1 00:01:01,267 --> 00:01:07,517 The mind does whatever it wants to hold power. 2 00:01:10,892 --> 00:01:13,139 It says, 3 00:01:13,225 --> 00:01:19,264 that without its presence in everything, 4 00:01:19,350 --> 00:01:22,350 we don't work. 5 00:01:24,142 --> 00:01:28,267 We cannot love or be loved. 6 00:01:35,183 --> 00:01:39,722 Note the gruff tone of voice. - Don't bother! 7 00:01:39,808 --> 00:01:42,847 The bully's voice. - Over! 8 00:01:42,933 --> 00:01:45,558 Offensive mind. 9 00:01:49,767 --> 00:01:53,725 This is the frightened ego. 10 00:01:58,350 --> 00:02:00,014 Oh my god! 11 00:02:00,100 --> 00:02:07,222 ...which we're looking for because it doesn't tell truth, but fantasy. 12 00:02:07,308 --> 00:02:11,975 Fantasies demand the mind, and the mind requires fantasies. 13 00:02:13,267 --> 00:02:19,475 OTAGO, AOTEAROA NEW ZEALAND 14 00:02:26,808 --> 00:02:28,097 Mother? 15 00:02:28,183 --> 00:02:32,639 The field is bad and I have to teach a man to strangle me 16 00:02:32,725 --> 00:02:38,475 so I don't have time to talk. - All right. I don't have time either. 17 00:02:39,808 --> 00:02:45,555 I just wanted to tell you that I will soon be in the street area. 18 00:02:45,642 --> 00:02:50,639 I am participating in a semi-silent retreat in the wilderness. 19 00:02:50,725 --> 00:02:54,347 So don't expect to hear from me. 20 00:02:54,433 --> 00:02:57,642 Dyl? Damn, it went wrong. 21 00:02:58,642 --> 00:03:02,722 I can't hear you, but bye. 22 00:03:02,808 --> 00:03:06,100 ...but it's here for us. 23 00:03:37,808 --> 00:03:39,850 Please. - Thank you. 24 00:03:42,725 --> 00:03:46,180 Silence begins in the evening after the welcome meeting. 25 00:03:46,267 --> 00:03:51,472 Wi-Fi only works at the reception, and we try to be without our phones. 26 00:03:51,558 --> 00:03:56,764 If I could get your signature on this... 27 00:03:56,850 --> 00:04:01,097 It's about that you agreed to participate in the advertisement. 28 00:04:01,183 --> 00:04:05,597 I don't want to be photographed. That's why I didn't sign. 29 00:04:05,683 --> 00:04:07,597 Clear. 30 00:04:07,683 --> 00:04:13,847 Tell that to Mark from film school. He describes. 31 00:04:13,933 --> 00:04:19,180 But will you tell him too? I don't want my daughter or my ex- 32 00:04:19,267 --> 00:04:22,764 see what I'm saying if i say something. 33 00:04:22,850 --> 00:04:26,097 I can write a note, but you tell him. 34 00:04:26,183 --> 00:04:29,680 I have a lot to worry about, so I would appreciate it. 35 00:04:29,767 --> 00:04:33,183 Clear. Team work. 36 00:04:34,142 --> 00:04:37,975 So... The meeting room. 37 00:04:38,725 --> 00:04:42,014 Bridge. Labyrinth. 38 00:04:42,100 --> 00:04:45,305 The rooms are at the back. - What is the nicest room? 39 00:04:45,392 --> 00:04:48,680 Room number nine. - Everyone is the same. 40 00:04:48,767 --> 00:04:52,805 It was a joke. Bad joke. 41 00:04:52,892 --> 00:04:57,389 We came here to be enlightened, so it doesn't matter. 42 00:04:57,475 --> 00:05:02,597 I'll take the map. - There is a field near the trash. 43 00:05:02,683 --> 00:05:05,808 It is for emergencies only. 44 00:05:06,933 --> 00:05:08,892 Thanks. 45 00:05:10,933 --> 00:05:16,558 Reception technology is for emergencies only. 46 00:06:03,058 --> 00:06:08,264 Call dad if you want to talk. - Why? I never call dad. 47 00:06:08,350 --> 00:06:13,725 Because you can't catch me. - I won't be able to do it. 48 00:06:14,600 --> 00:06:19,139 If something goes wrong. Your job is dangerous. 49 00:06:19,225 --> 00:06:23,389 Injuries happen. - Could you stop, mom? 50 00:06:23,475 --> 00:06:27,850 There is nothing in New Zealand dangerous, so I'll be fine. 51 00:06:28,808 --> 00:06:32,180 Sure. I'm just worried. 52 00:06:32,267 --> 00:06:36,264 But could you stop it? It confuses me. Please. 53 00:06:36,350 --> 00:06:38,972 All right. Yes. Sorry. 54 00:06:39,058 --> 00:06:42,389 Dylan, Elmore is ready. - All right. I have to go. 55 00:06:42,475 --> 00:06:46,933 Did I say something wrong? - No, I'm already late for work. 56 00:06:49,683 --> 00:06:56,097 I'll text when the silence is over. 57 00:06:56,183 --> 00:07:01,639 Clear. i love you I hope it's a good experience. 58 00:07:01,725 --> 00:07:05,308 If I don't stay longer. 59 00:07:06,808 --> 00:07:10,433 Don't call me if I don't text. 60 00:07:11,392 --> 00:07:16,183 Clear. i love you - Bye, honey. 61 00:07:20,808 --> 00:07:24,889 You are not lost. You are not broken. 62 00:07:24,975 --> 00:07:31,225 I invite you to this moment, without yourself. 63 00:07:31,808 --> 00:07:36,475 Without your past, that led you here. 64 00:07:38,100 --> 00:07:41,722 And park your car. 65 00:07:41,808 --> 00:07:46,058 They are certainly fascinating. 66 00:07:51,600 --> 00:07:55,183 I invite us to silence. 67 00:07:57,308 --> 00:08:01,642 To give us permission to be... 68 00:08:05,433 --> 00:08:08,225 ...a little mystical. 69 00:08:13,100 --> 00:08:17,722 The silence of the retreat is not just avoiding talking, 70 00:08:17,808 --> 00:08:23,183 but an opportunity not to socialize. 71 00:08:29,725 --> 00:08:33,433 Please don't smile at each other. 72 00:08:37,183 --> 00:08:39,017 No winks. 73 00:08:40,308 --> 00:08:42,392 No signs. 74 00:08:45,767 --> 00:08:48,347 But... 75 00:08:48,433 --> 00:08:54,933 You can use the board or talk to Petunia or to me if it starts to bother you. 76 00:08:58,392 --> 00:09:01,142 Try to see what happens. 77 00:09:04,267 --> 00:09:11,308 Try to see what happens, if you let yourself panic first. 78 00:09:18,308 --> 00:09:20,642 It might not be that 79 00:09:22,475 --> 00:09:25,100 what it looks like. 80 00:09:33,975 --> 00:09:35,892 The other hand. 81 00:09:37,267 --> 00:09:41,472 Am I being too harsh? - No, but you don't have to press. 82 00:09:41,558 --> 00:09:44,639 True. I follow you. 83 00:09:44,725 --> 00:09:49,267 Remember you can't hurt me. Everything is under control. 84 00:09:51,975 --> 00:09:54,472 Are you ready? - I am. 85 00:09:54,558 --> 00:09:59,475 Three, two, one... 86 00:10:07,142 --> 00:10:09,267 are you ok 87 00:10:13,058 --> 00:10:16,097 Don't do that. - It doesn't hurt. 88 00:10:16,183 --> 00:10:20,055 Sorry, but you did well. 89 00:10:20,142 --> 00:10:23,222 Sure. Let's try again. 90 00:10:23,308 --> 00:10:26,725 Want to try this? - Yes, I guess. 91 00:10:30,267 --> 00:10:33,308 No. Not twice. 92 00:10:34,558 --> 00:10:38,850 You crush an apple. - Quiet, I'm trying to concentrate. 93 00:10:40,392 --> 00:10:43,972 What are you trying to do with the apple? 94 00:10:44,058 --> 00:10:48,142 I didn't look like that. - Don't you? Damn it! 95 00:10:48,892 --> 00:10:51,850 This is unfair. 96 00:10:52,600 --> 00:10:55,725 How? Okay. 97 00:11:00,517 --> 00:11:05,264 I want to beat you in everything. - You're a bad loser. 98 00:11:05,350 --> 00:11:08,264 Impressive. 99 00:11:08,350 --> 00:11:11,433 Two wingless birds here. 100 00:11:24,225 --> 00:11:26,517 What the hell? 101 00:12:29,683 --> 00:12:32,517 No, breakfast is over. 102 00:12:37,975 --> 00:12:39,058 Hello! 103 00:12:43,517 --> 00:12:46,389 Thank you for coming. - It won't last. 104 00:12:46,475 --> 00:12:48,805 We have been silent. 105 00:12:48,892 --> 00:12:52,725 The airport was a disaster. - I'm sorry. 106 00:13:11,100 --> 00:13:15,514 It's beautiful here. Which room do I have? - Room number nine. 107 00:13:15,600 --> 00:13:20,475 Clean. Thanks. - It won't last. Follow me. 108 00:13:24,683 --> 00:13:30,142 Where is Elon? - He meditates. Come on. 109 00:13:33,225 --> 00:13:36,350 It can't be true. 110 00:14:48,058 --> 00:14:51,305 He wants you to die more slowly. 111 00:14:51,392 --> 00:14:55,847 You must rise faster, then an arrow hits you - 112 00:14:55,933 --> 00:15:00,389 and you fall facing the camera, so we can see you. 113 00:15:00,475 --> 00:15:05,350 We've done it four times. - Let's try again. 114 00:15:07,225 --> 00:15:09,933 One last recap. 115 00:15:11,225 --> 00:15:13,639 The camera works! 116 00:15:13,725 --> 00:15:17,725 Three, two, one... Now! 117 00:15:20,267 --> 00:15:23,433 Across! No, no, no! 118 00:16:02,600 --> 00:16:08,680 LOST WITH ELON BELLO 119 00:16:08,767 --> 00:16:14,267 DO NOT DISTURB! SESSION IN PROGRESS 120 00:16:22,058 --> 00:16:28,808 NEVER GIVE UP ON HOPE. 121 00:16:40,642 --> 00:16:43,892 Hello! Could you take a picture of me? 122 00:16:45,892 --> 00:16:50,517 The silence is over. Elon broke it. Did you sleep long? 123 00:16:52,142 --> 00:16:56,725 The alarm clock didn't ring. Actually... - It disappears. 124 00:17:06,850 --> 00:17:09,392 Can you have a couple more? 125 00:17:14,433 --> 00:17:16,517 Do these work? 126 00:17:20,225 --> 00:17:22,683 I'm in the shadows. 127 00:17:23,308 --> 00:17:27,850 You have a backlight so... - Are you a photographer? 128 00:17:28,558 --> 00:17:30,558 I don't. 129 00:17:31,183 --> 00:17:34,558 I have taken some portraits. 130 00:17:42,892 --> 00:17:46,392 Thanks. - Sorry. 131 00:17:48,475 --> 00:17:55,014 My father was a night owl. He was small and an aggressive white male. 132 00:17:55,100 --> 00:17:58,805 He left me alone when I grew bigger than him. 133 00:17:58,892 --> 00:18:02,433 I prayed for my body to grow. 134 00:18:03,183 --> 00:18:05,975 By the power of the mind. 135 00:18:09,100 --> 00:18:16,267 Now I support him financially, because he is sick and he is my father. 136 00:18:19,308 --> 00:18:25,225 My sister said something about him, and I didn't take it well. 137 00:18:26,600 --> 00:18:28,975 Not at all. 138 00:18:30,350 --> 00:18:32,892 But I do want to. 139 00:18:37,642 --> 00:18:39,642 I'm ashamed. 140 00:18:40,850 --> 00:18:47,267 And I'm afraid of what my sister will say. 141 00:18:51,100 --> 00:18:55,725 If he hurts my sister, I will kill him. 142 00:18:59,100 --> 00:19:04,305 But not anymore, because now I am told you the plan. 143 00:19:04,392 --> 00:19:07,475 That would be stupid. 144 00:19:08,517 --> 00:19:11,517 Does anyone understand? 145 00:19:17,017 --> 00:19:20,930 What do we do, Elon? 146 00:19:21,017 --> 00:19:23,142 We do what? 147 00:19:26,558 --> 00:19:28,183 You've done enough. 148 00:19:29,892 --> 00:19:32,100 Is it clear? - All right. 149 00:19:33,850 --> 00:19:37,475 Look what people have done so far. 150 00:19:41,725 --> 00:19:47,225 Anyone else ready to share the shame? 151 00:19:49,808 --> 00:19:52,139 Or a secret. 152 00:19:52,225 --> 00:19:55,350 I am. - It's fine. 153 00:19:57,933 --> 00:20:04,142 Thanks for your honesty, Dion. I humble myself in your company. 154 00:20:08,975 --> 00:20:13,642 I don't want to be photographed. - That's fine. Turn off the camera. 155 00:20:16,558 --> 00:20:23,847 I am filled with shame after shame, 156 00:20:23,933 --> 00:20:31,225 when I reveal the superficial and my leaked secret. 157 00:20:34,600 --> 00:20:39,139 I know I'm young - 158 00:20:39,225 --> 00:20:43,847 and living in youth culture, where I am known. 159 00:20:43,933 --> 00:20:49,600 But I'm scared of losing everything. 160 00:20:51,058 --> 00:20:53,267 Right. 161 00:20:54,058 --> 00:20:56,267 That's how it goes. 162 00:20:57,725 --> 00:21:00,517 Trust your parents. 163 00:21:04,558 --> 00:21:10,433 right, but i know how does it feel when someone... 164 00:21:12,558 --> 00:21:18,975 ...analyze my body, not out of lust or love, 165 00:21:20,392 --> 00:21:23,555 but for some nefarious reason. 166 00:21:23,642 --> 00:21:27,972 Sometimes I can't finish my sentences, 167 00:21:28,058 --> 00:21:32,308 because i don't know whether they are watching or listening. 168 00:21:34,350 --> 00:21:40,267 I thought I would grow past it, but i like to write suicide messages. 169 00:21:42,558 --> 00:21:45,808 And I dreamed about my funeral. 170 00:21:48,600 --> 00:21:54,183 In fantasy I am young. 171 00:21:56,600 --> 00:22:02,058 I don't know what they're looking at but i don't want to lose it. 172 00:22:05,017 --> 00:22:07,225 I'd rather die. 173 00:22:08,142 --> 00:22:10,600 It's my shame. 174 00:22:12,683 --> 00:22:18,350 I was just thinking, Beverly, are these suicidal thoughts... 175 00:22:19,517 --> 00:22:25,933 No, I have time. - This... 176 00:22:29,183 --> 00:22:33,142 Such an illusion... 177 00:22:41,267 --> 00:22:45,183 It's one that has - 178 00:22:46,642 --> 00:22:52,350 built-in self-destruct mechanism. 179 00:22:53,392 --> 00:23:00,347 This ship only carries a certain distance before it destroys itself. 180 00:23:00,433 --> 00:23:03,017 And me with it. - No. 181 00:23:04,558 --> 00:23:08,430 You are a passenger, not a means of transport. 182 00:23:08,517 --> 00:23:14,142 You are at the airport and you know that the plane falls. Don't get on the plane. 183 00:23:15,142 --> 00:23:16,975 Don't get on board. 184 00:23:19,475 --> 00:23:25,933 Is it clear? But sometimes in an accident... 185 00:23:27,183 --> 00:23:30,392 ...has its advantages. 186 00:23:31,850 --> 00:23:37,308 Are there others? Or has everyone said what they have to say? 187 00:23:38,392 --> 00:23:40,683 He wasn't here in the morning. 188 00:23:49,975 --> 00:23:53,433 After this ashamed to be over 40 years old. 189 00:23:54,558 --> 00:23:58,305 It's not about you. - No, but... 190 00:23:58,392 --> 00:24:03,058 You are young. Someday you'll know how it feels. 191 00:24:03,808 --> 00:24:08,139 If you don't... - Kill myself, will you? 192 00:24:08,225 --> 00:24:12,142 I didn't mean it. 193 00:24:17,600 --> 00:24:20,225 I meant that if you are not enlightened. 194 00:24:22,892 --> 00:24:26,389 Do you want to come forward? 195 00:24:26,475 --> 00:24:30,683 All right. Sure. - Thank you. 196 00:24:41,433 --> 00:24:46,764 My parents always tested my chances of success, 197 00:24:46,850 --> 00:24:51,517 when they were not depressed or drank all their money. 198 00:24:53,308 --> 00:24:57,017 But it made me sharp. I was sharp. 199 00:25:00,975 --> 00:25:05,225 But now I might be sharp in a cutting way. 200 00:25:06,767 --> 00:25:11,555 Before, it seemed to lead to something. I played the piano. 201 00:25:11,642 --> 00:25:17,389 As a teenager, I performed warrior princess in the TV series. 202 00:25:17,475 --> 00:25:21,680 I remember Flora the Fierce. It was good. 203 00:25:21,767 --> 00:25:24,517 Thanks. 204 00:25:30,808 --> 00:25:36,308 My parents wanted to be happy, even though they weren't. 205 00:25:39,642 --> 00:25:46,139 I want to be happy too but luck doesn't last. 206 00:25:46,225 --> 00:25:52,683 So I decided a long time ago, that maybe there is something more than luck. 207 00:25:55,475 --> 00:26:02,142 I have been living together ever since with that "something else". 208 00:26:03,725 --> 00:26:10,725 So I'm ashamed, that after all this - 209 00:26:12,392 --> 00:26:16,722 I'm still only together. 210 00:26:16,808 --> 00:26:21,514 I'm still greedy, clingy, a lazy and paranoid person, 211 00:26:21,600 --> 00:26:25,847 who lives off the money I made with a character that caused an eating disorder. 212 00:26:25,933 --> 00:26:29,850 I hope I'm funny. I can be... 213 00:26:31,308 --> 00:26:32,933 It's me. 214 00:26:37,058 --> 00:26:39,517 Sometimes I'm just a dick. 215 00:26:51,142 --> 00:26:53,975 Can anyone relate to this? 216 00:27:02,308 --> 00:27:07,058 I GOT OVER THAT A LONG TIME AGO. 217 00:27:14,517 --> 00:27:21,558 I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT MY MOTHER DIED OF OLD AGE. 218 00:27:26,850 --> 00:27:31,142 I think you found my smoking corner. 219 00:27:33,267 --> 00:27:36,225 I got caught. 220 00:27:38,642 --> 00:27:40,642 do you smoke 221 00:27:43,392 --> 00:27:46,350 I'm not a monk. I am enlightened. 222 00:27:47,933 --> 00:27:51,558 Just one a week. A few suctions. 223 00:27:53,600 --> 00:27:58,305 I thought I was enlightened do not call themselves enlightened. 224 00:27:58,392 --> 00:28:02,058 Do not mortals reveal them so? 225 00:28:05,683 --> 00:28:08,892 I have seen nuns smoking. 226 00:28:10,767 --> 00:28:17,475 I feel like it's worth it enjoy while it lasts. 227 00:28:19,850 --> 00:28:22,308 About enlightenment. 228 00:28:26,267 --> 00:28:31,350 Don't think it will last? - I don't think so. 229 00:28:39,558 --> 00:28:44,430 You are smiling. A lot, actually. 230 00:28:44,517 --> 00:28:50,142 Your face will completely change. That's great. 231 00:29:15,183 --> 00:29:20,308 So... There is someone. 232 00:29:26,017 --> 00:29:28,267 Or no one. 233 00:29:32,058 --> 00:29:34,725 It's both. 234 00:29:35,933 --> 00:29:39,058 Both. - Yes. 235 00:29:44,433 --> 00:29:46,892 Clear. 236 00:29:57,392 --> 00:30:01,642 How close were you? - Me? 237 00:30:03,225 --> 00:30:09,639 You said you were on the same wavelength with something else. How close? 238 00:30:09,725 --> 00:30:13,472 Inseparable, but separate at the same time. 239 00:30:13,558 --> 00:30:16,767 Maybe it's both. 240 00:30:21,725 --> 00:30:22,933 No. 241 00:30:25,642 --> 00:30:28,267 Perhaps. 242 00:30:29,517 --> 00:30:35,264 Knows he is in a place, which is not everyday. 243 00:30:35,350 --> 00:30:42,264 Why is it not ordinary? Isn't there room for everything? 244 00:30:42,350 --> 00:30:46,558 It is enlightenment. That's all. 245 00:30:48,350 --> 00:30:53,139 Yeah, that's all, but at the same time - 246 00:30:53,225 --> 00:30:58,555 between the Enlightenment and the present there is a difference. 247 00:30:58,642 --> 00:31:02,642 What is stopping you from becoming enlightened now? 248 00:31:04,558 --> 00:31:07,472 Are you enlightened now? 249 00:31:07,558 --> 00:31:12,305 I am, although I am not aware of it - 250 00:31:12,392 --> 00:31:18,347 or words to explain it in a way that is satisfactory to you. 251 00:31:18,433 --> 00:31:23,142 Yes, it can happen right now. 252 00:31:26,017 --> 00:31:30,639 I've been on this journey for a while and I'm only speaking for myself... 253 00:31:30,725 --> 00:31:35,389 We can only speak for ourselves. - Who else would you speak for? 254 00:31:35,475 --> 00:31:42,642 I'm just saying that there have been moments when... 255 00:31:45,933 --> 00:31:50,392 ...I have felt a true connection to everything. 256 00:31:52,225 --> 00:31:58,805 Moments I've been incredibly shocked, 257 00:31:58,892 --> 00:32:01,933 and they were - 258 00:32:05,392 --> 00:32:09,597 both inevitable and miraculous. 259 00:32:09,683 --> 00:32:14,097 But you know that that it doesn't happen every day. 260 00:32:14,183 --> 00:32:17,558 That's what I mean. Both of them. 261 00:32:18,308 --> 00:32:21,180 Elon said exactly that. 262 00:32:21,267 --> 00:32:24,805 But I'll say it now. We both say so. 263 00:32:24,892 --> 00:32:28,097 That's what you say. 264 00:32:28,183 --> 00:32:33,017 do you feel that dissatisfaction comes from within you? 265 00:32:37,142 --> 00:32:39,517 I feel it. 266 00:32:43,475 --> 00:32:47,558 It sounds like you know what you need to work on. 267 00:32:52,100 --> 00:32:53,892 Nothing else! 268 00:33:18,350 --> 00:33:22,347 What are you doing warm outside your refuge? 269 00:33:22,433 --> 00:33:26,305 Something caught my attention. - Shut up. 270 00:33:26,392 --> 00:33:30,347 Are you cold? - I mean... 271 00:33:30,433 --> 00:33:35,430 Go sit on the old… Go sit there if you want. 272 00:33:35,517 --> 00:33:39,680 That would be nice. 273 00:33:39,767 --> 00:33:46,680 We don't... We can't go to the actors' caravans. 274 00:33:46,767 --> 00:33:51,097 I won't tell anyone. The offer is valid. - Thank you very much. 275 00:33:51,183 --> 00:33:55,389 Is it over there? - It is. 276 00:33:55,475 --> 00:33:59,433 Or do you just go to the bathroom? 277 00:34:36,183 --> 00:34:37,514 Boss. 278 00:34:37,600 --> 00:34:39,558 No! 279 00:34:40,350 --> 00:34:44,680 All right, I give up! 280 00:34:44,767 --> 00:34:48,055 You have to take him. He is so boring. 281 00:34:48,142 --> 00:34:51,139 Jay. We're going out now. 282 00:34:51,225 --> 00:34:55,058 Shall we leave now? All right. 283 00:34:56,725 --> 00:35:01,680 I haven't received my stuff. - You don't need it. 284 00:35:01,767 --> 00:35:04,100 Are you sure? 285 00:35:20,850 --> 00:35:23,267 I have nothing to say. 286 00:35:24,517 --> 00:35:27,350 Isn't that a good thing? 287 00:36:12,433 --> 00:36:14,892 What do you smell? 288 00:36:17,725 --> 00:36:19,808 What? 289 00:36:43,267 --> 00:36:47,347 You are a disgusting beast. 290 00:36:47,433 --> 00:36:50,517 They leave you alone because you stink. 291 00:36:53,433 --> 00:36:56,308 You think you can get away from me? 292 00:36:57,767 --> 00:37:00,850 You can't. I'm you. 293 00:37:27,183 --> 00:37:29,433 Good morning. 294 00:37:33,767 --> 00:37:36,225 Did you sleep well? 295 00:37:39,517 --> 00:37:41,600 Dreams. 296 00:37:42,475 --> 00:37:48,308 Did you sleep well? - Very well. Very well. 297 00:37:54,225 --> 00:37:59,350 What did you dream about? - That I was a bastard. 298 00:38:03,642 --> 00:38:07,267 A naughty mind. 299 00:38:10,558 --> 00:38:12,725 Remember. 300 00:38:13,475 --> 00:38:16,267 Don't think, Lucy. 301 00:38:22,600 --> 00:38:26,933 Go to the fury. What's there? 302 00:38:33,308 --> 00:38:37,558 More fear. - All right. Stay with the fear. 303 00:38:40,558 --> 00:38:44,767 Stay with the fear. 304 00:38:46,392 --> 00:38:48,350 Stay. 305 00:38:50,892 --> 00:38:53,308 What's there? 306 00:38:55,183 --> 00:38:58,100 Space. 307 00:38:59,183 --> 00:39:01,142 Interesting. 308 00:39:05,183 --> 00:39:07,100 Thanks. 309 00:39:15,183 --> 00:39:17,600 Anyone else want to come? 310 00:39:26,100 --> 00:39:32,514 Last night I felt like I would have been knocked out of the dish. 311 00:39:32,600 --> 00:39:39,017 I was terrified, but it also flowed out of me. 312 00:39:39,642 --> 00:39:43,680 It turned into foam. 313 00:39:43,767 --> 00:39:49,555 Everything mixed with me, and I became... 314 00:39:49,642 --> 00:39:52,805 Latte. - I can't explain it. 315 00:39:52,892 --> 00:39:56,847 Peace cannot be explained, Beverly. Enjoy it. 316 00:39:56,933 --> 00:39:59,600 Show your face to the group. 317 00:40:08,642 --> 00:40:12,767 What has awakened within you, can be contagious like the flu. 318 00:40:18,100 --> 00:40:22,222 Thank you so much, Beverly. 319 00:40:22,308 --> 00:40:27,225 The room is quiet this morning. Isn't it beautiful? 320 00:40:29,392 --> 00:40:31,225 NO TECHNOLOGY IN THE ROOM. 321 00:40:35,600 --> 00:40:38,222 To avoid confusion to other applicants, 322 00:40:38,308 --> 00:40:42,433 I call the exercise "reborn". 323 00:40:48,517 --> 00:40:51,889 Make pairs. 324 00:40:51,975 --> 00:40:56,639 Let your heart open to the other's attraction. 325 00:40:56,725 --> 00:40:58,850 That's it. 326 00:40:59,975 --> 00:41:02,475 Did everyone find a pair? 327 00:41:05,725 --> 00:41:09,222 We have an odd number of participants. - I can skip it. 328 00:41:09,308 --> 00:41:11,683 You don't have to. 329 00:41:21,225 --> 00:41:23,722 Let the pissing begin. - Elon. 330 00:41:23,808 --> 00:41:28,139 No, I was just kidding. Sorry. 331 00:41:28,225 --> 00:41:32,014 This is not quite it. 332 00:41:32,100 --> 00:41:36,264 Everyone turn towards the misty mountain. 333 00:41:36,350 --> 00:41:41,514 On the right are new mothers and newborns on the left. 334 00:41:41,600 --> 00:41:44,933 New mothers, Get the blankets. 335 00:41:45,933 --> 00:41:51,639 Babies you can't walk talk or control your neck. 336 00:41:51,725 --> 00:41:58,472 Mothers, your children must drink, and it is the next hour of your life. 337 00:41:58,558 --> 00:42:00,892 Sounds fun. 338 00:42:02,767 --> 00:42:07,305 I think you are the mother because you are on the right. 339 00:42:07,392 --> 00:42:11,930 Babies, you get a chance to feel set yourself free without expectations. 340 00:42:12,017 --> 00:42:19,139 Mothers, you should calm your children down without using the correct language. 341 00:42:19,225 --> 00:42:25,430 Your children want things, which they don't even know about. 342 00:42:25,517 --> 00:42:32,725 Moms, you can whisper to each other every quarter in your own language. 343 00:42:38,392 --> 00:42:40,517 Thanks Mark. Thanks. 344 00:42:54,392 --> 00:42:56,725 Did the little one poop? 345 00:42:58,017 --> 00:42:59,933 Petunia! 346 00:43:00,517 --> 00:43:02,975 I think my baby... - I didn't poop! 347 00:44:10,267 --> 00:44:13,017 No, no, no. 348 00:44:16,642 --> 00:44:18,892 Please stop. 349 00:44:34,600 --> 00:44:36,517 Babies. 350 00:44:37,850 --> 00:44:41,808 look for the baby 351 00:44:43,808 --> 00:44:46,392 who is not your mother. 352 00:44:48,683 --> 00:44:51,933 look for the baby who is not your mother, babies. 353 00:45:28,975 --> 00:45:32,639 And now, mothers... 354 00:45:32,725 --> 00:45:38,933 Find your mother and tell them, what you want to say. 355 00:45:44,600 --> 00:45:47,642 Find your mother. 356 00:45:48,642 --> 00:45:51,558 Tell them what you want to say. 357 00:45:56,558 --> 00:45:59,642 Find your mother. 358 00:46:01,183 --> 00:46:05,347 Everything you tell yourself is a lie. - Fuck whoever I want. 359 00:46:05,433 --> 00:46:08,764 It's cold too, nothing queen. 360 00:46:08,850 --> 00:46:12,972 I'm not going to hell. - Do it. 361 00:46:13,058 --> 00:46:15,642 He has cancer. 362 00:46:16,350 --> 00:46:18,597 What? 363 00:46:18,683 --> 00:46:23,264 I'm sorry. I'm your mother, but... 364 00:46:23,350 --> 00:46:27,097 Do what? 365 00:46:27,183 --> 00:46:30,767 Kill yourself. 366 00:46:38,558 --> 00:46:40,058 Beverly. 367 00:46:41,600 --> 00:46:43,308 Beverly. 368 00:46:45,558 --> 00:46:48,889 Beverly, I didn't mean you. 369 00:46:48,975 --> 00:46:51,847 No! Don't follow me! 370 00:46:51,933 --> 00:46:56,055 I meant my mother. - I don't care. 371 00:46:56,142 --> 00:46:59,764 I meant my mother. - You're nothing but pain. 372 00:46:59,850 --> 00:47:03,100 I tried to get to know you, because I feel resistance, but no. 373 00:47:03,183 --> 00:47:06,350 You are a toxic nightmare. 374 00:47:07,600 --> 00:47:09,683 Stay away from me! 375 00:47:10,767 --> 00:47:13,058 Enjoy your room! 376 00:47:14,975 --> 00:47:17,183 I heard it's nice! 377 00:47:53,308 --> 00:47:58,933 What you have felt brought you here. 378 00:48:00,933 --> 00:48:03,642 To the cliff. 379 00:48:07,475 --> 00:48:12,347 In this chapter we investigate the last frontier of the mind - 380 00:48:12,433 --> 00:48:17,350 and what can be affected to the ego from disaster - 381 00:48:19,975 --> 00:48:23,975 or from complete destruction. 382 00:48:36,642 --> 00:48:38,683 That's enough! 383 00:48:42,392 --> 00:48:45,642 I see. I'm nothing. 384 00:49:03,767 --> 00:49:05,892 10,000. 385 00:49:07,225 --> 00:49:10,350 9,999. 386 00:49:11,558 --> 00:49:14,517 9,998. 387 00:49:16,058 --> 00:49:18,683 9,997. 388 00:49:23,642 --> 00:49:26,680 Elon! - Yes, Petunia. 389 00:49:26,767 --> 00:49:29,267 Do you want something? 390 00:49:30,433 --> 00:49:34,183 No, thank you. I don't need to. - It's fine. 391 00:49:43,100 --> 00:49:49,017 Elon! You no longer tell how it happened. 392 00:49:49,642 --> 00:49:51,975 Wake-up. 393 00:49:52,850 --> 00:49:55,017 No. 394 00:49:57,142 --> 00:49:59,517 Is the decision final? 395 00:50:02,308 --> 00:50:06,680 People focus too much on it. It doesn't help them. 396 00:50:06,767 --> 00:50:09,100 Can you tell me that again? 397 00:50:10,808 --> 00:50:12,517 I don't. 398 00:50:13,850 --> 00:50:17,892 It won't help you, Petunia. - It's fine. 399 00:50:19,517 --> 00:50:22,392 It's just a story. 400 00:51:17,975 --> 00:51:19,517 So? 401 00:51:37,350 --> 00:51:41,933 Don't try too hard. - All right. Sorry. 402 00:51:46,142 --> 00:51:50,600 Don't edit and don't try. You are not broken. 403 00:51:52,308 --> 00:51:54,683 You are enough. 404 00:52:06,100 --> 00:52:08,350 How do you know? 405 00:52:11,642 --> 00:52:15,058 I just know. 406 00:52:16,225 --> 00:52:18,100 I hope you are right. 407 00:52:20,433 --> 00:52:23,517 Because I wasn't enough for my mother. 408 00:52:25,558 --> 00:52:29,767 Or for my child's father or my child. 409 00:52:33,183 --> 00:52:39,267 In what way? What is your story? - To stay alive... 410 00:52:44,308 --> 00:52:46,850 To stay by his side. 411 00:52:51,267 --> 00:52:55,472 My child wants something. 412 00:52:55,558 --> 00:53:00,725 I don't know what it is and I'm afraid 413 00:53:02,933 --> 00:53:06,267 that I don't have it. 414 00:53:08,683 --> 00:53:10,475 So... 415 00:53:14,475 --> 00:53:17,433 I hope you are right. - Don't hope! 416 00:53:18,433 --> 00:53:20,475 Don't hope! 417 00:53:22,892 --> 00:53:24,850 Be. 418 00:53:28,475 --> 00:53:31,808 never ever 419 00:53:33,392 --> 00:53:35,725 give up hope. 420 00:53:40,183 --> 00:53:42,433 Just be. 421 00:53:53,767 --> 00:53:55,933 Do you want water? 422 00:54:14,225 --> 00:54:18,889 I want to thank Elon and everyone here. 423 00:54:18,975 --> 00:54:21,805 I'm getting dizzy. 424 00:54:21,892 --> 00:54:26,350 And Beverly, your face... Thank you. 425 00:54:45,058 --> 00:54:49,097 I don't know what will happen next. 426 00:54:49,183 --> 00:54:51,683 But I have surrendered to it. 427 00:54:54,142 --> 00:54:58,680 I feel like talking but... 428 00:54:58,767 --> 00:55:03,392 Maybe my words are empty. 429 00:55:07,475 --> 00:55:10,975 Maybe emptiness is better. 430 00:55:15,808 --> 00:55:21,225 Maybe I have nothing to say. 431 00:55:24,308 --> 00:55:27,558 Then hold on to your boots! 432 00:55:28,350 --> 00:55:29,767 No! 433 00:55:30,600 --> 00:55:31,725 No! 434 00:55:41,933 --> 00:55:43,764 Oh my god! 435 00:55:43,850 --> 00:55:46,225 Never give up! 436 00:55:52,017 --> 00:55:53,767 Stop him! 437 00:55:56,142 --> 00:55:58,850 He's bleeding! 438 00:55:59,517 --> 00:56:02,725 Maybe a concussion or spine... 439 00:56:05,058 --> 00:56:08,642 You know what, Dion? Maybe you should kill your father. 440 00:56:09,850 --> 00:56:12,517 He sounds like an asshole. 441 00:56:15,600 --> 00:56:18,183 Shut up. 442 00:56:34,600 --> 00:56:37,183 Have you seen Elon? 443 00:56:38,683 --> 00:56:41,472 No, he's the bad guy. This is a citizen's arrest. 444 00:56:41,558 --> 00:56:45,725 There is no citizen's detention. - Take ten steps back. 445 00:56:45,808 --> 00:56:49,017 This is a crime scene. It has to be investigated. 446 00:56:56,558 --> 00:56:59,600 He wants me to carry him to the car. 447 00:57:02,517 --> 00:57:05,350 I don't mind if he carries me. 448 00:57:06,767 --> 00:57:11,430 Otherwise I'll piss and shit my pants, if possible. 449 00:57:11,517 --> 00:57:15,142 And the smell stays in the car. 450 00:57:15,642 --> 00:57:17,472 Elon! 451 00:57:17,558 --> 00:57:20,225 I don't think that's what he means. 452 00:58:32,892 --> 00:58:35,475 Are we there yet? 453 00:58:44,725 --> 00:58:46,850 Are we there yet? 454 00:59:02,058 --> 00:59:03,725 God bless you. 455 00:59:23,350 --> 00:59:26,389 Throw the rope. - All right. Once more. 456 00:59:26,475 --> 00:59:31,264 Grab that and hit. 457 00:59:31,350 --> 00:59:34,305 Whoops! My fault. Sorry. 458 00:59:34,392 --> 00:59:38,308 Three, two, one, go! 459 00:59:59,725 --> 01:00:01,975 Wrong hand! 460 01:00:02,808 --> 01:00:04,097 Hell! 461 01:00:04,183 --> 01:00:06,308 Dylan. - Back off! 462 01:00:08,350 --> 01:00:10,517 I can't see him! 463 01:00:11,308 --> 01:00:14,392 Send the rope men. Dylan! Say something! 464 01:00:17,183 --> 01:00:20,100 Dylan. Say something! 465 01:00:21,683 --> 01:00:25,014 Head injury. Concussion. 466 01:00:25,100 --> 01:00:28,472 in Paradise Hills. In the filming. 467 01:00:28,558 --> 01:00:32,972 Jeneane, give me one of those. 468 01:00:33,058 --> 01:00:35,472 They will kill you too. 469 01:00:35,558 --> 01:00:41,433 They don't destroy my brain with internal bleeding. 470 01:00:55,183 --> 01:00:57,430 Hello. - I want to kill myself. 471 01:00:57,517 --> 01:01:02,430 No. Sorry, but I can't move. 472 01:01:02,517 --> 01:01:06,597 I don't want to hurt you anymore. - You are dramatic. 473 01:01:06,683 --> 01:01:11,764 This is like a dream. like it but don't know why. 474 01:01:11,850 --> 01:01:16,267 You are so weird. - You're weird. 475 01:01:24,392 --> 01:01:27,600 I'll come see you later. - All right. 476 01:01:33,642 --> 01:01:36,392 I worried, because he's still wearing a wig. 477 01:01:36,475 --> 01:01:41,472 You may need to jump in an ambulance. - I remove the pins and take it out. 478 01:01:41,558 --> 01:01:44,559 No one touches the head. Don't you have any extra? 479 01:01:44,642 --> 01:01:47,267 He has that extra. 480 01:01:48,058 --> 01:01:53,517 You need to rest. No phone, screens or alcohol. 481 01:01:54,683 --> 01:01:59,558 Meditation can help. The concussion clinic will tell you more. 482 01:02:01,767 --> 01:02:05,995 So you can't get yourself drunk at the midterm party. I'm sorry. 483 01:02:07,392 --> 01:02:10,600 I like seeing people's surprise partners. 484 01:02:11,433 --> 01:02:15,139 I don't think you have anyone. - It's not. 485 01:02:15,225 --> 01:02:17,517 Lucky. 486 01:02:18,725 --> 01:02:23,847 Elmore's girlfriend comes. He is said to be nice. 487 01:02:23,933 --> 01:02:29,350 I don't trust nice people. What is even nice? 488 01:02:30,308 --> 01:02:35,139 Just a moment, I... Well, there you go. I'm picking up speed. 489 01:02:35,225 --> 01:02:38,850 No, I didn't mean you. You are not in a hurry. 490 01:02:40,017 --> 01:02:43,097 I'm going for a walk. - Right? 491 01:02:43,183 --> 01:02:46,808 Yes. It feels like it. 492 01:02:47,725 --> 01:02:51,139 Clear. Watch your face. 493 01:02:51,225 --> 01:02:55,267 I think your phone is ringing. - Okay. 494 01:03:03,850 --> 01:03:05,597 Father? 495 01:03:05,683 --> 01:03:09,017 Dylan, has your mom called? - No. 496 01:03:11,017 --> 01:03:16,930 I haven't heard from him. He's somewhere at a silence retreat in the USA. 497 01:03:17,017 --> 01:03:20,975 He's been arrested, Dylan. 498 01:03:22,308 --> 01:03:25,555 He apparently hit the DJ with a chair. 499 01:03:25,642 --> 01:03:28,183 What has mother done? 500 01:03:52,558 --> 01:03:55,430 Hello. - Hello. 501 01:03:55,517 --> 01:03:57,972 Lucy. - Yes. 502 01:03:58,058 --> 01:04:01,392 I am your defense attorney, Leonard Gow. 503 01:04:03,808 --> 01:04:07,847 You can call me Leo According to my zodiac sign. 504 01:04:07,933 --> 01:04:12,097 Is your zodiac sign Leo? - No, it's a virgin. 505 01:04:12,183 --> 01:04:16,433 How so? What does that mean? - Nothing. 506 01:04:17,933 --> 01:04:24,305 What do you want it to mean? - That I'm special. 507 01:04:24,392 --> 01:04:29,389 You are very special. - My mother used to say that. 508 01:04:29,475 --> 01:04:35,225 Lucy, your plea bargain starts in a quarter of an hour. 509 01:04:37,100 --> 01:04:38,725 Do you want to go to jail? 510 01:04:43,017 --> 01:04:45,892 Are you going to play Gandhi? 511 01:04:48,017 --> 01:04:49,243 Or Nelson Mandela. 512 01:04:51,267 --> 01:04:54,725 Or a middle-aged white woman, who hit the model with a chair. 513 01:04:54,808 --> 01:05:00,517 She's not just a model, but also a DJ and a really annoying person. 514 01:05:07,850 --> 01:05:11,142 Can I ask something? - Sure. 515 01:05:12,642 --> 01:05:15,183 Do I remind you of your mother? 516 01:05:19,600 --> 01:05:21,142 A little bit actually. 517 01:05:23,308 --> 01:05:25,683 Is he dead? 518 01:05:31,558 --> 01:05:33,267 There is. 519 01:05:35,433 --> 01:05:38,639 How did you know? 520 01:05:38,725 --> 01:05:41,975 Because I'm dead too. 521 01:05:44,642 --> 01:05:48,555 He whistled so loud, that the eardrums burst. 522 01:05:48,642 --> 01:05:51,097 Loud laughter. 523 01:05:51,183 --> 01:05:53,850 Always very honest. 524 01:05:56,517 --> 01:05:59,725 He was not completely honest with Takuu. 525 01:06:03,683 --> 01:06:05,850 What do you want to refer to? 526 01:06:10,017 --> 01:06:12,433 I don't feel guilty. 527 01:06:16,517 --> 01:06:22,267 You almost killed him. It was a hell of a blow. 528 01:06:24,642 --> 01:06:27,600 Hi, Dyl! - I wanted to see how you were doing. 529 01:06:30,017 --> 01:06:32,767 You seem to be doing just fine. 530 01:06:36,392 --> 01:06:40,389 Yeah, I think... I thought everything was fine. 531 01:06:40,475 --> 01:06:44,517 But I guess I'm scrambling in fairly deep bottom mud. 532 01:07:16,725 --> 01:07:19,392 Are you open? 533 01:07:20,142 --> 01:07:23,267 You mean as a person? 534 01:07:25,183 --> 01:07:27,475 No, you... 535 01:07:29,100 --> 01:07:32,267 Are you in an open relationship? 536 01:07:35,225 --> 01:07:37,558 I don't. 537 01:07:41,225 --> 01:07:44,308 Hey, mom. - I don't listen to my answering machine. 538 01:07:48,600 --> 01:07:52,308 I feel really bad. 539 01:07:56,808 --> 01:08:00,097 You are so pretty. Not as pretty. 540 01:08:00,183 --> 01:08:04,430 You're not as pretty. You are pretty. 541 01:08:04,517 --> 01:08:07,892 You're pretty too. You are kind of pretty. 542 01:08:41,892 --> 01:08:44,017 Say it. 543 01:08:45,350 --> 01:08:47,933 You will be abandoned. 544 01:08:55,058 --> 01:08:58,850 Have you heard anything? - From where? 545 01:09:02,183 --> 01:09:04,642 Hello... - Nothing. 546 01:09:09,808 --> 01:09:12,392 Go to sleep. 547 01:09:14,642 --> 01:09:17,142 Don't command me. 548 01:09:39,725 --> 01:09:41,683 Sorry. 549 01:09:54,350 --> 01:09:58,014 That looks like a gun. Can I have a look? 550 01:09:58,100 --> 01:10:03,225 It's just a walking stick. Because of this. 551 01:10:06,225 --> 01:10:08,767 It's just a stick. 552 01:10:10,225 --> 01:10:12,392 Thanks. 553 01:10:19,267 --> 01:10:21,764 Hell. Wake up. 554 01:10:21,850 --> 01:10:25,555 Wake up, wake up, wake up. 555 01:10:25,642 --> 01:10:28,017 I'm sorry. 556 01:10:37,642 --> 01:10:41,014 Welcome to Armstrong Airways. 557 01:10:41,100 --> 01:10:47,014 Passengers in an evacuation situation are advised to leave their luggage. 558 01:10:47,100 --> 01:10:49,180 All. 559 01:10:49,267 --> 01:10:52,014 In the event of an emergency - 560 01:10:52,100 --> 01:10:56,930 you should panic alone first. 561 01:10:57,017 --> 01:11:02,850 And if the plane unexpectedly lands, remember not to give up hope. 562 01:11:08,683 --> 01:11:13,142 Sorry, I don't want to disturb, but the plane falls. 563 01:11:15,642 --> 01:11:18,517 We can do something. 564 01:11:19,850 --> 01:11:22,642 What? - We could kiss. 565 01:11:27,517 --> 01:11:29,725 The seat belt is stuck. 566 01:11:31,600 --> 01:11:33,808 No! 567 01:11:39,975 --> 01:11:41,517 Mother? 568 01:11:44,975 --> 01:11:47,183 Could I have some chips, please? 569 01:12:10,725 --> 01:12:15,055 THE MODEL WAKE UP. HE IS NOT A MURDERER. 570 01:12:15,142 --> 01:12:20,267 No! Take him away! Get lost! 571 01:12:23,725 --> 01:12:27,180 DID YOU SAY I'M COMING? 572 01:12:27,267 --> 01:12:28,639 SURPRISE 573 01:12:28,725 --> 01:12:33,475 This is not a birthday but a trial. Hell. 574 01:13:18,350 --> 01:13:20,100 Mother! 575 01:13:24,308 --> 01:13:26,767 What are you doing here? 576 01:13:27,767 --> 01:13:31,100 I came to support you. 577 01:13:34,017 --> 01:13:36,433 Why? 578 01:13:37,183 --> 01:13:43,600 I'll be fine. I have a lawyer. He's nice. 579 01:13:46,267 --> 01:13:50,350 He thinks I'm lovely like his mother. Can you imagine? 580 01:13:52,308 --> 01:13:55,308 I bought you a present. 581 01:13:58,975 --> 01:14:01,017 Thanks. 582 01:14:07,475 --> 01:14:09,517 FINALLY NOTHING 583 01:14:12,683 --> 01:14:15,558 Could I have a room? Cheapest please. 584 01:14:17,058 --> 01:14:19,892 We are full because of the wedding. 585 01:14:46,017 --> 01:14:49,475 could i sleep in your room 586 01:14:51,433 --> 01:14:53,808 Of course, honey. 587 01:14:57,975 --> 01:15:00,558 You look like a pirate. 588 01:15:04,017 --> 01:15:06,058 That's mine. 589 01:15:14,433 --> 01:15:16,642 Do you want a hug? 590 01:15:26,975 --> 01:15:29,683 Was it an accident? 591 01:15:41,017 --> 01:15:44,517 Are you going to hurt me? - Haven't I already done that? 592 01:15:58,058 --> 01:16:00,392 Do you regret it? 593 01:16:01,183 --> 01:16:03,892 I don't know, Dylan. 594 01:16:05,225 --> 01:16:08,600 It felt right at the time. 595 01:16:11,350 --> 01:16:16,350 Violence is not the solution. - I wasn't looking for it. 596 01:16:18,183 --> 01:16:22,180 Your work is violent. - It's just a show. 597 01:16:22,267 --> 01:16:24,975 It doesn't look like pretending. 598 01:16:26,933 --> 01:16:32,725 But that doesn't solve anything. - It's fine. You stink. Take a shower. 599 01:16:37,642 --> 01:16:41,392 Seriously, mom. Why did you do that? 600 01:16:42,850 --> 01:16:48,017 He was annoying as hell. - That's not enough of a reason. 601 01:16:49,433 --> 01:16:51,930 You are annoying too. 602 01:16:52,017 --> 01:16:54,725 Are you threatening me? - Maybe. 603 01:16:55,600 --> 01:16:58,058 You can't beat me. 604 01:16:59,808 --> 01:17:03,847 I have more life experience than you. 605 01:17:03,933 --> 01:17:08,639 But I'm bigger, stronger and younger. 606 01:17:08,725 --> 01:17:13,308 And you're hurt. - You offended. 607 01:17:14,850 --> 01:17:17,058 It was a joke. 608 01:17:28,767 --> 01:17:32,517 I'm starving. What about you? 609 01:18:06,933 --> 01:18:11,308 Can I have a slice of your pizza? - You don't. 610 01:18:12,767 --> 01:18:17,097 Why don't I? - Because I already asked, and it's a mini pizza. 611 01:18:17,183 --> 01:18:20,305 I'm tired and hungry. - Please. 612 01:18:20,392 --> 01:18:24,600 Please. I changed my mind. - No! 613 01:18:33,308 --> 01:18:36,433 It's not very good. 614 01:18:37,850 --> 01:18:39,600 Please. 615 01:18:46,475 --> 01:18:49,142 You hate me, don't you? 616 01:18:53,725 --> 01:18:56,683 It didn't take much. 617 01:19:04,183 --> 01:19:06,767 Don't you take a shower? 618 01:19:21,600 --> 01:19:24,017 What now? 619 01:19:26,017 --> 01:19:28,725 Do you think I'm a bad mother? 620 01:19:31,100 --> 01:19:33,767 Can you stop? 621 01:19:38,975 --> 01:19:41,225 Was I bad? 622 01:19:42,808 --> 01:19:44,725 It makes no odds. 623 01:19:47,808 --> 01:19:53,017 You used to be a bad mother, but you are not a bad person. 624 01:19:54,142 --> 01:19:56,850 You just behaved badly. 625 01:20:02,183 --> 01:20:04,850 What did you want from me? 626 01:20:07,642 --> 01:20:12,267 I wanted you to get what you wanted or that I can give it to you. 627 01:20:13,517 --> 01:20:18,392 For you to look at me and you wouldn't expect to look away. 628 01:20:21,058 --> 01:20:28,225 When I was really little, I thought you were trying to escape me. 629 01:20:31,433 --> 01:20:35,933 But you were just unhappy. It was a difficult time. 630 01:20:38,100 --> 01:20:40,600 In what way was I bad? 631 01:20:41,558 --> 01:20:44,555 You weren't bad. 632 01:20:44,642 --> 01:20:50,055 Your... Your grandmother was difficult and complex, 633 01:20:50,142 --> 01:20:55,475 and you had a hard time giving me what I needed. 634 01:20:56,475 --> 01:20:58,808 What did you need? 635 01:21:02,017 --> 01:21:06,850 It's hard to figure out something one specific thing. 636 01:21:09,600 --> 01:21:12,433 You were pretty clingy. 637 01:21:22,517 --> 01:21:29,597 I struggled with normal depressive symptoms with, like other children. 638 01:21:29,683 --> 01:21:34,389 And you said I'm like your mother, who attempted suicide. 639 01:21:34,475 --> 01:21:38,472 You tried. - No, it was a joke. 640 01:21:38,558 --> 01:21:43,097 You jumped off the neighbor's roof. - To the swimming pool for fun. 641 01:21:43,183 --> 01:21:47,805 You took sleeping pills and alcohol. And that was the low side. 642 01:21:47,892 --> 01:21:54,347 No, that was the deep side. I took sleeping pills and I drank to be confused. 643 01:21:54,433 --> 01:21:58,892 I was sad sometimes but I believed I would be fine. 644 01:21:59,600 --> 01:22:03,472 I wanted you to think that I'll be fine! 645 01:22:03,558 --> 01:22:09,139 It was one heck of a party. - It was eight o'clock. You cut yourself. 646 01:22:09,225 --> 01:22:14,514 Sorry, you cut yourself with my knives. - I did it twice. 647 01:22:14,600 --> 01:22:19,430 It was a cry for help, and I don't communicate like that anymore. 648 01:22:19,517 --> 01:22:25,430 It's pretty manipulative. - It didn't happen in the morning, but at night. 649 01:22:25,517 --> 01:22:30,139 I remember when you jumped off the roof sunrise behind your back. 650 01:22:30,225 --> 01:22:33,972 I'll never forget it. - What do you mean, mom? 651 01:22:34,058 --> 01:22:37,264 You weren't there. - Yes, I was. 652 01:22:37,350 --> 01:22:40,183 And you weren't! - I was! 653 01:22:47,017 --> 01:22:51,225 Where was I? - You were on retreat. 654 01:22:54,392 --> 01:22:58,680 When you came back you said, that if i were dead 655 01:22:58,767 --> 01:23:03,308 you'd like to believe you can get over it. 656 01:23:06,225 --> 01:23:09,308 I hope I can get over it. 657 01:23:11,183 --> 01:23:17,267 I don't want to be unhappy because i love you I want to be free. 658 01:23:19,308 --> 01:23:24,642 You are unhappy and free, my God! 659 01:23:40,017 --> 01:23:43,100 Dylan. - No. 660 01:24:00,808 --> 01:24:03,683 Lawyer! For breakfast! 661 01:24:45,767 --> 01:24:49,433 That's where he comes from. This is my daughter. 662 01:24:51,017 --> 01:24:55,639 Hello. Dylan. - Leonard. Lawyer. 663 01:24:55,725 --> 01:24:58,764 Nice to meet you. - Likewise. 664 01:24:58,850 --> 01:25:01,558 Did you have a jacket? 665 01:25:06,517 --> 01:25:10,142 What would you like to order? - I'm still thinking. 666 01:25:13,017 --> 01:25:17,350 I take a large vegetarian portion and… 667 01:25:18,933 --> 01:25:22,597 Is there meat in the sauce? Let it be then. 668 01:25:22,683 --> 01:25:29,017 I'd like some bacon. Can I get it crispy but not burnt? 669 01:25:29,850 --> 01:25:32,642 With what? 670 01:25:36,017 --> 01:25:38,972 I'll take the laces. 671 01:25:39,058 --> 01:25:44,847 Do you have any specials? - Maybe. I glance at the sign. 672 01:25:44,933 --> 01:25:48,683 Mother... - Yes, thank you. What? 673 01:25:51,183 --> 01:25:55,180 Shall we have coffee first? 674 01:25:55,267 --> 01:25:58,222 It takes time. What should it be? 675 01:25:58,308 --> 01:26:01,139 Black coffee, please. - Black for me too. 676 01:26:01,225 --> 01:26:04,055 What milk do you have? - We have everything. 677 01:26:04,142 --> 01:26:09,305 I'll take it in black too and a glass of coconut milk. 678 01:26:09,392 --> 01:26:12,222 We don't have coconut milk. 679 01:26:12,308 --> 01:26:15,600 Then soy milk, heated. 680 01:26:17,392 --> 01:26:23,430 And let's forget the specialty. I also have a vegetarian breakfast. 681 01:26:23,517 --> 01:26:28,097 With bacon? - Crispy, please. 682 01:26:28,183 --> 01:26:34,100 If you go that way, so tell me what the special dish is. 683 01:26:36,433 --> 01:26:40,430 Vegetarian breakfast, pancakes, vegetarian breakfast with crispy bacon - 684 01:26:40,517 --> 01:26:46,264 or maybe a specialty and three coffees in black and a glass of soy milk. 685 01:26:46,350 --> 01:26:50,392 Warm milk. - And maybe a special dose. 686 01:26:51,392 --> 01:26:53,933 Thank you very much. 687 01:26:55,725 --> 01:26:57,808 Now. 688 01:26:58,600 --> 01:27:04,600 Lucy, I have to ask something. Can I do it in front of your daughter? 689 01:27:06,058 --> 01:27:08,892 Of course. 690 01:27:11,725 --> 01:27:18,392 Did you tell Beverly Woods, that he should kill himself? 691 01:27:22,808 --> 01:27:28,808 I said, but I didn't mean to tell him that. 692 01:27:30,600 --> 01:27:34,097 It was role playing. 693 01:27:34,183 --> 01:27:38,933 Who did you say that to? - For me. Isn't that right? 694 01:27:40,308 --> 01:27:42,972 No. 695 01:27:43,058 --> 01:27:47,139 It wasn't you. 696 01:27:47,225 --> 01:27:51,517 Why are you behaving like i hate you dylan? 697 01:27:52,475 --> 01:27:55,725 Because you act like you hate me. 698 01:28:05,767 --> 01:28:12,139 I... I really don't hate you. 699 01:28:12,225 --> 01:28:19,017 i love you I love you more than life. 700 01:28:24,017 --> 01:28:28,017 I role-play with my mother. Sorry. 701 01:28:29,850 --> 01:28:32,892 I have to go to the bathroom. 702 01:28:39,892 --> 01:28:42,767 What I did to Beverly 703 01:28:43,892 --> 01:28:47,017 was unfair. 704 01:28:48,308 --> 01:28:52,892 We must do the right thing. Or what, Leo? 705 01:28:55,767 --> 01:29:02,683 It is good that you regret, but justice is relative in terms of the law. 706 01:29:03,767 --> 01:29:07,683 You broke the law, so you already did wrong. 707 01:29:09,558 --> 01:29:13,767 Right. Sorry. 708 01:29:24,725 --> 01:29:27,225 Are you OK? 709 01:29:29,433 --> 01:29:35,100 I'm sorry for everything. - No, I've seen worse. 710 01:29:42,183 --> 01:29:45,350 Is the toilet outside? 711 01:29:49,225 --> 01:29:52,683 No. Just the wilderness. 712 01:30:00,058 --> 01:30:02,225 Lucy! 713 01:30:19,850 --> 01:30:22,642 This has to stop. 714 01:30:24,183 --> 01:30:27,805 All this nonsense and cruelty. 715 01:30:27,892 --> 01:30:30,972 You need to stop because you are an adult. 716 01:30:31,058 --> 01:30:34,225 But you're an adult too. 717 01:30:36,183 --> 01:30:40,389 Dylan, you have to figure it out way to forgive me 718 01:30:40,475 --> 01:30:45,847 and then forgive you, because you didn't forgive me 719 01:30:45,933 --> 01:30:48,639 I should have said: 720 01:30:48,725 --> 01:30:56,014 "You are the wildest and scariest thing, who i can become 721 01:30:56,100 --> 01:31:02,430 and if you die, I must believe that i'll get over it because i don't know if i will. 722 01:31:02,517 --> 01:31:06,558 I can barely get by on everything else." 723 01:31:08,350 --> 01:31:11,472 Maybe you shouldn't have said anything. 724 01:31:11,558 --> 01:31:17,097 You should have hugged me and seek professional help. 725 01:31:17,183 --> 01:31:19,975 But I appreciate it. 726 01:31:21,100 --> 01:31:22,892 True. 727 01:31:25,933 --> 01:31:30,892 True. Hell! I mean... 728 01:31:35,058 --> 01:31:37,767 What a fucking mess. 729 01:31:56,475 --> 01:32:00,058 Shall we pretend we drowned in the river? 730 01:32:05,308 --> 01:32:07,308 Now? 731 01:32:08,392 --> 01:32:12,433 So. We are ghosts. 732 01:32:23,642 --> 01:32:26,725 It eases the pressure. 733 01:32:38,975 --> 01:32:41,350 Now I know. 734 01:32:44,350 --> 01:32:47,930 Are you ready? I should have said: 735 01:32:48,017 --> 01:32:50,225 “My dear girl… 736 01:32:51,517 --> 01:32:55,767 Take care of yourself. 737 01:32:57,933 --> 01:33:01,142 I love you very much." 738 01:33:11,558 --> 01:33:14,517 I should have... 739 01:33:40,892 --> 01:33:46,725 He says, that the special dish is eggs benedict - 740 01:33:48,850 --> 01:33:53,347 and roast potatoes with smoked salmon, 741 01:33:53,433 --> 01:33:57,889 with capers, wasabi mayonnaise... - Back to life? 742 01:33:57,975 --> 01:34:00,933 Back to life. - ...and with coleslaw. 743 01:34:24,892 --> 01:34:28,267 Did you find your mother? - I found it. She is... Mother! 744 01:34:28,933 --> 01:34:32,639 What's on the other side? - The national park is wolf territory. 745 01:34:32,725 --> 01:34:35,017 There are wolves here, mom! 746 01:34:37,058 --> 01:34:42,308 I have to pick him up. Sorry. - The police do not look favorably on the escape. 747 01:34:43,850 --> 01:34:47,305 I grew up here and know the area. - Mother! 748 01:34:47,392 --> 01:34:52,558 And I want to come along, unless I am forbidden to come along. 749 01:34:54,392 --> 01:34:56,100 Come on! 750 01:35:01,933 --> 01:35:04,722 There are good hiking trails here - 751 01:35:04,808 --> 01:35:08,889 and streams to drink from, if there are any above the pastures. 752 01:35:08,975 --> 01:35:11,350 Mother! 753 01:35:15,267 --> 01:35:17,850 Almost full memberships. 754 01:35:23,767 --> 01:35:25,642 Lucy! 755 01:35:34,058 --> 01:35:36,639 Let's eat. 756 01:35:36,725 --> 01:35:39,433 Filling, right? 757 01:35:45,142 --> 01:35:47,100 Sorry. 758 01:35:51,725 --> 01:35:53,600 Sorry. 759 01:35:57,808 --> 01:35:59,850 Can I... 760 01:36:03,475 --> 01:36:05,142 You can. 761 01:36:11,642 --> 01:36:15,764 What if we are enemies in battle? 762 01:36:15,850 --> 01:36:20,600 We feel mutual rage and respect, but today we fucked up. 763 01:36:21,517 --> 01:36:24,058 And tomorrow we go to war. 764 01:36:25,433 --> 01:36:29,180 Isn't that crazy enough, that you're seducing your mother's lawyer? 765 01:36:29,267 --> 01:36:32,017 Right? Clear. 766 01:36:33,725 --> 01:36:36,222 All right. 767 01:36:36,308 --> 01:36:39,850 You're finally mine. 768 01:36:44,600 --> 01:36:48,142 Do you have a condom? - No. 769 01:36:57,350 --> 01:36:59,350 Lucy! 770 01:37:11,850 --> 01:37:15,225 I know this place. 771 01:37:18,100 --> 01:37:22,183 I feel it. There is a cave nearby. 772 01:37:24,558 --> 01:37:25,597 Shall we go? 773 01:37:25,683 --> 01:37:27,933 Lucy. are you here 774 01:37:30,642 --> 01:37:35,555 Don't go too far. I almost died here. 775 01:37:35,642 --> 01:37:39,097 Why? Is there a dragon over there? 776 01:37:39,183 --> 01:37:44,222 No, I lost the mouth of the cave looking for the other side. 777 01:37:44,308 --> 01:37:49,347 It was pitch dark, until I saw a light in front of me. 778 01:37:49,433 --> 01:37:52,866 And only after seeing the trees did I realize, that it was my income stream. 779 01:37:55,058 --> 01:37:59,514 I turned around at some point. I was lucky. 780 01:37:59,600 --> 01:38:04,725 You can't see in front of you there and can go back and forth endlessly. 781 01:38:42,475 --> 01:38:46,892 Dylan, come back. I know where your mother is. 782 01:38:56,017 --> 01:38:58,889 Are you OK? - I am. 783 01:38:58,975 --> 01:39:03,392 Did you see anything? - I don't. 784 01:39:04,475 --> 01:39:07,392 How do you know where he is? 785 01:39:08,767 --> 01:39:10,600 He's upstairs. 786 01:39:11,475 --> 01:39:14,350 Does he have his phone with him? 787 01:39:19,267 --> 01:39:20,975 Clear. 788 01:39:34,183 --> 01:39:36,264 Dylan! 789 01:39:36,350 --> 01:39:40,305 Get down from there! - No! 790 01:39:40,392 --> 01:39:42,975 Deuce. - Come here. 791 01:39:47,600 --> 01:39:51,892 Could you come down? - Come here. 792 01:40:01,767 --> 01:40:03,808 All right. 793 01:40:06,225 --> 01:40:11,430 Leo, take a picture of me and my daughter before I go to jail. 794 01:40:11,517 --> 01:40:16,058 You won't go to jail. 795 01:40:19,683 --> 01:40:23,264 Be yourself. - I am myself. 796 01:40:23,350 --> 01:40:26,225 Be yourself. 797 01:40:30,933 --> 01:40:34,142 Assumed. - Good. Then a real picture. 798 01:40:38,642 --> 01:40:41,433 Act like you're alone. 799 01:42:08,642 --> 01:42:11,225 Are you satisfied now? 800 01:42:45,058 --> 01:42:48,139 How did the picture turn out? - Well... 801 01:42:48,225 --> 01:42:53,350 Eyes closed. Dylan doesn't smile. 802 01:42:54,100 --> 01:42:58,142 Wrinkles. Double chin. 803 01:44:24,642 --> 01:44:27,558 Subtitles: Emilia Hietala