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Haven't you always wanted me
to be open to the unexplainable?

Farid, I don't know.

It's all just starting
to look a little manic.

You're perceptive.

Do you pick up on anything
about me?

WOMAN: You need to destroy
the thing in front of you.

You ready for what's coming?

Hey, what the fuck
are you doing?

-Oh, fuck!
-Stop!

Breathe a word
and this pic goes viral.

KRISTEN BAYER-BOATWRIGHT:
We have to destroy Madison

and her fucktard she-goblins.

Do you remember that night
you and I went for beers?

I could've gone home with you
that night, couldn't I?

You okay?

DUC BAYER-BOATWRIGHT: I'm fine.

MAZ NURI: So what do you say?
I'll stop by the office?

Ramon.

Stop!

Stop!

You dreamed my mother.

And I think I dreamt
your birth mother.

Can you go now?

-This is very important for--
-Oh, my God, just get out!

Look, I'm serious,

I don't ever want to see
this guy ever again, okay?

Look, I don't care
what you say, all right?
I'm going home.

Sweetie, stay here.

We'll figure
it all out together.

You are reliving your thing
with Uncle Ike, all right?

This is different.
I am different, all right?

There's clear evidence
that I have porous mind

and I pick up messages.
What I have to do is...

figure out what they mean!
Dr. Shokrani used
the word "psychosis."

Some of the things
that I have seen

have turned out
to be real, okay?

I'm your son, Mom.
Why do you listen
to him and not me?

The doctor is very concerned
that you might feel that you--

The doctor sees
his life in my game.

Of course he's gonna
wanna keep treating me.

He's not what you think
he is, all right?

So fuck him and fuck
his fucking pills, Mom.

You can't just
quit the medication.
You have to taper off.

Well, then I'll taper off,
but I'm done!

Are we fucking clear?

You shouldn't be alone.
At least call Ashley or Duc.

No! And nobody
call me, email me,
or text me, all right?

Just don't
fucking bother me!

♪ ♪

Yup, you're having
a flare-up.

I know that. Fix it.

Oh. Wait, you giants
of modern medicine
still have no cure.

You can make the blind see
and the deaf hear,

and you can't help me
stop shitting?

It's just colitis.

Yes, you have
a chronic condition,
but, hey, it's treatable,

it's intermittent,
it's not terminal.
You're lucky.

You managing your stress?

I wasn't stressed
till I started shitting.

Oh. Hang on. Duc.

It's simple:

When you have symptoms,
you power down for a while.

No. I refuse to let
this stupid disease

keep me from achieving
what I want to achieve.

Okay. Meds:
prednisone, Asacol.

Nine massive pills
every day...

Mm-hmm.
...for the rest of my life.

Right.
It's not fair.

Put your pants on,
get outta here.

You're good. Next!

Ashley: Hey.
Oh. I thought
you might be Ramon.

What's going on?
He refuses
to stay with us.

So... irresponsible.

We weren't expecting you.
Is everything okay?

Everything's great.

Uh...

Peace offering.
Oh, Ashley.

You didn't have to.

Yeah, I did.
You're the only mom I have,

even if you are
a white supremacist.

What's this?

Open it.

Mmm.

Wow.
You may not choose them
for yourself, but--

Are you kidding?

These are spectacular!

Here, let me...

Hang on.
I got it. I got it.

I know you wanted me
to be a social worker,

and you were
super disappointed,
but, you know...

a social worker
wouldn't get you these.

You still think
I look down on you
for what you do?

It's not true.

That's ancient history,

and I'm so proud of you.

Thanks, Mom.

These are
the most uncomfortable
shoes I've ever had.

Mm-hmm.

I love them.

You look fantastic.

Do I have a place
to wear them

Fuck it. Wear them
to Whole Foods.

♪ ♪

(people shout
in foreign language)

Hello.
Audrey :
Dr. Shokrani.

This is Audrey Bayer.

What's wrong?
Is

Audrey:
I don't know.
He left.

Can we meet today?
Are you available
at one o'clock?

Yeah, of course.

Any luck?

I got--
I got sidetracked.

You kept my postcards...

and concert tickets.

We should probably
throw them out, I guess.

Prince at the Warfield.
Remember?

I remember everything.

Those are sexy.

Greg.

Don't.
Seriously?
I can't compliment you?

We know everything
in the adoption file by heart.

Let me see.
There must be
a sentence...

something, a detail
from the, uh, orphanage,

Saint Laura's.

I can't find anything.

It's weird, you know?

We couldn't even get
them on the phone.

We didn't have
time to talk.

We had to get him
out of there.

Malnutrition, dysentery...

skin infection,
his eyes were full of gunk.

Yeah, but... it's weird.

This is pointless.

Probably, but--
If Ramon's not here,

there's no reason
for you to stay.

I'm gonna keep looking.

Do what you want.

You're a free man.

Can you be
any more self

Ramon:
Hey.

Hey, I heard
it happened again.

Can't anyone
in this family just
leave me alone, man?

Nothing's private. I mean,
one second and everybody
fucking knows everything.

Oh, yeah, it's so hard
when people care about you.

Don't be an asshole.

Speaking of assholes,
how's yours?

Yeah. Boom.
I heard.

You little fucker.

I told them
not to adopt you.

Mom still thinks I'm Ike.

They just
won't accept that what
I see is real sometimes.

Man, I had to get
the fuck outta there.

Well, what are you gonna do?
Do you have a plan?

Kind of. I'm gonna
go see Carmen.

My Carmen?
Ramon:
Oh, ooh.

Your Carmen?

Ah. Ducy,
you like her?

What are you
going to her for?
I can help you.

A reading.
What do you think?

It's always
a competition
with you.

Dude, I'm fucking gay.

Man:
Ramon, your order's ready.

Hey, um, my hot dog's ready.
I'll call you later. I gotta go.

Hey. Okay, yeah.
Don't do anything
that makes me look bad.

Pathetic.

Ramon:
So, um, should I tell you
why I called you?

No, let's just see
what I get first.

Okay.
Can I hold
your hands?

Oh!
What

I'm kidding.
Intuitive humor.

Funny. Funny.

Gimme--
gimme your hands.
Come on.

♪ ♪

You caught that?
The little buzz? Yeah.

That's interesting.

Yeah, I feel fire.

There's energy boiling
around you.

Fire and... dreams.
Does that make sense?

Yeah, that's exactly
what I wanted to tell you.

The fire
could be literal fire,

but it also feels like...
creative fire

and it's connected
with big changes.

Do you know what I mean
when I say "creative fire"?

Maybe my
Is that it?

Maybe, but I mean
that creation which is
also destruction.

When things have
to be destroyed

so that they can make way
for something new,

like-- like a cocoon.

Don't fight it.

What's happening
has to happen.

I certainly
can't make it stop.

Tell me about your...

near-death experience.

What?

Um, I never had one.
Are you sure?

Look back, because I feel--
I feel strongly

that you crossed over
and came back.

If I did, I-- I don't...

know anything about it.

You are connected to some
major energetic forces.

It runs in your family...

your family of origin,
and... this goes back...

way back in time.
To Colombia.

When you have these dreams,
are you awake?

Yeah.

Yeah.

Carmen:
Yeah.

This meeting must remain
strictly confidential.

My license
could get revoked.

Of course.
No one knows I'm here.

What-- whatever
information you can share.

I'm willing
to take the risk,

because I have tremendous
affection for your son.

I think Ramon's
an extraordinary being.

I agree.

So... let's stop
these hallucinations.

Should we?

It's possible
that his visions...

Visions?
...may contain keys

to unlocking
repressed trauma.

From... his childhood?

Or from his infancy.

I also believe Ramon may have
what some call "porous mind."

So he said.
What is that?

It's the ability
to share information

without being necessarily...

Dr. Shokrani?

♪ ♪

Look.

11:11.

Second time today.

Ramon would probably
interpret that as a message
from the universe.

You see it that way too?

I definitely see it
as more than a coincidence.

Mm-hmm.
Don't you?

It's so obvious.

I'm not sure
we'll ever agree
about that.

We won't be needing
your services any further.

Excuse me?

Ramon has only gotten worse
since he's been seeing you.

I don't believe
you can help my son.

Something is speaking
directly to him...
and to me.

Dr. Shokrani,
You're not well.

No, Ms. Bayer,
you're choosing
to be blind,

and Ramon's
the one who will pay.

I suggest you seek help.

Please stay away from Ramon.

Thank you so much.

Woman
Is she
Karina: That's Ashley.

Great. Can I speak
with her?
Sure.

Um, Ashley, this is
Sharon Chen.
Mm

She wanted to meet you.
Do you have a minute?

Yeah, of course.
Okay.

Ashley Collins.
I'm in love
with your boutique.

Oh.
I'm in love with your jacket.

Oh. Thank you. It was--
it was a sample sale.

Could I ask you
some questions
about your business?

Sure. Yeah.
Is it the storefront

that generates
most of your profit here?

No, it's mostly
a showcase.

The real action happens
on the web site.

Oh. So you have a--
you have a strong
Internet presence?

We do. We get
to know our customers,

help them with styling
and personal shopping.

That's the fun part.

You say, "We,"
but isn't it you?

Do you do all
of this yourself?

Well, Karina is
a big help, but yes,

mostly me.
It's very impressive.

Um, are you--
Excuse me.

Sir, what are you doing?
Oh, it's okay.

You'll like this.
Black Lives Matter.

I appreciate that,
but no thank you.

I'm doing this
for you. Why--
No thank you.

Do you have a problem
with being black? It's okay.

I-- I just-- I have
a problem with people--

sir. Sir, I'm not cool
with you walking

into private property
and posting things
without permission,

but I do appreciate
your support.

I'm standing
with your people.

What kind of bullshit
self

You need
to leave now.
Careful.

You make me sick
to my stomach.

I need--
Get out, now.

Race traitor!

We got a race traitor
here, everybody!

Yeah, I'm gonna make sure
everybody knows about it too.

You disgust me.

Read it.

Ramon:
The waking dreams...

are they a real thing?

Do they happen
to other people?

Oh, yeah.
It's documented
by Aristotle,

but with you,
I feel your dreams
have purpose.

You have a purpose.

You're seeing some
sort of truth or messages
in these symbols, right?

Everybody's symbology
is different,

so what do the symbols
mean to you?

I don't know.

I almost know,
and then they just...
slip away.

Yeah, 'cause your head's
full of shit.

Thank you.

I can't read
a clear thought from you,

and I'm usually
pretty good at that.

You meditate?

No.
No, no, no, no.

Mmm. Try.

It'll help you
listen to yourself

and... to whatever's
coming in.

Okay.

The answers are in you,
Ramon. You're it.

You can figure
them out.

I will.

Greg :
Hey, buddy.
Yeah?

I'm making salmon cakes.
Come over for dinner tonight.

Too busy.
Thanks, but no.

We're talking about an hour.
You don't have an hour
to come hang with us?

Nope. Sorry.

Client's here.
Gotta go.

Those are some shoes.

A gift
from my daughter.

You're beautiful.

Oh stop.

Do I have to?

Is there something...?

Oh. Yeah. Big news.

You heard
from the governor?

He signed off. We're out
to 10 more school districts.

Already?

Isn't that premature?

We should test
on a small scale first.

This is small scale.
Steve.

Audrey. Look, I love
the Empathy Initiative.

It's such a beautiful thing.
It's the right project
at the right time,

and we need
to get it out there

for you and for everybody
as soon as we can.

We need this.

I'm very grateful
that you brought it here.

You don't have
to flatter me.

No, I'm not flattering you.

You always think
I'm trying to flatter you.

You still don't see
how big this can be, do you?

I do see, but if there
are problems anywhere,

we should take care
of them first.

We find the problems
through implementation, okay?

The more we explore,
the better.

Refine as we go.

Seems kind of backwards...

but I get your point.
Do you get my point?

I do, I do.
We'll go through this
with a fine-tooth comb,

before it goes
any further.
Thank you.

You're welcome.

This is fun.
Steven: Yeah.

Sassy.

♪ ♪

♪ There's a song arising ♪

♪ Just you wait and see ♪

♪ Won't you take my hand and ♪

♪ Shake the world with me? ♪

It's Duc.

It's Duc. Is--

Carmen: Hello?
Carmen.

Hey... it's Duc!

Bayer-Boatwright.
Carmen: Duc!

What's going on?

Oh, nothing.
You didn't sense
I would call?

Mmm. Heckling the intuitive?

Aren't we past that?

Duc:
Uh, wait, no, no, sorry.

I don't know why that just
fell out of my mouth.

Um... sorry.

What are you doing?

Oh, I'm just...
bookkeeping.

So thrilling.

What are you doing?

I'm just wondering

if you felt like...

doing something,
maybe going somewhere...

with me, of course.

That sounds pretty general.

Sorry, I--
I can be specific.

Um...

Hike this afternoon?

Unless you don't like hikes,

or afternoons,
or this afternoon is bad.

Carmen:
Yes, hike.

Yes, this afternoon.

Yes, you.

Wanna pick me up?

Um, yes!

Uh, yeah,
I don't want you
to pick me up.

I'm good at picking up.

Uh, I drive a Tesla.

Carmen:
Congratulations.

Um, okay. Uh, all right.
I'll pick you up.

Okay. All right.
Carmen:
Three o'clock?

Okay. Okay, bye.

Ahem.
I'm a fucking genius.

Tell me.

Kristen:
Do you know
what silver nitrate

and sun exposure
does to the skin?

♪ It's time to hear you,
taking you on... ♪

Ramon:
Dad.

Greg: Hey.
What?

I, uh, was
at New Seasons.

I picked up
a few things for you.

Oh, man, that is so cool.
Thanks, Dad.

All right, bye.
Wait, wait, wait, wait.

You wanna
come over for dinner
at the house tonight?

I'm cooking.
I can't. I'm busy.
Yeah, but thanks, Dad.

All right? Okay, bye.
Oh, hold on, hold on.

Look what I found
in the basement.

One of your flipbooks.

Remember your
flipbook phase?

Ramon: Yeah.
Greg: You were,
like, eight or nine.

Pretty cool, huh?

Thanks, Dad.

Come on,
come over for dinner.

I-- I-- I can't, Dad.

I'm actually busy,
but, um...

Hey.

Um, I didn't--

I didn't realize
you were entertaining.

Yeah, I kind
of told you so.

All right. Bye, Dad.

Duc:
Hey, you're good at this.

Carmen: Oh, you thought
I was a fragile flower?

No, we're from Portland, dude.
This is what we do.

We hike.
Bike. Yeah, we ski.

We kayak.
We climb rocks.

Uh... water break.
I know this trail
like the back--

Oh. You feel okay?

Of course.

So, you're seeing Ramon?

Am I?

He's my brother.

Do you talk
about your clients?

No, so he is one
of your clients.

I can't remember.

Hey. You don't feel okay.
No, it's-- it's nothing.

It's nothing.
It's just-- Excuse me.
I-- Hey.

We can go back.
No, no, no, no!

Aah...

Okay, so you map out
the escape route,

and I'll lock down
the silver nitrate solution.

Uh, I think it should be
the other way around.

It's my idea.
It's my swastika.

I don't know how
to read maps.

Look, you better not
get this wrong.

I don't want
to go to jail.
I've been.

It's really not that bad.

You know,
there are hundreds
of millions of neurons

connecting the brain
to the digestive system.

Yeah?
Mm-hmm,

but in Japan,
the belly, the hara,

is considered
the seat of the soul...

and it's... the source

of all of our spiritual
and physical power.

Uh-huh.

Duc, we're human.
We have bodily functions.
It's nothing.

Easy for you to say.

You're not
the one with your ass
in the undergrowth.

While you were pooping,
I farted.

Does that help?

Yes, a little.

Do you honestly think

I think less of you
because of your intestines?

I don't know.
Ah, I don't know.

I don't know what
you think of me.

You make me nervous.

I-- I spaz out around you
like a high-school freshman.

I mean, don't you see it?
Can't you sense it?

I'm not-- that wasn't
a lame psychic joke.

It was--
Okay, look.

Don't you know
why I'm here?

Maybe you feel
sorry for me.

No! Duc...

Okay, I think you are...

physically...

beautiful.

I think
you're very interesting

with a million moving parts
and contradictions, and...

I was so happy
when you called, because...

I would get
to know you better.

Um...

Okay, your turn.

Oh, motherfucker.

Uh...

Watch out!
There's a drop-off.

What
Oh! Oh!

Jesus.
Duc, are you okay?

Yeah.

Okay, I've got rope.
I'm gonna tie it off
and you can climb up.

I-- I can't. My foot.
Ah. Son of a bitch.

Hang on. I got a signal
a few miles back.

I'm gonna
go get help, okay?

Okay.

Aah!

You again? This is
the fifth time today.

You're like a magnet.

You keep pulling me in.

It's all
in your head.

Mmm. Not my head.

That's...

What?

Stop laughing at me.

I'm-- I'm laughing at us.

Dinner. Tonight.

My place.

Yes.

Are you
coming with him?
Carmen: Of course.

Duc: No.
Are you fucking
kidding me?

Take my keys
and drive my car back.

Malcolm will come
pick it up.
No, we'll get it later.

Carmen, please.
This is ridiculous.

You're pissing me off.
Sorry.

I'll meet you
at the hospital
and take you home.

No, I'm good.
Thanks, anyway.

Will you stop?

Time to go.

Duc, don't do this.

Woman:
We're en route now, ETA...

Alterna
Yeah.

What? Mom makes up
rituals, so can I.

I think
it's very creative.
Thank you.

Ashley:
And we're celebrating...?
Moi.

The one you left behind.

Kristen, we see you
all the time.

Yeah, but you don't
see me, see me.

Look, all you
have to do is just show up
and say something nice.

Is that so much to ask?

You've reached Audrey.
Leave a message.

Audrey, I made
family dinner.

Um, we're waiting for you,

but it's getting cold,
so we're gonna eat.

You should call me back.

Hey, we'll clean
that up later.
You will.

Why

Well, yeah.

This is not
a business deal.

This dinner is a gift
from me to you.

You don't have to do
anything in return.

Score!
I know
I don't have to.

I want to...

as my gift
from me to you.

There's too many transactions
in relationships.

"I'll do this for you
if you do this for me.

If you cook, I'll clean."
It's just so fucking Western.

Listen, this meal is
a token of love.

You don't owe me
anything for it.

I swear I know
I don't owe you.

Tell you
what you can do.

Ashley: What?
Talk to me.

How was your day?
Hmm.

Uh... well, oh shit.

Today, um...

I found myself
at the crossroads
of American weirdness.

A flaming white liberal

attacked me
in my own store...

for turning down
a "Black Lives Matter" sign.

We're all doomed.

Seriously.
Mmm. Maybe not.

Ashley:
What the hell kind of future
will Hailey have?

Keeps me up at night.

Yeah, no.
No babies for me.

I will not bring
a kid into a world
this fucked up.

Well, you know...

the world has always lived
on the point of extinction.

Safety has always been
an illusion.

All right.
My parents grew up
during World War II.

They lived through it.
80 million people died.

Two million died in Vietnam,
and your mom and I
lived through that.

It felt like
the whole world
was exploding.

There were riots
in the street,

bombings,
lies from our government.

Yeah, but it's not
the same.

I mean,
it's way worse now
that it's ever been.

Maybe.
Yeah. It's not an academic
abstraction, Dad.

I completely agree.
It's isn't abstract
or academic.

It is real.
Mm-hmm.

But it's history.
It's the way life is.

Periodically, the human race
faces absolute disaster--

medically, politically,
environmentally.

Unfortunately for us...

I believe we are living
in one of those periods.

So, what the fuck are we
supposed to do about it?
I don't know.

I've been struggling
with that myself.
I don't know.

I suppose we...
just keep going.

We, uh...

We try to be good
to each other.

We have a little hope.
Have dinner with Dad.

Yeah.
Ugh.

Optimism.
I can't do it.

Well, it's either that or...

spiritual death
and armed insurrection.

Cheers.

Come on, Farid.

You love Lebanese food.

For two hours,
can we just enjoy
our lives

Not gonna kill you.

Smile.

Bunny rabbit.

Hi. We have a reservation.
Shokrani, for two.

Excellent.

I hate to ask,
Mrs. Shokrani,

but would you consider
removing your scarf?

Huh?

It's for everyone's safety.

Farid.
Her scarf has nothing
to do with anyone's safety.

There was an incident.

I'm very sorry,
but we just want
to make sure

all our guests are
relaxed and comfortable.

Oh, including racists.

No. It's okay.

No, it's not okay.

This is bullshit.

This is
bullshit intolerance.

Please, sir.
I'm leaving.

This is fucking cowardice.

Cowardice!

♪ ♪

What the hell
is wrong with you?

What, do you expect me
to put up with this
self

He's just trying
to protect his business.

Is this the person
you wanna be,

a woman who
takes off her beliefs
the minute they ask her to?

This isn't about me
or my beliefs.

You... explode
at the smallest thing.

Hey, do you think
this was small?

I was scared
when you put
your hands on me.

Don't be absurd.
I was scared for me,

and I was scared
for you, Farid.

If you saw this behavior
in one of your patients,

what would you say?
I'd say,
"Hand this guy a medal."

No, you would up
his medication.

♪ ♪

Audrey:
You know what
I like about you?

Everything, I hope.

Mmm.

You're not scared of me.

Steven:
You know what
I like about you?

You're scary.

♪ ♪

Steven:
Mmm!

You're too far away.

So she threw him out?
I think so,
for the night.

There was,
like, a huge fight,
a lot of yelling.

I bet Mom just
went off the deep end

about some tiny,
stupid thing.

Enough. You guys are
too tough on your mother.

I'm just saying
she overreacts.

She gets overinvolved.

She over-everythings.
That's kind of her thing.

Why aren't you
harder on me?
Ashley: You're the opposite.

Yeah, she's like
two inches away,

and you're, like,
way down the block.

Kristen, come help
with the kitchen.

No, no, no, no.

It might be the kids.
Oh.

Wake up.

It's late.

Are you planning
on doing anything today?

I'm already awake.
Where are you going?

I am going to work,

then I'm going
to the Moon Mart
to pick up things for Amir,

even though I don't have time
and he's your uncle.

The Moon Mart?

I dreamt of that place.
Wow!

I'm sure that's
super meaningful.

I'll go.

Are you joking?
You hate that place.

No, no, I'm gonna go.

There's a list
on the fridge.

So, what, you're not wearing
your scarf anymore?
Oh my God.

This is what they want!

For you to live in fear.

For us to police ourselves.

What hypocrisy!
You hate the scarf!

Oh fuck.

Yeah?
Ramon :
What's up, Ducy!

Can you come pick me up?

Maybe we can go
to the dark spot tonight?

What the hell
is a dark spot?

I have to brush
my teeth.

Kristen's in
the other bathroom.

I'll be done
in a few minutes.

I'm running late
for class.

Fine, whatever.

I slept with Steve.

Clearly.

You know...
revenge, it's cheap.

Feels pretty good.

At first.

Kristen:
They Instagrammed
a second ago.

They're at the pool!

You know,
if we get caught,
we're fucked.

It's not like
we're hurting them.

They actually want
darker skin,

so we're kind
of helping them.

But you're sure
it's the right concentrate?

'Cause if it's
too much--
Yes!

You ready?
Shit.

Yeah.

You took down
all the pictures
of you wearing that, right?

Yes. Of course.
That's the first thing I did.

♪ I got this feeling
on the summer day
when you were gone ♪

♪ I crashed my car
into the bridge ♪

♪ I watched, I let it burn ♪

♪ I threw your shit
into a bag ♪

♪ And pushed it
down the stairs ♪

♪ I crashed my car
into the bridge... ♪

Oh, look,
farm animals.

Super cute,
whoever you are.

♪ I don't care... ♪

Uh-huh!
Whoo!

Oh yes!
Come on!
Nice.

♪ I crashed my car
into the bridge ♪

♪ I watched, I let it burn ♪

♪ I love it, I love it,
I don't care ♪

Oh, where you going?

Bye.
Okay.

Bye!
Mwah!

Losers.
We'll miss ya.

Instructor:
Good. Nice.

Confidence, speed,
aggression. Nice.

Use those natural reflexes.

Just remember,
simultaneous attack
and defense.

Nice. You're up.
Come on.

Let's go. Good.

Nice.

Woman:
Ooh.

That's progress.

Nothing. It should've
worked by now.
Shh.

Wait for it.

Oh, shit.

Fuck!
What did you do
with this shit?

What are you
talking about?

Fuck you!
What the fuck
is happening?

Why are you saying,
"Fuck you," to me, you bitch?
Look at this!

No, this isn't happening!

Oh my God!
I fucking told you!

What?
I told you.

We actually did it.

We gotta go.
Oh yeah, yeah,
turn this car on.

Go, go, go, go,
go, go, go, go.

Girl:
Shit!

What are
you talking about?
You're doing great.

You kept your shit together
with the lunatic.

You didn't freeze up.

Krav Maga is working.
You're too impatient.

It's not enough,

because that guy
was aggressively close.

And especially
if Hailey's around.

Well, you know
where I stand.

Yes.

I'm going to meet my club
at the range for practice.

You wanna come?

What kind of club?

Women who want
to protect themselves.

We're not the only ones.

You're supposed to be
in meetings all day.

Mmm.

It's lovely.
You're lovely.

Not here.

So...

Uh, uh...
okay, okay.

This is the professional me
talking to the professional you.

I want to put you on TV,

so you can promote
the Empathy Initiative.

That is a terrible idea.

They used me.
I'm not gonna let
that happen again.

Well, I wouldn't let
that happen either,
but I watched.

You're incredibly effective
in front of a camera,

and you cut through
that TV crap like a knife.

You could tell
the whole world

about all the good we're doing
at the Benjamin Foundation,

and you could announce
the Empathy Initiative

at the same time.

I'll think about it.

Don't worry. I...

I have your back.

I know you do.

I'm done
being professional.

Tonight, will you--
Yes.

We could go
out to dinner--
I don't care. Yes.

Get out of my office.

I'm sorry.

Greg:
Albert Camus,

Myth of Sisyphus.

You read it.
What do you got?

Anything?

Questions?

Huh?

Justin.

Will you read the first
two sentences, please?

"There is
but one truly serious
philosophical problem.

"and that is suicide.

"Judging whether life is
or is not worth living

amounts to answering
the fundamental question
of philosophy."

All right, well...

...somebody give me
one good reason

I shouldn't pull
this trigger.

No.

Don't! Please!

Don't! Don't!
Man:
No, no, no, no.

'Cause it's a toy.

Exactly!
Woman:
Oh jeez.

Because it's a toy.

It's an-- an air pistol.

BBs. Not loaded.

See? Boom, boom,
boom, boom, boom.

Greg: Ahh.

That was evil.

You're fucking crazy.

Not crazy. Absurd.

Camus tells us
that if we are aware

that life is futile
and chaotic,

then dying is
as meaningless
as living.

If we accept the absurdity
of our existence,

if we willingly toil
up that mountain,

day after day,
pushing that rock up,
knowing...

that it will tumble
back down...

and that we will do this,

again and again,
for eternity...

what does that make us?
Idiots.

(mimics buzzer
and gunshot)

Doomed.
(mimics buzzer
and gunshot)

Heroic.

Yes, exactly.
Thank you, Julia.

We become...

the absurdist hero...

seeking meaning
we know is not there,

living life
to its fullest...

in the face

of a consistent
and continuous struggle...

and inevitable failure.

Take some time off.
Oh, come on.

It was clearly a toy.

The students
thought you were about
to blow your head off.

It was a prop.
It was drama.

These kids walk around
with their eyes open,

but they're sound asleep.

Today at least
they woke up.

They were curious.
They used their brains.

They engaged.
You've been exhibiting
erratic behavior

for some time, Greg.

The conference,
the class where you said
philosophy is bullshit,

encouraging them
to punch Nazis.

Well, yeah.
And now, in today's
political climate

where shooters
are active on campuses

and young people fear
for their lives...

you show up with a gun.

Well...
not the best judgment.
I'll admit that.

You're on six months'
leave of absence.

Get your shit together.

Six months' leave?

What a gift.

You're Farid Shokrani?
Yeah.

Your uncle used
to own this store?

Yeah, we lived upstairs.

Could you
wait here a second?

♪ ♪

I found this
in the basement,

things your uncle
left behind.

Farid:
This is junk.

I don't want it.

I have enough
to throw out on my own.

Take it anyway.
You never know.

Debit or credit?

Instructor:
You loaded
the magazine?

Yeah. Uh, it's hard.
I wrecked a nail.

Magazine in the gun?

Rack the slide.

And adjust your grip.

Relax your shoulders.

This thing is
clunky and heavy.

You get used to it.

Aim low.
That Glock will kick.
Mm-hmm.

I can't believe
I'm doing this.

Instructor:
Breathe out...

and squeeze
the trigger.

You hit
the target.
Nice.

No, no! Don't touch!

We speak English
in this house.

Why can't
I answer the phone?

Because...

these are bad men
calling from Tehran.

They are looking for us.

They're gonna come,
take you back

and hurt you.
Do you understand?

Don't ever touch
that phone.

Mama.

Mommy.

Wow.

I haven't seen a sky
like this in... forever.

If you could not talk,
that would help me not think.

I'm trying to meditate.

What's that supposed
to accomplish?

What are you looking for?
I don't know.

An answer. A sign.
I knew it on my way out here,

but you beat it
out of me, Duc.
Baby.

You're such a bully.

You feel that?

What the fuck?

Was that an earthquake?

We should go home.
No, hey, let's just hang here
for a little bit. Please.

♪ ♪

♪ Sometimes when this place
gets kind of empty ♪

♪ Sound of their breath
fades with the light ♪

♪ I think about ♪

♪ The loveless fascination ♪

♪ Under the Milky Way tonight ♪

♪ Lower the curtain
down on Memphis ♪

♪ Lower the curtain
down all right ♪

♪ I got no time ♪

♪ For private consultation ♪

♪ Under the Milky Way tonight ♪

♪ Wish I knew what
you were looking for ♪

♪ Might have known ♪

♪ What you would find ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Under
the Milky Way
tonight ♪

♪ Under the Milky Way tonight ♪

♪ Under the Milky Way tonight ♪

GREG BOATWRIGHT: You helped us
with our son's adoption.

AUDREY BAYER: Is there anything
you might remember

about the orphanage?

WOMAN:
You should stop looking.

Is it because the orphanage
didn't exist?

Keep digging. You might not like
what you find.

DR. FARID SHOKRANI:
Why didn't you let me speak

to my mother?

WOMAN:

MAN: I was protecting you
from that lunatic whore!

-She was not lunatic!

-GREG: Stevie Benjamin!
-Professor Boatwright.

You're a bachelor, huh?

KRISTEN BAYER-BOATWRIGHT:
Did you see Madison's face?

NAVID SHOKRANI:
We pulled it off.

-Oh!

MAN: Freaks!

WOMAN: Mijo!