1 00:01:10,445 --> 00:01:14,074 We never speak about what happened in Belfast. 2 00:01:27,587 --> 00:01:31,549 Perhaps because beforehand we were so full of hope. 3 00:01:31,591 --> 00:01:34,094 - Hi, Mrs. Gilmore. - Hello. 4 00:01:51,111 --> 00:01:54,697 But a single day can change the course of any life. 5 00:02:16,678 --> 00:02:19,764 Leaving Ireland, leaving our home... 6 00:02:22,642 --> 00:02:24,769 ...alone, 7 00:02:24,811 --> 00:02:27,897 unmoored, adrift. 8 00:02:33,570 --> 00:02:36,364 - And now... - Five? 9 00:02:36,406 --> 00:02:41,119 ...we seem to have become exiles from each other 10 00:02:41,161 --> 00:02:43,746 and the promises we made. 11 00:02:45,999 --> 00:02:48,251 The promise I made. 12 00:02:49,169 --> 00:02:51,504 ♪ Oh-oh, yes ♪ 13 00:02:51,546 --> 00:02:54,716 ♪ I'm the great pretender ♪ 14 00:02:56,467 --> 00:03:01,514 ♪ Pretending that I'm doing well ♪ 15 00:03:02,724 --> 00:03:05,727 ♪ My need is such ♪ 16 00:03:05,768 --> 00:03:08,688 ♪ I pretend too much ♪ 17 00:03:08,730 --> 00:03:10,481 ♪ I'm lonely ♪ 18 00:03:10,523 --> 00:03:14,903 ♪ But no one can tell... ♪ 19 00:03:14,944 --> 00:03:16,696 Bye, then. 20 00:03:17,697 --> 00:03:19,449 Bye, darling. 21 00:03:20,909 --> 00:03:23,661 Sure I can't tempt you? 22 00:03:23,703 --> 00:03:25,496 What's that? 23 00:03:27,874 --> 00:03:30,835 ♪ I played the game ♪ 24 00:03:30,877 --> 00:03:33,171 ♪ But to my real shame ♪ 25 00:03:33,213 --> 00:03:34,964 ♪ You've left me ♪ 26 00:03:35,006 --> 00:03:36,966 ♪ To grieve... ♪ 27 00:03:44,766 --> 00:03:47,352 ♪ Snow had fallen ♪ 28 00:03:47,393 --> 00:03:50,146 ♪ Snow on snow ♪ 29 00:03:50,188 --> 00:03:54,025 ♪ Snow on snow... ♪ 30 00:03:54,067 --> 00:03:56,527 The body of Christ. 31 00:03:56,569 --> 00:03:58,029 -James... -Amen. 32 00:03:58,071 --> 00:04:01,032 ...chapter four, verse 14 tells us 33 00:04:01,074 --> 00:04:05,787 you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. 34 00:04:07,914 --> 00:04:09,540 What is your life? 35 00:04:09,582 --> 00:04:14,379 You are a mist that appears for a little while 36 00:04:14,420 --> 00:04:16,381 and then vanishes. 37 00:04:16,422 --> 00:04:20,218 On this night of the year more than any other, 38 00:04:20,260 --> 00:04:23,388 we are reminded to cherish those... 39 00:04:23,429 --> 00:04:25,390 I just wanted to say, have a lovely Christmas. 40 00:04:25,431 --> 00:04:28,017 -Oh, happy Christmas, dear. -Yeah, so nice to see you. 41 00:04:28,059 --> 00:04:29,519 -Yeah. -See you soon. 42 00:04:29,560 --> 00:04:30,895 Okay. 43 00:04:32,272 --> 00:04:34,065 Good night. Happy Christmas to you. 44 00:04:34,107 --> 00:04:35,358 -Merry Christmas. -Good night. 45 00:04:35,400 --> 00:04:37,443 Oh, sorry. 46 00:04:54,127 --> 00:04:55,420 I'm back. 47 00:04:55,461 --> 00:04:57,755 It's freezing out there. 48 00:08:09,322 --> 00:08:11,449 It's ringing. 49 00:08:11,491 --> 00:08:13,451 It's the answer machine. 50 00:08:13,493 --> 00:08:15,119 - Leave a message. - Aye. 51 00:08:17,830 --> 00:08:21,000 Hi, Michael. It's Mum and Dad here. 52 00:08:21,042 --> 00:08:22,460 Not sure what time it is 53 00:08:22,502 --> 00:08:23,836 - where you are. - Merry Christmas, son. 54 00:08:23,878 --> 00:08:25,880 Give Toby a kiss from Granddad. 55 00:08:27,507 --> 00:08:30,426 Just calling to see how you and the family are settling in. 56 00:08:30,468 --> 00:08:32,803 You know, first Christmas in your new abode. 57 00:08:32,845 --> 00:08:37,016 All right, well, uh, we're around, so... 58 00:08:38,351 --> 00:08:39,852 Lots of love. 59 00:08:57,453 --> 00:08:59,205 What's this? 60 00:08:59,247 --> 00:09:01,040 Surprise. 61 00:09:02,792 --> 00:09:04,460 Don't tell me. Don't tell me. 62 00:09:06,045 --> 00:09:07,171 Shoes. 63 00:09:10,675 --> 00:09:13,594 It's a little something-- for both of us. 64 00:09:18,558 --> 00:09:20,685 Amsterdam? 65 00:09:20,726 --> 00:09:23,729 I thought it was time for an adventure. 66 00:09:25,356 --> 00:09:28,651 That's... fantastic. 67 00:09:30,653 --> 00:09:33,030 - Flights, hotel? - Mm. 68 00:09:33,072 --> 00:09:36,492 You've outdone yourself, Mrs. Gilmore. 69 00:09:36,534 --> 00:09:38,494 Start the New Year off with a bang. 70 00:09:38,536 --> 00:09:40,121 You'd better believe it. 71 00:09:42,373 --> 00:09:44,917 You and me. 72 00:09:44,959 --> 00:09:46,335 Me and you. 73 00:09:52,633 --> 00:09:54,552 Do you have the passports, or do I? 74 00:09:54,594 --> 00:09:56,554 Passports, eye drops, phone charger. 75 00:09:56,596 --> 00:09:57,847 All in your shoulder bag. 76 00:09:57,888 --> 00:09:59,599 What about my special shampoo? 77 00:09:59,640 --> 00:10:01,767 That, too. 78 00:10:01,809 --> 00:10:04,979 Uh, what's the limit again? 79 00:10:06,772 --> 00:10:08,899 That's six minutes. 80 00:10:08,941 --> 00:10:10,901 Someone whose opinion I trust 81 00:10:10,943 --> 00:10:14,155 once said I was flamboyant wearing this. 82 00:10:14,196 --> 00:10:17,742 I was never entirely sure whether that was a good thing 83 00:10:17,783 --> 00:10:19,910 or a bad thing. 84 00:10:19,952 --> 00:10:21,746 Oh, no, the knot's all wrong. 85 00:10:21,787 --> 00:10:23,789 -What? -Here. 86 00:10:26,459 --> 00:10:28,002 Right. 87 00:10:30,963 --> 00:10:32,548 Don't choke me. 88 00:10:32,590 --> 00:10:34,717 It's tempting. 89 00:10:35,760 --> 00:10:37,428 -All right. -There. 90 00:10:37,470 --> 00:10:39,597 -That's better. -Yeah. That's good. 91 00:10:39,639 --> 00:10:42,058 -Okay. I'll... -Right. 92 00:10:42,099 --> 00:10:44,477 Oh, that's seven minutes. I'm calling them. 93 00:10:45,770 --> 00:10:47,396 Uh, there's the taxi now. 94 00:10:47,438 --> 00:10:49,273 Oh! 95 00:10:49,315 --> 00:10:51,317 Right. Uh... 96 00:10:51,359 --> 00:10:53,903 -Uh, case. -Right. 97 00:10:53,944 --> 00:10:56,280 -Is that everything? -Uh, yeah. Think so. 98 00:10:56,322 --> 00:10:58,282 Sure? 99 00:11:24,684 --> 00:11:26,435 Well, some people have more luggage than sense. 100 00:11:26,477 --> 00:11:27,853 There it is. 101 00:11:29,855 --> 00:11:32,400 Where did you say the shampoo was again? 102 00:11:39,532 --> 00:11:41,992 Sweet before takeoff, modom? 103 00:11:47,456 --> 00:11:48,833 For everyone's comfort and safety, 104 00:11:48,874 --> 00:11:51,043 would you please place all hand baggage 105 00:11:51,085 --> 00:11:52,837 under the seats in front of you 106 00:11:52,878 --> 00:11:55,881 or in the overhead lockers, providing they will close. 107 00:11:57,675 --> 00:11:59,510 Oh. Nearly forgot. 108 00:11:59,552 --> 00:12:01,011 What? 109 00:12:02,596 --> 00:12:05,224 -Stop you from being sick. -How? 110 00:12:06,392 --> 00:12:08,602 It's a wristband. 111 00:12:08,644 --> 00:12:11,480 Someone at church recommended them. 112 00:12:13,107 --> 00:12:15,776 Presses on your pulse point here. 113 00:12:15,818 --> 00:12:18,028 I'd be better off saying a prayer. 114 00:12:18,070 --> 00:12:20,865 Please, God, don't make me vomit on this flight. 115 00:12:52,354 --> 00:12:53,939 - All right? - Yeah. 116 00:12:53,981 --> 00:12:55,941 Looks nice. 117 00:13:01,238 --> 00:13:02,740 - Hello. - Hello. 118 00:13:02,782 --> 00:13:04,074 - Hello. - How are you? 119 00:13:04,116 --> 00:13:05,576 Welcome to Amsterdam. 120 00:13:05,618 --> 00:13:06,911 Thank you. 121 00:13:06,952 --> 00:13:09,163 Oh. 122 00:13:16,545 --> 00:13:17,922 Here we are. 123 00:13:24,470 --> 00:13:27,223 Huh. Hard to tell. 124 00:13:29,517 --> 00:13:31,310 Let's try this way. 125 00:13:33,312 --> 00:13:35,064 Yeah, this is it. 126 00:13:44,824 --> 00:13:47,284 Try the other one. 127 00:13:48,828 --> 00:13:50,037 Oh. 128 00:13:50,079 --> 00:13:52,206 There you go. We're in. 129 00:13:52,998 --> 00:13:55,167 Let there be... 130 00:13:56,168 --> 00:13:57,962 ...light. 131 00:13:58,003 --> 00:14:00,506 Oh, very nice. 132 00:14:00,548 --> 00:14:01,841 Oh. 133 00:14:01,882 --> 00:14:04,468 It's bigger than I thought. 134 00:14:04,510 --> 00:14:05,678 It's lovely. 135 00:14:05,719 --> 00:14:07,388 Yeah. 136 00:14:10,099 --> 00:14:13,227 Oh, would you look at that gray sky? 137 00:14:18,858 --> 00:14:20,776 Maybe next time, you book somewhere 138 00:14:20,818 --> 00:14:22,695 in one of the sunnier hemispheres? 139 00:14:26,073 --> 00:14:28,200 Time to test the bed. 140 00:14:32,580 --> 00:14:34,540 How is it? 141 00:14:34,582 --> 00:14:36,333 Hard as a brick runway. 142 00:14:37,835 --> 00:14:39,795 Perfect. 143 00:14:39,837 --> 00:14:41,881 In fact, uh... 144 00:14:41,922 --> 00:14:43,966 I might have a wee snooze. 145 00:14:44,008 --> 00:14:45,676 Oh, it's the middle of the afternoon. 146 00:14:45,718 --> 00:14:47,219 So? 147 00:14:47,261 --> 00:14:49,263 So, you never take a nap in the middle of the afternoon. 148 00:14:49,305 --> 00:14:51,515 Yeah, but we're on holiday. It's always different. 149 00:14:51,557 --> 00:14:54,852 -You don't mind, do you? -Oh, if you insist. 150 00:14:54,894 --> 00:14:57,521 Half an hour. No more. 151 00:14:57,563 --> 00:14:58,856 Chocolate, sir? 152 00:14:58,898 --> 00:15:00,065 Oh, thank you, modom. 153 00:15:09,700 --> 00:15:11,410 Oh, lovely. 154 00:15:12,536 --> 00:15:14,371 This is the life. 155 00:15:26,800 --> 00:15:29,094 Ooh. 156 00:15:30,262 --> 00:15:31,889 -Ah. Hello. -Hello. 157 00:15:31,931 --> 00:15:33,349 Good evening. 158 00:15:33,390 --> 00:15:35,809 Um, could you recommend somewhere not too pricey 159 00:15:35,851 --> 00:15:38,896 -for a drink this evening? -You are in the right place. 160 00:15:38,938 --> 00:15:40,856 Amsterdam is so full of options. 161 00:15:40,898 --> 00:15:42,232 -Right. -Oh. 162 00:15:51,784 --> 00:15:55,204 ♪ And the ocean waves do roll ♪ 163 00:15:55,245 --> 00:15:58,248 ♪ And the stormy winds do blow... ♪ 164 00:15:58,290 --> 00:16:01,961 Trust you to find the only Irish pub in Amsterdam. 165 00:16:02,962 --> 00:16:05,756 God, a well-built ant could piss more. 166 00:16:05,798 --> 00:16:07,675 And that's a double. 167 00:16:07,716 --> 00:16:08,884 You're learning. 168 00:16:08,926 --> 00:16:11,178 Killing you with kindness. 169 00:16:13,889 --> 00:16:15,474 You and me. 170 00:16:16,517 --> 00:16:18,143 Me and you. 171 00:16:18,185 --> 00:16:21,105 ♪ This pretty mermaid has warned me of our doom... ♪ 172 00:16:21,146 --> 00:16:24,483 I suppose we're lucky to have each other to ignore. 173 00:16:25,818 --> 00:16:29,321 ♪ And the ocean waves do roll ♪ 174 00:16:29,363 --> 00:16:32,700 ♪ And the stormy winds do blow ♪ 175 00:16:32,741 --> 00:16:36,286 ♪ And we poor sailors are skipping at the top... ♪ 176 00:16:36,328 --> 00:16:39,999 The arrogance of amplification in a space this size. 177 00:16:40,040 --> 00:16:41,500 You used to like this one. 178 00:16:41,542 --> 00:16:44,294 ♪ While the landlubbers lie down below ♪ 179 00:16:44,336 --> 00:16:47,715 ♪ This pretty mermaid has warned me of our doom ♪ 180 00:16:47,756 --> 00:16:50,217 ♪ We will sink to the bottom of the sea ♪ 181 00:16:50,259 --> 00:16:51,927 ♪ For me ♪ 182 00:16:51,969 --> 00:16:55,806 ♪ And the ocean waves do roll ♪ 183 00:16:55,848 --> 00:16:59,226 ♪ And the stormy winds do blow ♪ 184 00:16:59,268 --> 00:17:01,729 ♪ And we poor sailors... ♪ 185 00:17:04,440 --> 00:17:08,318 You know, it's Ireland's greatest export: 186 00:17:08,360 --> 00:17:12,197 a bullshit lesson on how to enjoy yourself. 187 00:17:13,198 --> 00:17:15,826 -That and the car bomb. -Oh, would you... 188 00:17:15,868 --> 00:17:17,995 Would you come away from the edge? 189 00:17:18,037 --> 00:17:21,248 -Gives me the weirdest feeling. -What does? 190 00:17:27,004 --> 00:17:28,547 Come on. 191 00:17:30,174 --> 00:17:33,343 - All right. - All right. Hold my arm. 192 00:17:33,385 --> 00:17:35,429 You're a liability, you are. 193 00:19:29,626 --> 00:19:31,712 Unlike the Provisional IRA, 194 00:19:31,753 --> 00:19:34,631 the new IRA possesses limited weaponry. 195 00:19:34,673 --> 00:19:38,135 It's enough to mount a campaign but not on the same scale 196 00:19:38,177 --> 00:19:41,096 as the paramilitary groups of the past. 197 00:19:41,138 --> 00:19:43,473 Following its ceasefire in 1994, 198 00:19:43,515 --> 00:19:45,684 the Provisional IRA decommissioned 199 00:19:45,726 --> 00:19:48,687 the bulk of its arsenal, much of it supplied by Libya... 200 00:19:48,729 --> 00:19:50,814 On and on it goes. 201 00:19:51,899 --> 00:19:53,275 Aye. 202 00:19:53,317 --> 00:19:55,819 Are you, uh, done in there? 203 00:19:55,861 --> 00:19:57,237 Aye. 204 00:19:57,279 --> 00:19:58,906 Forensic examination has revealed 205 00:19:58,947 --> 00:20:01,617 that some of the weapons seized from dissident Republicans 206 00:20:01,658 --> 00:20:03,869 trace back to the original stockpiles 207 00:20:03,911 --> 00:20:05,621 of the Provisional IRA. 208 00:20:05,662 --> 00:20:09,416 There are some figures, some senior leadership figures, 209 00:20:09,458 --> 00:20:11,877 who never bought into the peace process... 210 00:20:32,856 --> 00:20:34,900 S-Stella. 211 00:20:34,942 --> 00:20:36,526 Have you seen my statins? 212 00:20:42,241 --> 00:20:43,909 Stella. 213 00:20:43,951 --> 00:20:46,245 My statins-- have you seen them? 214 00:20:57,923 --> 00:21:00,884 Have you looked in the wash bag? 215 00:21:00,926 --> 00:21:03,262 Uh... 216 00:21:10,477 --> 00:21:12,604 Mm. There. 217 00:21:13,981 --> 00:21:15,607 Sorry. 218 00:21:46,805 --> 00:21:48,307 It's a religious community. 219 00:21:48,348 --> 00:21:49,683 A convent? 220 00:21:49,725 --> 00:21:51,977 Uh, no, uh, more like a sanctuary. 221 00:21:52,978 --> 00:21:54,104 I think it's that way. 222 00:21:54,146 --> 00:21:55,856 You think or you know? 223 00:21:55,897 --> 00:21:57,983 'Cause having a map and knowing the way are not the same thing. 224 00:21:58,025 --> 00:21:59,651 Oh, shush. 225 00:22:02,946 --> 00:22:04,489 Here. 226 00:22:12,789 --> 00:22:14,791 Behold. 227 00:22:14,833 --> 00:22:16,668 The Begijnhof. 228 00:22:18,337 --> 00:22:20,088 -In there? -Mm. 229 00:22:22,507 --> 00:22:25,594 Lead on. 230 00:22:44,029 --> 00:22:45,989 It's home to some of the oldest 231 00:22:46,031 --> 00:22:47,574 buildings in the city. 232 00:22:47,616 --> 00:22:49,993 For women who wanted to live alone. 233 00:22:50,035 --> 00:22:54,498 A sisterhood of unmarried Catholic women. 234 00:22:55,707 --> 00:22:59,920 In the 1600s, Catholic worship was... 235 00:22:59,961 --> 00:23:04,299 was banned by the Protestant powers that be. 236 00:23:04,341 --> 00:23:06,843 Why are we whispering? 237 00:23:11,223 --> 00:23:13,600 Public mass wasn't allowed, 238 00:23:13,642 --> 00:23:18,688 so they used to do it in their own homes, you know? 239 00:23:18,730 --> 00:23:20,023 In secret. 240 00:23:20,065 --> 00:23:22,484 Yeah, which is why it doesn't look like a church 241 00:23:22,526 --> 00:23:24,444 -from the outside. -It's camouflaged. 242 00:23:24,486 --> 00:23:28,198 They lived like nuns but... 243 00:23:28,240 --> 00:23:32,869 without all the... all the vows and what have you. 244 00:23:36,998 --> 00:23:38,542 Hmm. 245 00:23:43,088 --> 00:23:46,091 Reminds me of van Gogh's prison yard. 246 00:23:46,133 --> 00:23:47,968 Nonsense. 247 00:23:49,094 --> 00:23:50,220 Excuse me. 248 00:23:50,262 --> 00:23:52,764 Uh, is-is the church open yet? 249 00:23:52,806 --> 00:23:55,475 Which church were you hoping to see? 250 00:23:55,517 --> 00:23:57,144 Oh, you're Irish. 251 00:23:57,185 --> 00:23:58,395 She's Irish. 252 00:23:58,437 --> 00:23:59,938 Guilty as charged. 253 00:23:59,980 --> 00:24:03,400 Waterford originally, but I've lived all over, really. 254 00:24:03,442 --> 00:24:04,651 County Derry. 255 00:24:04,693 --> 00:24:06,570 From a townland nobody's heard of 256 00:24:06,611 --> 00:24:08,572 in a place nobody knows. 257 00:24:08,613 --> 00:24:09,781 Do you live here? 258 00:24:09,823 --> 00:24:12,868 Oh, yes, I'm one of the lucky ones. 259 00:24:12,909 --> 00:24:14,953 And what brings you to Amsterdam? 260 00:24:16,955 --> 00:24:18,957 Well, um... 261 00:24:18,999 --> 00:24:21,626 we're not getting any younger, so... 262 00:24:24,337 --> 00:24:25,755 And tell me again, 263 00:24:25,797 --> 00:24:27,507 which of the churches was it you wanted to see? 264 00:24:27,549 --> 00:24:29,009 The Catholic one. 265 00:24:29,050 --> 00:24:30,260 Oh. 266 00:24:30,302 --> 00:24:31,511 It's just through here. 267 00:24:31,553 --> 00:24:33,972 Oh, thank you. 268 00:24:34,014 --> 00:24:35,515 -Okay. -Gerry. 269 00:26:02,561 --> 00:26:06,106 "The miracle of Amsterdam." 270 00:26:08,900 --> 00:26:11,236 Ye olde graphic novel. 271 00:26:25,083 --> 00:26:30,589 "In the year 1345 in the city of Amsterdam, 272 00:26:30,630 --> 00:26:35,093 a man lay dying in a house on Kalverstraat." 273 00:26:35,135 --> 00:26:37,095 Solid opening gambit. 274 00:26:38,096 --> 00:26:41,099 "A priest came and gave the man communion. 275 00:26:42,058 --> 00:26:46,563 "After he had gone, the sick man felt so unwell 276 00:26:46,605 --> 00:26:48,982 that he vomited up the sacred host..." 277 00:26:49,024 --> 00:26:51,776 -Lovely. -"...into a bowl." 278 00:26:53,320 --> 00:26:55,947 That's really put me in the mood for lunch. 279 00:26:56,990 --> 00:27:00,243 "The man died the next morning, and his maid, 280 00:27:00,285 --> 00:27:05,915 "she threw the contents of the bowl into the fire. 281 00:27:05,957 --> 00:27:07,584 "However, the following day, 282 00:27:07,626 --> 00:27:12,047 "when the maid checked the fireplace... 283 00:27:13,840 --> 00:27:18,887 "...there it was, the host... 284 00:27:20,972 --> 00:27:24,601 ...untouched by the flames." 285 00:27:30,982 --> 00:27:36,363 The priest had this place built to commemorate the miracle. 286 00:27:38,740 --> 00:27:40,241 Which was? 287 00:27:43,787 --> 00:27:46,331 The indestructible host. 288 00:27:46,373 --> 00:27:48,792 Well, it seems a bit... 289 00:27:48,833 --> 00:27:52,420 minor league as miracles go. 290 00:27:52,462 --> 00:27:54,756 You know, a fireproof wafer. 291 00:27:54,798 --> 00:27:56,549 You know as well as I do, Gerry, 292 00:27:56,591 --> 00:27:58,259 that miracles come in all shapes and sizes. 293 00:27:58,301 --> 00:28:02,681 Stella, what happened to you was not miraculous. 294 00:28:02,722 --> 00:28:06,226 Right, it was perfectly within the bounds of possibilit... 295 00:28:40,385 --> 00:28:43,179 Every time I open my glasses case nowadays, 296 00:28:43,221 --> 00:28:46,307 I'm pleasantly surprised to find my glasses. 297 00:28:47,434 --> 00:28:49,269 Now, that's a miracle. 298 00:29:00,321 --> 00:29:02,866 The model married couple. 299 00:29:02,907 --> 00:29:05,368 I think you can see how much he cherishes her. 300 00:29:13,585 --> 00:29:17,088 Why is she protecting her stomach? 301 00:29:42,989 --> 00:29:45,033 Everything all right? 302 00:29:45,074 --> 00:29:47,035 Oh, my feet are throbbing. 303 00:29:47,076 --> 00:29:48,745 I've been on my pegs all morning. 304 00:29:48,787 --> 00:29:50,955 Ah. You're not going to chicken out, are you? 305 00:29:50,997 --> 00:29:53,082 No, no. It's a pit stop. 306 00:29:54,542 --> 00:29:56,085 Okay. 307 00:29:56,127 --> 00:29:59,756 Look, I can't not see The Night Watch, so... 308 00:29:59,798 --> 00:30:01,674 -No. -So, um, why don't we meet 309 00:30:01,716 --> 00:30:04,886 in the café in, uh... 310 00:30:04,928 --> 00:30:07,347 -30 minutes for a bit of lunch? -Sure. 311 00:30:07,388 --> 00:30:08,765 Okay? 312 00:30:08,807 --> 00:30:10,767 All right. 313 00:30:10,809 --> 00:30:12,435 See ya. 314 00:30:39,963 --> 00:30:43,299 That cold, it would cut right through you. 315 00:31:03,319 --> 00:31:05,655 Ah, God. 316 00:31:05,697 --> 00:31:07,991 Oh. 317 00:31:08,032 --> 00:31:10,159 Oh, yeah. 318 00:31:18,459 --> 00:31:21,838 Would-would you look what these socks have done to me. 319 00:31:21,880 --> 00:31:23,506 Egg timer. 320 00:31:23,548 --> 00:31:25,008 Look. Feel it. 321 00:31:25,049 --> 00:31:27,260 Uh, no, I'm happy to forgo that at the moment. 322 00:31:29,304 --> 00:31:31,514 Oh, God. 323 00:31:33,892 --> 00:31:35,435 Stop it. 324 00:31:35,476 --> 00:31:38,855 The only thing that feels better than this is... 325 00:31:38,897 --> 00:31:41,357 You'll make it worse. 326 00:31:41,399 --> 00:31:46,529 Oh, I know you shouldn't, but when you give in, Stella... 327 00:31:46,571 --> 00:31:48,781 -when you give in... -You'll draw blood. 328 00:31:52,577 --> 00:31:54,662 Oh, that's better. 329 00:32:05,882 --> 00:32:07,258 What? 330 00:33:16,327 --> 00:33:17,829 Help us with this, will you? 331 00:33:29,841 --> 00:33:31,551 Gerry? 332 00:33:32,927 --> 00:33:34,512 Hmm? 333 00:33:42,311 --> 00:33:45,690 Do you ever think about where you'd like to be buried? 334 00:33:47,900 --> 00:33:50,695 Other than with you, you mean? 335 00:33:53,239 --> 00:33:56,367 At home or in Scotland, I mean. 336 00:33:58,870 --> 00:34:01,164 Is Scotland not home? 337 00:34:09,047 --> 00:34:12,800 What happens when all of this stops? 338 00:34:12,842 --> 00:34:15,595 Then... 339 00:34:15,636 --> 00:34:17,555 there'll be no more. 340 00:34:23,770 --> 00:34:26,397 And what'll be the point then? 341 00:35:37,301 --> 00:35:40,263 Fuck! Jesus! 342 00:35:40,304 --> 00:35:43,224 - Stella! - Yes, I'm coming, Gerry. 343 00:35:43,266 --> 00:35:44,934 -I slipped. -Oh, come on. 344 00:35:44,976 --> 00:35:46,602 Come on. 345 00:35:46,644 --> 00:35:48,938 It's all right. It's all right. 346 00:35:48,980 --> 00:35:50,606 God... 347 00:35:50,648 --> 00:35:52,608 -Oh, God. -It's no laughing matter. 348 00:35:52,650 --> 00:35:54,277 All right. 349 00:35:54,318 --> 00:35:56,320 Wait a minute. Let's get this on you. 350 00:35:56,362 --> 00:35:57,947 It's all right. It's all right. 351 00:36:01,075 --> 00:36:03,161 Get your legs over. 352 00:36:05,288 --> 00:36:06,956 All right, come on. One at a time. 353 00:36:08,499 --> 00:36:09,876 I could've been a goner. 354 00:36:09,917 --> 00:36:12,837 Oh, shh. You're all right. 355 00:36:12,879 --> 00:36:15,840 There. Oh. 356 00:36:15,882 --> 00:36:17,800 -There's no bath mat. -Oh. 357 00:36:19,635 --> 00:36:21,637 Every bath should have a rubber mat. 358 00:36:21,679 --> 00:36:23,055 I know. I know. 359 00:36:23,097 --> 00:36:24,974 Oh. Oh, you're all right. 360 00:36:25,016 --> 00:36:27,435 Come on, now. Steady. Steady. 361 00:36:27,476 --> 00:36:29,562 Oh, you're shaking. 362 00:36:29,604 --> 00:36:33,149 Good man. Good man. 363 00:36:33,191 --> 00:36:34,483 Sorry. 364 00:36:34,525 --> 00:36:36,444 I didn't mean to laugh. 365 00:36:54,712 --> 00:36:56,589 You all right? 366 00:36:56,631 --> 00:36:58,299 Yeah, yeah. 367 00:37:07,433 --> 00:37:08,809 Oh, just pour away. 368 00:37:08,851 --> 00:37:11,354 - Sure? - I'm sure it's fine. 369 00:37:21,072 --> 00:37:22,615 Ah. 370 00:37:23,532 --> 00:37:25,618 - Thank you. - Thanks. 371 00:37:28,496 --> 00:37:31,624 Moderation in all things. 372 00:37:33,584 --> 00:37:36,337 -Especially moderation. -Moderation. 373 00:37:41,050 --> 00:37:42,760 Mm. 374 00:37:53,562 --> 00:37:56,399 There's something I'd like to talk to you about. 375 00:38:04,532 --> 00:38:08,577 Gerry, I'm tired of living the way we do. 376 00:38:08,619 --> 00:38:11,580 I keep... 377 00:38:11,622 --> 00:38:15,251 I keep f-feeling at a loose end, 378 00:38:15,293 --> 00:38:17,128 you know, at home. 379 00:38:17,169 --> 00:38:20,548 What with Michael gone, and-and it doesn't sound like 380 00:38:20,589 --> 00:38:22,842 there's going to be any more grandchildren. 381 00:38:24,218 --> 00:38:26,429 What's my role? 382 00:38:33,811 --> 00:38:37,982 What if we've cut the cloth of our lives all wrong? 383 00:38:40,484 --> 00:38:42,945 There's too... 384 00:38:42,987 --> 00:38:45,906 great a sense of drift. 385 00:38:49,577 --> 00:38:52,496 And I keep thinking... I... 386 00:38:54,915 --> 00:38:57,918 I keep thinking, Gerry, that I-I... 387 00:38:59,587 --> 00:39:01,630 I want to do something better. 388 00:39:01,672 --> 00:39:03,382 What do you mean, better? 389 00:39:03,424 --> 00:39:05,384 Better in what way? 390 00:39:06,761 --> 00:39:09,847 I want to live a more devout life. 391 00:39:10,681 --> 00:39:12,892 It's an unfashionable word nowadays, I know. 392 00:39:12,933 --> 00:39:14,643 Well, there's nothing wrong with you, is there? 393 00:39:14,685 --> 00:39:16,854 Not in any physical sense, no. 394 00:39:16,896 --> 00:39:18,856 No, no, yes, but hang on a minute, Stella. 395 00:39:18,898 --> 00:39:21,192 -Just hang on. No, it... -No, no, no, there's nothing 396 00:39:21,233 --> 00:39:22,318 wrong with me. 397 00:39:22,360 --> 00:39:24,862 Gerry, calm yourself. No. 398 00:39:26,947 --> 00:39:31,494 But I'd like to make an appointment. 399 00:39:31,535 --> 00:39:34,038 You know, the place we... we visited this morning. 400 00:39:34,080 --> 00:39:35,831 Just to speak to someone. 401 00:39:35,873 --> 00:39:39,168 I mean, the talk was that it's a good place 402 00:39:39,210 --> 00:39:43,339 for women like me who want to live a more religious life. 403 00:39:43,381 --> 00:39:47,009 A-A community of like-minded women 404 00:39:47,051 --> 00:39:50,388 interested in-in exploring the big questions. 405 00:39:50,429 --> 00:39:53,099 And there's somebody in there with all the answers, is there? 406 00:39:58,896 --> 00:40:01,065 These are questions that you have to answer 407 00:40:01,107 --> 00:40:02,942 for yourself, Gerry. 408 00:40:08,155 --> 00:40:10,908 We should order. I'm famished. 409 00:41:08,257 --> 00:41:10,259 Did you take your statins? 410 00:41:10,301 --> 00:41:11,719 Yeah. 411 00:42:39,431 --> 00:42:41,016 Thank you. 412 00:42:58,450 --> 00:43:00,828 Uh, are you, um... 413 00:43:02,621 --> 00:43:04,873 ...any... 414 00:43:04,915 --> 00:43:09,712 easier in your mind about yesterday? 415 00:43:19,138 --> 00:43:23,809 See, I'm trying to remember what was said. 416 00:43:33,861 --> 00:43:36,822 Unlucky with the weather, haven't we? 417 00:43:47,082 --> 00:43:49,793 -Stella. -Let's eat. We should eat. 418 00:44:20,658 --> 00:44:22,910 Oh, she's thought of everything. 419 00:46:59,441 --> 00:47:01,235 What is it, love? 420 00:47:03,946 --> 00:47:06,198 Do you remember Schindler's List? 421 00:47:07,241 --> 00:47:09,243 At the end? 422 00:47:09,284 --> 00:47:12,621 The pebbles on the gravestones, the little tokens? 423 00:47:12,663 --> 00:47:16,917 I noticed something similar at the end, on the wee shelf. 424 00:47:19,503 --> 00:47:22,965 I used to do that book with so many classes in school. 425 00:47:23,006 --> 00:47:25,843 And so I thought... 426 00:47:27,886 --> 00:47:30,347 I thought, "Why don't I leave something?" 427 00:47:31,181 --> 00:47:32,641 Yeah, and what's wrong with that? 428 00:47:32,683 --> 00:47:33,892 Oh, it's stupid. 429 00:47:33,934 --> 00:47:35,811 -Says who? -I've no right. 430 00:47:35,853 --> 00:47:38,772 Why? It's a perfectly legitimate gesture. 431 00:47:38,814 --> 00:47:40,399 No, it's shameful is what it is. 432 00:47:40,440 --> 00:47:43,026 -I'm not even Jewish. -Ah, come on, Stella. 433 00:47:43,068 --> 00:47:45,988 Don't take things so seriously. 434 00:47:46,029 --> 00:47:48,198 Gerry, if you can't take the Holocaust seriously... 435 00:47:48,240 --> 00:47:49,867 You know what I mean, right? 436 00:47:49,908 --> 00:47:52,202 You felt something, right? You took action. 437 00:47:52,244 --> 00:47:55,038 -You did a thoughtful thing. -No. No. 438 00:47:55,080 --> 00:47:58,667 I did a selfish thing to make myself feel better. 439 00:47:58,709 --> 00:48:00,586 There's a difference. 440 00:48:02,087 --> 00:48:06,341 Why is anything spiritual so impossible for you to grasp? 441 00:48:10,721 --> 00:48:12,556 Cake? 442 00:48:14,349 --> 00:48:15,934 Cake? 443 00:49:03,231 --> 00:49:04,608 How you doing? 444 00:49:04,650 --> 00:49:06,401 Pint of stout. Thanks. 445 00:49:06,443 --> 00:49:08,070 And a... 446 00:49:10,781 --> 00:49:13,241 ...large whiskey, no ice. 447 00:49:36,765 --> 00:49:39,601 Are you, uh, from Derry? 448 00:49:39,643 --> 00:49:41,311 -Donegal? -Derry. 449 00:49:41,353 --> 00:49:43,814 Ah. I studied there for a while. 450 00:49:43,855 --> 00:49:45,315 -Magee College. -Oh, yeah? 451 00:49:45,357 --> 00:49:48,110 Yeah. A bit before your time, obviously. 452 00:49:48,151 --> 00:49:49,611 Don't tell me. 453 00:49:49,653 --> 00:49:51,613 Accountant? 454 00:49:51,655 --> 00:49:53,782 Architect. 455 00:49:53,824 --> 00:49:54,992 Same again? 456 00:49:55,033 --> 00:49:56,952 ♪ To play old airs ♪ 457 00:49:56,994 --> 00:49:59,955 ♪ We said we could be friends... ♪ 458 00:49:59,997 --> 00:50:03,291 Graduated in the mid-'70s, 459 00:50:03,333 --> 00:50:06,670 and then as luck would have it, Liam McCormick took me on. 460 00:50:09,131 --> 00:50:12,509 He was a big architect in Belfast back then. 461 00:50:13,844 --> 00:50:19,808 And then they burnt the entire bloody place to the ground. 462 00:50:19,850 --> 00:50:21,643 Petrol bomb. 463 00:50:21,685 --> 00:50:23,770 No one was killed, thank God. 464 00:50:25,063 --> 00:50:28,650 Aye, but all that work, though, you know? 465 00:50:28,692 --> 00:50:32,112 Years and years of hard work up in smoke. 466 00:50:32,154 --> 00:50:34,656 Ireland's fight for fucking freedom. 467 00:50:34,698 --> 00:50:37,701 It wasn't long after that that we left. 468 00:50:37,743 --> 00:50:39,119 To? 469 00:50:39,161 --> 00:50:40,996 Glasgow. 470 00:50:41,038 --> 00:50:42,372 Miss it much? 471 00:50:43,707 --> 00:50:44,833 Work? 472 00:50:44,875 --> 00:50:46,585 Home. 473 00:50:50,797 --> 00:50:53,008 You know, um... 474 00:50:53,050 --> 00:50:58,138 we used to have these scale models. 475 00:51:01,349 --> 00:51:04,478 There was, uh, cars the size of Dinky Toys. 476 00:51:04,519 --> 00:51:09,357 Trees as small as those little cotton buds. 477 00:51:09,399 --> 00:51:10,901 You know? 478 00:51:10,942 --> 00:51:12,944 Tiny figurines. 479 00:51:12,986 --> 00:51:17,532 Mini churches, libraries, streets. 480 00:51:17,574 --> 00:51:20,410 Windows were made out of cellophane. 481 00:51:21,244 --> 00:51:23,413 They were minuscule. 482 00:51:32,339 --> 00:51:35,467 They were dis-architects, those fellas. 483 00:51:37,719 --> 00:51:42,349 The end of human decency, in the name of religion. 484 00:51:46,770 --> 00:51:48,355 I can still smell it. 485 00:51:50,273 --> 00:51:52,275 The black char. 486 00:52:03,912 --> 00:52:08,291 Yes, they certainly leveled my career, anyway. 487 00:52:09,459 --> 00:52:11,878 Strictly third division after that. 488 00:52:14,339 --> 00:52:17,259 -That was on a good day. -Hmm. 489 00:52:19,136 --> 00:52:23,306 Ah, would you look at the dome on that. 490 00:52:25,600 --> 00:52:28,854 Norman Foster, eat your heart out. 491 00:52:34,943 --> 00:52:37,612 ♪ Though now far away ♪ 492 00:52:37,654 --> 00:52:41,867 ♪ Still my thoughts fondly stray ♪ 493 00:52:41,908 --> 00:52:46,580 ♪ To the old rustic bridge by the mill... ♪ 494 00:52:46,621 --> 00:52:49,207 Taste... 495 00:52:49,249 --> 00:52:51,626 texture, temperature, perfect. 496 00:52:56,006 --> 00:52:58,633 Some people say the black stuff transforms you, 497 00:52:58,675 --> 00:53:00,760 you know, brings out the worst in you. 498 00:53:00,802 --> 00:53:02,387 Not me. 499 00:53:03,346 --> 00:53:05,682 I love people. 500 00:53:05,724 --> 00:53:08,101 I've always loved people. I'm a people person. 501 00:53:52,812 --> 00:53:54,064 Stella. 502 00:53:54,105 --> 00:53:56,524 Do you know what I'd like to do tonight? 503 00:53:56,566 --> 00:53:57,859 What? 504 00:53:57,901 --> 00:53:59,694 Something fun. 505 00:54:03,073 --> 00:54:06,117 The railwaymen would leave their burning lanterns 506 00:54:06,159 --> 00:54:08,036 outside the bordello doors. 507 00:54:08,078 --> 00:54:09,746 Red lanterns. 508 00:54:09,788 --> 00:54:12,582 - Red-light district. - Charming. 509 00:54:14,125 --> 00:54:15,752 Oh. 510 00:54:18,588 --> 00:54:21,216 I hesitate to say what turns me on, 511 00:54:21,258 --> 00:54:23,426 but this certainly isn't it. 512 00:54:23,468 --> 00:54:26,137 I just feel so sorry for them. 513 00:54:26,179 --> 00:54:27,430 Aye. 514 00:54:27,472 --> 00:54:29,099 The lighting is awful. 515 00:54:29,140 --> 00:54:30,183 I know. 516 00:54:30,225 --> 00:54:31,851 That's UV lighting. 517 00:54:31,893 --> 00:54:34,854 The same thing the butchers used to use to kill the flies. 518 00:54:36,022 --> 00:54:37,232 I know. 519 00:54:47,158 --> 00:54:49,411 An ant could piss more. 520 00:54:49,452 --> 00:54:52,414 Before you English had gin, we had jenever. 521 00:54:52,455 --> 00:54:53,581 I'm not English. 522 00:54:53,623 --> 00:54:55,625 With a beer, it's very good. 523 00:55:08,680 --> 00:55:10,348 Here we go. 524 00:55:10,390 --> 00:55:12,100 -There. -Oh. 525 00:55:12,142 --> 00:55:13,226 What are we drinking? 526 00:55:13,268 --> 00:55:14,686 -Jenever. -What? 527 00:55:14,728 --> 00:55:16,021 Jenever. 528 00:55:16,062 --> 00:55:18,940 First you drink the beer, then you drink the, uh... 529 00:55:18,982 --> 00:55:20,191 -Jenever? -Jenever. 530 00:55:20,233 --> 00:55:21,985 -Ha. -Cheers. 531 00:55:22,027 --> 00:55:23,528 Cheers. 532 00:55:35,123 --> 00:55:36,666 Ah. 533 00:55:41,171 --> 00:55:43,923 Holy Mary, Mother of God. 534 00:55:52,015 --> 00:55:53,850 Same again? 535 00:56:06,863 --> 00:56:09,699 What bliss to be away from all that noise. 536 00:56:09,741 --> 00:56:10,867 Aye. 537 00:56:15,997 --> 00:56:17,832 - Gerry. - Huh? 538 00:56:19,542 --> 00:56:21,544 Look. 539 00:56:26,966 --> 00:56:28,551 Come on. 540 00:56:54,953 --> 00:56:56,996 Oh, you're beautiful. 541 00:58:04,814 --> 00:58:07,066 Morning. 542 00:58:11,029 --> 00:58:13,281 What's that for? 543 00:58:13,323 --> 00:58:15,617 Body. 544 00:58:15,658 --> 00:58:17,535 Think it would do anything for my body? 545 00:58:19,704 --> 00:58:21,206 What's the occasion? 546 00:58:21,247 --> 00:58:24,250 Oh, thought I'd go back to the Begijnhof again. 547 00:58:24,292 --> 00:58:26,544 The vomiting miracle place? 548 00:58:28,004 --> 00:58:31,174 Uh, d-do you want me to go with you? 549 00:58:32,550 --> 00:58:34,594 No, thank you. Mm. 550 00:58:57,200 --> 00:58:58,743 Oh. 551 00:59:01,412 --> 00:59:02,872 Good morning. 552 00:59:02,914 --> 00:59:04,749 I wonder if you could help me. 553 00:59:07,877 --> 00:59:08,836 Oh. 554 00:59:08,878 --> 00:59:10,880 Thank you. 555 00:59:36,322 --> 00:59:37,865 Excuse me. 556 00:59:37,907 --> 00:59:40,910 Excuse me. Uh, uh, I have a plane to catch. 557 00:59:40,952 --> 00:59:42,328 -A flight. -Please sit. 558 00:59:42,370 --> 00:59:43,830 No, no. 559 00:59:43,871 --> 00:59:45,957 -Is there anyone else that I... -Hello again. 560 00:59:45,999 --> 00:59:47,959 Oh, hello. 561 00:59:48,001 --> 00:59:50,920 -Um... Sorry, just... -Oh, sorry. No, no, no. 562 00:59:58,678 --> 01:00:00,680 -Hi. Um... -Hi. 563 01:00:00,722 --> 01:00:03,766 I'm sorry. Hennie is very busy right now. 564 01:00:04,642 --> 01:00:07,770 But maybe I can help you with something? 565 01:00:08,771 --> 01:00:10,648 That would be lovely, yeah. 566 01:00:11,774 --> 01:00:13,568 My house is just down there. 567 01:00:13,610 --> 01:00:15,278 Right. 568 01:00:17,864 --> 01:00:19,907 The gardens are so beautifully kept. 569 01:00:19,949 --> 01:00:21,576 Yeah. 570 01:00:21,618 --> 01:00:23,244 In the summer, they're extraordinary. 571 01:00:23,286 --> 01:00:27,040 Especially in the evenings, with the night-scented stock. 572 01:00:27,081 --> 01:00:29,125 Oh. 573 01:00:29,167 --> 01:00:30,627 It's so quiet. 574 01:00:30,668 --> 01:00:33,004 It's a meter lower than the outside world. 575 01:00:33,046 --> 01:00:35,798 The noise goes over its head somehow. 576 01:00:37,592 --> 01:00:39,052 This is me here. 577 01:00:39,093 --> 01:00:40,637 Oh. 578 01:00:58,738 --> 01:01:01,282 Stairway to heaven. 579 01:01:01,324 --> 01:01:04,452 The only disadvantage is when you want a grand piano. 580 01:01:04,494 --> 01:01:06,788 Maybe stick to the violin. 581 01:01:09,207 --> 01:01:11,709 Oh, it's lovely. 582 01:01:12,710 --> 01:01:14,295 Minimalist. 583 01:01:14,337 --> 01:01:16,255 Sit yourself down. I'll make us some tea. 584 01:01:16,297 --> 01:01:18,007 Thank you. 585 01:01:42,115 --> 01:01:46,577 ♪ Lock up the streets and houses ♪ 586 01:01:46,619 --> 01:01:51,749 ♪ Because there's something in the air ♪ 587 01:01:51,791 --> 01:01:57,004 ♪ We've got to get together sooner or later ♪ 588 01:01:57,046 --> 01:02:01,509 ♪ Because the revolution's here ♪ 589 01:02:01,551 --> 01:02:04,846 ♪ And you know it's right ♪ 590 01:02:09,600 --> 01:02:12,729 ♪ And you know that it's right... ♪ 591 01:02:12,770 --> 01:02:14,605 So, what can I do for you, Stella? 592 01:02:14,647 --> 01:02:16,524 Well, um... 593 01:02:16,566 --> 01:02:18,359 Oh, do you need sugar? 594 01:02:18,401 --> 01:02:21,112 -Uh, no, thank you. -Oh. 595 01:02:21,154 --> 01:02:23,281 I suppose I just wanted to make an inquiry. 596 01:02:23,322 --> 01:02:27,577 I was in Amsterdam some 30-odd years ago. 597 01:02:27,618 --> 01:02:28,661 Mm-hmm? 598 01:02:28,703 --> 01:02:30,663 Teacher training conference. 599 01:02:30,705 --> 01:02:31,831 Are you a teacher, Stella? 600 01:02:31,873 --> 01:02:33,207 -I was. -Me, too. 601 01:02:33,249 --> 01:02:34,876 Oh. 602 01:02:34,917 --> 01:02:37,837 For years, I was an Irishwoman living in Scotland 603 01:02:37,879 --> 01:02:39,672 teaching English. 604 01:02:39,714 --> 01:02:41,132 An Irishwoman in the Netherlands 605 01:02:41,174 --> 01:02:43,384 teaching comparative religion and maths. 606 01:02:43,426 --> 01:02:46,095 Oh. Right. 607 01:02:46,137 --> 01:02:48,765 Well, that was when I first heard about it. 608 01:02:48,806 --> 01:02:51,184 You know, the setup here. 609 01:02:51,225 --> 01:02:52,268 Ah... 610 01:02:53,269 --> 01:02:58,900 But back then, uh, there was no urgency. 611 01:02:58,941 --> 01:03:00,902 What's the urgency now? 612 01:03:05,281 --> 01:03:09,285 I want to live a more valuable life, Kathy. 613 01:03:10,787 --> 01:03:13,414 To make a contribution. 614 01:03:13,456 --> 01:03:15,625 However small. 615 01:03:15,666 --> 01:03:18,586 You know, so... 616 01:03:18,628 --> 01:03:21,047 I suppose, really, 617 01:03:21,088 --> 01:03:26,052 I just wanted to find out about the life here, you know. 618 01:03:26,093 --> 01:03:30,097 How someone like me might go about applying 619 01:03:30,139 --> 01:03:31,766 to become part of this. 620 01:03:31,808 --> 01:03:33,434 This? 621 01:03:33,476 --> 01:03:35,770 The order. 622 01:03:35,812 --> 01:03:37,313 The sisterhood. 623 01:03:38,481 --> 01:03:40,858 Stella, I don't know where you've been getting 624 01:03:40,900 --> 01:03:43,945 your information from, but... 625 01:03:43,986 --> 01:03:46,697 there's no religious order now. 626 01:03:46,739 --> 01:03:48,407 Not anymore. 627 01:03:48,449 --> 01:03:51,410 There hasn't been a sister living here since 1971. 628 01:03:52,912 --> 01:03:54,288 What is there? 629 01:03:54,330 --> 01:03:57,333 Affordable living for anyone who can afford it. 630 01:04:03,005 --> 01:04:06,133 So the sisterhood is a figment of my imagination? 631 01:04:06,175 --> 01:04:09,220 No. The sisterhood is real. 632 01:04:10,054 --> 01:04:13,140 But the religious aspect... 633 01:04:13,182 --> 01:04:16,936 the religious aspect has all but disappeared. 634 01:04:18,187 --> 01:04:20,523 So I've got this all wrong. 635 01:04:21,566 --> 01:04:24,569 It's possible still for women to live here. 636 01:04:25,486 --> 01:04:27,655 The only criteria is that you must be prepared 637 01:04:27,697 --> 01:04:30,032 to live by yourself. 638 01:04:30,074 --> 01:04:33,536 Older than 30, younger than 65. 639 01:04:34,704 --> 01:04:36,497 That rules me out, then. 640 01:04:36,539 --> 01:04:38,499 Oh, no. 641 01:04:38,541 --> 01:04:40,167 I don't believe it. 642 01:04:41,711 --> 01:04:45,214 The other hitch is that I'm married. 643 01:04:46,799 --> 01:04:51,971 Though I'm not sure how much marriage we've got left in us. 644 01:05:11,073 --> 01:05:13,409 ♪ Lock up the streets... ♪ 645 01:05:13,451 --> 01:05:15,411 Can I ask you... 646 01:05:17,788 --> 01:05:19,582 Are-are you... 647 01:05:22,460 --> 01:05:24,378 A Catholic? 648 01:05:25,755 --> 01:05:27,715 Right. 649 01:05:27,757 --> 01:05:29,175 Do you still practice? 650 01:05:29,216 --> 01:05:33,346 You know, prayer and so forth? 651 01:05:45,316 --> 01:05:48,945 Kathy, I... I want to tell you something. 652 01:05:50,696 --> 01:05:54,158 It-it's something I've never really told anyone. 653 01:05:59,914 --> 01:06:03,125 I was involved in an accident. 654 01:06:03,167 --> 01:06:05,378 This was years ago. 655 01:06:07,171 --> 01:06:13,135 It was our first summer together as husband and wife. 656 01:06:14,595 --> 01:06:15,763 I was pregnant. 657 01:06:15,805 --> 01:06:19,350 I mean, very, very, heavily pregnant. 658 01:06:21,644 --> 01:06:24,146 It was unseasonably hot. 659 01:06:25,356 --> 01:06:28,359 Uh, too hot for tights, anyway. 660 01:06:32,488 --> 01:06:36,575 Somebody was ambushing somebody else. 661 01:06:38,619 --> 01:06:42,623 I'm not sure how long I'd been running for, 662 01:06:42,665 --> 01:06:46,043 but all of a sudden, running became falling, 663 01:06:46,085 --> 01:06:49,505 and falling became... 664 01:06:49,547 --> 01:06:51,382 not moving. 665 01:06:52,883 --> 01:06:54,760 Sprawled. 666 01:06:58,848 --> 01:07:00,975 At first, 667 01:07:01,017 --> 01:07:04,520 I worried that I'd wet myself. 668 01:07:05,855 --> 01:07:09,483 And then I-I thought, you know, it-it must be my-my waters. 669 01:07:09,525 --> 01:07:11,485 You know, my waters must have broken. 670 01:07:11,527 --> 01:07:14,071 Mm-hmm. 671 01:07:14,113 --> 01:07:17,199 But then, of course, I realized. 672 01:07:22,204 --> 01:07:24,373 So I said a prayer. 673 01:07:26,375 --> 01:07:29,545 As I lay there on the street not-not-not knowing 674 01:07:29,587 --> 01:07:32,590 one way or the other what was going to happen. 675 01:07:35,342 --> 01:07:38,554 I said the only prayer I could remember. 676 01:07:40,848 --> 01:07:44,018 As an act of contrition, and I-I knew that wasn't right. 677 01:07:44,060 --> 01:07:46,103 I knew that wasn't what I wanted. 678 01:07:46,145 --> 01:07:47,605 I mean, that's to save yourself. 679 01:07:47,646 --> 01:07:51,442 I knew that, and I wanted to save my baby. 680 01:07:53,152 --> 01:07:55,237 So I said... 681 01:07:59,992 --> 01:08:03,370 I said, "Lord... 682 01:08:03,412 --> 01:08:07,249 "spare the child inside my womb... 683 01:08:09,502 --> 01:08:13,839 ...and I will devote the rest of my life to you." 684 01:08:17,134 --> 01:08:20,304 "Lord, let my baby live, 685 01:08:20,346 --> 01:08:25,267 "and I will devote the rest of my life... 686 01:08:27,186 --> 01:08:29,146 ...to you." 687 01:08:37,613 --> 01:08:39,323 Now... 688 01:08:42,952 --> 01:08:45,246 ...either it was a miracle 689 01:08:45,287 --> 01:08:49,375 or, as Gerry would say, the wee one must have ducked, 690 01:08:49,416 --> 01:08:51,919 but the bullet passed right through me, 691 01:08:51,961 --> 01:08:54,338 in one side and out the other. 692 01:08:55,798 --> 01:08:57,383 The only damage was that 693 01:08:57,424 --> 01:09:00,261 I wouldn't be able to have any more children. 694 01:09:06,058 --> 01:09:09,728 But that vow... 695 01:09:09,770 --> 01:09:11,772 that pledge... 696 01:09:11,814 --> 01:09:14,441 Kathy, that bargain... 697 01:09:16,235 --> 01:09:18,529 ...there is a debt to be paid, 698 01:09:18,571 --> 01:09:23,200 and I've been looking for a way to pay it ever since. 699 01:09:28,622 --> 01:09:31,292 I've never breathed a word of this to-to anyone, 700 01:09:31,333 --> 01:09:33,252 not even to Gerry. 701 01:09:39,216 --> 01:09:41,802 But here I am... 702 01:09:43,262 --> 01:09:45,514 ...at my age, and... 703 01:09:50,853 --> 01:09:52,771 ...and I've failed. 704 01:09:57,359 --> 01:09:59,195 I'm a failure. 705 01:12:58,374 --> 01:13:01,502 You still haven't told me how your meeting went. 706 01:13:02,294 --> 01:13:04,004 No, I don't suppose I have. 707 01:13:04,046 --> 01:13:06,131 ...are ready for you to proceed 708 01:13:06,173 --> 01:13:08,467 to departure gate number 42. 709 01:13:19,686 --> 01:13:21,480 If you see any unattended luggage 710 01:13:21,522 --> 01:13:23,357 or anything suspicious, please contact 711 01:13:23,399 --> 01:13:25,317 a member of staff immediately. 712 01:13:59,226 --> 01:14:01,186 You'll do yourself damage. 713 01:14:02,646 --> 01:14:04,148 As if you would care. 714 01:14:07,443 --> 01:14:10,529 -Pardon? -You heard me. 715 01:14:10,571 --> 01:14:13,073 Oh, Jesus, give me peace. 716 01:14:52,321 --> 01:14:54,781 -Oh, for God's sake. -Oh. 717 01:15:27,189 --> 01:15:28,774 Here. 718 01:15:55,300 --> 01:15:57,302 Gerry, when we get home... 719 01:16:00,722 --> 01:16:02,891 I'd like to put the flat up for sale, and... 720 01:16:02,933 --> 01:16:05,727 and then I want to get a place of my own. 721 01:16:16,863 --> 01:16:19,616 You'd be better off waiting till summer. 722 01:16:20,826 --> 01:16:23,537 More chance of getting a better price. 723 01:16:23,579 --> 01:16:26,081 Gerry, you're not listening to me. 724 01:16:29,960 --> 01:16:34,339 I can't go on living the way we do. 725 01:16:37,092 --> 01:16:38,218 I won't. 726 01:16:43,599 --> 01:16:45,726 I mean, the drinking. 727 01:16:47,436 --> 01:16:49,396 If I mention it, I'm a nag. 728 01:16:49,438 --> 01:16:52,149 If I don't, then I'm complicit. 729 01:16:54,568 --> 01:16:56,945 Do you not think I don't see it? 730 01:16:58,447 --> 01:16:59,948 Smell it? 731 01:17:02,909 --> 01:17:05,579 Yes, I suppose you could go on doing it behind my back 732 01:17:05,621 --> 01:17:07,497 until you've no liver left. 733 01:17:10,626 --> 01:17:13,086 But it's not just the drinking. 734 01:17:13,128 --> 01:17:16,965 It-it's the deception that goes along with it. 735 01:17:18,717 --> 01:17:20,636 It's ruining you. 736 01:17:24,056 --> 01:17:25,641 Says you. 737 01:17:26,558 --> 01:17:29,978 Well, it's ruining me, that's for sure. 738 01:17:30,771 --> 01:17:34,316 I wouldn't know about that. 739 01:17:36,610 --> 01:17:39,279 You used to be so considerate. 740 01:17:41,990 --> 01:17:43,992 What's happened to you? 741 01:17:45,035 --> 01:17:47,954 These days, you're... you're nothing but appetite. 742 01:17:47,996 --> 01:17:49,998 Okay. Fine, then. I'll stop, okay? 743 01:17:50,040 --> 01:17:51,792 Right? No, I will. I'll quit. 744 01:17:51,833 --> 01:17:53,502 -Oh, Gerry. -No, look, I mean it. 745 01:17:53,543 --> 01:17:56,296 If you're serious about this, then I am, too. 746 01:17:56,338 --> 01:17:58,632 - I've heard it all before. - No, look. 747 01:17:58,674 --> 01:18:00,008 I-I can do it, okay? 748 01:18:00,050 --> 01:18:03,178 I... We can... I... I can change. 749 01:18:05,180 --> 01:18:08,100 I mean, I gave up the cigarettes, didn't I? 750 01:18:09,101 --> 01:18:12,229 You think I don't know how to change? 751 01:18:12,270 --> 01:18:14,147 Huh? 752 01:18:14,189 --> 01:18:18,360 You think I-I don't know what this stuff is doing to me? 753 01:18:18,402 --> 01:18:22,280 Sure, I hate myself as much as you do when I'm drinking. 754 01:18:22,322 --> 01:18:25,951 Well, then, why in God's name do you put yourself through it? 755 01:18:25,992 --> 01:18:30,372 Because I hate myself even more when I'm not. 756 01:18:46,263 --> 01:18:48,932 What about my faith? 757 01:18:48,974 --> 01:18:51,184 What about it? 758 01:18:51,226 --> 01:18:53,895 -We believe in different things. -So? 759 01:18:54,688 --> 01:18:56,940 I mean, we've always known that. 760 01:18:56,982 --> 01:18:59,359 But it's gotten so much worse, Gerry. 761 01:18:59,401 --> 01:19:02,237 I mean... the mockery. 762 01:19:02,279 --> 01:19:06,158 No, I have never mocked you, Stella. 763 01:19:06,199 --> 01:19:08,869 Oh, well, if that's not mockery, then I don't know what is. 764 01:19:08,910 --> 01:19:10,370 It's-it's a debate, right? 765 01:19:10,412 --> 01:19:13,039 We're... No, we're talking about debating the... 766 01:19:13,081 --> 01:19:16,960 the-the greatest deception that we've known 767 01:19:17,002 --> 01:19:19,212 -in our entire lives. -No. No. 768 01:19:19,254 --> 01:19:22,841 We are talking about... 769 01:19:25,010 --> 01:19:26,720 ...respect. 770 01:19:26,762 --> 01:19:27,888 Stella. 771 01:19:27,929 --> 01:19:32,058 The joking and the poking fun and... 772 01:19:32,100 --> 01:19:34,269 the derision and scorn. 773 01:19:34,311 --> 01:19:35,937 I mean, it-it... 774 01:19:37,481 --> 01:19:42,027 It's like you-you have no idea how much you hurt me and... 775 01:19:42,068 --> 01:19:44,070 Or maybe you do and you just don't care anymore. 776 01:19:44,112 --> 01:19:45,614 I'm not sure which is worse. 777 01:19:45,655 --> 01:19:49,284 Surely, Stella, then I have to be allowed my truth. 778 01:19:49,326 --> 01:19:50,452 The truth. 779 01:19:50,494 --> 01:19:51,912 You're doing it again. 780 01:19:51,953 --> 01:19:54,206 You're dismissing me. 781 01:20:02,339 --> 01:20:05,509 All I want is to feel close, you know? 782 01:20:05,550 --> 01:20:07,552 It's too much. 783 01:20:58,103 --> 01:21:00,021 Attention, all passengers 784 01:21:00,063 --> 01:21:03,692 for flight BM1463 to Glasgow... 785 01:21:07,195 --> 01:21:09,406 It's still chucking it down. 786 01:21:18,832 --> 01:21:20,959 Sweet, modom? 787 01:21:31,469 --> 01:21:33,221 Stella. 788 01:21:35,432 --> 01:21:37,100 Uh... 789 01:21:38,810 --> 01:21:42,022 My being with you is 790 01:21:42,063 --> 01:21:45,275 the most wonderful thing there is. 791 01:21:48,278 --> 01:21:50,196 I adore you. 792 01:21:51,406 --> 01:21:55,577 And when I think of the future, all I think about is you. 793 01:21:57,495 --> 01:22:00,165 And I wish I had been there with you in Belfast, 794 01:22:00,206 --> 01:22:02,375 and I know that I'll never be able to share 795 01:22:02,417 --> 01:22:05,170 in what happened to you that day. 796 01:22:08,298 --> 01:22:10,258 But, um... 797 01:22:14,012 --> 01:22:17,307 I-I-I won't ever... 798 01:22:17,349 --> 01:22:20,727 be able to accept your version of events, 799 01:22:20,769 --> 01:22:24,773 and I'll tell you why. 800 01:22:24,814 --> 01:22:27,901 Because... 801 01:22:27,943 --> 01:22:33,573 passing through this world beside you, 802 01:22:33,615 --> 01:22:37,118 that's the real miracle. 803 01:22:44,125 --> 01:22:46,252 The miracle is you. 804 01:23:11,403 --> 01:23:12,696 Uh... 805 01:23:52,610 --> 01:23:54,195 Look. 806 01:23:56,531 --> 01:23:58,199 Is that a plane? 807 01:24:16,217 --> 01:24:18,261 It's not moving. 808 01:24:22,390 --> 01:24:25,060 I think it's the morning star. 809 01:24:32,942 --> 01:24:35,278 Do you think we'll ever get away? 810 01:24:40,742 --> 01:24:43,369 We can only hope. 811 01:25:44,472 --> 01:25:48,309 ♪ This time tomorrow ♪ 812 01:25:48,351 --> 01:25:52,105 ♪ Where will we be? ♪ 813 01:25:52,147 --> 01:25:55,942 ♪ On a spaceship somewhere ♪ 814 01:25:55,984 --> 01:26:02,949 ♪ Sailing across an empty sea ♪ 815 01:26:02,991 --> 01:26:06,828 ♪ This time tomorrow ♪ 816 01:26:06,870 --> 01:26:11,040 ♪ What will we know? ♪ 817 01:26:11,082 --> 01:26:14,544 ♪ Will we still be here ♪ 818 01:26:14,586 --> 01:26:20,550 ♪ Watching an in-flight movie show? ♪ 819 01:26:20,592 --> 01:26:24,345 ♪ I'll leave the sun behind me ♪ 820 01:26:24,387 --> 01:26:26,347 ♪ And I'll watch the clouds ♪ 821 01:26:26,389 --> 01:26:31,186 ♪ As they sadly pass me by ♪ 822 01:26:31,227 --> 01:26:34,230 ♪ Seven miles below me ♪ 823 01:26:34,272 --> 01:26:36,232 ♪ I can see the world ♪ 824 01:26:36,274 --> 01:26:41,988 ♪ And it ain't so big at all ♪ 825 01:26:42,030 --> 01:26:47,076 ♪ Well, this time tomorrow ♪ 826 01:26:47,118 --> 01:26:50,830 ♪ What will we see? ♪ 827 01:26:50,872 --> 01:26:54,542 ♪ Fields full of houses ♪ 828 01:26:54,584 --> 01:27:01,257 ♪ Endless rows of crowded streets ♪ 829 01:27:01,299 --> 01:27:05,011 ♪ I don't know where I'm going ♪ 830 01:27:05,053 --> 01:27:09,140 ♪ I don't want to see ♪ 831 01:27:09,182 --> 01:27:12,518 ♪ I feel the world below me ♪ 832 01:27:12,560 --> 01:27:15,355 -♪ Looking up ♪ -♪ Looking up, looking up ♪ 833 01:27:15,396 --> 01:27:20,526 ♪ Looking up at me ♪ 834 01:27:36,084 --> 01:27:39,212 ♪ Leave the sun behind me ♪ 835 01:27:39,254 --> 01:27:41,214 ♪ And I'll watch the clouds ♪ 836 01:27:41,256 --> 01:27:44,717 ♪ As they sadly pass me by ♪ 837 01:27:44,759 --> 01:27:49,013 ♪ And I'm in perpetual motion ♪ 838 01:27:49,055 --> 01:27:50,932 ♪ And the world below ♪ 839 01:27:50,974 --> 01:27:56,104 ♪ Doesn't matter much to me ♪ 840 01:27:56,145 --> 01:28:01,484 ♪ Well, this time tomorrow ♪ 841 01:28:01,526 --> 01:28:05,113 ♪ Where will we be? ♪ 842 01:28:05,154 --> 01:28:08,741 ♪ On a spaceship somewhere ♪ 843 01:28:08,783 --> 01:28:14,956 ♪ Sailing across an empty sea ♪ 844 01:28:14,998 --> 01:28:20,295 ♪ Well, this time tomorrow ♪ 845 01:28:23,631 --> 01:28:27,427 ♪ This time tomorrow ♪ 846 01:28:27,468 --> 01:28:31,306 ♪ Where will we be? ♪