1 00:00:08,540 --> 00:00:10,840 (Transcrito por TurboScribe.ai. Atualize para Ilimitado para remover esta mensagem.) So, there's the seats from Wembley, right? 2 00:00:11,200 --> 00:00:12,660 Yeah. Look at the plaque. 3 00:00:13,600 --> 00:00:16,420 Oh, wow! That's really lovely. 4 00:00:16,980 --> 00:00:17,740 And these are the Wembley... 5 00:00:17,740 --> 00:00:21,720 They're the actual seats that my family sat on. 6 00:00:22,740 --> 00:00:24,300 A life-changing day. 7 00:00:24,680 --> 00:00:29,260 I remember going to the cup final in 1985, Watford against Everton, 8 00:00:29,740 --> 00:00:32,200 and I had to walk about three miles cos I didn't have enough money 9 00:00:32,200 --> 00:00:34,660 to get the train from Watford to Wembley to meet the boys. 10 00:00:35,180 --> 00:00:37,800 Do you know what I mean? You're in the stands watching Watford, 11 00:00:37,900 --> 00:00:40,680 your team and all that, right up with the pigeons and all that, 12 00:00:41,140 --> 00:00:43,460 and then three years later, you're actually on the bloody pit. 13 00:00:44,620 --> 00:00:45,880 The FA Cup final. 14 00:00:46,400 --> 00:00:49,860 Winning it against the mightiest team on the planet at the time. 15 00:00:50,200 --> 00:00:54,240 Wow. Did you ever imagine that you were going to be doing that? 16 00:00:54,440 --> 00:00:55,980 I used to watch the England games, right? 17 00:00:56,040 --> 00:00:57,960 I used to go to all the England games when I was younger, 18 00:00:58,240 --> 00:01:01,280 and I used to wear my England kit and my England tracksuit 19 00:01:01,280 --> 00:01:03,700 in case one of the players didn't turn up. 20 00:01:05,300 --> 00:01:06,980 That's what you think in your head, don't you? 21 00:01:07,520 --> 00:01:08,440 Amazing. Yeah. 22 00:01:18,610 --> 00:01:20,650 It's been a long, chaotic summer. 23 00:01:20,990 --> 00:01:21,390 Are we on? 24 00:01:22,950 --> 00:01:24,290 And it's not over yet. 25 00:01:25,070 --> 00:01:27,790 Coming in, you go, oh, bosh. 26 00:01:28,110 --> 00:01:30,390 The progress at Manor House is fantastic right now. 27 00:01:30,630 --> 00:01:32,410 Pipes, radiators, kitchens. 28 00:01:33,030 --> 00:01:34,470 It's my fix, if you like. 29 00:01:34,650 --> 00:01:37,150 With just snags in front of me... There's too much white. 30 00:01:37,150 --> 00:01:39,210 The Manor is on the home straight. 31 00:01:39,410 --> 00:01:40,510 Emma's disco lights. 32 00:01:40,770 --> 00:01:41,810 Come on, Patty, what do you think, son? 33 00:01:41,990 --> 00:01:43,670 Excellent. I love it. Woo-hoo! 34 00:01:44,450 --> 00:01:46,530 There's a floating sign going down there. 35 00:01:46,630 --> 00:01:47,250 Saying what? 36 00:01:47,650 --> 00:01:49,490 V Jones is the bollocks. 37 00:01:49,770 --> 00:01:50,310 Oh, dear. 38 00:01:52,090 --> 00:01:55,330 I'm now praying for one final thing to break my way. 39 00:01:55,890 --> 00:01:58,070 I need the Lake House permission to come through 40 00:01:58,070 --> 00:02:01,910 so that I can roll everybody from the Manor House down the hill 41 00:02:01,910 --> 00:02:05,390 into work, cos what I don't want to do is start losing all the trades. 42 00:02:05,390 --> 00:02:07,030 We're going to do the fence in black, are we? 43 00:02:07,110 --> 00:02:08,789 Yeah. Why have I only done half of it? 44 00:02:08,970 --> 00:02:10,730 Can you wire it up so I go, bosh? 45 00:02:11,110 --> 00:02:13,110 I've got the carpenters, electricians, the painters, 46 00:02:13,230 --> 00:02:15,770 I've got us all busy. Keep the memento going. 47 00:02:21,970 --> 00:02:24,350 Good girl. Good girl. 48 00:02:25,270 --> 00:02:27,570 Good girl, Mama. Good girl. 49 00:02:28,470 --> 00:02:30,190 But the tradies up at the Manor 50 00:02:30,190 --> 00:02:32,330 ain't the only circus in town right now. 51 00:02:32,710 --> 00:02:33,830 They're just shitting machines. 52 00:02:33,830 --> 00:02:36,150 It's just a factory of shite. 53 00:02:37,290 --> 00:02:39,470 Pip's five pups are thriving up at the farm 54 00:02:39,470 --> 00:02:42,870 and she's not the only one who's gone full-on Mama Bear. 55 00:02:43,690 --> 00:02:46,650 15 days old and they're doing amazing. 56 00:02:47,450 --> 00:02:49,710 I've had many, many puppies in my time 57 00:02:49,710 --> 00:02:53,790 and this is an Emma time to have the chaos of the puppies. 58 00:02:54,050 --> 00:02:56,550 I'm at the Manor House. I've got to get on with this job. 59 00:02:56,750 --> 00:02:59,270 I just can't deal with the piss and shit. 60 00:03:00,290 --> 00:03:02,450 They're full-on. They just go for it. 61 00:03:02,450 --> 00:03:05,390 It ain't my thing. I'll be at the Manor House with the lads. 62 00:03:06,030 --> 00:03:07,110 We've got one brown. 63 00:03:07,610 --> 00:03:08,790 All the girls are black. 64 00:03:09,030 --> 00:03:11,650 One's slightly with a chocolate sheen. 65 00:03:12,290 --> 00:03:13,130 Who have we got here? 66 00:03:13,390 --> 00:03:15,670 This is Minnie cos she's the smallest. 67 00:03:16,470 --> 00:03:20,410 She's tiny, but she's getting bigger and she's all black. 68 00:03:20,790 --> 00:03:22,690 She's beautiful. Hi! 69 00:03:23,490 --> 00:03:27,110 And then we've got our black and tan boy. 70 00:03:27,230 --> 00:03:29,250 He's just so gorgeous. Look at him. 71 00:03:29,250 --> 00:03:32,830 You're a very handsome boy, aren't you? 72 00:03:33,210 --> 00:03:34,350 Good girl, Mama. 73 00:03:36,210 --> 00:03:37,690 And here's Joy. 74 00:03:38,250 --> 00:03:43,650 Joy is the girl that I pulled out and revived 75 00:03:44,290 --> 00:03:47,750 and she is the first one to open her eyes. 76 00:03:48,570 --> 00:03:49,950 She beat everyone to it. 77 00:03:51,070 --> 00:03:53,490 And she's doing so well. 78 00:03:53,870 --> 00:03:55,490 We did miss such a stressful time 79 00:03:57,090 --> 00:03:58,730 that I just thought, 80 00:03:59,510 --> 00:04:02,010 like, she represents joy, really. 81 00:04:02,830 --> 00:04:04,570 Cos against all odds, 82 00:04:04,690 --> 00:04:06,990 I didn't think I was going to be able to pull her out that day. 83 00:04:07,030 --> 00:04:08,810 I really didn't. It's a bit of a blur. 84 00:04:09,410 --> 00:04:11,330 Look at her. She's a complete bruiser. 85 00:04:13,030 --> 00:04:14,610 And she's thriving. 86 00:04:17,089 --> 00:04:17,570 Yes! 87 00:04:20,630 --> 00:04:23,290 It's hard because I'd sort of keep them all. 88 00:04:23,290 --> 00:04:27,230 He is a real character, this one. 89 00:04:28,310 --> 00:04:31,230 He is the troublemaker. He's the Vinnie of the group. 90 00:04:31,390 --> 00:04:33,530 He just terrorises everyone. 91 00:04:34,250 --> 00:04:36,210 He just causes mayhem and trouble. 92 00:04:36,410 --> 00:04:38,370 He was the last to open his eyes. 93 00:04:38,750 --> 00:04:40,190 He's just the Vinnie of the group. 94 00:04:40,330 --> 00:04:43,590 I really... I've sort of fallen in love with him. 95 00:04:45,130 --> 00:04:46,150 What are you doing? 96 00:04:47,750 --> 00:04:50,690 Hey? I mean, look at him. I mean, he's hilarious. 97 00:04:51,430 --> 00:04:52,910 I should really call him Vinnie. 98 00:04:52,910 --> 00:04:54,450 I should, shouldn't I? 99 00:04:55,010 --> 00:04:56,930 He is... Look at him. Look at his face. 100 00:04:57,190 --> 00:04:59,610 He is just such a little bruiser. 101 00:05:00,250 --> 00:05:02,730 He's like, yeah, come and have a go if you think you're hard enough. 102 00:05:03,210 --> 00:05:05,790 Hey? That is the crazy gang. 103 00:05:05,990 --> 00:05:08,690 And there we have it. The absolute crazy gang. 104 00:05:09,770 --> 00:05:10,570 Oh, man. 105 00:05:13,750 --> 00:05:17,030 While I've been running around like a blue-arse fly... 106 00:05:17,030 --> 00:05:17,470 Hello! 107 00:05:18,690 --> 00:05:21,310 ..I've not had time to check in on Wobbs's progress. 108 00:05:21,310 --> 00:05:23,670 Thought you was hiding down here. It's lovely, innit? 109 00:05:24,350 --> 00:05:25,990 It's coming on. It's coming on. 110 00:05:26,330 --> 00:05:28,810 We're getting there. Looks great. But we're not there yet. 111 00:05:29,510 --> 00:05:31,990 What I'm building here is probably, I would say, 112 00:05:33,050 --> 00:05:35,790 85% of men's dream. 113 00:05:35,930 --> 00:05:38,550 But we'd all love a man cave. We do. It's a man thing. 114 00:05:38,930 --> 00:05:40,690 We all love a shed at the bottom of the garden. 115 00:05:41,030 --> 00:05:42,910 Be careful. They're not doing that, are they? 116 00:05:42,930 --> 00:05:44,470 Or is that optical illusion? It's optical, mate. 117 00:05:44,610 --> 00:05:46,550 Might be nice at both corners, mightn't it? 118 00:05:46,610 --> 00:05:48,610 Yeah, well, if you want to. There and there, I think. 119 00:05:48,610 --> 00:05:51,810 Well, we could, but, I mean, if you want me to, I can. 120 00:05:51,930 --> 00:05:53,470 I think it would be nice. OK, mate. 121 00:05:53,990 --> 00:05:57,070 The older you get, the more time you spend in your shed. 122 00:05:57,330 --> 00:05:59,610 But with him, he can't sit still for five minutes, 123 00:05:59,710 --> 00:06:02,050 so I can't see that he's going to get any benefit out of it. 124 00:06:02,330 --> 00:06:04,130 That's wrong, cos that's fucking above that. 125 00:06:05,010 --> 00:06:07,310 You don't, do you? No, it will drive me mad, Wobbs. 126 00:06:07,330 --> 00:06:10,790 It won't be. Wobbs, I'm not here to drive you mad. 127 00:06:11,090 --> 00:06:12,890 We'll just do a distraction dance. 128 00:06:13,270 --> 00:06:15,010 We'll just, you know, just look over there. 129 00:06:17,170 --> 00:06:19,750 Listen, on every job, there's little snaggings. 130 00:06:20,030 --> 00:06:23,050 And he is the snag master. I am the snag master. 131 00:06:23,150 --> 00:06:25,690 I'd like to say, let's finish, and then we'll have a snag. 132 00:06:25,850 --> 00:06:28,430 How's the, um, diet going? 133 00:06:29,570 --> 00:06:30,990 Can you see me? Look... 134 00:06:32,490 --> 00:06:34,830 Emma, can you see me? Barely. 135 00:06:35,290 --> 00:06:39,210 Are you nailed on? Are you, like, so aggressive with it? 136 00:06:39,770 --> 00:06:41,230 Er... Are you easing up a bit? 137 00:06:41,230 --> 00:06:44,050 No, I'm... Yeah, I'm pretty full-on with it. 138 00:06:44,050 --> 00:06:46,210 You seem better in yourself for it, I think. 139 00:06:46,590 --> 00:06:49,270 You've got to feel right about yourself... 140 00:06:49,830 --> 00:06:50,930 Before everything else? 141 00:06:51,010 --> 00:06:53,590 Because if you don't, you don't care. That's what I've found. 142 00:06:54,210 --> 00:06:56,170 You ain't bothered what you look like, 143 00:06:56,230 --> 00:06:59,590 but if you start to feel good about yourself again, it all helps. 144 00:06:59,630 --> 00:07:02,710 There you go, and that is why you seem better. 145 00:07:02,830 --> 00:07:04,650 Yeah, I am, yeah. I think you're better in your head. 146 00:07:04,810 --> 00:07:08,430 The other thing is as well, you've got to deal with today, 147 00:07:08,550 --> 00:07:09,810 because yesterday's gone, 148 00:07:10,370 --> 00:07:12,810 and tomorrow, you'll deal with what comes along tomorrow. 149 00:07:12,810 --> 00:07:15,530 Life is today. You're in life now. 100%. 150 00:07:15,530 --> 00:07:17,670 Not tomorrow, not... Yesterday's done. 100%. 151 00:07:17,670 --> 00:07:21,070 So just live today and just stick with it, you know what I mean? 152 00:07:21,250 --> 00:07:23,450 Cos you can... The first thing, you see it in your face, 153 00:07:23,490 --> 00:07:26,390 and then you go, he's lost it there. 100%. 154 00:07:26,390 --> 00:07:27,170 Well done, Wobbs. 155 00:07:27,930 --> 00:07:29,290 I think Wobbly's done brilliant. 156 00:07:29,890 --> 00:07:32,350 I think he's come into terms with things. 157 00:07:32,830 --> 00:07:35,590 He's come into a place 158 00:07:35,590 --> 00:07:38,650 where he can get up in the morning and start functioning. 159 00:07:39,150 --> 00:07:42,050 And what's that level? He's got me at it now. Piss off! 160 00:07:42,050 --> 00:07:45,390 Oi, levels are not lying bastards. They tell the truth, yeah. 161 00:07:53,750 --> 00:07:54,790 Hon? Yeah? 162 00:07:56,750 --> 00:07:58,230 Coming up, one of these apples. 163 00:07:59,910 --> 00:08:02,410 Hon, I've got the planning through for the lake house. 164 00:08:02,630 --> 00:08:05,390 What? Yes. You're joking. I ain't. 165 00:08:05,950 --> 00:08:07,590 Look. What, all of it? 166 00:08:08,270 --> 00:08:09,310 All done. It's done. 167 00:08:12,470 --> 00:08:14,490 It's only taken three years. 168 00:08:14,830 --> 00:08:16,670 Wow. Are we going to call in reinforcements? 169 00:08:16,670 --> 00:08:18,110 I'm actually shaking. 170 00:08:18,490 --> 00:08:21,110 Finally, we've pressed the button on the lake house. 171 00:08:21,590 --> 00:08:23,730 I couldn't sleep easier right now, 172 00:08:23,970 --> 00:08:26,390 knowing I've got two years' worth of work in front of me. 173 00:08:26,670 --> 00:08:29,490 Here's an apple from the tree. 174 00:08:32,169 --> 00:08:33,250 They're called jujus. 175 00:08:37,409 --> 00:08:39,970 This is going to be a huge project. 176 00:08:40,390 --> 00:08:41,669 I mean, absolutely huge. 177 00:08:43,130 --> 00:08:44,910 He is going to be very excited. 178 00:08:45,950 --> 00:08:49,290 I've done everything by the book and I've got a smile on my face. 179 00:08:49,430 --> 00:08:51,290 Rock and roll. Rock and roll. 180 00:08:52,130 --> 00:08:53,350 Nothing's going to stop us now. 181 00:08:54,550 --> 00:08:54,730 Woo! 182 00:09:05,530 --> 00:09:07,450 Getting the green light on the lake house 183 00:09:07,450 --> 00:09:09,530 is like having Christmas come early. 184 00:09:10,050 --> 00:09:12,130 Whatever you're doing with your lorries and diggers, 185 00:09:12,330 --> 00:09:13,550 I need you out of here. 186 00:09:13,870 --> 00:09:17,710 Just the boost I need to get the manor over the line and move on. 187 00:09:18,310 --> 00:09:19,690 Let's go, let's go, let's go. 188 00:09:20,370 --> 00:09:21,550 The timing is everything. 189 00:09:21,550 --> 00:09:22,630 Crack that whip. 190 00:09:23,430 --> 00:09:26,890 I'm trying to make everything run smooth like clockwork. 191 00:09:28,830 --> 00:09:31,570 Winter doubles your money, doubles your time, 192 00:09:31,950 --> 00:09:32,930 doubles your frustration, 193 00:09:33,190 --> 00:09:35,550 so I want to get in there and get a good move on 194 00:09:35,550 --> 00:09:37,370 before October comes. 195 00:09:37,630 --> 00:09:38,930 How much longer have we got on these, mate? 196 00:09:39,090 --> 00:09:40,630 Yeah, we've got to really push on now. 197 00:09:40,870 --> 00:09:44,730 This has been a project of his for the last three years. 198 00:09:44,830 --> 00:09:47,390 He must have been dying to get started on it, 199 00:09:47,470 --> 00:09:50,110 so won't be tired of anyone standing in his way now 200 00:09:50,110 --> 00:09:52,390 cos he's going to go mad at it, I'm sure. 201 00:09:52,730 --> 00:09:54,150 I'm just winding the lads up now. 202 00:09:54,450 --> 00:09:56,190 Plenty to do. Short time to do it in. 203 00:09:56,210 --> 00:09:57,450 That's normal, Grant. You know what I mean? 204 00:09:57,750 --> 00:09:59,890 It's almost like you've unleashed the dragon. 205 00:10:00,170 --> 00:10:01,410 We're waiting on Russ again, are we? 206 00:10:02,190 --> 00:10:03,130 Fucking hell, Russ. 207 00:10:03,590 --> 00:10:05,770 But thankfully, rising star Glenn... 208 00:10:05,770 --> 00:10:07,550 Sun never sets on Glenn. That's right. 209 00:10:07,590 --> 00:10:08,270 And his digger. 210 00:10:08,570 --> 00:10:10,570 ..has shown he can take whatever I throw at him. 211 00:10:11,050 --> 00:10:13,010 It's a long, snagging list of little bits 212 00:10:13,010 --> 00:10:14,990 that have been started, not finished, 213 00:10:15,110 --> 00:10:18,570 that we had to do in order, so we're just working through them now. 214 00:10:18,570 --> 00:10:21,290 We've got short on the list, not keep adding to it. 215 00:10:21,390 --> 00:10:23,570 Every time I come up here, you find something else, 216 00:10:23,690 --> 00:10:24,830 something else, something else. 217 00:10:24,910 --> 00:10:27,610 And as soon as we get that done, get me to the lake house. 218 00:10:28,030 --> 00:10:29,410 He already wants me there this week, 219 00:10:29,510 --> 00:10:31,010 but that's not going to happen. 220 00:10:31,330 --> 00:10:32,250 Come on, let's go, baby. 221 00:10:36,210 --> 00:10:38,270 And I'm not the only one raring to go. 222 00:10:38,890 --> 00:10:39,690 Come on, then. 223 00:10:40,650 --> 00:10:41,950 Ooh, those tails wagging. 224 00:10:42,190 --> 00:10:45,730 We've now got bit back, shapes coming back on. 225 00:10:46,070 --> 00:10:47,690 Bop, bop, bop, bop. Good girl. 226 00:10:49,810 --> 00:10:53,030 First time out, back with your dad, eh? 227 00:10:53,290 --> 00:10:55,690 She's shaking. She's shaking, like, with adrenaline. 228 00:10:56,710 --> 00:10:58,110 Just like me on the old football field 229 00:10:58,110 --> 00:10:59,530 when I used to come out of the dressing room. 230 00:10:59,550 --> 00:11:02,250 Hey, Pip, ready? Ready? She's back. 231 00:11:03,130 --> 00:11:06,410 She's out, she's snatched back, got her figure back. 232 00:11:06,850 --> 00:11:08,670 She is beside herself. 233 00:11:08,950 --> 00:11:11,610 If she cannot be out with Vinny, 234 00:11:12,670 --> 00:11:15,490 diggers, action, constant chaos, 235 00:11:15,810 --> 00:11:18,270 if she can't be out there with him doing that, 236 00:11:18,270 --> 00:11:20,790 then she's just...depressed. 237 00:11:21,050 --> 00:11:22,890 I'm celebrating with a cup of coffee. 238 00:11:23,630 --> 00:11:24,870 Now she's back. It's great. 239 00:11:25,270 --> 00:11:26,950 We've got me wingman back, girl. 240 00:11:28,970 --> 00:11:30,070 Fairly old flapjack. 241 00:11:32,130 --> 00:11:34,210 The first call of duty... 242 00:11:34,210 --> 00:11:35,390 Here he is, look. Here he is. 243 00:11:35,710 --> 00:11:38,450 ..checking out the manor's new custom-built gates. 244 00:11:38,810 --> 00:11:39,350 Hi, goat. 245 00:11:39,670 --> 00:11:42,450 And delivered this morning by blacksmith Goat. 246 00:11:48,900 --> 00:11:51,520 I'm going to put the posts in now. I'm going to stand them there. 247 00:11:51,520 --> 00:11:53,240 I'm going to put the gates over there. 248 00:11:53,500 --> 00:11:56,180 His work is magnificent. It's unbelievable. 249 00:11:56,560 --> 00:11:58,460 I think you've hit the sweet spot. 250 00:11:58,580 --> 00:12:00,240 Well done, mate. Thank you. I really do. 251 00:12:00,880 --> 00:12:03,260 You don't want great big massive things. 252 00:12:03,380 --> 00:12:05,300 It's still got to blend in. It's not Wentworth. 253 00:12:05,420 --> 00:12:06,460 Do you know what I mean? Exactly. 254 00:12:06,920 --> 00:12:10,040 Is it Buckingham Palace, mate? Is it Clarence House? 255 00:12:10,060 --> 00:12:11,160 I'd lift that when I was younger. 256 00:12:11,900 --> 00:12:12,300 Yeah. 257 00:12:14,960 --> 00:12:17,680 I think that's got to be a bit more of an angle, you know? 258 00:12:18,520 --> 00:12:19,680 No, she's about right, look. 259 00:12:19,680 --> 00:12:21,620 That's higher than that, though, goat, isn't it? 260 00:12:21,760 --> 00:12:23,320 No, it's not. It's illusion. 261 00:12:23,720 --> 00:12:24,760 Is it? Yeah. 262 00:12:25,500 --> 00:12:27,040 Just an illusion. 263 00:12:29,180 --> 00:12:30,640 Mate, I think they look good. 264 00:12:35,740 --> 00:12:38,440 Having lit a fire under everyone else's arses, 265 00:12:38,660 --> 00:12:40,620 I need to put my money where my mouth is 266 00:12:40,620 --> 00:12:42,400 and sort my own snag list out. 267 00:12:43,300 --> 00:12:46,480 And one thing I need to get squared away before summer's out 268 00:12:46,480 --> 00:12:49,800 is the beach I built for when the grandkids visit next. 269 00:12:50,280 --> 00:12:52,060 I love lake swimming. 270 00:12:52,460 --> 00:12:55,100 The excitement of going down there in the mornings. 271 00:12:55,500 --> 00:12:57,240 You don't want to do it, but you do it, 272 00:12:57,300 --> 00:12:59,860 and once you're in, it really lifts your whole spirit. 273 00:13:00,120 --> 00:13:01,040 It's amazing. 274 00:13:02,120 --> 00:13:04,280 I put the entire job on hold 275 00:13:04,280 --> 00:13:06,500 after me bodge job with the builders sat. 276 00:13:06,840 --> 00:13:09,840 But now Colesy's joined Emma's little paddling posse, 277 00:13:10,400 --> 00:13:13,480 something tells me I'm on borrowed time to get it sorted. 278 00:13:14,180 --> 00:13:15,460 I know it's the wrong stuff. 279 00:13:15,460 --> 00:13:16,800 It's on the list. 280 00:13:17,880 --> 00:13:19,300 And I will go back to it. 281 00:13:20,180 --> 00:13:20,280 Oh! 282 00:13:20,720 --> 00:13:21,120 Ah! 283 00:13:26,080 --> 00:13:27,200 It's quicksand! 284 00:13:27,600 --> 00:13:29,360 He's got a load of sand, innit he? 285 00:13:31,140 --> 00:13:32,260 It's quicksand! 286 00:13:33,000 --> 00:13:35,200 That's the fucking best surprise! 287 00:13:35,820 --> 00:13:37,420 I will take a little digger down there, 288 00:13:37,780 --> 00:13:40,660 take some out, use that as me bedding 289 00:13:40,660 --> 00:13:42,860 and put me quartz on top. 290 00:13:43,440 --> 00:13:44,380 That's me next plan. 291 00:13:46,660 --> 00:13:50,540 Do you feel like you're connected to your body, 292 00:13:50,680 --> 00:13:51,420 like your breath? 293 00:13:53,480 --> 00:13:54,120 Oh! 294 00:13:54,860 --> 00:13:55,320 Oh! 295 00:13:56,800 --> 00:13:57,040 Oh! 296 00:13:58,340 --> 00:13:59,520 Oh, this is lovely. 297 00:13:59,980 --> 00:14:01,520 Cos it's meant to be good for ADHD. 298 00:14:02,120 --> 00:14:04,000 You sound like you're struggling a bit, 299 00:14:04,060 --> 00:14:05,720 and I feel quite cool. 300 00:14:06,180 --> 00:14:09,520 I think when anybody sort of comes to the countryside 301 00:14:10,380 --> 00:14:12,960 from more of a towny situation, 302 00:14:12,960 --> 00:14:17,520 they're a bit apprehensive maybe of the quietness from it, 303 00:14:17,640 --> 00:14:19,000 but I think Cosy, 304 00:14:20,680 --> 00:14:24,420 it's really fun to watch him sort of come to life. 305 00:14:25,080 --> 00:14:28,960 Seeing him enjoy the swimming is just lovely. 306 00:14:29,720 --> 00:14:31,740 Shall I try and walk out where the beach was? 307 00:14:31,920 --> 00:14:32,680 Yeah, up there. 308 00:14:32,780 --> 00:14:33,020 Right. 309 00:14:33,280 --> 00:14:34,920 You're David Hasselhoff vibes, 310 00:14:35,260 --> 00:14:36,600 and I'm Pam, OK? 311 00:14:37,300 --> 00:14:38,900 Right, I've got weeds, here we go. 312 00:14:39,100 --> 00:14:40,120 You are the Hoff! 313 00:14:42,760 --> 00:14:44,400 Oh, you... Yes! 314 00:14:45,480 --> 00:14:46,560 You can't get up it. 315 00:14:46,820 --> 00:14:48,020 OK, take two. 316 00:14:48,620 --> 00:14:49,440 That was a test. 317 00:14:50,100 --> 00:14:50,600 Yes! 318 00:14:51,520 --> 00:14:52,080 Go! 319 00:14:52,500 --> 00:14:52,840 Ah! 320 00:14:53,200 --> 00:14:54,140 You can do it, yes. 321 00:14:54,340 --> 00:14:54,900 Ah! 322 00:14:55,440 --> 00:14:55,960 Yep. 323 00:14:56,360 --> 00:14:57,100 That is stunning. 324 00:14:57,820 --> 00:14:58,780 Love your work. 325 00:14:59,720 --> 00:15:01,760 David Hasselhoff, eat your heart out. 326 00:15:02,520 --> 00:15:03,800 I feel like Mr Fucking Blobby. 327 00:15:07,720 --> 00:15:10,800 I ain't throwing the towel in on me beach just yet. 328 00:15:11,580 --> 00:15:14,700 I'll add the fix to Young Glen's ever-expanding snag list. 329 00:15:16,160 --> 00:15:18,580 With lake house planning finally in me pocket, 330 00:15:19,020 --> 00:15:22,120 the beach ain't the only thing that needs a good clear-out. 331 00:15:22,320 --> 00:15:23,700 You never know what's behind there, do you? 332 00:15:24,000 --> 00:15:24,360 Come on. 333 00:15:25,620 --> 00:15:26,400 Yeah, perfect. 334 00:15:27,000 --> 00:15:28,900 And the barn on the edge of the property 335 00:15:28,900 --> 00:15:30,780 seems a good place to start. 336 00:15:31,160 --> 00:15:33,560 These are all from the lady I bought them off. 337 00:15:33,560 --> 00:15:35,680 They must have stored them all here and never took them. 338 00:15:36,680 --> 00:15:39,960 When you see an old lady in an armchair 339 00:15:39,960 --> 00:15:42,020 and you're sitting on her bed in the living room, 340 00:15:43,000 --> 00:15:48,120 and she tells you the struggle it was to keep the farm going, 341 00:15:48,360 --> 00:15:50,980 and she was terrified of losing her legacy. 342 00:15:51,520 --> 00:15:54,400 She didn't want people coming in and splitting it up. 343 00:15:54,680 --> 00:15:56,240 When she said to me, she called me in, 344 00:15:56,260 --> 00:15:58,720 she said, would you buy this place and keep it as is? 345 00:15:59,240 --> 00:16:01,380 I was like, eh? Because a lot of people wanted this place. 346 00:16:01,420 --> 00:16:02,220 I can imagine, yeah. 347 00:16:02,220 --> 00:16:05,280 She said, I'll only sell it to you. I said, all right. 348 00:16:05,740 --> 00:16:08,440 We came to a deal and she said... 349 00:16:08,440 --> 00:16:11,120 Because you bought it while she was still in the property? 350 00:16:11,340 --> 00:16:12,800 Yeah, still alive. Yeah, yeah, yeah. 351 00:16:12,880 --> 00:16:15,620 And I said, she can live here until the day she dies. 352 00:16:16,680 --> 00:16:19,600 That is a side of Vincent that not a lot of people see. 353 00:16:20,020 --> 00:16:21,880 He has got a very kind side. 354 00:16:22,000 --> 00:16:23,860 He was very good to me when I was down. 355 00:16:24,020 --> 00:16:27,080 He resonates with people in a bad stage in their life. 356 00:16:27,340 --> 00:16:29,480 He just tries to give them a pat on the back, really. 357 00:16:29,480 --> 00:16:33,380 Part of the deal was, her mum, there's a little field down there 358 00:16:33,380 --> 00:16:35,180 called Mum's Field, they call it. 359 00:16:35,660 --> 00:16:36,880 Her mum is buried down there. 360 00:16:37,140 --> 00:16:39,780 And I put the ashes down there with her mum. 361 00:16:39,860 --> 00:16:41,720 With her mum, lovely. And that's called Mum's Field. 362 00:16:42,260 --> 00:16:45,900 She's the kind of old girl that would be sitting on top of that oak tree 363 00:16:45,900 --> 00:16:49,500 on a big branch, looking down and going, ha-ha-ha, go on, then. 364 00:16:50,120 --> 00:16:51,700 Someone's life, isn't it? Someone's memories. 365 00:16:52,000 --> 00:16:54,460 That's where I get a bit emotional about it all. 366 00:16:55,500 --> 00:16:58,780 This lady had amassed what she'd amassed around her in her lifetime. 367 00:16:58,780 --> 00:17:01,120 And it was all just left in a pile. 368 00:17:01,520 --> 00:17:02,480 That's somebody's life. 369 00:17:02,980 --> 00:17:04,760 Years ago, that would have meant something to somebody. 370 00:17:05,560 --> 00:17:06,540 There, look at that, that's nice. 371 00:17:06,660 --> 00:17:08,720 He'll make me a nice stick out of that. 372 00:17:08,859 --> 00:17:09,640 He would do, wouldn't he? 373 00:17:10,400 --> 00:17:12,020 And it got me thinking, and I'm thinking, 374 00:17:12,160 --> 00:17:14,099 is that what life's all about? 375 00:17:14,960 --> 00:17:18,300 Do you go through life collecting all this stuff 376 00:17:19,319 --> 00:17:20,400 for it to mean nothing? 377 00:17:20,819 --> 00:17:21,859 Vinnie picked a stick up. 378 00:17:22,440 --> 00:17:24,700 And it looked to me as though it resonated with him. 379 00:17:24,839 --> 00:17:27,460 You never know what you're going to find. That'll clean up nice. 380 00:17:27,460 --> 00:17:30,260 I like to think that it will carry on her legacy. 381 00:17:30,780 --> 00:17:31,660 We're the keepers. 382 00:17:32,580 --> 00:17:34,440 All we are is the lock keepers for her. 383 00:17:35,540 --> 00:17:38,840 Whatever we do down there, it will always be Celeste's house. 384 00:17:39,600 --> 00:17:40,640 The old Celeste stick. 385 00:17:41,520 --> 00:17:42,400 That'd be nice, wouldn't it? 386 00:17:49,680 --> 00:17:52,460 Most ridiculous idea I've ever, ever heard. 387 00:18:00,260 --> 00:18:02,300 You can't let people on this. This is too dangerous. 388 00:18:03,180 --> 00:18:05,180 And also, it's covered in goose shit now. 389 00:18:05,560 --> 00:18:07,480 So I don't think I'll be sunbathing on this. 390 00:18:07,700 --> 00:18:09,860 It's not San Tropez, it's building sand. 391 00:18:10,320 --> 00:18:11,160 El Rongo. 392 00:18:11,920 --> 00:18:13,120 Look at this shit everywhere. 393 00:18:21,440 --> 00:18:22,320 Another day. 394 00:18:22,700 --> 00:18:23,160 Morning, boys. 395 00:18:23,360 --> 00:18:23,880 You OK? 396 00:18:24,280 --> 00:18:24,820 Yeah, it's good. 397 00:18:25,100 --> 00:18:25,900 Another round in. 398 00:18:26,800 --> 00:18:28,420 No, it can't be fucking done. 399 00:18:28,960 --> 00:18:30,140 Keeping the pressure on. 400 00:18:30,380 --> 00:18:31,600 We'll get that done, that done. 401 00:18:31,780 --> 00:18:33,880 We'll get the table in, some few chairs. 402 00:18:34,300 --> 00:18:37,600 Because before the bell rings for the main event at the lake house... 403 00:18:37,600 --> 00:18:40,360 Who's that? Leave it. What time do you call this? 404 00:18:40,640 --> 00:18:44,100 ..I've got a few more bouts lined up over on this side of the hill. 405 00:18:44,400 --> 00:18:47,400 Straight forward. Just lift the front, that's it. There you go. 406 00:18:47,920 --> 00:18:49,860 That is the absolute nuts. 407 00:18:50,120 --> 00:18:50,840 Look how big it is. 408 00:18:57,300 --> 00:19:00,860 One job I've got to stop dancing around is the beach by the jetty. 409 00:19:01,520 --> 00:19:02,860 Right, Pip, come on, then. 410 00:19:03,360 --> 00:19:04,960 It's been hanging over me all summer. 411 00:19:05,460 --> 00:19:08,000 We need a beach open sign, don't we? 412 00:19:08,160 --> 00:19:10,100 Yeah, that's it. Yeah. Right, let's boogie. 413 00:19:10,460 --> 00:19:12,600 And with the right sand finally in hand, 414 00:19:13,460 --> 00:19:15,780 it'll be Costa del VJ come Sunday. 415 00:19:16,380 --> 00:19:18,440 That's proper beach sand, isn't it? Absolutely. 416 00:19:18,700 --> 00:19:21,060 Build a castle out of that, mate, look. 417 00:19:22,120 --> 00:19:24,540 Come on, Zachy, let's get it in. Moment of truth, then. 418 00:19:27,000 --> 00:19:31,830 It's not as white as I thought it would be. 419 00:19:32,690 --> 00:19:35,170 Is that as white as it comes? Yeah. Perfect. 420 00:19:35,570 --> 00:19:37,810 Here we go, look. Taking all the glory, Glenn. 421 00:19:37,990 --> 00:19:40,950 Taking all the glory. It's there to be taken. 422 00:19:46,270 --> 00:19:51,950 Sometimes I take ten steps forward and 15 back, 423 00:19:52,070 --> 00:19:53,690 but then I'll take another ten forward. 424 00:19:53,870 --> 00:19:55,430 But this is what I envisage. 425 00:19:55,970 --> 00:19:58,410 Maybe we should start an interior design company. 426 00:19:58,410 --> 00:20:00,090 I'd love it. I'm good at that. 427 00:20:00,510 --> 00:20:01,430 You have got vision, haven't you? 428 00:20:02,250 --> 00:20:04,270 Just that everybody's not on the same... No. 429 00:20:06,010 --> 00:20:08,790 Well, the trouble is, everybody's got to do your vision. 430 00:20:08,790 --> 00:20:10,350 I'm going too fast for you fucking lot. 431 00:20:13,610 --> 00:20:16,190 When he first suggested it, a beach, I thought, nah, but... 432 00:20:16,190 --> 00:20:19,030 You know what, as did I. Mr Richie's got two of them, mate. 433 00:20:19,330 --> 00:20:21,250 That'll come, that'll come. They'll be free. 434 00:20:21,270 --> 00:20:22,550 That'll come. They'll be free. 435 00:20:23,450 --> 00:20:25,270 You're going to love that. Yeah. 436 00:20:25,270 --> 00:20:28,350 I know you've got enough to do, but if you can just come and rake it 437 00:20:28,350 --> 00:20:30,330 every morning before you start work. I'll put that on my list. 438 00:20:31,430 --> 00:20:34,490 I'll leave that hour earlier. Stick that on your list, if you don't mind. 439 00:20:34,670 --> 00:20:36,270 I'll de-shit it first and then... 440 00:20:40,890 --> 00:20:43,590 Sand's swapped out and the beach finally squared away. 441 00:20:44,410 --> 00:20:46,970 I know my grandkids will be made up with my efforts 442 00:20:46,970 --> 00:20:48,190 next time they come and stay. 443 00:20:49,890 --> 00:20:50,250 Harry! 444 00:20:52,870 --> 00:20:54,310 Hey! How are you doing, mate? 445 00:20:54,310 --> 00:20:55,130 Good. 446 00:20:56,310 --> 00:20:57,790 Eddie. What, mate? 447 00:20:58,410 --> 00:21:00,410 I'm very good. Where's your tooth gone? 448 00:21:01,010 --> 00:21:03,150 It fell out a few weeks ago. 449 00:21:03,550 --> 00:21:03,910 Yeah? 450 00:21:04,610 --> 00:21:07,530 The tooth fairy gave me a hot probe here. 451 00:21:07,890 --> 00:21:08,110 Oh! 452 00:21:09,450 --> 00:21:11,350 Guess what I've got? 453 00:21:11,770 --> 00:21:12,110 Oh! 454 00:21:13,770 --> 00:21:15,290 Oh, my God! 455 00:21:15,630 --> 00:21:16,070 Oh! 456 00:21:17,370 --> 00:21:18,050 Look! 457 00:21:18,670 --> 00:21:21,770 Yeah. We'll put her back, shall we? 458 00:21:23,910 --> 00:21:28,150 They don't seem so distant because you can just video call them, 459 00:21:28,350 --> 00:21:31,390 but there's nothing better than to have them here and give them a cuddle. 460 00:21:31,810 --> 00:21:33,250 Harry's straightening his leg, Brendan. 461 00:21:34,170 --> 00:21:35,130 Have you? Let's have a look. 462 00:21:36,190 --> 00:21:37,390 Oh, well done. 463 00:21:38,090 --> 00:21:40,050 Are you walking without the crutches now? Yeah. 464 00:21:40,710 --> 00:21:42,850 My grandson had cancer of the leg. 465 00:21:43,350 --> 00:21:45,830 I mean, he's clear, but he's not out of the woods yet. 466 00:21:46,190 --> 00:21:48,030 He's had a lot of pity and he's doing really well. 467 00:21:48,390 --> 00:21:51,410 Well, that's good news, Harry. Well done. Keep going. Keep strong. 468 00:21:51,410 --> 00:21:54,430 I've been building a beach for you down the lake. 469 00:21:54,990 --> 00:21:56,510 Have you? Very nice. 470 00:21:56,710 --> 00:21:57,530 Sun loungers. 471 00:21:58,550 --> 00:22:01,630 Yeah, all white sand. Lovely white sand. 472 00:22:02,690 --> 00:22:04,070 The weather's the way it's been for me. 473 00:22:04,210 --> 00:22:05,590 I've gone over. I would get a tan. 474 00:22:06,510 --> 00:22:09,910 Yeah? Shame you didn't get over this time, but we'll get over later. 475 00:22:10,070 --> 00:22:11,130 We'll get over later on. 476 00:22:11,390 --> 00:22:15,270 Talk to you next week on your birthday, Harry, all right? 477 00:22:15,570 --> 00:22:15,990 OK. 478 00:22:16,610 --> 00:22:18,450 Ed, give us a kiss and I'll see you later. 479 00:22:18,450 --> 00:22:20,110 You've got a kiss for Grandad. 480 00:22:22,130 --> 00:22:22,690 Eddie! 481 00:22:25,710 --> 00:22:28,730 You little farter. See you later. See you, Harry. 482 00:22:31,410 --> 00:22:35,530 Those kids remind me of what I've got to be thankful for in this life. 483 00:22:36,090 --> 00:22:37,890 But knowing not everyone's as fortunate, 484 00:22:38,670 --> 00:22:42,730 today I'm giving a little helping hand to a charity that hits close to home. 485 00:22:43,310 --> 00:22:47,670 So the Magic Taxi send not only terminal kids to Disneyland, 486 00:22:47,670 --> 00:22:53,630 also their siblings that don't really get as much attention at this time, 487 00:22:53,870 --> 00:22:57,950 obviously, because all the attention goes on to the child that's very, very ill. 488 00:22:58,090 --> 00:23:02,010 So the cabboys take them to Disneyland. They drive them there. 489 00:23:03,290 --> 00:23:06,550 And to help raise funds for the volunteers' next trip... 490 00:23:06,550 --> 00:23:09,850 Bring that round to here, girls. Pull it up to here and we'll serve from here. 491 00:23:10,470 --> 00:23:12,370 ..I've auctioned off a day's clay shooting 492 00:23:12,370 --> 00:23:15,270 and invited the cabboys along for the ride. 493 00:23:20,690 --> 00:23:23,930 My connection is my grandson had cancer of the leg 494 00:23:23,930 --> 00:23:27,070 and obviously, you know, it's brought it all home to me. 495 00:23:27,190 --> 00:23:31,110 You know, Harry's fight and these other kids' fights. 496 00:23:31,270 --> 00:23:32,850 So it's very close to the heart. 497 00:23:38,920 --> 00:23:42,400 So today is all about the children with us 498 00:23:42,400 --> 00:23:44,380 and the children that are not. 499 00:23:44,760 --> 00:23:46,100 That's what today's all about. 500 00:23:46,680 --> 00:23:48,760 And it's great that you've all given your time, 501 00:23:48,760 --> 00:23:51,260 all my lot have given their time to support you guys, 502 00:23:51,620 --> 00:23:53,700 to show you our respect. 503 00:23:54,100 --> 00:23:58,240 It's all about fun today and it's all about such a fantastic cause. 504 00:24:01,180 --> 00:24:03,440 Right, let the games commence, boys! 505 00:24:07,440 --> 00:24:08,760 Oh! Oh! Oh! 506 00:24:11,520 --> 00:24:12,780 Nearly made it. 507 00:24:13,020 --> 00:24:14,040 Early. Straight at it. 508 00:24:14,800 --> 00:24:17,660 Oh, my God. Conservation shot. 509 00:24:18,280 --> 00:24:20,740 We'll be all right this year, Mick. We'd better put another day in. 510 00:24:23,840 --> 00:24:24,940 Straight at the rabbit. 511 00:24:25,960 --> 00:24:26,340 Yes! 512 00:24:27,560 --> 00:24:28,500 There you go! 513 00:24:29,020 --> 00:24:30,860 Brilliant, mate, brilliant. That's what it's all about. 514 00:24:31,280 --> 00:24:32,800 Fun. How many did you get? 515 00:24:33,160 --> 00:24:33,480 One. 516 00:24:34,820 --> 00:24:36,560 Great, absolutely great. It really is. 517 00:24:37,220 --> 00:24:39,260 There's a lot of people smiling and laughing. 518 00:24:40,320 --> 00:24:42,400 Yeah, no, it is absolutely fantastic. 519 00:24:42,980 --> 00:24:45,080 You know, as we always say, they've all got their stories, haven't they? 520 00:24:45,280 --> 00:24:46,560 Every front door's got a story. 521 00:24:46,560 --> 00:24:47,460 It really has. 522 00:24:48,880 --> 00:24:52,360 It's not just those affected by cancer that support this charity. 523 00:24:53,440 --> 00:24:56,400 Jim's been sponsoring a taxi since he lost his lad 524 00:24:56,400 --> 00:24:58,240 in an accident four years ago. 525 00:24:58,780 --> 00:25:00,180 How old was Alfie? 24. 526 00:25:01,100 --> 00:25:03,200 Tired of coming to terms with... 527 00:25:03,760 --> 00:25:04,820 ..a loss like that. 528 00:25:05,240 --> 00:25:07,520 Every day of the week, we go to the grave. Do you? Yeah. 529 00:25:07,760 --> 00:25:10,640 Change of flowers. Sometimes we go there at 11 o'clock at night. 530 00:25:11,040 --> 00:25:12,740 I know, because you'll feel guilty. Yeah. 531 00:25:12,940 --> 00:25:14,240 And you lost your wife, yeah. 532 00:25:15,220 --> 00:25:17,960 It's a process, mate, and it takes time. 533 00:25:18,340 --> 00:25:21,820 Everything eaps on very early as well, but you start coping with it. 534 00:25:22,440 --> 00:25:23,500 You should get up in the morning 535 00:25:23,500 --> 00:25:26,520 and do the first task of the day, do it properly, 536 00:25:26,840 --> 00:25:29,460 and then you can do the next one a bit better, you know, 537 00:25:29,500 --> 00:25:33,020 and then finally all these hundreds of pieces 538 00:25:33,020 --> 00:25:37,360 will slowly, slowly come back together, you know what I mean? 539 00:25:37,780 --> 00:25:41,020 At the moment, your task is you'll go into the grave every day. Yeah. 540 00:25:41,020 --> 00:25:42,200 You know, you have got a task. 541 00:25:42,600 --> 00:25:45,260 It takes a long time, mate, and you've got to process it. 542 00:25:45,840 --> 00:25:48,880 You think four years on, it would get a little bit easier, 543 00:25:49,020 --> 00:25:50,540 but it seems to be harder for me. 544 00:25:50,740 --> 00:25:53,300 I don't know. You're around that... 545 00:25:53,300 --> 00:25:55,060 Every time I think about him, I break down. 546 00:25:55,800 --> 00:25:56,960 I've done it on national TV. 547 00:25:57,620 --> 00:26:00,360 I had the same chat and burst into it on Piers Morgan. 548 00:26:00,740 --> 00:26:02,660 But I got it out there, I helped other blokes. 549 00:26:03,420 --> 00:26:04,900 I said, yeah, it's all right to fucking talk, 550 00:26:04,960 --> 00:26:06,700 and it's all right to fucking cry and show our emotions. 551 00:26:07,280 --> 00:26:09,740 Why not? Sorry, mate. 552 00:26:09,740 --> 00:26:13,300 It's our... Mate, I've been... I apologise, mate. 553 00:26:13,780 --> 00:26:17,460 But it's... I look to see how proud I'm making her now. 554 00:26:17,800 --> 00:26:19,640 I just keep thinking, everyone says, 555 00:26:19,960 --> 00:26:21,320 God only takes the good first. 556 00:26:21,680 --> 00:26:23,060 Well, he definitely took the good with my boy. 557 00:26:23,060 --> 00:26:25,760 There you go. And take that with you and embrace that. 558 00:26:26,260 --> 00:26:28,940 I talk to the grave every day. Yeah, you will. You will. 559 00:26:29,560 --> 00:26:30,940 You'll be driving along, having a chat. 560 00:26:31,620 --> 00:26:34,540 I do try to enjoy myself, but I do think about him. 561 00:26:34,960 --> 00:26:37,160 Don't feel guilty about that. I used to feel that. 562 00:26:37,820 --> 00:26:39,180 Feel guilty about enjoying yourself. 563 00:26:39,180 --> 00:26:40,400 He's going to smile at that. 564 00:26:41,120 --> 00:26:43,700 Boy loves you. You know, he wants you to be happy, mate. 565 00:26:49,150 --> 00:26:51,150 This is lovely today, and I'm walking round, 566 00:26:51,230 --> 00:26:53,910 there's people who have got smiles on their faces, you know, 567 00:26:53,950 --> 00:26:56,130 and I think what a lot of people have gone through 568 00:26:56,130 --> 00:26:58,470 is what Vinny's been through, I've been through, 569 00:26:58,530 --> 00:26:59,690 what they're going through. 570 00:26:59,950 --> 00:27:02,430 It's very, very difficult when you're going through grief 571 00:27:02,430 --> 00:27:05,550 to talk about it. Very hard. Very, very hard. 572 00:27:06,030 --> 00:27:07,230 So what he's done today is great. 573 00:27:09,670 --> 00:27:12,470 I've been through a lot of grief one way or another, mate. 574 00:27:12,470 --> 00:27:15,170 My wife and my mum in the last few years, 575 00:27:15,410 --> 00:27:17,470 and people look and say, he's been through this, 576 00:27:17,530 --> 00:27:19,450 he knows what we're talking about, we trust him. 577 00:27:19,710 --> 00:27:21,950 And that's a massive word, the trust word. 578 00:27:29,310 --> 00:27:32,110 After today, I need to take a moment to myself... 579 00:27:34,030 --> 00:27:35,110 ..and have a breather. 580 00:27:39,070 --> 00:27:41,230 Massive bird just sat there, didn't know that was there. 581 00:27:48,780 --> 00:27:50,340 This is where the rope... 582 00:27:51,320 --> 00:27:53,380 ..the rope, I can come and stand here, look. 583 00:27:59,400 --> 00:28:01,000 It's a nice deer down there. 584 00:28:05,000 --> 00:28:08,140 It's my little spot. I do like this little spot here. 585 00:28:13,500 --> 00:28:15,360 I do like this little spot here. 586 00:28:18,660 --> 00:28:19,620 God, that's interesting. 587 00:28:22,100 --> 00:28:23,400 Good-looking boy, isn't he? 588 00:28:24,780 --> 00:28:27,580 That's your typical English ringneck, that, isn't it? 589 00:28:29,880 --> 00:28:33,340 Being alone with nature helps me through the tough days. 590 00:28:34,200 --> 00:28:36,980 It gives peace to reflect on the hard times. 591 00:28:38,020 --> 00:28:41,160 Talking to Jim, it just flooded back so many memories. 592 00:28:41,600 --> 00:28:42,300 It's devastating. 593 00:28:43,020 --> 00:28:46,100 And the only way I can sit and listen and that 594 00:28:46,100 --> 00:28:47,600 is cos I've been there and done it. 595 00:28:48,380 --> 00:28:50,380 I've been through it, he's going through it. 596 00:28:50,920 --> 00:28:53,080 And I'm still going through it and I always will 597 00:28:53,080 --> 00:28:54,520 for the rest of my life go through it. 598 00:28:55,600 --> 00:28:58,600 Losing my mum, it's something that's very personal. 599 00:28:59,940 --> 00:29:04,960 It's a massive, massive blow that... 600 00:29:05,960 --> 00:29:08,140 ..I'm still holding in, I think. 601 00:29:08,980 --> 00:29:11,200 We're a couple of months on now. 602 00:29:11,860 --> 00:29:14,040 It worries me a little bit, there's been no breakdown. 603 00:29:14,560 --> 00:29:16,000 It does worry me a little bit. 604 00:29:17,180 --> 00:29:19,160 I don't think you can control grief. 605 00:29:20,200 --> 00:29:21,080 It's uncontrollable. 606 00:29:21,680 --> 00:29:25,160 And with my mum, I'm trying to keep it away. 607 00:29:27,080 --> 00:29:29,080 Whether that's the right or wrong thing, I don't know. 608 00:29:29,240 --> 00:29:32,540 But it's painful, it's hard, you know. 609 00:29:36,880 --> 00:29:40,640 You've got to keep busy or you'll crumple. 610 00:29:41,640 --> 00:29:42,960 And I ain't going to crumple. 611 00:29:46,890 --> 00:29:50,210 It is the fear of crumpling that keeps me going, I think. 612 00:29:52,910 --> 00:29:55,310 Maybe I'm keeping myself too busy right now. 613 00:29:55,730 --> 00:29:58,970 I'm a little bit worried that if I slow down a little bit, it might...