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SEATLE ROAD
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Subrip: Pix
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Is this 1940 Seattle road?
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Yes.
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The owners are trying
to sell the place,
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so y'all better go back
to wherever it is you came from.
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Owners?
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Yeah.
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No, there must be
some kind of mistake.
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She just inherited
the place.
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My bad.
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I'II, have to go
check back at the office.
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Yeah, you do that.
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Have yourself a nice day.
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Monday.
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Experiment.
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What is love?
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An experiment?
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I don't know.
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Is it eternal?
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Experience is art.
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That's what it is.
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-Hey, get me in the reeds.
-Okay.
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I have to work
for this experience
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-in art.
-I'll pose with them.
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My art.
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My words.
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My voice.
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Let's get a two shot here.
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The world is what it is.
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It just is.
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Come here.
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I started to realize
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there's always a price
to be paid
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when the artist goes
in search of the art inside.
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And as I travelled
across country,
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I wondered where my courage
was back when he was alive.
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Did he love me?
Did he understand me?
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And if not,
does it really matter?
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My father used to say,
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"everything has been
figured out
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except how to live."
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He wasn't dumb.
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Now you can be a part
of a dying breed,
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a novelist that doesn't
use a computer.
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I keep having the same dream.
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I'm a child again
in an empty house,
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filled with fear and horror...
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This fear of dying without
ever having truly lived.
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Do either of you
have a jumper cable?
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Lord have mercy,
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you a pleasant sight
to wake up to.
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No, I can't help you.
Try next door.
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Sold out.
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I'll get you up.
Give me a minute.
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I'm really glad you had these.
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Yeah, it's my friend's car.
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Aren't you freezing?
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I grew up in upstate New York.
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So is naked laundry
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this new thing in New York
or something?
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No, I don't have
many clothes
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and I've actually been
thinking about going home
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if I can't find
a reason to stick around.
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Aimless wanderer?
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More like
wandering aimlessly.
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You turned on?
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That's a little
presumptuous.
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No, I mean, can you turn
the car on please?
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Sorry.
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Make sure
you leave it running
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for at least
20 minutes, okay?
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Yeah, thank you.
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That's really not necessary.
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No, I insist.
For your time.
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I was just watching
my clothes dry.
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Not true, I interrupted
some very heavy reading.
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Not $20 worth.
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Well, let me get you
a coffee then.
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How 'bout you give me
your phone number?
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Well, I'd love to,
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but I don't know you,
and you seem broke.
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I'd have to say
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"the giving tree."
Yours?
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Maybe
"the velveteen rabbit."
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What was your favorite book
growing up?
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I don't know, why?
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Just wondering, I guess.
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Well...
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I'd have to say
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"the giving tree."
Yours?
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Maybe
"the velveteen rabbit."
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You and I
are the characters
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from our favorite
childhood books.
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Yeah?
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Yeah, you're
a self-sacrificing tree.
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And you're a stuffed rabbit.
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We should write
our own children's books.
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Yeah?
What would we call it?
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"I love you so much
it makes me sick."
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Eve.
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I don't know how
to tell you this.
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Your...
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Your father died
last night.
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Wait, what?
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He just called me.
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Richard was a man
of great faith.
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A true pioneer,
whose life
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touched each
and every one of us
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individually.
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Lord, our father...
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Show yourselves
to us today
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and relieve the sadness
from this grieving family.
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In your name, amen.
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The lord is my Shepherd,
I shall not want.
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He maketh me to lie down
in green pastures.
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He leadeth me beside the still
waters, restoreth my soul.
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He leadeth me in the paths of
righteousness for his namesake.
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Yea, though I walk through
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the valley
of the shadow of death,
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I will fear no evil.
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For thou art with me.
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Thy rod and thy staff,
they comfort me.
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-Adam, some salad?
-No, thank you.
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Are you sure?
It's fresh from our garden.
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Adam doesn't eat plants.
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He's actually a very
talented gardener himself.
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Is that so? What kinds
of things do you grow?
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I don't do
the growing.
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I just help them
along their journey.
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Adam used to work
in a nursery.
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He specializes
in hydroponics.
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Are you
a pot grower?
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I read about
rapid plant-death
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of soil-based plants
in hydroculture.
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-He's actually a painter.
-No, I'm a...
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I use a system that actually
uses 90% less water.
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There's a meaningful
water shortage
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around the world.
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I know my brother never
knew what to do with Eve.
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-It's affected her relationships with men.
-Patty, please.
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What, I just want to understand
what his intentions are.
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We're enjoying
our dinner, come on.
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You're a lot like
your father, though.
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-You know it?
-How so?
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Richard had a good heart,
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but he only did
what was good for him.
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What does that mean?
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Your whole life has been
a show of autonomy.
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If a situation didn't suit you,
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you ignored it.
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Your father tried
reaching out to you.
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You're the one who decided
never to speak to him again.
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-I have no regrets.
-See? That's just it.
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You know, you never
admit you're wrong,
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and now you're never gonna
be able to tell him
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-how you feel.
-Patricia, come on.
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We just buried the man.
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Everything all right?
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Yeah, everything's fine.
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Everything all right with you?
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Hey.
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To Richard.
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May he rest in peace.
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That's good.
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Hey, i... I'm sorry
about before.
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I'm not handling this
very well.
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What is it with you
and the stray cats always?
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Don't judge him.
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He's not what you think.
He's different.
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Use your brain,
that's all I'm asking.
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You know, I was thinking
about back in the day
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when your dad
had the record label.
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He took me to the Fillmore
for my first time
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to see cream.
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We both know that
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he had trouble relating
to you after your mom left.
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Deep down,
he knew it, too,
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but, you know,
he made his peace with it
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so he could
live his life...
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That's not an excuse.
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But at some point,
you realize
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forgiveness is necessary
for survival.
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What does that even mean?
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I'm just saying,
I spent a lot of my life
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staying angry at people for my
own selfish, but valid reasons
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but...
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Staying mad
at a dead person
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is only gonna make
your life miserable.
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Especially if that person
is your father.
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He didn't leave me
anything, did he?
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No, you made
your intentions clear
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so he changed his will.
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Doesn't mean
he didn't love you.
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Indigestion?
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Stomach issues
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brought on by stress
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and soul-sucking jobs
my whole life.
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Where did you work before?
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Native plant nursery
in Van nuys.
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I got fired
two weeks ago
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'cause I implemented
a hydroponic growing system.
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Apparently, this cut
into the profit margins
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of the business.
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So you decided to take
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your initiative-based
work skills
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to a different part
of the valley,
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hoping to run into me again?
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I found cheap rent nearby
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and someone who didn't mind
me practicing my passion.
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-I'm a painter.
-I'm a writer.
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Two struggling artists.
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-What do you write?
-Short stories,
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poetry, working on ideas
for my first novel.
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Can I have
a pack of reds, too?
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Yeah.
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You gonna accept
my money this time?
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I don't know.
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You gonna give me
your number this time?
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Unless you have a guy or...
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Of course you have a guy.
Who am I kidding?
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No. Yeah.
Technically, no.
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I'm just not looking for
anything serious right now.
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No, I respect that.
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Hey.
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Yeah?
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Never mind.
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Right this way.
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This is my new
roommate/tenant, Adam.
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And do not mind the mess,
because he is the definition
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of magnificent unusualness.
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Small world.
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Or are we just experiencing
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a dubious case of synchronicity?
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You two know each other,
or...
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We've met once or twice.
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Well, Adam, we're gonna
have to call it a night, man.
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Come on,
let me show you around.
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Sure.
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Tuesday.
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He listens, I talk.
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He's quiet,
and I like that.
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A writer needs someone
who will let them talk,
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who will let us
work it out in real time
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out loud.
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Is that the piece
you've been working on?
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Yeah, as a matter
of fact, it is.
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You're talented, it's...
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It's a little freaky,
that's all.
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But it's a longo knockoff.
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Get out of here with me?
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Where are we going?
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My father's apple orchard
in San Luis obispo.
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He left it to me.
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Well, for how long?
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A month or two...
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Or twelve?
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I don... I don't know.
It seems...
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Look, I need this.
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I can't be alone.
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Well...
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What're we gonna do
about money?
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We'll figure it out.
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Okay? You can work
on your artwork full-time
265
00:22:05,957 --> 00:22:07,459
like you've always wanted,
266
00:22:07,491 --> 00:22:09,461
and I can write.
267
00:22:09,493 --> 00:22:10,961
No schedules.
268
00:22:10,994 --> 00:22:13,464
No deadlines,
no drama.
269
00:22:13,498 --> 00:22:15,600
-No...
-responsibility.
270
00:22:19,604 --> 00:22:21,072
I have to make it
through this year
271
00:22:21,105 --> 00:22:22,774
before it kills me.
272
00:22:22,807 --> 00:22:24,108
I don't know.
273
00:22:24,142 --> 00:22:26,345
I mean, I miss my family.
274
00:22:30,948 --> 00:22:32,484
Wednesday.
275
00:22:34,484 --> 00:22:36,354
Sorrow found me.
276
00:22:37,855 --> 00:22:39,724
Sorrow found me again.
277
00:22:43,059 --> 00:22:46,029
I ran and hid,
278
00:22:46,063 --> 00:22:49,701
but trouble haunts me.
279
00:22:49,733 --> 00:22:52,436
Loneliness can help me.
280
00:22:58,643 --> 00:23:02,447
You really dig
the homeless vibe, don't you?
281
00:23:04,481 --> 00:23:05,783
My living arrangements
282
00:23:05,817 --> 00:23:08,620
are kind of in flux
at the moment.
283
00:23:08,653 --> 00:23:11,823
Did you move?
Because of me?
284
00:23:28,739 --> 00:23:30,708
Jen, this is Adam.
285
00:23:30,740 --> 00:23:33,044
Adam, this is Jen.
286
00:23:33,076 --> 00:23:35,547
Adam's gonna be crashing
with us for a while,
287
00:23:35,579 --> 00:23:37,081
if that's cool.
288
00:23:41,919 --> 00:23:44,522
-Hi.
-Of course.
289
00:23:44,555 --> 00:23:47,592
So you're the boy she's
predestined to be with?
290
00:23:47,625 --> 00:23:49,928
I guess that's the case.
291
00:23:49,961 --> 00:23:51,962
Jen's my roommate
and my therapist.
292
00:23:58,236 --> 00:24:00,738
Just be careful of falling
into the relationship template
293
00:24:00,770 --> 00:24:02,139
of your biblical
counterparts.
294
00:24:02,173 --> 00:24:06,009
Jen,
don't be ridiculous.
295
00:24:06,042 --> 00:24:08,979
The power of the unconscious
mind would surprise you.
296
00:24:15,952 --> 00:24:17,788
Can I help with anything?
297
00:24:29,799 --> 00:24:32,936
The rice is gonna burn.
298
00:24:32,970 --> 00:24:35,240
I thought you said
you liked brown rice.
299
00:25:05,303 --> 00:25:07,272
This is gonna be magical.
300
00:25:07,305 --> 00:25:09,207
Yes, it is.
301
00:25:25,021 --> 00:25:28,158
God created light,
302
00:25:28,192 --> 00:25:30,028
and looked down
onto all the matter
303
00:25:30,060 --> 00:25:32,696
and created his paradise
from the rubble.
304
00:25:32,730 --> 00:25:35,098
What kind
of interpretation is that?
305
00:25:35,132 --> 00:25:37,168
It's mine.
306
00:25:37,201 --> 00:25:39,170
Okay, well, I'm gonna have
to call the power company.
307
00:25:39,202 --> 00:25:40,837
It's gonna cost us.
308
00:25:40,871 --> 00:25:44,008
I can get
a generator and set it up.
309
00:25:44,040 --> 00:25:46,844
Have to do something
about the water, too.
310
00:25:46,876 --> 00:25:49,012
That's best part about you
311
00:25:49,046 --> 00:25:51,716
is that you're good
with your hands.
312
00:26:10,267 --> 00:26:13,837
The first time I had sex,
313
00:26:13,871 --> 00:26:17,141
I tried to play it cool,
but...
314
00:26:17,173 --> 00:26:18,777
I cried.
315
00:26:21,811 --> 00:26:25,182
It was just the first time
I was out on my own.
316
00:26:28,184 --> 00:26:30,855
I've made
interesting choices
317
00:26:30,887 --> 00:26:32,222
when it comes to guys.
318
00:26:32,256 --> 00:26:34,859
I mean, I can
sleep with them
319
00:26:34,892 --> 00:26:36,061
even if I don't
really like them.
320
00:26:38,229 --> 00:26:40,298
To me, it's just sex.
321
00:26:41,898 --> 00:26:44,001
I think it might've
scared her off a little.
322
00:26:45,403 --> 00:26:48,940
It's sad to think that
323
00:26:48,972 --> 00:26:51,308
I'll never see her again.
324
00:26:52,809 --> 00:26:54,111
Makes me feel feminine.
325
00:26:54,144 --> 00:26:56,013
Powerful.
326
00:26:58,848 --> 00:27:00,652
What was her name?
327
00:27:00,684 --> 00:27:02,686
Alexandra.
328
00:27:06,990 --> 00:27:08,626
Does that make you feel
uncomfortable?
329
00:27:10,126 --> 00:27:11,962
-Why?
-I don't know.
330
00:27:11,996 --> 00:27:14,299
Most guys can't get
the visuals out of their head.
331
00:27:16,133 --> 00:27:17,969
It's really brave of you.
332
00:27:19,903 --> 00:27:24,041
I wanna know the woman
that I love.
333
00:27:24,075 --> 00:27:26,177
You don't have to say it
just because I did.
334
00:27:41,826 --> 00:27:43,428
My god, you have
a weird thing
335
00:27:43,461 --> 00:27:45,229
for that
fucking pad thai.
336
00:27:45,261 --> 00:27:48,265
No, I have a weird thing
for that peanut sauce.
337
00:27:50,768 --> 00:27:52,269
Thai food.
338
00:27:58,342 --> 00:27:59,444
Hey, what's wrong?
339
00:28:02,846 --> 00:28:05,282
I was just thinking
about my brother.
340
00:28:06,951 --> 00:28:10,254
I'll never get his face
out of my head
341
00:28:10,287 --> 00:28:13,391
when I told him
he couldn't come with me.
342
00:28:15,859 --> 00:28:17,761
I don't wanna be
like my mom.
343
00:28:17,795 --> 00:28:19,197
Why not?
344
00:28:19,230 --> 00:28:20,798
My dad said
that she was young,
345
00:28:20,830 --> 00:28:22,799
but I think she just
had a hard time
346
00:28:22,833 --> 00:28:24,302
existing for anyone.
347
00:28:24,335 --> 00:28:26,170
But I don't wanna
talk about it.
348
00:28:26,202 --> 00:28:29,006
That's one way
to live your life,
349
00:28:29,038 --> 00:28:31,375
not giving anyone a chance
to get to know you.
350
00:28:35,045 --> 00:28:37,481
Mine lives on a collective
in upstate New York
351
00:28:37,515 --> 00:28:39,350
with my baby brother.
352
00:28:39,383 --> 00:28:41,885
A "collective"?
Do you mean like a...
353
00:28:41,919 --> 00:28:43,254
Commune, yeah.
354
00:28:45,256 --> 00:28:47,092
Are you close?
355
00:28:48,925 --> 00:28:52,297
I doubt she thinks so,
considering I ran away.
356
00:28:53,963 --> 00:28:55,031
So let me
get this straight,
357
00:28:55,065 --> 00:28:57,434
you ran away
from a commune?
358
00:28:57,468 --> 00:28:59,303
Yeah.
359
00:28:59,336 --> 00:29:01,204
When I was 18,
they tried to implement
360
00:29:01,238 --> 00:29:05,375
these workshops to get people
to stick around.
361
00:29:05,409 --> 00:29:07,778
I got out of there
as soon as I could.
362
00:29:07,811 --> 00:29:09,946
Weren't you petrified?
363
00:29:09,980 --> 00:29:11,949
I don't know if I knew
enough about the world
364
00:29:11,981 --> 00:29:13,451
to be scared.
365
00:29:13,483 --> 00:29:16,487
I'd never been to school
or anything like that.
366
00:29:18,321 --> 00:29:21,125
I lived in a homeless
shelter for three months
367
00:29:21,157 --> 00:29:23,327
trying to track
my dad down in New York.
368
00:29:25,930 --> 00:29:28,500
He split when
I was like 10 or so.
369
00:29:30,000 --> 00:29:32,303
When I finally
found him...
370
00:29:32,336 --> 00:29:35,306
He told me to go
someplace warm
371
00:29:35,338 --> 00:29:36,840
and start over.
372
00:29:36,874 --> 00:29:38,375
Gave me his copy of Emerson.
373
00:29:41,045 --> 00:29:43,247
I guess that
Ralph Waldo Emerson
374
00:29:43,279 --> 00:29:46,384
was the only thing my parents
could ever agree on.
375
00:29:56,460 --> 00:29:57,562
Okay.
376
00:30:14,010 --> 00:30:15,846
Yeah, thanks.
377
00:30:27,023 --> 00:30:28,525
To your love.
378
00:30:42,538 --> 00:30:45,643
Can I be annoyingly
honest and insecure
379
00:30:45,675 --> 00:30:47,945
and tell you exactly
what scares me?
380
00:30:50,547 --> 00:30:53,483
I'm afraid you're gonna
end up hating me
381
00:30:53,517 --> 00:30:55,653
and I'm gonna lose you
as my best friend,
382
00:30:55,685 --> 00:30:57,355
and it makes me ill.
383
00:30:57,387 --> 00:31:00,023
And you're so good.
384
00:31:00,057 --> 00:31:02,058
And you're sweet.
385
00:31:02,092 --> 00:31:03,995
What if the timing
of all this
386
00:31:04,028 --> 00:31:07,999
ends up destroying us
and hurting you?
387
00:31:08,031 --> 00:31:10,500
I don't think
that's gonna happen.
388
00:31:10,534 --> 00:31:14,338
That's because you have
a really bad emotional radar.
389
00:31:14,371 --> 00:31:16,074
You're not like me.
390
00:31:17,540 --> 00:31:20,176
You know what?
391
00:31:20,210 --> 00:31:22,279
Hold that thought.
392
00:31:30,054 --> 00:31:31,355
Thursday.
393
00:31:32,990 --> 00:31:36,460
I wanna put
these days behind me,
394
00:31:36,492 --> 00:31:38,663
these feelings of death.
395
00:31:41,164 --> 00:31:42,500
Death.
396
00:31:44,567 --> 00:31:47,337
Why must we live
if we die?
397
00:31:51,174 --> 00:31:53,344
Why is he so quiet?
398
00:31:54,711 --> 00:31:57,013
Does he think?
399
00:31:57,047 --> 00:31:58,916
Does he feel as I do?
400
00:32:04,087 --> 00:32:07,557
I don't understand
what concerns his time,
401
00:32:07,590 --> 00:32:09,526
but his perceptions
are astute.
402
00:32:11,694 --> 00:32:13,998
If only I knew more...
403
00:32:14,030 --> 00:32:16,567
Help him refine them.
404
00:32:16,599 --> 00:32:19,102
Maybe then I'll know
the key to his heart
405
00:32:19,135 --> 00:32:21,571
and he'll embrace
the joy of companionship.
406
00:32:46,430 --> 00:32:48,231
I don't wanna fuck this up.
407
00:32:48,265 --> 00:32:50,568
Fuck what up?
408
00:32:50,601 --> 00:32:52,136
I don't wanna
be responsible
409
00:32:52,169 --> 00:32:53,771
for anyone else's
happiness right now.
410
00:32:53,804 --> 00:32:55,773
The honeymoon always ends.
411
00:32:55,806 --> 00:32:57,775
It does in
every relationship.
412
00:32:57,807 --> 00:32:59,643
If that's where we're at,
413
00:32:59,675 --> 00:33:02,445
then it's up to us to decide
where we go from here.
414
00:33:02,479 --> 00:33:04,782
I don't want it to.
415
00:33:04,815 --> 00:33:07,485
I just don't want you
to have any expectations.
416
00:33:07,518 --> 00:33:10,488
Expectation is the root
of all heartbreak.
417
00:33:15,491 --> 00:33:17,327
Well...
418
00:33:17,361 --> 00:33:20,131
Maybe we could just
tell each other everything.
419
00:33:20,163 --> 00:33:22,099
Is there any other way?
420
00:33:23,267 --> 00:33:26,070
You don't know
how crazy I am.
421
00:33:26,103 --> 00:33:27,738
Crazy enough to invite
a strange boy
422
00:33:27,770 --> 00:33:29,339
to live with you
in an apple orchard.
423
00:33:36,113 --> 00:33:39,182
You can never ask me
to marry you.
424
00:33:49,726 --> 00:33:51,429
Bloody hell,
425
00:33:51,461 --> 00:33:53,096
could you not have
kept the conversation
426
00:33:53,130 --> 00:33:54,799
going a little longer?
Those people were...
427
00:33:54,832 --> 00:33:58,302
I was only trying to make
friends for us to go out with.
428
00:33:58,335 --> 00:34:01,771
Friends? The bloke tried
to show me his truck nutz...
429
00:34:01,805 --> 00:34:04,775
Obviously,
my favorite thing in life.
430
00:34:04,807 --> 00:34:09,146
Yeah, well, you ain't
up for it then?
431
00:34:09,179 --> 00:34:11,682
He was only trying to have
a little chin-wag.
432
00:34:11,715 --> 00:34:15,519
And I'm only trying
to leave well alone.
433
00:34:15,552 --> 00:34:18,689
I think scrooge here
needs some more libations.
434
00:34:18,722 --> 00:34:20,557
Hang about,
I need to go see
435
00:34:20,590 --> 00:34:22,592
a man about a dog
in the loo.
436
00:34:47,284 --> 00:34:49,586
I know you.
437
00:34:49,619 --> 00:34:51,588
All right, cowboy.
438
00:34:51,621 --> 00:34:53,790
No, no, no, you're the
girl from Seattle road.
439
00:34:56,893 --> 00:34:59,463
You're the guy who tried
to put me pad up for sale.
440
00:35:01,797 --> 00:35:03,333
What are you drinking?
441
00:35:04,800 --> 00:35:07,471
Whiskey, neat.
442
00:35:10,474 --> 00:35:12,876
Two whiskeys, neat.
443
00:35:12,909 --> 00:35:16,114
-What kind?
-Finest you got.
444
00:35:17,780 --> 00:35:20,250
I am Bradley,
by the way,
445
00:35:20,284 --> 00:35:22,419
but my friends call me Lee.
446
00:35:22,452 --> 00:35:25,623
Well, Bradley,
I'll call you cowboy.
447
00:35:28,925 --> 00:35:30,760
I'd love to stay and chat,
448
00:35:30,793 --> 00:35:32,462
but I'm with me mate
over there.
449
00:35:32,496 --> 00:35:34,331
Hey...
450
00:35:34,364 --> 00:35:37,835
Where did you find
Jesus Christ superstar anyway?
451
00:35:37,867 --> 00:35:40,203
Maybe I'm an apostle.
452
00:35:40,237 --> 00:35:42,273
Right, right.
453
00:35:42,306 --> 00:35:45,275
Well, listen, if you two
ever run into any trouble,
454
00:35:45,309 --> 00:35:47,945
maybe you could
leave me your number?
455
00:35:47,978 --> 00:35:50,813
I could give you a call.
456
00:35:50,847 --> 00:35:52,516
That's forward.
457
00:35:52,548 --> 00:35:54,251
Well, I'm a man of action.
458
00:35:56,586 --> 00:35:59,257
Only because you remind me of
young Brad Pitt in that hat.
459
00:36:03,594 --> 00:36:05,596
Maybe another time?
460
00:36:07,764 --> 00:36:09,634
Come on.
461
00:36:12,501 --> 00:36:14,204
Another 15.
462
00:36:56,380 --> 00:36:57,981
Hey, Hank.
463
00:36:58,014 --> 00:37:01,551
What's the deal
with 1940 Seattle road?
464
00:37:22,572 --> 00:37:24,875
What are we gonna do
if you don't sell any pieces?
465
00:37:24,907 --> 00:37:27,577
The book isn't even close
to done, and we're broke.
466
00:37:28,577 --> 00:37:30,713
I'm stuck.
467
00:37:30,746 --> 00:37:33,850
Forces are at work
that we cannot touch
468
00:37:33,884 --> 00:37:37,820
or see or even comprehend,
469
00:37:37,853 --> 00:37:40,490
but as time marches on,
they reveal themselves to us
470
00:37:40,523 --> 00:37:42,025
in the most fateful of ways.
471
00:37:42,059 --> 00:37:44,595
Okay, deepak chopra.
472
00:37:46,762 --> 00:37:49,032
-I got you a job.
-Where?
473
00:37:49,065 --> 00:37:50,600
A local art gallery.
474
00:37:50,634 --> 00:37:53,603
Well, what're you gonna do?
475
00:37:53,637 --> 00:37:54,839
Writing is working.
476
00:38:03,847 --> 00:38:06,817
The orchids take
less frequent care.
477
00:38:06,849 --> 00:38:08,751
I know you forget
to water sometimes,
478
00:38:08,784 --> 00:38:12,322
so the orchids take
less frequent care.
479
00:38:12,356 --> 00:38:13,791
Is that what
I think it is?
480
00:38:13,824 --> 00:38:16,059
It's better.
It's moldavite crystal,
481
00:38:16,092 --> 00:38:18,494
not some cheap
imitation quartz.
482
00:38:18,527 --> 00:38:20,330
"Happy mother's day,
483
00:38:20,364 --> 00:38:23,034
to the best future mother
in the world."
484
00:38:25,369 --> 00:38:27,338
In ancient times,
people used to use it
485
00:38:27,371 --> 00:38:28,838
as psychic protection.
486
00:38:28,871 --> 00:38:30,340
I adore it.
487
00:38:32,675 --> 00:38:34,510
Negative entities
find it difficult
488
00:38:34,543 --> 00:38:36,446
to connect to your aura
when you wear it.
489
00:38:36,480 --> 00:38:38,481
My own key.
490
00:38:41,117 --> 00:38:43,453
You trust me?
491
00:38:43,487 --> 00:38:45,956
Why not?
492
00:38:45,989 --> 00:38:47,590
It's easier that way.
493
00:39:12,849 --> 00:39:15,119
Friday.
494
00:39:15,152 --> 00:39:18,121
I wait alone
for him to come.
495
00:39:18,155 --> 00:39:20,657
He does not.
496
00:39:20,690 --> 00:39:22,525
I wait in vain.
497
00:39:26,163 --> 00:39:28,998
I need to rekindle
the fire in my heart...
498
00:39:33,903 --> 00:39:36,907
To create that
which has not been before.
499
00:39:40,710 --> 00:39:43,012
Otherwise,
there's no point...
500
00:39:43,045 --> 00:39:44,748
No point to my life.
501
00:40:25,789 --> 00:40:29,092
I don't think
I love you anymore.
502
00:40:29,125 --> 00:40:30,960
And it's nothing
that you did,
503
00:40:30,994 --> 00:40:33,197
I'm just...
I'm not sure about us
504
00:40:33,230 --> 00:40:35,898
and things change.
505
00:40:35,931 --> 00:40:37,733
This conversation again?
506
00:40:37,766 --> 00:40:41,004
Yep,
this conversation again.
507
00:40:50,947 --> 00:40:52,749
Hey, it's been a while.
508
00:40:52,782 --> 00:40:55,119
Call me. Let's talk.
509
00:41:00,789 --> 00:41:02,759
Hey, it's been a while.
510
00:41:02,791 --> 00:41:05,128
Call me. Let's talk.
511
00:41:11,635 --> 00:41:13,637
Hey, it's been a while.
512
00:41:13,670 --> 00:41:15,639
Call me. Let's talk.
513
00:41:19,643 --> 00:41:22,112
I'm wondering... I really,
really love this one.
514
00:41:22,144 --> 00:41:23,980
Is this... is this
by a local artist?
515
00:41:24,014 --> 00:41:25,749
You know...
516
00:41:25,782 --> 00:41:29,253
Yeah, this is actually
a pretty interesting artist.
517
00:41:29,286 --> 00:41:32,789
She's... these paintings
here are done with "go-ash."
518
00:41:32,822 --> 00:41:35,559
-Gouache?
-Gouache, of course.
519
00:41:35,592 --> 00:41:38,061
She's really cool.
She actually grew up
520
00:41:38,094 --> 00:41:40,764
in north Carolina,
one of ten kids.
521
00:41:40,797 --> 00:41:42,365
Yes, yes,
we read that right there.
522
00:41:42,398 --> 00:41:45,067
If you could check for me, that would
be awesome 'cause I really wanna know.
523
00:41:45,101 --> 00:41:46,603
I'm trying to keep it
all local,
524
00:41:46,635 --> 00:41:48,105
-if you know what I mean.
-Yeah, sure.
525
00:41:48,137 --> 00:41:49,172
No. I get it.
526
00:41:49,204 --> 00:41:51,807
It's ten thousand.
527
00:41:51,840 --> 00:41:54,677
But you know what?
I'm not actually sure.
528
00:41:54,710 --> 00:41:58,848
So my boss is coming back
in just a few minutes.
529
00:41:58,882 --> 00:42:00,550
If you wanna wait for her,
she'll be able
530
00:42:00,583 --> 00:42:01,585
to tell you more about it.
531
00:42:18,601 --> 00:42:20,103
You hungry?
532
00:42:24,773 --> 00:42:26,109
Hello?
533
00:42:28,945 --> 00:42:30,614
So what's your problem?
534
00:42:32,148 --> 00:42:34,818
What?
535
00:42:34,851 --> 00:42:37,588
-Talk to me.
-Nothing.
536
00:42:38,954 --> 00:42:41,324
Nothing's on your mind?
537
00:42:41,358 --> 00:42:43,561
Fuck, man.
538
00:42:46,228 --> 00:42:49,198
Yeah, okay. I have
something on my mind,
539
00:42:49,231 --> 00:42:51,033
but I don't have
to tell you every thought
540
00:42:51,034 --> 00:42:52,068
that comes through my head.
541
00:42:52,101 --> 00:42:54,770
Jesus.
542
00:42:54,804 --> 00:42:56,940
I was only trying
to talk.
543
00:42:56,972 --> 00:42:58,808
That's all we do is talk.
544
00:42:58,842 --> 00:43:01,811
Could you just shut up
every once in a while?
545
00:43:01,844 --> 00:43:04,147
Forget I asked.
546
00:43:09,719 --> 00:43:11,688
What's my problem?
547
00:43:11,721 --> 00:43:13,623
That I'm young,
548
00:43:13,657 --> 00:43:15,659
I'm lost,
549
00:43:17,327 --> 00:43:19,363
and I'm punishing myself
550
00:43:19,396 --> 00:43:21,365
for everything
that I haven't done.
551
00:43:23,699 --> 00:43:27,270
And sometimes, honestly,
I just want to be left alone.
552
00:43:32,909 --> 00:43:35,244
This relationship is...
553
00:43:35,277 --> 00:43:37,713
It's affecting you,
554
00:43:37,746 --> 00:43:39,382
and me,
555
00:43:39,416 --> 00:43:41,751
and most importantly,
my work.
556
00:43:41,784 --> 00:43:43,853
I'm only trying
to cheer you up.
557
00:43:43,887 --> 00:43:46,690
I don't want
to be cheered up.
558
00:43:51,960 --> 00:43:53,963
Good job
with the generator.
559
00:43:56,298 --> 00:44:00,804
I told you I was gonna
fuck things up,
560
00:44:00,836 --> 00:44:03,773
so don't go and try
to make me feel guilty.
561
00:45:18,514 --> 00:45:20,384
You did this for me?
562
00:45:21,885 --> 00:45:24,888
Eve, I want to be
on your team.
563
00:45:26,389 --> 00:45:28,791
I don't deserve this.
564
00:45:30,793 --> 00:45:32,962
Accept the generosity
of strangers.
565
00:45:49,978 --> 00:45:51,314
Is this him?
566
00:45:55,318 --> 00:45:59,322
He used to tell me stories
about his heyday in 'frisco.
567
00:45:59,355 --> 00:46:02,760
Yeah, a real
rebel without a cause.
568
00:46:04,092 --> 00:46:07,230
Patty was right.
569
00:46:07,262 --> 00:46:08,931
You do take after him.
570
00:46:12,936 --> 00:46:14,403
He changed after his friends
571
00:46:14,436 --> 00:46:16,440
started od'ing
and killing themselves.
572
00:46:19,275 --> 00:46:22,546
I always believed that he
might've been an artist himself
573
00:46:22,579 --> 00:46:25,282
if he hadn't seen
death firsthand.
574
00:46:26,583 --> 00:46:28,285
Why is that?
575
00:46:34,523 --> 00:46:38,027
I once asked him why he and
my mom decided to have kids
576
00:46:38,061 --> 00:46:41,231
when they hated
each other so much.
577
00:46:42,398 --> 00:46:43,867
What'd he say?
578
00:46:43,900 --> 00:46:45,568
He thought that
the shared love
579
00:46:45,601 --> 00:46:49,071
they'd have for a baby would
bring them closer together.
580
00:46:53,476 --> 00:46:56,046
I knew what he meant.
581
00:46:56,079 --> 00:46:58,315
She never wanted
to have me.
582
00:47:01,150 --> 00:47:03,086
After I was born,
583
00:47:03,119 --> 00:47:05,255
she landed
a modeling contract
584
00:47:05,288 --> 00:47:06,456
that took her to Paris
585
00:47:06,489 --> 00:47:08,625
and left my care to my dad
586
00:47:08,657 --> 00:47:11,561
and his random girlfriends.
587
00:47:13,228 --> 00:47:17,466
Then six months later,
she was married to this...
588
00:47:17,500 --> 00:47:21,605
This photographer
and living in New York.
589
00:47:21,637 --> 00:47:24,139
It was like she forgot
having a kid was permanent
590
00:47:24,172 --> 00:47:26,175
and not just some
trendy accessory.
591
00:47:28,177 --> 00:47:29,413
What was her name?
592
00:47:36,351 --> 00:47:40,156
I disagree with everything
my parents stand for.
593
00:47:41,990 --> 00:47:43,793
It makes sense now.
594
00:47:47,664 --> 00:47:50,033
We both had something
to escape from.
595
00:47:52,034 --> 00:47:54,437
It's why we found
each other.
596
00:48:05,547 --> 00:48:07,216
What's this?
597
00:49:25,293 --> 00:49:27,262
Adam, I just
got off the phone
598
00:49:27,295 --> 00:49:29,031
with Matty Pearl
in Santa Barbara.
599
00:49:29,065 --> 00:49:30,599
Please tell me you've sent
that express package.
600
00:49:30,632 --> 00:49:33,269
Come in.
601
00:49:34,436 --> 00:49:36,038
What's up?
602
00:49:36,072 --> 00:49:37,374
I don't think
this is working out
603
00:49:37,407 --> 00:49:39,276
the way I thought.
604
00:49:42,778 --> 00:49:43,780
There it is.
605
00:49:43,813 --> 00:49:46,416
I'm a fuck-up and...
606
00:49:46,449 --> 00:49:49,586
This job just makes me
feel bad and all.
607
00:49:49,619 --> 00:49:53,590
You know, I know
I'm not paying you a lot,
608
00:49:53,623 --> 00:49:55,592
but I would really love it
if you could follow through
609
00:49:55,625 --> 00:49:57,693
on the mundane tasks
when I ask.
610
00:50:00,396 --> 00:50:03,400
It's not your fault,
you're not cut out
611
00:50:03,432 --> 00:50:06,135
for the ten to six grind.
612
00:50:06,168 --> 00:50:08,471
Well, if Eve asks,
613
00:50:08,503 --> 00:50:11,306
can you just tell her
you couldn't afford
614
00:50:11,340 --> 00:50:12,409
to keep me on or something?
615
00:50:12,442 --> 00:50:14,411
-Sure.
-I appreciate it.
616
00:50:14,443 --> 00:50:16,545
I know how hard she worked
to get me this job.
617
00:50:16,579 --> 00:50:18,048
I'm sorry.
618
00:50:19,382 --> 00:50:21,217
-Adam?
-Yeah?
619
00:50:22,818 --> 00:50:25,320
Eve really believes in you,
620
00:50:25,353 --> 00:50:27,023
even if you don't.
621
00:50:29,358 --> 00:50:30,693
Thanks.
622
00:51:31,253 --> 00:51:33,856
Saturday.
623
00:51:33,889 --> 00:51:38,260
I don't know why
I seek his approval, but I do.
624
00:51:38,293 --> 00:51:40,762
When I do, he withdraws,
625
00:51:40,795 --> 00:51:44,634
and I wonder if any of them
will ever understand me.
626
00:51:44,666 --> 00:51:46,802
Maybe it's better
to accept you're alone.
627
00:53:33,376 --> 00:53:37,680
Do you ever get the feeling
this all happened sometime?
628
00:53:37,713 --> 00:53:39,416
And somewhere?
629
00:53:41,884 --> 00:53:44,554
Like deja vu?
630
00:53:59,034 --> 00:54:00,769
You're kidding me.
631
00:54:00,802 --> 00:54:03,572
Lou Barlow?
632
00:54:05,507 --> 00:54:08,377
My dad signed him to his
record label when I was a kid.
633
00:54:08,411 --> 00:54:10,713
-Shut up.
-I swear to god.
634
00:54:10,746 --> 00:54:12,282
My god.
635
00:54:14,617 --> 00:54:16,719
We used to listen
to his songs of doomed love
636
00:54:16,751 --> 00:54:19,389
and fractured self-worth.
637
00:54:19,422 --> 00:54:21,590
In a way, it prepared me
for everything.
638
00:54:22,757 --> 00:54:24,426
Even us.
639
00:54:30,065 --> 00:54:32,401
Hi, Eve, can you hold
for John, please?
640
00:54:32,434 --> 00:54:34,603
Okay, thanks.
641
00:54:46,449 --> 00:54:48,418
Hold on one second.
Sorry, Eve, hold on.
642
00:54:48,451 --> 00:54:50,753
Okay, yeah.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
643
00:54:50,786 --> 00:54:54,389
Hey, I got to run to a meeting here
in about one minute, but I just got
644
00:54:54,422 --> 00:54:56,358
some good news for you
that I wanted
645
00:54:56,391 --> 00:54:57,993
to pass on to you
as quick as I could.
646
00:54:58,027 --> 00:54:59,595
"Seattle road" just made
647
00:54:59,628 --> 00:55:03,533
the New York times'
e-books bestseller list.
648
00:55:03,565 --> 00:55:06,868
I think it's
at number 22 or number 23.
649
00:55:06,902 --> 00:55:09,038
You can get on the website
and check it out.
650
00:55:09,070 --> 00:55:10,773
That's a good thing.
Obviously, that's great.
651
00:55:10,806 --> 00:55:12,775
It means people are at least
starting to look at it.
652
00:55:12,807 --> 00:55:16,079
-Shut up!
-Before you ask about money,
653
00:55:16,112 --> 00:55:17,713
that doesn't mean
there's a lot of money,
654
00:55:17,746 --> 00:55:20,482
but it does mean that people are starting
to look at it. So there's potential there.
655
00:55:20,516 --> 00:55:21,951
I can't wait to tell Adam.
656
00:55:21,983 --> 00:55:23,619
Okay, I gotta run.
657
00:55:23,652 --> 00:55:24,820
I'll talk to you so...
658
00:55:46,775 --> 00:55:48,643
Well, what are
you trying to say?
659
00:55:48,677 --> 00:55:52,115
That technology has created
a throw-away culture
660
00:55:52,148 --> 00:55:56,652
where every day
is a prison of monotony.
661
00:55:56,684 --> 00:55:59,654
Everything in your life,
662
00:55:59,688 --> 00:56:01,523
every emotion
663
00:56:01,556 --> 00:56:04,493
from lust to anger,
664
00:56:04,527 --> 00:56:06,528
from sadness to joy
665
00:56:06,561 --> 00:56:09,865
has been felt by every
other person who's lived.
666
00:56:09,898 --> 00:56:13,402
This is
the tissue of things.
667
00:56:13,436 --> 00:56:15,071
-So, feelings?
-Well, yeah.
668
00:56:15,103 --> 00:56:17,072
Well, start from there.
Paint from your feelings.
669
00:56:17,106 --> 00:56:19,041
You don't understand
what I'm going for.
670
00:56:19,074 --> 00:56:21,510
You're right.
671
00:56:21,543 --> 00:56:23,011
I don't understand
this bitterness
672
00:56:23,045 --> 00:56:24,713
you've been harboring
towards me.
673
00:56:24,746 --> 00:56:26,548
You know,
ever since your book...
674
00:56:26,581 --> 00:56:28,683
Is that what
this is about?
675
00:56:28,717 --> 00:56:30,552
You know what?
676
00:56:30,585 --> 00:56:34,156
Please tell me what is so
original about your voice?
677
00:56:34,190 --> 00:56:36,025
Art is the process
of working through feelings
678
00:56:36,057 --> 00:56:37,826
we never knew we had.
679
00:56:37,860 --> 00:56:40,695
You don't work through
anything, Adam.
680
00:56:40,728 --> 00:56:43,565
-You took my story...
-It's fiction.
681
00:56:43,599 --> 00:56:44,867
And made it your own.
682
00:56:44,900 --> 00:56:46,702
I drew inspiration
from both of our lives.
683
00:56:46,735 --> 00:56:48,037
Why can't you
be happy for me?
684
00:56:48,070 --> 00:56:50,440
All right, you know what?
Fuck you.
685
00:56:56,811 --> 00:56:59,815
I'm... I'm scared.
686
00:57:01,750 --> 00:57:04,153
I'm scared of ridicule.
687
00:57:05,820 --> 00:57:09,525
Of being original, I...
688
00:57:12,494 --> 00:57:14,998
I feel like
I've been trying to...
689
00:57:16,831 --> 00:57:19,201
I don't know.
690
00:57:19,235 --> 00:57:21,838
Maybe I'm expecting
too much.
691
00:57:23,838 --> 00:57:25,674
This is so embarrassing.
692
00:57:28,943 --> 00:57:31,581
Is it weird if I told you
693
00:57:31,614 --> 00:57:35,217
that it's good
to see you feel pain?
694
00:57:35,251 --> 00:57:38,254
You're so unemotional
sometimes,
695
00:57:38,286 --> 00:57:40,155
almost like
you're a robot.
696
00:57:52,967 --> 00:57:55,137
Are you in love with him?
697
00:57:56,905 --> 00:57:58,206
Some days I am.
698
00:57:58,239 --> 00:57:59,808
Does he love you?
699
00:58:00,976 --> 00:58:02,644
Sometimes I think
he loves me
700
00:58:02,677 --> 00:58:04,145
more than I love him.
701
00:58:04,179 --> 00:58:05,847
Duh.
702
00:58:05,880 --> 00:58:07,716
What's that
supposed to mean?
703
00:58:10,152 --> 00:58:11,787
Look, I think it's great
you had someone
704
00:58:11,820 --> 00:58:13,722
to get you through
this time,
705
00:58:13,755 --> 00:58:16,558
but you're better than him.
706
00:58:16,592 --> 00:58:17,894
Do you really think
this is the guy
707
00:58:17,927 --> 00:58:19,629
you're gonna end up with?
708
00:58:22,130 --> 00:58:24,099
I've been with Alan
709
00:58:24,132 --> 00:58:28,270
for the 25 years of my life
that've really mattered.
710
00:58:28,304 --> 00:58:30,806
You know,
we're a lot alike.
711
00:58:30,838 --> 00:58:32,641
We have so much in common.
712
00:58:32,675 --> 00:58:36,646
We're from
the same background.
713
00:58:36,679 --> 00:58:38,213
It's important.
714
00:59:16,385 --> 00:59:18,854
Can you believe
that there are squatters
715
00:59:18,887 --> 00:59:20,690
living on your brother's
old orchard?
716
00:59:20,722 --> 00:59:22,025
Who'd want to live
in that dump?
717
00:59:23,726 --> 00:59:25,861
Hey, stop!
718
00:59:25,893 --> 00:59:27,262
What are you doing?
719
00:59:27,295 --> 00:59:30,599
Apparently,
Oliver sent over
720
00:59:30,632 --> 00:59:32,768
a real estate company
to put up a sign
721
00:59:32,800 --> 00:59:36,806
and this couple convinced him
that they own the place.
722
00:59:38,806 --> 00:59:40,175
You take down this sign,
723
00:59:40,208 --> 00:59:42,077
I'm fixing to call
the law, pretty boy.
724
00:59:42,110 --> 00:59:45,880
Aunt Patty,
does Jim still own
725
00:59:45,914 --> 00:59:47,350
his gallery is ashbury?
726
00:59:48,349 --> 00:59:50,318
Hey, if I were you,
727
00:59:50,351 --> 00:59:52,320
I'd get out of town,
leave the girl alone
728
00:59:52,353 --> 00:59:53,855
before you step
in some shit
729
00:59:53,889 --> 00:59:56,692
you won't be getting
off your boots.
730
00:59:56,724 --> 00:59:59,260
He does, and he just
opened another one
731
00:59:59,293 --> 01:00:01,163
in union square.
732
01:00:01,195 --> 01:00:03,331
I have some photos
of Adam's work.
733
01:00:03,364 --> 01:00:04,699
Do you think
we could talk to him
734
01:00:04,733 --> 01:00:06,235
about getting him a show?
735
01:00:09,672 --> 01:00:11,974
I don't know, Eve,
736
01:00:12,007 --> 01:00:13,976
Jimmy's pretty big time.
737
01:00:14,009 --> 01:00:15,344
I know.
738
01:00:18,947 --> 01:00:21,050
I guess.
739
01:00:31,460 --> 01:00:33,329
Yeah.
740
01:00:34,730 --> 01:00:36,065
So...
741
01:00:37,965 --> 01:00:40,036
What exactly
do you want from me?
742
01:00:40,068 --> 01:00:42,103
Well, we were hoping...
743
01:00:42,137 --> 01:00:43,673
No, I want her to tell me.
744
01:00:45,306 --> 01:00:48,276
Either it speaks to you
or it doesn't.
745
01:00:48,309 --> 01:00:50,078
I'm not asking for favors.
746
01:00:54,817 --> 01:00:57,385
I hear you're
a published author.
747
01:00:57,418 --> 01:01:01,089
New York times
best-selling author.
748
01:01:01,123 --> 01:01:03,893
It was only for one week,
but yeah.
749
01:01:04,893 --> 01:01:06,228
Anything worth reading?
750
01:01:07,896 --> 01:01:09,298
It's about a girl
who runs away
751
01:01:09,331 --> 01:01:11,333
from a commune
she was raised on
752
01:01:11,365 --> 01:01:13,735
and her ensuing struggles
with the meaning of existence
753
01:01:13,768 --> 01:01:15,770
while she tries to settle
into her new life.
754
01:01:15,804 --> 01:01:17,405
You'll have
to send me a copy.
755
01:01:17,438 --> 01:01:20,108
You can download it
on iTunes.
756
01:01:23,177 --> 01:01:25,313
Apple doesn't fall
far from the tree, does it?
757
01:01:25,347 --> 01:01:26,982
She's one of us,
for sure.
758
01:01:28,416 --> 01:01:32,320
Jim, I know you know art,
759
01:01:32,353 --> 01:01:34,155
but I have to know.
760
01:01:34,188 --> 01:01:37,492
What do you think
of the paintings?
761
01:01:37,525 --> 01:01:40,062
Quite the negotiator,
aren't you?
762
01:01:41,195 --> 01:01:43,065
Just like her dad.
763
01:01:44,233 --> 01:01:46,001
You know,
I took this meeting
764
01:01:46,034 --> 01:01:47,936
because I loved
your father.
765
01:01:50,271 --> 01:01:51,940
And your aunt Patty
was family
766
01:01:51,974 --> 01:01:54,910
-even when I hadn't heard.
-But?
767
01:01:54,943 --> 01:01:59,248
But I just don't do favors
768
01:01:59,280 --> 01:02:00,817
for struggling artists.
769
01:02:02,016 --> 01:02:03,418
Well, I understand.
770
01:02:03,452 --> 01:02:06,255
Which is why I'm not
doing it as a favor.
771
01:02:08,523 --> 01:02:10,025
I don't know if
he's fully realized yet,
772
01:02:10,057 --> 01:02:11,326
but it... it's not bad.
773
01:02:11,360 --> 01:02:13,162
So, let...
774
01:02:13,195 --> 01:02:16,065
Let's let me meet him
and we'll see what we have.
775
01:02:18,233 --> 01:02:22,371
And I'm gonna need more than
camera pictures next time.
776
01:02:22,403 --> 01:02:26,007
That's perfect. He's working
on a series as we speak.
777
01:04:27,195 --> 01:04:28,530
Sunday.
778
01:04:33,668 --> 01:04:36,204
Although once
I was lost...
779
01:04:41,677 --> 01:04:45,014
Now I'm found.
780
01:04:45,047 --> 01:04:48,650
Hello? Adam?
781
01:04:48,684 --> 01:04:50,553
Are you here?
782
01:05:01,228 --> 01:05:03,531
My youth.
783
01:05:03,565 --> 01:05:05,668
My ignorance.
784
01:05:05,701 --> 01:05:08,369
My inexperience.
785
01:05:08,402 --> 01:05:10,071
Now I know.
786
01:05:20,414 --> 01:05:22,418
And thus, I'm free.
787
01:05:23,719 --> 01:05:27,056
Pain will return,
as it must,
788
01:05:27,088 --> 01:05:29,592
but this time I know
how to put up a fight.
789
01:06:48,335 --> 01:06:50,672
What the hell
is your problem?
790
01:06:52,507 --> 01:06:54,677
I slept with someone.
791
01:08:34,275 --> 01:08:36,577
Keep 'em coming.
792
01:08:36,610 --> 01:08:38,146
Hey, where's
your girlfriend?
793
01:08:38,180 --> 01:08:40,682
You guys
are always together.
794
01:08:40,715 --> 01:08:41,917
She's dead.
795
01:08:41,949 --> 01:08:45,287
Okay.
So you're mourning.
796
01:08:45,319 --> 01:08:49,491
You know,
love can be inconvenient.
797
01:08:50,492 --> 01:08:52,327
You know what I mean?
798
01:08:52,359 --> 01:08:54,829
Well, depends
on how you look at it.
799
01:08:54,863 --> 01:08:57,798
Everything depends
on how you look at it.
800
01:08:57,832 --> 01:09:00,369
Hey, you said it, man.
801
01:09:03,305 --> 01:09:06,675
-What time you get off?
-Late.
802
01:09:06,707 --> 01:09:09,210
Well, I've got
all the time in the world.
803
01:09:09,243 --> 01:09:11,512
Let's make mistakes.
804
01:09:11,546 --> 01:09:13,215
Okay.
805
01:09:13,247 --> 01:09:16,384
Let's find god, whoever
the fuck he or she is.
806
01:09:19,487 --> 01:09:21,157
Next one's on me, Trish.
807
01:09:22,323 --> 01:09:24,826
Look who it is.
John Wayne.
808
01:09:26,661 --> 01:09:29,831
Told you,
trouble will find you.
809
01:09:29,863 --> 01:09:32,701
Well, what a Saint
you are deep inside.
810
01:09:34,603 --> 01:09:36,238
No, no, no.
811
01:09:36,270 --> 01:09:39,274
No, I'm the guy
who's deep inside your girl.
812
01:09:40,774 --> 01:09:41,911
Sunday.
813
01:09:43,677 --> 01:09:45,713
Once again
Monday morning.
814
01:09:45,747 --> 01:09:47,516
Excuse me?
815
01:09:47,548 --> 01:09:49,551
I'm the guy
who's fucking Eve.
816
01:09:49,583 --> 01:09:52,453
She told me how you were
this sad, broken waste.
817
01:09:52,487 --> 01:09:54,456
How you couldn't even
get it up enough
818
01:09:54,488 --> 01:09:56,791
-to fuck her sweet, sweet pussy...
-hey!
819
01:09:56,824 --> 01:09:58,493
How does that feel?
820
01:09:59,627 --> 01:10:00,929
-How does that feel?
-Stop.
821
01:10:00,962 --> 01:10:02,631
I don't feel anything.
822
01:10:03,965 --> 01:10:05,801
Fuckin' artsy faggot.
823
01:10:07,836 --> 01:10:09,003
What're you gonna do?
824
01:10:09,037 --> 01:10:12,240
Do something,
motherfucker.
825
01:10:24,551 --> 01:10:25,920
Look at the faggot now!
826
01:10:25,953 --> 01:10:27,889
Look at me!
827
01:10:33,994 --> 01:10:35,963
Scotty?
828
01:10:35,997 --> 01:10:38,500
No, no,
Scotty, it's me.
829
01:10:39,701 --> 01:10:41,869
Hey, baby bro,
how's it going?
830
01:10:42,936 --> 01:10:45,673
Yeah? Yeah.
831
01:10:47,341 --> 01:10:48,643
No.
832
01:10:48,676 --> 01:10:50,411
I'm in...
833
01:10:50,444 --> 01:10:53,014
I'm in San Luis obispo.
834
01:10:53,047 --> 01:10:55,016
No, it's o-bis-po.
835
01:10:55,050 --> 01:10:58,720
It's in California.
836
01:10:58,752 --> 01:11:00,554
What? No, yeah.
I'm fine.
837
01:11:00,587 --> 01:11:02,423
I'm fine, I just...
838
01:11:02,457 --> 01:11:04,026
I miss you, that's all.
839
01:11:06,927 --> 01:11:09,364
Yeah. How's mom?
840
01:11:11,432 --> 01:11:13,668
That's good.
841
01:11:13,702 --> 01:11:16,371
It's good to talk
to you, man.
842
01:11:16,404 --> 01:11:18,607
I missed you.
843
01:11:18,640 --> 01:11:20,075
Actually, man,
I gotta go.
844
01:11:20,108 --> 01:11:21,943
It was good
to talk to you.
845
01:11:21,975 --> 01:11:24,045
I'll talk
to you soon. Bye.
846
01:11:27,614 --> 01:11:30,652
To me, it's just sex.
847
01:11:30,685 --> 01:11:31,987
I mean,
I can sleep with them
848
01:11:32,020 --> 01:11:33,722
even if I don't
really like them.
849
01:11:35,055 --> 01:11:36,724
And it's nothing
that you did.
850
01:11:36,757 --> 01:11:40,461
I'm just...
I'm not sure about us.
851
01:11:40,494 --> 01:11:43,064
There is
no happiness in love.
852
01:11:43,097 --> 01:11:44,966
Love is unhappiness.
853
01:11:46,868 --> 01:11:50,405
This relationship is...
It's affecting you.
854
01:12:12,827 --> 01:12:14,529
My god.
855
01:12:14,561 --> 01:12:17,899
Adam! God,
what happened to you?
856
01:12:19,567 --> 01:12:20,935
The fuck do you care?
857
01:13:09,583 --> 01:13:12,554
I don't understand
why you didn't just tell me.
858
01:13:12,587 --> 01:13:14,890
I wanted to feel like
he gave me something.
859
01:13:14,922 --> 01:13:17,492
We could've worked
something out, right, Alan?
860
01:13:17,524 --> 01:13:19,860
-I mean...
-absolutely. Of course.
861
01:13:19,894 --> 01:13:22,164
You lied the whole time.
862
01:13:22,197 --> 01:13:25,033
-I'm sorry.
-Do you know how that feels?
863
01:13:26,701 --> 01:13:28,470
When you lose a parent,
864
01:13:28,502 --> 01:13:32,707
you feel like you're
standing beside his ghost.
865
01:13:34,708 --> 01:13:37,712
It sits over my shoulder,
talking to me.
866
01:13:39,213 --> 01:13:40,881
I just thought
that coming here
867
01:13:40,914 --> 01:13:42,917
would help me hear him
more clearly.
868
01:13:45,619 --> 01:13:47,989
I'm sorry.
869
01:13:49,823 --> 01:13:51,192
I didn't have faith in you.
870
01:13:53,194 --> 01:13:55,197
Or in me.
871
01:14:03,203 --> 01:14:06,707
Look, I want to
make it up to you.
872
01:14:06,740 --> 01:14:08,577
All of you.
873
01:14:08,609 --> 01:14:10,845
So let me buy the orchard.
874
01:14:10,878 --> 01:14:12,847
Adam and I can...
875
01:14:12,881 --> 01:14:16,051
You would help me
restore it, right?
876
01:14:16,083 --> 01:14:18,586
Honey, you don't have
that kind of money.
877
01:14:20,154 --> 01:14:22,157
Well...
878
01:14:23,690 --> 01:14:26,161
We could help
with the mortgage.
879
01:14:26,194 --> 01:14:29,498
But I'm warning you guys
right now,
880
01:14:29,530 --> 01:14:31,533
it's gonna be
a hell of a lot of work.
881
01:14:33,667 --> 01:14:36,003
Alan, I don't know.
882
01:14:44,011 --> 01:14:46,014
It's gonna take
the two of you.
883
01:14:59,694 --> 01:15:02,698
Eggs are getting cold.
884
01:15:41,868 --> 01:15:44,805
Monday.
885
01:15:44,838 --> 01:15:47,576
It can never be what it was,
886
01:15:47,609 --> 01:15:48,944
the ideal.
887
01:15:50,278 --> 01:15:53,248
But it can "be",
888
01:15:53,280 --> 01:15:56,184
and maybe that's better.
889
01:15:56,216 --> 01:15:58,652
I don't know why I love,
890
01:15:58,685 --> 01:16:01,055
specifically why I love him,
891
01:16:01,088 --> 01:16:02,724
that man...
892
01:16:04,057 --> 01:16:06,360
But I do,
893
01:16:06,394 --> 01:16:10,231
without reason,
without logic.
894
01:16:10,264 --> 01:16:13,101
Isn't that what it is
to be human?
895
01:16:13,134 --> 01:16:15,671
To be me with all the scars?
896
01:16:17,305 --> 01:16:19,908
And maybe it's been this way
897
01:16:19,940 --> 01:16:22,210
since the dawn of time,
898
01:16:22,243 --> 01:16:24,947
loving worlds different
than our own...
899
01:16:27,649 --> 01:16:30,218
Where we find
the grace of Patience
900
01:16:30,251 --> 01:16:34,155
and confidence of perspective.
901
01:16:35,989 --> 01:16:38,225
But, hey, who knows?
902
01:16:38,259 --> 01:16:39,927
That's only what I think.