1 00:00:08,452 --> 00:00:09,693 So, what is it you want? 2 00:00:09,733 --> 00:00:10,773 It has to be tonight. 3 00:00:14,373 --> 00:00:15,853 I just left him there to die! 4 00:00:15,892 --> 00:00:18,252 Can you let me in, please? 5 00:00:18,293 --> 00:00:20,453 I could have sworn I heard you talking last night. 6 00:00:20,492 --> 00:00:22,732 Vivid dreams after all the excitement. 7 00:00:22,773 --> 00:00:24,452 If I know everything about you, 8 00:00:24,493 --> 00:00:26,653 then the police know everything about you. 9 00:00:26,693 --> 00:00:28,252 Even Edgewater. Ed? 10 00:00:28,292 --> 00:00:30,772 'He knows what we did. He's coming for you.' 11 00:00:30,813 --> 00:00:33,533 Get away from the house! Mum, you're scaring me! 12 00:00:33,572 --> 00:00:36,132 Ed told me he was going to kill me. 13 00:00:36,173 --> 00:00:38,333 If you just find the phone! 14 00:00:38,373 --> 00:00:41,973 WOMAN: There was no phone. There is no Ed, Angela. 15 00:00:42,013 --> 00:00:44,333 We are going to recommend you be admitted to hospital, 16 00:00:44,373 --> 00:00:47,092 under section two of the Mental Health Act. 17 00:00:52,333 --> 00:00:54,772 I'd really like to call my children. 18 00:00:54,812 --> 00:00:56,613 It's not up to me. 19 00:00:57,973 --> 00:00:59,092 I'm sorry. 20 00:01:02,013 --> 00:01:04,412 You could speak to the doctors, when you're all checked in. 21 00:01:04,452 --> 00:01:06,893 What must they be thinking? 22 00:01:09,212 --> 00:01:11,492 Just five minutes. Please! If I could... 23 00:01:11,533 --> 00:01:14,412 If I could just have five minutes to call them... 24 00:01:14,453 --> 00:01:16,212 I'm sorry. 25 00:01:37,212 --> 00:01:38,333 Come on. 26 00:02:04,372 --> 00:02:09,733 I'm Dr Priya Gurinda, I'm the consultant psychiatrist here. 27 00:02:09,772 --> 00:02:12,453 I'll be your responsible clinician. 28 00:02:12,492 --> 00:02:17,413 That means, any problems or questions or issues, 29 00:02:17,453 --> 00:02:19,893 you come straight to me. 30 00:02:19,932 --> 00:02:22,453 I can also find you an independent mental health... 31 00:02:22,492 --> 00:02:24,372 I'd just like to sleep. 32 00:02:26,092 --> 00:02:27,252 Of course. 33 00:02:28,532 --> 00:02:30,733 Would you like Trisha to show you around first, 34 00:02:30,772 --> 00:02:32,972 let you get acquainted with the facility? 35 00:02:38,893 --> 00:02:40,013 Come on. 36 00:02:52,893 --> 00:02:54,252 I'm going to ask you again, 37 00:02:54,293 --> 00:02:57,972 have you got anything on you that could harm you or anyone else? 38 00:02:58,013 --> 00:02:59,173 No. 39 00:02:59,212 --> 00:03:00,532 OK. 40 00:03:00,573 --> 00:03:02,212 I'll take you to your room. 41 00:03:02,252 --> 00:03:03,692 BEEP 42 00:03:08,372 --> 00:03:10,013 CHATTER 43 00:03:11,413 --> 00:03:13,053 It does get a bit noisy in here. 44 00:03:13,092 --> 00:03:14,772 You'll get used to it. 45 00:03:36,932 --> 00:03:40,173 Your husband packed this suitcase with your belongings for you. 46 00:03:41,372 --> 00:03:43,333 Bathroom's through there. 47 00:03:43,372 --> 00:03:46,932 I'm gonna leave this form on the side here, 48 00:03:46,972 --> 00:03:48,573 for when you're ready, 49 00:03:48,613 --> 00:03:52,053 and there will be a doctor coming by to give you a check over, 50 00:03:52,092 --> 00:03:53,932 about 8:00, 8:30. 51 00:03:53,972 --> 00:03:57,453 In the meantime, you're free to walk about the ward, all right? 52 00:03:59,212 --> 00:04:00,812 I know it doesn't seem like it right now, 53 00:04:00,853 --> 00:04:03,812 but we are here to help you, Angela. 54 00:04:49,252 --> 00:04:51,252 ED: 'My name's Ed Harrison. 55 00:04:51,293 --> 00:04:53,692 'I help people with things.' 56 00:05:16,452 --> 00:05:19,093 CHATTER 57 00:05:24,012 --> 00:05:26,132 CHATTER AND LAUGHTER 58 00:05:44,012 --> 00:05:46,932 BEEPING 59 00:05:48,012 --> 00:05:50,132 BEEPING CONTINUES 60 00:05:50,173 --> 00:05:52,613 You have to push the filter button first. 61 00:05:52,653 --> 00:05:53,773 Give it a second to warm up. 62 00:05:56,812 --> 00:05:59,812 Thank you. It's my first day. 63 00:05:59,853 --> 00:06:01,692 I could tell. 64 00:06:08,973 --> 00:06:11,132 BEEP, MACHINE WHIRS 65 00:06:11,173 --> 00:06:13,173 ED: 'Everything's gonna be OK. 66 00:06:13,213 --> 00:06:15,892 'Angela... Angela.' 67 00:06:15,932 --> 00:06:18,293 WOMAN: 'There is no Ed. How do you explain the book?' 68 00:06:18,332 --> 00:06:20,492 ANGELA: I don't know, it's a book! 69 00:06:51,533 --> 00:06:53,332 WOMAN: 'Did you manage to get some rest?' 70 00:06:54,973 --> 00:06:56,093 Some. 71 00:06:56,132 --> 00:06:58,812 And have you had a chance to look around now? 72 00:06:58,853 --> 00:07:00,613 Get used to the place? 73 00:07:00,653 --> 00:07:03,213 Bit like being in a crap hotel. 74 00:07:03,252 --> 00:07:04,973 Guess that's the idea, isn't it? 75 00:07:06,093 --> 00:07:08,733 Try and make you forget you've just been committed to 28 days 76 00:07:08,773 --> 00:07:10,252 on a psychiatric ward. 77 00:07:10,293 --> 00:07:13,812 You're only gonna be here as long as you have to be. 78 00:07:13,853 --> 00:07:16,613 So, who decides when I can leave? Is it you? 79 00:07:18,372 --> 00:07:19,492 Just... 80 00:07:21,812 --> 00:07:23,572 Just tell me what I need to do. 81 00:07:25,053 --> 00:07:26,613 It's not a test. 82 00:07:26,653 --> 00:07:28,492 We just wanna help you. 83 00:07:28,533 --> 00:07:31,733 You can help by letting me speak to my children. 84 00:07:33,173 --> 00:07:36,572 We've talked with your husband, and... 85 00:07:36,613 --> 00:07:38,892 when he feels they're ready... 86 00:07:40,572 --> 00:07:42,372 So it's up to him? 87 00:07:46,932 --> 00:07:50,252 The support of your family's gonna be crucial for your recovery. 88 00:07:50,293 --> 00:07:52,413 Support. Right. Yeah. 89 00:07:53,653 --> 00:07:56,132 Like handing over that book. 90 00:07:56,173 --> 00:07:58,492 I started reading it. 91 00:07:58,533 --> 00:08:00,213 And? 92 00:08:00,252 --> 00:08:02,973 And it's what it looks like. A badly written thriller. 93 00:08:03,012 --> 00:08:04,932 If I was gonna steal a story from anywhere, 94 00:08:04,973 --> 00:08:07,213 I would've chosen better source material. 95 00:08:07,252 --> 00:08:08,853 It unsettled you. 96 00:08:10,372 --> 00:08:11,973 It didn't unsettle me... 97 00:08:13,213 --> 00:08:15,372 ..it made me angry. 98 00:08:19,773 --> 00:08:21,252 OK, fine... 99 00:08:25,773 --> 00:08:27,892 When I read, when I mark my place, 100 00:08:27,932 --> 00:08:29,533 I don't fold over the top corner, 101 00:08:29,572 --> 00:08:30,973 I fold over the bottom. 102 00:08:31,012 --> 00:08:33,932 This book, even though I've never read it, 103 00:08:33,973 --> 00:08:36,492 there were marks on the bottom corners. 104 00:08:43,773 --> 00:08:45,413 My husband did it. 105 00:08:47,452 --> 00:08:49,612 That's why he gave the police the book, 106 00:08:49,653 --> 00:08:51,653 because he wants to mess with me. 107 00:08:53,732 --> 00:08:55,852 And why would he do that? 108 00:08:57,173 --> 00:08:58,972 Because he wants the children! 109 00:09:00,173 --> 00:09:03,133 He wants them, and he wants me gone... 110 00:09:03,173 --> 00:09:06,212 But if that's what he wants... 111 00:09:06,253 --> 00:09:08,452 doesn't he already have it? 112 00:09:08,493 --> 00:09:12,053 Why go to the bother of turning pages in a book? 113 00:09:21,293 --> 00:09:23,493 I want to help you, Angela, 114 00:09:23,533 --> 00:09:27,773 and there are things we can do, medication you can take... 115 00:09:27,812 --> 00:09:29,612 It's called quetiapine. 116 00:09:29,653 --> 00:09:31,972 It's very well tolerated... I don't need it. 117 00:09:34,493 --> 00:09:38,533 Angela, what you're going through is very serious. 118 00:09:38,572 --> 00:09:43,373 We believe you're experiencing a breakdown, an agitated psychosis. 119 00:09:43,413 --> 00:09:48,212 And given your history and the struggles with your mental health, 120 00:09:48,253 --> 00:09:50,493 I think it could really help you. 121 00:09:50,533 --> 00:09:52,332 ECHOES OF BABY CRYING 122 00:09:53,852 --> 00:09:55,013 CRYING CONTINUES 123 00:10:04,572 --> 00:10:06,812 OLIVIER: What are you doing? 124 00:10:08,212 --> 00:10:10,092 We're all downstairs. 125 00:10:10,133 --> 00:10:11,893 We're waiting. 126 00:10:11,932 --> 00:10:14,133 We're waiting for you. 127 00:10:16,212 --> 00:10:17,572 Answer me. 128 00:10:17,612 --> 00:10:18,932 CRYING CONTINUES 129 00:10:21,013 --> 00:10:23,452 Angela? I can't. 130 00:10:25,493 --> 00:10:26,812 You mean you don't want to. 131 00:10:26,852 --> 00:10:29,293 I'll get him. Get dressed now! 132 00:10:36,409 --> 00:10:38,129 You're wasting everyone's time. 133 00:10:38,169 --> 00:10:40,490 This doesn't fit properly, it's too tight... 134 00:10:40,529 --> 00:10:41,730 That's what I chose. 135 00:10:41,769 --> 00:10:44,690 Well, I'd just feel more comfortable wearing something else... 136 00:10:44,730 --> 00:10:46,730 Keep it on. Uh... 137 00:10:46,769 --> 00:10:47,930 Let's go. 138 00:10:50,730 --> 00:10:53,210 Shh! Come here. 139 00:10:53,241 --> 00:10:54,761 Come on. 140 00:10:57,810 --> 00:10:59,930 That's beautiful. 141 00:11:01,490 --> 00:11:02,730 Can we see little Max? 142 00:11:02,769 --> 00:11:04,769 No. No. Just... 143 00:11:04,810 --> 00:11:06,490 I thought the whole point was 144 00:11:06,529 --> 00:11:08,690 that you wanted a picture of the three of us together. 145 00:11:08,730 --> 00:11:10,210 When I look at this picture on our wall, 146 00:11:10,249 --> 00:11:13,129 I want to remember a happy family moment. 147 00:11:13,169 --> 00:11:14,889 Then face him the other way, 148 00:11:14,930 --> 00:11:17,289 cos if we can't see it, then he's not crying all the time? 149 00:11:18,570 --> 00:11:19,610 Smile. 150 00:11:21,009 --> 00:11:23,249 CRYING 151 00:11:28,129 --> 00:11:30,610 MORE CHILDREN CRY 152 00:11:34,169 --> 00:11:35,769 Is this Max? Yeah. 153 00:11:35,810 --> 00:11:38,810 That's it. Good boy! 154 00:11:38,850 --> 00:11:40,090 Thanks. 155 00:11:46,970 --> 00:11:48,730 CRYING ECHOES 156 00:11:54,299 --> 00:11:56,059 'Let's talk about Edgewater.' 157 00:12:02,459 --> 00:12:03,898 Why? 158 00:12:05,179 --> 00:12:08,059 You must see the similarities? 159 00:12:08,098 --> 00:12:09,618 I don't talk about that. 160 00:12:11,138 --> 00:12:13,939 Well, perhaps it's time you did. 161 00:12:29,138 --> 00:12:30,898 Angela... 162 00:12:32,579 --> 00:12:34,339 ..it's happened before. 163 00:12:45,339 --> 00:12:48,299 PIANO PLAYS 164 00:13:51,018 --> 00:13:52,459 Hey! 165 00:13:52,498 --> 00:13:54,618 That was lovely. 166 00:13:54,659 --> 00:13:57,356 I hope they're paying you well for that. 167 00:13:57,381 --> 00:13:59,220 What do you want, Mum? 168 00:14:00,189 --> 00:14:03,548 I shouldn't have to find you online like some stalker. 169 00:14:03,589 --> 00:14:06,949 I shouldn't have to come down here to your work... 170 00:14:06,989 --> 00:14:10,148 but I've called and called, and you just ignore me. 171 00:14:10,189 --> 00:14:12,508 I haven't even met the baby yet. 172 00:14:12,548 --> 00:14:14,829 I'd like to have him christened in my church. 173 00:14:14,869 --> 00:14:17,308 When did you call? Look... 174 00:14:17,349 --> 00:14:20,949 I know I made a lot of mistakes. I do know that. 175 00:14:22,508 --> 00:14:25,308 And I know you're angry with me, and I don't blame you. 176 00:14:26,589 --> 00:14:29,788 And at the end of the day, you know, there's just you and me, 177 00:14:29,829 --> 00:14:31,388 isn't there? 178 00:14:31,428 --> 00:14:33,628 I mean, we're the only family we've got... 179 00:14:33,668 --> 00:14:37,069 I've got my own family. I know, but... 180 00:14:37,109 --> 00:14:39,949 it wasn't all bad, was it? 181 00:14:39,989 --> 00:14:41,989 I have an appointment in 15 minutes, Mum. 182 00:14:42,028 --> 00:14:44,908 I'm gonna have to go, so... Look... 183 00:14:47,308 --> 00:14:49,428 I've not been well. 184 00:14:49,469 --> 00:14:50,989 And, erm... 185 00:14:53,028 --> 00:14:55,548 And there's nothing more they can do for me now, 186 00:14:55,589 --> 00:14:57,469 so I just wanted you to know... 187 00:15:00,628 --> 00:15:01,908 ..is all. 188 00:15:04,136 --> 00:15:05,495 And I thought maybe we could... 189 00:15:05,529 --> 00:15:07,688 I have to go. Oh, love, don't. 190 00:15:07,728 --> 00:15:09,409 Please don't... 191 00:15:17,889 --> 00:15:19,649 DOOR OPENS 192 00:15:22,728 --> 00:15:23,728 DOOR CLOSES 193 00:15:35,510 --> 00:15:37,189 It's early, no? 194 00:15:40,289 --> 00:15:42,769 My mum came to the hotel today. 195 00:15:45,249 --> 00:15:46,328 I see. 196 00:15:49,608 --> 00:15:52,049 How many times has she called for me? 197 00:15:55,049 --> 00:15:56,169 A few. 198 00:15:57,608 --> 00:15:59,169 Did she say why? 199 00:16:01,665 --> 00:16:02,968 She did. 200 00:16:03,009 --> 00:16:05,808 And you didn't think to pass on the message that my mother's dying? 201 00:16:08,529 --> 00:16:10,129 Of course I did. 202 00:16:11,129 --> 00:16:12,448 How could you think that? 203 00:16:14,289 --> 00:16:16,568 I-I-I thought about it a lot. 204 00:16:17,848 --> 00:16:19,488 About you. 205 00:16:19,529 --> 00:16:21,049 About your mother. 206 00:16:22,289 --> 00:16:24,448 About everything that happened between you... 207 00:16:25,688 --> 00:16:27,969 But we agreed... 208 00:16:28,169 --> 00:16:30,289 did we not? 209 00:16:30,328 --> 00:16:32,289 All those years ago. 210 00:16:34,224 --> 00:16:36,025 That you were better off. 211 00:16:36,632 --> 00:16:39,632 And every time she came back to you... 212 00:16:39,671 --> 00:16:43,542 demanding - not asking - but demanding your forgiveness. 213 00:16:43,567 --> 00:16:46,288 I know, but... You sound just like her now. 214 00:16:47,080 --> 00:16:48,382 Coming up with excuses. 215 00:16:48,407 --> 00:16:49,687 She's got no-one. 216 00:16:49,712 --> 00:16:51,472 And whose fault is that? 217 00:16:52,151 --> 00:16:55,068 She forfeited her right to call herself your mother. 218 00:16:55,093 --> 00:16:57,293 She left you when you were a child, Angela. 219 00:16:58,446 --> 00:17:00,926 Then when she finds herself at rock bottom 220 00:17:00,966 --> 00:17:04,064 time and time again, she comes to you, 221 00:17:04,089 --> 00:17:06,048 seeking absolution. 222 00:17:06,073 --> 00:17:07,632 This is different. 223 00:17:08,819 --> 00:17:10,059 No, my love... 224 00:17:12,834 --> 00:17:14,035 ..it's not. 225 00:17:18,296 --> 00:17:20,415 It is not at all. 226 00:17:23,721 --> 00:17:25,561 She's still my mother. 227 00:17:25,601 --> 00:17:27,000 You owe her nothing. 228 00:17:28,085 --> 00:17:29,366 You're tired. 229 00:17:29,406 --> 00:17:33,005 Stressed. It's time to leave that job at the hotel. 230 00:17:35,166 --> 00:17:37,287 You have new responsibilities now. 231 00:17:37,312 --> 00:17:38,713 CHILD CRYING 232 00:18:00,046 --> 00:18:02,007 ED: 'Sorry, you don't have a lighter, do you? 233 00:18:03,486 --> 00:18:06,805 'I made a life you could never have imagined living normal. 234 00:18:11,806 --> 00:18:14,243 'Do you ever just look across at him in the night and wonder, 235 00:18:14,268 --> 00:18:16,544 ' "Who are you, really, when I'm not there?" ' 236 00:18:16,569 --> 00:18:17,569 Urgh! 237 00:18:26,653 --> 00:18:28,133 'I finished the book.' 238 00:18:29,973 --> 00:18:31,094 And? 239 00:18:34,653 --> 00:18:36,413 And it's a story. It's not real, 240 00:18:36,453 --> 00:18:37,574 and... 241 00:18:38,774 --> 00:18:41,453 ..I know that because I'm reading it in a book. 242 00:18:43,213 --> 00:18:44,453 That's obvious. 243 00:18:45,734 --> 00:18:47,094 The difference... 244 00:18:50,413 --> 00:18:52,373 In my life, I know. I know. Right? 245 00:18:52,413 --> 00:18:54,534 I know... 246 00:18:54,574 --> 00:18:58,094 what I'm seeing is real, 247 00:18:58,133 --> 00:18:59,693 except... 248 00:18:59,734 --> 00:19:01,933 you're saying that I don't. 249 00:19:01,973 --> 00:19:04,254 Well, when we're under a lot of stress, 250 00:19:04,294 --> 00:19:07,973 when we're pushed in ways we aren't used to... 251 00:19:08,014 --> 00:19:09,973 sometimes it's too much. 252 00:19:10,014 --> 00:19:12,854 So I just woke up... 253 00:19:12,893 --> 00:19:15,613 and imagined I was talking to some guy called Ed 254 00:19:15,653 --> 00:19:18,054 because I read a book. That's what you're saying? 255 00:19:19,854 --> 00:19:22,933 Look, psychosis is just an umbrella term, 256 00:19:22,973 --> 00:19:25,893 it describes all kinds of conditions, but... 257 00:19:25,933 --> 00:19:28,973 essentially, during a breakdown like this, 258 00:19:29,014 --> 00:19:32,213 it's like your brain is experiencing stress overload. 259 00:19:32,254 --> 00:19:34,534 And while it seems to come out of the blue, 260 00:19:34,574 --> 00:19:36,373 there are early warning signs. 261 00:19:36,413 --> 00:19:39,294 Loss of appetite. Inability to sleep... 262 00:19:39,334 --> 00:19:42,453 If what you are saying is right, then... 263 00:19:42,494 --> 00:19:44,254 I just don't know, erm... 264 00:19:47,213 --> 00:19:49,373 Then how am I supposed to trust what I see? 265 00:19:49,413 --> 00:19:50,613 I mean... 266 00:19:50,653 --> 00:19:52,334 Like you? Are you here? 267 00:19:52,373 --> 00:19:53,653 Or is it just... 268 00:19:53,693 --> 00:19:54,973 just nothing, erm...? 269 00:19:56,254 --> 00:19:59,734 It seems the focus of your issues is your husband. 270 00:20:01,693 --> 00:20:04,413 You've said before he's controlling. 271 00:20:04,453 --> 00:20:06,173 We can talk about that. 272 00:20:07,693 --> 00:20:09,933 So we talk and talk, 273 00:20:09,973 --> 00:20:13,014 but I'm still not allowed to see my own children 274 00:20:13,054 --> 00:20:15,373 until a judge says I can. 275 00:20:16,413 --> 00:20:17,453 Angela... 276 00:20:18,814 --> 00:20:20,413 ..you will get better. 277 00:20:21,693 --> 00:20:25,893 But even when you leave here, we're looking to find a... 278 00:20:25,933 --> 00:20:27,453 a new normal for you. 279 00:20:27,494 --> 00:20:29,774 With Edgewater and this... 280 00:20:29,814 --> 00:20:31,534 You said there was medication. 281 00:20:34,814 --> 00:20:36,413 You're ready? 282 00:20:37,933 --> 00:20:39,734 Whatever you think I need, I'll take it. 283 00:20:42,916 --> 00:20:44,516 I need to be better. 284 00:20:45,646 --> 00:20:47,285 OK. 285 00:20:47,494 --> 00:20:49,613 But this isn't a quick fix. 286 00:20:49,653 --> 00:20:52,653 We still need to talk about Edgewater. 287 00:20:52,693 --> 00:20:54,334 CHILD CRYING 288 00:20:54,373 --> 00:20:57,946 Shh, shh, shh, shh... 289 00:20:57,971 --> 00:21:00,290 CRYING INTENSIFIES 290 00:21:04,585 --> 00:21:06,545 PHONE VIBRATES 291 00:21:08,734 --> 00:21:11,774 Shh, shh, shh, shh. 292 00:21:13,173 --> 00:21:15,413 Hello? WOMAN: 'Love, it's me. 293 00:21:15,453 --> 00:21:19,653 'I got your number from the bar at the hotel, I hope that's OK. 294 00:21:19,693 --> 00:21:22,094 'I just wondered, you know, if you had time...' 295 00:21:22,133 --> 00:21:23,734 No, Mum, now's not a good time. 296 00:21:23,774 --> 00:21:26,014 'Well, when is? Please!' 297 00:21:26,054 --> 00:21:28,413 I-I don't know. Not now. 298 00:21:28,453 --> 00:21:29,854 OK? I'm sorry. 'Angela!' 299 00:21:29,893 --> 00:21:31,653 CRYING 300 00:21:31,693 --> 00:21:33,814 Shush. It's OK. It's OK. 301 00:21:40,054 --> 00:21:42,173 RINGING 302 00:21:42,213 --> 00:21:43,574 CRYING 303 00:21:49,854 --> 00:21:51,693 RINGING STOPS 304 00:21:51,734 --> 00:21:53,014 CRYING CONTINUES 305 00:21:56,334 --> 00:21:58,574 RINGING 306 00:22:02,133 --> 00:22:04,413 CRYING OVER MONITOR 307 00:22:15,854 --> 00:22:20,373 CRYING CONTINUES 308 00:22:31,933 --> 00:22:35,213 Please stop, just fucking stop. 309 00:22:35,254 --> 00:22:37,254 Please! Please! 310 00:22:37,294 --> 00:22:40,688 Please, God, just make him stop! 311 00:22:40,762 --> 00:22:44,482 I just want some peace, please. 312 00:22:45,933 --> 00:22:48,494 Please, just fucking stop! 313 00:22:48,534 --> 00:22:49,653 CRYING STOPS 314 00:22:56,574 --> 00:22:59,854 BABBLES SOFTLY 315 00:23:10,973 --> 00:23:13,133 BIRDSONG 316 00:23:14,823 --> 00:23:16,574 Ah! 317 00:23:17,143 --> 00:23:19,264 RINGING 318 00:23:23,574 --> 00:23:25,173 Hello? 319 00:23:25,213 --> 00:23:27,693 WOMAN: 'Hello, is that Angela Black?' 320 00:23:27,734 --> 00:23:29,893 Angela Meyer. Black's my maiden name. 321 00:23:29,933 --> 00:23:32,854 'I'm a registrar at St Mary's. 322 00:23:32,893 --> 00:23:34,613 'Your mother is Sally Black?' 323 00:23:34,653 --> 00:23:35,973 Yeah. 324 00:23:36,338 --> 00:23:38,297 'I'm sorry to... 325 00:23:38,767 --> 00:23:42,366 'Your mother was admitted to hospital last night. 326 00:23:42,653 --> 00:23:45,814 'We did all we could, but at two o'clock this morning, 327 00:23:45,854 --> 00:23:48,054 'her heart stopped and we couldn't revive her. 328 00:23:48,094 --> 00:23:49,933 'I'm sorry. 329 00:23:52,734 --> 00:23:54,494 'Angela?' 330 00:24:10,854 --> 00:24:12,294 ED: 'Angela? 331 00:24:14,734 --> 00:24:17,133 'Angela?' 332 00:24:17,173 --> 00:24:19,294 'Let's talk about Edgewater.' 333 00:24:23,173 --> 00:24:24,734 ED: 'It's him or you, Angela. 334 00:24:25,814 --> 00:24:28,094 'It has to be tonight. 335 00:24:28,133 --> 00:24:31,693 'This is about doing what you have to to survive.' 336 00:24:33,254 --> 00:24:36,693 'Angela, it's happened before.' 337 00:24:44,543 --> 00:24:46,503 MACHINE BEEPS 338 00:24:52,854 --> 00:24:56,094 You have to push the filter button first. 339 00:24:56,133 --> 00:24:58,054 Then give it a second to wake up. 340 00:25:02,973 --> 00:25:04,373 First day? 341 00:25:04,896 --> 00:25:06,656 Yeah. 342 00:25:07,254 --> 00:25:09,774 You'll get used to it. 343 00:25:09,814 --> 00:25:11,334 Thank you. 344 00:25:13,444 --> 00:25:16,403 'And are you experiencing any other side-effects?' 345 00:25:16,444 --> 00:25:18,083 No. 346 00:25:18,123 --> 00:25:20,524 Just the dry mouth and the headache. 347 00:25:20,563 --> 00:25:23,323 Any dizziness? Drowsiness? No. 348 00:25:23,363 --> 00:25:25,563 Excellent. 349 00:25:25,603 --> 00:25:28,883 And do you feel the medication's making a difference? 350 00:25:28,923 --> 00:25:30,524 I do. 351 00:25:30,563 --> 00:25:33,004 I really do. I feel, erm... 352 00:25:34,524 --> 00:25:36,524 ..clearer, I suppose. 353 00:25:36,911 --> 00:25:38,671 I'm pleased to hear that. 354 00:25:40,603 --> 00:25:43,444 I've been thinking a lot about Edgewater. 355 00:25:46,204 --> 00:25:47,643 That's good. 356 00:25:47,684 --> 00:25:49,204 It's not... It's hard. 357 00:25:50,724 --> 00:25:52,444 When I think about it... 358 00:25:54,524 --> 00:25:56,323 ..about me... 359 00:25:58,284 --> 00:26:00,524 ..it's like I'm watching someone else. 360 00:26:00,563 --> 00:26:04,004 And I watch her, 361 00:26:04,044 --> 00:26:06,163 and I want to stop her - 362 00:26:06,204 --> 00:26:07,843 stop me... 363 00:26:07,883 --> 00:26:12,284 The woman in Edgewater - the woman holding the rifle 364 00:26:12,323 --> 00:26:16,004 when the police found her - that wasn't you. 365 00:26:16,044 --> 00:26:18,764 Not who you are right now. 366 00:26:18,804 --> 00:26:21,163 I told myself it was because of the baby. 367 00:26:22,563 --> 00:26:24,083 I could've lost him. 368 00:26:27,964 --> 00:26:29,403 But you didn't. 369 00:26:31,883 --> 00:26:34,044 And now I've done it again. 370 00:26:34,083 --> 00:26:37,524 MAN: 'She threw herself into the life of the church... 371 00:26:37,563 --> 00:26:41,563 'even towards the end of her journey here on Earth.' 372 00:26:41,603 --> 00:26:46,923 She taught us to remain strong in the face of death, 373 00:26:46,964 --> 00:26:51,244 which, of course, is part of every human being's journey, 374 00:26:51,284 --> 00:26:54,764 in order that we may be 375 00:26:54,804 --> 00:26:58,684 reunited with Christ in heaven. 376 00:26:58,724 --> 00:27:02,563 And I know it would bring her great comfort 377 00:27:02,603 --> 00:27:05,524 knowing her daughter and grandson 378 00:27:05,563 --> 00:27:08,284 were here with us today. 379 00:27:11,083 --> 00:27:14,044 Hi. So, this is her grandson? 380 00:27:14,083 --> 00:27:16,804 Mm-hm. Beautiful. 381 00:27:16,843 --> 00:27:18,843 He has your eyes. 382 00:27:18,883 --> 00:27:20,563 You should ask for them back. HE CHUCKLES 383 00:27:22,524 --> 00:27:24,684 How are you coping? 384 00:27:24,724 --> 00:27:26,563 Are you OK? 385 00:27:27,843 --> 00:27:29,484 I am. 386 00:27:29,524 --> 00:27:31,083 It's just... 387 00:27:33,323 --> 00:27:35,044 It's just this baby, you see... 388 00:27:37,563 --> 00:27:38,923 Something happened. 389 00:27:40,163 --> 00:27:42,083 What happened? 390 00:27:42,123 --> 00:27:45,363 He hasn't stopped crying since the day he was born. 391 00:27:45,403 --> 00:27:50,163 It hasn't been easy. But the thing is, Father... 392 00:27:50,204 --> 00:27:54,204 When mum died, and I mean the exact time she went... 393 00:27:55,684 --> 00:27:58,643 ..this silence just washed over him. 394 00:27:58,684 --> 00:28:01,323 Even his face changed. 395 00:28:01,363 --> 00:28:02,563 His expression, 396 00:28:02,603 --> 00:28:06,403 it was like someone else's breath was filling up his lungs... 397 00:28:08,284 --> 00:28:12,524 All the tension went out of his hands and his feet, 398 00:28:12,563 --> 00:28:13,804 and it was like... 399 00:28:16,724 --> 00:28:21,764 It was like this light went on inside his bones and I... 400 00:28:21,804 --> 00:28:23,643 I could see it in his skin... 401 00:28:29,284 --> 00:28:30,764 It was a miracle. 402 00:28:32,603 --> 00:28:33,724 Really. 403 00:28:35,323 --> 00:28:37,883 In that moment, it was like... 404 00:28:39,323 --> 00:28:41,603 ..God was speaking through Max. 405 00:28:43,603 --> 00:28:45,444 Does that make sense, Father? 406 00:28:48,363 --> 00:28:49,563 Well... 407 00:28:50,684 --> 00:28:54,484 He shows himself in the most extraordinary ways. 408 00:28:55,603 --> 00:28:56,643 Yeah. 409 00:28:58,643 --> 00:29:00,204 Yes, he does, doesn't he? 410 00:29:03,004 --> 00:29:04,563 Thank you. 411 00:29:23,123 --> 00:29:26,764 PRIEST: 'He shows himself in the most extraordinary ways.' 412 00:29:33,444 --> 00:29:36,123 ANGELA'S MUM: 'And there's nothing more they can do for me now.' 413 00:29:42,684 --> 00:29:47,563 ANGELA: 'When Mum died, it was like this light went over him.' 414 00:29:51,643 --> 00:29:54,244 PRIEST: '..reunited with Christ.' 415 00:30:00,204 --> 00:30:02,323 ANGELA: 'It was a miracle.' 416 00:30:12,923 --> 00:30:14,804 When you look back at that time... 417 00:30:16,444 --> 00:30:18,363 ..what does it look like? 418 00:30:18,489 --> 00:30:20,370 It looks like what it is. 419 00:30:23,323 --> 00:30:25,563 Pretty bloody obvious to everyone but me. 420 00:30:27,883 --> 00:30:30,004 Just around the corner, perfect. 421 00:30:34,140 --> 00:30:36,301 Sorry, I didn't know you were gonna be home. 422 00:30:36,524 --> 00:30:38,684 I came back early. 423 00:30:38,724 --> 00:30:40,643 I missed you. 424 00:30:43,804 --> 00:30:45,323 Where have you been? 425 00:30:45,363 --> 00:30:48,123 Just for a walk. A walk? 426 00:30:48,163 --> 00:30:49,403 Yeah. 427 00:30:49,444 --> 00:30:51,804 I called you. You didn't pick up. 428 00:30:51,843 --> 00:30:53,964 Oh, my phone must be on silent. 429 00:30:56,444 --> 00:30:57,883 Why is it on silent? 430 00:31:00,804 --> 00:31:02,684 He's asleep. 431 00:31:02,724 --> 00:31:05,524 I didn't want to disturb him. 432 00:31:32,484 --> 00:31:34,163 Just a walk? 433 00:31:35,403 --> 00:31:36,603 Just a walk. 434 00:31:46,843 --> 00:31:48,764 It rained, didn't it? 435 00:31:50,725 --> 00:31:54,168 A bit. Around three. But not for long. 436 00:31:56,923 --> 00:31:58,724 We stopped under a bus shelter. 437 00:32:02,403 --> 00:32:04,163 Are you OK? 438 00:32:05,643 --> 00:32:06,843 I'm OK. 439 00:32:49,150 --> 00:32:50,350 Can you believe it? 440 00:32:50,383 --> 00:32:51,982 Believe what? 441 00:32:52,722 --> 00:32:55,040 He's been like this all night. 442 00:32:55,080 --> 00:32:57,282 Then you should have come to bed. 443 00:32:57,322 --> 00:32:59,601 You haven't slept for days. 444 00:33:01,681 --> 00:33:04,242 Does he seem different to you? 445 00:33:04,572 --> 00:33:07,782 Well, sure. 446 00:33:07,807 --> 00:33:11,246 Are you listening? Hmm. 447 00:33:12,281 --> 00:33:14,441 He's changed, Olivier. 448 00:33:14,641 --> 00:33:17,722 Well, they go through phases. 449 00:33:17,762 --> 00:33:19,441 I'm late. 450 00:33:25,089 --> 00:33:26,769 He can't see it, can he? 451 00:33:28,681 --> 00:33:30,961 He can't see it at all. 452 00:33:37,522 --> 00:33:39,441 'But it felt real, to you... 453 00:33:39,577 --> 00:33:41,137 'at the time?' 454 00:33:43,401 --> 00:33:44,562 It did. 455 00:33:46,522 --> 00:33:48,441 It felt like... 456 00:33:50,282 --> 00:33:51,641 ..this chair, 457 00:33:51,681 --> 00:33:52,681 like... 458 00:33:54,762 --> 00:33:57,921 ..you and me sitting here talking right now. 459 00:33:57,961 --> 00:33:59,201 It felt... 460 00:34:01,401 --> 00:34:03,802 ..felt like the most real thing in the world. 461 00:34:14,161 --> 00:34:16,162 ANGELA: 'This is your moment. 462 00:34:16,202 --> 00:34:18,202 'This is your big day. 463 00:34:23,546 --> 00:34:26,586 'I am the luckiest mummy alive, aren't I? 464 00:34:34,009 --> 00:34:38,210 'Do you want to show them... so that everyone can see? 465 00:34:39,522 --> 00:34:41,043 'Are you ready? 466 00:34:41,068 --> 00:34:42,668 'Come on, then. 467 00:34:43,863 --> 00:34:46,343 'Let's show them what you can do. 468 00:34:47,137 --> 00:34:48,659 'Walk on water, Max.' 469 00:34:48,684 --> 00:34:49,682 HE CRIES 470 00:34:49,717 --> 00:34:51,356 'Show them what you can do. 471 00:34:51,381 --> 00:34:52,901 'Walk on the water, Max.' 472 00:35:10,107 --> 00:35:12,227 SHOUTING 473 00:35:14,700 --> 00:35:16,499 There's a baby! 474 00:35:20,507 --> 00:35:21,788 Oi! 475 00:35:23,016 --> 00:35:24,697 What're you doing? 476 00:35:24,737 --> 00:35:26,856 WHISTLE BLOWS 477 00:35:28,777 --> 00:35:30,976 WHISTLE BLOWING REPEATEDLY 478 00:35:45,777 --> 00:35:50,976 QUIET CHATTER 479 00:35:51,016 --> 00:35:52,816 WOMAN: Thanks. 480 00:35:57,537 --> 00:36:00,976 Oh, wow. It's really coming along. 481 00:36:01,016 --> 00:36:02,628 I dunno, I haven't quite... 482 00:36:02,644 --> 00:36:05,165 I can tell you went to art school. 483 00:36:07,116 --> 00:36:08,556 Who is it? 484 00:36:08,604 --> 00:36:10,084 I dunno. 485 00:36:12,148 --> 00:36:13,748 Someone I met once... 486 00:36:15,828 --> 00:36:16,989 ..maybe. 487 00:36:18,386 --> 00:36:20,665 How did you feel, drawing him? 488 00:36:29,656 --> 00:36:31,056 Nothing. 489 00:36:33,118 --> 00:36:35,558 She's doing really well. Good. Good. 490 00:36:35,598 --> 00:36:37,238 Oh, hi, Angela. 491 00:36:37,278 --> 00:36:38,877 How are you? Good. Hi. 492 00:36:38,917 --> 00:36:40,118 Hi. 493 00:36:40,158 --> 00:36:42,598 This is Nasrin, she's gonna be your care co-ordinator. 494 00:36:42,623 --> 00:36:43,844 Good to meet you. 495 00:36:43,896 --> 00:36:45,598 We've been so pleased 496 00:36:45,638 --> 00:36:48,317 with all the work you've been doing since you've been with us, 497 00:36:48,357 --> 00:36:52,558 and Nasrin's gonna be across how that continues going forward. 498 00:36:52,598 --> 00:36:55,437 I'd like to meet with you once a week, if that was OK, 499 00:36:55,477 --> 00:36:58,317 and we can drop that down to fortnightly in time. 500 00:36:58,357 --> 00:36:59,957 Now, do you know where you'll be staying? 501 00:36:59,997 --> 00:37:01,917 We'll need to make sure you have the details 502 00:37:01,957 --> 00:37:04,917 of your community psychiatrist. OK. 503 00:37:04,957 --> 00:37:06,517 Not that I've ever been to The Ritz. Might be shit. 510 00:37:55,477 --> 00:37:58,238 Honestly, this is... This is great. Thanks. 511 00:37:59,797 --> 00:38:01,678 I'll make you a cuppa. Oh, I'm fine. 512 00:38:04,517 --> 00:38:07,238 Milk, no sugar? Yeah. 513 00:38:14,198 --> 00:38:16,078 I'm really grateful for this. 514 00:38:18,317 --> 00:38:20,558 Everyone seems very busy all of a sudden. 515 00:38:21,718 --> 00:38:23,278 People think I'm Joan of Arc. 516 00:38:24,397 --> 00:38:26,678 Well, people talk. Whatever. 517 00:38:27,837 --> 00:38:29,078 You had a moment. 518 00:38:29,118 --> 00:38:30,638 A moment. 519 00:38:33,477 --> 00:38:36,078 You don't have to talk about it. 520 00:38:36,118 --> 00:38:38,678 I don't mind. It, erm... 521 00:38:40,038 --> 00:38:41,477 It helped a lot, being there. 522 00:38:41,517 --> 00:38:43,477 What about the charges, are they...? 523 00:38:43,517 --> 00:38:45,638 Dropped. 524 00:38:45,678 --> 00:38:47,517 They gave me a caution. 525 00:38:58,797 --> 00:39:00,598 Thanks. 526 00:39:00,638 --> 00:39:02,877 They miss you at work, you know. 527 00:39:02,917 --> 00:39:05,837 Do they? What? 528 00:39:05,877 --> 00:39:09,198 You look surprised. Well, I'm hardly the life and soul. 529 00:39:09,238 --> 00:39:12,397 I never go to the drinks after work, or parties... 530 00:39:12,437 --> 00:39:14,238 No-one judges you, love. 531 00:39:15,837 --> 00:39:17,118 Yeah, well... 532 00:39:18,758 --> 00:39:21,437 Maybe I'll come to the next one. That'd be nice. 533 00:39:23,278 --> 00:39:24,957 Honestly, I can't thank you enough 534 00:39:24,997 --> 00:39:27,837 for all of this. You needed help. 535 00:39:27,877 --> 00:39:31,198 And you deserve help. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. 536 00:39:33,877 --> 00:39:37,118 Does your sister know you've let a crazy person live in her flat? 537 00:39:37,158 --> 00:39:39,638 Don't talk about yourself like that. 538 00:39:39,678 --> 00:39:41,477 It's true. No. 539 00:39:41,517 --> 00:39:44,238 You've got your struggles just like the rest of us. 540 00:39:51,837 --> 00:39:54,877 MAN: Won't be long until we go in. Remember what I was saying earlier. 541 00:40:09,317 --> 00:40:12,198 Mr and Mrs Meyer? 542 00:40:13,638 --> 00:40:17,118 Here we go, so the judge will take into account... 543 00:40:38,317 --> 00:40:40,758 Is it a positive outcome? Yeah. 544 00:40:44,397 --> 00:40:45,598 MAN: 'It's just for now.' 545 00:40:45,638 --> 00:40:47,278 Four hours a week!? 546 00:40:47,317 --> 00:40:49,477 How can they say I'm a danger to my own children? 547 00:40:49,517 --> 00:40:50,678 They'll review it. 548 00:40:50,718 --> 00:40:54,558 This isn't permanent, it's just baby steps until we can find a... 549 00:40:54,598 --> 00:40:56,877 Hey. Wait! Angela, don't. 550 00:40:56,917 --> 00:40:58,678 Angela, this won't help! 551 00:41:08,012 --> 00:41:09,932 Give these to the boys for me. 552 00:44:50,198 --> 00:44:52,397 CHATTER 553 00:45:17,317 --> 00:45:18,317 SHOUTING 554 00:45:23,877 --> 00:45:25,278 CHEERING 555 00:46:04,997 --> 00:46:06,997 Subtitles by accessibility@itv.com