1 00:00:35,994 --> 00:00:38,789 Have you ever wanted to be noticed so badly, 2 00:00:38,872 --> 00:00:40,624 you didn't even care what it was for? 3 00:00:50,926 --> 00:00:55,389 You just wake up every day thinking, "I want to be seen." 4 00:00:59,935 --> 00:01:03,397 To be completely honest, Danni Sanders might actually be the worst person 5 00:01:03,480 --> 00:01:05,857 we've ever covered on this show, and we covered Hitler. 6 00:01:07,317 --> 00:01:08,902 I wanna be important. 7 00:01:10,028 --> 00:01:12,006 Okay, guys. Today, we're talking about white privilege. 8 00:01:12,030 --> 00:01:14,157 So you know we need to talk about Danni Sanders. 9 00:01:14,241 --> 00:01:15,826 …acting like she was the victim. 10 00:01:15,909 --> 00:01:18,745 I think that that turned a lot of people off to her. 11 00:01:19,955 --> 00:01:21,206 I wanna have purpose. 12 00:01:22,416 --> 00:01:24,293 So I was just gonna bleach the front bits, 13 00:01:24,376 --> 00:01:26,878 but I'm really not trying to get mistaken for Danni Sanders. 14 00:01:28,338 --> 00:01:29,339 I wanna be known. 15 00:01:37,556 --> 00:01:38,682 I wanna be loved. 16 00:01:43,937 --> 00:01:47,149 And the award for Most-Anticipated Death… 17 00:01:47,232 --> 00:01:49,877 - Danni Sanders! - I can't wait for her to kick the bucket. 18 00:01:49,901 --> 00:01:51,421 - Don't... - In fact, I'll do it for you. 19 00:01:51,445 --> 00:01:52,880 That's a little far. 20 00:01:52,904 --> 00:01:54,698 I'm not gonna go that far. It's a fine. 21 00:01:54,781 --> 00:01:55,991 Not for me. I own guns. 22 00:01:57,534 --> 00:01:58,827 I wanna matter. 23 00:02:11,173 --> 00:02:12,716 Yeah, well, let me tell you… 24 00:02:12,799 --> 00:02:15,844 Be careful what you fucking wish for. 25 00:02:25,562 --> 00:02:26,772 Okay. 26 00:02:29,775 --> 00:02:31,193 - Danni. - Yeah? 27 00:02:31,276 --> 00:02:33,487 Had a chance to read that article you sent me. 28 00:02:33,570 --> 00:02:34,988 - You did? - Mm-hmm. 29 00:02:35,072 --> 00:02:36,072 What did you think? 30 00:02:36,114 --> 00:02:38,408 Well, you've titled it, "Why am I so sad?" 31 00:02:38,492 --> 00:02:39,701 That's just a working title. 32 00:02:39,785 --> 00:02:42,287 "In a world surrounded by those who seem to have it all, 33 00:02:42,371 --> 00:02:45,248 I've settled on a few reasons for my own feelings of emptiness. 34 00:02:45,332 --> 00:02:48,085 The first is that I currently live in Bushwick." 35 00:02:48,168 --> 00:02:50,754 J-Train Bushwick. L-Train Bushwick would be fine. 36 00:02:50,837 --> 00:02:53,840 Just, like, somewhere you can get a decent match a, you know? 37 00:02:53,924 --> 00:02:58,387 "Reason number two, my lack of a private office at work." 38 00:02:58,470 --> 00:03:01,848 Open-concept spaces really drown out my inner voice. 39 00:03:01,932 --> 00:03:03,850 Finally, and this one really stuck with me. 40 00:03:03,934 --> 00:03:05,268 Okay. 41 00:03:05,352 --> 00:03:07,104 "Missing 9/11." 42 00:03:07,187 --> 00:03:08,230 Yeah. 43 00:03:09,231 --> 00:03:11,817 I was on a cruise with my parents when it happened. 44 00:03:12,401 --> 00:03:18,824 In general, I think we try to avoid expressing any kind of FOMO about 9/11. 45 00:03:18,907 --> 00:03:21,576 Did you read that article on The Cut? 46 00:03:22,202 --> 00:03:23,245 The one... 47 00:03:23,328 --> 00:03:27,290 It talked about how it was the single most formative trauma experience 48 00:03:27,374 --> 00:03:28,375 for "zillennials." 49 00:03:28,458 --> 00:03:30,085 And since I wasn't there, 50 00:03:30,168 --> 00:03:32,337 I didn't get to share that bond with my peers. 51 00:03:32,421 --> 00:03:34,464 You know, like, I didn't even know anyone that died. 52 00:03:34,548 --> 00:03:39,428 Okay. And you don't feel like it comes off a little tone-deaf? Offensive even. 53 00:03:39,511 --> 00:03:42,055 - Can't tone-deaf be, like, a brand though? - Oh, no. 54 00:03:42,139 --> 00:03:45,100 - Isn't that what Lena Dunham does? - You don't wanna be like Lena Dunham. 55 00:03:45,183 --> 00:03:47,728 I don't feel like you take me seriously as a writer. 56 00:03:47,811 --> 00:03:53,191 That's because you're not a writer. You're a photo editor. 57 00:03:53,275 --> 00:03:55,277 One who's very late on their deadlines. 58 00:03:55,360 --> 00:03:58,196 Deadlines that should take priority over personal goals. 59 00:03:58,280 --> 00:04:00,574 I've just been having a difficult time focusing lately. 60 00:04:00,657 --> 00:04:04,661 And I've been having a difficult time ending this conversation. And we're done. 61 00:04:04,745 --> 00:04:05,746 Okay. 62 00:04:06,455 --> 00:04:09,040 Gonna load up the Head space app after that. 63 00:04:09,583 --> 00:04:12,252 - Hi, Harper. - Interesting article pitch. 64 00:04:12,335 --> 00:04:13,378 Thanks. 65 00:04:14,755 --> 00:04:17,340 Hey, Susan, I just uploaded the new draft for Tuesday. 66 00:04:17,424 --> 00:04:21,136 Thank you. Oh, and great work on that RBG retrospective. 67 00:04:21,219 --> 00:04:23,406 I can't believe you got that quote from her personal trainer. 68 00:04:23,430 --> 00:04:25,599 Thank you. I was thinking of using it as my sample 69 00:04:25,682 --> 00:04:27,517 to apply for a couple writers' retreats. 70 00:04:27,601 --> 00:04:30,395 Oh, a retreat. Yeah, you would be a shoo-in. 71 00:04:30,479 --> 00:04:31,563 Oh, thank you. 72 00:04:31,646 --> 00:04:32,981 They love SCOTUS. 73 00:04:43,742 --> 00:04:45,494 Hey, yo. Frame up on this shit. 74 00:05:00,467 --> 00:05:01,861 - Colin, dude, how was the trip? - Ah! 75 00:05:01,885 --> 00:05:05,847 Man, you know how it was. Lit as shit. Lick a tit. We did it. 76 00:05:06,681 --> 00:05:08,850 Also, peep this. I learned how to twist it. 77 00:05:08,934 --> 00:05:10,654 That's a scorpion joint right fucking there. 78 00:05:10,685 --> 00:05:12,413 - That's so cool. - Yo, zoom in on that. 79 00:05:12,437 --> 00:05:14,415 - He can't hear you. - I said zoom in on it. 80 00:05:14,439 --> 00:05:15,607 No, do it like I meant. 81 00:05:17,567 --> 00:05:20,167 We're gonna do it again. Gotta do it again. Everybody back inside. 82 00:05:26,868 --> 00:05:30,288 - Hey, Danni's in the house. - Okay. 83 00:05:30,372 --> 00:05:32,207 Um… Oh, I've had a crazy morning. 84 00:05:32,290 --> 00:05:35,961 I just found a new shortcut for sharpening in camera RAW. 85 00:05:36,044 --> 00:05:38,964 That is great, Kevin. 86 00:05:39,798 --> 00:05:43,969 It's Kelvin. My name... it's... it's Kelvin. 87 00:05:44,052 --> 00:05:46,596 No. I don't think so. 88 00:05:48,682 --> 00:05:49,683 Okay. 89 00:06:01,945 --> 00:06:03,780 I'm pretty sure, though, that, um… 90 00:06:07,868 --> 00:06:10,096 - Sarah's coming tonight. - Like, Sarah, Sarah? 91 00:06:10,120 --> 00:06:11,200 Yeah, Sarah from Cubbyhole. 92 00:06:11,246 --> 00:06:13,099 - So you're drinking tequila tonight. - Yeah, I am. 93 00:06:13,123 --> 00:06:14,916 It's the tequila 94 00:06:15,000 --> 00:06:16,793 -It's the tequila -It's the tequila 95 00:06:16,877 --> 00:06:18,795 Wait. What's happening tonight? 96 00:06:18,879 --> 00:06:22,716 - We're going queer bowling. - Yas, queen! Slay! 97 00:06:24,551 --> 00:06:27,971 You know me. I'll probably just drink alone in my apartment till I black out 98 00:06:28,054 --> 00:06:30,432 and call my old best friend from high school, or something. 99 00:06:34,728 --> 00:06:37,731 Is this queer bowling night only for LGBTs? 100 00:06:37,814 --> 00:06:39,983 - Yeah. Yeah. - Okay. 101 00:06:42,861 --> 00:06:44,988 You know… 102 00:06:45,071 --> 00:06:48,533 …I made out with a girl at an NYU party once. 103 00:06:48,617 --> 00:06:51,494 So, I might be bi. 104 00:06:51,578 --> 00:06:54,122 Not with those nails. 105 00:06:54,205 --> 00:06:55,332 What's wrong with my nails? 106 00:06:59,336 --> 00:07:01,504 Just wishful thinking. 107 00:07:01,588 --> 00:07:04,349 You guys are so lucky. You have, like, a community. You have a parade. 108 00:07:04,424 --> 00:07:07,677 - You have your own bowling night... - Yeah, being a minority is great. 109 00:07:07,761 --> 00:07:09,304 Right? 110 00:07:09,387 --> 00:07:12,182 Well, have fun. 111 00:07:14,643 --> 00:07:16,686 - I hate straight people. - Uh-huh. 112 00:07:18,146 --> 00:07:19,522 - Hi, Mom. - Hi. 113 00:07:19,606 --> 00:07:21,900 - You wanna hang out tonight? - I can't. It's Friday. 114 00:07:21,983 --> 00:07:23,193 Oh. 115 00:07:23,276 --> 00:07:25,570 Yeah, no worries. That's all good. I understand. 116 00:07:25,654 --> 00:07:29,950 Girl boss book club is pretty… unmissable. 117 00:07:30,033 --> 00:07:35,080 Hi, it's your favorite writer, socialite, scammer, Caroline Calloway. 118 00:07:35,163 --> 00:07:38,083 I'm here in London right now to meet up with my UK publisher. 119 00:07:38,166 --> 00:07:42,671 You guys are such a big part of why this is happening. Fucking love you guys. 120 00:08:08,405 --> 00:08:10,699 No way. Je obsessed. 121 00:08:27,382 --> 00:08:28,633 Colin. 122 00:08:28,717 --> 00:08:31,553 Oh, shit. What up, honey? Yeah, I can't take a pic right now, but... 123 00:08:31,636 --> 00:08:33,138 No, no, no. Danni, from work. 124 00:08:33,221 --> 00:08:35,199 - Danni. Yeah. What's good? - What are you doing here? 125 00:08:35,223 --> 00:08:37,142 - Do you live in Bushwick? - Me? No. Fuck no. 126 00:08:37,225 --> 00:08:39,644 - I'm so... - No. No, I'd never live here. 127 00:08:39,728 --> 00:08:43,732 Uh, no. I'm supposed to be going to, uh… 128 00:08:43,815 --> 00:08:45,108 There. 129 00:08:45,859 --> 00:08:47,235 Matcha Baby. 130 00:08:47,318 --> 00:08:50,530 Plus my plug lives here, so two birds, one stone. 131 00:08:50,613 --> 00:08:53,658 Yeah, I smoke marijuana, like, all the time. 132 00:08:53,742 --> 00:08:54,951 Ever see one of these? 133 00:09:09,132 --> 00:09:10,133 Other side. 134 00:09:21,936 --> 00:09:23,396 Okay. 135 00:09:25,774 --> 00:09:26,775 Oh, shit. 136 00:09:28,485 --> 00:09:29,486 Good. 137 00:09:32,030 --> 00:09:34,407 Yo, Colin! It's that weed blogger from Depravity. 138 00:09:34,491 --> 00:09:35,825 Hey, yo, shorty. What up? 139 00:09:35,909 --> 00:09:38,787 Yo. I love your videos, man. Costa Rica looks sick. 140 00:09:38,870 --> 00:09:40,955 Let's go, baby! Stay up, boss. 141 00:09:41,581 --> 00:09:42,999 Aight. What up? You good? 142 00:09:44,000 --> 00:09:46,211 So cool that you have a fan. 143 00:09:46,294 --> 00:09:47,480 Oh, yeah. I got... I got a bunch. 144 00:09:47,504 --> 00:09:49,089 That's just one. 145 00:09:49,172 --> 00:09:50,799 Hmm. 146 00:09:52,509 --> 00:09:54,094 So, like, what are you? 147 00:09:55,762 --> 00:09:57,472 Like, at Depravity? What are you? 148 00:09:57,555 --> 00:09:58,681 I'm a... I'm a writer. 149 00:09:58,765 --> 00:10:02,102 I started in the photo department, but I'm transitioning. 150 00:10:02,185 --> 00:10:07,190 And then I'm looking to, like, develop my work more by, like, uh, traveling. 151 00:10:07,774 --> 00:10:10,454 And maybe, like, going on one of those writer retreats or something. 152 00:10:10,485 --> 00:10:11,962 - Oh, you're going on re-treat? - Sort of retreat. 153 00:10:11,986 --> 00:10:13,346 - What? - You're going on re-treat? 154 00:10:14,197 --> 00:10:16,783 - That's tight. - Oh, I just got invited to a re-treat. 155 00:10:19,619 --> 00:10:21,412 Retreat's actually coming up next week. 156 00:10:24,916 --> 00:10:25,959 I'm going to Paris for it. 157 00:10:27,669 --> 00:10:29,754 Shit. That's dope. 158 00:10:30,338 --> 00:10:32,507 - Hey, get pics. - I'm gonna get lots of pics. Yeah. 159 00:10:34,467 --> 00:10:38,429 By the way, this was laced with mad wax. So your tolerance must be OD as fuck. 160 00:10:38,972 --> 00:10:39,973 Damn, ma. 161 00:10:42,433 --> 00:10:45,019 Good luck in Paris, Jenny. Good to meet you. 162 00:10:45,103 --> 00:10:46,437 Danni. 163 00:10:46,521 --> 00:10:48,041 - What's up? - My name's Danni. 164 00:10:49,274 --> 00:10:50,275 No, it's Colin. 165 00:10:51,985 --> 00:10:53,625 I'll see you at work. Or I guess I won't. 166 00:10:59,826 --> 00:11:01,578 Oh! 167 00:11:06,249 --> 00:11:07,500 Fuck me. 168 00:11:23,683 --> 00:11:24,684 Oh. 169 00:11:27,437 --> 00:11:30,523 Why, Danni, why? 170 00:11:31,191 --> 00:11:33,568 Why'd you do that? 171 00:11:50,001 --> 00:11:51,711 Okay, crazy bitch. 172 00:11:54,464 --> 00:11:56,966 Paris. Paris, Paris, Paris. 173 00:11:58,927 --> 00:12:01,763 All right. How much are you, Paris? 174 00:12:04,057 --> 00:12:05,058 Shit. 175 00:12:09,354 --> 00:12:11,481 What do you think? 176 00:12:11,564 --> 00:12:12,982 Should we call Mommy and Daddy? 177 00:12:13,775 --> 00:12:17,862 See if they'll buy us a ticket? Will they know that we're on drugs? 178 00:12:18,529 --> 00:12:22,867 Just kidding. I know that you're not on drugs. 179 00:12:42,011 --> 00:12:44,264 Guinea Weasley, 180 00:12:44,347 --> 00:12:45,974 you're a fucking genius. 181 00:12:50,395 --> 00:12:51,729 Hello? 182 00:12:51,813 --> 00:12:55,984 Susan. Hi. Danni. I had a question. 183 00:12:56,734 --> 00:12:58,403 If a really big opportunity came up, 184 00:12:58,486 --> 00:13:00,613 would there be a way to get some time off work? 185 00:13:00,697 --> 00:13:03,116 - Absolutely not. - Amazing. Thank you. Bye. 186 00:13:03,783 --> 00:13:04,951 Hey, Mom. 187 00:13:05,034 --> 00:13:06,327 - Guess what? - What? 188 00:13:06,411 --> 00:13:09,205 I got invited to a writers' retreat in Paris. 189 00:13:09,289 --> 00:13:10,832 - Really? - Yes, really. 190 00:13:10,915 --> 00:13:12,417 It's not a scam? 191 00:13:12,500 --> 00:13:15,003 No, it's not a scam. 192 00:13:16,129 --> 00:13:17,297 It has a website. 193 00:13:17,880 --> 00:13:19,632 Hey, guys. Crazy plot twist. 194 00:13:19,716 --> 00:13:23,261 I got an e-mail today inviting me to go on this retreat in Paris. 195 00:13:23,344 --> 00:13:25,888 I'm on my way to the airport. 196 00:13:30,018 --> 00:13:33,646 So for this very chic beauty look, we're gonna be taking this concealer. 197 00:13:33,730 --> 00:13:35,815 And we go dot, dot, dot. 198 00:13:36,399 --> 00:13:38,276 And dot there. 199 00:14:45,385 --> 00:14:48,304 The next weekend, I did step up my outfit game a little 200 00:14:48,388 --> 00:14:49,889 because it was time to head to Paris 201 00:14:49,972 --> 00:14:52,225 and mispronounce the names of all the pastries. 202 00:14:52,308 --> 00:14:54,644 I'm gonna stress-eat my croissant a little bit 203 00:14:54,727 --> 00:14:57,688 to ease the discomfort of vlogging in public. 204 00:14:57,772 --> 00:15:01,359 I'm getting dressed for a date. A first date in fact. Now my... 205 00:15:05,321 --> 00:15:06,322 Oh, my God. 206 00:15:06,406 --> 00:15:09,367 …whether I look like I'm trying too hard or don't try hard enough. 207 00:15:09,450 --> 00:15:12,412 Like, trying to find the fucking effortless sexy balance 208 00:15:12,495 --> 00:15:14,539 that is always impossible to find. 209 00:15:14,622 --> 00:15:17,375 I thought it would be easier since I only have about 40 items… 210 00:15:17,458 --> 00:15:18,459 Okay. 211 00:15:18,543 --> 00:15:19,603 But somehow, I have… 212 00:15:19,627 --> 00:15:25,341 3:00 a. m. That's 9:00 a. m. Paris time. I'll post… 213 00:15:26,300 --> 00:15:28,404 Clothes are everywhere. I've only tried about every… 214 00:15:28,428 --> 00:15:32,849 Starting my morning right. 215 00:15:32,932 --> 00:15:36,644 Now, where is my baguette? 216 00:15:36,727 --> 00:15:39,564 …very, like, French-maid-chic. 217 00:15:39,647 --> 00:15:42,817 It feels like a little bit more of a classic first date outfit though. 218 00:15:42,900 --> 00:15:46,487 Usually with a bit of an open neckline, so that when you're chatting... 219 00:16:16,392 --> 00:16:17,393 Shit. 220 00:16:23,441 --> 00:16:24,442 Okay. 221 00:16:43,127 --> 00:16:46,422 We have some breaking news at this hour. 222 00:16:46,506 --> 00:16:52,386 A string of coordinated terrorist attacks struck Paris this morning at 9:13 a. m., 223 00:16:52,470 --> 00:16:55,097 targeting landmarks across the city. 224 00:16:55,181 --> 00:16:57,308 The bombings hit the Louvre, the Champs-Élysées, 225 00:16:57,391 --> 00:16:59,852 the Centre Pompidou and the Arc de Triomphe. 226 00:17:00,603 --> 00:17:02,438 Oh, fuck. 227 00:17:08,694 --> 00:17:09,695 Hi, Mom. Hi, Mom. 228 00:17:09,779 --> 00:17:11,030 Oh, my God. Danni? 229 00:17:11,113 --> 00:17:13,157 - Yeah. - Honey, she's okay! 230 00:17:13,241 --> 00:17:15,284 - I'm okay. - What happened? Where have you been? 231 00:17:15,368 --> 00:17:17,679 - We have been calling for hours. - No... I'm fine. I'm okay. 232 00:17:17,703 --> 00:17:19,303 - Thank God. - Where are you? 233 00:17:19,330 --> 00:17:21,624 Yeah, no, I'm... I'm not actually... 234 00:17:21,707 --> 00:17:24,144 - When can she come home? - It's a long story. But... What? 235 00:17:24,168 --> 00:17:25,294 Are you able to leave? 236 00:17:25,378 --> 00:17:27,814 - I could call our travel agent... - No, no, no. I'm... I'm not… 237 00:17:27,838 --> 00:17:29,733 Harold, call your mother. She keeps trying this line. 238 00:17:29,757 --> 00:17:31,735 - I told her to call my cell. - Grandma knows? 239 00:17:31,759 --> 00:17:33,886 Magdalena called. You remember, your old nanny? 240 00:17:33,970 --> 00:17:36,406 - She follows you on the Instagram... - Okay, I just need to... Shi... 241 00:17:36,430 --> 00:17:38,599 - Oh, my God. What now? - Ow! 242 00:17:38,683 --> 00:17:40,035 - Are you okay? - Are you all right? 243 00:17:40,059 --> 00:17:41,060 Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah. 244 00:17:41,143 --> 00:17:44,397 - Danni! - Yeah. Hi. I'm fine. I gotta go. Okay? 245 00:17:44,480 --> 00:17:45,773 Danni! 246 00:17:45,856 --> 00:17:48,276 …but neither agency is reporting 247 00:17:48,359 --> 00:17:50,861 an official statement at this hour. 248 00:17:50,945 --> 00:17:55,408 So far, no terrorist organization has claimed responsibility for the attacks. 249 00:17:55,491 --> 00:18:00,705 However, multiple witnesses have reported seeing this suspicious individual, 250 00:18:00,788 --> 00:18:05,376 although officials have not identified a suspect at this hour. 251 00:18:09,672 --> 00:18:12,800 Just tell them you fucked up. You just tell them you fucked up. 252 00:18:13,843 --> 00:18:16,178 Oh, my God. Come on, you fucking idiot. 253 00:18:17,221 --> 00:18:18,556 So many. 254 00:18:23,894 --> 00:18:25,229 Really hope you're okay. 255 00:18:37,617 --> 00:18:40,494 I'm okay and safe. Period. 256 00:18:40,578 --> 00:18:42,330 I don't have reliable service yet, 257 00:18:42,413 --> 00:18:45,249 but please know, I am all right. Exclamation mark. 258 00:18:45,333 --> 00:18:49,045 Devastated for those who are not. Broken heart emoji. 259 00:19:04,852 --> 00:19:07,480 Air France flight 2677 now arriving. 260 00:19:09,482 --> 00:19:10,608 Here they come. 261 00:19:16,238 --> 00:19:20,409 Sir. Were you there at the Arc? Do you think this was an act of terrorism? 262 00:19:20,493 --> 00:19:22,286 Did you experience any of the attacks? 263 00:19:22,370 --> 00:19:25,331 We are live here at the International Arrival gate at JFK. 264 00:19:25,414 --> 00:19:27,541 The flight from Paris just got in. 265 00:19:27,625 --> 00:19:28,625 Danni? 266 00:19:29,168 --> 00:19:30,920 - Danni. Oh, my God. Honey. - Hi. 267 00:19:31,754 --> 00:19:34,256 Hi. 268 00:19:35,091 --> 00:19:36,217 Hi. 269 00:19:44,892 --> 00:19:46,018 Oh, God. 270 00:19:49,814 --> 00:19:51,190 You okay, Daddy? 271 00:19:51,273 --> 00:19:52,692 Here you go. 272 00:19:53,484 --> 00:19:56,654 Just the way you like it with the mini marshmallows. 273 00:19:57,613 --> 00:19:58,948 Wow. Thank you. 274 00:19:59,532 --> 00:20:02,743 You need to get that trauma out of your muscles before it sticks. 275 00:20:02,827 --> 00:20:05,496 So, I'm booking you a massage with Greta for tomorrow. 276 00:20:05,579 --> 00:20:08,290 And I want you to start taking these new supplements. 277 00:20:10,000 --> 00:20:11,127 Harold, pull it together. 278 00:20:11,711 --> 00:20:14,380 We could've lost her. Little baby girl. 279 00:20:15,047 --> 00:20:17,925 Sweetie, have you eaten yet? Did they feed you on the plane? 280 00:20:18,008 --> 00:20:19,135 Not really. 281 00:20:19,927 --> 00:20:21,595 Maybe we could order Momofuku? 282 00:20:21,679 --> 00:20:22,888 Oh, of course. 283 00:20:22,972 --> 00:20:26,308 Harold, do you have that, uh, app thing for the food? 284 00:20:26,392 --> 00:20:29,103 Seamless? Grubhub? 285 00:20:31,021 --> 00:20:33,149 I just can't believe you posted that photograph 286 00:20:33,232 --> 00:20:34,608 five minutes before the bombs hit. 287 00:20:34,692 --> 00:20:36,902 I mean, what if it had been five minutes later? 288 00:20:36,986 --> 00:20:38,028 Could you even imagine? 289 00:20:38,112 --> 00:20:39,905 - Oh, God. - It's... It's a lot. 290 00:20:39,989 --> 00:20:43,200 It's pretty… …unbelievable. 291 00:20:45,828 --> 00:20:47,872 I was actually... I was pretty close. 292 00:20:49,081 --> 00:20:51,834 So, I had just started walking away when it... 293 00:20:51,917 --> 00:20:52,917 Oh! 294 00:20:52,960 --> 00:20:54,360 You saw the blast? 295 00:20:54,420 --> 00:20:56,672 Yeah, I saw the... I saw the blast. 296 00:20:56,756 --> 00:20:59,633 - Oh, my God. - Are your ears okay? 297 00:20:59,717 --> 00:21:01,051 My... What do you... 298 00:21:01,135 --> 00:21:02,303 No ringing? 299 00:21:02,803 --> 00:21:04,597 - A little. - Harold, what? 300 00:21:04,680 --> 00:21:06,724 What's the name of that colleague of yours? The ENT? 301 00:21:06,807 --> 00:21:09,435 - Richard? - No, no, no. Mom. They're gonna be fine. 302 00:21:09,518 --> 00:21:10,519 - I'm calling Helen. - No. 303 00:21:10,603 --> 00:21:13,230 Yeah. Her husband's cousin was at the Boston bombing. 304 00:21:13,731 --> 00:21:16,150 Well, he was at least in Boston at the time. 305 00:21:16,734 --> 00:21:18,903 Actually, I think he used to go to a support group. 306 00:21:18,986 --> 00:21:20,571 That'd be good for you, emotionally. 307 00:21:21,697 --> 00:21:22,740 - Peanut. - Yeah? 308 00:21:23,449 --> 00:21:25,409 Wanna make things a little bit easier for you. 309 00:21:26,744 --> 00:21:28,454 - Just any way I can. - Thank you. 310 00:21:32,458 --> 00:21:34,001 Feels like Christmas. 311 00:21:34,585 --> 00:21:38,339 We might not have ever had another Christmas together. 312 00:21:55,981 --> 00:21:58,818 - I just wanted to say good night. - Okay. Night. 313 00:22:01,529 --> 00:22:02,613 Love you. 314 00:22:07,576 --> 00:22:09,036 I love you too. 315 00:22:10,162 --> 00:22:13,582 I know I haven't said this as much as I should, 316 00:22:14,333 --> 00:22:17,586 but I just want you to know I'm so proud of you. 317 00:22:18,754 --> 00:22:20,256 Me too, Peanut. 318 00:22:24,593 --> 00:22:25,594 So… 319 00:22:27,513 --> 00:22:28,722 Sweet dreams. 320 00:22:37,857 --> 00:22:39,441 Dix. 321 00:23:24,987 --> 00:23:28,824 Starting my morning right. Now, where's my baguette? Baguette emoji. 322 00:24:18,499 --> 00:24:20,125 Danni. 323 00:24:20,209 --> 00:24:22,586 I have to be honest. I don't even know what to say. 324 00:24:23,087 --> 00:24:24,338 What? 325 00:24:24,421 --> 00:24:26,590 I can't even fathom what you've been through. 326 00:24:26,674 --> 00:24:29,510 And I don't want you to feel pressure to come back to work right away. 327 00:24:29,593 --> 00:24:32,846 No, really. I wanna be here. 328 00:24:32,930 --> 00:24:35,724 If you're sure, but you set the pace. 329 00:24:35,808 --> 00:24:39,520 If you need to leave early, take a mental health day, 330 00:24:39,603 --> 00:24:41,814 you don't even have to ask, just go. 331 00:24:42,773 --> 00:24:44,066 - I will. - And, Danni... 332 00:24:45,234 --> 00:24:46,944 I know we've had our conflicts. 333 00:24:47,027 --> 00:24:50,114 And I'm so sorry I was ever gonna fire you. 334 00:24:50,197 --> 00:24:51,657 But I want you to know, 335 00:24:51,740 --> 00:24:54,344 - the fact that you're standing right here… - You were gonna fire me? 336 00:24:54,368 --> 00:24:57,663 …In front of me instead of being curled up in a ball somewhere, 337 00:24:57,746 --> 00:25:01,291 mainlining gummy worms, which is what I would have been doing, 338 00:25:02,459 --> 00:25:04,086 that's incredible. 339 00:25:04,169 --> 00:25:06,338 You are so strong. 340 00:25:07,881 --> 00:25:09,550 Isn't she so strong, everybody? 341 00:25:09,633 --> 00:25:11,593 - Yeah. - Mm-hmm. 342 00:25:11,677 --> 00:25:13,220 Yeah. 343 00:25:13,303 --> 00:25:16,473 You go, girl! You go, woman. 344 00:25:16,557 --> 00:25:19,935 Thank you, everyone. Thank you. 345 00:25:20,019 --> 00:25:22,396 Mmm. It means the world. 346 00:25:22,479 --> 00:25:25,524 Okay, good. 347 00:25:26,108 --> 00:25:28,777 Let me know if there's anything else I can do. Anything at all. 348 00:25:28,861 --> 00:25:30,029 - Okay. - Okay. 349 00:25:38,245 --> 00:25:39,329 Actually. 350 00:25:42,082 --> 00:25:43,333 I was thinking, um… 351 00:25:46,045 --> 00:25:49,089 Maybe writing a piece about my experience, 352 00:25:49,173 --> 00:25:53,218 it... it might help me work through the pain. 353 00:25:53,302 --> 00:25:57,973 Of course. Depravity would be honored to give you a platform. 354 00:25:58,599 --> 00:25:59,641 All right. 355 00:26:07,357 --> 00:26:10,027 So, it was a totally normal day at first. 356 00:26:10,694 --> 00:26:12,571 It was sunny. It was clear. 357 00:26:12,654 --> 00:26:16,033 I was at the Arc having a cute little, quiet morning to myself, 358 00:26:16,116 --> 00:26:18,368 before I went to breakfast with the other writers. 359 00:26:21,038 --> 00:26:22,206 And I don't know. 360 00:26:23,332 --> 00:26:26,251 I saw this weird guy in this big jacket. 361 00:26:29,004 --> 00:26:30,881 Then suddenly, I was hit with this feeling. 362 00:26:32,966 --> 00:26:34,802 Like something horrible was gonna happen. 363 00:26:34,885 --> 00:26:35,969 Oh, Jesus. 364 00:26:36,470 --> 00:26:37,763 I knew I needed to leave. 365 00:26:39,098 --> 00:26:42,476 So I turned around to go, and as I was walking away, 366 00:26:42,559 --> 00:26:43,811 boom! 367 00:26:44,394 --> 00:26:45,771 That's when it hit. 368 00:26:46,814 --> 00:26:50,442 So you're a psychic. Like the Lady of Galadhrim. 369 00:26:50,943 --> 00:26:52,402 Or it was God. 370 00:26:52,486 --> 00:26:55,656 Excuse me. This is a non-denominational workspace. 371 00:26:55,739 --> 00:26:56,990 Well, I didn't say which god. 372 00:26:57,491 --> 00:26:58,784 - Didn't you? - Whoa. Whoa. 373 00:27:01,203 --> 00:27:04,915 My bad. It's just my ears are still ringing. 374 00:27:04,998 --> 00:27:06,708 Because of the terrorists? 375 00:27:07,417 --> 00:27:08,418 Yo, Danni. 376 00:27:10,504 --> 00:27:11,713 Come here for a sec. 377 00:27:12,673 --> 00:27:14,424 Yes. Co... I come. 378 00:27:16,135 --> 00:27:18,178 Danni, um… 379 00:27:18,262 --> 00:27:21,640 We just wanted to invite you to queer bowling. 380 00:27:21,723 --> 00:27:23,475 - Aw! - Like, if you wanted to come. 381 00:27:23,559 --> 00:27:25,978 Everybody's a little bit gay. Right? 382 00:27:26,061 --> 00:27:27,146 Aren't we? 383 00:27:29,731 --> 00:27:30,816 I have to... 384 00:27:31,733 --> 00:27:34,945 Sorry. I was just... just chatting with my gay friends. 385 00:27:36,530 --> 00:27:37,614 Wow. 386 00:27:37,698 --> 00:27:40,450 I, uh… I got you this. 387 00:27:41,577 --> 00:27:44,955 You know, for, like, a feel-better gift. 388 00:27:46,248 --> 00:27:47,624 It's a joint. 389 00:27:48,792 --> 00:27:49,835 Thank you. 390 00:27:50,627 --> 00:27:52,045 I'm really glad you're not dead. 391 00:27:54,339 --> 00:27:55,340 Me too. 392 00:27:57,384 --> 00:28:00,429 Ha. 393 00:28:04,391 --> 00:28:08,270 My name is Danni Sanders, and on April 10th, I almost died, 394 00:28:08,770 --> 00:28:11,023 but something, or someone, saved me. 395 00:28:11,607 --> 00:28:15,611 Maybe it was a guardian angel, or God, or Alan Rick man's ghost, 396 00:28:15,694 --> 00:28:17,574 but I don't think that I believe in any of that. 397 00:28:18,280 --> 00:28:21,283 More likely, it was me who saved me. 398 00:28:22,367 --> 00:28:23,636 Not that I believe in myself either. 399 00:28:23,660 --> 00:28:26,413 But if all of this has taught me something… 400 00:28:28,582 --> 00:28:29,625 …it's that maybe I should. 401 00:28:31,501 --> 00:28:32,544 Oh, my God. 402 00:28:34,838 --> 00:28:36,965 This is me. Exclamation mark. 403 00:28:42,137 --> 00:28:44,139 Neuf. 404 00:29:05,786 --> 00:29:09,790 I will never forget what I saw that day. 405 00:29:14,878 --> 00:29:16,213 What did I see that day? 406 00:29:19,258 --> 00:29:22,094 Okay. Survivor of bombing. 407 00:29:24,096 --> 00:29:25,514 Ew. 408 00:29:25,597 --> 00:29:26,598 Oh, my God. 409 00:29:32,271 --> 00:29:34,523 That's good. That's a good idea. 410 00:29:40,028 --> 00:29:41,905 - Hello? - Hey, Mom. Hi, Mom. 411 00:29:41,989 --> 00:29:43,532 - How are you, Danni? - Hi, Mom. Yeah. 412 00:29:43,615 --> 00:29:45,409 - No, I just had a quick question. - Uh-huh? 413 00:29:45,492 --> 00:29:46,493 What... 414 00:29:46,994 --> 00:29:49,997 Do you remember what the name of the support group is 415 00:29:50,080 --> 00:29:51,790 that Helen's husband used to go to? 416 00:30:07,556 --> 00:30:11,143 …and the sounds were coming, like, 30 seconds apart. 417 00:30:11,226 --> 00:30:14,187 I'm sure it was just a wheel on the tracks. 418 00:30:14,688 --> 00:30:16,982 Everyone else was just, you know, annoyed. 419 00:30:17,899 --> 00:30:20,068 I physically started shaking. 420 00:30:20,569 --> 00:30:24,364 I got off the train. I just walked uptown from Canal. 421 00:30:24,448 --> 00:30:27,951 I mean, I felt like such an idiot. And I was late. 422 00:30:29,119 --> 00:30:31,663 I was not getting back on that train. 423 00:30:31,747 --> 00:30:33,707 Loud noises can be very triggering. 424 00:30:34,541 --> 00:30:36,141 I think a lot of us struggled with that. 425 00:30:36,877 --> 00:30:39,629 I make my kids mute the TV when they're gaming. 426 00:30:40,672 --> 00:30:43,759 They hate it. But I can't get any work done 427 00:30:43,842 --> 00:30:47,179 when I'm hearing gunfire or... or explosions. 428 00:30:47,262 --> 00:30:49,056 You let your kids play those? 429 00:30:50,015 --> 00:30:53,435 You don't think that's normalizing a culture that glorifies gun violence? 430 00:30:53,518 --> 00:30:56,396 Okay, why don't we all just take a second 431 00:30:56,480 --> 00:30:59,983 and welcome our new addition. 432 00:31:01,568 --> 00:31:02,569 Hi. 433 00:31:03,153 --> 00:31:04,279 Hi. 434 00:31:04,363 --> 00:31:06,490 - What's your name? - Danni. 435 00:31:10,285 --> 00:31:13,413 I was in Paris last week when the bombings hit at the Arc. 436 00:31:15,457 --> 00:31:18,460 Oh. I am so sorry. Do you... 437 00:31:19,252 --> 00:31:25,133 Do you wanna share anything about how you're... you're feeling, or your thoughts? 438 00:31:25,717 --> 00:31:27,511 Oh. 439 00:31:30,097 --> 00:31:32,516 I was just hoping to listen today. 440 00:31:33,225 --> 00:31:35,769 Of course. Of course, Danni. In your own time. 441 00:31:36,812 --> 00:31:38,730 We're all survivors here. 442 00:31:39,981 --> 00:31:42,567 Charles, why don't you speak for a bit? 443 00:31:43,193 --> 00:31:46,405 Charles is one of our newer members. 444 00:31:46,905 --> 00:31:49,241 He just returned from the UK. 445 00:31:50,325 --> 00:31:52,244 He's also a bombing survivor. 446 00:31:52,327 --> 00:31:54,204 He was at the Ariana Grande concert. 447 00:31:56,540 --> 00:31:59,418 Look, it's not easy… 448 00:32:00,710 --> 00:32:01,711 Okay? 449 00:32:03,004 --> 00:32:04,923 I mean, it's been years for me, 450 00:32:05,006 --> 00:32:07,384 and I still have to talk about it every week. 451 00:32:10,804 --> 00:32:13,682 I'm sorry. That's not comforting. Um… 452 00:32:14,808 --> 00:32:16,268 It's not like... 453 00:32:17,310 --> 00:32:20,564 Your life doesn't end. Okay? 454 00:32:22,691 --> 00:32:25,026 I know that it probably feels like that right now. 455 00:32:26,528 --> 00:32:27,654 It's just… 456 00:32:29,906 --> 00:32:31,241 Everything changes colors. 457 00:32:32,659 --> 00:32:35,120 Yes. That's... Exactly. 458 00:32:36,455 --> 00:32:38,415 I never would have thought to put it like that. 459 00:32:39,833 --> 00:32:42,043 What is it for you? 460 00:32:44,671 --> 00:32:45,839 Maybe purple. 461 00:32:47,507 --> 00:32:48,592 What's yours? 462 00:32:51,887 --> 00:32:53,054 Red. 463 00:32:53,930 --> 00:32:56,850 It's like everything is red forever. 464 00:32:58,477 --> 00:33:02,772 And on one hand, it's really vivid and intense. 465 00:33:04,900 --> 00:33:07,861 But on the other, everything feels completely… 466 00:33:10,155 --> 00:33:11,239 Monochrome. 467 00:33:13,617 --> 00:33:14,951 You relate to that, Danni? 468 00:33:17,871 --> 00:33:18,997 I just... 469 00:33:21,124 --> 00:33:22,918 Sort of understand the monochrome bit. 470 00:33:24,586 --> 00:33:26,922 That's how everything is for me too. But mine's like… 471 00:33:29,591 --> 00:33:31,051 Gray all the time. 472 00:33:33,053 --> 00:33:35,931 And how does it feel when the world looks that way to you? 473 00:33:37,349 --> 00:33:38,433 I don't know. 474 00:33:39,226 --> 00:33:40,810 Doesn't really feel like anything. 475 00:33:43,688 --> 00:33:44,773 Just sort of numb. 476 00:33:50,529 --> 00:33:51,613 Ugh. 477 00:33:55,617 --> 00:33:56,743 See you next week. 478 00:33:56,826 --> 00:33:59,579 Yeah. I will 100% be back. 479 00:34:00,121 --> 00:34:02,374 Rowan, I am so sorry to do this to you, 480 00:34:02,457 --> 00:34:04,626 but my daughter is such a huge fan of yours. 481 00:34:05,126 --> 00:34:07,754 Would you mind taking a quick photo with me for her? 482 00:34:07,837 --> 00:34:11,466 - Yeah, of course. - Thanks. I really appreciate it. 483 00:34:14,719 --> 00:34:17,097 Where's my ChapStick? Maybe I dropped it. 484 00:34:17,180 --> 00:34:18,598 Oh! 485 00:34:18,682 --> 00:34:21,768 You guys almost forgot this last chair. 486 00:34:21,851 --> 00:34:24,396 - Here. - Oh, you're so sweet. 487 00:34:24,479 --> 00:34:25,605 So, um… 488 00:34:27,399 --> 00:34:30,193 I'm Danni, by the way. Danni Sanders. 489 00:34:31,194 --> 00:34:33,780 - Rowan. Welcome to group. - Thanks. 490 00:34:35,490 --> 00:34:38,785 Thanks for sharing today. I know the first meeting can be hard. 491 00:34:39,703 --> 00:34:44,624 Do you guys do, like, post-group coffee or… 492 00:34:44,708 --> 00:34:46,960 Actually I have to run to this school rehearsal thing. 493 00:34:47,043 --> 00:34:48,396 - No worries, no worries. - Next time. 494 00:34:48,420 --> 00:34:49,460 - Yeah, yeah, yeah. - Yeah. 495 00:34:49,504 --> 00:34:51,423 Maybe we can swap Insta handles or numbers? 496 00:34:51,923 --> 00:34:52,966 Sure. Yeah. 497 00:34:53,466 --> 00:34:54,718 Okay. Yeah. 498 00:35:00,098 --> 00:35:02,642 Here. Just text me anytime, okay? 499 00:35:02,726 --> 00:35:03,810 Oh, thank you. 500 00:35:04,686 --> 00:35:06,187 Bye. I'll talk to you later. 501 00:35:06,271 --> 00:35:07,897 - See ya, Charles. - See ya. 502 00:35:15,780 --> 00:35:18,533 I'm actually free right now if you wanna go grab that coffee. 503 00:35:19,534 --> 00:35:21,119 Oh, gosh. 504 00:35:21,953 --> 00:35:25,248 I forgot I have this thing that I have to do. So… 505 00:35:25,832 --> 00:35:26,875 Yeah. Okay. 506 00:35:26,958 --> 00:35:29,836 Cool. Hey, did you want my Insta handle? 507 00:35:29,919 --> 00:35:31,546 Uh… 508 00:35:31,630 --> 00:35:35,634 It's "godisawomanmann." Two Ns. "Godisawomanmann." 509 00:35:35,717 --> 00:35:36,718 Okay. 510 00:35:47,270 --> 00:35:49,332 Today we're talking about Rowan Aldren, 511 00:35:49,356 --> 00:35:54,069 a teen gun-safety activist, poet and social influencer. 512 00:35:54,152 --> 00:35:56,547 After surviving the Oak Valley school shooting in North Carolina, 513 00:35:56,571 --> 00:35:59,658 Rowan came to New York to partner with the We've Had Enough organization 514 00:35:59,741 --> 00:36:03,662 to begin her fight for gun reform. Here's a look. 515 00:36:03,745 --> 00:36:04,788 Two miles. 516 00:36:06,206 --> 00:36:09,042 You can be two miles from a gunshot and still hear it. 517 00:36:10,460 --> 00:36:12,504 That day, even if you were nowhere near it, 518 00:36:12,587 --> 00:36:15,924 I swear, you heard those bullets loud enough to fear 'em. 519 00:36:18,093 --> 00:36:19,386 Two miles. 520 00:36:20,887 --> 00:36:23,515 But the 23 at my school carried much farther. 521 00:36:24,182 --> 00:36:27,394 Maybe that's just how it sounds when a child dies a martyr. 522 00:36:28,603 --> 00:36:31,147 And yet, it was quiet. 523 00:36:32,399 --> 00:36:33,775 Quieter than it should have been. 524 00:36:34,859 --> 00:36:37,821 We needed a riot and all we got was a funeral hymn. 525 00:36:38,780 --> 00:36:41,324 And someone saying, "Hey, couldn't one of you have tackled him?" 526 00:36:43,493 --> 00:36:47,247 Two miles. And yet not a word. 527 00:36:48,373 --> 00:36:52,794 I look up at the people in power and ask how thick are your walls 528 00:36:52,877 --> 00:36:55,088 that you can't hear what I heard? 529 00:36:56,464 --> 00:37:01,010 Well, here, behind our walls, our lives were taken turn by turn. 530 00:37:03,138 --> 00:37:05,640 Have we earned your sympathy yet, sir? 531 00:37:08,101 --> 00:37:10,770 There is more than one person at fault for what happened to us. 532 00:37:11,938 --> 00:37:14,983 There is more than one person who pulled the trigger on that gun. 533 00:37:15,066 --> 00:37:16,609 And I have had enough. 534 00:37:17,110 --> 00:37:19,362 Enough pain. Enough corruption. 535 00:37:19,446 --> 00:37:21,489 Enough death. Enough destruction. 536 00:37:21,573 --> 00:37:25,493 Enough sleepless nights, still watching my friends die. 537 00:37:26,494 --> 00:37:30,206 Enough of listening to our politicians lie. 538 00:37:30,290 --> 00:37:31,374 Enough! 539 00:37:42,051 --> 00:37:43,136 Hey. 540 00:37:43,845 --> 00:37:47,766 - Hey. - That is such a cute hairpin. I'm dead. 541 00:37:47,849 --> 00:37:51,603 - Oh, thank you. I made it myself. - Cool. 542 00:37:52,771 --> 00:37:54,397 - So... No, you. - So... 543 00:37:54,481 --> 00:37:56,167 I was just gonna say thank you for meeting me. 544 00:37:56,191 --> 00:37:57,984 Yeah, of course. Of course. 545 00:37:58,985 --> 00:38:01,279 How are you... How are you doing? 546 00:38:01,362 --> 00:38:02,614 I'm good. Yeah. 547 00:38:02,697 --> 00:38:06,034 - I mean, I'm managing, I guess. Yeah. But… - Yes. 548 00:38:07,827 --> 00:38:10,705 Do you have family around? You know, like, in New York? 549 00:38:10,789 --> 00:38:13,875 Yeah. My dad cries whenever he sees me now though. 550 00:38:13,958 --> 00:38:16,544 And my mom keeps shipping me 551 00:38:16,628 --> 00:38:19,088 wellness supplements that she reads about on goop. 552 00:38:19,172 --> 00:38:24,260 Okay, um, well, what about your friends? 553 00:38:26,805 --> 00:38:28,223 I mean, I'm seeing you, right? 554 00:38:29,724 --> 00:38:30,809 Right. 555 00:38:31,893 --> 00:38:32,977 So, you know… 556 00:38:41,402 --> 00:38:45,990 Hey, are you... are you cool if we, maybe, walk somewhere? 557 00:38:46,950 --> 00:38:48,076 - Yeah. - Yeah? 558 00:38:48,827 --> 00:38:49,911 That's a good idea. 559 00:38:53,164 --> 00:38:54,484 I'm glad you reached out. 560 00:38:54,541 --> 00:38:57,794 It's gonna be great to have someone in group who's not, like, 50. 561 00:38:57,877 --> 00:39:01,047 Oh, that's... No, I'm... I don't think I'll... 562 00:39:02,131 --> 00:39:04,843 That was just, like, a onetime thing for me. But... 563 00:39:05,343 --> 00:39:06,886 The support group? Why? 564 00:39:08,346 --> 00:39:11,391 I don't know. Therapy never really worked for me. 565 00:39:13,726 --> 00:39:17,605 It's not therapy, okay? It's better. It's... It's family. 566 00:39:19,357 --> 00:39:23,528 Besides, I mean, who's gonna help me explain TikTok references to the boomers? 567 00:39:23,611 --> 00:39:26,614 Is TikTok a... Is it a topic that comes up a lot in meetings? 568 00:39:26,698 --> 00:39:28,700 Oh, you would be surprised. 569 00:39:30,785 --> 00:39:34,581 So, listen. I was kinda hoping I might be able to get your advice on something. 570 00:39:35,123 --> 00:39:37,500 Full disclosure, I stalked you online. 571 00:39:38,751 --> 00:39:41,546 That poetry you do, it's crazy. It sounds just like Hamilton. 572 00:39:42,964 --> 00:39:44,883 Yeah, it's... it's called spoken word. 573 00:39:44,966 --> 00:39:46,801 Cool, cool, cool. I'm a writer too. 574 00:39:46,885 --> 00:39:47,886 Oh, cool. 575 00:39:47,969 --> 00:39:50,013 Yeah. And I actually have this article due right now 576 00:39:50,096 --> 00:39:51,576 for the magazine that I'm working at. 577 00:39:51,639 --> 00:39:53,433 And I feel really stuck. 578 00:39:53,516 --> 00:39:54,893 Like, I just... 579 00:39:55,935 --> 00:39:58,688 I don't know if you could give me any tips, or… 580 00:39:59,188 --> 00:40:00,440 It's about what happened? 581 00:40:01,149 --> 00:40:02,567 And I brought my laptop. 582 00:40:02,650 --> 00:40:06,487 I don't know. We could hole up at one of those little writer-y cafés. 583 00:40:06,571 --> 00:40:07,655 You could be my coach. 584 00:40:08,573 --> 00:40:10,325 - Sure. - Thank you. Okay. 585 00:40:10,408 --> 00:40:13,828 You know, actually, I wanted to take you here first. 586 00:40:14,495 --> 00:40:16,331 I think it could be super helpful. 587 00:40:16,414 --> 00:40:19,375 Before you write, you have to deal with why you're feeling stuck. 588 00:40:20,460 --> 00:40:23,504 - Oh, okay, so... And then we'll go write? - Yeah. Come on. 589 00:40:23,588 --> 00:40:24,589 Okay. 590 00:40:26,799 --> 00:40:28,259 What is this place? 591 00:40:28,760 --> 00:40:30,595 How do you feel about breaking things? 592 00:40:31,262 --> 00:40:34,515 Fuck the Senate for not passing that background check bill last week. 593 00:40:37,518 --> 00:40:38,561 Now you try. 594 00:40:39,687 --> 00:40:41,481 Oh. Um… 595 00:40:42,231 --> 00:40:43,316 Okay. 596 00:40:48,237 --> 00:40:49,781 Fuck the bombing in Paris. 597 00:40:49,864 --> 00:40:52,617 No, you're not mad enough, okay? You have to feel it. 598 00:40:53,743 --> 00:40:58,456 Okay. What if I don't... What if I don't feel angry? 599 00:40:59,207 --> 00:41:01,459 All right, then what do you feel? 600 00:41:02,710 --> 00:41:04,462 Well, I don't know. 601 00:41:08,508 --> 00:41:09,884 Numb. 602 00:41:09,968 --> 00:41:11,052 Still numb. 603 00:41:12,553 --> 00:41:15,598 Use that. Smash the numbness. 604 00:41:18,518 --> 00:41:19,978 Smash the numbness. 605 00:41:24,691 --> 00:41:26,442 Good. Again. 606 00:41:28,403 --> 00:41:31,155 Yes. Okay, you feel that? Keep going. Let it out! 607 00:41:32,407 --> 00:41:35,243 That's it. Let it out. Yell if you want to. 608 00:41:37,286 --> 00:41:38,287 Fuck you. 609 00:42:00,935 --> 00:42:05,356 Look, what you asked before... That is how I write. 610 00:42:06,232 --> 00:42:07,692 You have to attack it. 611 00:42:08,526 --> 00:42:10,862 That is what's gonna make people pay attention. Okay? 612 00:42:10,945 --> 00:42:13,573 No more scrolling past headlines. No more distractions. 613 00:42:15,450 --> 00:42:16,993 We do that with our truth. 614 00:42:19,620 --> 00:42:21,456 If you're not okay, that's okay. 615 00:42:22,582 --> 00:42:25,043 You know as... as fucked up as it sounds, 616 00:42:26,127 --> 00:42:28,212 your pain is your biggest asset. 617 00:42:36,721 --> 00:42:37,722 Yeah. 618 00:42:50,943 --> 00:42:51,944 Oh, my God. 619 00:42:53,988 --> 00:42:54,989 Okay. 620 00:42:57,825 --> 00:42:59,786 I'll never forget what I saw that day. 621 00:43:00,286 --> 00:43:03,039 But the truth is, you don't need to hear it. 622 00:43:03,706 --> 00:43:05,333 All you need to know is… 623 00:43:05,416 --> 00:43:09,170 I am not okay. 624 00:43:11,380 --> 00:43:13,591 What happened in Paris changed me. 625 00:43:13,674 --> 00:43:18,346 But what I've realized since is that my pain can actually be an asset. 626 00:43:18,429 --> 00:43:20,807 It can stop you all from scrolling past headlines, 627 00:43:20,890 --> 00:43:25,103 distracting yourselves with baby goats and SHEIN ads and ASMR videos. 628 00:43:25,186 --> 00:43:26,646 It can make you pay attention 629 00:43:26,729 --> 00:43:30,733 and, in turn, truly ask yourselves, "Am I okay?" 630 00:43:30,817 --> 00:43:32,527 Am I okay? 631 00:43:32,610 --> 00:43:36,906 Now, my own sadness, my anger... They may stem from something 632 00:43:36,989 --> 00:43:39,784 more traumatic than you'll ever experience, 633 00:43:40,493 --> 00:43:43,121 but that doesn't mean your pain isn't just as real. 634 00:43:43,204 --> 00:43:44,205 Yo. 635 00:43:44,288 --> 00:43:46,666 It doesn't mean you're not waking up every day 636 00:43:46,749 --> 00:43:49,502 feeling numb and useless and alone. 637 00:43:50,002 --> 00:43:51,838 I think a lot of us are. 638 00:43:52,463 --> 00:43:53,923 So I wanna invite you. 639 00:43:54,006 --> 00:43:58,177 Take this opportunity to share your truth, share your pain. 640 00:43:58,261 --> 00:44:01,472 You've got nothing to lose and everything to gain. 641 00:44:01,556 --> 00:44:02,849 Let's make the world wake up 642 00:44:02,932 --> 00:44:05,351 and pay attention to the fact that we're all hurting, 643 00:44:05,434 --> 00:44:07,937 and it's time to stop being so afraid. 644 00:44:08,020 --> 00:44:10,940 We Stan a fearless queen. 645 00:44:11,023 --> 00:44:14,569 - Hey, Danni. Booch? - Sure. 646 00:44:14,652 --> 00:44:16,445 Oh, my God. Cheers. 647 00:44:17,280 --> 00:44:18,364 Cheers. 648 00:44:21,993 --> 00:44:24,495 So as BLM and Me Too came before us, 649 00:44:24,579 --> 00:44:31,460 let us usher in a new era of honesty on the Internet. 650 00:44:34,297 --> 00:44:35,774 This is a lockdown drill. 651 00:44:35,798 --> 00:44:38,968 All students and teachers please follow lockdown procedure. 652 00:44:50,479 --> 00:44:53,900 Here's the article. It would mean a lot if you reposted. 653 00:44:53,983 --> 00:44:55,735 Couldn't have written it without you. 654 00:44:55,818 --> 00:44:57,737 Dancing girls emoji, sparkling heart emoji. 655 00:45:04,160 --> 00:45:06,537 Congrats, @TheDanniSanders. 656 00:45:07,413 --> 00:45:10,833 If you haven't read her article yet, it's up on Depravity right now. 657 00:45:13,920 --> 00:45:18,382 658 00:45:40,655 --> 00:45:42,490 I feel empty all the time. 659 00:45:42,573 --> 00:45:44,301 I can't sleep because our planet is fucked. 660 00:45:46,244 --> 00:45:48,371 - I am not okay. - I am not okay. 661 00:45:48,454 --> 00:45:50,081 I am not okay. 662 00:45:50,164 --> 00:45:52,458 We are not okay. 663 00:45:52,541 --> 00:45:54,377 664 00:45:58,714 --> 00:46:00,424 Danni, you had a big week. 665 00:46:01,634 --> 00:46:03,636 Do you wanna talk a little 666 00:46:03,719 --> 00:46:06,973 about how it felt to publish such a personal piece? 667 00:46:08,140 --> 00:46:09,350 Uh… 668 00:46:10,017 --> 00:46:11,018 Honestly… 669 00:46:14,397 --> 00:46:16,190 It's been amazing. 670 00:46:16,274 --> 00:46:20,611 It's just so freeing to finally admit that I am not okay. 671 00:46:21,112 --> 00:46:25,032 And it's so crazy to see all these celebrities 672 00:46:25,741 --> 00:46:28,703 using my hashtag to talk about their trauma. 673 00:46:28,786 --> 00:46:30,663 Did you see Kendall Jenner's post? 674 00:46:30,746 --> 00:46:32,123 - You did? - Oh, yeah. 675 00:46:32,206 --> 00:46:34,959 I had no idea that she was so discriminated against. 676 00:46:36,502 --> 00:46:38,296 You always hear these horror stories 677 00:46:38,379 --> 00:46:41,299 of people in the spotlight getting all this hate, but I don't know. 678 00:46:41,382 --> 00:46:43,009 Doesn't seem to be happening to me. 679 00:46:44,802 --> 00:46:47,680 Well, you should still be prepared if it does. 680 00:46:49,765 --> 00:46:51,851 I think what Rowan is trying to say is, 681 00:46:52,518 --> 00:46:57,231 some people on the Internet just aren't as nice as we'd like them to be. 682 00:46:57,982 --> 00:47:00,901 I think I can handle, like, one troll on Twitter. 683 00:47:03,070 --> 00:47:05,031 I've been through a lot worse, right? 684 00:47:06,615 --> 00:47:08,159 Right. Yeah, of course. 685 00:47:12,455 --> 00:47:16,417 So, wait. Did I hear you guys were doing, like, a kickball game on Saturday? 686 00:47:16,500 --> 00:47:20,504 Yeah. It's kind of the best time. You should come. 687 00:47:20,588 --> 00:47:22,548 Yeah, sure. I'm down. 688 00:47:22,631 --> 00:47:27,803 You know, I owe you a major, major thank you for posting my article. 689 00:47:28,721 --> 00:47:30,890 You're one of the main reasons that it blew up. 690 00:47:30,973 --> 00:47:32,475 I mean, you and Kendall. 691 00:47:32,558 --> 00:47:34,602 No, I'm... I'm happy to help. 692 00:47:35,561 --> 00:47:39,190 And listen, I didn't... I didn't mean to sound pessimistic or anything in group. 693 00:47:39,273 --> 00:47:40,941 - I just... I... - Oh, no. 694 00:47:41,025 --> 00:47:44,570 I know the Internet likes to turn victims into villains sometimes. 695 00:47:44,653 --> 00:47:48,366 And I am an expert at blocking, so I am here if you need me. 696 00:47:48,449 --> 00:47:49,450 Thank you. 697 00:47:51,535 --> 00:47:54,497 So, what are these mysterious rehearsals you're always walking to? 698 00:47:54,580 --> 00:47:57,041 Oh, uh, this thing called Act Up at my school. 699 00:47:57,124 --> 00:47:58,334 It's, um... 700 00:47:58,417 --> 00:48:01,257 Well, they call it a talent show for the most talented kids in New York. 701 00:48:01,295 --> 00:48:03,214 No pressure or anything. 702 00:48:03,297 --> 00:48:06,133 No pressure? Rowan, you're literally the most talented person 703 00:48:06,217 --> 00:48:08,803 - that I have ever met in my entire... Yes. - Oh, my God. No. 704 00:48:08,886 --> 00:48:11,222 - What do you mean, "no"? - It's a lot to juggle, okay? 705 00:48:11,305 --> 00:48:14,433 It's... I've got another rally coming up next week, 706 00:48:14,517 --> 00:48:16,894 - and I always get so anxious. - Really? 707 00:48:16,977 --> 00:48:18,479 I have really bad stage fright. 708 00:48:18,562 --> 00:48:19,939 - I don't believe that. - No, I do. 709 00:48:20,022 --> 00:48:23,359 I mean, back at Oak Valley, Cora, my sister... 710 00:48:23,442 --> 00:48:26,570 She literally had to, like, hype me up before every book report. 711 00:48:26,654 --> 00:48:27,947 That's cute. 712 00:48:28,030 --> 00:48:30,991 Yeah. She would, like, blast cheesy oldies music in her car. 713 00:48:31,075 --> 00:48:33,994 - Like, dad tunes? - Yeah. Like, Avril Lavigne. 714 00:48:34,078 --> 00:48:36,914 Did you just say that Avril Lavigne is oldies? 715 00:48:37,623 --> 00:48:41,127 I can't. I didn't know you had a sister. 716 00:48:41,210 --> 00:48:43,295 - She older or younger? - I'm right here. 717 00:48:43,379 --> 00:48:44,922 She's... She's older. 718 00:48:46,757 --> 00:48:48,050 You're so lucky. 719 00:48:48,134 --> 00:48:52,096 I've always wanted a sister. Being an only child is so boring. 720 00:48:52,179 --> 00:48:55,391 Does she, like, sneak you beers and all that fun stuff? 721 00:48:56,934 --> 00:48:59,353 Uh, no. Actually, she's, um… 722 00:49:01,564 --> 00:49:04,191 She... She died in the shooting. 723 00:49:10,698 --> 00:49:11,699 Shit. 724 00:49:13,701 --> 00:49:16,412 I'm gonna... I'll see you later. 725 00:49:23,919 --> 00:49:25,921 Sept. 726 00:49:31,135 --> 00:49:33,971 Our most popular article in two and a half years. 727 00:49:34,054 --> 00:49:40,186 Covered in The Cut, Refinery29, BuzzFeed, and trending on Twitter, 728 00:49:40,269 --> 00:49:42,146 all because of you, Danni. 729 00:49:43,022 --> 00:49:44,148 - Damn. - You can clap. 730 00:49:44,231 --> 00:49:46,358 That's an appropriate response. 731 00:49:46,442 --> 00:49:48,152 Thanks, everyone. 732 00:49:48,861 --> 00:49:50,488 Knock, knock. 733 00:49:50,571 --> 00:49:51,864 Who's there? It's me. 734 00:49:51,947 --> 00:49:57,411 Um, I just wanted to say that, um, your article gave me the courage 735 00:49:57,495 --> 00:49:59,389 to finally speak up to my DnD Discord. 736 00:49:59,413 --> 00:50:02,416 I told them about my trypophobia. 737 00:50:02,500 --> 00:50:05,002 It means I have a fear of small holes. 738 00:50:05,085 --> 00:50:09,048 Um, like this cookie is terrifying to me, 739 00:50:09,131 --> 00:50:13,052 but you've given me the strength to eat the cookie. 740 00:50:16,180 --> 00:50:18,474 Hey. Yo, Kevin. Mind if I steal Danni for a sec? 741 00:50:19,016 --> 00:50:22,186 It's Kelvin. It's like the base unit of thermodynamic temperature. 742 00:50:22,269 --> 00:50:24,480 - Hey, whatever. So, uh... - Hi, Colin. 743 00:50:24,563 --> 00:50:26,857 Shout-out from Rowan Aldren, huh? Damn. 744 00:50:26,941 --> 00:50:28,734 - She's famous as fuck. - Is she? 745 00:50:30,110 --> 00:50:31,570 She's just Rowan to me. 746 00:50:32,404 --> 00:50:33,864 We met in our support group, so… 747 00:50:33,948 --> 00:50:35,491 All right, so listen. This... 748 00:50:36,242 --> 00:50:38,911 I got this event this weekend. It's like a party. 749 00:50:38,994 --> 00:50:40,746 Influencer stuff. Saturday night. 750 00:50:41,330 --> 00:50:45,251 I can get you on that list. But you wanna come through? 751 00:50:46,460 --> 00:50:47,461 Yes. 752 00:50:47,545 --> 00:50:48,963 - Yeah? - Yeah, I mean, if I can... 753 00:50:49,880 --> 00:50:52,049 If you can get... If you can get me on that list. 754 00:50:52,132 --> 00:50:53,384 Yeah, I'll get you on that. 755 00:50:53,467 --> 00:50:55,469 I'll send you the deets. DM me your number. 756 00:50:55,553 --> 00:50:56,929 - Okay. - All right, late. 757 00:50:57,471 --> 00:50:58,472 Bye. 758 00:51:03,269 --> 00:51:06,021 So, I guess you're officially a writer now. 759 00:51:06,647 --> 00:51:08,023 Hmm, I guess so. 760 00:51:08,524 --> 00:51:10,776 Did I, uh, hear you're getting an office? 761 00:51:10,859 --> 00:51:13,404 Well, Susan just told me. Crazy, right? 762 00:51:14,196 --> 00:51:16,657 - That is... That is crazy. - Let me go talk to her. 763 00:51:16,740 --> 00:51:18,325 You know, I meant to ask you. 764 00:51:18,409 --> 00:51:21,120 What was the name of that retreat that you went on? 765 00:51:21,203 --> 00:51:22,204 L'Esprit Nouveau. 766 00:51:22,288 --> 00:51:25,141 Cool. Where'd you hear about it? I've been looking for journalism programs. 767 00:51:25,165 --> 00:51:27,205 I just haven't really found one that's right for me. 768 00:51:28,252 --> 00:51:31,022 I read this article. It was like, I don't know, I can't remember exactly, 769 00:51:31,046 --> 00:51:34,592 "Top Ten Famous Writers' Retreats" or something, you know. 770 00:51:34,675 --> 00:51:35,968 - Well, yeah. Super easy. - Yeah. 771 00:51:36,051 --> 00:51:39,555 It was honestly so beautiful. So, so beautiful. 772 00:51:39,638 --> 00:51:42,808 Before, you know, it all went down. 773 00:51:42,891 --> 00:51:43,892 Right, right. 774 00:51:44,685 --> 00:51:46,437 Toured this gorgeous cathedral... 775 00:51:46,520 --> 00:51:47,646 Oh, nice. Which one? 776 00:51:50,733 --> 00:51:51,859 Which cathedral? 777 00:51:54,862 --> 00:51:55,863 Notre-Dame. 778 00:51:57,531 --> 00:51:58,532 Interesting. 779 00:51:58,616 --> 00:52:00,409 Six. 780 00:52:05,581 --> 00:52:06,957 Anyway, 781 00:52:07,041 --> 00:52:10,836 it... it was obviously a really awesome opportunity, 782 00:52:11,545 --> 00:52:13,756 but mainly I'm just so happy to be alive. 783 00:52:13,839 --> 00:52:14,840 Hmm. 784 00:52:14,923 --> 00:52:16,759 I'm gonna... I gotta... Do one… 785 00:52:16,842 --> 00:52:17,843 - Yeah. - …thing. 786 00:52:20,054 --> 00:52:21,055 Notre-Dame. 787 00:52:32,733 --> 00:52:33,734 What's your name? 788 00:52:34,777 --> 00:52:36,987 Um… Danni. 789 00:52:37,738 --> 00:52:39,281 - Danni what? - Um… 790 00:52:39,365 --> 00:52:40,491 Danni Sanders. 791 00:52:41,992 --> 00:52:43,327 Oh, my God. Of course. 792 00:52:43,410 --> 00:52:44,970 You're the girl from the Paris attacks. 793 00:52:45,037 --> 00:52:46,747 - - Mm-hmm. 794 00:52:46,830 --> 00:52:48,374 - Come in, girl. - Thank you. 795 00:53:01,261 --> 00:53:02,429 Danni. 796 00:53:04,223 --> 00:53:05,557 Yo, give me a hug. 797 00:53:07,351 --> 00:53:09,019 - Danni Sanders? - Hey, you smell nice. 798 00:53:09,103 --> 00:53:10,562 - What? - Good evening. 799 00:53:10,646 --> 00:53:12,481 - Oh, hi. - Look at you. 800 00:53:12,564 --> 00:53:14,650 We have a photo opportunity right over here. 801 00:53:14,733 --> 00:53:15,943 - Cool. - Hey, let's get a pic. 802 00:53:16,026 --> 00:53:17,152 - Yes! - Come on. 803 00:53:18,654 --> 00:53:19,655 Cool. 804 00:53:19,738 --> 00:53:22,533 Y'all, this is Danni Sanders. She was in the Paris attacks, yo. 805 00:53:22,616 --> 00:53:24,159 Hi, Danni Sanders. 806 00:53:24,243 --> 00:53:25,244 Ooh. 807 00:53:27,955 --> 00:53:30,040 Let's not forget the signature red beret. 808 00:53:32,292 --> 00:53:33,544 Get one with the beret. 809 00:53:36,046 --> 00:53:37,047 Here. 810 00:53:38,090 --> 00:53:39,091 All the way in? 811 00:53:42,511 --> 00:53:44,179 That's it. Smile. 812 00:53:44,263 --> 00:53:46,432 I wanted to ask you, actually. 813 00:53:46,515 --> 00:53:49,435 Snapchat is thinking of doing a beret filter, 814 00:53:49,518 --> 00:53:52,062 you know, to honor everyone lost in Paris. 815 00:53:52,146 --> 00:53:53,939 Can we reach out to you about a collab? 816 00:53:54,022 --> 00:53:56,275 - Yeah. - Amazing. I'll have them DM. 817 00:53:56,358 --> 00:53:57,860 And don't forget a gift bag. 818 00:53:57,943 --> 00:53:59,486 - Oh, okay. - Au revoir. 819 00:53:59,570 --> 00:54:00,821 - Thank you. Bye. - Bye. 820 00:54:02,406 --> 00:54:04,450 - Are these free or… - Yeah, fuck yeah. 821 00:54:04,533 --> 00:54:06,368 Take as many as you want. No one gives a shit. 822 00:54:06,452 --> 00:54:07,536 Take, like, ten. 823 00:54:08,245 --> 00:54:09,496 Okay. 824 00:54:10,372 --> 00:54:11,999 Hey, bartender. 825 00:54:12,082 --> 00:54:15,169 Can we get two tequila shots, please? You got Kendall Jenner's brand? 826 00:54:15,252 --> 00:54:16,253 Dope. 827 00:54:16,879 --> 00:54:18,505 - This is crazy. - Yeah. 828 00:54:19,089 --> 00:54:20,299 Yeah, you get used to it. 829 00:54:20,883 --> 00:54:22,634 What you got now, like, 20K followers? 830 00:54:22,718 --> 00:54:24,928 Uh, 32K, actually. 831 00:54:25,012 --> 00:54:26,638 Shit. Okay. 832 00:54:27,306 --> 00:54:28,474 Hey, cheers to that. 833 00:54:29,266 --> 00:54:30,476 - Thanks. - Yeah. 834 00:54:31,143 --> 00:54:32,394 Cheers. 835 00:54:35,439 --> 00:54:37,232 Fuck. Yo. 836 00:54:38,066 --> 00:54:41,862 I just realized, like, I never even asked you if you were okay. 837 00:54:41,945 --> 00:54:43,864 - What? - Are you okay? 838 00:54:43,947 --> 00:54:44,948 Yeah. 839 00:54:45,657 --> 00:54:48,076 - Why? - 'Cause, like, 840 00:54:48,160 --> 00:54:51,163 if what happened to you ever happened to me, I don't think I'd ever be okay. 841 00:54:52,372 --> 00:54:53,874 Right now I'm okay. 842 00:54:55,501 --> 00:54:59,713 I just wanted you to know, like… if you weren't… 843 00:55:02,257 --> 00:55:05,093 I'd, like, be there, you know. 844 00:55:08,639 --> 00:55:10,641 Do these fucking shots, yo! 845 00:55:10,724 --> 00:55:12,351 Ah-ha! 846 00:55:12,434 --> 00:55:14,853 - Hey, do the arm thing. - What's the arm thing? 847 00:55:14,937 --> 00:55:17,606 - The arm thing. Like this. - Oh, that arm thing. 848 00:55:17,689 --> 00:55:18,690 Yeah. 849 00:55:26,907 --> 00:55:28,450 Hey, fuck terrorists! 850 00:55:30,953 --> 00:55:31,954 Say it. Come on. 851 00:55:33,831 --> 00:55:35,123 Fuck terrorists! 852 00:55:35,207 --> 00:55:36,935 - Yeah, fuck terrorists, yo! - Fuck terrorists! 853 00:55:36,959 --> 00:55:38,794 The fuck you even doing, huh? 854 00:55:44,967 --> 00:55:46,134 Cinq. 855 00:55:51,890 --> 00:55:53,433 Is there somewhere else we can go? 856 00:55:56,687 --> 00:55:57,938 You read my mind. 857 00:56:11,577 --> 00:56:12,578 That's it. 858 00:56:13,787 --> 00:56:15,414 Shit's like double knotted. 859 00:56:19,751 --> 00:56:21,437 - What the fuck is that? - They're bike shorts. 860 00:56:21,461 --> 00:56:24,172 - All right, I guess. - Maybe I should just get 'em off. 861 00:56:24,256 --> 00:56:25,257 Okay. 862 00:56:29,428 --> 00:56:30,429 Ow. 863 00:56:34,391 --> 00:56:36,476 Fuck. You're so tight. 864 00:56:36,560 --> 00:56:37,561 Jesus. 865 00:56:38,478 --> 00:56:40,105 Who's my damaged little girl, huh? 866 00:56:41,481 --> 00:56:42,691 You're damaged? 867 00:56:43,859 --> 00:56:45,485 Don't worry, I'ma protect you. 868 00:56:46,320 --> 00:56:48,655 I ain't gonna let anything bad happen to you now. 869 00:56:50,657 --> 00:56:54,536 You're so fucking helpless. Yeah, you're so fucking helpless. 870 00:57:10,677 --> 00:57:12,095 Did you just come in me? 871 00:57:54,930 --> 00:57:57,770 Hey, what's good? It's your boy, Colin. You know I got the honeys on me. 872 00:57:57,849 --> 00:58:01,561 We had a time, about to roll out. You know we headed to LAVO. 873 00:58:01,645 --> 00:58:02,813 Lick my face, girl. 874 00:58:06,608 --> 00:58:08,986 This is going great, clearly. 875 00:58:30,674 --> 00:58:33,760 What's so different about that? 876 00:58:33,844 --> 00:58:34,845 Hey, guys! 877 00:58:36,054 --> 00:58:38,223 - Danni! - Hey. Oh, my God. 878 00:58:38,306 --> 00:58:39,850 - You made it. - I made it! 879 00:58:39,933 --> 00:58:42,269 - You look, uh… - A tad overdressed? 880 00:58:42,352 --> 00:58:44,187 - Do you want a T-shirt? - Yes, please. 881 00:58:44,271 --> 00:58:47,232 - Do you have an extra one? - Charles made them. 882 00:58:47,315 --> 00:58:48,900 - Cute. - Hey! 883 00:58:48,984 --> 00:58:50,694 - Welcome to the league. - Thanks! 884 00:58:50,777 --> 00:58:53,697 Just like softball only less dangerous. 885 00:58:53,780 --> 00:58:54,781 Yay! 886 00:58:55,699 --> 00:58:57,499 - You look amazing. - I look... You want to... 887 00:58:57,534 --> 00:58:59,578 You want the look to get even more elevated? 888 00:58:59,661 --> 00:59:01,496 - Yeah. How are you... - Are you ready? 889 00:59:01,580 --> 00:59:04,249 You didn't think it could get better. Whoa! 890 00:59:04,332 --> 00:59:08,211 - Oh, yes. The bike shorts. - The power of the bike shorts. 891 00:59:08,295 --> 00:59:10,023 Come on, we're gonna start a new game. 892 00:59:10,047 --> 00:59:11,256 Okay, coming! 893 00:59:12,132 --> 00:59:14,176 All right, dibs on you for my team. 894 00:59:14,259 --> 00:59:17,387 Really, are you sure about that? I'm not so good with the sports thing. 895 01:00:30,001 --> 01:00:32,879 I'm really, really glad that I came out tonight. 896 01:00:32,963 --> 01:00:35,799 I thought that group was going to be, like, depressing. 897 01:00:35,882 --> 01:00:37,592 - Mmm. - It's actually really fun. 898 01:00:38,593 --> 01:00:39,594 We try our best. 899 01:00:40,303 --> 01:00:43,348 I don't know. Being with you guys makes me realize what good people are. 900 01:00:44,558 --> 01:00:46,059 You're a good person too. 901 01:00:47,394 --> 01:00:48,395 Thank you. 902 01:00:54,693 --> 01:00:55,819 Bleurgh. 903 01:00:55,902 --> 01:00:57,571 - What is that? - I don't know. 904 01:00:57,654 --> 01:00:59,906 I keep trying to like beer, and I just don't like beer. 905 01:00:59,990 --> 01:01:01,408 I hate it, actually. 906 01:01:02,242 --> 01:01:04,286 - Can I try some? - Oh, I pitched it really well. 907 01:01:04,369 --> 01:01:06,413 You want to try it, you rebellious teen? 908 01:01:06,955 --> 01:01:08,540 Oh, my God. It's just a sip. 909 01:01:13,670 --> 01:01:15,755 Yeah. No, I think it's pretty good, actually. 910 01:01:15,839 --> 01:01:17,132 - Really? - Yeah. 911 01:01:17,674 --> 01:01:19,092 - Okay, no. - Whoa! 912 01:01:19,176 --> 01:01:20,177 Hey. 913 01:01:20,719 --> 01:01:22,762 We're having fun... We're not having too much fun. 914 01:01:22,846 --> 01:01:25,390 - Really? - Yeah. Just the right amount of fun. 915 01:01:25,473 --> 01:01:29,060 Oh, my God. You sound just like my sister. 916 01:01:31,104 --> 01:01:32,564 You don't have to talk about it. 917 01:01:32,647 --> 01:01:34,399 No, no. I, um… 918 01:01:35,859 --> 01:01:37,485 I want to, I... I do. It's… 919 01:01:38,486 --> 01:01:40,697 It's nice. I... I wish I could do it more often. 920 01:01:42,866 --> 01:01:43,867 It's just… 921 01:01:46,369 --> 01:01:48,413 You know, not a lot of people know she exists. 922 01:01:50,040 --> 01:01:53,460 I don't... I don't talk about her in my speeches. 923 01:01:55,670 --> 01:01:57,339 I mean, I wish I could, but, uh… 924 01:02:00,217 --> 01:02:01,218 Well… 925 01:02:10,101 --> 01:02:11,937 Do you want to do something fun next week? 926 01:02:15,815 --> 01:02:16,858 Um… 927 01:02:18,151 --> 01:02:20,195 Maybe, I don't, um... I... 928 01:02:20,987 --> 01:02:25,325 I have a lot of prep stuff to do for the "We've Had Enough" rally. I... 929 01:02:26,368 --> 01:02:29,496 God, I haven't even started working on what I'm going to say yet, so… 930 01:02:32,374 --> 01:02:33,667 Do you want me to help you? 931 01:02:35,085 --> 01:02:36,670 Do you want me to help you write it? 932 01:02:36,753 --> 01:02:39,172 People online keep saying that we have super similar voices. 933 01:02:40,715 --> 01:02:42,842 And we could even, like, perform it together. 934 01:02:45,762 --> 01:02:46,972 Uh… 935 01:02:47,055 --> 01:02:48,223 - What? - Yeah. 936 01:02:48,306 --> 01:02:49,641 - Yeah? - Yeah, I mean… 937 01:02:50,433 --> 01:02:52,644 I've never really performed with anyone else before, 938 01:02:52,727 --> 01:02:55,272 but, I don't know, it could be kind of fun. I... 939 01:02:55,355 --> 01:02:57,023 Could be really fun. 940 01:02:57,107 --> 01:03:00,360 We'd be leading a revolution together like Katniss and Rue. 941 01:03:04,656 --> 01:03:06,259 - It'll be fun though, right? - Yeah, it... 942 01:03:06,283 --> 01:03:07,963 It would be nice to not be alone up there. 943 01:03:08,034 --> 01:03:09,035 Yeah. 944 01:03:10,370 --> 01:03:11,579 I got your back, sis. 945 01:03:15,500 --> 01:03:16,626 Rowan! 946 01:03:18,420 --> 01:03:21,172 That would be my ride, so… 947 01:03:23,425 --> 01:03:24,509 Oh. 948 01:03:27,637 --> 01:03:29,055 All right. I'll see you. 949 01:03:32,100 --> 01:03:33,226 And get home safe. 950 01:03:40,942 --> 01:03:42,402 Quatre. 951 01:04:02,422 --> 01:04:04,382 Here. For you. 952 01:04:11,306 --> 01:04:13,433 What the fuck am I supposed to do with... 953 01:04:25,904 --> 01:04:30,033 We are here with Danni Sanders, the girl of the moment, 954 01:04:30,116 --> 01:04:33,161 who rose to Internet fame after surviving the Paris bombings. 955 01:04:33,244 --> 01:04:37,540 You know her as the girl behind the hashtag, "I Am Not Okay." 956 01:04:37,624 --> 01:04:42,170 But, girl. Right now, can I just say, you look more than okay. 957 01:04:42,253 --> 01:04:43,671 Are we getting a shot of this fit? 958 01:04:46,633 --> 01:04:49,677 So, you and your new bestie Rowan Aldren, 959 01:04:49,761 --> 01:04:52,138 you've been blowing up our Insta feeds. 960 01:04:52,222 --> 01:04:54,516 I mean, speaking of bombings, okay. 961 01:04:54,599 --> 01:04:57,352 So, what are you two up to lately? I know that you've both posted 962 01:04:57,435 --> 01:05:01,731 about this "We've Had Enough" rally that you're going to be speaking at. 963 01:05:01,815 --> 01:05:03,149 That's right. 964 01:05:03,233 --> 01:05:06,528 Enough is an incredible organization, 965 01:05:06,611 --> 01:05:10,281 and I'm so, so thankful to Rowan for introducing me to it. 966 01:05:10,365 --> 01:05:15,578 She's been such an amazing guide into my new identity as an activist. 967 01:05:15,662 --> 01:05:16,663 One second. 968 01:05:16,746 --> 01:05:20,959 There is so much to learn, and it's just such an important cause... 969 01:05:21,000 --> 01:05:23,670 - And I have to stop you right there. - Okay. 970 01:05:23,753 --> 01:05:26,005 I'm so sorry, that's all the time that we have. 971 01:05:26,089 --> 01:05:29,926 'Cause next up, Danni and I, we're doing goat yoga. 972 01:05:30,510 --> 01:05:32,929 - Harper, hi. - Hi. 973 01:05:33,805 --> 01:05:36,266 Susan wants you to punch up my RBG article 974 01:05:36,349 --> 01:05:38,768 to give it, and I quote, "more viral potential." 975 01:05:38,852 --> 01:05:40,895 - Hmm. - That's the latest draft. 976 01:05:42,397 --> 01:05:45,066 All righty. Thank you so much for bringing this over. 977 01:05:46,693 --> 01:05:47,861 How? Hmm. 978 01:05:50,029 --> 01:05:52,240 Yeah, it's just gonna need a little work. 979 01:05:52,323 --> 01:05:56,369 But I probably won't be able to get to it till next week. I'm heading out right now. 980 01:05:56,453 --> 01:05:58,538 You taking another mental health day? 981 01:06:00,957 --> 01:06:03,501 No, I'm not taking another mental health day. 982 01:06:03,585 --> 01:06:07,464 I'm going to the "We've Had Enough" rally, actually. Have you heard of it? 983 01:06:09,090 --> 01:06:11,092 - Yeah. - Yeah. That's where I'm going. 984 01:06:12,635 --> 01:06:14,995 You know, Harper, you could probably get your own office too 985 01:06:15,054 --> 01:06:17,223 if you worked on that positivity a little. 986 01:06:18,433 --> 01:06:19,476 Hey, there's my girl. 987 01:06:20,685 --> 01:06:22,312 - Hey, you want to chill later? - No. 988 01:06:22,395 --> 01:06:23,688 - What about tomorrow? - No. 989 01:06:23,771 --> 01:06:27,025 What about, like, uh... Like next Wednesday or something? 990 01:06:27,108 --> 01:06:28,693 I'm just busy. 991 01:06:28,776 --> 01:06:31,905 Yeah, I'm busy trying to make the world a better place, Colin. 992 01:06:31,988 --> 01:06:33,257 - Yeah. - I see what you're doing. 993 01:06:33,281 --> 01:06:36,075 It's like a... Like a hard-to-get kind of thing. 994 01:06:36,159 --> 01:06:38,077 - I'm gonna go now. - Okay, you go. 995 01:06:38,953 --> 01:06:40,455 Go. You follow your dreams. 996 01:06:41,372 --> 01:06:43,917 - I'll see you later. - No, you won't. 997 01:06:46,085 --> 01:06:47,420 Bitches, am I right? 998 01:06:50,131 --> 01:06:52,800 Damn, she still got that backside on her though. 999 01:06:52,884 --> 01:06:55,303 Got that thickie. That fatty, right? 1000 01:06:55,386 --> 01:06:57,555 Colin, you're from Maine. 1001 01:07:00,391 --> 01:07:02,769 Okay. Cool, Harper. Great. 1002 01:07:03,686 --> 01:07:05,772 We all know information about each other. 1003 01:07:06,356 --> 01:07:07,565 I still got bars. 1004 01:07:08,191 --> 01:07:10,068 I still got bars for days, bro. 1005 01:07:10,151 --> 01:07:12,320 You know, we chose goat yoga 1006 01:07:12,403 --> 01:07:14,489 because you're the greatest of all time. 1007 01:07:14,989 --> 01:07:19,410 I sit on my throne. Is that a pizza? That's a calzone. 1008 01:07:30,630 --> 01:07:31,798 Hey. 1009 01:07:31,881 --> 01:07:34,175 Look, I know it's, like, so embarrassing. 1010 01:07:34,259 --> 01:07:36,386 No, it's fucking cool. 1011 01:07:36,469 --> 01:07:37,554 - Thank you. - Come on. 1012 01:07:39,097 --> 01:07:41,349 Hey, Linda. I didn't know you were speaking today. 1013 01:07:41,432 --> 01:07:42,559 Oh, I... I'm not. 1014 01:07:43,476 --> 01:07:47,272 So, plot twist. Linda's actually my mom. 1015 01:07:48,773 --> 01:07:50,650 For real? 1016 01:07:52,277 --> 01:07:54,612 But I thought you... you were a survivor? 1017 01:07:54,696 --> 01:07:59,367 I am. I worked at Rowan's old school in the front office. 1018 01:08:00,535 --> 01:08:02,537 Fuck. Oh, shit. I mean... 1019 01:08:02,620 --> 01:08:05,415 Oh. No, it's fine. 1020 01:08:06,291 --> 01:08:09,294 It's a... It's a fuck-shit kinda thing to find out. 1021 01:08:18,386 --> 01:08:21,264 So, you'll be taking the girls directly to the stage, correct? 1022 01:08:21,347 --> 01:08:24,100 That's right. We'll be meeting security when we get there. 1023 01:08:28,896 --> 01:08:30,982 Hey. What's up? You okay? 1024 01:08:32,442 --> 01:08:34,527 Nervous. Told you. 1025 01:08:40,575 --> 01:08:41,909 Can I have the aux? 1026 01:08:44,495 --> 01:08:45,580 Thank you. 1027 01:08:59,552 --> 01:09:00,762 Avril? 1028 01:09:00,845 --> 01:09:03,473 For your stage fright. Cheesy "oldies", right? 1029 01:09:24,827 --> 01:09:26,204 - So stupid, you know? - I know! 1030 01:09:26,788 --> 01:09:28,247 - Come on. - I'm not doing that. No. 1031 01:09:29,999 --> 01:09:30,999 We're not... 1032 01:09:33,086 --> 01:09:34,087 No. Don't look at me... 1033 01:09:34,170 --> 01:09:36,589 You can't stop yourself. You're going to have to join in. 1034 01:10:04,617 --> 01:10:06,202 This is far as I can go. 1035 01:10:12,166 --> 01:10:13,668 You're gonna be great, baby. 1036 01:10:14,419 --> 01:10:15,795 And you too. 1037 01:10:17,505 --> 01:10:19,382 I'll be watching the whole time. 1038 01:10:23,970 --> 01:10:25,388 - Bye. - Bye. 1039 01:10:29,392 --> 01:10:32,937 The people united will never be divided! 1040 01:10:33,020 --> 01:10:35,273 The people united will never... 1041 01:10:40,153 --> 01:10:42,321 We love you, Rowan! 1042 01:10:42,947 --> 01:10:44,532 Danni! Danni! 1043 01:11:05,428 --> 01:11:06,929 Say it with me. 1044 01:11:07,013 --> 01:11:08,514 We've had enough. 1045 01:11:08,598 --> 01:11:10,308 We've had enough! 1046 01:11:10,391 --> 01:11:13,144 We've had enough! We've had enough! 1047 01:11:13,227 --> 01:11:14,979 We've had enough! 1048 01:11:43,758 --> 01:11:46,469 My speech here today is for Cora Aldren. 1049 01:11:52,642 --> 01:11:57,230 She should have been here today to watch her little sister up on this stage. 1050 01:12:01,359 --> 01:12:04,695 But instead, her life was taken by violence. 1051 01:12:06,989 --> 01:12:12,161 This year, there have been over 250 mass shootings in the US alone. 1052 01:12:12,245 --> 01:12:13,913 Over 250! 1053 01:12:14,997 --> 01:12:19,460 And across the world, we have endured countless episodes of terrorism. 1054 01:12:19,544 --> 01:12:22,380 But if what I witnessed in Paris taught me any... 1055 01:12:23,256 --> 01:12:25,424 - Trois. - Uh… 1056 01:12:29,428 --> 01:12:31,365 - You got this. - Keep going. 1057 01:12:31,389 --> 01:12:33,057 - We, uh... - Danni! 1058 01:12:33,140 --> 01:12:35,476 We need to... We need to work together to... 1059 01:12:47,154 --> 01:12:48,197 Firecrackers! 1060 01:12:49,282 --> 01:12:51,784 They're firecrackers! They're firecrackers! 1061 01:12:51,868 --> 01:12:53,452 Fucking snowflakes! 1062 01:12:53,536 --> 01:12:54,829 Check it out, it's okay! 1063 01:12:54,912 --> 01:12:56,831 Move out, come on. Let's go. 1064 01:12:57,498 --> 01:12:59,000 Rowan? What's happening? 1065 01:13:01,002 --> 01:13:02,169 It's okay, Rowan. 1066 01:13:02,587 --> 01:13:04,547 Rowan, it's okay. It's just firecrackers. 1067 01:13:04,630 --> 01:13:05,631 Can you do something? 1068 01:13:05,715 --> 01:13:07,133 Rowan. 1069 01:13:07,216 --> 01:13:08,426 Stop taking photos! 1070 01:13:08,509 --> 01:13:09,510 Rowan? 1071 01:13:11,262 --> 01:13:12,805 Can you tell us what's happening? 1072 01:13:18,394 --> 01:13:19,812 Is the movement over? 1073 01:13:20,688 --> 01:13:21,689 Come on! 1074 01:13:35,745 --> 01:13:38,145 Apparently, the brand of firecracker was "Truth Bomb." 1075 01:13:38,205 --> 01:13:40,100 - Gets the libs every time. - Rowan Aldren is a pussy. 1076 01:13:40,124 --> 01:13:41,417 So much for "bravery." 1077 01:13:41,500 --> 01:13:43,896 The libtards have a leader as weak and stupid as they are. 1078 01:13:43,920 --> 01:13:46,440 LOLOL. Guess we don't even need guns to win boogaloo. 1079 01:13:46,505 --> 01:13:48,883 Just throw firecrackers and the snowflakes will surrender. 1080 01:13:48,966 --> 01:13:51,320 Rowan Aldren clearly faked being in a school shooting 1081 01:13:51,344 --> 01:13:53,804 to get attention. 1082 01:14:03,606 --> 01:14:04,607 Hi. 1083 01:14:15,743 --> 01:14:16,744 Hey. 1084 01:14:18,454 --> 01:14:19,455 Hey. 1085 01:14:22,416 --> 01:14:24,043 They give you some good drugs at least? 1086 01:14:27,713 --> 01:14:28,714 Liquid Valium. 1087 01:14:32,760 --> 01:14:35,596 Brought you some hot cocoa. I'll bring it to you. 1088 01:14:36,263 --> 01:14:37,723 No mini marshmallows. 1089 01:14:39,016 --> 01:14:40,142 - Here. - Thanks. 1090 01:14:48,234 --> 01:14:49,527 Well, that was embarrassing. 1091 01:14:51,821 --> 01:14:54,073 Stop. It wasn't. 1092 01:14:55,366 --> 01:14:57,451 You don't have to... I know I fucked up. 1093 01:14:57,535 --> 01:14:59,179 I know no one's gonna take me seriously anymore. 1094 01:14:59,203 --> 01:15:01,205 Rowan, that is... that is not true. 1095 01:15:01,288 --> 01:15:03,290 I am supposed to be setting an example, 1096 01:15:04,542 --> 01:15:06,085 but I couldn't, and I just... 1097 01:15:08,629 --> 01:15:10,297 I feel so weak. 1098 01:15:13,843 --> 01:15:17,013 And if I'm weak, then that just weakens what I stand for. 1099 01:15:17,096 --> 01:15:20,975 And everything, everyone I fought for, it just... it all... 1100 01:15:21,058 --> 01:15:23,185 - It falls apart. - Ro. 1101 01:15:23,269 --> 01:15:25,980 God, the alt-right is gonna crucify me for this. 1102 01:15:27,189 --> 01:15:28,190 Look at you. 1103 01:15:29,191 --> 01:15:32,778 You need to... Remember what you said to me? You... 1104 01:15:32,862 --> 01:15:36,323 That the Internet loves to turn villains into victims. 1105 01:15:39,535 --> 01:15:41,120 Said it the wrong way, didn't I? 1106 01:15:46,709 --> 01:15:48,002 Yeah. Right. 1107 01:15:51,797 --> 01:15:52,965 God, I don't know... 1108 01:15:53,674 --> 01:15:57,178 I don't know how you stayed so… strong. 1109 01:15:58,304 --> 01:16:00,347 But I just, like, I saw it, 1110 01:16:00,431 --> 01:16:03,267 and it was like I was back there again, and I... 1111 01:16:04,435 --> 01:16:06,187 Un. 1112 01:16:06,270 --> 01:16:07,938 Just coming to check your vitals. 1113 01:16:09,440 --> 01:16:10,775 Right, I'll let you guys… 1114 01:16:10,858 --> 01:16:12,443 - Oh, you're welcome to stay. - No, no. 1115 01:16:13,360 --> 01:16:14,612 You should get some rest. 1116 01:16:15,738 --> 01:16:16,739 I'll see you later. 1117 01:16:23,287 --> 01:16:24,288 Danni? 1118 01:16:26,207 --> 01:16:30,377 I just want to thank you for being there today. 1119 01:16:30,961 --> 01:16:32,296 Coming here. 1120 01:16:32,379 --> 01:16:35,007 I mean, honestly, you're probably one of the only people 1121 01:16:35,091 --> 01:16:37,843 that really gets what she's been through. 1122 01:16:42,389 --> 01:16:43,390 Well… 1123 01:16:44,308 --> 01:16:45,309 I... 1124 01:16:47,061 --> 01:16:50,231 Uh, I don't, um… I have to go. 1125 01:16:51,065 --> 01:16:52,066 Okay. 1126 01:16:52,149 --> 01:16:54,527 Yeah, my phone. I have to charge my phone. 1127 01:16:54,610 --> 01:16:58,572 And I have to feed my guinea... My guinea pig. 1128 01:16:59,949 --> 01:17:02,451 Okay. So, I have to leave, like, right now. 1129 01:17:02,535 --> 01:17:05,204 Like, big rush, but, um… 1130 01:17:06,080 --> 01:17:07,623 But... Bye. 1131 01:17:24,014 --> 01:17:25,891 Don't look at me like that. 1132 01:17:29,603 --> 01:17:30,813 Dix. 1133 01:17:32,940 --> 01:17:34,400 Neuf. 1134 01:17:36,026 --> 01:17:37,236 Huit. 1135 01:17:38,612 --> 01:17:39,738 Sept. 1136 01:17:41,073 --> 01:17:42,158 Six. 1137 01:17:42,950 --> 01:17:44,118 Cinq. 1138 01:17:44,827 --> 01:17:45,995 Quatre. 1139 01:17:46,078 --> 01:17:47,121 Trois. 1140 01:17:47,204 --> 01:17:48,622 Deux. Un. 1141 01:18:14,315 --> 01:18:16,901 Rowan! Rowan, no, no! No! 1142 01:18:16,984 --> 01:18:18,861 This is all your fault! 1143 01:18:18,944 --> 01:18:21,155 Stop! 1144 01:18:21,238 --> 01:18:23,365 - Your fault, Danni! - This is your fault! 1145 01:18:23,449 --> 01:18:26,035 Your fault, Danni, this is all your fault! 1146 01:18:35,961 --> 01:18:38,088 - Hello. - It's Harper. 1147 01:18:40,049 --> 01:18:41,050 Who? 1148 01:18:42,051 --> 01:18:44,303 Harper, from work. Can I come up? 1149 01:18:44,887 --> 01:18:47,014 Uh, yeah. 1150 01:18:47,097 --> 01:18:48,599 Uh, yeah. One sec. 1151 01:19:01,028 --> 01:19:02,821 - Hi. - Hi. 1152 01:19:03,614 --> 01:19:04,615 Hey. 1153 01:19:07,493 --> 01:19:08,494 What's up? 1154 01:19:11,830 --> 01:19:12,831 Harper? 1155 01:19:12,915 --> 01:19:14,208 We need to talk. 1156 01:19:15,334 --> 01:19:16,377 Okay, about what? 1157 01:19:17,503 --> 01:19:18,671 About Paris. 1158 01:19:25,844 --> 01:19:28,639 I don't... I don't know what you're talking about. 1159 01:19:28,722 --> 01:19:30,516 Remember your first day back at work? 1160 01:19:30,599 --> 01:19:34,311 You talked about how sunny and clear it was all morning before the bombings. 1161 01:19:34,395 --> 01:19:38,232 Well, I remembered reading it was raining right before the attacks. 1162 01:19:38,983 --> 01:19:39,984 That's weird, right? 1163 01:19:40,567 --> 01:19:42,361 But I thought, "Hey, you know what? 1164 01:19:42,444 --> 01:19:44,571 She's confused. She's been through a lot. It happens." 1165 01:19:45,531 --> 01:19:47,533 Then, at that party, 1166 01:19:47,616 --> 01:19:50,703 you know the one for your brilliant article, 1167 01:19:50,786 --> 01:19:52,705 you said you went and toured Notre-Dame. 1168 01:19:54,039 --> 01:19:55,374 Which I found odd, 1169 01:19:55,457 --> 01:19:58,794 considering it's been closed to the public since half of it burned down. 1170 01:19:58,877 --> 01:19:59,878 Okay. 1171 01:19:59,962 --> 01:20:02,715 So, I decided to look up this retreat, L'Esprit Nouveau. 1172 01:20:02,798 --> 01:20:05,884 Other than one website, doesn't really seem to exist. 1173 01:20:05,968 --> 01:20:08,137 And when I Googled all the names on the list, 1174 01:20:08,220 --> 01:20:11,598 not a single one turned up anything about writing, except yours. 1175 01:20:11,682 --> 01:20:13,702 I mean, God, does nobody fact-check anything anymore? 1176 01:20:13,726 --> 01:20:15,853 Okay. If you just give me... 1177 01:20:15,936 --> 01:20:17,187 Uh, no. I'm not done. 1178 01:20:18,564 --> 01:20:20,190 See, I had my suspicions. 1179 01:20:20,774 --> 01:20:23,319 But I didn't have proof. Until I saw this. 1180 01:20:26,822 --> 01:20:29,366 You went through my computer? Why would you do that? 1181 01:20:29,450 --> 01:20:34,288 You know what? Because I didn't like you. I never trusted you. 1182 01:20:34,371 --> 01:20:37,333 The way you acted when you came back from Paris was sus as hell. 1183 01:20:37,416 --> 01:20:39,561 And yeah, I was probably jealous that you got an office. 1184 01:20:39,585 --> 01:20:40,961 But you know what I didn't do? 1185 01:20:41,045 --> 01:20:45,007 Lie about being in a fucking terrorist attack to get one for myself. 1186 01:20:45,090 --> 01:20:47,652 I didn't know. How was I supposed to know that there was going to be a... 1187 01:20:47,676 --> 01:20:50,637 I just was lying about a trip, that was it, to get Colin's attention. 1188 01:20:50,721 --> 01:20:52,264 So what? You thought this was better 1189 01:20:52,348 --> 01:20:54,808 than admitting you lied in a couple of Instagram stories? 1190 01:20:54,892 --> 01:20:57,978 I don't know. I don't know. I just... Harper, I'm a different person now. 1191 01:20:58,062 --> 01:21:01,690 Please. Please, just... What do you want? 1192 01:21:01,774 --> 01:21:04,860 Do you want money? I can find you money. My parents have a lot of connections. 1193 01:21:04,943 --> 01:21:07,237 My mom can get you into Soho House, the one in Malibu. 1194 01:21:07,321 --> 01:21:09,114 People died, Danni! 1195 01:21:12,326 --> 01:21:14,995 Do you get that? People died. 1196 01:21:20,959 --> 01:21:21,960 I know. 1197 01:21:25,756 --> 01:21:27,758 I'm gonna give you two options here. 1198 01:21:27,841 --> 01:21:30,219 You can either wait for me to write an article exposing you, 1199 01:21:30,302 --> 01:21:32,679 which would be really good for my career… 1200 01:21:35,557 --> 01:21:38,018 Or I will give you the opportunity to tell everyone yourself. 1201 01:21:39,019 --> 01:21:40,020 I don't... 1202 01:21:40,104 --> 01:21:41,897 You have until Monday to make your decision. 1203 01:21:43,774 --> 01:21:45,609 Oh, and by the way, 1204 01:21:46,360 --> 01:21:47,694 whichever one you pick, 1205 01:21:49,071 --> 01:21:51,365 you owe Rowan Aldren a fucking apology. 1206 01:22:09,883 --> 01:22:11,093 Fuck. 1207 01:22:13,512 --> 01:22:14,513 Fuck. 1208 01:22:36,326 --> 01:22:37,327 I can't. 1209 01:22:55,804 --> 01:22:57,389 I want to start off by saying 1210 01:22:58,348 --> 01:23:01,226 there's nothing that will make what I'm about to tell you okay. 1211 01:23:02,686 --> 01:23:04,771 Two months ago, I informed you all 1212 01:23:04,855 --> 01:23:07,733 that I had been selected for a writers' retreat in Paris. 1213 01:23:09,026 --> 01:23:10,027 I lied. 1214 01:23:11,111 --> 01:23:12,613 I never went to Paris. 1215 01:23:13,489 --> 01:23:16,450 I stayed home and faked photos to make it look like I did. 1216 01:23:17,034 --> 01:23:18,911 All to impress a guy. 1217 01:23:18,994 --> 01:23:20,329 Fuck. 1218 01:23:20,412 --> 01:23:24,249 I was under the influence of marijuana at the time that I concocted this idea, 1219 01:23:24,333 --> 01:23:26,919 which contributed to my poor decision-making. 1220 01:23:27,002 --> 01:23:31,798 But still, I am taking full responsibility for my actions. 1221 01:23:33,091 --> 01:23:36,011 I recognize now that this decision was a product of my loneliness 1222 01:23:36,094 --> 01:23:38,263 and desire to find meaning in my life. 1223 01:23:40,140 --> 01:23:42,267 And also my depression. 1224 01:23:44,478 --> 01:23:48,190 I deeply regret my actions, and I'm committing myself to change. 1225 01:23:51,068 --> 01:23:55,072 I feel that coming clean now is the first step towards that change. 1226 01:23:57,824 --> 01:23:58,992 And Rowan... 1227 01:24:24,518 --> 01:24:28,689 I promise you, I will do better. 1228 01:24:39,449 --> 01:24:40,492 Okay. 1229 01:25:10,731 --> 01:25:13,692 Ro, you're trending. 1230 01:25:30,042 --> 01:25:32,377 This is so fucked up. Isn't it, Kevin? 1231 01:25:33,211 --> 01:25:34,296 White women. 1232 01:25:34,838 --> 01:25:37,090 We did... We did a round of fact-checking. 1233 01:25:37,174 --> 01:25:38,759 She made a fucking website. 1234 01:25:52,356 --> 01:25:53,482 Where is she? 1235 01:26:19,257 --> 01:26:21,885 - No, I know... - Do not touch me right now! 1236 01:26:36,149 --> 01:26:38,527 You have no idea! You didn't tell me! 1237 01:26:38,610 --> 01:26:41,697 I had to find out from a fucking Depravity article, Danni! 1238 01:26:41,780 --> 01:26:44,199 Just give me one minute! I know! I know! 1239 01:26:49,955 --> 01:26:54,167 And I made a mistake! And I just... I feel bad because you're my best friend! 1240 01:26:55,210 --> 01:26:57,629 You have to go. No, Danni. 1241 01:26:57,713 --> 01:26:58,922 Listen to me for one minute. 1242 01:26:59,464 --> 01:27:03,218 No. You have to go. You have to go. 1243 01:27:03,301 --> 01:27:04,803 Just go. 1244 01:27:27,367 --> 01:27:28,994 Oh, shit. 1245 01:27:30,287 --> 01:27:31,288 What I miss? 1246 01:27:54,936 --> 01:27:56,956 Danni Sanders might actually be the worst person 1247 01:27:56,980 --> 01:27:59,316 we've ever covered on this show, and we covered Hitler. 1248 01:27:59,399 --> 01:28:01,318 …acting like she was the victim. 1249 01:28:01,401 --> 01:28:04,070 I think that that turned a lot of people off to her. 1250 01:28:04,154 --> 01:28:07,324 But I'm really not trying to get mistaken for Danni Sanders. 1251 01:28:07,407 --> 01:28:09,343 I'm not gonna go that far. It's a fine. 1252 01:28:09,367 --> 01:28:11,203 Not for me. I own guns. 1253 01:28:11,286 --> 01:28:13,538 You wanna be everywhere? Try being in an obituary. 1254 01:28:13,622 --> 01:28:16,208 Danni Sanders, you don't seem to know where you're at. 1255 01:28:16,291 --> 01:28:17,560 But you know, I know where you're at. 1256 01:28:17,584 --> 01:28:19,344 - Is that your address? - That look familiar? 1257 01:28:19,377 --> 01:28:20,772 I'm pretty sure that's your address. 1258 01:28:20,796 --> 01:28:23,632 3824 Linden Street. 1259 01:28:23,715 --> 01:28:25,091 You're here, ha-ha! 1260 01:28:25,175 --> 01:28:28,512 Yo, any serial killers wanna do a little practice run. There's your place. 1261 01:28:28,595 --> 01:28:31,115 If I was you, I would not want that information out. That sucks. 1262 01:28:31,139 --> 01:28:32,557 - Oh, no. - That sucks. 1263 01:28:32,641 --> 01:28:34,518 No one loves you, Danni. Fuck you! 1264 01:28:53,203 --> 01:28:54,204 Danni? 1265 01:28:56,957 --> 01:29:00,335 No, no, no. Look at this. Hmm? 1266 01:29:00,418 --> 01:29:04,089 Six years in Afghanistan. You want to talk about fucking trauma? 1267 01:29:04,172 --> 01:29:05,841 Huh? Trauma! That's... 1268 01:29:06,842 --> 01:29:07,843 Bitch! 1269 01:29:12,264 --> 01:29:16,226 All right, Guinea Weasley. This is gonna be our new home for a while. 1270 01:29:17,269 --> 01:29:18,895 What are you gonna do? 1271 01:29:18,979 --> 01:29:21,189 How are you ever gonna be able to get another job? 1272 01:29:21,273 --> 01:29:23,024 Or find a husband. 1273 01:29:23,567 --> 01:29:26,319 - Or get approved by a co-op board? - I don't know. I don't know. 1274 01:29:26,403 --> 01:29:27,571 I don't know. 1275 01:29:28,864 --> 01:29:32,242 Your father is getting death threats sent to his work. 1276 01:29:32,325 --> 01:29:34,536 They're accusing us of being in on it. 1277 01:29:34,619 --> 01:29:35,620 Yeah, I know. 1278 01:29:38,915 --> 01:29:40,959 I just... I can't. 1279 01:29:42,002 --> 01:29:43,628 Okay, I... Me... 1280 01:29:43,712 --> 01:29:45,505 Can I have a cup of hot cocoa? 1281 01:29:48,925 --> 01:29:50,051 Please? 1282 01:30:44,481 --> 01:30:47,192 Hi. I'm Danni. 1283 01:30:48,526 --> 01:30:52,447 It has been a little over a month. 1284 01:30:54,491 --> 01:30:57,202 And it's like I still don't know where to start. 1285 01:30:57,744 --> 01:31:02,123 Sometimes a good place to start can be with a little self-reflection. 1286 01:31:02,207 --> 01:31:07,295 You know, speak on the new perspective that you've gained from this experience. 1287 01:31:07,379 --> 01:31:08,797 Right, yeah. I... 1288 01:31:08,880 --> 01:31:13,343 I guess... what I've learned from this experience is that… 1289 01:31:16,554 --> 01:31:17,555 I… 1290 01:31:18,723 --> 01:31:21,226 I don't think that I like myself very much. 1291 01:31:21,309 --> 01:31:22,519 Mm-hmm. 1292 01:31:23,520 --> 01:31:25,730 I'm not sure that I ever really have. 1293 01:31:26,856 --> 01:31:29,734 Which is funny. Like, considering my life... 1294 01:31:29,818 --> 01:31:32,904 Oh, my God. My life before this, it was so easy. 1295 01:31:32,988 --> 01:31:34,406 So easy. 1296 01:31:36,324 --> 01:31:38,159 No one stared at me in the street. 1297 01:31:38,910 --> 01:31:41,579 No one doxed me on Twitter. No one... 1298 01:31:42,914 --> 01:31:44,749 No one gave a shit. 1299 01:31:45,500 --> 01:31:46,500 Yeah. 1300 01:31:49,838 --> 01:31:51,131 Which is why I lied. 1301 01:31:52,298 --> 01:31:53,341 And now… 1302 01:31:55,760 --> 01:31:58,596 Now I hate myself so much more than I did before. 1303 01:32:00,682 --> 01:32:03,351 So what? Are we supposed to feel bad for you? 1304 01:32:05,228 --> 01:32:06,730 I mean, you're saying you've learned, 1305 01:32:06,813 --> 01:32:09,065 but at the end of the day, you're a privileged white girl 1306 01:32:09,149 --> 01:32:10,589 who thinks she's the main character. 1307 01:32:10,650 --> 01:32:14,446 Quinn! What have we said about criticizing other people… 1308 01:32:14,529 --> 01:32:17,198 For the mistakes we've made ourselves. 1309 01:32:17,282 --> 01:32:18,283 Quinn's… 1310 01:32:19,617 --> 01:32:20,618 Totally right. 1311 01:32:22,912 --> 01:32:25,707 I don't know if I've learned anything. I don't know… 1312 01:32:26,750 --> 01:32:28,376 If I'm better. 1313 01:32:28,460 --> 01:32:30,045 I don't know if I've grown. 1314 01:32:30,128 --> 01:32:34,257 I don't know if I've… learned, 1315 01:32:34,340 --> 01:32:36,926 and... I just... I don't know. I don't know. 1316 01:32:37,010 --> 01:32:38,887 Have you tried making amends? 1317 01:32:42,348 --> 01:32:44,392 Directly to the people that you hurt. 1318 01:32:45,101 --> 01:32:47,395 Not like over the Internet. 1319 01:32:47,479 --> 01:32:48,688 Hmm. 1320 01:32:51,191 --> 01:32:52,192 Okay. 1321 01:33:35,527 --> 01:33:36,736 And up next, 1322 01:33:36,820 --> 01:33:41,157 we have Rowan Aldren reciting an original spoken-word piece. 1323 01:33:59,509 --> 01:34:03,346 So this is a different piece than the one I originally planned on doing. 1324 01:34:04,889 --> 01:34:08,143 It's a little rough, but I, um… 1325 01:34:09,644 --> 01:34:10,937 I think it's more fitting. 1326 01:34:26,411 --> 01:34:28,955 If you're not okay, that's okay. 1327 01:34:31,708 --> 01:34:33,585 That's advice I gave. 1328 01:34:34,210 --> 01:34:36,337 Six words that came out of my mouth 1329 01:34:36,421 --> 01:34:39,007 that on that day you snatched up like a handout. 1330 01:34:40,091 --> 01:34:41,968 1331 01:34:42,677 --> 01:34:44,804 A sentence that resonated with a nation... No. 1332 01:34:44,888 --> 01:34:47,265 A generation scared to wake up in their own nation, 1333 01:34:47,348 --> 01:34:50,602 determined of their own inevitable termination. 1334 01:34:52,145 --> 01:34:54,814 Smart move, turning that fear into clickbait. 1335 01:34:59,027 --> 01:35:03,239 But, God, I guess I am just so used to being stolen from, 1336 01:35:03,323 --> 01:35:06,659 that when I read my words in your voice, I reposted 'em. 1337 01:35:07,410 --> 01:35:09,078 And applauded as you boasted. 1338 01:35:09,162 --> 01:35:11,789 Gave you a platform that floated you right up to the top. 1339 01:35:13,291 --> 01:35:14,959 And you never thought to stop? 1340 01:35:16,502 --> 01:35:19,464 When you looked down at the bodies that you used as props, 1341 01:35:19,547 --> 01:35:23,134 when you looked into my eyes, you just saw another voice to co-opt? 1342 01:35:23,801 --> 01:35:28,431 You know, for someone who's not okay, you seem okay with quite a lot, actually. 1343 01:35:30,850 --> 01:35:34,187 And while I was blindsided, why am I not surprised? 1344 01:35:35,605 --> 01:35:38,483 Why is a story like yours something we read every other night? 1345 01:35:38,566 --> 01:35:41,027 Why do people like you get movies on Netflix and Hulu, 1346 01:35:41,110 --> 01:35:44,614 and people like me get told to sit tight and wait for change? 1347 01:35:44,697 --> 01:35:47,659 No, you don't know what that's like! You can't take the mic! 1348 01:35:47,742 --> 01:35:50,870 This is my time slot. One more minute, right? 1349 01:35:57,001 --> 01:35:59,128 I have had everything stolen from me. 1350 01:36:00,255 --> 01:36:02,048 Their breath, stolen. 1351 01:36:02,882 --> 01:36:06,761 My breath, perpetually holding, wondering if someone near me might be holding... 1352 01:36:08,179 --> 01:36:09,764 I'm sorry. 1353 01:36:09,847 --> 01:36:11,182 Is my trauma showing? 1354 01:36:11,266 --> 01:36:14,018 Because I don't plan on slowing or sitting down. 1355 01:36:14,102 --> 01:36:17,730 This is my time to take back the words that you stole from my mouth. 1356 01:36:17,814 --> 01:36:21,276 You have never seen anything destroyed except yourself! 1357 01:36:23,695 --> 01:36:25,238 And that is of your own doing. 1358 01:36:30,034 --> 01:36:33,246 So hell no. I am not okay. 1359 01:36:37,625 --> 01:36:39,752 I think about her every single day. 1360 01:36:45,049 --> 01:36:48,303 You know when the newspapers wrote about my sister, 1361 01:36:48,386 --> 01:36:49,929 they misspelled her name? 1362 01:36:53,057 --> 01:36:55,935 And now you think her place is something you can claim? 1363 01:36:59,230 --> 01:37:02,442 Her body is in the ground, and you think you're the same? 1364 01:37:10,074 --> 01:37:13,244 I hope you realize that by doing this, you've only given me more to say. 1365 01:37:15,747 --> 01:37:17,915 So maybe one day I'll forgive you… 1366 01:37:19,792 --> 01:37:22,086 But we will never be okay. 1367 01:37:45,735 --> 01:37:46,736 Yes! 1368 01:37:47,695 --> 01:37:48,696 Yes! 1369 01:38:06,881 --> 01:38:09,133 You did that. You did it.