1 00:00:11,511 --> 00:00:15,242 [Meredith] There's a thing that happens when people find out you're a doctor. 2 00:00:18,251 --> 00:00:20,151 Good morning. 3 00:00:21,521 --> 00:00:25,389 Did you... [stammering] 4 00:00:26,826 --> 00:00:30,455 - ...patter? - Propose? No. Not yet. 5 00:00:30,497 --> 00:00:32,829 [whispering] You'll be the first to know. 6 00:00:32,866 --> 00:00:36,393 They stop seeing you as a person and begin to see you as something 7 00:00:36,436 --> 00:00:39,701 - bigger than you are. - How's she doing? 8 00:00:39,739 --> 00:00:42,173 She's, uh... OK. 9 00:00:43,143 --> 00:00:44,770 She's OK. 10 00:00:44,811 --> 00:00:47,371 They have to see us that way, as gods. 11 00:00:47,414 --> 00:00:50,042 Otherwise we're just like everyone else. 12 00:00:50,083 --> 00:00:53,348 Unsure, flawed, normal. 13 00:00:56,156 --> 00:00:58,954 - How's she doing? - No change. This the MCA Doppler? 14 00:00:58,992 --> 00:01:01,017 Yeah. Can I get you anything? Coffee? 15 00:01:01,061 --> 00:01:02,153 I'm fine, thanks. 16 00:01:02,195 --> 00:01:05,596 So we act strong, we remain stoic. 17 00:01:05,632 --> 00:01:10,092 We hide the fact that we're all too human. 18 00:01:10,136 --> 00:01:14,163 He still beating himself up? Addison thinks he's still beating himself up. 19 00:01:14,207 --> 00:01:16,573 - Alex... - The head of Neuro hasn't left 20 00:01:16,609 --> 00:01:19,476 - his patient's bedside for three days. - He's fine. 21 00:01:19,512 --> 00:01:22,675 - I thought Addison left. - She put her brother on a plane. 22 00:01:23,683 --> 00:01:28,120 Admit it, her hanging around your guy, it bugs. 23 00:01:28,154 --> 00:01:30,645 - It doesn't bug. You bug. - [monitors beeping] 24 00:01:30,690 --> 00:01:34,717 Karev, page Addison. Tell her I need her to stay. 25 00:01:35,628 --> 00:01:37,493 OK, it bugs a little. 26 00:01:37,530 --> 00:01:41,227 The lack of blood flow is causing the mini-strokes and aphasia. 27 00:01:41,267 --> 00:01:46,398 We can't put the surgery off any longer. I'll do a repair called an EC-IC bypass. 28 00:01:46,439 --> 00:01:50,068 And that will fix the strokes? She'll be better after this? 29 00:01:50,110 --> 00:01:53,079 - I'm hoping it will work, yes. - [Jen] But, uh... 30 00:01:55,281 --> 00:01:59,149 They wouldn't operate unless it were safe for the baby. Dr. Montgomery? 31 00:01:59,185 --> 00:02:03,246 Your blood pressure's high, but I'll be there to monitor you and the baby. 32 00:02:03,289 --> 00:02:05,189 Get some rest. We'll see you soon. 33 00:02:06,126 --> 00:02:09,562 - Thank you for staying. - Least I could do for saving Archie. 34 00:02:09,596 --> 00:02:10,995 Um... 35 00:02:12,432 --> 00:02:14,992 I know what we said before about the baby, 36 00:02:15,034 --> 00:02:20,233 but if something should happen, if it comes down to a choice, save my wife. 37 00:02:20,273 --> 00:02:23,436 We can make another baby. We can't make another her. 38 00:02:28,515 --> 00:02:30,949 Fifty-two-year-old male, fell down stairs. 39 00:02:30,984 --> 00:02:35,353 Five days post-op from a cholecystectomy which looks to have caused the fall. 40 00:02:35,388 --> 00:02:38,221 Why would having your gallbladder removed cause a fall? 41 00:02:42,762 --> 00:02:45,230 A non-laparoscopic cholie? 42 00:02:45,265 --> 00:02:48,325 Sir, what hospital did you have your operation at? 43 00:02:48,368 --> 00:02:52,600 - Here. My surgeon was Dr. Campbell. - That explains it. 44 00:02:52,639 --> 00:02:55,267 Excuse us for a moment. 45 00:02:57,210 --> 00:02:59,144 All right, what? 46 00:02:59,179 --> 00:03:03,047 [sighing] Campbell was Seattle Grace's first female surgeon. 47 00:03:03,082 --> 00:03:06,848 Mostly she just sits in her office and spreads prestige around. 48 00:03:06,886 --> 00:03:09,480 She still does the routine surgery now and then. 49 00:03:09,522 --> 00:03:12,286 Botches routine surgery. I'll page the chief. 50 00:03:12,325 --> 00:03:16,523 - No, page Campbell. It's her patient. - And let her maim the guy again? 51 00:03:16,563 --> 00:03:18,793 Page someone who knows how to operate, 52 00:03:18,831 --> 00:03:21,994 instead of some dinosaur who refuses to retire her scalpel 53 00:03:22,035 --> 00:03:24,299 and go join her friends in Boca. 54 00:03:24,337 --> 00:03:25,929 The dinosaur is here. 55 00:03:29,943 --> 00:03:31,808 No need to page me. 56 00:03:35,248 --> 00:03:37,716 - So did you scope her out yet? - Who? 57 00:03:37,750 --> 00:03:39,809 - Arizona. - Oh, right. 58 00:03:39,852 --> 00:03:43,481 I haven't had a chance to swing by Peds and ask the nurse to point out 59 00:03:43,523 --> 00:03:46,356 the attending who kissed my friend in a bar bathroom. 60 00:03:46,392 --> 00:03:49,418 - At least you're still good for coffee. - Not for you. 61 00:03:49,462 --> 00:03:54,559 - Coffee. Why, thank you, Mark. - That's not for you either. 62 00:03:54,601 --> 00:03:59,368 - Good morning, Dr. Grey. - You can keep your secret coffee. 63 00:03:59,405 --> 00:04:03,000 Until you tell Derek, our relationship continues to consist 64 00:04:03,042 --> 00:04:06,011 of hiding in the attic and me smuggling snacks past Mer. 65 00:04:06,045 --> 00:04:08,377 - Know what that makes you? - Your boyfriend? 66 00:04:08,414 --> 00:04:12,214 Anne Frank. I'm dating Anne Frank, and I'm tired of it. 67 00:04:12,252 --> 00:04:15,619 I want to go downstairs. I wanna tell the Germans to kiss my ass. 68 00:04:15,655 --> 00:04:20,592 I'm gonna tell him. Soon. When I do, you'll be my date to the wedding. 69 00:04:20,627 --> 00:04:23,687 - Derek proposed? - Not yet. But when he does. 70 00:04:27,900 --> 00:04:30,767 This is the first step in the start of a new life. 71 00:04:30,803 --> 00:04:33,237 How are we feeling? Positive? Confident? 72 00:04:33,273 --> 00:04:35,798 I am good. Great. 73 00:04:35,842 --> 00:04:39,744 - You take care of your own feelings. - Peds Surgery is super competitive. 74 00:04:39,779 --> 00:04:42,475 Why I'm armed with letters of recommendation 75 00:04:42,515 --> 00:04:46,042 to put the competition to shame. Shepherd says I'm talented. 76 00:04:46,085 --> 00:04:48,383 Sloan finds it an honor to work with me... 77 00:04:48,421 --> 00:04:51,720 - What does the chief think? - I'm still working on that. 78 00:04:51,758 --> 00:04:55,159 Chief's recommendation matters. Everyone on the committee... 79 00:04:55,194 --> 00:04:58,630 I know! You calm down. I've got it under control. 80 00:04:58,665 --> 00:05:02,192 Good. Because speaking on behalf of me, 81 00:05:02,235 --> 00:05:05,727 we couldn't be more excited to have you. Yay. 82 00:05:08,007 --> 00:05:09,634 Chief? Just a friendly nudge. 83 00:05:09,676 --> 00:05:12,304 Your recommendation is due by the end of the day. 84 00:05:12,345 --> 00:05:13,972 - I'll remind Patricia. - You have written it? 85 00:05:14,013 --> 00:05:16,709 You'll get your recommendation. 86 00:05:18,718 --> 00:05:20,310 - I need more time. - No. 87 00:05:20,353 --> 00:05:23,083 Don't get me wrong. I am honored that you asked me 88 00:05:23,122 --> 00:05:25,022 over all the other residents, 89 00:05:25,058 --> 00:05:29,791 but it's not easy distilling a doctor of your stature to 500 words or less. 90 00:05:29,829 --> 00:05:34,766 I chose you because you're the only one to do this without screwing up. Don't. 91 00:05:36,169 --> 00:05:38,763 [stammering] Make sure he planes the patio... 92 00:05:40,406 --> 00:05:43,842 - Plates the... - We'll get him piano lessons. Yes. 93 00:05:43,876 --> 00:05:46,436 [Jen] Only puddle shell... uh. 94 00:05:46,479 --> 00:05:49,175 [struggles] Only public... 95 00:05:49,215 --> 00:05:52,241 Public school so he doesn't become a snob, I know. 96 00:05:52,285 --> 00:05:54,480 But I don't have to. You're gonna be there 97 00:05:54,520 --> 00:05:57,318 to make sure I don't turn him into a jerk. 98 00:05:59,058 --> 00:06:00,616 We're here. 99 00:06:01,928 --> 00:06:03,953 I love just... 100 00:06:03,996 --> 00:06:05,827 I know. You love me. 101 00:06:07,400 --> 00:06:10,528 And I love you. I'll see you in a few. 102 00:06:14,040 --> 00:06:15,337 Thank you. 103 00:06:15,508 --> 00:06:18,534 Her blood pressure's higher than it was yesterday. 104 00:06:18,578 --> 00:06:20,011 - We can't wait. - I know... 105 00:06:20,046 --> 00:06:22,844 You want me to be aware. You're a good doctor. So am I. 106 00:06:22,882 --> 00:06:25,112 Let's just be good together. 107 00:06:25,151 --> 00:06:28,848 - Your and my guy work well together. - My guy works well with everyone. 108 00:06:32,191 --> 00:06:33,624 - Dr. Stevens? - Yes. 109 00:06:33,659 --> 00:06:35,820 Think we'll get to scrub in on a surgery? 110 00:06:35,862 --> 00:06:39,423 You think you're capable of holding someone's life in your hands 111 00:06:39,465 --> 00:06:43,231 when you could barely finish the intern bowl? Really? Come on. 112 00:06:44,704 --> 00:06:47,400 - Dr. Stevens, remember me? - Yes. 113 00:06:47,440 --> 00:06:50,932 I was here a couple of days ago when you told me I might have cancer. 114 00:06:50,977 --> 00:06:54,174 You sent me to an oncologist, who sent me to an immunologist, 115 00:06:54,213 --> 00:06:57,444 who then sent me to some other ologist I never heard of 116 00:06:57,483 --> 00:07:03,444 before I set foot in this deathtrap. 80 thousand dollars in tests later, 117 00:07:03,489 --> 00:07:07,016 the only thing wrong with me is that I'm anemic! 118 00:07:07,059 --> 00:07:09,357 - Anemic? - My lawyer seems to think 119 00:07:09,395 --> 00:07:11,920 that someone here mislabeled the blood. 120 00:07:11,964 --> 00:07:15,400 Switched it with someone else's. I was told not to come here, 121 00:07:15,435 --> 00:07:19,166 but my conscience wanted to make sure you went through those files 122 00:07:19,205 --> 00:07:21,867 of everybody who was here at the clinic that day. 123 00:07:21,908 --> 00:07:24,706 Of course we will. I'm so sorry. 124 00:07:24,744 --> 00:07:27,975 Don't apologize to me. I'm just anemic. 125 00:07:28,014 --> 00:07:31,347 You apologize to that dying person. 126 00:08:07,687 --> 00:08:11,282 - [Meredith] Middle cerebral artery? - [Derek] Yes, after I connect the STA, 127 00:08:11,324 --> 00:08:14,316 - we will close. - Baby's having spontaneous decels. 128 00:08:14,360 --> 00:08:17,557 Mom's hypotensive. I don't know how much they can handle. 129 00:08:17,597 --> 00:08:20,031 MCA's bleeding. It shouldn't contribute. 130 00:08:20,132 --> 00:08:23,329 Pressure's dropping. The baby's gonna need to come out. 131 00:08:23,369 --> 00:08:25,860 - Almost done. Wait. - Not me that can't wait. 132 00:08:25,905 --> 00:08:29,272 - The decels are getting more frequent. - A fetus can't handle 133 00:08:29,308 --> 00:08:31,799 three surgeries. We have to get the baby out. 134 00:08:31,844 --> 00:08:37,009 - He's too young to come out. - Last decel lasted a full 30 seconds. 135 00:08:37,049 --> 00:08:39,313 Let's go. I'm taking him out. 136 00:08:39,352 --> 00:08:41,411 - Ten-blade. - [Derek] Leave the baby in. 137 00:08:44,924 --> 00:08:47,586 Done. I'm done. 138 00:08:49,362 --> 00:08:50,659 I'm done. 139 00:08:52,932 --> 00:08:55,992 You've got a minor fracture so you won't need surgery. 140 00:08:56,035 --> 00:08:58,799 You should on your feet within a few weeks. 141 00:08:58,838 --> 00:09:02,569 I don't know what I was thinking. The wound wasn't healing as fast... 142 00:09:02,608 --> 00:09:05,941 Next time, you call me, John. 143 00:09:05,978 --> 00:09:08,845 Dr. Yang, explain to my patient 144 00:09:08,881 --> 00:09:11,281 what you feel I should have done differently 145 00:09:11,317 --> 00:09:16,619 in order to avoid this complication. Don't be shy, Dr. Yang. 146 00:09:16,656 --> 00:09:22,458 OK. Well, patients status post minimally invasive procedures 147 00:09:22,495 --> 00:09:26,056 have been shown to have decreased post-surgical discomfort... 148 00:09:26,098 --> 00:09:29,659 In human please, Dr. Yang. 149 00:09:32,038 --> 00:09:35,030 This surgery should have been done laparoscopically. 150 00:09:35,074 --> 00:09:37,975 Dr. Hunt, perhaps you can explain to Dr. Yang 151 00:09:38,010 --> 00:09:40,604 why I chose to do the surgery this way. 152 00:09:40,646 --> 00:09:44,514 Although some doctors prefer to use the new technology, 153 00:09:44,550 --> 00:09:47,041 there are others who believe it's more risky 154 00:09:47,086 --> 00:09:50,522 since we can't see or move around as much during the surgery. 155 00:09:50,556 --> 00:09:53,116 It's half a dozen either way. 156 00:09:54,760 --> 00:09:57,228 Bravo, Dr. Hunt. 157 00:09:57,263 --> 00:10:00,096 - Do you understand, John? - Yes. 158 00:10:00,132 --> 00:10:02,692 I have no doubt you did the right thing by me. 159 00:10:02,735 --> 00:10:07,263 Wonderful. Now, Dr. Yang, 160 00:10:07,306 --> 00:10:10,434 please take our patient to CT. 161 00:10:10,476 --> 00:10:12,967 Maybe you'll learn something in the process. 162 00:10:13,012 --> 00:10:18,279 While I confer with Dr. Hunt about our course of treatment. 163 00:10:22,521 --> 00:10:24,989 - I'm on a deadline. - Sadie Harris mislabeled 164 00:10:25,024 --> 00:10:27,993 a patient's blood sample. The clinic's getting sued. 165 00:10:28,027 --> 00:10:31,155 - Good thing Sadie no longer works here. - No, it's not. 166 00:10:31,197 --> 00:10:33,961 Because it isn't just her. The interns, all of them, 167 00:10:34,000 --> 00:10:37,902 they're capable of the same mistake. They are dangerous and they are bad. 168 00:10:37,937 --> 00:10:40,997 Don't tell me I'm overly emotional and it isn't personal! 169 00:10:41,040 --> 00:10:44,407 Because it is personal! I've worked so hard to teach them, 170 00:10:44,443 --> 00:10:47,844 - and... and it is personal. - Stevens. 171 00:10:47,880 --> 00:10:50,348 I thought the same thing about you every day 172 00:10:50,383 --> 00:10:54,410 for the first year you worked here. Know what the chief told me? 173 00:10:54,453 --> 00:10:56,353 Get out. 174 00:11:01,227 --> 00:11:03,718 You don't get much rest, do you, Dr. Shepherd? 175 00:11:06,799 --> 00:11:08,027 [laughing] 176 00:11:08,501 --> 00:11:12,335 - Did you hear yourself just then? - Oh, my God! 177 00:11:12,371 --> 00:11:15,829 Oh, my God! I can talk! 178 00:11:15,875 --> 00:11:18,742 I know! Listen to you! 179 00:11:21,313 --> 00:11:23,781 And the baby? How's the baby? 180 00:11:23,816 --> 00:11:26,546 The baby's stable. However, 181 00:11:26,585 --> 00:11:29,076 your new labs show that you're pre-eclamptic. 182 00:11:29,121 --> 00:11:32,955 We hoped to keep it from progressing to this stage, but stress of surgery 183 00:11:32,992 --> 00:11:37,088 - was a lot on your body. - So do we need to be worried? 184 00:11:39,498 --> 00:11:43,264 Come on! Dr. Shepherd, please tell me we're done being worried. 185 00:11:45,504 --> 00:11:48,029 First moment of hope they've had in a week. 186 00:11:48,074 --> 00:11:51,305 Pre-eclampsia is serious. You're too close to this patient. 187 00:11:51,343 --> 00:11:54,710 Stop fighting me on this. We had a victory. Focus on that. 188 00:11:54,747 --> 00:11:59,207 We give the family all the information. That's our job, Derek. 189 00:12:00,753 --> 00:12:03,620 - Looks like my guy won that round. - Meredith? 190 00:12:03,656 --> 00:12:06,921 Karev, can you go get Jen's blood test results? 191 00:12:06,959 --> 00:12:09,484 Give me a reason why I shouldn't go to the chief. 192 00:12:09,528 --> 00:12:13,089 - What? The surgery was a success. - He made a mistake in her first. 193 00:12:13,132 --> 00:12:16,226 He caused complications. He feels responsible. 194 00:12:16,268 --> 00:12:18,327 Tell me why I shouldn't go to the chief. 195 00:12:18,370 --> 00:12:21,533 During the trial, he lost patients. It affected him. 196 00:12:21,574 --> 00:12:25,533 For the better, I think. He cares more, if that's possible. 197 00:12:25,578 --> 00:12:29,412 You just have to trust him. 198 00:12:29,448 --> 00:12:30,745 OK. 199 00:12:39,692 --> 00:12:42,320 - Hey. - Calliope. 200 00:12:42,361 --> 00:12:45,797 - I haven't seen you around. - Well, I've been avoiding you. 201 00:12:45,831 --> 00:12:47,890 I know, it's so weird. 202 00:12:47,933 --> 00:12:50,697 You share a kiss with a woman you've never seen... 203 00:12:50,736 --> 00:12:54,695 Honestly, this is a new adventure, one I'm so ready to take, 204 00:12:54,740 --> 00:12:58,642 for the second time, and... [sighing] Anyway. 205 00:12:58,677 --> 00:13:01,976 Do you want to go on a date with me? 206 00:13:02,014 --> 00:13:05,506 Wait, Erica and you. She was your first? 207 00:13:05,551 --> 00:13:08,543 - Yeah. - Oh. 208 00:13:08,587 --> 00:13:11,886 OK. So then I guess my answer is no. 209 00:13:11,924 --> 00:13:15,087 - I'm sorry. - Wait. What? 210 00:13:15,327 --> 00:13:17,852 Uh... Um... 211 00:13:18,464 --> 00:13:22,264 You kissed me, out of nowhere, in a bathroom. 212 00:13:22,301 --> 00:13:24,132 OK, this is what I try to avoid. 213 00:13:24,170 --> 00:13:29,233 You're all exploring and experimenting and... 214 00:13:29,275 --> 00:13:33,473 Yay! This is a really exciting time for you. 215 00:13:33,512 --> 00:13:37,073 But I work in Peds. I spend my entire day around newborns. 216 00:13:37,116 --> 00:13:40,085 So I try not to in my personal life. 217 00:13:40,119 --> 00:13:44,146 Thanks for asking, though. I'm super flattered. 218 00:13:44,190 --> 00:13:45,851 Super. 219 00:13:51,997 --> 00:13:54,898 - As discussed. - Thank you. 220 00:13:59,171 --> 00:14:02,538 [scoffing] Newborn. I'm not a newborn. 221 00:14:02,575 --> 00:14:05,476 I'm a senior resident. I'm a great surgeon. 222 00:14:05,511 --> 00:14:07,741 I'm a divorcee, for God's sake. 223 00:14:07,780 --> 00:14:09,873 I'm... 224 00:14:09,915 --> 00:14:14,147 I'm, uh... looking for you to agree with me here, Bailey. 225 00:14:15,221 --> 00:14:17,917 - Bailey? - The chief, 226 00:14:17,957 --> 00:14:20,357 he wrote me a form letter of recommendation. 227 00:14:20,392 --> 00:14:22,792 That's insane. He's chief, you're Bailey. 228 00:14:22,828 --> 00:14:26,389 "Pleasant in the OR and enjoyed by the nurses. 229 00:14:26,432 --> 00:14:29,799 She's completed a serviceable amount of research. 230 00:14:29,835 --> 00:14:35,102 - A fine addition to any program." - Fine! He used the word "fine." 231 00:14:35,140 --> 00:14:40,077 A blank page would mean more. I pulled off a 12-person domino surgery. 232 00:14:40,112 --> 00:14:44,048 I took out and put back six of a dying girl's organs! 233 00:14:44,083 --> 00:14:47,416 I am Dr. Bailey. I am better than fine! 234 00:14:49,188 --> 00:14:51,088 At least he didn't call you a baby. 235 00:14:54,260 --> 00:14:56,785 Just a minute more, Mr. Terzian. 236 00:14:57,696 --> 00:15:01,029 Oh... Done tending to Her Highness? 237 00:15:01,066 --> 00:15:02,590 You're tough on people. 238 00:15:02,635 --> 00:15:06,503 It's good to hold such high standards, but this is medicine. 239 00:15:06,538 --> 00:15:09,439 - No one's perfect. - She's stubborn and out of touch. 240 00:15:09,475 --> 00:15:14,503 - Forty years experience means nothing? - Not if you don't use them correctly. 241 00:15:14,546 --> 00:15:17,242 She wants to be old and keep operating? Fine. 242 00:15:17,283 --> 00:15:20,582 - Just keep up with the medicine. - Cristina, this is one case. 243 00:15:20,619 --> 00:15:23,986 You can't judge someone based on one case. 244 00:15:24,023 --> 00:15:27,390 That patient deserves to know his doctor, no matter whose feelings 245 00:15:27,426 --> 00:15:29,053 it happens to hurt. 246 00:15:29,128 --> 00:15:30,959 [machine beeping] 247 00:15:32,164 --> 00:15:36,328 Laparoscopic or open, none of us should have made that mistake. 248 00:16:08,634 --> 00:16:12,900 [sighing] You realize you're charging one of our hospital's 249 00:16:12,938 --> 00:16:15,566 most respected surgeons with negligence. 250 00:16:15,607 --> 00:16:18,007 Yes, sir. 251 00:16:18,043 --> 00:16:20,773 Dr. Hunt, do you agree with Dr. Yang's assessment? 252 00:16:20,813 --> 00:16:23,680 - This is Dr. Yang's call. - I'm asking you, Dr. Hunt. 253 00:16:23,716 --> 00:16:26,549 Campbell outranks me, sir. 254 00:16:26,585 --> 00:16:30,146 I think it would be best for you to discuss it with her directly. 255 00:16:31,857 --> 00:16:33,688 Very well. Page Dr. Campbell. 256 00:16:33,726 --> 00:16:36,251 I want to speak to that patient before surgery. 257 00:16:36,295 --> 00:16:37,990 Yes, sir. 258 00:16:41,000 --> 00:16:42,729 Way to take a stand. 259 00:16:44,570 --> 00:16:48,028 There he is, the legend himself. 260 00:16:48,073 --> 00:16:49,700 How are you, legend? 261 00:16:50,976 --> 00:16:53,410 Are you drunk? Should I be worried about you? 262 00:16:53,445 --> 00:16:57,040 He's got his sense of humor back. How's your patient? 263 00:16:57,082 --> 00:17:00,347 She's good, stable. Today's the first day in a long time 264 00:17:00,386 --> 00:17:03,014 I remember what it feels like to be good at my job. 265 00:17:03,055 --> 00:17:07,014 You? Come on, you're like the Dalai Lama of surgery. 266 00:17:07,059 --> 00:17:11,086 People from all over the world come to let you cut into them. Know what else? 267 00:17:11,130 --> 00:17:14,327 You look good doing it. I like the facial hair, by the way. 268 00:17:14,366 --> 00:17:17,665 - Keep it that length. No more, no less. - Stop. 269 00:17:17,703 --> 00:17:20,501 Derek, there's something we need to discuss. 270 00:17:20,539 --> 00:17:23,030 - Go ahead and have sex with Addison. - Addison? 271 00:17:23,075 --> 00:17:25,009 - Go for it. - I don't want to. 272 00:17:25,044 --> 00:17:27,706 Really? What did you want to discuss? 273 00:17:33,052 --> 00:17:34,178 Nothing. 274 00:17:35,254 --> 00:17:36,915 OK. 275 00:17:44,263 --> 00:17:46,663 - How's my mother? - Bitter. 276 00:17:46,698 --> 00:17:49,064 Angry. Genius. 277 00:17:49,101 --> 00:17:52,696 What's so wrong is how much the chief and your mother fought. 278 00:17:52,738 --> 00:17:55,730 - Sex must have been great. - Saying that, that's wrong. 279 00:17:55,774 --> 00:17:59,301 What's wrong? Our entire healthcare system? 'Cause I agree. 280 00:17:59,344 --> 00:18:01,778 Here it is. "March 3, 1979. 281 00:18:01,814 --> 00:18:04,510 Assisted Margaret Campbell on a splenectomy. 282 00:18:04,550 --> 00:18:09,146 Impressive resume, adequate technique." See? Hack! Even then. 283 00:18:09,188 --> 00:18:12,988 - You're working with Margaret Campbell? - Yeah. Ye Oldy Timey thinks 284 00:18:13,025 --> 00:18:16,461 she's sane enough to do surgery. That's what I like about your mom. 285 00:18:16,495 --> 00:18:18,986 She wasn't Alzheimer-y and still operating. 286 00:18:19,031 --> 00:18:22,558 Do me a favor and shoot me if I start making mistakes on patients 287 00:18:22,601 --> 00:18:25,502 - and think it's kosher to cut. - Sounds like Shepherd. 288 00:18:25,537 --> 00:18:27,835 - Alex. - Please, my guy's right. 289 00:18:27,873 --> 00:18:30,569 Your guy nicked an aneurysm and is trying to cover his ass. 290 00:18:30,609 --> 00:18:33,442 - Your guy needs to shut up. - [both pagers beeping] 291 00:18:35,314 --> 00:18:38,249 - [Jen crying, gasping] - [monitor beeping] 292 00:18:39,685 --> 00:18:41,983 - What happened? - Bypass must have blown. 293 00:18:42,020 --> 00:18:45,478 - Page Addison, meet us in the OR! - I told them everything was OK. 294 00:18:45,524 --> 00:18:49,654 Dr. Shepherd? I don't understand. He said the surgery was a success. 295 00:18:49,695 --> 00:18:52,755 I'll give you an update as soon as we can, OK? 296 00:18:53,966 --> 00:18:57,527 [sighing] The swelling's not going down. 297 00:18:57,569 --> 00:19:00,595 [Meredith] Maybe the ventriculostomy is plugged. 298 00:19:01,740 --> 00:19:04,334 No. Damn it! 299 00:19:05,477 --> 00:19:06,876 [Derek sighing deeply] 300 00:19:11,083 --> 00:19:12,311 Derek? 301 00:19:12,351 --> 00:19:15,548 I have to take out the temporal lobe. 302 00:19:16,855 --> 00:19:19,221 - Won't that kill her? - No. 303 00:19:19,258 --> 00:19:24,059 She could lose some of her speech, memory and vocal pattern. 304 00:19:24,096 --> 00:19:28,260 The brain can rewire. I've done it before to stop seizures. 305 00:19:28,300 --> 00:19:30,666 [Meredith] Have you done it before for this? 306 00:19:30,702 --> 00:19:32,431 [monitor beeping faster] 307 00:19:33,172 --> 00:19:35,640 - I'm doing it now. - Baby's got decels. 308 00:19:35,707 --> 00:19:37,538 What are we doing here, Derek? 309 00:19:40,746 --> 00:19:42,475 Bayonet forceps. 310 00:19:42,514 --> 00:19:45,677 What are we supposed to say? "Shepherd's cutting out parts 311 00:19:45,717 --> 00:19:48,117 of your wife's brain. She'll pull through?" 312 00:19:48,153 --> 00:19:51,452 Tell him the truth. Dr. Shepherd is doing everything he can 313 00:19:51,490 --> 00:19:55,017 - to save your wife and child. - The guy's life ended. Tell him that. 314 00:19:55,060 --> 00:19:56,960 Alex, just be... 315 00:19:56,995 --> 00:19:59,964 The baby's having heart fluctuations, 316 00:19:59,998 --> 00:20:04,025 but Dr. Montgomery is taking every precaution to avoid an early delivery. 317 00:20:04,069 --> 00:20:06,435 - And my wife? - Dr. Shepherd is trying to get 318 00:20:06,471 --> 00:20:11,465 the bleeding under control, but we won't know more until the surgery's finished. 319 00:20:11,510 --> 00:20:14,138 But she won't die? 320 00:20:16,014 --> 00:20:17,709 Please tell me she won't die. 321 00:20:19,351 --> 00:20:22,616 Shepherd is doing everything to make sure your wife lives. 322 00:20:22,654 --> 00:20:24,519 She'll live? 323 00:20:24,556 --> 00:20:27,491 [Alex] Dr. Shepherd is doing absolutely everything he can. 324 00:20:27,526 --> 00:20:29,790 We should get back. 325 00:20:29,828 --> 00:20:32,353 Right. Of course. Thanks. 326 00:20:32,397 --> 00:20:35,161 - Thank you. - Your guy sucks. 327 00:20:39,972 --> 00:20:45,137 Mr. Terzian, your scans show a change from Dr. Campbell's original assessment. 328 00:20:45,177 --> 00:20:47,941 There was a complication from the surgery, 329 00:20:47,980 --> 00:20:52,246 a lacerated bile duct and artery. You'll need another surgery to repair it. 330 00:20:52,284 --> 00:20:54,650 - Is that all? - [Richard] Yes, that's all. 331 00:20:54,686 --> 00:20:56,779 Oh, thank God! 332 00:20:56,822 --> 00:21:00,314 I thought when they told me the chief of surgery was coming, 333 00:21:00,359 --> 00:21:03,123 I was a goner for sure. 334 00:21:03,161 --> 00:21:06,028 [Richard] We simply wanted to make you aware 335 00:21:06,064 --> 00:21:10,023 that it's within your rights to request a change of surgeon. 336 00:21:10,068 --> 00:21:13,435 - Dr. Campbell's not available? - She's available. 337 00:21:13,472 --> 00:21:17,340 [sighing] No, thank you. I choose Dr. Campbell. 338 00:21:17,376 --> 00:21:21,107 - Very well. Dr. Campbell. - Richard. 339 00:21:24,883 --> 00:21:29,149 Sir, with all due respect, I don't think the patient's clear what happened. 340 00:21:29,187 --> 00:21:31,587 You heard the patient. He wants his doctor. 341 00:21:31,623 --> 00:21:33,716 - But sir... - Back down, Yang. 342 00:21:35,894 --> 00:21:38,795 I just need you to tell me if it's worthy of Dr. Bailey. 343 00:21:38,830 --> 00:21:41,799 Bailey's an ass. She doesn't listen to residents 344 00:21:41,833 --> 00:21:44,802 when they have important information about interns. 345 00:21:44,836 --> 00:21:48,966 You're missing the point of the exercise, to say nice things. 346 00:21:51,243 --> 00:21:52,801 [sighing] 347 00:21:53,779 --> 00:21:55,303 You still hang out here? 348 00:21:57,215 --> 00:22:00,275 George, just say she's dependable. Say she's selfless. 349 00:22:00,319 --> 00:22:03,447 Everything she was until she wasn't. Just... 350 00:22:03,488 --> 00:22:05,217 You should probably go. 351 00:22:07,025 --> 00:22:09,118 Dependably selfless. 352 00:22:10,095 --> 00:22:11,926 - Thank you. - Hm. 353 00:22:18,770 --> 00:22:20,567 Isobel Stevens? 354 00:22:30,248 --> 00:22:33,809 It's been years since I've had you in my OR, chief. 355 00:22:33,852 --> 00:22:38,186 I seem to remember an incident with a clamp being dropped 356 00:22:38,223 --> 00:22:39,815 into an open body cavity. 357 00:22:39,858 --> 00:22:42,452 You're never gonna let me live that one down. 358 00:22:42,494 --> 00:22:45,986 A good teacher never lets up on her students. Although, 359 00:22:46,031 --> 00:22:49,467 I've often wondered how the upcoming classes learn anything 360 00:22:49,501 --> 00:22:51,901 with the way we teach these days. 361 00:22:51,937 --> 00:22:56,033 Attendings seem more concerned with inspiring their students, 362 00:22:56,074 --> 00:22:59,805 using encouragement and validation and so forth, 363 00:22:59,845 --> 00:23:03,076 instead of instilling them with the fear and shame 364 00:23:03,115 --> 00:23:06,312 that causes one to remember anything in the first place. 365 00:23:06,351 --> 00:23:08,945 Dr. Hunt, you come from the military. 366 00:23:08,987 --> 00:23:12,684 Wouldn't you say the rigid aspects of your training helped you become 367 00:23:12,724 --> 00:23:15,522 - the doctor you are today? - Yes. Very much so. 368 00:23:15,560 --> 00:23:18,996 Dr. Yang, on the other hand, something tells me fear 369 00:23:19,030 --> 00:23:22,329 is not something you have often faced in the OR. 370 00:23:23,635 --> 00:23:25,967 I'd appreciate any opportunity to learn. 371 00:23:26,004 --> 00:23:29,371 Wonderful. Let us begin then. 372 00:23:29,408 --> 00:23:33,276 Tell me how you'd do a pulmonary embolectomy. 373 00:23:33,311 --> 00:23:36,246 I'd insert a steerable catheter into the femoral vein 374 00:23:36,281 --> 00:23:39,148 and position a fluoroscope adjacent to the embolus. 375 00:23:39,184 --> 00:23:42,950 What would you do if the power should suddenly go out? 376 00:23:45,056 --> 00:23:50,653 Or if you had to operate in a hospital that couldn't afford a fluoroscope? 377 00:23:52,497 --> 00:23:56,126 It's like a calculator. Because there's a machine to do it for them, 378 00:23:56,168 --> 00:23:59,296 children shouldn't have to learn simple arithmetic? 379 00:23:59,337 --> 00:24:02,534 If it would help them avoid mistakes like this one. 380 00:24:08,947 --> 00:24:12,348 Out of my OR! 381 00:24:13,618 --> 00:24:15,017 I said get out! Out! 382 00:24:16,021 --> 00:24:18,922 This is still my OR! 383 00:24:21,026 --> 00:24:24,291 She's bleeding into the frontal lobe. If I can stop the bleed, 384 00:24:24,329 --> 00:24:27,787 save the rest of the brain, she'll have a chance. 385 00:24:27,833 --> 00:24:29,767 [monitors beeping eratically] 386 00:24:30,101 --> 00:24:32,092 Decels are getting longer. 387 00:24:33,238 --> 00:24:38,471 - [Addison] I have to deliver the baby. - [panting] No. Just... 388 00:24:38,510 --> 00:24:40,876 If you cut her, she'll bleed. I can save her. 389 00:24:40,912 --> 00:24:42,277 How? 390 00:24:46,651 --> 00:24:49,449 - I have to cut out the frontal lobe. - What? 391 00:24:50,155 --> 00:24:53,613 Derek, no. Stop. Derek. You've done enough. 392 00:24:53,658 --> 00:24:56,058 Can she live without frontal and temporal? 393 00:24:56,094 --> 00:24:58,562 - Yes. - [Addison] No, Derek, she can't. 394 00:24:58,597 --> 00:25:00,588 This baby isn't getting any oxygen. 395 00:25:00,632 --> 00:25:04,124 You want to save Jen, you feel like you have to, but not this way. 396 00:25:04,169 --> 00:25:06,160 I can save them both. She will live. 397 00:25:06,204 --> 00:25:09,765 Not as the person her husband and child need her to be. 398 00:25:09,808 --> 00:25:13,539 She'll lose everything about her that makes her human. 399 00:25:13,578 --> 00:25:16,775 - Meredith. - Are you sure you can do this? 400 00:25:16,815 --> 00:25:20,717 - I have no choice. Bipolars. - Baby's heart rate is bottoming out. 401 00:25:20,752 --> 00:25:24,711 Damn it, Derek! This has gone too far. 402 00:25:24,756 --> 00:25:28,749 Taking the frontal lobe out, even if she lives, you're creating a monster. 403 00:25:28,793 --> 00:25:31,318 You don't get to play God here! 404 00:25:31,363 --> 00:25:35,925 Jen is gone, but this baby has a chance to live. Let her go. 405 00:25:35,967 --> 00:25:38,458 Let it go. Please, let... 406 00:25:39,638 --> 00:25:42,801 - I'm taking the baby out. - Put down the scalpel, Addison! 407 00:25:43,875 --> 00:25:45,900 [monitors beeping erratically] 408 00:25:51,149 --> 00:25:52,776 You put down the scalpel. 409 00:26:01,960 --> 00:26:05,418 - Addison, put the scalpel down. - [Addison] You put the scalpel down! 410 00:26:05,463 --> 00:26:09,024 Get off the scalpel, Addison! Take it off! 411 00:26:12,304 --> 00:26:14,431 - Meredith... - Do not go anywhere. 412 00:26:17,442 --> 00:26:19,034 Karev, go! 413 00:26:24,149 --> 00:26:28,142 - Derek, don't do this. - Do not touch my patient, Addison. 414 00:26:36,761 --> 00:26:38,786 [monitors beeping eratically] 415 00:26:42,033 --> 00:26:43,933 Meredith. 416 00:26:46,705 --> 00:26:50,300 Derek, look at me. You don't have to do this. 417 00:26:50,342 --> 00:26:54,506 Jen's gone. It's too late. You can't save her. She's gone. 418 00:26:54,546 --> 00:26:56,480 We can save the baby. 419 00:26:57,415 --> 00:27:00,213 Derek, look at me. 420 00:27:04,456 --> 00:27:08,415 Certain surgeries get the best of all of us. 421 00:27:08,460 --> 00:27:10,792 I made a mistake. 422 00:27:10,829 --> 00:27:13,957 A careless mistake. 423 00:27:13,999 --> 00:27:15,990 And for that, I am sorry. 424 00:27:16,034 --> 00:27:18,696 But I am only human, 425 00:27:18,737 --> 00:27:21,228 as human as any of us. 426 00:27:21,272 --> 00:27:26,300 And for that, I do not apologize. 427 00:27:28,513 --> 00:27:31,778 - Margaret, you don't have... - No need to discuss it further. 428 00:27:31,816 --> 00:27:34,114 No need at all. 429 00:27:34,152 --> 00:27:36,279 - Chief, we need you in OR 1! - Karev? 430 00:27:36,321 --> 00:27:39,347 - Right now, sir! - [Richard sighing] 431 00:27:44,429 --> 00:27:46,897 I was fired. From the Army. 432 00:27:46,931 --> 00:27:49,491 They call it an honorable discharge, 433 00:27:49,534 --> 00:27:53,334 but they knew it was my time, even though I didn't. 434 00:27:54,706 --> 00:27:57,504 I'm grateful to them for that. 435 00:28:07,752 --> 00:28:09,720 [monitors beeping eratically] 436 00:28:15,026 --> 00:28:17,722 The baby's still in distress. I need to take it out. 437 00:28:17,762 --> 00:28:21,129 Wait. Just wait. The bleeding could stop. 438 00:28:21,166 --> 00:28:25,034 The baby could stabilize. We do a C-section now, she'll die. 439 00:28:25,070 --> 00:28:27,732 - She is dead, Derek. - Please, just wait. 440 00:28:27,772 --> 00:28:31,640 Most of her brain is gone. For all intents and purposes, she's dead. 441 00:28:38,650 --> 00:28:42,416 Karev, page Dr. Friedman's team. Tell her we have a preemie on the way. 442 00:28:45,824 --> 00:28:47,621 Stop cutting. 443 00:28:52,997 --> 00:28:55,397 [Derek] Why are you cutting? 444 00:28:55,433 --> 00:28:58,596 Meredith, get some more blood. She needs more blood. 445 00:28:59,738 --> 00:29:02,172 Get more blood. 446 00:29:02,207 --> 00:29:05,438 - She needs more blood. - No more blood, Derek. 447 00:29:09,914 --> 00:29:11,905 [Richard] No more blood. 448 00:29:15,053 --> 00:29:19,149 You're smart to get it looked at, but it doesn't look too suspicious to me. 449 00:29:19,190 --> 00:29:22,421 - Even combined with high LDH levels? - Oh. 450 00:29:22,460 --> 00:29:27,488 That could be caused by anything, mono, exercise even. 451 00:29:27,532 --> 00:29:31,229 Coupled with neurological episodes? Hallucinations? 452 00:29:33,171 --> 00:29:36,572 There we go. All done. 453 00:29:36,608 --> 00:29:39,406 You and I both see patients do this everyday. 454 00:29:39,444 --> 00:29:42,743 Find something suspicious, convince themselves they're sick. 455 00:29:42,781 --> 00:29:45,773 But as doctors, you and I both know 456 00:29:45,817 --> 00:29:49,253 that it's our job to remain worry-free 457 00:29:49,287 --> 00:29:52,916 until we have proof that says otherwise. That's what you should do. 458 00:29:52,957 --> 00:29:55,050 Relax. By this time tomorrow, 459 00:29:55,093 --> 00:29:58,426 you'll be laughing at the fact you thought anything was wrong. 460 00:30:00,598 --> 00:30:02,327 OK. Ready? 461 00:30:04,669 --> 00:30:07,365 He looks strong. 462 00:30:10,141 --> 00:30:13,907 [Arizona] He definitely has a chance. Let's get him intubated. 463 00:30:13,945 --> 00:30:16,470 - [Addison] Placenta. - [machines flatlining] 464 00:30:40,238 --> 00:30:44,265 [Alex] The steroids we gave your wife allowed your baby's lungs to mature. 465 00:30:44,309 --> 00:30:48,678 That, combined with the three extra days that Dr. Shepherd took 466 00:30:48,713 --> 00:30:51,944 to do the surgery, makes us very hopeful that he'll survive. 467 00:30:54,452 --> 00:30:56,977 I don't understand. She just died? 468 00:31:01,426 --> 00:31:02,859 I'm sorry. 469 00:31:06,130 --> 00:31:08,894 Yeah, I know. You said that. Um... 470 00:31:10,101 --> 00:31:12,626 I'm asking how she died. 471 00:31:15,707 --> 00:31:20,906 We believe your wife's high blood pressure caused the bypass to fail. 472 00:31:20,945 --> 00:31:24,711 That caused the bleeding and swelling in the brain. 473 00:31:24,749 --> 00:31:28,845 Dr. Shepherd did everything he could. There was too much damage to her brain. 474 00:31:28,887 --> 00:31:33,381 That's when Dr. Montgomery stepped in to deliver the baby. 475 00:31:36,694 --> 00:31:41,131 You said it was a routine procedure, that she would be fine. 476 00:31:41,165 --> 00:31:43,725 Then there was a complication. 477 00:31:43,768 --> 00:31:45,895 And you said you fixed that. 478 00:31:45,937 --> 00:31:49,168 But then the baby got sick, 479 00:31:49,207 --> 00:31:51,607 and that made Jen sick. 480 00:31:51,643 --> 00:31:55,374 But then you said you fixed that, too. 481 00:31:55,413 --> 00:31:57,643 And now she's dead. 482 00:32:00,818 --> 00:32:04,151 - I'm sorry. - Stop saying you're sorry! 483 00:32:04,188 --> 00:32:07,180 You killed her! 484 00:32:07,225 --> 00:32:11,457 You're a murderer! A murderer! 485 00:32:11,496 --> 00:32:13,487 Where's my wife? 486 00:32:15,767 --> 00:32:17,530 I want my wife! 487 00:32:18,569 --> 00:32:20,969 [sobbing] I want my wife! 488 00:32:23,975 --> 00:32:26,034 I want... 489 00:32:30,348 --> 00:32:32,873 [gasping] I want... 490 00:32:36,654 --> 00:32:38,849 [George] I know it's bad. But I tried. 491 00:32:38,890 --> 00:32:43,259 You're just very complex, and word-defying. 492 00:32:43,294 --> 00:32:44,488 Chief! 493 00:32:45,730 --> 00:32:50,633 - That is a letter of recommendation! - O'Malley? Take pointers from O'Malley? 494 00:32:50,668 --> 00:32:54,968 You'd be hard-pressed to find a better person to take pointers from. 495 00:32:55,006 --> 00:32:58,840 - Chief? Chief! - Exactly! 496 00:32:58,876 --> 00:33:03,176 I am the chief of surgery. I don't have time to write letters to pump your ego. 497 00:33:03,214 --> 00:33:05,478 My head of Neuro is called a murderer, 498 00:33:05,516 --> 00:33:08,747 I have to fire my general surgeon because she won't retire, 499 00:33:08,786 --> 00:33:11,619 interns are mixing up blood samples in your clinic, 500 00:33:11,656 --> 00:33:15,752 and you want me to spend my time writing a recommendation so you can leave me? 501 00:33:15,793 --> 00:33:19,092 Leave you? Sir, I am 502 00:33:19,130 --> 00:33:21,963 applying for a fellowship in pediatric surgery. 503 00:33:22,000 --> 00:33:25,766 Which is not what we had discussed! Do you know how much time you wasted? 504 00:33:25,803 --> 00:33:28,294 The amount of work it takes to groom someone? 505 00:33:28,339 --> 00:33:32,036 - You were to become the next me! - You wanted me to become the next you. 506 00:33:32,076 --> 00:33:33,907 I am not your son or your daughter. 507 00:33:33,945 --> 00:33:36,607 You don't pin all your hopes and dreams on me, sir! 508 00:33:47,025 --> 00:33:48,322 I'm seeing Lexie. 509 00:33:49,694 --> 00:33:53,130 I'm sleeping with her too, but it's more than that. We're happy. 510 00:33:53,164 --> 00:33:54,825 I'm happy. 511 00:33:54,866 --> 00:33:56,060 [grunting] 512 00:33:59,971 --> 00:34:03,998 OK, that's... Maybe I deserved that. 513 00:34:04,042 --> 00:34:07,842 You know what? I didn't. You have no right to tell me who I can sleep with. 514 00:34:09,814 --> 00:34:11,179 [panting] 515 00:34:12,717 --> 00:34:14,685 - [grunting] - [groaning] 516 00:34:16,487 --> 00:34:17,818 [gasping] 517 00:34:41,112 --> 00:34:44,445 You're worried about your legacy. But I am not your legacy! 518 00:34:44,482 --> 00:34:49,078 And me applying to Peds is not... You are not listening to me. 519 00:34:49,120 --> 00:34:50,314 What the...? 520 00:34:50,354 --> 00:34:52,379 [Miranda] Oh, my goodness! 521 00:34:53,858 --> 00:34:57,624 Come on. Come on! Come on, stop. Come on! 522 00:34:57,662 --> 00:35:00,130 - [groaning] - [Owen] Come on. 523 00:35:01,466 --> 00:35:04,629 - It's done. - [panting, groaning] 524 00:35:04,836 --> 00:35:06,667 [groaning] 525 00:35:08,906 --> 00:35:10,601 That's her guy. 526 00:35:11,476 --> 00:35:13,239 [gasping] 527 00:35:17,548 --> 00:35:18,981 [gasping] 528 00:35:24,355 --> 00:35:26,346 [indistinct chatter] 529 00:35:29,694 --> 00:35:32,288 I'd do a pulmonary arteriotomy, 530 00:35:32,330 --> 00:35:36,596 directly visualize the clot and use atraumatic forceps to extract it. 531 00:35:36,634 --> 00:35:40,502 That's how I'd do a pulmonary embolectomy without a fluoroscope. 532 00:35:40,538 --> 00:35:43,837 The fact that you felt the need to come tell me that 533 00:35:43,875 --> 00:35:47,743 tells me you're a much better surgeon than I first thought. 534 00:35:49,113 --> 00:35:52,879 I've decided today's surgery was my last. 535 00:35:54,352 --> 00:35:57,753 You look at me like you won't wake up one day not that far from now, 536 00:35:57,788 --> 00:36:01,485 so much faster than you can imagine, 537 00:36:01,526 --> 00:36:03,960 and find that you are me. 538 00:36:03,995 --> 00:36:07,726 When you can't cut anymore, 539 00:36:07,765 --> 00:36:10,131 what will you have? 540 00:36:10,168 --> 00:36:13,103 I was a god. 541 00:36:13,137 --> 00:36:17,198 In this OR. Holding a scalpel. 542 00:36:17,241 --> 00:36:18,936 I was a god. 543 00:36:20,111 --> 00:36:21,942 And now... 544 00:36:26,751 --> 00:36:29,515 What will you have? 545 00:36:46,037 --> 00:36:48,699 I don't see anyone burning the place down. 546 00:36:48,739 --> 00:36:50,104 That's how they do it. 547 00:36:50,141 --> 00:36:53,508 Do everything right. As soon as you look away, they screw it up. 548 00:36:53,544 --> 00:36:57,036 Hey, I'm sorry. I was busy earlier. 549 00:36:57,081 --> 00:37:00,482 With myself, I was busy, so I'm sorry. 550 00:37:00,518 --> 00:37:02,213 Don't be. 551 00:37:02,253 --> 00:37:05,620 I called you an ass. And you were right. 552 00:37:05,656 --> 00:37:08,853 I think I just needed to vent. 553 00:37:08,893 --> 00:37:12,294 - [sighing] I'm sick of this place. - Hell, I just watched Derek Shepherd 554 00:37:12,330 --> 00:37:16,232 beat up a man because he's so sick of it. That's the way it works. 555 00:37:16,267 --> 00:37:21,466 The patients we lose, the mistakes we make, that's how we learn. 556 00:37:21,505 --> 00:37:25,271 It's the only way it's ever been done. Figure out a better way, and you 557 00:37:25,309 --> 00:37:27,470 will be a better doctor than us. 558 00:37:27,511 --> 00:37:30,571 [Meredith] Patients see us as gods. 559 00:37:35,720 --> 00:37:38,985 - Izzie? - Or they see us as monsters. 560 00:37:39,023 --> 00:37:42,925 But the fact is, we're just people. 561 00:37:44,662 --> 00:37:46,527 [sighing] Hi. 562 00:37:47,632 --> 00:37:49,327 OK, well, it's not broken. 563 00:37:49,367 --> 00:37:53,895 But you should ice it. Lots and lots of ice. Goodbye. 564 00:37:55,873 --> 00:38:00,970 - [Lexie sighing] I'm so sorry. - It was worth it. 565 00:38:01,012 --> 00:38:03,640 No. It wasn't. 566 00:38:03,781 --> 00:38:06,306 [stammering] Maybe a little. 567 00:38:07,718 --> 00:38:09,743 Thank you. 568 00:38:09,787 --> 00:38:11,277 We screw up. 569 00:38:14,125 --> 00:38:16,423 We lose our way. 570 00:38:24,568 --> 00:38:27,662 - I have experience to give. - Calliope? 571 00:38:27,705 --> 00:38:30,868 Life experience. Like I was married. Did you know that? 572 00:38:30,908 --> 00:38:35,072 Or that I was in the Peace Corps. Botswana. 573 00:38:35,112 --> 00:38:39,879 It convinced me to go to med school. And I've experienced the joy of cooking. 574 00:38:39,917 --> 00:38:44,411 I make an excellent chicken piccata, in addition to many other delicious meals 575 00:38:44,455 --> 00:38:47,288 you'd be lucky to experience. That you can't open your eyes 576 00:38:47,325 --> 00:38:50,886 to see that makes you a little inexperienced. 577 00:38:53,097 --> 00:38:57,625 - Um... Calliope, this is Julie. - Hi. 578 00:38:57,668 --> 00:39:00,159 My date. 579 00:39:04,742 --> 00:39:07,870 Even the best of us have our off days. 580 00:39:14,251 --> 00:39:18,813 Letter of recommendation. Callie told me about the chief's. 581 00:39:18,856 --> 00:39:23,190 I figured it was the least I can do before getting on a plane back to LA. 582 00:39:23,227 --> 00:39:28,665 - Addison Montgomery, thank you! - Don't thank me. Just kick ass. 583 00:39:28,699 --> 00:39:32,999 Don't make me regret writing you are the most promising young Peds surgeon 584 00:39:33,037 --> 00:39:35,767 I've ever had the pleasure of working with. 585 00:39:39,143 --> 00:39:41,077 Still, we move forward. 586 00:39:45,349 --> 00:39:48,876 Today, you were a teacher to someone who needed to learn, 587 00:39:48,919 --> 00:39:53,083 but you were also a bully to someone who needed compassion. You were both. 588 00:39:53,124 --> 00:39:56,389 I wasn't a bully. 589 00:39:56,427 --> 00:39:59,419 And... I was right. 590 00:39:59,463 --> 00:40:01,522 Right. 591 00:40:01,565 --> 00:40:05,695 You're a lot like her. Stubborn, opinionated, smart. 592 00:40:05,736 --> 00:40:10,196 Forty years from now I'll have to pry that scalpel out of your hand, too. 593 00:40:10,241 --> 00:40:12,209 From my cold dead hands. 594 00:40:13,544 --> 00:40:15,512 You're missing the point. 595 00:40:18,015 --> 00:40:20,347 I wanna be around 40 years from now. 596 00:40:40,237 --> 00:40:45,265 We don't rest on our laurels or celebrate lives we've saved in the past. 597 00:40:54,819 --> 00:40:56,844 [gasping, sobbing] 598 00:41:05,563 --> 00:41:08,964 Because there's always some other patient that needs our help. 599 00:41:23,681 --> 00:41:28,209 So we force ourselves to keep trying, to keep learning. 600 00:41:28,252 --> 00:41:33,121 You're unmotivated, careless, selfish, distracted, 601 00:41:33,157 --> 00:41:37,218 and pretty much the people in this hospital I'd least trust with my life. 602 00:41:37,261 --> 00:41:42,164 But that's the way it's supposed to be. You're interns. You're babies. 603 00:41:42,199 --> 00:41:46,226 And you're all lucky to work here. We're all lucky because we save lives. 604 00:41:46,270 --> 00:41:50,832 Every day, we get to save lives. That's our job, and... 605 00:41:51,642 --> 00:41:55,806 [sighing] It's not something a lot of people get to do, so... 606 00:41:55,846 --> 00:41:57,939 - In the hope that... - Let's begin. 607 00:41:57,982 --> 00:41:59,472 - ...maybe... - New game. 608 00:41:59,517 --> 00:42:02,350 - ...someday... - This is Patient X. 609 00:42:02,386 --> 00:42:05,981 She's a 29-year-old female we misdiagnosed with anemia 610 00:42:06,023 --> 00:42:08,548 the first time she came to us. 611 00:42:09,326 --> 00:42:11,419 Let's not make the same mistake again. 612 00:42:11,462 --> 00:42:17,128 ...we'll come just a little bit closer to the gods our patients need us to be.