1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:03,137 SCREAMING 2 00:00:03,161 --> 00:00:04,320 Women and children only! 3 00:00:07,320 --> 00:00:09,000 SCREAMING STOPS ECHOES 4 00:00:17,960 --> 00:00:20,256 Two men grabbed him. 5 00:00:20,280 --> 00:00:21,616 No! 6 00:00:21,640 --> 00:00:23,360 Officers were there with guns. 7 00:00:25,360 --> 00:00:27,320 He offered no resistance... 8 00:00:28,400 --> 00:00:30,856 ..and backed off back onto the ship. 9 00:00:30,880 --> 00:00:32,176 Antun! 10 00:00:32,200 --> 00:00:34,000 I began yelling and crying... 11 00:00:35,520 --> 00:00:37,976 {\an8}..as I wanted to join him on the sinking ship. 12 00:00:38,000 --> 00:00:39,976 Antun! 13 00:00:40,000 --> 00:00:41,016 Ahh! 14 00:00:41,040 --> 00:00:43,280 LOUD ECHOING BOOM 15 00:01:00,680 --> 00:01:02,816 They told me that apparently we'd struck something. 16 00:01:02,840 --> 00:01:04,357 BELL RINGS 17 00:01:04,381 --> 00:01:05,896 Iceberg dead ahead! 18 00:01:05,920 --> 00:01:08,256 LOUD BOOM ALARM BELL RINGS 19 00:01:08,280 --> 00:01:09,920 INDISTINCT SCREAMING 20 00:01:12,400 --> 00:01:14,736 I didn't become alarmed. 21 00:01:14,760 --> 00:01:17,080 There was no danger, they said. 22 00:01:21,200 --> 00:01:23,680 I told her to come at once, we were sinking. 23 00:01:27,440 --> 00:01:30,136 Can you imagine the chaos and the fear, and the terror 24 00:01:30,160 --> 00:01:31,976 of finding water in your cabin, 25 00:01:32,000 --> 00:01:33,816 and you're in the bowels of the ship? 26 00:01:33,840 --> 00:01:35,920 It makes me panic just thinking about it. 27 00:01:37,120 --> 00:01:41,376 The story of the Titanic is the human condition spread out, 28 00:01:41,400 --> 00:01:44,536 pinned on a board for us to examine. 29 00:01:44,560 --> 00:01:47,976 Then came the terrible cry, 30 00:01:48,000 --> 00:01:50,616 "Women and children, women and children!" 31 00:01:50,640 --> 00:01:51,736 Marjorie! 32 00:01:51,760 --> 00:01:54,416 Two men lifted me up and put me in a boat. 33 00:01:54,440 --> 00:01:56,016 Move it, move it! 34 00:01:56,040 --> 00:01:57,496 It's these small decisions, 35 00:01:57,520 --> 00:01:59,296 these little butterfly-effect moments 36 00:01:59,320 --> 00:02:00,880 that change the outcome. 37 00:02:04,440 --> 00:02:06,000 GUNSHOT ECHOES 38 00:02:14,800 --> 00:02:16,816 It really was every man for himself. 39 00:02:16,840 --> 00:02:19,336 SCREAMING LOUD CRASH 40 00:02:19,360 --> 00:02:20,760 My heart stood still. 41 00:02:28,560 --> 00:02:29,600 - ECHOING: - Everyone! 42 00:02:31,280 --> 00:02:32,437 SCREAMING 43 00:02:32,461 --> 00:02:33,616 Pull! 44 00:02:33,640 --> 00:02:34,856 If we're going to die... 45 00:02:34,880 --> 00:02:36,336 SCREAMING CONTINUES 46 00:02:36,360 --> 00:02:38,000 ..best to die gripping something. 47 00:02:40,360 --> 00:02:42,056 It's a split-second decision. 48 00:02:42,080 --> 00:02:43,800 What would you do? What would I do? 49 00:02:50,880 --> 00:02:52,096 It was a terrible sight... 50 00:02:52,120 --> 00:02:53,536 SCREAMING 51 00:02:53,560 --> 00:02:55,656 ..men swimming and sinking. 52 00:02:55,680 --> 00:02:57,240 MUFFLED SCREAMING 53 00:03:03,720 --> 00:03:09,000 I'd been brought up to believe in a Hell after death. 54 00:03:15,720 --> 00:03:18,160 But now, I think I went through a Hell that night. 55 00:03:33,080 --> 00:03:35,680 DISTANT SCREAMING 56 00:04:05,520 --> 00:04:08,320 SCREAMING 57 00:04:10,040 --> 00:04:13,680 INDISTINCT SHOUTING SCREAMING 58 00:04:14,680 --> 00:04:17,016 I was working in the engine room. 59 00:04:17,040 --> 00:04:19,240 We got the order... 60 00:04:22,000 --> 00:04:25,136 {\an8}The deck was full of male third-class passengers. 61 00:04:25,160 --> 00:04:27,336 LOUD CREAKING SCREAMING 62 00:04:27,360 --> 00:04:29,520 The last boat was getting lowered. 63 00:04:31,680 --> 00:04:34,416 {\an8}About this time, I met all the engineers 64 00:04:34,440 --> 00:04:37,240 {\an8}as they came trooping up from below. 65 00:04:38,680 --> 00:04:42,136 Until that time, they had loyally stuck to their guns. 66 00:04:42,160 --> 00:04:45,120 LOUD CREAKING 67 00:04:48,840 --> 00:04:51,016 {\an8}When the crew come up on deck, 68 00:04:51,040 --> 00:04:53,776 these guys, who have worked so heroically to try 69 00:04:53,800 --> 00:04:55,656 to keep Titanic afloat, 70 00:04:55,680 --> 00:05:00,776 they expect that there will be a place for them in the lifeboats. 71 00:05:00,800 --> 00:05:03,056 And, of course, that is not the case. 72 00:05:03,080 --> 00:05:05,376 SCREAMING 73 00:05:05,400 --> 00:05:09,136 British hierarchical society is always there 74 00:05:09,160 --> 00:05:10,800 to shaft the underdog. 75 00:05:12,240 --> 00:05:15,656 Those people who had risked their lives were not going to get 76 00:05:15,680 --> 00:05:17,200 any help at all. 77 00:05:18,920 --> 00:05:22,920 It was a bleak and hopeless spectacle that met their eyes. 78 00:05:24,400 --> 00:05:26,600 Empty fools hanging from every davit head. 79 00:05:28,920 --> 00:05:30,656 Not a hope for any of them. 80 00:05:30,680 --> 00:05:35,216 LOUD CREAKING ECHOES 81 00:05:35,240 --> 00:05:37,640 DISTANT SCREAMING 82 00:05:39,120 --> 00:05:41,056 Titanic has enough people on board 83 00:05:41,080 --> 00:05:45,176 that we're really seeing the whole range of reactions 84 00:05:45,200 --> 00:05:46,736 to facing death. 85 00:05:46,760 --> 00:05:49,976 From resignation, to fight and flight, 86 00:05:50,000 --> 00:05:53,080 to acting out of love and empathy to help other people. 87 00:05:54,840 --> 00:05:57,336 And at this point, some people choose to do things 88 00:05:57,360 --> 00:05:58,840 that may look quite strange. 89 00:06:00,400 --> 00:06:03,480 One fellow said, "Go to the first cabin bar room." 90 00:06:04,760 --> 00:06:09,256 There was a steward filling up tumblers on a tray. 91 00:06:09,280 --> 00:06:12,480 He said, "Go on, lads, drink up. 92 00:06:13,840 --> 00:06:15,160 "She's goin' down." 93 00:06:19,600 --> 00:06:23,736 Some people prefer to stay in their cabin and let the waters rise up. 94 00:06:23,760 --> 00:06:27,496 Others go to the bar and just start drinking the place dry. 95 00:06:27,520 --> 00:06:29,776 Everyone has to choose to die in their own way, 96 00:06:29,800 --> 00:06:30,840 whatever that is. 97 00:06:31,960 --> 00:06:34,536 I was for going down into one of the first class cabins, 98 00:06:34,560 --> 00:06:36,800 but me pal Matty wouldn't let me. 99 00:06:38,840 --> 00:06:40,400 Matty said to me... 100 00:06:42,160 --> 00:06:43,680 .. "We'll have to jump for it." 101 00:06:47,840 --> 00:06:51,016 SCREAMING 102 00:06:51,040 --> 00:06:53,136 It makes me panic, just thinking about it, 103 00:06:53,160 --> 00:06:55,400 because I can imagine the chaos and the fear. 104 00:06:59,040 --> 00:07:00,576 It's not fair, you know, 105 00:07:00,600 --> 00:07:03,656 when passengers embarked on this ship, 106 00:07:03,680 --> 00:07:05,616 they were told it was unsinkable. 107 00:07:05,640 --> 00:07:08,616 {\an8}They probably didn't pay much mind to how many lifeboats there were, 108 00:07:08,640 --> 00:07:11,736 {\an8}but now that it is of the most crucial importance to them, 109 00:07:11,760 --> 00:07:13,760 they see that they've been failed. 110 00:07:19,400 --> 00:07:23,496 Captain Smith and Thomas Andrews, the ship's designer, 111 00:07:23,520 --> 00:07:25,776 must have been in hell. 112 00:07:25,800 --> 00:07:28,960 This was their unsinkable ship. 113 00:07:30,280 --> 00:07:33,136 Thomas Andrews was trying to do something, 114 00:07:33,160 --> 00:07:37,376 because he is the architect of this disaster. 115 00:07:37,400 --> 00:07:40,296 SHOUTING 116 00:07:40,320 --> 00:07:43,256 Andrews was seen throwing steamer chairs into the water, 117 00:07:43,280 --> 00:07:47,576 {\an8}with the idea of actually helping those who got into the sea 118 00:07:47,600 --> 00:07:49,360 to have something to support them. 119 00:07:53,320 --> 00:07:56,720 It's very difficult to know what the Captain's final moments were. 120 00:07:58,240 --> 00:08:00,456 During the Falklands War, I was a Captain. 121 00:08:00,480 --> 00:08:03,336 The ship that was bombed, I had to abandon - 122 00:08:03,360 --> 00:08:05,856 and so, I know the pressures he was under, 123 00:08:05,880 --> 00:08:09,456 and I personally think that he probably stayed on the bridge 124 00:08:09,480 --> 00:08:12,496 and waited to meet his fate. 125 00:08:12,520 --> 00:08:15,576 But I think he would have been feeling to himself that 126 00:08:15,600 --> 00:08:18,136 he'd failed in this last great appointment of his. 127 00:08:18,160 --> 00:08:20,720 SCREAMING 128 00:08:21,800 --> 00:08:24,656 There's something of the stiff upper lip happening here, 129 00:08:24,680 --> 00:08:27,016 but inside, there must be inner turmoil. 130 00:08:27,040 --> 00:08:30,136 Because survival instinct is really powerful, 131 00:08:30,160 --> 00:08:34,176 and the captain is probably suppressing it as much as he can. 132 00:08:34,200 --> 00:08:36,496 The social codes of conduct fighting against 133 00:08:36,520 --> 00:08:38,296 that very ancient part of the brain, 134 00:08:38,320 --> 00:08:42,440 the primitive part that just drives us forward biologically. 135 00:08:44,200 --> 00:08:46,736 People just have that will to survive. 136 00:08:46,760 --> 00:08:47,976 We've got to do something! 137 00:08:48,000 --> 00:08:50,576 The adrenaline system is working overtime, 138 00:08:50,600 --> 00:08:52,600 and they've almost got nothing to lose. 139 00:08:54,080 --> 00:08:56,336 I wanted to jump out and try to catch one of 140 00:08:56,360 --> 00:08:58,400 the empty lifeboat falls. 141 00:09:01,720 --> 00:09:04,696 Jack Thayer has been on a dream holiday in Europe 142 00:09:04,720 --> 00:09:05,920 with his parents. 143 00:09:07,800 --> 00:09:09,656 They've got separated in the crowds, 144 00:09:09,680 --> 00:09:13,136 and now, that dream has become a nightmare. 145 00:09:13,160 --> 00:09:14,896 I couldn't just jump. 146 00:09:14,920 --> 00:09:17,456 {\an8}We might hit wreckage or a steamer chair 147 00:09:17,480 --> 00:09:19,696 {\an8}and be knocked unconscious. 148 00:09:19,720 --> 00:09:20,840 Milton dissuaded me. 149 00:09:22,360 --> 00:09:25,896 Milton Long, 29-year-old American law clerk, and Jack 150 00:09:25,920 --> 00:09:30,056 had struck up a conversation many hours earlier in the dining saloon. 151 00:09:30,080 --> 00:09:34,280 And now, they find themselves facing this life-or-death moment together. 152 00:09:36,200 --> 00:09:38,680 So many thoughts passed through my mind. 153 00:09:40,240 --> 00:09:42,440 The thought of all the good times I'd had... 154 00:09:44,080 --> 00:09:47,320 ..all the future pleasures I'd never enjoy. 155 00:09:51,080 --> 00:09:52,520 My father... 156 00:09:54,320 --> 00:09:55,520 ..my mother. 157 00:09:57,280 --> 00:10:01,080 I was watching myself as though from some far off place. 158 00:10:04,080 --> 00:10:05,840 Sincerely pitied myself. 159 00:10:07,880 --> 00:10:12,720 SHOUTING AND SCREAMING 160 00:10:14,600 --> 00:10:15,960 SCREAMING STOPS 161 00:10:22,760 --> 00:10:24,296 Back in the wireless room, 162 00:10:24,320 --> 00:10:27,416 Jack Phillips has stuck to his post right to the end, 163 00:10:27,440 --> 00:10:30,896 even when Captain Smith said it's every man for himself, 164 00:10:30,920 --> 00:10:33,536 because he believes he's doing something useful. 165 00:10:33,560 --> 00:10:36,416 He's spent the last few hours trying to communicate 166 00:10:36,440 --> 00:10:38,696 with other wireless operators, 167 00:10:38,720 --> 00:10:41,616 oblivious to everything going on around him. 168 00:10:41,640 --> 00:10:45,176 And his junior, Harold Bride, is deeply loyal to 169 00:10:45,200 --> 00:10:48,080 and respectful of Jack Phillips. 170 00:10:49,200 --> 00:10:52,736 The sea has almost reached the wireless room, 171 00:10:52,760 --> 00:10:57,416 and they have just minutes before it's filled with freezing water. 172 00:10:57,440 --> 00:11:01,016 I was back in my room, getting Phillips's money for him. 173 00:11:01,040 --> 00:11:03,256 And, as I looked out the door, 174 00:11:03,280 --> 00:11:07,280 I saw a stoker or somebody from below decks... 175 00:11:11,200 --> 00:11:14,096 I remembered in a flash the way Phillips had clung on, 176 00:11:14,120 --> 00:11:16,216 how I'd had to fix that life belt in place 177 00:11:16,240 --> 00:11:17,840 because he was too busy to do it. 178 00:11:19,720 --> 00:11:21,776 And I felt a passion not to let that man die 179 00:11:21,800 --> 00:11:23,080 a decent sailor's death. 180 00:11:31,280 --> 00:11:32,600 I did my duty. 181 00:11:39,000 --> 00:11:42,096 I hope I finished him, I don't know. 182 00:11:42,120 --> 00:11:45,376 We left him on the floor of the wireless cabin. 183 00:11:45,400 --> 00:11:46,840 He wasn't moving. 184 00:11:48,120 --> 00:11:51,280 SCREAMING AND SHOUTING 185 00:11:52,800 --> 00:11:56,576 I climbed on top of the officer's quarters... 186 00:11:56,600 --> 00:11:58,440 ..and I saw the last of Phillips. 187 00:12:00,080 --> 00:12:03,416 Jack Phillips is absolutely overwhelmed by 188 00:12:03,440 --> 00:12:06,360 the impossibility of this situation. 189 00:12:07,840 --> 00:12:11,520 He... disappeared walking aft. 190 00:12:13,960 --> 00:12:16,856 He doesn't say goodbye, he doesn't give any explanation, 191 00:12:16,880 --> 00:12:18,936 there's no clap on the back to his junior. 192 00:12:18,960 --> 00:12:21,296 He's done everything. There is nothing more to do. 193 00:12:21,320 --> 00:12:23,096 The man is ready to die. 194 00:12:23,120 --> 00:12:25,680 LOUD CREAKING SCREAMING CONTINUES 195 00:12:36,600 --> 00:12:39,496 At this stage, all the lifeboats on the boat deck have been launched. 196 00:12:39,520 --> 00:12:42,976 And, of course, there's a panic that there are no lifeboats left. 197 00:12:43,000 --> 00:12:46,296 But there is actually two more stashed away on the roof 198 00:12:46,320 --> 00:12:49,520 of the officer's quarters, Collapsible A and B. 199 00:13:01,000 --> 00:13:04,056 I saw the boat and the men trying to push it off. 200 00:13:04,080 --> 00:13:05,320 They couldn't do it. 201 00:13:06,720 --> 00:13:09,000 I went up to them, lending a hand. 202 00:13:11,760 --> 00:13:15,056 The collapsible lifeboats were very much a secondary option 203 00:13:15,080 --> 00:13:17,880 which would need to be rigged so that they could be used. 204 00:13:20,680 --> 00:13:24,936 Now, the crew are trying to launch them in increasingly difficult 205 00:13:24,960 --> 00:13:26,496 and desperate conditions. 206 00:13:26,520 --> 00:13:29,856 SCREAMING 207 00:13:29,880 --> 00:13:33,000 Just then, the ship took a slight, but definite plunge. 208 00:13:35,720 --> 00:13:38,760 The sea came rolling up in a wave. 209 00:13:40,120 --> 00:13:43,720 - JJ CHALMERS: - And a large wave washes Collapsible A and B overboard. 210 00:13:44,960 --> 00:13:47,896 You've just been given that hope, but, in amongst the chaos, 211 00:13:47,920 --> 00:13:51,176 the lifeboats are stolen from you by the elements. 212 00:13:51,200 --> 00:13:53,360 And that is just devastating. 213 00:13:55,160 --> 00:13:56,880 The big wave carried the boat off. 214 00:13:58,960 --> 00:14:01,856 I had hold of an oar lock and went off with it. 215 00:14:01,880 --> 00:14:05,616 SCREAMING ECHOES 216 00:14:05,640 --> 00:14:09,256 Water was washing right across the deck, 217 00:14:09,280 --> 00:14:12,000 {\an8}and we were in water right to our hips. 218 00:14:13,440 --> 00:14:17,016 Another lurch threw myself off and away from the ship 219 00:14:17,040 --> 00:14:18,360 into the water. 220 00:14:20,640 --> 00:14:22,720 I fell into a mass of people. 221 00:14:23,920 --> 00:14:27,416 WOMAN SCREAMS 222 00:14:27,440 --> 00:14:30,256 I was under water and knew I had to fight for it. 223 00:14:30,280 --> 00:14:33,576 MUFFLED SCREAMING 224 00:14:33,600 --> 00:14:36,656 The temperature in the water is minus two degrees, 225 00:14:36,680 --> 00:14:39,416 so, as soon as that cold water hits the body, 226 00:14:39,440 --> 00:14:41,056 there's a shock reaction. 227 00:14:41,080 --> 00:14:44,120 And the mind is reacting in a state of panic. 228 00:14:46,760 --> 00:14:50,680 Everything I touched seemed to be women's hair. 229 00:14:52,360 --> 00:14:54,816 Children crying... 230 00:14:54,840 --> 00:14:56,277 MUFFLED SCREAMING 231 00:14:56,301 --> 00:14:57,760 ..women screaming. 232 00:14:59,240 --> 00:15:01,616 Their hair in my face. 233 00:15:01,640 --> 00:15:04,576 PANICKED GASPING SCREAMING 234 00:15:04,600 --> 00:15:08,600 If only I could forget those hands and faces that I touched. 235 00:15:19,960 --> 00:15:23,216 The ship was sinking on its head very quickly. 236 00:15:23,240 --> 00:15:25,080 The water was right up to the bridge. 237 00:15:26,600 --> 00:15:28,576 The crowd moved with it... 238 00:15:28,600 --> 00:15:30,096 ..pushing towards the stern. 239 00:15:30,120 --> 00:15:32,096 LOUD CRASHING SCREAMING 240 00:15:32,120 --> 00:15:34,080 A sight that doesn't bear dwelling on. 241 00:15:36,280 --> 00:15:38,976 To stand there above the wheel house... 242 00:15:39,000 --> 00:15:43,096 ..watching the frantic struggles to climb up the sloping deck, 243 00:15:43,120 --> 00:15:47,240 unable to even... hold out a helping hand. 244 00:15:50,400 --> 00:15:55,336 We were a mass of hopeless, dazed humanity... 245 00:15:55,360 --> 00:15:57,656 ..trying to keep our final breath 246 00:15:57,680 --> 00:15:59,320 until the last possible moment. 247 00:16:01,360 --> 00:16:05,440 I knew the futility of following that instinct for self-preservation. 248 00:16:07,600 --> 00:16:10,336 It would only be postponing the plunge and... 249 00:16:10,360 --> 00:16:12,120 ..prolonging the agony. 250 00:16:15,200 --> 00:16:17,920 Turning to the bridge, I took a header. 251 00:16:23,800 --> 00:16:26,936 Striking water was like a thousand knives 252 00:16:26,960 --> 00:16:28,480 being driven into one's body. 253 00:16:29,840 --> 00:16:33,360 For a few moments, I completely lost grip of myself. 254 00:16:38,400 --> 00:16:40,736 We were at the starboard rail 255 00:16:40,760 --> 00:16:43,416 to keep away from the crowd. 256 00:16:43,440 --> 00:16:47,136 The ship began to shoot down fast, 257 00:16:47,160 --> 00:16:49,696 the water rushing up towards us. 258 00:16:49,720 --> 00:16:52,576 We had no time to think, only to act. 259 00:16:52,600 --> 00:16:54,016 - ECHOING: - Good luck. 260 00:16:54,040 --> 00:16:55,400 We wished each other luck. 261 00:16:59,000 --> 00:17:00,600 And we jumped up on the rail. 262 00:17:02,960 --> 00:17:06,736 Milton looked up at me, and he said... 263 00:17:06,760 --> 00:17:10,256 - .. "You're coming, boy, aren't you?" - You're coming, boy, aren't you? 264 00:17:10,280 --> 00:17:14,000 DISTANT SCREAMING 265 00:17:17,280 --> 00:17:20,280 And I said, "Go ahead. 266 00:17:21,960 --> 00:17:23,480 "I'll be with you in a minute." 267 00:17:24,880 --> 00:17:26,320 Then he let go. 268 00:17:34,040 --> 00:17:37,576 The people who choose to jump are ultimately the people 269 00:17:37,600 --> 00:17:40,136 who take some form of control 270 00:17:40,160 --> 00:17:42,440 in a situation where you are powerless. 271 00:17:58,440 --> 00:18:02,760 We were about five minutes away from the ship. 272 00:18:05,000 --> 00:18:07,800 {\an8}But we could still see it as the lights stayed on. 273 00:18:10,720 --> 00:18:13,736 The ship stood almost on its nose, 274 00:18:13,760 --> 00:18:15,200 slowly sinking. 275 00:18:16,800 --> 00:18:23,000 The people on the Titanic were yelling and crying. 276 00:18:24,760 --> 00:18:27,760 I could see some of them as they jumped into the water. 277 00:18:30,640 --> 00:18:33,096 SCREAMING METAL CREAKING 278 00:18:33,120 --> 00:18:34,520 SCREAMING STOPS 279 00:18:42,360 --> 00:18:47,720 I found myself drawn against the grating covering a ventilator. 280 00:18:49,920 --> 00:18:53,776 The pressure of the water glued me there. 281 00:18:53,800 --> 00:18:57,296 The shaft led to a stokehold, 282 00:18:57,320 --> 00:19:00,520 a sheer drop of 100 feet right to the bottom of the ship. 283 00:19:02,000 --> 00:19:04,880 I struggled and kicked for all I was worth. 284 00:19:06,400 --> 00:19:07,920 It was impossible to get away. 285 00:19:09,640 --> 00:19:13,400 As fast as I pushed myself off, I was dragged back. 286 00:19:14,840 --> 00:19:17,280 Every instinct expecting the wire to go... 287 00:19:19,040 --> 00:19:21,736 ..to find myself shot down into the bowels of the ship. 288 00:19:21,760 --> 00:19:24,680 MUFFLED GRUNTING 289 00:19:28,040 --> 00:19:30,800 The shock of the water took the breath from my lungs. 290 00:19:31,920 --> 00:19:34,176 Down and down I went, 291 00:19:34,200 --> 00:19:36,496 spinning in all directions. 292 00:19:36,520 --> 00:19:38,200 The cold was terrific. 293 00:19:39,880 --> 00:19:42,976 Most people think of drowning in a circumstance like this, 294 00:19:43,000 --> 00:19:45,736 it is that ultimately, your body runs out of energy. 295 00:19:45,760 --> 00:19:49,896 But actually, you can drown as soon as you first hit freezing water. 296 00:19:49,920 --> 00:19:52,656 There's something called cold-water shock. 297 00:19:52,680 --> 00:19:55,456 And part of the reaction is to have a big intake of breath, 298 00:19:55,480 --> 00:19:57,176 and that prepares you for action. 299 00:19:57,200 --> 00:20:00,856 In the case of hitting cold water, it's not in your favour 300 00:20:00,880 --> 00:20:03,256 to have a sharp intake of breath. 301 00:20:03,280 --> 00:20:06,496 Some may have cardiac arrest almost immediately 302 00:20:06,520 --> 00:20:07,920 because of the shock. 303 00:20:10,120 --> 00:20:14,736 I was still fighting when a blast of hot air came up the shaft 304 00:20:14,760 --> 00:20:16,736 and blew me right away from the airshaft 305 00:20:16,760 --> 00:20:18,040 and up to the surface. 306 00:20:19,520 --> 00:20:23,200 SCREAMING 307 00:20:26,520 --> 00:20:30,640 Finally, I came up, my lungs bursting. 308 00:20:32,560 --> 00:20:34,976 The ship was in front of me. 309 00:20:35,000 --> 00:20:38,296 {\an8}Suddenly, the second funnel seemed to be lifted off. 310 00:20:38,320 --> 00:20:41,656 {\an8}LOUD METAL CREAKING 311 00:20:41,680 --> 00:20:44,800 {\an8}The funnel started to fall right amongst the... 312 00:20:46,160 --> 00:20:48,840 ..struggling mass of humanity already in the water. 313 00:20:50,880 --> 00:20:54,176 It missed me by only 20 to 30 feet. 314 00:20:54,200 --> 00:20:55,720 The suction of it drew me down. 315 00:20:58,480 --> 00:21:03,000 Those poor people were sucked down in those funnels... 316 00:21:05,560 --> 00:21:07,360 ..like flies. 317 00:21:09,640 --> 00:21:13,936 As I came to the surface, my hand came against something. 318 00:21:13,960 --> 00:21:15,936 One of the collapsible lifeboats. 319 00:21:15,960 --> 00:21:18,640 It was floating in the water, bottom side up. 320 00:21:20,160 --> 00:21:23,656 About four or five men clinging onto her, 321 00:21:23,680 --> 00:21:26,520 so I asked them to give me a hand up, which they did. 322 00:21:28,040 --> 00:21:32,096 Sitting on my haunches, holding on for dear life, 323 00:21:32,120 --> 00:21:35,040 it seemed as though hours had passed since I left the ship. 324 00:21:37,800 --> 00:21:41,056 People like Jack and Officer Lightoller are swarming 325 00:21:41,080 --> 00:21:43,416 onto Collapsible B upside down, 326 00:21:43,440 --> 00:21:46,576 using it like a raft in the freezing water 327 00:21:46,600 --> 00:21:49,080 just as a way of trying to survive. 328 00:22:02,000 --> 00:22:04,760 The end was very close. 329 00:22:06,760 --> 00:22:10,536 Something in the bowels of the Titanic exploded, 330 00:22:10,560 --> 00:22:13,936 and sparks shot up to the sky. 331 00:22:13,960 --> 00:22:18,096 Two other explosions followed, dull and heavy, 332 00:22:18,120 --> 00:22:19,776 as if below the surface. 333 00:22:19,800 --> 00:22:22,176 MUFFLED EXPLOSION 334 00:22:22,200 --> 00:22:25,896 The impact was so great, it shook the waters... 335 00:22:25,920 --> 00:22:28,280 ..and we thought our lifeboat would sink. 336 00:22:29,840 --> 00:22:31,320 Everyone screamed. 337 00:22:33,480 --> 00:22:37,336 The huge weight of sea water in the bows and in the stern 338 00:22:37,360 --> 00:22:41,696 meant that the two things were unable to remain as one part. 339 00:22:41,720 --> 00:22:45,280 The whole superstructure of the ship seemed to split. 340 00:22:46,320 --> 00:22:48,576 The lights suddenly go out, 341 00:22:48,600 --> 00:22:50,616 and then, darkness falls. 342 00:22:50,640 --> 00:22:52,160 DISTANT SCREAMING 343 00:23:01,040 --> 00:23:04,456 The Titanic broke in two before my eyes. 344 00:23:04,480 --> 00:23:06,776 The fore part wallowed over 345 00:23:06,800 --> 00:23:08,280 and disappeared instantly. 346 00:23:10,280 --> 00:23:13,320 The ship seemed to right herself... 347 00:23:14,520 --> 00:23:17,240 {\an8}..like a hurt animal with a broken back. 348 00:23:20,640 --> 00:23:23,656 For a strange hallucinatory moment, 349 00:23:23,680 --> 00:23:26,576 it looks as though everything is going to be fine, 350 00:23:26,600 --> 00:23:32,296 because the weird, wonky, distorted angles of the great ship 351 00:23:32,320 --> 00:23:34,736 start to settle. 352 00:23:34,760 --> 00:23:37,536 There's people that think that some sort of safety feature 353 00:23:37,560 --> 00:23:40,576 has kicked in, you know, at least this half of the ship is going to 354 00:23:40,600 --> 00:23:44,256 somehow survive, and those on board are going to be spared. 355 00:23:44,280 --> 00:23:46,240 But ultimately, that is short-lived. 356 00:23:48,960 --> 00:23:51,120 {\an8}I saw the Titanic go up in the air... 357 00:23:52,280 --> 00:23:53,760 {\an8}..ever so big. 358 00:23:55,800 --> 00:23:58,400 Huge ship reared herself on end. 359 00:23:59,840 --> 00:24:02,856 Rudder and propeller clear of the water... 360 00:24:02,880 --> 00:24:07,040 ..until at last, she assumed a perpendicular position. 361 00:24:09,920 --> 00:24:13,296 We saw groups of the 1,500 people still aboard 362 00:24:13,320 --> 00:24:16,320 clinging like swarming bees. 363 00:24:19,240 --> 00:24:23,256 The contents of the Titanic is now falling through it, 364 00:24:23,280 --> 00:24:26,376 and tragically, people, as well. 365 00:24:26,400 --> 00:24:28,936 I think it was only at that moment that 366 00:24:28,960 --> 00:24:31,776 {\an8}many of those poor souls onboard 367 00:24:31,800 --> 00:24:33,280 {\an8}realised their fate. 368 00:24:34,680 --> 00:24:36,816 "If we're going to die," I said, 369 00:24:36,840 --> 00:24:39,160 "it would be best to die gripping something". 370 00:24:41,160 --> 00:24:42,496 We gripped the rail. 371 00:24:42,520 --> 00:24:46,040 LOUD CRASHING SCREAMING 372 00:24:50,920 --> 00:24:53,816 DISTANT SCREAMING 373 00:24:53,840 --> 00:24:56,520 A sharp exclamation from my husband. 374 00:24:57,960 --> 00:25:00,880 "My God, she is going now." 375 00:25:03,200 --> 00:25:05,680 {\an8}The steamer, without a sound... 376 00:25:07,360 --> 00:25:11,320 {\an8}..except for the shrieks of the people still onboard... 377 00:25:13,320 --> 00:25:14,936 ..stood right on end. 378 00:25:14,960 --> 00:25:16,920 SCREAMING ECHOES 379 00:25:18,880 --> 00:25:21,056 It stood there several moments, 380 00:25:21,080 --> 00:25:24,320 and slipped straight down into the water. 381 00:25:27,800 --> 00:25:29,720 As easily as a pebble in a pond. 382 00:25:32,720 --> 00:25:34,440 Our proud ship. 383 00:25:35,760 --> 00:25:39,016 Our beautiful Titanic. 384 00:25:39,040 --> 00:25:42,600 DISTANT SCREAMING CONTINUES 385 00:26:04,120 --> 00:26:06,216 {\an8}DISTANT AGONISED SCREAMS 386 00:26:06,240 --> 00:26:08,816 {\an8}Everyone round me on the upturned boat 387 00:26:08,840 --> 00:26:10,200 breathed the two words... 388 00:26:11,640 --> 00:26:12,840 .. "She's gone." 389 00:26:20,920 --> 00:26:23,000 I did not wish to see her go down. 390 00:26:25,080 --> 00:26:26,520 {\an8}I'm glad that I did not. 391 00:26:29,000 --> 00:26:31,320 My back was turned to her. 392 00:26:33,720 --> 00:26:34,960 We were pulling away. 393 00:26:37,080 --> 00:26:39,976 This is his ship, this is his company, 394 00:26:40,000 --> 00:26:45,376 and there is intense professional and personal shame here. 395 00:26:45,400 --> 00:26:48,976 I think that was just too overwhelming for him 396 00:26:49,000 --> 00:26:50,320 to be able to look. 397 00:26:54,160 --> 00:26:58,320 Probably a minute passed with almost dead silence and quiet. 398 00:27:03,200 --> 00:27:06,656 Then, an unforgettable cry went up 399 00:27:06,680 --> 00:27:10,880 from 1,500 despairing throats. 400 00:27:14,200 --> 00:27:16,816 A bedlam of shrieks and cries. 401 00:27:16,840 --> 00:27:19,256 AGONISED SCREAMING ECHOES 402 00:27:19,280 --> 00:27:22,640 A nightmare... of both sight and sound. 403 00:27:25,640 --> 00:27:29,936 Hearing desperate, disembodied voices in the darkness 404 00:27:29,960 --> 00:27:31,256 of the ocean... 405 00:27:31,280 --> 00:27:33,456 SCATTERED SHOUTING 406 00:27:33,480 --> 00:27:38,000 ..a cacophony of tears and shouts, and despair... 407 00:27:39,160 --> 00:27:41,856 ..is almost like a soundscape of hell. 408 00:27:41,880 --> 00:27:45,816 Potentially it's your husband, your brother, your father, 409 00:27:45,840 --> 00:27:47,896 your loved ones' voices. 410 00:27:47,920 --> 00:27:49,880 I don't know how you recover from that. 411 00:27:51,320 --> 00:27:52,840 I have never... 412 00:27:54,560 --> 00:27:56,440 ..heard such screams... 413 00:27:58,760 --> 00:28:04,520 ..from the hundreds of people floating about us. 414 00:28:10,200 --> 00:28:11,920 They were piercing. 415 00:28:28,400 --> 00:28:29,776 It was a horrible row. 416 00:28:29,800 --> 00:28:32,800 SCREAMING 417 00:28:35,000 --> 00:28:38,256 One young man near me shouted... 418 00:28:38,280 --> 00:28:41,040 - .. "Mother"! - Mother! Oh, mother! 419 00:28:42,560 --> 00:28:47,160 A man alongside me crushed me round the neck. 420 00:28:50,320 --> 00:28:51,640 I chucked him off. 421 00:28:55,360 --> 00:28:58,336 Nobody knows how they'll react in that circumstance. 422 00:28:58,360 --> 00:29:01,536 You're surrounded by others in a panic with you. 423 00:29:01,560 --> 00:29:04,016 You begin to lose the function of your arms 424 00:29:04,040 --> 00:29:05,456 and the function of your legs, 425 00:29:05,480 --> 00:29:07,336 the thing that you need to keep afloat. 426 00:29:07,360 --> 00:29:09,856 And that can happen extremely quickly, 427 00:29:09,880 --> 00:29:13,816 because that body's reaction - to keep your vital organs warm - 428 00:29:13,840 --> 00:29:16,496 is so powerful, and it's painful. 429 00:29:16,520 --> 00:29:19,400 Like, you are being tortured, essentially. 430 00:29:23,040 --> 00:29:26,976 The people in the lifeboats are sitting and listening 431 00:29:27,000 --> 00:29:29,176 to others die. 432 00:29:29,200 --> 00:29:32,656 And everyone's response to that trauma situation 433 00:29:32,680 --> 00:29:34,000 will be different. 434 00:29:36,920 --> 00:29:39,616 We chatted of little unimportant things, 435 00:29:39,640 --> 00:29:42,880 as people do when they've been through great mental strain. 436 00:29:44,640 --> 00:29:46,160 Try to make feeble jokes. 437 00:29:47,960 --> 00:29:51,536 I remember I teased Ms Fragatelli, 438 00:29:51,560 --> 00:29:55,776 "Just fancy, you left your beautiful nightdress behind you." 439 00:29:55,800 --> 00:29:57,520 SCATTERED CHUCKLES 440 00:29:58,840 --> 00:30:00,496 And we all laughed. 441 00:30:00,520 --> 00:30:03,096 DISTANT SCREAMING 442 00:30:03,120 --> 00:30:05,880 But in our hearts, we felt very far from laughter. 443 00:30:09,320 --> 00:30:11,736 "Never you mind, madam. 444 00:30:11,760 --> 00:30:14,256 "You were lucky to come away with your lives", 445 00:30:14,280 --> 00:30:16,696 said one of the sailors. 446 00:30:16,720 --> 00:30:20,400 "Don't you bother about anything you had to leave behind you." 447 00:30:23,720 --> 00:30:26,856 Lucy's comments sound tone-deaf to us, 448 00:30:26,880 --> 00:30:29,656 but I think they're a trauma response. 449 00:30:29,680 --> 00:30:33,336 It is far easier to comprehend 450 00:30:33,360 --> 00:30:36,896 the loss of a beautiful piece of clothing - 451 00:30:36,920 --> 00:30:39,496 she's a fashion designer, of course - 452 00:30:39,520 --> 00:30:46,136 than it is to wrap their heads around the extraordinary horror 453 00:30:46,160 --> 00:30:49,080 of the loss of human life that they're seeing before them. 454 00:30:51,960 --> 00:30:56,216 For those in the water, a fatal countdown has begun. 455 00:30:56,240 --> 00:30:58,976 Once severe hypothermia sets in, 456 00:30:59,000 --> 00:31:03,240 you've got about 15 minutes until you'll become unconscious. 457 00:31:04,560 --> 00:31:06,296 When I was wounded in Afghanistan, 458 00:31:06,320 --> 00:31:09,080 I knew that that helicopter was coming. 459 00:31:11,120 --> 00:31:14,136 But if you don't know that a rescue is imminent, 460 00:31:14,160 --> 00:31:17,536 how long are you capable of holding on for? 461 00:31:17,560 --> 00:31:20,616 A large number of people gave up the struggle 462 00:31:20,640 --> 00:31:22,616 and were content to die, 463 00:31:22,640 --> 00:31:26,736 for the water was... so cold, 464 00:31:26,760 --> 00:31:28,920 and there seemed no hope of rescue. 465 00:31:30,600 --> 00:31:32,776 When the darkness starts to creep in on you, 466 00:31:32,800 --> 00:31:35,336 that's when you have to have a real word with yourself 467 00:31:35,360 --> 00:31:38,256 and remind yourself that you still have some fight in you. 468 00:31:38,280 --> 00:31:42,240 PANICKED SCREAMING LABOURED BREATHING 469 00:31:44,160 --> 00:31:45,920 I swam as though I was in a race. 470 00:31:47,280 --> 00:31:49,960 I got myself away from the crowd. 471 00:31:50,960 --> 00:31:54,640 Behind me, there was the horrible volume of groans which... 472 00:31:56,160 --> 00:31:58,736 SCREAMING ECHOES 473 00:31:58,760 --> 00:32:00,000 ..I can hear them now. 474 00:32:03,800 --> 00:32:08,296 I came up to my chum, John Bannon, and I said, 475 00:32:08,320 --> 00:32:10,656 "Cheerio, Johnny". 476 00:32:10,680 --> 00:32:11,960 And he said... 477 00:32:13,520 --> 00:32:15,080 .. "I'm all right." 478 00:32:17,160 --> 00:32:22,736 Then he told me he had seen a flashlight some distance away, 479 00:32:22,760 --> 00:32:24,520 and pointed out the direction. 480 00:32:25,880 --> 00:32:29,520 As I went off, I cried out, "So long, Johnny"! 481 00:32:39,040 --> 00:32:40,720 {\an8}Poor chap. 482 00:32:43,920 --> 00:32:44,960 {\an8}He was drowned. 483 00:32:54,760 --> 00:32:56,856 It was a terrible sight all around. 484 00:32:56,880 --> 00:32:58,677 SCREAMING 485 00:32:58,701 --> 00:33:00,496 Men swimming and sinking. 486 00:33:00,520 --> 00:33:01,976 I saw a boat of some kind. 487 00:33:02,000 --> 00:33:05,976 I put all my strength into an effort to swim to it. 488 00:33:06,000 --> 00:33:07,560 It was hard work. 489 00:33:08,760 --> 00:33:10,896 I was all done... 490 00:33:10,920 --> 00:33:15,200 ..when a hand reached from the boat and pulled me aboard. 491 00:33:17,840 --> 00:33:20,296 Collapsible B, that had been stored on the roof of 492 00:33:20,320 --> 00:33:23,016 the officers' quarters, was washed off deck, 493 00:33:23,040 --> 00:33:29,696 and is now the last hope of the men who jump from the Titanic. 494 00:33:29,720 --> 00:33:32,456 Among the 30 men on Collapsible B, 495 00:33:32,480 --> 00:33:35,776 we have Harold Bride, Jack Thayer, 496 00:33:35,800 --> 00:33:38,160 Eugene Daly, and Charles Lightoller. 497 00:33:39,360 --> 00:33:41,480 Others came near, nobody gave them a hand. 498 00:33:42,600 --> 00:33:45,536 The bottom-up boat already had more men than it would hold, 499 00:33:45,560 --> 00:33:46,840 and was sinking. 500 00:33:48,480 --> 00:33:50,576 We were very low in the water, 501 00:33:50,600 --> 00:33:52,936 standing, sitting, kneeling, 502 00:33:52,960 --> 00:33:55,080 lying in all conceivable positions. 503 00:33:56,280 --> 00:33:59,056 People came up beside us and begged us 504 00:33:59,080 --> 00:34:01,320 to get on this upturned boat. 505 00:34:04,080 --> 00:34:07,720 Saving ourselves, we were obliged to push them off. 506 00:34:10,680 --> 00:34:14,880 One man was alongside us and asked if he could get up on top of it. 507 00:34:16,720 --> 00:34:19,360 We told him that if he did, we would all go down. 508 00:34:22,040 --> 00:34:26,176 His reply was, "God bless you. Goodbye." 509 00:34:26,200 --> 00:34:28,776 SCREAMING ECHOES 510 00:34:28,800 --> 00:34:31,736 To look another human being in the eye and say to them, 511 00:34:31,760 --> 00:34:34,696 "You're going to have to perish"... 512 00:34:34,720 --> 00:34:37,536 Like, that is an impossible thing not just to live through 513 00:34:37,560 --> 00:34:39,800 in the moment, but then, to have to live with. 514 00:34:43,520 --> 00:34:47,896 There are 1,500 people in ice-cold water in the Atlantic. 515 00:34:47,920 --> 00:34:51,216 And there are some lifeboats that are full to capacity, 516 00:34:51,240 --> 00:34:53,576 and there's nothing they can do. 517 00:34:53,600 --> 00:34:57,200 But there are many others that are even less than half full. 518 00:34:58,720 --> 00:35:01,736 There are less than 700 people in the lifeboats. 519 00:35:01,760 --> 00:35:05,176 Because the 18 lifeboats are not at capacity, 520 00:35:05,200 --> 00:35:08,656 there's still space for over 400 people. 521 00:35:08,680 --> 00:35:11,520 It could save them from almost certain death. 522 00:35:14,160 --> 00:35:16,936 Within the lifeboats, there's an intense dilemma. 523 00:35:16,960 --> 00:35:18,976 Do they go back and save people? 524 00:35:19,000 --> 00:35:22,896 Or do they stay at a safe distance so that they don't get overcrowded, 525 00:35:22,920 --> 00:35:25,880 and everyone in that lifeboat end up in the water? 526 00:35:28,000 --> 00:35:29,376 These boats are fragile. 527 00:35:29,400 --> 00:35:32,176 They're in the middle of this vast sea. 528 00:35:32,200 --> 00:35:36,416 There's already been tragic and terrible, huge loss of life. 529 00:35:36,440 --> 00:35:39,600 This is their one and only chance to survive. 530 00:35:41,840 --> 00:35:46,296 Three times, an officer ordered his men to turn about. 531 00:35:46,320 --> 00:35:49,216 {\an8}But each time, they were prevented from doing so 532 00:35:49,240 --> 00:35:50,800 {\an8}by some of the passengers. 533 00:35:52,760 --> 00:35:56,936 They grasped the oars, so that the seamen were forced 534 00:35:56,960 --> 00:36:00,200 to give up turning back to rescue any of the unfortunates. 535 00:36:04,480 --> 00:36:07,456 In the Duff-Gordon boat, one of the crew members says, 536 00:36:07,480 --> 00:36:11,416 "It's up to us to go back and see if we can pick anyone up". 537 00:36:11,440 --> 00:36:14,776 The Duff-Gordons object, they say they'll be swamped, 538 00:36:14,800 --> 00:36:17,600 and they persuade the crew not to go back. 539 00:36:18,840 --> 00:36:22,416 At the later inquiry, Cosmo Duff-Gordon said, 540 00:36:22,440 --> 00:36:24,776 "It's difficult to say what occurred to me. 541 00:36:24,800 --> 00:36:26,376 "I was minding my wife, 542 00:36:26,400 --> 00:36:29,200 "and we were in a rather abnormal condition, you know." 543 00:36:31,280 --> 00:36:34,176 I find it chilling that the Duff-Gordons are just 544 00:36:34,200 --> 00:36:37,336 openly hostile to letting anyone in their lifeboat. 545 00:36:37,360 --> 00:36:41,216 All along, they have been given privileges that other people 546 00:36:41,240 --> 00:36:42,856 haven't been given, 547 00:36:42,880 --> 00:36:48,096 and to die slowly in ice-cold water within earshot of people 548 00:36:48,120 --> 00:36:49,536 who might save your life, 549 00:36:49,560 --> 00:36:51,880 I think there's a particular cruelty to that. 550 00:36:55,400 --> 00:36:58,416 Men and women were going to their death 551 00:36:58,440 --> 00:37:01,336 beneath the icy waters of the Atlantic. 552 00:37:01,360 --> 00:37:04,800 But I noticed in a hazy, detached sort of way. 553 00:37:07,360 --> 00:37:10,280 I'd gone through too much in those hours to think clearly. 554 00:37:13,200 --> 00:37:14,936 Lucy's talking about trauma here. 555 00:37:14,960 --> 00:37:17,736 She's talking about going through so much emotion that 556 00:37:17,760 --> 00:37:19,816 she's effectively shutting down. 557 00:37:19,840 --> 00:37:24,616 She's so traumatised, she's not able to get out of her own experience 558 00:37:24,640 --> 00:37:28,016 enough to engage with what those people in the water 559 00:37:28,040 --> 00:37:30,176 are going through at that time. 560 00:37:30,200 --> 00:37:32,760 SCREAMING 561 00:37:34,880 --> 00:37:38,336 Partially-filled lifeboats standing by, 562 00:37:38,360 --> 00:37:41,440 only a few hundred yards away never came back. 563 00:37:43,800 --> 00:37:47,240 Why on earth they did not come back is a mystery. 564 00:37:48,720 --> 00:37:51,960 How could any human being fail to heed those cries? 565 00:37:56,480 --> 00:37:59,696 I think it is extremely unfortunate the lifeboats didn't go ahead 566 00:37:59,720 --> 00:38:01,096 and start to rescue people. 567 00:38:01,120 --> 00:38:04,936 They were willing to sit with people screaming and dying in the water, 568 00:38:04,960 --> 00:38:06,680 and I find that quite surprising. 569 00:38:07,680 --> 00:38:11,216 We're highly attuned to other people's emotional expressions. 570 00:38:11,240 --> 00:38:14,736 Out on the lifeboats, it's dark and they're quite far away - 571 00:38:14,760 --> 00:38:17,136 so not seeing those faces may be 572 00:38:17,160 --> 00:38:20,480 one way of distancing themselves from that suffering. 573 00:38:24,440 --> 00:38:27,400 I became so numb, I could hardly swim. 574 00:38:30,000 --> 00:38:31,640 My head was so queer. 575 00:38:37,360 --> 00:38:40,216 But when I was almost at my last gasp, I shouted... 576 00:38:40,240 --> 00:38:41,720 Boat ahoy! 577 00:38:43,680 --> 00:38:46,840 ..on the off chance that one might be near. 578 00:38:49,600 --> 00:38:52,800 I had room for a dozen more people in my boat. 579 00:38:54,280 --> 00:38:55,440 But it was dark. 580 00:38:59,360 --> 00:39:00,960 {\an8}We didn't pick up any swimmers. 581 00:39:04,760 --> 00:39:08,976 We all like to think we'd be the noble one that does the right thing. 582 00:39:09,000 --> 00:39:10,760 But that's not how survival works. 583 00:39:12,520 --> 00:39:15,776 Ultimately, as human beings, we are animals who have survived. 584 00:39:15,800 --> 00:39:17,816 That's how we've evolved to be what we are. 585 00:39:17,840 --> 00:39:20,416 So, survival instinct is absolutely within our DNA. 586 00:39:20,440 --> 00:39:23,416 And so, you have no idea what you are capable of 587 00:39:23,440 --> 00:39:25,200 until you are pushed to an extreme. 588 00:39:26,800 --> 00:39:29,456 Disasters reveal an aspect of your personality 589 00:39:29,480 --> 00:39:30,896 that you might not know is there, 590 00:39:30,920 --> 00:39:33,056 and you might not like being there. 591 00:39:33,080 --> 00:39:36,336 To save your own life, to let hundreds of people die? 592 00:39:36,360 --> 00:39:38,976 I think that's something that would weigh heavily on you 593 00:39:39,000 --> 00:39:40,280 for the rest of your life. 594 00:39:42,640 --> 00:39:44,816 Perhaps a thousand... 595 00:39:44,840 --> 00:39:45,936 ..perhaps more... 596 00:39:45,960 --> 00:39:48,296 SCREAMING 597 00:39:48,320 --> 00:39:49,920 ..gone down with her. 598 00:40:01,920 --> 00:40:03,976 There's a cluster of lifeboats 599 00:40:04,000 --> 00:40:06,776 closer to where the Titanic went down, 600 00:40:06,800 --> 00:40:09,776 including Lifeboats 14 and 4. 601 00:40:09,800 --> 00:40:12,896 {\an8}And this is a kind of case of right place, right time 602 00:40:12,920 --> 00:40:15,296 {\an8}for some people in the water. 603 00:40:15,320 --> 00:40:17,936 {\an8}Fortunately, my shout was heard. 604 00:40:17,960 --> 00:40:20,536 {\an8}- ECHOING: - Over here! 605 00:40:20,560 --> 00:40:23,120 I was holding to Lifeboat Number 4. 606 00:40:24,440 --> 00:40:28,576 About seven people are rescued because of that boat, 607 00:40:28,600 --> 00:40:31,296 including Thomas Dillon. 608 00:40:31,320 --> 00:40:35,120 I think I'd been 20 minutes in the water. 609 00:40:36,800 --> 00:40:39,880 I was told afterwards, I was unconscious for a long time. 610 00:40:41,840 --> 00:40:44,960 I was not properly right when I came to. 611 00:40:46,680 --> 00:40:49,896 Thomas Dillon survived because he's young and he's fit. 612 00:40:49,920 --> 00:40:53,016 But, by the time he's picked up by the lifeboat, 613 00:40:53,040 --> 00:40:56,080 he's got early symptoms of hypothermia. 614 00:40:57,320 --> 00:41:01,456 I would rather die a hundred times 615 00:41:01,480 --> 00:41:03,960 than go through such an experience again. 616 00:41:19,280 --> 00:41:22,936 Mr Lowe went in search of other lifeboats. 617 00:41:22,960 --> 00:41:25,256 He found four or five, 618 00:41:25,280 --> 00:41:27,456 and took command of the little fleet. 619 00:41:27,480 --> 00:41:30,336 The whole of you are under my orders! 620 00:41:30,360 --> 00:41:34,736 Lifeboat 14 is very full, but Lowe realises that actually, 621 00:41:34,760 --> 00:41:36,656 if this group works together, 622 00:41:36,680 --> 00:41:40,040 they have a chance of being able to launch a rescue mission. 623 00:41:41,160 --> 00:41:45,416 He ordered that the boats should be linked together with ropes 624 00:41:45,440 --> 00:41:47,400 to prevent any drifting away. 625 00:41:49,120 --> 00:41:52,096 They were able to redistribute those passengers, 626 00:41:52,120 --> 00:41:54,656 and they actually free up an entire lifeboat 627 00:41:54,680 --> 00:41:58,080 which allows them to go in and search for survivors. 628 00:42:00,000 --> 00:42:03,680 I went with just the boat's crew. No passengers. 629 00:42:05,600 --> 00:42:11,496 Of course, I had to wait for the yells and shrieks to subside... 630 00:42:11,520 --> 00:42:13,000 ..for the people to thin out. 631 00:42:15,480 --> 00:42:19,776 Officer Lowe is very aware of the potential risks. 632 00:42:19,800 --> 00:42:23,776 You can be capsized when trying to pull survivors into the vessel. 633 00:42:23,800 --> 00:42:25,776 The vessel can be swamped. 634 00:42:25,800 --> 00:42:27,856 But they choose to go back. 635 00:42:27,880 --> 00:42:30,056 They're not just survivors in this moment, 636 00:42:30,080 --> 00:42:31,776 they continue to be crewmen. 637 00:42:31,800 --> 00:42:33,576 Their sense of service, 638 00:42:33,600 --> 00:42:36,256 particularly those that had a military background, 639 00:42:36,280 --> 00:42:39,976 ultimately outweighs their sense of survival. 640 00:42:40,000 --> 00:42:42,816 Your training just kicks in, and you have a responsibility 641 00:42:42,840 --> 00:42:46,296 to those around you, even before yourself. 642 00:42:46,320 --> 00:42:50,576 I searched the wreck thoroughly and found four persons. 643 00:42:50,600 --> 00:42:54,200 One was a Mr Hoit, from New York. 644 00:42:55,720 --> 00:42:57,176 Get him in! 645 00:42:57,200 --> 00:42:58,800 He was bleeding from the mouth. 646 00:43:00,000 --> 00:43:03,160 I loosened his shirt, so as to give him every chance to breathe. 647 00:43:04,960 --> 00:43:07,000 But unfortunately, he died. 648 00:43:10,080 --> 00:43:13,040 I suppose he was too far gone when we picked him up. 649 00:43:20,440 --> 00:43:22,176 Most of those that jumped in the sea 650 00:43:22,200 --> 00:43:24,776 died within a quarter of an hour. 651 00:43:24,800 --> 00:43:26,680 The awful moaning ceased after that. 652 00:43:29,000 --> 00:43:31,400 {\an8}We saw nothing but ice and dead bodies. 653 00:43:38,400 --> 00:43:40,176 I remember the very last cry. 654 00:43:40,200 --> 00:43:43,360 This man's voice... calling loudly. 655 00:43:45,240 --> 00:43:48,136 "My God, my God." 656 00:43:48,160 --> 00:43:49,600 ECHOING: My God. 657 00:43:50,920 --> 00:43:53,137 DISTANT MOANING 658 00:43:53,161 --> 00:43:55,376 My God... 659 00:43:55,400 --> 00:43:58,096 I think it would have been very haunting to slowly hear 660 00:43:58,120 --> 00:44:00,136 fewer and fewer voices. 661 00:44:00,160 --> 00:44:03,896 And that's one of the most traumatic memories that people had, 662 00:44:03,920 --> 00:44:05,720 is the sound of those screams. 663 00:44:15,520 --> 00:44:18,760 SHIVERING 664 00:44:20,080 --> 00:44:24,016 The air was leaking from under the boat, 665 00:44:24,040 --> 00:44:26,880 lowering us further and further into the icy water. 666 00:44:29,040 --> 00:44:30,936 Soaking wet, freezing. 667 00:44:30,960 --> 00:44:33,816 The pack of huddled men on Collapsible B 668 00:44:33,840 --> 00:44:36,816 survived so many odds. 669 00:44:36,840 --> 00:44:39,736 But that's all for nothing if nobody comes to your rescue, 670 00:44:39,760 --> 00:44:42,616 and they don't know if that's coming. 671 00:44:42,640 --> 00:44:47,216 Some lost consciousness and slipped overboard. 672 00:44:47,240 --> 00:44:49,360 SPLASH 673 00:44:52,240 --> 00:44:54,000 Every wave threatened to swamp us. 674 00:44:55,280 --> 00:44:57,776 The problem with trying to sail an upside-down boat, 675 00:44:57,800 --> 00:45:00,616 which they're now using as a raft, is that it's not stable. 676 00:45:00,640 --> 00:45:03,056 This is a balancing act - literally - 677 00:45:03,080 --> 00:45:05,176 to save your life. 678 00:45:05,200 --> 00:45:08,576 Every bit of strength and spirit from every one of those men 679 00:45:08,600 --> 00:45:12,720 on that boat raft was going to be about staying alive. 680 00:45:14,480 --> 00:45:18,176 Their class differences cease to be important. 681 00:45:18,200 --> 00:45:21,216 We've got men from first class, men from third, crew members - 682 00:45:21,240 --> 00:45:23,200 united by this will to survive. 683 00:45:25,120 --> 00:45:28,320 We prayed and sang hymns. 684 00:45:30,440 --> 00:45:32,920 Harold Bride helped keep our hopes up. 685 00:45:34,080 --> 00:45:36,456 He said time and time again, 686 00:45:36,480 --> 00:45:38,576 "The Carpathia is coming as fast as she can. 687 00:45:38,600 --> 00:45:41,000 "Carpathia's coming as fast as she can." 688 00:45:45,480 --> 00:45:47,520 Lightoller found his whistle. 689 00:45:48,880 --> 00:45:50,496 WHISTLE BLOWS 690 00:45:50,520 --> 00:45:52,336 After desperate calling, 691 00:45:52,360 --> 00:45:54,600 we got the attention of the other lifeboats. 692 00:45:57,720 --> 00:46:00,896 Two of the boats realised the position we were in 693 00:46:00,920 --> 00:46:02,240 and drew toward us. 694 00:46:05,080 --> 00:46:08,616 They had a right-side-up boat, 695 00:46:08,640 --> 00:46:10,880 and it was full to its capacity. 696 00:46:13,600 --> 00:46:15,800 Yet they came to us and loaded us all into it. 697 00:46:26,440 --> 00:46:28,040 FLARE STRIKES 698 00:46:29,120 --> 00:46:32,656 Officer Boxhall took some green flares from the bridge, 699 00:46:32,680 --> 00:46:36,936 and now he's lighting them, hoping that he will attract 700 00:46:36,960 --> 00:46:40,640 the attention of the approaching rescue vessel. 701 00:46:43,640 --> 00:46:45,400 Time will be standing still. 702 00:46:46,600 --> 00:46:49,640 All they can do is sit in the boats and wait. 703 00:47:02,760 --> 00:47:04,816 {\an8}About this time, 704 00:47:04,840 --> 00:47:07,560 the edge of the sun came above the horizon. 705 00:47:12,040 --> 00:47:17,536 To feel that glowing warmth which we'd never expected to see again - 706 00:47:17,560 --> 00:47:19,640 that's something never to be forgotten. 707 00:47:28,000 --> 00:47:33,160 I have no idea of the passage of time during that awful night. 708 00:47:34,800 --> 00:47:37,736 {\an8}We were all very tired... 709 00:47:37,760 --> 00:47:40,560 ..when we saw a big light. 710 00:47:43,280 --> 00:47:44,656 Look. 711 00:47:44,680 --> 00:47:47,200 - ECHOING: - Look! It's a ship! 712 00:47:49,000 --> 00:47:51,096 Suddenly, a flicker of hope. 713 00:47:51,120 --> 00:47:54,680 A ship getting closer every minute. 714 00:47:57,440 --> 00:48:00,456 Coming towards the sight of the wreck and 715 00:48:00,480 --> 00:48:05,056 the lifeboats bobbing about in this freezing, empty sea, 716 00:48:05,080 --> 00:48:08,456 finally is The Carpathian. 717 00:48:08,480 --> 00:48:11,696 She's come as fast as she could through the ice floes, 718 00:48:11,720 --> 00:48:16,200 through the night responding to Jack Phillips's distress calls. 719 00:48:24,520 --> 00:48:29,376 Nothing has ever looked so good to me... 720 00:48:29,400 --> 00:48:31,560 ..as the lights from The Carpathia. 721 00:48:33,400 --> 00:48:36,136 Even through my numbness... 722 00:48:36,160 --> 00:48:38,280 ..I began to realise I was saved. 723 00:48:40,240 --> 00:48:41,560 I would live. 724 00:48:48,920 --> 00:48:52,920 She stopped maybe four miles away. 725 00:48:54,680 --> 00:48:57,256 The task of rowing over to her 726 00:48:57,280 --> 00:48:59,960 was one of the hardest things we've had to face. 727 00:49:11,920 --> 00:49:15,336 At last, The Carpathia was alongside, 728 00:49:15,360 --> 00:49:17,680 and people were being taken up by rope ladder. 729 00:49:21,040 --> 00:49:22,280 One man was dead. 730 00:49:24,400 --> 00:49:26,560 I passed him and went up the ladder. 731 00:49:34,320 --> 00:49:35,880 The dead man was Phillips. 732 00:49:38,160 --> 00:49:42,200 He had died on the raft of exposure and cold, I guess. 733 00:49:45,920 --> 00:49:48,336 He stood his ground until the crisis had passed, 734 00:49:48,360 --> 00:49:50,840 and then, he... collapsed. 735 00:49:54,880 --> 00:49:57,600 Maybe I could have slipped more clothing on Phillips. 736 00:50:03,760 --> 00:50:05,120 Would have saved him. 737 00:50:13,680 --> 00:50:16,336 When I was wounded, three people lost their lives, 738 00:50:16,360 --> 00:50:19,336 so I know what it's like to trawl over in your head, 739 00:50:19,360 --> 00:50:21,096 the "what could I have done"? 740 00:50:21,120 --> 00:50:22,520 And ultimately... 741 00:50:24,720 --> 00:50:26,656 ..life is unpredictable. 742 00:50:26,680 --> 00:50:28,840 You know, you live or you die. 743 00:50:29,840 --> 00:50:32,816 And you cannot change that fate, 744 00:50:32,840 --> 00:50:36,320 but learning to live with that, it takes time. 745 00:50:42,640 --> 00:50:44,200 No survivor... 746 00:50:45,440 --> 00:50:50,320 ..knows better than I the cruelty of disappointment. 747 00:50:53,080 --> 00:50:55,600 I had a husband to search for. 748 00:50:59,120 --> 00:51:04,480 A husband whom I believed would be found in one of the boats. 749 00:51:12,680 --> 00:51:14,320 - WHISPERS: - He was not there. 750 00:51:20,920 --> 00:51:25,360 I... let myself be saved... 751 00:51:26,440 --> 00:51:30,960 ..because I believed he too would escape. 752 00:51:35,960 --> 00:51:41,216 I sometimes envy those whom 753 00:51:41,240 --> 00:51:44,920 no human power could tear them... 754 00:51:46,360 --> 00:51:48,360 ..from their husbands' arms. 755 00:51:52,520 --> 00:51:55,120 OFF-CAMERA: What do you remember of The Carpathia? 756 00:51:56,680 --> 00:51:57,720 Er... 757 00:51:59,960 --> 00:52:01,400 ..consoling. 758 00:52:03,360 --> 00:52:05,080 And being consoled. 759 00:52:10,440 --> 00:52:12,656 My friends were all among the missing 760 00:52:12,680 --> 00:52:13,960 when the roll was called. 761 00:52:16,920 --> 00:52:20,600 The loss affected me badly. 762 00:52:30,840 --> 00:52:33,696 The big narrative is always going to be about heroism 763 00:52:33,720 --> 00:52:35,200 and loss, and sacrifice. 764 00:52:36,600 --> 00:52:38,560 But the Titanic was a disaster. 765 00:52:40,840 --> 00:52:44,440 These are real people's lives that are lost. 766 00:52:45,440 --> 00:52:47,240 Real people who suffered. 767 00:53:18,520 --> 00:53:20,280 Shut all the dampers! 768 00:53:22,560 --> 00:53:25,696 The engineers were the heroes, I think. 769 00:53:25,720 --> 00:53:27,296 They kept going in some minutes 770 00:53:27,320 --> 00:53:29,936 before the Titanic went out of sight. 771 00:53:29,960 --> 00:53:31,800 Not a man of them was saved. 772 00:53:37,160 --> 00:53:40,896 In 1912, it was taken for granted that the price of 773 00:53:40,920 --> 00:53:45,496 a first class ticket included a greater likelihood of surviving. 774 00:53:45,520 --> 00:53:50,120 It was seen as a reflection of the natural order. 775 00:53:51,960 --> 00:53:56,296 What the Titanic teaches us is what happens when people's lives 776 00:53:56,320 --> 00:53:58,680 are given unequal value. 777 00:54:00,040 --> 00:54:01,976 Every element, from your breakfast 778 00:54:02,000 --> 00:54:04,496 to how you're treated in an emergency - 779 00:54:04,520 --> 00:54:08,360 all of that is impacted by class and hierarchy, and status. 780 00:54:09,600 --> 00:54:13,616 This happened in an age where the British stiff upper lip 781 00:54:13,640 --> 00:54:15,096 was stiffer than ever. 782 00:54:15,120 --> 00:54:17,696 But the reality is, it doesn't matter how resilient 783 00:54:17,720 --> 00:54:19,016 you think you are. 784 00:54:19,040 --> 00:54:24,056 Sometimes, we're just not capable of processing that level of horror. 785 00:54:24,080 --> 00:54:26,256 Personal trauma was not recognised. 786 00:54:26,280 --> 00:54:28,976 {\an8}You just suffered, and you carried on. 787 00:54:29,000 --> 00:54:31,936 Those people who survive, they were just now going to have 788 00:54:31,960 --> 00:54:34,640 to pick up their lives as best they could, and manage. 789 00:54:35,880 --> 00:54:39,216 These are searing memories that never leave them. 790 00:54:39,240 --> 00:54:42,016 And the grief was huge. 791 00:54:42,040 --> 00:54:45,736 But I like to imagine that there were those who felt that 792 00:54:45,760 --> 00:54:50,456 this encounter with death made them live the rest of their days 793 00:54:50,480 --> 00:54:54,720 more fully, and that they owed it to those who died to live. 794 00:57:45,960 --> 00:57:51,536 I lost my pipes, which I prided myself so much on. 795 00:57:51,560 --> 00:57:53,280 I lost all my clothes... 796 00:57:54,400 --> 00:57:58,320 ..and £98, which had taken me many years to save. 797 00:58:01,960 --> 00:58:04,416 Here I am, stripped of all I had, 798 00:58:04,440 --> 00:58:07,600 but thankful to God that He left me my life.