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We never speak about
what happened in Belfast.

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Perhaps because beforehand
we were so full of hope.

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- Hi, Mrs. Gilmore.
- Hello.

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But a single day can
change the course of any life.

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Leaving Ireland,
leaving our home...

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...alone,

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unmoored, adrift.

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- And now...
- Five?

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...we seem to have become
exiles from each other

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and the promises we made.

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The promise I made.

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♪ Oh-oh, yes ♪

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♪ I'm the great pretender ♪

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♪ Pretending that
I'm doing well ♪

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♪ My need is such ♪

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♪ I pretend too much ♪

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♪ I'm lonely ♪

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♪ But no one can tell... ♪

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Bye, then.

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Bye, darling.

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Sure I can't tempt you?

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What's that?

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♪ I played the game ♪

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♪ But to my real shame ♪

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♪ You've left me ♪

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♪ To grieve... ♪

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♪ Snow had fallen ♪

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♪ Snow on snow ♪

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♪ Snow on snow... ♪

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The body of Christ.

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-James...
-Amen.

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...chapter four,
verse 14 tells us

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you do not even know
what will happen tomorrow.

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What is your life?

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You are a mist that appears
for a little while

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and then vanishes.

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On this night of the year
more than any other,

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we are reminded
to cherish those...

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I just wanted to say,
have a lovely Christmas.

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-Oh, happy Christmas, dear.
-Yeah, so nice to see you.

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-Yeah.
-See you soon.

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Okay.

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Good night.
Happy Christmas to you.

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-Merry Christmas.
-Good night.

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Oh, sorry.

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I'm back.

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It's freezing out there.

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It's ringing.

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It's the answer machine.

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- Leave a message.
- Aye.

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Hi, Michael.
It's Mum and Dad here.

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Not sure what time it is

56
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- where you are.
- Merry Christmas, son.

57
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Give Toby a kiss from Granddad.

58
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Just calling to see how you
and the family are settling in.

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You know, first Christmas
in your new abode.

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All right, well, uh,
we're around, so...

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Lots of love.

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What's this?

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Surprise.

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Don't tell me. Don't tell me.

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Shoes.

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It's a little something--
for both of us.

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Amsterdam?

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I thought it was time
for an adventure.

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That's... fantastic.

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- Flights, hotel?
- Mm.

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You've outdone yourself,
Mrs. Gilmore.

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Start the New Year off
with a bang.

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You'd better believe it.

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You and me.

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Me and you.

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Do you have
the passports, or do I?

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Passports,
eye drops, phone charger.

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All in your shoulder bag.

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What about my special shampoo?

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That, too.

81
00:10:03,211 --> 00:10:06,127
Uh, what's the limit again?

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That's six minutes.

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Someone whose opinion I trust

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once said I was flamboyant
wearing this.

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I was never entirely sure
whether that was a good thing

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or a bad thing.

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Oh, no, the knot's all wrong.

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-What?
-Here.

89
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Right.

90
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Don't choke me.

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It's tempting.

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-All right.
-There.

93
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-That's better.
-Yeah. That's good.

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-Okay. I'll...
-Right.

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Oh, that's seven minutes.
I'm calling them.

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Uh, there's the taxi now.

97
00:10:48,691 --> 00:10:50,475
Oh!

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Right. Uh...

99
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-Uh, case.
-Right.

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-Is that everything?
-Uh, yeah. Think so.

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Sure?

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Well, some people have
more luggage than sense.

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There it is.

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Where did you say
the shampoo was again?

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Sweet before takeoff, modom?

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For
everyone's comfort and safety,

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would you please place
all hand baggage

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under the seats in front of you

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or in the overhead lockers,
providing they will close.

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Oh. Nearly forgot.

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What?

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00:12:03,897 --> 00:12:06,377
-Stop you from being sick.
-How?

113
00:12:07,639 --> 00:12:09,903
It's a wristband.

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00:12:09,946 --> 00:12:12,732
Someone at church
recommended them.

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Presses on
your pulse point here.

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I'd be better off
saying a prayer.

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Please, God, don't make me
vomit on this flight.

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- All right?
- Yeah.

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Looks nice.

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00:13:02,607 --> 00:13:04,044
- Hello.
- Hello.

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- Hello.
- How are you?

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00:13:05,523 --> 00:13:06,873
Welcome to Amsterdam.

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Thank you.

124
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Oh.

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Here we are.

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Huh. Hard to tell.

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Let's try this way.

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Yeah, this is it.

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Try the other one.

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Oh.

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There you go. We're in.

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Let there be...

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...light.

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Oh, very nice.

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00:14:01,797 --> 00:14:03,190
Oh.

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00:14:03,233 --> 00:14:05,714
It's bigger than I thought.

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00:14:05,757 --> 00:14:06,976
It's lovely.

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00:14:07,020 --> 00:14:08,586
Yeah.

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00:14:11,502 --> 00:14:14,375
Oh, would you look
at that gray sky?

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Maybe next time,
you book somewhere

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in one of
the sunnier hemispheres?

142
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Time to test the bed.

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00:14:33,829 --> 00:14:35,787
How is it?

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Hard as a brick runway.

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00:14:39,139 --> 00:14:41,097
Perfect.

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00:14:41,141 --> 00:14:43,230
In fact, uh...

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I might have a wee snooze.

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00:14:45,362 --> 00:14:46,973
Oh, it's the middle
of the afternoon.

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So?

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00:14:48,713 --> 00:14:50,715
So, you never take a nap
in the middle of the afternoon.

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00:14:50,759 --> 00:14:53,022
Yeah, but we're on holiday.
It's always different.

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-You don't mind, do you?
-Oh, if you insist.

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Half an hour. No more.

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Chocolate, sir?

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00:15:00,203 --> 00:15:01,422
Oh, thank you, modom.

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00:15:10,953 --> 00:15:12,607
Oh, lovely.

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00:15:13,738 --> 00:15:15,523
This is the life.

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00:15:28,101 --> 00:15:30,494
Ooh.

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00:15:31,626 --> 00:15:33,236
-Ah. Hello.
-Hello.

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Good evening.

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00:15:34,846 --> 00:15:37,371
Um, could you recommend
somewhere not too pricey

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-for a drink this evening?
-You are in the right place.

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Amsterdam is
so full of options.

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-Right.
-Oh.

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♪ And the ocean waves do roll ♪

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♪ And the stormy winds
do blow... ♪

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Trust you to find the
only Irish pub in Amsterdam.

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00:16:04,311 --> 00:16:07,053
God, a well-built ant
could piss more.

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00:16:07,096 --> 00:16:08,924
And that's a double.

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00:16:08,968 --> 00:16:10,186
You're learning.

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Killing you with kindness.

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You and me.

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Me and you.

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♪ This pretty mermaid
has warned me of our doom... ♪

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I suppose we're lucky
to have each other to ignore.

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♪ And the ocean waves do roll ♪

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♪ And the stormy winds do blow ♪

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♪ And we poor sailors
are skipping at the top... ♪

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The arrogance of amplification
in a space this size.

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You used to like this one.

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♪ While the landlubbers
lie down below ♪

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♪ This pretty mermaid
has warned me of our doom ♪

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♪ We will sink to the bottom
of the sea ♪

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♪ For me ♪

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00:16:53,273 --> 00:16:57,059
♪ And the ocean waves do roll ♪

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00:16:57,103 --> 00:17:00,628
♪ And the stormy winds do blow ♪

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00:17:00,671 --> 00:17:02,978
♪ And we poor sailors... ♪

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00:17:05,894 --> 00:17:09,724
You know,
it's Ireland's greatest export:

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00:17:09,767 --> 00:17:13,249
a bullshit lesson
on how to enjoy yourself.

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00:17:14,598 --> 00:17:17,079
-That and the car bomb.
-Oh, would you...

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00:17:17,123 --> 00:17:19,342
Would you come away
from the edge?

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00:17:19,386 --> 00:17:22,345
-Gives me the weirdest feeling.
-What does?

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00:17:28,308 --> 00:17:29,700
Come on.

194
00:17:31,528 --> 00:17:34,792
- All right.
- All right. Hold my arm.

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00:17:34,836 --> 00:17:36,881
You're a liability, you are.

196
00:19:31,082 --> 00:19:33,215
Unlike the Provisional IRA,

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00:19:33,259 --> 00:19:36,087
the new IRA possesses
limited weaponry.

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00:19:36,131 --> 00:19:39,482
It's enough to mount a campaign
but not on the same scale

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as the paramilitary groups
of the past.

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00:19:42,442 --> 00:19:44,879
Following its ceasefire in 1994,

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the Provisional IRA
decommissioned

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the bulk of its arsenal,
much of it supplied by Libya...

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00:19:49,927 --> 00:19:52,016
On and on it goes.

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00:19:53,148 --> 00:19:54,628
Aye.

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00:19:54,671 --> 00:19:57,021
Are you, uh, done in there?

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00:19:57,065 --> 00:19:58,588
Aye.

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00:19:58,632 --> 00:20:00,460
Forensic
examination has revealed

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00:20:00,503 --> 00:20:03,071
that some of the weapons seized
from dissident Republicans

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00:20:03,114 --> 00:20:05,116
trace back
to the original stockpiles

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of the Provisional IRA.

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00:20:07,118 --> 00:20:10,818
There are some figures,
some senior leadership figures,

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00:20:10,861 --> 00:20:13,124
who never bought
into the peace process...

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00:20:34,058 --> 00:20:36,147
S-Stella.

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00:20:36,191 --> 00:20:37,627
Have you seen my statins?

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00:20:43,546 --> 00:20:45,156
Stella.

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00:20:45,200 --> 00:20:47,246
My statins-- have you seen them?

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00:20:59,170 --> 00:21:02,086
Have you looked in the wash bag?

218
00:21:02,130 --> 00:21:04,263
Uh...

219
00:21:11,879 --> 00:21:13,707
Mm. There.

220
00:21:15,230 --> 00:21:16,710
Sorry.

221
00:21:48,307 --> 00:21:49,656
It's a religious community.

222
00:21:49,699 --> 00:21:51,135
A convent?

223
00:21:51,179 --> 00:21:53,224
Uh, no, uh,
more like a sanctuary.

224
00:21:54,225 --> 00:21:55,357
I think it's that way.

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00:21:55,401 --> 00:21:57,359
You think or you know?

226
00:21:57,403 --> 00:21:59,230
'Cause having a map and knowing
the way are not the same thing.

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00:21:59,274 --> 00:22:00,797
Oh, shush.

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00:22:04,148 --> 00:22:05,541
Here.

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00:22:13,941 --> 00:22:15,943
Behold.

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00:22:15,986 --> 00:22:17,814
The Begijnhof.

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00:22:19,642 --> 00:22:21,340
-In there?
-Mm.

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00:22:23,907 --> 00:22:26,693
Lead on.

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00:22:45,538 --> 00:22:47,235
It's home to some of the oldest

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00:22:47,278 --> 00:22:48,976
buildings in the city.

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For women who wanted
to live alone.

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A sisterhood
of unmarried Catholic women.

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00:22:57,114 --> 00:23:01,423
In the 1600s,
Catholic worship was...

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was banned by the Protestant
powers that be.

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00:23:05,645 --> 00:23:07,995
Why are we whispering?

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00:23:12,521 --> 00:23:15,002
Public mass wasn't allowed,

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00:23:15,045 --> 00:23:19,833
so they used to do it
in their own homes, you know?

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In secret.

243
00:23:21,487 --> 00:23:23,837
Yeah, which is why
it doesn't look like a church

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00:23:23,880 --> 00:23:25,795
-from the outside.
-It's camouflaged.

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00:23:25,839 --> 00:23:29,712
They lived like nuns but...

246
00:23:29,756 --> 00:23:34,021
without all the...
all the vows and what have you.

247
00:23:38,199 --> 00:23:39,592
Hmm.

248
00:23:44,553 --> 00:23:47,338
Reminds me of
van Gogh's prison yard.

249
00:23:47,382 --> 00:23:49,166
Nonsense.

250
00:23:50,298 --> 00:23:51,473
Excuse me.

251
00:23:51,517 --> 00:23:54,215
Uh, is-is the church open yet?

252
00:23:54,258 --> 00:23:56,826
Which church
were you hoping to see?

253
00:23:56,870 --> 00:23:58,393
Oh, you're Irish.

254
00:23:58,437 --> 00:23:59,699
She's Irish.

255
00:23:59,742 --> 00:24:01,440
Guilty as charged.

256
00:24:01,483 --> 00:24:04,747
Waterford originally, but I've
lived all over, really.

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County Derry.

258
00:24:06,096 --> 00:24:07,968
From a townland
nobody's heard of

259
00:24:08,011 --> 00:24:09,926
in a place nobody knows.

260
00:24:09,970 --> 00:24:11,232
Do you live here?

261
00:24:11,275 --> 00:24:14,322
Oh, yes,
I'm one of the lucky ones.

262
00:24:14,365 --> 00:24:16,106
And what brings you
to Amsterdam?

263
00:24:18,152 --> 00:24:20,415
Well, um...

264
00:24:20,459 --> 00:24:22,722
we're not getting
any younger, so...

265
00:24:25,638 --> 00:24:27,204
And tell me again,

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00:24:27,248 --> 00:24:28,858
which of the churches was it
you wanted to see?

267
00:24:28,902 --> 00:24:30,207
The Catholic one.

268
00:24:30,251 --> 00:24:31,557
Oh.

269
00:24:31,600 --> 00:24:32,862
It's just through here.

270
00:24:32,906 --> 00:24:35,169
Oh, thank you.

271
00:24:35,212 --> 00:24:36,562
-Okay.
-Gerry.

272
00:26:03,910 --> 00:26:07,304
"The miracle of Amsterdam."

273
00:26:10,264 --> 00:26:12,483
Ye olde graphic novel.

274
00:26:26,585 --> 00:26:31,938
"In the year 1345
in the city of Amsterdam,

275
00:26:31,981 --> 00:26:36,290
a man lay dying in a house
on Kalverstraat."

276
00:26:36,333 --> 00:26:38,248
Solid opening gambit.

277
00:26:39,554 --> 00:26:43,471
"A priest came
and gave the man communion.

278
00:26:43,514 --> 00:26:47,910
"After he had gone,
the sick man felt so unwell

279
00:26:47,954 --> 00:26:50,391
that he vomited up
the sacred host..."

280
00:26:50,434 --> 00:26:52,872
-Lovely.
-"...into a bowl."

281
00:26:54,830 --> 00:26:57,050
That's really put me
in the mood for lunch.

282
00:26:58,442 --> 00:27:01,794
"The man died the next morning,
and his maid,

283
00:27:01,837 --> 00:27:07,321
"she threw the contents
of the bowl into the fire.

284
00:27:07,364 --> 00:27:08,931
"However, the following day,

285
00:27:08,975 --> 00:27:13,196
"when the maid checked
the fireplace...

286
00:27:15,242 --> 00:27:19,986
"...there it was, the host...

287
00:27:22,379 --> 00:27:25,905
...untouched by the flames."

288
00:27:32,389 --> 00:27:37,612
The priest had this place built
to commemorate the miracle.

289
00:27:40,049 --> 00:27:41,442
Which was?

290
00:27:45,141 --> 00:27:47,578
The indestructible host.

291
00:27:47,622 --> 00:27:50,146
Well, it seems a bit...

292
00:27:50,190 --> 00:27:53,672
minor league as miracles go.

293
00:27:53,715 --> 00:27:56,109
You know, a fireproof wafer.

294
00:27:56,152 --> 00:27:57,850
You know as well as I do, Gerry,

295
00:27:57,893 --> 00:27:59,765
that miracles come
in all shapes and sizes.

296
00:27:59,808 --> 00:28:04,204
Stella, what happened to you
was not miraculous.

297
00:28:04,247 --> 00:28:07,424
Right, it was perfectly within
the bounds of possibilit...

298
00:28:41,937 --> 00:28:44,679
Every time I open
my glasses case nowadays,

299
00:28:44,723 --> 00:28:47,508
I'm pleasantly surprised
to find my glasses.

300
00:28:48,683 --> 00:28:50,467
Now, that's a miracle.

301
00:29:01,522 --> 00:29:04,220
The model married couple.

302
00:29:04,264 --> 00:29:06,570
I think you can see
how much he cherishes her.

303
00:29:14,883 --> 00:29:18,234
Why is she protecting
her stomach?

304
00:29:44,391 --> 00:29:46,436
Everything all right?

305
00:29:46,480 --> 00:29:48,438
Oh, my feet are throbbing.

306
00:29:48,482 --> 00:29:50,049
I've been on my pegs
all morning.

307
00:29:50,092 --> 00:29:52,355
Ah. You're not going
to chicken out, are you?

308
00:29:52,399 --> 00:29:54,183
No, no. It's a pit stop.

309
00:29:55,794 --> 00:29:57,491
Okay.

310
00:29:57,534 --> 00:30:01,060
Look, I can't not see
The Night Watch,so...

311
00:30:01,103 --> 00:30:02,975
-No.
-So, um, why don't we meet

312
00:30:03,018 --> 00:30:06,239
in the café in, uh...

313
00:30:06,282 --> 00:30:08,545
-30 minutes for a bit of lunch?
-Sure.

314
00:30:08,589 --> 00:30:10,112
Okay?

315
00:30:10,156 --> 00:30:12,071
All right.

316
00:30:12,114 --> 00:30:13,637
See ya.

317
00:30:41,317 --> 00:30:44,494
That cold,
it would cut right through you.

318
00:31:04,471 --> 00:31:06,952
Ah, God.

319
00:31:06,995 --> 00:31:09,345
Oh.

320
00:31:09,389 --> 00:31:11,565
Oh, yeah.

321
00:31:19,965 --> 00:31:23,185
Would-would you look what
these socks have done to me.

322
00:31:23,229 --> 00:31:24,752
Egg timer.

323
00:31:24,795 --> 00:31:26,362
Look. Feel it.

324
00:31:26,406 --> 00:31:28,408
Uh, no, I'm happy to forgo that
at the moment.

325
00:31:30,453 --> 00:31:32,760
Oh, God.

326
00:31:35,197 --> 00:31:36,938
Stop it.

327
00:31:36,982 --> 00:31:40,159
The only thing that
feels better than this is...

328
00:31:40,202 --> 00:31:42,813
You'll make it worse.

329
00:31:42,857 --> 00:31:47,993
Oh, I know you shouldn't,
but when you give in, Stella...

330
00:31:48,036 --> 00:31:50,082
-when you give in...
-You'll draw blood.

331
00:31:53,781 --> 00:31:55,914
Oh, that's better.

332
00:32:07,186 --> 00:32:08,361
What?

333
00:33:17,734 --> 00:33:19,127
Help us with this, will you?

334
00:33:31,139 --> 00:33:32,749
Gerry?

335
00:33:34,229 --> 00:33:35,665
Hmm?

336
00:33:43,717 --> 00:33:46,937
Do you ever think about
where you'd like to be buried?

337
00:33:49,201 --> 00:33:51,942
Other than with you, you mean?

338
00:33:54,641 --> 00:33:57,470
At home or in Scotland, I mean.

339
00:34:00,125 --> 00:34:02,214
Is Scotland not home?

340
00:34:10,352 --> 00:34:14,052
What happens
when all of this stops?

341
00:34:14,095 --> 00:34:16,793
Then...

342
00:34:16,837 --> 00:34:18,752
there'll be no more.

343
00:34:25,019 --> 00:34:27,500
And what'll be the point then?

344
00:35:38,701 --> 00:35:41,617
Fuck! Jesus!

345
00:35:41,661 --> 00:35:44,577
- Stella!
- Yes, I'm coming, Gerry.

346
00:35:44,620 --> 00:35:46,231
-I slipped.
-Oh, come on.

347
00:35:46,274 --> 00:35:48,015
Come on.

348
00:35:48,058 --> 00:35:50,191
It's all right. It's all right.

349
00:35:50,235 --> 00:35:52,062
God...

350
00:35:52,106 --> 00:35:53,803
-Oh, God.
-It's no laughing matter.

351
00:35:53,847 --> 00:35:55,675
All right.

352
00:35:55,718 --> 00:35:57,720
Wait a minute.
Let's get this on you.

353
00:35:57,764 --> 00:35:59,200
It's all right. It's all right.

354
00:36:02,377 --> 00:36:04,162
Get your legs over.

355
00:36:06,642 --> 00:36:08,209
All right, come on.
One at a time.

356
00:36:09,863 --> 00:36:11,386
I could've been a goner.

357
00:36:11,430 --> 00:36:14,084
Oh, shh. You're all right.

358
00:36:14,128 --> 00:36:17,087
There. Oh.

359
00:36:17,131 --> 00:36:19,002
-There's no bath mat.
-Oh.

360
00:36:21,091 --> 00:36:22,789
Every bath should have
a rubber mat.

361
00:36:22,832 --> 00:36:24,356
I know. I know.

362
00:36:24,399 --> 00:36:26,271
Oh. Oh, you're all right.

363
00:36:26,314 --> 00:36:28,838
Come on, now. Steady. Steady.

364
00:36:28,882 --> 00:36:31,014
Oh, you're shaking.

365
00:36:31,058 --> 00:36:34,453
Good man. Good man.

366
00:36:34,496 --> 00:36:35,845
Sorry.

367
00:36:35,889 --> 00:36:37,543
I didn't mean to laugh.

368
00:36:56,126 --> 00:36:57,737
You all right?

369
00:36:57,780 --> 00:36:59,347
Yeah, yeah.

370
00:37:08,835 --> 00:37:10,315
Oh, just pour away.

371
00:37:10,358 --> 00:37:12,404
- Sure?
- I'm sure it's fine.

372
00:37:22,370 --> 00:37:24,894
Ah.

373
00:37:24,938 --> 00:37:26,766
- STELLA and SERVER: Thank you.
- Thanks.

374
00:37:29,899 --> 00:37:32,772
Moderation in all things.

375
00:37:34,991 --> 00:37:37,385
-Especially moderation.
-Moderation.

376
00:37:42,303 --> 00:37:43,957
Mm.

377
00:37:54,968 --> 00:37:57,449
There's something
I'd like to talk to you about.

378
00:38:05,935 --> 00:38:09,939
Gerry, I'm tired of living
the way we do.

379
00:38:09,983 --> 00:38:13,029
I keep...

380
00:38:13,073 --> 00:38:16,598
I keep f-feeling at a loose end,

381
00:38:16,642 --> 00:38:18,687
you know, at home.

382
00:38:18,731 --> 00:38:21,951
What with Michael gone,
and-and it doesn't sound like

383
00:38:21,995 --> 00:38:24,040
there's going to be
any more grandchildren.

384
00:38:25,520 --> 00:38:27,479
What's my role?

385
00:38:35,269 --> 00:38:39,186
What if we've cut the cloth
of our lives all wrong?

386
00:38:41,797 --> 00:38:44,147
There's too...

387
00:38:44,191 --> 00:38:47,107
great a sense of drift.

388
00:38:50,980 --> 00:38:53,592
And I keep thinking... I...

389
00:38:56,377 --> 00:38:59,119
I keep thinking, Gerry,
that I-I...

390
00:39:00,990 --> 00:39:03,036
I want to do something better.

391
00:39:03,079 --> 00:39:04,733
What do you mean, better?

392
00:39:04,777 --> 00:39:06,431
Better in what way?

393
00:39:08,215 --> 00:39:12,088
I want to live
a more devout life.

394
00:39:12,132 --> 00:39:14,395
It's an unfashionable word
nowadays, I know.

395
00:39:14,439 --> 00:39:16,092
Well, there's nothing wrong
with you, is there?

396
00:39:16,136 --> 00:39:18,356
Not in any physical sense, no.

397
00:39:18,399 --> 00:39:20,358
No, no, yes, but hang on
a minute, Stella.

398
00:39:20,401 --> 00:39:22,490
-Just hang on. No, it...
-No, no, no, there's nothing

399
00:39:22,534 --> 00:39:23,622
wrong with me.

400
00:39:23,665 --> 00:39:26,015
Gerry, calm yourself. No.

401
00:39:28,409 --> 00:39:32,848
But I'd like to make
an appointment.

402
00:39:32,892 --> 00:39:35,285
You know, the place we...
we visited this morning.

403
00:39:35,329 --> 00:39:37,287
Just to speak to someone.

404
00:39:37,331 --> 00:39:40,769
I mean, the talk was
that it's a good place

405
00:39:40,813 --> 00:39:44,643
for women like me who want
to live a more religious life.

406
00:39:44,686 --> 00:39:48,560
A-A community
of like-minded women

407
00:39:48,603 --> 00:39:51,998
interested in-in exploring
the big questions.

408
00:39:52,041 --> 00:39:54,348
And there's somebody in there
with all the answers, is there?

409
00:40:00,398 --> 00:40:02,312
These are questions
that you have to answer

410
00:40:02,356 --> 00:40:04,140
for yourself, Gerry.

411
00:40:09,407 --> 00:40:12,105
We should order. I'm famished.

412
00:41:09,510 --> 00:41:11,556
Did you take your statins?

413
00:41:11,599 --> 00:41:12,818
Yeah.

414
00:42:40,732 --> 00:42:42,168
Thank you.

415
00:42:59,751 --> 00:43:01,927
Uh, are you, um...

416
00:43:03,885 --> 00:43:06,279
...any...

417
00:43:06,322 --> 00:43:10,762
easier in your mind
about yesterday?

418
00:43:20,641 --> 00:43:24,906
See, I'm trying to remember
what was said.

419
00:43:35,264 --> 00:43:37,919
Unlucky with the weather,
haven't we?

420
00:43:48,538 --> 00:43:50,845
-Stella.
-Let's eat. We should eat.

421
00:44:21,963 --> 00:44:24,009
Oh, she's thought of everything.

422
00:47:00,643 --> 00:47:02,384
What is it, love?

423
00:47:05,300 --> 00:47:07,346
Do you remember
Schindler's List?

424
00:47:08,390 --> 00:47:10,697
At the end?

425
00:47:10,740 --> 00:47:14,222
The pebbles on the gravestones,
the little tokens?

426
00:47:14,266 --> 00:47:17,965
I noticed something similar
at the end, on the wee shelf.

427
00:47:21,055 --> 00:47:24,319
I used to do that book
with so many classes in school.

428
00:47:24,363 --> 00:47:26,887
And so I thought...

429
00:47:29,237 --> 00:47:31,544
I thought,
"Why don't I leave something?"

430
00:47:32,632 --> 00:47:33,894
Yeah, and what's wrong
with that?

431
00:47:33,938 --> 00:47:35,243
Oh, it's stupid.

432
00:47:35,287 --> 00:47:37,158
-Says who?
-I've no right.

433
00:47:37,202 --> 00:47:40,074
Why? It's a perfectly
legitimate gesture.

434
00:47:40,118 --> 00:47:41,902
No, it's shameful is what it is.

435
00:47:41,946 --> 00:47:44,426
-I'm not even Jewish.
-Ah, come on, Stella.

436
00:47:44,470 --> 00:47:47,342
Don't take things so seriously.

437
00:47:47,386 --> 00:47:49,605
Gerry, if you can't take
the Holocaust seriously...

438
00:47:49,649 --> 00:47:51,216
You know what I mean, right?

439
00:47:51,259 --> 00:47:53,653
You felt something, right?
You took action.

440
00:47:53,696 --> 00:47:56,438
-You did a thoughtful thing.
-No. No.

441
00:47:56,482 --> 00:47:59,920
I did a selfish thing
to make myself feel better.

442
00:47:59,964 --> 00:48:01,835
There's a difference.

443
00:48:03,489 --> 00:48:07,493
Why is anything spiritual
so impossible for you to grasp?

444
00:48:12,019 --> 00:48:13,760
Cake?

445
00:48:15,501 --> 00:48:16,981
Cake?

446
00:49:04,550 --> 00:49:05,855
How you doing?

447
00:49:05,899 --> 00:49:07,596
Pint of stout. Thanks.

448
00:49:07,640 --> 00:49:09,424
And a...

449
00:49:12,079 --> 00:49:14,342
...large whiskey, no ice.

450
00:49:38,018 --> 00:49:40,847
Are you, uh, from Derry?

451
00:49:40,890 --> 00:49:42,762
-Donegal?
-Derry.

452
00:49:42,805 --> 00:49:45,112
Ah.
I studied there for a while.

453
00:49:45,156 --> 00:49:46,766
-Magee College.
-Oh, yeah?

454
00:49:46,809 --> 00:49:49,421
Yeah. A bit before
your time, obviously.

455
00:49:49,464 --> 00:49:50,813
Don't tell me.

456
00:49:50,857 --> 00:49:52,815
Accountant?

457
00:49:52,859 --> 00:49:55,035
Architect.

458
00:49:55,079 --> 00:49:56,341
Same again?

459
00:49:56,384 --> 00:49:58,299
♪ To play old airs ♪

460
00:49:58,343 --> 00:50:01,259
♪ We said we could
be friends... ♪

461
00:50:01,302 --> 00:50:04,697
Graduated in the mid-'70s,

462
00:50:04,740 --> 00:50:07,917
and then as luck would have it,
Liam McCormick took me on.

463
00:50:10,485 --> 00:50:13,706
He was a big architect
in Belfast back then.

464
00:50:15,447 --> 00:50:21,061
And then they burnt the entire
bloody place to the ground.

465
00:50:21,105 --> 00:50:22,889
Petrol bomb.

466
00:50:22,932 --> 00:50:25,022
No one was killed, thank God.

467
00:50:26,414 --> 00:50:30,114
Aye, but all that work, though,
you know?

468
00:50:30,157 --> 00:50:33,465
Years and years of hard work
up in smoke.

469
00:50:33,508 --> 00:50:36,120
Ireland's fight
for fucking freedom.

470
00:50:36,163 --> 00:50:38,948
It wasn't long after that
that we left.

471
00:50:38,992 --> 00:50:40,472
To?

472
00:50:40,515 --> 00:50:42,343
Glasgow.

473
00:50:42,387 --> 00:50:43,518
Miss it much?

474
00:50:44,911 --> 00:50:46,086
Work?

475
00:50:46,130 --> 00:50:47,783
Home.

476
00:50:52,049 --> 00:50:54,355
You know, um...

477
00:50:54,399 --> 00:50:59,186
we used to have
these scale models.

478
00:51:02,755 --> 00:51:05,932
There was, uh,
cars the size of Dinky Toys.

479
00:51:05,975 --> 00:51:10,458
Trees as small as
those little cotton buds.

480
00:51:10,502 --> 00:51:12,199
You know?

481
00:51:12,243 --> 00:51:14,245
Tiny figurines.

482
00:51:14,288 --> 00:51:18,988
Mini churches,
libraries, streets.

483
00:51:19,032 --> 00:51:21,556
Windows were made
out of cellophane.

484
00:51:22,644 --> 00:51:24,516
They were minuscule.

485
00:51:33,742 --> 00:51:36,615
They were dis-architects,
those fellas.

486
00:51:39,226 --> 00:51:43,448
The end of human decency,
in the name of religion.

487
00:51:48,017 --> 00:51:49,454
I can still smell it.

488
00:51:51,630 --> 00:51:53,327
The black char.

489
00:52:05,383 --> 00:52:09,343
Yes, they certainly leveled
my career, anyway.

490
00:52:10,866 --> 00:52:13,434
Strictly third division
after that.

491
00:52:15,741 --> 00:52:18,309
-That was on a good day.
-Hmm.

492
00:52:20,441 --> 00:52:24,358
Ah, would you look
at the dome on that.

493
00:52:27,056 --> 00:52:30,103
Norman Foster,
eat your heart out.

494
00:52:36,196 --> 00:52:39,112
♪ Though now far away ♪

495
00:52:39,156 --> 00:52:43,421
♪ Still my thoughts
fondly stray ♪

496
00:52:43,464 --> 00:52:47,729
♪ To the old rustic bridge
by the mill... ♪

497
00:52:47,773 --> 00:52:50,558
Taste...

498
00:52:50,602 --> 00:52:52,778
texture, temperature, perfect.

499
00:52:57,522 --> 00:53:00,133
Some people say
the black stuff transforms you,

500
00:53:00,177 --> 00:53:01,961
you know, brings out
the worst in you.

501
00:53:02,004 --> 00:53:03,484
Not me.

502
00:53:04,616 --> 00:53:07,184
I love people.

503
00:53:07,227 --> 00:53:09,403
I've always loved people.
I'm a people person.

504
00:53:54,013 --> 00:53:55,362
Stella.

505
00:53:55,406 --> 00:53:57,625
Do you know what
I'd like to do tonight?

506
00:53:57,669 --> 00:53:59,105
What?

507
00:53:59,148 --> 00:54:00,846
Something fun.

508
00:54:04,676 --> 00:54:07,418
The railwaymen would
leave their burning lanterns

509
00:54:07,461 --> 00:54:09,289
outside the bordello doors.

510
00:54:09,333 --> 00:54:11,248
Red lanterns.

511
00:54:11,291 --> 00:54:13,728
- Red-light district.
- Charming.

512
00:54:15,426 --> 00:54:16,949
Oh.

513
00:54:19,995 --> 00:54:22,563
I hesitate to say
what turns me on,

514
00:54:22,607 --> 00:54:24,826
but this certainly isn't it.

515
00:54:24,870 --> 00:54:27,438
I just feel so sorry for them.

516
00:54:27,481 --> 00:54:28,830
Aye.

517
00:54:28,874 --> 00:54:30,397
The lighting is awful.

518
00:54:30,441 --> 00:54:31,485
I know.

519
00:54:31,529 --> 00:54:33,357
That's UV lighting.

520
00:54:33,400 --> 00:54:36,055
The same thing the butchers
used to use to kill the flies.

521
00:54:37,274 --> 00:54:38,579
I know.

522
00:54:48,459 --> 00:54:50,765
An ant could piss more.

523
00:54:50,809 --> 00:54:53,725
Before you English had gin,
we had jenever.

524
00:54:53,768 --> 00:54:54,987
I'm not English.

525
00:54:55,030 --> 00:54:56,771
With a beer, it's very good.

526
00:55:09,828 --> 00:55:11,699
Here we go.

527
00:55:11,743 --> 00:55:13,397
-There.
-Oh.

528
00:55:13,440 --> 00:55:14,528
What are we drinking?

529
00:55:14,572 --> 00:55:15,834
-Jenever.
-What?

530
00:55:15,877 --> 00:55:17,401
Jenever.

531
00:55:17,444 --> 00:55:20,142
First you drink the beer,
then you drink the, uh...

532
00:55:20,186 --> 00:55:21,492
-Jenever?
-Jenever.

533
00:55:21,535 --> 00:55:23,232
-Ha.
-Cheers.

534
00:55:23,276 --> 00:55:24,625
Cheers.

535
00:55:36,376 --> 00:55:37,769
Ah.

536
00:55:42,469 --> 00:55:45,124
Holy Mary, Mother of God.

537
00:55:53,219 --> 00:55:55,047
Same again?

538
00:56:08,365 --> 00:56:10,845
What bliss to be away
from all that noise.

539
00:56:10,889 --> 00:56:12,064
Aye.

540
00:56:17,199 --> 00:56:18,984
- Gerry.
- Huh?

541
00:56:20,899 --> 00:56:22,640
Look.

542
00:56:28,167 --> 00:56:29,951
Come on.

543
00:56:56,151 --> 00:56:58,197
Oh, you're beautiful.

544
00:58:06,221 --> 00:58:08,267
Morning.

545
00:58:12,227 --> 00:58:14,578
What's that for?

546
00:58:14,621 --> 00:58:16,971
Body.

547
00:58:17,015 --> 00:58:18,886
Think it would do anything
for my body?

548
00:58:21,106 --> 00:58:22,760
What's the occasion?

549
00:58:22,803 --> 00:58:25,502
Oh, thought I'd go back
to the Begijnhof again.

550
00:58:25,545 --> 00:58:27,591
The vomiting miracle place?

551
00:58:29,506 --> 00:58:32,378
Uh, d-do you want me
to go with you?

552
00:58:33,901 --> 00:58:35,642
No, thank you. Mm.

553
00:58:58,447 --> 00:58:59,840
Oh.

554
00:59:02,713 --> 00:59:04,323
Good morning.

555
00:59:04,366 --> 00:59:06,151
I wonder if you could help me.

556
00:59:09,023 --> 00:59:10,242
Oh.

557
00:59:10,285 --> 00:59:12,026
Thank you.

558
00:59:37,574 --> 00:59:39,271
Excuse me.

559
00:59:39,314 --> 00:59:42,317
Excuse me. Uh, uh,
I have a plane to catch.

560
00:59:42,361 --> 00:59:43,580
-A flight.
-Please sit.

561
00:59:43,623 --> 00:59:45,233
No, no.

562
00:59:45,277 --> 00:59:47,409
-Is there anyone else that I...
-Hello again.

563
00:59:47,453 --> 00:59:49,411
Oh, hello.

564
00:59:49,455 --> 00:59:52,371
-Um... Sorry, just...
-Oh, sorry. No, no, no.

565
01:00:00,031 --> 01:00:02,033
-Hi. Um...
-Hi.

566
01:00:02,076 --> 01:00:05,950
I'm sorry.
Hennie is very busy right now.

567
01:00:05,993 --> 01:00:08,822
But maybe I can help you
with something?

568
01:00:10,171 --> 01:00:11,695
That would be lovely, yeah.

569
01:00:13,174 --> 01:00:14,872
My house is just down there.

570
01:00:14,915 --> 01:00:16,525
Right.

571
01:00:19,267 --> 01:00:21,356
The gardens are
so beautifully kept.

572
01:00:21,400 --> 01:00:22,880
Yeah.

573
01:00:22,923 --> 01:00:24,751
In the summer,
they're extraordinary.

574
01:00:24,795 --> 01:00:28,189
Especially in the evenings,
with the night-scented stock.

575
01:00:28,233 --> 01:00:30,322
Oh.

576
01:00:30,365 --> 01:00:31,976
It's so quiet.

577
01:00:32,019 --> 01:00:34,456
It's a meter lower
than the outside world.

578
01:00:34,500 --> 01:00:36,894
The noise goes over
its head somehow.

579
01:00:38,896 --> 01:00:40,201
This is me here.

580
01:00:40,245 --> 01:00:41,638
Oh.

581
01:01:00,091 --> 01:01:02,833
Stairway to heaven.

582
01:01:02,876 --> 01:01:05,705
The only disadvantage is
when you want a grand piano.

583
01:01:05,749 --> 01:01:08,142
Maybe stick to the violin.

584
01:01:10,405 --> 01:01:12,756
Oh, it's lovely.

585
01:01:14,061 --> 01:01:15,759
Minimalist.

586
01:01:15,802 --> 01:01:17,456
Sit yourself down.
I'll make us some tea.

587
01:01:17,499 --> 01:01:19,153
Thank you.

588
01:01:43,569 --> 01:01:47,878
♪ Lock up the streets
and houses ♪

589
01:01:47,921 --> 01:01:53,100
♪ Because there's
something in the air ♪

590
01:01:53,144 --> 01:01:58,453
♪ We've got to get together
sooner or later ♪

591
01:01:58,497 --> 01:02:02,806
♪ Because
the revolution's here ♪

592
01:02:02,849 --> 01:02:05,896
♪ And you know it's right ♪

593
01:02:10,901 --> 01:02:14,078
♪ And you know
that it's right... ♪

594
01:02:14,121 --> 01:02:15,906
So, what can I do
for you, Stella?

595
01:02:15,949 --> 01:02:17,777
Well, um...

596
01:02:17,821 --> 01:02:19,605
Oh, do you need sugar?

597
01:02:19,648 --> 01:02:22,564
-Uh, no, thank you.
-Oh.

598
01:02:22,608 --> 01:02:24,784
I suppose I just wanted
to make an inquiry.

599
01:02:24,828 --> 01:02:28,875
I was in Amsterdam
some 30-odd years ago.

600
01:02:28,919 --> 01:02:29,963
Mm-hmm?

601
01:02:30,007 --> 01:02:31,965
Teacher training conference.

602
01:02:32,009 --> 01:02:33,184
Are you a teacher, Stella?

603
01:02:33,227 --> 01:02:34,402
-I was.
-Me, too.

604
01:02:34,446 --> 01:02:36,274
Oh.

605
01:02:36,317 --> 01:02:39,190
For years, I was an Irishwoman
living in Scotland

606
01:02:39,233 --> 01:02:40,974
teaching English.

607
01:02:41,018 --> 01:02:42,584
An Irishwoman in the Netherlands

608
01:02:42,628 --> 01:02:44,630
teaching comparative religion
and maths.

609
01:02:44,673 --> 01:02:47,546
Oh. Right.

610
01:02:47,589 --> 01:02:50,114
Well, that was when
I first heard about it.

611
01:02:50,157 --> 01:02:52,333
You know, the setup here.

612
01:02:52,377 --> 01:02:53,465
Ah...

613
01:02:54,771 --> 01:03:00,298
But back then, uh,
there was no urgency.

614
01:03:00,341 --> 01:03:01,952
What's the urgency now?

615
01:03:06,783 --> 01:03:10,438
I want to live
a more valuable life, Kathy.

616
01:03:12,092 --> 01:03:14,660
To make a contribution.

617
01:03:14,703 --> 01:03:16,923
However small.

618
01:03:16,967 --> 01:03:19,839
You know, so...

619
01:03:19,883 --> 01:03:22,450
I suppose, really,

620
01:03:22,494 --> 01:03:27,455
I just wanted to find out
about the life here, you know.

621
01:03:27,499 --> 01:03:31,459
How someone like me
might go about applying

622
01:03:31,503 --> 01:03:33,070
to become part of this.

623
01:03:33,113 --> 01:03:34,680
This?

624
01:03:34,723 --> 01:03:37,074
The order.

625
01:03:37,117 --> 01:03:38,466
The sisterhood.

626
01:03:39,990 --> 01:03:42,209
Stella, I don't know
where you've been getting

627
01:03:42,253 --> 01:03:45,299
your information from, but...

628
01:03:45,343 --> 01:03:47,998
there's no religious order now.

629
01:03:48,041 --> 01:03:49,913
Not anymore.

630
01:03:49,956 --> 01:03:52,611
There hasn't been a sister
living here since 1971.

631
01:03:54,265 --> 01:03:55,744
What is there?

632
01:03:55,788 --> 01:03:58,530
Affordable living
for anyone who can afford it.

633
01:04:04,362 --> 01:04:07,582
So the sisterhood is
a figment of my imagination?

634
01:04:07,626 --> 01:04:10,368
No. The sisterhood is real.

635
01:04:11,456 --> 01:04:14,546
But the religious aspect...

636
01:04:14,589 --> 01:04:17,984
the religious aspect
has all but disappeared.

637
01:04:19,594 --> 01:04:21,770
So I've got this all wrong.

638
01:04:23,076 --> 01:04:26,950
It's possible still
for women to live here.

639
01:04:26,993 --> 01:04:28,952
The only criteria is that
you must be prepared

640
01:04:28,995 --> 01:04:31,432
to live by yourself.

641
01:04:31,476 --> 01:04:34,783
Older than 30, younger than 65.

642
01:04:35,959 --> 01:04:37,699
That rules me out, then.

643
01:04:37,743 --> 01:04:39,701
Oh, no.

644
01:04:39,745 --> 01:04:41,268
I don't believe it.

645
01:04:43,009 --> 01:04:46,360
The other hitch
is that I'm married.

646
01:04:48,319 --> 01:04:53,019
Though I'm not sure how much
marriage we've got left in us.

647
01:05:12,473 --> 01:05:14,606
♪ Lock up the streets... ♪

648
01:05:14,649 --> 01:05:16,564
Can I ask you...

649
01:05:19,089 --> 01:05:20,786
Are-are you...

650
01:05:23,658 --> 01:05:25,530
A Catholic?

651
01:05:27,053 --> 01:05:28,968
Right.

652
01:05:29,012 --> 01:05:30,578
Do you still practice?

653
01:05:30,622 --> 01:05:34,495
You know, prayer and so forth?

654
01:05:46,768 --> 01:05:49,989
Kathy, I... I want
to tell you something.

655
01:05:52,252 --> 01:05:55,255
It-it's something
I've never really told anyone.

656
01:06:01,218 --> 01:06:04,525
I was involved in an accident.

657
01:06:04,569 --> 01:06:06,527
This was years ago.

658
01:06:08,573 --> 01:06:14,231
It was our first summer together
as husband and wife.

659
01:06:15,797 --> 01:06:17,060
I was pregnant.

660
01:06:17,103 --> 01:06:20,498
I mean, very, very,
heavily pregnant.

661
01:06:22,848 --> 01:06:25,198
It was unseasonably hot.

662
01:06:26,808 --> 01:06:29,507
Uh, too hot for tights, anyway.

663
01:06:33,990 --> 01:06:37,776
Somebody was ambushing
somebody else.

664
01:06:40,126 --> 01:06:44,174
I'm not sure how long
I'd been running for,

665
01:06:44,217 --> 01:06:47,394
but all of a sudden,
running became falling,

666
01:06:47,438 --> 01:06:50,702
and falling became...

667
01:06:50,745 --> 01:06:52,530
not moving.

668
01:06:54,184 --> 01:06:56,012
Sprawled.

669
01:07:00,146 --> 01:07:02,322
At first,

670
01:07:02,366 --> 01:07:05,717
I worried that I'd wet myself.

671
01:07:07,458 --> 01:07:10,983
And then I-I thought, you know,
it-it must be my-my waters.

672
01:07:11,027 --> 01:07:12,941
You know,
my waters must have broken.

673
01:07:12,985 --> 01:07:15,422
Mm-hmm.

674
01:07:15,466 --> 01:07:18,251
But then, of course, I realized.

675
01:07:23,604 --> 01:07:25,519
So I said a prayer.

676
01:07:27,826 --> 01:07:31,047
As I lay there on the street
not-not-not knowing

677
01:07:31,090 --> 01:07:33,788
one way or the other
what was going to happen.

678
01:07:36,748 --> 01:07:39,751
I said the only
prayer I could remember.

679
01:07:42,406 --> 01:07:45,322
As an act of contrition,
and I-I knew that wasn't right.

680
01:07:45,365 --> 01:07:47,454
I knew that wasn't
what I wanted.

681
01:07:47,498 --> 01:07:49,108
I mean, that's to save yourself.

682
01:07:49,152 --> 01:07:52,590
I knew that,
and I wanted to save my baby.

683
01:07:54,505 --> 01:07:56,333
So I said...

684
01:08:01,294 --> 01:08:04,819
I said, "Lord...

685
01:08:04,863 --> 01:08:08,345
"spare the child
inside my womb...

686
01:08:10,956 --> 01:08:15,091
...and I will devote
the rest of my life to you."

687
01:08:18,485 --> 01:08:21,706
"Lord, let my baby live,

688
01:08:21,749 --> 01:08:26,319
"and I will devote
the rest of my life...

689
01:08:28,539 --> 01:08:30,193
...to you."

690
01:08:38,766 --> 01:08:40,420
Now...

691
01:08:44,250 --> 01:08:46,600
...either it was a miracle

692
01:08:46,644 --> 01:08:50,778
or, as Gerry would say,
the wee one must have ducked,

693
01:08:50,822 --> 01:08:53,172
but the bullet passed
right through me,

694
01:08:53,216 --> 01:08:55,435
in one side and out the other.

695
01:08:57,002 --> 01:08:58,786
The only damage was that

696
01:08:58,830 --> 01:09:01,311
I wouldn't be able to have
any more children.

697
01:09:07,360 --> 01:09:10,929
But that vow...

698
01:09:10,972 --> 01:09:12,974
that pledge...

699
01:09:13,018 --> 01:09:15,542
Kathy, that bargain...

700
01:09:17,588 --> 01:09:19,981
...there is a debt to be paid,

701
01:09:20,025 --> 01:09:24,247
and I've been looking for a way
to pay it ever since.

702
01:09:30,078 --> 01:09:32,646
I've never breathed
a word of this to-to anyone,

703
01:09:32,690 --> 01:09:34,300
not even to Gerry.

704
01:09:40,567 --> 01:09:43,004
But here I am...

705
01:09:44,615 --> 01:09:46,660
...at my age, and...

706
01:09:52,057 --> 01:09:53,972
...and I've failed.

707
01:09:58,672 --> 01:10:00,544
I'm a failure.

708
01:12:59,723 --> 01:13:02,552
You still haven't told me
how your meeting went.

709
01:13:03,596 --> 01:13:05,555
No, I don't suppose I have.

710
01:13:05,598 --> 01:13:07,383
...are ready for you to proceed

711
01:13:07,426 --> 01:13:09,515
to departure gate number 42.

712
01:13:21,092 --> 01:13:22,833
If you see
any unattended luggage

713
01:13:22,876 --> 01:13:24,661
or anything suspicious,
please contact

714
01:13:24,704 --> 01:13:26,619
a member of staff immediately.

715
01:14:00,479 --> 01:14:02,438
You'll do yourself damage.

716
01:14:04,048 --> 01:14:05,397
As if you would care.

717
01:14:08,748 --> 01:14:11,882
-Pardon?
-You heard me.

718
01:14:11,925 --> 01:14:14,275
Oh, Jesus, give me peace.

719
01:14:53,576 --> 01:14:55,882
-Oh, for God's sake.
-Oh.

720
01:15:28,436 --> 01:15:29,873
Here.

721
01:15:56,552 --> 01:15:58,554
Gerry, when we get home...

722
01:16:02,079 --> 01:16:04,342
I'd like to put the flat up
for sale, and...

723
01:16:04,385 --> 01:16:06,823
and then I want to get
a place of my own.

724
01:16:18,269 --> 01:16:20,663
You'd be better off
waiting till summer.

725
01:16:22,229 --> 01:16:24,884
More chance of getting
a better price.

726
01:16:24,928 --> 01:16:27,278
Gerry, you're not
listening to me.

727
01:16:31,412 --> 01:16:35,591
I can't go on
living the way we do.

728
01:16:38,289 --> 01:16:39,464
I won't.

729
01:16:44,904 --> 01:16:46,776
I mean, the drinking.

730
01:16:48,691 --> 01:16:50,649
If I mention it, I'm a nag.

731
01:16:50,693 --> 01:16:53,347
If I don't, then I'm complicit.

732
01:16:55,872 --> 01:16:58,048
Do you not think I don't see it?

733
01:16:59,745 --> 01:17:01,051
Smell it?

734
01:17:04,315 --> 01:17:06,883
Yes, I suppose you could go on
doing it behind my back

735
01:17:06,926 --> 01:17:08,798
until you've no liver left.

736
01:17:11,931 --> 01:17:14,586
But it's not just the drinking.

737
01:17:14,630 --> 01:17:18,068
It-it's the deception
that goes along with it.

738
01:17:20,070 --> 01:17:21,680
It's ruining you.

739
01:17:25,205 --> 01:17:26,685
Says you.

740
01:17:27,860 --> 01:17:31,081
Well, it's ruining me,
that's for sure.

741
01:17:32,125 --> 01:17:35,563
I wouldn't know about that.

742
01:17:37,914 --> 01:17:40,481
You used to be so considerate.

743
01:17:43,354 --> 01:17:45,095
What's happened to you?

744
01:17:46,487 --> 01:17:49,403
These days, you're...
you're nothing but appetite.

745
01:17:49,447 --> 01:17:51,449
Okay. Fine, then.
I'll stop, okay?

746
01:17:51,492 --> 01:17:53,190
Right? No, I will. I'll quit.

747
01:17:53,233 --> 01:17:55,105
-Oh, Gerry.
-No, look, I mean it.

748
01:17:55,148 --> 01:17:57,847
If you're serious
about this, then I am, too.

749
01:17:57,890 --> 01:17:59,936
- I've heard it all before.
- No, look.

750
01:17:59,979 --> 01:18:01,459
I-I can do it, okay?

751
01:18:01,502 --> 01:18:04,331
I... We can... I...
I can change.

752
01:18:06,594 --> 01:18:09,249
I mean, I gave up
the cigarettes, didn't I?

753
01:18:10,555 --> 01:18:13,427
You think I don't know
how to change?

754
01:18:13,471 --> 01:18:15,603
Huh?

755
01:18:15,647 --> 01:18:19,912
You think I-I don't know
what this stuff is doing to me?

756
01:18:19,956 --> 01:18:23,786
Sure, I hate myself as much
as you do when I'm drinking.

757
01:18:23,829 --> 01:18:27,354
Well, then, why in God's name
do you put yourself through it?

758
01:18:27,398 --> 01:18:31,576
Because I hate myself even more
when I'm not.

759
01:18:47,461 --> 01:18:50,334
What about my faith?

760
01:18:50,377 --> 01:18:52,640
What about it?

761
01:18:52,684 --> 01:18:54,947
-We believe in different things.
-So?

762
01:18:55,992 --> 01:18:58,342
I mean, we've always known that.

763
01:18:58,385 --> 01:19:00,561
But it's gotten
so much worse, Gerry.

764
01:19:00,605 --> 01:19:03,695
I mean... the mockery.

765
01:19:03,739 --> 01:19:07,612
No, I have never
mocked you, Stella.

766
01:19:07,655 --> 01:19:10,267
Oh, well, if that's not mockery,
then I don't know what is.

767
01:19:10,310 --> 01:19:11,921
It's-it's a debate, right?

768
01:19:11,964 --> 01:19:14,445
We're... No, we're talking
about debating the...

769
01:19:14,488 --> 01:19:18,362
the-the greatest deception
that we've known

770
01:19:18,405 --> 01:19:20,712
-in our entire lives.
-No. No.

771
01:19:20,756 --> 01:19:23,889
We are talking about...

772
01:19:26,413 --> 01:19:28,024
...respect.

773
01:19:28,067 --> 01:19:29,286
Stella.

774
01:19:29,329 --> 01:19:33,420
The joking
and the poking fun and...

775
01:19:33,464 --> 01:19:35,466
the derision and scorn.

776
01:19:35,509 --> 01:19:37,033
I mean, it-it...

777
01:19:39,035 --> 01:19:43,430
It's like you-you have no idea
how much you hurt me and...

778
01:19:43,474 --> 01:19:45,476
Or maybe you do and you just
don't care anymore.

779
01:19:45,519 --> 01:19:47,173
I'm not sure which is worse.

780
01:19:47,217 --> 01:19:50,481
Surely, Stella, then I have
to be allowed my truth.

781
01:19:50,524 --> 01:19:51,699
The truth.

782
01:19:51,743 --> 01:19:53,266
You're doing it again.

783
01:19:53,310 --> 01:19:55,355
You're dismissing me.

784
01:20:03,842 --> 01:20:06,758
All I want
is to feel close, you know?

785
01:20:06,802 --> 01:20:08,804
It's too much.

786
01:20:59,506 --> 01:21:01,421
Attention, all passengers

787
01:21:01,465 --> 01:21:04,990
for flight BM1463 to Glasgow...

788
01:21:08,602 --> 01:21:10,604
It's still chucking it down.

789
01:21:20,136 --> 01:21:22,007
Sweet, modom?

790
01:21:32,670 --> 01:21:34,324
Stella.

791
01:21:36,630 --> 01:21:38,197
Uh...

792
01:21:40,112 --> 01:21:43,376
My being with you is

793
01:21:43,420 --> 01:21:46,423
the most wonderful thing
there is.

794
01:21:49,426 --> 01:21:51,297
I adore you.

795
01:21:52,908 --> 01:21:56,824
And when I think of the future,
all I think about is you.

796
01:21:59,001 --> 01:22:01,568
And I wish I had been there
with you in Belfast,

797
01:22:01,612 --> 01:22:03,831
and I know that I'll never
be able to share

798
01:22:03,875 --> 01:22:06,269
in what happened to you
that day.

799
01:22:09,446 --> 01:22:11,361
But, um...

800
01:22:15,365 --> 01:22:18,759
I-I-I won't ever...

801
01:22:18,803 --> 01:22:22,024
be able to accept
your version of events,

802
01:22:22,067 --> 01:22:26,071
and I'll tell you why.

803
01:22:26,115 --> 01:22:29,205
Because...

804
01:22:29,248 --> 01:22:34,819
passing through this world
beside you,

805
01:22:34,862 --> 01:22:38,214
that's the real miracle.

806
01:22:45,525 --> 01:22:47,353
The miracle is you.

807
01:23:12,552 --> 01:23:13,945
Uh...

808
01:23:53,811 --> 01:23:55,291
Look.

809
01:23:57,684 --> 01:23:59,295
Is that a plane?

810
01:24:17,617 --> 01:24:19,358
It's not moving.

811
01:24:23,841 --> 01:24:26,104
I think it's the morning star.

812
01:24:34,243 --> 01:24:36,375
Do you think
we'll ever get away?

813
01:24:41,989 --> 01:24:44,514
We can only hope.

814
01:25:45,879 --> 01:25:49,709
♪ This time tomorrow ♪

815
01:25:49,753 --> 01:25:53,409
♪ Where will we be? ♪

816
01:25:53,452 --> 01:25:57,239
♪ On a spaceship somewhere ♪

817
01:25:57,282 --> 01:26:04,246
♪ Sailing across an empty sea ♪

818
01:26:04,289 --> 01:26:08,075
♪ This time tomorrow ♪

819
01:26:08,119 --> 01:26:12,341
♪ What will we know? ♪

820
01:26:12,384 --> 01:26:15,996
♪ Will we still be here ♪

821
01:26:16,040 --> 01:26:22,002
♪ Watching an in-flight
movie show? ♪

822
01:26:22,046 --> 01:26:25,745
♪ I'll leave the sun behind me ♪

823
01:26:25,789 --> 01:26:27,747
♪ And I'll watch the clouds ♪

824
01:26:27,791 --> 01:26:32,535
♪ As they sadly pass me by ♪

825
01:26:32,578 --> 01:26:35,581
♪ Seven miles below me ♪

826
01:26:35,625 --> 01:26:37,583
♪ I can see the world ♪

827
01:26:37,627 --> 01:26:43,285
♪ And it ain't so big at all ♪

828
01:26:43,328 --> 01:26:48,377
♪ Well, this time tomorrow ♪

829
01:26:48,420 --> 01:26:52,032
♪ What will we see? ♪

830
01:26:52,076 --> 01:26:55,993
♪ Fields full of houses ♪

831
01:26:56,036 --> 01:27:02,608
♪ Endless rows
of crowded streets ♪

832
01:27:02,652 --> 01:27:06,264
♪ I don't know where I'm going ♪

833
01:27:06,308 --> 01:27:10,442
♪ I don't want to see ♪

834
01:27:10,486 --> 01:27:13,924
♪ I feel the world below me ♪

835
01:27:13,967 --> 01:27:16,753
-♪ Looking up ♪
-♪ Looking up, looking up ♪

836
01:27:16,796 --> 01:27:21,627
♪ Looking up at me ♪

837
01:27:37,339 --> 01:27:40,559
♪ Leave the sun behind me ♪

838
01:27:40,603 --> 01:27:42,561
♪ And I'll watch the clouds ♪

839
01:27:42,605 --> 01:27:46,173
♪ As they sadly pass me by ♪

840
01:27:46,217 --> 01:27:50,265
♪ And I'm in perpetual motion ♪

841
01:27:50,308 --> 01:27:52,179
♪ And the world below ♪

842
01:27:52,223 --> 01:27:57,402
♪ Doesn't matter much to me ♪

843
01:27:57,446 --> 01:28:02,886
♪ Well, this time tomorrow ♪

844
01:28:02,929 --> 01:28:06,411
♪ Where will we be? ♪

845
01:28:06,455 --> 01:28:10,197
♪ On a spaceship somewhere ♪

846
01:28:10,241 --> 01:28:16,203
♪ Sailing across an empty sea ♪

847
01:28:16,247 --> 01:28:21,339
♪ Well, this time tomorrow ♪

848
01:28:25,038 --> 01:28:28,825
♪ This time tomorrow ♪

849
01:28:28,868 --> 01:28:32,350
♪ Where will we be? ♪