1 00:00:05,073 --> 00:00:07,275 PRIEST: Grant that, through this mystery, 2 00:00:07,275 --> 00:00:10,078 your servant Theodore Marcus Graves, 3 00:00:10,078 --> 00:00:13,281 who has gone to his rest in Christ, 4 00:00:13,281 --> 00:00:15,283 may share in the joy 5 00:00:15,283 --> 00:00:17,685 of his resurrection. 6 00:00:17,685 --> 00:00:19,620 Forgive whatever sins 7 00:00:19,620 --> 00:00:21,355 he committed through human weakness, 8 00:00:21,355 --> 00:00:25,293 and in your goodness grant him everlasting peace. 9 00:00:25,293 --> 00:00:28,129 How do we still not know what happened? 10 00:00:28,129 --> 00:00:30,764 I can't get anything when it comes to the police. 11 00:00:30,764 --> 00:00:32,300 I'm a leper. I'm sorry. 12 00:00:32,300 --> 00:00:34,568 PRIEST: "His line is gone out through all the earth. 13 00:00:34,568 --> 00:00:36,104 "In them hath he set 14 00:00:36,104 --> 00:00:37,638 a tabernacle for the sun." 15 00:00:37,638 --> 00:00:41,542 ...who has gone to his rest in Christ... 16 00:00:45,979 --> 00:00:47,381 (muffled exclamations) 17 00:00:52,220 --> 00:00:55,223 ♪ 18 00:00:56,190 --> 00:00:58,592 (voices whispering indistinctly) 19 00:01:04,265 --> 00:01:06,300 (Sam coughing) 20 00:01:08,502 --> 00:01:10,204 (gasps) 21 00:01:14,675 --> 00:01:17,245 NURSE: Wait. Don't do that. Stop, stop. 22 00:01:17,245 --> 00:01:18,812 SAM: Hey, what are you doing? 23 00:01:18,812 --> 00:01:21,549 I'm trying to keep you from pulling out the IV. 24 00:01:24,552 --> 00:01:26,420 Billy. 25 00:01:26,420 --> 00:01:29,056 Hey. 26 00:01:29,056 --> 00:01:31,359 You're... you're not a nurse. 27 00:01:31,359 --> 00:01:34,162 How do you know? 28 00:01:34,162 --> 00:01:37,831 You never asked me what I did for a living. 29 00:01:37,831 --> 00:01:39,167 But then again, it was hard to hear anything 30 00:01:39,167 --> 00:01:40,268 from under that leather hood. 31 00:01:40,268 --> 00:01:42,370 No. 32 00:01:42,370 --> 00:01:44,071 Hey, no. No. Ah! 33 00:01:44,071 --> 00:01:47,208 Fighting with my nurse won't improve your condition, Sam. 34 00:01:47,208 --> 00:01:48,809 Theo? 35 00:01:50,077 --> 00:01:52,045 I prefer Doctor. 36 00:01:52,045 --> 00:01:55,716 I see you were admitted with Pneumocystis pneumonia. 37 00:01:55,716 --> 00:01:57,418 It's a pretty serious infection 38 00:01:57,418 --> 00:01:59,653 caused by a fairly common fungus. 39 00:01:59,653 --> 00:02:00,621 What? 40 00:02:00,621 --> 00:02:02,055 It usually resolves on its own, 41 00:02:02,055 --> 00:02:03,691 but your immune system 42 00:02:03,691 --> 00:02:05,793 - doesn't seem to be responding. - (labored breathing) 43 00:02:05,793 --> 00:02:07,528 - No. - I need... 44 00:02:07,528 --> 00:02:09,897 I need to see a real doctor. Just get me out of this dump! 45 00:02:09,897 --> 00:02:11,699 Hey. 46 00:02:11,699 --> 00:02:13,867 Unfortunately, 47 00:02:13,867 --> 00:02:15,903 this is the only hospital that would see you. 48 00:02:17,238 --> 00:02:19,773 People are afraid of this thing. 49 00:02:21,342 --> 00:02:22,743 They're afraid of you. 50 00:02:25,746 --> 00:02:27,981 ♪ 51 00:02:58,178 --> 00:03:00,548 ♪ 52 00:03:36,149 --> 00:03:39,186 I'm glad you're on your feet. 53 00:03:39,186 --> 00:03:42,155 It's hard for me to see you like this. 54 00:03:42,155 --> 00:03:45,359 You were always so vital. 55 00:03:45,359 --> 00:03:46,927 (man coughs) 56 00:03:46,927 --> 00:03:48,462 So were you. 57 00:03:50,398 --> 00:03:52,766 Theo, I don't know what happened to you that night. 58 00:03:52,766 --> 00:03:55,369 I didn't kill you, did I? 59 00:03:56,370 --> 00:03:58,439 Did you intend to kill me, Sam? 60 00:04:00,474 --> 00:04:01,875 I don't think so. 61 00:04:01,875 --> 00:04:03,544 That should've been an easy answer. 62 00:04:05,078 --> 00:04:07,648 What about the others? 63 00:04:07,648 --> 00:04:08,849 The others? 64 00:04:08,849 --> 00:04:12,553 The other lives you devoured. 65 00:04:12,553 --> 00:04:15,055 You spent a lifetime looking away from the consequences 66 00:04:15,055 --> 00:04:17,224 of your actions, 67 00:04:17,224 --> 00:04:19,727 but everything catches up to you in the end. 68 00:04:21,094 --> 00:04:23,797 Where are you taking me? I don't like this game. 69 00:04:25,666 --> 00:04:28,702 Do you remember when I told you that something was coming? 70 00:04:28,702 --> 00:04:31,038 That I could feel it? 71 00:04:31,038 --> 00:04:33,307 - Yes. - Well... 72 00:04:33,307 --> 00:04:35,743 that something's here. 73 00:04:49,790 --> 00:04:53,394 Oh, Christ, that smell. 74 00:04:53,394 --> 00:04:55,062 No, I don't want to come in here. 75 00:04:55,062 --> 00:04:57,365 No one else will, Sam. That's why you have to. 76 00:04:58,366 --> 00:04:59,400 Come on. 77 00:05:04,037 --> 00:05:06,006 (coughing) 78 00:05:10,143 --> 00:05:12,112 What happened to him? 79 00:05:12,112 --> 00:05:14,281 He was admitted about a month ago 80 00:05:14,281 --> 00:05:16,116 with the same infection you have. 81 00:05:20,988 --> 00:05:22,456 (groans) 82 00:05:24,157 --> 00:05:25,493 Who is that? 83 00:05:28,295 --> 00:05:31,365 THEO: That's Danny, Sam. Don't you remember Danny? 84 00:05:31,365 --> 00:05:33,934 The first guy we opened our relationship up to. 85 00:05:35,403 --> 00:05:37,104 Danny. 86 00:05:41,509 --> 00:05:43,644 He used to be so beautiful. 87 00:05:43,644 --> 00:05:44,712 THEO: And more than that, 88 00:05:44,712 --> 00:05:47,781 he was a very talented writer. 89 00:05:47,781 --> 00:05:49,116 I knew that. 90 00:05:49,116 --> 00:05:51,685 He wrote a one-man play. It was... 91 00:05:51,685 --> 00:05:53,721 really good. 92 00:05:55,523 --> 00:05:57,491 He had a kind of flair. 93 00:05:57,491 --> 00:06:00,293 Did you go see it? The play? 94 00:06:00,293 --> 00:06:03,431 No, no, he-he got me tickets... 95 00:06:03,431 --> 00:06:04,798 but, no, I didn't go. 96 00:06:04,798 --> 00:06:07,000 And you never brought it up again, did you? 97 00:06:07,000 --> 00:06:09,470 Danny thought you had seen the play, Sam. 98 00:06:09,470 --> 00:06:11,839 - He thought you didn't know how to tell him that you hated it. - What? 99 00:06:11,839 --> 00:06:15,509 I never told him that he didn't have talent. 100 00:06:15,509 --> 00:06:17,878 Well, you didn't tell him anything, Sam, 101 00:06:17,878 --> 00:06:20,347 and that's the impression that you left. 102 00:06:20,347 --> 00:06:21,482 (groaning in pain) 103 00:06:21,482 --> 00:06:23,150 Oh, my God. 104 00:06:23,150 --> 00:06:25,919 Oh, God. Help him. Theo, help him. 105 00:06:25,919 --> 00:06:27,521 - There's no use, Sam. - Somebody help him! 106 00:06:27,521 --> 00:06:28,622 There's no one there to hear you. 107 00:06:28,622 --> 00:06:30,023 SAM: Why did you bring me here? 108 00:06:30,023 --> 00:06:32,125 Isn't that what you do? You show things 109 00:06:32,125 --> 00:06:33,761 to your clients that they've never seen before. 110 00:06:33,761 --> 00:06:35,963 - Things they'll never forget. - This is not my fault. 111 00:06:35,963 --> 00:06:38,432 Come on. There's more to see. 112 00:06:58,686 --> 00:07:00,420 Stewart. 113 00:07:00,420 --> 00:07:02,089 THEO: He was sick before he met you, 114 00:07:02,089 --> 00:07:04,024 but he didn't know it yet. 115 00:07:04,024 --> 00:07:07,427 The doctors don't understand why he's wasting away so fast. 116 00:07:07,427 --> 00:07:09,362 He was fine when we were together. 117 00:07:09,362 --> 00:07:11,031 - Better than fine. - Was that before 118 00:07:11,031 --> 00:07:13,901 or after you wouldn't let him out of the cage? 119 00:07:17,471 --> 00:07:20,440 I was coked up, Theo. I got carried away. 120 00:07:20,440 --> 00:07:23,110 I have always pushed the limits. 121 00:07:23,110 --> 00:07:25,779 "I, I, I." 122 00:07:25,779 --> 00:07:28,248 Look beyond yourself, Sam. 123 00:07:29,550 --> 00:07:30,584 What about him? 124 00:07:30,584 --> 00:07:32,920 (muttering) 125 00:07:34,121 --> 00:07:36,056 I shouldn't be here. 126 00:07:36,056 --> 00:07:37,525 He doesn't know it's you, Sam. 127 00:07:37,525 --> 00:07:40,160 - Give him a kiss. - What? 128 00:07:40,160 --> 00:07:41,995 He needs compassion. 129 00:07:44,097 --> 00:07:47,167 I'm sorry. You've asked the wrong person. 130 00:07:50,037 --> 00:07:51,271 It's not my place. 131 00:07:51,271 --> 00:07:54,307 It's everyone's place to show love, Sam. 132 00:08:18,766 --> 00:08:20,167 Please, Theo. 133 00:08:20,167 --> 00:08:22,603 I'm so tired. I need to get to my room. 134 00:08:22,603 --> 00:08:24,705 That's where we're headed. 135 00:08:33,847 --> 00:08:35,849 This is not my room. 136 00:08:35,849 --> 00:08:37,918 It is, Sam. 137 00:08:37,918 --> 00:08:39,720 Go inside. 138 00:08:58,972 --> 00:09:01,274 How long have I been here? 139 00:09:03,043 --> 00:09:05,312 Long enough to be forgotten. 140 00:09:05,312 --> 00:09:07,881 SAM: I would never be left to rot like this. 141 00:09:07,881 --> 00:09:10,684 There are people who love me. 142 00:09:10,684 --> 00:09:13,020 It's one thing to be celebrated, Sam. 143 00:09:14,688 --> 00:09:17,591 It's another thing entirely to be loved. 144 00:09:21,261 --> 00:09:24,832 You've surrounded yourself with beautiful people 145 00:09:24,832 --> 00:09:26,700 who loved beautiful things. 146 00:09:28,936 --> 00:09:30,904 But those beautiful people-- 147 00:09:30,904 --> 00:09:32,973 they don't have a taste for this kind of beauty. 148 00:09:43,116 --> 00:09:44,584 What happened to me? 149 00:09:44,584 --> 00:09:47,554 Your immune system continued to decay, 150 00:09:47,554 --> 00:09:50,390 and your body lost all ability to fight off 151 00:09:50,390 --> 00:09:53,694 even the smallest infection. 152 00:09:53,694 --> 00:09:55,863 The lesions on your skin, 153 00:09:55,863 --> 00:09:57,264 those are nothing compared 154 00:09:57,264 --> 00:09:59,166 to what's happening inside your body. 155 00:09:59,166 --> 00:10:01,835 What about medication? 156 00:10:01,835 --> 00:10:04,772 I'll pay. I don't care how much it costs. 157 00:10:06,539 --> 00:10:08,141 There's no cure for this. 158 00:10:08,141 --> 00:10:10,177 (coughs) 159 00:10:10,177 --> 00:10:12,612 Money can't buy your way out this time. 160 00:10:12,612 --> 00:10:14,381 (choking) 161 00:10:14,381 --> 00:10:16,249 Do something. Help him. 162 00:10:17,184 --> 00:10:19,486 Help me. Do something! I can't die like this. 163 00:10:19,486 --> 00:10:20,921 I don't deserve to die like this. 164 00:10:20,921 --> 00:10:23,056 Theo, do something! Help me! 165 00:10:23,056 --> 00:10:24,157 Please. 166 00:10:27,895 --> 00:10:28,962 Help me. 167 00:10:30,864 --> 00:10:32,700 Somebody help me. 168 00:10:57,090 --> 00:10:58,792 Hello? 169 00:11:02,830 --> 00:11:04,531 Hello? 170 00:11:09,770 --> 00:11:11,238 Where am I? 171 00:11:22,249 --> 00:11:24,017 What's happening? 172 00:11:27,755 --> 00:11:29,489 Where am I? 173 00:11:31,024 --> 00:11:32,993 Hello? 174 00:11:34,795 --> 00:11:35,863 What's wrong? 175 00:11:38,231 --> 00:11:39,867 Being locked in a cage isn't as comfy 176 00:11:39,867 --> 00:11:41,534 - as you imagined it to be? - Get me out of here. 177 00:11:41,534 --> 00:11:43,203 No, no. 178 00:11:43,203 --> 00:11:45,272 We're gonna have a little fun. 179 00:11:46,907 --> 00:11:48,876 Hmm... 180 00:11:51,044 --> 00:11:52,012 Ooh. 181 00:11:52,012 --> 00:11:54,114 What's this? 182 00:11:54,114 --> 00:11:56,516 Gone fishing? (clicks tongue) 183 00:11:56,516 --> 00:11:58,285 Judge all you want. 184 00:11:58,285 --> 00:12:00,653 Gives a lot of people pleasure. You wouldn't understand. 185 00:12:00,653 --> 00:12:03,290 No, I wouldn't understand such grotesque extremes. 186 00:12:03,290 --> 00:12:06,659 It's people like you who make the world hate people like me. 187 00:12:06,659 --> 00:12:08,095 Says the gay hit man. 188 00:12:09,129 --> 00:12:10,831 You don't know anything about me. 189 00:12:10,831 --> 00:12:14,134 You and I are not that dissimilar. 190 00:12:14,134 --> 00:12:17,337 We're both deeply misunderstood, but there is 191 00:12:17,337 --> 00:12:19,840 one big difference. 192 00:12:19,840 --> 00:12:22,275 I don't believe that my pain 193 00:12:22,275 --> 00:12:25,212 is greater than everyone else's. 194 00:12:29,249 --> 00:12:31,284 ♪ 195 00:12:37,724 --> 00:12:40,727 It's one thing to indulge in a fetish. 196 00:12:41,862 --> 00:12:45,598 It's another to enjoy torturing people. 197 00:12:45,598 --> 00:12:49,036 SAM: I give pain to people to take it away. 198 00:12:49,036 --> 00:12:50,403 HENRY: Bullshit. 199 00:12:50,403 --> 00:12:51,939 You inflict pain 200 00:12:51,939 --> 00:12:54,674 because you are in pain. 201 00:12:54,674 --> 00:12:57,410 - (grunting) - Pain given is pain experienced. 202 00:12:57,410 --> 00:13:00,013 There's an art to the pain I give. 203 00:13:00,013 --> 00:13:01,548 Not like this. 204 00:13:01,548 --> 00:13:03,716 He's hurting him, really. Make him stop. 205 00:13:03,716 --> 00:13:06,820 So it's different with someone you love? 206 00:13:06,820 --> 00:13:08,521 Who is this man, Sam? 207 00:13:08,521 --> 00:13:10,190 (man cries out) 208 00:13:10,190 --> 00:13:12,025 - I don't want to see him like this. - HENRY: Look at him. 209 00:13:12,025 --> 00:13:15,128 Sam, look at the man who caused you the most pain. 210 00:13:17,064 --> 00:13:19,666 - Acknowledge your father's presence. - SAM: No! 211 00:13:19,666 --> 00:13:21,468 Stop! 212 00:13:21,468 --> 00:13:23,670 Is this where all the violence began? 213 00:13:23,670 --> 00:13:25,338 Please... (sobbing) 214 00:13:25,338 --> 00:13:27,875 Make it stop! 215 00:13:27,875 --> 00:13:29,776 (whipping stops) 216 00:13:32,980 --> 00:13:34,181 HENRY: Ah... 217 00:13:34,181 --> 00:13:37,084 Is this another link in the chain of violence? 218 00:13:37,084 --> 00:13:38,585 Who is this? 219 00:13:38,585 --> 00:13:41,588 SAM: My first boss when I worked on Wall Street. 220 00:13:41,588 --> 00:13:44,524 HENRY (laughs): Oh, yes. You so 221 00:13:44,524 --> 00:13:48,328 badly wanted the approval of those cavemen. 222 00:13:48,328 --> 00:13:49,629 They were never gonna accept a faggot 223 00:13:49,629 --> 00:13:50,663 like you into their league. 224 00:13:50,663 --> 00:13:51,999 I worked harder than anyone 225 00:13:51,999 --> 00:13:53,333 at that firm. 226 00:13:54,801 --> 00:13:58,038 I was smarter and faster than all of them combined, 227 00:13:58,038 --> 00:13:59,873 and they still made me feel so small, 228 00:13:59,873 --> 00:14:01,108 so worthless. 229 00:14:01,108 --> 00:14:03,911 You left finance and you became a collector. 230 00:14:03,911 --> 00:14:05,778 Hoarding art and men and money 231 00:14:05,778 --> 00:14:07,614 just to show those Wall Street boys. 232 00:14:07,614 --> 00:14:10,150 No one was ever gonna take away my power ever again. 233 00:14:10,150 --> 00:14:12,719 - (crying) - You can't blame me 234 00:14:12,719 --> 00:14:14,387 for having some self-respect. 235 00:14:14,387 --> 00:14:15,956 Is that what you call this? 236 00:14:15,956 --> 00:14:18,691 (screaming) 237 00:14:29,536 --> 00:14:31,171 (grunts) 238 00:14:42,382 --> 00:14:45,385 (grunting) 239 00:14:45,385 --> 00:14:48,155 I'm not afraid of you. 240 00:14:48,155 --> 00:14:50,357 I am the one 241 00:14:50,357 --> 00:14:52,592 - who should be feared. - HENRY: Ooh. 242 00:14:52,592 --> 00:14:54,661 So defensive. 243 00:14:54,661 --> 00:14:56,229 Is that how you talk to your God? 244 00:14:56,229 --> 00:14:57,897 Get me out of here! 245 00:14:57,897 --> 00:14:59,066 HENRY: Time to face him, Sam. 246 00:14:59,066 --> 00:15:01,468 Your fear. Your chaos. 247 00:15:01,468 --> 00:15:02,602 Your shame. 248 00:15:02,602 --> 00:15:04,337 Your shadow. 249 00:15:04,337 --> 00:15:06,039 (Sam grunting) 250 00:15:06,039 --> 00:15:07,440 HENRY: Avoiding him now 251 00:15:07,440 --> 00:15:10,510 is only gonna make it more painful. 252 00:15:10,510 --> 00:15:14,347 Help! Let me go! 253 00:15:15,848 --> 00:15:17,884 (waves crashing) 254 00:15:19,752 --> 00:15:21,788 (seagulls calling) 255 00:15:38,005 --> 00:15:40,640 (seagull screeches) 256 00:15:40,640 --> 00:15:42,709 ♪ 257 00:15:50,583 --> 00:15:51,618 HENRY: Sam, 258 00:15:51,618 --> 00:15:53,320 you can't outrun him. 259 00:15:55,422 --> 00:15:56,856 You're too slow. 260 00:16:02,362 --> 00:16:05,665 (screaming) 261 00:16:05,665 --> 00:16:08,401 (grunting) 262 00:16:08,401 --> 00:16:11,704 The darkness always wins. 263 00:16:11,704 --> 00:16:14,707 (cries out) 264 00:16:14,707 --> 00:16:17,110 - (crying) - All we can ever do 265 00:16:17,110 --> 00:16:19,579 is... 266 00:16:19,579 --> 00:16:21,748 transcend. 267 00:16:49,409 --> 00:16:51,444 ♪ 268 00:17:19,439 --> 00:17:22,142 ♪ 269 00:17:48,535 --> 00:17:50,503 ♪ 270 00:18:09,021 --> 00:18:11,258 HENRY: Well done, Sam. 271 00:18:12,525 --> 00:18:14,227 Well done. 272 00:18:42,289 --> 00:18:44,391 ♪ 273 00:19:03,943 --> 00:19:06,078 (siren wailing) 274 00:19:19,826 --> 00:19:21,861 (monitors beeping) 275 00:19:48,355 --> 00:19:50,490 (Patrick coughs) 276 00:20:20,019 --> 00:20:22,054 ♪ 277 00:20:23,490 --> 00:20:25,358 (Patrick gasps) 278 00:20:29,128 --> 00:20:30,597 Your IV drip is empty. 279 00:20:30,597 --> 00:20:32,565 When was the last time the nurse checked on you? 280 00:20:32,565 --> 00:20:34,534 (grunts, coughs) 281 00:20:34,534 --> 00:20:35,602 Okay, shh, shh. 282 00:20:37,937 --> 00:20:39,672 (grunts) 283 00:20:45,412 --> 00:20:48,415 Goddamn it. Where is everyone? 284 00:20:50,249 --> 00:20:51,851 - (faucet handle squeaks) - (water running) 285 00:20:51,851 --> 00:20:54,086 I'm bringing you water. 286 00:21:01,260 --> 00:21:03,430 - You got it? - Mm-hmm. 287 00:21:05,598 --> 00:21:07,400 Okay. 288 00:21:07,400 --> 00:21:09,068 There you go. 289 00:21:16,376 --> 00:21:19,879 There you go. 290 00:21:19,879 --> 00:21:21,881 Okay? 291 00:21:30,890 --> 00:21:32,024 Okay. 292 00:21:32,024 --> 00:21:34,427 (kisses) Okay. 293 00:21:34,427 --> 00:21:37,997 I... picked up your meds. 294 00:21:40,199 --> 00:21:41,300 (knock on door) 295 00:21:41,300 --> 00:21:44,404 Mr. Read. 296 00:21:44,404 --> 00:21:45,872 It's about time. 297 00:21:45,872 --> 00:21:47,574 Where the fuck is everybody? 298 00:21:47,574 --> 00:21:50,209 His drip is empty, and when was the last time he was fed? 299 00:21:50,209 --> 00:21:51,310 Can you give us the room, please? 300 00:21:51,310 --> 00:21:52,479 GINO: Anything that you have to say 301 00:21:52,479 --> 00:21:53,946 to him, you can say to me. I'm his lover. 302 00:21:53,946 --> 00:21:55,482 If you're not a relative, then it's against 303 00:21:55,482 --> 00:21:56,716 - the hospital policy... - Oh, come on. 304 00:21:56,716 --> 00:21:58,217 He can stay. Please, he can stay. He can stay. 305 00:21:58,217 --> 00:21:59,218 Fine. 306 00:21:59,218 --> 00:22:00,319 Please sit. 307 00:22:00,319 --> 00:22:02,789 Come sit down. 308 00:22:02,789 --> 00:22:05,057 (sighs) We've, uh, 309 00:22:05,057 --> 00:22:07,293 gotten back your retinal imagining, and 310 00:22:07,293 --> 00:22:09,562 unfortunately the cytomegalovirus has completely 311 00:22:09,562 --> 00:22:13,099 detached both retinas from the backs of your eyes. 312 00:22:13,099 --> 00:22:14,634 So, what-what does that mean? 313 00:22:14,634 --> 00:22:16,002 The blindness is permanent. 314 00:22:17,537 --> 00:22:19,372 But, I mean, can't you operate? 315 00:22:19,372 --> 00:22:20,673 It's a, it's a, it's a 316 00:22:20,673 --> 00:22:23,009 detachment, so you just, you reattach it. 317 00:22:23,009 --> 00:22:26,045 AIDS patients aren't eligible for these kinds of operations. 318 00:22:26,045 --> 00:22:28,280 They're not eligible? 319 00:22:28,280 --> 00:22:29,716 (stammers) Even if he was, 320 00:22:29,716 --> 00:22:31,083 it's a complicated procedure. 321 00:22:31,083 --> 00:22:32,619 You know, this is what you people always say. 322 00:22:32,619 --> 00:22:35,422 It's always too complicated. You're a doctor. 323 00:22:35,422 --> 00:22:36,923 DOCTOR: If you don't have any other questions, 324 00:22:36,923 --> 00:22:38,257 I will leave you two alone. 325 00:22:38,257 --> 00:22:39,526 GINO: Oh, I have plenty of other questions. 326 00:22:39,526 --> 00:22:40,927 When is a cure coming? Why isn't it here yet? 327 00:22:40,927 --> 00:22:42,028 You should be ashamed of yourself. 328 00:22:42,028 --> 00:22:43,463 This is a fucking horror. 329 00:22:43,463 --> 00:22:45,297 (weakly): Gino... 330 00:22:45,297 --> 00:22:47,734 can't you just be here with me? 331 00:22:50,837 --> 00:22:52,271 I'm scared. 332 00:23:00,046 --> 00:23:01,448 You want some applesauce? 333 00:23:01,448 --> 00:23:03,516 I got the good kind, the kind with the cinnamon. 334 00:23:03,516 --> 00:23:04,617 Okay. 335 00:23:04,617 --> 00:23:06,719 - Yeah? - Yeah. 336 00:23:08,688 --> 00:23:10,657 (sighs) 337 00:23:10,657 --> 00:23:12,224 Okay. 338 00:23:12,224 --> 00:23:14,694 (sighs) 339 00:23:14,694 --> 00:23:16,763 Here we go. 340 00:23:16,763 --> 00:23:19,899 Okay. Okay, here we go. Right... 341 00:23:19,899 --> 00:23:22,234 there, right there. 342 00:23:27,339 --> 00:23:29,642 Fuck. 343 00:23:29,642 --> 00:23:31,678 Oh, fuck. 344 00:23:31,678 --> 00:23:34,113 (swallows) Oh, shit. 345 00:23:34,113 --> 00:23:35,648 Ugh... 346 00:23:38,785 --> 00:23:41,420 I want you to sell my life insurance policy. 347 00:23:41,420 --> 00:23:44,256 There's a cash reserve. 348 00:23:44,256 --> 00:23:45,658 It'll pay for my funeral. 349 00:23:45,658 --> 00:23:47,727 Come on, come on, don't talk like that, Patrick. 350 00:23:47,727 --> 00:23:49,361 - This... - No, no, no, no, no, no, come on. 351 00:23:49,361 --> 00:23:52,899 If you don't sell it, it'll just go to my parents. 352 00:23:55,034 --> 00:23:57,937 I don't want that, okay? 353 00:23:57,937 --> 00:24:00,907 I don't want it to go to them. I want it to go to you. 354 00:24:00,907 --> 00:24:02,775 Please. 355 00:24:05,311 --> 00:24:07,747 - Okay. I promise. - Yeah? 356 00:24:07,747 --> 00:24:08,781 Mm-hmm. 357 00:24:08,781 --> 00:24:11,851 I love you so much. 358 00:24:22,829 --> 00:24:25,231 Okay, all right, here. 359 00:24:46,919 --> 00:24:49,589 Uh... help. 360 00:24:49,589 --> 00:24:51,457 (labored breathing) 361 00:24:51,457 --> 00:24:53,092 (coughs) 362 00:24:53,092 --> 00:24:55,194 Help me, please. 363 00:25:03,603 --> 00:25:05,171 (groans) 364 00:25:18,551 --> 00:25:20,152 Shit. 365 00:25:24,290 --> 00:25:26,325 (groaning) 366 00:25:26,325 --> 00:25:28,394 Ow. (grunts) 367 00:25:44,711 --> 00:25:46,879 (grunting) 368 00:25:52,885 --> 00:25:54,921 ♪ 369 00:26:00,860 --> 00:26:01,961 Anybody? 370 00:26:03,229 --> 00:26:05,264 (crying) 371 00:26:17,409 --> 00:26:19,111 (panting) 372 00:26:29,555 --> 00:26:31,590 (grunts) 373 00:26:36,729 --> 00:26:38,030 Hello? 374 00:26:45,071 --> 00:26:46,338 Nurse? 375 00:26:49,541 --> 00:26:50,576 Nurse? 376 00:26:53,312 --> 00:26:54,513 Somebody there? 377 00:26:57,984 --> 00:26:59,285 Hello? 378 00:27:01,120 --> 00:27:02,488 Who's that? Please. 379 00:27:02,488 --> 00:27:04,991 Speak up, please, please. 380 00:27:10,462 --> 00:27:12,932 BARBARA: Open your eyes. 381 00:27:14,300 --> 00:27:15,968 They are open. 382 00:27:17,069 --> 00:27:18,671 Look at me, Patrick. 383 00:27:19,839 --> 00:27:21,974 (quietly): I can't, I can't... 384 00:27:27,579 --> 00:27:29,615 ♪ 385 00:27:35,487 --> 00:27:36,989 I can see. 386 00:27:39,625 --> 00:27:41,160 I can see. 387 00:27:41,160 --> 00:27:44,931 I can s-see... I can see you. 388 00:27:44,931 --> 00:27:46,198 I can see. 389 00:27:48,334 --> 00:27:51,203 You cried when you saw me in this. 390 00:27:56,275 --> 00:27:58,344 (sobbing) 391 00:27:58,344 --> 00:28:00,612 Are you here to punish me? 392 00:28:00,612 --> 00:28:01,881 No. 393 00:28:03,716 --> 00:28:05,952 Sweetheart... 394 00:28:07,019 --> 00:28:09,255 There's nothing left of you to punish. 395 00:28:10,222 --> 00:28:12,358 I'm here to help you see. 396 00:28:32,144 --> 00:28:34,180 ♪ 397 00:28:43,055 --> 00:28:45,157 (siren wailing) 398 00:28:48,360 --> 00:28:50,329 ♪ 399 00:28:50,329 --> 00:28:52,531 BARBARA: Do you remember this? 400 00:28:54,700 --> 00:28:57,303 GINO: Hey. Downtown Native. 401 00:28:57,303 --> 00:28:58,537 You gonna tell me what happened here, 402 00:28:58,537 --> 00:28:59,972 or am I gonna have to figure it out myself? 403 00:28:59,972 --> 00:29:02,008 Okay, do me a favor and mind the line. 404 00:29:02,008 --> 00:29:03,375 All right, all right, all right, all right. 405 00:29:03,375 --> 00:29:04,777 - I'll mind it. - Gino. 406 00:29:04,777 --> 00:29:08,280 The day after Halloween, 1980. 407 00:29:08,280 --> 00:29:10,917 It was the day you two first met. 408 00:29:10,917 --> 00:29:14,353 We were still married, but you were unhappy. 409 00:29:14,353 --> 00:29:16,255 All right, now your turn, what's the story? 410 00:29:16,255 --> 00:29:18,057 Okay, saucebox. 411 00:29:18,057 --> 00:29:20,960 The story is, the kid fell from the fire escape. 412 00:29:21,928 --> 00:29:23,695 Oh, that explains the mess. 413 00:29:23,695 --> 00:29:26,232 PATRICK: He threw himself out the window high on PCP. 414 00:29:26,232 --> 00:29:28,000 GINO: An angel on angel dust. 415 00:29:28,000 --> 00:29:30,602 - Right. - There's got to be another way out. 416 00:29:30,602 --> 00:29:32,872 People like us. 417 00:29:32,872 --> 00:29:35,207 We just need someplace to go, right? 418 00:29:36,742 --> 00:29:37,910 How do you mean? 419 00:29:37,910 --> 00:29:40,179 Somewhere to go. Do you want to...? 420 00:29:40,179 --> 00:29:42,648 What? Do I, do I, do I want to what? 421 00:29:42,648 --> 00:29:44,583 There was something about his swagger. 422 00:29:52,358 --> 00:29:54,293 I'm Gino. 423 00:29:54,293 --> 00:29:56,728 Don't keep me flapping too long. 424 00:30:03,903 --> 00:30:05,938 ♪ 425 00:30:09,942 --> 00:30:12,411 BARBARA: August 1977... 426 00:30:12,411 --> 00:30:14,914 There was a holdup at a bodega 427 00:30:14,914 --> 00:30:16,582 and your partner shot the suspect. 428 00:30:16,582 --> 00:30:18,417 (grunting) 429 00:30:18,417 --> 00:30:19,418 Here we go, here you go. 430 00:30:19,418 --> 00:30:21,120 (panting) 431 00:30:21,120 --> 00:30:23,022 He was gonna shoot first, right? 432 00:30:23,022 --> 00:30:25,491 - Right, Patrick? - Right. 433 00:30:25,491 --> 00:30:27,693 You did the right thing, Steve. 434 00:30:27,693 --> 00:30:29,896 We'll take the report later. Go get him cleaned up. 435 00:30:29,896 --> 00:30:31,931 - PATRICK: Yes, sir. - STEVE: Oh, God. 436 00:30:31,931 --> 00:30:33,065 Oh, God. 437 00:30:33,065 --> 00:30:35,067 Come on, it's okay, come on. 438 00:30:38,570 --> 00:30:40,506 BARBARA: Steve shouldn't have pulled his trigger. 439 00:30:40,506 --> 00:30:42,474 You had things under control. 440 00:30:42,474 --> 00:30:44,110 STEVE: What have I done? 441 00:30:44,110 --> 00:30:46,612 Now there was blood on your hands. 442 00:30:46,612 --> 00:30:48,247 You know what? I'd... 443 00:30:48,247 --> 00:30:51,117 I'd have done exactly the same thing, buddy. 444 00:30:51,117 --> 00:30:52,451 Really. 445 00:30:52,451 --> 00:30:54,753 BARBARA: A lie. 446 00:30:54,753 --> 00:30:57,756 But you already knew how shame could break a young man. 447 00:30:57,756 --> 00:30:59,425 You got a, uh... 448 00:30:59,425 --> 00:31:02,461 Behind your ear... 449 00:31:03,829 --> 00:31:06,065 (muttering) 450 00:31:11,370 --> 00:31:12,905 Come here, come here. 451 00:31:15,307 --> 00:31:16,575 Okay? 452 00:31:16,575 --> 00:31:18,410 BARBARA: You could be so tender 453 00:31:18,410 --> 00:31:20,379 when you let yourself be, Patrick. 454 00:31:22,982 --> 00:31:25,017 ♪ 455 00:31:47,473 --> 00:31:48,941 What the hell? 456 00:31:48,941 --> 00:31:50,709 BARBARA: It was either you or him. 457 00:31:50,709 --> 00:31:52,878 More blood down the drain... 458 00:31:52,878 --> 00:31:54,346 PATRICK: Fuck away from me, faggot! 459 00:31:54,346 --> 00:31:56,148 MULCAHEY: What the fuck is going on in there? 460 00:31:56,148 --> 00:31:58,951 He just, uh, he came onto me. He was kissing my fucking face! 461 00:31:58,951 --> 00:32:01,087 Get out of here, Read. Go! 462 00:32:02,854 --> 00:32:05,024 It was a violent lie. 463 00:32:05,024 --> 00:32:07,193 One that wounded you both. 464 00:32:10,062 --> 00:32:12,898 The shame. The lies. The violence. 465 00:32:12,898 --> 00:32:14,166 (water shuts off) 466 00:32:14,166 --> 00:32:15,834 It's a cycle, Patrick. 467 00:32:15,834 --> 00:32:17,736 MULCAHEY: Get the fuck out. 468 00:32:18,870 --> 00:32:20,306 BARBARA: You didn't start it, 469 00:32:20,306 --> 00:32:23,875 but that didn't stop it from breaking you into pieces. 470 00:32:24,843 --> 00:32:27,546 (whirring) 471 00:32:38,324 --> 00:32:39,958 PATRICK: Oh, God. 472 00:32:39,958 --> 00:32:41,760 (groans) 473 00:32:43,529 --> 00:32:45,031 I can't do it. 474 00:32:45,031 --> 00:32:47,266 WHITELY: Almost. You're close. 475 00:32:48,534 --> 00:32:50,602 Just make the parts fit. 476 00:32:50,602 --> 00:32:52,271 I don't want to. 477 00:32:53,539 --> 00:32:54,773 Neither did I. 478 00:32:54,773 --> 00:32:57,509 But I did it to help people. 479 00:32:57,509 --> 00:32:59,011 To help people like me. 480 00:32:59,011 --> 00:33:01,047 People who needed my help because no one else would. 481 00:33:01,047 --> 00:33:04,583 But it's so... ugly. 482 00:33:04,583 --> 00:33:06,685 Oh, here we go. 483 00:33:06,685 --> 00:33:08,520 So what? 484 00:33:08,520 --> 00:33:10,822 The scars are not attractive? 485 00:33:10,822 --> 00:33:13,025 Maybe you could cover them up, then. 486 00:33:13,025 --> 00:33:14,560 You'll be all right. 487 00:33:14,560 --> 00:33:16,595 Hide them under a uniform. 488 00:33:16,595 --> 00:33:18,930 ♪ 489 00:33:18,930 --> 00:33:20,466 Put on the head. 490 00:33:24,103 --> 00:33:25,204 Ugh. Never mind. 491 00:33:25,204 --> 00:33:26,872 I'll do it myself. 492 00:33:35,247 --> 00:33:37,283 ♪ 493 00:33:42,421 --> 00:33:44,990 This is you, Patrick. 494 00:33:44,990 --> 00:33:46,092 You were botched up, 495 00:33:46,092 --> 00:33:48,127 just a mess of a person 496 00:33:48,127 --> 00:33:51,029 throwing yourself down all those escape hatches. 497 00:33:51,863 --> 00:33:54,466 You gathered up all those pieces 498 00:33:54,466 --> 00:33:58,470 and put yourself back together over and over again. 499 00:33:58,470 --> 00:34:00,806 Why did you keep doing that? 500 00:34:02,040 --> 00:34:03,809 Did it make it stop? 501 00:34:04,943 --> 00:34:06,512 What? 502 00:34:06,512 --> 00:34:08,914 That pain. 503 00:34:10,216 --> 00:34:13,352 The pain that made you tear yourself up in the first place. 504 00:34:13,352 --> 00:34:15,887 Your body will keep reminding you of it 505 00:34:15,887 --> 00:34:17,323 until you face that. 506 00:34:17,323 --> 00:34:19,291 Face what? 507 00:34:20,359 --> 00:34:23,162 This, son, is a snub-nosed revolver. 508 00:34:23,162 --> 00:34:25,131 Easy to handle. 509 00:34:25,131 --> 00:34:26,632 Powerful for its size. 510 00:34:26,632 --> 00:34:28,100 Plenty of people met God... 511 00:34:28,100 --> 00:34:29,835 PATRICK: I really don't want to be here. 512 00:34:29,835 --> 00:34:32,504 You need to face this moment. 513 00:34:32,504 --> 00:34:34,106 - I remember what happens. - (gunshot) 514 00:34:36,708 --> 00:34:39,778 Now... your turn. 515 00:34:39,778 --> 00:34:41,247 Show me your stance, son. 516 00:34:42,248 --> 00:34:44,082 Good. Get the target in sight. 517 00:34:44,082 --> 00:34:47,319 Hold steady, then shoot. 518 00:34:58,264 --> 00:35:00,366 You're not hitting the target 519 00:35:00,366 --> 00:35:01,867 because your grip isn't firm enough. 520 00:35:01,867 --> 00:35:03,202 Huh, you what they call that? 521 00:35:03,202 --> 00:35:05,404 - Limp wristing. - Yes, sir. 522 00:35:09,341 --> 00:35:11,243 (can clatters) 523 00:35:14,380 --> 00:35:17,183 So, how about it? Are you a limp wrist? 524 00:35:17,183 --> 00:35:19,251 - No, sir. - Then prove it. 525 00:35:19,251 --> 00:35:20,452 Don't you want to wear a badge 526 00:35:20,452 --> 00:35:22,454 like your old man and your grandpa, huh? 527 00:35:22,454 --> 00:35:24,456 Make us proud. 528 00:35:30,196 --> 00:35:31,763 Steady your aim 529 00:35:31,763 --> 00:35:34,132 and hit the goddamn target this time. 530 00:35:37,035 --> 00:35:39,004 Come on. 531 00:35:42,073 --> 00:35:44,810 Goddamn it! 532 00:35:44,810 --> 00:35:47,179 Your sissy little limp wrist is gonna get us killed! 533 00:35:48,980 --> 00:35:50,382 Goddamn it. 534 00:35:52,584 --> 00:35:55,053 I didn't know if he was reloading for the target 535 00:35:55,053 --> 00:35:56,655 or for me. 536 00:35:58,123 --> 00:35:59,525 I can do it. 537 00:35:59,525 --> 00:36:01,893 Do what? Huh? This? 538 00:36:01,893 --> 00:36:04,763 - (high-pitched ringing) - And this? And this? 539 00:36:05,797 --> 00:36:06,898 And this? 540 00:36:06,898 --> 00:36:09,435 (muffled): You can't even handle the sound. 541 00:36:09,435 --> 00:36:11,403 Think we had earmuffs on Okinawa? 542 00:36:11,403 --> 00:36:13,639 Huh, cover our ears like little girls? 543 00:36:13,639 --> 00:36:16,375 Had to fire and fight because it was kill or be killed. 544 00:36:16,375 --> 00:36:18,009 We're done. 545 00:36:20,145 --> 00:36:22,180 (thunder rumbling) 546 00:36:39,931 --> 00:36:42,334 It's worse than I remember. 547 00:36:44,002 --> 00:36:46,104 (monitor beeping steadily) 548 00:36:47,105 --> 00:36:49,575 (labored breathing) 549 00:37:04,790 --> 00:37:06,124 Gino. 550 00:37:06,124 --> 00:37:07,793 Hmm? 551 00:37:07,793 --> 00:37:10,696 (weakly): I'm glad you're here. 552 00:37:10,696 --> 00:37:13,532 I wouldn't want to be anywhere else. 553 00:37:18,069 --> 00:37:20,005 I'm sorry. 554 00:37:20,005 --> 00:37:22,508 - No. - I'm so sorry. 555 00:37:22,508 --> 00:37:24,576 No, no, no, no, no, no. 556 00:37:24,576 --> 00:37:27,579 You don't have anything to be sorry about. 557 00:37:34,353 --> 00:37:36,922 I don't know... 558 00:37:36,922 --> 00:37:38,857 what's real. 559 00:37:38,857 --> 00:37:40,459 I know. 560 00:37:41,927 --> 00:37:43,729 It's the sickness, baby. 561 00:37:43,729 --> 00:37:45,697 It's okay, I got you. 562 00:37:45,697 --> 00:37:47,599 (groaning) 563 00:37:48,567 --> 00:37:50,936 Okay, I got you. 564 00:37:50,936 --> 00:37:52,738 It's okay. 565 00:37:52,738 --> 00:37:54,806 ♪ 566 00:38:04,650 --> 00:38:09,788 Ooh... ♪ 567 00:38:11,723 --> 00:38:15,661 Ooh... ♪ 568 00:38:15,661 --> 00:38:17,929 GINO: I'm here. I'm here. 569 00:38:17,929 --> 00:38:20,732 I've got you. I've got you. 570 00:38:20,732 --> 00:38:23,502 (shushing) 571 00:38:26,137 --> 00:38:28,640 A desert road ♪ 572 00:38:28,640 --> 00:38:32,478 From Vegas to nowhere ♪ 573 00:38:32,478 --> 00:38:35,280 Someplace better ♪ 574 00:38:35,280 --> 00:38:39,418 Than where you've been ♪ 575 00:38:39,418 --> 00:38:42,721 A coffee machine ♪ 576 00:38:42,721 --> 00:38:46,525 That needs some fixing ♪ 577 00:38:46,525 --> 00:38:52,631 ♪ In a little café just around the bend ♪ 578 00:38:52,631 --> 00:38:59,605 I am ♪ 579 00:38:59,605 --> 00:39:06,445 Calling you ♪ 580 00:39:06,445 --> 00:39:13,118 I am ♪ 581 00:39:13,118 --> 00:39:19,825 Calling you ♪ 582 00:39:19,825 --> 00:39:26,231 ♪ A hot, dry wind blows right through me ♪ 583 00:39:27,566 --> 00:39:29,868 The baby's crying ♪ 584 00:39:29,868 --> 00:39:33,939 And I can't sleep ♪ 585 00:39:33,939 --> 00:39:39,377 ♪ But we both know a change is coming ♪ 586 00:39:39,377 --> 00:39:43,549 Coming closer, sweet release ♪ 587 00:39:43,549 --> 00:39:45,951 (Patrick groaning loudly) 588 00:39:45,951 --> 00:39:52,491 I am ♪ 589 00:39:52,491 --> 00:39:58,597 Calling you ♪ 590 00:39:58,597 --> 00:40:05,471 I am ♪ 591 00:40:05,471 --> 00:40:12,511 Calling you ♪ 592 00:40:13,779 --> 00:40:16,314 (rapid beeping) 593 00:40:16,314 --> 00:40:18,383 (flatlining tone) 594 00:40:21,553 --> 00:40:23,589 ♪ 595 00:40:37,903 --> 00:40:44,610 I am ♪ 596 00:40:44,610 --> 00:40:51,282 Calling you ♪ 597 00:40:51,282 --> 00:40:57,623 Ooh ♪ 598 00:40:57,623 --> 00:41:04,630 Mmm ♪ 599 00:41:06,397 --> 00:41:09,234 I know you hear me ♪ 600 00:41:13,204 --> 00:41:15,373 I know you hear me. ♪