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WITHOUT EVER KNOWING US
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Good evening.
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I saw you looking at me from below.
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I often see you passing by,
head down.
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One day the alarm will be for real.
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It's just us here, it's crazy.
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There aren't even any guards yet.
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Harry.
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Adam.
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How do you cope?
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What ?
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Listen.
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Not a sound.
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We are in the middle of London
and we hear nothing.
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I put on some music,
but it's worse when it stops.
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I even bought a...
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a white noise machine.
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But it sounds like a voice
who speaks to me.
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The windows don't open.
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Normal, they don't want us to jump.
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It's bad for business,
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bodies crushed on the ground.
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Who would want to live here?
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A drink?
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It's Japanese.
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It's like the best,
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but I don't know why.
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No, thank you.
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What if I went in anyway?
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Not for a drink...
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For what you want.
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It's not a good idea.
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Do I scare you?
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We don't do anything if you don't like me.
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There are vampires at my door.
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EXTERIOR - SUBURBAN HOUSE 1987
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This train has the destination
East Grinstead.
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It will serve Clapham Junction,
East Croydon, Sanderstead,
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Riddlesdown, Upper Warlingham,
Oxted and East Grinstead.
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Mom!
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Hi.
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I took something strong,
for an evening like that.
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No, thank you.
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Here we go ?
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Where?
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At home.
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She's going to be really happy to see you.
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Guess who was hanging out in the park?
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Is it him?
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Yes, that's him.
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Look at his eyes.
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Yes, it's you.
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Don't stay there.
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Between.
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Where do you live now?
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Not around here, that's for sure.
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In London.
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It's chic!
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To where?
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All alone ?
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Are you the owner?
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Yes.
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I have a small apartment.
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So, you see?
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I knew he would do well.
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It's a luxury to live in pollution.
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And what do you do?
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Writer.
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See?
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No, no.
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I'm not rich or anything like that.
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I knew you would be an artist.
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And what do you write?
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I love Stephen King.
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Carrie, Cujo...
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I'm not a real writer.
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I write screenplays.
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For the cinema.
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Or TV, when necessary.
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A writer.
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It's so awesome.
If I spoke to the neighbors, I would tell them.
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The writers
know less about the real world
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than most people.
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What do you know about it?
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You barely know how to write.
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It's true.
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Writer.
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Our son.
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We are really happy
that you succeeded.
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Enough of the pedal stuff.
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Our boy is back.
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What do you wear?
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You'll see.
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Do you remember your little red car?
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You loved him!
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You wanted to go on the real road.
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It's my first memory.
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Was it a Ford that hit him?
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That's it.
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It was green.
Do you remember?
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You flew like a rag doll.
You went so high!
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But it was nothing.
You had a few bruises.
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At the hospital, they didn't believe me.
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And the fireworks, when did you freak out?
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Do you remember?
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Were you six?
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No, he was bigger.
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It started,
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you started screaming, I had to bring you back.
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It's true ?
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You fell asleep on my shoulder.
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I don't remember.
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You felt bad, you were panicked.
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And I just wanted
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enjoy the fireworks.
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You were a sensitive little boy.
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Maybe.
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Are you still afraid of fireworks?
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No !
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It's crazy, he talks like my mother.
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- Did you notice?
- Yes.
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When he said:
“I’m not a real writer.”
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Say it again.
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Certainly not.
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It's nice to see you again.
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I didn't believe it anymore.
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But you're here.
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I am here.
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Come back quickly.
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One of us will be there.
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Please.
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I will come back.
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GOOD.
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We're going back.
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Good night, my darling.
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Sorry about the other night.
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It's nothing.
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Don't worry.
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Hi.
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I actually really like whiskey.
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If you want to have a drink...
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Are you coming in?
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Do you want a drink?
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What do you have?
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Vodka, beers...
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Weed, if you prefer.
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Yes, it's better.
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I avoid alcohol.
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Do you like living here?
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It will be better with neighbors.
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If there ever is one.
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Do you have any friends in the area?
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No, not really.
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And you ?
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Not really.
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Almost all of them have left London.
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They want a garden for children
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and grandparents not far away.
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But you didn't want to leave.
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No.
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What would I do in Dorking?
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It's not for people like me.
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You're quite a faggot, aren't you?
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So much the better.
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Well, gay.
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Fag...
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I can't call myself a faggot.
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It was a violent insult.
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But gay is the same.
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Everyone said...
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“So gay, your cut.”
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“So gay, your couch.”
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“Too gay, your sneakers, your bag…”
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So, faggot would almost be polite.
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It makes you forget that we're sucking cock.
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I imagine you're not with anyone.
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I always see you alone.
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Are you often single?
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Often single?
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I believe, yes.
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- And you ?
- Yes.
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It's not for lack of trying.
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What if I kissed you?
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All right.
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Sorry.
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How are you ?
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It's been a long time...
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I have to remember to breathe.
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How are you ?
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Is that you?
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Unfortunately.
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You were cute.
193
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I hate photos of myself.
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As a child, I was fat.
195
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But hey...
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The big ones, we don't ask them
if they have a girlfriend.
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We would have been friends.
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We would have skipped football
to watch the boys.
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Is he your father?
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He's handsome.
201
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I try to write about them.
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Is this your job?
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00:29:40,760 --> 00:29:42,135
How is it going?
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It's weird.
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I don't see my father much.
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00:29:51,552 --> 00:29:52,718
And you ?
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No, they are dead.
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Just before I turned 12.
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Both?
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Car accident.
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Not very original.
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I'm sorry.
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It was a long time ago.
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It doesn't change anything.
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I would like to see you again.
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00:30:37,717 --> 00:30:39,426
I can sleep here, if you...
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I have a better idea.
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Not tonight.
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I want to see you again, but...
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Don't justify yourself.
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THANKS.
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My darling, you are back.
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Of course.
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You're soaked.
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Take that off.
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I don't undress.
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Stop, it's me.
Raise your arms.
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I put them in the dryer.
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I'm all alone, is that okay with you?
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- Of course.
- Great.
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I want to know everything.
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00:31:43,507 --> 00:31:45,174
Get in, go change.
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00:31:45,799 --> 00:31:47,590
I'm so excited!
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00:32:55,214 --> 00:32:56,798
Nothing suits you anymore?
235
00:32:56,964 --> 00:32:57,923
No.
236
00:32:58,089 --> 00:33:00,297
Here, some of your father's things.
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Take that away too,
I dry it with the rest.
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Come on, take this off me.
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00:33:09,880 --> 00:33:11,088
Honestly...
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So say...
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What?
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You were a little boy.
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And you are more so.
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00:33:37,213 --> 00:33:39,672
You've changed, but it's still you.
245
00:33:45,504 --> 00:33:46,921
I saw you hairy.
246
00:33:47,421 --> 00:33:48,587
Like your father.
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Sorry.
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00:33:52,879 --> 00:33:54,629
A hairy chest, I like it.
249
00:34:00,046 --> 00:34:01,837
Do you know who you remind me of?
250
00:34:02,879 --> 00:34:03,921
Who ?
251
00:34:05,879 --> 00:34:07,712
You are the portrait of my father.
252
00:34:09,171 --> 00:34:10,296
It's true ?
253
00:34:11,962 --> 00:34:14,296
In my memories as a little girl.
254
00:34:15,629 --> 00:34:17,171
Isn't that crazy?
255
00:34:18,837 --> 00:34:21,504
I see you
both at the same time.
256
00:34:28,171 --> 00:34:30,753
I prepared what you prefer.
Well, I hope.
257
00:34:31,086 --> 00:34:32,545
I heat the water
258
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and you tell me everything.
259
00:35:03,795 --> 00:35:04,920
Delicious.
260
00:35:05,086 --> 00:35:06,045
Great.
261
00:35:06,211 --> 00:35:10,211
Your father doesn't want me to ask
but you don't have a wedding ring.
262
00:35:10,628 --> 00:35:12,003
Do you have a girlfriend?
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00:35:15,335 --> 00:35:17,627
I see her as brown, not too thin.
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Smart, obviously.
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SO ?
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00:35:27,752 --> 00:35:28,794
What ?
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00:35:29,460 --> 00:35:30,710
Do you have one?
268
00:35:33,752 --> 00:35:35,169
I don't have a girlfriend.
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00:35:38,169 --> 00:35:39,294
It's a shame.
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00:35:49,502 --> 00:35:51,752
I'm not interested in girls.
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By women.
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00:35:53,544 --> 00:35:54,585
How so ?
273
00:35:55,710 --> 00:35:56,710
Well...
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I'm gay.
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00:36:02,293 --> 00:36:03,584
Homosexual?
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Yes, that's it.
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00:36:06,293 --> 00:36:07,418
It's true ?
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Since when?
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For a long time.
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That's to say ?
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Always.
282
00:36:16,418 --> 00:36:17,793
You don't look gay.
283
00:36:19,418 --> 00:36:21,459
I don't see what you mean.
284
00:36:21,626 --> 00:36:23,584
But yes, you see very well.
285
00:36:30,418 --> 00:36:33,543
Here's something
that you wouldn't tell the neighbors.
286
00:36:35,209 --> 00:36:37,168
I admit that I am surprised.
287
00:36:38,584 --> 00:36:40,459
I don't know what I think about it.
288
00:36:41,043 --> 00:36:43,709
Did you ever think it was possible?
289
00:36:43,876 --> 00:36:45,084
Of course not.
290
00:36:45,792 --> 00:36:48,583
No parents
doesn't want to think that about her child.
291
00:36:54,292 --> 00:36:55,875
I see it well.
292
00:36:56,917 --> 00:36:58,833
People don't laugh?
293
00:36:59,250 --> 00:37:00,208
No.
294
00:37:00,625 --> 00:37:02,000
Things have changed.
295
00:37:02,542 --> 00:37:03,917
Nobody's laughing?
296
00:37:04,417 --> 00:37:05,833
Not in front of me.
297
00:37:06,708 --> 00:37:08,208
Does everyone know that?
298
00:37:08,625 --> 00:37:09,625
Do you say it?
299
00:37:10,125 --> 00:37:12,542
On the street or in the stores?
300
00:37:13,125 --> 00:37:14,833
It depends on the street.
301
00:37:15,750 --> 00:37:18,125
People know it.
It doesn't bother them.
302
00:37:20,250 --> 00:37:22,292
You don't want to get married,
have children?
303
00:37:22,542 --> 00:37:23,833
I can have some.
304
00:37:23,1000 --> 00:37:25,917
Men get married.
Women too.
305
00:37:27,875 --> 00:37:29,208
Between them?
306
00:37:31,041 --> 00:37:32,124
For what ?
307
00:37:32,582 --> 00:37:33,457
How so ?
308
00:37:34,249 --> 00:37:36,499
It’s butter and butter’s money.
309
00:37:40,624 --> 00:37:42,499
You want to get married
and have children?
310
00:37:42,749 --> 00:37:45,457
I don't know.
It was impossible before.
311
00:37:45,624 --> 00:37:48,832
It wasn't even worth it
to ask the question.
312
00:37:56,166 --> 00:37:57,166
It's cold.
313
00:38:05,957 --> 00:38:06,749
How are you ?
314
00:38:06,916 --> 00:38:07,791
Yes.
315
00:38:09,791 --> 00:38:10,582
Are you sure?
316
00:38:13,291 --> 00:38:16,956
I never knew what was happening
in your weird little head.
317
00:38:20,081 --> 00:38:22,081
You were always running away.
318
00:38:25,331 --> 00:38:28,123
Once you went to the station,
319
00:38:28,290 --> 00:38:30,081
but you had lost your money.
320
00:38:30,998 --> 00:38:31,831
Do you remember?
321
00:38:31,998 --> 00:38:34,373
Yes, Grandma's 5 pound note.
322
00:38:34,540 --> 00:38:35,623
Yes, that's it.
323
00:38:37,915 --> 00:38:39,415
Where were you hoping to go?
324
00:38:43,123 --> 00:38:44,248
I don't know.
325
00:38:46,540 --> 00:38:47,623
In London.
326
00:38:48,248 --> 00:38:49,331
I imagine.
327
00:38:50,540 --> 00:38:51,623
In London?
328
00:38:53,290 --> 00:38:54,373
Thin.
329
00:38:56,498 --> 00:38:57,498
Once,
330
00:38:57,665 --> 00:38:59,748
you went to the end of the garden,
331
00:39:00,331 --> 00:39:01,747
but you cut yourself
332
00:39:01,914 --> 00:39:04,622
and you came back, sheepish,
with blood everywhere,
333
00:39:04,789 --> 00:39:05,872
and you hit
334
00:39:06,039 --> 00:39:07,747
so that I can open it to you.
335
00:39:08,539 --> 00:39:09,705
I see her.
336
00:39:10,955 --> 00:39:12,122
Barely.
337
00:39:16,414 --> 00:39:18,622
They are said to have a solitary life.
338
00:39:22,205 --> 00:39:23,914
No, we don't say that anymore.
339
00:39:25,747 --> 00:39:27,247
Don't you feel alone?
340
00:39:30,830 --> 00:39:32,705
Not because I'm gay.
341
00:39:34,330 --> 00:39:35,455
Not really.
342
00:39:37,539 --> 00:39:38,664
Not really.
343
00:39:46,663 --> 00:39:48,996
And this terrible disease?
344
00:39:49,246 --> 00:39:51,163
I saw the ads on TV,
345
00:39:51,329 --> 00:39:52,413
with the graves...
346
00:39:52,579 --> 00:39:54,496
- Should I be worried?
- No.
347
00:39:54,788 --> 00:39:55,746
Stop.
348
00:39:59,579 --> 00:40:00,954
Everything has changed.
349
00:40:05,454 --> 00:40:06,663
Everything has changed.
350
00:40:10,788 --> 00:40:12,538
I can't know that.
351
00:40:22,954 --> 00:40:24,579
Your clothes must be dry.
352
00:40:27,121 --> 00:40:29,871
Take the cookies, I won't eat them.
353
00:41:14,162 --> 00:41:15,370
What's wrong?
354
00:41:17,327 --> 00:41:18,369
Yes, it's okay.
355
00:41:20,702 --> 00:41:22,452
I caught a cold, that's all.
356
00:41:24,911 --> 00:41:26,036
You have a fever.
357
00:41:27,827 --> 00:41:28,911
I was...
358
00:41:29,869 --> 00:41:31,327
I took the rain.
359
00:41:33,494 --> 00:41:35,244
Shall I run you a bath?
360
00:41:35,827 --> 00:41:38,202
My grandmother says it cures everything.
361
00:41:38,411 --> 00:41:39,619
I don't like baths.
362
00:41:39,786 --> 00:41:42,244
Stop your bullshit.
Everyone likes it.
363
00:41:43,786 --> 00:41:45,744
Don't be shy with me.
364
00:41:46,702 --> 00:41:48,577
Yes, easy to say.
365
00:41:58,661 --> 00:41:59,994
Should I close my eyes?
366
00:42:00,161 --> 00:42:01,286
Please.
367
00:42:04,035 --> 00:42:05,201
Is it better?
368
00:42:11,660 --> 00:42:13,951
I thought about you and me today.
369
00:42:16,451 --> 00:42:19,368
We watched bullshit on TV
on Friday evening.
370
00:42:23,118 --> 00:42:25,076
We ate on your couch.
371
00:42:27,285 --> 00:42:30,785
We were watching old Top of the Pops
from before I was born.
372
00:42:35,285 --> 00:42:37,285
I also thought of something else.
373
00:42:39,535 --> 00:42:40,993
To fuck you.
374
00:42:42,868 --> 00:42:43,868
Oh yes ?
375
00:42:45,118 --> 00:42:47,659
Or you fuck me, I don't care.
376
00:42:49,200 --> 00:42:50,409
Are you doing this?
377
00:42:56,159 --> 00:42:58,575
Otherwise, it doesn't matter.
It's not obligatory.
378
00:42:58,742 --> 00:43:00,825
I haven't done it for a long time,
379
00:43:01,159 --> 00:43:02,367
obviously.
380
00:43:03,700 --> 00:43:04,950
Obviously ?
381
00:43:06,367 --> 00:43:07,659
I was too scared
382
00:43:09,034 --> 00:43:10,284
to die.
383
00:43:12,867 --> 00:43:15,534
It must be hard to imagine,
for you.
384
00:43:16,659 --> 00:43:17,867
A little.
385
00:43:59,741 --> 00:44:02,241
You said you don't see often
your father.
386
00:44:07,533 --> 00:44:08,741
And your mother?
387
00:44:09,491 --> 00:44:10,658
The same.
388
00:44:12,574 --> 00:44:13,783
How is it done?
389
00:44:15,324 --> 00:44:16,783
Do they know you're queer?
390
00:44:17,116 --> 00:44:18,115
Of course.
391
00:44:20,615 --> 00:44:21,990
And that suits them?
392
00:44:24,032 --> 00:44:25,240
It suits them.
393
00:44:25,865 --> 00:44:27,532
They're super old fashioned.
394
00:44:28,448 --> 00:44:31,198
It suits them less than many people.
395
00:44:32,948 --> 00:44:34,823
It doesn't bother them...
396
00:44:35,573 --> 00:44:37,115
if you don't talk about it too much.
397
00:44:40,282 --> 00:44:42,115
You could say that I...
398
00:44:43,865 --> 00:44:46,032
drifted towards the limit of the circle.
399
00:44:47,657 --> 00:44:49,573
Almost to the limit.
400
00:44:50,198 --> 00:44:51,573
Almost on the other side.
401
00:44:55,573 --> 00:44:56,573
That's to say ?
402
00:44:56,740 --> 00:44:58,240
The family circle.
403
00:45:00,490 --> 00:45:01,782
My sister and her children,
404
00:45:02,781 --> 00:45:04,864
my big brother, who got married,
405
00:45:06,114 --> 00:45:07,156
they are...
406
00:45:07,614 --> 00:45:10,364
they are all well in the center.
407
00:45:13,281 --> 00:45:14,572
But it doesn't matter.
408
00:45:17,947 --> 00:45:19,114
For what ?
409
00:45:21,781 --> 00:45:23,322
Because
410
00:45:25,072 --> 00:45:26,947
I don't go there often.
411
00:45:30,906 --> 00:45:32,489
Does it hurt you?
412
00:45:36,572 --> 00:45:38,989
No, I think it's inevitable.
413
00:45:42,697 --> 00:45:43,739
For what ?
414
00:45:56,488 --> 00:45:58,946
I always
felt foreign, with them.
415
00:45:59,113 --> 00:46:00,238
In fact,
416
00:46:01,655 --> 00:46:05,613
coming out puts a word
over a distance that was already there.
417
00:46:10,321 --> 00:46:11,488
In the end,
418
00:46:12,571 --> 00:46:14,446
It's no one's fault.
419
00:46:28,821 --> 00:46:29,988
What ?
420
00:46:35,404 --> 00:46:36,570
It's funny.
421
00:46:39,904 --> 00:46:42,195
It's better now, of course.
422
00:46:47,362 --> 00:46:50,737
But it doesn't take much
to take you back,
423
00:46:53,154 --> 00:46:55,820
back then, when your flesh was raw.
424
00:47:04,654 --> 00:47:06,154
Do I still have a fever?
425
00:47:09,820 --> 00:47:10,945
A little.
426
00:47:29,986 --> 00:47:31,361
Do you want to sleep here?
427
00:48:17,943 --> 00:48:19,360
She won't be long.
428
00:48:20,527 --> 00:48:21,693
No problem.
429
00:48:22,568 --> 00:48:24,027
I wanted to talk to him.
430
00:48:24,277 --> 00:48:25,402
I know.
431
00:48:27,777 --> 00:48:29,652
Your grandfather's favorite.
432
00:48:30,610 --> 00:48:32,568
At the time, I didn't really like
433
00:48:33,652 --> 00:48:35,027
but I got a taste for it.
434
00:48:36,818 --> 00:48:39,860
If you want to see her freak out,
break this thing.
435
00:48:43,318 --> 00:48:44,693
Come on, sit down.
436
00:48:57,359 --> 00:48:58,317
Did she tell you?
437
00:49:00,734 --> 00:49:02,692
She was scared
that you don't come back.
438
00:49:04,401 --> 00:49:06,151
But you know her.
439
00:49:06,901 --> 00:49:08,442
Don't blame him.
440
00:49:08,692 --> 00:49:09,859
I don't blame him.
441
00:49:10,276 --> 00:49:13,901
She needs to rectify
everything she had imagined.
442
00:49:15,484 --> 00:49:17,859
She will understand
that it doesn't concern her.
443
00:49:23,359 --> 00:49:24,442
And you ?
444
00:49:26,567 --> 00:49:27,692
What, me?
445
00:49:28,109 --> 00:49:29,317
What do you think?
446
00:49:32,776 --> 00:49:34,441
It wasn't a shock.
447
00:49:36,525 --> 00:49:38,275
You were a bit of a jerk.
448
00:49:38,900 --> 00:49:41,941
Unable to throw a ball.
I tried everything.
449
00:49:42,233 --> 00:49:43,150
Nothing to do.
450
00:49:43,316 --> 00:49:44,316
Impossible.
451
00:49:44,483 --> 00:49:46,233
It seems like a horrible cliché.
452
00:49:46,400 --> 00:49:47,316
Do you know how to throw?
453
00:49:47,483 --> 00:49:48,900
- No.
- Well there you go.
454
00:49:59,316 --> 00:50:00,983
Would you have wanted me to know?
455
00:50:02,400 --> 00:50:03,566
I don't know.
456
00:50:04,691 --> 00:50:07,191
You were crying in your room after school.
457
00:50:09,441 --> 00:50:10,983
Did the boys bother you?
458
00:50:13,441 --> 00:50:14,733
Not just boys.
459
00:50:15,650 --> 00:50:16,941
What were they doing?
460
00:50:19,607 --> 00:50:21,024
They called me a girl,
461
00:50:22,274 --> 00:50:26,315
they refused to play with me,
put my head in the toilet,
462
00:50:26,857 --> 00:50:28,149
were throwing thumbtacks at me.
463
00:50:28,649 --> 00:50:29,774
Shit.
464
00:50:33,357 --> 00:50:34,399
It's true,
465
00:50:35,815 --> 00:50:37,440
kids, it's very stupid.
466
00:50:46,940 --> 00:50:49,649
Why didn't you come see me
when I cried?
467
00:50:50,482 --> 00:50:52,857
Why didn't you tell me all this?
468
00:50:54,190 --> 00:50:56,149
Answer first.
469
00:50:57,024 --> 00:50:58,232
Be frank.
470
00:51:00,940 --> 00:51:03,607
I didn't admit
that you are a painkiller.
471
00:51:03,774 --> 00:51:07,814
I knew that in their place,
I would have bothered you too.
472
00:51:10,189 --> 00:51:13,189
I think I knew it too.
473
00:51:16,023 --> 00:51:18,731
That's why I didn't tell you anything.
474
00:51:32,356 --> 00:51:33,856
When she told me,
475
00:51:35,398 --> 00:51:37,898
I thought about the jokes we made.
476
00:51:41,231 --> 00:51:43,564
When we imitated your English teacher
477
00:51:43,731 --> 00:51:45,314
with his effeminate side.
478
00:51:47,189 --> 00:51:51,188
You told me all the time
not to cross your legs like a woman.
479
00:51:56,022 --> 00:51:57,147
It's true ?
480
00:52:00,147 --> 00:52:01,147
Yes.
481
00:52:01,855 --> 00:52:04,563
I think about it every time I pass them.
482
00:52:13,355 --> 00:52:14,855
I have good memories.
483
00:52:15,022 --> 00:52:16,772
I hope so, damn it.
484
00:52:17,105 --> 00:52:18,438
I hope so!
485
00:52:22,063 --> 00:52:24,147
You loved decorating the Christmas tree.
486
00:52:29,022 --> 00:52:31,438
It was driving you crazy.
Every year.
487
00:52:32,438 --> 00:52:34,272
And you always left me
488
00:52:34,812 --> 00:52:36,104
put the fairy on top.
489
00:52:36,396 --> 00:52:37,396
It's true.
490
00:52:57,271 --> 00:52:59,646
I'm sorry
for ever coming to see you.
491
00:53:00,312 --> 00:53:01,354
It doesn't matter.
492
00:53:01,521 --> 00:53:03,062
Yes, it's serious.
493
00:53:03,396 --> 00:53:04,646
I understand.
494
00:53:04,812 --> 00:53:06,021
It makes...
495
00:53:07,062 --> 00:53:08,854
It's been so long.
496
00:53:09,062 --> 00:53:09,729
Stop!
497
00:53:21,520 --> 00:53:23,186
Should I hold you in my arms?
498
00:53:24,228 --> 00:53:25,770
Yes, please.
499
00:53:36,395 --> 00:53:37,686
It's okay, big guy.
500
00:53:38,436 --> 00:53:39,436
How are you.
501
00:54:11,060 --> 00:54:12,394
After that,
502
00:54:14,894 --> 00:54:16,227
I want to go out.
503
00:54:17,852 --> 00:54:18,852
You
504
00:54:19,810 --> 00:54:21,019
and me,
505
00:54:21,894 --> 00:54:23,019
together,
506
00:54:24,685 --> 00:54:26,185
in the real world.
507
00:54:46,144 --> 00:54:47,352
What do you drink?
508
00:54:48,394 --> 00:54:49,269
A pint.
509
00:54:51,351 --> 00:54:52,309
THANKS.
510
00:55:10,809 --> 00:55:12,601
Damn, I missed it!
511
00:55:13,059 --> 00:55:14,143
I don't hear anything.
512
00:55:14,976 --> 00:55:16,059
Do you dance?
513
00:55:16,476 --> 00:55:17,893
When I've had enough.
514
00:55:18,518 --> 00:55:19,934
So we drink.
515
00:56:01,767 --> 00:56:02,683
Where did you get this?
516
00:56:02,850 --> 00:56:04,350
In my wallet.
517
00:56:04,850 --> 00:56:05,933
I had forgotten it.
518
00:56:15,850 --> 00:56:17,433
It must be ketamine.
519
00:56:18,350 --> 00:56:19,433
It's true ?
520
00:56:19,642 --> 00:56:20,849
Have you ever taken any?
521
00:56:23,307 --> 00:56:24,682
Will you take care of me?
522
00:56:24,849 --> 00:56:26,141
I will do my best.
523
01:00:31,927 --> 01:00:34,552
They make a sensational entrance
this week,
524
01:00:34,636 --> 01:00:37,052
They are number 4, the Pet Shop Boys:
525
01:00:37,219 --> 01:00:39,386
"You Were Always on My Mind."
526
01:00:50,261 --> 01:00:51,386
Isn't that okay?
527
01:00:53,801 --> 01:00:55,176
You have a fever.
528
01:00:55,510 --> 01:00:56,760
He has a fever.
529
01:01:02,343 --> 01:01:03,093
Come on, here.
530
01:01:03,926 --> 01:01:04,885
Come on.
531
01:01:07,260 --> 01:01:08,635
I'm sneaking around.
532
01:01:18,926 --> 01:01:21,135
I always thought of you
533
01:01:26,676 --> 01:01:29,385
I wasn't by your side
534
01:01:30,843 --> 01:01:33,176
When no one was there
535
01:01:34,176 --> 01:01:36,967
And I always hid you
536
01:01:38,009 --> 01:01:40,342
The joy of being with you
537
01:01:41,925 --> 01:01:45,342
If sometimes I neglected you
538
01:01:45,550 --> 01:01:48,717
I was blind, forgive me
539
01:01:49,550 --> 01:01:52,800
I always thought of you
540
01:01:56,675 --> 01:01:59,675
Tell me
541
01:02:00,467 --> 01:02:04,175
That your love will not die
542
01:02:04,342 --> 01:02:06,342
Give me
543
01:02:08,092 --> 01:02:11,550
One last chance to see your smile
544
01:02:11,842 --> 01:02:13,717
Your smile
545
01:02:22,591 --> 01:02:23,549
Get closer.
546
01:02:23,716 --> 01:02:25,633
Ready? I support.
547
01:02:26,674 --> 01:02:27,716
Here we go.
548
01:02:33,299 --> 01:02:34,758
Merry Christmas !
549
01:02:53,508 --> 01:02:54,799
Is all that true?
550
01:02:56,758 --> 01:02:58,341
Do you feel it's true?
551
01:03:01,924 --> 01:03:03,133
So, there you go.
552
01:03:05,591 --> 01:03:06,883
But how long?
553
01:03:07,673 --> 01:03:09,173
I can't answer you.
554
01:03:12,715 --> 01:03:15,465
It's not ours
to decide when it's over.
555
01:03:22,007 --> 01:03:23,548
You're not going out, are you?
556
01:03:24,382 --> 01:03:25,590
To go where?
557
01:03:26,257 --> 01:03:27,507
At the Walsh's.
558
01:03:27,757 --> 01:03:28,882
The Walshes?
559
01:03:34,007 --> 01:03:34,923
Wait.
560
01:03:35,090 --> 01:03:36,923
Promise me you won't go out.
561
01:03:37,215 --> 01:03:38,382
I promise you.
562
01:03:38,965 --> 01:03:40,923
I'll sleep next door.
563
01:03:42,840 --> 01:03:44,090
I promise.
564
01:03:45,757 --> 01:03:46,757
Okay?
565
01:03:48,465 --> 01:03:49,590
Sleep well.
566
01:04:13,881 --> 01:04:15,172
What, my darling?
567
01:04:17,714 --> 01:04:19,131
I can't sleep.
568
01:04:25,839 --> 01:04:27,172
Do you want to come?
569
01:04:29,797 --> 01:04:31,589
- I can ?
- Of course.
570
01:04:53,338 --> 01:04:55,255
It still smells the same.
571
01:04:58,213 --> 01:04:59,880
You came every night.
572
01:05:00,005 --> 01:05:02,005
You couldn't sleep.
573
01:05:03,213 --> 01:05:05,046
You were always afraid.
574
01:05:07,546 --> 01:05:10,296
Assassins who were going to enter,
rage...
575
01:05:10,963 --> 01:05:12,505
nuclear war.
576
01:05:14,005 --> 01:05:15,755
Do we still get rabies?
577
01:05:21,630 --> 01:05:25,212
I wanted you to grow up so much
so I can sleep.
578
01:05:30,170 --> 01:05:31,337
Sorry.
579
01:05:32,754 --> 01:05:34,170
Why do you say that ?
580
01:05:37,004 --> 01:05:38,712
It's me who's sorry.
581
01:05:40,754 --> 01:05:43,212
I should have taken advantage of my little demon.
582
01:05:59,462 --> 01:06:00,670
Where did you go?
583
01:06:02,545 --> 01:06:03,879
After.
584
01:06:06,629 --> 01:06:07,920
At grandma's.
585
01:06:08,669 --> 01:06:10,086
She took me to Dublin.
586
01:06:10,253 --> 01:06:11,711
That's what I thought.
587
01:06:13,461 --> 01:06:16,919
You didn't go to the family
from your father, at Grandma May's?
588
01:06:18,211 --> 01:06:20,294
They said she was too sad.
589
01:06:20,586 --> 01:06:21,836
What ?
590
01:06:22,753 --> 01:06:24,378
For losing his son.
591
01:06:24,711 --> 01:06:27,586
My mother had lost her daughter,
Is it less serious?
592
01:06:30,586 --> 01:06:32,044
It wasn't going well.
593
01:06:33,211 --> 01:06:36,378
It's crazy, she saw you grow up
and not me.
594
01:06:39,836 --> 01:06:41,586
Are some still there?
595
01:06:45,294 --> 01:06:46,794
It makes sense.
596
01:06:49,086 --> 01:06:51,211
What was it like with mom?
597
01:06:53,127 --> 01:06:55,335
Have you integrated better at school?
598
01:06:58,293 --> 01:06:59,918
I did the right thing.
599
01:07:06,585 --> 01:07:10,210
I'm sorry we weren't there
when you needed us.
600
01:07:13,043 --> 01:07:16,210
And I blame myself
for not having really been there before.
601
01:07:16,377 --> 01:07:18,085
No, that's not true.
602
01:07:19,085 --> 01:07:21,418
I was far from being a model mother.
603
01:07:23,377 --> 01:07:26,460
But I tell myself
that I would have improved.
604
01:07:28,002 --> 01:07:29,502
If I had had time.
605
01:07:33,793 --> 01:07:35,418
When I was a teenager,
606
01:07:36,627 --> 01:07:37,960
or even after,
607
01:07:38,417 --> 01:07:39,876
even after twenty years,
608
01:07:40,459 --> 01:07:42,417
I imagined everything.
609
01:07:43,292 --> 01:07:44,459
What then?
610
01:07:47,167 --> 01:07:49,501
Everything we could have done together.
611
01:07:51,501 --> 01:07:53,042
Down to the smallest details.
612
01:07:53,209 --> 01:07:55,084
Shopping at the Whitgift Centre,
613
01:07:55,917 --> 01:07:57,334
birthdays,
614
01:07:58,209 --> 01:07:59,709
days in London.
615
01:08:00,501 --> 01:08:03,376
The Planetarium, the London Dungeon.
616
01:08:03,542 --> 01:08:05,084
I always wanted to go there.
617
01:08:06,126 --> 01:08:07,126
I know.
618
01:08:09,334 --> 01:08:11,917
The holidays
that we could have spent together.
619
01:08:12,084 --> 01:08:14,417
- Did we go to Disneyland?
- Yes.
620
01:08:15,001 --> 01:08:16,292
I was 14 years old.
621
01:08:17,292 --> 01:08:19,042
It rained without stopping.
622
01:08:19,792 --> 01:08:22,042
And they closed Space Mountain.
623
01:08:22,501 --> 01:08:24,708
We argued every day.
624
01:08:25,125 --> 01:08:26,291
For what ?
625
01:08:26,458 --> 01:08:29,125
The others did the same
with their parents.
626
01:08:30,166 --> 01:08:31,375
They were tearing each other apart
627
01:08:31,541 --> 01:08:34,333
as if living together
was a nightmare.
628
01:08:36,583 --> 01:08:37,875
Were we patching things up?
629
01:08:40,333 --> 01:08:41,875
It wasn't worth it.
630
01:08:43,958 --> 01:08:45,291
We were together,
631
01:08:46,666 --> 01:08:47,708
so...
632
01:08:49,708 --> 01:08:50,1000
it wasn't serious.
633
01:08:57,958 --> 01:08:59,083
How are you ?
634
01:09:02,708 --> 01:09:03,666
No.
635
01:09:04,583 --> 01:09:06,083
It's going to be okay, big guy.
636
01:09:15,957 --> 01:09:17,124
It'll be OK.
637
01:09:21,207 --> 01:09:23,707
Why are you here?
You must not be there.
638
01:11:36,371 --> 01:11:37,621
Mom !
639
01:11:43,412 --> 01:11:44,454
Everything is fine.
640
01:11:49,829 --> 01:11:51,829
- What day is it?
- Sunday.
641
01:11:53,496 --> 01:11:54,579
Why...
642
01:11:55,079 --> 01:11:57,287
Why is it only Sunday?
643
01:11:57,537 --> 01:11:59,329
You called your parents.
644
01:11:59,496 --> 01:12:01,746
You were screaming throughout the club.
645
01:12:03,037 --> 01:12:05,287
I didn't know what to do, so...
646
01:12:06,537 --> 01:12:09,536
I brought you back
and I watched you fall asleep.
647
01:12:14,745 --> 01:12:16,495
You looked terrified.
648
01:12:19,828 --> 01:12:21,036
I am.
649
01:12:21,370 --> 01:12:22,745
Come on.
650
01:12:32,703 --> 01:12:33,953
I am here.
651
01:12:40,953 --> 01:12:41,995
It'll be OK.
652
01:12:48,828 --> 01:12:52,120
I slept in their bed
the night they went out.
653
01:12:53,245 --> 01:12:54,744
I had to go with them.
654
01:12:55,785 --> 01:12:59,369
Have a drink at the Walsh's,
for the Christmas holidays.
655
01:13:01,327 --> 01:13:02,660
Around midnight,
656
01:13:04,494 --> 01:13:07,785
two police officers knocked on the door,
a man and a woman.
657
01:13:11,952 --> 01:13:14,785
He had beautiful eyes, very gentle,
658
01:13:15,244 --> 01:13:17,535
and a two-day beard, very black,
659
01:13:17,702 --> 01:13:19,535
as if drawn on his face.
660
01:13:23,327 --> 01:13:25,744
The car skidded on ice.
661
01:13:26,952 --> 01:13:28,744
They had both been drinking.
662
01:13:30,994 --> 01:13:32,577
Dad was killed instantly.
663
01:13:32,744 --> 01:13:37,202
They took mom to Saint Mary
and she died a few days later.
664
01:13:37,869 --> 01:13:39,327
Were you able to see her?
665
01:13:42,326 --> 01:13:43,951
To say goodbye to him?
666
01:13:47,243 --> 01:13:49,909
My grandmother thought
that it would be too hard.
667
01:13:51,368 --> 01:13:54,951
She had passed through the windshield,
she had lost an eye.
668
01:13:55,326 --> 01:13:57,076
She was pretty banged up.
669
01:13:57,243 --> 01:13:58,243
Shit.
670
01:14:03,201 --> 01:14:04,951
I wanted to find his eye.
671
01:14:07,993 --> 01:14:11,409
I didn't want
let someone else find it.
672
01:14:12,534 --> 01:14:14,659
I imagined him, at the side of the road,
673
01:14:17,034 --> 01:14:18,493
looking at me.
674
01:14:18,659 --> 01:14:19,743
"Hi."
675
01:14:23,409 --> 01:14:25,742
But I found a little piece
676
01:14:26,158 --> 01:14:27,658
of the windshield.
677
01:14:32,867 --> 01:14:34,450
I saw blood on it,
678
01:14:34,617 --> 01:14:36,242
but perhaps I dreamed.
679
01:14:39,783 --> 01:14:43,617
The nurse said mom
had woken up just before she died.
680
01:14:46,700 --> 01:14:49,867
She must have been lost,
she could barely see...
681
01:14:50,908 --> 01:14:52,908
Dad wasn't there, me neither.
682
01:14:55,575 --> 01:14:58,283
I can't even imagine
what you experienced.
683
01:15:00,075 --> 01:15:02,242
You must have felt so alone.
684
01:15:03,117 --> 01:15:06,408
Yes, but I always felt alone.
685
01:15:06,617 --> 01:15:07,825
Even before.
686
01:15:09,658 --> 01:15:11,282
That was new.
687
01:15:12,699 --> 01:15:13,866
It was...
688
01:15:19,407 --> 01:15:20,699
terror...
689
01:15:22,282 --> 01:15:25,157
to stay alone forever.
690
01:15:30,616 --> 01:15:32,157
As we get older,
691
01:15:32,449 --> 01:15:33,657
this feeling...
692
01:15:35,574 --> 01:15:37,032
solidified.
693
01:15:40,991 --> 01:15:43,407
A knot here, all the time.
694
01:15:45,366 --> 01:15:46,657
Losing my parents,
695
01:15:47,199 --> 01:15:49,366
it got mixed up with everything else.
696
01:15:50,074 --> 01:15:51,616
With being gay...
697
01:15:54,407 --> 01:15:55,781
The impression that...
698
01:16:00,990 --> 01:16:02,740
the future doesn't matter.
699
01:16:08,156 --> 01:16:09,323
Does this speak to you?
700
01:16:20,490 --> 01:16:23,490
I know it's easy
to no longer love each other.
701
01:16:43,530 --> 01:16:44,530
Adam.
702
01:16:52,030 --> 01:16:53,322
Are you coming with me?
703
01:16:57,072 --> 01:16:58,155
Where?
704
01:17:00,155 --> 01:17:01,780
Let me show you.
705
01:17:24,947 --> 01:17:26,071
Who is it at?
706
01:17:27,529 --> 01:17:28,571
My parents.
707
01:17:30,613 --> 01:17:32,113
But who lives here?
708
01:17:35,321 --> 01:17:36,404
Everything is fine.
709
01:17:36,821 --> 01:17:37,946
Don't worry.
710
01:17:54,363 --> 01:17:55,321
Adam.
711
01:18:16,195 --> 01:18:17,778
- Where are they?
- Who?
712
01:18:22,612 --> 01:18:23,695
Who is that?
713
01:18:24,278 --> 01:18:25,445
My parents.
714
01:18:26,112 --> 01:18:28,612
This is our home,
the kitchen, the wallpaper.
715
01:18:28,778 --> 01:18:31,028
We ate
fish and chips on Friday,
716
01:18:31,195 --> 01:18:33,445
so that my mother
still believes himself to be Catholic.
717
01:18:33,612 --> 01:18:35,403
Come on, I'll take you home.
718
01:18:35,778 --> 01:18:37,195
- This is my home.
- No.
719
01:18:37,362 --> 01:18:38,362
Mom ?
720
01:18:38,653 --> 01:18:39,570
Dad ?
721
01:18:39,737 --> 01:18:40,778
We're going back.
722
01:18:40,945 --> 01:18:42,237
You go back.
723
01:18:42,653 --> 01:18:44,112
Go home.
I stay.
724
01:18:48,903 --> 01:18:49,987
Where are they?
725
01:19:02,069 --> 01:19:03,236
Do you see them?
726
01:19:13,777 --> 01:19:14,652
Open me up.
727
01:19:15,611 --> 01:19:16,736
Please.
728
01:19:18,069 --> 01:19:19,194
Open me up.
729
01:19:27,861 --> 01:19:30,152
He must continue to live.
730
01:19:31,402 --> 01:19:33,319
We don't let him live his life.
731
01:19:33,486 --> 01:19:35,277
I think we're helping him.
732
01:19:35,777 --> 01:19:38,194
- It's too early.
- No, it's not normal.
733
01:19:38,486 --> 01:19:40,277
Why didn't you open?
734
01:19:44,068 --> 01:19:45,068
Where is he?
735
01:19:45,235 --> 01:19:46,276
Harry is there?
736
01:19:49,235 --> 01:19:50,568
But we saw it.
737
01:19:53,860 --> 01:19:55,651
I wanted to introduce him to you.
738
01:19:56,818 --> 01:19:59,276
I don't think it works like that.
739
01:19:59,485 --> 01:20:01,193
He's a handsome guy, anyway.
740
01:20:03,443 --> 01:20:04,693
It's your
741
01:20:05,026 --> 01:20:06,401
friend?
742
01:20:09,735 --> 01:20:12,568
My boyfriend?
Go ahead, you can say it.
743
01:20:13,568 --> 01:20:15,985
All right.
Is this your boyfriend?
744
01:20:20,860 --> 01:20:21,943
I don't know.
745
01:20:24,735 --> 01:20:26,068
Do you like it?
746
01:20:30,650 --> 01:20:32,359
Is it that weird?
747
01:20:35,567 --> 01:20:38,609
I don't know.
I've never been in love, so...
748
01:20:40,317 --> 01:20:41,525
Not really.
749
01:20:42,025 --> 01:20:43,150
So, that...
750
01:20:44,609 --> 01:20:46,859
I don't know if that's it.
751
01:20:48,109 --> 01:20:49,317
My dear.
752
01:20:50,692 --> 01:20:51,817
In any case,
753
01:20:52,775 --> 01:20:55,317
he seems to care about you a lot.
754
01:20:55,900 --> 01:20:57,067
I understand it,
755
01:20:57,192 --> 01:20:58,692
but I'm biased.
756
01:21:02,859 --> 01:21:04,859
Would you like to be in love with him?
757
01:21:32,524 --> 01:21:34,358
Big guy, we need to...
758
01:21:34,983 --> 01:21:36,066
Don't say it.
759
01:21:37,191 --> 01:21:38,691
Please.
760
01:21:38,858 --> 01:21:40,024
It's necessary.
761
01:21:43,066 --> 01:21:44,399
With your mother,
762
01:21:45,524 --> 01:21:48,274
we think it is better
that you don't come anymore.
763
01:21:50,274 --> 01:21:51,274
All right.
764
01:21:52,274 --> 01:21:54,774
You won't be able to stop yourself from coming.
765
01:21:55,899 --> 01:21:57,773
And we see what it does to you.
766
01:21:59,232 --> 01:22:00,440
It doesn't matter to me.
767
01:22:00,607 --> 01:22:01,607
But yes.
768
01:22:02,773 --> 01:22:04,273
It stops you from moving forward.
769
01:22:05,148 --> 01:22:06,732
So, I will come less.
770
01:22:07,065 --> 01:22:08,607
Once a year.
771
01:22:08,940 --> 01:22:09,982
For Christmas.
772
01:22:10,148 --> 01:22:11,315
Listen, big guy.
773
01:22:11,898 --> 01:22:13,732
It can't last forever.
774
01:22:13,898 --> 01:22:16,107
That's not what I'm asking.
775
01:22:16,273 --> 01:22:17,273
But...
776
01:22:18,523 --> 01:22:20,190
It hasn't been long enough.
777
01:22:21,857 --> 01:22:23,190
Really not.
778
01:22:28,732 --> 01:22:30,857
But it would never have been enough.
779
01:22:44,314 --> 01:22:45,439
Listen.
780
01:22:46,606 --> 01:22:47,939
I have an idea.
781
01:22:49,022 --> 01:22:50,106
What if...
782
01:22:52,189 --> 01:22:54,647
What if we went to the thing we love
783
01:22:55,272 --> 01:22:56,814
the most in the world?
784
01:22:58,856 --> 01:23:00,564
It probably still exists.
785
01:23:01,814 --> 01:23:03,272
Almost like Disneyland.
786
01:23:03,439 --> 01:23:04,481
And cheaper.
787
01:23:11,731 --> 01:23:13,064
What do you think?
788
01:23:45,646 --> 01:23:47,605
The Family package, please.
789
01:23:48,563 --> 01:23:49,771
That's a lot.
790
01:23:50,688 --> 01:23:51,771
It'll be fine.
791
01:23:57,146 --> 01:23:58,438
I'm not very hungry.
792
01:23:58,771 --> 01:23:59,938
Me neither.
793
01:24:07,021 --> 01:24:08,146
I have a question.
794
01:24:08,313 --> 01:24:10,105
- Stop.
- I want to know.
795
01:24:11,605 --> 01:24:12,770
Was it quick?
796
01:24:13,062 --> 01:24:15,145
- You don't have to ask.
- It's important.
797
01:24:15,312 --> 01:24:16,979
What if it was slow and excruciating?
798
01:24:17,145 --> 01:24:18,562
- What does that change?
- All !
799
01:24:18,729 --> 01:24:19,729
It was quick.
800
01:24:21,354 --> 01:24:22,437
It's true ?
801
01:24:24,520 --> 01:24:25,604
For both of us?
802
01:24:27,895 --> 01:24:30,479
You don't seem so sure.
Don't lie.
803
01:24:30,645 --> 01:24:31,645
It was quick.
804
01:24:32,145 --> 01:24:33,270
Very fast.
805
01:24:38,895 --> 01:24:40,562
It's a relief.
806
01:24:40,895 --> 01:24:41,937
If we want.
807
01:24:42,437 --> 01:24:44,187
It was running through my head.
808
01:24:49,937 --> 01:24:51,812
What should we say to each other?
809
01:24:55,479 --> 01:24:57,936
I don't have any big truths to share.
810
01:24:59,019 --> 01:25:01,478
But since Adam is older,
811
01:25:01,644 --> 01:25:03,103
maybe he has some?
812
01:25:07,019 --> 01:25:08,644
Maybe you shouldn't say anything.
813
01:25:09,311 --> 01:25:09,936
Maybe.
814
01:25:13,394 --> 01:25:16,436
But now that we know you,
we are very proud.
815
01:25:19,853 --> 01:25:21,853
I didn't do anything extraordinary.
816
01:25:22,061 --> 01:25:24,311
- I swam...
- But you held on.
817
01:25:24,728 --> 01:25:25,894
It was hard.
818
01:25:26,686 --> 01:25:27,978
But you're still here.
819
01:25:30,478 --> 01:25:31,811
We are proud of you.
820
01:25:47,268 --> 01:25:48,393
Dad.
821
01:25:53,310 --> 01:25:54,352
Stay.
822
01:25:54,727 --> 01:25:56,685
Stay a little longer.
823
01:25:56,935 --> 01:25:58,227
I can't.
824
01:25:58,810 --> 01:26:00,143
I love you, my darling.
825
01:26:03,560 --> 01:26:04,643
It's true ?
826
01:26:08,185 --> 01:26:10,018
Sometimes I had doubts.
827
01:26:11,768 --> 01:26:16,018
It wasn't easy, but I'm happy
that we were together in the end.
828
01:26:22,102 --> 01:26:23,185
Me too.
829
01:26:25,352 --> 01:26:26,352
So...
830
01:26:27,977 --> 01:26:30,392
I know I never knew how to say it.
831
01:26:30,892 --> 01:26:32,434
The words didn't come out.
832
01:26:35,851 --> 01:26:37,684
But I love you very much.
833
01:26:40,809 --> 01:26:43,517
And even more since I met you.
834
01:26:54,226 --> 01:26:56,142
It's important that you believe me.
835
01:26:57,434 --> 01:26:58,517
I believe you.
836
01:27:00,142 --> 01:27:01,767
And I love you, too.
837
01:27:03,434 --> 01:27:04,434
Dad ?
838
01:27:07,976 --> 01:27:09,309
Did you hear me?
839
01:27:11,934 --> 01:27:13,183
Adam, are you there?
840
01:27:13,516 --> 01:27:15,891
I don't see you anymore.
Why don't I see you anymore?
841
01:27:17,266 --> 01:27:18,350
I am here.
842
01:27:20,016 --> 01:27:21,225
You are here.
843
01:27:24,475 --> 01:27:25,975
I feel you are there.
844
01:27:28,058 --> 01:27:29,975
Your skin is soft and warm.
845
01:27:31,391 --> 01:27:32,516
Listen carefully.
846
01:27:33,558 --> 01:27:34,850
Promise me
847
01:27:35,600 --> 01:27:37,725
that you're going to try with Harry.
848
01:27:40,433 --> 01:27:42,391
I would have liked it, I know.
849
01:27:43,100 --> 01:27:44,850
We'll have to help him a little.
850
01:27:47,266 --> 01:27:49,100
He looks sad.
851
01:27:53,183 --> 01:27:54,350
Do you hear me?
852
01:27:56,141 --> 01:27:57,100
I hear you.
853
01:27:59,640 --> 01:28:00,765
It's good.
854
01:28:02,682 --> 01:28:05,807
I hope that together,
you will be a little happier.
855
01:28:18,557 --> 01:28:21,724
Such a kind and sweet little boy.
856
01:28:54,389 --> 01:28:55,098
Enjoy your food.
857
01:28:55,181 --> 01:28:56,056
THANKS.
858
01:31:52,594 --> 01:31:53,552
Harry?
859
01:33:52,467 --> 01:33:54,092
What are you doing here?
860
01:34:02,799 --> 01:34:04,132
I wanted to see you.
861
01:34:08,299 --> 01:34:09,757
Why are you coming here?
862
01:34:14,716 --> 01:34:17,674
I said goodbye to them,
so I'm coming to see you.
863
01:34:33,841 --> 01:34:35,841
- How are you.
- No, it's not okay.
864
01:34:46,256 --> 01:34:49,923
I was too scared the other night.
I couldn't be alone.
865
01:34:56,381 --> 01:34:57,465
I know.
866
01:35:10,256 --> 01:35:11,423
I'm sorry.
867
01:35:14,298 --> 01:35:15,673
I was too scared
868
01:35:20,673 --> 01:35:22,215
to let you in.
869
01:35:40,380 --> 01:35:42,130
I'm next door, right?
870
01:35:46,297 --> 01:35:48,047
- We're going up to my house.
- No.
871
01:35:48,255 --> 01:35:50,130
I want you to tell me.
872
01:35:52,797 --> 01:35:54,589
I smell the smell.
873
01:35:56,172 --> 01:35:57,839
I feel it in my throat.
874
01:36:09,005 --> 01:36:10,922
Why did no one find me?
875
01:36:16,796 --> 01:36:18,629
Where were my mother and father?
876
01:36:21,546 --> 01:36:22,421
I found you.
877
01:36:22,588 --> 01:36:25,796
I don't want
that you see me like that, there.
878
01:36:26,129 --> 01:36:27,713
You're not there.
879
01:36:31,588 --> 01:36:32,713
You are here.
880
01:36:39,046 --> 01:36:40,046
You are here.
881
01:36:42,546 --> 01:36:43,629
With me.
882
01:36:50,504 --> 01:36:51,754
Let's go up to my house.
883
01:37:11,837 --> 01:37:13,170
I saw her.
884
01:37:14,212 --> 01:37:15,337
Your mother.
885
01:37:16,503 --> 01:37:18,545
Your father too, in the house.
886
01:37:22,087 --> 01:37:23,587
They saw you too.
887
01:37:24,378 --> 01:37:25,503
It's true ?
888
01:37:28,837 --> 01:37:30,962
My father thinks you're a handsome guy.
889
01:37:37,045 --> 01:37:38,420
They would have loved you.
890
01:37:40,003 --> 01:37:41,253
Both.
891
01:37:41,712 --> 01:37:42,878
It's good.
892
01:37:44,920 --> 01:37:47,419
Were you able to say what you wanted to say?
893
01:37:50,419 --> 01:37:52,502
I don't know, but I was with them.
894
01:37:54,169 --> 01:37:56,752
It's good that you were reunited.
895
01:38:08,544 --> 01:38:09,669
I'm afraid.
896
01:38:12,669 --> 01:38:13,794
I know.
897
01:38:18,586 --> 01:38:20,169
I am here, close to you.
898
01:38:29,002 --> 01:38:31,876
Don't let it get tied up again.
899
01:38:52,168 --> 01:38:53,335
Come on.
900
01:39:21,959 --> 01:39:23,584
Not a sound.
901
01:39:27,709 --> 01:39:31,167
I could never stand this silence
in the building.
902
01:39:34,917 --> 01:39:36,459
Are you playing a record?
903
01:39:38,750 --> 01:39:40,875
- What do you want to listen to?
- Choose.
904
01:39:56,834 --> 01:39:59,375
I will protect you from the faceless claw.
905
01:40:00,917 --> 01:40:03,708
I will hunt vampires
far from your door.
906
01:42:37,205 --> 01:42:40,163
Based on the novel Presences of a Summer,
by Taichi Yamada
907
01:45:17,535 --> 01:45:20,534
Subtitles: Sylvestre Meininger