1 00:00:42,813 --> 00:00:47,933 CONFESSION 2 00:02:16,213 --> 00:02:18,053 - Hello? - It's me. How are you? 3 00:02:18,973 --> 00:02:21,053 - I'm okay. You? - Not bad. I'm at work. 4 00:02:21,893 --> 00:02:23,653 - I-wanted to call before I left. - Fine. 5 00:02:26,493 --> 00:02:28,053 - How's it going? - Not bad. 6 00:02:28,733 --> 00:02:30,453 I should be back in a couple of days. 7 00:02:31,733 --> 00:02:35,173 Good. The heat here's really getting to me. It's the same with you? 8 00:02:35,293 --> 00:02:38,253 Pretty much. But it's supposed to cool down tomorrow. 9 00:02:38,373 --> 00:02:39,853 That's good then. 10 00:02:42,133 --> 00:02:46,253 How are your shoulders? Still bad? No, they just hurt a bit at night. 11 00:02:46,813 --> 00:02:48,333 - Must be the humidity. - I suppose so. 12 00:02:48,573 --> 00:02:50,333 - Take care. - I will. 13 00:02:50,453 --> 00:02:52,093 - What are you doing tonight? - Not a lot. 14 00:02:53,053 --> 00:02:56,213 There's a meeting. Then I'll go back to the hotel. 15 00:02:57,013 --> 00:02:58,853 - Are you bored? - A bit. 16 00:02:59,733 --> 00:03:01,933 - Well, there's only a few days left. - Yes. 17 00:03:05,093 --> 00:03:08,013 Me and Nermin are going to a reception tonight. 18 00:03:09,973 --> 00:03:12,909 - What reception? - Some client opening. 19 00:03:12,933 --> 00:03:14,933 - We'll just drop by for a while. - Fine. 20 00:03:17,613 --> 00:03:19,813 - I'd better go. Nermin's waiting. - Okay. 21 00:03:19,933 --> 00:03:21,333 - Goodbye. - Bye. 22 00:03:28,493 --> 00:03:31,213 Mr Harun, the meeting's about to start. I'm on my way. 23 00:06:51,053 --> 00:06:52,053 Hello? 24 00:06:52,373 --> 00:06:53,773 It's me. Were you asleep? 25 00:06:54,133 --> 00:06:56,373 - Just dozing. What's the matter? - Nothing. 26 00:06:56,733 --> 00:06:58,933 - You didn't sound good. I was worried. - I'm fine. 27 00:07:01,773 --> 00:07:03,853 - What time is it? - Nine thirty. 28 00:07:06,773 --> 00:07:09,213 I'd better go so you can get back to sleep. 29 00:07:09,933 --> 00:07:11,413 - Good night. - Night. 30 00:12:21,653 --> 00:12:22,973 Hello? 31 00:13:52,533 --> 00:13:54,133 Room 216 please. 32 00:13:57,933 --> 00:14:00,213 Hello. I'm back. Don't worry. 33 00:14:02,133 --> 00:14:04,213 See you tomorrow, good night. 34 00:14:29,933 --> 00:14:30,973 Harun... 35 00:14:34,173 --> 00:14:35,213 Harun are you asleep? 36 00:17:24,013 --> 00:17:26,013 Grand Hotel, can I help you? 37 00:17:27,333 --> 00:17:29,413 Room 216 please. Hold the line, please. 38 00:17:34,693 --> 00:17:36,105 - Yes. - Who am I speaking to? 39 00:17:36,129 --> 00:17:37,613 Who do you want to speak to? 40 00:17:39,293 --> 00:17:41,213 Who do you want to speak to, sir? 41 00:18:50,293 --> 00:18:51,453 Hello? 42 00:18:52,853 --> 00:18:53,853 Hello? 43 00:19:10,413 --> 00:19:12,573 - Hello? - It was me calling. 44 00:19:13,933 --> 00:19:15,573 I got cut off. 45 00:19:17,133 --> 00:19:19,813 I was surprised to see you at home. Are you okay? 46 00:19:20,973 --> 00:19:22,573 Fine. I'm fine. 47 00:19:23,093 --> 00:19:25,869 I decided to turn back on the spur of the moment, that's why I didn't call. 48 00:19:25,893 --> 00:19:29,173 - If I'd known, I'd have been at home. - Doesn't matter. 49 00:19:30,013 --> 00:19:34,109 I didn't get to see you this morning. There was an early meeting. 50 00:19:34,133 --> 00:19:35,693 Never mind. 51 00:19:38,893 --> 00:19:41,573 Okay. See you tonight then. 52 00:19:43,013 --> 00:19:44,893 Harun, is something wrong? 53 00:19:45,893 --> 00:19:48,133 - Like what? - Well, I don't know. 54 00:19:49,373 --> 00:19:52,693 - It's nothing. We'll talk tonight. - If you say so. 55 00:19:54,133 --> 00:19:55,573 - Goodbye then. - Bye. 56 00:20:13,813 --> 00:20:16,653 It's me. You want to have dinner together? 57 00:20:17,413 --> 00:20:18,413 Sure. 58 00:20:19,693 --> 00:20:21,669 I'll be home early anyway. 59 00:20:21,693 --> 00:20:25,709 - Shall we eat out? - Sure. You decide where 60 00:20:25,733 --> 00:20:29,093 - and call me before you leave. - Okay. Bye. 61 00:21:57,493 --> 00:21:59,749 - Go on. - I was just going to ask 62 00:21:59,773 --> 00:22:02,773 - what you did after work. - Nothing. I went for a walk. 63 00:22:09,493 --> 00:22:12,333 - We should have eaten at home. - What is it? 64 00:22:13,893 --> 00:22:17,653 - I don't know. It would've been nicer. - We can go if you want. 65 00:22:20,493 --> 00:22:23,573 - Is something wrong? - No. Why do you ask? 66 00:22:24,413 --> 00:22:28,333 - You're very tense. - No, I'm not. 67 00:22:34,493 --> 00:22:36,573 - Is something wrong, Nilgün? - Like what? 68 00:22:37,333 --> 00:22:39,429 Don't say that. It's obvious there is. 69 00:22:39,453 --> 00:22:41,973 We should talk about it like adults. 70 00:22:46,253 --> 00:22:48,893 Okay, let's talk. You start then. 71 00:22:51,333 --> 00:22:54,013 Don't get angry. I didn't mean anything bad. 72 00:23:02,093 --> 00:23:04,269 - I want to break up. - I know that. 73 00:23:04,293 --> 00:23:06,469 - What else? - I already know that. 74 00:23:06,493 --> 00:23:08,749 Don't threaten me. It's you who didn't want to drag it out. 75 00:23:08,773 --> 00:23:11,789 Don't make me mad. I never said anything like that. 76 00:23:11,813 --> 00:23:13,669 I said let's talk about it like adults. 77 00:23:13,693 --> 00:23:15,669 You said we shouldn't drag it out. 78 00:23:15,693 --> 00:23:18,749 I said I wanted to break up. And you threatened me. 79 00:23:18,773 --> 00:23:21,309 I didn't say we shouldn't drag it out. I said we should talk. 80 00:23:21,333 --> 00:23:25,189 Whenever you don't like what I say, you start threatening me. 81 00:23:25,213 --> 00:23:27,053 We can't talk like this. 82 00:23:30,733 --> 00:23:31,733 Okay. 83 00:23:33,293 --> 00:23:36,533 I didn't threaten you. But if you thought I did, I'm sorry. 84 00:23:37,493 --> 00:23:39,173 I really want to talk. 85 00:23:39,693 --> 00:23:43,573 I accept whatever I have to go through. I just want to know everything. 86 00:23:44,453 --> 00:23:47,349 - What do you have to go through? - That's what I want to know. 87 00:23:47,373 --> 00:23:49,269 But I've told you what you wanted to know, Harun. 88 00:23:49,293 --> 00:23:51,389 I said I wanted to break up. What more can I say? 89 00:23:51,413 --> 00:23:52,989 Nilgün, let's not start that again. 90 00:23:53,013 --> 00:23:57,253 What do you want me to say then? Stop intimidating me. 91 00:23:57,373 --> 00:23:59,789 - What's going on then? - What do you mean? 92 00:23:59,813 --> 00:24:03,093 Look, I'm not an idiot. Be a bit fair. 93 00:24:03,613 --> 00:24:05,269 - What are you talking about? - Don't be disgusting! 94 00:24:05,293 --> 00:24:08,373 - I only asked what's going on. - So there's more to come? 95 00:24:10,413 --> 00:24:12,669 You've made up your mind. 96 00:24:12,693 --> 00:24:15,773 You're just trying to justify what's in your head. 97 00:24:17,053 --> 00:24:19,733 - Do what you want. I'm going. - I'll kill you, Nilgün. 98 00:24:21,093 --> 00:24:23,893 If you go, I'll swear I'll kill you. 99 00:24:46,013 --> 00:24:48,253 It's all so obvious. You think I can't see? 100 00:24:48,733 --> 00:24:52,093 Your getting back late, whispering on the phone... 101 00:24:53,093 --> 00:24:55,813 I believed in our relationship all these years. In all your bullshit. 102 00:24:57,053 --> 00:24:59,973 This has been fucking me up for weeks, and I haven't said a word. 103 00:25:00,933 --> 00:25:04,053 Have you ever considered what I've been going through? 104 00:25:04,653 --> 00:25:06,549 At the end of the day, I am your husband. 105 00:25:06,573 --> 00:25:08,269 You could have some respect. 106 00:25:08,293 --> 00:25:11,053 Out of your own self respect just tell me and then fuck off. 107 00:25:12,093 --> 00:25:14,429 - Don't talk to me about self respect. - I'll smash your face in. 108 00:25:14,453 --> 00:25:16,293 What do you know about self respect, you whore? 109 00:25:22,693 --> 00:25:24,693 Who were you calling last night? 110 00:25:27,093 --> 00:25:29,189 I said, who were you calling? 111 00:25:29,213 --> 00:25:31,893 - What do you mean? - Who were you calling? 112 00:25:32,893 --> 00:25:34,829 - Nermin. - Why call at that time? 113 00:25:34,853 --> 00:25:37,829 We spent the evening together. I was a bit drunk. 114 00:25:37,853 --> 00:25:41,133 I called so she didn't worry. What's wrong with that? 115 00:25:43,493 --> 00:25:45,773 Is that why you came back without telling me? 116 00:25:46,093 --> 00:25:50,333 - Is what why? - Were you checking up on me? 117 00:25:55,093 --> 00:25:56,773 What does all this mean? 118 00:25:59,013 --> 00:26:01,133 Answer me. What does all this mean? 119 00:26:14,573 --> 00:26:16,733 Something's got into you, Harun. 120 00:26:17,493 --> 00:26:19,973 I'm going. I can't take this any more. 121 00:26:57,213 --> 00:26:59,133 Grand Ankara Hotel. 122 00:28:11,253 --> 00:28:13,789 I'm sorry, Süha. I know I'm talking rubbish. 123 00:28:13,813 --> 00:28:18,333 - No. But we've told people you're ill. - You're right. 124 00:28:20,733 --> 00:28:23,173 - Harun, is something wrong? - No. 125 00:28:26,173 --> 00:28:28,269 I'll call and have a word if you really want. 126 00:28:28,293 --> 00:28:31,813 But first tell me why you want to go back when you only just arrived. 127 00:28:36,493 --> 00:28:38,653 Is it something to do with a woman? 128 00:28:42,133 --> 00:28:44,949 I know I'm putting pressure on you... 129 00:28:44,973 --> 00:28:47,813 But we are friends. Don't forget that. 130 00:29:12,693 --> 00:29:13,693 Hello? 131 00:29:17,013 --> 00:29:18,173 I'm listening. 132 00:29:21,573 --> 00:29:22,853 Yes, I'm listening. 133 00:29:25,453 --> 00:29:27,333 I wanted to apologise for last night. 134 00:29:33,413 --> 00:29:36,333 - Okay, I'll see you tonight. - I'm working, I'll be late. 135 00:29:40,253 --> 00:29:41,333 Okay. 136 00:31:04,933 --> 00:31:08,013 - Hello? - Nermin, it's Harun. 137 00:31:08,853 --> 00:31:11,493 Hi, Harun. I didn't recognise you. How are you? 138 00:31:11,693 --> 00:31:15,013 - Fine. Sorry, it's a bit late. - Doesn't matter. 139 00:31:16,213 --> 00:31:18,013 I wanted to know if Nilgün's there. 140 00:31:18,933 --> 00:31:21,253 She's just left. Isn't she home yet? 141 00:31:21,533 --> 00:31:27,013 - No. When did she leave? - About half an hour ago. 142 00:31:28,133 --> 00:31:30,749 She'll be here any minute then. Sorry to disturb you. 143 00:31:30,773 --> 00:31:32,013 - Good night. - Night. 144 00:31:47,133 --> 00:31:48,133 Hello? 145 00:32:01,013 --> 00:32:02,013 Hello? 146 00:32:02,773 --> 00:32:05,733 Harun, what's going on? I was worried when you left like that. 147 00:32:06,493 --> 00:32:10,413 It's nothing. I was a bit fed up. Sorry. 148 00:32:11,933 --> 00:32:15,413 Harun, don't get all official with me. We're friends. 149 00:32:16,253 --> 00:32:20,493 I just want to know what's going on. There is something wrong, isn't there? 150 00:32:23,333 --> 00:32:26,573 - Süha... - Harun, are you okay? 151 00:32:29,493 --> 00:32:31,013 Can we talk later? 152 00:32:32,213 --> 00:32:35,613 Okay. Call me whenever you want. Doesn't matter what time. 153 00:32:37,493 --> 00:32:39,493 - Thanks. - See you in the morning. 154 00:33:47,933 --> 00:33:48,933 Nilgün, 155 00:33:50,853 --> 00:33:52,253 Nilgün, I can't take this any more. 156 00:34:03,933 --> 00:34:05,613 Are you listening to me? 157 00:34:09,653 --> 00:34:11,013 Nilgün, are you listening? 158 00:34:13,133 --> 00:34:15,933 - Yes, I am. - I really can't take this any more. 159 00:34:16,813 --> 00:34:19,013 It's hurting you, too. 160 00:34:19,973 --> 00:34:23,013 Forget the hurting. It's not knowing the reason that kills me. 161 00:34:23,773 --> 00:34:25,773 I'm wasting away! Dying! 162 00:34:26,533 --> 00:34:29,309 The fear, the uncertainty is killing me. 163 00:34:29,333 --> 00:34:32,813 It's destroying my soul. I can't take it any more. 164 00:34:35,213 --> 00:34:39,773 You can't treat a person like this. You have to have some trust. 165 00:34:40,893 --> 00:34:43,733 Maybe you can't help what happens. Even if you don't want to be bad. 166 00:34:44,493 --> 00:34:48,613 But I'm not as weak as you think. Please tell me. 167 00:34:54,533 --> 00:34:58,613 I swear on my honour. I swear on everything I have. 168 00:34:59,213 --> 00:35:02,013 If you say there's nothing going on, I'll believe you. 169 00:35:03,213 --> 00:35:06,013 I won't say a thing. Won't ask a thing. I'll keep quiet. 170 00:35:08,133 --> 00:35:10,013 I'll leave right now if you want. 171 00:35:11,493 --> 00:35:15,213 I'll leave you in peace. I'd die rather than see you again. 172 00:35:19,493 --> 00:35:21,653 Just let me know what's going on. 173 00:35:24,533 --> 00:35:26,493 Tell me what's happening. 174 00:35:28,133 --> 00:35:31,133 Please don't refuse me this. I'm begging you. 175 00:35:45,933 --> 00:35:47,253 Aren't you going to say anything? 176 00:36:19,733 --> 00:36:22,173 Talk, you bitch! Talk! 177 00:36:23,773 --> 00:36:26,013 I'm not a plaything. I'm not your pimp. 178 00:36:26,773 --> 00:36:29,013 Talk, I said! Talk! 179 00:36:30,453 --> 00:36:31,533 I said, talk! 180 00:36:33,133 --> 00:36:34,253 I said, talk! I'll kill you! 181 00:36:35,293 --> 00:36:37,213 Tell me what the fuck you've been up to, okay? 182 00:36:38,373 --> 00:36:39,453 I'll kill you! 183 00:37:09,773 --> 00:37:11,213 Look at the state we're in. 184 00:37:12,733 --> 00:37:15,333 Look at the state you've got me into. 185 00:37:20,853 --> 00:37:22,333 I'm as good as dead. 186 00:37:28,933 --> 00:37:30,893 I'm finished. 187 00:39:05,453 --> 00:39:06,573 What are you doing? 188 00:39:10,053 --> 00:39:11,093 What are you doing? 189 00:39:16,013 --> 00:39:17,949 - Where are you going? - Get out of my way! 190 00:39:17,973 --> 00:39:20,429 - Where are you going? - Get out of my way, I said! 191 00:39:20,453 --> 00:39:23,789 - First tell me... - I said, get out of my way! 192 00:39:23,813 --> 00:39:25,173 You can't go without telling me. 193 00:39:27,173 --> 00:39:29,549 Harun, please. I can't take any more. Please let me go. 194 00:39:29,573 --> 00:39:32,657 Not till you tell me. Then you can go to hell. 195 00:39:32,681 --> 00:39:34,013 Get out of my way! 196 00:39:34,613 --> 00:39:36,133 First tell me where you're going. 197 00:39:37,013 --> 00:39:39,909 Harun, please. I can't take any more. Please get out of my way. 198 00:39:39,933 --> 00:39:42,653 I told you, I'm not letting you go till you tell me. 199 00:39:44,493 --> 00:39:46,173 - Get out of my way, psycho! - Don't shout! 200 00:39:47,373 --> 00:39:49,733 - I'll shout if I want, you bastard! - Don't shout, I said. 201 00:40:40,533 --> 00:40:41,533 Look... 202 00:40:45,373 --> 00:40:48,333 Go if you want then. Do whatever you want. 203 00:40:49,293 --> 00:40:52,533 I don't know you any more. I've been humiliated enough. 204 00:40:54,893 --> 00:40:57,733 What's left to be humiliated about? You see the state we're in? 205 00:40:58,253 --> 00:41:00,133 Yes, but I didn't want it to be like this. 206 00:41:00,853 --> 00:41:03,093 And I didn't force you to become a whore in hotel rooms. 207 00:41:03,773 --> 00:41:04,853 What do you mean? 208 00:41:06,253 --> 00:41:07,733 You're a really despicable person. 209 00:41:08,573 --> 00:41:11,229 I've been begging you for days to tell the truth on your own. 210 00:41:11,253 --> 00:41:13,333 Out of a sense of shame. 211 00:41:15,133 --> 00:41:17,909 There's no need to demean yourself any more. I know everything. 212 00:41:17,933 --> 00:41:19,853 What do you know? 213 00:41:21,893 --> 00:41:25,229 You're doing this on purpose so there can be no going back. 214 00:41:25,253 --> 00:41:28,789 You're using me to clear your conscience, to justify being a whore. 215 00:41:28,813 --> 00:41:30,869 The day I came back I told you not to. 216 00:41:30,893 --> 00:41:33,909 I said you had to trust me, that there was no need to lie. 217 00:41:33,933 --> 00:41:37,373 I said I'd accept anything as long as I knew what was happening. 218 00:41:37,613 --> 00:41:38,989 I went down on my knees to you. 219 00:41:39,013 --> 00:41:41,493 I begged you to have some pity, some compassion. I cried. 220 00:41:42,093 --> 00:41:44,189 I demeaned myself so you'd confess on your own. 221 00:41:44,213 --> 00:41:46,213 I let you walk all over my pride and self respect. 222 00:41:46,973 --> 00:41:49,533 I agonised for days. I cursed myself. 223 00:42:02,693 --> 00:42:03,989 There was no need for any of this. 224 00:42:04,013 --> 00:42:05,813 You could have explained and left. 225 00:42:06,173 --> 00:42:09,133 It could have occurred to you that I'd have a life after you. 226 00:42:09,973 --> 00:42:13,773 It's easy to play innocent now, but you were the cause of all this. 227 00:42:14,893 --> 00:42:17,733 In fact, this is what you wanted to do all along. 228 00:42:18,293 --> 00:42:19,893 You never believed in this relationship. 229 00:42:20,573 --> 00:42:22,413 You were afraid. Repressed. 230 00:42:23,213 --> 00:42:26,189 You always blamed me. You always saw me as a whore. 231 00:42:26,213 --> 00:42:29,229 You just waited for it to end, for me to cheat on you. 232 00:42:29,253 --> 00:42:32,469 You're right. I did what you said. Maybe more. 233 00:42:32,493 --> 00:42:34,693 I was afraid. Repressed. Selfish. 234 00:42:34,973 --> 00:42:36,269 But I didn't hide this from you. 235 00:42:36,293 --> 00:42:38,389 I didn't do this to demean you, or blame you. 236 00:42:38,413 --> 00:42:40,789 I asked you for help. I wanted to see how much you loved me. 237 00:42:40,813 --> 00:42:43,549 I wanted to have you by my side while I tried to heal my wounds. 238 00:42:43,573 --> 00:42:45,733 But you weren't there. You weren't there for me. 239 00:42:46,573 --> 00:42:48,013 I did everything for you. 240 00:42:48,453 --> 00:42:50,733 I put up with everything a woman could put up with. 241 00:42:51,053 --> 00:42:52,853 You just pretended to do everything. 242 00:42:54,173 --> 00:42:56,429 You never let me believe in you, never let me trust you. 243 00:42:56,453 --> 00:42:58,549 Anyone who doesn't want to believe is a hopeless case. 244 00:42:58,573 --> 00:43:00,109 How can anybody not want to believe? 245 00:43:00,133 --> 00:43:02,189 Even the most heartless people want to believe in something. 246 00:43:02,213 --> 00:43:05,109 I've always tried to believe in you. I've sacrificed everything for you. 247 00:43:05,133 --> 00:43:08,093 And then you made me pay for it. You've tortured me for years. 248 00:43:08,693 --> 00:43:10,733 You've always hurt my pride, always scorned me. 249 00:43:10,933 --> 00:43:14,413 I wanted to get inside you, to be free, to be able to breathe. 250 00:43:15,573 --> 00:43:17,453 You did nothing, Harun. 251 00:43:19,453 --> 00:43:21,013 You didn't let me love you. 252 00:43:22,013 --> 00:43:24,853 The closer I got to you, the more you pushed me away. 253 00:43:26,453 --> 00:43:29,733 You didn't fell sorry for yourself or me. You destroyed both of us. 254 00:43:30,053 --> 00:43:31,653 I did everything for you. 255 00:43:31,933 --> 00:43:34,613 I betrayed my best friend. It was my fault that he died. 256 00:43:35,053 --> 00:43:38,893 I betrayed my past, everything I believed in. I sinned. 257 00:43:39,653 --> 00:43:41,133 You did nothing, Harun. 258 00:43:41,693 --> 00:43:43,413 Not even what you say you did. 259 00:43:44,973 --> 00:43:48,693 You just deceived yourself. Deceived both yourself and me. 260 00:43:49,413 --> 00:43:51,773 You're still boasting that Taylan's death was your fault. 261 00:43:52,773 --> 00:43:55,133 Forget it. Taylan didn't kill himself because of you. 262 00:43:55,973 --> 00:43:57,813 He knew everything all along. 263 00:43:58,573 --> 00:44:00,189 He knew that you'd humiliate him. 264 00:44:00,213 --> 00:44:02,709 That I'd give in to my desires one day. 265 00:44:02,733 --> 00:44:05,533 He killed himself because of his pride not because you were fucking me. 266 00:44:06,333 --> 00:44:09,173 You bitch! You whore! You devil! 267 00:44:10,933 --> 00:44:12,093 I'm going to kill you! I'm... 268 00:44:15,253 --> 00:44:18,229 Don't run away! Come here! Open the door! Open the god damn door! 269 00:44:18,253 --> 00:44:21,133 I've put up with your bullshit for years. 270 00:44:22,013 --> 00:44:24,813 I never said a thing just so I wouldn't hurt your pride. 271 00:44:25,133 --> 00:44:26,613 Go ahead. Do whatever you want. 272 00:44:27,093 --> 00:44:28,813 Open the door! Open the god damn door! 273 00:44:29,653 --> 00:44:31,213 Talk properly. Don't be vulgar. 274 00:44:31,813 --> 00:44:33,773 Open the god damn door! Open it! 275 00:44:40,533 --> 00:44:42,493 You whore! So you've been feeling this for years. 276 00:44:43,253 --> 00:44:44,573 If you come in, I'll jump, Harun. 277 00:44:45,213 --> 00:44:46,893 I swear I'll jump, and It'll be your fault. 278 00:44:47,373 --> 00:44:49,933 Get out, Harun! I said get out! 279 00:44:51,973 --> 00:44:53,573 Harun, I said get out! 280 00:49:41,933 --> 00:49:43,813 - Hello? - Sorry to disturb you. 281 00:49:45,133 --> 00:49:47,093 - Yes? - I-want to speak to Ms. Nilgün. 282 00:49:47,653 --> 00:49:49,413 - It's really important. - Who's calling? 283 00:49:49,973 --> 00:49:51,293 I'm a friend of hers. 284 00:49:55,893 --> 00:49:57,053 Just a moment. 285 00:50:16,453 --> 00:50:17,453 It's for you. 286 00:50:28,173 --> 00:50:29,573 - Hello? - It's me. 287 00:50:31,373 --> 00:50:35,413 I've decided. I'm ready for anything. Can you come right away? 288 00:50:37,813 --> 00:50:38,813 Okay. 289 00:51:14,173 --> 00:51:15,573 Forgive me, Harun. 290 00:53:58,653 --> 00:53:59,653 Hello? 291 00:54:02,573 --> 00:54:03,653 Harun. 292 00:54:07,453 --> 00:54:09,133 Come in. Come in. 293 00:54:14,333 --> 00:54:15,333 Hello, Harun. Hello. 294 00:54:23,093 --> 00:54:24,973 - Bring us some tea. - It's coming. 295 00:54:42,693 --> 00:54:44,133 Thank you. 296 00:54:50,893 --> 00:54:54,293 - How's Nilgün? Do you ever see her? - No, I don't. 297 00:54:55,253 --> 00:54:57,373 You were always like that. Thoughtless. Disloyal. 298 00:54:58,973 --> 00:55:01,133 We were really upset at Nilgün. 299 00:55:01,533 --> 00:55:02,933 She was our bride. 300 00:55:03,133 --> 00:55:07,040 Like a real daughter to us. Even more than that. 301 00:55:07,733 --> 00:55:11,133 If you remember, the night we buried Taylan, we took her to one side. 302 00:55:11,813 --> 00:55:13,909 And we said: "You're used to the big city." 303 00:55:13,933 --> 00:55:16,229 "We can't force you to come and live with us." 304 00:55:16,253 --> 00:55:20,109 "But whether you do or not, you'll always be one of us." 305 00:55:20,133 --> 00:55:23,813 "Come and see us once in a while." 306 00:55:24,333 --> 00:55:28,493 "We'll remember Taylan. We'll be parents to you." 307 00:55:30,573 --> 00:55:33,053 "If you have a problem, come and talk to us about it." 308 00:55:33,853 --> 00:55:35,333 "You're a widow. You're pretty." 309 00:55:35,773 --> 00:55:37,773 "You're alone in that chaos." 310 00:55:39,773 --> 00:55:43,093 "You're one of us. You've been entrusted to us." 311 00:55:44,373 --> 00:55:47,013 She cried. She hugged us. Called us her mother and father. 312 00:55:47,453 --> 00:55:50,093 Promised she'd keep in touch. 313 00:55:53,613 --> 00:55:55,173 That she'd visit Taylan. 314 00:55:56,293 --> 00:55:57,933 And water his grave. 315 00:55:58,213 --> 00:56:01,253 Then the next day you left together. 316 00:56:01,733 --> 00:56:04,053 Days went by. Months. Years. 317 00:56:04,813 --> 00:56:06,133 Not even a call. 318 00:56:06,933 --> 00:56:09,653 We were worried. We thought we'd at least try and find her ourselves. 319 00:56:09,773 --> 00:56:11,813 But we didn't know where to start. 320 00:56:13,333 --> 00:56:15,733 We were really worried. Really upset. 321 00:56:21,213 --> 00:56:23,053 What's up, Harun? Is something wrong? 322 00:56:23,973 --> 00:56:24,973 No, nothing. 323 00:56:26,213 --> 00:56:28,533 I left something in the car. Let me go and get it. 324 00:56:43,053 --> 00:56:44,573 Harun, Harun... 325 00:56:49,293 --> 00:56:50,813 Brother Harun, what happened? 326 00:57:06,973 --> 00:57:09,053 We were both used to living in shame. 327 00:57:10,613 --> 00:57:12,013 One night Nilgün came to me. 328 00:57:13,013 --> 00:57:14,373 She cried for ages. 329 00:57:15,173 --> 00:57:17,733 She said she couldn't bear to look at Taylan any more, 330 00:57:19,613 --> 00:57:22,013 She said we should explain everything before Taylan realised. 331 00:57:22,573 --> 00:57:24,453 She said he was maybe expecting it. 332 00:57:25,173 --> 00:57:26,253 I said he couldn't be. 333 00:57:26,653 --> 00:57:29,173 I told her I couldn't do that to my friend. To my blood brother. 334 00:57:29,813 --> 00:57:32,573 Then we started arguing. We yelled at each other. 335 00:57:33,373 --> 00:57:36,853 Then she said she never wanted to see me again, and went home. 336 00:57:37,773 --> 00:57:40,573 An hour later the phone rang. 337 00:57:41,613 --> 00:57:42,653 It was Taylan. 338 00:57:43,133 --> 00:57:45,933 He asked how I was. We talked about this and that. 339 00:57:47,493 --> 00:57:49,333 Then he invited me over to his place. 340 00:57:50,853 --> 00:57:52,733 I couldn't say no. So I agreed, and went over. 341 00:57:53,893 --> 00:57:56,654 I bought some things on the way and gave them to him. We joked around. 342 00:57:58,413 --> 00:58:01,133 He was very pale. He'd lost a lot of weight. 343 00:58:02,973 --> 00:58:04,413 I asked how he was. 344 00:58:05,093 --> 00:58:06,749 He said he was okay. That he was getting better. 345 00:58:06,773 --> 00:58:09,693 He said the doctor had told him he'd soon be up and able to start work. 346 00:58:10,733 --> 00:58:14,213 But then he said it was fate. That only God knew. 347 00:58:16,373 --> 00:58:17,973 Right then I felt this pang inside. 348 00:58:19,733 --> 00:58:21,333 I wanted to cry. 349 00:58:21,653 --> 00:58:23,413 Tell him everything. Ask him to forgive me. 350 00:58:23,533 --> 00:58:24,533 But I couldn't. 351 00:58:26,773 --> 00:58:28,413 I couldn't confess. 352 00:58:31,093 --> 00:58:34,693 I made a joke of it. I said nothing could happen to him. 353 00:58:36,053 --> 00:58:37,133 He laughed bitterly. 354 00:58:37,893 --> 00:58:41,093 He asked about my work, if I was still thinking of getting married. 355 00:58:42,613 --> 00:58:45,853 I made a joke of it again. Then we had something to eat. 356 00:58:47,493 --> 00:58:49,973 I was convinced he'd say something. 357 00:58:50,653 --> 00:58:52,173 I was uncomfortable. Scared. 358 00:58:53,093 --> 00:58:56,693 I was convinced he'd hit me with what I'd done and start yelling. 359 00:58:56,893 --> 00:58:58,573 Nilgün was like that, either. 360 00:58:59,373 --> 00:59:01,053 But he didn't say one bad thing. 361 00:59:02,293 --> 00:59:04,333 He was nice to me. Was full of compliments even. 362 00:59:06,053 --> 00:59:07,813 In the end, I couldn't bear it any longer. 363 00:59:09,893 --> 00:59:12,133 So I asked him if anything was the matter. 364 00:59:13,933 --> 00:59:18,653 I said: "We're blood brothers, friends. If there's a problem, tell me about it." 365 00:59:19,733 --> 00:59:20,733 He said "No." 366 00:59:22,533 --> 00:59:25,253 He said there was nothing wrong. Just that he wanted to see me. 367 00:59:29,373 --> 00:59:34,213 He didn't say a bad word, make any digs all evening. And I was there till late. 368 00:59:38,013 --> 00:59:39,133 I came home, 369 00:59:40,333 --> 00:59:41,453 but couldn't sleep. 370 00:59:42,493 --> 00:59:45,373 I kept remembering how he'd said he just wanted to see me. 371 00:59:46,333 --> 00:59:49,893 I tossed and turned all night. I was so ashamed, so worried. 372 00:59:53,533 --> 00:59:58,213 I decided to go and tell him everything after Nilgün went to work next morning. 373 00:59:58,573 --> 01:00:00,453 I swore to myself I'd do it. 374 01:00:01,013 --> 01:00:03,013 I lay there, but couldn't sleep. 375 01:00:05,093 --> 01:00:07,933 I thought maybe he'd die soon, and I'd never see him again. 376 01:00:08,333 --> 01:00:09,333 I cried. 377 01:00:10,573 --> 01:00:13,773 Then the phone rang some time before dawn. 378 01:00:18,213 --> 01:00:20,653 I realised it was Nilgün when she started crying. 379 01:00:21,573 --> 01:00:22,893 She seemed to be tongue tied. 380 01:00:25,093 --> 01:00:27,173 Eventually she said he'd shot himself. 381 01:00:31,413 --> 01:00:32,413 Piss off! 382 01:00:35,213 --> 01:00:36,613 Piss off, I said. 383 01:00:39,213 --> 01:00:40,213 You bastard! 384 01:00:40,333 --> 01:00:41,389 Don't, son! Don't do it! 385 01:00:41,413 --> 01:00:42,693 Get out of my way, Mum. 386 01:00:45,773 --> 01:00:47,309 Don't! Don't get blood on your hands! 387 01:00:47,333 --> 01:00:49,813 Get out of my way, Mum. Don't, I said. Don't! 388 01:00:53,093 --> 01:00:55,573 Go and wash your filthy hands somewhere else. 389 01:03:06,533 --> 01:03:08,489 You must have missed. Shall we have some coffee? 390 01:03:08,513 --> 01:03:09,513 Sure. 391 01:03:09,853 --> 01:03:11,453 Wait, I'll make it. 392 01:03:17,653 --> 01:03:19,829 I got the caretaker's wife in yesterday. 393 01:03:19,853 --> 01:03:23,693 She cleaned the whole place. Made some food, too. 394 01:03:26,213 --> 01:03:28,333 I did a bit of shopping. 395 01:03:29,853 --> 01:03:31,213 Thanks. 396 01:03:39,093 --> 01:03:40,533 How are you? 397 01:03:41,053 --> 01:03:42,893 We're home, having some coffee. 398 01:03:44,493 --> 01:03:45,933 He's fine. 399 01:03:46,973 --> 01:03:48,933 I will. He says hello back. 400 01:03:53,213 --> 01:03:54,733 Okay. See you later. 401 01:04:34,253 --> 01:04:36,453 - Evening. - Evening, Mr Harun. 402 01:05:01,613 --> 01:05:02,613 Hello, Harun. 403 01:05:03,253 --> 01:05:04,629 Hi, Süha. How are you? 404 01:05:04,653 --> 01:05:06,373 - Fine, thanks. You? - Fine. 405 01:05:07,293 --> 01:05:08,853 I was out. Just got in. 406 01:05:09,333 --> 01:05:11,429 Why don't you come over to our place? 407 01:05:11,453 --> 01:05:13,309 We can eat together. Talk. 408 01:05:13,333 --> 01:05:15,733 - Tomorrow's Sunday anyway. - Sure. 409 01:05:15,853 --> 01:05:18,253 - Look forward to seeing you then. - Okay. 410 01:05:21,893 --> 01:05:24,733 I'm not letting you go till you've eaten something. 411 01:05:25,573 --> 01:05:28,293 Elif, open your mouth. Come on, darling. 412 01:05:30,053 --> 01:05:31,453 Elif, open your mouth. 413 01:05:32,613 --> 01:05:35,293 Elif, come here. Elif, I'm talking to you. 414 01:06:09,293 --> 01:06:12,173 Süha, she's fallen asleep. Put her to bed, will you? 415 01:06:16,613 --> 01:06:18,453 And this is a good day. 416 01:06:19,213 --> 01:06:21,693 If you only knew what she got up to the whole day. 417 01:06:22,253 --> 01:06:24,693 Not even my sisters wore me out this much. 418 01:06:25,013 --> 01:06:29,133 Never mind us. We're just going stupid over Elif. 419 01:06:29,773 --> 01:06:31,749 Tell us what you've been up to. 420 01:06:31,773 --> 01:06:35,133 - I'm okay. Just working. - Working's good. 421 01:06:36,213 --> 01:06:38,613 I really regret packing in my job. 422 01:06:39,013 --> 01:06:41,333 There's nothing left in my life except Elif. 423 01:06:42,293 --> 01:06:44,573 - Elif's woken up. She wants you. - Oh don't, Süha. 424 01:06:44,813 --> 01:06:46,949 She says she won't go to sleep till Ayse comes and kisses her. 425 01:06:46,973 --> 01:06:48,693 - Süha... - Just kidding. 426 01:06:48,893 --> 01:06:50,629 - How do you like your coffee? - With sugar. 427 01:06:50,653 --> 01:06:52,813 - And you, my love? - Same here. 428 01:06:59,693 --> 01:07:01,573 Can you give one for me, too? 429 01:07:04,333 --> 01:07:05,453 Thanks. 430 01:07:19,053 --> 01:07:20,973 Do you ever hear from Nilgün? 431 01:07:21,973 --> 01:07:22,973 No. 432 01:07:30,813 --> 01:07:32,933 - What's the matter? - Nothing. 433 01:07:34,813 --> 01:07:36,973 It's just I saw Nermin the other day. 434 01:07:37,573 --> 01:07:39,933 - You remember Nermin, right? - Yes. 435 01:07:40,173 --> 01:07:42,053 Actually, I don't trust her that much. 436 01:07:42,493 --> 01:07:44,933 But I was a bit upset by what she told me. 437 01:07:47,933 --> 01:07:50,653 But I couldn't decide whether to tell you or not. 438 01:07:51,453 --> 01:07:54,373 - If you don't want to hear... - It's something bad? 439 01:07:56,733 --> 01:07:59,531 No. I mean, it's nothing to do with her health, but... 440 01:07:59,555 --> 01:08:01,554 Like I said, I can't decide whether it's right or not to tell you. 441 01:08:01,578 --> 01:08:05,173 Ayşe, now you've gone this far... 442 01:08:09,133 --> 01:08:13,013 I'd heard about what happened before, but not this latest stuff. 443 01:08:14,013 --> 01:08:18,173 Just after you broke up, Nilgün quit her job. 444 01:08:19,573 --> 01:08:22,293 Or rather she was forced to leave. 445 01:08:23,693 --> 01:08:26,293 She rented a place with this new guy. 446 01:08:27,133 --> 01:08:29,653 But the guy was married with a couple of kids. 447 01:08:30,573 --> 01:08:32,493 This made it pretty difficult for them. 448 01:08:33,053 --> 01:08:36,093 The wife's family threatened Nilgün. 449 01:08:37,333 --> 01:08:39,453 They even roughed her up. 450 01:08:42,413 --> 01:08:45,613 Anyway, everything settled down in the end. 451 01:08:46,653 --> 01:08:51,733 But the guy's daughter wrote him this really heavy letter. 452 01:08:52,653 --> 01:08:58,013 Then jumped off the balcony at home and killed herself. 453 01:08:58,733 --> 01:09:01,973 Of course everyone was devastated. Nilgün and the guy, too. 454 01:09:03,053 --> 01:09:05,453 And the guy, by the way, was out of work. 455 01:09:08,853 --> 01:09:13,213 During the funeral some of the wife's relatives beat the guy up again. 456 01:09:14,413 --> 01:09:17,893 He had to go to hospital. It was terrible. 457 01:09:19,613 --> 01:09:22,973 Of course, the guy was a wreck after all this. 458 01:09:23,173 --> 01:09:25,293 Then he started blaming Nilgün. 459 01:09:25,933 --> 01:09:30,133 In the end, he even blamed Nilgün for the girl's death... 460 01:09:30,573 --> 01:09:34,253 and destroying his marriage. 461 01:09:34,733 --> 01:09:37,013 Nilgün couldn't take it any more, so she left him. 462 01:09:39,053 --> 01:09:40,773 The guy went back to his wife. 463 01:09:41,413 --> 01:09:42,853 Then she came back here, to Ankara. 464 01:09:44,573 --> 01:09:46,533 She rented a shack somewhere in Mamak. 465 01:09:48,613 --> 01:09:52,173 She'd found some kind of heavy job, I don't remember what is. 466 01:09:54,973 --> 01:09:57,253 I asked Nermin how she was. 467 01:09:58,253 --> 01:10:00,653 She said she was okay, but completely broken. 468 01:10:01,293 --> 01:10:05,320 Apparently she sits there staring not saying anything. 469 01:10:05,933 --> 01:10:07,933 There's something else Nermin said. 470 01:10:09,480 --> 01:10:10,480 She said... 471 01:10:12,373 --> 01:10:14,813 ...Nilgün was six months' pregnant. 472 01:10:15,773 --> 01:10:18,533 - But if she carries on like this... - Ayse, that's enough! 473 01:10:49,413 --> 01:10:52,773 There are some great perks to the job because of where it is. 474 01:10:53,493 --> 01:10:56,629 But although a lot of people are keen to go and work there... 475 01:10:56,653 --> 01:10:59,533 most of them decide to come back in the first six months. 476 01:11:00,933 --> 01:11:04,733 Life there is obviously tough if you're not used to the city. 477 01:11:05,573 --> 01:11:08,413 But the existing contracts do have to go on. 478 01:11:09,333 --> 01:11:11,733 Management is fed up with the never ending problems. 479 01:11:12,373 --> 01:11:13,949 They're right, too. 480 01:11:13,973 --> 01:11:17,733 Because this dam construction is the biggest contract the company's had. 481 01:11:18,253 --> 01:11:21,173 So my advice to you is to have a good think. 482 01:11:22,493 --> 01:11:26,773 Two guys from your department have been out there before, I think. 483 01:11:27,253 --> 01:11:29,389 - Right, Mr Süha? - Mr Necati and Mr Kerem... 484 01:11:29,413 --> 01:11:32,229 Right. See what they have to say. 485 01:11:32,253 --> 01:11:34,733 I already have. They told me a lot. 486 01:11:36,653 --> 01:11:39,053 - So you've made a decision? - Yes. 487 01:11:39,933 --> 01:11:43,333 Good. Mr Süha will help you out with the formalities. 488 01:11:44,373 --> 01:11:49,053 That won't take long. You could even start getting yourself ready. 489 01:11:50,573 --> 01:11:52,653 All right. Well, good luck then. 490 01:11:53,693 --> 01:11:55,933 Mr Süha, can you spare me ten minutes? 491 01:11:56,573 --> 01:11:58,469 - Of course. - Thank you for your interest. 492 01:11:58,493 --> 01:12:01,053 - Once again, good luck. - See you downstairs. 493 01:12:31,213 --> 01:12:33,893 Evening. Do you know where 132nd Street is? 494 01:12:37,053 --> 01:12:39,453 Over there? Thanks. Bye. 495 01:15:58,773 --> 01:16:00,453 This document is for you, Mr Harun. 496 01:16:02,133 --> 01:16:04,013 Can you sign here, please? 497 01:16:05,933 --> 01:16:07,413 Thank you. 498 01:16:25,013 --> 01:16:26,013 Hello? 499 01:16:26,653 --> 01:16:28,933 They've just brought it in. Okay. 500 01:16:55,853 --> 01:16:57,333 When are you leaving? 501 01:16:59,853 --> 01:17:01,053 Next week. 502 01:18:47,453 --> 01:18:48,653 Who is it? 503 01:18:50,493 --> 01:18:51,493 Harun. 504 01:19:10,613 --> 01:19:12,333 - Are you hungry? - No, thanks. 505 01:19:13,493 --> 01:19:14,933 I have to have something to eat. 506 01:19:16,093 --> 01:19:17,733 - But you'll have some tea, right? - Sure. 507 01:19:52,653 --> 01:19:55,109 It'll be ready in a minute. Have something to eat, won't you? 508 01:19:55,133 --> 01:19:56,973 No thanks. I just had something. 509 01:19:57,693 --> 01:19:58,693 Okay. 510 01:20:48,933 --> 01:20:50,573 I'm sorry. 511 01:20:52,413 --> 01:20:55,413 I wanted to visit you in hospital, but I couldn't. 512 01:20:56,173 --> 01:20:58,613 - Doesn't matter. - It wasn't serious anyway. 513 01:21:01,853 --> 01:21:05,293 - How are you? - Fine. 514 01:21:08,213 --> 01:21:11,373 - Are you angry that I came over? - No. Why should I be? 515 01:21:13,093 --> 01:21:14,853 Just a bit surprised, that's all. 516 01:21:15,533 --> 01:21:18,693 It's good actually. You can't help wondering. 517 01:21:19,853 --> 01:21:20,853 You're right. 518 01:21:25,333 --> 01:21:28,053 - What have you been up to? - Same as ever. 519 01:21:29,613 --> 01:21:32,093 When I got out of the hospital, I went back to work. 520 01:21:32,573 --> 01:21:34,309 But I'm going away in a few days. 521 01:21:34,333 --> 01:21:37,333 -Where to?- -To the east. Diyarbakir. 522 01:21:38,693 --> 01:21:41,413 The company's involved in a dam project. I'll be working there. 523 01:21:42,613 --> 01:21:44,013 Will you stay long? 524 01:21:45,693 --> 01:21:48,533 At least three years. After that, I don't know. 525 01:21:51,213 --> 01:21:53,253 - That's a long time. - Yes. 526 01:21:54,533 --> 01:21:57,173 - Did you come here to say goodbye? - Yes. 527 01:21:57,613 --> 01:22:00,029 I don't think I'll be coming back here. 528 01:22:00,053 --> 01:22:02,453 I didn't want it to end like this. 529 01:22:11,773 --> 01:22:14,133 Actually, that's not the only reason I came. 530 01:22:17,013 --> 01:22:20,573 I thought of lots of things to tell you last night. It'll seem strange now. 531 01:22:24,373 --> 01:22:26,493 Will you come with me? 532 01:22:28,253 --> 01:22:30,093 What about what happened? 533 01:22:30,333 --> 01:22:33,213 What happened happened. It's all in the past now. 534 01:22:34,413 --> 01:22:36,293 No it's not. 535 01:22:36,693 --> 01:22:38,949 Time's the only thing that passes. 536 01:22:38,973 --> 01:22:40,773 What else can we do? 537 01:22:42,413 --> 01:22:44,533 I don't know. 538 01:22:58,813 --> 01:23:00,213 SCREENPLAY AND DIRECTOR 539 01:23:04,413 --> 01:23:07,293 EDITING AND CINEMATOGRAPHY