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 May we ask
 what's behind this new Jamie?

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 I'm after your job.

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 You'd better watch out
 or your balls will be on the wall.

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 Thanks for looking after him.

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 You can't just take him.

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 Sherbert is my dog.

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I can't think straight when you're
talking shit in my ear non-stop!

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Bullying another member of staff
to keep your dirty secrets...

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..is not acceptable, Jamie.

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Lils.

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Want someone to control you?

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Don't get dragged
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She is dangerous.

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Are you OK? You look a bit odd.

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You'll get more sense from Paula.

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You'll get more sense from Paula.
Paula!

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She was acting really odd
when she came to get Sherbert.

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They'll lock her up again, Jay.

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When the world is too much...

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..we just have to carry on.

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The mind can be a dangerous place.

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Sometimes...

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..it causes you to do things.

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Things that you don't really
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..but that you have to do.

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Is that's what's happening
to my mind?

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Like one massive black hole
in the universe...

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..full of all kinds of shit.

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Sucking everything up
until the Big Bang.

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you can't escape anyway.

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Hey!

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Are you listening?

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What are we doing here, Jamie?

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Exactly.

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We're like these stones.

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So small and useless
compared with the universe.

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actually doing here?

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In this field, right now?

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Oh, yeah.

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Yeah.

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Right, well...

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..technically,
we're kind of on the run.

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Mm?

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Well, they're using you, Paula.

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Who?

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Who?
The unit. The team.

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The crisis team?

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That's what they call it.

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But what does 'CRISIS'
actually stand for - do you know?

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No, haven't got a clue. What?

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That's the point.
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They're keeping it secret.
I'm not supposed to know.

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Oh, shit!

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Yeah, I know.

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But it's OK.

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Because my job is to look after you

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Right?

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Help you get better.

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Yeah.

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If you were better,
I wouldn't have found you...

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..collapsed outside your flat
yesterday.

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Me?

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You're lucky I was there
to save you.

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Anyway, the thing is,
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..because that's my job.

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What is your job?

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Mental Health Nurse.

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Keep you safe.

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Repair you.

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Yeah.

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Repair my head.

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How are you going to do that?

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Reset it.

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Default settings.

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Default settings.
Like my laptop.

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Yeah, exactlyworld.

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My laptop's shit, Jamie.

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My laptop's shit, Jamie.
We'll give it an upgrade.

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Yeah?

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You'll be a genius, and your mind...

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..will be boggling.

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Come on.

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Where are we going?

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On a road trip. Trust me.

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Like a Sunday school trip.

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Yes, like a Sunday school trip.

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Yeah!

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Wow!

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I saw signs to the beach that way.

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I saw signs to the beach that way.
We're not going to the beach.

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A Sunday school trip, you said.

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You said we were on
a Sunday school trip, not me.

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So where are we going?

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To face it, face on.
Who?

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The thing you fear most.

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The things you want answers for.

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Your past, Paula.

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You need to face it.

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No, not today.

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It's the only way to move on.

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them how much they're hurting you.

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It'll help.

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No! I can't!

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You have to.

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You have to.
No.

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Don't!

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Let me out then!

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Stop the car or I'll open the door.

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Paula?

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Paula, don't!

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Obvious, isn't it?

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Can't you knock or something?

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Hey, I'm just trying to help.

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I mean, you want to fix her,
don't you?

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Yes, and I can do that myself.

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Good luck.

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What's obvious?

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Hey! Come on.

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Oh!

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You want the pain to go away, yeah?

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So we have to do this.

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Face your mum and dad.

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Do you trust me?

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Good.

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OK?

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Mam had insisted on going
to a Welsh cob sale.

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Over Brecon way.

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It was before the days of mobiles...

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..so I don't know
how they found out.

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I can still hear the noise
Dad was making.

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And they just stared,
right through me.

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Neither of them gave me a hug.

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Because they couldn't lose
the golden boy, could they?

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That was not how things
were meant to be.

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But you did it.

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You were jealous of the attention
golden boy was getting.

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Don't be soft!

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No, I understand, Paula.

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Like me and Barry -
I let him go, I let him fall.

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You saw Caleb
struggling in the slurry pit...

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I didn't kill Caleb!

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You've got it wrong.

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The golden boy...?

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That's what they believed.

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That's what they wanted me
to believe.

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It's OK.

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You don't have to pretend
any longer.

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have done at the inquest.

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I promise, you'll feel better.

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No, you've got it wrong.

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You've got it all wrong.
That's not what happened.

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Hey you, get off this land,
do you hear?

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Go on, skit!

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Do you know her?

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Paula? She wants to talk to you.

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We don't know any Paula.

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Right, listen...

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You want me to call the police?

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You can't keep doing this to Paula -
you need each other.

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Jamie.

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Paula, tell them.

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Say that you're sorry.

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Say something!

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Are you going or do you want
to be carted off in a hearse?

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Come on.

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Paula?

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GUNSHOT

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GUNSHOT
Fuck!

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Subtitles

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Subtitles
Subtitles

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Oh!

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It's magnificent out there.

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Without farmers like Mam and Dad...

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..this would just be one,
wild forest.

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No food, no order.

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Yes.

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It's just my head...

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I'm not sure.

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Right.

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Well, here you are.

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Where the fuck did you...?

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Over there - look.

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What d'you think I've been doing
for the last hour?

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My treat.

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Right, come on, let's go.

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Come on!

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Sit down.

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While we're here...

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..we need to have a chat
about this Caleb business.

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Because although Mam and Dad
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..they didn't mean it that way.

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They wanted to find fault in me...

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..because they should never
have left a young girl...

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..to babysit a mischievous boy
like he was.

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And the truth is...

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Deep down.

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They just...

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..can't admit it to themselves.

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It's a lot easier to blame me.

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Just as you blame yourself
for Barry.

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Erm, tell this one
not to stick her nose in.

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has a name.

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You can hear him?

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Hi Hi.

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See him?

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If I had enough money
I'd buy him a new pair of jeans.

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Those are manky.

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Tell the cheeky mare.

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Cheeky mare?
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Do you want me to fucking start?

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Do you want me to fucking start?
Please!

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What I was trying to say was...

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..you didn't let him go.

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You wanted to think
you'd let him go...

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..because then
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Take full responsibility
instead of having to face the truth.

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Instead of having to blame him.

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Saying that he'd been selfish.

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He wasn't selfish.

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He was ill.

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And refusing to seek help.

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I tried.

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Not hard enough.

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It's not as simple as that.

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No, but it's easier to let your
best friend carry the can, isn't it?

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Rescue you from some precipice
or bridge.

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Hold your head down the toilet
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You going to let her
speak to me like that?

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Yes, because he knows
what I say makes sense.

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You've made his life hell, Barry.

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You've made his life hell, Barry.
No.

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Yes, you have.

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Let him raise your kids.

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How does she know about that?
You been taking to users about me?

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No.

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No.
Oi! I'm clean.

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I've never used anything.

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Why else did she say that?

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Because you're still haunting him.

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If he wanted me to go,
he'd tell me to piss off.

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Tell him to piss off then, Jamie.
He's not good for you.

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It's none of your business.

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It's none of your business.
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I can't think straight
while you two are talking shit!

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No!

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Oh!

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MOBILE RINGING

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Fuck!

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Paula?

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We need to go.

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Who was that?

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On the phone?

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But it's not 'work' though, is it?

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But it's not 'work' though, is it?
No?

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00:16:51,630 --> 00:16:55,580
No. Now then,
what could CRISIS stand for?

277
00:16:55,630 --> 00:16:56,640
Stop!

278
00:16:57,660 --> 00:16:59,600
You're really doing my head in.

279
00:17:00,610 --> 00:17:04,510
Perhaps the 'I'
<font color="

280
00:17:05,640 --> 00:17:07,650
It's an acronym, you see.

281
00:17:07,700 --> 00:17:10,610
I'm rubbish with crosswords
and things like that.

282
00:17:10,720 --> 00:17:12,600
Yes, because you don't exist.

283
00:17:12,600 --> 00:17:14,550
Yes, because you don't exist.
I'm handy enough when you need me.

284
00:17:14,700 --> 00:17:16,560
Criminal.

285
00:17:16,720 --> 00:17:18,530
Ring.

286
00:17:18,700 --> 00:17:20,570
<font color="

287
00:17:20,620 --> 00:17:23,690
Doesn't bloody matter what it is,
we need to shift.

288
00:17:24,690 --> 00:17:26,740
Is there a message on the phone?

289
00:17:29,510 --> 00:17:30,520
Erm.

290
00:17:31,650 --> 00:17:33,730
'Don't worry, Jay.
I'm coming to get you.

291
00:17:34,670 --> 00:17:35,730
'Stay where you are.'

292
00:17:37,740 --> 00:17:39,510
Fuck.

293
00:17:57,710 --> 00:18:00,510
Perhaps they want
<font color="

294
00:18:00,620 --> 00:18:02,530
Think you're nuts, like us two.

295
00:18:02,640 --> 00:18:05,550
You've been a bit cuckoo for ages!

296
00:18:05,740 --> 00:18:09,630

will be upon us very soon

297
00:18:09,740 --> 00:18:13,520

happily in our land

298
00:18:13,630 --> 00:18:14,660
Stop!

299
00:18:15,560 --> 00:18:16,610
<font color="

300
00:18:16,610 --> 00:18:17,730

Stop it!

301
00:18:18,590 --> 00:18:20,660
Stop! Stop! Stop!

302
00:18:26,630 --> 00:18:27,630
Shit!

303
00:18:53,680 --> 00:18:54,720
OK.

304
00:18:57,700 --> 00:18:58,700
OK.

305
00:19:00,670 --> 00:19:04,610
If you want to stay in this car,
you must behave.

306
00:19:05,720 --> 00:19:06,730
Understand?

307
00:19:07,590 --> 00:19:09,600
<font color="

308
00:19:13,500 --> 00:19:14,510
Oh, fuck sakes.

309
00:19:16,580 --> 00:19:17,610
Go back!

310
00:19:19,730 --> 00:19:20,730
Go on!

311
00:19:21,540 --> 00:19:22,640
It's a dead end.

312
00:19:33,560 --> 00:19:35,570
Rod the Cod!

313
00:19:39,550 --> 00:19:40,550
Shit.

314
00:19:40,640 --> 00:19:41,680
Exciting!

315
00:19:42,540 --> 00:19:43,740
Just like being in the movies!

316
00:19:44,590 --> 00:19:47,640
Drive slowly towards him...

317
00:19:48,500 --> 00:19:50,650
<font color="
out of the way.

318
00:19:51,510 --> 00:19:52,600
Foot to the metal, James!

319
00:19:52,600 --> 00:19:53,600
Foot to the metal, James!
Don't listen to him.

320
00:19:53,700 --> 00:19:55,740
Maybe it's all in your mind.

321
00:19:56,600 --> 00:19:58,530
Like me.

322
00:19:58,580 --> 00:20:01,690
Come on, you know
us two aren't real, eh?

323
00:20:02,710 --> 00:20:06,540
<font color="
doesn't really exist.

324
00:20:06,650 --> 00:20:08,500
There's nothing there.

325
00:20:08,550 --> 00:20:10,580
It's your mind
playing tricks on you.

326
00:20:11,560 --> 00:20:12,560
Prove it.

327
00:20:13,610 --> 00:20:14,610
Go on!

328
00:20:14,720 --> 00:20:16,550
Drive towards them.

329
00:20:17,510 --> 00:20:19,520
MOBILE

330
00:20:19,650 --> 00:20:22,670
There's nobody there.
<font color="

331
00:20:22,720 --> 00:20:25,740
Go on, drive,
go Back to The Future.

332
00:20:26,600 --> 00:20:27,690
Go on!

333
00:20:30,690 --> 00:20:32,500
They're not there.

334
00:20:34,660 --> 00:20:35,710
It's all in your head.

335
00:20:42,670 --> 00:20:44,640
Lils?

336
00:20:44,690 --> 00:20:45,690
Lili?

337
00:20:46,580 --> 00:20:47,650
It's not her, Jamie.

338
00:20:49,670 --> 00:20:50,690
They're not there.

339
00:20:50,740 --> 00:20:53,680
<font color="

340
00:20:54,570 --> 00:20:56,600
Jamie!

341
00:21:12,540 --> 00:21:14,600
Oi! Can you give me a hand?

342
00:21:14,730 --> 00:21:16,530
I'll make sure you're OK.

343
00:21:16,640 --> 00:21:18,540
Don't just stand there!

344
00:21:20,640 --> 00:21:21,680
Oh, come on.

345
00:21:21,730 --> 00:21:22,730
Fuck!

346
00:21:42,620 --> 00:21:42,670
.

347
00:21:46,500 --> 00:21:46,620
Subtitles

348
00:21:46,620 --> 00:21:48,620
Subtitles
Subtitles

349
00:21:54,690 --> 00:21:55,690
<font color="

350
00:22:03,600 --> 00:22:04,600
Where are we?

351
00:22:05,660 --> 00:22:06,730
We'll look after you.

352
00:22:08,620 --> 00:22:11,630
We all want to make this
as easy as possible for you.

353
00:22:13,600 --> 00:22:14,600
What is it?

354
00:22:14,600 --> 00:22:15,600
What is it?
Eh?

355
00:22:16,540 --> 00:22:17,620
Crisis Unit?

356
00:22:17,670 --> 00:22:19,540
What does it stand for?

357
00:22:32,550 --> 00:22:33,650
<font color="

358
00:22:33,700 --> 00:22:36,520
No, everything's fine.

359
00:22:38,630 --> 00:22:39,680
I'll deal with it.

360
00:22:40,590 --> 00:22:42,570
Jamie, come with me.

361
00:22:47,660 --> 00:22:48,690
Jamie?

362
00:22:50,700 --> 00:22:51,710
Today.

363
00:23:13,540 --> 00:23:15,570
Do you want to discuss your day?

364
00:23:19,560 --> 00:23:21,650
You had a bit of an adventure,
it seems.

365
00:23:28,520 --> 00:23:30,700
I thought...

366
00:23:32,660 --> 00:23:33,690
<font color="

367
00:23:38,600 --> 00:23:39,620
I took her home.

368
00:23:41,500 --> 00:23:42,590
Back to her farm.

369
00:23:43,660 --> 00:23:44,670
But...

370
00:23:47,660 --> 00:23:48,740
..I'm not sure...

371
00:23:50,500 --> 00:23:52,650
..I'm not sure if...

372
00:23:54,590 --> 00:23:55,680
..any of it happened.

373
00:23:57,740 --> 00:24:00,620
Paula's been working
in a hotel today.

374
00:24:02,540 --> 00:24:05,550
Rod's got her a job
<font color="

375
00:24:07,620 --> 00:24:11,600
And that wasn't Paula's farm
you called at.

376
00:24:12,560 --> 00:24:15,530
You scared the life
out of an elderly couple.

377
00:24:21,520 --> 00:24:22,740
Who've never had children.

378
00:24:27,700 --> 00:24:28,710
Shit.

379
00:24:30,650 --> 00:24:31,650
OK.

380
00:24:32,610 --> 00:24:35,550
Yeah, I was, I was...

381
00:24:36,640 --> 00:24:38,580
<font color="

382
00:24:39,730 --> 00:24:41,550
I was fine...

383
00:24:42,620 --> 00:24:43,620
..until...

384
00:24:46,520 --> 00:24:47,680
..that stuff you gave me.

385
00:24:51,510 --> 00:24:52,530
What stuff, Jamie?

386
00:24:55,550 --> 00:24:56,570
Coke.

387
00:24:56,620 --> 00:24:58,660
Or whatever was in that powder.

388
00:25:00,550 --> 00:25:01,680
Why did you do that to me?

389
00:25:05,670 --> 00:25:06,730
On top...

390
00:25:08,510 --> 00:25:10,620
..on top of everything.

391
00:25:11,550 --> 00:25:14,700
<font color="
stuff like that.

392
00:25:15,650 --> 00:25:19,530
And I would never, ever
give any to you.

393
00:25:20,580 --> 00:25:23,680
Especially considering the state
of your mental health.

394
00:25:26,660 --> 00:25:27,660
OK.

395
00:25:33,650 --> 00:25:35,540
But in the storeroom...

396
00:25:35,650 --> 00:25:37,680
..and the car, when you and I...?

397
00:25:37,730 --> 00:25:39,520
<font color="

398
00:25:39,520 --> 00:25:40,520
Jamie, listen...
No.

399
00:25:40,710 --> 00:25:43,700
I don't believe you -
no, I don't believe you!

400
00:25:49,700 --> 00:25:51,510
You want to destroy us.

401
00:25:51,560 --> 00:25:52,720
You want to destroy my family.

402
00:25:53,700 --> 00:25:56,600
You want to get inside my head.

403
00:25:57,600 --> 00:26:01,510
You haven't been OK
<font color="

404
00:26:01,560 --> 00:26:03,680
Especially since you saw Barry...

405
00:26:04,550 --> 00:26:06,620
..slipping through your hands...

406
00:26:06,670 --> 00:26:08,580
..and falling to his death.

407
00:26:09,650 --> 00:26:11,650
It's no wonder it's affected you.

408
00:26:13,520 --> 00:26:15,740
Seeing your best friend, his body.

409
00:26:16,650 --> 00:26:18,740
Poor thing, all twisted...

410
00:26:19,540 --> 00:26:20,650
Stop! Stop! Stop!

411
00:26:21,510 --> 00:26:22,510
<font color="

412
00:26:23,720 --> 00:26:25,580
I've found you a place.

413
00:26:25,720 --> 00:26:27,730
Here, on the ward.

414
00:26:36,620 --> 00:26:38,680
Right, sit here for a minute.

415
00:26:45,690 --> 00:26:46,690
Jamie?

416
00:26:47,630 --> 00:26:48,660
Have you seen him?

417
00:26:50,640 --> 00:26:51,660
Sherbert.

418
00:26:53,700 --> 00:26:57,520
I took him for a walk after work
and he just slipped out of my hand.

419
00:26:57,570 --> 00:26:58,610
<font color="

420
00:26:58,660 --> 00:27:00,630
Jamie, are you alright?

421
00:27:00,740 --> 00:27:01,740
Is he OK?

422
00:27:01,740 --> 00:27:02,740
Is he OK?
Yes, he's fine.

423
00:27:10,650 --> 00:27:11,690
Ward One.

424
00:27:13,660 --> 00:27:14,670
Ward One?

425
00:27:15,680 --> 00:27:19,690
Yeah, we need to keep an eye on you
straightaway, Jamie, monitor you.

426
00:27:20,700 --> 00:27:23,650
Sorry, that bed has gone.

427
00:27:24,570 --> 00:27:25,730
<font color="

428
00:27:26,620 --> 00:27:27,620
Now.

429
00:27:29,500 --> 00:27:30,570
You've filled the bed?

430
00:27:31,610 --> 00:27:34,740
After I'd made it perfectly clear
that it was meant for Jamie?

431
00:27:37,610 --> 00:27:39,610
Is this how we treat a colleague?

432
00:27:40,700 --> 00:27:42,700
Where the hell is Jamie to go now?

433
00:27:43,500 --> 00:27:44,590
We've sorted everything.

434
00:27:45,710 --> 00:27:47,730
<font color="

435
00:27:49,620 --> 00:27:50,740
He's coming home with me.

436
00:27:52,600 --> 00:27:53,600
What?

437
00:27:53,730 --> 00:27:55,630
I've taken a week's leave.

438
00:27:56,520 --> 00:27:58,660
I've got holidays to take,
and I'm taking them.

439
00:27:59,540 --> 00:28:00,520
Now.

440
00:28:00,520 --> 00:28:02,650
Now.
There's no room on the ward.

441
00:28:03,660 --> 00:28:06,630
<font color="

442
00:28:06,730 --> 00:28:08,660
Not when there's no-one there.

443
00:28:09,630 --> 00:28:12,610
Think of it as an extension
of this place.

444
00:28:20,740 --> 00:28:21,740
Well...

445
00:28:22,540 --> 00:28:25,630
..good luck finding a second doctor
to give a diagnosis.

446
00:28:28,500 --> 00:28:29,520
It's already done.

447
00:28:42,740 --> 00:28:43,740
Are you ready?

448
00:28:46,540 --> 00:28:47,540
<font color="

449
00:28:50,660 --> 00:28:52,520
We're all here for you.

450
00:28:56,520 --> 00:28:57,520
Come on.

451
00:29:00,640 --> 00:29:01,640
Jay!

452
00:29:02,720 --> 00:29:04,730
Are you OK?

453
00:29:11,530 --> 00:29:12,660
No, I'm not.

454
00:29:14,720 --> 00:29:17,540
Listen, we'd better go.

455
00:29:17,590 --> 00:29:18,710
Where are you taking him?

456
00:29:18,710 --> 00:29:20,670
Where are you taking him?
He's staying with me for a while.

457
00:29:21,660 --> 00:29:22,680
<font color="

458
00:29:23,600 --> 00:29:24,600
Why?

459
00:29:25,630 --> 00:29:27,690
No, that doesn't sound right.

460
00:29:29,530 --> 00:29:31,660
The team will explain everything
to you.

461
00:30:35,730 --> 00:30:37,500
What are they?

462
00:30:37,610 --> 00:30:38,710
Antipsychotics.

463
00:30:50,500 --> 00:30:51,690
It'll take a while to work out...

464
00:30:52,610 --> 00:30:54,720
..whether it's stress-induced
psychosis...

465
00:30:55,690 --> 00:30:57,510
<font color="

466
00:31:09,590 --> 00:31:09,640
.

467
00:31:14,570 --> 00:31:14,690
Subtitles

468
00:31:14,690 --> 00:31:16,690
Subtitles
Subtitles

469
00:31:35,510 --> 00:31:37,560
You're looking more like
your old self.

470
00:31:41,600 --> 00:31:43,500
What are the chances...

471
00:31:43,670 --> 00:31:45,680
..I'll recover from this?

472
00:31:49,510 --> 00:31:52,590
The improvement in you in
<font color="

473
00:31:55,720 --> 00:31:59,550
With the drugs, hand in hand
with the CPT therapy...

474
00:31:59,600 --> 00:32:00,720
..and a lot of hard work.

475
00:32:05,520 --> 00:32:06,700
But you have to face things.

476
00:32:09,540 --> 00:32:10,590
I keep thinking...

477
00:32:12,580 --> 00:32:13,730
..that I let him go, Huw.

478
00:32:15,670 --> 00:32:17,660
Let him fall.

479
00:32:19,720 --> 00:32:21,650
<font color="

480
00:32:23,650 --> 00:32:25,570
If you did let him go...

481
00:32:25,740 --> 00:32:28,720
..there is some semblance
of moral justice in it.

482
00:32:29,720 --> 00:32:30,720
Eh?

483
00:32:31,580 --> 00:32:34,620
He betrayed you
by sleeping with Janette.

484
00:32:36,610 --> 00:32:40,660
And by letting him go, you took
some power from the situation.

485
00:32:42,530 --> 00:32:45,540
<font color="

486
00:32:47,660 --> 00:32:48,730
The problem is...

487
00:32:49,740 --> 00:32:51,510
..it's not true.

488
00:32:54,660 --> 00:32:55,670
You didn't do it.

489
00:32:56,690 --> 00:33:00,600
And trying to persuade yourself
that you did is eating you alive.

490
00:33:30,540 --> 00:33:31,540
What?

491
00:33:33,510 --> 00:33:34,590
Do you want to go too?

492
00:33:40,730 --> 00:33:41,730
No.

493
00:33:45,600 --> 00:33:47,510
<font color="

494
00:33:48,730 --> 00:33:50,700
Once and for all.

495
00:33:53,630 --> 00:33:54,650
I'm sorry, butt.

496
00:33:55,720 --> 00:33:56,720
About Jan.

497
00:33:57,690 --> 00:33:59,510
Torturing you.

498
00:34:00,640 --> 00:34:02,650
Being such a burden on you.

499
00:34:02,700 --> 00:34:04,520
You weren't.

500
00:34:04,570 --> 00:34:06,580
Like a thorn in your side.

501
00:34:08,520 --> 00:34:10,540
All day, every day.

502
00:34:15,670 --> 00:34:17,500
But you stuck with me.

503
00:34:23,520 --> 00:34:24,540
<font color="

504
00:34:26,620 --> 00:34:28,590
You need your family now.

505
00:34:29,700 --> 00:34:31,700
They will always be there for you.

506
00:34:51,640 --> 00:34:53,500
There's someone to see you.

507
00:34:58,690 --> 00:35:01,650
You look loads better
than the last time I saw you.

508
00:35:18,560 --> 00:35:19,580
I'm sorry.

509
00:35:20,700 --> 00:35:21,720
I've been...

510
00:35:25,670 --> 00:35:29,500
And I haven't been there for you.

511
00:35:30,510 --> 00:35:32,640
<font color="
all that now.

512
00:35:34,510 --> 00:35:35,530
But I need to.

513
00:35:37,540 --> 00:35:38,680
I know it's selfish...

514
00:35:41,730 --> 00:35:43,530
..but I need you.

515
00:35:46,730 --> 00:35:48,550
I'm still here...

516
00:35:49,540 --> 00:35:50,600
..I think.

517
00:35:50,650 --> 00:35:51,710
..somewhere.

518
00:35:54,570 --> 00:35:55,680
And bit by bit...

519
00:35:56,530 --> 00:35:57,700
..I'm trying to find me again.

520
00:36:04,540 --> 00:36:07,560
<font color="
to how they were between us?

521
00:36:08,740 --> 00:36:11,540
Madonna and King Kong?

522
00:36:14,610 --> 00:36:15,620
You just...

523
00:36:18,500 --> 00:36:20,530
..seem able to cope with things.

524
00:36:24,550 --> 00:36:25,600
Me, well...

525
00:36:28,500 --> 00:36:29,610
I've ended up like this.

526
00:36:31,720 --> 00:36:33,550
Everything just...

527
00:36:34,550 --> 00:36:35,570
..just doesn't...

528
00:36:37,530 --> 00:36:38,530
<font color="

529
00:36:40,700 --> 00:36:42,620
And I'm not sure...

530
00:36:43,600 --> 00:36:45,540
..what has happened...

531
00:36:45,610 --> 00:36:46,740
..or hasn't happened.

532
00:36:47,540 --> 00:36:48,540
Listen...

533
00:36:48,540 --> 00:36:49,540
Listen...
Jan.

534
00:36:51,600 --> 00:36:55,660
Something might have happened
between me and Natalie.

535
00:36:55,710 --> 00:37:00,550
She said nothing happened, and I'm
<font color="

536
00:37:00,660 --> 00:37:01,700
Natalie, or...

537
00:37:02,630 --> 00:37:04,510
..my brain, or...

538
00:37:04,510 --> 00:37:05,630
..my brain, or...
I think...

539
00:37:06,590 --> 00:37:08,690
..something happened between you.

540
00:37:09,630 --> 00:37:10,690
How do you...?

541
00:37:10,690 --> 00:37:12,510
How do you...?
Lili spoke to me.

542
00:37:12,650 --> 00:37:14,700
<font color="
in the office.

543
00:37:17,620 --> 00:37:19,530
She was worried about you.

544
00:37:26,730 --> 00:37:28,740
Sorry.

545
00:37:40,660 --> 00:37:41,700
What do we do now?

546
00:37:48,550 --> 00:37:50,560
We've both been through worse, Jay.

547
00:37:54,640 --> 00:37:56,650
All I know at the moment is...

548
00:37:58,500 --> 00:37:59,740
..I want to be there for you.

549
00:38:01,560 --> 00:38:02,610
Be a family.

550
00:38:04,670 --> 00:38:05,670
<font color="

551
00:38:07,670 --> 00:38:08,670
Really.

552
00:38:27,530 --> 00:38:28,590
When I'm better...

553
00:38:32,560 --> 00:38:36,570
..we can go back to Los Cristianos.

554
00:38:38,710 --> 00:38:40,670
Being together at home.

555
00:38:41,530 --> 00:38:42,630
That's all we need.

556
00:38:45,540 --> 00:38:46,540
Yes.

557
00:40:20,650 --> 00:40:21,670
Jamie Morris.

558
00:40:23,590 --> 00:40:24,590
Nurse.

559
00:40:25,600 --> 00:40:26,690
Service user.

560
00:40:29,700 --> 00:40:30,700
Patient.

561
00:40:33,530 --> 00:40:34,560
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562
00:40:34,670 --> 00:40:35,670
..one hour...

563
00:40:35,720 --> 00:40:37,620
..one second at a time.

564
00:40:39,620 --> 00:40:40,630
Trust me.

565
00:40:41,700 --> 00:40:44,550
You're just starting
on the road to recovery.

566
00:40:45,680 --> 00:40:48,550
We're all here for you, you know.

567
00:40:50,700 --> 00:40:51,700
Yes.

568
00:40:52,680 --> 00:40:54,500
See you in the morning.

569
00:40:59,690 --> 00:41:00,700
Go on!

570
00:41:24,740 --> 00:41:26,730
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571
00:41:27,730 --> 00:41:29,510
Jamie, love.

572
00:41:29,740 --> 00:41:31,660
What are you doing out here?

573
00:41:31,710 --> 00:41:34,570
I could ask you the same thing,
Mary.

574
00:41:36,570 --> 00:41:37,600
Sorry, Jams.

575
00:41:38,640 --> 00:41:40,520
Sorry about everything.

576
00:41:40,680 --> 00:41:42,690
We've been a burden on you.

577
00:41:43,580 --> 00:41:44,580
No.

578
00:41:45,680 --> 00:41:47,550
You're not a burden.

579
00:41:47,690 --> 00:41:48,720
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580
00:41:49,640 --> 00:41:51,580
I need to ice the lemon drizzle!

581
00:42:53,740 --> 00:42:56,650
WELCOME HOME DAD

582
00:44:29,580 --> 00:44:30,620
Aargh!

583
00:44:30,670 --> 00:44:31,670
Ah.

584
00:44:39,650 --> 00:44:41,650
BARKING

585
00:44:47,560 --> 00:44:48,580
Good boy.

586
00:44:58,570 --> 00:44:59,570
Come on.

587
00:45:45,570 --> 00:45:47,720
MISSING

588
00:46:25,540 --> 00:46:28,630
In the UK, someone is reported
missing every 90 seconds.

589
00:46:28,680 --> 00:46:33,500
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with some kind of mental disorder.

590
00:47:05,550 --> 00:47:07,530
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591
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