1 00:00:10,677 --> 00:00:11,845 Previously, on It's Not Like That... 2 00:00:11,929 --> 00:00:13,805 Did you take Mom's jewelry box? 3 00:00:13,889 --> 00:00:15,098 The one with the ivory tree on it? 4 00:00:15,641 --> 00:00:18,393 We were fine. And then you kissed me. 5 00:00:18,477 --> 00:00:20,979 You said you needed me, and then you said it was a mistake. 6 00:00:21,063 --> 00:00:23,649 And it was. We need to focus on other people. 7 00:00:23,732 --> 00:00:25,484 Tell me if I'm crazy. 8 00:00:25,567 --> 00:00:28,487 If you have feelings for her... 9 00:00:28,570 --> 00:00:29,947 You're not crazy. 10 00:00:30,030 --> 00:00:34,243 How about you text me when you're done, and you could come over? 11 00:00:34,326 --> 00:00:36,119 Yeah, I could do that. 12 00:00:37,538 --> 00:00:39,081 That your new boyfriend? 13 00:00:41,959 --> 00:00:44,169 I know Sunday is a big day for you, 14 00:00:44,670 --> 00:00:46,463 but I'm not going back. 15 00:00:47,756 --> 00:00:49,842 This is Malcolm and Jenny's daughter. 16 00:00:49,925 --> 00:00:51,718 - What do you think is gonna happen? - I don't know. 17 00:00:51,802 --> 00:00:53,053 I just don't wanna see her get hurt. 18 00:00:53,136 --> 00:00:54,596 You're drinking? 19 00:00:55,639 --> 00:00:56,974 Merritt, pull over. 20 00:00:57,057 --> 00:00:58,475 Merritt! 21 00:00:58,559 --> 00:01:00,561 Merritt! 22 00:01:15,784 --> 00:01:17,828 Merritt. Merritt. Merritt. 23 00:01:22,457 --> 00:01:24,126 Do you need help? 24 00:01:38,223 --> 00:01:39,474 You're gonna be okay. 25 00:02:12,090 --> 00:02:14,468 So... 26 00:02:15,636 --> 00:02:16,803 So... 27 00:02:20,557 --> 00:02:22,476 You learned some new tricks. 28 00:02:22,559 --> 00:02:24,311 Oh, well... 29 00:02:24,394 --> 00:02:26,855 - I don't need to know how. - Mm-mm. 30 00:02:31,235 --> 00:02:32,236 So... 31 00:02:34,363 --> 00:02:36,323 Mm. About this... 32 00:02:36,406 --> 00:02:38,075 Hold on. 33 00:02:39,868 --> 00:02:41,036 It's Flora. 34 00:02:47,125 --> 00:02:49,253 - You okay? - Yeah. Yeah. 35 00:02:49,336 --> 00:02:50,337 You need anything? 36 00:02:50,462 --> 00:02:52,464 No. Do you know how much longer it's gonna be? 37 00:02:52,548 --> 00:02:53,841 No, it shouldn't be long. 38 00:03:11,275 --> 00:03:12,776 I'm here. I'm here. 39 00:03:12,860 --> 00:03:15,529 - I'm here. I'm sorry. - She's gone. 40 00:03:16,488 --> 00:03:17,573 Oh, Malcolm. 41 00:03:25,330 --> 00:03:27,374 Thank God you're here. 42 00:03:27,457 --> 00:03:28,917 - Hi. - Okay. They're both okay. 43 00:03:29,001 --> 00:03:32,004 Merritt's in the back with the doctors, he has a mild concussion. 44 00:03:32,087 --> 00:03:33,297 He has... And Flora? 45 00:03:33,380 --> 00:03:35,716 Uh, still waiting to be seen. She's all right. 46 00:03:35,799 --> 00:03:37,801 Why don't you go check in? We'll be over here. 47 00:03:41,930 --> 00:03:43,182 Hey, are you okay? 48 00:03:45,017 --> 00:03:46,643 What the hell happened? 49 00:03:46,727 --> 00:03:48,520 - They took Jenny's car. - That much, I know. 50 00:03:48,604 --> 00:03:52,399 I'm sorry. Merritt and I have taken the car out a couple of times now, so... 51 00:03:52,482 --> 00:03:54,026 You knew about this? 52 00:03:54,109 --> 00:03:56,653 I know she has her permit, but no, not this. 53 00:03:56,737 --> 00:03:59,281 So, what? They were just out joyriding in your car? 54 00:03:59,364 --> 00:04:00,574 They weren't "joyriding." 55 00:04:00,657 --> 00:04:03,619 Your son took the car with Flora in it and almost killed them both. 56 00:04:03,702 --> 00:04:05,954 We usually just, like, drive around, but... 57 00:04:06,038 --> 00:04:08,457 tonight, Merritt was upset. 58 00:04:08,540 --> 00:04:10,542 And he was... 59 00:04:11,793 --> 00:04:13,462 He was drinking. 60 00:04:14,046 --> 00:04:16,089 And I didn't know. And... 61 00:04:16,173 --> 00:04:18,050 He's been drinking a lot lately. 62 00:04:18,133 --> 00:04:20,636 And he was drunk at the party. 63 00:04:20,719 --> 00:04:24,473 And I should've told Lori, but I just didn't... I should've told her. 64 00:04:25,224 --> 00:04:27,142 I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. 65 00:04:27,768 --> 00:04:28,852 That's what happened. 66 00:04:29,520 --> 00:04:31,522 - I'm so sorry, honey. - No, I'm sorry. 67 00:04:31,605 --> 00:04:33,232 David. He's over here. 68 00:04:38,403 --> 00:04:39,780 Hi, hi, honey, hi. 69 00:04:41,490 --> 00:04:44,660 Hi. Honey. Oh, Merritt. 70 00:04:45,869 --> 00:04:50,040 I don't, I don't even... I don't know where to start. 71 00:04:51,500 --> 00:04:52,584 I'm sorry. 72 00:04:53,836 --> 00:04:54,837 I screwed up. 73 00:04:57,965 --> 00:04:59,925 I-I-I'll pay Malcolm back for the car. 74 00:05:00,008 --> 00:05:03,679 Merritt, this has... this goes so far beyond the car. 75 00:05:04,304 --> 00:05:06,348 Okay. You've been lying to us. 76 00:05:07,224 --> 00:05:09,643 - You could've died. - I know. 77 00:05:09,726 --> 00:05:12,604 - Flora could've died. - I-I know. 78 00:05:12,688 --> 00:05:13,939 - Do... - I, I get it. 79 00:05:14,022 --> 00:05:15,232 - You... - You were drunk. 80 00:05:17,609 --> 00:05:18,610 I, I wasn't... 81 00:05:18,694 --> 00:05:21,405 Oh, you were legally drunk. They took your blood. 82 00:05:22,072 --> 00:05:24,950 You ran Jenny's car into a lake. 83 00:05:25,742 --> 00:05:27,411 You're gonna get a DUI. 84 00:05:27,494 --> 00:05:29,246 Lose your license, at minimum. Do... 85 00:05:30,289 --> 00:05:32,749 - Do you get that? - Okay, David, please, just... 86 00:05:32,833 --> 00:05:33,876 - Do you get that? - St... 87 00:05:41,300 --> 00:05:43,260 You have been drinking. Okay. 88 00:05:43,343 --> 00:05:46,847 And not just at parties. So there... there is a lot... 89 00:05:46,930 --> 00:05:49,057 There are a lot of conversations that... 90 00:05:49,766 --> 00:05:51,018 we will be having. 91 00:05:52,352 --> 00:05:53,562 Okay. But right now... 92 00:05:54,897 --> 00:05:57,608 we're just so thankful that you and Flora are okay. 93 00:05:57,691 --> 00:06:00,110 All right? 94 00:06:16,460 --> 00:06:18,462 Mm. Okay. 95 00:06:18,545 --> 00:06:19,546 - Hey. - Hi. 96 00:06:19,630 --> 00:06:21,423 Uh, Flora dropped her phone. 97 00:06:24,134 --> 00:06:25,511 Hey, Malcolm. Uh... 98 00:06:26,720 --> 00:06:28,096 I'm so sorry. 99 00:06:28,597 --> 00:06:30,516 I had no idea that Merritt... 100 00:06:30,599 --> 00:06:33,185 No, I should've been more careful with Jenny's car. 101 00:06:33,268 --> 00:06:34,645 I'm sorry, too. 102 00:06:38,315 --> 00:06:40,984 Hey, were are you parked? I'll walk you to your car. 103 00:06:41,068 --> 00:06:43,445 Oh, I came with David. 104 00:06:43,987 --> 00:06:45,572 Oh. Okay. 105 00:07:14,268 --> 00:07:16,687 - I'll go get Casey. - Yeah, give us a minute. 106 00:07:20,482 --> 00:07:22,234 Son, listen to me right now. 107 00:07:24,403 --> 00:07:26,530 This life isn't just yours. 108 00:07:28,699 --> 00:07:29,741 Do you hear me? 109 00:07:30,409 --> 00:07:32,452 What you do affects everyone around you. 110 00:07:32,536 --> 00:07:34,454 Everyone that cares for you. 111 00:07:34,538 --> 00:07:38,333 Me, your mom, you sister, your friends, your girl, everyone. 112 00:07:40,669 --> 00:07:42,796 I'm telling you this from experience. 113 00:07:42,880 --> 00:07:45,424 I've thrown away so much of my damn life to alcohol. 114 00:07:46,842 --> 00:07:49,178 The idea you will go down that same road, son... 115 00:07:49,261 --> 00:07:50,387 I'm not you. 116 00:07:50,470 --> 00:07:52,431 You don't have to be. It's a disease. 117 00:07:54,725 --> 00:07:55,809 Yeah, well... 118 00:07:56,518 --> 00:08:00,063 You got sober, and our family still fell apart, so, what does it matter? 119 00:08:03,817 --> 00:08:05,694 Thanks for freaking everybody out. 120 00:08:05,777 --> 00:08:08,030 Now they're never gonna let me drive, dude. 121 00:08:11,366 --> 00:08:12,451 I'm staying home today. 122 00:08:23,295 --> 00:08:26,131 Flora. The car's gonna be okay. 123 00:08:26,215 --> 00:08:29,176 I looked it up. All they have to do is pull it out with a tow line. 124 00:08:29,259 --> 00:08:30,385 Okay, bud. 125 00:08:30,469 --> 00:08:31,887 It's really cool. 126 00:08:31,970 --> 00:08:35,349 Justin, stop. We get it, you know how to use Google. 127 00:08:35,432 --> 00:08:36,433 I'm sorry. 128 00:08:41,813 --> 00:08:43,857 Hey. Hey. 129 00:08:45,234 --> 00:08:47,653 I-I'm okay. I'm okay. 130 00:08:47,736 --> 00:08:48,779 Just... 131 00:08:49,613 --> 00:08:51,365 Just stay away from Merritt. 132 00:08:51,448 --> 00:08:52,908 Promise me? 133 00:08:54,034 --> 00:08:55,035 Okay. 134 00:08:55,994 --> 00:08:57,913 All right. Is everybody ready? 135 00:08:58,539 --> 00:08:59,748 Mm. 136 00:08:59,831 --> 00:09:02,543 Hey, you sure you don't wanna stay home today? You can. 137 00:09:02,626 --> 00:09:05,087 - Uh, especially after last night. - No. No, it's okay. 138 00:09:05,170 --> 00:09:07,172 At least let me give you a lift. Come on. 139 00:09:07,256 --> 00:09:09,216 I'd really rather walk, Dad. 140 00:09:09,716 --> 00:09:10,717 Clear my head. 141 00:09:11,885 --> 00:09:13,846 All right. All right. 142 00:09:14,471 --> 00:09:16,390 Okay, kiddos, let's go. Come on. 143 00:09:17,975 --> 00:09:20,602 So just check in with them. Thank you. 144 00:09:20,686 --> 00:09:23,230 - Hey, can you take a look at this? - Yeah, of course. 145 00:09:23,313 --> 00:09:25,065 Oh, shoot. 146 00:09:25,148 --> 00:09:26,859 - Oh. - David? 147 00:09:26,942 --> 00:09:27,943 Mm. 148 00:09:28,777 --> 00:09:29,778 Malcolm? 149 00:09:32,155 --> 00:09:33,740 Oh, bachelor number three. 150 00:09:33,824 --> 00:09:35,033 Well, answer it, woman. 151 00:09:37,870 --> 00:09:39,746 - Hey, you. - Hey. 152 00:09:40,414 --> 00:09:41,415 How are you? 153 00:09:41,498 --> 00:09:43,876 What happened? You said there was a family emergency? 154 00:09:43,959 --> 00:09:45,544 Yeah, um... 155 00:09:45,627 --> 00:09:48,922 I apologize for the cryptic, alarmist text. Um... 156 00:09:49,506 --> 00:09:52,759 My son, actually, got into a car accident. 157 00:09:52,843 --> 00:09:55,179 - Oh, my God. Is he... - Yeah, no, he's fine. 158 00:09:55,262 --> 00:09:57,431 He's fine. Everyone is fine. Um... 159 00:09:57,514 --> 00:09:59,183 It just really gave us a scare. 160 00:09:59,266 --> 00:10:02,311 Um, we spent the night in the ER, last night, 161 00:10:02,394 --> 00:10:05,063 and that's why I didn't call you right away. 162 00:10:05,147 --> 00:10:07,566 I'm so sorry, Lori, I'm glad he's okay. 163 00:10:07,649 --> 00:10:09,359 Yeah, it was intense. 164 00:10:09,443 --> 00:10:11,486 But it's all good now. He's, he's home. 165 00:10:11,570 --> 00:10:13,405 - He's, he's fine. - Good. 166 00:10:14,072 --> 00:10:17,784 Well, uh, if it helps, I, uh, I missed you. 167 00:10:18,744 --> 00:10:19,745 It does. 168 00:10:20,579 --> 00:10:21,705 I missed you too. 169 00:10:21,788 --> 00:10:23,707 I'll take a rain check when you come up for air? 170 00:10:23,790 --> 00:10:25,876 Great. Thanks for being so understanding. 171 00:10:25,959 --> 00:10:29,755 Yeah. Are you kidding? Accidents happen, right? 172 00:10:30,839 --> 00:10:32,466 Um, I'll call you later. 173 00:10:32,549 --> 00:10:34,760 - Okay. Talk to you soon. - Okay. 174 00:10:36,011 --> 00:10:37,638 So, timeline question. 175 00:10:37,721 --> 00:10:39,806 Oh, can we please not play this game? 176 00:10:39,890 --> 00:10:42,351 When did you send this cryptic text to Joe? 177 00:10:42,434 --> 00:10:44,436 Before you slept with your ex-husband? 178 00:10:46,355 --> 00:10:47,397 That's what I thought. 179 00:10:48,482 --> 00:10:50,025 I don't know why I did it. 180 00:10:51,068 --> 00:10:52,402 I don't know what it means. 181 00:10:54,571 --> 00:10:55,739 Oh, my God. 182 00:10:56,240 --> 00:10:57,824 He laked the car? 183 00:10:57,908 --> 00:10:59,618 - Yep. - That is so cool. 184 00:10:59,701 --> 00:11:00,994 It's not cool. 185 00:11:01,078 --> 00:11:02,579 I mean, Flora was in the front of that car. 186 00:11:02,663 --> 00:11:04,206 - She could've, like... - OMG. 187 00:11:04,289 --> 00:11:05,499 Mika, it's on. 188 00:11:06,041 --> 00:11:09,795 Jackson said he and Eli are gonna meet us under the stands after practice. 189 00:11:09,878 --> 00:11:10,879 Okay. 190 00:11:10,963 --> 00:11:12,589 Is Eli cool? 191 00:11:12,673 --> 00:11:15,259 Well, he's a freshman in high school. 192 00:11:15,843 --> 00:11:16,885 I'm down. 193 00:12:46,099 --> 00:12:47,476 Oh. 194 00:12:57,486 --> 00:13:00,155 Flora? 195 00:13:02,115 --> 00:13:04,159 Hey, what's the matter? 196 00:13:05,494 --> 00:13:07,454 What is it? Is it, is it Merritt? 197 00:13:07,538 --> 00:13:10,791 - Is it about the accident? - They pulled the car out. 198 00:13:10,874 --> 00:13:12,668 - It's gone. - Oh, honey. 199 00:13:12,751 --> 00:13:13,752 It's gone. 200 00:13:14,253 --> 00:13:16,088 - What can I do? - Nothing. Nothing. 201 00:13:16,171 --> 00:13:18,257 There's nothing you can do. 202 00:13:18,340 --> 00:13:20,509 Okay. We'll, we'll get you a car, all right. 203 00:13:20,592 --> 00:13:21,969 - We'll figure it out. - Dad. 204 00:13:22,052 --> 00:13:23,929 - It's okay. - No. It... 205 00:13:24,012 --> 00:13:26,056 It's okay if I cry. 206 00:13:27,391 --> 00:13:29,476 You don't always have to fix everything. 207 00:13:29,560 --> 00:13:31,687 - Okay. But, but... - No, just, just... 208 00:13:31,770 --> 00:13:35,274 Just let me be sad. 209 00:13:37,359 --> 00:13:39,528 It's not bad for me to feel this way. 210 00:13:41,530 --> 00:13:42,698 I really... 211 00:13:42,781 --> 00:13:45,951 I just, I really need you to be okay with that. 212 00:13:47,286 --> 00:13:48,287 I am, you're right. 213 00:13:48,954 --> 00:13:50,372 - I'm sorry. Okay? - Okay. 214 00:13:50,455 --> 00:13:51,665 - Okay. - Okay. Okay. 215 00:13:58,005 --> 00:14:02,259 By the way, I need you to write my Little Women essay over the break. 216 00:14:02,342 --> 00:14:03,719 It's due first day back. 217 00:14:04,386 --> 00:14:05,387 Seriously? 218 00:14:05,888 --> 00:14:06,889 Yeah. 219 00:14:07,472 --> 00:14:09,183 Just don't make it sound like you. 220 00:14:18,942 --> 00:14:20,194 You know what, Dakota? 221 00:14:20,777 --> 00:14:21,987 Write your own essay. 222 00:14:24,364 --> 00:14:25,365 For real? 223 00:14:27,159 --> 00:14:28,160 Wow. 224 00:14:29,411 --> 00:14:32,289 I don't know why I even listened to Casey. 225 00:14:33,540 --> 00:14:34,541 What? 226 00:14:34,833 --> 00:14:36,418 At the thrift store. 227 00:14:36,502 --> 00:14:38,545 She totally guilt tripped me about you. 228 00:14:38,629 --> 00:14:41,548 She's even more holier-than-thou than you are. 229 00:14:42,758 --> 00:14:43,759 No. 230 00:14:44,259 --> 00:14:46,803 She just doesn't care what other people think about her. 231 00:14:47,888 --> 00:14:49,723 Penelope, no, wait. It's, it's fine. 232 00:14:49,806 --> 00:14:51,225 No, it's not fine. 233 00:14:51,308 --> 00:14:53,393 My sister almost died last night. 234 00:14:53,477 --> 00:14:57,064 Do you seriously think that I care about what grade you get in English? 235 00:14:59,149 --> 00:15:00,901 You're not a real friend. 236 00:15:03,862 --> 00:15:04,905 - Hey, Coach? - Mm-hmm. 237 00:15:04,988 --> 00:15:05,989 I quit. 238 00:15:19,127 --> 00:15:22,089 I can't believe you're going. Merritt's gonna be there. 239 00:15:22,172 --> 00:15:24,216 So? I'm not going for him. 240 00:15:24,299 --> 00:15:27,052 I'm going for Lori and Casey and David. 241 00:15:27,135 --> 00:15:29,304 It's Christmas Eve, we go every year. 242 00:15:29,388 --> 00:15:32,057 I don't care. I don't wanna see him. I'm staying here. 243 00:15:32,140 --> 00:15:34,184 Ugh. 244 00:15:34,268 --> 00:15:37,145 - What? - I can't read this. 245 00:15:37,229 --> 00:15:39,898 Okay. Don't worry about it. Uh... 246 00:15:41,066 --> 00:15:43,235 I'm the only one doing anything for Christmas. 247 00:15:43,318 --> 00:15:46,196 - The decorating. The cookies. - All right. Calm down. 248 00:15:46,280 --> 00:15:49,741 It's a special ingredient, spice, I think. 249 00:15:50,576 --> 00:15:52,327 I can't read it. 250 00:15:52,411 --> 00:15:55,539 It can't be all that important. Just make them without it. 251 00:15:55,622 --> 00:15:56,790 I can't. 252 00:15:56,874 --> 00:15:59,251 It's Mom's recipe. They won't be her cookies. 253 00:16:02,337 --> 00:16:04,715 She taught it to me last Christmas. 254 00:16:06,049 --> 00:16:08,468 I can't remember what she said. 255 00:16:09,303 --> 00:16:11,513 - Forget it. - Oh, oh. 256 00:16:12,389 --> 00:16:13,807 Justin. Hey. 257 00:16:13,891 --> 00:16:15,017 It's okay. 258 00:16:17,019 --> 00:16:19,938 Anything that you bake will taste great. 259 00:16:20,022 --> 00:16:21,773 Yeah, and we'll help you. 260 00:16:21,857 --> 00:16:24,109 - We'll make our own special ingredient. - Yeah. 261 00:16:24,193 --> 00:16:25,611 That's what Mom would do. 262 00:16:25,694 --> 00:16:27,863 And they'll still have Mom in them. 263 00:16:27,946 --> 00:16:29,031 I promise. 264 00:16:30,490 --> 00:16:32,701 - Okay. - Let's do it. 265 00:16:32,784 --> 00:16:33,994 Definitely flour. 266 00:16:34,077 --> 00:16:36,121 - So we have that, for sure. - Mm-hmm. 267 00:16:39,124 --> 00:16:40,125 Dad's here. 268 00:16:44,004 --> 00:16:45,839 - Hi. - Hey, baby. 269 00:16:45,923 --> 00:16:48,383 - Merry Christmas. - Merry Christmas. 270 00:16:49,301 --> 00:16:50,594 Merry Christmas. 271 00:16:50,677 --> 00:16:52,095 - Merry Christmas. - Hey. 272 00:16:52,596 --> 00:16:53,597 - Hey. - Mm. 273 00:16:55,933 --> 00:16:57,017 Hey, buddy. 274 00:16:58,685 --> 00:17:02,022 - Merry Christmas. Huh? - Mm-hmm. 275 00:17:02,814 --> 00:17:05,609 - Merritt. - What? 276 00:17:07,694 --> 00:17:09,780 I can't believe you invited the Jeffries. 277 00:17:09,863 --> 00:17:11,615 It's, like, so awkward. 278 00:17:11,698 --> 00:17:13,784 I invited them because we love them, 279 00:17:13,867 --> 00:17:15,244 and they love us, 280 00:17:15,327 --> 00:17:17,496 and we work through our problems. 281 00:17:17,579 --> 00:17:18,580 Uh-huh. 282 00:17:19,706 --> 00:17:24,044 I'm sorry, but this whole Christmas is just feeling super fake. 283 00:17:25,337 --> 00:17:28,340 I... I know it's, it's weird, Merritt. 284 00:17:28,423 --> 00:17:29,466 We're all trying here. 285 00:17:29,550 --> 00:17:31,009 How's it gonna work tomorrow? 286 00:17:31,510 --> 00:17:33,220 We get two Christmas mornings. 287 00:17:33,303 --> 00:17:35,514 One here and one at your crappy townhouse. 288 00:17:35,597 --> 00:17:36,932 - Hey. - Merritt, hey. 289 00:17:38,684 --> 00:17:40,394 Look, I'm sorry, I, uh... 290 00:17:41,270 --> 00:17:44,106 I hate that you're still this upset, Son. 291 00:17:44,690 --> 00:17:46,900 Come on, man, tell me what I can do to make things better. 292 00:17:46,984 --> 00:17:50,237 You can stop asking me how you can make things better. 293 00:17:50,320 --> 00:17:51,488 Figure it out yourself. 294 00:17:52,364 --> 00:17:54,783 You're the reason Flora and I broke up. 295 00:17:55,367 --> 00:17:57,119 You're the reason she hates me now. 296 00:17:57,202 --> 00:17:58,912 We were doing great, and then you came over, 297 00:17:58,996 --> 00:18:00,706 and you were so worried about her, not me. 298 00:18:00,789 --> 00:18:02,708 You didn't even think about me. Your own son. 299 00:18:02,791 --> 00:18:04,293 You just assumed I'd hurt her. 300 00:18:04,376 --> 00:18:06,336 Poor innocent Flora. 301 00:18:06,420 --> 00:18:08,088 Merritt, I'm sorry. 302 00:18:08,172 --> 00:18:11,175 - Okay. I never meant to, like... - Don't, don't worry about it. 303 00:18:13,177 --> 00:18:14,386 You were right. 304 00:18:21,310 --> 00:18:22,311 No. 305 00:18:23,395 --> 00:18:24,938 That was wrong of me, 306 00:18:25,606 --> 00:18:27,441 okay, to put any of that on you. 307 00:18:28,650 --> 00:18:29,985 To make you feel... 308 00:18:33,155 --> 00:18:35,282 Merritt, I'm so proud to be your dad. 309 00:18:36,325 --> 00:18:37,326 I am. 310 00:18:38,785 --> 00:18:40,787 Do you know how very special you are, Son? 311 00:18:42,206 --> 00:18:44,708 I don't want you ever thinking any less of yourself 312 00:18:44,791 --> 00:18:45,876 because you're not. 313 00:18:48,045 --> 00:18:49,046 Mijo. 314 00:18:50,756 --> 00:18:53,717 I love you with all my heart. 315 00:18:56,887 --> 00:18:57,888 Okay? 316 00:18:59,890 --> 00:19:00,891 I'm sorry. 317 00:19:05,521 --> 00:19:06,522 Come here. 318 00:19:13,862 --> 00:19:15,113 Merry Christmas! 319 00:19:15,781 --> 00:19:18,659 - H... Should we, um... - No, come on. 320 00:19:18,742 --> 00:19:19,993 Okay. 321 00:19:21,161 --> 00:19:22,454 - Hi. - Hi. 322 00:19:22,538 --> 00:19:23,956 Merry Christmas. Uh, where's Pen? 323 00:19:24,039 --> 00:19:26,208 Uh, she... 324 00:19:26,291 --> 00:19:28,377 She, she is staying home. 325 00:19:28,460 --> 00:19:29,461 Yeah. 326 00:19:30,212 --> 00:19:31,213 Merry Christmas. 327 00:19:31,296 --> 00:19:33,340 Thank you. Hi. Merry Christmas to you, too. 328 00:19:33,423 --> 00:19:36,718 - Hi. Uh, who's hungry? - I am. It smells wonderful. 329 00:19:36,802 --> 00:19:39,012 - Hey, bud, Merry Christmas. - Merry Christmas. 330 00:19:49,439 --> 00:19:52,568 I know things are bad between us and you don't wanna talk about it, 331 00:19:52,651 --> 00:19:55,279 and I know you're pissed at my brother, I, totally, I am, too, 332 00:19:55,362 --> 00:19:57,406 but I don't want that to make things even worse. 333 00:19:57,489 --> 00:19:59,992 Okay. So, we are gonna talk. 334 00:20:00,826 --> 00:20:01,827 Now. 335 00:20:02,703 --> 00:20:03,704 Okay? 336 00:20:12,254 --> 00:20:13,714 Let's go for a walk. 337 00:20:14,673 --> 00:20:15,674 Okay. 338 00:20:21,930 --> 00:20:24,516 Hey, thanks for saying something to Dakota, by the way. 339 00:20:24,600 --> 00:20:25,767 You didn't have to do that. 340 00:20:25,851 --> 00:20:26,894 Did it help? 341 00:20:27,477 --> 00:20:31,607 - Of course not, she's the worst. - Oh. Yeah. 342 00:20:35,360 --> 00:20:37,029 - Pen... - Mm-hmm. 343 00:20:37,112 --> 00:20:38,780 I'm really sorry. 344 00:20:42,367 --> 00:20:44,661 About how I handled everything with your mom. 345 00:20:45,495 --> 00:20:48,207 You know, she was like my second mom. 346 00:20:48,957 --> 00:20:50,501 That's how I think of your mom. 347 00:20:51,793 --> 00:20:56,131 I didn't really know what to say or do or um... 348 00:21:00,219 --> 00:21:01,220 I blew it. 349 00:21:06,391 --> 00:21:10,312 I'm coming in for the bear hug. I'm coming in. Argh! 350 00:21:11,730 --> 00:21:14,149 Oh! Big group hug. 351 00:21:21,031 --> 00:21:23,742 You know, I think about your mom, like, every day. 352 00:21:27,204 --> 00:21:29,414 S-So I should've tried harder 353 00:21:29,957 --> 00:21:32,167 to understand what you've been going through. 354 00:21:34,127 --> 00:21:35,128 It's okay. 355 00:21:36,004 --> 00:21:37,714 You know, I don't even understand. 356 00:21:38,549 --> 00:21:40,342 I kinda don't want to. 357 00:21:41,552 --> 00:21:43,053 And, uh, I've just... 358 00:21:44,930 --> 00:21:46,807 I think I've been trying not to be me. 359 00:21:48,308 --> 00:21:52,604 You know. It's easier to be a cool cheerleader than a sad PK. 360 00:21:53,230 --> 00:21:54,565 You know, more fun, too. 361 00:21:55,649 --> 00:21:58,110 Or, you know, I thought. 362 00:22:00,612 --> 00:22:02,197 I'm really sorry, Pen. 363 00:22:08,412 --> 00:22:09,538 I'm really sorry, too. 364 00:22:14,251 --> 00:22:16,253 So I quit cheer, by the way. 365 00:22:16,336 --> 00:22:18,755 Wait? No, you're serious? Actually, you... 366 00:22:18,839 --> 00:22:22,301 And, uh, I don't really know what I'm gonna do instead, but... 367 00:22:23,135 --> 00:22:26,096 Truth? It really sucked doing it without you. 368 00:22:28,390 --> 00:22:30,434 Well, you can always join wrestling. 369 00:22:30,517 --> 00:22:32,060 - I mean, come on. - Uh, no, 370 00:22:32,144 --> 00:22:34,813 - I think that's all yours, don't worry. - Okay. Sorry. 371 00:22:34,897 --> 00:22:37,524 But, maybe,Gilmore re-watch over Christmas break? 372 00:22:37,608 --> 00:22:38,609 - Yes. - Let's do it. 373 00:22:38,692 --> 00:22:39,902 - Yes. - Yes. Yes! 374 00:22:39,985 --> 00:22:42,237 - I need more Rory. Oh, my gosh. - Me, too. 375 00:22:42,321 --> 00:22:43,363 Oh. 376 00:22:46,491 --> 00:22:48,744 Justin, these are so good. 377 00:22:48,827 --> 00:22:50,829 - I can really taste the love. - Thank you. 378 00:22:53,874 --> 00:22:56,543 - Thanks again for helping out at the gala. - Oh, yeah. 379 00:22:57,044 --> 00:22:58,795 And thank you... 380 00:23:00,005 --> 00:23:01,507 for being there for Merritt. 381 00:23:02,174 --> 00:23:03,342 Don't give up on him. 382 00:23:10,516 --> 00:23:12,434 Hi. Um... 383 00:23:12,518 --> 00:23:15,145 Oh. Um, I... 384 00:23:15,229 --> 00:23:17,314 Uh... I... 385 00:23:18,815 --> 00:23:21,818 I'm sorry. I, um, I didn't realize you were having people over. 386 00:23:21,902 --> 00:23:24,571 - I really should've thought to call first. - No, it's okay. 387 00:23:24,655 --> 00:23:27,574 - Do you wanna come inside? - No. Uh, no. I, um... 388 00:23:27,658 --> 00:23:30,452 You already have enough men in your house. 389 00:23:32,329 --> 00:23:34,540 These are for you. 390 00:23:34,623 --> 00:23:37,918 Oh, thank you, Joe, they're so beautiful. 391 00:23:39,086 --> 00:23:41,797 Geez. How much do you think those flowers cost? 392 00:23:41,880 --> 00:23:43,465 At least $285. 393 00:23:44,716 --> 00:23:47,344 I don't wanna keep you from your friends and family. 394 00:23:47,427 --> 00:23:49,054 I'm just headed to my sister's. 395 00:23:49,137 --> 00:23:52,432 Um, and, I've got a little something else for you. 396 00:23:52,516 --> 00:23:53,559 Oh. 397 00:23:53,642 --> 00:23:55,644 - You can open it now. - Okay. 398 00:23:56,144 --> 00:23:58,438 - I'm sorry, let me... - Oh, thank you. 399 00:23:59,481 --> 00:24:02,526 It is a green project house I worked on in the Outer Banks. 400 00:24:02,609 --> 00:24:03,610 Oh. 401 00:24:03,694 --> 00:24:07,239 And the owners gave me a weekend stay as a thank you. 402 00:24:07,322 --> 00:24:08,991 Oh, wow, it's gorgeous. 403 00:24:09,491 --> 00:24:10,826 - Yeah, um... - Wow. 404 00:24:10,909 --> 00:24:13,537 I was thinking that you and I could go there together. 405 00:24:13,620 --> 00:24:15,581 Maybe ring in the new year? 406 00:24:16,164 --> 00:24:19,960 Uh, that's just a weekend away, no cargo ships involved. 407 00:24:21,211 --> 00:24:22,629 - Oh. - And then, uh... 408 00:24:23,380 --> 00:24:25,549 maybe in the new year, you and I could... 409 00:24:26,049 --> 00:24:27,050 be together. 410 00:24:28,051 --> 00:24:29,052 Oh. 411 00:24:29,678 --> 00:24:32,139 Um... You don't have to say anything right now, 412 00:24:32,222 --> 00:24:33,724 I know it's a big step, but... 413 00:24:34,516 --> 00:24:37,019 Um... Go big or go home, right? 414 00:24:42,900 --> 00:24:44,109 Merry Christmas, Lori. 415 00:24:44,193 --> 00:24:45,861 Merry Christmas, Joe. 416 00:24:53,577 --> 00:24:54,578 Thank you. 417 00:25:02,044 --> 00:25:03,504 What're you doing? 418 00:25:03,587 --> 00:25:04,880 What does it look like? 419 00:25:05,589 --> 00:25:07,591 Okay, well, everyone's gone. You can come out now. 420 00:25:09,760 --> 00:25:11,261 - Five, four, three, two, one! - Whoa! 421 00:25:16,058 --> 00:25:17,226 I'm glad you're okay. 422 00:25:20,437 --> 00:25:23,315 I don't think I screwed you out of them letting you drive. 423 00:25:24,149 --> 00:25:27,986 If anything, I set the bar really low. 424 00:25:28,070 --> 00:25:30,030 Yeah. 425 00:25:31,073 --> 00:25:32,074 But, um... 426 00:25:33,700 --> 00:25:35,369 I am sorry. 427 00:25:37,871 --> 00:25:39,831 Don't ever do anything like that again. 428 00:25:41,333 --> 00:25:44,127 Okay? I don't wanna have to see you like I saw Dad. 429 00:25:45,629 --> 00:25:47,714 We gotta stick together, man. You and me. 430 00:25:53,387 --> 00:25:56,056 Also, Mom kinda said you have to get ready for church. 431 00:25:56,139 --> 00:25:57,850 - Okay, all right, get out. - Okay. 432 00:25:57,933 --> 00:25:59,893 Oh, you know you love me, fart face. 433 00:25:59,977 --> 00:26:01,353 - I love you, too. - Uh-huh. 434 00:26:10,654 --> 00:26:12,281 - Hey. - What? 435 00:26:12,364 --> 00:26:13,365 - Uh... - What's up? 436 00:26:14,199 --> 00:26:16,368 I wasn't gonna bring this up, but, uh... 437 00:26:17,077 --> 00:26:20,038 after that fun little Cuppa Joe drive by that just happened, 438 00:26:20,122 --> 00:26:21,123 I thought I'd... 439 00:26:22,457 --> 00:26:24,418 ask what the deal is. 440 00:26:24,501 --> 00:26:27,796 So, you guys are still seeing each other? 441 00:26:27,880 --> 00:26:29,006 Yes. 442 00:26:29,089 --> 00:26:30,799 But you slept with me. 443 00:26:31,884 --> 00:26:33,010 Yes. 444 00:26:33,093 --> 00:26:34,803 - What was that? - I... 445 00:26:36,263 --> 00:26:37,431 Old habits. 446 00:26:38,515 --> 00:26:39,516 Okay. 447 00:26:39,933 --> 00:26:41,935 Well, old habits aren't all bad. 448 00:26:42,019 --> 00:26:43,687 I mean, I liked that old habit. 449 00:26:43,770 --> 00:26:45,814 Maybe we make it a new habit. 450 00:26:46,523 --> 00:26:49,401 Uh, David. It was nice. 451 00:26:49,484 --> 00:26:51,695 Okay, it was more than nice. 452 00:26:52,487 --> 00:26:54,156 And it was probably necessary. 453 00:26:54,239 --> 00:26:56,074 Lori, it doesn't have to mean anything. 454 00:26:56,158 --> 00:26:59,119 - It happened, right? It is what it is. - Okay. Yeah. 455 00:26:59,203 --> 00:27:01,121 But that wasn't just a hook up for me. 456 00:27:01,205 --> 00:27:02,497 That was about one thing. 457 00:27:03,332 --> 00:27:04,333 You. 458 00:27:05,751 --> 00:27:07,002 I miss you. 459 00:27:07,085 --> 00:27:08,337 You miss me? 460 00:27:10,255 --> 00:27:11,632 Now, you miss me? 461 00:27:11,715 --> 00:27:13,300 My timing's always sucked. 462 00:27:14,760 --> 00:27:17,846 I'm not gonna say that there isn't a part of me 463 00:27:18,847 --> 00:27:20,641 that misses you. 464 00:27:20,724 --> 00:27:22,476 Clearly, there is. 465 00:27:23,519 --> 00:27:26,897 But I'm pretty confident that you and I sleeping together 466 00:27:28,315 --> 00:27:31,527 was a step backwards. Not forward. 467 00:27:37,241 --> 00:27:38,242 I'm sorry. 468 00:27:38,659 --> 00:27:41,662 - No. No. - Mm. No, I'm sorry. 469 00:27:42,538 --> 00:27:44,289 - Okay. We should go. - No, I... 470 00:27:45,415 --> 00:27:47,000 Hey... 471 00:27:50,170 --> 00:27:52,130 Why don't you stay here tonight? 472 00:27:52,214 --> 00:27:53,340 Not with me. 473 00:27:53,423 --> 00:27:56,260 I mean, on the couch. Um... 474 00:27:56,343 --> 00:27:58,595 And then you could be here in the morning, 475 00:27:58,679 --> 00:27:59,680 for the kids. 476 00:28:01,974 --> 00:28:04,226 Thank you. That'd be amazing. 477 00:28:04,768 --> 00:28:05,769 Yeah. 478 00:28:11,984 --> 00:28:15,445 "For God so loved the world, that He gave His only son 479 00:28:15,529 --> 00:28:18,657 so that everyone who believes in Him may not perish, 480 00:28:18,740 --> 00:28:20,158 but may have eternal life." 481 00:28:22,202 --> 00:28:23,745 Thank you, Pastor Harris. 482 00:28:26,999 --> 00:28:28,458 John 3:16. 483 00:28:29,418 --> 00:28:32,212 This year, my heart brings me to this, this simple verse, 484 00:28:32,296 --> 00:28:34,631 this humble, beautiful sacrifice. 485 00:28:34,715 --> 00:28:37,634 That God would send His only son 486 00:28:38,802 --> 00:28:41,847 so that we could have eternal life with him. 487 00:28:42,639 --> 00:28:44,016 What a gift. 488 00:28:44,099 --> 00:28:46,101 In such a small package. What... 489 00:28:46,852 --> 00:28:50,147 hope and peace and joy and love. 490 00:28:52,441 --> 00:28:53,775 I've been thinking 491 00:28:54,526 --> 00:28:56,862 about all the packages under the Jeffries' tree, 492 00:28:56,945 --> 00:29:00,407 all the wrapped gifts piled up there this year. 493 00:29:00,490 --> 00:29:03,702 I'm guessing, I'm guessing your trees are probably the same. 494 00:29:04,286 --> 00:29:05,662 And how, tomorrow morning, 495 00:29:05,746 --> 00:29:11,376 we will be sitting there surrounded by a sea of wrapping paper and open gifts. 496 00:29:13,086 --> 00:29:16,965 But Christ's gift to us, the real gift of Christmas, 497 00:29:17,716 --> 00:29:18,717 is eternal. 498 00:29:19,218 --> 00:29:22,554 Unwrapped not once, but over and over again. 499 00:29:22,638 --> 00:29:26,099 Opened, not just tomorrow morning, but every day. 500 00:29:26,892 --> 00:29:30,812 Friends, Christmas is wholly about God's love. 501 00:29:30,896 --> 00:29:34,691 I encourage you to celebrate His gift to us. 502 00:29:34,775 --> 00:29:38,529 God sacrificed His only son for us. 503 00:29:38,612 --> 00:29:41,573 Live in honor of that gift, that sacrifice. 504 00:29:41,657 --> 00:29:44,535 Put love and care for others ahead of self. 505 00:29:44,618 --> 00:29:46,662 Live that gift. 506 00:29:46,745 --> 00:29:48,830 - Live that sacrifice. - Excuse me. 507 00:29:48,914 --> 00:29:50,123 Amen. 508 00:29:50,207 --> 00:29:51,875 Amen. 509 00:30:05,180 --> 00:30:07,057 What are you doing here? 510 00:30:07,140 --> 00:30:08,809 Where are you going? 511 00:30:09,685 --> 00:30:10,769 I, uh... 512 00:30:12,145 --> 00:30:13,230 can't... 513 00:30:14,481 --> 00:30:16,400 I can't, I can't listen. 514 00:30:17,150 --> 00:30:19,653 Um, I, I... 515 00:30:22,531 --> 00:30:23,532 I feel... 516 00:30:24,658 --> 00:30:26,827 s-s-so awful. 517 00:30:28,203 --> 00:30:29,246 That night... 518 00:30:31,665 --> 00:30:33,208 when you asked me to come over. 519 00:30:34,918 --> 00:30:36,211 The reason I didn't... 520 00:30:38,839 --> 00:30:40,257 I was, I was drunk. 521 00:30:41,967 --> 00:30:46,138 I wanted to be with you. I-I-I really, I really did. 522 00:30:47,890 --> 00:30:50,142 But my dad... 523 00:30:55,147 --> 00:30:56,690 I got scared. 524 00:31:02,070 --> 00:31:03,572 And I ruined everything. 525 00:31:03,655 --> 00:31:05,073 I'm so... I'm sorry. 526 00:31:05,741 --> 00:31:07,117 Hey. Hey. Hey. 527 00:31:08,535 --> 00:31:11,496 It's, it's good that you feel awful. 528 00:31:11,580 --> 00:31:15,250 I mean, it, it's good to feel awful. 529 00:31:16,668 --> 00:31:17,711 It is? 530 00:31:17,794 --> 00:31:19,505 Yeah. Hey, trust me. 531 00:31:20,172 --> 00:31:23,842 Feeling something is so much better than feeling nothing. 532 00:31:28,138 --> 00:31:29,515 And you're not alone. 533 00:31:29,598 --> 00:31:31,808 I-I'm, I'm your friend. 534 00:31:33,894 --> 00:31:36,563 I, I do want you in my life, Merritt. 535 00:31:43,237 --> 00:31:44,238 Well... 536 00:31:46,156 --> 00:31:48,659 With our families, it's not like you really have a choice. 537 00:31:50,702 --> 00:31:51,703 Yeah. 538 00:31:52,246 --> 00:31:53,247 Yeah. 539 00:31:53,330 --> 00:31:55,290 Um, you know... 540 00:32:11,473 --> 00:32:13,725 What a holy night. 541 00:32:13,809 --> 00:32:17,145 How blessed we are with these gifts of Christmas. 542 00:32:17,980 --> 00:32:20,315 Hope and peace. 543 00:32:23,193 --> 00:32:24,194 And joy. 544 00:32:25,195 --> 00:32:26,196 And love. 545 00:32:40,127 --> 00:32:41,420 Merry Christmas, Dad. 546 00:32:41,503 --> 00:32:42,921 Merry Christmas, Flora. 547 00:32:44,089 --> 00:32:45,090 Thank you. 548 00:32:57,311 --> 00:33:01,106 ♪ Oh, holy night ♪ 549 00:33:01,190 --> 00:33:06,236 ♪ The stars are brightly shining ♪ 550 00:33:06,320 --> 00:33:09,323 ♪ It is the night ♪ 551 00:33:09,406 --> 00:33:14,578 ♪ Of our dear Savior's birth ♪ 552 00:33:16,663 --> 00:33:20,751 ♪ Long lay the world ♪ 553 00:33:20,834 --> 00:33:26,298 ♪ In sin and error pining ♪ 554 00:33:26,381 --> 00:33:29,051 ♪ Till He appeared ♪ 555 00:33:29,134 --> 00:33:33,847 ♪ A nd the soul felt it's worth ♪ 556 00:33:35,891 --> 00:33:39,811 ♪ A thrill of hope ♪ 557 00:33:39,895 --> 00:33:44,566 ♪ The weary world rejoices ♪ 558 00:33:44,650 --> 00:33:48,612 ♪ For yonder breaks ♪ 559 00:33:48,695 --> 00:33:53,534 ♪ A new and glorious morn ♪ 560 00:33:53,617 --> 00:33:56,995 ♪ Fall ♪ 561 00:33:57,079 --> 00:34:01,542 ♪ On your knees ♪ 562 00:34:01,625 --> 00:34:05,295 ♪ Oh, hear ♪ 563 00:34:05,379 --> 00:34:10,425 ♪ The angel voices ♪ 564 00:34:10,509 --> 00:34:14,763 ♪ Oh, night ♪ 565 00:34:14,847 --> 00:34:18,433 ♪ Divine ♪ 566 00:34:18,517 --> 00:34:22,396 ♪ Oh, night ♪ 567 00:34:22,479 --> 00:34:27,192 ♪ When Christ was born ♪ 568 00:34:27,276 --> 00:34:31,572 ♪ Oh, night ♪ 569 00:34:31,655 --> 00:34:35,993 ♪ Oh, holy night ♪ 570 00:34:36,076 --> 00:34:39,746 ♪ Oh, night ♪ 571 00:34:39,830 --> 00:34:42,833 ♪ Oh, night divine... 572 00:34:42,916 --> 00:34:45,169 Merry Christmas. 573 00:34:45,252 --> 00:34:46,420 Mm. 574 00:34:48,463 --> 00:34:49,840 Hey, bud. 575 00:34:49,923 --> 00:34:52,134 - Merry Christmas. - Merry Christmas. 576 00:34:55,637 --> 00:34:57,097 - Come on, already. - All right. 577 00:34:57,181 --> 00:34:58,348 We're coming. 578 00:34:58,432 --> 00:35:01,435 Hey, no presents until cocoa. Mom's rule. 579 00:35:01,518 --> 00:35:02,519 Gotcha! 580 00:35:02,603 --> 00:35:05,439 - Gotcha. There you go. Careful. - Here. Boom. 581 00:35:05,522 --> 00:35:07,316 - It's hot. - Kind of. 582 00:35:07,399 --> 00:35:08,400 Okay. 583 00:35:09,568 --> 00:35:14,656 You guys, you guys always used to get up so early on Christmas morning. 584 00:35:14,740 --> 00:35:15,991 I don't know how she did it, 585 00:35:16,074 --> 00:35:18,994 but somehow your mom always managed to beat you downstairs. 586 00:35:19,995 --> 00:35:21,121 And have cocoa waiting. 587 00:35:23,665 --> 00:35:25,834 - Mm. - Mm. 588 00:35:35,469 --> 00:35:36,803 All right, Justin. 589 00:35:36,887 --> 00:35:39,181 Let's open some presents, huh? Come on. 590 00:35:39,264 --> 00:35:40,516 Tell me what we got. 591 00:35:40,599 --> 00:35:41,600 Okay. 592 00:35:42,893 --> 00:35:45,646 - It's calling my name. - Oh. 593 00:35:45,729 --> 00:35:46,939 - Is it? I was right. - Oh! 594 00:35:47,022 --> 00:35:49,650 - Pen gets the first one. - You were right. Okay, let me. 595 00:35:49,733 --> 00:35:51,652 - It's a pretty good haul. - Mm. 596 00:35:53,987 --> 00:35:55,322 Actually, 597 00:35:56,198 --> 00:35:57,241 there is one more. 598 00:35:59,034 --> 00:36:00,244 What did you do? 599 00:36:01,078 --> 00:36:02,246 - Wh... - Come on. 600 00:36:07,876 --> 00:36:09,962 I didn't say anything. 601 00:36:10,045 --> 00:36:11,672 What is it? 602 00:36:15,175 --> 00:36:17,261 - Wh... - You said you always wanted one. 603 00:36:18,053 --> 00:36:19,054 Oh. 604 00:36:19,137 --> 00:36:21,181 Oh, my gosh, David. 605 00:36:23,725 --> 00:36:26,812 There's a lot of things I should've done a long time ago, Lori, 606 00:36:26,895 --> 00:36:28,689 but it's not too late for me to start doing them now. 607 00:36:30,941 --> 00:36:32,484 It's not too late for us. 608 00:36:33,360 --> 00:36:35,737 Um, this is very sweet. 609 00:36:36,738 --> 00:36:37,823 But... 610 00:36:40,868 --> 00:36:43,161 I'm not the same person I used to be. 611 00:36:44,454 --> 00:36:45,789 David, you... 612 00:36:47,291 --> 00:36:49,209 You are barely two months' sober. 613 00:36:51,253 --> 00:36:52,921 I'll always be an alcoholic. 614 00:36:55,507 --> 00:36:57,134 I'm always gonna be in recovery. 615 00:37:00,179 --> 00:37:04,183 You know, my sponsor said, "Shame doesn't help anything." 616 00:37:04,850 --> 00:37:05,851 He was right. 617 00:37:07,394 --> 00:37:09,646 I don't wanna beat myself up anymore. 618 00:37:11,148 --> 00:37:12,524 I don't wanna go backwards. 619 00:37:13,400 --> 00:37:16,820 Living alone these last few months, I've realized I've taken everything... 620 00:37:16,904 --> 00:37:19,531 I took the kids, I took you, I took it all for granted. 621 00:37:20,741 --> 00:37:23,452 I'm not gonna do that again, no matter what happens here. 622 00:37:24,828 --> 00:37:25,871 Listen to me. 623 00:37:28,957 --> 00:37:30,626 We can be happy again, Lori. 624 00:37:31,502 --> 00:37:34,546 We can be together again. We just need to decide to do it. 625 00:37:37,674 --> 00:37:40,010 It's not that simple. 626 00:37:41,345 --> 00:37:42,346 Isn't it? 627 00:37:47,309 --> 00:37:49,603 Why didn't you say all this stuff a year ago? 628 00:37:51,855 --> 00:37:53,106 I wasn't here a year ago. 629 00:37:57,110 --> 00:37:58,529 I am now. 630 00:38:15,796 --> 00:38:17,005 What's, what's this one? 631 00:38:18,215 --> 00:38:19,675 - I don't know. - Oh. 632 00:38:19,758 --> 00:38:22,761 Um, that was under the Christmas decorations and stuff. 633 00:38:23,345 --> 00:38:26,598 - I thought it was from you, Dad. - Nope, not from me. Let's see. 634 00:38:33,897 --> 00:38:34,898 Why don't you open it? 635 00:38:58,297 --> 00:39:01,717 "Merry Christmas. Love, Mom." 636 00:39:16,190 --> 00:39:19,401 - There's something for everyone. - Did you know about this? 637 00:39:23,947 --> 00:39:24,948 Pen. 638 00:39:30,329 --> 00:39:32,289 It's Mom's jewelry box. 639 00:39:49,848 --> 00:39:51,934 Is that for me? Thank you. 640 00:40:08,617 --> 00:40:10,202 Here, let me. 641 00:40:11,620 --> 00:40:14,248 There we go. Come on. Right. 642 00:40:17,459 --> 00:40:22,214 ♪ Away in a manger, no crib for a bed ♪ 643 00:40:23,757 --> 00:40:29,221 ♪ Little lord Jesus lay down His sweet head ♪ 644 00:40:29,304 --> 00:40:30,764 That's you. 645 00:40:30,848 --> 00:40:32,516 - That's me? - You were pretty cute. 646 00:40:32,599 --> 00:40:33,600 That's me. 647 00:40:33,684 --> 00:40:37,187 ♪ The stars in the sky look down where He lay ♪ 648 00:40:38,730 --> 00:40:43,735 ♪ The little Lord Jesus asleep on the hay ♪ 649 00:40:46,238 --> 00:40:47,781 I think he likes Christmas. 650 00:40:50,534 --> 00:40:52,452 Say hi to Daddy, Justin. 651 00:40:52,536 --> 00:40:54,496 Say hi to Daddy. 652 00:40:54,580 --> 00:40:55,956 Say hi to Daddy. 653 00:40:59,209 --> 00:41:00,836 I know. I know. It's okay. 654 00:41:01,670 --> 00:41:03,672 Look how happy you made her. 655 00:41:11,555 --> 00:41:12,639 It's from my mom. 656 00:41:13,557 --> 00:41:14,892 Oh, Pen. 657 00:42:27,506 --> 00:42:28,507 Hi, Mommy. 658 00:43:08,589 --> 00:43:10,632 My dearest Malcolm. 659 00:43:10,716 --> 00:43:12,134 Merry Christmas. 660 00:43:12,968 --> 00:43:16,555 How I wish I was there to celebrate with our beautiful children. 661 00:43:17,055 --> 00:43:18,056 With you. 662 00:43:21,727 --> 00:43:23,145 My gift for you 663 00:43:24,188 --> 00:43:25,689 is my hope for your future. 664 00:43:27,107 --> 00:43:30,235 A hope that you find love again. 665 00:43:31,987 --> 00:43:35,282 Someone who loves our kids as much as we do. 666 00:43:39,578 --> 00:43:41,246 Someone who shares your faith. 667 00:43:42,414 --> 00:43:43,957 Who loves God as we do. 668 00:43:45,918 --> 00:43:49,671 Someone who truly, deeply cares for you. 669 00:43:51,590 --> 00:43:53,133 Someone you love. 670 00:43:55,469 --> 00:43:56,678 Someone who loves you. 671 00:43:59,097 --> 00:44:01,558 My dearest Malcolm, this is my hope 672 00:44:02,351 --> 00:44:03,435 and my peace 673 00:44:04,228 --> 00:44:05,229 and my joy. 674 00:44:06,855 --> 00:44:07,856 My love. 675 00:44:54,570 --> 00:44:55,904 - Hi. - Hi. 676 00:44:55,988 --> 00:44:59,950 I was just thinking... I can't believe you're here. 677 00:45:00,909 --> 00:45:02,411 Oh, I need to talk to you. 678 00:45:02,494 --> 00:45:03,829 I need to talk to you. 679 00:45:04,580 --> 00:45:06,790 I am so confused, Malcolm. 680 00:45:06,874 --> 00:45:09,334 I'm not. Not anymore. 681 00:45:09,418 --> 00:45:11,670 You know, the other day, a few weeks ago, 682 00:45:11,753 --> 00:45:14,506 uh, you said that we aren't good for each other. 683 00:45:15,340 --> 00:45:17,259 But that couldn't be further from the truth. 684 00:45:17,843 --> 00:45:20,012 You're nothing but good for me. 685 00:45:22,639 --> 00:45:23,891 I love you, Lori. 686 00:45:25,726 --> 00:45:28,979 And I know that scares you to hear, so before you run back inside, 687 00:45:29,062 --> 00:45:31,857 I just, I wanna say it's not because I'm lonely, 688 00:45:31,940 --> 00:45:33,233 or because I'm grieving, 689 00:45:33,317 --> 00:45:35,235 or because I'm frightened of the future, 690 00:45:35,319 --> 00:45:37,070 or that we're easy. 691 00:45:37,154 --> 00:45:38,947 I mean, come on, who are we kidding? 692 00:45:39,031 --> 00:45:41,450 You and I are definitely not easy. 693 00:45:41,533 --> 00:45:44,286 It's because you are the person... 694 00:45:46,413 --> 00:45:50,000 You're the person that I wanna spend every day and every night with. 695 00:45:56,715 --> 00:45:58,091 Are you gonna say something? 696 00:46:25,410 --> 00:46:27,496 I am so confused, Malcolm. 697 00:46:29,498 --> 00:46:30,707 I don't know what to do. 698 00:46:31,500 --> 00:46:34,419 On the one hand, I have this new guy, Joe, 699 00:46:34,503 --> 00:46:38,841 and he's totally into me, and, you know, I'm pretty into him, too. 700 00:46:38,924 --> 00:46:41,718 And he wants to, like, take me away on vacations 701 00:46:41,802 --> 00:46:46,640 and spend all the time with me that I'll let him. 702 00:46:46,723 --> 00:46:51,270 And he's, like, all potential. You know? Like, an unknown. 703 00:46:51,353 --> 00:46:52,396 Mm-hmm. 704 00:46:52,479 --> 00:46:53,480 But... 705 00:46:54,147 --> 00:46:55,148 I... 706 00:46:58,110 --> 00:46:59,987 I slept with David the other night. 707 00:47:01,238 --> 00:47:02,447 - David? - Yeah. 708 00:47:02,531 --> 00:47:05,158 - Uh, I thought you and Joe... - No, I know. I know. 709 00:47:05,242 --> 00:47:06,869 It was totally fear-based. 710 00:47:06,952 --> 00:47:09,413 And, probably, like, self-destructive. 711 00:47:09,496 --> 00:47:10,664 You know? But then... 712 00:47:11,373 --> 00:47:13,750 Malcolm, he wants back in. 713 00:47:13,834 --> 00:47:16,211 And he's saying all these things. 714 00:47:16,295 --> 00:47:18,672 And if he had said them sooner... 715 00:47:18,755 --> 00:47:20,340 - But he didn't. - Mm. 716 00:47:20,424 --> 00:47:22,050 And I know that, but... 717 00:47:23,677 --> 00:47:25,762 he is the father of my children. 718 00:47:25,846 --> 00:47:28,390 Right? And he is a known quantity. And... 719 00:47:29,391 --> 00:47:32,811 Like, I woke up this morning and I saw them with him... 720 00:47:34,438 --> 00:47:37,274 I don't know, maybe he's right. 721 00:47:37,816 --> 00:47:41,528 Maybe it's not too late for us 722 00:47:42,154 --> 00:47:44,990 to be a family again? 723 00:47:48,452 --> 00:47:51,455 Lori, I can't... I can't tell you what to do. 724 00:47:52,080 --> 00:47:53,165 No, I know. 725 00:47:55,167 --> 00:47:58,629 But could you, anyway? 726 00:48:00,339 --> 00:48:01,381 Trust yourself. 727 00:48:02,007 --> 00:48:03,467 You'll find your way forward. 728 00:48:07,054 --> 00:48:10,057 Oh, I'm sorry. I'm doing all the talking and you came to me. 729 00:48:10,140 --> 00:48:11,808 What did you want to talk about? 730 00:48:13,227 --> 00:48:14,561 I just, uh... 731 00:48:15,604 --> 00:48:17,189 I wanted to say Merry Christmas. 732 00:48:19,316 --> 00:48:20,484 Merry Christmas. 733 00:48:21,735 --> 00:48:24,196 - Do you wanna come in? - No, no, I should get back. 734 00:48:24,947 --> 00:48:25,948 Okay. 735 00:48:27,533 --> 00:48:29,493 Good night. Get in there.