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Ethan Phillips, please.

Bill Henrickson.

Please leave him a message I called.
Thank you.

Stephen Sola, please.
Bill Henrickson calling.

Well, will he be back
before the holidays?

All right, please have him
call me when he returns.

- Thank you.
- Let it go.

Nothing you can do
till after new year's.

You may be deeply
invested in your fate,

but everyone else is off
celebrating the holidays.

So you people
do celebrate Christmas?

Of course.

Well, I thought
I had read somewhere

that your prophet shut it down

and you only celebrate Joseph
Smith's birthday instead.

You still don't
understand, do you?

I'm not of the compound.

I'm trying to clean up
the compounds.

There's a whole new
face of polygamy.

You know, we follow the same Bible
as you do, the same book of mormon.

- ( Laughter, chatter )
- ( Party favors squawking )

Those phi delts from the u having
their Christmas party in the rotunda.

What are you still doing here?

Shelley's back
in the hospital, so...

Thought I'd take advantage
of the peace and quiet.

I'm sorry to hear that.

Senator-elect,

have a restful holiday.

You're gonna need it
come January.

( Buttons clicking )

( Dogs barking
"jingle bells" )

( Squealing, laughing )

It's all right, Thomas.
Papa's here.

It's just a little nip.

His skin's not broken.

Why weren't you
watching him, Lura?

You failed to protect
your children.

This is a stain on my
intentions for our new home.

- ( Kids yelling )
- Stop that satanic howling!

- ( Music stops )
- It wasn't porkchop's fault.

Sometimes he plays too rough.

I'll work with him, father.
It won't happen again.

This has nothing
to do with the dog.

Your mind is unfocused and your
heart is full of distraction.

Well, I'm bloody well trying.

I have a good mind
to reassign your children

to one of your sisterwives
until you get yourself right.

I s-strive to be
in compliance

with your wishes,
father, but I'm lost.

If you can't learn
to please me,

your future is not bright.

I wait for you every night.

- ( Dog whimpers )
- No!

Round up all the dogs.
Poison them.

( Grunts )

- ( Car door closes ) - Bill: Honey.
Whoa whoa whoa whoa.

- Let me give you a hand there.
- Oh!

- Here.
- Thanks.

Hey, you got a lot
of this stuff.

Took a leap and signed on
at premier platinum level.

- More Christmas decorations?
- Uh, Nicki.

How are the stores?

There's still
protestors out front.

Here, I'll give you a hand.

I got it.

How are you doing?

Better.

Still not 100%?

No, not yet.

Well, we'll get you there.

Do you know yesterday was the
shortest day of the year?

The darkest.
Now we're turning to the light.

We're gonna have
the best Christmas ever.

By the way, I need
your driver's license.

Can you leave it out
on the counter?

What do you need it for?

It's a surprise.

Why don't you close
the garage door

and I'll lock the one
to the house?

Bill.

Please come up and have
Christmas Eve dinner with us.

We're going caroling
and we're entering

a big decorate your house
competition on the block.

We're having an old-fashioned
storybook Christmas.

Adaleen:
I'll be too tired.

I've got meetings

at the county offices
all morning

with all my caseworkers.

I'm officially indigent.

Well, I'm so glad
that's working out.

Yes, there's benefits

for low-income
pregnant women.

There's a $200 emergency
food assistance program

because I'm destitute.

Uh, there's
utility assistance.

There's even a welfare avoidance
program that gives me

$350 a month
to stay off welfare.

Can't get my hands on the
moolah for at least a week,

so I've asked Albert to give me a
small stipend to tide me over.

Don't take one penny
from that man.

I can get you a little
cash to get you by.

I'd be happy to.

Mama?

Oh, it's those darn hormones.

Please come for Christmas.
Spend it with us.

I'll be fine.
I... I'm really

looking forward
to the new year

and to bringing another
righteous warrior

for heavenly father
into the world.

- Merry Christmas, darling.
- ( Beeps )

Well, it's not regular fat.

It's a special fat
from around the kidneys.

It has a rich flavor
and a high melting point.

- Is fat safe to eat?
- Oh no, not very,

but we only have it
once a year.

And when you get
all the labels off them,

we put the cans in the
water to sterilize them.

I used to love
suet pudding as a girl.

Melted beef suet
and... and sour milk

and raisins and molasses
all boiled together.

( Murmurs )

Barb, I couldn't find
your new skates.

Uh, well, they might
be up in the bedroom.

Honey, I'm a little worried
about your mother.

Bill:
It's okay, Barb.

I told her the work
on her cabin

won't be done
till after the first.

- She'll be spending
Christmas with us. - No.

I mean I think you need
to take a look at her.

I am.

Actually, Bill,
you've been avoiding her.

Just don't get angry,

but I called
Dr. Herman's office

and they are able
to squeeze her in tomorrow

before they close
for the holidays.

- Now I want you to take her.
- Thank you.

What is that?

- It's going to be our plum pudding.
- Where are the plums?

All right, Benny,
you're old enough to know

that there are no plums
in plum pudding.

Did you speak with the
recruiter this morning?

I was really tired from finals.
I will in January.

All right, do you want us
to call a family council

and we can talk
about your options?

We just want to help you with a plan.

- You do need a plan, Benny.
- I know.

But, guys, what was
your plan at 18?

It's the change of plans
that concerns us.

- You just always said you wanted the Navy.
- ( Music playing )

Now you're not sure that
you're still interested.

Lois, Lois, could you
turn that down?

It's "Navy blue."
I know her.

I know her!

All right, I understand,
but could you turn that down?

- Is this rancid?
- * Navy blue *

* I'm as blue
as I can be. *

Darn that butcher.

Don't worry.
I'll take care of it.

- ( Doorbell rings )
- I got it.

( Vocalizing )

- Heather: Can I come in?
- Aaron: Yeah.

Okay, thanks.
Ben, hi.

Heather? Wow.

You look...

You don't look like you.

Mm, a new haircut, I guess.

You just look different.

- Sarah's not here.
- I know.

It's... it's a bummer,
but I have just been

thinking about you guys a lot

since the election
and I wanted to say hi, so...

I baked some gingerbread.

- Merry Christmas.
- Thanks.

- How's college?
- It's good.

Um, B.Y.U. is a hard school,
but it's worth it.

It's fun.

Do you want to go
ice skating with us later?

Okay.

Margene: See, it's not
actually about selling.

It's about signing up
other people to sell,

who sign up
more people to sell,

and we get a cut
of all of those orders.

- Michael Sainte is huge, Margene.
- I know.

I met him
my last day at V.S.N.

He's our Utah Warren Buffett
and Elvis rolled into one.

- ( Laughs ) - My sister-in-law
sold his nahjie juice.

He's sponsoring that huge soccer
stadium that's been in the news.

Mm-hmm, exactly.

So you'll technically be
part of my downline.

But then we'll build you
a downline too.

- This fruitcake is so delicious.
- Sam's club.

- Can you believe it?
- Hmm.

We're cutting back this year.

Carl's been looking
for work for five months.

- The unemployment's run out.
- ( Knocking on door )

- Pam?
- Hi, honey!

- Oh. - Margie's helping
me build my downline.

- Mm-hmm.
- How much did you spend?

You've gotta spend money
to make money.

- Come on in, Carl.
- No, I can't really stay.

Pammy, we've gotta head
over to aunt Bonnie's.

Okay, hon.
I'll be right there.

I'll be outside.
Merry Christmas, Marge.

Merry Christmas.

Hey, we're gonna do fantastic.

I'm fine.

It's just...

A rough Christmas is all.

I'm awfully depressed.
Carl's depressed.

Everything's basically great.

There's a lot of problems,

especially in
the fireworks department.

Oh, Pam, every marriage
goes through that

at one time or another.

- Even you and Bill?
- Of course.

And the holidays can be hard.

I don't know how you do it

when there's just
two people in a marriage.

God, I am sorry.

It really just must have
been something I ate.

You want to just
finish your proof?

My stomach really hurts.

All right, miss Walker,
you can finish up next time.

All right.

Thank your mother
for the cookies.

Wait, I have something
for you too before you go.

Go ahead, open it.

I think you'll like
Barbara Mcclintock.

She demonstrated how genes
are associated with who we are.

They're associated
with who we are, Cara Lynn,

but they don't dictate
who we become.

A whole lot more
goes into that.

Mcclintock's father was a
struggling family physician

and she grew up to win
the Nobel prize.

Thank you.

I'm gonna work hard.
I want you to know that.

- I got your text.
- Yes.

Your mother's turning us
into criminals.

She doesn't mean to.

She's just kind of high strung.

Do you wanna go downtown?

- Okey-dokey, dominokey.
- ( Laughs )

Sorry. Who says
stuff like that?

I gotta be home by 5:00.

In the name of Jesus Christ

I bless this good food
which strengthens our bodies

and the ladies of the house
who prepared it.

- Ben? - On behalf of
the Aaronic priesthood,

dad and I would like to give a
special salute to womanhood.

Heavenly father has assigned
us as men and women

separate but equally sacred
responsibilities.

Ben: We recognize that
without righteous

mothers and daughters
to nurture us,

heavenly father's plans
can't come to fruition.

(Aaronic) Okay, thank you.

So, Barb, Nicki, Margene,

Cara Lynn, Nell,

mother, always remember

that not just during Christmas

when the fruits of your labors

and baking and whatnot
are so evident,

but year round, that as beloved
daughters of heavenly father

you're very special
and entitled

to the guidance of righteous
priesthood holders.

And Cara Lynn and Nell,

remember, too, that as
daughters of heavenly father,

you also have free will,

your own personal
relationship with him

and the divine ability
to discern the truth

of the gospels
in your testimony.

♪ whoa, you put your left
arm in, your left arm out ♪

♪ in, out, in, out,
you shake it all about ♪

♪ you do the hokey-pokey
and you turn around ♪

♪ that's what it's all about ♪

♪ hokey hokey-pokey ♪

♪ hokey
hokey-pokey. ♪

what was that little rumpus
at dinner all about?

I had something to say,
so I said it.

Why would heavenly father give us
strong minds and powerful faith

if he didn't trust us
to use them?

Honestly, Barb...

Any chance to stir the pot.

I ink I left
my mittens in the car.

- Do they fit?
- Yep.

I'm glad.
They were mine.

Bill: Wayne, your brothers
are a couple of naturals.

I used to have double
runners when I was a boy.

Come on, get out there.

- Margie.
- Hmm?

Don't forget I still
want your license.

- Oh, Bill, I think I lost it.
- You think or you know?

I looked in my wallet
and it wasn't there.

Well, Santa still needs it,

so I want you to go
down to the D.M.V.

First thing in the morning
and get a replacement, okay?

You seem more confident or something.

I think I get confidence
from finally being

where I think I'm
supposed to be, you know?

You seeing anyone?

Yeah, I've had a few dates
with a couple guys.

How's your family doing?

Seems like everyone's
going after your dad

like piggy from
"Lord of the Flies."

We're pretty proud of him.

It's hard right now,

but you can't go through life

pretending not to be
who you are.

And who are you, Ben?

L.D.S. guys at your age
are preparing

for their missions.

I finished up
mid-semester,

so my last day of school
was yesterday.

- Oh oh.
- Are you okay?

- Barb: Ben, Heather.
- How you holding up?

- Fine.
- Oh!

Heather's really blossomed.

She got Ben out on the ice.

Those were great comments at dinner.

Thank you.

Do you want to say
anything more?

- Is there a problem?
- No problem.

I just hope we're not
settling into a place

where we feel the need to
constantly one-up each other.

Well, I don't want that either.

'Cause if you're
feeling I'm not enough

- or that my guidance is lacking...
- Bill.

There's no hidden agenda.

Man over P.A.:
Time to grab your sweetheart

and take her for a spin
around the rink.

Couples skate.
It's a couples skate only.

Shall we?

( Shrieking, laughing )

Oh no, Bill.

It's our family night.

It's now or never.

( Music playing )

* no more
carefree laughter... *

- I'm uncomfortable.
- We all are.

Chin up, Margene.

See?
It's not so bad.

Just don't let go
of each other.

* knowing me,
knowing you *

* uh-huh *

* there is nothing
we can do *

* knowing me,
knowing you *

* uh-huh *

* we just have
to face it *

* this time
we're through. *

( knocking on door )

If you can't do the $300,

I could make do with $200.

- I got a call from the
county this morning... - Yes?

Verifying your address

for the women, infants
and children program.

What's this?

- What is this?
- Albert.

You said the baby was gone.

Not exactly.

You said this
monstrosity was gone.

- Please... - I am
purifying this compound

to make us worthy
in heavenly father's favor.

I have nowhere else to go.

This baby and this house
is all I have!

No. No!

No.

You are impure,
unworthy and unholy.

I have kept
all of the covenants.

You are unclean to dwell
among the righteous

and unfit for resurrection
at the end of days.

I only did
what was asked of me.

I'm sorry!

Please!
I am sorry!

You are a cold

and deceitful woman.

Pack your things and go.

Father, she's left.

- Who's left?
- Lura.

She'd never leave me.
She's confused.

Find her.
Get her. Go!

Pack.

To your knowledge, has your mother
suffered any strokes lately?

- No, not at all. - Has she complained
of any headaches or migraines?

No, but she wouldn't.

She doesn't like to complain
or show vulnerability.

Why, what's going on?

I'm sorry to tell you this,
but your mother is suffering

from a fair to moderate
amount of dementia.

Dementia?

You mean Alzheimer's?

Possibly, but not necessarily.

I gave her a quick
mini-cog screening test

and I asked her to draw
a clock with the hands

set at 10 past 11:00.

Could be Alzheimer's or
Huntington's or Parkinson's,

or even aphasia
or a B12 deficiency.

Oh, Bill.

She wants to put her through
all kinds of tests and scans

at university hospital
after new year's.

I'm so sorry.

How's she doing
with the news?

Bill?
She doesn't know?

I mean, Bill,
you have to tell her.

- Not now, I don't.
- Well, it's her life.

- She needs to know.
- Barb, it'll destroy her.

I'm not gonna ruin what could
be her last Christmas.

It can wait.

All I can think is
there'll be a day

when she won't
even know who I am.

She's always been
so indestructible.

Let me help you.
I'm strong, Bill.

Let me shoulder
some of the burden.

You are such a blessing to me.

What would I do without you?

You know, it felt so good

to have responsibility
at the casino,

to feel that I had
something unique to offer.

Let's find more areas where
we can make that happen.

It means so much to me
to hear you say that.

Do you ever doubt it?

No.

No.

I'm gonna make some changes
at church tonight.

I think you'll be
pleased with them.

Oh, and the butcher's
gonna call this afternoon

with the suet.

Thank you.

Let's hope these make a
difference at the casino.

Albert has no authority.

Albert's a false prophet.

Mama, don't you
understand?

My life, my beliefs,
all my good works,

building up Juniper Creek shoulder
to shoulder with your father...

This Christmas is your new
beginning, our new beginning.

- I have no one. - You'll start over.
You are a survivor.

Where's the woman who can work
any situation to her advantage?

Bill called.
I'm so sorry.

- What can I do to help?
- Thank you, Margene.

- My poor mother.
- Cara Lynn: Here you go.

Oh, thank you, sweetheart.

I'm gonna go pray for a while.

Gram, have you heard
anything from my father?

Has he called you recently?

Um, no, sweetheart.

I did get a card
not long ago from Mexico.

I think that's where it was.

Definitely.
And he's well.

Is he mad at me or angry?

Oh, I'm sure he isn't.

Nicki, I'm so sorry.

I hate to ask you this right now,
but I need a driver's license.

Bill's breathing down my
neck for it and I lost mine.

And I can't go get another one because
I have so many parking tickets.

Margene, that's unacceptable.

- Any little scandal could hurt us.
- Please...

You get rid of those
tickets right away.

Please, could you or your mom
just make me a new one?

Margie, it's not
as easy as you think.

And I doubt mama just carries the
equipment around in her van.

Could you ask her?

You just pay your tickets.

Bill has many enemies now.

- ( Drill whirring )
- What are you doing?

Putting together the
nativity for the front yard.

- What's up?
- What do you know about my father?

Nothing.

They stop talking about him
whenever I come into the room.

My mom says that he ran
away to evade arrest.

And I've talked
to all my family

and they don't know
where he is.

I mean, the whole thing
is just weird.

What do you think's happening?

I really don't know.

Will you cover for me tomorrow?

Back me up,
say you took me shopping?

Sure, I guess.
It depends.

What are you gonna do?

I'm gonna find out where he is.

* Santa baby *

* slip a sable
under the tree *

- * for me... *
- Man: Right here.

* been an awful
good girl... *

My ice cream bar.

Austin: The tribe wanted to
go in a different direction.

And you shouldn't even be here until
we're through with arbitration.

Yes, I know, but we wanted to
make a gesture of conciliation.

Barb: Look, we invested
our hearts in this.

You can't just
take it away from us.

The place smells to high heaven

of cigarette smoke.

You've made yourselves
quite unwelcome up here.

This new concept is keeping
this place in business

and it's doing
quite well.

Here's your check

for your percentage
of the revenue.

Whoa, wait a second.
$1,700?

That can't be
for the whole quarter.

- That's impossible. - Well, you can
take that up with the arbitration too.

Nice of you guys
to drop by.

Leave the plants on the bar
on your way out.

* next year I could be
just as good *

* if you'll check off
my Christmas list *

* Santa baby,
I want a yacht. *

I testify that
our lord Jesus Christ

is a resurrected being of
absolute love and compassion.

I testify that
Christ gave his life

that we may live eternally with
him and our father in heaven

and with our beloved families.

- In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.
- Congregation: Amen.

I see we have several new faces

with us here tonight.

Welcome.

I usually have the honor
of blessing the sacrament,

but tonight I'd like
to start a new tradition,

try something different.

Ben, would you bless
this special sacrament?

O God, the eternal father,

we ask thee in the name
of thy son, Jesus Christ,

to bless and sanctify
this bread.

( Knocking on door )

( Dogs barking )

( Doorbell ringing )

( Knocking on door )

I didn't know where else to go.

Don't trust her.

She's here to get mama.
You're here to hurt mama.

No, I left.

I've left the creek.

What happened, Lura?
Why did you leave?

He's killed all the dogs
on the compound.

He threatened to
reassign my children.

I don't believe you.

He's changed.
He's frozen inside.

Please, I can't
lose my children.

She's in need
and we're gonna help.

But it's not safe for
them here, or for us.

What if Alby comes
looking for her?

I'm getting dressed and
taking them to the shelter.

Mary Catherine:
This way. Okay.

Nice beds for you guys.

Here we go.

Here's your new place.

Thomas, you're the oldest.
You get to pick bunks.

I'll be right back.

How fast can the cops get
here if there's a problem?

Only takes a few minutes.

We have a direct line
to the dispatcher.

Only takes
we don't go through 911.

After the holidays,
I can get with

the state attorney to help out

with protection and custody.

Until then, we've gotta
keep an eye out.

Unfortunately, I have
more experience

with abusive husbands
than I care to recount.

This is a special variety.

No one on that compound
has ever left a man

of her husband's importance.

We'll give her special care
and we'll see you tomorrow.

We don't want to hurt
you, Santa claus,

so come along quietly.

What's cookin', good lookings?

Gram, I can't see Santa.

- Boys: Yeah!
- Oh, you wanna see Santa, do ya?

- Yeah.
- Santa, Santa, Santa, Santa!

( Music playing over radio )

♪ o little town of Bethlehem ♪

♪ how still
we see thee lie. ♪

oh, Gary, I don't
know what to say.

I saw it at the mall.
I thought maybe you'd like it.

- How's it look?
- Beautiful.

( Siren wails past )

Are you nervous or something?

- We just passed a cop.
- So?

So I don't have
my driver's license,

just a learner's permit.

I mean, we're all going to perdition
anyway, so what the heck?

Man: Welcome to Telly's.
Happy holidays.

- How may I help you?
- We wanna see Santa.

Uh, excuse me?

Santa. Santa.

We're here to see Santa.

Gram, let's just go home.

Ma'am, maybe if you
try the mall.

What's wrong with you?

Do you think
I'm some kind of fool?

Is that what
you think in there?

Come on, let's go home, gram.

- Yeah, let's go home.
- Yeah, I don't... yeah.

( Car honks )

Man: Come on, lady!
Move it!

Where is Santa?
You tell me right now.

( Honking )

- Guns, Bill?
- You peeked.

You deliberately went out
of your way to find them,

then you deliberately
unwrapped them.

I wanted it to be a surprise.

Well, the streak continues.

Last year you got me
an electric razor.

You got me a curling iron.

You got me a scale
while I was pregnant.

I thought they'd be fun.

And not just the guns,
the permits

and shooting lessons that I thought
we could all take together.

- ( Oven beeps ) - Nicki, could
you please take my pepparkakor

out of the oven
and rotate my spritz?

I specifically asked for a washer
and dryer, something practical.

- Guns are practical.
- Barb: How, Bill?

How are guns practical?

I haven't had one since my
bag was stolen and I'm fine.

The world's an uncertain place,
and if ever I wasn't here,

I want you guys to be able
to take care of yourselves.

- Why wouldn't you be here?
- It's just precautionary, Margie. Just in case.

- In case we need to shoot someone.
- No.

- In case anything happens to me.
- What's gonna happen to you?

- I'm not gonna shoot anyone.
- No one is.

I already have a gun anyway.

If this is why you need my
driver's license, forget it.

- You're not gonna get it.
- Enough! That's enough.

I'm sorry you hate
my gift idea,

but they're paid for.
It's what you're getting.

And if this, of all christmasses,
with your mother and mine,

the trials we're facing,
the wars overseas...

If this is about
nothing more than gifts

when we should be
counting our blessings...

And, Margene,
I am tired of asking.

I want your driver's license
or your birth certificate.

I don't care,
but I want it now!

- ( Phone ringing )
- ( Bill sighs )

- ( Phone beeps )
- Barb: Hello?

- We're lost.
- Wayne?

- Wayne?
- Where is he?

- He's lost.
- Lost?

Honey, where are you?

Wayne:
I grabbed gram's phone.

We've been driving around.

God, please, stop lying to me!

- We're at a restaurant.
- Can you look for an adult?

- Okay, can you do that?
- ( Horn honking )

Man:
What's wrong with you?

I did not say one word to you.

- I think so.
- Please stop lying to me!

Why won't... why won't
anyone tell me?

Oh dear God, where is Santa?

- Mom!
- Mom.

Are you okay?
Wayne?

- Am I in trouble?
- What happened?

I'm sorry.
I just... I'm not sure.

She's confused.

I hope you don't have
to write up a report.

You're that polygamist
senator, aren't you?

Not today.

Today, I'm just
a father and a son.

I get it.

I'll do my best to keep
this off the blotter.

- Thank you, officer.
- Merry Christmas, buddy.

- Is everything all right?
- It's all right, mom.

It's all taken care of.
We just gotta go.

Can we go home?
Let's go home.

Thanks again.

This was his clinic.

No one said anything
about a fire.

Something's happened to him.

But you said
you've talked to him.

I just made that up.

( Phone ringing )

Alby:
Hello?

Lura? My darling?

I'm sorry I had to leave
you at Christmas time.

I can't tell you
how much it gladdens my heart

to hear from you, Lura.

Are you coming back?

To think of you rejecting
the righteous path

to live among the filthy,
amoral gentiles...

You're a good woman.

I know that.

You and I
are not perfect,

but we can turn
our marriage around

with the help
of heavenly father.

Do you want to be an
outcast, an apostate?

No.

You'll never see
your parents again

or your brothers or sisters,

in this life or the next.

I should think
that would be

too much to endure.

( Beeps )

( Sighs )

( Nell coos )

( Knocking )

Senator...

We hope your wife
is feeling better.

Group:
* the first Noel *

♪ the angels did say ♪

♪ was to certain
poor Shepherds ♪

♪ in fields as they lay ♪

♪ in fields where they ♪

♪ lay keeping their sheep ♪

♪ on a cold winter's night ♪

♪ that was so deep ♪

♪ Noel Noel ♪

♪ Noel Noel ♪

♪ born is the king
of Israel. ♪

* I'll be home
for Christmas... *

Heather: I looked up
bicams and unicams

and I had to conclude that
the unicameral legislature

just makes for
more efficient lawmaking.

That sounds like a very
interesting course, Heather.

Mm.

Honey, why are you so quiet?

- What's the matter with you?
- I'm fine, mama.

Thank you, everyone,
for having me here.

Bill: It's a joy having you with
us this Christmas, Adaleen.

It's a very tough time for me,

and I'm so grateful to heavenly
father for my daughter,

my grandchildren,
for all of you.

We're glad you're here, grandma.

- I'm grateful too.
- B: Did you like the lamb, gram?

- Are you all right?
- I'm fine, thanks.

What exactly
are you doing here?

It is Christmas Eve.

My parents are in
Mexico city right now

picking up baby Ruby.

- It's my new little sister.
- Oh, that's wonderful.

( Chuckles ) This plum pudding
is delicious, by the way.

Oh, thank you, Heather.
It's a family tradition.

There are no plums.
It's made with all fat.

- Ha. - Take some to
Aaron and Lester.

By Nebo's lonely Mountain

on this side Jordan's wave

there land, there lies
in the land, there...

Come on, Gram.
Let's go look at the tree.

- ( Phone ringing )
- That's Sarah and Teenie.

I wanna talk to them too, mom.

- ( Phone beeps )
- Hello?

( Gasps ) Hi, sweetie!

Margie?

Honey, come sit by me.

* I'll be home
for Christmas *

* you can plan
on me... *

- Hi.
- What is it, honey?

Hey, what's going on?

I have to tell you something.

I found my driver's license.

- You found it. That's great.
- It wasn't lost.

I didn't want to give it to you
because when we got married,

I was really 16.

Barb: Bill?

What do you mean?

I lied about my age.

I wasn't 18 when we got married.
I was 16.

- No, you weren't.
- Yes, I was.

Um, hold on.

What is it?

You were only 16?

But your mother
said you were 18.

Because I told her to.

But you signed on
for medical at work.

No one looked.

And then I didn't think
it was a big deal at the time,

but then I realized
it was a big deal,

so I've been
too afraid to tell.

And I didn't want
to hurt anybody

because I love you all so much.

Sarah: Mom, where are you?
Where's dad?

Your dad will have
to call you girls back.

Okay.

You are aware that the legal
age of consent is 18?

Congratulations, Margene.

You've just ruined Christmas.

* home for Christmas *

* you can plan on me. *

( door opens )

- What happened to my father?
- Nothing I'm aware of.

His clinic is burnt
to the ground.

- Yes. He did it.
- Why?

To hide the evidence.

The evidence of what?

- Of what he was doing.
- What was he doing?

I don't know...
Experimenting.

- Please, leave me alone!
- No, tell me.

- Leave me alone, Cara Lynn.
- Experimenting with what?

- Tell me. - With babies,
with... with conception,

with what he put inside me.

What did he put inside you?

A monster.

My father is dead, isn't he?

( Nell crying )

- Shh.
- ( Crying continues )

* o come all ye faithful *

* joyful and triumphant *

* o come ye *

* o come ye
to Bethlehem... *

Okay, uh, Aaron, Lester,
let's get these toys home, huh?

( Nell crying )

That can wait until
after we get back.

Oh, we're not still
going to the shelter?

Of course we are.

I'll stay with Gram.

I... I think
I'll stay too.

* o come let us adore him *

* o come let us
adore him *

* o come let us. *

Merry Christmas.

Soup?

Thank you, sir.

- Merry Christmas.
- Oh, thank you.

Don't be mad.
Bill didn't know.

I am not mad at him.

Please don't be mad
at me either, Barb.

I have struggled alone
with this for a while.

Do you know what this
turns us into, Margene?

What it does to Bill?
Didn't you ever think of that?

No, Barb, I didn't.

- Do you know why?
- Oh, please enlighten me.

Because my age
never mattered before.

It was just a date
on a license,

a license that
nobody cared about

because I wasn't
remotely associated

with Bill or you or the family.

Unmarried mother,
unmarried teen mother.

18, 16, who cared?

Oh, I care.
Bill cares.

I can't believe we're here
after Margie's little stunt.

Well, I wish I knew
how I could go forward,

but I don't.

Oh, I can't expect you to
understand how I feel, but I...

Me? Listen, Barb, I was against
that marriage from the start.

I voted against it.
You were all for it.

So spare me the indignation.

Your anger is between
you and you.

- Man: Here you are.
- Woman: Thank you.

- Enjoy.
- Thank you.

- I'm sorry.
- I know, Margie.

I'm so sorry
for what I've done.

All I wanted was to be
a member of this family.

It's not your fault, Margene.

It's not your fault.

Would you like
some soup?

- Merry Christmas.
- Thank you.

Please scrape the plates
in the garbage.

The Turkey can't go
down the disposal.

Cara Lynn, snap out of it.

Things are hard enough already.
It's Christmas.

What's the matter with you?

He's dead.

Who? Who's dead?

Papa is.

Stop lying to me.

I went to the compound.

- I saw his clinic.
- No.

- I talked to Adaleen.
- I... I don't... I...

Stop lying to me.

Don't!

I didn't tell you because
I wanted to protect you.

Your father was not a holy man.

- No. - He had evil in his heart
and he did terrible things.

I grew up insisting that
my father was a good man

and it almost ruined my life.

Please stop.

- I'm sorry, baby, but you
have to hear this. - Mm-mm.

If I'd accepted
what my father was,

things would have been
different for me.

Your father tried
to play God, Cara Lynn.

He tried to do it with me.

He tried to do it with you.

He taught me
how to ride a bike.

He taught me how to read.

Why are you trying this
family, me, so unmercifully?

Are we sinning?

Have we strayed?

We struggle to keep your
commandments, to dwell in love.

Heavenly father,
I... I can bear any burden,

I can endure any trial,
but... but my family...

Please spare my family
these unending punishments.

Bill, Bill, come quick.

Alby's got Lura.

Let's go home.

Very good.

Here we go.

Alby, no.

Unhand my wife, Nicolette.

You hated papa,
but you're becoming worse.

Let her go. Bill.

You have to let
her decide, Nicki.

I'm not leaving until she
tells me with her own mouth

that she wants to stay in hell
among the darkest spirits.

Bill:
Lura, listen to me.

You don't have to go.

We can protect you
and your children.

- What do you want to do?
- Um, I...

- I don't...
- Tell me.

- I...
- She wants to go home.

Then let her say it.

Lura?

I don't want to go back.

That's it, Alby.
She stays.

Bill:
Now get outta here.

How dare you come between
a priesthood holder

and his wife and children?

Alby.

( Both gasp )

You're not worthy to be
anyone's priesthood holder.

I'll tell you what you are.

You are filth.

You're a sinful, shame-faced
coward who lives a secret life,

who takes out
his own self-loathing

on innocent women and children.

- You disgust me.
- Bill!

That's enough.

Come on.

( Door opens, closes )

Oh, you got...
You got back early.

- Barb.
- Hmm?

Wayne, go in the other room.

She's been, uh...

I... I think there's some leftover
plum pudding in the fridge.

Um, I haven't eaten it all.

( Can clatters )

( Sniffles )

Merry Christmas.

( Laughing )

Mom, come on.
It's gonna be all right.

No, I'm fine.

I'm fine.

Barbara.

( Wind howling )

Here.

We're not holy.

We're all unholy.

No, that's absolutely untrue.

Come on, it's still Christmas.

( Knocking )

I wasn't pure.

I am now.

Heavenly father tests those he
holds a special mission for.

Sometimes we only realize
his plan through loss.

My darling boy...

I will never leave you.

I'll take good care of you.

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