1 00:00:01,020 --> 00:00:02,020 I'm Masha. 2 00:00:02,150 --> 00:00:05,020 Supposedly, she completely changes people, you know? 3 00:00:05,220 --> 00:00:09,530 -That's why I'm going, to be transformed. -Good luck with that. 4 00:00:10,230 --> 00:00:11,740 You're a drug addict, Tony. 5 00:00:11,840 --> 00:00:15,010 There's many places you could go, but you came here. 6 00:00:15,180 --> 00:00:17,980 It's my brother, Zach. He... he stopped living three years ago. 7 00:00:18,150 --> 00:00:19,290 -I'm angry. -At me. 8 00:00:19,590 --> 00:00:21,590 For being so constantly upbeat. 9 00:00:21,690 --> 00:00:24,030 -That was interesting. -Could you just be open, please? 10 00:00:24,190 --> 00:00:25,230 It's not published yet. 11 00:00:25,330 --> 00:00:27,070 Maybe the guy got a leaked copy or something. 12 00:00:27,170 --> 00:00:29,570 -What did it say? -He didn't like it very much. 13 00:00:29,840 --> 00:00:30,940 -Mom! -Honey! 14 00:00:31,010 --> 00:00:33,350 I mean, is Masha crazy or is she the real deal? 15 00:00:33,680 --> 00:00:37,590 You're right, Delilah this is a particularly volatile group. 16 00:00:37,720 --> 00:00:39,730 Let's start the Protocol. The new Protocol. 17 00:00:39,960 --> 00:00:43,970 I've made the decision. This is exciting. 18 00:02:34,420 --> 00:02:38,060 Today we give ourselves to the earth. 19 00:02:52,390 --> 00:02:53,390 What? 20 00:02:55,330 --> 00:02:56,900 I thought I heard a scream. 21 00:03:02,380 --> 00:03:04,750 -I wouldn't know. -Sorry. 22 00:03:35,280 --> 00:03:38,490 -You're not hard. -I mean, you're not really wet. 23 00:03:39,020 --> 00:03:40,820 -I am wet. -Not really. 24 00:03:40,920 --> 00:03:42,530 I think I'd be the first to know. 25 00:03:42,990 --> 00:03:44,960 Maybe our frame of reference is just different. 26 00:03:45,030 --> 00:03:49,010 -Our frame of reference is different? -I mean, my wet might not be your wet. 27 00:03:49,840 --> 00:03:51,310 What? 28 00:04:18,830 --> 00:04:19,870 Fuck me. 29 00:04:23,070 --> 00:04:25,250 -Morning. -Hey, honey. 30 00:04:26,350 --> 00:04:29,960 Brushing with a lot of vigor today. Even for you. 31 00:04:32,090 --> 00:04:34,100 -It's my Masha day. -What? 32 00:04:36,230 --> 00:04:42,010 It's my Masha day. My... my one-on-one. Fabulous. 33 00:04:44,050 --> 00:04:46,590 Why fabulous? Do you even know what to expect? 34 00:04:49,160 --> 00:04:53,300 No, no idea. It’s like jumping in a river. You just see where it takes you. 35 00:04:55,040 --> 00:04:57,610 Rivers just take you downstream from wherever you are. 36 00:05:01,550 --> 00:05:02,890 I guess that's the point. 37 00:05:05,530 --> 00:05:06,460 What can I do? 38 00:05:07,200 --> 00:05:08,400 Nothing, it's okay. 39 00:05:11,940 --> 00:05:14,910 Like you say, we... we ride it out. 40 00:05:40,500 --> 00:05:41,870 Hey, Pipi. 41 00:05:45,340 --> 00:05:47,240 Hey Richie, you're sad. 42 00:05:47,880 --> 00:05:51,290 What is it? What is it? We gotta clean your teeth. 43 00:06:16,340 --> 00:06:19,010 -Something wrong? -You scared me. 44 00:06:20,640 --> 00:06:22,950 Yao mentioned that you’ve been getting threats. 45 00:06:23,020 --> 00:06:25,120 -Is that another one? -I’m not worried. 46 00:06:27,020 --> 00:06:30,630 -I'm not. -Think it's Connelly, maybe? His family? 47 00:06:31,470 --> 00:06:35,410 -It makes sense, right? -What? I won. No negligence. 48 00:06:35,470 --> 00:06:37,140 Well, that doesn’t mean they’re over it. 49 00:06:38,980 --> 00:06:40,550 I mean, who else could it be? 50 00:06:42,350 --> 00:06:45,590 It could be... a stalker. 51 00:06:46,460 --> 00:06:50,270 Or could be a competitor, it could be my ex-husband, 52 00:06:50,340 --> 00:06:53,440 it could be, it could be. I mean, I wish I could narrow the field. 53 00:06:55,050 --> 00:06:56,380 I don’t think they’re ready. 54 00:06:58,090 --> 00:06:59,450 I really, really don’t. 55 00:07:01,290 --> 00:07:05,070 Delilah... can you trust me on this? 56 00:07:06,300 --> 00:07:08,610 Sometimes I feel trust is still an issue with you. 57 00:07:14,650 --> 00:07:16,620 -Yes. Take it. -Thank you. 58 00:07:17,990 --> 00:07:21,030 Come on. Don't worry so much. 59 00:07:22,530 --> 00:07:24,610 All right. Morning, Zoe. 60 00:07:24,670 --> 00:07:28,010 -Morning. -Morning, Carmel. Welcome, everybody. 61 00:07:30,020 --> 00:07:33,960 -Everyone, welcome to day three. -Good morning, Yao. 62 00:07:34,660 --> 00:07:36,560 I don’t know where Masha sourced that mattress, 63 00:07:36,630 --> 00:07:39,000 but oh, my God, it is perfection. 64 00:07:40,540 --> 00:07:45,350 -Heather, how are you feeling today? -Oh, good. Slept amazingly actually. 65 00:07:46,210 --> 00:07:48,690 -How about you, sweetheart? -Yeah, good. 66 00:07:50,590 --> 00:07:52,730 -This is good. -Oh, my goodness, delicious. 67 00:07:53,000 --> 00:07:55,570 -It’s the big yum-yum, is what this is. -It's his Masha day. 68 00:07:56,100 --> 00:07:58,670 It's scary, but like in a good way. Does that make sense? 69 00:07:58,740 --> 00:07:59,740 I’ve got a splitting headache. 70 00:08:00,040 --> 00:08:02,010 Okay, morning schedule. We have meditation 71 00:08:02,110 --> 00:08:05,390 -after breakfast, then we begin our fast. -I don't have my smoothie. 72 00:08:05,490 --> 00:08:07,120 -There you go. -Great. 73 00:08:07,190 --> 00:08:09,700 -Oh, look at the special plate. -Yeah, it's real fucking cute. 74 00:08:12,270 --> 00:08:14,040 Why do you get that? I couldn't even get an Advil. 75 00:08:14,100 --> 00:08:17,010 -Some of us have real medical conditions. -I have an actual bad back. 76 00:08:17,110 --> 00:08:19,480 -Which your little Heimlich didn’t help. -You loved it. 77 00:08:22,390 --> 00:08:25,230 Sorry to be a nosy-posy, but what am I missing? 78 00:08:26,700 --> 00:08:29,140 He tried to kill me with a grape yesterday. 79 00:08:30,140 --> 00:08:32,240 Can I get some grapes? Actually, I'm kinda having 80 00:08:32,370 --> 00:08:33,380 a little blood sugar issue. 81 00:08:33,440 --> 00:08:35,780 We do need you all to take the fast seriously. 82 00:08:36,480 --> 00:08:38,290 -Is that no? -I'm taking it very seriously. 83 00:08:38,350 --> 00:08:40,660 -When do we eat again? -Dinner. 7:00 pm. 84 00:08:40,720 --> 00:08:43,230 -Scheisse. -7:00? That's... that's 11 hours from now. 85 00:08:43,430 --> 00:08:46,740 We will be outside all day, so if you feel you must eat, 86 00:08:47,040 --> 00:08:49,340 anything you can forage on the property is allowed. 87 00:08:49,410 --> 00:08:54,090 Today is about connecting with Mother Earth. Living off the land. 88 00:08:54,690 --> 00:08:56,060 Can I ask? 89 00:08:57,560 --> 00:08:58,590 Oh, doesn't matter. It's fine. 90 00:08:58,660 --> 00:09:00,060 -Go ahead. -Please. 91 00:09:01,630 --> 00:09:06,540 Excellent. Well. When, I feel stress and tension, 92 00:09:06,780 --> 00:09:11,620 it typically helps me if, I talk about it. And I was wondering 93 00:09:11,750 --> 00:09:14,760 whether that was okay. You know, within the group? 94 00:09:16,030 --> 00:09:17,060 -Of course. -Absolutely. 95 00:09:17,200 --> 00:09:20,440 Excellent... I’m feeling tension 96 00:09:20,500 --> 00:09:24,350 between Jessica and Ben. What’s going on? 97 00:09:25,410 --> 00:09:27,380 It's probably more what’s not going on. 98 00:09:28,350 --> 00:09:29,520 I'm so sorry. I don't know why 99 00:09:29,590 --> 00:09:31,330 -I said that out loud. -What do you mean by that? 100 00:09:31,390 --> 00:09:33,360 -"What's not going on"? -I... I didn't mean anything by it. 101 00:09:33,430 --> 00:09:35,300 -I didn't mean to say it. -What'd you tell her about us? 102 00:09:35,400 --> 00:09:38,270 -I didn't say anything. -She just must be really intuitive. 103 00:09:39,340 --> 00:09:41,080 Listen, you’re with friends here. 104 00:09:41,280 --> 00:09:44,320 You would feel much better if you just talked it out. 105 00:09:44,420 --> 00:09:46,360 Hey, talk this out, bro. You’re a real dick. 106 00:09:47,290 --> 00:09:49,830 Delilah, I would like to report Ben to HR. 107 00:09:50,460 --> 00:09:51,800 -Who do I speak to about that? -Lars. 108 00:09:52,230 --> 00:09:54,840 -You need to stop being antagonistic. -Well, good luck with that. 109 00:09:55,840 --> 00:09:59,820 -Excuse me? -Excuse you? You remember? 110 00:10:00,450 --> 00:10:02,250 That’s what you said when we met at the general store. 111 00:10:02,320 --> 00:10:04,390 I told you I was coming here to be transformed... 112 00:10:05,430 --> 00:10:07,430 and you said, "Good luck with that." 113 00:10:07,570 --> 00:10:10,270 Wow, you really have given that a lot of thought. 114 00:10:11,270 --> 00:10:13,880 Seriously, babe, get yourself a vibrator, 115 00:10:14,210 --> 00:10:15,520 -let off some steam. -Really? 116 00:10:15,580 --> 00:10:19,760 Okay, okay. Back to the schedule please. We have meditation from 9:00 to 10:00. 117 00:10:19,890 --> 00:10:21,790 Potato sack race at 10:15. 118 00:10:21,860 --> 00:10:23,330 Napoleon, you have Masha at 11:00. 119 00:10:23,630 --> 00:10:25,570 Wait. Did you say potato sack race? 120 00:10:25,740 --> 00:10:28,170 Yes, I did. Exercise combined with laughter 121 00:10:28,270 --> 00:10:30,310 is proven to reduce stress and anxiety, 122 00:10:30,780 --> 00:10:31,950 which it seems we could use. 123 00:10:32,220 --> 00:10:33,750 -Sensational! -I'm not doing the Potato sack race, 124 00:10:33,820 --> 00:10:34,750 -I'm not doing it -Tony, 125 00:10:34,820 --> 00:10:36,520 -you can be excused because of your knee. -Right. 126 00:10:36,590 --> 00:10:38,490 And, Francis, if your back is bothering you... 127 00:10:38,560 --> 00:10:39,800 It really is. 128 00:10:39,860 --> 00:10:43,500 No problem. But I can tell you it’s one of our most popular activities. 129 00:10:43,640 --> 00:10:45,680 We’ve never had a guest who regretted participating. 130 00:10:45,780 --> 00:10:49,950 -Count the Marconis in. -I wanna be on the Marconi team. 131 00:10:50,280 --> 00:10:52,390 -Yeah, and Carmel. There you go. -Bet you guys are from 132 00:10:52,520 --> 00:10:53,760 a long line of potato-sackers. 133 00:10:53,820 --> 00:10:55,730 Oh, you bet. I got... I got moves like Tigger. 134 00:10:55,800 --> 00:10:58,770 -Look at this! -You could be in the Olympics. 135 00:10:58,900 --> 00:11:01,210 -No. Sit down. -You're gonna hit the ceiling! 136 00:11:01,340 --> 00:11:03,780 Is it individual bags, or do we get to jump in the sack 137 00:11:03,840 --> 00:11:05,780 with somebody else? 'Cause if we do, 138 00:11:06,350 --> 00:11:09,420 I choose Jessica. I’m gay, but I still choose Jessica. 139 00:11:09,660 --> 00:11:12,230 Aw, that is so sweet of you to say. 140 00:11:12,660 --> 00:11:15,400 Look at those claws. My God, they're fierce. 141 00:11:16,700 --> 00:11:19,840 Anyway, so long as it’s not Carmel because you terrify me. 142 00:11:21,650 --> 00:11:23,320 Shut up! 143 00:11:28,630 --> 00:11:31,000 -Masha? -Yes. 144 00:11:31,800 --> 00:11:35,840 There's been an incident. Carmel attacked Lars. 145 00:11:38,310 --> 00:11:39,650 Physically attacked him? 146 00:11:39,720 --> 00:11:42,260 She lunged for his throat, but we handled it. 147 00:11:42,760 --> 00:11:43,960 He's with Yao now. 148 00:11:46,800 --> 00:11:50,270 Well, she has anger issues. It's better that it comes out this way. 149 00:11:50,670 --> 00:11:51,710 Than what other way? 150 00:11:52,010 --> 00:11:55,720 Oh, come on. You’re having a day, aren’t you? Aren't you? 151 00:11:55,850 --> 00:12:00,360 Well, apropos of our conversation earlier, I do think we should proceed 152 00:12:00,420 --> 00:12:01,790 with a little bit of caution, no? 153 00:12:04,330 --> 00:12:05,470 Duly noted. 154 00:12:07,940 --> 00:12:09,810 It’s good that we challenge each other. 155 00:12:11,450 --> 00:12:15,790 It only makes us better, right? All about self-improvement. 156 00:12:19,930 --> 00:12:21,940 Glory's taking Carmel to the arboretum. 157 00:12:22,800 --> 00:12:24,810 I've examined Lars, he's fine. 158 00:12:24,940 --> 00:12:27,850 See, everything's fine. 159 00:12:28,780 --> 00:12:30,950 No need to worry. 160 00:12:31,490 --> 00:12:32,990 But Delilah is tight. 161 00:12:33,660 --> 00:12:35,600 I think you've been neglecting her, Yao. 162 00:12:36,530 --> 00:12:40,710 You've got a good one here. I hope you appreciate her. 163 00:12:45,650 --> 00:12:46,650 Do you? 164 00:12:48,320 --> 00:12:52,030 -I... I do. -Really good. 165 00:12:54,400 --> 00:12:56,440 I love my team. 166 00:13:00,750 --> 00:13:04,390 You want to ring the bell? Come on, lovebirds, move it. 167 00:13:06,060 --> 00:13:07,290 Fuck. 168 00:13:18,010 --> 00:13:19,050 Fuck. 169 00:13:44,870 --> 00:13:46,100 -Hey. -Yeah. 170 00:13:47,710 --> 00:13:50,810 Are you okay? You look... you look pasty. 171 00:13:51,080 --> 00:13:54,150 Yeah, I'm fine. Just, you know, meditation. 172 00:13:55,420 --> 00:13:57,730 Being alone with my own thoughts. 173 00:13:57,790 --> 00:14:01,430 Yeah. I know that. Hey, listen, do you mind 174 00:14:01,500 --> 00:14:05,710 not saying anything to the others about my little internet scam-dom thing 175 00:14:05,780 --> 00:14:08,750 'cause it’s just-- Well, it's humiliating. 176 00:14:10,450 --> 00:14:13,360 -What did you tell me for? -I don't know. I guess for some reason 177 00:14:13,430 --> 00:14:14,830 I didn't think you were gonna judge me. 178 00:14:19,000 --> 00:14:20,770 Yeah. Your secret's safe with me. 179 00:14:22,740 --> 00:14:24,850 -Thanks. -All right. Let's go meditate. 180 00:14:27,520 --> 00:14:31,500 The sunlight rains down upon you, 181 00:14:32,900 --> 00:14:35,940 a strobing swath of gold. 182 00:14:41,450 --> 00:14:42,850 Filling you up... 183 00:14:45,990 --> 00:14:49,600 from your head, to your toes... 184 00:14:50,870 --> 00:14:52,770 with gratitude... 185 00:14:54,170 --> 00:14:55,580 and joy. 186 00:14:56,450 --> 00:14:57,880 For another day... 187 00:14:59,120 --> 00:15:00,520 another chance. 188 00:15:14,110 --> 00:15:19,090 I’m right here, Tony... sharing it with you. 189 00:15:53,030 --> 00:15:54,190 Fancy meeting you here. 190 00:15:54,560 --> 00:15:56,230 Are you doing this? Are you sure that's a good idea? 191 00:15:56,500 --> 00:15:58,670 Yeah, I can't resist the competition. What's your excuse? 192 00:15:58,740 --> 00:16:00,570 Are you sure you're okay to do this? 193 00:16:01,880 --> 00:16:03,150 That's... that is cute. 194 00:16:03,210 --> 00:16:06,450 I'm not participating, I'm here socially. Good luck. 195 00:16:07,050 --> 00:16:09,990 -Okay, let’s split up. The Marconis... -Yes! 196 00:16:10,490 --> 00:16:14,470 ...and Carmel, versus Ben, Jessica, Lars, and Tony. 197 00:16:14,700 --> 00:16:17,010 We are gonna look so ridiculous in these things. 198 00:16:17,940 --> 00:16:21,880 -You? Never. -Okay, this way, ladies. 199 00:16:22,650 --> 00:16:25,560 -You're gonna do this with your knee? -You shit talking me, Karen? 200 00:16:25,620 --> 00:16:28,000 -Can you cope? -Heather. Her name's Heather. 201 00:16:28,130 --> 00:16:29,570 He knows that. He's joking. 202 00:16:29,900 --> 00:16:33,040 Okay, we want everyone to be safe. So let’s not get crazy. 203 00:16:33,570 --> 00:16:35,940 Remember the goal is fun, laughter, and play. 204 00:16:36,110 --> 00:16:37,920 The positive benefits of which have been documented 205 00:16:38,020 --> 00:16:41,120 -at the Mayo Clinic, FYI. -There you go! 206 00:16:41,520 --> 00:16:43,930 -I'm rooting for all of you! -Yeah, we're gonna crush this. 207 00:16:44,030 --> 00:16:45,230 -Go get them! -Our team's more fit! 208 00:16:46,000 --> 00:16:50,740 -The Marconis, will not be beaten! -I've got a heart murmur. Is that okay? 209 00:16:51,110 --> 00:16:54,720 All right. Ready, and, go! 210 00:17:25,880 --> 00:17:27,080 Come on. 211 00:17:28,620 --> 00:17:31,620 -I got it! I got it! I got it! -Come on! 212 00:17:32,120 --> 00:17:34,100 I got it! I got it! 213 00:17:35,030 --> 00:17:37,900 I got... I got it! I got it! 214 00:17:45,750 --> 00:17:46,790 What? 215 00:18:00,710 --> 00:18:05,090 Yeah! I won! I... we won! We won! We won! We won! 216 00:18:06,290 --> 00:18:09,700 That’s illegal. That’s illegal. That’s illegal. 217 00:18:10,070 --> 00:18:12,300 That wasn't... She wasn't... She wasn't jumping. 218 00:18:12,570 --> 00:18:13,670 Everyone calm down. 219 00:18:13,740 --> 00:18:15,610 -Calm down. Calm down. -I could've done the somersault! 220 00:18:15,780 --> 00:18:17,310 -Breathe. -Excuse me. But there's no rule 221 00:18:17,580 --> 00:18:19,050 -that says I have to jump. -That's right. 222 00:18:19,120 --> 00:18:21,260 No, no. That is a first but... 223 00:18:22,220 --> 00:18:24,160 -legal, yeah. -Strategy. 224 00:18:24,730 --> 00:18:27,700 -How did you even learn to do that? -I used to be a cheerleader. 225 00:18:28,600 --> 00:18:29,770 -Gee! -Okay, okay! 226 00:18:29,870 --> 00:18:33,050 Congratulations to the winners. Namaste to the losers. 227 00:18:33,280 --> 00:18:34,680 -Yeah, okay. -We have 40 minutes 228 00:18:34,750 --> 00:18:36,720 of free time, then it is out to the wilderness. 229 00:18:36,790 --> 00:18:38,960 Lunch is out there if you can find it. Dinner, too. 230 00:18:39,390 --> 00:18:41,060 -Why dinner? -Smoothies at 7:00 pm, 231 00:18:41,160 --> 00:18:44,070 -but anything beyond that-- -You can’t... you can't just starve us. 232 00:18:44,200 --> 00:18:45,970 There's a lot of fruit trees. Nuts. 233 00:18:46,110 --> 00:18:47,910 There’s even an avocado tree out there somewhere. 234 00:18:47,980 --> 00:18:49,910 -And a river. -I can't eat a river. 235 00:18:50,110 --> 00:18:52,920 -Do we at least get a fishing pole? -Living off the land, Ben. So... 236 00:18:53,820 --> 00:18:57,060 -That doesn't count? -Forty minutes, everyone! 237 00:18:57,360 --> 00:18:58,930 Don’t forget your sunscreen. Okay! 238 00:18:59,000 --> 00:19:00,870 -Okay. All right. -Can't eat sunscreen either. 239 00:19:44,820 --> 00:19:46,190 Please come in. 240 00:19:49,370 --> 00:19:50,700 Napoleon. 241 00:19:51,700 --> 00:19:53,240 -Welcome, how are you today? -Thank you. 242 00:19:53,810 --> 00:19:58,380 Fantastic. I mean, still smarting from a devastating potato sack defeat, 243 00:19:58,750 --> 00:20:00,290 -but other than that-- -Wonderful. 244 00:20:00,920 --> 00:20:02,930 You know, I... I wanted to let you know 245 00:20:03,030 --> 00:20:05,430 we’re so grateful to be here despite how it may have... 246 00:20:06,870 --> 00:20:09,070 seemed at the beginning. Heather was... 247 00:20:10,440 --> 00:20:13,920 She couldn’t believe it. When you reduced your rate for us. Very generous. 248 00:20:15,320 --> 00:20:18,020 -How is Heather? -Oh, she's good. Thank you. 249 00:20:18,190 --> 00:20:20,830 Please... sit down. 250 00:20:23,000 --> 00:20:24,140 So she's better? 251 00:20:24,900 --> 00:20:28,210 She was quite on the precipice the other day, I understand. 252 00:20:28,410 --> 00:20:30,820 Oh, she would never... She was just... 253 00:20:33,290 --> 00:20:34,990 -Admiring the view. -Yeah. 254 00:20:37,330 --> 00:20:39,900 Yeah, she would never. She would never. 255 00:20:46,550 --> 00:20:47,550 Wanna start again? 256 00:20:51,060 --> 00:20:53,460 How is your wife? How is Heather? 257 00:20:59,040 --> 00:21:00,310 Heather is broken. 258 00:21:02,410 --> 00:21:05,890 Our son took his life. And Heather... 259 00:21:07,190 --> 00:21:08,190 she’s broken. 260 00:21:10,500 --> 00:21:13,070 -What about you? -I’m fine. 261 00:21:15,440 --> 00:21:20,050 I mean, I-- Obviously I was, grief-stricken for some time and... 262 00:21:23,190 --> 00:21:26,530 -But these things happen. -These things happen? 263 00:21:26,590 --> 00:21:27,600 Yes, they do. 264 00:21:29,500 --> 00:21:33,510 Suicide is the leading cause of death in America, 265 00:21:33,910 --> 00:21:35,240 especially for young people. 266 00:21:37,180 --> 00:21:40,320 I spent about a month crying "Why me?" on my pillow. 267 00:21:40,390 --> 00:21:43,090 But when you look at the statistics, 268 00:21:43,190 --> 00:21:46,370 the better query might be, "Why not me?" It's all around us. 269 00:21:48,910 --> 00:21:50,310 So you're not broken. 270 00:21:54,280 --> 00:21:56,490 I... I still hurt, of course, but... 271 00:22:01,900 --> 00:22:04,270 -And the irony... -The irony? 272 00:22:05,870 --> 00:22:07,180 Napoleon, what irony? 273 00:22:10,480 --> 00:22:14,220 "It matters not how straight the gate, I am the master of my fate." 274 00:22:14,460 --> 00:22:16,230 "I am the captain of my soul." 275 00:22:17,530 --> 00:22:23,070 "Out of the night carries me, black as the Pit from pole to pole." 276 00:22:23,240 --> 00:22:24,280 Invictus. 277 00:22:27,420 --> 00:22:32,360 You get a gold star. I teach high school. Which you know. 278 00:22:33,260 --> 00:22:35,630 And anyway, that’s what I preach 279 00:22:35,900 --> 00:22:37,470 to all my students, that they are the masters 280 00:22:37,540 --> 00:22:38,610 of their own fates. 281 00:22:40,540 --> 00:22:43,280 And Zach chose to be the master of his fate, 282 00:22:44,380 --> 00:22:48,660 -in his way. So, you know. Irony. -I am so sorry. 283 00:22:50,160 --> 00:22:55,570 -I am so sorry for your loss, Napoleon. -Thank you. It’s... it's difficult. 284 00:22:57,440 --> 00:22:59,410 But I am not broken. 285 00:23:01,920 --> 00:23:04,360 We carry on because we must, right? 286 00:23:04,520 --> 00:23:06,360 -What's the alternative? -Exactly. 287 00:23:07,160 --> 00:23:09,030 I’d like to try something, if you’re open to it? 288 00:23:09,370 --> 00:23:13,070 -Of course I'm open, that's why I'm here. -Lovely. 289 00:23:14,140 --> 00:23:17,380 Good. Well... close your eyes? 290 00:23:22,590 --> 00:23:23,600 Breathe... 291 00:23:26,300 --> 00:23:28,100 picture your son Zach. 292 00:23:31,440 --> 00:23:33,680 -Sorry. That... Not... not right now. -Okay. Okay. No. 293 00:23:33,950 --> 00:23:35,590 -No. -Of course not. I understand. 294 00:23:35,950 --> 00:23:40,030 Just picture anything... anything at all. Close your eyes. 295 00:23:40,160 --> 00:23:42,670 I... I really don’t want to be late for the foraging. 296 00:23:43,000 --> 00:23:45,170 I’m... I'm told there’s a limited amount of avocados. 297 00:23:45,270 --> 00:23:46,710 -Napoleon, please. -And the idea of missing out 298 00:23:46,980 --> 00:23:49,210 -on the guac is... -Please, would you do it? 299 00:23:49,280 --> 00:23:51,620 Picture anything at all. I don't care. 300 00:23:51,720 --> 00:23:54,060 I mean, a cup of coffee. Whatever you want. 301 00:23:54,120 --> 00:23:56,500 A spaceship. Your wife’s smile. Anything at all. 302 00:23:56,560 --> 00:23:59,400 Then you can leave, I promise. Just close your eyes. 303 00:24:00,300 --> 00:24:01,310 -Yeah. -Close them. 304 00:24:01,370 --> 00:24:03,710 Yes, that's it. Now... 305 00:24:05,510 --> 00:24:06,580 anything you want. 306 00:24:23,480 --> 00:24:26,260 There it is. What did you see? 307 00:24:28,630 --> 00:24:30,030 I saw myself. 308 00:24:32,070 --> 00:24:33,740 Eating a delicious avocado. 309 00:24:39,450 --> 00:24:41,220 -The future. -Yeah. 310 00:24:43,490 --> 00:24:47,300 -May... may I go, Masha? Please? -You may. 311 00:24:48,200 --> 00:24:50,170 Carry on, Napoleon. 312 00:24:53,110 --> 00:24:54,280 Right-o. 313 00:25:21,430 --> 00:25:24,170 What about these mushrooms? Are they poisonous? 314 00:25:25,210 --> 00:25:26,540 Some are, some aren’t. 315 00:25:26,680 --> 00:25:29,510 -Some... Helpful! -I suggest we stick to the berries, 316 00:25:29,580 --> 00:25:32,520 the... the leafy greens. It’s not just about finding food. 317 00:25:32,660 --> 00:25:36,060 It’s about connecting to the earth. Really feeling the earth. 318 00:25:36,260 --> 00:25:39,500 Yeah. As long as I don’t connect to any poison ivy, I’m allergic. 319 00:25:39,640 --> 00:25:40,740 Yao, a moment. 320 00:25:40,800 --> 00:25:42,140 -Yes. -I’m not really feeling 321 00:25:42,210 --> 00:25:44,510 the effects of my breakfast this morning, you know what I mean? 322 00:25:45,510 --> 00:25:50,160 -No, I don't. -My medication. You guys cutting back? 323 00:25:50,490 --> 00:25:52,800 Tony, you... you picked up the pill and swallowed it. 324 00:25:53,360 --> 00:25:56,200 Yeah, well listen, I’m... I'm not feeling so great, okay? 325 00:25:56,270 --> 00:25:59,170 And when I feel like shit, I don’t play well with others. You got me? 326 00:25:59,510 --> 00:26:00,540 Understood. 327 00:26:06,590 --> 00:26:07,590 What are you staring at? 328 00:26:08,230 --> 00:26:09,660 -I know who you are. -Oh, yeah? 329 00:26:09,830 --> 00:26:11,830 You looked familiar, but I couldn’t place your face. 330 00:26:12,300 --> 00:26:14,770 But now I can. You’re Smiley Hogburn, right? 331 00:26:15,740 --> 00:26:17,780 What? Oh, my God. 332 00:26:18,750 --> 00:26:22,520 Ben, you're right, that's Smiley Hogburn. Holy moly, what happened, man? 333 00:26:24,120 --> 00:26:27,530 -I... I didn’t mean that. -Who... who's Smiley Hogburn? 334 00:26:27,670 --> 00:26:31,370 He was a star tight end for the Niners. He was like Gronkowski before Gronkowski. 335 00:26:31,470 --> 00:26:32,780 Gronkowski. I was better than Gronkowski. 336 00:26:32,840 --> 00:26:34,480 Yo, you know you could've been a Hall of Famer 337 00:26:34,550 --> 00:26:37,250 -if you wouldn't have shattered your knee. -I knew you were famous. I knew it. 338 00:26:37,320 --> 00:26:38,690 And you know how I recognized you? 339 00:26:38,890 --> 00:26:41,190 When we won the potato sack race and you did that little dance. 340 00:26:41,330 --> 00:26:42,630 That was your touchdown jig, right? 341 00:26:43,460 --> 00:26:46,340 Yo, you was my dad's favorite player. Well, you was his favorite white player. 342 00:26:46,400 --> 00:26:48,270 Well, you was probably his second favorite white player 343 00:26:48,370 --> 00:26:50,510 'cause he loved Brett Favre, but you was top three for sure. 344 00:26:51,580 --> 00:26:53,550 -Damn, I'm talking to Smiley Hogburn. -No, you’re not. 345 00:26:53,920 --> 00:26:56,420 No Smiley Hogburn anymore, okay? It's just Tony. 346 00:26:57,560 --> 00:26:58,590 You got me? Tony! 347 00:27:00,630 --> 00:27:02,100 And Tony needs his fucking medicine. 348 00:27:04,510 --> 00:27:07,110 So, are there any snakes? 349 00:27:07,450 --> 00:27:10,420 There are 33 species of snakes in this region. 350 00:27:10,550 --> 00:27:13,190 I’m not gonna have to, like, bite the head off one 351 00:27:13,260 --> 00:27:15,290 -to prove myself, am I? -Jessica. 352 00:27:16,560 --> 00:27:19,200 You shouldn’t ever do anything that makes you feel uncomfortable. 353 00:27:19,340 --> 00:27:21,310 That goes for anywhere, here included. 354 00:27:22,610 --> 00:27:24,810 Maybe especially here. Okay? 355 00:27:28,490 --> 00:27:31,230 What did that mean? That sounded like it had meaning. 356 00:27:55,740 --> 00:27:58,750 Honey, it wasn't yet the spring 357 00:28:01,290 --> 00:28:02,420 That's a pretty song. 358 00:28:05,660 --> 00:28:09,800 My son used to play it. He could really sing. 359 00:28:29,680 --> 00:28:34,420 -What's happening? -This part is completely optional. 360 00:28:35,820 --> 00:28:37,230 But I promise, you won't regret it. 361 00:28:54,360 --> 00:28:57,700 Oh, Mom. You're naked. Okay. 362 00:28:57,800 --> 00:28:59,940 -It's amazing! -It's beautiful! 363 00:29:01,870 --> 00:29:04,580 -Here you go. -You girls are wild! 364 00:29:21,250 --> 00:29:23,350 -'Gram-tastic. -What? 365 00:29:24,450 --> 00:29:27,860 Instagram. It's not real if you can’t post it, right? 366 00:29:30,530 --> 00:29:31,970 You strike me as more of a Facebook lady. 367 00:29:32,900 --> 00:29:36,010 No, my kids are like you, tragically addicted. 368 00:29:36,340 --> 00:29:38,510 I'm sure if they saw your page, they'd worship you. 369 00:29:43,320 --> 00:29:46,600 I'm really sorry if I'm, like, misreading you at all. 370 00:29:47,000 --> 00:29:48,840 But on the possibility that I’m not, you can fuck off. 371 00:29:53,440 --> 00:29:56,720 Mom! J... just at least t... turn... ang-- 372 00:29:56,890 --> 00:29:59,860 -It's just a body. It's just flesh. -Oh, God! 373 00:30:02,560 --> 00:30:07,510 -Francis? -Oh, no. No, not a chance. 374 00:30:07,610 --> 00:30:09,980 Between the chemical peels, the collagen injections, 375 00:30:10,080 --> 00:30:12,720 and all the other things that I'm not going to admit, 376 00:30:12,950 --> 00:30:16,760 I'm confident I have single-handedly paid for my esthetician’s beach house. 377 00:30:17,060 --> 00:30:20,000 This doesn't ever see the sun. 378 00:30:21,030 --> 00:30:22,570 Okay. 379 00:30:27,450 --> 00:30:29,450 Talk to me like that ever again... 380 00:30:29,980 --> 00:30:31,420 And what? You’ll fuck me up? 381 00:30:32,160 --> 00:30:34,430 You think you’re the only one who doesn’t like being dismissed? 382 00:30:34,530 --> 00:30:36,630 -I haven't been dismissing you. -Yes, you have. 383 00:30:37,430 --> 00:30:39,040 "Ooh. Gee. Ooh. 384 00:30:39,570 --> 00:30:42,580 Ch... cheerleader! Ooh, Instagram." Like, fuck off! 385 00:30:46,420 --> 00:30:49,020 I don't ever think I... I've seen one before. 386 00:30:49,790 --> 00:30:50,930 Well, there it is. 387 00:30:50,990 --> 00:30:52,830 -What? -Right there. See it? 388 00:30:52,900 --> 00:30:55,740 I do. Avocado, ahoy! 389 00:30:59,040 --> 00:31:00,110 Man, what the... 390 00:31:02,580 --> 00:31:03,490 One. 391 00:31:03,550 --> 00:31:05,760 -It's still a little early in the season. -What the fuck? Are we on 392 00:31:05,820 --> 00:31:07,730 some kind of reality show or something? 393 00:31:08,630 --> 00:31:12,670 -And what about the, apple orchard? -Just buds. But we got some blueberries, 394 00:31:12,770 --> 00:31:15,080 some... some green ones. It's a little early for them. 395 00:31:15,140 --> 00:31:17,080 Hey, man. You said that there was gonna be food out here. 396 00:31:17,510 --> 00:31:20,150 There is, we just need to forage. It’s not meant to be easy, Tony. 397 00:31:20,650 --> 00:31:21,660 Clearly not. 398 00:31:24,530 --> 00:31:28,040 Give in to the river, ladies. She knows what she’s doing. 399 00:31:28,940 --> 00:31:30,570 Oh, my God, Mom. 400 00:31:30,870 --> 00:31:33,050 The full-frontal situation, really... 401 00:31:34,750 --> 00:31:36,220 You used to run around naked all the time. 402 00:31:36,550 --> 00:31:37,820 Yeah, when I was five. 403 00:31:39,190 --> 00:31:42,500 -I love your body. -Oh, my God. Who are you? 404 00:31:42,800 --> 00:31:46,070 -Carmel, can you spin me around? -I wanna see the other side of the river. 405 00:31:51,850 --> 00:31:53,020 Oh, it's pretty! 406 00:31:56,890 --> 00:32:00,230 -These are actually pretty good. -A lot of fat content in walnuts. 407 00:32:00,600 --> 00:32:02,670 Rich in antioxidants and Omega-3s. 408 00:32:02,770 --> 00:32:06,480 I wanna go back to the lodge. I need my medication. 409 00:32:06,610 --> 00:32:09,180 When did you start taking oxy? Was it to deal with the injury? 410 00:32:09,550 --> 00:32:11,990 -That would be none of your business. -Come on. You can tell us. 411 00:32:12,620 --> 00:32:14,630 I mean, dipshit here told us his deep, dark secret. 412 00:32:15,700 --> 00:32:18,840 -I did? -Yeah. That you’re a dipshit. 413 00:32:20,010 --> 00:32:23,710 Well, the Marconi family drama has certainly been on full display. 414 00:32:23,780 --> 00:32:24,780 That's for sure. 415 00:32:24,920 --> 00:32:26,950 Yo, you know I saw you shatter that knee like a hundred times. 416 00:32:28,720 --> 00:32:30,790 Those highlight reels they always play on ESPN, 417 00:32:31,190 --> 00:32:33,870 the worst sports injuries, you’re right up there with Joe Theismann. 418 00:32:33,930 --> 00:32:37,770 -Good times. Let's change the subject. -Let's talk about you, Ben. 419 00:32:39,140 --> 00:32:41,680 Driving a Lamborghini. What’s your story? 420 00:32:42,650 --> 00:32:43,720 I don't have one. 421 00:32:45,760 --> 00:32:48,200 -I don't. -Everybody has a story. 422 00:32:48,830 --> 00:32:51,030 Especially the people that claim otherwise. 423 00:32:51,300 --> 00:32:53,870 Well, I'm sorry. Never been anything. 424 00:32:55,080 --> 00:32:57,280 -Never done anything. -How do you make your money? 425 00:32:59,150 --> 00:33:02,790 I didn't. I won the lottery. 426 00:33:04,960 --> 00:33:07,630 -Twenty-two million dollars. -Wow! 427 00:33:07,970 --> 00:33:09,570 I never did a fucking thing. 428 00:33:11,280 --> 00:33:14,750 -I didn’t plan on telling y’all that. -Sharing is contagious, Ben. 429 00:33:15,180 --> 00:33:17,550 So, thank you for your honesty. It's a big step. 430 00:33:17,620 --> 00:33:19,120 Come on, you must've had a job, right? 431 00:33:21,760 --> 00:33:23,030 I drove a catering truck. 432 00:33:24,700 --> 00:33:28,880 I didn't make a lot of money, but, it had meaning, you know? 433 00:33:29,580 --> 00:33:31,820 Just simple tasks that made people’s day a little better. 434 00:33:33,890 --> 00:33:35,620 Sounds stupid, but it mattered. 435 00:33:37,330 --> 00:33:42,740 And poof. I won the lottery, everything else became moot. 436 00:33:44,340 --> 00:33:46,710 No meaning. No matter. 437 00:33:46,880 --> 00:33:49,850 Come on. You’ve still got Jessica. 438 00:33:50,720 --> 00:33:51,890 At least for the time being. 439 00:33:53,130 --> 00:33:54,960 What the fuck is wrong with you, man? 440 00:33:55,100 --> 00:33:56,930 Why you feel like you always gotta stir shit up? 441 00:33:58,900 --> 00:34:01,810 -I was kidding. Sorry. -You know, the snide is getting old. 442 00:34:02,740 --> 00:34:05,680 Ben had a genuine moment there, a moment of real honesty. 443 00:34:05,780 --> 00:34:08,760 And you just took a big, fat shit all over it. Why? 444 00:34:09,060 --> 00:34:11,960 Look, man, I appreciate it, but I’m not asking anybody 445 00:34:12,030 --> 00:34:13,230 to feel sorry for me. 446 00:34:14,640 --> 00:34:18,280 -I won the lottery, right? -I actually feel sorry for Lars. 447 00:34:24,890 --> 00:34:27,660 -Okay, can we go now? -This is just the best feeling. 448 00:34:28,860 --> 00:34:32,370 This is the best thing I've ever felt and I don't know why. 449 00:34:32,640 --> 00:34:35,910 Me too. But my body keeps wanting to bob up. 450 00:34:35,980 --> 00:34:41,320 I also find that feelings tend to bubble up in this pool. 451 00:34:43,360 --> 00:34:46,070 Anybody have any feelings to share? 452 00:34:46,970 --> 00:34:49,240 -I feel wonderful. -Me, too. 453 00:34:49,770 --> 00:34:53,950 I feel more like myself, which I haven’t been today. 454 00:34:55,020 --> 00:34:56,990 Would you like to expand on that, Carmel? 455 00:34:58,160 --> 00:35:00,930 How you haven’t been feeling like yourself? 456 00:35:02,030 --> 00:35:04,100 I've been snapping at people. 457 00:35:05,170 --> 00:35:09,040 And-- Well, Jessica told me to fuck off. 458 00:35:09,210 --> 00:35:12,050 So I suspect that I did something to her, too. 459 00:35:13,390 --> 00:35:14,620 Did I? 460 00:35:14,920 --> 00:35:17,400 You dismissed me. I told you. You’ve been... 461 00:35:18,830 --> 00:35:21,240 you know, judging me. And... 462 00:35:23,740 --> 00:35:25,810 About being a cheerleader and Instagram. 463 00:35:25,880 --> 00:35:30,250 And you said, "It’s not real if I don’t post it." 464 00:35:30,650 --> 00:35:31,960 And that hit a nerve? 465 00:35:35,730 --> 00:35:39,070 Yeah, 'cause it's true. I check it first thing in the morning 466 00:35:39,770 --> 00:35:41,980 to make sure people think I'm pretty. 467 00:35:43,950 --> 00:35:44,950 It's pathetic. 468 00:35:46,220 --> 00:35:48,090 Do you really not think that you're pretty? 469 00:35:49,830 --> 00:35:51,830 -No. -How? 470 00:35:52,370 --> 00:35:54,970 It's pretty noticeable. I mean, my eyelids are, like, 471 00:35:55,040 --> 00:35:56,040 drooping, and... 472 00:35:57,880 --> 00:36:00,410 my thighs are too big, and my stomach isn't flat enough, 473 00:36:00,480 --> 00:36:03,890 my pores are huge, my hips are too big. My hairline is wrong, 474 00:36:03,960 --> 00:36:05,020 and these freckles won't fuck off 475 00:36:05,120 --> 00:36:07,230 no matter how much I laser and it's... You know... 476 00:36:09,700 --> 00:36:10,870 this is a good day. 477 00:36:12,170 --> 00:36:15,780 Wow, I feel so bad right now for hating you some. 478 00:36:17,320 --> 00:36:21,860 Well, my husband left me for, a... a young woman. 479 00:36:22,330 --> 00:36:25,830 So, sometimes when I see pretty young women, you, 480 00:36:26,230 --> 00:36:30,140 I just want to go..."Pow." 481 00:36:31,910 --> 00:36:34,720 Right in the face. I mean, I would never do it, honestly. 482 00:36:34,980 --> 00:36:37,120 What? You wanna punch me in the face? 483 00:36:37,360 --> 00:36:41,760 I’m-- Well, I'm ashamed of it, but... yes. 484 00:36:44,470 --> 00:36:48,440 -That's cool. -Francis, what are you thinking? 485 00:36:49,480 --> 00:36:52,920 I was just thinking I wish I could write this all down. 486 00:36:53,490 --> 00:36:58,500 It's awful. I have five interesting women, a beautiful setting, 487 00:36:58,770 --> 00:37:02,000 and I'm not the least bit present. 488 00:37:03,980 --> 00:37:05,910 I'm just recording it, you know, for reference. 489 00:37:06,050 --> 00:37:09,490 You're not... real people to me. 490 00:37:11,090 --> 00:37:14,000 Sorry, I-- It's the sulfur. 491 00:37:15,770 --> 00:37:16,900 I don't know where that came from. 492 00:37:17,070 --> 00:37:18,340 I have a question. 493 00:37:19,870 --> 00:37:22,040 When was the last time anybody here had sex? 494 00:37:22,480 --> 00:37:24,520 -Mom. -You don't have to answer. 495 00:37:25,180 --> 00:37:27,090 -Have you had sex? -Stop. Stop! 496 00:37:27,390 --> 00:37:29,330 It's just-- I'm just asking 497 00:37:29,930 --> 00:37:33,030 whether anybody here remembers. 'Cause I remember. 498 00:37:33,970 --> 00:37:36,770 I know exactly the last time I had sex. It was three years ago. 499 00:37:37,170 --> 00:37:38,540 -Don't please. -If I had known 500 00:37:38,810 --> 00:37:41,450 it was gonna be the last time, I'd have bothered to remember the details. 501 00:37:41,880 --> 00:37:43,450 -Oh, my God. -I suspect it was good, 502 00:37:43,520 --> 00:37:45,490 because your father is a brilliant lover. 503 00:37:45,960 --> 00:37:48,530 As goofy as he is, he... he can be all business. 504 00:37:48,970 --> 00:37:52,170 I’m sure it was good. Because sex is good. Isn't it? 505 00:37:52,410 --> 00:37:53,410 Holy shit. 506 00:37:53,510 --> 00:37:57,850 It’s just not possible for me... anymore. 507 00:38:00,020 --> 00:38:01,520 It might be for Napoleon. 508 00:38:04,130 --> 00:38:06,430 I think he should have an affair while we're here. 509 00:38:07,840 --> 00:38:11,210 He could have an affair with you. And you could write about it after. 510 00:38:14,550 --> 00:38:18,390 -Are you okay, Heather? -I... I'm wonderful. 511 00:38:23,100 --> 00:38:24,900 How could that possibly be? 512 00:38:30,550 --> 00:38:31,890 I'm not feeling well. 513 00:38:32,820 --> 00:38:35,290 Join the club. It’s called malnutrition. 514 00:38:36,360 --> 00:38:39,000 No. No, it’s something else. My head feels funny. 515 00:38:39,130 --> 00:38:41,170 It's 'cause you're starving. We all are. 516 00:38:41,370 --> 00:38:43,440 I hear ringing. Does anyone else hear ringing? 517 00:38:43,910 --> 00:38:45,880 I thought you said there was gonna be food out here to find. 518 00:38:46,110 --> 00:38:48,350 -There is. -Yeah? Well... well, when the fuck? 519 00:38:48,620 --> 00:38:50,320 I mean, all the fruit is out of season 520 00:38:50,390 --> 00:38:52,990 and all we've had was a... a couple of walnuts, 521 00:38:53,060 --> 00:38:54,430 which were fucking disgusting. 522 00:38:54,500 --> 00:38:56,630 And a tiny little smoothie like nine hours ago. 523 00:38:56,940 --> 00:38:59,440 -It's fucking inhumane. -Tony. Just take a breath. 524 00:38:59,510 --> 00:39:02,480 Enough with the fucking breath, okay? We can’t eat air. 525 00:39:04,180 --> 00:39:06,390 -You, you got rations? -Me? 526 00:39:07,060 --> 00:39:10,300 "Me." Yeah, you. You’re the type to have a secret stash. 527 00:39:10,360 --> 00:39:12,100 -Oh, right. -Yeah, yeah, you’re definitely the type 528 00:39:12,200 --> 00:39:13,200 to not share. 529 00:39:20,180 --> 00:39:21,380 Hi! 530 00:39:26,390 --> 00:39:27,460 You said the only thing 531 00:39:27,530 --> 00:39:29,130 we're having for dinner tonight is a smoothie? 532 00:39:31,970 --> 00:39:34,010 -Don't be ridiculous. -Well... 533 00:39:34,880 --> 00:39:37,250 the rules are "whatever we can forage," right, Yao? 534 00:39:42,390 --> 00:39:43,900 The ethical carnivore. 535 00:39:44,360 --> 00:39:46,640 One must only eat what one is prepared to kill. 536 00:39:48,200 --> 00:39:50,010 Little protein doesn’t sound so bad. 537 00:39:51,650 --> 00:39:53,580 -Have you all gone mad? -Hey, baby. 538 00:39:53,650 --> 00:39:54,680 -You have! -It's all right. 539 00:39:54,950 --> 00:39:57,020 Maybe after a little sustenance we'll come to our senses. 540 00:39:57,320 --> 00:39:58,360 Hey, girl. 541 00:40:01,130 --> 00:40:02,230 Scusi. 542 00:40:03,640 --> 00:40:05,270 I'll be back in a second, fellas. 543 00:40:07,680 --> 00:40:09,150 -Are you kidding me? -Tony! 544 00:40:10,350 --> 00:40:14,960 -Stop him! Jesus! -Tony! Tony! 545 00:40:15,020 --> 00:40:16,430 Come here. Come on! 546 00:41:18,650 --> 00:41:21,220 Welcome back. How was your earth day? 547 00:41:22,090 --> 00:41:24,460 -It was, interesting. -Yeah? 548 00:41:25,400 --> 00:41:27,100 No, actually, it was incredible. 549 00:41:30,480 --> 00:41:31,480 I feel strange. 550 00:41:37,160 --> 00:41:39,700 -Who's hungry for barbecue? -What the hell? 551 00:41:44,140 --> 00:41:46,610 -Did you kill it? -Living off the land, baby. 552 00:42:04,380 --> 00:42:05,380 You did this? 553 00:42:05,750 --> 00:42:08,190 Well, the rule was whatever we could forage out there. 554 00:42:09,760 --> 00:42:12,530 -And there wasn’t much out there. -How barbaric can you be? 555 00:42:12,760 --> 00:42:15,770 She wanted us to be barbaric. Didn't you? 556 00:42:20,580 --> 00:42:24,850 I did. Yes. Well-played. 557 00:42:25,290 --> 00:42:26,720 -"Well-played?" -You're okay with this? 558 00:42:27,260 --> 00:42:30,200 I'm proud of you all. The exercise was to live off the land. 559 00:42:30,360 --> 00:42:32,270 Man as hunter and gatherer. 560 00:42:33,400 --> 00:42:37,210 You have exceeded expectations. Tonight, we're gonna celebrate. 561 00:42:37,840 --> 00:42:40,550 We will have a... a grand banquet. 562 00:42:41,790 --> 00:42:43,520 We will even have wine. 563 00:42:43,890 --> 00:42:45,630 Why's she looking at me when she says, "wine?" 564 00:42:45,890 --> 00:42:47,200 See you all for dinner. 565 00:42:51,610 --> 00:42:52,770 -Glory! -I'm not eating that. 566 00:42:53,310 --> 00:42:54,910 -How you doing? -Very good, thank you. 567 00:42:55,680 --> 00:42:59,220 Well, I'll take my pill. The real one, right fucking now. 568 00:43:02,230 --> 00:43:03,230 Yeah. Of course. 569 00:43:33,490 --> 00:43:34,860 It's me. 570 00:43:38,300 --> 00:43:39,400 Come in. 571 00:43:42,740 --> 00:43:45,550 -You okay? -Yes. I'm fine. 572 00:43:48,320 --> 00:43:49,820 I should've intervened. 573 00:43:51,230 --> 00:43:53,560 No. You did well. 574 00:43:54,230 --> 00:43:57,910 It’s the new protocol. The power, th... they all felt it. 575 00:43:58,370 --> 00:43:59,380 Good. 576 00:44:01,780 --> 00:44:02,780 That's good. 577 00:44:06,590 --> 00:44:07,590 But I'm sorry. 578 00:44:11,170 --> 00:44:12,600 Yao, you did nothing wrong. 579 00:44:14,240 --> 00:44:17,310 For your loss, Masha. 580 00:44:18,680 --> 00:44:19,880 I'm sorry for that. 581 00:45:23,950 --> 00:45:25,580 -Francis! -Oh, God. 582 00:45:26,380 --> 00:45:27,390 Yeah, well, what do you say? 583 00:45:27,520 --> 00:45:30,390 I'm surviving, which is more than I can say about the goat. 584 00:45:31,460 --> 00:45:35,600 I mean, I know it's hypocritical 'cause I eat meat. And do I own 585 00:45:35,840 --> 00:45:38,010 quite a few exceptional leather pieces? I do. 586 00:45:38,310 --> 00:45:42,450 So, guilty. But, I mean, to physically just do it is... 587 00:45:44,790 --> 00:45:47,020 Just when I thought you were actually gonna be sweet. 588 00:45:47,460 --> 00:45:50,600 Well, there's your mistake right there, thinkin' I'm a nice guy. 589 00:45:53,840 --> 00:45:56,580 You know, the big, word on the street 590 00:45:56,680 --> 00:45:58,980 is that you were a professional football player. 591 00:46:00,380 --> 00:46:04,660 -Is that true? -Yeah. Yeah, I was. 592 00:46:05,800 --> 00:46:06,900 I was, yeah. 593 00:46:07,630 --> 00:46:10,440 Is there any reason that you never mentioned that to me? 594 00:46:10,570 --> 00:46:12,340 Well, you never asked me. 595 00:46:14,680 --> 00:46:15,720 So... 596 00:46:15,820 --> 00:46:18,020 Well, I just assumed you were in witness protection 597 00:46:18,320 --> 00:46:21,360 or something like that, so you couldn't talk about it anyway. 598 00:46:26,370 --> 00:46:29,340 -You know, your issue... -You gotta narrow it down for me. 599 00:46:29,840 --> 00:46:32,520 The one about, you know, not being as great 600 00:46:32,580 --> 00:46:33,990 as you used to be at something. 601 00:46:34,050 --> 00:46:35,720 -That one I know. -I... I get it. 602 00:46:36,990 --> 00:46:38,530 I've been there, done that. 603 00:46:39,900 --> 00:46:41,370 It sucks. 604 00:46:51,720 --> 00:46:52,720 Oh, hey. 605 00:46:55,930 --> 00:46:57,830 Your mom seems to be having fun. 606 00:46:57,900 --> 00:47:01,440 -That's nice. -Nice? Maybe. Concerning? Definitely. 607 00:47:01,540 --> 00:47:03,080 She could always dance, your mom. 608 00:47:05,380 --> 00:47:08,760 -I wasn't sure I'd ever see it again. -Something's up with Mom, Dad. 609 00:47:12,430 --> 00:47:13,700 She's turning a corner. 610 00:47:17,470 --> 00:47:20,480 Everyone seems a little different today, wouldn’t you agree? 611 00:47:21,810 --> 00:47:25,620 -Anything you wanna tell me? -Only that we don’t fool around. 612 00:47:27,360 --> 00:47:30,570 Yeah, about that, seems that when we were out today, 613 00:47:30,630 --> 00:47:33,500 somebody went into my room and took some of my things. 614 00:47:34,670 --> 00:47:36,540 Really? Like what? An Apple Watch? 615 00:47:36,610 --> 00:47:40,420 Things that record images and so forth, things that you agreed to turn over? 616 00:47:40,520 --> 00:47:43,630 -I need them back. Now. -You know what you need, Lars? 617 00:47:43,690 --> 00:47:46,970 You need a little puppy training. Would you like that? 618 00:47:48,100 --> 00:47:51,040 Want me to roll up a newspaper and come to your room later? 619 00:47:52,010 --> 00:47:53,040 Tempting. 620 00:48:06,570 --> 00:48:07,640 Look at this. 621 00:48:08,440 --> 00:48:10,550 -The goat, too. -That is... 622 00:48:10,880 --> 00:48:15,960 -That is a lot of meat. Impressive. -There's no such thing as white meat. 623 00:48:18,460 --> 00:48:24,110 Welcome. Here is to a successful Earth Day. 624 00:48:24,570 --> 00:48:29,120 I hear there was many positive unearthings today. 625 00:48:29,550 --> 00:48:30,820 Many truths were told. 626 00:48:31,760 --> 00:48:36,530 Here’s to revealing ourselves and giving of ourselves. 627 00:48:36,630 --> 00:48:39,540 -Hear, hear! -I'm down. To the truth, nothing but. 628 00:48:40,640 --> 00:48:43,550 Would anyone else like to say a blessing before we eat? 629 00:48:43,950 --> 00:48:45,920 What about a eulogy for the goat? 630 00:48:46,950 --> 00:48:49,560 He gave his life so that we may rejoice tonight? 631 00:48:49,720 --> 00:48:50,730 It's the least we can do. 632 00:48:50,790 --> 00:48:53,100 I don't think the goat was a willing participant. 633 00:48:53,160 --> 00:48:55,570 He didn't give anything. He was slaughtered. 634 00:48:56,040 --> 00:48:57,040 I... I'll go. 635 00:48:58,510 --> 00:49:02,250 Yes, Napoleon, please. Speak to us. 636 00:49:03,550 --> 00:49:04,550 All right. 637 00:49:09,560 --> 00:49:12,000 Leviticus 4. Anybody, remember that one? 638 00:49:16,650 --> 00:49:21,560 When you, sin, mind you, unintentionally sin. 639 00:49:22,690 --> 00:49:24,190 Leviticus 4:23. 640 00:49:24,830 --> 00:49:26,670 Honey? What... 641 00:49:26,800 --> 00:49:30,940 Out there, celebrating the earth, first I heard... 642 00:49:32,840 --> 00:49:35,050 ringing, like bells... 643 00:49:36,720 --> 00:49:40,730 -in my head, in my ears. Bells. -Dad? 644 00:49:41,930 --> 00:49:43,170 I’m saying grace, Zoe. 645 00:49:44,200 --> 00:49:46,570 And then I heard it. 646 00:49:46,870 --> 00:49:50,810 Leviticus 4:23. Screaming... 647 00:49:52,750 --> 00:49:54,920 "If his sin is made known to him, 648 00:49:55,860 --> 00:49:57,860 he shall bring for his offering... 649 00:49:59,300 --> 00:50:02,940 a goat. A male without defect." 650 00:50:03,270 --> 00:50:07,050 "He shall lay his hand on the head of the male goat... 651 00:50:08,680 --> 00:50:09,680 and slay it." 652 00:50:11,120 --> 00:50:12,790 "And offer it before the Lord." 653 00:50:14,730 --> 00:50:15,730 Napoleon. 654 00:50:20,740 --> 00:50:22,580 You know, the thing about suicide. 655 00:50:24,680 --> 00:50:28,020 So often there are no signs. There's hardly an inclination, even. 656 00:50:28,960 --> 00:50:31,860 Especially with teenage suicide, it can be the consequence of a... 657 00:50:34,300 --> 00:50:35,370 split-second decision. 658 00:50:35,640 --> 00:50:38,810 An impulse as little as minutes before it happens. 659 00:50:42,650 --> 00:50:47,160 I mean, isn’t that... isn't that incredible? And here’s the other thing. 660 00:50:48,160 --> 00:50:53,340 Suicide survivors often report that their first thought, 661 00:50:54,310 --> 00:50:59,750 after they swallow the pills, or jump, or cut themselves, 662 00:51:00,690 --> 00:51:03,430 first thought, "My God, what have I done?" 663 00:51:04,930 --> 00:51:06,730 Sometimes if the attempt is thwarted, the... 664 00:51:06,830 --> 00:51:09,240 the suicidal thoughts, they never even return. 665 00:51:20,030 --> 00:51:23,100 Zach... was... 666 00:51:25,140 --> 00:51:26,270 impulsive. 667 00:51:27,110 --> 00:51:28,880 He was always so impulsive, wasn’t he, Zoe? 668 00:51:31,220 --> 00:51:35,190 Me and him, we were up the night before. We were watching The Royal Tenenbaums. 669 00:51:35,720 --> 00:51:36,830 We really loved that movie. 670 00:51:36,930 --> 00:51:39,670 And... we stayed up a little too late watching it. 671 00:51:39,870 --> 00:51:44,780 And, that’s... that's why I was... I was tired the next morning. 672 00:51:44,840 --> 00:51:50,190 And that's why I hit the snooze button on my iPhone... 673 00:51:51,420 --> 00:51:52,890 when the alarm went off. 674 00:51:54,430 --> 00:51:56,170 Instead I was woken up by your scream 675 00:51:56,230 --> 00:51:58,800 after you found him two minutes after he hung himself. 676 00:51:59,710 --> 00:52:03,450 So, if I... if I... 677 00:52:04,880 --> 00:52:06,690 if I had gotten up when I should have, 678 00:52:07,860 --> 00:52:11,060 when my alarm went off, if I’d gone into his room 679 00:52:11,360 --> 00:52:14,000 and woke him up like I always do... 680 00:52:15,740 --> 00:52:17,170 "Up and at ‘em, buddy." 681 00:52:24,820 --> 00:52:29,030 You wouldn’t be broken. And, you'd still sing in the shower. 682 00:52:29,300 --> 00:52:33,070 You’d be celebrating your... your 21st birthday with your brother. 683 00:52:40,920 --> 00:52:41,990 I killed that goat. 684 00:52:42,490 --> 00:52:46,100 If... I went to save him, I grabbed him away from Tony, 685 00:52:47,070 --> 00:52:49,340 and then, Leviticus. 686 00:52:51,740 --> 00:52:55,790 "He shall lay his hand on the head of a male goat... 687 00:53:00,190 --> 00:53:04,840 and slay it, and offer it before the Lord." 688 00:53:05,100 --> 00:53:10,010 It's unintentional... an unintentional sin. 689 00:53:12,020 --> 00:53:15,860 If I had just gotten up. If I had just gotten up. 690 00:53:22,310 --> 00:53:23,310 God. 691 00:53:39,000 --> 00:53:40,510 Have you been medicating us?