1 00:00:25,482 --> 00:00:30,000 We moved towards Doan's Crossing and the Red River. 2 00:00:30,024 --> 00:00:33,791 And tragedy's next opportunity to ravage what's left of us... 3 00:00:37,863 --> 00:00:40,183 My mother says the pain will fade. 4 00:00:40,207 --> 00:00:42,916 And the good memories will return. 5 00:00:42,940 --> 00:00:44,872 I suppose that's true. 6 00:00:46,447 --> 00:00:49,688 Every person on this planet will endure this pain 7 00:00:49,712 --> 00:00:51,875 until they are the cause of it for another. 8 00:00:53,320 --> 00:00:56,451 Someday, I'll die and shatter hearts, too. 9 00:00:58,318 --> 00:01:01,270 But that is not today. 10 00:01:01,294 --> 00:01:04,320 Today I am living and I'm the shattered. 11 00:01:23,944 --> 00:01:27,091 Oughta try and hire a cowboy away from 'em. 12 00:01:27,115 --> 00:01:28,857 And a cook. 13 00:01:28,881 --> 00:01:31,532 Can't mess with an outfit's cook. 14 00:01:31,556 --> 00:01:34,534 You steal their cattle and they wouldn't be madder. 15 00:01:34,558 --> 00:01:38,134 I ain't looking for a gun fight this morning. 16 00:01:38,158 --> 00:01:41,694 We'll hire a cook and a cowboy going the other way at Doan's. 17 00:01:43,967 --> 00:01:46,981 How's she doing? 18 00:01:47,005 --> 00:01:48,503 About how you'd expect. 19 00:02:47,591 --> 00:02:48,578 You hungry? 20 00:02:48,602 --> 00:02:50,406 No. 21 00:02:50,430 --> 00:02:51,572 Where are you going? 22 00:02:51,596 --> 00:02:54,312 I need some privacy. 23 00:02:54,336 --> 00:02:55,537 Why do you need privacy? 24 00:02:58,273 --> 00:02:59,574 I got my period. 25 00:03:12,287 --> 00:03:13,687 Death is everywhere. 26 00:03:15,919 --> 00:03:19,033 It follows us like a stray dog, 27 00:03:19,057 --> 00:03:21,266 waiting to devour us like scraps. 28 00:03:24,538 --> 00:03:29,604 The pain it causes is so acute, so complete... 29 00:03:32,944 --> 00:03:37,282 It's hard to understand how it benefits us, as a species. 30 00:03:42,353 --> 00:03:44,047 What purpose does pain serve? 31 00:03:46,821 --> 00:03:50,152 I understand desire and fear... 32 00:03:52,491 --> 00:03:53,925 And love... 33 00:03:55,469 --> 00:03:57,980 And how they protect us and better our lives 34 00:03:58,004 --> 00:04:01,751 and bring new life. 35 00:04:01,775 --> 00:04:02,868 But grief... 36 00:04:04,435 --> 00:04:09,644 If I weren't so consumed by it, it would baffle me. 37 00:04:26,559 --> 00:04:28,157 I know how you feel. 38 00:04:29,665 --> 00:04:31,435 A lot of people are gonna tell you that. 39 00:04:33,099 --> 00:04:36,308 Whether it's the truth or not, I don't know. 40 00:04:38,102 --> 00:04:40,345 But I know it's true when I say it. 41 00:04:42,139 --> 00:04:45,125 I have sat right where you're sitting, 42 00:04:45,149 --> 00:04:46,516 thinking the same thing. 43 00:04:47,850 --> 00:04:49,552 Thinking I don't want to live without them. 44 00:04:50,814 --> 00:04:52,429 Don't see the point. 45 00:04:52,453 --> 00:04:54,821 Still do most days. 46 00:04:58,265 --> 00:05:02,301 But here I am... living without them. 47 00:05:04,870 --> 00:05:06,404 Why? 48 00:05:07,697 --> 00:05:09,681 Well... 49 00:05:09,705 --> 00:05:12,234 My reasons'd be different than yours. 50 00:05:13,974 --> 00:05:16,271 I don't have anyone left who loves me. 51 00:05:18,311 --> 00:05:19,615 You do. 52 00:05:26,487 --> 00:05:27,821 I'll tell you a secret. 53 00:05:39,506 --> 00:05:41,934 I'll tell you why I'm still sucking air today. 54 00:05:45,275 --> 00:05:46,774 I'm headed to the ocean. 55 00:05:50,917 --> 00:05:52,109 The ocean? 56 00:05:56,817 --> 00:05:59,017 An Apache scout told me once... 57 00:06:02,124 --> 00:06:04,429 that when you love somebody, you trade souls with them. 58 00:06:06,458 --> 00:06:10,435 They get a piece of yours, and you get a piece of theirs. 59 00:06:14,899 --> 00:06:16,474 But when your love dies... 60 00:06:21,041 --> 00:06:23,074 A little piece of you dies with them. 61 00:06:25,045 --> 00:06:28,244 That's why you hurt so bad. 62 00:06:29,986 --> 00:06:32,523 But that little piece of him is still inside you. 63 00:06:35,286 --> 00:06:39,563 And he can use your eyes to see the world. 64 00:06:43,232 --> 00:06:44,841 So... 65 00:06:44,865 --> 00:06:46,900 I'm taking my wife to the ocean... 66 00:06:50,402 --> 00:06:52,741 And I'm gonna sit on the beach, and let her see it. 67 00:06:56,577 --> 00:06:57,812 That was her dream. 68 00:07:00,417 --> 00:07:02,014 Then I'm going to see her. 69 00:07:04,815 --> 00:07:05,952 That's my dream. 70 00:07:13,063 --> 00:07:17,766 In the meantime, the herd could sure use its cowgirl. 71 00:08:22,465 --> 00:08:23,667 Where you going now? 72 00:08:30,274 --> 00:08:31,334 Back to work. 73 00:10:08,166 --> 00:10:09,366 Let's hold the herd up here. 74 00:10:16,381 --> 00:10:17,473 Hold 'em up! 75 00:10:48,873 --> 00:10:52,728 If you need something from the traders, I'll get it for you. 76 00:10:52,752 --> 00:10:56,128 You stay here and keep them kids close. 77 00:10:56,152 --> 00:10:57,854 There's as many thieves as traders out there. 78 00:11:02,125 --> 00:11:07,377 My husband's things. I have to sell them. 79 00:11:07,401 --> 00:11:10,097 Yes, ma'am, I'll get 'em sold. 80 00:11:11,435 --> 00:11:12,762 Thank you. 81 00:11:17,575 --> 00:11:20,485 Don't sell that shotgun. 82 00:11:20,509 --> 00:11:23,556 - I don't know how to use it. - I can teach you to use it. 83 00:11:23,580 --> 00:11:25,343 You're gonna need it. 84 00:11:42,096 --> 00:11:44,072 I wonder if they got dairy cows. 85 00:11:44,096 --> 00:11:46,315 Cause I'd like some milk. 86 00:11:46,339 --> 00:11:48,508 Milk will spoil. 87 00:11:48,532 --> 00:11:50,950 The way this damn wagon rattles, 88 00:11:50,974 --> 00:11:52,672 milk will be butter in an afternoon. 89 00:11:54,637 --> 00:11:57,454 Grab some more coffee too, would you? 90 00:11:57,478 --> 00:12:00,444 Take John. I'd like to spend some time with Elsa. 91 00:12:02,378 --> 00:12:04,250 All right, come on, son. 92 00:12:05,249 --> 00:12:07,121 Here we go. 93 00:12:11,797 --> 00:12:13,742 Don't let those traders swindle you. 94 00:12:13,766 --> 00:12:15,628 I plan on doing the swindling. 95 00:12:16,994 --> 00:12:17,835 I'll bet. 96 00:12:31,218 --> 00:12:32,212 Ride with me. 97 00:12:34,387 --> 00:12:36,997 Gotta watch the herd. 98 00:12:37,021 --> 00:12:38,466 The first decent grass these cattle 99 00:12:38,490 --> 00:12:39,665 have seen in a week. 100 00:12:39,689 --> 00:12:40,990 The cattle will be fine. 101 00:12:42,426 --> 00:12:43,421 Wade! 102 00:12:46,030 --> 00:12:49,268 I'm gonna take her to the trading post. 103 00:12:49,292 --> 00:12:51,136 Do you need anything? 104 00:12:51,160 --> 00:12:52,947 Well... 105 00:12:52,971 --> 00:12:54,550 I wouldn't be mad at a chocolate bar, 106 00:12:54,574 --> 00:12:55,867 if they happen to have one. 107 00:12:57,138 --> 00:12:58,849 If they have one, I'll buy it. 108 00:12:58,873 --> 00:13:00,339 Much appreciated. 109 00:13:02,175 --> 00:13:03,782 Come on. 110 00:13:52,693 --> 00:13:53,755 What? 111 00:13:55,334 --> 00:13:56,939 What! 112 00:13:56,963 --> 00:13:58,172 You's what. 113 00:13:58,196 --> 00:14:00,077 It's a free country. 114 00:14:00,101 --> 00:14:02,008 I can look at whatever I want. 115 00:14:02,032 --> 00:14:06,001 Judging by the way you're dressed, you don't mind it. 116 00:14:08,172 --> 00:14:10,760 I mind it. 117 00:14:10,784 --> 00:14:12,876 What are you going to do about it? 118 00:14:15,917 --> 00:14:17,597 I like this one. 119 00:14:17,621 --> 00:14:18,813 Let me see. 120 00:14:20,860 --> 00:14:22,734 You've got expensive taste, boy. 121 00:14:22,758 --> 00:14:23,818 James! 122 00:14:26,492 --> 00:14:28,295 You gonna shoot me, little girl? 123 00:14:30,734 --> 00:14:33,036 Goddam right I am. 124 00:14:35,534 --> 00:14:37,386 It's harder to do than you think. 125 00:14:37,410 --> 00:14:38,951 No, it ain't. 126 00:14:38,975 --> 00:14:40,538 It comes real natural to me. 127 00:14:42,346 --> 00:14:46,588 Look, we was just funnin' and she pulls iron. 128 00:14:46,612 --> 00:14:48,488 I guess she wasn't having too much fun. 129 00:14:48,512 --> 00:14:50,408 All right. 130 00:14:50,432 --> 00:14:52,327 All right. 131 00:14:52,351 --> 00:14:55,371 Just... I put it down, okay? 132 00:14:55,395 --> 00:14:56,832 I put it down. 133 00:14:56,856 --> 00:14:58,372 James. 134 00:14:58,396 --> 00:15:00,104 I don't wanna waste looking over my shoulder for you. 135 00:15:00,128 --> 00:15:02,270 You won't find us if you do. 136 00:15:02,294 --> 00:15:03,943 We's headed to Fort Worth. 137 00:15:03,967 --> 00:15:05,599 Well, I'd be headed that way. 138 00:15:24,580 --> 00:15:25,924 What is wrong with you? 139 00:15:27,152 --> 00:15:28,355 Give it to me. 140 00:15:31,056 --> 00:15:33,998 You don't point this at anyone unless you plan on using it. 141 00:15:35,931 --> 00:15:37,166 I was gonna use it. 142 00:15:41,798 --> 00:15:43,733 Go to camp, and you wait there! 143 00:16:30,485 --> 00:16:34,360 Whoo! Pretty short fuse on that girl. 144 00:16:34,384 --> 00:16:36,436 It's not long. 145 00:16:36,460 --> 00:16:39,942 Some of them cowgirls is ranker than the cowboys. 146 00:16:39,966 --> 00:16:42,033 Like they ain't never had a mother. 147 00:16:43,460 --> 00:16:44,563 I'm her mother. 148 00:16:48,566 --> 00:16:50,206 Would you like a lemonade? 149 00:16:51,172 --> 00:16:52,802 I would not, thank you. 150 00:16:56,442 --> 00:16:58,082 How bout a whiskey punch? 151 00:17:02,250 --> 00:17:03,780 You look like you could use it. 152 00:17:08,892 --> 00:17:09,757 Would you join me? 153 00:17:11,394 --> 00:17:15,423 Sister, I been joining you since noon. 154 00:17:24,905 --> 00:17:26,487 Ice. 155 00:17:26,511 --> 00:17:29,451 My husband bought a block in Fort Worth in January. 156 00:17:29,475 --> 00:17:32,193 Got the ice box down our well. 157 00:17:32,217 --> 00:17:33,755 Hundred pound block will last till June 158 00:17:33,779 --> 00:17:35,626 if we don't get in there much. 159 00:17:35,650 --> 00:17:36,258 Mm. 160 00:17:36,282 --> 00:17:37,395 This is the last of it 161 00:17:37,419 --> 00:17:39,123 and I ain't letting one bit go to waste. 162 00:17:57,105 --> 00:18:00,441 Sorry. Thank you. 163 00:18:02,343 --> 00:18:03,807 Children can have that effect. 164 00:18:04,815 --> 00:18:05,974 Mine sure did. 165 00:18:23,526 --> 00:18:24,498 How was it? 166 00:18:33,570 --> 00:18:34,871 Not worth going. 167 00:18:36,683 --> 00:18:38,072 They never are. 168 00:18:44,416 --> 00:18:45,948 Stars for a blanket. 169 00:18:48,860 --> 00:18:49,985 Ground for a bed. 170 00:18:52,722 --> 00:18:56,629 Good horse, open country. 171 00:18:58,266 --> 00:18:59,797 That's all a cowboy needs. 172 00:19:02,207 --> 00:19:03,867 Guess it's all a cowgirl needs too. 173 00:19:18,349 --> 00:19:20,701 Oregon? 174 00:19:20,725 --> 00:19:21,720 Yep. 175 00:19:24,893 --> 00:19:28,103 Mmmm. 176 00:19:28,127 --> 00:19:32,281 Once I get there how the hell am I supposed to get back? 177 00:19:32,305 --> 00:19:35,975 We'll put your wagon and horses on a train 178 00:19:35,999 --> 00:19:38,033 and send you wherever you want to go. 179 00:19:41,477 --> 00:19:43,214 Why can't they cook for themselves? 180 00:19:45,383 --> 00:19:47,218 Can't do much of nothing for themselves. 181 00:19:49,580 --> 00:19:51,659 Which way you going? 182 00:19:51,683 --> 00:19:52,784 We'll cut through South Pass, 183 00:19:54,283 --> 00:19:58,237 Drop into Salt Lake, and head west from there. 184 00:19:58,261 --> 00:20:00,104 You won't beat the winter. 185 00:20:00,128 --> 00:20:00,990 We'll beat it. 186 00:20:03,528 --> 00:20:05,572 What about beef? 187 00:20:05,596 --> 00:20:07,449 Hmm? You got beef? 188 00:20:07,473 --> 00:20:09,438 'Cause there ain't shit for game once you hit Kansas. 189 00:20:10,402 --> 00:20:12,001 Fifty head. 190 00:20:14,847 --> 00:20:16,170 What else you gonna do? 191 00:20:25,451 --> 00:20:27,832 You buy the supplies 192 00:20:27,856 --> 00:20:30,704 and I'm hundred fifty a month, plus the freight home. 193 00:20:30,728 --> 00:20:32,505 Deal. 194 00:20:32,529 --> 00:20:37,142 It's my chuck wagon, so it's my rules. 195 00:20:37,166 --> 00:20:38,745 They eat what I cook. 196 00:20:38,769 --> 00:20:41,040 If they don't like it they can complain to somebody else 197 00:20:41,064 --> 00:20:42,603 'cause I don't wanna fucking hear it. 198 00:20:44,174 --> 00:20:47,102 Your wagon, your rules. 199 00:20:49,841 --> 00:20:53,785 Gonna cost about... 200 00:20:53,809 --> 00:20:55,077 six hundred to stock up. 201 00:20:56,218 --> 00:20:58,434 Why six hundred? 202 00:20:58,458 --> 00:21:00,786 'Cause this is the last store 'fore we get to Wyoming. 203 00:21:03,126 --> 00:21:04,729 What about Abilene? 204 00:21:07,064 --> 00:21:10,577 God damn Abilene. 205 00:21:10,601 --> 00:21:13,148 Hookers and killers is all you'll find there. 206 00:21:13,172 --> 00:21:14,536 I ain't going near that sum bitch. 207 00:21:16,334 --> 00:21:17,407 Mm-mmm. 208 00:21:35,491 --> 00:21:38,395 Oh, Lord Jesus, be with me. 209 00:21:54,944 --> 00:21:58,920 You know, there's going to be a school here next year. 210 00:21:58,944 --> 00:22:02,363 Ten years there wasn't nothing, 211 00:22:02,387 --> 00:22:04,230 not a soul in this country. 212 00:22:04,254 --> 00:22:04,860 Mm. 213 00:22:04,884 --> 00:22:06,793 And now there's gonna be a school. 214 00:22:06,817 --> 00:22:08,802 That's progress. 215 00:22:08,826 --> 00:22:11,285 I'm not even sure I know what that word means anymore. 216 00:22:18,068 --> 00:22:19,297 Nobody does! 217 00:22:31,411 --> 00:22:32,515 Miss Carol? 218 00:22:34,078 --> 00:22:36,929 Miss Carol, I need to supply up! 219 00:22:36,953 --> 00:22:40,688 Write down what you take. I'll be there in a minute. 220 00:22:43,261 --> 00:22:45,319 Write down what you take? 221 00:22:48,295 --> 00:22:50,027 All right! 222 00:23:13,151 --> 00:23:15,764 Give you 35 dollars for all of it. 223 00:23:15,788 --> 00:23:18,901 - I'll take it. - All right. 224 00:23:18,925 --> 00:23:20,665 You want cash or you wanna trade? 225 00:23:20,689 --> 00:23:21,861 Cash. 226 00:23:22,869 --> 00:23:23,995 All right. 227 00:23:39,543 --> 00:23:41,045 Pretty. 228 00:23:42,617 --> 00:23:45,694 Uh-huh. From France. 229 00:23:45,718 --> 00:23:48,293 What you doing with it? 230 00:23:48,317 --> 00:23:49,931 Mister, if you ain't got money 231 00:23:49,955 --> 00:23:51,937 and you ain't got beans or coffee 232 00:23:51,961 --> 00:23:54,772 or a pot to boil it in, people will trade away anything. 233 00:23:54,796 --> 00:23:57,238 Further away you get from concrete, 234 00:23:57,262 --> 00:23:59,195 the more worthless those pretty things become. 235 00:24:02,206 --> 00:24:04,285 How much for it? 236 00:24:04,309 --> 00:24:07,081 - Fifty dollars. - Fifty dollars? 237 00:24:07,105 --> 00:24:09,725 Ain't no damn concrete 'round here. 238 00:24:09,749 --> 00:24:12,879 'Cause when I take it to the concrete it's worth 50. 239 00:24:15,086 --> 00:24:16,619 Tell you what. 240 00:24:20,156 --> 00:24:21,151 Here's 15. 241 00:24:24,461 --> 00:24:26,222 Keep that 35 and we're even. 242 00:24:46,508 --> 00:24:48,855 All the way to Oregon with them? 243 00:24:48,879 --> 00:24:51,192 That's the plan. 244 00:24:51,216 --> 00:24:54,194 Who taught 'em how to hitch a wagon? 245 00:24:54,218 --> 00:24:57,604 These folks are a work in progress. 246 00:24:57,628 --> 00:25:00,091 Well, I'd say you ain't there yet. 247 00:25:02,560 --> 00:25:03,567 Nope. 248 00:25:05,230 --> 00:25:07,940 You all have any trouble with bandits? 249 00:25:07,964 --> 00:25:10,481 We had our share. 250 00:25:10,505 --> 00:25:12,177 How'd they handle it? 251 00:25:12,201 --> 00:25:14,881 They're here aren't they? 252 00:25:14,905 --> 00:25:16,819 It's gonna get worse. 253 00:25:16,843 --> 00:25:19,825 And once you get to Wyoming? 254 00:25:19,849 --> 00:25:21,228 Every sorry bastard on this earth is hid out 255 00:25:21,252 --> 00:25:22,930 in that son of a bitch. 256 00:25:22,954 --> 00:25:25,663 And the Indians ain't as tame as the papers say they is. 257 00:25:25,687 --> 00:25:27,300 So people keep telling me. 258 00:25:27,324 --> 00:25:31,198 Look, Captain... 259 00:25:31,222 --> 00:25:32,970 I been in my fair share of gunfights 260 00:25:32,994 --> 00:25:36,979 and I ain't trying to get in another one. 261 00:25:37,003 --> 00:25:38,360 I ju... I don't... 262 00:25:43,032 --> 00:25:44,102 Hundred a month you say? 263 00:25:47,705 --> 00:25:48,882 Yep. 264 00:25:48,906 --> 00:25:50,890 How's the food? 265 00:25:50,914 --> 00:25:53,160 If we can get Cookie hired it's the same food 266 00:25:53,184 --> 00:25:54,593 you been eatin'. 267 00:25:54,617 --> 00:25:55,718 I'll ride the trail with you. 268 00:25:57,515 --> 00:25:59,933 Grab your gear. Toss it in that second wagon. 269 00:25:59,957 --> 00:26:02,059 Well, everything I own is strapped to this saddle. 270 00:26:08,767 --> 00:26:11,205 I thought you was working with Swenson? 271 00:26:11,229 --> 00:26:14,006 We're riding a herd up in March. 272 00:26:14,030 --> 00:26:16,643 How are them rivers? 273 00:26:16,667 --> 00:26:18,614 Rank. 274 00:26:18,638 --> 00:26:20,181 How's Abilene? 275 00:26:20,205 --> 00:26:23,384 Well, made it out with my wallet 276 00:26:23,408 --> 00:26:26,425 which is better'd I can say for of my outfit. 277 00:26:26,449 --> 00:26:28,255 You hiring on with us? 278 00:26:28,279 --> 00:26:30,654 Yeah. Got nothing better to do. 279 00:26:33,053 --> 00:26:36,598 What's her deal? She's pretty sporty. 280 00:26:36,622 --> 00:26:40,975 She was paired up with Ennis till a Comanchero shot him. 281 00:26:40,999 --> 00:26:44,278 She plugged that son of a bitch three times in the chest. 282 00:26:44,302 --> 00:26:46,032 Ennis got killed? 283 00:26:48,707 --> 00:26:50,366 Yeah, she won't be in the mood for you. 284 00:26:52,435 --> 00:26:54,307 They're all in the mood for me. 285 00:27:07,220 --> 00:27:11,288 Hi. My name's Colton. What's yours? 286 00:27:17,962 --> 00:27:19,098 What do I call ya? 287 00:27:21,470 --> 00:27:22,497 You don't. 288 00:27:26,973 --> 00:27:29,078 Ennis was a friend of mine. 289 00:27:36,816 --> 00:27:38,018 He was a good hand. 290 00:27:40,116 --> 00:27:41,252 I'm sorry he's gone. 291 00:27:43,326 --> 00:27:44,695 Me too. 292 00:27:46,223 --> 00:27:52,477 If... if I can do anything... 293 00:27:52,501 --> 00:27:53,429 let me know. 294 00:27:57,573 --> 00:27:58,907 There's nothing to do. 295 00:28:04,016 --> 00:28:04,913 Ma'am. 296 00:28:16,660 --> 00:28:19,004 They was more than paired up. 297 00:28:19,028 --> 00:28:21,573 She's in mourning like a damn widow. 298 00:28:21,597 --> 00:28:24,298 She is a widow. 299 00:28:49,491 --> 00:28:50,552 Girl... 300 00:28:52,296 --> 00:28:55,128 You go looking for trouble, you gonna find it every time. 301 00:29:00,632 --> 00:29:03,004 I wasn't looking for nuthin' and it still found me. 302 00:29:15,017 --> 00:29:16,886 We should have a look at the river. 303 00:29:17,686 --> 00:29:18,756 Take John to your mom. 304 00:29:20,689 --> 00:29:21,616 She ain't back yet. 305 00:29:35,198 --> 00:29:36,532 Hold him for me? 306 00:30:09,441 --> 00:30:11,034 Don't make any sense. 307 00:30:19,011 --> 00:30:22,456 Give me a minute. 308 00:30:22,480 --> 00:30:24,998 Two, three... 309 00:30:25,022 --> 00:30:26,801 Look at you! Oh my God. 310 00:30:26,825 --> 00:30:29,571 Oh my God. 311 00:30:29,595 --> 00:30:31,455 I've never seen that before. 312 00:30:32,860 --> 00:30:34,931 Never seen it before! 313 00:30:36,367 --> 00:30:38,165 Hey. 314 00:30:41,772 --> 00:30:43,064 I gotta go study the river. 315 00:30:46,636 --> 00:30:50,515 Study the river. 316 00:30:50,539 --> 00:30:52,421 Can I trust you to stay here? 317 00:30:52,445 --> 00:30:56,418 Yep. This long. As long as this is. 318 00:31:00,059 --> 00:31:02,904 Awmo study the river... Oh no... 319 00:31:02,928 --> 00:31:05,352 I think I'm in trouble but I don't care. 320 00:31:10,026 --> 00:31:10,967 Whoa! 321 00:31:16,771 --> 00:31:18,172 Damn. 322 00:31:19,644 --> 00:31:21,076 They won't ever make it. 323 00:31:23,477 --> 00:31:25,055 We'll run the cattle across first, 324 00:31:25,079 --> 00:31:27,428 take the wagons over one-by-one. 325 00:31:27,452 --> 00:31:30,531 And I mean us. 326 00:31:30,555 --> 00:31:32,090 It'll take all day, 327 00:31:32,114 --> 00:31:36,101 but we'll lose half of them if we let them emigrants do it. 328 00:31:36,125 --> 00:31:37,994 How we getting them emigrants across? 329 00:31:40,698 --> 00:31:43,310 That'll take all day, too. 330 00:31:43,334 --> 00:31:47,143 - At least nobody drowns. - That's two days we don't have. 331 00:31:47,167 --> 00:31:50,516 We should be in Kansas by now. 332 00:31:50,540 --> 00:31:53,516 At some point they gotta learn to do things for themselves. 333 00:31:53,540 --> 00:31:55,280 The only thing they're gonna learn crossing that 334 00:31:55,304 --> 00:31:57,079 is how to die. 335 00:32:05,551 --> 00:32:07,066 Don't think this is the place to try 336 00:32:07,090 --> 00:32:08,466 and teach 'em something, Captain. 337 00:32:08,490 --> 00:32:12,391 It's this to the Rockies, and then it's worse. 338 00:32:13,525 --> 00:32:15,107 If they can't cross a fucking river, 339 00:32:15,131 --> 00:32:16,802 how are they gonna cross the mountains 340 00:32:16,826 --> 00:32:19,480 or the goddam desert we go through first? 341 00:32:19,504 --> 00:32:21,147 Don't get mad. 342 00:32:21,171 --> 00:32:24,909 We ain't gotta do what the farmer say. 343 00:32:24,933 --> 00:32:28,253 If you wanna swim 'em across the river, 344 00:32:28,277 --> 00:32:30,079 then we'll swim 'em across the river. 345 00:32:33,048 --> 00:32:35,579 I'm mad 'cause he's right. 346 00:33:20,089 --> 00:33:23,604 Wherever we're going it better be paradise... 347 00:33:23,628 --> 00:33:26,630 'Cause it's costing us a daughter... 348 00:33:29,865 --> 00:33:32,215 If you ask me, it's a shitty trade. 349 00:33:32,239 --> 00:33:33,621 We ain't trading nuthin'. 350 00:33:33,645 --> 00:33:34,704 She killed a man. 351 00:33:37,212 --> 00:33:38,675 And she was about to kill another. 352 00:33:40,718 --> 00:33:42,891 I look in her eyes 353 00:33:42,915 --> 00:33:46,968 and the person staring back at me, I don't recognize. 354 00:33:46,992 --> 00:33:49,230 I will never forgive you for this! 355 00:33:49,254 --> 00:33:50,852 You don't forgive me? 356 00:33:52,323 --> 00:33:53,492 I don't forgive me. 357 00:34:48,550 --> 00:34:50,846 You didn't see the way he was looking at me. 358 00:34:56,752 --> 00:34:58,227 Wouldn't matter if you did. 359 00:35:01,265 --> 00:35:03,397 Men don't know how to read that look. 360 00:35:04,429 --> 00:35:05,663 Only know how to give it. 361 00:35:11,167 --> 00:35:14,936 I'm gonna tell you a story and you're gonna listen. 362 00:35:17,916 --> 00:35:19,281 I think I've earned that right. 363 00:35:21,279 --> 00:35:22,256 Hope I have. 364 00:35:22,280 --> 00:35:24,352 I'll listen. 365 00:35:29,389 --> 00:35:30,853 First man I killed... hm... 366 00:35:34,964 --> 00:35:36,056 He was just a boy. 367 00:35:38,297 --> 00:35:39,499 Younger than you. 368 00:35:43,373 --> 00:35:46,111 The reason companies have flag bearers 369 00:35:46,135 --> 00:35:48,937 is so soldiers know to stay with their group. 370 00:35:49,979 --> 00:35:51,621 And generals on the hill 371 00:35:51,645 --> 00:35:54,524 can track the progress of the battle. 372 00:35:54,548 --> 00:35:58,452 So much dust and smoke in battle. 373 00:36:00,089 --> 00:36:01,422 You're fighting in a fog. 374 00:36:02,556 --> 00:36:04,204 It's hard to make out the enemy. 375 00:36:04,228 --> 00:36:07,638 Can't tell your men from theirs. 376 00:36:07,662 --> 00:36:10,024 But you can always look up and see the flags. 377 00:36:17,439 --> 00:36:19,308 So, we shoot flag bearers first. 378 00:36:22,339 --> 00:36:23,741 And I did. 379 00:36:26,075 --> 00:36:28,713 That boy's face was burned into my brain. 380 00:36:30,318 --> 00:36:31,859 The whole world seemed to stop 381 00:36:31,883 --> 00:36:35,987 as this boy, he's looking right at me. 382 00:36:38,227 --> 00:36:40,494 By the end of the battle, I... 383 00:36:42,933 --> 00:36:44,498 I'd killed so many men. 384 00:36:46,096 --> 00:36:47,831 I couldn't remember what that boy looked like. 385 00:36:52,843 --> 00:36:54,134 Still can't. 386 00:36:57,942 --> 00:37:01,009 That man you shot was already dead. 387 00:37:03,848 --> 00:37:07,628 Whether we hanged him or he bled out, 388 00:37:07,652 --> 00:37:09,754 his time on this earth was done. 389 00:37:14,789 --> 00:37:16,123 You did not kill him. 390 00:37:18,297 --> 00:37:19,467 Understand? 391 00:37:22,802 --> 00:37:25,281 The meanest thing you can do to yourself 392 00:37:25,305 --> 00:37:26,903 is hate somebody else. 393 00:37:28,336 --> 00:37:31,753 I know what it feels like to hate the world. 394 00:37:31,777 --> 00:37:33,448 You don't want to feel it, honey. 395 00:37:34,446 --> 00:37:36,385 Be sad. Miss him. 396 00:37:37,383 --> 00:37:38,882 Cry yourself blind. 397 00:37:40,883 --> 00:37:42,149 But you leave the hating to me. 398 00:38:26,905 --> 00:38:28,668 I got 35 dollars. 399 00:38:31,209 --> 00:38:34,575 Wish it was more, but it was fair. 400 00:38:36,778 --> 00:38:38,546 There's stew in the pot if you're hungry. 401 00:38:40,245 --> 00:38:41,417 I am. 402 00:38:54,922 --> 00:38:56,635 Where'd you find meat? 403 00:38:56,659 --> 00:38:59,343 It's rabbit. 404 00:38:59,367 --> 00:39:00,700 I figured out the shotgun. 405 00:39:06,704 --> 00:39:08,783 Don't taste like rabbit. 406 00:39:08,807 --> 00:39:11,546 - Mostly rabbit. - What else is it? 407 00:39:12,246 --> 00:39:13,713 Rattlesnake. 408 00:39:15,053 --> 00:39:16,617 Figured than one out, too. 409 00:39:17,813 --> 00:39:19,180 Got you something. 410 00:39:51,222 --> 00:39:52,785 Why would you buy me this? 411 00:39:53,781 --> 00:39:55,018 Well... 412 00:39:57,722 --> 00:39:59,462 If I looked like you, I... 413 00:40:01,463 --> 00:40:04,902 figure I'd stare at myself... 414 00:40:04,926 --> 00:40:06,997 every chance I got. 415 00:40:12,109 --> 00:40:13,745 This is a present. 416 00:40:13,769 --> 00:40:15,748 Yes, it is. 417 00:40:15,772 --> 00:40:19,422 You won't marry me. 418 00:40:19,446 --> 00:40:22,129 You won't love me, 419 00:40:22,153 --> 00:40:23,717 but you will buy me gifts. 420 00:40:24,750 --> 00:40:28,854 You're sad... and scared. 421 00:40:32,725 --> 00:40:34,530 You have every right to be. 422 00:40:36,833 --> 00:40:39,937 If I can give you something that makes you happy 423 00:40:39,961 --> 00:40:42,164 and protect you... 424 00:40:44,307 --> 00:40:45,574 Don't see the crime in it. 425 00:40:47,408 --> 00:40:48,709 You want me happy. 426 00:40:50,377 --> 00:40:51,613 Course I do. 427 00:40:53,185 --> 00:40:54,341 You want me to feel safe. 428 00:40:56,713 --> 00:40:57,718 Yes, ma'am. 429 00:41:20,209 --> 00:41:21,401 That's love. 430 00:41:25,308 --> 00:41:28,617 Me letting you take care of me is not fear. 431 00:41:30,352 --> 00:41:31,884 It's loving you back. 432 00:41:57,478 --> 00:41:58,680 Do I look scared to you? 433 00:42:14,693 --> 00:42:16,126 I'm not the scared one. 434 00:42:20,102 --> 00:42:20,933 You are. 435 00:43:03,546 --> 00:43:05,373 I laid in the grass... 436 00:43:09,781 --> 00:43:11,115 closed my eyes... 437 00:43:14,015 --> 00:43:15,317 and I saw him. 438 00:43:19,188 --> 00:43:20,795 Laughed at his goofy hair. 439 00:43:24,098 --> 00:43:26,262 Felt the electricity of his touch. 440 00:43:31,468 --> 00:43:35,271 I laid in the grass and I loved him. 441 00:43:45,555 --> 00:43:46,986 Then I opened my eyes... 442 00:43:50,857 --> 00:43:52,695 and I could see color again. 443 00:44:20,455 --> 00:44:22,466 Elsa. 444 00:44:22,490 --> 00:44:24,337 What's that? 445 00:44:24,361 --> 00:44:26,904 That's my name. 446 00:44:26,928 --> 00:44:30,840 It'll come in handy to know it. 447 00:44:30,864 --> 00:44:32,772 Don't bother flirting with me. 448 00:44:32,796 --> 00:44:34,609 Why not? 449 00:44:34,633 --> 00:44:38,565 You're too pretty for me. I prefer to be the pretty one. 450 00:44:46,317 --> 00:44:48,220 Bet you prefer it too. 451 00:44:55,827 --> 00:44:58,767 You drive my horse across the river, 452 00:44:58,791 --> 00:44:59,803 I'll drive the wagon. 453 00:44:59,827 --> 00:45:02,007 I am perfectly capable. 454 00:45:02,031 --> 00:45:04,439 I ain't questioning what you're able to do. 455 00:45:04,463 --> 00:45:06,874 There's three times as many things that can go wrong 456 00:45:06,898 --> 00:45:09,377 in the water with that. 457 00:45:09,401 --> 00:45:13,049 Now, you can not forgive me all you want. 458 00:45:13,073 --> 00:45:15,281 Add this to your list of reasons. 459 00:45:15,305 --> 00:45:16,746 But I ain't losing you to a river. 460 00:45:19,416 --> 00:45:20,717 You're forgiven. 461 00:46:25,074 --> 00:46:26,211 Good morning. 462 00:46:28,177 --> 00:46:29,709 Mornin', ma'am. 463 00:47:00,242 --> 00:47:01,909 No more "ma'am." 464 00:47:05,982 --> 00:47:07,417 Noemi. 465 00:47:09,152 --> 00:47:10,354 Good morning, Noemi. 466 00:47:13,861 --> 00:47:17,999 Mornin'... Noemi. 467 00:48:12,913 --> 00:48:15,333 The spring's back in your step, I see. 468 00:48:15,357 --> 00:48:17,894 You're the only person who talked to me about him. 469 00:48:21,464 --> 00:48:22,899 Thank you. 470 00:48:34,602 --> 00:48:36,356 He don't like the water, huh? 471 00:48:36,380 --> 00:48:37,421 He's excited. 472 00:48:37,445 --> 00:48:40,025 The water's his favorite part. 473 00:48:40,049 --> 00:48:41,874 - Better let him at it then. - Okay. 474 00:48:42,946 --> 00:48:44,580 Come on. 475 00:48:54,559 --> 00:48:56,270 Come on, cow. 476 00:48:56,294 --> 00:48:58,132 Get up. 477 00:49:00,763 --> 00:49:03,401 Watch out, watch out. 478 00:49:09,679 --> 00:49:10,947 Come on, cow. 479 00:49:14,884 --> 00:49:16,249 Let's bring 'em, boys. 480 00:49:24,828 --> 00:49:26,798 We were leaving Texas. 481 00:49:26,822 --> 00:49:28,866 Entering the Indian territory... 482 00:49:28,890 --> 00:49:31,759 and redefining our meaning of unknown. 483 00:49:33,602 --> 00:49:36,481 Far from the cities that have paved the world away, 484 00:49:36,505 --> 00:49:39,470 and the farms which have tamed it into a resource. 485 00:49:42,841 --> 00:49:45,674 We were no longer under the cloud of civilization. 486 00:49:47,079 --> 00:49:49,084 Only sky above us now. 487 00:49:50,151 --> 00:49:53,156 No more walking over bridges. 488 00:49:53,180 --> 00:49:55,618 Out here, we swim horseback through rivers. 489 00:50:01,190 --> 00:50:05,543 There is nowhere to chain love to vows and ceremony. 490 00:50:05,567 --> 00:50:09,482 Out here love burns through you like a fever. 491 00:50:09,506 --> 00:50:12,351 And when the devil comes to rip that love from you, 492 00:50:12,375 --> 00:50:15,111 there is no funeral with somber speeches 493 00:50:15,135 --> 00:50:18,476 that dull our senses and deaden our hearts. 494 00:50:19,875 --> 00:50:21,887 Out here, you turn toward the pain 495 00:50:21,911 --> 00:50:24,647 as it tears into you, and you let it. 496 00:50:26,124 --> 00:50:28,849 When you do, the devil gets bored. 497 00:50:30,191 --> 00:50:32,061 He seeks another soul to eat. 498 00:50:34,524 --> 00:50:35,955 And you get to live again.