1 00:00:06,000 --> 00:00:12,074 2 00:00:39,531 --> 00:00:41,565 Okay, now are you ready? 3 00:00:41,567 --> 00:00:43,333 - Yeah. - Okay. We're gonna-- 4 00:00:43,335 --> 00:00:44,735 you gotta hold on tight. 5 00:00:44,737 --> 00:00:46,703 Squeeze, squeeze. You ready? 6 00:00:54,846 --> 00:00:57,381 You're the one who should be in front of the camera. 7 00:00:57,383 --> 00:00:59,249 What are you doin' hidin' back there? 8 00:01:01,252 --> 00:01:02,920 There she is, ladies and gentlemen, 9 00:01:02,922 --> 00:01:04,955 the most beautiful woman in the world. 10 00:01:04,957 --> 00:01:07,091 Just like out of a fairy tale. 11 00:01:07,093 --> 00:01:08,759 Wave to daddy. 12 00:01:08,761 --> 00:01:10,727 - Daddy. 13 00:01:10,729 --> 00:01:12,863 - Hi, daddy. - Throw daddy a kiss. 14 00:02:01,580 --> 00:02:03,147 Get off me. 15 00:02:03,149 --> 00:02:05,983 Get the fuck off me. I just wanna sleep. 16 00:02:05,985 --> 00:02:07,117 Shut up! Get up! 17 00:02:07,119 --> 00:02:09,419 Help! Somebody help. 18 00:03:32,204 --> 00:03:33,237 Hi. 19 00:03:33,239 --> 00:03:34,538 Jen: Pick up the phone! 20 00:03:34,540 --> 00:03:36,240 I can't find it. 21 00:03:36,242 --> 00:03:38,208 I got some news you're gonna want to hear. 22 00:03:38,210 --> 00:03:39,610 Oh, yeah, what? 23 00:03:39,612 --> 00:03:42,379 Jen: Penguin... Loved the proposal. 24 00:03:42,381 --> 00:03:43,880 Shut the fuck up! 25 00:03:43,882 --> 00:03:45,249 We've got a deal. 26 00:03:45,251 --> 00:03:46,783 - Are you serious? 27 00:03:46,785 --> 00:03:48,051 - That's awesome! - Yeah. 28 00:03:48,053 --> 00:03:49,720 They're wiring the money today, 29 00:03:49,722 --> 00:03:51,255 and I got you twice what you asked me for. 30 00:03:51,257 --> 00:03:52,856 What? You're the best! 31 00:03:52,858 --> 00:03:54,291 Jen: Yeah, I'm a miracle worker. 32 00:03:54,293 --> 00:03:57,060 Holy shit! That's great. 33 00:03:57,062 --> 00:03:58,395 So why... What now? 34 00:03:58,397 --> 00:04:00,264 Jen: So now you write it. 35 00:04:00,266 --> 00:04:03,133 All they need is a 20-page excerpt every month 36 00:04:03,135 --> 00:04:05,402 and other than that you're a free man-- 37 00:04:05,404 --> 00:04:08,205 oh, and they wanna have a party in a few weeks-- 38 00:04:08,207 --> 00:04:10,540 black tie, canapes, et cetera, et cetera. 39 00:04:10,542 --> 00:04:12,075 Whoa! What? 40 00:04:12,077 --> 00:04:13,543 Jen: Go buy yourself a nice suit. 41 00:04:13,545 --> 00:04:14,878 All right! 42 00:04:14,880 --> 00:04:17,080 Jen: Okay, hon. Talk later. 43 00:05:48,573 --> 00:05:50,006 Pour it, when you pour it. 44 00:05:50,008 --> 00:05:51,074 First bucket, baby! 45 00:05:51,076 --> 00:05:53,143 - First bucket! - No, no. 46 00:05:53,145 --> 00:05:55,212 That's one, that's one, that's one! Bam! 47 00:05:55,214 --> 00:05:57,347 Yeah, yes, motherfucker! 48 00:05:57,349 --> 00:05:59,015 I will ruin you! 49 00:05:59,017 --> 00:06:01,318 Your kids will weep at your funeral! 50 00:06:01,320 --> 00:06:02,319 Man! 51 00:06:02,321 --> 00:06:03,854 No, no, no! 52 00:06:03,856 --> 00:06:07,724 No, no, no! Come on, man! 53 00:06:07,726 --> 00:06:09,092 That's what I'm talkin' about. 54 00:06:09,094 --> 00:06:11,194 That's my money. Give me that money! 55 00:06:11,196 --> 00:06:13,029 You pay up, bitch. Gimme that money! 56 00:06:13,031 --> 00:06:14,898 You son of a bitch. 57 00:06:14,900 --> 00:06:17,367 Really? What is this, a down payment? 58 00:06:17,369 --> 00:06:18,902 Hey, you missed everything. 59 00:06:18,904 --> 00:06:20,437 I know, I know. I had to go to the courthouse. 60 00:06:20,439 --> 00:06:22,572 Yo, come on. What are you doin'? 61 00:06:22,574 --> 00:06:24,508 - It's over, right? - No, we're watchin' the recap. 62 00:06:24,510 --> 00:06:27,277 I gotta watch this real quick. 63 00:06:27,279 --> 00:06:29,513 Woman on TV: No body, no weapon. 64 00:06:29,515 --> 00:06:31,548 Next week hans Reiser goes on trial 65 00:06:31,550 --> 00:06:33,083 for the murder of his wife. 66 00:06:33,085 --> 00:06:35,619 Big questions arise-- did he kill her, 67 00:06:35,621 --> 00:06:37,220 or did she simply leave her family 68 00:06:37,222 --> 00:06:38,922 to escape a bad marriage. 69 00:06:38,924 --> 00:06:40,590 It's a haunting story 70 00:06:40,592 --> 00:06:44,294 as the investigation of Nina Reiser continues. 71 00:06:44,296 --> 00:06:46,196 The direct physical evidence against hans 72 00:06:46,198 --> 00:06:48,098 is limited, but police have built 73 00:06:48,100 --> 00:06:50,400 a detailed circumstantial case. 74 00:06:50,402 --> 00:06:54,070 Police have confirmed they believed hans Reiser acted alone. 75 00:06:54,072 --> 00:06:55,405 - According to some, Nina... - What is this? 76 00:06:55,407 --> 00:06:56,907 It's hans. 77 00:06:56,909 --> 00:06:58,442 He made the linux operating system-- 78 00:06:58,444 --> 00:07:00,110 big nerd celebrity. 79 00:07:00,112 --> 00:07:02,112 I'm profiling the case for wired. 80 00:07:02,114 --> 00:07:03,880 Hans says he lives for his kids. 81 00:07:03,882 --> 00:07:06,249 In divorce court, a critical ruling-- 82 00:07:06,251 --> 00:07:09,052 hans lost legal custody of his precious children. 83 00:07:09,054 --> 00:07:10,921 His life was falling apart. 84 00:07:10,923 --> 00:07:12,823 Man: I don't know where Nina is. 85 00:07:12,825 --> 00:07:16,726 All I know is that the woman that I love is gone 86 00:07:16,728 --> 00:07:18,595 and her children keep asking me when she's coming back 87 00:07:18,597 --> 00:07:20,564 and I don't know what to tell them. 88 00:07:20,566 --> 00:07:22,332 I'm just a husband and a father. 89 00:07:22,334 --> 00:07:24,267 I'm a victim in all this. 90 00:07:24,269 --> 00:07:27,170 No one took Nina, no one hurt her. 91 00:07:27,172 --> 00:07:29,339 She just left. 92 00:07:29,341 --> 00:07:31,274 Nina left her family. 93 00:07:31,276 --> 00:07:33,076 And with that, the last man known 94 00:07:33,078 --> 00:07:34,511 to have seen Nina alive heads back to his cell. 95 00:07:34,513 --> 00:07:35,645 Hey, can you get me in? 96 00:07:35,647 --> 00:07:37,180 - To the trial? - Yeah. 97 00:07:37,182 --> 00:07:38,482 Why? 98 00:07:38,484 --> 00:07:40,150 Where is Nina? 99 00:07:40,152 --> 00:07:41,218 Sure. 100 00:08:12,316 --> 00:08:14,351 Jen: Hey, Stephen, it's Jen. 101 00:08:14,353 --> 00:08:16,553 I know you know those pages are due at penguin next week. 102 00:08:16,555 --> 00:08:20,056 I hope it's going well. Give me a call. 103 00:08:20,058 --> 00:08:21,725 Hey, man. It's Josh. 104 00:08:21,727 --> 00:08:23,026 I got you the Reiser interview. 105 00:08:23,028 --> 00:08:25,529 You're welcome. Call me. 106 00:09:25,423 --> 00:09:28,592 Who are you? 107 00:09:28,594 --> 00:09:31,127 I'm Stephen Elliott. 108 00:09:31,129 --> 00:09:33,430 Uh, look, I'm not talking to reporters. 109 00:09:33,432 --> 00:09:35,932 I'm not a reporter. 110 00:09:35,934 --> 00:09:39,636 I just want to write a book. 111 00:09:39,638 --> 00:09:42,706 Well, that's kind of hard 112 00:09:42,708 --> 00:09:45,141 to trust your kind of people. 113 00:09:45,143 --> 00:09:47,644 Writers, they have a way of spinning things 114 00:09:47,646 --> 00:09:49,379 the way they want to. 115 00:09:49,381 --> 00:09:52,248 Yeah, I know. I have a lot of ex-girlfriends 116 00:09:52,250 --> 00:09:56,152 who have accused me of the same thing. 117 00:09:58,624 --> 00:10:02,726 Well, what do you want to know? 118 00:10:02,728 --> 00:10:05,395 Anything. I just-- 119 00:10:05,397 --> 00:10:07,464 I just want to hear your story, that's it. 120 00:10:07,466 --> 00:10:08,965 I'm not interested. 121 00:10:17,008 --> 00:10:21,911 There's something there. He's sitting on something, just waiting for a big reveal. 122 00:10:23,748 --> 00:10:25,815 Like maybe he killed his wife. 123 00:10:25,817 --> 00:10:30,453 Yeah, maybe, but why is the question. 124 00:10:30,455 --> 00:10:32,822 Hey, is anybody dead out there? 125 00:10:32,824 --> 00:10:35,425 I want to pitch a book to Jen. 126 00:10:35,427 --> 00:10:36,626 A true crime thing. 127 00:10:36,628 --> 00:10:38,328 - Yeah. - My in cold blood. 128 00:10:38,330 --> 00:10:40,997 Yeah. Better. Probably better. 129 00:10:42,767 --> 00:10:44,067 What the hell is that? 130 00:10:47,938 --> 00:10:49,005 Flip it. 131 00:10:50,207 --> 00:10:53,777 That's my team, from down below. 132 00:10:53,779 --> 00:10:54,778 Sniff it. 133 00:10:54,780 --> 00:10:55,845 You gave me your team? 134 00:10:55,847 --> 00:10:58,181 - Yeah. - Yeah. 135 00:10:58,183 --> 00:11:00,550 - You got any blueberry sauce? - Yeah, yeah, yeah. 136 00:11:00,552 --> 00:11:02,052 Put it where it goes, though. 137 00:11:04,055 --> 00:11:05,221 Yeah, yeah. 138 00:11:09,794 --> 00:11:10,894 The key is to put a little bit of butter 139 00:11:10,896 --> 00:11:13,963 in the balls like so. 140 00:11:13,965 --> 00:11:17,667 Then you put a nice sloppy helpin' on there, 141 00:11:17,669 --> 00:11:21,404 and then let the blood flow right to the other part. 142 00:11:21,406 --> 00:11:24,474 A little wet, and look at that. 143 00:11:24,476 --> 00:11:26,543 Looks like shit. 144 00:11:26,545 --> 00:11:28,178 All right. Hot cakes are ready. 145 00:11:28,180 --> 00:11:30,346 Get your asses in here for some cakes. 146 00:11:30,348 --> 00:11:31,347 Hey! 147 00:11:31,349 --> 00:11:32,649 We cut my hair. 148 00:11:32,651 --> 00:11:35,919 Whoa! Check out this haircut. 149 00:11:35,921 --> 00:11:36,920 God damn it! 150 00:11:36,922 --> 00:11:40,190 Oh-oh! Wow! 151 00:11:40,192 --> 00:11:42,092 He's got it! That is just... 152 00:11:42,094 --> 00:11:44,561 - What do you... What do you think of it? - You like it? 153 00:11:44,563 --> 00:11:47,564 - I think it's awesome. - I think it's pretty awesome. 154 00:11:47,566 --> 00:11:49,866 I think it's awesome that you feel awesome 155 00:11:49,868 --> 00:11:53,436 for the last day of school, but I gotta tell you, man, that looks terrible. 156 00:11:53,438 --> 00:11:55,038 Hey, you know what though, 157 00:11:55,040 --> 00:11:57,340 maybe you should put a shirt on. 158 00:11:57,342 --> 00:11:59,409 Looking like a deranged little ragamuffin with no shirt on. 159 00:12:47,958 --> 00:12:51,628 Man: This is not the kind of parent who disappears without warning. 160 00:12:53,264 --> 00:12:58,101 This is not a mother who abandons her children. 161 00:12:58,103 --> 00:13:02,672 Nina Reiser was president of her school's parent-teacher association. 162 00:13:02,674 --> 00:13:07,443 She chaperoned field trips. She did the class laundry. 163 00:13:07,445 --> 00:13:11,915 Nina's children were her entire world. 164 00:13:11,917 --> 00:13:15,685 She would have never, ever left them willingly. 165 00:13:17,154 --> 00:13:18,855 And she most certainly wouldn't have left them 166 00:13:18,857 --> 00:13:23,860 with her estranged husband of whom she was afraid. 167 00:13:23,862 --> 00:13:27,030 The police were called to the Reiser house 168 00:13:27,032 --> 00:13:30,934 three times during the months leading up to the separation. 169 00:13:30,936 --> 00:13:33,970 Hans appeared twice in family court 170 00:13:33,972 --> 00:13:36,472 for refusing to pay for 171 00:13:36,474 --> 00:13:40,443 his children's medical expenses. 172 00:13:40,445 --> 00:13:42,879 The last time he appeared in court, 173 00:13:42,881 --> 00:13:45,148 his request to have the children for labor day weekend 174 00:13:45,150 --> 00:13:47,650 was denied. 175 00:13:47,652 --> 00:13:49,619 Twelve hours later, 176 00:13:49,621 --> 00:13:54,390 Nina Reiser disappeared from the face of the earth. 177 00:13:54,392 --> 00:13:59,062 When he was arrested, he was carrying $9,000 in cash, 178 00:13:59,064 --> 00:14:04,067 two books about unsolved homicides 179 00:14:04,069 --> 00:14:06,736 and a three-page letter. 180 00:14:08,372 --> 00:14:11,140 The letter begins... 181 00:14:11,142 --> 00:14:14,911 "I've been telling you about Nina and nobody listens." 182 00:14:16,380 --> 00:14:20,316 "I may be a danger to the worldview of some, 183 00:14:20,318 --> 00:14:23,453 but I am no danger to my children." 184 00:14:29,493 --> 00:14:30,560 Hey. 185 00:14:31,862 --> 00:14:33,129 You forgot your notebook. 186 00:14:35,866 --> 00:14:37,166 This is where you say thank you. 187 00:14:37,168 --> 00:14:39,202 Thank you. 188 00:14:39,204 --> 00:14:41,004 How much did you read? 189 00:14:41,006 --> 00:14:43,339 Nah, just a little. 190 00:14:43,341 --> 00:14:44,741 I had to find your name. 191 00:14:44,743 --> 00:14:46,676 I want to see if I should be embarrassed. 192 00:14:46,678 --> 00:14:48,077 I wrote, "hans Reiser trial. 193 00:14:48,079 --> 00:14:50,880 Get transcript of letter thing." 194 00:14:50,882 --> 00:14:52,715 With search terms like that, should be a breeze. 195 00:14:52,717 --> 00:14:55,251 Let me see what you wrote. 196 00:14:59,723 --> 00:15:00,790 Whoa! 197 00:15:01,792 --> 00:15:03,459 This is thorough. 198 00:15:04,395 --> 00:15:06,562 So really inadequate. 199 00:15:06,564 --> 00:15:08,965 Miss Lana Edmond. 200 00:15:10,634 --> 00:15:14,203 I write for the times. Are you covering the trial? 201 00:15:14,205 --> 00:15:15,471 Not sure yet. 202 00:15:19,777 --> 00:15:21,978 Do you want to get a drink? 203 00:15:21,980 --> 00:15:23,313 Like right now or in general? 204 00:15:23,315 --> 00:15:24,447 Right now. 205 00:15:26,717 --> 00:15:29,152 I have to take a rain check. 206 00:15:29,154 --> 00:15:31,087 I have to do something for work. 207 00:15:31,089 --> 00:15:32,121 All right. I totally understand. 208 00:15:32,123 --> 00:15:34,457 It's a really big decision. 209 00:15:34,459 --> 00:15:36,225 You have to think about it a lot. 210 00:15:36,227 --> 00:15:40,830 So you'll have plenty of time to do that on our way there. 211 00:15:40,832 --> 00:15:42,932 No fucking way! Is this your bike? 212 00:15:42,934 --> 00:15:43,933 Yeah. 213 00:15:43,935 --> 00:15:46,169 I'm driving. 214 00:16:15,799 --> 00:16:18,968 That's hans' mother's house. 215 00:16:18,970 --> 00:16:21,804 They're right, you know. The body is buried here. 216 00:16:21,806 --> 00:16:24,207 There's no way he buried the body that close. 217 00:16:24,209 --> 00:16:25,475 Oh, yeah. 218 00:16:25,477 --> 00:16:27,276 Where would you dump a body? 219 00:16:27,278 --> 00:16:29,779 Hudson canyon. 220 00:16:29,781 --> 00:16:32,548 Okay. It's weird you had an answer for that, but... 221 00:16:32,550 --> 00:16:35,618 It's in New Jersey off the coast. 222 00:16:35,620 --> 00:16:37,954 It's this underwater canyon. 223 00:16:37,956 --> 00:16:39,956 It's starts in the basin and goes out in the ocean, 224 00:16:39,958 --> 00:16:41,824 like 400 miles. 225 00:16:41,826 --> 00:16:44,694 It's as big as the Grand Canyon, but nobody knows about it. 226 00:16:44,696 --> 00:16:48,564 So people just abandon things there all the time. 227 00:16:50,567 --> 00:16:53,870 I once dropped an engagement ring in there. 228 00:16:56,974 --> 00:16:59,208 Sorry. 229 00:16:59,210 --> 00:17:02,478 I don't know why I just said that. 230 00:17:02,480 --> 00:17:05,848 Jesus Christ! 231 00:17:05,850 --> 00:17:08,985 Um, so what are you doing tonight? 232 00:17:08,987 --> 00:17:12,055 Lana: I don't know. What do you have in mind? 233 00:17:14,591 --> 00:17:17,093 Stephen: "I never went back. 234 00:17:17,095 --> 00:17:20,430 I couldn't stand to see her that way. 235 00:17:20,432 --> 00:17:22,498 Three months later, she was dead. 236 00:17:24,368 --> 00:17:26,836 My father told me in the front seat of his convertible 237 00:17:26,838 --> 00:17:28,604 after finding me in a park. 238 00:17:28,606 --> 00:17:30,006 He was already living with his new wife 239 00:17:30,008 --> 00:17:32,108 and her children somewhere in the suburbs. 240 00:17:32,110 --> 00:17:34,210 He wouldn't tell me which one. 241 00:17:34,212 --> 00:17:36,846 I lived on the streets until an overdose put me in the hospital 242 00:17:36,848 --> 00:17:39,515 and I became a ward of the state. 243 00:17:39,517 --> 00:17:42,385 The day my father was found guilty of abuse and neglect, 244 00:17:42,387 --> 00:17:44,187 I sat beside him in court. 245 00:17:44,189 --> 00:17:46,622 Right before my statement, he pulled me close, 246 00:17:46,624 --> 00:17:49,258 so it would look like he was hugging me, 247 00:17:49,260 --> 00:17:51,260 and then he whispered in my ear, 248 00:17:51,262 --> 00:17:54,130 'you know it's all your fault, right? 249 00:17:54,132 --> 00:17:57,266 You killed your mother.' 250 00:17:57,268 --> 00:18:00,269 that's what I could never explain to the lawyers and case workers. 251 00:18:00,271 --> 00:18:02,472 It wasn't about the handcuffs or the beatings 252 00:18:02,474 --> 00:18:03,973 or his shaving my head. 253 00:18:03,975 --> 00:18:05,641 That was nothing. 254 00:18:05,643 --> 00:18:07,376 It was the constant suggestion 255 00:18:07,378 --> 00:18:08,778 that I was doing something wrong, 256 00:18:08,780 --> 00:18:12,148 that I was inherently poisonous and to blame 257 00:18:12,150 --> 00:18:14,584 for the series of abuses and abandonment 258 00:18:14,586 --> 00:18:16,886 that marked my adolescence. 259 00:18:16,888 --> 00:18:19,255 He made that suggestion in countless, subtle 260 00:18:19,257 --> 00:18:22,592 and more obvious ways all the years he was alive." 261 00:18:22,594 --> 00:18:23,893 Man: This is bullshit. 262 00:18:28,098 --> 00:18:33,069 "In the end his passing brought me no satisfaction, 263 00:18:33,071 --> 00:18:35,638 no closure. The day he died..." 264 00:18:35,640 --> 00:18:38,908 Jesus Christ, how can you people listen to this crap? 265 00:18:40,644 --> 00:18:44,113 Oh my god, it's a ghost! Boo! 266 00:18:44,115 --> 00:18:46,649 My son, ladies and gentlemen. 267 00:18:46,651 --> 00:18:50,019 The poor, abused orphan, the underdog. 268 00:18:50,021 --> 00:18:54,023 How convenient for you to have a dead monster for a father. 269 00:18:54,025 --> 00:18:56,192 How utterly pitiable. 270 00:18:56,194 --> 00:18:58,761 I should be gettin' royalties for this shit. 271 00:18:58,763 --> 00:19:01,764 My son, the storyteller-- what a fucking joke! 272 00:19:01,766 --> 00:19:06,335 You deserve to be played fallin' for this nonsense. 273 00:19:06,337 --> 00:19:10,773 My son was never homeless. He was never in group homes. 274 00:19:10,775 --> 00:19:12,475 He was a drug addict fuck-up 275 00:19:12,477 --> 00:19:14,377 who wants to seem interesting and dramatic 276 00:19:14,379 --> 00:19:16,112 and take your money is what he wants. 277 00:19:16,114 --> 00:19:17,680 All right, Neil, you gotta go. 278 00:19:17,682 --> 00:19:19,148 - How are you doing? - You gotta go. 279 00:19:19,150 --> 00:19:20,283 Get your fuckin' hands off of me! 280 00:19:20,285 --> 00:19:21,717 - You gotta go. - I gotta go? 281 00:19:25,022 --> 00:19:29,992 You're a fuckin' coward... always have been. 282 00:19:29,994 --> 00:19:34,130 You people are all fools to listen to this bullshit. 283 00:19:45,075 --> 00:19:46,275 Um... 284 00:20:04,194 --> 00:20:07,663 You know, I haven't seen him in seven years. 285 00:20:07,665 --> 00:20:09,098 The one thing we can agree on though is that 286 00:20:09,100 --> 00:20:11,167 we're just dead to each other. 287 00:20:11,169 --> 00:20:12,935 You don't have to explain to me. 288 00:20:16,540 --> 00:20:18,441 Well, unfortunately, i don't think everyone else 289 00:20:18,443 --> 00:20:19,642 will feel that way. 290 00:20:22,246 --> 00:20:23,312 But thank you. 291 00:20:26,850 --> 00:20:29,352 I tried to kill my stepfather once... 292 00:20:31,588 --> 00:20:34,357 ...when I was 16. 293 00:20:34,359 --> 00:20:38,027 I worked in a pharmacy, and I did the research. 294 00:20:38,029 --> 00:20:39,795 I figured out what kind of pill I would need 295 00:20:39,797 --> 00:20:41,264 and how much it would take to kill a man, 296 00:20:41,266 --> 00:20:43,466 the whole thing, right? 297 00:20:43,468 --> 00:20:46,602 I put a few pills in my pocket every day before I left work, 298 00:20:46,604 --> 00:20:49,071 saved up enough, ground them up 299 00:20:49,073 --> 00:20:50,973 and put them in his fancy bottle of scotch 300 00:20:50,975 --> 00:20:53,142 that he wouldn't let anyone else touch. 301 00:20:55,912 --> 00:20:58,047 So you killed him. 302 00:20:58,049 --> 00:20:59,115 Nope. 303 00:21:00,784 --> 00:21:03,052 Not even close. 304 00:21:03,054 --> 00:21:04,587 Nothing happened. 305 00:21:04,589 --> 00:21:07,990 It just went right through his system. 306 00:21:07,992 --> 00:21:09,458 He was that fat. 307 00:21:11,829 --> 00:21:13,496 I guess I shouldn't laugh. 308 00:21:17,067 --> 00:21:18,534 You'll get to funny one day. 309 00:21:20,337 --> 00:21:21,570 It just takes time. 310 00:22:09,720 --> 00:22:12,355 Stephen: So what were you like in high school? 311 00:22:12,357 --> 00:22:15,524 Lana: Me? I was a bad ass. 312 00:22:15,526 --> 00:22:17,159 A bad ass? 313 00:22:17,161 --> 00:22:18,294 Lana: Oh, yeah. I had a punk band and everything. 314 00:22:18,296 --> 00:22:19,695 What were you called? 315 00:22:19,697 --> 00:22:21,297 We were called the lys dexics. 316 00:22:21,299 --> 00:22:23,366 - What? - Think about it. 317 00:22:23,368 --> 00:22:24,967 Oh, like dyslexic. 318 00:22:24,969 --> 00:22:28,738 I played bass, which is ridiculous 319 00:22:28,740 --> 00:22:31,841 because I can't even hear bass notes. But whatever. 320 00:22:31,843 --> 00:22:34,143 There's only like four of them, so. 321 00:22:34,145 --> 00:22:35,911 And then we had this whole bit 322 00:22:35,913 --> 00:22:38,247 where I sprayed hairspray into Mattie's lighter. 323 00:22:38,249 --> 00:22:40,015 It was very cool. 324 00:22:40,017 --> 00:22:42,051 Wish I could have seen you then. 325 00:22:42,053 --> 00:22:45,788 A little delinquent, yeah? 326 00:22:49,693 --> 00:22:51,193 So why'd you break up? 327 00:22:51,195 --> 00:22:53,429 - Lana: The band? - Uh-hmm. 328 00:22:53,431 --> 00:22:55,731 I guess I ultimately figured out 329 00:22:55,733 --> 00:22:58,501 it was less fun to have bad sex 330 00:22:58,503 --> 00:23:01,036 in the back of a Van sober. 331 00:23:01,038 --> 00:23:02,938 What kind of sober? 332 00:23:02,940 --> 00:23:05,241 Not wanting to be my stepfather kind. 333 00:23:10,547 --> 00:23:13,783 Do you mind if I ask what he did to you? 334 00:23:16,019 --> 00:23:18,587 It's in the past. 335 00:23:18,589 --> 00:23:20,890 I'm not looking over my shoulder. 336 00:23:20,892 --> 00:23:24,627 I know, but what happens to us makes us who we are. 337 00:23:24,629 --> 00:23:27,963 No. Fuck them! 338 00:23:27,965 --> 00:23:30,366 That has nothing to do with who I am. 339 00:23:30,368 --> 00:23:33,769 He has nothing to do with who I became. 340 00:23:33,771 --> 00:23:35,504 That doesn't mean you need to bury it. 341 00:23:37,474 --> 00:23:39,341 I'm not burying anything. 342 00:23:42,312 --> 00:23:44,447 I've just got some souvenirs. 343 00:23:46,917 --> 00:23:48,517 Stephen: I think you're perfect. 344 00:23:50,320 --> 00:23:52,488 I wouldn't want you any other way. 345 00:24:29,759 --> 00:24:30,826 Hey! 346 00:24:32,329 --> 00:24:33,529 Jesus! 347 00:24:33,531 --> 00:24:35,030 Where the hell have you been? 348 00:24:35,032 --> 00:24:36,999 Oh... uh, I just... 349 00:24:37,001 --> 00:24:39,001 I needed a little time, that's all. 350 00:24:39,003 --> 00:24:40,069 Come in. 351 00:24:44,274 --> 00:24:46,175 What are you doing? 352 00:24:46,177 --> 00:24:48,477 Oh, it's this thing Roger turned me on to. 353 00:24:48,479 --> 00:24:50,045 You heat it up to 209 degrees. 354 00:24:50,047 --> 00:24:54,783 No, I mean, what in the actual fuck are we gonna do? 355 00:24:54,785 --> 00:24:56,385 I don't know. 356 00:24:56,387 --> 00:24:59,288 Uh, I never really had a plan 357 00:24:59,290 --> 00:25:02,358 for when life shits the bed like this. 358 00:25:04,528 --> 00:25:07,863 Do you have any sense of how many phone calls 359 00:25:07,865 --> 00:25:12,067 and hysterical emails I've gotten? 360 00:25:12,069 --> 00:25:16,305 As a matter of fact, I do. I changed my number. 361 00:25:16,307 --> 00:25:18,507 Thanks for letting me know. 362 00:25:18,509 --> 00:25:20,342 So here's where we are. 363 00:25:20,344 --> 00:25:23,746 Random house is backing out of the short story collection. 364 00:25:25,383 --> 00:25:28,984 Columbia wants to buy you out of your teaching contract. 365 00:25:28,986 --> 00:25:31,887 - Fuck them. - Essentially, everyone 366 00:25:31,889 --> 00:25:35,357 is on the verge of suing us. 367 00:25:35,359 --> 00:25:37,726 The penguin thing-- that's over, too? 368 00:25:37,728 --> 00:25:39,995 Not yet. 369 00:25:39,997 --> 00:25:42,531 I have managed to talk them down, 370 00:25:42,533 --> 00:25:44,567 but you have got to work with me here. 371 00:25:44,569 --> 00:25:47,570 Okay. All right. Just tell me how. 372 00:25:47,572 --> 00:25:51,440 Okay. First of all, you have to tell me the truth. 373 00:25:51,442 --> 00:25:52,541 All right. Easy. 374 00:25:52,543 --> 00:25:54,877 Everything. 375 00:25:54,879 --> 00:25:58,914 Look, yeah, my dad isn't dead, obviously. 376 00:25:58,916 --> 00:26:00,583 But that's it. 377 00:26:00,585 --> 00:26:03,552 So why does Neil say that you never lived in a group home? 378 00:26:03,554 --> 00:26:06,355 Why does he say you were never homeless? 379 00:26:06,357 --> 00:26:07,756 Why? Because... 380 00:26:07,758 --> 00:26:11,393 My dad's crazy, that's why! 381 00:26:11,395 --> 00:26:13,395 I don't know. I've been trying to figure it out my whole life. 382 00:26:13,397 --> 00:26:15,297 He just... he doesn't want me to be happy. 383 00:26:15,299 --> 00:26:16,599 Do you have proof? 384 00:26:18,201 --> 00:26:19,802 What kind of proof? 385 00:26:19,804 --> 00:26:21,503 I don't know. Records. 386 00:26:22,939 --> 00:26:24,039 I mean, not on me. 387 00:26:24,041 --> 00:26:26,075 Find some-- quick! 388 00:26:26,077 --> 00:26:29,445 I believe you, but you've gotta cover your ass. 389 00:26:29,447 --> 00:26:30,613 Okay. 390 00:26:30,615 --> 00:26:33,582 Next, you've got to write 391 00:26:33,584 --> 00:26:37,453 a press release statement like now. 392 00:26:41,091 --> 00:26:44,660 Next, penguin has gotta 393 00:26:44,662 --> 00:26:46,629 have some pages asap! 394 00:26:48,832 --> 00:26:51,667 Unless you start producing, this all goes away. 395 00:27:29,472 --> 00:27:31,573 Kill yourself, you fuckin' asshole. 396 00:28:00,170 --> 00:28:02,404 - Whad'ya got? - I already paid for that. 397 00:28:02,406 --> 00:28:03,639 Neil: Don't be stupid. 398 00:28:29,033 --> 00:28:31,233 Say what do you want from me. 399 00:28:33,703 --> 00:28:36,238 I don't know. 400 00:28:36,240 --> 00:28:38,907 I know exactly what you like, don't I? 401 00:28:49,586 --> 00:28:52,254 Man: Hi, cori. 402 00:28:52,256 --> 00:28:55,190 Cori, do you remember drawing that picture? 403 00:28:55,192 --> 00:28:56,191 Yes. 404 00:28:56,193 --> 00:28:57,593 Why did you draw it? 405 00:28:57,595 --> 00:29:00,062 I drew it to show what happened. 406 00:29:00,064 --> 00:29:03,899 Hans went away for a long time, and when he came back, 407 00:29:03,901 --> 00:29:05,868 he had this very big bag. 408 00:29:05,870 --> 00:29:08,137 Inside the bag there were so many rolls of tape, 409 00:29:08,139 --> 00:29:11,774 like a ball, and hans took it to his car. 410 00:29:11,776 --> 00:29:15,110 Now, in your picture, 411 00:29:15,112 --> 00:29:17,446 the bag is zipped up. 412 00:29:17,448 --> 00:29:20,382 Could you actually see what was in the bag or were you just kind of 413 00:29:20,384 --> 00:29:22,818 imagining what might be in there? 414 00:29:24,254 --> 00:29:26,622 Imagining. 415 00:29:26,624 --> 00:29:28,557 Man: And who asked you to draw it? 416 00:29:28,559 --> 00:29:30,726 Cori: The psychologist. 417 00:29:30,728 --> 00:29:32,895 Man: Now, did you remember the part about your dad 418 00:29:32,897 --> 00:29:36,899 carrying the bag before the psychologist talked to you? 419 00:29:38,067 --> 00:29:40,102 I'm not sure. 420 00:29:40,104 --> 00:29:42,938 Do you have trouble with keeping things straight sometimes, cori? 421 00:29:42,940 --> 00:29:45,674 Do you get a little, you know, confused, sometimes? 422 00:29:45,676 --> 00:29:46,909 I don't want to do this anymore. 423 00:29:46,911 --> 00:29:49,244 Can I stop now? 424 00:29:49,246 --> 00:29:51,180 Okay. Thank you, pal. 425 00:29:53,917 --> 00:29:55,784 Did cori always call his parents 426 00:29:55,786 --> 00:29:57,152 by their first names? 427 00:29:57,154 --> 00:29:59,688 No, I don't think so, actually. 428 00:29:59,690 --> 00:30:02,691 It seemed at some of the earlier custody trial statements, he would say "my mom", 429 00:30:02,693 --> 00:30:06,061 but I don't know when he started calling hans "hans". 430 00:30:07,964 --> 00:30:10,766 Do you think we could get the family court documents? 431 00:30:10,768 --> 00:30:13,702 Some of them. Anything public record. 432 00:30:13,704 --> 00:30:14,770 Can I see it? 433 00:30:16,306 --> 00:30:17,706 All right. So this is the first one 434 00:30:17,708 --> 00:30:21,009 where cori is calling his mother Nina, 435 00:30:21,011 --> 00:30:22,444 and hans was already called hans. 436 00:30:22,446 --> 00:30:23,946 Hmmm. 437 00:30:23,948 --> 00:30:26,815 This was three months before she disappeared. 438 00:30:26,817 --> 00:30:28,817 Mm-hmm. 439 00:30:28,819 --> 00:30:31,119 Hey, can you get documents from other states, 440 00:30:31,121 --> 00:30:32,888 not just New York? 441 00:30:32,890 --> 00:30:35,824 Uh, yeah. Wha-- what are you thinking? 442 00:30:35,826 --> 00:30:38,126 Illinois. 443 00:30:38,128 --> 00:30:40,329 Yeah, sure. Why? 444 00:30:40,331 --> 00:30:43,665 'Cause I grew up in Chicago. 445 00:30:43,667 --> 00:30:44,766 What are you looking for? 446 00:30:46,636 --> 00:30:48,337 How about the hearing 447 00:30:48,339 --> 00:30:51,573 where my father was convicted of neglect and abuse 448 00:30:51,575 --> 00:30:53,876 and I was made a ward of the state. 449 00:30:56,913 --> 00:30:58,547 What are you gonna do with it? 450 00:30:58,549 --> 00:31:00,415 I don't know. All my book deals went to shit, 451 00:31:00,417 --> 00:31:01,850 and my editor says they're gonna stay that way 452 00:31:01,852 --> 00:31:03,886 until I come up with some proof 453 00:31:03,888 --> 00:31:05,921 that all that stuff actually happened. 454 00:31:05,923 --> 00:31:08,824 I have to publish it in an important publication. 455 00:31:09,859 --> 00:31:13,262 Like say the times? 456 00:31:13,264 --> 00:31:15,430 Stephen: I wouldn't ask you to do that. 457 00:31:15,432 --> 00:31:19,001 I kind of just did, but that's okay. 458 00:31:19,003 --> 00:31:20,502 I'd love to help. 459 00:31:24,540 --> 00:31:26,308 Does this look like what you're looking for? 460 00:31:27,410 --> 00:31:29,011 Stephen: Yeah. 461 00:31:29,013 --> 00:31:31,747 Now the only problem is i can't write it. 462 00:31:31,749 --> 00:31:34,516 Of course you can. Write whatever you want. 463 00:31:34,518 --> 00:31:36,318 Stephen: No, I just can't write. I mean... 464 00:31:37,453 --> 00:31:38,887 It just happens. 465 00:31:38,889 --> 00:31:41,657 Last time it lasted six months. 466 00:31:42,592 --> 00:31:43,659 Lana: And then what? 467 00:31:45,228 --> 00:31:46,929 Then I started taking Adderall. 468 00:31:48,298 --> 00:31:50,999 Okay. It's printing. 469 00:32:03,246 --> 00:32:07,649 What if we published this as is? Hmmm? 470 00:32:07,651 --> 00:32:09,418 Print it full page, 471 00:32:09,420 --> 00:32:12,754 complete with your handwritten annotations. 472 00:32:12,756 --> 00:32:15,257 That's something people would notice, 473 00:32:15,259 --> 00:32:18,226 and you wouldn't have to write anything. 474 00:32:18,228 --> 00:32:20,929 I think that you're brilliant. 475 00:32:20,931 --> 00:32:22,130 I know. 476 00:32:45,455 --> 00:32:48,757 There's a term for what you are right now. 477 00:32:48,759 --> 00:32:49,992 Cunt struck. 478 00:32:49,994 --> 00:32:51,960 - Fuck you. - Cunt struck. 479 00:32:51,962 --> 00:32:52,961 That's not a word. 480 00:32:52,963 --> 00:32:54,262 Yeah, that is. 481 00:32:54,264 --> 00:32:56,932 It's an old word, old-timey word. 482 00:32:56,934 --> 00:32:58,233 It's like cuntwinked. 483 00:32:59,869 --> 00:33:04,773 Or the more politically correct version, hoodwinked. 484 00:33:04,775 --> 00:33:06,041 Come on, you don't know this? 485 00:33:06,043 --> 00:33:07,042 No. 486 00:33:07,044 --> 00:33:08,043 Huh? 487 00:33:08,045 --> 00:33:10,278 What's the male version? 488 00:33:10,280 --> 00:33:13,482 - Cock hobbled. - Shut the fuck up! 489 00:33:13,484 --> 00:33:14,850 Come on. You gonna match with me and you don't know that? 490 00:33:25,862 --> 00:33:28,330 Hey. I put this on 491 00:33:28,332 --> 00:33:30,365 so I'd remember to give it to you. 492 00:33:33,236 --> 00:33:34,369 Remember this? 493 00:33:36,472 --> 00:33:37,873 Yeah. 494 00:33:37,875 --> 00:33:40,742 Yeah. I was going through this old box 495 00:33:40,744 --> 00:33:41,877 and thought I'd give it back to you. 496 00:33:41,879 --> 00:33:43,912 - Yeah? - Yeah. 497 00:33:43,914 --> 00:33:46,748 You sure you're ready to part ways with that? 498 00:33:47,917 --> 00:33:49,518 Thought it would make you happy. 499 00:33:49,520 --> 00:33:51,686 - Yeah, it did. - You could give it to Jax. 500 00:33:51,688 --> 00:33:53,321 It belonged to my grandmother. 501 00:33:53,323 --> 00:33:54,356 Stephen: Yeah, I remember. 502 00:33:57,927 --> 00:34:00,262 You gave it to me the night after I overdosed. 503 00:34:00,264 --> 00:34:03,231 Remember, you said it would protect me? 504 00:34:03,233 --> 00:34:04,499 I sure don't. 505 00:34:06,402 --> 00:34:07,669 It meant a lot to me at the time. 506 00:34:07,671 --> 00:34:10,205 Yeah? That's interesting. 507 00:34:10,207 --> 00:34:12,407 'Cause I didn't give it to you, Stephen. 508 00:34:12,409 --> 00:34:13,442 - What? - It got stolen 509 00:34:13,444 --> 00:34:15,677 from my jacket at a party. 510 00:34:15,679 --> 00:34:17,746 What are you talking about? I was in the hospital at Northwestern. 511 00:34:17,748 --> 00:34:19,081 You snuck in to visit me. 512 00:34:19,083 --> 00:34:22,551 No, doesn't matter. Forget it. 513 00:34:22,553 --> 00:34:24,186 It matters to me. 514 00:34:28,724 --> 00:34:30,192 Look, you were pissed off at me 515 00:34:30,194 --> 00:34:31,560 'cause I made that shitty joke about your mom 516 00:34:31,562 --> 00:34:33,728 in the wheelchair peein' herself, yeah? 517 00:34:33,730 --> 00:34:35,464 - Yeah, I remember. - Yeah, and the chain broke, 518 00:34:35,466 --> 00:34:36,798 and I had it in my jacket pocket 519 00:34:36,800 --> 00:34:39,401 and then it went missin' at the party. 520 00:34:39,403 --> 00:34:41,069 This is not how i remember it. 521 00:34:41,071 --> 00:34:42,938 I believe that's not how you remember, 522 00:34:42,940 --> 00:34:45,507 because you have a convenient way of rememberin' things. 523 00:34:47,310 --> 00:34:49,144 - What? We're done? - Yeah, we're done. 524 00:34:54,617 --> 00:34:55,684 Roger. 525 00:35:16,806 --> 00:35:19,107 Lana: Why don't you just tell me what you're looking for? 526 00:35:19,109 --> 00:35:20,308 What you like? 527 00:35:22,578 --> 00:35:24,479 Because I don't want to scare you away. 528 00:35:26,349 --> 00:35:29,017 Do I seem like somebody scared to you? 529 00:35:29,019 --> 00:35:30,085 Stephen: No. 530 00:35:31,854 --> 00:35:34,689 You're the last person i want to show my flaws to. 531 00:35:36,259 --> 00:35:38,160 You're showing them to somebody. 532 00:35:38,162 --> 00:35:41,129 I know you're not getting these marks on your own. 533 00:35:41,131 --> 00:35:44,799 No, I'm not. 534 00:35:44,801 --> 00:35:47,269 I just don't want to wonder who else you're with. 535 00:35:49,172 --> 00:35:50,505 Give me a chance. 536 00:35:58,347 --> 00:35:59,748 Tie this wrist. 537 00:36:09,458 --> 00:36:11,293 Now tie it to the bed. 538 00:36:16,032 --> 00:36:17,399 Now tie this one. 539 00:36:19,235 --> 00:36:20,302 Tie it really tight. 540 00:36:25,074 --> 00:36:26,274 Like that? 541 00:36:27,543 --> 00:36:28,610 Yeah. 542 00:36:30,046 --> 00:36:31,746 Take one nail. 543 00:36:33,082 --> 00:36:34,282 Run it down. 544 00:36:36,419 --> 00:36:37,619 Slower. 545 00:36:38,688 --> 00:36:39,754 Slow. 546 00:36:41,490 --> 00:36:42,591 Harder. 547 00:36:44,260 --> 00:36:45,994 Harder. 548 00:36:47,164 --> 00:36:48,230 Like that? 549 00:36:48,232 --> 00:36:49,931 Stephen: Yeah. 550 00:36:51,668 --> 00:36:52,734 Kiss me. 551 00:36:54,370 --> 00:36:57,105 Well, fine, but I like the hans idea. 552 00:36:57,107 --> 00:36:59,774 Jen: Look, I think they have the right to voice a concern. 553 00:36:59,776 --> 00:37:01,176 This doesn't even resemble the book 554 00:37:01,178 --> 00:37:02,244 they're paying you to write. 555 00:37:02,246 --> 00:37:03,912 Okay, no, fine. 556 00:37:03,914 --> 00:37:05,847 I did that, but it's a better idea. 557 00:37:05,849 --> 00:37:10,552 Yeah, I'm not really sure that I can sell this, Steve. 558 00:37:10,554 --> 00:37:13,054 Look, Norman mailer, Truman capote... 559 00:37:13,056 --> 00:37:15,357 They were both at the top of their games 560 00:37:15,359 --> 00:37:18,460 and then they got massive writer's block, right? 561 00:37:18,462 --> 00:37:20,095 - And then? - They fell into addiction. 562 00:37:20,097 --> 00:37:23,798 Exactly. And what happens? A murder trial. 563 00:37:23,800 --> 00:37:27,235 Truman capote writes his masterpiece, changes American literature. 564 00:37:27,237 --> 00:37:29,771 Norman mailer wins the freakin' pulitzer prize. 565 00:37:29,773 --> 00:37:32,941 Jen: Oh, so hans Reiser is gonna win you a pulitzer now? 566 00:37:32,943 --> 00:37:37,279 No, I'm just... He's interesting, that's all. It's what I want to write. 567 00:37:37,281 --> 00:37:41,383 Fine. As long as you're actually writing something. 568 00:37:41,385 --> 00:37:43,218 I don't know. I guess we'll figure it out. 569 00:37:43,220 --> 00:37:45,120 You're gonna have to get me some pages 570 00:37:45,122 --> 00:37:46,254 if you want me to pitch this change, actual pages. 571 00:37:46,256 --> 00:37:48,290 Um, cool. You got it. 572 00:37:48,292 --> 00:37:49,891 Yes, I promise. I promise. I promise. 573 00:37:49,893 --> 00:37:51,393 Okay. 574 00:37:51,395 --> 00:37:52,560 Okay. Bye. 575 00:37:54,063 --> 00:37:55,563 I made breakfast. 576 00:37:55,565 --> 00:37:56,831 I see that. 577 00:37:56,833 --> 00:37:58,633 Eggs Benedict. 578 00:38:01,237 --> 00:38:02,304 What's wrong? 579 00:38:02,306 --> 00:38:03,405 Nothing. 580 00:38:04,774 --> 00:38:06,608 It's just um... 581 00:38:06,610 --> 00:38:09,210 This was taped to my front door. 582 00:38:12,081 --> 00:38:13,815 Motherfucker! 583 00:38:34,270 --> 00:38:37,172 You stay away from her. If you ever hurt them, 584 00:38:37,174 --> 00:38:38,707 I swear to god I'm gonna fucking kill you. 585 00:38:38,709 --> 00:38:42,143 Oh, come on. You're so dramatic! 586 00:38:42,145 --> 00:38:43,678 - Come here. - No. 587 00:38:43,680 --> 00:38:45,013 Oh! I see how it is. 588 00:38:45,015 --> 00:38:47,382 Tough guy. 589 00:38:47,384 --> 00:38:51,553 All right, you handsome motherfucker. 590 00:38:51,555 --> 00:38:52,721 At least come on in. 591 00:38:53,856 --> 00:38:54,923 Come on! 592 00:38:57,493 --> 00:38:59,894 You want a 7-up? 593 00:38:59,896 --> 00:39:02,063 Hey, let's get a steak, huh? My treat. 594 00:39:02,065 --> 00:39:03,365 Where's Cynthia? 595 00:39:03,367 --> 00:39:05,467 She's in Florida. 596 00:39:05,469 --> 00:39:07,035 You know how much I can't stand the fuckin' silverbacks. 597 00:39:07,037 --> 00:39:09,037 So you're just spending her money alone? 598 00:39:09,039 --> 00:39:11,406 Yeah, she sends her love to you, too. 599 00:39:11,408 --> 00:39:15,143 Cynthia, you know, she had me clean out the attic. 600 00:39:15,145 --> 00:39:17,078 I was visiting your step-sister. 601 00:39:17,080 --> 00:39:19,681 She's going to Yale now, did you know that? 602 00:39:19,683 --> 00:39:22,717 I thought I might stop by here 603 00:39:22,719 --> 00:39:24,619 and see if you wanted any of this. 604 00:39:42,706 --> 00:39:45,173 You came all this way to give me a box? 605 00:39:45,175 --> 00:39:46,808 I came to see my son. 606 00:39:48,077 --> 00:39:49,611 Why? You obviously hate me. 607 00:39:49,613 --> 00:39:51,613 Oh, hey, now come on, don't say that. 608 00:39:51,615 --> 00:39:52,847 Why do you say that? 609 00:39:52,849 --> 00:39:54,883 'Cause you humiliated me! 610 00:39:54,885 --> 00:39:57,218 Congratulations, i hope you're happy. 611 00:39:57,220 --> 00:39:58,887 I'm not happy. 612 00:39:58,889 --> 00:40:00,555 That didn't make me happy. 613 00:40:00,557 --> 00:40:02,023 Then why would you do that? 614 00:40:02,025 --> 00:40:04,459 You told everyone i was dead. 615 00:40:04,461 --> 00:40:06,294 So did you! 616 00:40:06,296 --> 00:40:10,298 Yeah, well, I mean, there's storytellers in this family. 617 00:40:10,300 --> 00:40:13,268 I-- I've read everything you've ever written. 618 00:40:13,270 --> 00:40:15,136 I've come all the way across the country 619 00:40:15,138 --> 00:40:18,406 to this fancy party where they're celebrating my son, 620 00:40:18,408 --> 00:40:20,408 the big-shot literary genius 621 00:40:20,410 --> 00:40:22,811 because I'm proud of you and I'm sittin' there, 622 00:40:22,813 --> 00:40:24,646 listenin' to these stories, and every time, 623 00:40:24,648 --> 00:40:26,381 the monster father dies a horrible death 624 00:40:26,383 --> 00:40:28,216 and those assholes in their party clothes, 625 00:40:28,218 --> 00:40:29,951 they're all happy about it. 626 00:40:29,953 --> 00:40:31,219 How do you think that makes me feel? 627 00:40:31,221 --> 00:40:32,887 You're not doing this. 628 00:40:32,889 --> 00:40:35,757 You're not turning it around to make it about you. 629 00:40:35,759 --> 00:40:39,127 I'm not going to feel guilty for not keeping your secrets. 630 00:40:39,129 --> 00:40:40,795 My secrets? What about yours? 631 00:40:40,797 --> 00:40:42,897 All right, look, here you go. 632 00:40:42,899 --> 00:40:44,732 What do you got? 633 00:40:44,734 --> 00:40:47,001 Here's the court hearing where you were convicted 634 00:40:47,003 --> 00:40:49,804 of seven counts of neglect and abuse. 635 00:40:49,806 --> 00:40:52,507 Here's the police report for when I was homeless 636 00:40:52,509 --> 00:40:55,009 'cause you were hiding with your fucking replacement family! 637 00:40:55,011 --> 00:40:57,745 Hiding? I looked everywhere for you. 638 00:40:57,747 --> 00:40:59,747 You were a strung-out drug addict. 639 00:40:59,749 --> 00:41:01,749 I roamed the streets tryin' to save your life. 640 00:41:01,751 --> 00:41:02,917 Oh, you were gonna save me? 641 00:41:02,919 --> 00:41:04,185 Yes, save you. I had to restrain you. 642 00:41:04,187 --> 00:41:06,354 You were tryin' to kill yourself. 643 00:41:06,356 --> 00:41:09,824 You fuckin' beat the shit out of me, 644 00:41:09,826 --> 00:41:11,459 and I was too little to fight back! 645 00:41:11,461 --> 00:41:13,661 I was grieving. I was doing my best! 646 00:41:13,663 --> 00:41:15,697 You were grieving? As if I wasn't! 647 00:41:15,699 --> 00:41:17,665 As if I wasn't fuckin' grieving! 648 00:41:17,667 --> 00:41:20,635 You pick at the details, you missed the entire context of this thing. 649 00:41:20,637 --> 00:41:22,270 - The context? - Yeah. 650 00:41:22,272 --> 00:41:24,005 The context is you were a fuckin' nightmare! 651 00:41:24,007 --> 00:41:25,507 You were a nightmare! 652 00:41:25,509 --> 00:41:27,041 You made my life a livin' hell. 653 00:41:27,043 --> 00:41:28,510 You terrorized my family. 654 00:41:28,512 --> 00:41:30,945 I'm your family! 655 00:41:30,947 --> 00:41:33,948 I was your fuckin' family, and you fuckin' abandoned me! 656 00:41:33,950 --> 00:41:35,583 That's not true! 657 00:41:40,155 --> 00:41:41,723 You're not goin' anywhere. 658 00:41:41,725 --> 00:41:44,125 Get off of me! 659 00:42:08,083 --> 00:42:10,385 Fucker! 660 00:42:10,387 --> 00:42:11,753 You son of a bitch! 661 00:42:19,762 --> 00:42:22,764 I didn't abandon you. 662 00:42:22,766 --> 00:42:25,066 You left home, for god's sake! 663 00:42:28,771 --> 00:42:30,605 You know what, you're right. 664 00:42:30,607 --> 00:42:32,774 You have another family to take care of. 665 00:42:32,776 --> 00:42:34,742 My father is dead. I'm a fucking orphan. 666 00:42:34,744 --> 00:42:36,511 - You don't mean that! - Yes, I do! 667 00:42:36,513 --> 00:42:39,113 You don't know what you're sayin' right now. 668 00:42:39,115 --> 00:42:42,083 You're a pathetic old man, and you're gonna die miserable and alone, 669 00:42:42,085 --> 00:42:43,518 and you fuckin' deserve it! 670 00:42:43,520 --> 00:42:44,586 Stephen! 671 00:42:45,854 --> 00:42:47,088 Stephen! 672 00:42:49,892 --> 00:42:51,859 Stephen, come back here! 673 00:43:18,821 --> 00:43:20,421 All at once or slow? 674 00:43:20,423 --> 00:43:22,156 - Hmmm? - Slow. 675 00:43:26,229 --> 00:43:28,229 Fuck! 676 00:43:28,231 --> 00:43:30,331 What did you mean when you told Dr. shapiro 677 00:43:30,333 --> 00:43:33,968 that Nina wanted cori to be sick? 678 00:43:33,970 --> 00:43:36,838 She was... Inventing illnesses for cori 679 00:43:36,840 --> 00:43:40,308 to make him go through all these unnecessary medical procedures, 680 00:43:40,310 --> 00:43:44,278 giving him medications that were making him sick. 681 00:43:44,280 --> 00:43:47,081 She was poisoning my son. 682 00:43:47,083 --> 00:43:52,020 She didn't like him on some deep, conflicted level. 683 00:43:52,022 --> 00:43:53,621 I know people don't want to hear that. 684 00:43:53,623 --> 00:43:55,823 I mean, they can't believe 685 00:43:55,825 --> 00:43:59,060 that a parent would actually hurt a child. 686 00:44:00,763 --> 00:44:03,498 It happens all the time. 687 00:44:03,500 --> 00:44:06,167 The court system-- I mean, it just makes things 688 00:44:06,169 --> 00:44:09,937 so much worse for the children. 689 00:44:09,939 --> 00:44:12,173 We're taught to believe that the system 690 00:44:12,175 --> 00:44:14,275 will actually help the child, 691 00:44:14,277 --> 00:44:16,477 that it'll do the right thing, 692 00:44:16,479 --> 00:44:19,614 but it doesn't always. 693 00:44:21,050 --> 00:44:22,784 Sometimes it does the opposite. 694 00:44:24,386 --> 00:44:26,554 I was betrayed and abandoned 695 00:44:26,556 --> 00:44:30,825 by the people that I was supposed to trust blindly. 696 00:44:30,827 --> 00:44:33,628 When I fought back, they called me a liar. 697 00:44:35,731 --> 00:44:37,899 No one tells you what you're supposed to do then. 698 00:44:42,237 --> 00:44:44,906 When you're all alone, 699 00:44:44,908 --> 00:44:48,810 you have to take matters into your own hands. 700 00:44:48,812 --> 00:44:52,714 If you understand that, you understand everything. 701 00:44:52,716 --> 00:44:55,583 I always tried to do the right thing, 702 00:44:57,553 --> 00:45:00,788 even if it was an impossible decision. 703 00:45:08,664 --> 00:45:09,797 Hey. 704 00:45:18,373 --> 00:45:20,174 You okay? 705 00:45:20,176 --> 00:45:22,110 Yeah. 706 00:45:32,755 --> 00:45:35,423 What is that? 707 00:45:35,425 --> 00:45:38,126 It's Adderall, klonopin, Vicodin. 708 00:45:42,731 --> 00:45:44,465 Can I have one? 709 00:46:19,935 --> 00:46:21,569 Lana: I hate feeling trapped. 710 00:46:23,505 --> 00:46:25,039 Stephen: I'd never want to trap you. 711 00:46:27,342 --> 00:46:28,643 You can tell me whatever you want. 712 00:46:32,147 --> 00:46:34,148 You know that, right? 713 00:46:34,150 --> 00:46:35,416 Lana: I know. 714 00:46:51,967 --> 00:46:53,434 Choke me. 715 00:46:55,337 --> 00:46:57,471 Now? 716 00:46:57,473 --> 00:46:58,539 Yeah. 717 00:47:02,611 --> 00:47:06,013 I don't... I just -- 718 00:47:08,618 --> 00:47:11,786 I don't really feel like that now. 719 00:47:11,788 --> 00:47:13,888 Stephen: Hey. 720 00:47:13,890 --> 00:47:16,390 I don't want you to do anything that you don't want to do. 721 00:47:18,493 --> 00:47:20,795 Come here. Come back. 722 00:47:26,568 --> 00:47:30,338 I just feel at home with you, so... 723 00:47:30,340 --> 00:47:32,173 I just don't wanna have to pretend, or... 724 00:47:32,175 --> 00:47:35,643 And I don't want you to have to pretend anything. 725 00:47:53,162 --> 00:47:55,830 - Just like that? - Yeah, squeeze. 726 00:47:55,832 --> 00:47:57,498 Right here? 727 00:47:57,500 --> 00:47:59,767 Harder. Harder. 728 00:48:01,937 --> 00:48:03,704 You can't go harder? 729 00:48:03,706 --> 00:48:04,939 I'm trying. 730 00:48:06,576 --> 00:48:07,975 I mean, look. Come here. 731 00:48:14,850 --> 00:48:16,183 Put your hands there. 732 00:48:20,188 --> 00:48:22,857 - Yeah? - All right. 733 00:48:22,859 --> 00:48:24,592 - Like that? - Yeah. 734 00:48:24,594 --> 00:48:29,030 Okay. Now I want you to press as hard as you can. 735 00:48:30,265 --> 00:48:33,968 It's okay. Just let it out. 736 00:48:33,970 --> 00:48:37,371 Everything he did to you, i want you to take it out. 737 00:48:37,373 --> 00:48:41,976 Just take it out on me right now. Do it now. 738 00:48:41,978 --> 00:48:44,245 Do it harder. 739 00:48:44,247 --> 00:48:46,547 Harder. Harder. 740 00:48:47,917 --> 00:48:51,352 Harder. Harder. 741 00:49:19,247 --> 00:49:23,351 Stephen! Stephen! 742 00:49:23,353 --> 00:49:25,619 Stephen, wake up! 743 00:49:25,621 --> 00:49:27,455 Stephen! 744 00:49:30,793 --> 00:49:33,461 Stephen, please, wake up! 745 00:49:33,463 --> 00:49:34,962 Stephen! 746 00:49:48,477 --> 00:49:49,677 Oh, my god. 747 00:49:57,285 --> 00:50:00,187 - Oh, my god! - Are you okay? 748 00:50:07,295 --> 00:50:08,763 I love you. 749 00:50:10,665 --> 00:50:12,066 What'd you say? 750 00:50:12,068 --> 00:50:13,401 I love you. 751 00:50:19,174 --> 00:50:21,075 What? 752 00:50:21,077 --> 00:50:24,178 - I can't do this. - It's okay. 753 00:50:24,180 --> 00:50:27,481 I'm not gonna let anything happen to you. 754 00:50:27,483 --> 00:50:30,051 Stephen, I can't do this! 755 00:50:30,053 --> 00:50:32,153 It's okay. 756 00:52:05,247 --> 00:52:07,014 Lana: Steven. 757 00:52:07,016 --> 00:52:10,151 Please, you have to stop calling me. 758 00:52:10,153 --> 00:52:12,453 I don't wanna talk to you. 759 00:52:12,455 --> 00:52:14,355 I mean it. 760 00:52:14,357 --> 00:52:15,422 Bye. 761 00:52:23,965 --> 00:52:26,100 Jen: Steve, I just had a meeting 762 00:52:26,102 --> 00:52:29,170 with your publisher, maybe you remember them. 763 00:52:29,172 --> 00:52:31,005 We waited three hours... 764 00:52:31,007 --> 00:52:32,506 For you. 765 00:52:32,508 --> 00:52:34,341 Um, the bottom line is 766 00:52:34,343 --> 00:52:37,511 penguin does not want this true crime bullshit, 767 00:52:37,513 --> 00:52:39,480 like I told you, 768 00:52:39,482 --> 00:52:41,882 and they're pulling out of the original project, too. 769 00:52:41,884 --> 00:52:44,018 Oh, fuck! 770 00:52:44,020 --> 00:52:45,686 You have seven days to return the advance, 771 00:52:45,688 --> 00:52:47,621 and there's nothing else I can do. 772 00:52:47,623 --> 00:52:50,824 And you need a new editor because you no longer have one. 773 00:52:50,826 --> 00:52:52,826 I really hope you're able to get your shit together. 774 00:52:52,828 --> 00:52:54,295 Fuck you! 775 00:52:57,165 --> 00:52:59,366 Hey, it's Josh, where are you? 776 00:52:59,368 --> 00:53:01,202 I'm trying to save your seat, but these people are crazy. 777 00:53:01,204 --> 00:53:02,536 Call me. 778 00:53:02,538 --> 00:53:04,572 Shit! 779 00:53:10,512 --> 00:53:11,879 Judge: Have you reached a verdict? 780 00:53:11,881 --> 00:53:13,380 Woman: We have, your honor. 781 00:53:13,382 --> 00:53:15,049 The defendant will rise. 782 00:53:17,052 --> 00:53:18,719 Proceed. 783 00:53:18,721 --> 00:53:20,354 Woman: We the jury find the defendant 784 00:53:20,356 --> 00:53:23,324 guilty of murder in the first degree. 785 00:53:33,768 --> 00:53:36,837 Woman: We the jury find the defendant guilty of murder 786 00:53:36,839 --> 00:53:38,339 in the first degree. 787 00:53:38,341 --> 00:53:40,107 On or about December 1... 788 00:53:40,109 --> 00:53:43,644 - Hey, can I watch this? - Yeah, sure. 789 00:53:45,880 --> 00:53:47,948 Bailiff, remove Mr. Reiser 790 00:53:47,950 --> 00:53:49,550 from the courtroom, please. 791 00:53:49,552 --> 00:53:50,718 Thank you. 792 00:53:50,720 --> 00:53:52,720 Wait, take your hands off me. 793 00:53:52,722 --> 00:53:54,521 Wait! I just wanted to say that I was the best father 794 00:53:54,523 --> 00:53:56,190 that I knew how to be. 795 00:53:56,192 --> 00:53:59,460 I only tried to protect my children! 796 00:53:59,462 --> 00:54:01,562 Take your hands off me. 797 00:54:01,564 --> 00:54:04,398 I wanted to be the best father that I could be. 798 00:54:04,400 --> 00:54:06,300 Thanks. 799 00:54:11,373 --> 00:54:14,141 Oh, wow! Remember this? 800 00:54:14,143 --> 00:54:15,476 Oh! 801 00:54:15,478 --> 00:54:16,910 - Remember that mustang? - Yep. 802 00:54:16,912 --> 00:54:18,712 Shit, that was an awesome car! 803 00:54:18,714 --> 00:54:21,749 Yeah. 804 00:54:21,751 --> 00:54:22,983 Neil Elliott graduated 805 00:54:22,985 --> 00:54:24,752 from the university of natal. 806 00:54:24,754 --> 00:54:26,754 Served as an airborne meteorologist 807 00:54:26,756 --> 00:54:28,489 with the south African air force, 808 00:54:28,491 --> 00:54:31,058 worked as a geologist for two years 809 00:54:31,060 --> 00:54:33,360 before immigrating to the United States. 810 00:54:34,763 --> 00:54:37,064 What the fuck is this? 811 00:54:37,066 --> 00:54:39,500 Guess he wrote a few books before I was born. 812 00:54:41,137 --> 00:54:44,171 You know what hans said after the verdict? 813 00:54:44,173 --> 00:54:46,173 After the verdict? 814 00:54:46,175 --> 00:54:49,743 "I tried to be the best father i knew how to be." 815 00:54:49,745 --> 00:54:52,179 That's exactly what my dad fuckin' said. 816 00:54:52,181 --> 00:54:54,982 I mean, can you fuckin' believe that? 817 00:54:54,984 --> 00:54:57,117 I wanted to tell you I saw your dad the other day 818 00:54:57,119 --> 00:54:59,620 at the hospital when I was makin' my rounds. 819 00:54:59,622 --> 00:55:01,588 Why was he at the hospital? 820 00:55:01,590 --> 00:55:03,424 I don't know, but he was. 821 00:55:05,327 --> 00:55:08,429 My dad and hans are fuckin' delusional. 822 00:55:08,431 --> 00:55:10,097 "The best father i knew how to be"-- 823 00:55:10,099 --> 00:55:12,833 what the fuck, like it was all my fault? 824 00:55:12,835 --> 00:55:14,001 All this? 825 00:55:16,037 --> 00:55:17,204 What? 826 00:55:17,206 --> 00:55:18,639 Of the hans thing, 827 00:55:18,641 --> 00:55:20,140 of the trial, of all that was 828 00:55:20,142 --> 00:55:22,843 so that you could write about something different. 829 00:55:22,845 --> 00:55:24,812 So what? Back to me. 830 00:55:24,814 --> 00:55:27,815 You know what he fuckin' said, 831 00:55:27,817 --> 00:55:29,216 "i didn't have the right context." 832 00:55:29,218 --> 00:55:31,819 The right fucking context? 833 00:55:31,821 --> 00:55:35,522 He said I terrorized his new family. 834 00:55:35,524 --> 00:55:37,024 Terrorized! 835 00:55:37,026 --> 00:55:39,626 Terrorized is a bad word. It's not a good word. 836 00:55:39,628 --> 00:55:42,029 You think there's a better word that describes it? 837 00:55:44,532 --> 00:55:45,666 No. I'm sayin' I've been... 838 00:55:45,668 --> 00:55:47,501 I've, I've thought about it. 839 00:55:47,503 --> 00:55:49,136 I don't have a good feelin' about it. 840 00:55:49,138 --> 00:55:51,305 I feel like maybe we fucked his kids up. 841 00:55:51,307 --> 00:55:53,574 Are you serious? How? 842 00:55:53,576 --> 00:55:55,843 Because they saw us so out of control all the time. 843 00:55:55,845 --> 00:55:57,344 We weren't out of control. 844 00:55:57,346 --> 00:55:59,980 - Yeah, we were. - No, we weren't. 845 00:55:59,982 --> 00:56:02,049 Name one time. 846 00:56:02,051 --> 00:56:03,317 Want me to name one time? 847 00:56:05,653 --> 00:56:07,721 How about that-- one time? 848 00:56:07,723 --> 00:56:10,524 You totaled his mustang in front of the kids. 849 00:56:10,526 --> 00:56:12,893 Now that had to be terrifying for them. 850 00:56:12,895 --> 00:56:15,229 Are you seriously trying to make me feel bad about that? 851 00:56:15,231 --> 00:56:17,197 No. All right, 852 00:56:17,199 --> 00:56:20,100 you get the award for the shittiest father ever, right? 853 00:56:20,102 --> 00:56:22,269 But now you can see him from a whole new perspective 854 00:56:22,271 --> 00:56:25,572 if you want to, from an adult perspective, like a real adult. 855 00:56:25,574 --> 00:56:29,009 A real adult like Roger? That would be better? 856 00:56:29,011 --> 00:56:30,210 I didn't say it would be better. 857 00:56:30,212 --> 00:56:31,879 No, I didn't say that. 858 00:56:31,881 --> 00:56:35,549 What did you say-- that we both started in the same place 859 00:56:35,551 --> 00:56:38,051 and I ended up here and you ended up... 860 00:56:38,053 --> 00:56:39,553 What, getting everything good? 861 00:56:39,555 --> 00:56:41,388 A wife, kids, all that? 862 00:56:41,390 --> 00:56:42,523 Yeah, hell yeah. 863 00:56:42,525 --> 00:56:44,024 Yeah, I like being a father. 864 00:56:44,026 --> 00:56:45,025 I like it. 865 00:56:45,027 --> 00:56:47,060 Well, your dick works. 866 00:56:47,062 --> 00:56:49,763 That's great. Congratulations, man. 867 00:56:49,765 --> 00:56:52,866 - You're livin' the fuckin' dream. - How about fuck you, Stephen? 868 00:56:52,868 --> 00:56:54,802 How about that? 'Cause every time you get in some shitty little way, 869 00:56:54,804 --> 00:56:56,403 you just grab me and try to drag me 870 00:56:56,405 --> 00:56:57,404 right through it, so fuck you. 871 00:56:57,406 --> 00:56:58,405 Oh, man. You know what, 872 00:56:58,407 --> 00:57:00,607 you wanted to be a rock star, 873 00:57:00,609 --> 00:57:03,210 and now you fuckin' buy happy meals. 874 00:57:03,212 --> 00:57:05,879 I mean, they're gonna name mountains after you-- 875 00:57:05,881 --> 00:57:08,882 fuckin' mount i-played-it-fuckin'-safe. 876 00:57:08,884 --> 00:57:11,585 Look at you. You're exactly like your fuckin' father. 877 00:57:11,587 --> 00:57:14,221 Exactly like him! You're sittin' here, you're pouting and whining. 878 00:57:14,223 --> 00:57:17,057 You're fuckin' spinnin' out, and you're destroying your own life, 879 00:57:17,059 --> 00:57:20,594 and it's everybody else's fuckin' fault. So fuck you, man, 880 00:57:20,596 --> 00:57:22,596 and don't come around my family anymore either. 881 00:57:22,598 --> 00:57:23,831 I don't want you comin' around them no more. 882 00:57:23,833 --> 00:57:27,267 Oh, seriously? 883 00:57:27,269 --> 00:57:28,635 I don't wanna be around your... 884 00:57:28,637 --> 00:57:31,205 ...fuckin' family. 885 00:58:23,324 --> 00:58:26,360 Man: The charge is knocked down to murder ii, 886 00:58:26,362 --> 00:58:27,594 with chance of parole. 887 00:58:30,131 --> 00:58:31,665 If you produce a body, you have a deal-- 888 00:58:31,667 --> 00:58:35,068 murder ii, no chance of parole. 889 00:58:37,338 --> 00:58:41,742 I didn't want to kill Nina, but I did. 890 00:58:41,744 --> 00:58:44,478 She was leaving me for another man. 891 00:58:44,480 --> 00:58:47,381 I was devastated, lost control. 892 00:58:52,053 --> 00:58:55,322 She said 893 00:58:55,324 --> 00:58:57,457 she had never loved me. 894 00:59:00,862 --> 00:59:05,465 That she only married me to escape Russia. 895 00:59:07,835 --> 00:59:10,571 I took her neck in my hands... 896 00:59:13,608 --> 00:59:16,910 And I crushed it until I felt her throat collapse. 897 00:59:18,279 --> 00:59:20,747 That was it. 898 00:59:20,749 --> 00:59:23,684 All the anger, all the hatred. 899 00:59:23,686 --> 00:59:25,619 There was just silence. 900 00:59:30,558 --> 00:59:34,428 Lana, can I talk to you? 901 00:59:34,430 --> 00:59:36,363 Hey. 902 00:59:36,365 --> 00:59:37,364 - I'm sorry. - Don't touch me! 903 00:59:37,366 --> 00:59:38,432 Sorry. 904 00:59:40,468 --> 00:59:41,802 Can I please just... 905 00:59:41,804 --> 00:59:43,236 - Please? - Talk to Roger. 906 00:59:43,238 --> 00:59:44,771 If you need someone to talk to. 907 00:59:44,773 --> 00:59:46,473 Well, he's not answering my calls either. 908 00:59:46,475 --> 00:59:49,142 Please? I feel like I'm about to go underwater, okay? 909 00:59:49,144 --> 00:59:53,647 Can I just... Please talk to you... 910 00:59:53,649 --> 00:59:55,716 Please? 911 00:59:55,718 --> 00:59:59,486 You're the only person that's made me feel okay about myself... 912 00:59:59,488 --> 01:00:03,557 In my entire adult life, and I feel like I know you. 913 01:00:03,559 --> 01:00:07,394 From the first second i met you, I felt that. 914 01:00:12,166 --> 01:00:14,434 I know it feels that way, 915 01:00:14,436 --> 01:00:15,769 but maybe that's not a good thing. 916 01:00:15,771 --> 01:00:17,404 Why? 917 01:00:17,406 --> 01:00:20,440 Because you're gonna take me down with you. 918 01:00:20,442 --> 01:00:22,442 It's just who you are. 919 01:00:22,444 --> 01:00:25,479 Look, I'm fucked up, okay? 920 01:00:25,481 --> 01:00:27,848 Is that gonna be your excuse for the rest of your life? 921 01:00:27,850 --> 01:00:30,817 That you're too broken not to be completely selfish? 922 01:00:30,819 --> 01:00:32,486 Grow some fucking balls! 923 01:00:36,824 --> 01:00:40,627 At least I'm not pretending nothing's wrong with me. 924 01:00:40,629 --> 01:00:44,264 Oh, you're pretending plenty. 925 01:00:44,266 --> 01:00:45,499 You just don't see it. 926 01:00:48,102 --> 01:00:50,437 Here's those papers you wanted. 927 01:00:50,439 --> 01:00:52,539 They're pretty enlightening. 928 01:01:50,431 --> 01:01:53,567 Neil on TV: Okay, you ready for a ride? Hop on my back. 929 01:01:53,569 --> 01:01:56,870 Come on, man. See if you can stay on. You ready? 930 01:01:56,872 --> 01:01:59,106 You gotta hold on. Put your legs around me. 931 01:01:59,108 --> 01:02:00,407 Hold tight. Ready? 932 01:02:00,409 --> 01:02:01,708 Yeah! 933 01:02:12,220 --> 01:02:14,855 You're the one who should be in front of the camera. 934 01:02:14,857 --> 01:02:16,590 What are you doin' hidin' back there? 935 01:02:18,259 --> 01:02:20,093 There she is, ladies and gentlemen, 936 01:02:20,095 --> 01:02:22,262 the most beautiful woman in the world. 937 01:02:22,264 --> 01:02:25,132 Just like out of a fairy tale. 938 01:02:25,134 --> 01:02:28,468 Do you remember her like that? 939 01:02:28,470 --> 01:02:29,669 Not much. 940 01:02:33,574 --> 01:02:36,543 She really was the most beautiful woman I ever saw. 941 01:02:36,545 --> 01:02:38,779 Wave to daddy . 942 01:02:38,781 --> 01:02:42,215 I was your age then, right before you went to Chicago, 943 01:02:42,217 --> 01:02:43,617 and when she died... 944 01:02:45,420 --> 01:02:48,722 Man, I was so confused i couldn't stop screamin'. 945 01:02:48,724 --> 01:02:50,056 Yeah, I remember. 946 01:02:56,731 --> 01:02:58,899 You want coffee? 947 01:02:58,901 --> 01:03:00,100 What? 948 01:03:00,102 --> 01:03:01,802 Coffee. 949 01:03:01,804 --> 01:03:04,137 No! What the fuck are you doing? 950 01:03:05,473 --> 01:03:07,174 - Just waiting. - No. 951 01:03:07,176 --> 01:03:09,476 Dad, you broke into my house. 952 01:03:09,478 --> 01:03:12,012 What the fuck? 953 01:03:12,014 --> 01:03:15,816 Well, I wanted to give you somethin'. 954 01:03:15,818 --> 01:03:17,317 Jesus. I can't... 955 01:03:17,319 --> 01:03:18,752 I can't deal with this right now. 956 01:03:21,088 --> 01:03:24,491 I'm tryin' to apologize to you... 957 01:03:24,493 --> 01:03:26,626 Before it's too late. 958 01:03:26,628 --> 01:03:28,461 What does that mean? 959 01:03:28,463 --> 01:03:32,132 I had a bunch of tests done. 960 01:03:32,134 --> 01:03:33,600 I'm dying. 961 01:03:33,602 --> 01:03:34,968 Don't fuckin' lie to me! 962 01:03:34,970 --> 01:03:37,637 Will you just fuckin' listen to me? 963 01:03:37,639 --> 01:03:39,606 I'm a sick man. 964 01:03:39,608 --> 01:03:42,442 I wanted to come see you, make amends with my son. 965 01:03:42,444 --> 01:03:43,944 - Amends? - Yeah. 966 01:03:43,946 --> 01:03:45,512 What amends are you making? 967 01:03:45,514 --> 01:03:48,548 You're such a martyr. 968 01:03:48,550 --> 01:03:51,284 God, you always have been. What kid is like that? 969 01:03:51,286 --> 01:03:53,520 Think the world owes you somethin'. 970 01:03:53,522 --> 01:03:57,023 - Look, dad, I'm exhausted. - A lot of people look at your life 971 01:03:57,025 --> 01:03:58,491 and think it would be pretty good, you know. 972 01:03:58,493 --> 01:04:00,293 The New York times reviews, pretty girls, 973 01:04:00,295 --> 01:04:02,028 everybody kissin' your ass to be around a hot shit writer. 974 01:04:02,030 --> 01:04:03,396 Well, I can kiss all that good-bye 975 01:04:03,398 --> 01:04:04,965 'cause everything good in my life 976 01:04:04,967 --> 01:04:07,400 just disappeared as soon as you showed up! 977 01:04:07,402 --> 01:04:09,836 You wanna blame me? That's easy. 978 01:04:09,838 --> 01:04:12,472 And what are all the good things in your life that fell apart... 979 01:04:12,474 --> 01:04:13,707 What do they all have in common? 980 01:04:13,709 --> 01:04:15,308 - Here we go! - Yeah, you! 981 01:04:15,310 --> 01:04:17,344 I mean, you're a fuckin' curse. 982 01:04:17,346 --> 01:04:18,678 You're poison. 983 01:04:18,680 --> 01:04:20,914 You know, everything you touch you fuck up. 984 01:04:22,717 --> 01:04:25,051 Just get out of my house! 985 01:04:27,321 --> 01:04:28,388 All right. 986 01:04:31,592 --> 01:04:34,694 - Look, I made this for you. - Get out! 987 01:04:34,696 --> 01:04:35,695 Just promise me that you'll look at it. 988 01:04:35,697 --> 01:04:37,264 Get out! 989 01:04:37,266 --> 01:04:39,065 - Did you see this... - Get out of my house! 990 01:04:39,067 --> 01:04:40,433 I will get out of your house, 991 01:04:40,435 --> 01:04:42,702 but you just see for yourself, all right? 992 01:04:42,704 --> 01:04:45,272 I don't fuckin' have to look at it! 993 01:04:45,274 --> 01:04:47,007 You fuckin' hit your father. 994 01:04:50,211 --> 01:04:51,711 What, you wanna fight me, boy? 995 01:04:51,713 --> 01:04:53,513 Fucking fight an old man. 996 01:04:53,515 --> 01:04:54,614 Who the fuck do you think you're talkin' to? 997 01:04:54,616 --> 01:04:55,815 I'll ruin you! 998 01:04:57,051 --> 01:04:58,385 Come on. 999 01:04:58,387 --> 01:05:00,220 Huh? Come on! Fuckin' pussy. 1000 01:05:00,222 --> 01:05:02,188 Huh? You fuckin' faggot. 1001 01:05:02,190 --> 01:05:06,293 Huh? You waste of a life! Come on, hit me! 1002 01:05:06,295 --> 01:05:09,095 You wanna kill me so bad, hit me. Come on. Hit me. 1003 01:05:09,097 --> 01:05:10,897 I deserve it. Come on. Fight me, fight me! 1004 01:05:10,899 --> 01:05:12,699 Hit me! Hit me! Come on! 1005 01:05:12,701 --> 01:05:14,100 Hit me!!! 1006 01:05:17,271 --> 01:05:18,338 Oh, fuck! 1007 01:05:21,275 --> 01:05:23,109 - Fuck you! - Call 911. 1008 01:05:23,111 --> 01:05:25,645 Oh, fuck you! I'm not fuckin' buyin' it! 1009 01:05:31,752 --> 01:05:33,553 Ah, Stephen! 1010 01:05:40,161 --> 01:05:42,395 All right, all right, all right. 1011 01:05:42,397 --> 01:05:47,033 I'm a terrible father. I'm a terrible father. 1012 01:07:26,867 --> 01:07:29,102 Hi, Stephen. 1013 01:07:29,104 --> 01:07:31,237 I-- I don't know if I'm ever gonna, you know, 1014 01:07:31,239 --> 01:07:33,940 get a chance to see you again, 1015 01:07:33,942 --> 01:07:36,676 and even if I do, 1016 01:07:36,678 --> 01:07:38,845 we were never so good at communicating. 1017 01:07:38,847 --> 01:07:41,181 So... 1018 01:07:41,183 --> 01:07:43,516 Well, there are some things I wanna tell you, so... 1019 01:07:43,518 --> 01:07:45,618 That's why I'm doing this. 1020 01:07:45,620 --> 01:07:47,087 You know, that story you tell 1021 01:07:47,089 --> 01:07:49,022 about the time I shaved your head 1022 01:07:49,024 --> 01:07:52,058 and I restrained you, 1023 01:07:52,060 --> 01:07:56,229 was actually two different times. 1024 01:07:56,231 --> 01:08:00,767 The first time you were squatting at the house. 1025 01:08:00,769 --> 01:08:04,137 It had been empty for a year, 1026 01:08:04,139 --> 01:08:08,641 and I needed that money so badly. 1027 01:08:08,643 --> 01:08:10,376 I finally found a buyer, 1028 01:08:10,378 --> 01:08:12,946 and I had to show the house once more 1029 01:08:12,948 --> 01:08:15,548 before the deal closed. 1030 01:08:15,550 --> 01:08:19,919 I got there, and you trashed the place. 1031 01:08:19,921 --> 01:08:23,389 Thousands of dollars in damage, 1032 01:08:23,391 --> 01:08:28,161 and I was so angry that I hit you and I cut your hair. 1033 01:08:28,163 --> 01:08:32,932 You know, afterwards you were crying in the bathtub. 1034 01:08:32,934 --> 01:08:34,834 It was really horrible. 1035 01:08:40,641 --> 01:08:45,011 The second time... 1036 01:08:45,013 --> 01:08:49,482 I did it to try to stop you from killin' yourself. 1037 01:08:49,484 --> 01:08:51,351 You were livin' on the street 1038 01:08:51,353 --> 01:08:53,319 and I came upon you sittin' outside an arcade 1039 01:08:53,321 --> 01:08:55,121 and I asked you what was up, you know, 1040 01:08:55,123 --> 01:08:56,823 what your plans were, and you said well, 1041 01:08:56,825 --> 01:08:58,892 I guess, I'll just commit suicide. 1042 01:09:02,296 --> 01:09:04,197 I had to go to work, 1043 01:09:04,199 --> 01:09:05,965 and I didn't know what the hell to do. 1044 01:09:05,967 --> 01:09:07,700 I took you back to the empty house 1045 01:09:07,702 --> 01:09:11,437 and then you really got out of control. 1046 01:09:11,439 --> 01:09:14,107 You know, you were trying to cut your wrists open, so I... 1047 01:09:14,109 --> 01:09:17,143 I handcuffed you to this radiator pipe 1048 01:09:17,145 --> 01:09:18,878 while I tried to, you know, 1049 01:09:18,880 --> 01:09:21,881 reach my own decision whether to call the cops 1050 01:09:21,883 --> 01:09:24,884 or if that would put you in jail. 1051 01:09:26,554 --> 01:09:28,321 Thirty minutes later, 1052 01:09:28,323 --> 01:09:31,991 I came back to check on you and you were hanging there, 1053 01:09:31,993 --> 01:09:35,461 passed out in a puddle of blood at your feet, 1054 01:09:35,463 --> 01:09:37,397 and I thought you were dead. 1055 01:09:37,399 --> 01:09:41,367 It was like a bolt of lightning hit my heart. 1056 01:09:43,170 --> 01:09:47,140 I just couldn't bear the thought of livin' 1057 01:09:47,142 --> 01:09:49,242 knowin' what I'd done to you. 1058 01:09:52,479 --> 01:09:55,982 Part of me I don't think 1059 01:09:55,984 --> 01:09:58,551 ever came back from that moment. 1060 01:09:58,553 --> 01:10:00,320 I took the handcuffs off you 1061 01:10:00,322 --> 01:10:02,422 and I said, 1062 01:10:02,424 --> 01:10:04,824 "you do whatever you wanna do, son." 1063 01:10:06,694 --> 01:10:09,395 You didn't want anything to do with me. 1064 01:10:09,397 --> 01:10:10,964 I can't blame you for that. 1065 01:10:13,567 --> 01:10:17,570 I keep tryin' to apologize to you, 1066 01:10:17,572 --> 01:10:20,707 but it all goes wrong. 1067 01:10:20,709 --> 01:10:24,277 Maybe there just isn't a way to make amends 1068 01:10:24,279 --> 01:10:27,914 for somethin' like this. 1069 01:10:27,916 --> 01:10:32,452 Not that it matters, but honestly, i-- 1070 01:10:32,454 --> 01:10:34,854 I only ever tried to do right by you. 1071 01:10:39,927 --> 01:10:43,596 I'm a broken man, 1072 01:10:43,598 --> 01:10:46,099 and I just... 1073 01:10:46,101 --> 01:10:48,167 I hope you won't be like me. 1074 01:11:00,781 --> 01:11:02,448 Fuck! 1075 01:11:19,566 --> 01:11:21,267 Roger: Could you ask me some questions? 1076 01:11:21,269 --> 01:11:25,305 I'm not good at making speeches. 1077 01:11:25,307 --> 01:11:28,408 Did you think you had a chance at a better verdict? 1078 01:11:28,410 --> 01:11:31,844 Look, I knew I wasn't gonna get away with it. 1079 01:11:31,846 --> 01:11:35,014 I mean, I looked guilty, 1080 01:11:35,016 --> 01:11:37,083 I am guilty, 1081 01:11:37,085 --> 01:11:41,020 but a father does what he has to do 1082 01:11:41,022 --> 01:11:44,924 in order to protect his children. 1083 01:11:44,926 --> 01:11:47,293 Okay. Um... 1084 01:11:47,295 --> 01:11:49,429 If you knew that you weren't going for innocence, 1085 01:11:49,431 --> 01:11:51,664 then why didn't you just plead guilty in the beginning 1086 01:11:51,666 --> 01:11:53,466 and get a deal? 1087 01:11:53,468 --> 01:11:55,702 I mean, I heard Dubois made a deal for seven years 1088 01:11:55,704 --> 01:11:57,136 because the da didn't wanna go to court. 1089 01:11:57,138 --> 01:11:59,205 But who would've cared? 1090 01:11:59,207 --> 01:12:01,374 I had the most publicized trial in years. 1091 01:12:01,376 --> 01:12:03,109 Would you be interested in following the story 1092 01:12:03,111 --> 01:12:05,611 of a murderer who took a plea bargain? 1093 01:12:05,613 --> 01:12:08,448 But I thought you said you did it for your children. 1094 01:12:08,450 --> 01:12:11,117 I did. Everything I've ever done was for them. 1095 01:12:11,119 --> 01:12:14,721 But you insured that you would never see them again. 1096 01:12:14,723 --> 01:12:16,389 I mean, they're not gonna have a father. 1097 01:12:16,391 --> 01:12:18,558 I don't... 1098 01:12:18,560 --> 01:12:19,692 I don't know. 1099 01:12:19,694 --> 01:12:20,693 I don't know what to tell you. 1100 01:12:20,695 --> 01:12:23,129 Validation is a helluva drug. 1101 01:12:26,401 --> 01:12:27,800 What? What's funny? 1102 01:12:34,376 --> 01:12:36,542 Just the truth's a motherfucker. 1103 01:12:41,081 --> 01:12:44,050 Thanks. I'll see you. 1104 01:15:48,902 --> 01:15:51,003 So you wrote all that in two days? 1105 01:15:51,005 --> 01:15:52,838 Yeah, I mean, I put it down on paper in two days, 1106 01:15:52,840 --> 01:15:55,541 but I mean, this is the book that I've... 1107 01:15:55,543 --> 01:15:57,009 I've been wanting to write. 1108 01:15:57,011 --> 01:16:00,746 I just didn't know that until... Until now. 1109 01:16:03,183 --> 01:16:05,384 So let's find you a publisher. 1110 01:16:05,386 --> 01:16:06,953 It's not going to be penguin, 1111 01:16:06,955 --> 01:16:09,522 but I've got a friend at grey wolf 1112 01:16:09,524 --> 01:16:11,791 I think would be into this idea. 1113 01:16:11,793 --> 01:16:13,259 It won't be a big advance, 1114 01:16:13,261 --> 01:16:16,796 but something to get us back on track. 1115 01:16:18,432 --> 01:16:19,498 Us? 1116 01:16:21,268 --> 01:16:23,002 Us. 1117 01:16:33,046 --> 01:16:34,347 Hey. 1118 01:16:37,584 --> 01:16:38,818 Brought you some coffee. 1119 01:16:48,729 --> 01:16:50,763 I'm in no mood, Elliott. 1120 01:16:50,765 --> 01:16:53,499 That was your decaf. 1121 01:16:53,501 --> 01:16:55,201 You can have my coffee, if you want. 1122 01:17:00,307 --> 01:17:02,742 I also brought you some blueberries. 1123 01:17:02,744 --> 01:17:06,345 So many gifts and so few actual apologies. 1124 01:17:06,347 --> 01:17:07,713 I don't know where to start. 1125 01:17:09,583 --> 01:17:11,217 Start with the hydrangeas. 1126 01:17:19,760 --> 01:17:21,761 And for the record--no. 1127 01:17:21,763 --> 01:17:24,530 It's not my life's plan to be watering these things. 1128 01:17:26,466 --> 01:17:29,802 I feed them bone meal so they stay blue. 1129 01:17:29,804 --> 01:17:31,270 She loves it, so. 1130 01:17:32,973 --> 01:17:36,375 I'd be doin' this if I had the chance. 1131 01:17:36,377 --> 01:17:38,177 I'd be doin' all of this. 1132 01:17:42,516 --> 01:17:45,317 Sorry, Roger. 1133 01:17:45,319 --> 01:17:48,654 I'm a pretty shitty person. 1134 01:17:48,656 --> 01:17:51,057 No, you're not. 1135 01:17:51,059 --> 01:17:52,625 You're my family. 1136 01:17:55,462 --> 01:17:59,899 You-- you knew me when i was the messiest kid out of all of us. 1137 01:17:59,901 --> 01:18:03,335 You never gave me any grief about that, not once. 1138 01:18:03,337 --> 01:18:06,305 You kept showin' up for me. So... 1139 01:18:08,675 --> 01:18:12,311 I'm not gonna walk away from this over a few words. 1140 01:18:17,384 --> 01:18:18,918 You wanna go for a ride? 1141 01:18:21,321 --> 01:18:22,588 You're all wet. 1142 01:18:25,492 --> 01:18:28,227 Yeah. We can even that up. 1143 01:18:30,063 --> 01:18:32,865 - Bitch. - Sorry, it just slipped. 1144 01:18:32,867 --> 01:18:34,366 - Oh, that slipped? - Yeah. 1145 01:18:34,368 --> 01:18:36,235 Motherfucker! What are you doin', dude? 1146 01:18:36,237 --> 01:18:38,104 Don't, don't, don't, don't! 1147 01:18:38,106 --> 01:18:40,573 Nina's mother Christina says she is relieved 1148 01:18:40,575 --> 01:18:42,541 the children may come to some sense of closure... 1149 01:18:42,543 --> 01:18:45,711 What time is it? 1150 01:18:45,713 --> 01:18:48,714 We have about an hour. Your flight's at 6:00. 1151 01:18:48,716 --> 01:18:51,951 We should pull the rental car around. 1152 01:18:51,953 --> 01:18:53,352 I already did. 1153 01:18:53,354 --> 01:18:54,854 You know you're not drivin'. 1154 01:18:54,856 --> 01:18:57,723 Oh, great! You can kill us both. 1155 01:19:01,362 --> 01:19:04,196 You remember when you taught me to drive? 1156 01:19:04,198 --> 01:19:06,565 I was 14. 1157 01:19:06,567 --> 01:19:10,202 You let me drive out to Warren park in a '69 mustang. 1158 01:19:11,972 --> 01:19:14,440 I loved that car. 1159 01:19:14,442 --> 01:19:17,777 You used to take me out, let me drive. 1160 01:19:17,779 --> 01:19:21,313 I remember feelin' so happy and free, 1161 01:19:21,315 --> 01:19:24,650 full of hope and potential. 1162 01:19:24,652 --> 01:19:26,218 Neil: I don't know why you always told people 1163 01:19:26,220 --> 01:19:29,421 I taught you to drive in the mustang. 1164 01:19:29,423 --> 01:19:34,393 It was a red 1968 oldsmobile delmont convertible 1165 01:19:34,395 --> 01:19:37,496 in Warren park in the parkin' lot. 1166 01:19:37,498 --> 01:19:41,901 You were belligerent, and you were a terrible driver. 1167 01:19:41,903 --> 01:19:43,669 So we only did it once. 1168 01:19:45,172 --> 01:19:46,605 Wanna go for a drive? 1169 01:19:46,607 --> 01:19:47,740 I don't wanna see you for an hour. 1170 01:19:47,742 --> 01:19:49,575 Nah, we'd just argue. 1171 01:19:49,577 --> 01:19:51,177 Fine. Then we'll just go. 1172 01:19:51,179 --> 01:19:54,113 We'll agree not to talk. It doesn't matter. 1173 01:19:54,115 --> 01:19:55,514 None of it matters. 1174 01:19:55,516 --> 01:19:59,752 All right. You gotta help me up here. 1175 01:19:59,754 --> 01:20:01,654 Help your old dad get up. 1176 01:20:02,305 --> 01:20:08,328 Support us and become VIP member to remove all ads from www.OpenSubtitles.org