English] In the Amish world, 66 00:03:42,275 --> 00:03:46,000 we abstain from electricity and from cars. 67 00:03:46,000 --> 00:03:48,000 Amish means no tattoos. 68 00:03:48,000 --> 00:03:51,689 Amish means no jewelry and definitely no makeup. 69 00:03:51,689 --> 00:03:54,067 Your clothes are homemade. 70 00:03:54,067 --> 00:03:55,689 Men will always wear hats. 71 00:03:55,689 --> 00:03:57,724 Women will always wear coverings. 72 00:03:57,724 --> 00:03:59,413 This simplicity, 73 00:03:59,413 --> 00:04:03,413 along with our need to keep technology out of our community, 74 00:04:03,413 --> 00:04:05,586 allows us to draw closer to God 75 00:04:05,586 --> 00:04:07,000 and the nature around us. 76 00:04:08,689 --> 00:04:11,896 [Emma] ♪ Thank you for the valley ♪ 77 00:04:11,896 --> 00:04:16,310 ♪ I walk through today ♪ 78 00:04:16,310 --> 00:04:19,724 ♪ The darker the valley ♪ 79 00:04:19,724 --> 00:04:23,310 ♪ The more I learn to pray ♪ 80 00:04:24,586 --> 00:04:31,172 ♪ I found you where the lilies Were blowing by the way ♪ 81 00:04:31,172 --> 00:04:34,172 I love that I got to grow up Amish. 82 00:04:35,724 --> 00:04:40,068 I love to hang out outdoors and just live off of the land. 83 00:04:42,275 --> 00:04:44,275 It's so peaceful. 84 00:04:46,689 --> 00:04:48,000 It's like heaven on earth. 85 00:04:59,793 --> 00:05:00,896 [John speaking] 86 00:05:00,896 --> 00:05:01,896 Hey! 87 00:05:01,896 --> 00:05:03,931 This is my cousin John. 88 00:05:03,931 --> 00:05:06,620 For us Amish, community is everything. 89 00:05:06,620 --> 00:05:08,103 If somebody comes and asks for help, 90 00:05:08,103 --> 00:05:10,103 like, we'll just go help them, you know. 91 00:05:10,103 --> 00:05:12,172 We'll come together whatever the project is. 92 00:05:12,172 --> 00:05:15,103 Everybody raises produce during the summer. 93 00:05:15,103 --> 00:05:16,482 This is what they do for a living. 94 00:05:16,482 --> 00:05:18,000 [gasps] Strawberries! 95 00:05:18,000 --> 00:05:20,620 I'm glad I grew up Amish, 96 00:05:20,620 --> 00:05:22,310 but I'm just really concerned 97 00:05:22,310 --> 00:05:25,241 the world that I love will disappear. 98 00:05:27,724 --> 00:05:30,482 I got some duck [bleep] on my finger now. Gross. 99 00:05:30,482 --> 00:05:32,586 You don't know what duck [bleep] smells like? 100 00:05:32,586 --> 00:05:34,103 I guess you didn't grow up on a farm. 101 00:05:34,103 --> 00:05:37,000 [laughing] 102 00:05:37,000 --> 00:05:38,379 I got you there. 103 00:05:39,620 --> 00:05:41,068 I want to show you a couple of stuff 104 00:05:41,068 --> 00:05:42,793 that I have hidden away here. 105 00:05:42,793 --> 00:05:45,000 Of course, you're not allowed to see this ever. 106 00:05:45,000 --> 00:05:48,000 Like, you tell the bishop, you will have me on your ass. 107 00:05:48,000 --> 00:05:49,517 I keep getting into trouble. 108 00:05:49,517 --> 00:05:51,689 Like, I am the "black sheep" of the community. 109 00:05:54,000 --> 00:05:55,620 This is probably my favorite. 110 00:05:55,620 --> 00:05:56,689 Chambord. 111 00:05:56,689 --> 00:05:58,586 Oh, that's good. 112 00:05:58,586 --> 00:06:00,482 Actually, I'm thirsty right now. 113 00:06:01,931 --> 00:06:03,896 I realize I broke the rules, 114 00:06:03,896 --> 00:06:07,068 but I still take my culture and community very seriously. 115 00:06:08,724 --> 00:06:11,206 I do not have a good standing in my community right now. 116 00:06:11,206 --> 00:06:13,000 I am shunned. 117 00:06:13,000 --> 00:06:15,827 Being shunned is kind of considered 118 00:06:15,827 --> 00:06:17,793 the ultimate punishment. 119 00:06:24,482 --> 00:06:27,310 I was shunned for owning and using a cell phone. 120 00:06:27,310 --> 00:06:29,689 As a shunned person, you'll feel like an outcast, 121 00:06:29,689 --> 00:06:33,000 like an outsider, kind of outside looking in. 122 00:06:33,000 --> 00:06:34,379 You can't partake in Communion. 123 00:06:34,379 --> 00:06:36,379 You can't eat with your family. 124 00:06:36,379 --> 00:06:38,482 You can't do business with them. 125 00:06:38,482 --> 00:06:41,827 There's a lot of shame involved in being shunned. 126 00:06:41,827 --> 00:06:44,586 You no longer feel like you're part of the community, 127 00:06:44,586 --> 00:06:47,724 which is your whole identity because you grew up in it. 128 00:06:47,724 --> 00:06:49,586 It is the whole goal of shunning 129 00:06:49,586 --> 00:06:52,931 is to make somebody feel bad about themselves. 130 00:06:52,931 --> 00:06:55,206 I moved to Lancaster 131 00:06:55,206 --> 00:06:57,103 because I'm hoping to start a new life. 132 00:06:57,103 --> 00:06:58,724 I love being Amish, 133 00:06:58,724 --> 00:07:01,793 but dating in my community is a little different 134 00:07:01,793 --> 00:07:04,172 than where you guys do dating. [laughs] 135 00:07:06,379 --> 00:07:10,000 For one, I am related to almost everybody. 136 00:07:10,000 --> 00:07:12,172 I go to the youth group, I look around... 137 00:07:14,172 --> 00:07:16,413 I'm related, I'm related. [laughs] 138 00:07:19,689 --> 00:07:21,413 Third cousin once removed. 139 00:07:22,931 --> 00:07:24,586 [Emma] Lot of Amish communities, 140 00:07:24,586 --> 00:07:27,172 they populate so fast. 141 00:07:27,172 --> 00:07:28,379 It only takes 15 years, 142 00:07:28,379 --> 00:07:30,620 and they look around and they're, like, 143 00:07:30,620 --> 00:07:32,206 "Everybody's related." 144 00:07:32,206 --> 00:07:34,896 So youth end up leaving the Amish 145 00:07:34,896 --> 00:07:36,931 because they have no options. 146 00:07:36,931 --> 00:07:40,172 There are some communities that are very inbred. 147 00:07:42,172 --> 00:07:44,413 It's just like that you work with cattle, right? 148 00:07:44,413 --> 00:07:48,586 I know that I can't take brothers and sisters and cousins 149 00:07:48,586 --> 00:07:49,689 and breed them to each other 150 00:07:49,689 --> 00:07:51,275 and expect to have a good calf. 151 00:07:52,206 --> 00:07:53,689 That's just not the way it works. 152 00:07:54,689 --> 00:07:57,275 [Vernon] Not having new people in a community 153 00:07:57,275 --> 00:08:02,068 sadly causes infants to be born with mental and physical challenges. 154 00:08:03,517 --> 00:08:05,586 But another reason people are leaving our community 155 00:08:05,586 --> 00:08:07,896 is simply because of the technology. 156 00:08:07,896 --> 00:08:10,000 It's hard to keep it out. 157 00:08:10,000 --> 00:08:12,275 And it changes the young people. 158 00:08:12,275 --> 00:08:13,413 [music playing on earphones] 159 00:08:13,413 --> 00:08:16,586 My plan to fix this is an unconventional one. 160 00:08:16,586 --> 00:08:20,896 I will be inviting English people into our community 161 00:08:20,896 --> 00:08:23,586 in hopes of repopulating the church. 162 00:08:29,689 --> 00:08:32,688 As Amish, we're forbidden to use smartphones and computers. 163 00:08:32,688 --> 00:08:34,517 So I've asked an English friend 164 00:08:34,517 --> 00:08:35,793 to be the go-between 165 00:08:35,793 --> 00:08:37,931 to spread the word about this opportunity. 166 00:08:39,102 --> 00:08:42,000 I realize not all my brothers would agree 167 00:08:42,000 --> 00:08:44,275 with integrating people from the outside, 168 00:08:44,275 --> 00:08:48,896 mostly because they're afraid of sin and temptation 169 00:08:48,896 --> 00:08:51,482 coming into our Amish circles. 170 00:08:51,482 --> 00:08:54,551 This is not something I can do on my own. 171 00:08:57,000 --> 00:08:58,586 [James] The bishop approached me and asked me 172 00:08:58,586 --> 00:09:00,620 if I would help take care of the English 173 00:09:00,620 --> 00:09:02,689 that wanted to actually join the Amish, 174 00:09:02,689 --> 00:09:04,103 and I agreed to it. 175 00:09:07,172 --> 00:09:08,517 [Vernon] By helping me, 176 00:09:08,517 --> 00:09:11,482 I'm offering James a chance at redemption. 177 00:09:11,482 --> 00:09:13,896 I'm going to have to have a woman help... 178 00:09:15,586 --> 00:09:18,310 So I'll have my cousin Emma help me. 179 00:09:18,310 --> 00:09:20,896 It is a risky endeavor for all of us, 180 00:09:20,896 --> 00:09:25,000 and there's always the chance that these English might destroy the community. 181 00:09:25,000 --> 00:09:27,689 They could cause enough disharmony to the point 182 00:09:27,689 --> 00:09:29,586 it topples the church. 183 00:09:32,689 --> 00:09:33,827 [Emma singing] 184 00:09:41,517 --> 00:09:43,620 [Vernon] I believe that God would be pleased 185 00:09:43,620 --> 00:09:48,827 to open the doors and embrace new people in the community. 186 00:09:48,827 --> 00:09:51,793 Bringing people in from the outside is always a risk. 187 00:09:51,793 --> 00:09:56,068 It can be a good thing, and it can be a disaster. 188 00:09:57,379 --> 00:10:00,413 ♪ He'll carry you through ♪ 189 00:10:08,517 --> 00:10:10,172 My name is Kendra Bates. 190 00:10:10,172 --> 00:10:13,206 I'm 32 years old and I am from Milwaukee, Wisconsin, 191 00:10:13,206 --> 00:10:15,586 living in Los Angeles, California. 192 00:10:15,586 --> 00:10:18,103 LA is so dirty and it's stinky, 193 00:10:18,103 --> 00:10:20,068 and there's literally poop everywhere. 194 00:10:20,068 --> 00:10:21,724 People are always yelling. 195 00:10:21,724 --> 00:10:25,000 And if you're walking past someone on the sidewalk, no one says hi. 196 00:10:25,000 --> 00:10:27,275 No one says, "How are you doing?" 197 00:10:28,482 --> 00:10:29,896 I feel like when I first moved here, 198 00:10:29,896 --> 00:10:31,275 I was just trying to get to know people 199 00:10:31,275 --> 00:10:33,620 and having that, like, Wisconsin mindset, I went to a party 200 00:10:33,620 --> 00:10:36,206 and this girl literally told me she could not be friends with me 201 00:10:36,206 --> 00:10:37,379 'cause I didn't have enough followers. 202 00:10:38,793 --> 00:10:41,931 [hip-hop music playing] 203 00:10:44,379 --> 00:10:46,103 I am a dancer. 204 00:10:46,103 --> 00:10:48,172 I'm constantly trying to train, 205 00:10:48,172 --> 00:10:49,379 constantly trying to network, 206 00:10:49,379 --> 00:10:51,103 meet new people, go to auditions. 207 00:10:53,586 --> 00:10:56,896 A lot of people misunderstand my appearance versus my personality. 208 00:10:56,896 --> 00:10:58,931 My faith is really important. 209 00:11:00,275 --> 00:11:01,793 [people cheering] 210 00:11:01,793 --> 00:11:03,931 Me getting baptized was the hugest thing. 211 00:11:03,931 --> 00:11:06,275 Like, I've completely given myself to Christ. 212 00:11:06,275 --> 00:11:08,310 And then that's where I get scrutinized is because people are like, 213 00:11:08,310 --> 00:11:09,482 "Well, you say you're a Christian, 214 00:11:09,482 --> 00:11:11,310 but then you're posting all of this, like, 215 00:11:11,310 --> 00:11:12,931 sexy stuff on your Instagram." 216 00:11:12,931 --> 00:11:15,172 Guys see my Instagram 217 00:11:15,172 --> 00:11:17,275 and they automatically think I'm a hookup girl. 218 00:11:17,275 --> 00:11:19,931 And so, it's like this weird, like, counterbalance. 219 00:11:22,379 --> 00:11:24,482 Before I got baptized, 220 00:11:24,482 --> 00:11:26,586 I was, like, at the lowest point, 221 00:11:26,586 --> 00:11:29,000 and I did decide to do OnlyFans, 222 00:11:29,000 --> 00:11:31,620 and at that time, I was like, "I don't care. 223 00:11:31,620 --> 00:11:34,103 "Like, I really don't care who sees me." 224 00:11:34,103 --> 00:11:36,206 And it stemmed from me 225 00:11:36,206 --> 00:11:38,379 really not having any love for myself. 226 00:11:38,379 --> 00:11:41,103 I really, like... 227 00:11:42,482 --> 00:11:43,482 Sorry, um... 228 00:11:44,793 --> 00:11:47,000 I really did, like, hate myself so much. 229 00:11:47,000 --> 00:11:50,413 And I felt so dirty about myself. 230 00:11:52,896 --> 00:11:54,620 And, like, I just, I wasn't respecting myself. 231 00:11:54,620 --> 00:11:56,000 I was giving myself to other men 232 00:11:56,000 --> 00:11:58,206 who, like, really did not respect me. 233 00:11:59,689 --> 00:12:01,586 I don't know, you just feel so gross about yourself. 234 00:12:01,586 --> 00:12:03,896 Even though it's been five years since I've done it, 235 00:12:03,896 --> 00:12:04,896 even though I go to church, 236 00:12:04,896 --> 00:12:06,000 even though I, like, barely drink, 237 00:12:06,000 --> 00:12:07,137 I don't sleep with people, 238 00:12:07,137 --> 00:12:09,068 like, I live a completely different lifestyle, like, 239 00:12:09,068 --> 00:12:11,586 forgiving myself for that is the hardest thing. 240 00:12:14,000 --> 00:12:17,068 I feel like there's something more that I want to be living for, 241 00:12:17,068 --> 00:12:19,000 something more that I want to be doing. 242 00:12:20,517 --> 00:12:23,586 I first found out about this opportunity on social media. 243 00:12:23,586 --> 00:12:27,068 I was like a chance to live with the Amish? Like, "Absolutely." 244 00:12:27,068 --> 00:12:31,310 I actually fell for an Amish boy in the past. 245 00:12:31,310 --> 00:12:35,103 Basically, my friend grew up next to an Amish community and she was like, 246 00:12:35,103 --> 00:12:37,103 "Hey, they're all in..." Rahmspringer? 247 00:12:37,103 --> 00:12:40,689 Is it Rahmspringer or Rumspringa or something like that. 248 00:12:40,689 --> 00:12:42,896 And she was like, "They're having a party. You wanna go?" 249 00:12:42,896 --> 00:12:44,896 And I was like, "With Amish? Yes." 250 00:12:44,896 --> 00:12:48,689 And I saw a boy across the way who was Amish, 251 00:12:48,689 --> 00:12:52,689 and I thought he was the cutest thing I've ever seen. 252 00:12:52,689 --> 00:12:55,068 And when I left, I was like, "I'm in love." 253 00:12:55,068 --> 00:12:57,379 I was, like, "I want to be with him." 254 00:12:57,379 --> 00:13:00,620 But unfortunately, he was, like, very tied into his Amish roots. 255 00:13:00,620 --> 00:13:03,172 And so we just, like, couldn't keep it going. 256 00:13:06,586 --> 00:13:09,724 I feel like God is giving me this opportunity 257 00:13:09,724 --> 00:13:11,172 to become Amish. 258 00:13:12,586 --> 00:13:17,275 Being in a community that is more pure and God-centered, 259 00:13:17,275 --> 00:13:21,172 I'm hoping it'll help, like, release the pain 260 00:13:21,172 --> 00:13:24,000 and the image that I view of myself. 261 00:13:33,379 --> 00:13:36,172 I'm Judah. I'm 22 years old. 262 00:13:36,172 --> 00:13:39,379 Growing up, we didn't have much, for real. 263 00:13:39,379 --> 00:13:42,000 Money was tight. We had to boil water to get hot water. 264 00:13:43,310 --> 00:13:45,413 People died every single day. My best friend died, 265 00:13:45,413 --> 00:13:48,000 you know, from a senseless act of violence. 266 00:13:49,689 --> 00:13:51,103 It's hard out here. 267 00:13:52,310 --> 00:13:53,724 We don't even call it Kansas City. 268 00:13:53,724 --> 00:13:55,413 It's really called Killer City. 269 00:13:56,517 --> 00:13:58,103 I've always been ridiculed for who I was 270 00:13:58,103 --> 00:14:00,620 as far as the way I dress, the way I act, 271 00:14:00,620 --> 00:14:02,482 caring about my appearance. 272 00:14:02,482 --> 00:14:05,000 I like to get a haircut pretty much every two weeks. 273 00:14:05,000 --> 00:14:07,379 Manicure, pedicure at least once a month. 274 00:14:07,379 --> 00:14:10,896 I've never really felt, like, a sense of belonging in our community, for real. 275 00:14:12,689 --> 00:14:15,379 In the Black community, where I grew up, at least, 276 00:14:15,379 --> 00:14:17,482 a lot of that stuff, like, depression and anxiety, 277 00:14:17,482 --> 00:14:18,896 it's like, "Oh, boy, you don't got that." 278 00:14:18,896 --> 00:14:20,379 Like, you just... 279 00:14:20,379 --> 00:14:22,482 We don't really talk about mental health, for real, in my community. 280 00:14:24,689 --> 00:14:27,482 Recently, I've been thinking about how it is to live off the grid, 281 00:14:27,482 --> 00:14:29,724 like, really connect with nature. 282 00:14:29,724 --> 00:14:32,206 And then, the next day I seen this posting 283 00:14:32,206 --> 00:14:35,000 of people looking for people to join the Amish community, 284 00:14:35,000 --> 00:14:37,586 and I started to enquire about it. 285 00:14:37,586 --> 00:14:40,379 But I felt like it was God, because at that point, 286 00:14:40,379 --> 00:14:41,793 I'd never heard of the Amish community. 287 00:14:41,793 --> 00:14:44,172 I didn't know what they was or who they were. 288 00:14:44,172 --> 00:14:46,068 And so after that, I started doing my research 289 00:14:46,068 --> 00:14:48,413 and looking into it, 290 00:14:48,413 --> 00:14:51,620 and I just felt like it was just, like, "Ah!" a moment. 291 00:14:53,689 --> 00:14:55,000 It's me and Mom. 292 00:14:57,482 --> 00:14:58,379 Okay. 293 00:15:05,172 --> 00:15:06,379 A whale. 294 00:15:06,379 --> 00:15:08,000 [laughter] 295 00:15:08,000 --> 00:15:10,517 My mama knows my fascination with the Amish community 296 00:15:10,517 --> 00:15:13,103 and how I want to slow things down. 297 00:15:13,103 --> 00:15:15,103 And now that I'm actually about to do it, 298 00:15:15,103 --> 00:15:16,275 and have the conversation with her, 299 00:15:16,275 --> 00:15:17,689 I'm a little nervous 300 00:15:17,689 --> 00:15:20,689 because I know she's gonna be caught off guard. 301 00:15:20,689 --> 00:15:22,310 I have a few different phobias. 302 00:15:22,310 --> 00:15:25,206 She knows I don't like to do the farm stuff. 303 00:15:25,206 --> 00:15:27,586 So I don't know how it's gonna go. 304 00:15:27,586 --> 00:15:29,379 I know she thinks I'm crazy. 305 00:15:29,379 --> 00:15:32,655 I hope the Amish don't play like y'all 'cause y'all be cheating. 306 00:15:35,103 --> 00:15:39,517 Basically, I'm gonna be going to the Amish community for some time. 307 00:15:49,172 --> 00:15:50,379 I'm sick. 308 00:15:50,379 --> 00:15:53,068 Literally nauseous, my stomach. [chuckles] 309 00:15:53,068 --> 00:15:55,172 The little that I know about the Amish 310 00:15:55,172 --> 00:15:57,275 is they live off the grid. 311 00:15:57,275 --> 00:15:59,896 Off the grid means bugs, I'm sure farms, 312 00:15:59,896 --> 00:16:02,793 and some other things that Judah is just not accustomed to. 313 00:16:02,793 --> 00:16:05,413 You just can't say, "I'm going to be Amish." 314 00:16:05,413 --> 00:16:07,827 You don't just say it like that to your family. 315 00:16:07,827 --> 00:16:10,413 -It's a way to tell us... -Introduce. 316 00:16:10,413 --> 00:16:11,551 Yeah, to introduce it, 317 00:16:11,551 --> 00:16:14,000 and then you need to know 'cause you are Muslim. 318 00:16:14,000 --> 00:16:16,724 So are you okay? Who are you living with? Who are you going with? 319 00:16:16,724 --> 00:16:18,586 Like, those are the questions that I have. 320 00:16:18,586 --> 00:16:19,620 And are you gonna be okay? 321 00:16:25,068 --> 00:16:26,206 [Judah] Everything I've been through 322 00:16:26,206 --> 00:16:28,379 I feel like is leading me up to this moment. 323 00:16:28,379 --> 00:16:30,517 All roads right now is leading to the Amish lifestyle. 324 00:16:30,517 --> 00:16:32,689 I feel like it'll be better for me, like, spiritually. 325 00:16:33,793 --> 00:16:35,724 I got to ask the hard question. 326 00:16:35,724 --> 00:16:38,000 I'm not being racist, 327 00:16:38,000 --> 00:16:39,379 but are there Black Amish people? 328 00:16:40,896 --> 00:16:42,793 Because I don't know. 329 00:16:42,793 --> 00:16:45,000 I'm doing things that my heart feels. 330 00:16:46,275 --> 00:16:48,482 I feel like God has blessed me with a good discernment 331 00:16:48,482 --> 00:16:51,931 to realize where I need to go, where I shouldn't go. 332 00:16:51,931 --> 00:16:54,379 I don't know how many Black people are gonna be there with me. 333 00:16:54,379 --> 00:16:57,896 I don't know if they're gonna accept, like, me and my lifestyle, 334 00:16:57,896 --> 00:16:59,068 the things that I do, 335 00:16:59,068 --> 00:17:00,586 so I'm a little nervous about that. 336 00:17:02,172 --> 00:17:05,413 There's something about me that the Amish might accept 337 00:17:05,413 --> 00:17:06,517 or they might not. 338 00:17:08,792 --> 00:17:12,000 They're either gonna accept me and work with me, 339 00:17:12,000 --> 00:17:14,482 or they're gonna throw me away. 340 00:17:37,689 --> 00:17:39,896 [Vernon] God has chosen the six outsiders 341 00:17:39,896 --> 00:17:42,172 that he wants in our community, 342 00:17:42,172 --> 00:17:44,793 and he's chosen me to watch over them 343 00:17:44,793 --> 00:17:46,620 to see that they're properly integrated 344 00:17:46,620 --> 00:17:47,793 into the community, 345 00:17:47,793 --> 00:17:50,206 Which is why I have to be careful 346 00:17:50,206 --> 00:17:53,793 who I choose to help the English. 347 00:17:53,793 --> 00:17:58,896 And for this reason, I've chosen my brother, Allen, and his wife, Sarah. 348 00:17:58,896 --> 00:18:01,689 They have adopted children from the English world, 349 00:18:01,689 --> 00:18:04,413 and they have learned not to fall prey to temptation. 350 00:18:06,758 --> 00:18:08,931 I've also asked James. 351 00:18:08,931 --> 00:18:11,689 James is already shunned from his community. 352 00:18:11,689 --> 00:18:14,206 I believe he is highly motivated to be unshunned, 353 00:18:14,206 --> 00:18:17,758 therefore he will be on his best behavior in my community. 354 00:18:20,206 --> 00:18:22,482 -Have a seat. -[Allen] Thank you. 355 00:18:22,482 --> 00:18:23,931 [all speaking foreign language] 356 00:18:27,793 --> 00:18:29,620 [James] Mm-hmm. 357 00:18:35,103 --> 00:18:36,310 [Allen] Mm-hmm. 358 00:18:38,482 --> 00:18:40,793 [in English] The bishop and his brother Allen 359 00:18:40,793 --> 00:18:43,517 are from a more liberal church. 360 00:18:43,517 --> 00:18:47,517 I figured it would be easier to become unshunned here 361 00:18:47,517 --> 00:18:50,172 in the Lancaster community than my own, 362 00:18:50,172 --> 00:18:52,896 which is more strict. 363 00:18:52,896 --> 00:18:58,275 What is it that makes you good candidates for people coming in? 364 00:18:58,275 --> 00:19:00,482 Well, obviously, 365 00:19:00,482 --> 00:19:02,793 we've fostered several children. 366 00:19:02,793 --> 00:19:05,000 [speaking foreign language] 367 00:19:12,689 --> 00:19:13,758 [Vernon] Mm. 368 00:19:19,931 --> 00:19:22,103 [in English] We have four adopted children... 369 00:19:26,586 --> 00:19:30,482 and our youngest son passed away in November of last year. 370 00:19:32,482 --> 00:19:36,551 He was out late one night and had an accident, 371 00:19:39,000 --> 00:19:40,103 and he didn't make it. 372 00:19:45,586 --> 00:19:46,689 [Vernon speaking foreign language] 373 00:19:51,862 --> 00:19:53,275 [Allen in English] I want to help my brother 374 00:19:53,275 --> 00:19:56,103 bring in new people into the community. 375 00:19:56,103 --> 00:19:59,896 I think it will be a benefit to the community 376 00:19:59,896 --> 00:20:02,931 and give somebody an opportunity 377 00:20:02,931 --> 00:20:05,586 to live a more simple life. 378 00:20:05,586 --> 00:20:09,931 We all have a void that needs to be filled. 379 00:20:09,931 --> 00:20:12,482 [Vernon] My plan is to give them one month to prove themselves, 380 00:20:12,482 --> 00:20:15,793 which means your job is to prepare them 381 00:20:15,793 --> 00:20:17,931 for the day of reckoning. 382 00:20:17,931 --> 00:20:19,068 At the end of the month, 383 00:20:19,068 --> 00:20:20,758 we will have a day of reckoning 384 00:20:20,758 --> 00:20:23,275 to see how well they have integrated into the community 385 00:20:23,275 --> 00:20:26,793 and whether they can continue pursuing membership. 386 00:20:26,793 --> 00:20:30,862 It will be your jobs to integrate them, to teach them, 387 00:20:30,862 --> 00:20:34,689 to disciple them, to embrace the Amish life. 388 00:20:34,689 --> 00:20:37,896 [James] I have seen plenty of people from society 389 00:20:37,896 --> 00:20:40,275 try to join the Amish Church. 390 00:20:40,275 --> 00:20:44,172 Once they see how tough it actually is and actually experience it, 391 00:20:44,172 --> 00:20:46,586 it's way harder than they think. 392 00:20:46,586 --> 00:20:50,586 I don't expect these English to last more than a couple days. 393 00:20:50,586 --> 00:20:52,931 They're going to want to go back to their easy life. 394 00:21:01,275 --> 00:21:03,862 My name is Esmeralda Podaka. I am 27. 395 00:21:07,793 --> 00:21:10,379 I think I do put a lot of pride in the way I look and I present myself 396 00:21:10,379 --> 00:21:12,310 just 'cause I always grew up that way. 397 00:21:12,310 --> 00:21:15,206 My mom will not leave the house without makeup on. 398 00:21:17,689 --> 00:21:19,000 My mom's the one that raised me. 399 00:21:19,000 --> 00:21:22,758 She always worked full time to, you know, support me. 400 00:21:22,758 --> 00:21:25,275 I grew up in El Paso, so it's like a border city. 401 00:21:25,275 --> 00:21:30,275 Very Mexican culture. Spanish Catholic. 402 00:21:30,275 --> 00:21:31,896 Since I didn't grow up with, like, siblings 403 00:21:31,896 --> 00:21:33,586 and, you know, it was just me and my mom, 404 00:21:33,586 --> 00:21:38,172 I didn't have that, like, traditional Mexican family, I feel like, growing up. 405 00:21:38,172 --> 00:21:42,379 I was very much, you know, an only child, basically, and kind of grew up alone. 406 00:21:42,379 --> 00:21:45,482 So I never got that big sense of family around me. 407 00:21:46,793 --> 00:21:48,517 My dad wasn't around, 408 00:21:48,517 --> 00:21:51,103 so we aren't really close at all. 409 00:21:51,103 --> 00:21:52,586 It just felt alone, 410 00:21:52,586 --> 00:21:55,000 and it felt like I wanted someone to be there for me 411 00:21:55,000 --> 00:22:00,275 and, like, I don't know, just have that, like, role of just a man in the house. 412 00:22:05,275 --> 00:22:07,379 I want to be Amish 'cause I love that lifestyle. 413 00:22:07,379 --> 00:22:10,275 I love the traditional sense of, you know, 414 00:22:10,275 --> 00:22:11,862 they're really strict about divorce 415 00:22:11,862 --> 00:22:14,586 and, you know, the way that they are very traditional in the marriages. 416 00:22:16,068 --> 00:22:17,620 I love the man providing, 417 00:22:17,620 --> 00:22:19,586 I like the woman taking care of the house, taking care of the kids. 418 00:22:19,586 --> 00:22:20,689 Like, I love traditional roles. 419 00:22:21,620 --> 00:22:22,965 Even though I didn't grow up like that, 420 00:22:22,965 --> 00:22:25,275 I feel like that's always something I wanted for myself. 421 00:22:25,275 --> 00:22:27,931 I'm not like someone that's, like, super, like, career-driven 422 00:22:27,931 --> 00:22:30,310 and, like, wants to work and be like a girl boss. 423 00:22:30,310 --> 00:22:33,000 That's just, like, not ever something I wanted. 424 00:22:34,068 --> 00:22:35,758 Like, the Amish way of doing things, 425 00:22:35,758 --> 00:22:37,586 it kind of just makes more sense to me. 426 00:22:37,586 --> 00:22:40,275 I don't have to, you know, have to find out what I have to wear for tomorrow 427 00:22:40,275 --> 00:22:43,724 and have to go out and buy a freaking outfit for every single thing. 428 00:22:46,172 --> 00:22:47,275 I'm always weighing myself. 429 00:22:47,275 --> 00:22:48,413 Like, that's, like, the first thing that, 430 00:22:48,413 --> 00:22:50,482 like, I wake up in the morning and I weigh myself. 431 00:22:50,482 --> 00:22:52,379 I, like, go to the bathroom, like, weigh myself. 432 00:22:54,000 --> 00:22:57,068 I'm constantly comparing myself to other people. 433 00:22:57,068 --> 00:22:59,103 So I feel like maybe going into Amish culture, 434 00:22:59,103 --> 00:23:00,931 like, everyone kind of looks the same, 435 00:23:00,931 --> 00:23:05,172 so I feel like it might make me feel less pressured to care about my appearance. 436 00:23:06,413 --> 00:23:08,310 That's why I really think I need to go Amish. 437 00:23:08,310 --> 00:23:10,310 I feel like it'll kind of give me that sense of 438 00:23:10,310 --> 00:23:11,896 being part of something bigger than me. 439 00:23:13,275 --> 00:23:17,172 But, my God, I'm nervous, I'm ready, 440 00:23:17,172 --> 00:23:19,413 but I don't know if I can really do this. 441 00:23:34,413 --> 00:23:37,758 I am Aaron Noble. I am 42 years old. 442 00:23:38,896 --> 00:23:42,517 In my life, I try to really fit in, 443 00:23:42,517 --> 00:23:44,206 to be like everybody else. 444 00:23:45,896 --> 00:23:48,103 That's a lot of pressure. That's exhausting. 445 00:23:50,103 --> 00:23:52,896 But my spirituality and integrity 446 00:23:52,896 --> 00:23:55,068 will always be what I pursue. 447 00:23:57,000 --> 00:23:58,482 I've not really dated a lot of people. 448 00:23:58,482 --> 00:24:00,068 I've just never really been interested. 449 00:24:01,310 --> 00:24:03,896 When I was 11, I went to a little conference. 450 00:24:03,896 --> 00:24:06,000 Speaker's like, "Yeah, save yourself for marriage." 451 00:24:06,000 --> 00:24:08,275 But when I was growing up, 452 00:24:08,275 --> 00:24:12,000 I felt this overwhelming pressure from the whole world doing it. 453 00:24:12,000 --> 00:24:14,000 And then... 454 00:24:14,000 --> 00:24:15,586 I lost my virginity at 32. 455 00:24:20,172 --> 00:24:21,517 Unfortunately, 456 00:24:21,517 --> 00:24:25,793 it was kind of a forced situation on her behalf. 457 00:24:25,793 --> 00:24:27,172 So, yeah. 458 00:24:34,172 --> 00:24:35,586 Correct. 459 00:24:35,586 --> 00:24:37,068 I kept my virginity 460 00:24:37,068 --> 00:24:40,000 because I wanted to wait till I got married. 461 00:24:40,000 --> 00:24:41,758 You know, I wanted that to be really sacred. 462 00:24:41,758 --> 00:24:44,586 My dad was a pastor and an evangelist. 463 00:24:44,586 --> 00:24:47,172 My dad was very good friends with the Amish people, 464 00:24:47,172 --> 00:24:49,068 and I think that that's what intrigued me 465 00:24:49,068 --> 00:24:50,413 in the first place with the culture. 466 00:24:51,275 --> 00:24:52,793 He one day just gave one a ride, 467 00:24:52,793 --> 00:24:54,482 and then his name got around, 468 00:24:54,482 --> 00:24:56,758 and so he became an Amish driver from there. 469 00:24:56,758 --> 00:25:01,000 That is really where my relationships with the Amish came. 470 00:25:01,000 --> 00:25:02,413 I'm really excited coming in. 471 00:25:02,413 --> 00:25:05,206 If I'm accepted into the community, I'll feel like I have peace. 472 00:25:05,206 --> 00:25:08,793 And I'll feel like I have a place where I belong. 473 00:25:10,206 --> 00:25:14,758 I mean, I understand why you want to join that environment 474 00:25:14,758 --> 00:25:16,172 and that kind of lifestyle. 475 00:25:16,172 --> 00:25:18,000 -But it is a sacrifice. -[Aaron] Yeah. 476 00:25:18,000 --> 00:25:20,586 And they do it because they feel like 477 00:25:20,586 --> 00:25:23,689 it will keep them from being tempted 478 00:25:23,689 --> 00:25:25,896 to go into the things of the world. 479 00:25:26,758 --> 00:25:27,862 But it's really hard. 480 00:25:29,517 --> 00:25:33,000 To be honest, I have a disability, 481 00:25:33,000 --> 00:25:38,103 and I hope that the Amish are willing to be understanding. 482 00:25:38,103 --> 00:25:40,000 I think that unless I take that risk 483 00:25:40,000 --> 00:25:41,482 and take that journey for myself, 484 00:25:41,482 --> 00:25:42,931 that I'm never gonna know. 485 00:25:46,000 --> 00:25:47,000 Currently boarding. 486 00:26:19,551 --> 00:26:21,793 [Judah] Oh, my gosh, this is crazy. 487 00:26:27,034 --> 00:26:28,482 [Vernon speaking German] 488 00:26:38,379 --> 00:26:40,551 ♪ Baby, I'm a beast I'm a monster ♪ 489 00:26:40,551 --> 00:26:42,448 ♪ I always do it proper ♪ 490 00:26:42,448 --> 00:26:44,379 ♪ Make sure you keep me On the roster ♪ 491 00:26:45,655 --> 00:26:46,965 ♪ I'm the only one of me ♪ 492 00:26:48,275 --> 00:26:49,517 ♪ Everybody else imposter ♪ 493 00:26:49,517 --> 00:26:52,068 ♪ A beast, I'm a monster I always do it proper ♪ 494 00:26:52,068 --> 00:26:54,862 I ain't never seen no cornfield up in person. 495 00:26:54,862 --> 00:26:57,000 -[driver speaking] -Yeah, I've never. 496 00:26:59,482 --> 00:27:01,103 Like, I've never done anything like this. 497 00:27:01,103 --> 00:27:03,379 I want to be able to get more immersed in nature 498 00:27:03,379 --> 00:27:05,896 and learn more skills. 499 00:27:05,896 --> 00:27:08,034 Like, to even be able to communicate with a horse. 500 00:27:08,034 --> 00:27:10,137 Like, that's just so dope within itself. 501 00:27:12,448 --> 00:27:14,000 [Judah] I think it's such a beautiful thing. 502 00:27:18,000 --> 00:27:19,793 I guess this is my stop. 503 00:27:19,793 --> 00:27:21,448 -Okay. -Thank you for the ride. 504 00:27:21,448 --> 00:27:23,000 -I appreciate you. -You're welcome. 505 00:27:29,172 --> 00:27:30,586 Oh, my gosh. 506 00:27:30,586 --> 00:27:32,896 I cannot believe I'm here right now. 507 00:27:38,482 --> 00:27:40,689 -[Kendra laughing] Hey! -[Judah] What's up! 508 00:27:40,689 --> 00:27:41,793 How are you? 509 00:27:41,793 --> 00:27:43,758 -Kendra. -Kendra. I'm Judah. 510 00:27:43,758 --> 00:27:45,655 -Nice to meet you. -Judah? Nice to meet you. 511 00:27:45,655 --> 00:27:48,241 -Oh, my God. -You smell good. 512 00:27:48,241 --> 00:27:49,448 Not for long. 513 00:27:49,448 --> 00:27:51,586 I feel like we're about to get real stank up in here. 514 00:27:57,379 --> 00:27:58,965 [Judah] Hi. 515 00:27:58,965 --> 00:28:01,379 -[Billie Jo] Hi. -I'm Kendra. 516 00:28:01,379 --> 00:28:03,000 Hi, Kendra. I'm Billie Jo. 517 00:28:03,000 --> 00:28:05,275 -Billie Jo! Nice to meet you. -It's so nice to meet you. 518 00:28:05,275 --> 00:28:06,862 [Billie Jo] Oh, how exciting. 519 00:28:06,862 --> 00:28:07,896 [Kendra] Are you Amish? 520 00:28:07,896 --> 00:28:09,896 -Already? -I wanna be. 521 00:28:09,896 --> 00:28:11,689 I've been obsessed for a very long time. 522 00:28:11,689 --> 00:28:12,724 Yeah. 523 00:28:14,482 --> 00:28:17,793 ♪ When I was Just a little girl ♪ 524 00:28:17,793 --> 00:28:21,448 ♪ My momma lent me a bunch of sunshine ♪ 525 00:28:21,448 --> 00:28:24,379 My name is Billie Jo Hefferin, I'm 46 years old, 526 00:28:24,379 --> 00:28:25,896 and I live in Berkshire, New York. 527 00:28:25,896 --> 00:28:29,482 Hi there. How are you? 528 00:28:29,482 --> 00:28:35,482 I discovered that I wanted to be Amish probably 20 years ago 529 00:28:35,482 --> 00:28:38,586 when I rode on a horse and buggy for the first time. 530 00:28:38,586 --> 00:28:41,034 So the more I learn, 531 00:28:41,034 --> 00:28:43,379 the more I really want to be Amish. 532 00:28:44,655 --> 00:28:49,275 I have been dressing Amish for over ten years. 533 00:28:49,275 --> 00:28:54,172 Now, Billie Jo, you said that you did not grow up Amish. 534 00:28:54,172 --> 00:28:58,241 Do you think they have a problem with you wearing Amish clothes? 535 00:28:58,241 --> 00:29:00,551 Do you think that's offensive to them? 536 00:29:00,551 --> 00:29:02,241 I don't think of it like that. 537 00:29:02,241 --> 00:29:05,379 I think, if anything, I respect their clothing. 538 00:29:06,862 --> 00:29:09,793 Because of my love for the Amish, 539 00:29:09,793 --> 00:29:13,758 I collect so many things and I put them in this room. 540 00:29:14,689 --> 00:29:16,068 I have a collection of dolls. 541 00:29:16,965 --> 00:29:19,000 None of the dolls have faces. 542 00:29:19,000 --> 00:29:21,448 A true Amish doll should never have faces. 543 00:29:22,482 --> 00:29:26,275 You love getting your bonnet on and matching Mommy. 544 00:29:26,275 --> 00:29:28,275 That is such a good girl. 545 00:29:29,379 --> 00:29:30,896 But let's get this part on too. 546 00:29:32,000 --> 00:29:33,896 I'm so proud. You look so pretty. 547 00:29:35,068 --> 00:29:38,241 I think I'm longing for a more peaceful life, 548 00:29:38,241 --> 00:29:41,896 another era, another time. 549 00:29:41,896 --> 00:29:45,551 People call me a poser for dressing this way. 550 00:29:45,551 --> 00:29:47,793 So now it's time for me to walk that walk. 551 00:29:47,793 --> 00:29:50,000 Brixton's bougie. 552 00:29:50,000 --> 00:29:51,482 And I'm Amish. 553 00:29:57,103 --> 00:29:59,758 I've gone by BJ too. 554 00:29:59,758 --> 00:30:00,896 -[Kendra] BJ? -Yeah. 555 00:30:00,896 --> 00:30:02,379 [Kendra] It's all good. My last name is Bates, 556 00:30:02,379 --> 00:30:05,000 so people called me Master Bates and, like, at school. 557 00:30:05,000 --> 00:30:06,965 And I was so, like, pure. So I was like, "What is that?" 558 00:30:06,965 --> 00:30:09,482 And then I, like, figured out what it was. 559 00:30:10,689 --> 00:30:14,793 Kendra had her, uh, chachis out and proud, 560 00:30:14,793 --> 00:30:17,482 which I was kind of cringing for her. 561 00:30:18,482 --> 00:30:20,862 Of all the things that you could wear 562 00:30:20,862 --> 00:30:22,275 to go and live the Amish life, 563 00:30:22,275 --> 00:30:26,517 you chose, like, the kind of smutty cheerleader dress. 564 00:30:29,000 --> 00:30:30,689 Oh, wait, there's another person. 565 00:30:34,379 --> 00:30:35,655 What's up? 566 00:30:35,655 --> 00:30:37,689 -How are you? -What's your name? 567 00:30:37,689 --> 00:30:38,689 -Matt. -Judah. 568 00:30:38,689 --> 00:30:40,275 -Nice to meet you. -I'm Kendra. 569 00:30:40,275 --> 00:30:41,965 -Hi. Nice to meet you. -Nice to meet you. 570 00:30:41,965 --> 00:30:43,103 Are you from Texas? 571 00:30:43,103 --> 00:30:44,896 -I am from Texas. -See, I knew it. 572 00:30:44,896 --> 00:30:48,275 [Kendra] My first impression of Matt is he's cute. 573 00:30:48,275 --> 00:30:50,758 I'm just, like, "Sir." 574 00:30:50,758 --> 00:30:54,689 That is my type to a T. Like, "Sir."[laughs] 575 00:30:54,689 --> 00:30:56,344 Very cute. 576 00:31:00,655 --> 00:31:03,896 My name is Matthew Martin. I am 35 years old. 577 00:31:03,896 --> 00:31:05,482 I grew up doing rodeo. 578 00:31:05,482 --> 00:31:08,241 My dad is a world champion calf roper. 579 00:31:08,241 --> 00:31:09,965 Rodeo wasn't really my thing. 580 00:31:09,965 --> 00:31:11,379 It was my dad's thing. 581 00:31:11,379 --> 00:31:14,793 So I, at some point, 582 00:31:14,793 --> 00:31:16,793 started doing what I wanted to do. 583 00:31:18,275 --> 00:31:21,172 I'm the father of twin boys from my previous marriage. 584 00:31:21,172 --> 00:31:22,344 They are seven years old, 585 00:31:22,344 --> 00:31:25,482 and they're the coolest kids around, so. 586 00:31:25,482 --> 00:31:28,689 But I am nowhere 587 00:31:28,689 --> 00:31:32,758 where I thought I would be in life at 35. 588 00:31:32,758 --> 00:31:36,620 I thought I'd feel more settled and grounded in life than I do. 589 00:31:39,068 --> 00:31:40,551 I feel lost. 590 00:31:41,586 --> 00:31:45,586 But I don't think everything's[bleep] until you're dead. 591 00:31:45,586 --> 00:31:48,793 I think there's always a chance to fix things 592 00:31:48,793 --> 00:31:51,896 and course correct your life. 593 00:31:51,896 --> 00:31:56,689 I'm in this big kind of transitional thing in my life 594 00:31:56,689 --> 00:31:58,275 where I'm trying to figure everything out, 595 00:31:58,275 --> 00:32:01,482 and I've always been interested in the Amish community, 596 00:32:01,482 --> 00:32:04,379 and I saw this opportunity. 597 00:32:04,379 --> 00:32:10,344 I feel like the modern world is really fast paced. 598 00:32:10,344 --> 00:32:15,172 I want a simpler life for me and my kids. 599 00:32:16,241 --> 00:32:18,000 Hopefully, the Amish community 600 00:32:18,000 --> 00:32:19,586 is that lifestyle I'm looking for. 601 00:32:27,172 --> 00:32:28,793 What's up? 602 00:32:28,793 --> 00:32:30,482 -Hi! -[Esmeralda laughs] 603 00:32:30,482 --> 00:32:33,586 Oh, my God, this is such a struggle. 604 00:32:33,586 --> 00:32:35,586 I'm gonna go help her. 605 00:32:35,586 --> 00:32:37,586 [Esmeralda] Hi. Nice to meet you. Esmeralda. 606 00:32:41,172 --> 00:32:42,275 [Judah] What up? 607 00:32:43,793 --> 00:32:44,965 I'm Aaron. 608 00:32:44,965 --> 00:32:46,068 I'm Kendra. I'm a hugger. 609 00:32:46,068 --> 00:32:47,896 -Sorry. Nice to meet you. -Okay, what's up, hugger? 610 00:32:47,896 --> 00:32:49,000 -Hi. Esmeralda. -Aaron. 611 00:32:49,000 --> 00:32:51,172 -Nice to meet you. -Nice to meet you all. 612 00:32:56,793 --> 00:32:58,275 [Vernon] Gather round. 613 00:33:06,758 --> 00:33:08,758 [Billie Jo] By the way the bishop's looking at us, 614 00:33:08,758 --> 00:33:11,482 I can tell that he's so disappointed. 615 00:33:15,172 --> 00:33:17,586 So, a couple do's and don'ts 616 00:33:17,586 --> 00:33:20,586 before we're dispersing you into the community. 617 00:33:20,586 --> 00:33:25,758 You'll need to integrate into the spiritual aspect of the Amish community, 618 00:33:25,758 --> 00:33:29,000 mimic the culture 619 00:33:29,000 --> 00:33:33,379 in dress, in actions, in your talk, et cetera. 620 00:33:35,000 --> 00:33:37,172 The Amish community is built on trust. 621 00:33:37,172 --> 00:33:38,793 If you break that trust, 622 00:33:38,793 --> 00:33:40,586 it takes a while to rebuild that. 623 00:33:40,586 --> 00:33:42,896 You're just outsiders. You're coming in. 624 00:33:42,896 --> 00:33:44,379 You need to earn that trust. 625 00:33:45,862 --> 00:33:50,655 And Kendra, would you step inside, 626 00:33:50,655 --> 00:33:52,793 and I'd like to ask you several questions. 627 00:33:58,379 --> 00:34:00,965 [laughing] I don't even know what's happening right now. 628 00:34:08,068 --> 00:34:09,482 Hi. 629 00:34:09,482 --> 00:34:11,896 -Nice to meet you. -Nice to meet you. Welcome. 630 00:34:11,896 --> 00:34:13,862 Ooh, Bishop Vernon, dark and scary. 631 00:34:13,862 --> 00:34:15,688 Um... [chuckles] 632 00:34:15,688 --> 00:34:17,137 [Vernon] You can have a seat. 633 00:34:17,137 --> 00:34:19,034 [Kendra] I'm looking at him in the barn. 634 00:34:19,034 --> 00:34:22,379 Like, death stare, I felt. I felt it was a little dark. 635 00:34:22,379 --> 00:34:25,344 I'm like, "What are we about to get into?" 636 00:34:27,551 --> 00:34:30,447 And so, what is the motivator 637 00:34:30,447 --> 00:34:33,551 that causes you to dress the way you dress? 638 00:34:33,551 --> 00:34:34,757 Uh... 639 00:34:36,482 --> 00:34:39,551 [Vernon] Seeing Kendra's dress was alarming to me. 640 00:34:40,585 --> 00:34:42,896 I don't know why someone would dress that way 641 00:34:42,896 --> 00:34:44,688 to coming to the Amish community. 642 00:34:46,275 --> 00:34:47,896 -I'm a dancer. -Okay. 643 00:34:47,896 --> 00:34:50,482 And we book our jobs based off of our body. 644 00:34:50,482 --> 00:34:52,757 -Yup. Mm-hmm. -Like, when we go to auditions, 645 00:34:52,757 --> 00:34:56,344 it's literally all skin, like, bra and small shorts. 646 00:34:56,344 --> 00:34:59,655 The Amish would see it as lust. 647 00:34:59,655 --> 00:35:04,241 Lust would be the issue with the immodest dress 648 00:35:04,241 --> 00:35:06,172 or skin showing, 649 00:35:06,172 --> 00:35:08,241 and we would see that 650 00:35:08,241 --> 00:35:11,172 as evidence of a lack of something. 651 00:35:13,241 --> 00:35:16,482 In other words, I don't want to see a display of your body. 652 00:35:18,655 --> 00:35:22,275 We would take scripture to be just written in stone. 653 00:35:22,275 --> 00:35:23,793 -It's just the way it is. -Yeah. 654 00:35:23,793 --> 00:35:26,000 It's good for a man not to touch a woman. 655 00:35:26,000 --> 00:35:28,344 We would take that literally. 656 00:35:28,344 --> 00:35:29,862 Our wives would kick you out of the house 657 00:35:29,862 --> 00:35:34,068 because they're not going to accept any competition 658 00:35:34,068 --> 00:35:37,965 from any female for their husband's affection. 659 00:35:37,965 --> 00:35:41,137 Our wives are very, very jealous about our affection. 660 00:35:42,137 --> 00:35:45,137 My wife would be very, very jealous 661 00:35:45,137 --> 00:35:48,172 of not just my purity, but her son's purity. 662 00:35:48,172 --> 00:35:49,517 Oh. 663 00:35:51,000 --> 00:35:56,448 -Very, very jealous about, what is their son seeing? -Yeah. 664 00:35:56,448 --> 00:35:58,896 My wife might say, 665 00:35:58,896 --> 00:36:02,068 "Nathan, I don't think I want you to look at that girl 666 00:36:02,068 --> 00:36:05,862 as a potential suitor, as a potential partner. 667 00:36:05,862 --> 00:36:07,793 "Her heart's not in the right place." 668 00:36:09,137 --> 00:36:11,689 I hope you find what you're looking for. 669 00:36:16,379 --> 00:36:18,448 [Billie Jo gasps and whispers] 670 00:36:18,448 --> 00:36:20,034 [Judah] Kendra. 671 00:36:21,103 --> 00:36:23,758 [sobs] I, like, want to cry right now. 672 00:36:23,758 --> 00:36:25,448 [sniffles] 673 00:36:25,448 --> 00:36:26,793 Oh, okay. Sorry. 674 00:36:26,793 --> 00:36:28,344 -[Judah] No! -[Aaron] Uh-oh. 675 00:36:29,275 --> 00:36:31,862 I wasn't expecting it to be that hard. 676 00:36:31,862 --> 00:36:33,482 Um... 677 00:36:33,482 --> 00:36:35,896 -I'm sorry. -Can I hug you, honey-bunches? 678 00:36:35,896 --> 00:36:37,172 I'm so sorry. 679 00:36:37,172 --> 00:36:39,172 -It's okay. -[sniffles] 680 00:36:39,172 --> 00:36:42,275 Like, I've had to deal with, like, slut-shaming my whole life, 681 00:36:42,275 --> 00:36:43,862 and, like... 682 00:36:45,000 --> 00:36:48,000 like, I don't know, I feel like I don't act like a ho, 683 00:36:48,000 --> 00:36:50,068 like, not anymore, you know what I mean? 684 00:36:50,068 --> 00:36:52,344 But like, the first thing he talks about is like, 685 00:36:52,344 --> 00:36:53,517 you know, what are you wearing? 686 00:36:53,517 --> 00:36:56,862 And then, like, asking me, like, why I dress this way. 687 00:36:56,862 --> 00:36:58,379 And it's just, like, hard 688 00:36:58,379 --> 00:37:00,551 'cause him talking about, like, you know, 689 00:37:00,551 --> 00:37:01,965 you would never be, like, accepted. 690 00:37:01,965 --> 00:37:03,172 Like, you couldn't even stay with us 691 00:37:03,172 --> 00:37:04,482 'cause my wife wouldn't want you around. 692 00:37:04,482 --> 00:37:06,000 I wouldn't have, like, my son want you. 693 00:37:06,000 --> 00:37:07,275 And I'm just like, 694 00:37:07,275 --> 00:37:09,000 I've heard this my whole life and I'm like, 695 00:37:09,000 --> 00:37:10,689 "This is what I'm trying to get away from." 696 00:37:13,034 --> 00:37:15,137 I do feel judged 697 00:37:15,137 --> 00:37:18,655 because I hate, like, having the conversations about my past. 698 00:37:18,655 --> 00:37:19,793 I hate getting that reaction. 699 00:37:19,793 --> 00:37:22,000 I hate, like, having to constantly defend myself. 700 00:37:23,793 --> 00:37:27,034 Jesus, actually... didn't He help a prostitute? 701 00:37:29,068 --> 00:37:30,862 So why wouldn't He help you? 702 00:37:32,482 --> 00:37:35,034 This girl is in tears, 703 00:37:35,034 --> 00:37:37,655 and I think you just called her a prostitute. 704 00:37:37,655 --> 00:37:41,000 "Welcome to the group. We love prostitutes." 705 00:37:41,000 --> 00:37:43,758 I feel like I'm gonna have a really hard time here. 706 00:37:48,586 --> 00:37:49,586 Yeah. 707 00:37:49,586 --> 00:37:51,586 [Vernon] We're gonna gather this way. 708 00:37:51,586 --> 00:37:54,068 Oh. Are we taking our bags? 709 00:37:56,379 --> 00:37:58,068 [Vernon] So sending you off 710 00:37:58,068 --> 00:37:59,965 into the homes you'll be staying in. 711 00:37:59,965 --> 00:38:05,172 So Aaron, Judah and Esmeralda, you will be with the Troyers. 712 00:38:05,172 --> 00:38:06,862 They are two blocks that way. 713 00:38:08,689 --> 00:38:12,103 The other group is Matt, Billie Jo and Kendra, 714 00:38:12,103 --> 00:38:14,448 and you will be with the Coblentzes, 715 00:38:14,448 --> 00:38:16,896 and you will be just around the corner from the Troyers 716 00:38:16,896 --> 00:38:18,482 in the other direction. 717 00:38:18,482 --> 00:38:20,793 [Kendra] I don't even know what I'm getting into. 718 00:38:20,793 --> 00:38:22,689 Even though I felt like he slut-shamed me 719 00:38:22,689 --> 00:38:23,896 and judged me pretty harshly, 720 00:38:23,896 --> 00:38:26,862 this is what I want, and so I'm not leaving. 721 00:38:26,862 --> 00:38:29,689 [Esmeralda] I'm nervous after seeing Kendra come out 722 00:38:29,689 --> 00:38:32,344 and, you know, have that emotional response. 723 00:38:32,344 --> 00:38:33,689 It's gonna be a challenge for me, 724 00:38:33,689 --> 00:38:35,379 and it is gonna be different. 725 00:38:35,379 --> 00:38:37,000 [Vernon] You're excused. 726 00:38:37,000 --> 00:38:39,275 [Judah] All right. I'll see you guys. 727 00:38:39,275 --> 00:38:41,172 [Aaron] Kendra was sobbing, 728 00:38:41,172 --> 00:38:43,862 but she's wearing a sweater dress with cleavage and everything. 729 00:38:43,862 --> 00:38:45,241 And it's just like, why? 730 00:38:45,241 --> 00:38:47,482 Like, you're literally trying to be Amish. 731 00:38:48,482 --> 00:38:49,793 [Billie Jo] I am a little shook. 732 00:38:49,793 --> 00:38:54,068 Yeah, that was definitely intimidating for sure. 733 00:38:54,068 --> 00:38:55,482 It was a wake-up call. 734 00:39:10,379 --> 00:39:11,448 [Matt grunts] 735 00:39:12,655 --> 00:39:13,862 I got it. 736 00:39:14,793 --> 00:39:16,172 [Kendra] Do they have doorbells? 737 00:39:16,172 --> 00:39:17,965 [Billie Jo] I guess we'll find out. 738 00:39:20,000 --> 00:39:21,793 Oh, God, I see them. Oh, my God. 739 00:39:24,241 --> 00:39:26,172 Obviously, how I dress is not how they dress. 740 00:39:26,172 --> 00:39:28,379 I'm nervous they're gonna think I'm a ho. 741 00:39:28,379 --> 00:39:31,172 And I know first impressions are a big thing. 742 00:39:31,172 --> 00:39:34,241 -What if they don't let me in the house? -[laughs] 743 00:39:34,241 --> 00:39:35,862 -[Billie Jo] We'll make them. -Yeah. 744 00:39:35,862 --> 00:39:37,586 I'm like, actually, afraid they're gonna be like, 745 00:39:37,586 --> 00:39:40,655 "You two can stay. You sleep in the barn." 746 00:39:44,172 --> 00:39:45,586 Oh, [bleep]. 747 00:39:46,172 --> 00:39:47,482 -Hello. -Hi. 748 00:39:47,482 --> 00:39:49,172 -How are you? -Good. How about you? 749 00:39:49,172 --> 00:39:51,000 -I'm Billie Jo. -I'm Allen. 750 00:39:51,000 --> 00:39:52,379 Allen. Nice to meet you. 751 00:39:52,379 --> 00:39:53,793 Hi, I'm Kendra. 752 00:39:53,793 --> 00:39:55,448 -Hi, I'm Matt. -Matt. 753 00:39:55,448 --> 00:39:57,172 -Nice to meet you. -[Billie Jo] Hi. 754 00:39:57,172 --> 00:39:58,689 My first impression of Kendra, 755 00:39:58,689 --> 00:40:01,000 seeing the clothes that she was wearing 756 00:40:01,000 --> 00:40:04,586 was like, "Well, wait a minute. She can't be serious." 757 00:40:04,586 --> 00:40:08,793 Come on in, and we will get further acquainted. 758 00:40:13,896 --> 00:40:16,241 Here we go. It's a whole new world. 759 00:40:18,689 --> 00:40:23,172 [James] Me and Emma are sitting there looking at these worldly people. 760 00:40:23,172 --> 00:40:24,482 Dressed that way, 761 00:40:24,482 --> 00:40:27,000 are they trying to join the Amish, actually, really? 762 00:40:29,482 --> 00:40:32,379 -[Judah] Hello there. -Hello. How are you guys? 763 00:40:32,379 --> 00:40:34,344 We've been looking forward to seeing you guys. 764 00:40:34,344 --> 00:40:35,896 -I'm Aaron. -James. Pleasure to meet you. 765 00:40:35,896 --> 00:40:37,586 -Nice to meet you. Aaron. -Emma. 766 00:40:37,586 --> 00:40:39,379 Hi. Esmeralda. Nice to meet you. 767 00:40:39,379 --> 00:40:40,896 -Hi. -Hi. Esmeralda. 768 00:40:40,896 --> 00:40:42,275 -I'm Judah. -Okay. 769 00:40:42,275 --> 00:40:44,448 -Pleasure to meet you. James. -Nice to meet you, too, James. 770 00:40:44,448 --> 00:40:45,689 We come bearing gifts. 771 00:40:45,689 --> 00:40:47,689 I'm not sure if you like root beer, but... 772 00:40:47,689 --> 00:40:49,689 -Thank you. -You're welcome. 773 00:40:49,689 --> 00:40:53,965 So we'll be leaving all the worldly possessions on the porch, please. 774 00:40:53,965 --> 00:40:55,551 [Judah] Okay. 775 00:40:55,551 --> 00:40:59,586 That way we're not contaminating the house with worldly things. 776 00:41:05,275 --> 00:41:06,551 Welcome, welcome. 777 00:41:07,689 --> 00:41:09,103 Did you guys want water? 778 00:41:10,068 --> 00:41:11,379 [Judah] I'm okay. Thank you, though. 779 00:41:11,379 --> 00:41:12,793 -Okay. Water? -Sure, I'll get some water. 780 00:41:12,793 --> 00:41:14,275 -Water? -Yeah. I'll take one, please. 781 00:41:14,275 --> 00:41:15,275 -All right. -Thank you. 782 00:41:17,172 --> 00:41:18,689 [Judah] James and Emma, 783 00:41:18,689 --> 00:41:21,344 I'm guessing they are husband and wife. 784 00:41:21,344 --> 00:41:22,793 I'm walking in the house 785 00:41:22,793 --> 00:41:25,000 and they're offering me a glass of water 786 00:41:25,000 --> 00:41:26,586 out of, like, a mason jar, 787 00:41:26,586 --> 00:41:28,068 and I'm like, perhaps not. 788 00:41:28,068 --> 00:41:31,034 Let's keep it to bottles. 789 00:41:31,034 --> 00:41:35,000 [Esmeralda] Walking in, you know, there is a flytrap. 790 00:41:35,000 --> 00:41:37,896 Just everything looks so old and dusty. 791 00:41:39,275 --> 00:41:40,379 [Judah] The house ain't got no furniture. 792 00:41:40,379 --> 00:41:44,034 Where y'all couch? Where is y'all oven? 793 00:41:44,034 --> 00:41:46,586 Like, where is y'all stove? Where is... 794 00:41:46,586 --> 00:41:49,275 I can't even sit down. They got wooden chairs. 795 00:41:49,275 --> 00:41:50,275 I'm like, I'm from the ghetto, 796 00:41:50,275 --> 00:41:52,586 but this is a little too ghetto for me. 797 00:41:52,586 --> 00:41:54,034 Y'all ain't hot? 798 00:41:54,034 --> 00:41:56,103 -It's warm. It's warm. -I'm a little warm. 799 00:41:56,103 --> 00:41:57,793 -[Emma] There's no AC. -No AC? 800 00:41:57,793 --> 00:41:58,965 -[Emma] Yeah. -Wow. 801 00:41:58,965 --> 00:42:01,034 I don't think I have any regrets being here yet, 802 00:42:01,034 --> 00:42:02,068 but I feel like, 803 00:42:02,068 --> 00:42:04,172 there's no AC, it's hot as[bleep], 804 00:42:04,172 --> 00:42:07,000 and I'm not as excited as I was before. [chuckles] 805 00:42:16,965 --> 00:42:18,586 [Kendra] I don't think you can carry both of them. 806 00:42:18,586 --> 00:42:20,896 [Sarah] I can take one of them. 807 00:42:23,068 --> 00:42:24,379 [Allen] You're over here. 808 00:42:26,896 --> 00:42:28,586 They're bouncy. 809 00:42:28,586 --> 00:42:31,000 [Billie Jo] Allen, I have to go to the bathroom. 810 00:42:31,000 --> 00:42:33,172 I will take, like, a pig trough. 811 00:42:34,344 --> 00:42:36,034 When you have to poop, you have to poop. 812 00:42:36,034 --> 00:42:38,379 There's no waiting. 813 00:42:38,379 --> 00:42:40,241 I have to go, and I have to go now. 814 00:42:43,896 --> 00:42:48,758 Okay, so this is our restroom, outhouse. 815 00:42:48,758 --> 00:42:50,068 Oh, no. 816 00:42:50,068 --> 00:42:52,275 You've got to be lying, Allen. 817 00:42:52,275 --> 00:42:53,655 I'm not a lion. 818 00:42:53,655 --> 00:42:56,000 Um, these newspapers, 819 00:42:56,000 --> 00:42:57,896 we can pick 'em up free at the gas stations. 820 00:42:57,896 --> 00:42:58,862 They're old ones. 821 00:42:58,862 --> 00:43:01,620 So we use this instead of toilet paper. 822 00:43:04,068 --> 00:43:07,758 [Billie Jo] Oh, my goodness. 823 00:43:09,482 --> 00:43:12,034 I guess what's a daily routine for us Amish 824 00:43:12,034 --> 00:43:15,344 is kind of challenging for the English people. 825 00:43:15,344 --> 00:43:18,586 It may be a hard knock to reality, I don't know. 826 00:43:18,586 --> 00:43:21,862 -Oh, my goodness. -[Allen clears throat] 827 00:43:21,862 --> 00:43:26,275 I don't know how sanitary this is, honestly. 828 00:43:26,275 --> 00:43:29,965 [Allen] There's lids on there, so you just pick up the lid. 829 00:43:29,965 --> 00:43:32,379 [Billie Jo] All right, all right, I gotta go, 830 00:43:32,379 --> 00:43:34,586 and this is just bad, so let's get it done. 831 00:43:35,896 --> 00:43:37,275 Oh, my gosh. 832 00:43:37,275 --> 00:43:39,137 How bad do I really want this? 833 00:43:46,689 --> 00:43:47,793 [sighs] 834 00:43:49,241 --> 00:43:50,793 Oh, my God. 835 00:43:50,793 --> 00:43:56,758 I should have asked is the square number one and the circle number two 836 00:43:56,758 --> 00:43:57,896 or doesn't it matter? 837 00:43:57,896 --> 00:43:59,000 [Allen] It doesn't matter. 838 00:44:00,896 --> 00:44:03,689 I probably shouldn't have sat on the square one. 839 00:44:03,689 --> 00:44:06,068 I think I have a pretty bad splinter. 840 00:44:06,068 --> 00:44:08,896 I'm gonna see if Kendra will help me with that. 841 00:44:08,896 --> 00:44:11,275 [Billie Jo exhales] 842 00:44:11,275 --> 00:44:16,172 I'm obviously here to to help them experience our way of living, 843 00:44:16,172 --> 00:44:20,482 the Amish way of living and a simple, simple life. 844 00:44:20,482 --> 00:44:23,896 But I definitely didn't expect to show them how to use a toilet. 845 00:44:27,275 --> 00:44:29,379 [James] Okay, Judah. Are you ready? 846 00:44:29,379 --> 00:44:30,586 [Esmeralda chuckles] 847 00:44:30,586 --> 00:44:32,000 [James] Okay. 848 00:44:32,000 --> 00:44:33,689 [Esmeralda] Good luck. 849 00:44:33,689 --> 00:44:35,689 [James] We're going through their bags 850 00:44:35,689 --> 00:44:37,241 to make sure they're not trying to sneak in 851 00:44:37,241 --> 00:44:39,241 some worldly things into our house. 852 00:44:40,172 --> 00:44:42,034 We can't have them corrupt the Amish. 853 00:44:43,103 --> 00:44:45,965 All right, the pants, already no. They are ripped. 854 00:44:45,965 --> 00:44:48,000 Oh, no ripped jeans in the Amish? 855 00:44:48,000 --> 00:44:49,793 [James] No. 856 00:44:49,793 --> 00:44:50,896 [Emma] We're looking for phones. 857 00:44:50,896 --> 00:44:53,655 There's things like bright colored clothing. 858 00:44:53,655 --> 00:44:54,793 If you're Amish, 859 00:44:54,793 --> 00:44:56,172 the dress code just goes with it. 860 00:44:56,172 --> 00:44:58,689 It's part of the religion, really. 861 00:44:58,689 --> 00:45:00,896 This is kind of flashy, right? 862 00:45:00,896 --> 00:45:03,379 -[Judah] It's dark. -No. I'm not hanging that on my laundry line. 863 00:45:04,793 --> 00:45:09,068 If someone was to see Judah's flashy clothes on my clothesline, 864 00:45:09,068 --> 00:45:10,379 it would probably start rumors. 865 00:45:10,379 --> 00:45:11,862 People would wonder why. 866 00:45:11,862 --> 00:45:14,379 It's literally your reputation on the line. 867 00:45:20,000 --> 00:45:22,241 I think James low-key liked my boots. 868 00:45:22,241 --> 00:45:25,689 If they had the chance, they would wear these boots. 869 00:45:25,689 --> 00:45:27,586 -Aaron, are you ready? -I'm ready. 870 00:45:27,586 --> 00:45:29,275 Is that where all the goodies are? 871 00:45:29,275 --> 00:45:31,689 -That's where the goodies aren't. -Okay. 872 00:45:34,137 --> 00:45:36,586 [sighs] Where are the juicy goods? 873 00:45:36,586 --> 00:45:37,965 It's a tell-tale sign. 874 00:45:37,965 --> 00:45:40,896 That bad boy, I got to figure it out, is for my hearing aids. 875 00:45:43,103 --> 00:45:46,896 People see fun-loving Aaron, but I do have a secret. 876 00:45:53,241 --> 00:45:54,758 I have a hearing disability. 877 00:45:55,793 --> 00:45:58,896 The first time that I really recognized it was in sixth grade. 878 00:45:58,896 --> 00:46:01,758 I came down with the flu 879 00:46:01,758 --> 00:46:04,000 and had my left ear perforated. 880 00:46:04,000 --> 00:46:06,000 It's just one of those things where it's gotten worse, 881 00:46:06,000 --> 00:46:09,034 and I just feel like it's just continued as I'm getting older. 882 00:46:09,034 --> 00:46:10,862 When I don't have my hearing aids in, 883 00:46:10,862 --> 00:46:13,275 it's kind of like being underwater. 884 00:46:13,275 --> 00:46:15,000 A lot of things are muffled. 885 00:46:15,000 --> 00:46:17,965 It's emotionally and it's physically draining. 886 00:46:17,965 --> 00:46:20,379 I'm just concerned that you have a device somewhere 887 00:46:20,379 --> 00:46:22,862 -you're going to slip in and try to charge with it. -I do. 888 00:46:22,862 --> 00:46:26,241 My phone is actually connected to the hearing aids. 889 00:46:26,241 --> 00:46:27,379 And so, without the device, 890 00:46:27,379 --> 00:46:28,551 the hearing aids are Bluetooth, 891 00:46:28,551 --> 00:46:29,896 -they don't work. -Okay. 892 00:46:29,896 --> 00:46:31,275 You're connecting it to your phone. 893 00:46:31,275 --> 00:46:33,000 [Aaron] They go hand in hand. 894 00:46:35,000 --> 00:46:37,551 You're going to have a hard time finding a community anywhere 895 00:46:37,551 --> 00:46:39,448 that will allow you to continue using your phone. 896 00:46:41,862 --> 00:46:44,275 The Amish believe in medical devices if needed. 897 00:46:44,275 --> 00:46:47,241 He can have hearing aids, but not some that are connected to a phone. 898 00:46:47,241 --> 00:46:49,275 Of all the things Aaron has, 899 00:46:49,275 --> 00:46:51,689 having his phone is probably the worst one. 900 00:46:51,689 --> 00:46:52,862 I mean, there's temptation. 901 00:46:52,862 --> 00:46:54,482 I don't know why he even wants to be Amish 902 00:46:54,482 --> 00:46:56,034 if he wants to keep his phone. 903 00:46:56,034 --> 00:46:58,793 Your phone, let's put it in the box... 904 00:47:00,896 --> 00:47:02,896 and see if we can find you 905 00:47:02,896 --> 00:47:04,275 some other hearing aids fairly quick. 906 00:47:05,379 --> 00:47:07,689 Listen, I can't let you have access to your phone. 907 00:47:10,137 --> 00:47:11,689 [Aaron] What James doesn't get 908 00:47:11,689 --> 00:47:15,068 is that if he takes my hearing aids away, 909 00:47:15,068 --> 00:47:16,344 that messes with my head, 910 00:47:16,344 --> 00:47:19,068 so I can't be present and I can't be in the moment 911 00:47:19,068 --> 00:47:20,241 if I don't have them. 912 00:47:22,586 --> 00:47:25,000 [Judah] Anything you're worried about them finding? 913 00:47:25,000 --> 00:47:26,586 [Esmeralda] I don't know. Maybe. 914 00:47:26,586 --> 00:47:28,379 I don't know what's allowed or not. 915 00:47:28,379 --> 00:47:29,793 [laughing] 916 00:47:31,965 --> 00:47:33,482 [Emma] Do you have any lotion in here? 917 00:47:33,482 --> 00:47:35,275 Oh, no, no. But yeah, this is all lotion. 918 00:47:35,275 --> 00:47:37,586 Like, lotion. Skincare. 919 00:47:37,586 --> 00:47:39,689 -That looks like makeup. -No, I swear it's not. 920 00:47:39,689 --> 00:47:41,793 It's, like, for your eyes. 921 00:47:41,793 --> 00:47:44,172 [Emma] We wouldn't use makeup, 922 00:47:44,172 --> 00:47:46,068 so we kind of expect them to do the same. 923 00:47:47,551 --> 00:47:50,241 You do see people get so wrapped up in their self-image 924 00:47:50,241 --> 00:47:52,862 that they get Botox shots 925 00:47:52,862 --> 00:47:55,655 enough to the point they look a little bit like fish. 926 00:47:55,655 --> 00:48:00,172 I see you're wearing fake nails and eyelashes. 927 00:48:00,172 --> 00:48:05,689 [Emma] We have a rule that we're not allowed to have the lashes and the nails. 928 00:48:07,241 --> 00:48:09,275 That's not how the Amish culture does. 929 00:48:10,793 --> 00:48:12,172 We'll have to take it. 930 00:48:12,172 --> 00:48:13,931 [Esmeralda] No. 931 00:48:16,379 --> 00:48:18,482 Looks like we have a situation here. 932 00:48:18,482 --> 00:48:21,896 We can't have these English defying our rules on day one. 933 00:48:21,896 --> 00:48:24,482 I mean, they are here to fit in. 934 00:48:24,482 --> 00:48:26,068 So I am left with no choice 935 00:48:26,068 --> 00:48:27,758 except to bring Sarah and Allen in 936 00:48:27,758 --> 00:48:31,103 to see if they can work with Esmeralda. 937 00:48:40,655 --> 00:48:42,000 [Allen] If you want to milk a cow, 938 00:48:42,000 --> 00:48:45,862 you're gonna have to take those off your nails. 939 00:48:47,344 --> 00:48:49,000 Well, then, I guess I won't be milking any cows. 940 00:48:53,448 --> 00:48:55,448 You wanted to join the Amish culture, 941 00:48:55,448 --> 00:48:59,758 but yet you don't want to give up your nails and eyelashes. 942 00:48:59,758 --> 00:49:01,000 [Esmeralda] No. 943 00:49:01,000 --> 00:49:02,896 You already took our makeup. You already took our clothes. 944 00:49:02,896 --> 00:49:05,758 You're just, like, yanking everything from us at once, 945 00:49:05,758 --> 00:49:09,137 and it's, like, so hard to, like, just deal with everything. 946 00:49:09,137 --> 00:49:13,241 I already feel like not secure in myself already. 947 00:49:13,241 --> 00:49:15,344 Growing up, like, my mom, she also grew up like that. 948 00:49:15,344 --> 00:49:16,689 Like she's always ready. 949 00:49:16,689 --> 00:49:19,793 She doesn't go, like, anywhere without makeup, 950 00:49:19,793 --> 00:49:21,482 so I feel like I just grew up, like, thinking, like, 951 00:49:21,482 --> 00:49:25,172 that's the only way, um, I guess, to feel pretty. 952 00:49:25,172 --> 00:49:26,758 I don't know. 953 00:49:26,758 --> 00:49:31,275 We want you to be able to feel secure in how God made you. 954 00:49:33,793 --> 00:49:36,137 Our rules and guidelines 955 00:49:36,137 --> 00:49:39,034 is not to use jewelry or makeup 956 00:49:39,034 --> 00:49:43,379 or anything to make us stand out and look prettier 957 00:49:43,379 --> 00:49:44,862 to catch attention. 958 00:49:47,275 --> 00:49:51,000 I was kind of astounded with Esmeralda. 959 00:49:51,000 --> 00:49:52,482 If you're going into some place, 960 00:49:52,482 --> 00:49:56,689 you have no right to ask them to conform to your way of thinking. 961 00:49:57,379 --> 00:49:59,137 You want to fit in or not? 962 00:50:04,586 --> 00:50:08,689 It's, like, the last thing that I'm kind of allowed to have, 963 00:50:08,689 --> 00:50:11,000 so I think I'm just gonna stand on, like, I'm not. 964 00:50:11,000 --> 00:50:11,965 I'm not doing it. 965 00:50:16,689 --> 00:50:19,275 If the lashes are that big of a deal, then I don't know, 966 00:50:19,275 --> 00:50:22,275 maybe it's just not gonna work out. Yeah. 967 00:50:22,275 --> 00:50:23,758 [James] You're leaving tonight? 968 00:50:23,758 --> 00:50:24,793 Maybe. 969 00:50:26,482 --> 00:50:27,689 [James] Esmeralda is fighting me 970 00:50:27,689 --> 00:50:30,896 like a spoiled little brat over eyelashes. 971 00:50:30,896 --> 00:50:33,482 She's definitely not cut out to be Amish. 972 00:50:34,586 --> 00:50:37,482 [Esmeralda] I'm done. I don't want to do this anymore. 973 00:50:41,103 --> 00:50:43,379 [James] Then, just leave already. 974 00:50:43,379 --> 00:50:44,482 Okay. 975 00:50:51,275 --> 00:50:53,896 [Judah] This season on Suddenly Amish... 976 00:50:53,896 --> 00:50:56,344 [Vernon] They're trying to integrate into our world. 977 00:50:57,551 --> 00:50:58,793 This is my saw virginity. 978 00:50:58,793 --> 00:51:00,551 This might be harder than I expected. 979 00:51:00,551 --> 00:51:02,241 -[pigs squealing] -[bleep] It's out! No! 980 00:51:02,241 --> 00:51:05,172 Wow, look at that nice Amish farmer we got here. 981 00:51:05,172 --> 00:51:07,689 I think there's something going on with Kendra and Matt. 982 00:51:07,689 --> 00:51:10,275 If the opportunity presents itself, maybe. 983 00:51:10,275 --> 00:51:12,551 -Are you Billie Jo? -I am. 984 00:51:14,655 --> 00:51:17,275 [laughing] No! Oh, wow, you really do. 985 00:51:17,275 --> 00:51:18,655 Welcome to the Amish. 986 00:51:19,896 --> 00:51:22,000 [Vernon] Luke, chapter four. 987 00:51:22,000 --> 00:51:24,103 He has been sent to heal the brokenhearted. 988 00:51:25,103 --> 00:51:27,000 [sobbing] 989 00:51:27,000 --> 00:51:29,551 There's just so much judgment and what you can and can't do. 990 00:51:29,551 --> 00:51:31,241 -[Emma speaking] -Uh, ow. 991 00:51:31,241 --> 00:51:32,310 I'm really struggling. 992 00:51:32,310 --> 00:51:33,620 I feel like I'm losing every part of me. 993 00:51:33,620 --> 00:51:36,344 [Judah] I'm gonna just keep my little secrets to myself. 994 00:51:36,344 --> 00:51:38,172 It was more [bleep] drama. 995 00:51:38,172 --> 00:51:40,034 How do you sleep at night? 996 00:51:40,034 --> 00:51:42,275 I don't give a [bleep] if the cameras are watching me. 997 00:51:44,758 --> 00:51:47,000 [James] I am escorting you off the property. 998 00:51:47,000 --> 00:51:48,586 He's chasing me with a [bleep] ax. 999 00:51:48,586 --> 00:51:50,034 [James] Go! 1000 00:51:50,034 --> 00:51:51,896 [Judah] I feel like James is playing a cold game right now. 1001 00:51:51,896 --> 00:51:54,172 I don't know what he got up his sleeve. 1002 00:51:54,172 --> 00:51:56,896 [James] Kendra, I don't want you to run off on us. 1003 00:51:56,896 --> 00:51:58,172 This life is not for everyone. 1004 00:51:58,172 --> 00:51:59,586 None of it makes sense. 1005 00:51:59,586 --> 00:52:00,896 What the [bleep] am I doing here? 1006 00:52:02,241 --> 00:52:03,448 [Judah] Harley, wait! 1007 00:52:03,448 --> 00:52:05,000 I'm braking! 1008 00:52:05,000 --> 00:52:06,103 It is our responsibility 1009 00:52:06,103 --> 00:52:08,172 to teach them what's right and what's wrong. 1010 00:52:09,000 --> 00:52:10,862 [thunder rumbling] 1011 00:52:10,862 --> 00:52:15,000 Joining the Amish, it's a decision for life. 1012 00:52:15,000 --> 00:52:17,103 [James] Do you want the Amish life or not?