1 00:00:52,469 --> 00:00:55,013 This sic/y ends before you were born. 2 00:01:12,322 --> 00:01:13,615 Mother. 3 00:01:19,037 --> 00:01:20,581 Again. 4 00:01:23,834 --> 00:01:27,212 When we wake up feeling hands that were no longer there, 5 00:01:28,130 --> 00:01:32,467 the elders told us that it was the work of ghosts or Satan. 6 00:01:36,471 --> 00:01:38,807 Or that we were lying to get attention. 7 00:01:40,058 --> 00:01:43,145 Or that it was an act of wild female imagination. 8 00:01:49,359 --> 00:01:51,153 It went on for years. 9 00:01:53,405 --> 00:01:54,948 To all of us. 10 00:02:04,291 --> 00:02:06,168 It felt I/ke weightlessness. 11 00:02:07,628 --> 00:02:10,255 It felt like drifting over what used to be real. 12 00:02:14,176 --> 00:02:16,428 It felt like a banishment, 13 00:02:16,511 --> 00:02:19,931 as though we had no in vitation anymore to be a part of the real. 14 00:02:29,608 --> 00:02:32,736 I used to wonder who I would be ifit hadn't happened to me. 15 00:02:34,112 --> 00:02:36,448 I used to miss the person I m/ght have been. 16 00:02:37,741 --> 00:02:38,950 I don't anymore. 17 00:02:41,912 --> 00:02:44,956 Because it's doomsday and a call to prayer. 18 00:02:46,333 --> 00:02:47,501 It's bath. 19 00:02:54,424 --> 00:02:57,928 We caught one of them. I saw his face. 20 00:02:59,137 --> 00:03:00,972 And then he named the others. 21 00:03:12,192 --> 00:03:14,027 Eventually the attackers were taken 22 00:03:14,111 --> 00:03:15,445 to the police in the city 23 00:03:15,987 --> 00:03:17,197 for their own protection. 24 00:03:24,579 --> 00:03:27,165 Almost all of the men of the colony went to the city 25 00:03:27,249 --> 00:03:29,126 to post ball for the attackers. 26 00:03:30,127 --> 00:03:33,755 We were given two days to forgive the attackers before they returned 27 00:03:36,383 --> 00:03:40,011 if we did not forgive them, we would be ordered to leave the colony 28 00:03:40,095 --> 00:03:42,556 and be denied entry into the kingdom of hea ven. 29 00:03:54,317 --> 00:03:55,652 Do nothing. 30 00:03:58,321 --> 00:04:00,157 Stay and fight. 31 00:04:02,868 --> 00:04:04,327 Leave. 32 00:04:32,063 --> 00:04:34,483 Girls in our colony had very little schooling. 33 00:04:35,776 --> 00:04:38,069 We hardly knew how to read or to write. 34 00:04:38,945 --> 00:04:41,823 But that day, we learned how to vote. 35 00:05:36,378 --> 00:05:39,840 The vote was tied between staying and fighting, or leaving. 36 00:05:40,966 --> 00:05:43,593 80 three families, including yours and mine, 37 00:05:43,677 --> 00:05:47,264 were elected to decide what the women of the colony would do. 38 00:05:56,731 --> 00:05:59,693 Your mother had asked a ugust, the schoolteacher, 39 00:05:59,776 --> 00:06:01,695 to take the minutes of our meeting. 40 00:06:02,404 --> 00:06:04,948 August came back to the colony just recently 41 00:06:06,283 --> 00:06:09,536 his family had been excommunicated years ago. 42 00:06:17,752 --> 00:06:20,171 A ugust had lo ved your mother since he was a boy. 43 00:06:37,939 --> 00:06:40,859 Before we began, your grandmother, agata, 44 00:06:40,942 --> 00:06:43,528 told us we had to honor our service to each other. 45 00:06:44,571 --> 00:06:46,197 We had to represent it. 46 00:06:47,324 --> 00:06:51,578 Just as the disc/pies were washed by Jesus at the last supper, 47 00:06:51,661 --> 00:06:54,080 knowing that his hour had come. 48 00:06:57,626 --> 00:07:02,005 We only had 24 hours to imagine what world you would be born into. 49 00:07:05,967 --> 00:07:07,886 It is a part of our faith to forgive. 50 00:07:07,969 --> 00:07:11,306 We have always forgiven those who have wronged us. Why not now? 51 00:07:11,389 --> 00:07:12,766 Because now we know better. 52 00:07:12,849 --> 00:07:14,392 We will be excommunicated, 53 00:07:14,476 --> 00:07:17,520 forced to leave the colony in disgrace if we do not forgive these men. 54 00:07:18,813 --> 00:07:21,775 And if we are excommunicated, we forfeit our place in heaven. 55 00:07:22,943 --> 00:07:25,779 How could any of you live with the fear of that? 56 00:07:26,529 --> 00:07:31,409 These are legitimate fears. How can we address them? 57 00:07:31,493 --> 00:07:35,914 The only important thing to establish is if we forgive the men 58 00:07:37,248 --> 00:07:39,448 so that we will be allowed to enter the gates of heaven. 59 00:07:40,877 --> 00:07:43,773 You can laugh all you like, salome, but we will be forced to leave the colony 60 00:07:43,797 --> 00:07:45,382 if we don't forgive the men. 61 00:07:45,924 --> 00:07:49,010 How will the lord, when he arrives, find the women if we aren't in the colony? 62 00:07:49,094 --> 00:07:52,013 If Jesus was able to return to life, live for thousands of years 63 00:07:52,097 --> 00:07:54,700 and then drop down to earth from heaven to scoop up his supporters, 64 00:07:54,724 --> 00:07:56,911 surely he'd also be able to locate a few women who left their colony. 65 00:07:56,935 --> 00:07:59,771 - Let's stay on track. - All right. I'll stay on track. 66 00:07:59,854 --> 00:08:03,149 I cannot forgive them. I will never forgive them. 67 00:08:04,567 --> 00:08:06,319 I... I can't either. 68 00:08:07,988 --> 00:08:10,148 But we want to enter the kingdom of heaven when we die. 69 00:08:14,536 --> 00:08:16,371 We have everything we want here. 70 00:08:16,454 --> 00:08:18,832 - No. - Want less. 71 00:08:21,126 --> 00:08:24,004 Does entering the kingdom of heaven mean nothing to any of you? 72 00:08:24,087 --> 00:08:26,482 Surely there must be something worth living for in this life, 73 00:08:26,506 --> 00:08:27,882 not only in the next. 74 00:08:40,437 --> 00:08:41,438 Autje! 75 00:08:42,230 --> 00:08:44,357 - See you soon. It'll be all right. - Sorry. 76 00:08:53,825 --> 00:08:58,371 Your grandmother used to say, ”find out where you can be of help 77 00:08:58,455 --> 00:09:00,790 and leave what you can't help behind ” 78 00:09:02,042 --> 00:09:04,919 I think that's easier when you're old like her. 79 00:09:05,003 --> 00:09:09,257 So we must decide now to stay and fight, or leave. 80 00:09:10,008 --> 00:09:12,302 Those are the options in front of us. 81 00:09:13,636 --> 00:09:15,805 We will not do nothing. 82 00:09:19,392 --> 00:09:22,395 I want to talk about my horses, Ruth and Cheryl. 83 00:09:25,940 --> 00:09:28,735 When Ruth and Cheryl are frightened by dueck's dogs on the mile road 84 00:09:28,818 --> 00:09:30,570 that leads to the church, 85 00:09:30,653 --> 00:09:32,655 their rn/t/al instinct is to bolt 86 00:09:36,534 --> 00:09:40,622 These horses don't organize meetings to decide what they will do. 87 00:09:41,206 --> 00:09:42,248 They run. 88 00:09:42,332 --> 00:09:44,542 But, Greta, we are not animals. 89 00:09:44,626 --> 00:09:49,339 We have been preyed upon like animals. Maybe we should respond like animals. 90 00:09:49,422 --> 00:09:52,383 In my lifetime, I have seen horses confront angry dogs 91 00:09:52,467 --> 00:09:54,302 and try to stamp them to death. 92 00:09:54,385 --> 00:09:56,096 Animals don't always flee. 93 00:09:56,179 --> 00:09:59,849 Is this how we want to teach our daughters to defend themselves? By fleeing? 94 00:09:59,933 --> 00:10:01,911 Not fleeing but leaving. I was talking about leaving. 95 00:10:01,935 --> 00:10:04,288 I would rather stand my ground and shoot each man in the heart 96 00:10:04,312 --> 00:10:05,897 and Bury 'em in a pit than flee. 97 00:10:05,980 --> 00:10:07,541 And I'll deal with god's wrath iflhaveto. 98 00:10:07,565 --> 00:10:10,026 Salome, aunt Greta is talking about leaving, not fleeing. 99 00:10:10,110 --> 00:10:12,362 The word "fleeing" wasn't what she meant. 100 00:10:12,445 --> 00:10:14,906 Please forgive my mother for using the wrong word. 101 00:10:14,989 --> 00:10:17,784 It's a sin so outrageous that salome has taken it upon herself 102 00:10:17,867 --> 00:10:19,867 to rectify for the sake of all humanity. 103 00:10:19,911 --> 00:10:22,455 "Leaving" and "fleeing" are different words 104 00:10:22,539 --> 00:10:24,499 with different meanings. 105 00:10:24,582 --> 00:10:26,668 They each say something about us. 106 00:10:32,215 --> 00:10:37,887 August, what do you make of all of this? Do you have an opinion too? 107 00:10:39,597 --> 00:10:41,057 I think... 108 00:10:42,517 --> 00:10:46,563 I think that it is possible to leave something or someone... 109 00:10:49,440 --> 00:10:51,943 In one frame of mind 110 00:10:52,026 --> 00:10:54,654 and arrive elsewhere in another... 111 00:10:55,530 --> 00:10:57,866 Entirely unexpected frame of mind. 112 00:10:57,949 --> 00:10:59,826 I want to stay and fight. 113 00:10:59,909 --> 00:11:03,079 But won't we lose the fight to the men and be forced to forgive them anyway? 114 00:11:03,163 --> 00:11:04,414 I want to stay and fight too. 115 00:11:04,497 --> 00:11:07,542 No one's surprised that you do. All you do is fight. 116 00:11:07,625 --> 00:11:11,045 Is this really how we are to decide the fates of all the women in this colony? 117 00:11:11,129 --> 00:11:15,341 Just another vote where we put an x next to our position? 118 00:11:15,425 --> 00:11:17,111 I thought we were here to do more than that. 119 00:11:17,135 --> 00:11:19,405 You mean talk more about forgiving the men and doing nothing. 120 00:11:19,429 --> 00:11:22,515 Everything else is insane. But none of you will listen to reason. 121 00:11:22,599 --> 00:11:23,766 Why are you here with us? 122 00:11:23,850 --> 00:11:25,536 Why are you still here with us if that is what you believe? 123 00:11:25,560 --> 00:11:27,037 Just leave with the rest of the "do nothing" women. 124 00:11:27,061 --> 00:11:30,231 She is my daughter and I want her here with us. 125 00:11:31,900 --> 00:11:35,069 Is forgiveness that's forced upon us true forgiveness? 126 00:11:36,863 --> 00:11:39,073 Keep nonsense like that to yourself, please. 127 00:11:39,782 --> 00:11:42,869 - Autje, get down! - Autje, listen to your mother! 128 00:11:42,952 --> 00:11:44,621 Behave yourself. 129 00:11:44,704 --> 00:11:46,456 Don't you hear the rafters creaking? 130 00:11:46,539 --> 00:11:48,124 Do you want the roof to cave in? 131 00:11:52,503 --> 00:11:54,964 Ll/lan y of us saw ourselves from abo ve. 132 00:11:55,840 --> 00:12:00,303 I'm not sure if it was god and we were seeing ourselves through his eyes... 133 00:12:02,305 --> 00:12:04,224 Or /f we just couldn't be there... 134 00:12:07,018 --> 00:12:08,811 In our own bodies. 135 00:12:12,857 --> 00:12:15,151 - How'd you get up there? - It was a miracle. 136 00:12:15,235 --> 00:12:17,695 A miracle from god. 137 00:12:17,779 --> 00:12:19,530 Of course. Where else? 138 00:12:20,323 --> 00:12:24,035 Where lcome from, where your mother comes from, 139 00:12:25,328 --> 00:12:27,288 we didn't talk about our bodies. 140 00:12:28,498 --> 00:12:31,751 So when something like this happened there was no language for it. 141 00:12:32,669 --> 00:12:36,256 And without language for rt, there was a gaping silence. 142 00:12:38,091 --> 00:12:40,843 And in that gaping silence was the real horror. 143 00:13:46,868 --> 00:13:50,580 Neizy'e's mother hanged herself after the attacks had gone on for a while. 144 00:13:53,207 --> 00:13:58,296 It made us wonder, why did our feet keep moving forward when hers just couldn't? 145 00:13:59,589 --> 00:14:02,592 What sets us apart from the ones who get left behind? 146 00:14:07,513 --> 00:14:09,349 This is never going to end. 147 00:14:09,432 --> 00:14:11,160 We'll be dead and they'll still be talking. 148 00:14:11,184 --> 00:14:13,384 Or worse, we'll have to live through it. 149 00:14:14,771 --> 00:14:18,733 August, I think you should make lists of the pros and cons of both options, 150 00:14:18,816 --> 00:14:20,860 "staying and fighting" and "leaving." 151 00:14:24,530 --> 00:14:26,491 Post it on the wall. 152 00:14:29,452 --> 00:14:31,079 Make sure and write large. 153 00:14:31,162 --> 00:14:33,373 Why? We can't read it. 154 00:14:33,456 --> 00:14:37,085 No, but we'll keep it here as an artifact for others to discover. 155 00:14:39,295 --> 00:14:41,440 I think the first heading should say, "staying and fighting" 156 00:14:41,464 --> 00:14:43,216 and under that write "pros." 157 00:14:43,299 --> 00:14:44,634 Who will go first? 158 00:14:45,301 --> 00:14:47,929 We're starting with staying and fighting, pros. 159 00:14:48,012 --> 00:14:50,932 I think we should make a list... 160 00:14:51,015 --> 00:14:53,559 That's what you believe, not what everyone believes. 161 00:14:53,643 --> 00:14:55,728 How many times do I need to say it? 162 00:14:55,812 --> 00:14:57,052 Excuse me. Forgive me. 163 00:14:57,105 --> 00:14:59,899 Um, may I request that you take turns speaking 164 00:14:59,982 --> 00:15:01,609 so that I can understand each of you? 165 00:15:01,692 --> 00:15:03,736 It takes me a second to transcribe. 166 00:15:03,820 --> 00:15:07,240 Should we put up our hands as though we are children in your schoolhouse? 167 00:15:07,949 --> 00:15:10,284 I... I apologize. 168 00:15:11,035 --> 00:15:12,620 We won't have to leave. 169 00:15:13,204 --> 00:15:15,498 - Sorry. - Will you just write it down? 170 00:15:15,581 --> 00:15:16,666 Under pros. 171 00:15:16,749 --> 00:15:19,001 Salome has had a brilliant idea 172 00:15:19,085 --> 00:15:21,087 that if we stay, we won't have to leave. 173 00:15:21,170 --> 00:15:22,970 We won't have to figure out where we are going 174 00:15:23,047 --> 00:15:26,342 or experience the uncertainty of not knowing where we are going. 175 00:15:26,426 --> 00:15:28,553 - We don't have a map. - That's absurd. 176 00:15:28,636 --> 00:15:31,639 The only certainty we'll know is uncertainty, no matter where we are. 177 00:15:32,432 --> 00:15:35,810 Neitje? Autje? Do you have something to add to the list? 178 00:15:37,645 --> 00:15:39,605 We won't have to leave the people we love. 179 00:15:39,689 --> 00:15:43,317 Well, we could bring our loved ones with us if we leave. 180 00:15:43,401 --> 00:15:47,655 How? What does that mean? That we move the whole colony? 181 00:15:47,738 --> 00:15:48,948 What could that possibly mean? 182 00:15:49,031 --> 00:15:52,243 We could create the possibility of a new order right here 183 00:15:52,326 --> 00:15:55,163 in a place that is familiar to us. 184 00:15:55,246 --> 00:15:57,874 Not simply familiar, but a place that is ours. 185 00:15:57,957 --> 00:16:01,502 Do we need to write the cons? Isn't it obvious we must stay and fight? 186 00:16:02,295 --> 00:16:04,797 Cons. We won't be forgiven. 187 00:16:06,007 --> 00:16:07,925 May I say something? 188 00:16:08,009 --> 00:16:09,427 Please. 189 00:16:09,510 --> 00:16:13,055 Would it be a good idea, before we list the pros and cons of staying and fighting, 190 00:16:13,139 --> 00:16:15,933 to talk about exactly what it is we're fighting for? 191 00:16:16,017 --> 00:16:19,896 It's obvious. We are fighting for our safety and for our freedom from attacks. 192 00:16:19,979 --> 00:16:21,856 But what would that mean to us? 193 00:16:22,690 --> 00:16:24,442 Perhaps we need a statement which describes 194 00:16:24,525 --> 00:16:27,695 what we want the colony to be like after winning the fight. 195 00:16:27,778 --> 00:16:30,823 Perhaps we need to understand more what it is we are fighting to achieve, 196 00:16:30,907 --> 00:16:32,992 not only what we are fighting to destroy. 197 00:16:33,075 --> 00:16:36,662 Are we staying or are we going? 198 00:16:39,415 --> 00:16:43,002 Ona, please tell us more about the statement you're thinking about. 199 00:16:46,047 --> 00:16:49,675 Men and women would make all decisions for the colony collectively. 200 00:16:51,260 --> 00:16:53,304 Women would be allowed to think. 201 00:16:53,888 --> 00:16:56,432 Girls wrll be taught to read and to write. 202 00:16:57,517 --> 00:16:59,644 The schoolhouse must display a map of the world 203 00:16:59,727 --> 00:17:02,188 so that we can begin to understand our place in it. 204 00:17:03,022 --> 00:17:07,276 A new religion, taken from the old but focused on love, 205 00:17:08,486 --> 00:17:11,030 would be created by the women of the colony. 206 00:17:12,114 --> 00:17:13,824 Our children would be safe. 207 00:17:17,703 --> 00:17:19,497 "Collectively." 208 00:17:22,583 --> 00:17:24,961 You sound like August's mother. 209 00:17:30,967 --> 00:17:33,261 Ona, you're a dreamer. 210 00:17:33,344 --> 00:17:37,390 We're women without a voice. We have nothing to return to. 211 00:17:37,473 --> 00:17:40,601 Even the animals are safer in their homes than we women are. 212 00:17:41,435 --> 00:17:43,604 All we have are our dreams. 213 00:17:43,688 --> 00:17:46,107 So of course we are dreamers. 214 00:17:46,816 --> 00:17:48,776 And you want to hear my dream? 215 00:17:51,571 --> 00:17:54,991 I dream that people who speak nonsense, who have no grasp on reality, 216 00:17:55,074 --> 00:17:57,785 are not put in charge of making statements. 217 00:17:59,453 --> 00:18:02,039 What if the men refuse to meet our demands? 218 00:18:04,041 --> 00:18:06,127 Sorry. 219 00:18:09,672 --> 00:18:10,673 We'll kill them. 220 00:18:12,133 --> 00:18:13,884 No, ona. 221 00:18:24,020 --> 00:18:26,147 What if the men who are in prison are not guilty? 222 00:18:29,025 --> 00:18:30,776 Mother? 223 00:18:30,860 --> 00:18:31,861 A... a... autje. 224 00:18:31,944 --> 00:18:34,113 - Why are you asking if they're... - Shush. 225 00:18:34,196 --> 00:18:36,741 We caught one of them. 226 00:18:36,824 --> 00:18:38,075 I saw him. 227 00:18:38,159 --> 00:18:39,076 But only one. 228 00:18:39,160 --> 00:18:41,162 Yes, only one, but he named the others. 229 00:18:41,245 --> 00:18:43,331 But what if he was lying? 230 00:18:45,291 --> 00:18:46,626 We must consider this. 231 00:18:48,044 --> 00:18:49,920 No, that is not our responsibility 232 00:18:50,004 --> 00:18:52,590 because we aren't in charge of whether or not they are punished. 233 00:18:53,674 --> 00:18:55,509 We know that we've been attacked by men. 234 00:18:55,593 --> 00:18:59,388 Not by ghosts or Satan, as we were led to believe for so long. 235 00:18:59,472 --> 00:19:02,642 We know that we've not imagined these attacks, 236 00:19:02,725 --> 00:19:05,686 that we were made unconscious with cow tranquilizer. 237 00:19:05,770 --> 00:19:08,981 We know that we are bruised, and infected, 238 00:19:09,065 --> 00:19:12,026 and pregnant, and terrified, andinsane, 239 00:19:12,109 --> 00:19:14,236 and some of us are dead. 240 00:19:14,737 --> 00:19:19,492 We know that we must protect our children, regardless of who is guilty. 241 00:19:20,534 --> 00:19:24,372 All right, salome. Thank you. Please, sit down, mmm? 242 00:19:25,539 --> 00:19:26,791 Mmm. 243 00:19:48,896 --> 00:19:50,773 Shall we move on? 244 00:19:52,316 --> 00:19:55,152 It is possible the men in prison are not guilty of the attacks, 245 00:19:55,236 --> 00:19:57,988 but are they guilty of not stopping the attacks? 246 00:19:58,072 --> 00:20:00,574 Are they guilty of knowing about the attacks and doing nothing? 247 00:20:00,658 --> 00:20:02,344 How should we know what they're guilty of or not? 248 00:20:02,368 --> 00:20:03,452 But we do know. 249 00:20:03,536 --> 00:20:06,288 We do know that the conditions have been created by men 250 00:20:06,372 --> 00:20:08,624 and that these attacks have been made possible 251 00:20:08,708 --> 00:20:11,419 because of the circumstances of the colony. 252 00:20:11,502 --> 00:20:15,214 And those circumstances have been created and ordained by the men. 253 00:20:15,297 --> 00:20:19,885 But wait, aren't you suggesting that the attackers are as much victims 254 00:20:19,969 --> 00:20:22,513 as the victims of the attacks, 255 00:20:22,596 --> 00:20:26,183 that all of us, men and women, are victims of the circumstances 256 00:20:26,267 --> 00:20:28,269 from which the colony has been created? 257 00:20:32,064 --> 00:20:33,649 In a sense, yes. 258 00:20:33,733 --> 00:20:36,986 So then, even if the court finds them guilty or innocent... 259 00:20:37,069 --> 00:20:41,824 they are... after all, innocent. 260 00:20:44,452 --> 00:20:46,620 Yes, I would say so. 261 00:20:48,831 --> 00:20:51,292 - The elders called them evil. - That's not true. 262 00:20:51,375 --> 00:20:53,794 It's the elder's quest for power that is responsible. 263 00:20:53,878 --> 00:20:56,881 - Because they needed to have those... - Those they'd have power over. 264 00:20:56,964 --> 00:20:58,132 And those people are us. 265 00:20:58,215 --> 00:21:01,677 And they have taught the lesson of power to the boys and men of the colony 266 00:21:01,761 --> 00:21:04,972 and the boys and men have been excellent students. 267 00:21:06,015 --> 00:21:08,184 Don't we all want some sort of power? 268 00:21:09,059 --> 00:21:12,146 I think so. But I'm not sure. 269 00:21:13,397 --> 00:21:16,484 But we caught them. We caught them. 270 00:21:18,194 --> 00:21:19,695 Yes, you did. 271 00:21:20,821 --> 00:21:23,199 Then why are you making it so complicated? 272 00:21:23,282 --> 00:21:26,786 This is very, very boring. 273 00:21:28,037 --> 00:21:29,789 We could ask the men to leave. 274 00:21:32,416 --> 00:21:34,251 Ask the men to leave? 275 00:21:37,713 --> 00:21:41,008 None of us have ever asked the men for anything. 276 00:21:41,091 --> 00:21:42,593 Not a single thing. 277 00:21:44,011 --> 00:21:47,014 Not even for the salt to be passed. 278 00:21:47,097 --> 00:21:49,642 Not even for a penny, or a moment alone. 279 00:21:50,684 --> 00:21:54,063 Or to take the washing in, or to open a curtain, 280 00:21:54,146 --> 00:21:56,315 or to go easy on the small yearlings. 281 00:21:57,358 --> 00:21:59,944 Or to put your hand on the small of my back 282 00:22:00,027 --> 00:22:03,113 while I try again, for the 12th or 13th time, 283 00:22:03,197 --> 00:22:05,616 to push a baby out of my body. 284 00:22:09,537 --> 00:22:12,540 Isn't it interesting that the one and only request 285 00:22:12,623 --> 00:22:15,292 we women would have of the men 286 00:22:15,376 --> 00:22:17,461 would be for them to leave? 287 00:22:31,016 --> 00:22:35,229 Asking the men to leave is not an option. Oh. 288 00:22:37,022 --> 00:22:39,316 I'd like you to imagine Ruth and Cheryl. 289 00:22:39,400 --> 00:22:41,652 Oh, no! Not again! 290 00:22:43,404 --> 00:22:44,905 Please stop. 291 00:22:45,614 --> 00:22:48,200 Look. August is still taking the minutes. 292 00:22:50,077 --> 00:22:53,581 Can you believe August is still taking the minutes? 293 00:22:56,417 --> 00:22:59,795 Sometimes I think people laugh as hard as the y'd like to cry. 294 00:23:02,923 --> 00:23:06,010 August, you must think we're all lunatics. 295 00:23:06,093 --> 00:23:08,053 I don't. 296 00:23:08,137 --> 00:23:10,723 And it doesn't matter what I think, anyway. 297 00:23:11,891 --> 00:23:15,019 Is that true? Do you really think it doesn't matter what you think? 298 00:23:19,148 --> 00:23:23,527 How would you feel if in your entire life it never mattered what you thought? 299 00:23:25,529 --> 00:23:27,156 But I'm not here to think. 300 00:23:28,032 --> 00:23:30,576 I'm here to take the minutes of your meeting. 301 00:23:31,160 --> 00:23:34,997 But if in your entire life you truly felt it didn't matter what you thought, 302 00:23:35,080 --> 00:23:36,832 how would that make you feel? 303 00:23:47,301 --> 00:23:50,888 When we've liberated ourselves, we will have to ask ourselves who we are. 304 00:24:35,641 --> 00:24:37,434 Will we be done by suppertime? 305 00:24:37,518 --> 00:24:39,770 I have to give little miep her antibiotics. 306 00:24:39,853 --> 00:24:41,772 Where did you get antibiotics? 307 00:24:43,440 --> 00:24:44,942 She walked 308 00:24:45,693 --> 00:24:49,113 she walked for a day and a half to the mobile clinic 309 00:24:49,196 --> 00:24:50,864 with ll/liep on her back 310 00:24:56,412 --> 00:25:00,290 The lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger, 311 00:25:00,374 --> 00:25:02,876 rich in lo ving-kindness and forgiveness. 312 00:25:04,378 --> 00:25:08,090 The lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger, 313 00:25:08,173 --> 00:25:12,011 rich in loving-kindness and forgiveness. 314 00:25:12,094 --> 00:25:16,140 The lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger, 315 00:25:16,223 --> 00:25:19,351 rich in loving-kindness and forgiveness. 316 00:25:20,519 --> 00:25:24,148 I have to hide the antibiotics in miep's applesauce or she won't swallow them. 317 00:25:27,901 --> 00:25:31,864 The lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger, 318 00:25:31,947 --> 00:25:34,908 rich in loving-kindness and forgiveness. 319 00:25:35,784 --> 00:25:39,830 The lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger, 320 00:25:39,913 --> 00:25:42,750 rich in loving-kindness and forgiveness. 321 00:25:43,542 --> 00:25:47,755 The lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger, 322 00:25:47,838 --> 00:25:50,841 rich in loving-kindness and forgiveness. 323 00:25:50,924 --> 00:25:54,136 The lord is gracious and compassionate... 324 00:25:54,219 --> 00:25:55,345 Slow to anger... 325 00:25:56,055 --> 00:25:59,433 Forgive me. They're too big for my mouth. 326 00:25:59,516 --> 00:26:01,769 The lord is gracious and compassionate... 327 00:26:08,108 --> 00:26:10,944 The lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger, 328 00:26:11,028 --> 00:26:13,655 rich in loving-kindness and forgiveness. 329 00:26:20,996 --> 00:26:23,040 Well, let's take a break. 330 00:26:34,093 --> 00:26:35,844 Melvin. 331 00:26:36,637 --> 00:26:38,472 You're it. Uh-oh. 332 00:26:53,320 --> 00:26:55,447 Not one word about my smoking. 333 00:26:56,198 --> 00:26:57,699 Honestly, I'm sick of it. 334 00:26:58,200 --> 00:27:01,370 Coming over here. Watch out! 335 00:27:02,913 --> 00:27:04,915 Is she always going to be like this now? 336 00:27:06,875 --> 00:27:08,460 Like what? 337 00:27:09,128 --> 00:27:12,464 A man. Is nettie always going to be a man now? 338 00:27:19,096 --> 00:27:22,099 Later, we understood that nettie didn't become a man 339 00:27:22,182 --> 00:27:23,600 because of what happened 340 00:27:25,769 --> 00:27:27,813 nettie had never felt like a woman. 341 00:27:29,731 --> 00:27:31,900 Now pretending had become rmpcssib/e. 342 00:27:47,207 --> 00:27:48,959 Is my brother listening? 343 00:27:55,132 --> 00:27:56,717 Hello, little brother. 344 00:28:00,429 --> 00:28:02,848 I don't know if the baby was yours 345 00:28:02,931 --> 00:28:05,601 or if it was one of your friends'. 346 00:28:08,478 --> 00:28:10,939 I think it was likely yours though because“. 347 00:28:13,400 --> 00:28:15,194 There was something wrong with it. 348 00:28:21,033 --> 00:28:22,451 Ilovedil 349 00:28:23,619 --> 00:28:24,953 I think. 350 00:28:28,707 --> 00:28:30,667 Isn't that strange? 351 00:28:39,176 --> 00:28:41,303 I... I won't speak of it 352 00:28:42,679 --> 00:28:44,306 or anything else... 353 00:28:46,683 --> 00:28:47,976 Ever again. 354 00:28:55,484 --> 00:28:56,610 But... 355 00:28:56,693 --> 00:28:59,488 - But what? - She doesn't speak anymore. 356 00:29:00,155 --> 00:29:01,156 You all right? 357 00:29:01,240 --> 00:29:02,717 She speaks to the children. 358 00:29:02,741 --> 00:29:03,742 Kind of. 359 00:29:04,618 --> 00:29:06,161 I think they call her Melvin. 360 00:29:26,306 --> 00:29:29,559 You know, during the second world war in Italy, 361 00:29:30,852 --> 00:29:33,480 civilians would hide in bomb shelters. 362 00:29:34,314 --> 00:29:38,402 Volunteers were needed to power the generators that provided electricity. 363 00:29:40,153 --> 00:29:42,281 They rode bikes. 364 00:29:44,283 --> 00:29:47,077 And when you were swinging from the rafter earlier, 365 00:29:47,160 --> 00:29:49,121 I was, uh, reminded of this. 366 00:29:50,664 --> 00:29:52,582 You would have been the perfect volunteer. 367 00:29:54,710 --> 00:29:56,628 If we were in a bomb shelter. 368 00:29:58,714 --> 00:30:01,216 Where would I ride the bike to in such a small space? 369 00:30:01,300 --> 00:30:04,303 Oh, well, uh, the bike would be stationary. 370 00:30:09,683 --> 00:30:11,476 I have to get the water to the horses. 371 00:30:18,567 --> 00:30:19,818 Watch this. 372 00:30:31,913 --> 00:30:35,113 I'll bet you didn't learn how to do things like that when you went to university. 373 00:30:35,876 --> 00:30:39,171 Only facts about stationary bicycles in far-off places. 374 00:30:42,007 --> 00:30:45,677 I suppose I shouldn't be too sad, then, that I won't ever go. 375 00:30:51,350 --> 00:30:53,352 Why were you forced to leave the colony? 376 00:30:53,977 --> 00:30:55,645 My mother questioned things. 377 00:30:56,897 --> 00:30:58,315 She questioned god? 378 00:30:58,982 --> 00:31:01,360 Not god. Power. 379 00:31:02,569 --> 00:31:04,571 The rules made in the name of god. 380 00:31:05,781 --> 00:31:09,159 And she encouraged others to question things too. 381 00:31:09,242 --> 00:31:11,495 - Like ona? - Yes. 382 00:31:13,038 --> 00:31:14,915 Ona knew her well. 383 00:31:16,249 --> 00:31:17,542 Did she die? 384 00:31:29,846 --> 00:31:35,060 But sometimes, listening to you all speaking today, I can hear her so clearly. 385 00:31:38,230 --> 00:31:40,607 Why did the elders let you come back? 386 00:31:40,690 --> 00:31:46,113 Well, I went to university, so I could serve a purpose and teach the boys. 387 00:31:47,155 --> 00:31:48,532 Too late. 388 00:32:02,087 --> 00:32:04,005 I... I want to help. 389 00:32:05,424 --> 00:32:07,175 And I don't know how. 390 00:32:08,552 --> 00:32:10,595 You came back for ona, didn't you? 391 00:32:11,805 --> 00:32:15,725 The way you look at her is... funny. 392 00:32:17,185 --> 00:32:19,354 I don't know why she won't just marry you. 393 00:32:19,438 --> 00:32:21,731 You both say so much that doesn't make sense. 394 00:32:36,538 --> 00:32:40,834 J” oh, lccu/d hide 'neath the wings j” 395 00:32:40,917 --> 00:32:43,128 j” of the bluebird as she sings... j“ 396 00:32:45,505 --> 00:32:49,718 J” the six 0 'clock alarm would never ring... j” 397 00:32:49,801 --> 00:32:52,512 shoo! Shoo! Shoo! Away! Away! 398 00:32:52,596 --> 00:32:55,765 J” but it rings, and / rise... j” 399 00:32:55,849 --> 00:32:58,035 Please come out and be counted now. 400 00:32:58,059 --> 00:33:01,354 Please come out of your homes to be counted for the 2070 census. 401 00:33:01,438 --> 00:33:06,109 J” ll/ly sha vin'razor's cold and it stings... j” 402 00:33:08,987 --> 00:33:12,199 J” cheer up, sleepy Jean j” 403 00:33:12,282 --> 00:33:14,659 j” oh, what can it mean... j” 404 00:33:15,368 --> 00:33:17,579 All residents must come out of their homes 405 00:33:17,662 --> 00:33:20,040 to be counted for the 2070 census. 406 00:33:20,874 --> 00:33:23,793 J” and a homecoming queen? J” 407 00:33:25,712 --> 00:33:28,256 j” you once thought of me j” 408 00:33:29,382 --> 00:33:32,052 J” as a white knight on his steed j” 409 00:33:33,261 --> 00:33:38,308 j” now you know how happy I can be... j” 410 00:33:38,391 --> 00:33:40,852 all right. You want to try this one? 411 00:33:40,936 --> 00:33:44,439 J” and our good t/mes start and end... j” 412 00:33:44,523 --> 00:33:46,233 This is the 2070 census. 413 00:33:46,316 --> 00:33:49,569 Please come out of your homes to be counted for the 2070 census. 414 00:33:49,653 --> 00:33:53,031 J” but how much, baby, do we really need? J” 415 00:33:55,325 --> 00:33:57,202 tickle, tickle, tickle. 416 00:33:57,285 --> 00:33:59,579 J” cheer up, sleepy Jean j” 417 00:33:59,663 --> 00:34:02,541 j” oh, what can it mean j” 418 00:34:02,624 --> 00:34:06,253 j” to a daydream belie verj” 419 00:34:06,336 --> 00:34:10,715 j” and a homecoming queen? J” 420 00:34:10,799 --> 00:34:13,593 Here to collect data for the 2070 census. 421 00:34:13,677 --> 00:34:16,263 Please come out of your homes now to be counted 422 00:34:17,097 --> 00:34:20,100 j” oh, what can it mean... j” 423 00:34:20,183 --> 00:34:22,352 - let's go. - Why? 424 00:34:22,435 --> 00:34:23,770 Let's just... let's go. 425 00:34:23,853 --> 00:34:30,235 J” and a homecoming queen? J” 426 00:34:37,993 --> 00:34:41,621 J” cheer up, sleepy Jean j” 427 00:34:41,705 --> 00:34:44,416 J” oh, what can it mean j” 428 00:34:44,499 --> 00:34:48,169 j” to a daydream belie verj” 429 00:34:48,253 --> 00:34:54,718 j” and a homecoming queen? J” 430 00:34:55,260 --> 00:34:58,888 j” cheer up, sleepy Jean j” 431 00:34:58,972 --> 00:35:01,808 j” oh, what can it mean j” 432 00:35:01,891 --> 00:35:05,437 j” to a daydream belie verj” 433 00:35:05,520 --> 00:35:12,277 j” and a homecoming queen? J” 434 00:35:12,360 --> 00:35:15,572 J” cheer up, sleepy Jean j” 435 00:35:16,239 --> 00:35:19,075 j” oh, what can it mean j” 436 00:35:19,159 --> 00:35:22,912 j” to a daydream belie verj” 437 00:35:22,996 --> 00:35:25,206 j” and a home... j” 438 00:35:56,946 --> 00:35:57,989 Where is autje? 439 00:35:59,074 --> 00:36:01,785 Well, we must begin without her. 440 00:36:05,205 --> 00:36:06,581 Thank you. 441 00:36:07,916 --> 00:36:09,668 Were you smoking? 442 00:36:09,751 --> 00:36:12,253 - Is that any of your business? - Please. 443 00:36:16,800 --> 00:36:19,552 I can't live a second longer! 444 00:36:19,636 --> 00:36:21,096 Autje? 445 00:36:21,179 --> 00:36:22,347 No, autje! 446 00:36:32,065 --> 00:36:33,692 Autje, wait until I get a hold of you. 447 00:36:35,193 --> 00:36:39,364 The census-taker told us one of our men is returning from the city late tonight. 448 00:36:40,573 --> 00:36:42,409 They need more bail money for the attackers. 449 00:36:42,492 --> 00:36:43,493 Which man? 450 00:36:45,120 --> 00:36:46,121 Your klaas. 451 00:36:47,372 --> 00:36:50,792 So time is of the essence. Everyone, get back to your seats. 452 00:36:54,212 --> 00:36:56,339 August, please. Pros for leaving. 453 00:36:57,632 --> 00:36:59,634 Pros for leaving. 454 00:37:02,053 --> 00:37:03,930 We will be gone. 455 00:37:04,013 --> 00:37:05,432 We will be safe. 456 00:37:05,515 --> 00:37:09,185 Maybe not. The first is most definitely a fact that if we leave, we will be gone. 457 00:37:09,269 --> 00:37:11,813 Do we really need to state the obvious over and over? 458 00:37:13,440 --> 00:37:14,774 Yes, autje. 459 00:37:15,859 --> 00:37:18,278 We will see a bit of the world. 460 00:37:18,361 --> 00:37:20,089 Let's move on to the cons of leaving. 461 00:37:20,113 --> 00:37:22,991 We, the women, will decide what happens in these meetings. 462 00:37:24,284 --> 00:37:26,953 Not a two-bit failed farmer who must teach. 463 00:37:27,036 --> 00:37:28,413 You have been invited here. 464 00:37:28,496 --> 00:37:32,834 You have been invited here to listen to what we have to say and write it down. 465 00:37:32,917 --> 00:37:35,670 Nothing more. Just listen! 466 00:37:35,754 --> 00:37:37,172 Mariche. 467 00:37:37,255 --> 00:37:40,216 Klaas will be returning soon and you are wasting time. 468 00:37:40,884 --> 00:37:42,886 He will come to your house just long enough 469 00:37:42,969 --> 00:37:45,805 to take his animals in order to sell for bail money 470 00:37:45,889 --> 00:37:49,309 that will see the rapists return to the colony, 471 00:37:49,392 --> 00:37:53,062 and he will lay his hands on you and on your children. 472 00:37:53,646 --> 00:37:55,815 And you, as always, 473 00:37:55,899 --> 00:37:59,736 do nothing but fire away at us with all of this rage. 474 00:38:02,197 --> 00:38:04,199 I would like to apologize for wrongly attempting 475 00:38:04,282 --> 00:38:05,909 to nudge the proceedings. 476 00:38:07,535 --> 00:38:08,745 That's not my place. 477 00:38:14,167 --> 00:38:15,168 Mejal. 478 00:38:20,632 --> 00:38:21,841 I'll stop. 479 00:38:23,301 --> 00:38:24,719 Mama. 480 00:38:29,224 --> 00:38:32,185 What's the matter? What's the matter? Oh. 481 00:38:32,894 --> 00:38:34,646 What is it? Hmm? 482 00:38:38,191 --> 00:38:39,901 Miep, what is it? 483 00:38:40,985 --> 00:38:42,821 I hurt. 484 00:38:43,696 --> 00:38:44,781 Miep. 485 00:38:45,907 --> 00:38:47,242 It's all right. 486 00:38:49,828 --> 00:38:51,037 It's all right. 487 00:38:57,794 --> 00:38:59,254 It's all right. 488 00:39:06,135 --> 00:39:08,263 There are no cons of leaving. 489 00:39:10,098 --> 00:39:12,058 It's all right. 490 00:39:16,104 --> 00:39:18,106 Not to worry, nettie. 491 00:39:25,446 --> 00:39:29,492 J” ch/ldren of the heavenly father j” 492 00:39:30,910 --> 00:39:35,456 J” safely in his bosom gatherj” 493 00:39:36,165 --> 00:39:41,129 j” nestling bird nor star in heaven j” 494 00:39:41,212 --> 00:39:47,260 j” such a refuge e'er was given j” 495 00:39:47,343 --> 00:39:51,764 j” though he giveth or he taketh j” 496 00:39:52,390 --> 00:39:56,895 j” god his children ne 'er forsaketh j” 497 00:39:57,520 --> 00:40:02,066 j” his the loving purpose solely j” 498 00:40:02,150 --> 00:40:07,572 j” to preserve them pure and holy j” 499 00:40:08,823 --> 00:40:13,494 j” ch/ldren of the heavenly father j” 500 00:40:14,120 --> 00:40:19,250 j” safely in his bosom gatherj” 501 00:40:19,334 --> 00:40:24,422 j” nestling bird nor star in heaven j” 502 00:40:24,505 --> 00:40:27,091 j” such a refuge j” 503 00:40:27,175 --> 00:40:30,762 j” e 'er was given j” 504 00:40:34,307 --> 00:40:36,809 if we do leave the colony, how will we live with the pain 505 00:40:36,893 --> 00:40:39,979 of never seeing our brothers and our sons again? 506 00:40:41,105 --> 00:40:42,315 The men. 507 00:40:57,413 --> 00:40:59,082 77me wrll heal. 508 00:41:01,209 --> 00:41:03,962 Our freedom and safety are the ultimate goals. 509 00:41:05,171 --> 00:41:08,466 And it is men who prevent us from achie ving those goals. 510 00:41:11,052 --> 00:41:12,387 But not all men. 511 00:41:27,443 --> 00:41:32,323 Perhaps not men, but a way of seeing the world and us women, 512 00:41:32,407 --> 00:41:35,576 which has been allowed to take hold of men's hearts and minds. 513 00:41:38,579 --> 00:41:43,251 So if we leav... if we leave, I w/ll never see my brothers again? 514 00:41:44,711 --> 00:41:46,504 Who will take care of them? 515 00:41:47,505 --> 00:41:48,589 Of them all? 516 00:41:50,049 --> 00:41:52,218 We can't know if we will stay or leave 517 00:41:52,301 --> 00:41:56,389 before we've resolved these last-minute concerns. 518 00:41:57,682 --> 00:41:59,892 I wouldn't call the future of our relationship 519 00:41:59,976 --> 00:42:02,979 with the boys and men we love "last-minute concerns." 520 00:42:28,921 --> 00:42:30,465 Here we go. 521 00:42:44,020 --> 00:42:47,231 It was all waiting to happen before rt happened. 522 00:42:48,649 --> 00:42:50,489 You could look back and follow the bread crumbs 523 00:42:50,568 --> 00:42:53,404 along the path that led to violence. 524 00:42:53,488 --> 00:42:58,326 When we looked back, we could see that it had been everywhere, 525 00:42:58,409 --> 00:43:00,411 whether it was happening yet or not. 526 00:43:01,370 --> 00:43:02,789 Hi! 527 00:43:16,177 --> 00:43:17,220 Hi! 528 00:43:30,900 --> 00:43:32,902 I'll get you some water. 529 00:43:43,955 --> 00:43:45,873 There is no cup or anything. 530 00:44:16,195 --> 00:44:18,281 It's good that you're here, August... 531 00:44:20,158 --> 00:44:22,368 To remind us of what's possible. 532 00:44:24,203 --> 00:44:25,913 Because it's easy to forget. 533 00:44:34,797 --> 00:44:36,048 I'm so sorry, ona. 534 00:44:36,132 --> 00:44:37,175 Yeah. 535 00:44:39,594 --> 00:44:42,972 One day I'd like to hear that from someone who should be saying it. 536 00:44:55,651 --> 00:44:57,111 Why does love, 537 00:44:58,237 --> 00:45:02,074 the absence of love, the end of love, the need for love, 538 00:45:03,075 --> 00:45:05,161 result in so much violence? 539 00:45:11,542 --> 00:45:12,710 Ona... 540 00:45:14,754 --> 00:45:15,838 Ona... 541 00:45:18,424 --> 00:45:22,386 I could take care of you and your child. 542 00:45:25,556 --> 00:45:26,557 I would like to. 543 00:45:31,103 --> 00:45:33,231 - I, um... - I know. 544 00:45:33,314 --> 00:45:35,316 You don't have to say the words. 545 00:45:38,277 --> 00:45:41,030 If I were married, I wouldn't be myself. 546 00:45:41,906 --> 00:45:43,699 So the person you love would be gone. 547 00:45:56,337 --> 00:45:59,799 Your child... 548 00:46:01,300 --> 00:46:04,428 If we stay and we don't win the fight, my child will be given to 549 00:46:05,429 --> 00:46:07,056 another family here. 550 00:46:08,557 --> 00:46:11,435 Maybe even the family of my attacker. 551 00:46:13,271 --> 00:46:15,273 If we stay and don't win the fight... 552 00:46:19,360 --> 00:46:21,237 But you won't let that happen. No. 553 00:46:24,782 --> 00:46:26,117 No, I won't. 554 00:46:47,596 --> 00:46:49,849 August, we need to discuss options 555 00:46:49,932 --> 00:46:52,852 for the men and the older boys if the women decide to leave. 556 00:46:52,935 --> 00:46:54,746 Which is a waste of time, because we're not leaving. 557 00:46:54,770 --> 00:46:56,450 The men should leave with us if they wish. 558 00:46:56,480 --> 00:46:58,280 Then what on earth is the point of us leaving? 559 00:46:58,357 --> 00:47:00,252 Well, they could be allowed to join the women later, 560 00:47:00,276 --> 00:47:04,030 once the women have established themselves and are thriving. 561 00:47:04,113 --> 00:47:08,576 Should we add thriving as a collective, literate community? 562 00:47:08,659 --> 00:47:09,845 "Literate" is your word, not ours. 563 00:47:09,869 --> 00:47:12,204 We don't need your university language to make our plans. 564 00:47:12,288 --> 00:47:14,665 Put it in. We know what it means. Continue, Greta. 565 00:47:14,749 --> 00:47:17,209 Uh, young boys, simple-minded boys of any age. 566 00:47:17,293 --> 00:47:21,130 Cornelius, who's confined to a wheelchair, will accompany the women. 567 00:47:21,213 --> 00:47:24,300 I vote for the first option. The men should leave with us if they wish. 568 00:47:24,383 --> 00:47:26,903 The first option is ridiculous and should be crossed off the list. 569 00:47:26,927 --> 00:47:30,348 Why are some ideas written down and considered, and others crossed out? 570 00:47:31,223 --> 00:47:34,685 I'm gonna leave. I'd like to strangle myself. 571 00:47:34,769 --> 00:47:37,122 Mariche, it's possible that all the men would choose to leave with us, 572 00:47:37,146 --> 00:47:39,166 and then all we'd be doing is recreating our colony, 573 00:47:39,190 --> 00:47:40,917 with all of its dangers elsewhere. 574 00:47:40,941 --> 00:47:42,836 And the men would definitely leave with us 575 00:47:42,860 --> 00:47:44,653 because they can't survive without us. 576 00:47:44,737 --> 00:47:46,965 - Not for longer than a day or two. - We have not decided to leave. 577 00:47:46,989 --> 00:47:50,493 - I'd like to remind everyone of that. - And how can we leave at all 578 00:47:50,576 --> 00:47:53,120 if we've never been allowed to even see a map of the world? 579 00:47:53,204 --> 00:47:55,581 I can secure a world map for you. 580 00:47:55,664 --> 00:47:59,460 I also have, um, a map of this specific region. 581 00:47:59,543 --> 00:48:03,464 Well, that will do. It's not like we're planning to travel the planet. 582 00:48:03,547 --> 00:48:05,007 Perhaps we are. 583 00:48:05,091 --> 00:48:08,636 Did you know that the migration period for butterflies and dragonflies is so long 584 00:48:08,719 --> 00:48:12,473 that it's often only the grandchildren that arrive at the intended destination? 585 00:48:13,766 --> 00:48:15,434 Yes. So it... 586 00:48:17,895 --> 00:48:18,896 Yes. 587 00:48:18,979 --> 00:48:21,357 Perhaps if we went beyond where the map showed us, 588 00:48:21,440 --> 00:48:23,609 we could create our own map as we go. 589 00:48:23,692 --> 00:48:26,028 So now you wanna leave, ona? 590 00:48:31,659 --> 00:48:33,577 Are you all right, mejal? 591 00:48:36,872 --> 00:48:39,291 No. She's having one of her episodes. 592 00:48:41,377 --> 00:48:45,256 Father almighty, in all humility and supplication 593 00:48:45,339 --> 00:48:49,343 we ask thee for thy abundant kindness at this moment. 594 00:48:49,427 --> 00:48:54,390 We beseech thee to have mercy on our sister mejal. 595 00:48:54,473 --> 00:48:58,519 Please, in your beneficence, heal her. 596 00:48:59,437 --> 00:49:02,857 Please, we ask of thee, 597 00:49:02,940 --> 00:49:07,486 envelop her in your strength and everlasting love, 598 00:49:07,570 --> 00:49:10,823 and please drive out the sickness which afflicts her now. 599 00:49:28,466 --> 00:49:31,760 - Help me up. - Oh, praise be to god. 600 00:49:36,140 --> 00:49:38,684 - Why is it only mejal has these... - Be quiet. 601 00:49:38,767 --> 00:49:39,935 We were all attacked. 602 00:49:40,853 --> 00:49:43,772 Not all of us need to draw so much attention to ourselves. 603 00:49:47,151 --> 00:49:50,613 What attention? I speak less than all of you put together. 604 00:49:50,696 --> 00:49:53,365 - How have I offended you? - You have these attacks. 605 00:49:53,449 --> 00:49:54,992 You smoke! 606 00:49:55,743 --> 00:49:59,121 Why? Why is it so much harder for you than for us? 607 00:49:59,205 --> 00:50:01,332 We were all attacked, all of us. 608 00:50:01,415 --> 00:50:06,587 We are wasting our time by passing this burden, this sack of stones 609 00:50:06,670 --> 00:50:10,090 from one to the next by pushing our pain away. 610 00:50:10,174 --> 00:50:15,137 Let's absorb it ourselves. Let's inhale it, let's digest it. 611 00:50:15,221 --> 00:50:17,848 Let's process it into fuel. 612 00:50:23,270 --> 00:50:24,897 Speak, mejal. 613 00:50:25,648 --> 00:50:27,024 We are listening. 614 00:50:31,070 --> 00:50:33,280 They made us disbelieve ourselves. 615 00:50:38,494 --> 00:50:41,372 That was worse than... 616 00:50:44,708 --> 00:50:45,834 Mejal. 617 00:50:54,718 --> 00:50:58,639 Klaas, when he returns, may take horses or livestock we would need along the way. 618 00:50:58,722 --> 00:50:59,848 Along the way? 619 00:50:59,932 --> 00:51:01,892 We're not leaving. 620 00:51:04,895 --> 00:51:06,939 You are changing your mind, ona. 621 00:51:07,022 --> 00:51:09,191 I don't believe that's a sin, is it? 622 00:51:10,985 --> 00:51:13,737 How will we be forgiven for all this? 623 00:51:13,821 --> 00:51:15,447 How will we be forgiven, 624 00:51:15,531 --> 00:51:18,701 if not by the elders whom we have disobeyed? 625 00:51:18,784 --> 00:51:21,328 Perhaps there will be other elders or men of god 626 00:51:21,412 --> 00:51:23,789 who will be able to forgive our sins. 627 00:51:23,872 --> 00:51:26,458 We do not need to be forgiven by the men of god 628 00:51:26,542 --> 00:51:29,145 for protecting our children from the depraved actions of vicious men 629 00:51:29,169 --> 00:51:32,381 who are often the very same men we're meant to ask for forgiveness. 630 00:51:34,258 --> 00:51:37,970 If god is a loving god, then he will forgive us himself. 631 00:51:39,597 --> 00:51:42,933 If god is a vengeful god, then he has created us in his image. 632 00:51:44,643 --> 00:51:46,854 If god is omnipotent, 633 00:51:46,937 --> 00:51:50,691 then why has he not protected the women and girls of this colony? 634 00:51:55,863 --> 00:51:59,950 I will destroy any living thing 635 00:52:00,034 --> 00:52:01,994 that harms my child. 636 00:52:04,997 --> 00:52:07,291 I will tear it limb from limb. 637 00:52:08,167 --> 00:52:10,169 I will desecrate its body 638 00:52:10,252 --> 00:52:12,087 and I will Bury it alive. 639 00:52:13,464 --> 00:52:16,050 I will challenge god on the spot to strike me dead 640 00:52:16,133 --> 00:52:19,637 if I have sinned by protecting my child from evil 641 00:52:19,720 --> 00:52:22,806 and by destroying that evil that it may not harm another. 642 00:52:23,724 --> 00:52:28,771 I will lie, I will hunt, I will kill. 643 00:52:28,854 --> 00:52:33,067 I will dance on graves and I will burn forever in hell 644 00:52:33,150 --> 00:52:37,029 before I allow another man to satisfy his violent urges 645 00:52:37,112 --> 00:52:40,115 with the body of my four-year-old child. 646 00:53:08,644 --> 00:53:11,438 I suggest we think about what is good. 647 00:53:13,607 --> 00:53:15,275 "Whatever is true..." 648 00:53:16,402 --> 00:53:21,573 "Whatever is honorable, whatever is just, 649 00:53:21,657 --> 00:53:25,160 whatever is pure, whatever is pleasing, 650 00:53:25,869 --> 00:53:27,496 whatever is commendable, 651 00:53:28,497 --> 00:53:30,708 if there is any excellence 652 00:53:30,791 --> 00:53:33,502 and if there is anything worthy of praise, 653 00:53:34,086 --> 00:53:36,755 think about these things, 654 00:53:36,839 --> 00:53:40,134 and the peace of god be with you." 655 00:53:42,344 --> 00:53:44,513 I will become a murderer if I stay. 656 00:54:20,924 --> 00:54:23,427 I know what these are. These are letters. 657 00:54:23,510 --> 00:54:25,262 But what are these? 658 00:54:25,345 --> 00:54:27,639 They're commas. 659 00:54:27,723 --> 00:54:31,602 They signify a short pause or a breath in the text. 660 00:54:34,855 --> 00:54:37,149 There's also a butterfly called a comma. 661 00:54:38,233 --> 00:54:40,778 - Is that so? - Mm-hmm. 662 00:55:00,214 --> 00:55:01,215 Salome. 663 00:55:03,842 --> 00:55:07,513 If you will become a murderer by staying here in the colony, 664 00:55:07,596 --> 00:55:11,975 side by side with the men who are responsible for the attacks, 665 00:55:12,059 --> 00:55:13,644 then you must... 666 00:55:15,604 --> 00:55:17,981 To protect your own soul, 667 00:55:18,065 --> 00:55:19,566 leave the colony. 668 00:55:20,776 --> 00:55:23,862 - We are not all murderers. - Not yet. 669 00:55:23,946 --> 00:55:26,740 I have done what the verse from philippians instructed, 670 00:55:26,824 --> 00:55:30,494 which is to think about what is good, what is just, 671 00:55:30,577 --> 00:55:33,121 what is pure, what is excellent. 672 00:55:35,165 --> 00:55:36,458 Pacifism. 673 00:55:39,211 --> 00:55:40,921 Pacifism is good. 674 00:55:41,004 --> 00:55:44,508 Any violence is unjustifiable. 675 00:55:45,467 --> 00:55:50,514 By staying here, we women will be betraying 676 00:55:50,597 --> 00:55:54,017 the central tenet of our faith, which is pacifism... 677 00:55:55,894 --> 00:55:57,521 Because by staying... 678 00:55:59,857 --> 00:56:03,527 We will knowingly be placing ourselves 679 00:56:04,570 --> 00:56:08,907 in a direct collision course with violence. 680 00:56:09,992 --> 00:56:13,203 Either by us or against us. 681 00:56:14,538 --> 00:56:19,167 This colony is the only home I've ever known. 682 00:56:21,169 --> 00:56:23,797 And I don't want to leave. 683 00:56:23,881 --> 00:56:27,926 But by staying, we'll be inviting harm. 684 00:56:29,261 --> 00:56:32,180 We will be in a state of war. 685 00:56:32,264 --> 00:56:34,975 We will turn this colony into a battlefield. 686 00:56:38,562 --> 00:56:40,856 We cannot become murderers, 687 00:56:40,939 --> 00:56:43,442 and we cannot endure anymore violence... 688 00:56:45,652 --> 00:56:47,404 Which is why we must leave. 689 00:57:09,176 --> 00:57:12,220 I've also been thinking about the verse from philippians... 690 00:57:13,597 --> 00:57:15,766 And I've been thinking about what is good. 691 00:57:17,100 --> 00:57:18,644 Freedom is good. 692 00:57:19,645 --> 00:57:21,271 It is better than slavery. 693 00:57:22,856 --> 00:57:24,691 Forgiveness is good. 694 00:57:25,734 --> 00:57:27,444 It's better than revenge. 695 00:57:28,570 --> 00:57:31,865 And hope for the unknown is good. 696 00:57:31,949 --> 00:57:34,493 It is better than hatred of the familiar. 697 00:57:34,576 --> 00:57:36,495 What about security? 698 00:57:37,621 --> 00:57:40,457 And safety and home and family? 699 00:57:41,750 --> 00:57:44,503 What about marriage... 700 00:57:46,672 --> 00:57:49,299 And lo ve, ona? 701 00:57:50,092 --> 00:57:53,595 I don't know about those things, any of them... 702 00:57:54,888 --> 00:57:56,640 Except for love, and... 703 00:57:57,766 --> 00:58:00,102 Even love is mysterious to me. 704 00:58:01,228 --> 00:58:04,106 And I believe that my home is with my mother and my sister 705 00:58:04,189 --> 00:58:06,650 and my unborn child, wherever that may be. 706 00:58:09,069 --> 00:58:11,238 Will you not hate that child? 707 00:58:14,241 --> 00:58:18,328 That child is the child of a man who inspires violent thoughts in you. 708 00:58:22,624 --> 00:58:24,960 I already love this child more than anything. 709 00:58:26,586 --> 00:58:29,756 He or she is as innocent and lovable as the evening sun. 710 00:58:29,840 --> 00:58:32,426 So, too, was the child's father when he was born. 711 00:58:37,639 --> 00:58:40,892 But if you're saying that forgiveness is better than revenge... 712 00:58:43,770 --> 00:58:47,441 Aren't you saying that we must stay here and forgive the men? 713 00:58:47,524 --> 00:58:50,235 We cannot forgive because we are forced to. 714 00:58:53,363 --> 00:58:56,158 But with some distance, 715 00:58:56,241 --> 00:58:57,868 perhaps I'm able... 716 00:58:59,953 --> 00:59:02,706 To understand how these crimes may have occurred. 717 00:59:04,291 --> 00:59:06,251 And with that distance, 718 00:59:06,334 --> 00:59:08,336 maybe I'm able to pity these men. 719 00:59:10,297 --> 00:59:12,090 Perhaps forgive them 720 00:59:13,133 --> 00:59:14,760 and even love them. 721 00:59:17,304 --> 00:59:19,806 Not fighting, but moving. 722 00:59:20,724 --> 00:59:23,143 Always moving, never fighting. 723 00:59:23,226 --> 00:59:26,146 Always moving, never fighting. Just moving. 724 00:59:26,229 --> 00:59:28,607 Never fighting. Just moving. 725 00:59:28,690 --> 00:59:31,777 - Never fighting. Always moving. - Would you snap out of it? 726 00:59:31,860 --> 00:59:34,213 - You snap out of it. - All of you snap out of it. 727 00:59:34,237 --> 00:59:36,073 Have you lost your minds? The sun is gone. 728 00:59:39,284 --> 00:59:42,370 I want to tell another story about Ruth and Cheryl. 729 00:59:51,463 --> 00:59:54,800 I was always frightened of the northern read out of the colony 730 00:59:57,677 --> 01:00:00,889 there are so many gull/es on either side of the road. 731 01:00:04,184 --> 01:00:07,104 The buggy used to lurch side to side. 732 01:00:07,813 --> 01:00:11,274 Ruth and Cheryl were srmply fol/o wing my commands of the reins, 733 01:00:11,358 --> 01:00:15,278 but they were jerky and frenetic, 734 01:00:15,362 --> 01:00:17,197 and it was dangerous. 735 01:00:19,699 --> 01:00:22,536 It was only when I/earned to focus my gaze 736 01:00:22,619 --> 01:00:24,996 far down ahead of me, 737 01:00:25,080 --> 01:00:28,708 and not on the road immediately r'n front of Ruth and Cheryl, 738 01:00:28,792 --> 01:00:30,502 that I started to feel safe. 739 01:00:39,970 --> 01:00:42,013 Leaving will give us 740 01:00:42,097 --> 01:00:46,726 the more farseer'ng perspective we need to forgive... 741 01:00:51,773 --> 01:00:54,192 Which is to lo ve properly... 742 01:00:55,610 --> 01:00:58,655 And keep the peace according to our faith. 743 01:01:00,323 --> 01:01:06,872 Therefore, our leaving wouldn't be an act of cowardice or abandonment. 744 01:01:06,955 --> 01:01:11,042 It wouldn't be because we were excommunicated or exiled 745 01:01:12,294 --> 01:01:15,672 it would be a supreme act of faith. 746 01:01:16,798 --> 01:01:21,344 A step towards love and forgiveness. 747 01:01:25,098 --> 01:01:28,393 Leaving is how we demonstrate our faith. 748 01:01:30,395 --> 01:01:34,816 We are leaving because our faith is stronger than the rules. 749 01:01:38,862 --> 01:01:40,530 Bigger than our life. 750 01:02:04,512 --> 01:02:06,640 I'm sorry, but I think I might be dying. 751 01:02:12,854 --> 01:02:14,981 Mother, you're not dying. 752 01:02:15,774 --> 01:02:17,651 Your glasses need cleaning. 753 01:02:23,448 --> 01:02:25,492 Why are you laughing? 754 01:02:26,910 --> 01:02:28,912 We cannot leave. 755 01:02:29,621 --> 01:02:30,705 We... w... 756 01:02:31,665 --> 01:02:34,209 It would be better to stay and fight than leave. 757 01:02:34,292 --> 01:02:37,212 Do you really mean that you wanna stay and not fight? 758 01:02:38,213 --> 01:02:40,107 Because when was the last time you had the strength 759 01:02:40,131 --> 01:02:41,841 to stand up to the aggression of klaas, 760 01:02:41,925 --> 01:02:44,094 to protect your children or to get out of harm's way? 761 01:02:44,177 --> 01:02:47,514 Who are you to tell me what kind of wife and mother to be 762 01:02:47,597 --> 01:02:48,957 when you are neither one yourself? 763 01:02:49,015 --> 01:02:51,184 You are a spinster. A whore. 764 01:02:51,935 --> 01:02:53,311 - An unwed mother. - Stop. 765 01:02:53,395 --> 01:02:55,539 Ona was made unconscious and raped like the rest of us. 766 01:02:55,563 --> 01:02:57,857 How dare you call her a whore. 767 01:02:57,941 --> 01:03:01,152 Are you not afraid your own sweet boys will become monsters like their father 768 01:03:01,236 --> 01:03:02,796 because you do nothing to protect them? 769 01:03:02,862 --> 01:03:04,298 - Stop it. - Nothing to educate them. 770 01:03:04,322 --> 01:03:06,700 Nothing to teach them the horror of their father's ways. 771 01:03:06,783 --> 01:03:09,619 I have heard enough! 772 01:03:10,328 --> 01:03:13,623 Do you women realize we are talking about leaving? 773 01:03:13,707 --> 01:03:15,166 We are a large group. 774 01:03:15,250 --> 01:03:18,211 Many things could go wrong and time is fleeting. 775 01:03:18,295 --> 01:03:21,756 For the love of our lord Jesus Christ and precious savior, 776 01:03:21,840 --> 01:03:24,092 shut your pieholes, please! 777 01:03:29,347 --> 01:03:31,558 How dare you pass judgment on me. 778 01:03:32,350 --> 01:03:34,019 It wasn't a judgment. It was a question. 779 01:03:44,529 --> 01:03:46,323 Tell her you're sorry. 780 01:03:50,368 --> 01:03:51,536 I'm sorry. 781 01:03:52,370 --> 01:03:54,956 - I'm sorry that what I said hurt you. - Oh, fuck it off! 782 01:03:55,040 --> 01:03:56,082 Sit down, mariche! 783 01:03:56,166 --> 01:03:58,251 - It's "fuck off," I think. - Shh! 784 01:04:00,253 --> 01:04:02,589 I am sorry. 785 01:04:02,672 --> 01:04:04,712 I'm saying sorry, not just to leave the hurt behind, 786 01:04:04,758 --> 01:04:08,720 but because I feel truly that I should not have said something harmful to you. 787 01:04:10,263 --> 01:04:11,389 And, mariche, I'm sorry 788 01:04:11,473 --> 01:04:15,060 because you do not need or deserve any more harm. 789 01:04:17,479 --> 01:04:18,563 Who are you? 790 01:04:20,357 --> 01:04:22,275 Who are any of you 791 01:04:23,193 --> 01:04:25,653 to pretend I have had a choice? 792 01:04:43,129 --> 01:04:45,173 I am also sorry, mariche. 793 01:04:47,175 --> 01:04:50,720 I didn't try to protect you or your children from klaas. 794 01:04:52,055 --> 01:04:55,392 And what you say is true. You had no choice. 795 01:04:55,475 --> 01:05:00,271 You forgave him, again and again, 796 01:05:00,355 --> 01:05:02,065 as you were told to. 797 01:05:05,443 --> 01:05:07,278 As I told you to. 798 01:05:09,114 --> 01:05:10,407 I'm sorry. 799 01:05:12,283 --> 01:05:13,827 I'm sorry. 800 01:05:17,080 --> 01:05:18,498 I'm sorry. 801 01:05:38,768 --> 01:05:42,439 It's not only the men and boys who have been excellent students. 802 01:05:54,742 --> 01:05:57,662 I think, mariche, we are all very sorry. 803 01:05:58,621 --> 01:06:01,166 What you were required to endure was a... 804 01:06:01,249 --> 01:06:03,501 Misuse of forgiveness. 805 01:06:04,544 --> 01:06:07,755 Is there such a thing, a forgiveness that is not good? 806 01:06:07,839 --> 01:06:10,717 Well, perhaps, forgiveness can, in some instances, 807 01:06:10,800 --> 01:06:13,761 be confused with permission. 808 01:06:50,381 --> 01:06:52,133 What in heaven's name? 809 01:06:53,176 --> 01:06:55,803 What is it? Julius, what is it? 810 01:06:59,265 --> 01:07:03,353 Nettie, please, make an exception and tell us what is happening. 811 01:07:03,436 --> 01:07:05,063 What has happened to him? 812 01:07:06,731 --> 01:07:10,026 Nettie, be realistic. Tell us what has happened to Julius. 813 01:07:10,109 --> 01:07:11,778 Speak, just this once. 814 01:07:12,487 --> 01:07:13,947 What's wrong, sweetheart? 815 01:07:14,030 --> 01:07:17,033 My nose. There's a cherry up my nose. 816 01:07:17,116 --> 01:07:18,701 Okay, well, blow. 817 01:07:18,785 --> 01:07:20,954 Harder. Again. 818 01:07:23,665 --> 01:07:26,334 Oh. There you go. 819 01:07:26,417 --> 01:07:28,419 We have no cherries in the colony. 820 01:07:29,796 --> 01:07:32,298 Klaas sometimes brings them back from the city. 821 01:07:32,382 --> 01:07:34,551 Who gave you the cherries, Julius? 822 01:07:34,634 --> 01:07:36,010 Papa. 823 01:07:38,846 --> 01:07:41,516 Why don't you... You go and play with nettie, all right? 824 01:07:48,606 --> 01:07:51,484 Have... have we made a decision? Are we leaving? 825 01:07:53,444 --> 01:07:54,444 Yes. 826 01:07:55,905 --> 01:07:57,967 - We are leaving because... - We know why we are leaving. 827 01:07:57,991 --> 01:08:00,034 We are leaving because we cannot stay. 828 01:08:04,330 --> 01:08:05,164 Mmm. 829 01:08:05,248 --> 01:08:06,916 We will take young boys of 12 with us 830 01:08:07,000 --> 01:08:10,211 and allow the men to join the women later under certain conditions. 831 01:08:12,463 --> 01:08:13,965 Aaron. I know. 832 01:08:14,048 --> 01:08:15,883 Aaron is just over 12. Just barely. 833 01:08:16,467 --> 01:08:19,721 Why would boys of 13 and 14 be left behind? Why wouldn't they leave with us? 834 01:08:19,804 --> 01:08:22,724 Surely we don't have to be afraid of the boys of this age. 835 01:08:22,807 --> 01:08:25,977 August, you're the boys' teacher. What is your feeling about this? 836 01:08:26,060 --> 01:08:29,022 Do boys of that age pose a risk to our girls and women? 837 01:08:33,318 --> 01:08:34,819 Yes, possibly. 838 01:08:35,528 --> 01:08:37,363 Boys of 13 or 14 are capable 839 01:08:37,447 --> 01:08:40,241 of causing great damage to girls and women... 840 01:08:41,743 --> 01:08:43,494 And to each other. 841 01:08:45,371 --> 01:08:47,457 It is a brash age. 842 01:08:47,540 --> 01:08:52,378 They are possessed of reckless urges, physical exuberance, 843 01:08:52,462 --> 01:08:56,799 intense curiosity that often results in rnjury. 844 01:08:58,760 --> 01:09:00,303 Unbridled emotion, 845 01:09:01,137 --> 01:09:04,140 including deep tenderness and empathy, 846 01:09:04,223 --> 01:09:07,769 and not quite enough experience or brain de velopment 847 01:09:07,852 --> 01:09:10,980 to fully understand or appreciate the consequences 848 01:09:11,064 --> 01:09:12,565 of their words or actions. 849 01:09:12,649 --> 01:09:14,442 They're like the yearlings. 850 01:09:16,194 --> 01:09:19,572 Young, awkward, gleeful, powerful 851 01:09:21,324 --> 01:09:24,285 they're tall, muscular, sexually inquisrtive creatures 852 01:09:24,369 --> 01:09:26,079 with little impulse control, 853 01:09:26,162 --> 01:09:27,789 but they are children. 854 01:09:33,419 --> 01:09:35,421 They're children and they can be taught. 855 01:09:37,965 --> 01:09:41,928 I'm a two-bit schoolteacher, a failed farmer 856 01:09:42,011 --> 01:09:44,305 and, above all, a believer. 857 01:09:45,306 --> 01:09:48,059 And / belie ve that with guidance, 858 01:09:48,142 --> 01:09:51,354 firm lo ve and Patience, 859 01:09:51,437 --> 01:09:55,566 these boys are capable of relearning their roles as males in the colony. 860 01:10:02,865 --> 01:10:06,994 I believe in what the great poet, Samuel Taylor coleridge, 861 01:10:07,078 --> 01:10:10,540 thought were the cardinal rules of early education... 862 01:10:11,374 --> 01:10:13,042 ”To work by love... 863 01:10:14,669 --> 01:10:17,046 And so generate lo ve. 864 01:10:18,256 --> 01:10:21,801 To habrtuate the mind to intellectual accuracy and truth. 865 01:10:22,885 --> 01:10:25,888 To excite rmaginative power." 866 01:10:29,934 --> 01:10:34,981 He sard, "little is taught by contest or dispute. 867 01:10:36,065 --> 01:10:39,110 Everything by sympathy and lo ve. ” 868 01:10:49,036 --> 01:10:52,707 I believe the boys should be allowed to leave with the women... 869 01:10:55,793 --> 01:10:57,670 Providing the women choose to leave. 870 01:10:57,754 --> 01:10:59,881 It was a yes or no question. 871 01:10:59,964 --> 01:11:03,342 You shit like any other man. Why don't you talk like one? 872 01:11:07,555 --> 01:11:08,556 Sorry. 873 01:11:11,058 --> 01:11:13,144 I have a proposal to make. 874 01:11:13,227 --> 01:11:17,732 We have to protect all of our children, not only our daughters. 875 01:11:17,815 --> 01:11:22,153 Every boy under 15 and the ones who need special care 876 01:11:22,236 --> 01:11:24,489 must accompany the women. 877 01:11:24,572 --> 01:11:26,324 How do you mean "must"? 878 01:11:26,407 --> 01:11:28,659 What if they refuse? What if they don't wanna leave? 879 01:11:28,743 --> 01:11:31,078 We can't carry teenagers on our backs. 880 01:11:31,662 --> 01:11:35,124 We will try to influence our sons, but we cannot force them. 881 01:11:35,208 --> 01:11:37,668 And they might refuse, it's true. 882 01:11:37,752 --> 01:11:38,836 August. 883 01:11:40,588 --> 01:11:44,300 You would stay and teach the boys who remain? 884 01:11:45,343 --> 01:11:46,761 Of course. 885 01:12:02,777 --> 01:12:04,153 He's right outside. 886 01:12:06,656 --> 01:12:07,865 Klaas? 887 01:12:11,994 --> 01:12:14,163 He has Ruth and Cheryl. 888 01:12:16,791 --> 01:12:19,836 Everybody, back to your houses and pack up. 889 01:12:19,919 --> 01:12:22,421 If anyone asks, we were quilting. 890 01:12:22,505 --> 01:12:25,258 August, uh, get the map. 891 01:12:25,341 --> 01:12:28,386 Neitje and autje, you must run right now to every house 892 01:12:28,469 --> 01:12:29,929 and tell the women we are leaving. 893 01:12:30,012 --> 01:12:31,323 Tell them to pack up everything they can 894 01:12:31,347 --> 01:12:33,617 and to meet us outside the washhouse an hour after sunrise. 895 01:12:33,641 --> 01:12:35,577 We need to get an early start in the morning. 896 01:12:35,601 --> 01:12:39,105 Let's all meet back here at sunrise. All of us. 897 01:12:42,275 --> 01:12:44,944 An hour after sunrise, we congregate on the road by the washhouse. 898 01:12:45,027 --> 01:12:46,129 - Do we bring... - Everything. 899 01:12:46,153 --> 01:12:48,489 - Bring everything. - Why? 900 01:12:56,831 --> 01:12:58,725 - After sunrise, all right? - Wake up. 901 01:12:58,749 --> 01:13:01,669 - Tomorrow, one hour after sunrise. - We're leaving after sunrise. 902 01:13:23,232 --> 01:13:25,276 We meet an hour after sunrise on this road. 903 01:13:25,359 --> 01:13:27,528 - Bring your buggies. - Thank you, sister. 904 01:13:40,708 --> 01:13:42,293 Who can get home the quickest, huh? 905 01:13:42,376 --> 01:13:44,462 She has a cricket in her hands. 906 01:13:44,545 --> 01:13:45,796 You do? 907 01:13:47,298 --> 01:13:49,508 Can I see? Okay. 908 01:13:55,473 --> 01:13:56,849 Yes. Bedtime. 909 01:13:57,350 --> 01:13:58,392 Yes. 910 01:13:58,476 --> 01:13:59,769 Don't go. 911 01:14:00,353 --> 01:14:02,813 Stay with me tonight, or I will go with you. 912 01:14:04,190 --> 01:14:06,776 If I don't go home, it'll draw attention to all of us. 913 01:14:06,859 --> 01:14:08,778 - Mariche. - Go home, mother. 914 01:14:09,362 --> 01:14:10,988 I'll see you at sunrise. 915 01:14:50,194 --> 01:14:53,990 They said later, it should have taken longer to pack up a whole life. 916 01:14:54,699 --> 01:14:58,744 It was disappointing to realize that everything that ever mattered to you 917 01:14:58,828 --> 01:15:01,205 could be gathered up in a few short hours. 918 01:15:04,750 --> 01:15:07,169 We would leave only traces of ourselves. 919 01:15:22,727 --> 01:15:24,061 Go. Go. 920 01:15:32,611 --> 01:15:34,238 Psst. August. 921 01:15:36,741 --> 01:15:38,367 Come sit with me. 922 01:15:43,497 --> 01:15:45,041 Here's the map. 923 01:15:47,835 --> 01:15:49,253 Where are we? 924 01:15:52,048 --> 01:15:53,382 Here. 925 01:15:54,508 --> 01:15:56,385 - Here? - Mm-hmm. 926 01:15:57,595 --> 01:15:59,972 This is where we are. 927 01:16:06,562 --> 01:16:10,733 This is north, south, east and west. 928 01:16:12,443 --> 01:16:15,988 But the map moves. How do you know which way it should be facing? 929 01:16:17,281 --> 01:16:19,575 Celestial navigation. 930 01:16:20,284 --> 01:16:21,577 I can show you. 931 01:16:27,374 --> 01:16:29,376 Do you know of the southern cross? 932 01:16:29,460 --> 01:16:30,503 Mm-hmm. 933 01:16:31,295 --> 01:16:35,549 You and the women can use the southern cross to navigate. 934 01:16:37,426 --> 01:16:42,473 If you make your right hand into a fist... 935 01:16:46,852 --> 01:16:51,440 Align the first knuckle with the axis of the cross... 936 01:16:53,275 --> 01:16:57,863 And then the tip of your thumb here will indicate south. 937 01:17:09,041 --> 01:17:10,918 Will you show the others? 938 01:17:12,878 --> 01:17:15,214 We will have a lesson in navigation. 939 01:17:17,716 --> 01:17:20,594 Did you already know about this little trick? 940 01:17:23,264 --> 01:17:24,682 Of course I did. 941 01:17:24,765 --> 01:17:28,894 I wish there was something I could teach you that you didn't already know. 942 01:17:49,999 --> 01:17:52,251 What will become of you when we leave? 943 01:18:17,484 --> 01:18:19,486 You make a fist with your right hand 944 01:18:21,030 --> 01:18:24,116 and you point your two knuckles to the southern cross. 945 01:18:25,117 --> 01:18:27,119 It's called celestial navigation. 946 01:18:34,126 --> 01:18:35,753 Point these two knuckles. 947 01:18:41,217 --> 01:18:42,885 - Like that? - Mm-hmm. 948 01:18:48,641 --> 01:18:51,018 And wherever your thumb is pointing, that's south. 949 01:19:08,535 --> 01:19:10,704 We like to put frames around things, 950 01:19:11,622 --> 01:19:14,291 even when they are spilling out the edges. 951 01:19:15,167 --> 01:19:17,962 So we gathered one last time r'n the ha yloft, 952 01:19:18,045 --> 01:19:19,546 where so much had been sa/d, 953 01:19:20,506 --> 01:19:24,468 so much that your grandmother would have told you, had you ever met. 954 01:19:47,032 --> 01:19:48,575 Is he gone? 955 01:19:50,160 --> 01:19:53,289 He's sleeping. Dead to the world. 956 01:19:55,541 --> 01:19:57,042 He was very drunk. 957 01:20:00,629 --> 01:20:03,257 And he caught me sneaking back into the house late. 958 01:20:05,384 --> 01:20:08,762 And then he went to the barn and found we had taken the horses. 959 01:20:09,930 --> 01:20:12,474 Mariche, did you tell him what we were planning? 960 01:20:13,976 --> 01:20:15,954 She did, but only because he wouldn't stop hitting me 961 01:20:15,978 --> 01:20:17,813 and she was trying to distract him. 962 01:20:17,896 --> 01:20:19,606 I don't think he believed me. 963 01:20:19,690 --> 01:20:21,817 And even if he did, I don't think he'll remember. 964 01:20:21,900 --> 01:20:24,194 He'll be passed out all morning, I'm sure. 965 01:20:27,781 --> 01:20:30,409 But I also told him because I suddenly felt very... 966 01:20:46,467 --> 01:20:48,594 We have decided that we want... 967 01:20:51,722 --> 01:20:53,223 That we are... 968 01:20:55,601 --> 01:20:58,145 We are entitled to three things. 969 01:21:01,440 --> 01:21:02,983 What are they? 970 01:21:07,821 --> 01:21:10,074 We want our children to be safe. 971 01:21:22,836 --> 01:21:27,549 We want... We want to be steadfast in our faith. 972 01:21:31,136 --> 01:21:33,013 And we want to think. 973 01:21:36,850 --> 01:21:38,102 Yes. 974 01:21:41,647 --> 01:21:42,940 Praise god. 975 01:22:02,543 --> 01:22:03,627 Yeah. 976 01:22:05,546 --> 01:22:07,047 We all want that. 977 01:22:08,799 --> 01:22:13,595 J” nearer, my god, to thee j” 978 01:22:14,513 --> 01:22:18,350 J” nearer to thee j” 979 01:22:18,934 --> 01:22:24,440 j” e 'en though it be a cross j” 980 01:22:24,523 --> 01:22:29,445 j” that raiseth me j” 981 01:22:29,528 --> 01:22:34,324 j” still all my song shall be j” 982 01:22:34,408 --> 01:22:40,038 j” nearer, my god, to thee j” 983 01:22:40,122 --> 01:22:46,044 j” nearer, my god, to thee j” 984 01:22:46,128 --> 01:22:50,382 j” nearer to thee j” 985 01:22:52,301 --> 01:22:57,890 j” though I/ke the wandererj” 986 01:22:57,973 --> 01:23:03,270 j” the sun gone down j” 987 01:23:04,062 --> 01:23:09,735 j” darkness be over me j” 988 01:23:09,818 --> 01:23:15,073 j” ll/ly rest a stone j” 989 01:23:15,824 --> 01:23:21,288 j” yet r'n my dreams I 'd be j” 990 01:23:21,371 --> 01:23:27,002 j” nearer, my god, to thee j” 991 01:23:27,085 --> 01:23:31,924 j” nearer, my god, to thee... j” 992 01:23:33,217 --> 01:23:36,512 J” nearer to thee j” 993 01:23:39,264 --> 01:23:45,187 J” there let the way appearj” 994 01:23:45,270 --> 01:23:50,150 j” steps unto heav'n j” 995 01:23:50,984 --> 01:23:56,740 j” all that thou sendest me j” 996 01:23:56,823 --> 01:24:02,079 j” in mercy giv'n... j” 997 01:24:02,162 --> 01:24:03,163 let's go! 998 01:24:03,247 --> 01:24:07,876 J” angels to beckon me... j” 999 01:24:10,462 --> 01:24:13,507 J” nearer, my god, to thee j” 1000 01:24:14,258 --> 01:24:20,013 j” nearer, my god, to thee j” 1001 01:24:20,097 --> 01:24:25,060 j” nearer to thee j” 1002 01:24:25,978 --> 01:24:31,900 j” nearer, my god, to thee j” 1003 01:24:31,984 --> 01:24:34,695 j” nearer j” 1004 01:24:35,279 --> 01:24:41,159 j” to thee j” 1005 01:24:52,879 --> 01:24:53,880 Just... 1006 01:24:53,964 --> 01:24:58,343 August, you can speak whenever you want. You don't have to raise your hand. 1007 01:25:05,892 --> 01:25:07,144 It's all right. 1008 01:25:09,438 --> 01:25:11,023 It wasn't important. 1009 01:25:17,821 --> 01:25:18,989 Oh. 1010 01:25:22,200 --> 01:25:24,244 Are the children clean and ready? 1011 01:25:29,082 --> 01:25:30,959 Thank you, Melvin. 1012 01:25:33,295 --> 01:25:35,547 Thank you for saying my name. 1013 01:25:37,883 --> 01:25:40,469 We hid Ruth and Cheryl for you. 1014 01:25:40,552 --> 01:25:42,554 - They're ready to go. - Really? 1015 01:25:42,638 --> 01:25:46,475 Well! Oh, my girls. 1016 01:25:49,102 --> 01:25:50,854 Has Aaron readied the horses for us? 1017 01:25:53,732 --> 01:25:55,442 What? Well, where is he? 1018 01:25:56,777 --> 01:25:58,362 Where is he? 1019 01:25:59,529 --> 01:26:01,257 - Speak to me. - You're safe, Melvin. 1020 01:26:01,281 --> 01:26:05,786 - I won't harm you. I'm not your enemy! - Calm, salome. Aaron will be found. 1021 01:26:05,869 --> 01:26:07,746 I'm not leaving without him. 1022 01:26:11,750 --> 01:26:13,543 Salome, come back! 1023 01:26:17,756 --> 01:26:19,633 What if she doesn't convince him? 1024 01:26:23,553 --> 01:26:24,554 Mother? 1025 01:26:26,973 --> 01:26:28,684 Breathe. 1026 01:26:29,601 --> 01:26:31,019 Breathe. 1027 01:26:36,775 --> 01:26:38,985 We are going to go now. 1028 01:26:43,198 --> 01:26:45,701 I'm all right. Please go. 1029 01:26:45,784 --> 01:26:47,077 Come on, let's go. 1030 01:26:49,413 --> 01:26:51,623 - Now? - Yes. 1031 01:26:52,541 --> 01:26:53,875 Make a list, August. 1032 01:26:55,377 --> 01:26:58,255 - A list of what? - Of good things. 1033 01:26:58,338 --> 01:27:00,716 Of plans, of memories. 1034 01:27:00,799 --> 01:27:03,635 Whatever you feel goes into a good list. 1035 01:27:03,719 --> 01:27:07,723 What we, the women, will want there. Please write it down. 1036 01:27:09,141 --> 01:27:10,308 August. 1037 01:27:12,102 --> 01:27:14,187 Thank you for all you've done. 1038 01:27:14,855 --> 01:27:16,940 We are all so proud of you. 1039 01:27:23,029 --> 01:27:25,615 And your mother would be proud too. 1040 01:27:32,914 --> 01:27:34,166 I'll make a list. 1041 01:27:37,419 --> 01:27:39,337 This is going to be a difficult trip. 1042 01:27:39,421 --> 01:27:41,965 "Today is the day the lord hath made. 1043 01:27:43,842 --> 01:27:45,093 Rejoice... 1044 01:27:47,512 --> 01:27:49,014 And be glad in it." 1045 01:27:53,393 --> 01:27:55,061 Go join the others. 1046 01:27:56,062 --> 01:27:57,272 Please. 1047 01:28:06,573 --> 01:28:09,534 I will not be buried in this colony. 1048 01:28:11,745 --> 01:28:15,248 Get me into a buggy now and let me die on the trail. 1049 01:28:16,750 --> 01:28:18,543 But what about August? 1050 01:28:18,627 --> 01:28:20,086 Oh... 1051 01:28:21,213 --> 01:28:22,923 Stand. Stand. 1052 01:28:24,299 --> 01:28:25,592 He'll be fine. 1053 01:28:32,224 --> 01:28:33,642 He'll be fine. 1054 01:28:55,580 --> 01:28:56,832 Hang on with both hands. 1055 01:29:08,677 --> 01:29:09,677 Ona! 1056 01:29:16,017 --> 01:29:17,644 I will always love you. 1057 01:29:40,333 --> 01:29:42,711 She loves you too, August. 1058 01:29:42,794 --> 01:29:44,546 She loves everyone. 1059 01:30:23,752 --> 01:30:25,378 Sun. 1060 01:30:29,758 --> 01:30:31,092 Stars. 1061 01:30:34,179 --> 01:30:35,472 Pails. 1062 01:30:38,642 --> 01:30:40,060 The harvest. 1063 01:30:43,939 --> 01:30:45,273 Numbers. 1064 01:30:47,567 --> 01:30:48,818 Window. 1065 01:30:51,446 --> 01:30:52,822 Straw. 1066 01:30:55,283 --> 01:30:56,534 Sounds. 1067 01:30:59,788 --> 01:31:00,872 Beams. 1068 01:31:07,003 --> 01:31:08,004 Love. 1069 01:31:11,883 --> 01:31:13,885 All right. We'll go. 1070 01:31:21,601 --> 01:31:22,936 Language. 1071 01:31:26,731 --> 01:31:27,983 Wind. 1072 01:31:32,946 --> 01:31:34,280 Women. 1073 01:31:43,748 --> 01:31:45,083 Salome? 1074 01:31:49,170 --> 01:31:51,172 We may need to protect ourselves. 1075 01:31:52,841 --> 01:31:53,883 Where is Aaron? 1076 01:31:55,385 --> 01:31:57,012 He's in the buggy, waiting. 1077 01:31:57,762 --> 01:31:59,848 You convinced him to leave? 1078 01:32:01,307 --> 01:32:02,809 You may need this... 1079 01:32:04,019 --> 01:32:05,603 For protection. 1080 01:32:06,980 --> 01:32:08,064 Did you... 1081 01:32:10,316 --> 01:32:12,027 - Did you have... - Yes! 1082 01:32:12,110 --> 01:32:14,320 He's coming with me. He's my child. 1083 01:32:26,499 --> 01:32:27,917 Goodbye, August. 1084 01:32:29,794 --> 01:32:30,962 Good luck. 1085 01:32:32,464 --> 01:32:35,300 Please take care of ona and her baby. 1086 01:32:35,383 --> 01:32:37,135 Of course. I promise. 1087 01:32:37,218 --> 01:32:40,472 - Wait. I need to give you something. - No. I have to go! 1088 01:32:47,020 --> 01:32:48,021 Here. 1089 01:32:51,816 --> 01:32:53,818 Why have you got a gun, August? 1090 01:33:08,458 --> 01:33:10,668 Don't kill yourself, August. 1091 01:33:11,669 --> 01:33:13,171 You have important work to do. 1092 01:33:17,008 --> 01:33:19,969 You are the boys' teacher. 1093 01:33:31,314 --> 01:33:32,774 Don't come back. 1094 01:33:34,275 --> 01:33:36,569 Don't ever come back, any of you. 1095 01:33:41,699 --> 01:33:43,201 Oh, wait. I need... 1096 01:33:43,284 --> 01:33:44,702 No... 1097 01:33:47,747 --> 01:33:50,250 Please. Please, salome, give these to ona. 1098 01:33:51,042 --> 01:33:52,544 Oh, no. But she can't read them. 1099 01:33:53,461 --> 01:33:55,171 Her child will read them. 1100 01:33:56,631 --> 01:33:57,841 No, August, 1101 01:33:59,008 --> 01:34:02,971 the purpose was for you to take the minutes. 1102 01:34:16,442 --> 01:34:17,777 We'll meet again. 1103 01:34:18,862 --> 01:34:20,363 We'll meet again. 1104 01:35:02,280 --> 01:35:03,823 We have more room back here. 1105 01:35:05,325 --> 01:35:07,035 Melvin, thank you. 1106 01:35:07,118 --> 01:35:08,536 Do you have anymore room? 1107 01:35:08,620 --> 01:35:10,163 We have room for one more. 1108 01:35:14,375 --> 01:35:15,960 She can sit on my lap. 1109 01:35:33,353 --> 01:35:34,646 Up, up. 1110 01:36:17,522 --> 01:36:18,856 Autje! 1111 01:36:20,483 --> 01:36:21,776 All right. Come on. 1112 01:36:52,598 --> 01:36:53,891 Hup. 1113 01:37:44,776 --> 01:37:48,279 Your story will be difi'erent from ours. 1114 01:38:51,759 --> 01:38:56,055 J” oh, lccu/d hide 'neath the wings j” 1115 01:38:56,139 --> 01:39:00,560 j” of the bluebird as she sings j” 1116 01:39:00,643 --> 01:39:05,815 j” the s/x 0 'clock alarm would ne ver ring j” 1117 01:39:07,650 --> 01:39:11,320 j” but rt rings and / rise j” 1118 01:39:11,404 --> 01:39:15,867 j” wrpe the sleep out of m y eyes j” 1119 01:39:15,950 --> 01:39:21,747 j” m y sha vin ' razor's cold and it stings j” 1120 01:39:23,666 --> 01:39:27,378 j” cheer up, sleepy Jean j” 1121 01:39:27,462 --> 01:39:30,298 j” oh, what can it mean j” 1122 01:39:30,381 --> 01:39:33,843 j” to a daydream belie verj” 1123 01:39:33,926 --> 01:39:40,099 j” and a homecoming queen? J” 1124 01:39:40,808 --> 01:39:43,478 j” you once thought of me j” 1125 01:39:43,561 --> 01:39:48,232 j” as a white knight on his steed j” 1126 01:39:48,316 --> 01:39:53,571 j” now you know how happy I can be j” 1127 01:39:54,697 --> 01:39:58,701 j” oh, and our good times start and end j” 1128 01:39:58,784 --> 01:40:02,872 j” without dollar one to spend j” 1129 01:40:03,414 --> 01:40:08,669 j” but how much, baby, do we really need? J” 1130 01:40:11,047 --> 01:40:14,842 j” cheer up, sleepy Jean j” 1131 01:40:14,926 --> 01:40:17,720 j” oh, what can it mean j” 1132 01:40:17,803 --> 01:40:21,349 j” to a daydream belie verj” 1133 01:40:21,432 --> 01:40:27,146 j” and a homecoming queen? J” 1134 01:40:28,314 --> 01:40:32,026 j” cheer up, sleepy Jean j” 1135 01:40:32,109 --> 01:40:35,029 j” oh, what can it mean j” 1136 01:40:35,112 --> 01:40:38,491 j” to a daydream belie verj” 1137 01:40:38,574 --> 01:40:45,248 j” and a homecoming queen? J” 1138 01:40:53,089 --> 01:40:56,801 J” cheer up, sleepy Jean j” 1139 01:40:56,884 --> 01:40:59,720 j” oh, what can it mean j” 1140 01:40:59,804 --> 01:41:03,307 j” to a daydream belie verj” 1141 01:41:03,391 --> 01:41:09,939 j” and a homecoming queen? J” 1142 01:41:10,439 --> 01:41:14,068 j” cheer up, sleepy Jean j” 1143 01:41:14,151 --> 01:41:17,196 j” oh, what can it mean j” 1144 01:41:17,280 --> 01:41:20,658 j” to a daydream belie verj” 1145 01:41:20,741 --> 01:41:27,748 j” and a homecoming queen? J” 1146 01:41:27,832 --> 01:41:30,585 J” cheer up, sleepy Jean j” 1147 01:43:06,138 --> 01:43:11,852 J” there let the way appearj” 1148 01:43:11,936 --> 01:43:17,108 j” steps unto heav'n j” 1149 01:43:17,191 --> 01:43:22,697 j” all that thou sendest me j” 1150 01:43:22,780 --> 01:43:28,536 j” in mercy giv'n j” 1151 01:43:28,619 --> 01:43:33,749 j” angels to beckon me j” 1152 01:43:33,833 --> 01:43:39,171 j” nearer, my god, to thee j” 1153 01:43:39,255 --> 01:43:45,052 j” nearer, my god, to thee j” 1154 01:43:45,136 --> 01:43:48,931 j” nearer j” 1155 01:43:49,014 --> 01:43:54,186 a to thee j”