1 00:01:23,880 --> 00:01:25,500 You look healthy. 2 00:01:27,710 --> 00:01:29,050 You're a ghost. 3 00:01:30,050 --> 00:01:31,430 I don't see you. 4 00:01:31,720 --> 00:01:33,510 I don't know where you are. 5 00:01:35,970 --> 00:01:37,930 How is your sister Kim? 6 00:01:39,730 --> 00:01:40,730 Fine. 7 00:01:42,980 --> 00:01:44,020 Fine. 8 00:01:47,400 --> 00:01:49,610 Your grandsons. My boys. 9 00:01:50,530 --> 00:01:51,700 Jimmy is Hung. 10 00:01:53,530 --> 00:01:55,410 Tommy is Chau. 11 00:01:56,240 --> 00:01:57,250 Alan. 12 00:01:57,750 --> 00:01:59,250 Born in America. 13 00:02:03,130 --> 00:02:04,550 What'd she say? 14 00:02:04,920 --> 00:02:06,710 She says you're giant. 15 00:02:06,920 --> 00:02:08,880 She can't believe your size. 16 00:02:09,090 --> 00:02:11,220 You used to scratch your back... 17 00:02:11,430 --> 00:02:13,560 ...on the wooden post in our house. 18 00:02:18,940 --> 00:02:21,230 Look at her teeth! - Stop that. 19 00:02:27,950 --> 00:02:28,860 Brother. 20 00:02:47,470 --> 00:02:48,380 Take one. 21 00:02:48,800 --> 00:02:49,930 Be polite. 22 00:02:51,010 --> 00:02:52,600 I'm sorry. I can't. 23 00:02:52,970 --> 00:02:54,470 Don't spoil a good time. 24 00:02:54,720 --> 00:02:58,650 My oldest son and my youngest daughter are back with me. 25 00:02:58,810 --> 00:03:00,520 My two halves on either side. 26 00:03:01,730 --> 00:03:03,780 We share the same mother, I agree. 27 00:03:04,570 --> 00:03:06,280 I love her as a sister... 28 00:03:06,700 --> 00:03:08,780 ...but I cannot accept her gifts. 29 00:03:09,990 --> 00:03:13,290 I had this terrible fear you would despise me... 30 00:03:14,580 --> 00:03:18,420 ...because I married your enemy and left while you were still fighting. 31 00:03:19,500 --> 00:03:21,670 It's been so many years. 32 00:03:22,500 --> 00:03:24,010 Much is forgiven. 33 00:03:25,220 --> 00:03:28,680 But you don't understand how much suffering Americans caused. 34 00:03:30,010 --> 00:03:31,970 Things are very hard. 35 00:03:32,640 --> 00:03:34,140 We use our own excrement... 36 00:03:34,270 --> 00:03:35,810 ...to grow vegetables! 37 00:03:36,600 --> 00:03:39,480 All we had to hold on to was the future... 38 00:03:39,860 --> 00:03:44,190 ...because we knew that the future would not arrive unless we won... 39 00:03:45,740 --> 00:03:48,490 ...so we kept dying, no matter what... 40 00:03:49,700 --> 00:03:52,870 ...just like ants beneath the elephant's feet. 41 00:03:54,870 --> 00:03:56,830 It wasn't because we were brave. 42 00:03:57,250 --> 00:03:59,380 Because we had no choice. 43 00:04:00,380 --> 00:04:02,510 Our freedom was all... 44 00:04:03,460 --> 00:04:05,090 ...all that mattered. 45 00:04:07,220 --> 00:04:09,600 When the future finally came... 46 00:04:10,140 --> 00:04:11,850 ...there was more war. 47 00:04:12,270 --> 00:04:15,690 The Cambodians, the Chinese. 48 00:04:17,400 --> 00:04:20,610 When I came to look for Mama in 1980.... 49 00:04:21,400 --> 00:04:24,200 You have no idea how much your mother suffered. 50 00:04:24,610 --> 00:04:27,240 She was too old to work the paddies. 51 00:04:27,780 --> 00:04:32,870 She had to give the land, our land, to the State after liberation. 52 00:04:33,910 --> 00:04:36,040 When I found Mama and Hai... 53 00:04:36,540 --> 00:04:37,830 ...they were starving. 54 00:04:37,920 --> 00:04:41,050 Their clothes were rags, their farm tools stolen... 55 00:04:41,510 --> 00:04:43,050 ...the animals slaughtered. 56 00:04:43,470 --> 00:04:45,090 The house was in ruins. 57 00:04:45,470 --> 00:04:47,140 Wild dogs attacked them. 58 00:04:48,260 --> 00:04:50,470 Nobody in the village cared for them. 59 00:04:50,600 --> 00:04:52,730 Just two old ladies scavenging... 60 00:04:52,850 --> 00:04:55,400 ...and growing vegetables to stay alive. 61 00:04:56,770 --> 00:04:58,570 Now you come here... 62 00:04:59,440 --> 00:05:01,280 ...a rich, strange foreigner. 63 00:05:02,320 --> 00:05:04,570 You'll turn the village against them. 64 00:05:04,820 --> 00:05:06,660 And against us... 65 00:05:08,370 --> 00:05:11,910 ...the Phungs, who have suffered so much. 66 00:05:14,750 --> 00:05:17,920 Things were bad for everyone after liberation. 67 00:05:21,130 --> 00:05:24,760 Many times, heaven and earth changed places. 68 00:05:25,340 --> 00:05:28,760 If you ask me, rebuilding a nation after a war... 69 00:05:29,010 --> 00:05:31,600 ...is like trying to start a family by getting raped! 70 00:05:33,850 --> 00:05:37,650 If war produces one thing, it's many cemeteries. 71 00:05:39,280 --> 00:05:42,070 And in cemeteries there are no enemies. 72 00:06:03,890 --> 00:06:06,140 All I could think of for so long... 73 00:06:06,550 --> 00:06:09,350 ...was how I made your brother, Sau, go to war. 74 00:06:09,680 --> 00:06:14,190 Your father wanted your brother to know some of the joys of married life... 75 00:06:14,520 --> 00:06:17,530 ...but I said no, so sure I was doing the right thing. 76 00:06:19,110 --> 00:06:20,320 Can you believe it? 77 00:06:20,400 --> 00:06:22,990 I gave up a grandson to gain a soldier. 78 00:06:24,410 --> 00:06:26,030 And I lost both. 79 00:06:27,370 --> 00:06:28,500 How wrong I was. 80 00:06:29,370 --> 00:06:32,000 It was also An Sau's choice. 81 00:06:33,420 --> 00:06:36,340 He was just being a good son when he obeyed me. 82 00:06:37,300 --> 00:06:41,340 If I could, I'd have stopped you from going to America. 83 00:06:43,050 --> 00:06:45,390 What would've happened to your sons here? 84 00:06:50,890 --> 00:06:53,230 I'm so proud of you, Bay Ly. 85 00:06:54,310 --> 00:06:58,240 You've grown up to see the side of things that's hidden from most people. 86 00:07:07,750 --> 00:07:10,920 Tears are God's way of paying you back... 87 00:07:11,250 --> 00:07:12,830 ...for what He's taken. 88 00:07:14,130 --> 00:07:15,920 I have no more tears. 89 00:07:17,170 --> 00:07:20,590 I have cried them out to all directions of the wind. 90 00:07:22,050 --> 00:07:24,050 My color's changing, Ly. 91 00:07:24,720 --> 00:07:26,100 It began last year. 92 00:07:27,180 --> 00:07:29,190 I have seen it before in others. 93 00:07:31,480 --> 00:07:35,230 You have come back, and that's what matters. 94 00:07:36,320 --> 00:07:38,900 You have completed your circle of growth. 95 00:07:40,280 --> 00:07:42,450 Low tide to high tide... 96 00:07:42,780 --> 00:07:44,740 ...poor to rich... 97 00:07:44,950 --> 00:07:46,580 ...sad to happy... 98 00:07:47,830 --> 00:07:50,080 ...beggar to a fine lady. 99 00:07:52,460 --> 00:07:54,550 Your past is now complete... 100 00:07:56,300 --> 00:07:59,300 ...and my destiny as your mother is now over. 101 00:08:06,890 --> 00:08:09,350 I'm looking forward to joining your papa. 102 00:08:17,900 --> 00:08:21,160 That night, I slept in the house my father built. 103 00:08:34,250 --> 00:08:38,180 Afterward, he found no need to visit me in my dreams. 104 00:08:47,060 --> 00:08:50,310 I gave my offerings to all the dead of the village. 105 00:09:07,710 --> 00:09:09,830 I had come home, yes. 106 00:09:11,710 --> 00:09:13,630 But home had changed... 107 00:09:14,720 --> 00:09:17,130 ...and I would always be in between... 108 00:09:17,550 --> 00:09:19,220 ...south, north... 109 00:09:19,720 --> 00:09:21,350 ...east, west... 110 00:09:21,560 --> 00:09:23,060 ...peace, war... 111 00:09:23,720 --> 00:09:26,140 ...Vietnam, America. 112 00:09:26,770 --> 00:09:31,480 It is my fate to be in between heaven and earth. 113 00:09:32,730 --> 00:09:35,450 When we resist our fate, we suffer. 114 00:09:36,150 --> 00:09:38,740 When we accept it, we are happy. 115 00:09:39,370 --> 00:09:42,200 We have time in abundance, an eternity... 116 00:09:42,910 --> 00:09:44,870 ...to repeat our mistakes. 117 00:09:44,960 --> 00:09:47,920 But we need only once correct our mistake... 118 00:09:48,420 --> 00:09:51,050 ...and at last hear the song of enlightenment... 119 00:09:51,130 --> 00:09:54,420 ...with which we can break the chain of vengeance forever. 120 00:09:57,140 --> 00:09:59,600 In your heart you can hear it now. 121 00:10:00,260 --> 00:10:04,480 It's the song your spirit has been singing since your birth. 122 00:10:06,560 --> 00:10:10,610 If the monks were right and nothing happens without cause... 123 00:10:11,070 --> 00:10:14,820 ...then the gift of suffering is to bring us closer to God... 124 00:10:15,280 --> 00:10:18,120 ...to teach us to be strong when we are weak... 125 00:10:18,280 --> 00:10:20,910 ...to be brave when we are afraid... 126 00:10:21,160 --> 00:10:24,080 ...to be wise in the midst of confusion... 127 00:10:24,370 --> 00:10:27,290 ...and to let go of that which we can no longer hold. 128 00:10:30,170 --> 00:10:33,010 Lasting victories are won in the heart... 129 00:10:33,840 --> 00:10:36,010 ...not on this land or that.