1 00:00:29,700 --> 00:00:32,067 It all counts. 2 00:00:32,069 --> 00:00:33,670 People don't think about it. 3 00:00:33,837 --> 00:00:37,342 But we are nothing without numbers. 4 00:00:37,509 --> 00:00:39,743 Sometimes it feels like they are a secret 5 00:00:39,910 --> 00:00:41,812 that belongs only to me. 6 00:00:43,680 --> 00:00:47,250 It doesn't matter who we are or what we believe. 7 00:00:47,252 --> 00:00:49,753 The numbers stay the same. 8 00:00:49,920 --> 00:00:52,756 The numbers never lie. 9 00:00:55,260 --> 00:00:59,395 Ten, nine, eight, seven, 10 00:00:59,397 --> 00:01:01,566 seven, eight, nine, 11 00:01:01,732 --> 00:01:06,269 nine, nine, nine, nine... nine. 12 00:01:16,829 --> 00:01:18,549 How the fuck did I end up with nine bananas? 13 00:01:18,550 --> 00:01:20,251 There were ten. 14 00:01:25,789 --> 00:01:28,959 Sorry. Do you mind passing me a magazine? 15 00:01:29,427 --> 00:01:30,794 Which one? 16 00:01:30,961 --> 00:01:33,096 - Pardon? - Which magazine do you want? 17 00:01:33,264 --> 00:01:35,098 Oh, any. 18 00:01:35,266 --> 00:01:36,731 You want ANY magazine? 19 00:01:45,176 --> 00:01:47,044 Ah, thanks. Perfect. 20 00:01:56,053 --> 00:01:58,289 Excuse me. Excuse me. 21 00:01:58,456 --> 00:01:59,157 Hey. 22 00:01:59,324 --> 00:02:01,326 Hey, uh... 23 00:02:01,492 --> 00:02:03,194 I thought maybe you'd want this. 24 00:02:03,361 --> 00:02:05,729 Ah. That didn't really work out so well for Eve. 25 00:02:05,896 --> 00:02:07,762 That's very good. 26 00:02:07,764 --> 00:02:09,434 Look, if I give you this apple, 27 00:02:09,601 --> 00:02:12,602 maybe you'll give back the banana you nicked from me. 28 00:02:12,604 --> 00:02:13,768 Banana? 29 00:02:13,769 --> 00:02:15,239 You stole one of my bananas back there 30 00:02:15,240 --> 00:02:16,840 when you thought I wasn't looking, 31 00:02:17,007 --> 00:02:18,073 but I was looking. 32 00:02:18,075 --> 00:02:20,478 Oh, had you paid for the banana? 33 00:02:21,646 --> 00:02:22,946 Not yet. 34 00:02:23,114 --> 00:02:25,483 So that would make it the supermarket's banana. 35 00:02:25,650 --> 00:02:28,317 And if I did take it from you - and that's a big if - 36 00:02:28,319 --> 00:02:30,221 put it in my bag, paid for it and walked out, 37 00:02:30,388 --> 00:02:31,855 well, that's possession, my friend. 38 00:02:32,022 --> 00:02:33,262 And with nine tenths of the law, 39 00:02:33,391 --> 00:02:35,660 well, that banana's definitely mine. 40 00:02:37,495 --> 00:02:39,794 Hey! Look out! 41 00:02:39,796 --> 00:02:41,197 Take it. Keep it. 42 00:02:41,199 --> 00:02:43,934 Least I could do for the free legal advice. 43 00:02:46,337 --> 00:02:48,339 You should see what ten apples will get you. 44 00:02:48,506 --> 00:02:51,209 They could probably fix the whole justice system. 45 00:02:52,943 --> 00:02:54,379 Bye. 46 00:02:58,182 --> 00:02:59,215 Right. 47 00:03:06,224 --> 00:03:08,792 I've always been good at flirting. 48 00:03:08,959 --> 00:03:11,895 So many possible conversations to play out in my head. 49 00:03:12,062 --> 00:03:14,965 Not that I get much practice these days. 50 00:03:47,632 --> 00:03:50,268 172,000 mathematicians globally, 51 00:03:50,435 --> 00:03:54,004 research grants shrinking by 4.6% per decade, 52 00:03:54,172 --> 00:03:57,275 personal financial losses since hospitalisation, 53 00:03:57,442 --> 00:03:58,743 substantial, 54 00:03:58,909 --> 00:04:00,712 exponential gains in shame 55 00:04:00,877 --> 00:04:03,548 and family disappointment. 56 00:04:19,863 --> 00:04:21,733 I was born at midnight, 57 00:04:21,898 --> 00:04:24,968 on the cusp of the 9th and 10th of July. 58 00:04:25,136 --> 00:04:27,305 I invented the AC induction motor 59 00:04:27,472 --> 00:04:29,140 and the Tesla coil. 60 00:04:29,307 --> 00:04:32,276 I will never marry nor wish to bear children. 61 00:04:32,443 --> 00:04:35,745 I like watching the pigeons in Republic Square. 62 00:04:35,747 --> 00:04:38,483 My name is Grace Lisa Vandenburg. 63 00:04:38,649 --> 00:04:40,984 There are 19 letters in my name. 64 00:04:41,152 --> 00:04:43,154 I have a doctorate in mathematics. 65 00:04:43,321 --> 00:04:45,922 I was in love when I was 21. 66 00:04:46,089 --> 00:04:47,458 His name was Chris 67 00:04:47,625 --> 00:04:49,794 and he looked a little bit like Nick Cave. 68 00:04:49,960 --> 00:04:52,797 I don't like coriander. 69 00:04:52,963 --> 00:04:55,700 And when I wear yellow, I look like a corpse. 70 00:05:03,107 --> 00:05:05,942 If you shaved your moustache, you'd look like Kafka. 71 00:05:06,110 --> 00:05:09,514 Pizde! Odjebi, ah. 72 00:05:09,680 --> 00:05:12,517 You sleep by yourself tonight. 73 00:05:38,342 --> 00:05:42,246 One, two, three, four, six. 74 00:05:44,382 --> 00:05:48,386 One two, three four, five... 75 00:05:50,221 --> 00:05:52,221 For ages, I had a single bed. 76 00:05:52,223 --> 00:05:53,858 It was perfect. 77 00:05:54,826 --> 00:05:56,659 That changed at the hospital. 78 00:05:56,661 --> 00:05:58,563 I used to think that a double bed 79 00:05:58,729 --> 00:06:00,229 was a vacant promise. 80 00:06:00,231 --> 00:06:01,432 But not anymore. 81 00:06:01,599 --> 00:06:03,064 My name is Nikola Tesla. 82 00:06:03,066 --> 00:06:05,403 There are 11 letters in my name. 83 00:06:05,570 --> 00:06:07,371 People don't understand obsessions. 84 00:06:07,538 --> 00:06:09,839 An obsession is not a weakness. 85 00:06:09,841 --> 00:06:11,876 When I found out someone as great as Nikola Tesla 86 00:06:12,042 --> 00:06:14,579 was also a counter, he stopped being 'Tesla'. 87 00:06:14,745 --> 00:06:16,180 And he just became 'Nik'. 88 00:06:16,347 --> 00:06:18,850 - You look bored. - Not bored. Busy. 89 00:06:19,015 --> 00:06:23,019 Euclid's elements will always be there, ljubavi. That's the beauty of them. 90 00:06:23,187 --> 00:06:26,390 I have to keep sharp, Nik, a dull knife is death. 91 00:06:28,125 --> 00:06:31,395 - Just give me ten minutes. - I'll give you three. 92 00:06:31,863 --> 00:06:33,297 Six, then. 93 00:06:33,464 --> 00:06:34,732 Same argument for years now. 94 00:06:34,899 --> 00:06:36,799 Nine is my final offer. 95 00:06:36,801 --> 00:06:39,802 If you're not counting in tens, you're a Neanderthal. 96 00:06:39,804 --> 00:06:41,105 It's empirically perfect. 97 00:06:41,272 --> 00:06:43,706 - Here she comes. - The metric system. 98 00:06:43,708 --> 00:06:46,408 - Fingers and toes. - The wunderkind academic. 99 00:06:46,410 --> 00:06:49,111 Well, FORMER academic. 100 00:06:51,782 --> 00:06:53,618 We're nothing without tens. 101 00:06:53,784 --> 00:06:56,454 They are the entire balance of a beautiful world. 102 00:06:56,621 --> 00:06:59,223 If only you knew the magnificence of trinities, 103 00:06:59,390 --> 00:07:02,293 forget the world, ljubavi, 104 00:07:02,460 --> 00:07:04,762 you... 105 00:07:04,929 --> 00:07:08,432 you could unlock the entire universe. 106 00:07:38,094 --> 00:07:41,532 Order is important. 107 00:07:41,699 --> 00:07:45,469 The world gets all loose and fuzzy without numbers. 108 00:07:46,337 --> 00:07:48,105 Who wants that? 109 00:07:48,272 --> 00:07:51,275 Besides, life without an obsession or two 110 00:07:51,442 --> 00:07:53,611 is no fun at all. 111 00:07:55,613 --> 00:07:57,315 Alright, guys. 112 00:07:57,481 --> 00:07:59,882 F... 113 00:07:59,884 --> 00:08:02,386 equals... 114 00:08:04,388 --> 00:08:05,823 Larry. 115 00:08:05,990 --> 00:08:07,090 Derivative of f. 116 00:08:07,258 --> 00:08:09,892 Uh, five. Lucky. 117 00:08:09,894 --> 00:08:12,095 I know the competition is still a way off, 118 00:08:12,263 --> 00:08:16,233 but we have a huge amount of calculus still ahead of us. 119 00:08:17,568 --> 00:08:20,338 So let's get ready for some continuous change. 120 00:08:20,504 --> 00:08:23,307 Are you saying my humour's derivative? 121 00:08:23,474 --> 00:08:24,807 Wow. 122 00:08:24,809 --> 00:08:26,243 Alright, pack it up, you lot. 123 00:08:26,410 --> 00:08:29,380 Grace. Hi. How are you finding it? 124 00:08:29,547 --> 00:08:31,382 It's not too much too soon? 125 00:08:31,549 --> 00:08:35,586 No, no. I, um... I'm just grateful to be working. 126 00:08:35,753 --> 00:08:38,923 - Thanks. - I'll see you. 127 00:08:41,392 --> 00:08:43,928 - Hey, Larry. - Hey, Freddie. 128 00:08:44,095 --> 00:08:45,563 We going for chips and milkshakes. 129 00:08:45,730 --> 00:08:47,331 You want to come? 130 00:08:47,498 --> 00:08:48,933 Um, I can't. 131 00:08:49,100 --> 00:08:51,233 I have plans with my aunt, so... 132 00:08:51,235 --> 00:08:54,572 - Oh, well. See you later. - Bye. 133 00:08:56,108 --> 00:08:57,940 So this is Johnny Farrell. 134 00:08:57,942 --> 00:09:00,044 I've heard a lot about you, Johnny Farrell. 135 00:09:00,131 --> 00:09:01,611 Now, I haven't heard a word about you. 136 00:09:01,612 --> 00:09:04,048 Hey, you know the maths competition? 137 00:09:04,215 --> 00:09:07,585 Won't all the kids just think I'm some massive nerd? 138 00:09:09,420 --> 00:09:12,254 First of all, no. 139 00:09:12,256 --> 00:09:13,791 Second, you're going to win it, 140 00:09:13,879 --> 00:09:15,759 and that's going to make you an absolute legend. 141 00:09:15,760 --> 00:09:17,259 And third, and most importantly, 142 00:09:17,261 --> 00:09:19,697 who gives a flying fuck what the other kids think? 143 00:09:19,864 --> 00:09:21,565 Yeah, who gives a fuck. 144 00:09:21,732 --> 00:09:23,401 Watch it. 145 00:09:25,202 --> 00:09:26,637 What did Mr Garner want? 146 00:09:26,737 --> 00:09:27,937 Ugh, just to bathe in the pity 147 00:09:27,938 --> 00:09:30,408 of my spectacular fall from relevance. 148 00:09:31,409 --> 00:09:33,778 Nothing. He was just checking in. 149 00:09:33,944 --> 00:09:36,080 Probably just worries. 150 00:09:36,247 --> 00:09:37,581 Everyone just worries. 151 00:09:40,818 --> 00:09:43,454 Oh, don't you start. 152 00:09:44,156 --> 00:09:46,290 I'm fine. 153 00:09:47,125 --> 00:09:48,893 I'm fine. 154 00:09:51,962 --> 00:09:53,998 Here's what has to happen. 155 00:09:54,465 --> 00:09:56,067 I walk in. 156 00:09:56,233 --> 00:09:58,903 Count the tables. Obviously. 157 00:09:59,770 --> 00:10:01,772 Take the first table available. 158 00:10:01,939 --> 00:10:04,306 Always. 159 00:10:04,308 --> 00:10:06,844 - Tina will say... - What will it be? 160 00:10:07,011 --> 00:10:09,647 A hot chocolate and a slice of orange cake, please. 161 00:10:09,814 --> 00:10:11,849 The seeds on top tell me how many bites. 162 00:10:12,016 --> 00:10:13,185 20 is ideal. 163 00:10:13,350 --> 00:10:15,686 More than 30 gets tricky. 164 00:10:37,374 --> 00:10:39,211 No tables. No tables. 165 00:10:39,376 --> 00:10:42,980 He just sat down. She's ordering. Coffee's half full. 166 00:10:43,148 --> 00:10:45,850 Tina, these ladies want their bill. 167 00:10:51,055 --> 00:10:53,557 Oh, you got the Bircher. How lovely. 168 00:10:53,724 --> 00:10:55,359 Did you know there's a cafe in Berlin 169 00:10:55,526 --> 00:10:57,628 that makes it with breast milk? Imagine that. 170 00:10:57,795 --> 00:11:00,965 OK, perhaps you can just continue whatever this is 171 00:11:01,133 --> 00:11:04,001 - over here. - There are no tables, Tina. 172 00:11:04,169 --> 00:11:05,803 I'll be with you in a minute. 173 00:11:14,179 --> 00:11:16,148 Shit. 174 00:11:27,925 --> 00:11:30,861 Well, if it isn't the banana bandit. 175 00:11:31,028 --> 00:11:32,930 Supermarket stalker. 176 00:11:35,399 --> 00:11:37,202 Everything alright? 177 00:11:37,368 --> 00:11:40,938 I just really want a hot chocolate and a slice of orange cake. 178 00:11:41,106 --> 00:11:42,840 Easy. 179 00:11:44,675 --> 00:11:47,611 Hey. I'll have a black coffee and a bacon and egg roll 180 00:11:47,778 --> 00:11:49,580 and a hot chocolate and an orange cake. 181 00:11:49,747 --> 00:11:51,249 - Yeah. - No orange cake. 182 00:11:51,415 --> 00:11:54,084 We can do matcha waffle, brownie or lemon tart. 183 00:11:54,252 --> 00:11:56,787 Oh, Tina, you're really activating my almonds today, aren't you? 184 00:11:56,954 --> 00:11:58,522 Well, lemon is a citrus, 185 00:11:58,689 --> 00:12:01,358 which practically makes it an orange, right? 186 00:12:01,892 --> 00:12:03,261 Right. Yes. 187 00:12:03,427 --> 00:12:06,530 - Uh, lemon tart, please. - Sure. 188 00:12:12,736 --> 00:12:14,105 You steal any fruit lately? 189 00:12:14,272 --> 00:12:16,807 Three peaches, 26 grapes. 190 00:12:19,277 --> 00:12:20,945 Are you actually stalking me? 191 00:12:21,112 --> 00:12:23,248 You do understand how stalking works, right? 192 00:12:23,414 --> 00:12:24,982 You see, I was already here. 193 00:12:25,150 --> 00:12:28,085 I haven't... haven't seen you here before. 194 00:12:28,253 --> 00:12:28,953 What do you do? 195 00:12:29,120 --> 00:12:31,156 - Houses, mostly. - Ah. 196 00:12:31,323 --> 00:12:32,823 - I'm a painter. - Thanks. 197 00:12:32,990 --> 00:12:34,925 Thank you. 198 00:12:35,092 --> 00:12:37,372 Fuck. How am I supposed to know how to eat this without... 199 00:12:37,461 --> 00:12:39,164 Fucking poppy seeds. 200 00:12:39,331 --> 00:12:40,564 Poppy seeds? 201 00:12:40,731 --> 00:12:41,732 What's your name? 202 00:12:41,899 --> 00:12:43,301 - Seamus. - Seamus. 203 00:12:43,467 --> 00:12:44,787 Six bites isn't enough. Full name? 204 00:12:44,935 --> 00:12:46,670 Including middle? 205 00:12:46,837 --> 00:12:48,939 Seamus Joseph Rodgers. 206 00:12:49,673 --> 00:12:51,142 19. 207 00:12:51,309 --> 00:12:53,144 19. That'll do. 208 00:12:55,247 --> 00:12:57,748 - Thank you. - Cheers. 209 00:13:01,919 --> 00:13:04,322 Just eat the tart. Drink the hot chocolate. 210 00:13:04,488 --> 00:13:06,023 Leave. No need to linger. 211 00:13:06,191 --> 00:13:07,491 No need to think about 212 00:13:07,658 --> 00:13:10,427 how alluringly long his eyelashes are. Fuck. 213 00:13:10,594 --> 00:13:13,430 So, come on, then. It's your turn now. 214 00:13:13,597 --> 00:13:15,032 Grace Lisa Vandenburg. 215 00:13:15,200 --> 00:13:18,469 And are you a worker bee or, what - 216 00:13:18,636 --> 00:13:19,637 full-time kleptomaniac. 217 00:13:19,803 --> 00:13:23,108 Pure mathematician. Research, mostly. 218 00:13:23,275 --> 00:13:25,176 Sometimes STEM-adjacents. 219 00:13:25,809 --> 00:13:27,212 Oh, seriously? 220 00:13:27,379 --> 00:13:29,513 Last time I checked. 221 00:13:29,680 --> 00:13:33,285 Well, actually... currently, at the moment, I'm not really. 222 00:13:33,450 --> 00:13:35,019 I'm a maths tutor. 223 00:13:35,186 --> 00:13:36,787 I don't stand a chance, do I? 224 00:13:36,954 --> 00:13:38,989 Well, now you're starting me on probability, 225 00:13:39,157 --> 00:13:41,859 and that could keep us here all day. 226 00:13:46,563 --> 00:13:48,366 You're a bit odd, aren't you? 227 00:13:51,369 --> 00:13:53,637 You can put that down to the all-citrus diet. 228 00:13:56,674 --> 00:13:58,575 Thanks for the table. 229 00:14:05,749 --> 00:14:07,319 Grace. 230 00:14:10,155 --> 00:14:11,655 Look, I know this is forward, 231 00:14:11,822 --> 00:14:14,192 but would you like to get dinner sometime? 232 00:14:14,359 --> 00:14:16,827 No. I mean, I don't... No... I'm not sure... 233 00:14:16,994 --> 00:14:20,265 I know this great little Japanese place down the street. 234 00:14:20,432 --> 00:14:21,999 You play your cards right, 235 00:14:22,167 --> 00:14:25,569 I'll let you cut my karaage up into little pieces for me. 236 00:14:27,205 --> 00:14:28,939 OK, look, I tell you what, 237 00:14:29,107 --> 00:14:32,543 I'm going to be there Friday evening, regardless. 238 00:14:32,710 --> 00:14:36,448 So call me up and tell me to piss off if you like. 239 00:14:36,613 --> 00:14:39,717 Either way, I get to talk to you again. 240 00:14:42,120 --> 00:14:45,556 - It's up to you. - OK, bye. 241 00:14:52,863 --> 00:14:54,932 - There you go. - Thank you. 242 00:15:02,806 --> 00:15:03,874 OK. Clear these books. 243 00:15:04,041 --> 00:15:05,776 I'm not saying I don't miss Ryan. 244 00:15:05,943 --> 00:15:08,313 Just all us women around the table feels very right to me. 245 00:15:08,314 --> 00:15:10,147 Grace, could you get the napkins from the pantry? 246 00:15:10,148 --> 00:15:11,915 How long's he in China for this time? 247 00:15:12,082 --> 00:15:14,952 - Five months, Mum. - I don't know how you do it. 248 00:15:15,120 --> 00:15:16,880 Facetime every night, Gran. It's no big deal. 249 00:15:16,887 --> 00:15:19,224 Two, four, six, eight, ten. Two, four, six, eight, ten. 250 00:15:19,391 --> 00:15:20,724 Napkins, napkins... 251 00:15:20,891 --> 00:15:23,961 Date. Shit. Sex would be fun. 252 00:15:24,129 --> 00:15:25,296 Kids, marriage, divorce. 253 00:15:27,132 --> 00:15:28,299 It's just a date. 254 00:15:28,300 --> 00:15:29,500 50% of marriages end in divorce. 255 00:15:29,501 --> 00:15:31,635 Eight, nine, ten. Date. Shit. 256 00:15:31,756 --> 00:15:33,836 Ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two, 257 00:15:33,837 --> 00:15:34,738 three, two, one. 258 00:15:34,905 --> 00:15:36,974 Grace. I'm just going to say it. 259 00:15:37,142 --> 00:15:40,145 - There's an incredible psychiatrist who's just... - No. 260 00:15:40,311 --> 00:15:42,280 These are Saturday barbecue, not Sunday lunch. 261 00:15:42,447 --> 00:15:44,815 - Oh, just use these. - Oh! 262 00:15:44,982 --> 00:15:47,118 We're not animals. 263 00:15:47,285 --> 00:15:49,620 Dr Fields, he's a genius. 264 00:15:49,787 --> 00:15:51,655 He's really helped me tap into my inner power. 265 00:15:51,822 --> 00:15:53,491 Honestly, that just sounds awful. 266 00:15:53,657 --> 00:15:54,858 What? What sounds awful? 267 00:15:55,025 --> 00:15:56,660 Jill's getting into social justice. 268 00:15:56,827 --> 00:15:59,330 - Occupy motherhood, or something. - I'm talking about therapy. 269 00:15:59,497 --> 00:16:01,166 My friend just went to wilderness therapy. 270 00:16:01,332 --> 00:16:03,600 - She loved it. - Oh, cool. 271 00:16:03,767 --> 00:16:06,670 Look, I'm really glad that things are working out at the school. 272 00:16:06,837 --> 00:16:08,506 Leave it, Jill. 273 00:16:08,672 --> 00:16:10,774 I just hope she's not teaching all the kids to swear. 274 00:16:10,941 --> 00:16:12,861 Well, they will have all heard far worse at home, 275 00:16:12,876 --> 00:16:14,379 I can tell you that for nothing. 276 00:16:14,546 --> 00:16:16,847 - Not the point, Mum. - She's brilliant with kids. 277 00:16:16,848 --> 00:16:18,382 And if she ever wanted any of her own, then... 278 00:16:18,383 --> 00:16:20,017 She can barely look after herself. 279 00:16:20,185 --> 00:16:22,387 It was on this day that Grace learned she was invisible. 280 00:16:22,554 --> 00:16:25,622 Besides, she's missing the key ingredient - a man. 281 00:16:25,789 --> 00:16:27,525 Well, technically, I don't need a man. 282 00:16:27,691 --> 00:16:28,859 I'd just use his sperm. 283 00:16:29,026 --> 00:16:31,329 Anyway, it's harder nowadays to meet people, 284 00:16:31,496 --> 00:16:32,663 even if you are normal. 285 00:16:32,830 --> 00:16:34,630 Well, I'm not saying it's not tough out there, 286 00:16:34,665 --> 00:16:36,401 especially if you're over 30. 287 00:16:36,568 --> 00:16:39,304 Well, joke's on all of you, because I've found one, haven't I? 288 00:16:39,471 --> 00:16:41,406 What? A man? 289 00:16:41,573 --> 00:16:42,493 Yes, it's a date thing. 290 00:16:42,574 --> 00:16:44,175 - What does he do? - Oh, my God. 291 00:16:44,290 --> 00:16:46,210 If we talk about this more, I'll cancel the date, 292 00:16:46,211 --> 00:16:48,546 move to Mongolia and take up eagle hunting. 293 00:17:10,934 --> 00:17:12,936 I'm not some totally virginal loser. 294 00:17:13,103 --> 00:17:15,873 Sex is great. On my own, fantastic. 295 00:17:16,039 --> 00:17:18,176 It's just the whole other-person thing 296 00:17:18,343 --> 00:17:20,178 that gets tricky. 297 00:18:02,320 --> 00:18:05,256 - Huh. - It's nothing. 298 00:18:08,560 --> 00:18:09,927 It's something. 299 00:18:10,093 --> 00:18:11,962 You've bought this exact toothbrush 300 00:18:12,130 --> 00:18:13,598 for how many years now? 301 00:18:13,764 --> 00:18:16,733 And you've never thought to count the bristles. 302 00:18:26,810 --> 00:18:28,812 2,217. 303 00:18:28,979 --> 00:18:30,948 2,218. 304 00:18:31,115 --> 00:18:32,684 2,219. 305 00:18:32,849 --> 00:18:34,586 2,220. 306 00:18:35,186 --> 00:18:37,087 2,220. 307 00:18:37,255 --> 00:18:38,122 Are you sure? 308 00:18:38,289 --> 00:18:40,692 Counted them three fucking times. 309 00:19:11,788 --> 00:19:13,725 nine, ten. 310 00:19:37,148 --> 00:19:40,017 You're alright, ljubavi. 311 00:19:47,024 --> 00:19:49,144 No notice. They could just pull them from the shelves. 312 00:19:49,193 --> 00:19:51,763 They could do it tomorrow. They could do it anytime. 313 00:19:51,928 --> 00:19:54,931 If they switch brands, I'll have to count them all over again. 314 00:20:17,054 --> 00:20:19,590 - Grace. - Oh. 315 00:20:21,259 --> 00:20:22,727 Grace. 316 00:20:22,893 --> 00:20:27,064 I was thinking, if I just stay really still, 317 00:20:27,231 --> 00:20:28,700 maybe you won't see me? 318 00:20:28,865 --> 00:20:32,136 It might be a bit late for the not-seeing you part. 319 00:20:32,303 --> 00:20:34,205 I don't know, I was... If I just sort of... 320 00:20:34,372 --> 00:20:35,872 Right, come on. 321 00:20:36,039 --> 00:20:39,042 Come on. The... the awkward thing is happening. 322 00:20:39,210 --> 00:20:42,113 Happening right now. You gotta just... 323 00:20:42,280 --> 00:20:45,216 - Got to live it. - Oy... 324 00:20:49,120 --> 00:20:51,389 - Hi. - Hi. 325 00:20:52,423 --> 00:20:53,591 I should have called. 326 00:20:53,758 --> 00:20:55,626 - Did we have plans? - Did we? 327 00:20:55,793 --> 00:20:57,795 I don't think so. Um... 328 00:20:59,062 --> 00:21:00,431 I did want to come. 329 00:21:00,598 --> 00:21:04,168 I just have this very urgent thing I had to do. 330 00:21:04,335 --> 00:21:05,636 Honestly, not annoyed. 331 00:21:05,803 --> 00:21:07,638 More curious to know what problem 332 00:21:07,805 --> 00:21:10,308 85 toothbrushes can solve. 90, actually. 333 00:21:10,475 --> 00:21:13,444 What if I were to tell you dental hygiene is my kink? 334 00:21:15,646 --> 00:21:17,615 I've have got to start flossing. 335 00:21:20,984 --> 00:21:22,653 I wanted to come. 336 00:21:22,820 --> 00:21:23,987 I did. I... 337 00:21:24,155 --> 00:21:28,024 had a nice dress and mascara and everything. 338 00:21:29,594 --> 00:21:32,929 I just need you to know that I... tried. 339 00:21:35,333 --> 00:21:39,303 Fuck, no. Hands where I can see them. 340 00:21:39,470 --> 00:21:41,639 You're not getting me with that again! 341 00:21:41,806 --> 00:21:43,307 - What do you think I am? - Yes. 342 00:21:43,474 --> 00:21:44,975 Dare I ask, where to next? 343 00:21:45,143 --> 00:21:46,844 You can imagine, I skipped dessert. 344 00:21:47,010 --> 00:21:49,647 - Ice-cream aisle. - Oh, God. 345 00:21:52,717 --> 00:21:54,652 - Ah, just a sec. - Sure. 346 00:21:54,819 --> 00:21:57,488 Sorry about the mess. Just doing some cleaning. 347 00:23:34,886 --> 00:23:37,922 Oh, my God. 348 00:23:40,391 --> 00:23:42,326 I'm officially too old to kip on the floor. 349 00:23:44,161 --> 00:23:45,830 It's a strong look. 350 00:23:45,997 --> 00:23:47,398 Thanks. 351 00:23:48,299 --> 00:23:50,001 Who's this granddad? 352 00:23:50,167 --> 00:23:51,669 It's Nikola Tesla. 353 00:23:51,836 --> 00:23:53,137 Oh, right. Like the car? 354 00:23:53,304 --> 00:23:55,940 Like the greatest mind of his generation. 355 00:23:56,974 --> 00:23:59,010 Hey... 356 00:23:59,176 --> 00:24:01,512 You have to go. 357 00:24:01,679 --> 00:24:02,999 - What? - You got to go. I have... 358 00:24:03,079 --> 00:24:05,149 - Are you serious? - Yeah. I'm serious. 359 00:24:05,316 --> 00:24:06,476 I have a really busy morning. 360 00:24:06,478 --> 00:24:08,118 - Busy morning? - I have a meeting. 361 00:24:08,119 --> 00:24:10,154 I imagine it's a very important one. 362 00:24:10,321 --> 00:24:11,656 Yeah, actually. You can't be here. 363 00:24:11,822 --> 00:24:14,792 OK. Alright. Fine. 364 00:24:14,959 --> 00:24:16,159 Hey, look, I'm going, alright? 365 00:24:16,294 --> 00:24:17,995 Just relax. 366 00:24:18,162 --> 00:24:20,431 But you know I don't believe you for a second, right? 367 00:24:21,265 --> 00:24:22,366 Right. 368 00:24:22,533 --> 00:24:25,503 Look, Grace, for what it's worth... 369 00:24:26,804 --> 00:24:28,873 I'm not the needy type, alright? 370 00:24:29,040 --> 00:24:32,143 If you wanted this to just be, like, a casual thing... 371 00:24:32,777 --> 00:24:34,812 that suits me. 372 00:24:41,819 --> 00:24:44,155 - Yeah, I knew you'd agree. - Ugh. 373 00:24:44,322 --> 00:24:46,390 - You agree. - Bye. 374 00:24:46,557 --> 00:24:49,026 You agree. 375 00:24:49,193 --> 00:24:50,795 Six times? 376 00:24:50,962 --> 00:24:53,798 - I think he bruised my cervix. - That is not a thing. 377 00:24:53,965 --> 00:24:57,969 I would never lie about something so serious. 378 00:24:58,135 --> 00:24:59,804 When are you seeing him again? 379 00:24:59,971 --> 00:25:01,138 I'm not. 380 00:25:01,305 --> 00:25:03,207 Don't you like him? 381 00:25:04,008 --> 00:25:05,309 He's funny. 382 00:25:05,476 --> 00:25:07,712 He's... He's clever, in his own way. 383 00:25:07,878 --> 00:25:09,914 He's just a bit... average. 384 00:25:10,081 --> 00:25:12,183 Ugh, there you go - eyes bigger than your plate. 385 00:25:12,350 --> 00:25:13,250 It's my plate, Jill. 386 00:25:13,417 --> 00:25:15,386 I'm just saying, even if you think 387 00:25:15,553 --> 00:25:17,655 you MIGHT like him one day... 388 00:25:23,661 --> 00:25:26,697 You got the wrong value for x. It's thrown the whole equation. 389 00:25:26,864 --> 00:25:28,566 - X is 13. - No. 390 00:25:28,733 --> 00:25:30,101 - Are you serious? - Yep. 391 00:25:30,267 --> 00:25:31,702 Oh, my God! It's so stupid. 392 00:25:31,869 --> 00:25:33,704 I don't even know where I screwed up. 393 00:25:33,871 --> 00:25:36,407 Everyone at this competition is going to know I'm an idiot. 394 00:25:36,574 --> 00:25:40,244 How dare you talk about my niece like that? 395 00:25:40,411 --> 00:25:43,280 Honestly, it's gonna be OK. 396 00:25:43,447 --> 00:25:45,549 And you'll have me there. 397 00:25:56,861 --> 00:25:59,930 Don't forget these. Put them in the freezer. 398 00:26:00,097 --> 00:26:02,700 Oh, thanks. 399 00:26:02,867 --> 00:26:05,569 You always just give up before even really trying. 400 00:26:05,736 --> 00:26:08,072 I don't give up. I just am the way I am. 401 00:26:08,239 --> 00:26:09,640 I'm fine. 402 00:26:09,807 --> 00:26:11,542 You're not. 403 00:26:18,382 --> 00:26:22,286 You know all Hillary wants is to be like her Auntie Grace. 404 00:26:22,453 --> 00:26:25,556 I don't think she understands what that really means. 405 00:26:29,093 --> 00:26:30,628 Thank you. Thank you, Jill. 406 00:26:30,795 --> 00:26:32,396 - Thank you. - Thanks for the dinner. 407 00:26:32,563 --> 00:26:34,065 Thank you, Jill. 408 00:27:02,293 --> 00:27:04,929 Not on your fucking life. 409 00:27:07,199 --> 00:27:10,835 When Nick was 25, he became hypersensitive to sounds. 410 00:27:10,976 --> 00:27:12,936 A bumblebee buzzing in the garden outside his room 411 00:27:12,937 --> 00:27:15,773 would amplify in his head to an explosion. 412 00:27:17,641 --> 00:27:20,344 It was so bad he could do nothing but take to his bed. 413 00:27:20,511 --> 00:27:22,713 Hm. Sounds lovely. 414 00:27:24,216 --> 00:27:25,983 Miss Vandenburg. 415 00:27:26,151 --> 00:27:27,318 Hi. 416 00:27:27,485 --> 00:27:29,320 - Dr Fields? - Uh, no. Sorry. 417 00:27:29,487 --> 00:27:30,955 I'm afraid he's been called out. 418 00:27:31,123 --> 00:27:32,623 I'm Ava Gottlieb. 419 00:27:32,790 --> 00:27:35,459 - So pretty. - Thank you. 420 00:27:35,626 --> 00:27:37,195 - Sorry. - No. It's fine. 421 00:27:37,361 --> 00:27:39,663 It's alright. Have a seat. 422 00:27:41,298 --> 00:27:44,535 So your file is telling me 423 00:27:44,702 --> 00:27:47,538 it's been a while since you've been under a protocol. 424 00:27:47,705 --> 00:27:49,974 You're eight months out from impatient. 425 00:27:50,142 --> 00:27:51,876 This is your first follow-up? 426 00:27:52,042 --> 00:27:55,412 Yeah. I just wanted to get my life back in order. 427 00:27:56,580 --> 00:27:59,683 So, currently unmedicated. 428 00:27:59,850 --> 00:28:01,552 No treatment plan at all. 429 00:28:01,719 --> 00:28:03,921 Has there been an escalation or...? 430 00:28:04,088 --> 00:28:05,356 No. 431 00:28:05,523 --> 00:28:08,425 Just, you know, with my... my counting, 432 00:28:08,592 --> 00:28:12,164 I just wanted to get it maybe a little better under control. 433 00:28:12,329 --> 00:28:13,998 OK, well... 434 00:28:14,166 --> 00:28:18,270 We can put a plan together, you know, explore CBT, 435 00:28:18,435 --> 00:28:21,906 maybe some exposure response therapy. 436 00:28:23,541 --> 00:28:25,376 But I'm curious, Grace, 437 00:28:25,543 --> 00:28:28,913 what's prompting you to seek treatment now? 438 00:28:34,952 --> 00:28:37,255 - Grace? - Yeah. 439 00:28:37,421 --> 00:28:39,191 Sorry. This isn't really right for me. 440 00:28:39,356 --> 00:28:41,058 I think I'll handle it myself. 441 00:28:41,559 --> 00:28:43,627 - OK. - OK. 442 00:28:45,130 --> 00:28:47,064 That's it? 443 00:28:47,232 --> 00:28:49,767 No big speech on how you can fix me. 444 00:28:49,934 --> 00:28:52,736 I'm not really in the business of big speeches. 445 00:28:54,605 --> 00:28:56,040 Oh. 446 00:28:56,208 --> 00:28:58,576 I was hoping to make a strong exit. 447 00:29:01,478 --> 00:29:02,980 Right. 448 00:29:04,249 --> 00:29:06,550 Oh, I forgot my bag. 449 00:29:07,952 --> 00:29:09,954 Yeah. 450 00:29:10,754 --> 00:29:12,957 - Bye. - Bye. 451 00:29:34,145 --> 00:29:37,182 Oh, God. 452 00:29:41,619 --> 00:29:43,687 Oh, come the fuck on. 453 00:29:43,854 --> 00:29:45,422 Just... 454 00:29:49,026 --> 00:29:50,828 - Hello? - Hi, Sheamus. 455 00:29:50,995 --> 00:29:52,364 It's... Grace. 456 00:29:52,529 --> 00:29:55,200 You made me sweat, but I'm happy you called. How are you doing? 457 00:29:55,367 --> 00:29:59,036 Sorry. Can you just stop for a second? I just really need to get this out. 458 00:30:01,872 --> 00:30:03,174 My name is Grace Lisa Vandenburg. 459 00:30:03,341 --> 00:30:04,775 There in 19 letters in my name. 460 00:30:04,942 --> 00:30:07,511 I am 34 years old and I don't know about you, 461 00:30:07,678 --> 00:30:09,347 but sometimes I feel like running away 462 00:30:09,513 --> 00:30:12,284 and, you know, becoming, like, a pearl diver 463 00:30:12,449 --> 00:30:14,152 or a milkmaid. 464 00:30:14,319 --> 00:30:15,653 Um. But I hate running, 465 00:30:15,819 --> 00:30:19,056 the vastness of the ocean terrifies me, and... 466 00:30:19,224 --> 00:30:22,826 I actually just recently switched to oat milk, so... 467 00:30:22,993 --> 00:30:24,195 I don't like coriander, 468 00:30:24,362 --> 00:30:26,563 and when I wear yellow, I look like a corpse. 469 00:30:31,303 --> 00:30:33,405 I think I'd like to 470 00:30:33,570 --> 00:30:35,240 see you again. 471 00:30:35,873 --> 00:30:38,909 Casual... or... 472 00:30:39,743 --> 00:30:41,478 otherwise. 473 00:30:42,746 --> 00:30:45,350 Well, I bet it doesn't. 474 00:30:45,516 --> 00:30:47,851 - What? - Yellow. 475 00:30:48,018 --> 00:30:49,586 You know, I bet, uh, 476 00:30:49,753 --> 00:30:52,756 I bet Van Gogh himself couldn't you do justice. 477 00:30:57,695 --> 00:30:59,730 Uh, so... 478 00:30:59,897 --> 00:31:02,267 Do you want to join me for my Sunday ritual? 479 00:31:02,434 --> 00:31:05,002 That makes it... It's not weird, OK. 480 00:31:05,170 --> 00:31:07,405 I just... Trust me. You'll love it. 481 00:31:07,571 --> 00:31:10,408 - Alright, I'll text you. - Sounds good. Bye. 482 00:31:39,237 --> 00:31:41,439 You look incredible. 483 00:31:41,605 --> 00:31:43,073 Oh, my God. 484 00:31:43,074 --> 00:31:45,074 - Should we just call it...? - Yeah, that was awful. 485 00:31:45,075 --> 00:31:46,944 - I've had a lovely evening. - Yeah. Me, too. 486 00:31:47,112 --> 00:31:49,214 Nice to meet you. Yeah. 487 00:31:49,381 --> 00:31:52,450 This place is the closest thing I have to a religion. 488 00:31:52,616 --> 00:31:54,084 Honestly. 489 00:31:54,252 --> 00:31:56,987 Can we get some pork buns and dumplings, please? 490 00:31:57,155 --> 00:31:59,157 Yeah. If you see anything you like, just grab it. 491 00:31:59,324 --> 00:32:01,592 That's what I'll be doing. Thank you. 492 00:32:01,759 --> 00:32:03,461 Yeah, I think it was my first night here... 493 00:32:03,549 --> 00:32:05,429 Three dumplings. How many bites in one dumpling? 494 00:32:05,430 --> 00:32:07,831 Surely not two. His mouth is bigger than mine. 495 00:32:07,998 --> 00:32:09,833 Hmm. God, I love his mouth. 496 00:32:10,000 --> 00:32:12,669 Give me a second. I... 497 00:32:12,836 --> 00:32:14,972 Oh. Can we get some spring rolls 498 00:32:15,140 --> 00:32:16,840 and some sesame toast, please? 499 00:32:17,007 --> 00:32:19,643 - Do you eat sesame toast? - Yeah. 500 00:32:19,810 --> 00:32:21,312 Thank you very much. 501 00:32:21,479 --> 00:32:24,249 Yeah, it basically doesn't look much from the outside... 502 00:32:28,286 --> 00:32:30,621 Can we have some custard tarts, please? 503 00:32:30,788 --> 00:32:32,589 Sure. 504 00:32:33,957 --> 00:32:35,759 - Thank you. - It doesn't make sense. 505 00:32:35,926 --> 00:32:37,027 How many bites? 506 00:32:37,195 --> 00:32:38,095 Two? 507 00:32:38,263 --> 00:32:40,631 - It's not enough. - Tea? 508 00:32:41,533 --> 00:32:43,600 Do you want tea, Grace? 509 00:32:46,837 --> 00:32:48,206 Sorry. 510 00:32:49,940 --> 00:32:51,342 I can't. 511 00:33:01,186 --> 00:33:02,853 Sorry. 512 00:33:09,561 --> 00:33:12,163 Grace? 513 00:33:12,330 --> 00:33:14,998 Hey, hey... 514 00:33:15,166 --> 00:33:17,668 - You alright? - Yeah. 515 00:33:19,337 --> 00:33:21,638 Right. OK, OK, I think... 516 00:33:21,740 --> 00:33:23,540 I think you're having a panic attack, alright? 517 00:33:23,541 --> 00:33:25,976 So just... just breathe. 518 00:33:26,977 --> 00:33:28,146 Yeah. 519 00:33:28,313 --> 00:33:30,315 Look at me. Look at me. 520 00:33:30,482 --> 00:33:31,748 Just breathe. 521 00:33:44,195 --> 00:33:45,563 Grace, OK... 522 00:33:45,729 --> 00:33:47,198 Let's just take a minute here, OK? 523 00:33:47,365 --> 00:33:49,567 Just... Just breathe. Just breathe. 524 00:34:38,383 --> 00:34:39,783 50 million sperm, give or take, 525 00:34:39,950 --> 00:34:42,287 per ejaculation of between 2 and 5 millilitres. 526 00:34:42,453 --> 00:34:45,290 40 million people living with HIV worldwide. 527 00:34:45,456 --> 00:34:48,926 More than 650,000 people die every year. 528 00:34:50,961 --> 00:34:52,930 Do you have AIDS? 529 00:34:53,997 --> 00:34:55,466 - What? - Gonorrhoea, chlamydia? 530 00:34:55,633 --> 00:34:57,834 Any of the big ones? 531 00:34:58,001 --> 00:34:59,002 - Morning. - Good morning. 532 00:34:59,170 --> 00:35:00,638 Should I be worried? 533 00:35:00,804 --> 00:35:02,440 No, I'm clean as a whistle. 534 00:35:02,607 --> 00:35:03,575 OK. 535 00:35:03,740 --> 00:35:05,610 Hey, should I be worried? 536 00:35:05,776 --> 00:35:08,279 About some half-Brit, half-genius? 537 00:35:08,446 --> 00:35:10,248 No. I have the bar. 538 00:35:10,415 --> 00:35:12,283 Do you... 539 00:35:12,450 --> 00:35:14,918 You want to talk about last night at all? 540 00:35:15,085 --> 00:35:16,354 Panic? 541 00:35:16,521 --> 00:35:18,922 Panic is the world's most underrated aphrodisiac. 542 00:35:19,089 --> 00:35:21,492 Oh! So I could have just been anyone last night, then. 543 00:35:21,659 --> 00:35:24,462 - Just the nearest bloke. - Hm, that's right. 544 00:35:26,631 --> 00:35:28,533 There's something I need to ask you, 545 00:35:28,700 --> 00:35:31,969 and I need you to be 100% honest with me. 546 00:35:32,136 --> 00:35:33,870 Have you got a spare toothbrush? 547 00:35:34,037 --> 00:35:36,107 I... Actually, I don't. You don't? 548 00:35:36,274 --> 00:35:37,375 - No. - No? 549 00:35:37,542 --> 00:35:39,677 What do you mean, no? 550 00:35:39,843 --> 00:35:41,479 - Come on. - No. 551 00:35:58,862 --> 00:36:00,632 Stone Roses, Joy Division. 552 00:36:00,797 --> 00:36:02,567 I don't know. The Cure? 553 00:36:02,734 --> 00:36:05,303 Thank God you said that, because if you hadn't... 554 00:36:05,470 --> 00:36:08,139 Honestly, if you hadn't said that I was this close to saying 555 00:36:08,306 --> 00:36:09,474 Marcel Marceau. 556 00:36:09,641 --> 00:36:11,409 - What? - Is he even a singer? 557 00:36:11,576 --> 00:36:13,010 He's a mime! 558 00:36:13,177 --> 00:36:15,017 So he definitely never released a single, then. 559 00:36:44,208 --> 00:36:48,780 I've been wondering about these Cuisenaire. 560 00:36:48,945 --> 00:36:52,116 They're for counting, teaching kids. 561 00:36:53,016 --> 00:36:55,420 Named after George Cuisenaire, 562 00:36:55,586 --> 00:36:56,887 my second-favourite inventor. 563 00:36:57,054 --> 00:36:58,756 Is this like Jenga for geniuses? 564 00:36:58,922 --> 00:37:00,224 - Geniuses? - Yeah. 565 00:37:00,391 --> 00:37:02,293 Yes. They're vintage. 566 00:37:02,460 --> 00:37:04,395 I had them since I was three. 567 00:37:18,576 --> 00:37:21,878 - Hello! - Hey! 568 00:37:22,547 --> 00:37:25,149 Sorry I'm late. 569 00:37:33,124 --> 00:37:36,427 Three, four. 570 00:37:36,594 --> 00:37:40,431 I've slept with four people. 571 00:37:40,598 --> 00:37:41,733 Four men. 572 00:37:41,898 --> 00:37:44,602 That's actually more than me. 573 00:37:44,769 --> 00:37:46,170 I've slept with zero men. 574 00:37:46,337 --> 00:37:48,806 That's a shame. You're really missing out. 575 00:37:48,972 --> 00:37:51,142 So I hear. Honestly. 576 00:37:55,646 --> 00:37:57,415 12. 577 00:37:57,582 --> 00:37:59,617 That's not even that many. 578 00:37:59,784 --> 00:38:02,487 It's not. 579 00:38:02,653 --> 00:38:04,955 But it's the past. It's the past. 580 00:38:05,123 --> 00:38:06,691 OK. 581 00:38:06,858 --> 00:38:08,693 I only care about the present. 582 00:38:08,860 --> 00:38:12,296 What about the future? 583 00:38:12,463 --> 00:38:14,931 Well, first things first - nail Back In Black. 584 00:38:15,098 --> 00:38:18,469 - Yeah. - Gotta know your audience. 585 00:38:22,840 --> 00:38:25,843 Don't say anything. 586 00:38:26,009 --> 00:38:28,279 Oh... 587 00:38:28,446 --> 00:38:30,381 It's only gonna get worse if you distract me. 588 00:38:30,548 --> 00:38:32,617 Alright. You're making life hard. 589 00:38:33,518 --> 00:38:35,153 OK. 590 00:38:48,132 --> 00:38:52,470 five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten. One... 591 00:38:52,637 --> 00:38:53,877 six, seven, eight, nine, ten. 592 00:38:53,970 --> 00:38:55,807 Eight, nine, ten. Eight, nine, ten. 593 00:39:00,311 --> 00:39:01,879 eight, nine, ten. 594 00:39:08,152 --> 00:39:11,155 Axium - the very first principle, 595 00:39:11,322 --> 00:39:13,925 always accepted as truth. 596 00:39:14,090 --> 00:39:18,262 You mean 'axiom', like axiom with an O? 597 00:39:20,698 --> 00:39:22,200 What's wrong with you? 598 00:39:22,366 --> 00:39:23,868 Nothing. What's wrong with you? 599 00:39:24,034 --> 00:39:26,337 My aunt got a boyfriend and now she's losing the plot. 600 00:39:26,504 --> 00:39:28,104 She's probably not losing the plot. 601 00:39:28,260 --> 00:39:30,340 She's cool and normal, would never do anything weird. 602 00:39:30,341 --> 00:39:33,076 - Such a nerd. - You're such a nerd. 603 00:39:33,711 --> 00:39:35,746 When can I meet him? 604 00:39:35,913 --> 00:39:37,047 Soon. 605 00:39:37,215 --> 00:39:39,015 I promise. 606 00:39:58,703 --> 00:40:01,104 One, two... 607 00:40:03,574 --> 00:40:05,142 six, seven, 608 00:40:05,309 --> 00:40:07,578 eight, nine, ten. 609 00:40:25,429 --> 00:40:26,898 Grace. 610 00:40:30,601 --> 00:40:32,570 Grace. 611 00:40:33,304 --> 00:40:35,239 Grace. 612 00:40:39,510 --> 00:40:41,245 What's all this, then? 613 00:40:42,580 --> 00:40:46,817 I don't know, I just... 614 00:40:46,984 --> 00:40:50,755 It has to come out somewhere, you know? 615 00:40:50,922 --> 00:40:53,157 It's just so tiring. 616 00:40:53,858 --> 00:40:55,493 God. 617 00:40:56,827 --> 00:40:58,796 What about Doctor Fields? 618 00:40:58,963 --> 00:41:02,466 - Yeah. - Seamus? 619 00:41:02,633 --> 00:41:05,670 You've got to tell him what's going on. 620 00:41:05,836 --> 00:41:07,438 Of all the advice you've ever given me, 621 00:41:07,605 --> 00:41:09,607 that has got to be about the dumbest shit 622 00:41:09,774 --> 00:41:11,208 you've ever said. 623 00:41:11,375 --> 00:41:12,710 Honestly, Jill. 624 00:41:14,312 --> 00:41:17,848 Nope. Hide the crazy. 625 00:41:18,015 --> 00:41:20,384 How's that going for you? 626 00:41:20,551 --> 00:41:21,886 Oh, don't look at me like that. 627 00:41:22,053 --> 00:41:24,822 Everyone does it, even you. 628 00:41:45,910 --> 00:41:49,380 Oh, crap. The tram's down. 629 00:41:49,547 --> 00:41:51,315 Hi, Freddie. 630 00:41:51,482 --> 00:41:53,150 I'll try your mum. 631 00:41:53,317 --> 00:41:56,487 Mum's at Pilates till six, so. 632 00:41:56,654 --> 00:41:59,190 Bye, girls. Well done today. 633 00:41:59,357 --> 00:42:01,726 I know who you can call. 634 00:42:04,195 --> 00:42:06,931 - Right. - Thanks for the ride, bro. 635 00:42:07,098 --> 00:42:08,265 No worries. 636 00:42:08,379 --> 00:42:09,899 Hey, give me five stars, though, right? 637 00:42:09,900 --> 00:42:11,602 - Yeah, sure. - Oh, for fuck's sake. 638 00:42:11,769 --> 00:42:13,571 - What? - Oh... 639 00:42:13,738 --> 00:42:17,775 Excuse me. This is a private driveway. 640 00:42:17,942 --> 00:42:19,243 Hi, Mum. 641 00:42:20,778 --> 00:42:23,381 Uh, landed in Sydney, did the whole recruitment thing 642 00:42:23,547 --> 00:42:25,082 along with every other Brit. 643 00:42:25,249 --> 00:42:27,585 Uh, it was soulless, and I hated it, 644 00:42:27,752 --> 00:42:29,453 but it got me my residency, 645 00:42:29,620 --> 00:42:31,389 and then I had a bit more freedom. 646 00:42:31,555 --> 00:42:33,924 Fancied a change of scene, and... Thank you. 647 00:42:34,091 --> 00:42:36,460 Melbourne and painting it was. 648 00:42:36,627 --> 00:42:39,230 - Grace doesn't travel. - Grace is right here. 649 00:42:39,397 --> 00:42:40,364 You know what I mean. 650 00:42:40,531 --> 00:42:41,932 You're hardly one for itchy feet. 651 00:42:42,099 --> 00:42:44,535 Well, we'll have to change that, then, won't we? 652 00:42:45,703 --> 00:42:47,772 Please. Please take a seat. 653 00:42:47,880 --> 00:42:50,040 Honestly, I think I know my way around a potato masher. 654 00:42:50,041 --> 00:42:51,475 If you don't mind. 655 00:42:51,642 --> 00:42:54,211 Oh, he's a cook, too. Goodness. 656 00:42:54,378 --> 00:42:55,618 Well, that's wonderful, Gracie. 657 00:42:55,746 --> 00:42:56,947 Nice to have someone around 658 00:42:57,115 --> 00:42:59,784 who can make life a little bit easier for you. 659 00:43:01,119 --> 00:43:02,753 You must miss your family. 660 00:43:02,920 --> 00:43:06,290 Yeah, of course I do. Yeah. We used to live on... 661 00:43:07,291 --> 00:43:09,560 on the same three streets back home, 662 00:43:09,727 --> 00:43:12,130 always in and out of each other's business, you know? 663 00:43:12,296 --> 00:43:14,098 Sounds a bit like us. 664 00:43:16,233 --> 00:43:19,470 And are your family all painters? 665 00:43:20,504 --> 00:43:22,640 Uh, labourers mostly. 666 00:43:22,807 --> 00:43:23,908 Mum was a nurse. 667 00:43:24,075 --> 00:43:26,343 But, anyway, Grace tells me you are a lawyer. 668 00:43:26,510 --> 00:43:31,149 WAS a lawyer. Taken some time off to be around Larry. 669 00:43:31,315 --> 00:43:33,784 Well, you must be very proud, Mrs Vandenburg. 670 00:43:33,951 --> 00:43:35,120 Marj, call me Marj. 671 00:43:35,286 --> 00:43:37,788 You haven't half raised some smart women. 672 00:43:37,955 --> 00:43:41,258 Oh! 673 00:43:41,425 --> 00:43:42,793 Did you ever WANT to study? 674 00:43:42,960 --> 00:43:44,962 Glass number three, Jill. 675 00:43:45,130 --> 00:43:46,964 It wasn't really an option. 676 00:43:47,132 --> 00:43:48,299 I wasn't too bothered. 677 00:43:48,466 --> 00:43:51,136 You know, university of life and all that. 678 00:43:52,170 --> 00:43:54,672 Oh... Rodgers? Rodgers, isn't it? 679 00:43:54,839 --> 00:43:57,875 Yes, 'cause my sister-in-law married a Rodgers. 680 00:43:58,042 --> 00:43:59,177 You could be related. 681 00:43:59,343 --> 00:44:00,678 From Nottingham, were they? 682 00:44:00,845 --> 00:44:02,480 No. Ballarat. 683 00:44:02,646 --> 00:44:05,716 - Right. - I think it was Jimmy Rodgers. 684 00:44:07,952 --> 00:44:10,222 Are there any chavs in Nottingham? 685 00:44:10,387 --> 00:44:12,890 - Chavs? - How do you know what a chav is? 686 00:44:12,891 --> 00:44:15,058 - Yeah, there are a few. - Lar, don't say "chav". It's offensive. 687 00:44:15,059 --> 00:44:17,027 Oh, sorry, Seamus. I didn't realise you were... 688 00:44:17,195 --> 00:44:19,396 No, it's fine. I'm not a chav... anymore. 689 00:44:19,397 --> 00:44:21,831 It's just the kind of thing I'm going to think about tomorrow. 690 00:44:21,832 --> 00:44:23,168 You did finish high school? 691 00:44:23,334 --> 00:44:25,214 - I did finish high school, yes. - Jesus Christ. 692 00:44:25,237 --> 00:44:26,670 I can even tie my own shoelaces. 693 00:44:26,837 --> 00:44:28,140 Oh! I didn't mean anything by it. 694 00:44:28,305 --> 00:44:29,473 No, I know, I'm just... 695 00:44:29,640 --> 00:44:32,309 I mean, Grace could never suffer a fool. 696 00:44:32,476 --> 00:44:34,011 Well, I try my best. 697 00:44:34,179 --> 00:44:35,980 Henry. Henry Rodgers. 698 00:44:36,148 --> 00:44:38,983 - Cheers. - Cheers. 699 00:44:40,851 --> 00:44:42,987 To Henry. 700 00:44:43,155 --> 00:44:44,388 Please, do start. 701 00:44:44,555 --> 00:44:47,825 Seamus, pass your plate, please, and I'll help you. 702 00:44:47,992 --> 00:44:49,660 Thank you. 703 00:44:50,895 --> 00:44:53,231 Are you coming in? 704 00:44:53,397 --> 00:44:55,065 I'd better not. 705 00:44:56,100 --> 00:44:57,701 - Really? - Yeah. 706 00:44:57,868 --> 00:45:01,071 - I've got an early start. - OK. Forget it. 707 00:45:18,622 --> 00:45:20,558 You will not cry. 708 00:45:20,724 --> 00:45:21,692 You will not. 709 00:45:21,859 --> 00:45:23,561 You will not cry. 710 00:45:29,733 --> 00:45:31,735 I thought about it. 711 00:45:31,902 --> 00:45:33,370 Oh. For just a minute? 712 00:45:33,537 --> 00:45:35,207 All I needed. 713 00:46:14,612 --> 00:46:16,181 Tell me, is there anything better 714 00:46:16,348 --> 00:46:19,284 than the smell of coffee and Aznavour 715 00:46:19,450 --> 00:46:20,784 on a cold morning? 716 00:46:20,951 --> 00:46:22,354 OK, I'm going to say there is. 717 00:46:22,519 --> 00:46:25,089 Uh, onions cooking with bacon and the Pogues. 718 00:46:25,257 --> 00:46:26,624 Right. 719 00:46:26,790 --> 00:46:29,294 - Shit! I gotta get going. - Come dance with me! 720 00:46:29,460 --> 00:46:31,829 Oh, you speak French now? 721 00:46:31,996 --> 00:46:34,431 I SING French. It's a big difference. 722 00:46:34,598 --> 00:46:36,000 No, no. Sexy either way. 723 00:46:36,167 --> 00:46:39,937 - Dance with me. - I'm already late, but tonight, I promise, OK? 724 00:46:40,104 --> 00:46:42,640 Honestly. Tonight! Tonight. I promise, I promise. 725 00:46:45,042 --> 00:46:48,213 Just realised I said I was ALREADY late, so... 726 00:46:48,380 --> 00:46:49,880 Fuck it. 727 00:46:51,316 --> 00:46:53,817 I think I'm having a great idea. 728 00:46:53,984 --> 00:46:55,886 Let's get out of town this weekend. 729 00:46:56,453 --> 00:46:59,056 - Why? - Why? 730 00:46:59,224 --> 00:47:01,525 You know, you, me, country roads. 731 00:47:01,692 --> 00:47:03,794 Uh, little bars of soap wrapped in paper. 732 00:47:03,961 --> 00:47:06,463 Sunset walks. 733 00:47:06,630 --> 00:47:09,301 Other... physical pursuits. 734 00:47:12,469 --> 00:47:14,205 OK. 735 00:47:14,372 --> 00:47:16,374 - Yeah? - Yeah. 736 00:47:16,540 --> 00:47:18,709 Amazing. Leave everything to me. 737 00:47:18,876 --> 00:47:21,478 I am deadly serious, OK? If you even think about 738 00:47:21,645 --> 00:47:24,081 thinking about organising anything that isn't a washbag, 739 00:47:24,249 --> 00:47:25,983 I'll be inconsolable. 740 00:47:26,717 --> 00:47:28,353 Bye. 741 00:47:42,334 --> 00:47:44,601 He should have danced with you. 742 00:47:45,602 --> 00:47:47,871 Not everyone has your moves. 743 00:47:48,038 --> 00:47:49,506 That's true. 744 00:48:13,198 --> 00:48:16,401 For every 10,000 cars, there are 0.45 fatal crashes. 745 00:48:16,567 --> 00:48:18,702 That's one life lost every 4,500 cars. 746 00:48:18,869 --> 00:48:21,705 A driver could pass out suddenly and just veer towards us. 747 00:48:21,872 --> 00:48:25,243 Probable cardiac arrest causes 3.1% of all driver deaths... 748 00:48:26,710 --> 00:48:27,811 in Finland. 749 00:48:27,978 --> 00:48:29,713 What if I get there and I don't like him? 750 00:48:29,880 --> 00:48:31,548 I'll need an escape route. 751 00:48:31,715 --> 00:48:33,050 I'll have to get the bus back. 752 00:48:33,218 --> 00:48:34,618 What if he's an axe-wielding maniac 753 00:48:34,785 --> 00:48:36,625 And I'm trapped in a cabin miles from anywhere. 754 00:48:36,653 --> 00:48:39,757 - What are you thinking? - Wouldn't you like to know? 755 00:48:39,923 --> 00:48:43,328 Yes. That's why I asked. 756 00:48:43,354 --> 00:48:44,594 I mean, I am looking forward to 757 00:48:44,595 --> 00:48:46,431 cracking mind-reading eventually. 758 00:48:46,597 --> 00:48:49,277 And then you'd have to hear everyone's inner monologue all day long. 759 00:48:49,334 --> 00:48:51,101 OK, so what would be your superpower, then, 760 00:48:51,269 --> 00:48:52,836 if you could have one? 761 00:48:53,570 --> 00:48:55,440 I already have one, babes. 762 00:48:55,606 --> 00:48:57,775 - Yeah. - Oh, right. 763 00:48:59,444 --> 00:49:00,978 Agreed. 764 00:49:22,635 --> 00:49:25,635 - That's kind of your whole thing, isn't it? - Tell me about the lyre birds. 765 00:49:25,636 --> 00:49:26,756 You've not told me that yet. 766 00:49:26,804 --> 00:49:29,507 This is nature's fractal. 767 00:49:29,673 --> 00:49:31,342 What's a fractal? 768 00:49:31,509 --> 00:49:33,844 A repetitive pattern. See? 769 00:49:34,011 --> 00:49:35,346 Using scale. 770 00:49:35,513 --> 00:49:37,215 The area stays the same, 771 00:49:37,382 --> 00:49:39,517 but the horizon is infinite. 772 00:49:39,683 --> 00:49:41,453 It's very cool. 773 00:49:57,235 --> 00:49:59,137 You alright? 774 00:49:59,304 --> 00:50:00,338 - Yeah. - You crying? 775 00:50:00,505 --> 00:50:02,706 No. What? Shut up. You're crying. 776 00:50:04,209 --> 00:50:06,076 It's only a couple of trees, mate. 777 00:50:06,244 --> 00:50:09,380 Yeah, well, I haven't really left the same 12-k radius 778 00:50:09,547 --> 00:50:11,849 in a really long time, so... 779 00:50:12,015 --> 00:50:13,485 Really? 780 00:50:17,155 --> 00:50:18,523 Yeah, I get it. 781 00:50:18,689 --> 00:50:21,159 It's pretty spectacular, isn't it? 782 00:50:23,328 --> 00:50:25,095 Yeah. 783 00:50:49,720 --> 00:50:52,089 - Can we turn that off? - Hey, don't be a snob. 784 00:50:52,257 --> 00:50:54,691 It's classic. 785 00:50:59,397 --> 00:51:01,077 Alright. So you really don't like it, then? 786 00:51:01,132 --> 00:51:03,700 I'd love it if it weren't the most basic thing 787 00:51:03,867 --> 00:51:05,769 I'd ever heard in my life. 788 00:51:33,063 --> 00:51:34,932 Did you? 789 00:51:35,500 --> 00:51:39,337 - No. No. - OK. 790 00:51:40,405 --> 00:51:42,407 Honestly, don't worry about it. 791 00:51:42,574 --> 00:51:44,676 I fucking love it. I want to. 792 00:51:47,178 --> 00:51:50,181 Stop. I just... Let it go. 793 00:52:19,810 --> 00:52:21,346 Do we need to talk? 794 00:52:21,512 --> 00:52:24,616 No, we definitely don't. 795 00:52:24,781 --> 00:52:27,352 Right, yeah. That's a mature response. 796 00:52:27,518 --> 00:52:28,785 Are you kidding me? 797 00:52:28,952 --> 00:52:30,321 Look, it's not my first rodeo, OK? 798 00:52:30,488 --> 00:52:32,657 So if you've got something to say, then just say it, 799 00:52:32,823 --> 00:52:34,392 just be honest. 800 00:52:38,061 --> 00:52:41,299 Whenever we hold hands, you literally... you flinch. 801 00:52:41,466 --> 00:52:43,386 And I see you muttering to yourself all the time. 802 00:52:43,534 --> 00:52:45,836 Like, do I... Do I irritate you? 803 00:52:46,003 --> 00:52:47,672 No. 804 00:52:50,073 --> 00:52:54,077 I don't want to pressure you, but you're pushing me away and I can feel it. 805 00:52:54,245 --> 00:52:58,882 So, please, if it's not me, then just tell me what it is. 806 00:53:03,086 --> 00:53:07,924 Do you know you have 137 eyelashes on your right eye? 807 00:53:08,892 --> 00:53:11,362 There are 119 on your left. 808 00:53:12,196 --> 00:53:14,198 I've counted them. 809 00:53:14,931 --> 00:53:17,034 I count everything. 810 00:53:17,868 --> 00:53:20,738 Everything. 811 00:53:20,904 --> 00:53:25,543 And these past few weeks, I have held it all in. 812 00:53:25,710 --> 00:53:29,447 Around you, I hold it all together. 813 00:53:31,081 --> 00:53:33,551 But the moment you leave... 814 00:53:34,452 --> 00:53:36,621 I fall apart. 815 00:53:36,788 --> 00:53:41,125 Just... long enough to count all the pieces 816 00:53:41,292 --> 00:53:43,860 and put them back together again. 817 00:53:59,243 --> 00:54:02,413 Because I really fucking like you. 818 00:54:26,103 --> 00:54:28,105 - It's really good. - I know. 819 00:54:28,272 --> 00:54:29,574 - Yeah. - It is! 820 00:54:29,741 --> 00:54:31,642 It is. 821 00:54:31,809 --> 00:54:34,779 Hey... are you doing it now? 822 00:54:36,781 --> 00:54:38,783 The counting. 823 00:54:38,949 --> 00:54:40,485 Oh. No. 824 00:54:40,651 --> 00:54:43,321 I'm sorry. 825 00:54:43,488 --> 00:54:45,123 That's fine. 826 00:54:45,289 --> 00:54:49,092 Like, what... does it do for you? 827 00:54:49,260 --> 00:54:51,260 Well, it makes me prone to bringing home sexy Brits 828 00:54:51,295 --> 00:54:52,764 on a whim. 829 00:54:52,929 --> 00:54:55,133 Come on, tell me what it's like. 830 00:54:55,299 --> 00:54:56,967 What it feels like. 831 00:54:57,869 --> 00:55:01,172 Uh... Well, sometimes 832 00:55:01,339 --> 00:55:04,375 it feels soothing. 833 00:55:06,009 --> 00:55:08,679 And then, other times, it feels like 834 00:55:08,846 --> 00:55:11,549 my... my brain runs so fast, 835 00:55:11,716 --> 00:55:14,886 you know, like there are a million different thoughts 836 00:55:15,051 --> 00:55:16,454 jumping around all the time. 837 00:55:16,621 --> 00:55:18,322 And so then I count. 838 00:55:18,489 --> 00:55:23,294 And then, if I miss a number, I start all over again. 839 00:55:23,461 --> 00:55:25,028 Right. Fuck. 840 00:55:25,196 --> 00:55:27,298 What a weirdo. 841 00:55:27,465 --> 00:55:30,033 Not a weirdo. 842 00:55:30,201 --> 00:55:31,869 I'm just imagining what that must... OK. 843 00:55:32,035 --> 00:55:34,572 Yeah. OK. Yeah. As soon as things get slightly personal, 844 00:55:34,739 --> 00:55:36,240 the fuckery starts. 845 00:55:36,407 --> 00:55:38,567 I'm just... I'm trying to imagine what it would be like 846 00:55:38,576 --> 00:55:41,245 to have that going on in my head the whole time. 847 00:55:41,412 --> 00:55:44,981 Like, are there things that can help? 848 00:55:53,724 --> 00:55:55,159 I'll do the medication. 849 00:55:55,326 --> 00:55:57,662 But under no circumstances am I doing the Freud couch. 850 00:55:57,829 --> 00:55:58,995 That was a very strong entry. 851 00:55:59,163 --> 00:56:02,834 Ah, thanks. I really worked myself up outside. 852 00:56:02,999 --> 00:56:05,937 The couch is non-negotiable, I'm afraid. 853 00:56:06,102 --> 00:56:08,573 I mean, not literally. You can sit wherever you want. 854 00:56:08,739 --> 00:56:12,008 But we need to meet regularly. 855 00:56:13,444 --> 00:56:16,714 OK, I'll just pretend I thought of that. 856 00:56:19,951 --> 00:56:21,853 Miss Vandenburg? 857 00:56:22,620 --> 00:56:24,622 Take the pills. Move my body. 858 00:56:24,789 --> 00:56:26,924 Confront the discomfort. Keep a routine. 859 00:56:27,090 --> 00:56:29,360 Simple as that. 860 00:56:29,527 --> 00:56:32,630 Take the pills. Move my body. 861 00:56:33,631 --> 00:56:35,766 Confront the discomfort. 862 00:56:36,634 --> 00:56:38,536 Keep a routine. 863 00:56:40,271 --> 00:56:41,606 Pills. 864 00:56:41,772 --> 00:56:43,374 Body. 865 00:56:44,242 --> 00:56:45,943 Discomfort. 866 00:56:46,110 --> 00:56:47,812 Routine. 867 00:56:47,979 --> 00:56:49,780 Pills. 868 00:56:49,947 --> 00:56:51,949 Body. 869 00:56:53,083 --> 00:56:55,386 Discomfort. 870 00:56:59,089 --> 00:57:01,125 Routine. 871 00:57:22,914 --> 00:57:25,449 Oh, for God's sake, don't you tell your sister. 872 00:57:25,616 --> 00:57:28,286 When did this start up again? 873 00:57:28,452 --> 00:57:29,820 Oh, a couple of months. 874 00:57:29,987 --> 00:57:31,856 Look, it's... it's disgusting. I know. 875 00:57:32,023 --> 00:57:34,525 I am quitting, but I just... 876 00:57:35,693 --> 00:57:37,962 What are you doing here, anyway? 877 00:57:38,129 --> 00:57:40,932 Larry? Competition prep. 878 00:57:42,033 --> 00:57:44,669 What's on your mind, Mum? 879 00:57:48,639 --> 00:57:51,709 Look, I don't want to put any pressure on you. 880 00:57:51,876 --> 00:57:54,512 That's not fair, uh... 881 00:57:54,679 --> 00:57:57,048 And I really want it to stick this time, but I just... 882 00:57:57,214 --> 00:57:58,814 I just need to be sure that you'll be OK. 883 00:57:58,950 --> 00:58:02,720 Not... Not 'normal', whatever that is, 884 00:58:02,887 --> 00:58:04,956 just OK. 885 00:58:06,891 --> 00:58:08,893 OK. 886 00:58:16,634 --> 00:58:18,569 - OK. - OK? 887 00:58:18,736 --> 00:58:20,504 OK. 888 00:58:31,215 --> 00:58:34,418 two three, four, five. 889 00:58:34,585 --> 00:58:36,320 Five trolleys. Six dumplings. 890 00:58:36,487 --> 00:58:39,056 Eight, nine, ten. 891 00:58:39,223 --> 00:58:40,358 How many chairs? 892 00:58:42,893 --> 00:58:46,864 nine, ten. Eight, nine, ten. Six, seven, eight, nine... 893 00:58:47,031 --> 00:58:49,734 Fuck exposure therapy. 894 00:58:52,203 --> 00:58:54,505 - Thanks. - How you doing, Grace? 895 00:58:54,559 --> 00:58:56,039 I was reading this thing the other day 896 00:58:56,040 --> 00:58:58,110 about this guy who couldn't mix short and long. 897 00:58:58,275 --> 00:59:01,545 So shorts meant a t-shirt, jeans meant a long sleeve. 898 00:59:01,712 --> 00:59:03,581 And if he ever mixed them, 899 00:59:03,748 --> 00:59:05,883 he would feel really uncomfortable all day, 900 00:59:06,050 --> 00:59:08,085 like his skin would burn. 901 00:59:08,252 --> 00:59:09,787 And then his wife left him 902 00:59:09,954 --> 00:59:12,356 because he set their wardrobe on fire. 903 00:59:13,257 --> 00:59:16,761 Why are you telling me this story? 904 00:59:20,231 --> 00:59:24,035 We're just not having animalistic sex anymore. I loved it. 905 00:59:24,163 --> 00:59:26,403 And now he just treats me like I'm made of fucking glass. 906 00:59:26,404 --> 00:59:27,644 Well, have you talked about it? 907 00:59:27,738 --> 00:59:31,909 This shift is probably a new thing for him, too. 908 00:59:32,076 --> 00:59:35,046 No, it's... it's not just him. It's me as well. 909 00:59:35,212 --> 00:59:37,581 I just find it hard to feel sexy and cool 910 00:59:37,748 --> 00:59:39,650 with all the counting out in the open. 911 00:59:39,817 --> 00:59:41,385 So you want to stop the counting, 912 00:59:41,552 --> 00:59:42,820 get back to the animal sex? 913 00:59:42,987 --> 00:59:44,955 - Basically, yeah. - Good, good. 914 00:59:45,123 --> 00:59:46,424 Getting somewhere. 915 00:59:46,590 --> 00:59:48,826 Yeah, except the counting is almost gone, 916 00:59:48,993 --> 00:59:50,227 but so is half my brain. 917 00:59:50,394 --> 00:59:53,431 There are other medications we can try. 918 00:59:53,597 --> 00:59:54,765 But... 919 00:59:54,932 --> 00:59:57,068 You know, it's... it's just a band-aid 920 00:59:57,234 --> 01:00:00,504 until we get down to the cause of it all. 921 01:00:01,639 --> 01:00:06,444 When you count, what does it do for you? 922 01:00:08,779 --> 01:00:10,848 Keeps us safe. 923 01:00:12,450 --> 01:00:15,953 Me, my family, Seamus. 924 01:00:32,536 --> 01:00:34,338 Grace? 925 01:00:35,272 --> 01:00:36,874 Grace? 926 01:00:37,641 --> 01:00:39,610 Grace? 927 01:00:40,544 --> 01:00:42,379 Yeah, that sounds good. 928 01:00:43,814 --> 01:00:45,483 Is she OK? 929 01:00:45,649 --> 01:00:47,351 She's nervous about the competition. 930 01:00:47,518 --> 01:00:49,386 You'll bring her home afterwards, yeah? 931 01:00:49,553 --> 01:00:50,988 She told me in no uncertain terms 932 01:00:51,156 --> 01:00:52,556 that she doesn't want me there. 933 01:00:52,723 --> 01:00:55,025 And, besides, I have to collect Mum after her colonoscopy. 934 01:00:55,193 --> 01:00:57,195 Oh, Jill! Really and truly. 935 01:00:57,361 --> 01:00:59,663 Yeah, that's fine. Seamus can drive us. 936 01:00:59,830 --> 01:01:02,867 Well, make sure he knows where to go. It's at St Gabriel's. 937 01:01:03,033 --> 01:01:05,703 Why they're hosting this thing halfway across the damn city... 938 01:01:05,870 --> 01:01:07,338 He'll be fine. Stop stressing. 939 01:01:07,505 --> 01:01:09,540 I'm glad you'll be there. 940 01:01:11,842 --> 01:01:14,912 I really like him. He's nice. 941 01:01:23,521 --> 01:01:28,559 I'm fine. It's just these new meds are kicking my arse. 942 01:01:28,726 --> 01:01:32,363 Well, we had you on those when you were 16, 943 01:01:32,530 --> 01:01:34,532 and they didn't sit well with you then either. 944 01:01:34,698 --> 01:01:37,101 I don't remember that. 945 01:01:37,269 --> 01:01:38,836 Really? 946 01:01:39,003 --> 01:01:40,205 I'll get your notes together 947 01:01:40,371 --> 01:01:42,840 so you can give them to your doctor. 948 01:01:43,007 --> 01:01:45,376 Pretty clued into it all, aren't you, Mum? 949 01:01:45,543 --> 01:01:48,612 Well, Grace, I am your mother. 950 01:01:51,081 --> 01:01:53,185 I just hate feeling so slow. 951 01:01:53,350 --> 01:01:55,220 What you need is some exercise. 952 01:01:55,386 --> 01:01:57,666 You should come to a Pilates class with me in the morning. 953 01:01:57,755 --> 01:02:01,692 Oh, please, not all of us have to hate ourselves so intensely before 8am. 954 01:02:01,859 --> 01:02:04,962 Well, you're starting to look like a wrung-out flannel. 955 01:02:24,882 --> 01:02:26,083 I look wan. 956 01:02:26,251 --> 01:02:27,918 Wan? 957 01:02:28,085 --> 01:02:29,287 What's wan? 958 01:02:29,453 --> 01:02:31,722 Wan. You know, sickly. 959 01:02:31,889 --> 01:02:33,991 - Wan... - Pale. 960 01:02:34,159 --> 01:02:37,094 Photocopy of a once-vibrant soul. 961 01:02:37,262 --> 01:02:40,397 That is nonsense. You look beautiful. 962 01:02:45,936 --> 01:02:47,504 You do. 963 01:02:51,742 --> 01:02:53,644 Sorry. 964 01:02:56,281 --> 01:02:58,649 You'd probably be more aroused by a packet of chips. 965 01:02:58,816 --> 01:03:00,684 What does Ava say? 966 01:03:00,851 --> 01:03:02,987 Keep trying until we find it. 967 01:03:05,323 --> 01:03:07,858 You're amazing for trying. 968 01:03:10,328 --> 01:03:13,497 - Are we in a rut? - No, we're not in a rut. 969 01:03:13,664 --> 01:03:17,302 It's just routine. It happens. 970 01:03:17,468 --> 01:03:21,505 My routines have never been this mind-numbingly dull. 971 01:03:42,026 --> 01:03:44,762 You seem sad, ljubavi. 972 01:05:07,112 --> 01:05:09,447 - Hey! - Hey. 973 01:05:09,613 --> 01:05:10,614 What are you doing here? 974 01:05:10,781 --> 01:05:13,451 Why aren't you at the maths competition? 975 01:05:13,617 --> 01:05:15,017 I've been calling you all afternoon. 976 01:05:15,120 --> 01:05:18,789 I had no idea where to go. I don't have Larry's number. 977 01:05:18,956 --> 01:05:20,791 Oh, God! 978 01:05:34,738 --> 01:05:36,508 Fuck! 979 01:05:36,673 --> 01:05:39,411 She'll just be with her mates. She'll be fine. 980 01:05:41,745 --> 01:05:44,349 Hey. It's not your fault. 981 01:05:53,458 --> 01:05:55,326 Larry! 982 01:05:55,493 --> 01:05:57,961 I'm so fucking sorry. 983 01:05:58,829 --> 01:06:00,631 - I won. - You won? 984 01:06:00,798 --> 01:06:03,033 I knew you were gonna win. 985 01:06:03,801 --> 01:06:05,969 Are you... 986 01:06:06,137 --> 01:06:08,373 Is that wine? Yes it is. 987 01:06:08,540 --> 01:06:11,342 She broke into St Gabriel's chapel with a bunch of kids, 988 01:06:11,509 --> 01:06:13,043 got into the communion store, 989 01:06:13,211 --> 01:06:16,181 all at the behest of some boy she's apparently in love with. 990 01:06:16,347 --> 01:06:19,683 - Do you know this Freddie character? - Freddie? 991 01:06:19,850 --> 01:06:22,786 - This is not how you were raised. - It's not a big deal. 992 01:06:22,953 --> 01:06:24,355 You've been suspended from school. 993 01:06:24,522 --> 01:06:25,989 It is a very big deal. 994 01:06:26,157 --> 01:06:29,394 Do you have any idea what could have happened to you? 995 01:06:29,561 --> 01:06:30,994 And you! 996 01:06:31,162 --> 01:06:33,030 What's your excuse this time? 997 01:06:33,198 --> 01:06:35,500 Too busy playing house with a tradie, 998 01:06:35,666 --> 01:06:38,169 leaving my 13-year-old daughter to wander the streets, drunk. 999 01:06:38,336 --> 01:06:40,338 This was not intentional. She is sorry. 1000 01:06:40,505 --> 01:06:43,208 Stop it. Stop it with the excuses, Mum. 1001 01:06:43,374 --> 01:06:46,009 We've spent our whole lives tiptoeing around her 1002 01:06:46,177 --> 01:06:48,078 with the excuses. 1003 01:06:49,046 --> 01:06:52,217 Toby was my brother too, Mum. 1004 01:06:52,383 --> 01:06:53,817 I can't believe I was stupid enough 1005 01:06:53,984 --> 01:06:56,086 to just think that it might stick this time. 1006 01:06:56,254 --> 01:06:58,423 - I mean, I must be the sick one... - Jill... 1007 01:06:58,590 --> 01:07:00,858 trusting you to look after Larry. 1008 01:07:01,024 --> 01:07:02,826 Enough! Enough. 1009 01:07:02,993 --> 01:07:04,596 I know you're upset, Jill. 1010 01:07:04,761 --> 01:07:06,697 Grace screwed up royally, 1011 01:07:06,864 --> 01:07:08,184 but she's been trying really hard. 1012 01:07:08,266 --> 01:07:10,767 She's not perfect. It's a process, 1013 01:07:10,934 --> 01:07:13,438 and it's going to affect all of us, not just you. 1014 01:07:13,605 --> 01:07:15,340 Because you know Grace so well, huh? 1015 01:07:15,507 --> 01:07:17,007 You know about the time I found her 1016 01:07:17,175 --> 01:07:20,010 catatonic in her bed after a power failure. 1017 01:07:20,178 --> 01:07:21,613 See, she couldn't get up. 1018 01:07:21,778 --> 01:07:24,047 Not without the clock telling her it was 6am. 1019 01:07:24,215 --> 01:07:25,775 You had to go in-patient after that one, 1020 01:07:25,916 --> 01:07:27,718 - didn't you, Grace? - Jill... 1021 01:07:27,885 --> 01:07:29,920 Pretty soon after that, you lost your tenureship. 1022 01:07:30,087 --> 01:07:31,607 A whole life of genius down the toilet. 1023 01:07:31,688 --> 01:07:33,124 - Jill! - So, yeah, Seamus, 1024 01:07:33,291 --> 01:07:34,758 feel free to enlighten me. 1025 01:07:34,925 --> 01:07:38,061 Tell me how well you know my sister. 1026 01:07:47,104 --> 01:07:48,906 I think I'll go. 1027 01:08:49,200 --> 01:08:51,935 You never told me you had a brother. 1028 01:08:52,836 --> 01:08:54,805 What happened? 1029 01:09:13,291 --> 01:09:16,127 They said he didn't feel any pain. 1030 01:09:18,463 --> 01:09:22,233 He was just... lying there. 1031 01:09:23,033 --> 01:09:24,669 Looked like he was sleeping. 1032 01:09:24,835 --> 01:09:26,337 I'm so sorry. 1033 01:09:26,504 --> 01:09:28,406 And that's when it started. 1034 01:09:28,573 --> 01:09:31,074 I counted everything. 1035 01:09:33,544 --> 01:09:36,748 I wish you didn't feel like you had to hide all that from me. 1036 01:09:39,150 --> 01:09:41,753 Because it's none of your business. 1037 01:09:44,222 --> 01:09:46,491 OK, yeah. I'm not... 1038 01:09:48,259 --> 01:09:50,695 Just, I feel like I've been with you 1039 01:09:50,861 --> 01:09:53,398 every step of the way here, and... 1040 01:09:53,399 --> 01:09:55,399 you don't think I had the right to know something like that? 1041 01:09:55,400 --> 01:09:57,034 - Had the right? - Not the right... 1042 01:09:57,201 --> 01:09:58,902 You had the right? 1043 01:09:59,069 --> 01:10:01,071 You, you, you. 1044 01:10:01,239 --> 01:10:03,359 It's always about you. This is nothing to do with you. 1045 01:10:03,508 --> 01:10:05,777 - This is about me. - When is it ever about me? 1046 01:10:05,942 --> 01:10:08,212 I'm... Look, everything we do or don't do, 1047 01:10:08,379 --> 01:10:10,782 everywhere we go or don't go, that's always about you. 1048 01:10:10,947 --> 01:10:12,684 - And that's fine. - Ah, you accommodate me. 1049 01:10:12,849 --> 01:10:14,851 Yes, I do accommodate you. But I do it happily. 1050 01:10:15,018 --> 01:10:16,953 Because - listen to me - I do... Listen. 1051 01:10:17,121 --> 01:10:19,357 I do it happily, Grace, because when you love someone 1052 01:10:19,524 --> 01:10:21,793 and they're going through it, that's what you do. 1053 01:10:21,958 --> 01:10:23,860 That makes you feel big and important, does it? 1054 01:10:24,027 --> 01:10:25,630 - Huh? - No, no, no. 1055 01:10:25,797 --> 01:10:28,357 We all know there's only one important person when you're around. 1056 01:10:28,433 --> 01:10:30,867 Trust me. 1057 01:10:31,034 --> 01:10:33,538 - I can't. - I didn't... I didn't... 1058 01:10:33,705 --> 01:10:35,906 - I didn't mean it like that. - Actually, I can't. 1059 01:10:36,073 --> 01:10:37,709 OK... What's this? 1060 01:10:37,870 --> 01:10:40,110 Yeah. Take the nuclear option first time out, every time. 1061 01:10:40,111 --> 01:10:43,147 - Usually works. - Get the fuck out. Just get the fuck out. 1062 01:10:43,314 --> 01:10:45,149 I'm done. 1063 01:10:45,316 --> 01:10:47,118 No, Grace... 1064 01:10:47,285 --> 01:10:48,453 This isn't us. 1065 01:10:48,619 --> 01:10:50,555 OK, please, just take a step back. 1066 01:10:50,722 --> 01:10:51,823 Just take a second. 1067 01:10:51,988 --> 01:10:53,491 Think about what you're doing here. 1068 01:10:54,891 --> 01:10:59,430 I have literally thought of nothing else 1069 01:10:59,597 --> 01:11:01,898 for weeks. 1070 01:11:02,065 --> 01:11:07,138 Of finally being free from this fucking droning... 1071 01:11:07,839 --> 01:11:10,108 inside my head. 1072 01:11:18,014 --> 01:11:19,916 OK. 1073 01:11:21,352 --> 01:11:24,355 Go find someone else to rescue. 1074 01:12:31,889 --> 01:12:37,093 It's alarming just how easy it is to erase someone. 1075 01:12:37,261 --> 01:12:41,064 After a week, it was like he had never even existed. 1076 01:12:44,869 --> 01:12:47,538 Erasing someone who refuses to be erased, however... 1077 01:12:47,705 --> 01:12:50,842 Well, that can be a little tricky. 1078 01:13:29,814 --> 01:13:32,650 Grace? Come on. It's me. 1079 01:13:32,817 --> 01:13:35,786 He's persistent. 1080 01:13:36,888 --> 01:13:40,157 Can we talk? Please? 1081 01:13:43,427 --> 01:13:45,162 Don't be sad, ljubavi. 1082 01:13:45,329 --> 01:13:47,398 Happy smiles, yes? 1083 01:13:57,975 --> 01:13:59,977 Seamus and I broke up. 1084 01:14:01,646 --> 01:14:03,614 A few weeks ago. 1085 01:14:04,080 --> 01:14:05,917 I'm sorry. 1086 01:14:06,851 --> 01:14:08,486 Yeah. 1087 01:14:10,588 --> 01:14:12,356 Um, I came off the meds. 1088 01:14:12,523 --> 01:14:15,326 I just wanted to feel a little bit more like myself for a bit. 1089 01:14:15,493 --> 01:14:17,328 But we can try again, down the road. 1090 01:14:17,495 --> 01:14:19,697 Yeah. Yeah. Of course. 1091 01:14:25,369 --> 01:14:28,139 Do you know Nikola Tesla? 1092 01:14:28,306 --> 01:14:31,008 - The inventor. - I do. 1093 01:14:31,175 --> 01:14:34,211 Well, he's, um... 1094 01:14:34,378 --> 01:14:37,815 He's lived with me, for years. 1095 01:14:37,982 --> 01:14:39,817 In what way? 1096 01:14:39,984 --> 01:14:43,020 Like he's, um... 1097 01:14:43,187 --> 01:14:48,359 Like he's there. He's with me. We... We talk. We... 1098 01:14:49,493 --> 01:14:51,395 do things together. 1099 01:14:52,330 --> 01:14:54,865 Not those kinds of things. 1100 01:14:55,032 --> 01:14:57,635 No. It's platonic. 1101 01:14:58,736 --> 01:15:01,205 Oh, my God. I'm fucking nuts. 1102 01:15:01,372 --> 01:15:04,008 I... I've heard far stranger things, Grace. 1103 01:15:04,175 --> 01:15:07,511 - Oh, really? - Believe me, yes. 1104 01:15:09,080 --> 01:15:13,751 OK, well, when did Tesla first come to you? 1105 01:15:15,019 --> 01:15:17,021 Um... 1106 01:15:17,188 --> 01:15:20,424 It was the first time I left the hospital. 1107 01:15:20,591 --> 01:15:23,327 And what about before that? 1108 01:15:24,729 --> 01:15:27,598 What happened when you were six? 1109 01:15:31,268 --> 01:15:34,338 My brother. 1110 01:15:34,505 --> 01:15:38,909 Part of me feels like if I just count the steps properly 1111 01:15:39,076 --> 01:15:41,612 that he doesn't fall, he doesn't die. 1112 01:15:41,779 --> 01:15:44,715 That if I count everything all the time 1113 01:15:44,882 --> 01:15:46,250 that no-one gets hurt. 1114 01:15:46,417 --> 01:15:47,585 And I get it. I... 1115 01:15:47,752 --> 01:15:50,254 I get that the rational part of me 1116 01:15:50,421 --> 01:15:53,391 knows that it makes no sense, that... 1117 01:15:53,557 --> 01:15:56,861 that things happen to people, good and bad, all the time. 1118 01:15:57,028 --> 01:16:00,197 It has nothing to do with the numbers. 1119 01:16:01,133 --> 01:16:03,100 But the fear... 1120 01:16:04,136 --> 01:16:06,804 fear is always still there. 1121 01:16:10,975 --> 01:16:14,712 Do you remember what happened to Tesla in the end? 1122 01:16:14,879 --> 01:16:17,548 Yeah. He went bankrupt building the Wardenclyffe Tower. 1123 01:16:17,715 --> 01:16:20,384 It was sold for scrap metal in World War I. 1124 01:16:20,551 --> 01:16:23,320 He was ahead of his time. He was just... misunderstood. 1125 01:16:23,487 --> 01:16:24,922 And after that? 1126 01:16:25,089 --> 01:16:27,591 He died alone in a crummy hotel room, broke. 1127 01:16:27,758 --> 01:16:29,760 He told everyone he invented the death-ray gun 1128 01:16:29,927 --> 01:16:33,064 and that he could communicate with other planets. 1129 01:16:37,802 --> 01:16:40,805 The smartest man in the world, and yet he... 1130 01:16:40,971 --> 01:16:43,607 he couldn't find his way out. 1131 01:16:44,341 --> 01:16:47,145 Couldn't manage the fear. 1132 01:16:51,615 --> 01:16:53,617 Just because Tesla couldn't get his shit together 1133 01:16:53,784 --> 01:16:56,754 doesn't mean he's a loser, you know? 1134 01:16:56,921 --> 01:16:58,355 I know. 1135 01:16:59,590 --> 01:17:02,160 But imagine how remarkable he would have been 1136 01:17:02,326 --> 01:17:04,929 if he did get his shit together. 1137 01:17:22,980 --> 01:17:25,816 Once you take two steps forward, 1138 01:17:25,983 --> 01:17:26,951 taking one step back, 1139 01:17:27,119 --> 01:17:29,386 well, it's like putting on an old coat 1140 01:17:29,553 --> 01:17:30,955 that doesn't fit anymore. 1141 01:18:18,035 --> 01:18:20,504 One, two, three, four, 1142 01:18:20,671 --> 01:18:22,940 five, six, seven... 1143 01:18:23,107 --> 01:18:25,509 Maybe I really am changing for good. 1144 01:18:25,676 --> 01:18:28,746 I know I want something different. 1145 01:18:28,913 --> 01:18:32,716 I guess I'm trying to figure out exactly what that is. 1146 01:19:08,986 --> 01:19:11,822 Well, this is... this is lovely. 1147 01:19:14,292 --> 01:19:16,093 Gran, even I know 1148 01:19:16,261 --> 01:19:18,429 you can't put the toothpaste back in the tube. 1149 01:19:38,482 --> 01:19:41,518 I'm not going to make a single excuse for myself. 1150 01:19:41,685 --> 01:19:43,520 If you can't forgive me, that's fine. 1151 01:19:43,687 --> 01:19:46,157 Come down off the cross. 1152 01:19:46,324 --> 01:19:47,791 Of course I forgive you. 1153 01:19:47,958 --> 01:19:49,827 OK? 1154 01:19:49,994 --> 01:19:51,862 Come here. 1155 01:19:53,365 --> 01:19:57,202 But actually, I just really want that lasagne. 1156 01:19:57,369 --> 01:19:59,304 Now, I know we're not supposed to talk about it, 1157 01:19:59,470 --> 01:20:03,341 but are you sure you can't make things work with Seamus? 1158 01:20:03,507 --> 01:20:06,111 Oh, God, Mum, that toothpaste is all the way out, 1159 01:20:06,278 --> 01:20:08,646 smeared across the floor. 1160 01:20:08,812 --> 01:20:09,813 Well, that is a shame, 1161 01:20:09,980 --> 01:20:12,950 because you two, you were such a pair. 1162 01:20:15,019 --> 01:20:17,888 Never forgive myself for missing it. 1163 01:20:18,055 --> 01:20:20,491 You couldn't help it. 1164 01:20:21,058 --> 01:20:23,560 You still mad at me? 1165 01:20:23,727 --> 01:20:25,963 Why would I be mad at you? 1166 01:20:26,131 --> 01:20:27,631 I got you into trouble. 1167 01:20:27,798 --> 01:20:31,068 Everything that happened that day was on me. 1168 01:20:31,236 --> 01:20:33,138 OK? 1169 01:20:33,305 --> 01:20:34,672 Everything. 1170 01:20:34,838 --> 01:20:36,874 Are you going to tell Mum? 1171 01:20:37,041 --> 01:20:38,509 Tell Mum what? 1172 01:20:38,676 --> 01:20:42,314 About... Freddie. About me. 1173 01:20:44,014 --> 01:20:46,050 Come here. 1174 01:20:47,017 --> 01:20:48,585 Hey... 1175 01:20:50,188 --> 01:20:54,858 It's none of her business until you want it to be. 1176 01:20:55,025 --> 01:20:59,364 But your mum is such a brilliant woman 1177 01:20:59,530 --> 01:21:02,533 and she loves you just the way you are. 1178 01:21:02,700 --> 01:21:04,269 Whatever way that is. 1179 01:21:04,436 --> 01:21:07,771 And all that stuff you're feeling, 1180 01:21:07,938 --> 01:21:11,742 all of that tightness in your chest, 1181 01:21:11,909 --> 01:21:15,012 that's just fear. 1182 01:21:15,180 --> 01:21:19,117 And one day, you'll be able to look it in the face 1183 01:21:19,284 --> 01:21:22,853 and know exactly who you are. 1184 01:21:27,558 --> 01:21:29,294 Oh... 1185 01:21:31,528 --> 01:21:33,630 I'm glad you're doing better. 1186 01:21:33,797 --> 01:21:36,267 I like this Grace. 1187 01:21:36,434 --> 01:21:40,271 Well, work-in-progress Grace. 1188 01:22:31,156 --> 01:22:33,525 I promise I won't come by again. 1189 01:22:33,690 --> 01:22:36,627 I just didn't think you should be without these. 1190 01:22:37,628 --> 01:22:39,330 Happy birthday. 1191 01:23:04,355 --> 01:23:06,890 I'll miss you, 1192 01:23:07,057 --> 01:23:10,961 Grace Lisa Vandenburg. 1193 01:23:20,472 --> 01:23:22,507 One, two, three, four! 1194 01:23:22,673 --> 01:23:25,210 My name is Grace Lisa Vandenburg. 1195 01:23:25,376 --> 01:23:28,313 There are 19 letters in my name. 1196 01:23:28,480 --> 01:23:29,680 I have anxiety 1197 01:23:29,847 --> 01:23:31,982 and a hell of a lot of issues around guilt, 1198 01:23:32,150 --> 01:23:34,084 but I'm working on it. 1199 01:23:34,252 --> 01:23:36,920 I know that counting can't keep anyone safe, 1200 01:23:37,087 --> 01:23:38,423 not even me. 1201 01:23:38,590 --> 01:23:40,225 But safety isn't everything. 1202 01:24:27,104 --> 01:24:30,542 You are Seamus Joseph Rogers. 1203 01:24:30,707 --> 01:24:33,411 There are 19 letters in your name. 1204 01:24:33,578 --> 01:24:35,246 Just like me. 1205 01:24:35,413 --> 01:24:38,149 You may not be able to read my mind... 1206 01:24:40,618 --> 01:24:43,121 but you see me. 1207 01:24:56,066 --> 01:24:57,935 It all counts. 1208 01:24:58,101 --> 01:25:01,606 Life is made up of thousands of fleeting moments. 1209 01:25:01,772 --> 01:25:04,741 And if you don't pay attention and make them count, 1210 01:25:04,908 --> 01:25:06,910 you could miss it. 1211 01:25:07,077 --> 01:25:08,580 You could miss your whole life.