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I didn't think a regular girl
could get in "Playboy."
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I said, "You know, I am a cop."
And she goes, "What?"
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I said, "I'm a cop."
She goes, "Where?"
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I said, "NYPD."
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Wearing my Air Force uniform
was very empowering,
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like a coat of armor.
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When I put on the uniform,
it gave me the strength
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to be able
to run down the street,
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tackle a guy,
arrest him, and lock him up.
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I love this photo 'cause this is
the, like, "I'm a badass.
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I'm gonna, like,
have amazing sex with you,
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and then
I'm going to whup your ass."
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I didn't think posing
for "Playboy" was a big deal,
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but it blew up.
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I never would have thought
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it would
get the attention it did.
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They said, "We're opening
an investigation on you."
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I was like, "Ooh,
an investigation. On what?"
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It makes no sense.
I didn't break the law.
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I didn't commit a crime.
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I was stripped
of what was mine--
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something that I earned,
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something that I worked
really hard to get.
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And when something is
wrongfully taken away from you,
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it cuts deep.
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[motor revving]
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My name is Hugh Hefner.
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I'm editor-publisher
of "Playboy" magazine.
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REPORTER: Playboy is one
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of the most famous brand names
in the world.
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It was simply to include sex as
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one natural part of a package
for a male audience.
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KARI ANN: When I made the choice
to do "Playboy,"
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I didn't realize all
the choices that I was making
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that came with that choice.
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PITZULO: We don't judge the men
for buying the "Playboy"s,
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but we judge the women
for posing for "Playboy."
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JILL:
I was never Jill anymore.
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I was Jill
that posed for "Playboy."
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ASHLEY: I just gave in
and knew that I was
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probably gonna go to hell.
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ZOE:
It got to a certain point
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where it wasn't fun anymore.
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SONDRA:
This process was very painful,
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but I should be able to tell
my story as I lived it.
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GUERRERO: In 1979,
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"Playboy" featured
its very first woman in uniform,
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Army Specialist Colleen Donovan.
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The spread was a hit,
and the following year,
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the magazine featured
an entire pictorial
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dedicated to women
of the Armed Forces.
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This time,
the photos caused controversy.
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Throughout the years,
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"Playboy" continued
to feature women in uniform
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within its pages,
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a decision that would alter
the lives
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of many of the women who posed
forever.
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Carol Shaya joined the NYPD
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right out of college.
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As a rookie, she had
one of the toughest beats--
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the Bronx's 42nd Precinct.
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At home,
Carol had just gotten married,
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and the newlyweds decided,
almost as a joke,
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to send some recent photos
of Carol to "Playboy" Magazine.
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To her surprise, something that
started out as a laugh
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ended up
changing her entire life.
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-Hi.
-Hello, Carol.
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-Nice to meet you.
-So nice to meet you.
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-Pleasure.
-Thank you for being here.
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Thank you for having me.
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-Have a seat.
-Thank you.
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You're wearing your shield.
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I am. I'm wearing--this one,
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I think, is my dad,
and this one is mine.
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So, I'm 6140,
and my dad was 614.
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-Amazing.
-Yeah.
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Your father was
a Port Authority officer.
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Correct.
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He was doing this job
that was helping people,
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protecting people.
-Correct.
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-Did you admire that?
-I loved it.
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I held my dad, like,
to a very high standard.
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He was, to me, special,
and, you know,
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I was kind of, like,
Daddy's girl.
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So, how did you become
an NYPD officer?
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I didn't know that I would
become a cop in the future.
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I thought I was going to be
a criminal attorney.
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And I was
in St. John's University,
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and they were like,
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"Well, why don't you go
to the police academy?
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You're gonna get 68 credits,"
I think was the amount,
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"and they're going to go towards
your criminal justice degree."
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And I said, that's a great idea.
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So I went into the academy
in 1990.
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Once I went
into the police academy
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and had that, like, experience,
I was like, oh, I want to see
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what it's really like
on the street.
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And then you become, yourself,
a cop.
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Right. In 1991,
I became a police officer.
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You were, at one point,
patrolling
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a very tough neighborhood.
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Yeah, the South Bronx,
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where I can honestly say
it was culture shock.
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Drugs on every corner,
everywhere you looked.
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It was crazy over there.
Very dangerous.
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How were you treated there by
the guys that you worked with?
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They were not against me,
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but I felt the need to be
stronger
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and tougher
than the way I looked.
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Yeah, I would get looks,
but it didn't bother me.
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I was like, all right,
that's cute. Whatever.
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-You didn't feel uncomfortable?
-No.
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So, you were in the Bronx.
Then what happened next?
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I get married to another cop.
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He was a sergeant, and we were
going on our honeymoon.
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So we went on this nice cruise,
and we took these photos.
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It was like me in a bikini
and stuff like that.
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So, when we got home,
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and we looked at the pictures
and everything,
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he goes,
"You should, like, model."
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And I was like,
"No, I can't model,"
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and he's like, "Why not?"
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I said, "To be a model,
you need to be like, 5'11"."
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He goes, "What about 'Playboy'?"
I go, "'Playboy'?"
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I mean, the women
that were in "Playboy,"
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come on, iconic women.
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I looked at "Playboy" as
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being the most amazing magazine
to get in.
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I didn't think a regular girl
could get in "Playboy."
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He goes,
"Yeah, let me send them,
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and let's see what happens."
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When he sent those photos,
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did he let "Playboy" know
that you were an NYPD officer?
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No. They didn't know.
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It was less than a week.
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The phone rings.
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"Hi.
This is Playboy Enterprises.
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This is Marilyn Grabowski."
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I'm like, "Is this for real?"
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She goes,
"Yes, we love your photos,
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and I wanna know, would you be
open to doing a test shoot?
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We'll fly you to Chicago."
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And I'm like, okay.
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What goes through your mind
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when you actually have
to get naked for the camera?
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I felt a little shy,
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but "Playboy" had a funny way
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of making you feel
very comfortable.
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I had a robe, and I was
undressed so infrequently,
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'cause most of the time
they're doing things,
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lighting, they have
somebody else doing whatever.
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And the makeup people,
the camera people,
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everybody is just
so professional
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that they're not
even looking at you here.
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They're talking to you.
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After the test shoot,
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I go back
to Marilyn Grabowski's office,
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and I sit in the chair,
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and we start talking
about the negotiation now.
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I says,
"Well, what do you guys pay?"
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She goes, "Oh, we--"
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at that time, it was, like,
$20,000 or $30,000.
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I said, "$20,000 or 30,000?
That's it?"
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I go, "No."
I said, "That's not enough."
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And she goes, "Why?"
I said, "Well, I don't know."
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I said, "You know, I am a cop."
And she goes, "What?"
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I said, "I'm a cop."
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She goes, "Where?"
I said, "NYPD."
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She goes, "Do you have
your badge on you?"
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I go, "Yeah,"
and I go into my bag,
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and I show her my badge,
and she's like,
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"Oh, okay. I'm gonna
get back to you."
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How much did you end up
making in "Playboy"?
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$100,000.
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Wow.
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So you went from $20,000
to $30,000 to $100,000?
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-Correct.
-Amazing.
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So, they knew this was
gonna be a very big story.
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Yes, I guess they did,
and I had no clue.
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Did you ever tell anybody
that you worked for,
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a commanding officer or anybody,
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that you were testing
for "Playboy"?
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No. A cop works outside
of their job,
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you have to file
for off-duty employment.
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I never said the word "Playboy."
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-No.
-Never.
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But in my off-duty application,
it did say, "Nude modeling."
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And nobody said anything to you?
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-No. Not at all.
-No.
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So, after the test shoot,
I go back to work,
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my normal life and everything,
and then I get the call.
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They said, "Do you want to pose
in uniform or do you not?"
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I go, "Oh, I'd love to."
Like, I didn't even think of it.
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And they said, "Okay, but we
can't use your actual uniform.
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We have to use, like,
a replica."
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I said, "Okay.
I'm okay with that."
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And I posed in "Playboy,"
August of 1994 on the cover.
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"NYPD Nude--New York's Finest."
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I had a lot of fun
during the photo shoot.
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This one with the handcuffs--
I was proud of myself.
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It didn't scare me.
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I chose to come off this way.
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I liked being a cop.
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I was proud of it.
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I wanted to announce it
to the world.
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So, you're not at all,
at this point, worried about
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what your commanding officer
is gonna think?
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-No, not at all.
-No.
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For me, I was like,
all right, so what?
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I posed nude for a magazine.
Who cares? It's "Playboy."
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Okay, so when the issue
came out, what happened to you?
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Oh, my God, it blew up.
It blew up.
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I never would have thought it
would get the attention it did.
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It was crazy.
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When the issue came out,
what happened to you?
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The media was relentless.
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A lovely young officer
named Carol Shaya
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has posed nude in "Playboy,"
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and that has the NYPD Blue
seeing red.
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I certainly don't think
posing nude is right.
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You're supposed to be
a role model as a policewoman.
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She was
one of New York's Finest,
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but now the lady in blue
is being blackballed
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for flashing more than
her badge in "Playboy" Magazine.
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I'd go to work.
There were news trucks
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sitting
in front of the precinct.
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I'd be on patrol, and there was
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news trucks
following my police car.
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Sorry, no comment.
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[horns honking in distance]
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So, now that is affecting
my job,
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and I'm like, "What are
you guys doing, man?
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I got to go to work."
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I'm just gonna stop you
for one minute...
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-Yes.
-...and say, if I had been
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working in the New York media
at that time,
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I absolutely would have been
following you...
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-[laughs]
-...down the sidewalk...
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-Well, that's--
-...and trying to interview you.
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That's what happened.
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Meanwhile, your dad,
a Port Authority cop...
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Mm-hmm.
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What did he think when you posed
for "Playboy" as a cop?
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Oh, he was not happy.
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My father did not speak to me
for six months after I posed.
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He was proud
when I became a cop.
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At Madison Square Garden,
when I had my ceremony,
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he stood there so proud, like,
his daughter's a cop like him.
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So with me posing for "Playboy,"
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he just couldn't wrap his head
around it at the time.
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You felt like you had
disappointed your dad?
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Yeah, I did. When my dad kinda
turned his back on me,
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it broke me.
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He didn't want everybody
and their mother
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seeing his daughter naked.
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So, yeah, I understood.
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In terms of your job, was there
ever any clause anywhere
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that says you cannot pose nude
in "Playboy" Magazine?
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No. Nothing like that.
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You just have to abide
by the rules and regulations
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that everyone else has
to abide in.
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What about other cops?
What did they say to you?
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I can honestly say, to my face,
not one bad comment.
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Everyone I knew was fine,
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but there were women
that didn't stand beside me.
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And the Policewomen Endowment
is basically an organization
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that helped support
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the women's movement
in the NYPD.
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And they came after me, saying,
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"We don't stand behind you,
and we don't support you."
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REPORTER:
Lieutenant Karen Krizan,
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who heads the Patrolwomen's
Endowment Association,
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says other female officers
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are paying the price
for Shaya's notoriety.
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We have women
that are out on foot posts,
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that, um, civilians drive by
in the cars and start either
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screaming obscenities at them
or ask them if they have, um,
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in nice terms, I can say
breasts that look like Carol's.
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So, when they came after me,
saying,
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"Oh, you know,
you posed for 'Playboy,'
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and you got paid,
and I go, hold on.
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First of all, cops make nothing.
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When I came out of the academy,
my salary was $24,977.
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It was nothing.
285
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It was hard to get by,
to be quite honest.
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My intention
was never to hurt females.
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It was nice to show
that female cops
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could still be feminine
and do a male job.
289
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So, what happens next?
290
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The NYPD put me
on a departmental trial
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because I posed nude
for a magazine in uniform...
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...even though
the uniform was a "replica."
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I used the uniform
for financial gain,
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is what they claimed.
295
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But the trial commissioner said,
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"Police Officer Shaya
followed the rules,
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and we have no legal grounds
to terminate her."
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So, I got through the trial.
299
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It was like, oh,
it felt good to win,
300
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but then one day the news is on,
and all of a sudden, I hear,
301
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you know,
"Police Officer Carol Shaya
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has been terminated
from the NYPD."
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I was like, what?
304
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And that is how
I found out I got fired.
305
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I was pissed.
306
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I went through a pissed stage.
307
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Then I went through
a really sad stage,
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like a grieving process.
309
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I just lost a big part of me.
310
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I overshadowed somebody who did
not want to be overshadowed.
311
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Bill Bratton,
former Police Commissioner.
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He loved the media,
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and here is some female cop
getting more media than he did.
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Being in the paper every week
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and being on "Page Six"
all the time,
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it was bringing
a lot of attention to me.
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He was the one who was bothered.
318
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So you thought that
Bill Bratton was jealous of you?
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100%.
320
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He said that you monetized
the NYPD uniform.
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Meanwhile,
he was under investigation
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for ethics violations.
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That's true. I remember that.
324
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GUERRERO: Because he had just
signed a book deal,
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so he had profited
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because of his relationship
with the NYPD.
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Around the same time,
there was a male NYPD officer
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who posed for "Playgirl"...
-Correct.
329
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-...and he was not fired.
-Correct.
330
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It's as sexist as it can be.
331
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I still feel like
there's sexism in the NYPD.
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I don't think
that'll ever go away.
333
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But it was a lot worse
back when I was on the job.
334
00:16:38,250 --> 00:16:40,660
And you know what?
There's that double standard.
335
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If a man can do whatever
he wants outside of work,
336
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why can't we?
337
00:16:44,950 --> 00:16:47,910
So, you see how people are gonna
think this is hypocritical.
338
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Absolutely.
339
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Men have done a lot worse.
340
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They have committed crimes
and not been terminated.
341
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After I lost my job,
342
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I was heartbroken
because I loved my job.
343
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I loved what I did. I could
have stayed there my whole life.
344
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I was so proud to be
a police officer in the NYPD.
345
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My oath was
to protect and serve.
346
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I had no idea
that posing for "Playboy"
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would take that away from me.
348
00:17:24,620 --> 00:17:29,370
And when something is
wrongfully taken away from you,
349
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it cuts deep.
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Coming from a family with
a strong military background,
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Michelle Manhart
enlisted in the Air Force
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when she was just 16.
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In her 14-year military career,
Michelle served
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in Germany and Kuwait before
becoming a drill sergeant.
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But when "Playboy" came to
San Antonio looking for models
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for an upcoming issue,
Michelle answered their call.
357
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-Hi, Michelle.
-Hello. How are you?
358
00:18:01,540 --> 00:18:03,450
-Good to meet you.
-So good to meet you.
359
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-Have a seat.
-Thank you.
360
00:18:07,200 --> 00:18:10,620
First of all,
thank you for your service.
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[laughs] Thanks.
362
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You are a badass.
363
00:18:13,450 --> 00:18:14,750
[laughs]
364
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Only on Tuesdays.
I just say only on Tuesdays.
365
00:18:17,120 --> 00:18:18,750
I'm so excited to meet you.
366
00:18:18,830 --> 00:18:20,200
-Thank you.
-Um...
367
00:18:20,290 --> 00:18:22,450
There's so many questions
I have for you,
368
00:18:22,540 --> 00:18:24,370
but the first thing
I wanna ask you is
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when was the first time
you ever saw a "Playboy,"
370
00:18:27,290 --> 00:18:29,000
and what did you think?
371
00:18:29,080 --> 00:18:30,830
I do remember when I was 8,
372
00:18:30,910 --> 00:18:33,120
I saw my first "Playboy,"
373
00:18:33,200 --> 00:18:35,200
and I remember
the women were so glamorous.
374
00:18:35,330 --> 00:18:38,080
There was just
this mystique about them
375
00:18:38,160 --> 00:18:40,500
that was very beautiful.
376
00:18:40,620 --> 00:18:42,750
It was like
this odd dream of mine.
377
00:18:42,870 --> 00:18:46,660
Like, it was this thought that
I wanted to be in "Playboy,"
378
00:18:46,700 --> 00:18:48,330
and I had said that day,
379
00:18:48,410 --> 00:18:50,410
"I'm--I'm gonna do that
someday." [chuckles]
380
00:18:50,500 --> 00:18:52,290
You have had
a really interesting life,
381
00:18:52,370 --> 00:18:57,700
and your childhood was
pretty difficult, I would say.
382
00:18:57,870 --> 00:19:01,040
You ended up leaving home early.
383
00:19:01,160 --> 00:19:03,500
Can you tell me
what happened and--and why?
384
00:19:03,580 --> 00:19:05,700
There were times
that my mom and I
385
00:19:05,830 --> 00:19:07,660
didn't get along very well,
386
00:19:07,750 --> 00:19:10,700
and we had gotten into
a very large fight at one point,
387
00:19:10,790 --> 00:19:14,000
and so she "kicked me out,"
388
00:19:14,080 --> 00:19:17,250
and I was forced to leave home.
389
00:19:17,330 --> 00:19:19,660
And I was still a kid.
390
00:19:19,750 --> 00:19:23,870
I look at it,
and I'm like, oh, I was 14.
391
00:19:23,950 --> 00:19:25,830
I didn't know
that it was abnormal,
392
00:19:25,910 --> 00:19:28,500
but I had a lot of support.
393
00:19:28,540 --> 00:19:31,410
I had a really good friend
at the time.
394
00:19:31,410 --> 00:19:33,870
Her mom let me live there
for a while.
395
00:19:35,620 --> 00:19:41,120
How did you end up
this...girl, this teenager,
396
00:19:41,200 --> 00:19:42,500
joining the military?
397
00:19:42,620 --> 00:19:44,200
I was getting close
to graduation,
398
00:19:44,200 --> 00:19:46,500
and I had talked
to a friend of mine,
399
00:19:46,620 --> 00:19:49,500
and she was talking
about joining the military.
400
00:19:49,580 --> 00:19:51,330
I had a lot of family members
that had already served,
401
00:19:51,410 --> 00:19:53,500
and so I was like,
ah, I'll go check this out.
402
00:19:53,580 --> 00:19:56,160
A lot of the offices
will show videos
403
00:19:56,200 --> 00:19:58,040
or have photos on the wall,
404
00:19:58,120 --> 00:20:00,660
and one of them was
the basic training video
405
00:20:00,700 --> 00:20:02,540
in the Air Force office.
406
00:20:02,620 --> 00:20:06,250
I just remember seeing these
people yelling at trainees,
407
00:20:06,330 --> 00:20:09,160
and I just thought that,
oh, my God, that's so fun.
408
00:20:09,250 --> 00:20:11,500
You get to yell all day.
I was like, I wanna do that.
409
00:20:11,540 --> 00:20:13,330
What do I have to do
to do that right there?
410
00:20:13,410 --> 00:20:15,120
And the recruiter laughed at me
and was like,
411
00:20:15,200 --> 00:20:18,700
"Oh, you--you can't just
do that, but you could do that."
412
00:20:18,870 --> 00:20:22,330
And so it was like, mm, let me--
let me open this door for you.
413
00:20:22,410 --> 00:20:24,410
But, like, I knew
I needed something
414
00:20:24,540 --> 00:20:27,040
to get my life on track,
or I was going to,
415
00:20:27,160 --> 00:20:29,500
who knows, end up where.
416
00:20:29,620 --> 00:20:32,080
My mother signed
her parental rights away,
417
00:20:32,160 --> 00:20:34,910
releasing me to the military.
418
00:20:34,910 --> 00:20:37,700
So, I went to graduation,
419
00:20:37,790 --> 00:20:41,660
walked across the stage,
got my diploma,
420
00:20:41,750 --> 00:20:44,200
and literally left
for the Air Force that day.
421
00:20:44,290 --> 00:20:46,370
I would think
that coming from a place
422
00:20:46,450 --> 00:20:48,160
where you left home
as a young girl
423
00:20:48,290 --> 00:20:51,790
to having this opportunity
to have a career,
424
00:20:51,870 --> 00:20:54,830
to have a roof over your head,
to have three meals a day,
425
00:20:54,910 --> 00:20:56,580
must have been very appealing.
426
00:20:56,660 --> 00:20:59,160
Oh, very much. But I just
think the idea of the military
427
00:20:59,250 --> 00:21:00,500
was very appealing to me.
428
00:21:00,540 --> 00:21:02,370
-Yeah. The discipline of it.
-Yes.
429
00:21:02,450 --> 00:21:04,080
-Serving your country.
-Yes.
430
00:21:04,200 --> 00:21:06,700
So, eventually in your career,
431
00:21:06,790 --> 00:21:08,370
you became a D.I.,
a drill instructor.
432
00:21:08,450 --> 00:21:11,200
Mm-hmm. That was 2003.
433
00:21:11,290 --> 00:21:13,160
What about being
a drill instructor
434
00:21:13,250 --> 00:21:14,790
appealed to you?
435
00:21:14,870 --> 00:21:17,500
Just the idea of, like,
shaping people,
436
00:21:17,580 --> 00:21:22,660
being able to be a part
of building something.
437
00:21:22,700 --> 00:21:24,250
The Air Force is
gonna continue, right?
438
00:21:24,370 --> 00:21:25,660
We--We leave,
it's gonna keep going,
439
00:21:25,750 --> 00:21:27,540
but if you could become
a part of it
440
00:21:27,620 --> 00:21:29,700
and put your footstep in there
and know that you made
441
00:21:29,790 --> 00:21:34,660
a difference for somebody,
you helped to change one life,
442
00:21:34,750 --> 00:21:36,830
it makes you feel complete,
or at least it does me.
443
00:21:36,870 --> 00:21:41,700
And so I just loved it.
444
00:21:41,790 --> 00:21:44,870
Best job I ever had.
445
00:21:44,950 --> 00:21:46,700
At this point in your life,
you'd been there for
446
00:21:46,790 --> 00:21:48,410
over a decade in the Air Force.
-Yeah.
447
00:21:48,540 --> 00:21:49,830
You wanted to be there
for 20 years.
448
00:21:49,910 --> 00:21:51,500
-Yes.
-At least.
449
00:21:51,580 --> 00:21:54,540
100%. I felt so perfectly
where I was supposed to be.
450
00:21:54,620 --> 00:21:56,540
Then what happened
with "Playboy"?
451
00:21:56,620 --> 00:22:00,790
My husband was
taking a, um, art class,
452
00:22:00,870 --> 00:22:05,700
and he was talking about how
they perceived nudity in "art."
453
00:22:05,700 --> 00:22:07,700
And then we got
on the topic of "Playboy,"
454
00:22:07,700 --> 00:22:12,620
and later I got on my computer,
and I typed in Playboy.com.
455
00:22:14,870 --> 00:22:17,790
Which I had
never been to before.
456
00:22:17,870 --> 00:22:20,450
And I was scrolling and looking
at different things.
457
00:22:20,540 --> 00:22:22,200
I had seen this area
at the bottom
458
00:22:22,200 --> 00:22:24,330
that was, like,
459
00:22:24,370 --> 00:22:26,250
"Recruiting near you"
or "Coming near you"
460
00:22:26,370 --> 00:22:29,160
or something like that,
and I clicked it.
461
00:22:29,250 --> 00:22:31,330
It said that they were going
to be in San Antonio, Texas,
462
00:22:31,410 --> 00:22:33,000
the very next day.
463
00:22:33,040 --> 00:22:34,870
-The next day?
-Yes.
464
00:22:34,950 --> 00:22:36,330
I knew this was meant to be.
465
00:22:36,410 --> 00:22:40,080
So, I talked
to my husband about it,
466
00:22:40,160 --> 00:22:42,500
and he was like,
"You should go."
467
00:22:44,660 --> 00:22:46,790
And so, what happened?
You just show up?
468
00:22:46,870 --> 00:22:48,410
I did. I just showed up.
469
00:22:48,540 --> 00:22:49,700
First, they brought us
into a room
470
00:22:49,790 --> 00:22:52,200
and did, like,
a typical interview.
471
00:22:52,290 --> 00:22:56,700
Did they know at this point
that you're in the Air Force?
472
00:22:56,790 --> 00:22:59,120
I'm sure they did, because
I remember we had to fill out,
473
00:22:59,200 --> 00:23:00,660
you know, like, when you go to
the doctor, you fill out this--
474
00:23:00,790 --> 00:23:02,120
A form. "What do you
do for a living?" kind--
475
00:23:02,200 --> 00:23:03,950
Yes. Right.
And then from there,
476
00:23:04,040 --> 00:23:05,830
you went into a next room,
and they're--
477
00:23:05,910 --> 00:23:09,290
this room's filming, um,
and they want you to be sensual,
478
00:23:09,370 --> 00:23:11,500
and I'm not very good at that.
[laughs]
479
00:23:11,580 --> 00:23:13,160
Did they ask you
to take your clothes off?
480
00:23:13,250 --> 00:23:15,830
They did,
and it was uncomfortable
481
00:23:15,870 --> 00:23:18,700
because
I'm very self-conscious naked.
482
00:23:18,830 --> 00:23:21,540
-So, who was in the room?
-The cameraperson.
483
00:23:21,660 --> 00:23:23,330
There was a female
asking questions,
484
00:23:23,410 --> 00:23:25,120
and then there was one more,
485
00:23:25,200 --> 00:23:29,290
and it was kind of, like,
overwhelming 'cause, you know,
486
00:23:29,370 --> 00:23:31,830
here I am,
and I know it's real,
487
00:23:31,950 --> 00:23:33,950
but at the same time,
I'm like, is it?
488
00:23:34,040 --> 00:23:36,660
Like, this is weird. I've never
been asked to do this.
489
00:23:36,750 --> 00:23:39,290
I was trying
to be sensual and cute
490
00:23:39,370 --> 00:23:42,120
and take off my clothes
slowly on the couch,
491
00:23:42,200 --> 00:23:45,000
and--and then I left. [laughs]
492
00:23:45,080 --> 00:23:48,700
So, how long was it before
you hear back from "Playboy"?
493
00:23:48,830 --> 00:23:50,250
The same day.
494
00:23:50,330 --> 00:23:52,000
-You heard back from
"Playboy"...
-I did.
495
00:23:52,040 --> 00:23:53,750
...the day that you auditioned
for them?
496
00:23:53,830 --> 00:23:56,500
I did. I got a phone call,
and they said, you know,
497
00:23:56,580 --> 00:24:00,080
"We really like the way
that you are on camera,
498
00:24:00,080 --> 00:24:01,830
and, um, we want to talk to you
499
00:24:01,870 --> 00:24:03,540
about doing
an actual photo shoot."
500
00:24:03,620 --> 00:24:05,200
And I was just like,
"Yes. I don't care. Yes.
501
00:24:05,290 --> 00:24:06,660
My answer's yes."
502
00:24:06,700 --> 00:24:09,450
-So, "Playboy" sends a team...
-They did.
503
00:24:09,540 --> 00:24:10,660
-...to shoot you...
-Right.
504
00:24:10,660 --> 00:24:11,660
-...in San Antonio.
-Correct.
505
00:24:11,750 --> 00:24:14,000
They said they were shooting
506
00:24:14,040 --> 00:24:15,500
for Employee of the Month.
507
00:24:15,540 --> 00:24:17,450
Employee of the Month
is just one photo,
508
00:24:17,540 --> 00:24:21,080
and then it had
some stats below it.
509
00:24:21,200 --> 00:24:24,450
So, we shot for that,
and then everything went back.
510
00:24:24,540 --> 00:24:26,410
And as you know,
Hef reviews everything.
511
00:24:26,540 --> 00:24:27,950
And I got a phone call.
512
00:24:28,040 --> 00:24:31,000
They said,
"So, Hef reviewed your photos,
513
00:24:31,040 --> 00:24:32,870
and he said
there's too many great photos,
514
00:24:32,950 --> 00:24:34,830
so he wants to give you
an entire spread." [chuckles]
515
00:24:34,870 --> 00:24:36,330
Wow.
516
00:24:36,410 --> 00:24:38,620
I thought it was a joke.
I literally told them,
517
00:24:38,700 --> 00:24:40,660
"Ha ha, this is funny"
on the phone.
518
00:24:40,750 --> 00:24:42,790
And it wasn't a joke.
It was very, very real.
519
00:24:42,870 --> 00:24:45,870
At some point,
did the alarm bells go off
520
00:24:45,870 --> 00:24:49,750
for you in any
of the documents you signed,
521
00:24:49,750 --> 00:24:52,370
any of the rules
you had to live by
522
00:24:52,450 --> 00:24:54,370
by being in the Air Force?
523
00:24:54,450 --> 00:24:59,160
Did you ever hear
or have anyone say to you,
524
00:24:59,250 --> 00:25:04,200
"You are not ever allowed
to pose nude for a magazine?
525
00:25:04,330 --> 00:25:07,080
Never. Never.
Was there ever anything
526
00:25:07,160 --> 00:25:09,160
that was ever said
to me about that side.
527
00:25:09,250 --> 00:25:11,580
My career was
so important to me.
528
00:25:11,660 --> 00:25:13,160
I would never even have
taken the photos
529
00:25:13,200 --> 00:25:15,700
if I thought it was taboo,
530
00:25:15,830 --> 00:25:17,660
but when the magazine came out,
531
00:25:17,750 --> 00:25:20,620
my whole life
was flipped upside down.
532
00:25:26,000 --> 00:25:28,120
Playboy said,
"We wanna photograph you.
533
00:25:28,200 --> 00:25:30,450
We're interested
in putting you in the magazine."
534
00:25:30,540 --> 00:25:32,700
Correct. They wanted
to make a bigger feature.
535
00:25:32,790 --> 00:25:34,580
What it was
is they wanted to perceive
536
00:25:34,700 --> 00:25:39,660
that women in the military
can yell at people, fight wars,
537
00:25:39,750 --> 00:25:41,330
serve their country honorably,
538
00:25:41,370 --> 00:25:43,790
but when they come home
at night,
539
00:25:43,870 --> 00:25:46,000
they're women who wanna be
treated like women.
540
00:25:46,040 --> 00:25:47,660
So, they wanted to show
that we do have
541
00:25:47,700 --> 00:25:49,580
these two sides to us.
542
00:25:49,700 --> 00:25:51,290
I get why
Playboy would want that.
543
00:25:51,370 --> 00:25:54,160
-Yeah.
-So, you shoot?
544
00:25:54,250 --> 00:25:55,910
-We spent a week shooting.
-Good experience?
545
00:25:56,040 --> 00:25:57,620
And it was awesome.
546
00:25:57,700 --> 00:25:59,750
You know, a lot of
different scenes and poses,
547
00:25:59,830 --> 00:26:01,950
and everything was wonderful.
548
00:26:02,040 --> 00:26:05,250
I love this photo 'cause
it reminds me of, like,
549
00:26:05,370 --> 00:26:09,620
this is the female human version
of a praying mantis right here.
550
00:26:09,700 --> 00:26:12,500
I'm gonna, like, have
amazing sex with you,
551
00:26:12,580 --> 00:26:14,370
and then I'm gonna
whup your ass,
552
00:26:14,450 --> 00:26:15,910
or maybe I'm gonna whup your ass
and then have sex with you.
553
00:26:16,040 --> 00:26:17,910
Either way,
you're getting your ass whupped.
554
00:26:18,000 --> 00:26:21,500
GUERRERO: The photos themselves,
were you completely nude?
555
00:26:21,540 --> 00:26:23,000
MICHELLE: In some, yes.
556
00:26:23,120 --> 00:26:25,080
And then were there ever parts
of your uniform
557
00:26:25,160 --> 00:26:29,160
that were shown or anything
in the nude photos?
558
00:26:29,250 --> 00:26:32,160
No. When I was even
partially dressed at all,
559
00:26:32,200 --> 00:26:33,450
I was not wearing a uniform.
560
00:26:33,540 --> 00:26:35,330
I didn't wear my hat
and disrespect it.
561
00:26:35,450 --> 00:26:36,830
But they featured you as
an Air Force...
562
00:26:36,870 --> 00:26:38,290
-Correct.
-...drill sergeant.
563
00:26:38,370 --> 00:26:40,750
-Right.
-And, in fact,
564
00:26:40,870 --> 00:26:43,370
didn't the Air Force provide
some pictures of you
565
00:26:43,450 --> 00:26:44,700
-Correct.
-..to "Playboy"?
566
00:26:44,830 --> 00:26:46,290
Yes.
567
00:26:46,370 --> 00:26:49,950
"Playboy" wanted approval to use
photos when I was serving.
568
00:26:50,040 --> 00:26:51,750
And so those photos
were checked off that,
569
00:26:51,830 --> 00:26:53,830
yes, these are real.
They're not fake, you know?
570
00:26:53,910 --> 00:26:55,540
GUERRERO: The military approved
these photos?
571
00:26:55,620 --> 00:26:57,160
Mm-hmm. Yeah, these are
real photos.
572
00:26:57,200 --> 00:26:58,580
-These are not, like--
-For "Playboy"?
573
00:26:58,660 --> 00:27:00,370
-Yeah.
-So you actually told
574
00:27:00,500 --> 00:27:03,290
your supervisor that you were
going to pose for "Playboy"?
575
00:27:03,370 --> 00:27:05,790
-Yes.
-And they approved this?
576
00:27:05,870 --> 00:27:07,120
Yes.
577
00:27:07,200 --> 00:27:08,540
Wow.
578
00:27:08,660 --> 00:27:10,370
I was never given
579
00:27:10,370 --> 00:27:14,330
any idea that anything
was going to be wrong with this.
580
00:27:14,370 --> 00:27:17,500
There was no red flags.
581
00:27:17,540 --> 00:27:18,830
So, but you're proud
of the pictures?
582
00:27:18,870 --> 00:27:20,620
-Yes.
-You're excited about it.
583
00:27:20,700 --> 00:27:22,950
My spread was called
"Tough Love."
584
00:27:23,040 --> 00:27:23,830
"Tough Love."
585
00:27:23,910 --> 00:27:25,830
-"Tough Love."
-Yeah.
586
00:27:25,950 --> 00:27:29,870
And my issue of "Playboy"
came out in February of 2007.
587
00:27:29,950 --> 00:27:31,750
So, they sent me an early copy,
588
00:27:31,830 --> 00:27:33,700
which I think is what they do
most of the time.
589
00:27:33,790 --> 00:27:36,830
I took that copy
into my supervisor
590
00:27:36,910 --> 00:27:41,370
to let him see it, and it went
from there to his boss.
591
00:27:41,500 --> 00:27:44,120
And I wasn't
really given any thought
592
00:27:44,200 --> 00:27:45,450
that anything was wrong,
593
00:27:45,540 --> 00:27:47,580
but I just felt the air
was weird.
594
00:27:47,580 --> 00:27:50,540
Went in the next day,
went to my supervisor,
595
00:27:50,540 --> 00:27:51,830
and I, you know, asked, um,
596
00:27:51,910 --> 00:27:53,580
"Hey, I left that magazine
with you.
597
00:27:53,660 --> 00:27:55,290
I just need to make sure
I get it back."
598
00:27:55,370 --> 00:27:56,750
And he said, "Okay, well,
599
00:27:56,870 --> 00:27:58,700
we're having a discussion
about it."
600
00:27:58,790 --> 00:28:01,410
And by the end of the day,
601
00:28:01,500 --> 00:28:04,120
my whole life
was flipped upside down.
602
00:28:04,200 --> 00:28:06,790
Later, they walked in,
603
00:28:06,870 --> 00:28:09,830
told me that I needed
to remove my campaign hat,
604
00:28:09,870 --> 00:28:13,000
that I needed to, um,
not report back to work.
605
00:28:13,080 --> 00:28:15,120
I was gonna report
to somewhere different.
606
00:28:15,200 --> 00:28:18,500
Your bosses then
make it very clear
607
00:28:18,580 --> 00:28:20,160
that you're in big trouble.
608
00:28:20,290 --> 00:28:21,830
They said, "We're opening
an investigation on you."
609
00:28:21,870 --> 00:28:23,870
-Ooh.
-And I-I was like,
610
00:28:23,950 --> 00:28:27,120
"Ooh, an investigation. On what?
I've given you a previous copy.
611
00:28:27,200 --> 00:28:29,830
I've told you everything.
You were well aware of it.
612
00:28:29,910 --> 00:28:32,330
What could
you possibly investigate?"
613
00:28:32,370 --> 00:28:35,200
I didn't know what was going on.
They wouldn't tell me anything.
614
00:28:35,290 --> 00:28:40,000
For the next, probably week,
uh, no one would talk to me.
615
00:28:40,040 --> 00:28:44,160
And that is when
the magazine came out.
616
00:28:44,250 --> 00:28:47,160
GUERRERO: Tell me about
the reaction from the public.
617
00:28:47,200 --> 00:28:51,330
MICHELLE: So, the public was
actually very supportive.
618
00:28:51,370 --> 00:28:52,830
Very supportive.
619
00:28:52,910 --> 00:28:55,580
They were like,
"this is awesome."
620
00:28:55,660 --> 00:28:57,870
But to the bosses,
this wasn't great.
621
00:28:57,870 --> 00:29:00,450
It was like,
"This is unacceptable.
622
00:29:00,540 --> 00:29:02,830
This is unbecoming of--
of an NCO."
623
00:29:06,950 --> 00:29:09,120
I-I guess something
that I didn't think about
624
00:29:09,200 --> 00:29:11,750
is how this would make
other women
625
00:29:11,830 --> 00:29:14,200
in the Air Force feel.
626
00:29:14,330 --> 00:29:17,330
And one of them even said
that, "She"--myself--
627
00:29:17,370 --> 00:29:20,160
"has set women in the military
back 200 years."
628
00:29:20,290 --> 00:29:22,910
How did that make you feel,
to hear that?
629
00:29:23,000 --> 00:29:26,040
It hurt, because I thought
I was doing something right.
630
00:29:26,120 --> 00:29:30,410
My commander at the time
was a female.
631
00:29:30,500 --> 00:29:32,870
She said,
"I was so proud of you,
632
00:29:32,950 --> 00:29:35,660
and now I have lost
all respect for you,"
633
00:29:35,700 --> 00:29:37,540
and that probably hit me
more than anything,
634
00:29:37,660 --> 00:29:41,040
because she knows how passionate
that I was for the military.
635
00:29:41,120 --> 00:29:43,750
For her to say those things
based off of a photograph,
636
00:29:43,830 --> 00:29:45,870
that hit. That hit hard.
637
00:29:45,870 --> 00:29:47,910
And then on the base that
I was at, there were people,
638
00:29:48,040 --> 00:29:49,830
you know, pointing, staring,
talking, whispering.
639
00:29:49,870 --> 00:29:51,790
And finally
I found out from a friend
640
00:29:51,870 --> 00:29:54,160
that everyone I worked with
641
00:29:54,250 --> 00:29:56,080
was given a direct order
not to speak to me.
642
00:29:58,040 --> 00:30:00,330
-So, you were shunned.
-Oh, it was a horrible feeling.
643
00:30:00,410 --> 00:30:02,290
And then after that,
644
00:30:02,370 --> 00:30:05,000
they told me that
their investigation was over,
645
00:30:05,120 --> 00:30:08,000
and they were going
to punish me under the UCMJ--
646
00:30:08,080 --> 00:30:09,620
Uniform Code of
Military Justice,
647
00:30:09,700 --> 00:30:11,160
which is the laws
that we must abide by
648
00:30:11,250 --> 00:30:12,910
under the weight management
section, and--
649
00:30:13,000 --> 00:30:15,160
Wait, like you were overweight
or underweight?
650
00:30:15,250 --> 00:30:16,830
So the weight management program
is all about, like,
651
00:30:16,870 --> 00:30:19,000
"having a good appearance"
for the military.
652
00:30:19,040 --> 00:30:22,790
Nothing in there
did I fall under. Nothing.
653
00:30:22,870 --> 00:30:26,450
But because it was
"not becoming of an NCO"
654
00:30:26,540 --> 00:30:30,410
to look that way is how they
were able to, like, use that.
655
00:30:30,500 --> 00:30:33,700
So, I ended up not completing
and finishing out
656
00:30:33,700 --> 00:30:35,830
with the time,
but I was enlisted.
657
00:30:35,910 --> 00:30:39,370
They were just like,
"We don't need you anymore."
658
00:30:39,450 --> 00:30:41,040
-So, you were discharged?
-Yes, honorably--
659
00:30:41,120 --> 00:30:43,040
-Honorably discharged.
-Yes.
660
00:30:43,160 --> 00:30:46,450
But you were never allowed
to wear your uniform again.
661
00:30:46,540 --> 00:30:47,660
No.
662
00:30:47,790 --> 00:30:49,870
Being discharged is something
663
00:30:50,000 --> 00:30:51,620
I will never forget.
664
00:30:51,700 --> 00:30:53,950
That was
the hardest moment for me.
665
00:30:58,830 --> 00:31:00,950
When you posed for "Playboy,"
you were honorably discharged...
666
00:31:01,040 --> 00:31:02,620
-Yes.
-...by the Air Force.
667
00:31:02,700 --> 00:31:04,540
Correct.
But I didn't break any rules.
668
00:31:04,620 --> 00:31:06,000
I didn't do anything wrong.
669
00:31:06,040 --> 00:31:08,200
Did I maybe upset some people?
Yes.
670
00:31:08,290 --> 00:31:11,700
From the time you are
16 years old, 17 years old,
671
00:31:11,700 --> 00:31:13,750
the Air Force is your family.
672
00:31:13,830 --> 00:31:16,040
-Right.
-How painful was it
673
00:31:16,200 --> 00:31:20,370
to lose your military family
in this way?
674
00:31:20,450 --> 00:31:22,790
Um, I went
through a lot of emotions.
675
00:31:22,870 --> 00:31:25,660
There's a special camaraderie
that comes
676
00:31:25,750 --> 00:31:27,160
with being in the military
677
00:31:27,200 --> 00:31:29,000
because, you know
at the end of the day,
678
00:31:29,040 --> 00:31:30,660
when you're standing
on that line,
679
00:31:30,790 --> 00:31:32,080
they've got your back.
680
00:31:32,160 --> 00:31:34,830
So, yeah,
I miss the camaraderie.
681
00:31:34,910 --> 00:31:36,580
I miss the family,
but at the same time,
682
00:31:36,700 --> 00:31:40,160
I was very angry
because I fought
683
00:31:40,200 --> 00:31:44,950
for our country and for
the First Amendment right.
684
00:31:45,040 --> 00:31:48,330
But I myself can't have that?
That's unacceptable.
685
00:31:48,410 --> 00:31:53,410
So I thought, the Air Force is
no longer for me.
686
00:31:56,540 --> 00:31:58,160
I felt betrayed.
687
00:31:58,250 --> 00:32:01,000
I felt like I was being thrown
away again, you know?
688
00:32:01,040 --> 00:32:03,580
It was kind of like my childhood
was coming back around.
689
00:32:03,660 --> 00:32:06,620
Oh, I did something wrong,
so just kick me out, you know?
690
00:32:06,700 --> 00:32:08,750
My mom kicked me out.
Now the Air Force kicks me out.
691
00:32:08,870 --> 00:32:11,830
But I've given you
14 years of my life.
692
00:32:11,910 --> 00:32:13,330
I've given you a lot of time
that I missed out
693
00:32:13,370 --> 00:32:14,830
with my children.
694
00:32:14,870 --> 00:32:16,870
I've given you so much
of my heart and soul,
695
00:32:17,000 --> 00:32:18,830
and my body aches all the time
696
00:32:18,910 --> 00:32:20,160
from all the stuff
I've been through.
697
00:32:20,200 --> 00:32:22,660
I felt unwanted, unneeded.
698
00:32:22,750 --> 00:32:24,410
I felt again, I had no purpose.
699
00:32:24,500 --> 00:32:27,330
I had nothing else.
700
00:32:27,410 --> 00:32:29,040
That's all I knew.
701
00:32:30,330 --> 00:32:32,000
I think at first
702
00:32:32,080 --> 00:32:33,910
there was a grieving process,
703
00:32:34,000 --> 00:32:35,540
you know,
'cause I've lost my identity.
704
00:32:35,660 --> 00:32:38,330
I've lost who I was, and I had
to become a new person.
705
00:32:38,410 --> 00:32:43,000
But there were times, um,
like on Veterans Day
706
00:32:43,160 --> 00:32:46,330
when, um, my husband got to go
speak to our child's school.
707
00:32:46,450 --> 00:32:48,250
That was very tough
708
00:32:48,330 --> 00:32:50,200
'cause I didn't get asked
to come speak.
709
00:32:50,290 --> 00:32:52,160
Even though I was
still a veteran,
710
00:32:52,250 --> 00:32:54,330
I didn't get asked to put
my uniform on and come speak.
711
00:32:54,410 --> 00:32:55,790
They asked him.
712
00:32:58,040 --> 00:33:00,000
Even now when I--
when I've gone to my--
713
00:33:00,080 --> 00:33:02,620
both of my children have
graduated basic training
714
00:33:02,700 --> 00:33:04,120
and their tech schools--
715
00:33:04,200 --> 00:33:06,660
going and not being
in my uniform for them,
716
00:33:06,700 --> 00:33:09,120
those are hard. Hard.
717
00:33:09,200 --> 00:33:11,410
Those hit me the worst.
718
00:33:14,160 --> 00:33:17,200
Serving our country
was a big honor.
719
00:33:17,290 --> 00:33:20,000
I was very proud to be able
to have that honor.
720
00:33:20,160 --> 00:33:22,450
But then I was stripped
of that honor.
721
00:33:22,450 --> 00:33:25,040
I was stripped
of what was mine,
722
00:33:25,120 --> 00:33:28,500
something that was finally mine,
something that I earned,
723
00:33:28,580 --> 00:33:31,370
something that I worked
really hard to get.
724
00:33:31,370 --> 00:33:35,120
And it was stripped away from me
because I posed in "Playboy."
725
00:33:43,500 --> 00:33:47,040
Carol and Michelle, before you
posed for "Playboy,"
726
00:33:47,120 --> 00:33:51,370
both of you were thriving
in male-dominated fields.
727
00:33:51,450 --> 00:33:54,160
You were a drill sergeant.
You were a cop.
728
00:33:54,250 --> 00:33:58,290
And both of you were fired
or dismissed, essentially,
729
00:33:58,370 --> 00:34:00,910
after having posed
for "Playboy."
730
00:34:01,000 --> 00:34:03,330
To me, it's infuriating
to hear your stories.
731
00:34:03,410 --> 00:34:05,410
Honestly,
I feel furious for you.
732
00:34:05,500 --> 00:34:08,080
CAROL: I felt like that
for a long time.
733
00:34:08,200 --> 00:34:11,410
I was angry
for a really long time,
734
00:34:11,500 --> 00:34:13,660
and I had a resentment in me.
735
00:34:13,750 --> 00:34:18,120
I was bitter, and I think
that came from a lot of hurt.
736
00:34:18,200 --> 00:34:20,660
-How about you, Michelle?
-I'm upset, of course,
737
00:34:20,700 --> 00:34:23,330
at the end of the day that I
didn't get to finish that goal
738
00:34:23,370 --> 00:34:25,580
I set out to do--
that large, 20-year goal,
739
00:34:25,660 --> 00:34:28,120
and in the long run, I guess
I just now make smaller goals
740
00:34:28,200 --> 00:34:30,250
so they're always obtainable.
741
00:34:30,330 --> 00:34:32,700
That's sad to me. Like, why
should you make smaller goals?
742
00:34:32,790 --> 00:34:35,120
Right. I mean, you're--
you're--you are correct.
743
00:34:35,200 --> 00:34:36,540
I'm sad that my career ended.
744
00:34:36,620 --> 00:34:38,040
I would like it
to have been different,
745
00:34:38,160 --> 00:34:39,870
but I can't change the past.
746
00:34:39,950 --> 00:34:43,540
You know, I always say, what did
we do that was so wrong?
747
00:34:43,540 --> 00:34:47,450
Maybe we got--
attracted too much attention.
748
00:34:47,540 --> 00:34:52,500
Well, that attention also
created a huge spotlight.
749
00:34:52,620 --> 00:34:55,540
Do you think
more women were made aware
750
00:34:55,620 --> 00:34:59,500
of the potential of
being a cop or in the Air Force
751
00:34:59,580 --> 00:35:02,080
because of you posing
and all the attention you got?
752
00:35:02,160 --> 00:35:04,580
I know firsthand
that's the case, because I--
753
00:35:04,660 --> 00:35:06,250
-You were told that.
-I was told it.
754
00:35:06,370 --> 00:35:09,870
I got millions of phone calls
back in the day.
755
00:35:09,950 --> 00:35:11,660
I still get messages
756
00:35:11,700 --> 00:35:14,040
and Facebook messages
from people saying,
757
00:35:14,120 --> 00:35:16,790
"Oh, I became a cop
because of you.
758
00:35:16,870 --> 00:35:20,700
I didn't think I could do it,
but when I saw that you did it,
759
00:35:20,700 --> 00:35:22,580
I felt empowered to do it."
And I bet you,
760
00:35:22,580 --> 00:35:24,500
you get
a lot of messages like that.
761
00:35:24,580 --> 00:35:26,540
Maybe they're not looking
at joining the Air Force,
762
00:35:26,660 --> 00:35:29,870
but they--I feel
that my pictorial more
763
00:35:29,950 --> 00:35:31,410
brought them to say,
"Oh, I can go out
764
00:35:31,500 --> 00:35:33,200
and be a tomboy and still..."
-Right.
765
00:35:33,290 --> 00:35:34,660
...you know, kind of a thing
766
00:35:34,750 --> 00:35:36,830
instead of being held
to this one standard.
767
00:35:36,870 --> 00:35:39,410
I'm sure not one single woman
decided not to be
768
00:35:39,540 --> 00:35:41,450
in the Air Force
because you posed nude.
769
00:35:41,540 --> 00:35:42,620
-Is that fair to say?
-I would say yes.
770
00:35:42,700 --> 00:35:44,330
Yeah.
771
00:35:44,370 --> 00:35:48,250
What does me or--or Carol
getting naked in a magazine
772
00:35:48,330 --> 00:35:51,790
have to do with whether or not
we can do our jobs?
773
00:35:53,450 --> 00:35:56,950
My oath was not
to not have a life
774
00:35:57,040 --> 00:35:59,830
and not be able to be me,
775
00:35:59,910 --> 00:36:02,500
to be a woman,
to shelter myself.
776
00:36:02,580 --> 00:36:07,540
My oath was
to protect and serve.
777
00:36:07,540 --> 00:36:09,830
What is me taking
my clothes off
778
00:36:09,950 --> 00:36:13,040
have to do with me being able
779
00:36:13,160 --> 00:36:16,580
to protect and serve
the community?
780
00:36:16,660 --> 00:36:19,000
In your case, Michelle,
you had spent
781
00:36:19,080 --> 00:36:23,870
14 years doing this,
and you loved your job.
782
00:36:23,950 --> 00:36:24,870
The other members
of the Air Force
783
00:36:25,000 --> 00:36:26,790
felt like your family,
784
00:36:26,870 --> 00:36:28,660
when you were coming
from a place
785
00:36:28,700 --> 00:36:31,870
where you didn't have a family,
so I'm sure, if nothing else,
786
00:36:31,950 --> 00:36:34,000
being fired, it was shocking.
787
00:36:34,080 --> 00:36:35,870
-To say the least, yeah.
-Yeah.
788
00:36:40,290 --> 00:36:42,330
I'll just say that I--
789
00:36:42,370 --> 00:36:43,750
there were times
I wasn't in a good place.
790
00:36:43,750 --> 00:36:45,500
You know?
791
00:36:45,540 --> 00:36:47,620
And typically when
we leave the military,
792
00:36:47,700 --> 00:36:50,000
there is a whole process that
goes with leaving the military.
793
00:36:50,040 --> 00:36:51,500
Even if you're kicked out,
794
00:36:51,500 --> 00:36:53,080
let's say you committed
a murder,
795
00:36:53,160 --> 00:36:54,450
I did not receive that.
796
00:36:54,540 --> 00:36:56,750
-Wow.
-I was in the military one day,
797
00:36:56,830 --> 00:36:59,330
and literally at 7 a.m.,
798
00:36:59,410 --> 00:37:01,200
I got a phone call
from my lawyer that said,
799
00:37:01,290 --> 00:37:04,120
"Hey, guess what? You're
no longer in the military."
800
00:37:04,200 --> 00:37:06,160
So I'm just gonna say
there were times
801
00:37:06,200 --> 00:37:07,790
I was not in a good place.
802
00:37:15,870 --> 00:37:17,660
-We're gonna bring in a video...
-CAROL: Okay.
803
00:37:17,700 --> 00:37:19,330
-...that we wanna show you guys.
-Oh.
804
00:37:19,410 --> 00:37:20,330
And get your response to this...
805
00:37:20,450 --> 00:37:22,540
-Okay.
-...on the back end.
806
00:37:22,620 --> 00:37:25,660
Melissa Williams still
operates her OnlyFans page.
807
00:37:25,700 --> 00:37:27,540
It's a popular website
where people can post photos
808
00:37:27,660 --> 00:37:30,410
and videos for
their money-paying subscribers,
809
00:37:30,500 --> 00:37:32,620
and the content is
often sexual in nature.
810
00:37:32,700 --> 00:37:35,790
Melissa Williams spent
28 years in law enforcement,
811
00:37:35,910 --> 00:37:38,000
but away from work,
she could be found
812
00:37:38,040 --> 00:37:41,500
on her OnlyFans page wearing
little and sometimes nothing.
813
00:37:41,580 --> 00:37:43,750
Co-workers did find out
and filed a complaint,
814
00:37:43,830 --> 00:37:46,450
stating, "Lieutenant Williams'
poor judgment
815
00:37:46,540 --> 00:37:48,160
was a discredit
to the Sheriff's Office."
816
00:37:48,250 --> 00:37:50,330
Did you ever think
about applying
817
00:37:50,370 --> 00:37:52,120
for secondary employment
from the Sheriff's Department?
818
00:37:52,200 --> 00:37:55,540
No, because it was never started
to make money.
819
00:37:55,620 --> 00:37:57,160
It just happened to make money.
820
00:37:57,200 --> 00:38:00,830
But rather than face an
Internal Affairs investigation,
821
00:38:00,910 --> 00:38:04,750
she agreed to a $30,000
release agreement to retire.
822
00:38:04,870 --> 00:38:06,950
WILLIAMS:
I did not leave out of shame.
823
00:38:07,040 --> 00:38:09,910
It was the right thing
for myself and my family.
824
00:38:12,120 --> 00:38:14,040
This just happened recently.
825
00:38:14,120 --> 00:38:16,160
-[sighs]
-2021.
826
00:38:16,200 --> 00:38:18,700
I am dying to know
what the two of you
827
00:38:18,830 --> 00:38:20,830
think about this story.
828
00:38:20,870 --> 00:38:22,330
Let's start with you.
829
00:38:22,450 --> 00:38:24,000
I can see in your face
you have something to say.
830
00:38:24,080 --> 00:38:26,290
[laughs] I'm, like, angry. Uh...
831
00:38:26,370 --> 00:38:31,830
I just don't understand
what she did wrong.
832
00:38:31,910 --> 00:38:34,000
Something that was told to me,
which I'm sure was told to you
833
00:38:34,080 --> 00:38:35,700
and was told to her, is that,
834
00:38:35,790 --> 00:38:37,160
"Oh, people aren't
gonna respect you."
835
00:38:37,200 --> 00:38:38,830
CAROL: Right.
836
00:38:38,870 --> 00:38:40,580
"Oh, they've seen
this other side of you."
837
00:38:40,660 --> 00:38:42,000
[stammers] This frustrates me.
Can you tell?
838
00:38:42,000 --> 00:38:43,660
-[laughs]
-A person can go out
839
00:38:43,790 --> 00:38:47,290
on a Friday night and go home
with five different people.
840
00:38:47,370 --> 00:38:49,000
You're not getting
in trouble for that.
841
00:38:49,080 --> 00:38:52,200
I mean, we're--I don't
understand where this line is
842
00:38:52,290 --> 00:38:54,040
that, "Oh, this is wrong.
Oh, well, because,
843
00:38:54,120 --> 00:38:55,790
oh, people are gonna see you
on that, and then they're--
844
00:38:55,870 --> 00:38:57,620
you're gonna be in uniform,
and they're gonna think,
845
00:38:57,700 --> 00:38:59,540
"Oh, I don't have to
listen to you beca--"
846
00:38:59,620 --> 00:39:02,160
This shows
that nothing has changed.
847
00:39:02,200 --> 00:39:03,790
Carol, what did you think?
848
00:39:03,870 --> 00:39:05,500
Now she's making money
849
00:39:05,580 --> 00:39:08,370
and did not seek
off-duty employment,
850
00:39:08,450 --> 00:39:12,950
so the department used that
to come after her.
851
00:39:13,040 --> 00:39:16,580
Okay, so this gets to one of
the things that frustrates me.
852
00:39:16,700 --> 00:39:20,620
It seems like they are
trying to find some clause...
853
00:39:20,700 --> 00:39:22,620
-That's what they do.
-...some rule that they broke
854
00:39:22,700 --> 00:39:26,290
because they can't just say,
"I think you're a slut."
855
00:39:26,370 --> 00:39:27,580
Right.
856
00:39:27,660 --> 00:39:29,410
They're not
allowed to say that.
857
00:39:29,500 --> 00:39:30,660
They can't fire you for that.
So instead they say,
858
00:39:30,790 --> 00:39:32,500
"Oh, she didn't fill out
the proper form,
859
00:39:32,580 --> 00:39:35,500
and she's making money
doing this." Isn't that crazy?
860
00:39:35,540 --> 00:39:36,700
-That's ridiculous.
-It is crazy.
861
00:39:36,790 --> 00:39:38,580
Like you said, they're finding,
862
00:39:38,660 --> 00:39:40,290
you know, a string to pull at.
-Right.
863
00:39:40,370 --> 00:39:41,750
Because what if she sat at home
864
00:39:41,830 --> 00:39:43,410
and made cups
in her off-duty time,
865
00:39:43,540 --> 00:39:45,200
and she sold those?
866
00:39:45,290 --> 00:39:46,660
Would that be considered
off-duty employment,
867
00:39:46,830 --> 00:39:49,370
or is it just because
it's of a sexual nature?
868
00:39:49,450 --> 00:39:51,410
I think you're getting
at something really interesting.
869
00:39:51,500 --> 00:39:54,580
What I feel like is the center
of this is the fact that
870
00:39:54,660 --> 00:39:56,910
it's extremely upsetting
for men in power
871
00:39:57,000 --> 00:40:00,200
to see women using
their sexuality to make money
872
00:40:00,290 --> 00:40:01,660
online or in magazines.
873
00:40:01,700 --> 00:40:04,290
But they don't have
a problem looking at it.
874
00:40:04,370 --> 00:40:06,160
-Who's looking at it? Men.
-Men. [laughs]
875
00:40:06,250 --> 00:40:07,700
Predominantly.
I mean, now, everybody.
876
00:40:07,830 --> 00:40:10,120
-Yeah. [laughs]
-But, yes, double standards.
877
00:40:10,200 --> 00:40:11,910
So many double standards, which
we've been talking about...
878
00:40:12,000 --> 00:40:13,660
-CAROL: Yeah.
-...this entire episode.
879
00:40:13,700 --> 00:40:16,700
And when I look at you,
it makes me wonder,
880
00:40:16,830 --> 00:40:19,120
the fact that you were in these
male-dominated industries
881
00:40:19,200 --> 00:40:20,870
and doing so well,
882
00:40:20,950 --> 00:40:23,830
do you think that--
that kind of strikes fear
883
00:40:23,910 --> 00:40:25,620
into men especially?
884
00:40:25,700 --> 00:40:28,790
I'm not gonna say fear. I'm
gonna say we intimidate them.
885
00:40:28,870 --> 00:40:30,950
But then when
this happened to us,
886
00:40:31,040 --> 00:40:33,540
we had superior men
that came in and said,
887
00:40:33,620 --> 00:40:36,410
"Ha ha, you thought
you were the 'A' dog.
888
00:40:36,500 --> 00:40:37,830
Now I'm gonna come in
and take over
889
00:40:37,870 --> 00:40:39,750
and show you
what it's really like."
890
00:40:39,830 --> 00:40:42,790
Well, I wanna say that
I appreciate you being here,
891
00:40:42,870 --> 00:40:46,620
and I really appreciate you guys
clearing up a lot of things.
892
00:40:46,700 --> 00:40:48,950
And this is
your opportunity, finally,
893
00:40:49,040 --> 00:40:54,370
to say what is important that
you leave behind today. Carol?
894
00:40:54,450 --> 00:40:56,620
For me, honestly, it's just
895
00:40:56,700 --> 00:40:59,000
I kind of feel like
I turned the table
896
00:40:59,080 --> 00:41:04,250
from cop to perpetrator
when I posed for "Playboy."
897
00:41:04,330 --> 00:41:06,500
Meanwhile, I risked my life.
898
00:41:06,580 --> 00:41:09,450
I did so much for that job,
899
00:41:09,540 --> 00:41:12,000
and I was proud of it,
900
00:41:12,080 --> 00:41:15,660
and I never thought twice
when I was risking my life.
901
00:41:15,750 --> 00:41:18,540
But yet here I am kind of
feeling like I'm being treated
902
00:41:18,620 --> 00:41:20,330
like a perpetrator.
903
00:41:20,410 --> 00:41:24,000
We've talked a lot about what
happened to you in the Air Force
904
00:41:24,040 --> 00:41:27,120
and what happened
to that 14-year career.
905
00:41:27,200 --> 00:41:31,040
What do you want people to know
about you and your journey?
906
00:41:31,120 --> 00:41:33,700
I want people to know
that I'm not mad at the military
907
00:41:33,790 --> 00:41:36,410
in the sense of I'm very proud
that I was able to serve.
908
00:41:36,500 --> 00:41:39,540
I am upset at the decisions
909
00:41:39,620 --> 00:41:43,500
of those that were assigned
above me.
910
00:41:43,540 --> 00:41:46,370
If I was under, you know,
a different area,
911
00:41:46,450 --> 00:41:48,330
maybe the results
would have been different.
912
00:41:50,000 --> 00:41:52,540
Wearing my uniform gave me
a purpose
913
00:41:52,620 --> 00:41:54,700
and made me real,
914
00:41:54,790 --> 00:41:59,870
made me human,
made me important.
915
00:41:59,950 --> 00:42:02,660
I was very proud to be
able to have that honor,
916
00:42:02,750 --> 00:42:04,580
but then I was stripped
of that honor
917
00:42:04,700 --> 00:42:08,040
because I posed in "Playboy."
918
00:42:08,160 --> 00:42:13,830
CAROL: This is me the day that
I turned in my gun and shield.
919
00:42:13,910 --> 00:42:17,040
That was
a very emotional day for me,
920
00:42:17,160 --> 00:42:22,540
so it kind of chokes me up
a little bit seeing it.
921
00:42:22,620 --> 00:42:25,620
I felt like my heart was
ripped out of my chest.
922
00:42:25,620 --> 00:42:29,700
So, losing my uniform
after I posed for "Playboy"
923
00:42:29,790 --> 00:42:32,540
really felt
like I lost a part of me.
924
00:42:32,620 --> 00:42:35,000
A lot of heartache
came from that.
925
00:42:35,040 --> 00:42:37,410
I lost my suit of armor,
926
00:42:37,500 --> 00:42:40,910
and I will never
wrap my head around why.
927
00:42:45,750 --> 00:42:48,620
I met the standard of beauty
on one criteria,
928
00:42:48,700 --> 00:42:52,620
but on other criteria,
I was not even in the ballpark.
929
00:42:52,700 --> 00:42:56,410
Did Black women fit "Playboy's"
standard of beauty?
930
00:42:56,500 --> 00:42:58,660
No. It looked like S&M.
931
00:42:58,700 --> 00:43:00,580
That's not someone
you put on a pedestal.
932
00:43:00,660 --> 00:43:02,700
You just have sex
with that person.
933
00:43:02,700 --> 00:43:05,830
When they decided to hire me,
people were like,
934
00:43:05,910 --> 00:43:08,790
"This is disgusting.
She's horrible."
935
00:43:08,870 --> 00:43:10,330
We shattered the idea that
936
00:43:10,370 --> 00:43:12,540
there's a perfect ideal
of beauty.
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