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[dramatic music]

Something as stupid as
cutting myself with an ax

took me out of this unbelievable
experience of a lifetime.

That's the catch of the day.

Some kind of gnarly
looking seaweed.

If I don't start catching
fish and soon, I'm a goner.

There's a bear.

All right, bear,
you stay over there.

Please stay away from my camp.

Thank you.

They don't call this
"Alone" for no reason.

It's like a whining
and a really deep

sniffing right here at
the back of my head.

Get on out of here.

[growling]

Who are you when everything's
been stripped away?

[bleep]

It's scary out
here in these woods.

I have not had a
serious meal in a week.

If I can't get a fire,
then I can't stay here.

It's always in the
back of your mind-- well,

I could tap out.

Putting up with this
filming bull [bleep]..

Running into a predator.

It's not an if, it's a when.

Get the hell out of here.

I see you.

Get out of here.

I'm living a hand
to mouth existence.

Yes!

$500,000 is a lot of money.

It's just going to
keep getting harder.

It's not the world
that needs to change.

It's me that needs to change.

[groans]

[dramatic music]

[air horn blaring]

Get on out of here.

Get.

You heard me.

Get.

[air horn blaring]

[growling]

OK.

Get the hell out of here.

I see you.

Get of here.

Go on.

Get.

Oh, man.

That is a cub.

OK.

All right.

I couldn't figure out
what in the hell it was.

I've never heard a noise like
that come from an animal.

Turned out it wasn't one animal.

It was two.

It was mama and a cub.

The mama was making
the huffing noise,

and the baby was making
the neighing noise.

Hope baby is OK.

You know, this just brought back
the rage monster that I had.

I hate that part of me.

I can't stand that part of me.

Being good at
violence is not good.

And it kills me that that's
exactly what the hell I

reverted back to here tonight.

You know, I hate to do
it, but I'm going to tap.

It's just starting to feel
peaceful here, you know?

That quietness, you know?

[bleep]

Sorry.

[bleep]

Hey.

I'm rattled.

I'm not going to lie.

When I saw the little bear,
it was just this feeling

of remorse hit me for
being so aggressive over it

because that's the
way I've always been.

I've just been uber aggressive.

And I just felt really bad.

My heart aches for tapping
because I feel like I quit.

And I don't quit stuff.

I feel like I'm leaving
a little bit undone.

It's just that I
know that I don't

want to be in physical
confrontations

anymore in my life.

That part of my life is gone.

And it's over.

I can't do it.

Mother nature is going
to bring everything out.

And maybe this is
her way of telling me

it's my time to go back.

I don't know.

As they say, one
hell of an amen.

[dramatic music]

Last night, well, I
suppose about midnight,

I was sound asleep and dreaming.

I don't know what I
was dreaming about.

Most likely Barbara.

But I felt her kiss me.

And so I kissed her back.

And then, I woke up, and a slug
was crawling across my lips.

And I kissed a slug in
the middle of the night

thinking it was Barbara.

That's nasty.

And I hope that didn't
scar you for life.

Got myself all fed.

I had fish because
of the gill net.

But now, I've got
plans for my shelter.

And I can't wait to get on them.

You know, I want to build the
drying rack over the fire.

Everything is so super wet.

Firewood won't burn.

It'll just be a matter of
driving in four stakes,

and then tying
two poles to that.

And then, the racks crossed it.

We'll just have it
all above the fire.

So on long, rainy days, I can be
busy drying out wood like this.

So I've got the basic
three piles going here.

The bigger wood.

Sticks about that thick.

And then, sticks
not quite as thick.

And then, much skinnier,
thinner sticks.

That's just me.

I'm a neat freak.

I just like everything orderly.

I like to know where stuff is.

And I don't want
stuff in the way.

And if it's all
disorderly, then I

don't feel at peace
or at rest with it.

And I don't know
why I'm that way.

Perhaps it was being
in the orphanage

and having so few things, and--

and wanting them just so so.

My mind needs to stay busy.

This morning laying in bed,
I started thinking about tacos.

Oh, my goodness, tacos.

That's the two things
I miss the most.

Fried chicken and tacos.

I get thinking about
this bucket of chicken,

and I just can't stop
thinking about it.

Yes, I'll have four original
recipe thighs, the potato

wedges, and big old Coke.

Oh, yeah.

When you're this
hungry, food like that

grabs a hold of your brain and
it just doesn't let you go.

Starvation really
does get to you.

And I am starving.

A lack of food has really
put me at a low burn.

I just don't have the
energy to do anything.

I'm just numb with hunger.

I haven't eaten in--

what day is it?

I haven't even been counting.

It's terrible.

Going to go check my gill net.

Disappointing.

There is nothing in my
commercially made gill net.

Nada.

Zip.

Zero.

Zilch.

No fishies.

Nothing.

Just a big hollow sucking
sound from my net.

It mocks me.

I'm not really impressed
with that gill net.

The mesh size on it
seems very small.

Fish will just
bounce off that net.

If I can't get fish, I'm
not going to make it.

It's day 276.

I've learned how to
communicate with the animals.

[laughs]

See, I'm going to take
a walk, check my net.

I know there's not going
to be anything in it,

but we're checking anyway.

Already my stomach's growling.

I'm really hungry.

Getting stuff from
the water is going

to be tasking because the
fish aren't just running

up and jumping in
your arms out there.

Oh, [bleep].

We got a fish.

[laughter]

We got a fish.

Woo hoo!

Oh, you're a ugly
[bleep],, aren't you?

So the net actually worked.

I brought hammock.

Transitioned from
using the hammock

as a hammock to a gill net.

Anything that I use for
survival situations,

I try to have at
least two uses for it.

And it is the military
type mentality of survival.

No idea what kind
of fish that is.

So we need to cook
him up pronto.

You know, there's people
out there laughing

at how I'm filleting this fish.

This is definitely
not my strong suit.

And in case any of you
were wondering, like,

is this dude only
bring-- no, I have--

I have pants.

I just like wearing shorts.

My legs and my feet don't
get necessarily as cold

as the rest of my body.

Quite a bit of meat there.

I'd say probably 30,
40 grams of protein.

And all the fats and fish oil.

We're going to go over, try to
get a fire started so we can

cook this fish.

Not a bad first
meal from the sea.

About [bleep] time.

Now that I've got my drying
rack over the fire itself,

I'm going to build an elevated
platform for my kitchen fire.

Just kind if tired of
sitting on the ground.

I'm going to build it
up, I don't know, maybe--

maybe three feet.

And then, I can just
work with my fire.

I love these little
kinds of projects.

They give me something to do to
keep my mind occupied so I can

make it for the long haul.

I'm looking at this
for a full year.

All right, so I got the
four poles driven in.

Now I'm lashing the cross pieces
that will support the plank,

upon which I will put gravel
and a rock and build the fire.

My uncle was big time into
outdoor bush craft and survival

skills.

And he turned to me onto it.

And I'm very thankful for it.

All right, got my
bucket of gravel

just from the beach
here for cooking.

So it'll withstand
heat for quite a while.

And that's my stove top.

It's a one burner.

It's all I need now.

Very nice.

Nice indeed.

I feel, like, charmed or
something because everything

is just going so well.

All right, all finished.

And I'm ready to wash up.

I built a hands free foot
operated gravity flow water

faucet out of a gallon
jug and some cord.

I tied this stick to the tree.

And then, I tied the one gallon
bottle that washed up here

on the beach right
here to the stick.

Then, I tied this longer
stick here around the bottle,

and I extended it that far
so that the line would come

up and over, and then
down to the pedal.

You just step on
this lever down here.

It'll tip it up.

And then the water flows
out, and I can wash my hands.

It's not pretty, but it gives
me running water hands free.

You know, the projects keep
me busy throughout the day.

And so time just flies
by because of that.

And so I'll need to keep
thinking of projects

in order to maintain
that feeling out here.

Yeah, so I got my fireplace.

My drying rack
over the fireplace.

My kitchen over there.

And, you know, my
water is simple.

I don't have to work for it.

Just simply walk over there
and fill up my containers.

So right on.

I have achieved modernity here.

I just need Barbara.

[gull calling]

[dramatic music]

Protein, man.

I just-- I'm still perplexed
about the whole fishing deal.

I'm not Lucas.

I'm not going to make a canoe.

I'm not going to make a yurt.

I'm not Alan.

I can't eat just whatever
frickin' crawls by.

I just-- I am what I am.

You know, I'm trying the
things that I know how to do.

And that's all I can do.

I'm not sure what I'm
going to do for protein.

It's kind of perplexing.

I set up my gill net
and my fishing line,

but they haven't
given me anything.

Just like everything else in
this place, nothing comes easy.

Nothing comes easy.

Today, I want to make
a spear of some sort

just in case I do see
something while I'm climbing

along these rocks at low tide.

I'm not just, oh, hey,
there's something.

Too bad I didn't have a spear.

Hard on your forearms.

And I'm not very good
with my right hand.

Survival here is not easy.

It's-- it's work.

It's just everything takes time.

There's just never
enough time in the day.

If I got proper
rest, proper food,

you know, maybe it wouldn't
be that big a deal.

But I think it would be.

This terrain is insane.

The spear shouldn't this hard.

Only in this frickin' place is
a spear like this this hard.

[laughter]

Oh, my god.

So I split it down the middle.

Then, I just start
taking sections off

like slices of the pie.

I'm just going to shove these
down inside these little slots.

But you got to force
it down in here.

There's one.

I want to do another one.

The object is just to
spread these fingers out

as much as possible.

So you can see it's starting
to spread out a little bit.

God, I wish I'd get a fish.

Frickin' starting to get hungry.

Like, really hungry.

Like, that's all I can
think about is food hungry.

I don't-- I've never
been this hungry ever.

Done.

Now I've got a spear point
for when the mammoth comes.

And then, I have more of a
shotgun approach for if I ever

see a fish or a crab
that's big enough

to utilize the spear for.

And all the while I'm
doing these projects,

my mind is just racing.

I don't know, man.

I just-- I'm doing
the best I can.

And sometimes, it's
just not good enough.

Kind of shocked at
how little I'm getting

done to be quite honest.

I had envisioned being farther
along in the process than this.

I've got solve the food problem.

I've got to learn
how to fish here.

I'm going to make
another gill net.

That should produce fish.

Thinking about setting up across
there once I get it built.

Get two nets working for me.

In my opinion, the gill net is
probably the number one food

producer out here.

And I can only
take one gill net.

Nothing says you can't
make a second one.

That's what I'm going to do.

It's probably my best
find so far on this beach

has been rope.

I have to kind of take it apart
to get the inner strands of it.

In order to make my gill net,
I have to have a large volume

of fine thread.

So this is the exciting
world of wilderness survival.

A guy sitting in a beautiful
forest playing with old rope.

Bucket of chicken right now
would be really, really good.

Mic check.
Microphone.

Microphone.

Yeah, I got a microphone.

I'm good.

The net needle I
made out of cedar.

I carved that
couple of days ago.

The first step of the process
is to tie a series of loops all

the way down the net.

And then, I'm going to come back
and start netting through them

back and forth, switching
sides on the net.

Back and forth.

Just going and going.

To tie the knots, you have to
pass the entire ball of string

through the loops.

And that's what the
net needle's all about.

It holds all the string
you're working with,

and allows you to pass
the giant coil of string

through the knot.

Tired, underfed, and dehydrated.

Making net.

The act of tying net is not
normally a tiring process.

This is not a great deal
of physical exertion here.

It's just I need to eat food.

Now, this is going to
be an ugly gill net.

And it will probably
only catch ugly fish.

But that's OK.

OK.

Empty net needle.

Now, just got to refill
it and keep going.

It's a long process.

I had so many high hopes
of doing so many cool things.

I just feel like I'm
just treading water.

[bleep]

Oh, my god.

I got something in my gill net.

And rather than wait
till tonight to get it,

I'm hoping I can race and beat
the tide and get it right now.

Oh, my god.

I'm so thankful.

I have no idea.

Tide's coming in fast.

OK, I get to have a good meal.

I'll probably fillet him up.

Little baby fish.

Oh, and I let it go.

I should waited till
frickin' low tide.

Damn it.

He squeezed right through there.

Damn it.

I better get out of here
before the tide gets me.

The aloneness and the hunger
kind of compound to make it way

more difficult.
Right now, it's--

it's the frickin' hunger, man.

It's always in the
back of your mind--

well, I could tap out.

I could be drinking a
beer and having a burger

in about two hours probably.

Missing substantial calories,
and I can't deal with it

too much longer.

[dramatic music]

It is day--

I'm really glad I made this.
I don't know what day it is.

I think it's day eight.

One, two, three, four,
five, six, seven, eight.

No.

It is day nine.

So I am going to cut a notch--

my morning ritual--
into my counting stick,

which apparently I need.

Feels like it's time that I need
to start thinking about bigger

food.

The limpets, and the seaweed,
and the little crabs,

banana slugs, and the
mushroom, you know,

they're all delicious.

But I want real, big food.

That's the way that
I'm going to make it.

My plan is to put my
gill net up today.

I have a log out there to tie
one end of my gill net to.

And then, on the other
end, I'm actually

going to need to pound a piece
of wood into the ground itself.

So I'm going to use cedar
because it's water resistant.

It's a pretty nice
morning, I gotta say.

Bears were just there yesterday
right behind those two logs.

It looked like
they were fishing,

so that's where I'm
going to put my gill net.

I've never set a
gill net before.

Means I probably won't catch
anything with the first go.

Be really nice if these
salmon start actually running.

I may not have time to set this.

We'll see.

I'm running out of low tide.

And I guess I waited too long.

That was wet.

And I just got water in my boot.

[bleep]

And the tide just came in.

Oh, man.

Oh, that was, like, bad timing.

Crap.

All right, well,
it's not perfect.

But we're going to
see how it does.

Attempt number one
looks pretty terrible.

I'm hoping at least when the
tide comes in, that top line

will float a little bit more.

I want to see.

We're going to leave it.

Hey, maybe I'll luck
out and get something.

You never know.

Knock on-- let's go find
someone to knock on.

[sighs]

I am very badly
dehydrated right now.

We had several days
now without rain.

And that would sound
like a blessing,

but the problem is,
my rain catch is dry,

which means I have to boil water
now to stay hydrated, which

takes a lot of
effort to do that.

The lethargy from dehydration
is absolutely the worst.

You just can't move.

You know, your body can
metabolize itself, consume

body fat and muscle
tissue to make energy,

but it can't do
that to make water.

You've got to put it in.

I don't even feel hungry
right now because I'm thirsty.

That's a bad sign.

I have to boil a gallon of water
every day or I get dehydrated.

And if I get dehydrated,
I have no energy.

And if I have no energy,
I don't get the work done.

Part of the fire
making process is

having loads of wood in camp.

But the other part is that
initial flame and getting

a flame going.

And the best way to do
that in this environment

is a cedar bark, which
has been shredded finely,

and spruce resin, which has been
mixed with the shredded cedar

bark.

I've got several spruce trees
here, which are gigantic.

They're huge.

This is bleeding,
oozing sap all the way

down the side of the tree.

So it's the most amazing thing.

I can come down with the axe
and scrape all this stuff off.

Cedar bark lights readily,
but it doesn't burn very long.

And the spruce resin
burns a long time,

but it's kind of hard
to light sometimes.

So when you mix
the two, the cedar

lights up the spruce resin, then
you have a long lasting flame.

And this is really sticky
stuff, which is a good thing.

And there's a lot
of resin in there.

So that little bit should
burn a good long time.

Long enough to get these
twigs and things going.

There we go.

See how much easier that was?

Now get this on top.

Get these on top of that.

But once I get
some liquid in me,

I'm planning on getting a lot
of fuel in the shelter here.

I'll probably work on my net.

Its high tide now.

It's almost dead high tide.

And it won't be low tide
again till this evening.

Really, really,
really looking forward

to having a belly
full of liquid.

The thirst has to go.

The dehydration has to go.

No!

[dramatic music]

The thirst has to go.

The dehydration has to go.

No!

I did not need
that this morning.

I did not swear on camera.

That was good.

That was good.

That was restraint.

That was discouraging.

And now, I have to do this
whole thing over again.

I just don't have any
way around it today.

I have to hydrate.

I have to drink water.

I am too stinking tired,
underfed, and dehydrated

to get it together right now.

But I have to because the
leading cause of death

in wilderness
survival situations

are hypothermia and dehydration.

I screwed up.

No excuses.

I'm human.

I admit it.

It's a good thing you folks
didn't hear what I said after I

shut off the camera.

You'd be shocked at
what can come out

of this good Christian man.

The bears heard.

The cougars heard
and the wolves heard.

But they don't speak English.

And that's a good thing.

Oh, man, this place is
just one big rotten log.

Kind of disappointed in myself.

And yet, on the
other hand, I haven't

done everything I can do.

But, I mean, I've tried, man.

It's not like I've
been screwing off.

I am getting minor food.

Limpets and those
stupid periwinkles.

God, I'm tired of those.

It just blows me away.

Why is there no fish here?

There's nothing in my gill net.

I'm just not going
deep enough I think.

I'm going to check
my stationery lines.

There's got to be fish here.

I got something on my line.

Got to be careful
and don't let it

go like I did on that
little one on the gill net.

[chuckles]

Oh, [bleep], I got another one.

Dinner tonight, man.

Woo!

[bleep] dinner, man.

Oh.

Oh, my god.

Right on.

I don't know what kind
of fish these are.

To me, they're
called dinner fish.

What do we have here?

My goodness.

Hello, good sir.

Hello, good sir.

Another deuce.

Another double.

Woo!

Wow.

Another one.

Don't you start to fight
on me, you son of a gun.

I'm going to be skewering
a lot of fish tonight.

[dramatic music]

Spilling that pot
of tea this morning--

emotionally, that
kind of set me back.

I was already dehydrated.

Mouth was dry.

I'd done all that work
to get the fire going,

and bam, the thing falls over.

Oh, my goodness.

You know, kicking myself.

How could I be so stupid?

I was just not paying attention.

I have not eaten a single
fish since I've been here.

My dad always said, if you
want to catch big fish,

use big hooks and big bait.

And he caught big fish.

My dad was an
excellent fisherman.

Why did I not pay
attention to the man?

I'm just not a fisherman.

But that can't be an excuse.

That is now the problem.

I have to overcome.

I have to learn how
to fish these waters.

And it's a major,
major problem for me.

The reality of the
aloneness part of it

is kind of starting to sink in.

And everything is on
me and my skill set.

And there is nobody to fall back
on who has greater expertise.

I haven't talked to
anybody in nine days.

And knowing that that's going
to continue, and continue,

and continue is
starting to sink in.

I can just pick up that
phone at any moment

and say, take me home.

That bucket of chicken
is a phone call away.

[music playing]

This meal means so much
to me just psychologically.

Just knowing that there are
fish out there in that sea.

I mean, I knew that
there were fish,

but just that there were fish
that would come in right there.

OK, what I did was
I filleted the fish.

OK, that wastes a lot of meat.

So what I did is I
took the carcasses

and I cut them up, bones and
all, and that will be my stew.

And I'll have a super rich broth
to eat for breakfast tomorrow.

Two meals back-to-back
like that, man,

that should really help me out.

Wow, how lucky to catch
four fish today, man.

Every line that I put out
had a fish on it today.

How frickin' awesome is that?

Well, I'm going to
check my gill net.

I want to make sure that I
don't miss the salmon run.

Hopefully, they're holing up
here getting ready for the run.

I hope they run up
one of these rivers.

That would be wonderful.

Still on?

Hey, you are.

You're on.

All right.

Oh, the bears are here.

[bleep]

[dramatic music]

I really want to go
check my gill net.

But I definitely want to
give these bears their space.

My gill net is to the left
right in line with them.

The bears are
right to the right.

So they're really
close to my gill net.

So I'm not sure what to do.

I don't want her to be nervous.

I'll let them know that I'm here
and see what their reaction is.

Hey, bear.

Human here.

Hi!

Don't worry.

You're safe.

Your babies are safe.

I need to go check my--

my gill net because
I need to eat.

See if I go just a little
closer what she does.

Oh, mama bear just stood
up on her hind legs.

Not good.

Oh, my god.

I'm searching for a
sense of place here.

And I'm just
struggling to find it.

[tarzan yell]

That twisted branch,
that's where I clean my fish.

And it's leaving.

Coming on.

40, 50 mile an hour winds.

Free tornado.

I got to go back to camp.

I can leave this
experience at any moment.

But there's that half
million dollar prize.

I got a mouse.

My first bit of meat in 12 days.