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In 2002, Playboy was doing
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their first-ever
nationally televised search
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for a "Playboy" centerfold.
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ANNOUNCER: Fox tonight,
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12 sexy girls next door
find out what it takes
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to become a "Playboy" Playmate.
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It was similar to, like,
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an "America’s Next Top Model"
but for Playmates.
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On the show,
there were different levels
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of undress that were happening.
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I didn’t even know
how to pose in a sexual way.
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Posing naked
for the first time...
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was terrifying.
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I was very insecure
about my body.
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Once I posed for the show,
I was no longer Jill Scott.
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I was now Jill that posed naked.
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It’s so wrong.
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That’s the dark side,
is what people say,
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you know, behind your back
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or to your parents
or to your kids.
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We signed up for it, you know?
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We kinda knew
what we were going into.
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But with "Playboy,"
you can either thrive in it...
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or it can chew you up
and spit you out.
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[motor revving]
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My name is Hugh Hefner.
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I’m editor-publisher
of "Playboy" Magazine.
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REPORTER: Playboy is one
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of the most famous brand names
in the world.
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It was simply to include sex as
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one natural part of a package
for a male audience.
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WOMAN: When I made the choice
to do "Playboy,"
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I didn’t realize all
the choices that I was making
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that came with that choice.
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WOMAN #2: We don’t judge the men
for buying the "Playboy"s,
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but we judge the women
for posing for "Playboy."
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JILL:
I was never Jill anymore.
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I was Jill
that posed for "Playboy."
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WOMAN #3: I just gave in
and knew that I was
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probably gonna go to hell.
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WOMAN #4:
It got to a certain point
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where it wasn’t fun anymore.
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SONDRA:
This process was very painful,
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but I should be able to tell
my story as I lived it.
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Growing up,
my first "Playboy" memory
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would just be, in general,
the beautiful women.
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It was,
you know, Carmen Electra,
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Pam Anderson, Anna Nicole,
the--the start of it all--
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Marilyn Monroe,
the most beautiful women.
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When I found
my dad’s "Playboy"s,
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I just thought
the women were beautiful,
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and I just wanted
to look like that.
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I wanted to be like that.
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Playboy opened up a world
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that I would have never known,
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But that could be good or bad.
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In 2001, the Playboy brand
had a bit of a renaissance.
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At the time, Hefner had
just broken up with his wife.
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He was back on the market.
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PHOTOGRAPHER:
This way now, girls. This way.
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Playboy also was in the market
to try to mainstream their brand
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’cause the print media
was going out of business.
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Hefner saw his business dying.
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So, it’s not surprising
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that any company
would do whatever they have to
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to kind of sell what
they need to to other people.
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So, 2001,
there was several years
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of house shows that were being
pretty mainstream on MTV,
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like "The Real World,"
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"Road Rules,"
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"Making the Band."
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It was the peak
of reality shows.
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I don’t know anybody that didn’t
spend their afternoons watching
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"Real World"
or "Road Rules" on MTV.
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This was the, like, explosion
of reality TV.
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So, if Playboy could come up
with a television show,
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it could lead to other things.
Playboy could be mainstream.
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And so the chance to pick a
"Playboy" Playmate on television
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was something that
really hadn’t been seen before.
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So, ultimately,
Playboy got a sale
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for a 2-hour special on Fox,
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and I was appointed
the showrunner.
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Our goal was
to ultimately give everybody
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a glimpse what it’s like picking
a "Playboy" centerfold
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without being perverse.
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HEFNER: This is the portal to
the possibility of Hollywood
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or modeling or some moment
in the sun as a celebrity.
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"Who Wants to Be
a Playboy Centerfold?"--
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it was similar to, like,
an "America’s Next Top Model,"
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but for Playmates.
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The prize was becoming
the centerfold,
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being Playmate, Mis July 2002.
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So, the dream of being
a centerfold, obviously, is
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for the fame,
but it is very lucrative.
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It’s very lucrative.
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A centerfold gets $25,000
for Playmate of the Month
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and $100,000
for Playmate of the Year,
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and you can actually turn that
into a whole career.
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When we were out casting
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for "Who Wants to Be
a Playboy Centerfold?",
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there were
thousands of submissions.
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D.J.: Star 98.7, Los Angeles.
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Right now,
down at Playboy Studio West,
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Hugh Hefner is
looking for 12 finalists
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to compete for "Playboy"’s
Playmate of the Month.
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We really spread
a pretty wide net in the process
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because we were
looking for something
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that Playboy had--had embodied
for years and years and years--
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that real experience
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of someone being plucked
out of hometown USA
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and brought to Los Angeles
and living the dream.
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Hef always said that--that
when he was picking Playmates,
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he wanted it to be
the girl next door.
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That would be what would--
to him, what made it special
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is the girl that you never
thought would do it,
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not the girl
that you knew would.
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My name is Shallan.
I’m 20 years old,
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and I’m from Las Vegas.
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Playboy was not my dream.
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I had just moved back
to Las Vegas.
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I got a job at Spago
as a hostess,
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and you get all
different types of people
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that come into Spago’s
that was in Caesar’s Palace.
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And this woman
and another woman walk up,
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and she said, "Can I ask you
a couple questions?
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Are your boobs real?"
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In my mind, I’m thinking,
I’m not sure
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if this woman’s hitting on me.
I just politely smiled
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and said, "Yes, they are."
[laughs]
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And so she gave me her card,
and she said, "Listen,
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we’re doing the last round
of casting for this show.
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I think you’d be great for,
but it’s with ’Playboy.’"
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My face just looked like this.
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So, I let her know
I was only 20,
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so she told me
I should talk to my mom.
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I had never even seen
a "Playboy" before.
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So, my mom thought
it would be really important
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for me to go pick up
a "Playboy," look at it,
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and see if the photos made me
comfortable or not,
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see if it even seemed like
something I could possibly do.
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But I was shy, so to pick up,
you know, the magazine
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that had the black cover on it,
like, quietly pay for it,
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I remember looking
at the "Playboy" and thinking,
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wow, these women are gorgeous.
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I thought there is no way
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that they could make me
look like those girls.
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You know, ’cause those girls--
they just don’t look real.
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I felt like I was peeling
through the pictures,
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kind of getting, uh, nervous,
’cause I knew whatever it was
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was a big opportunity.
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It’s just whether or not
I could be comfortable enough
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to go through with it,
and I’m like,
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what I told my mom is,
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I don’t know if I’m gonna be
able to get naked.
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She goes, "Well, there’s only
one way to find out." [laughs]
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I was incredibly shy,
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and the idea of walking around
in a swimsuit
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made me uncomfortable.
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I was scared,
but, um, tired of being scared.
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I don’t know--I feel like
everyone’s done that before,
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where there’s a lot
of opportunities that led up
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to this opportunity, where
I wondered what could have been,
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but I was just too afraid
to do something.
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My mother said,
"Well, what are you thinking?"
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And I told her, "I don’t know."
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I was sitting there,
and all I could think about was,
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what if I’m 80 years old,
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and I have this story
of what could have been,
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what I could have said yes to.
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I could either be 80 years old
and be like,
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"You know,
somebody tried to cast me once,"
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or I could be, "Hey, let me
show you these crazy pictures.
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Grandma was hot once."
[laughs]
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So, I went ahead and I said yes.
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I want to say
it was about two days later
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that I had to fly to L.A.
for the casting.
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I was not very good at makeup.
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Uh, my hair was a lot like this,
and I was in, like, cargo pants.
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So, I’m getting on the airplane
with these girls.
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These girls had the heels.
They had the lashes.
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They had the lips.
They had the hair.
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What am I doing here? [laughs]
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Like, why am I even here?
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Is this a waste of time?
Is this a joke?
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Am I, like, the, okay, they have
to throw that girl in there?
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Right?
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We get there, and right away
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they take us
to Playboy Studio West.
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Uh, they have me
put on a bathing suit,
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put on a robe
within a handful of minutes,
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and the whole time,
this crew is filming me.
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-I’m Billy.
-Shallan.
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-Shallan?
-Shallan.
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We’re just gonna take
about 10 or so Polaroids.
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Okay. I’ve never done
anything like that before, so...
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-Oh, really? Okay.
-Really.
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Then you are just like
the girl next door.
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The casting just kind of
threw you in, like, hard,
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like, "All right,
take your top off.
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We got to get a Polaroid."
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And I’m like... [gasps]
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And they’re like,
"It’s now or never."
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ANNOUNCER: One by one,
the ladies will be eliminated
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until the chosen one becomes
the magazine’s Miss July.
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Hi, I’m Carmella.
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I’m from Westlake, Ohio,
and I’m 19.
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I was so young. So young.
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I grew up in Cleveland, Ohio.
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I was not
a very pretty young girl.
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I got made fun of at school.
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I used to go home crying
every day from school.
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I was a super shy,
very intimidated little girl.
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But by the time I turned 19,
Playboy came to town
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for "Who Wants to Be
a Playboy Centerfold?"
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It was on the local news
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and explained the premise
of the show,
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and I looked at the TV,
and I’m like,
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"I’m gonna do that."
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So, I take it you’re interested
in being in "Playboy"?
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Yes, I wanna be a Playmate.
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I’m nervous, but I’m kind of
excited, though.
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The audition process
in and of itself
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was, uh, very intimidating.
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There’s no preparation.
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It was--it’s--it’s a freak out.
It’s a freak-out moment.
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I didn’t even know how
to pose in a sexual way.
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I was 19,
so it was definitely new
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and, um...awkward.
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My name is Lauren Anderson.
I’m 21 years old,
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and I’m
from Gainesville, Florida.
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I would like to be
a veterinarian someday.
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Animals are--
are definitely my passion.
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Playboy wasn’t on--
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I mean, no,
that was not something
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that I had a dream of being.
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I was in college
at the University of Florida,
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and I was studying
to be a veterinarian.
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Being in "Playboy" when
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the situation presented itself,
I was in my senior year.
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I had done a little bit
of local modeling,
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and my agent, uh, called me
and said that Playboy
242
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was coming to do
the "College Girls" issue.
243
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She said, "Just go. You don’t
have to do it, you know?
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Just go see
what it’s all about."
245
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And I-I went, and, um,
246
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I told them that
I would not pose fully nude,
247
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but they said, okay,
248
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and--and they still selected me
to represent my university,
249
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and I was only topless.
250
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You know, Playboy is--it has--
they have this way
251
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of just making you feel
totally comfortable,
252
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even when you’re--even when
you’re standing there
253
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without a top on.
254
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When I was in high school,
middle school,
255
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I always was worried about
my body and what it looked like.
256
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And even though
I was thin, again,
257
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I-I didn’t have a perfect body.
Nobody has a perfect body.
258
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But I had these boobs that were,
you know,
259
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yes, you know, boys loved ’em,
260
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but they were these boobs
that were a real issue for me.
261
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This is the "College Girls"
issue that I was in,
262
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representing
the University of Florida
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for "Girls of the SEC,"
264
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and there’s mine.
265
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-PRODUCER: How old were you?
-Just turned 21.
266
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So shortly after I did
the "College Girls" issue,
267
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I got a call from Playboy
that they were doing a--
268
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their first-ever nationally,
um, televised search
269
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for a "Playboy" centerfold
270
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and asked if I wanted to go
and audition in Miami.
271
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I kind of went, just like,
oh, that--
272
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that would be a cool experience.
273
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She had driven down from, um,
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her college
at University of Florida.
275
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Lauren was very confident.
276
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Um, you can tell
she is competitive,
277
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and she definitely understood
what she was doing there
278
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and what her goals were, um,
279
00:12:18,900 --> 00:12:21,950
but she was insecure
in her own body in some ways,
280
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which made her interesting
to us.
281
00:12:24,530 --> 00:12:27,070
Very nice right there.
One, two, and three.
282
00:12:27,120 --> 00:12:28,950
-[camera shutter clicks]
-Very--That is beautiful.
283
00:12:28,950 --> 00:12:30,570
Excellent. Arch your back.
284
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-Three.
-[camera shutter clicks]
285
00:12:32,120 --> 00:12:35,580
Ugh. Tugs at my heartstrings,
seeing myself like that.
286
00:12:35,630 --> 00:12:37,050
It’s pretty uncomfortable,
though.
287
00:12:37,090 --> 00:12:40,130
That--That--That shot
that’s on all fours,
288
00:12:40,210 --> 00:12:42,290
that was a little odd.
I don’t remember doing that.
289
00:12:42,380 --> 00:12:43,920
You know, I feel like when I’m--
I’m watching that,
290
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I’m just this kid.
291
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Even though
I’m an adult, obviously,
292
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and just posing on all fours
293
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and, you know,
posing in a bikini,
294
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like, it’s no big thing,
295
00:12:52,980 --> 00:12:55,650
and then jump in my Mustang
and head back to college.
296
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[laughs]
297
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I was just
so young and innocent.
298
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My name is Jill Scott.
299
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I’m 21 years old,
and I’m from Atlanta, Georgia.
300
00:13:05,660 --> 00:13:06,910
[laughs]
301
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When I was 20,
302
00:13:10,290 --> 00:13:12,580
I worked at a club in Atlanta,
303
00:13:12,620 --> 00:13:17,330
and I ran into a girl that
I also worked with at Hooters.
304
00:13:17,420 --> 00:13:18,590
She ran up to me,
and she was like,
305
00:13:18,630 --> 00:13:21,670
"Oh, my gosh,
I just shot for ’Playboy.’"
306
00:13:21,670 --> 00:13:23,790
And I was like,
"I would love to--
307
00:13:23,840 --> 00:13:25,640
What? I would love to do that."
308
00:13:25,680 --> 00:13:28,680
So within a week, I was doing
my test shots for "Playboy."
309
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That was my first time ever,
ever posing nude.
310
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It just--It never bothered me.
It...
311
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I ended up doing,
like, 20 special editions.
312
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"Playboy College Girls,"
313
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"Playboy Nudes,"
"Playboy Lingerie."
314
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So, the...photographer
that shot me
315
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for these special editions
called me one day and said,
316
00:13:52,790 --> 00:13:55,540
"Get--Get your butt down
to Atlanta." [laughs]
317
00:13:55,540 --> 00:13:57,550
She didn’t even tell me
what it was about.
318
00:13:57,620 --> 00:14:00,450
She just said,
"They’re doing a casting call."
319
00:14:00,460 --> 00:14:03,840
So, I get there,
and they took a headshot.
320
00:14:03,880 --> 00:14:05,380
The raw Polaroid.
321
00:14:05,380 --> 00:14:07,550
There’s no hair.
There’s no makeup.
322
00:14:07,630 --> 00:14:11,170
There’s no lighting.
It is what you look like.
323
00:14:11,180 --> 00:14:15,650
The--The girls that I saw
in my audition were flawless.
324
00:14:15,680 --> 00:14:19,220
Fake boobs, spray-tanned,
itty-bitty waist.
325
00:14:19,310 --> 00:14:21,890
So, I had no idea if I should
have even been there,
326
00:14:21,900 --> 00:14:24,320
or if I was
just really good drama.
327
00:14:24,400 --> 00:14:26,690
Hey, let’s take this girl that’s
never even seen a "Playboy,"
328
00:14:26,740 --> 00:14:29,330
that hasn’t done anything,
and let’s just throw her in.
329
00:14:29,360 --> 00:14:31,360
[blows raspberry]
See what happens.
330
00:14:31,410 --> 00:14:33,830
I would definitely put you
onto the next round.
331
00:14:33,870 --> 00:14:36,500
-Really?
-Absolutely. Absolutely.
332
00:14:36,540 --> 00:14:37,840
So, you’re in there
for the interview.
333
00:14:37,870 --> 00:14:39,200
[laughs]
334
00:14:39,250 --> 00:14:41,920
So, when the women
were selected,
335
00:14:42,000 --> 00:14:46,330
Hefner was very good
at that part of verbalizing
336
00:14:46,380 --> 00:14:48,250
what this woman had
or what this woman lacked
337
00:14:48,260 --> 00:14:50,090
or what they thought was
important here
338
00:14:50,090 --> 00:14:51,590
or what they thought
were contenders there.
339
00:14:51,590 --> 00:14:54,260
Jill Scott. Any reactions?
340
00:14:54,260 --> 00:14:56,090
She looks like
a Texas cheerleader to me.
341
00:14:56,100 --> 00:15:00,020
Mm-hmm. She looks like
a very logical candidate.
342
00:15:00,020 --> 00:15:02,530
So, I got the final phone call,
343
00:15:02,560 --> 00:15:06,270
and they said, "You’ve made it.
You’re coming to L.A.,"
344
00:15:06,280 --> 00:15:10,780
which I’ve never even been
on a plane before. [laughs]
345
00:15:10,780 --> 00:15:16,540
Being one of 12 girls chosen in
the entire country was surreal.
346
00:15:16,580 --> 00:15:19,460
-You’ve been picked.
-[screams and laughs]
347
00:15:19,540 --> 00:15:20,790
[loud cheers and laughter]
348
00:15:20,790 --> 00:15:22,790
I wasn’t sure if
I could go through with it,
349
00:15:22,790 --> 00:15:24,620
but I was really excited.
350
00:15:24,630 --> 00:15:26,380
-Hi. Is this Shallan?
-Yes, it is.
351
00:15:26,380 --> 00:15:27,550
You’re coming out to California
352
00:15:27,590 --> 00:15:29,130
[laughs]
353
00:15:29,130 --> 00:15:30,630
I was shocked
when they picked me.
354
00:15:30,630 --> 00:15:34,090
You were one of the people
that, um, was chosen.
355
00:15:34,140 --> 00:15:35,810
Yay. [laughs]
356
00:15:35,810 --> 00:15:38,480
I wasn’t terrified of posing.
I wasn’t terrified of "Playboy."
357
00:15:38,560 --> 00:15:40,810
I was terrified
of living in a house
358
00:15:40,810 --> 00:15:43,150
and competing
with 11 other women.
359
00:15:43,150 --> 00:15:46,740
CARMELLA: I was so excited,
360
00:15:46,770 --> 00:15:49,060
nervous, shocked.
361
00:15:49,110 --> 00:15:52,120
There were just
such a range of emotions
362
00:15:52,160 --> 00:15:54,580
that I felt terrified,
363
00:15:54,620 --> 00:15:57,250
and especially coming
from such a small town,
364
00:15:57,290 --> 00:16:00,500
it was so difficult
for me to leave.
365
00:16:00,580 --> 00:16:02,840
But I had dreams, and big ones.
366
00:16:02,920 --> 00:16:05,420
Next thing I knew,
I was landing at LAX
367
00:16:05,460 --> 00:16:08,180
and completely freaking out.
368
00:16:14,470 --> 00:16:16,100
When you first walk
in the house,
369
00:16:16,140 --> 00:16:17,810
all the furniture was beautiful,
370
00:16:17,850 --> 00:16:20,520
and it, you know,
just didn’t really seem real.
371
00:16:20,520 --> 00:16:22,520
Everybody just sort of
walked around
372
00:16:22,600 --> 00:16:24,260
talking to each other about,
you know,
373
00:16:24,310 --> 00:16:26,680
"What do you do?"
Or--and, you know,
374
00:16:26,770 --> 00:16:27,810
"What modeling have you done?"
375
00:16:27,860 --> 00:16:29,110
That’s all the chatter was,
376
00:16:29,150 --> 00:16:30,860
comparing ourselves
to everybody else.
377
00:16:30,860 --> 00:16:35,040
I was, um, Savannah’s
Miss Hawaiian Tropic.
378
00:16:35,110 --> 00:16:36,820
We talked with "Playboy,"
and we really came up
379
00:16:36,870 --> 00:16:38,960
with a 3-pronged attack
380
00:16:38,990 --> 00:16:41,200
of how we’re going
to feature the women,
381
00:16:41,290 --> 00:16:43,290
because we need to show
the audience
382
00:16:43,330 --> 00:16:45,330
that there was a process, right?
383
00:16:45,370 --> 00:16:46,660
How they look in a bikini,
384
00:16:46,710 --> 00:16:48,510
how they look over here
by the banister.
385
00:16:48,540 --> 00:16:50,330
And, obviously, in this process,
386
00:16:50,380 --> 00:16:53,720
there were different levels
of undress that were happening.
387
00:16:53,840 --> 00:16:55,670
The audition process
with cameras--
388
00:16:55,720 --> 00:16:57,640
that--I mean,
that was really intense,
389
00:16:57,680 --> 00:16:59,350
but that is nothing compared
to the actual experience
390
00:16:59,390 --> 00:17:01,720
of filming a reality show.
391
00:17:01,720 --> 00:17:03,390
You were just filmed 24/7.
392
00:17:03,480 --> 00:17:05,900
They were filming everything
at all times.
393
00:17:05,980 --> 00:17:07,690
You start to open your eyes,
394
00:17:07,730 --> 00:17:09,060
and literally there’s
somebody standing over a bed,
395
00:17:09,070 --> 00:17:12,070
like, with the camera
in your face
396
00:17:12,150 --> 00:17:15,070
watching you wake up.
397
00:17:15,150 --> 00:17:17,480
And like most
house reality shows,
398
00:17:17,530 --> 00:17:20,570
there were definitely characters
that everyone was playing,
399
00:17:20,660 --> 00:17:22,880
and--and whether or not
you realized it,
400
00:17:22,910 --> 00:17:25,080
the production company itself
401
00:17:25,160 --> 00:17:27,700
had already picked which
character you were gonna be.
402
00:17:27,750 --> 00:17:29,080
I believed that they decided
403
00:17:29,170 --> 00:17:33,340
I’d be
the quiet, relatable underdog.
404
00:17:33,380 --> 00:17:37,210
From the beginning, I was
typecast as the wild child.
405
00:17:37,260 --> 00:17:39,760
I am definitely
the wild girl from Atlanta.
406
00:17:39,760 --> 00:17:45,600
I drank and ended up showing
my...clit piercing.
407
00:17:45,690 --> 00:17:47,070
Let me see.
408
00:17:47,100 --> 00:17:50,100
I am, too. Oh, my God.
Look at mine. [laughs]
409
00:17:50,110 --> 00:17:54,030
So, one night,
we went out to a bar in L.A.
410
00:17:54,070 --> 00:17:56,620
[cheers and laughter]
411
00:17:56,700 --> 00:17:58,450
WOMAN:
Jill is the total wild child,
412
00:17:58,530 --> 00:18:00,110
the one that you get around,
413
00:18:00,120 --> 00:18:02,580
and you just can’t wait to see
what she’s gonna do next.
414
00:18:02,620 --> 00:18:03,870
WOMAN #2:
Playmates can be really wild,
415
00:18:03,910 --> 00:18:05,450
but I think she just got
a little too wild.
416
00:18:05,450 --> 00:18:08,450
Not to say that we’re not here
to have fun.
417
00:18:08,540 --> 00:18:12,120
We just drank, and I just got
on a table and danced.
418
00:18:12,130 --> 00:18:14,800
I know I wasn’t the only one,
but they cut it
419
00:18:14,800 --> 00:18:17,470
to make me look like
I was the only one.
420
00:18:17,550 --> 00:18:19,060
But your first night here,
421
00:18:19,090 --> 00:18:20,590
you don’t wanna get trashed
and wasted,
422
00:18:20,640 --> 00:18:22,310
and we’re all here, like,
on business.
423
00:18:22,390 --> 00:18:24,560
It’s really important that
we do well and we look well,
424
00:18:24,600 --> 00:18:27,480
and you don’t wanna do anything
to jeopardize that.
425
00:18:27,600 --> 00:18:30,140
The way I saw it is
we were filming for "Playboy."
426
00:18:30,230 --> 00:18:33,900
We were con--We were competing
for centerfold,
427
00:18:33,900 --> 00:18:37,150
not for Catholic Schoolgirl
of the Month.
428
00:18:37,150 --> 00:18:39,570
You know,
they wanted fun and wild.
429
00:18:39,610 --> 00:18:42,740
That’s the bunny.
That’s the--the whole logo.
430
00:18:42,780 --> 00:18:46,160
A bunny is fun,
and they have a lot of sex.
431
00:18:48,410 --> 00:18:53,790
When I made the show, it was
definitely a dream come true.
432
00:18:53,840 --> 00:18:56,670
This could be something
that would--
433
00:18:56,670 --> 00:18:58,170
really would change my life,
434
00:18:58,260 --> 00:19:01,340
and I don’t mean in acting
or, you know,
435
00:19:01,340 --> 00:19:07,680
what I can get away
from all the things at home.
436
00:19:07,680 --> 00:19:11,010
You know,
I had a chaotic childhood.
437
00:19:12,980 --> 00:19:14,690
Um...
438
00:19:14,690 --> 00:19:17,940
Well, yeah, I mean,
my mom’s [bleep]
439
00:19:17,990 --> 00:19:21,950
snuck in my room at night,
so, you know, there was that.
440
00:19:21,990 --> 00:19:25,500
Mm.
441
00:19:25,530 --> 00:19:27,700
Yeah. Yeah.
442
00:19:31,540 --> 00:19:37,880
Once my dad found out
that I’d been molested...
443
00:19:37,960 --> 00:19:40,960
the court did not...
444
00:19:41,010 --> 00:19:44,060
they--they didn’t charge him
the way that they should
445
00:19:44,140 --> 00:19:47,310
because I’d been running away,
but I’d been running away
446
00:19:47,350 --> 00:19:49,900
because I’d been--
being molested.
447
00:19:49,980 --> 00:19:54,190
And that definitely
sticks with, you know,
448
00:19:54,230 --> 00:19:56,820
in probably a lot
of the choices that I made.
449
00:19:59,490 --> 00:20:00,990
So, I did not become, like,
450
00:20:01,030 --> 00:20:03,830
the bad girl of the show
on purpose.
451
00:20:03,860 --> 00:20:06,990
I felt free, like... [laughs]
I was across the country.
452
00:20:07,030 --> 00:20:09,240
For once,
I’m doing something for me,
453
00:20:09,330 --> 00:20:11,590
and I’m far away from home.
454
00:20:11,660 --> 00:20:14,240
You don’t like it?
Kiss my ass. Just kidding.
455
00:20:14,250 --> 00:20:15,210
[laughs]
456
00:20:15,250 --> 00:20:17,000
I just...
457
00:20:17,040 --> 00:20:22,090
probably hadn’t hit
a wild phase yet in my life.
458
00:20:22,170 --> 00:20:26,670
I struggled from the time
that I literally landed at LAX
459
00:20:26,760 --> 00:20:30,090
and felt so out of place.
460
00:20:30,100 --> 00:20:32,270
I just wanted to tell you
you’re all welcome.
461
00:20:32,270 --> 00:20:33,900
I know some of you have
been going through
462
00:20:33,940 --> 00:20:36,360
a little emotional thing
related to being away from home.
463
00:20:36,400 --> 00:20:39,070
And any of you who are having
any kind of mixed emotions...
464
00:20:41,070 --> 00:20:42,950
-...don’t have.
-[laughter]
465
00:20:43,030 --> 00:20:44,740
It’s gonna be a grand adventure
466
00:20:44,780 --> 00:20:46,740
and something
you’re never gonna forget.
467
00:20:46,780 --> 00:20:48,450
It was probably
468
00:20:48,530 --> 00:20:51,780
about 24 hours of being there
and then seeing the other girls
469
00:20:51,870 --> 00:20:54,530
and seeing kinda
how the competition was going,
470
00:20:54,540 --> 00:20:56,460
and we hadn’t shot
any nudes yet.
471
00:20:56,460 --> 00:20:58,290
I knew it was coming.
472
00:20:58,290 --> 00:21:00,080
I’m sure that the anticipation
of that
473
00:21:00,130 --> 00:21:02,300
made it a hundred times worse.
474
00:21:02,380 --> 00:21:05,090
-What do you think it is?
-I don’t know.
475
00:21:05,130 --> 00:21:06,630
What is it? Is it the nudity
that bothers you,
476
00:21:06,720 --> 00:21:08,600
or is it being a--
-Obviously, I’ve never shot
477
00:21:08,640 --> 00:21:10,140
a nide before, and I think that.
478
00:21:10,140 --> 00:21:12,650
-You’ve never shot modeling?
-No, I never shot any nudes.
479
00:21:12,730 --> 00:21:15,230
I don’t know.
I just don’t feel like it’s me.
480
00:21:15,270 --> 00:21:17,070
I wanna go home.
I’m out of my element.
481
00:21:17,100 --> 00:21:19,140
I’m out of my comfort zone.
482
00:21:19,230 --> 00:21:22,600
[line rings]
483
00:21:22,650 --> 00:21:24,060
-WOMAN: Hello?
-Hi.
484
00:21:24,110 --> 00:21:25,610
-Hi.
-I think I’m gonna come home.
485
00:21:25,650 --> 00:21:27,730
-Why?
-It’s just not me. I mean,
486
00:21:27,740 --> 00:21:30,330
this is--honestly, I mean,
it’s how I feel. It’s not me.
487
00:21:30,330 --> 00:21:33,250
Well, Carmella, everybody has
discomfort the first time aroun
488
00:21:33,290 --> 00:21:35,500
when they’re doing things,
but, you know, you--
489
00:21:35,500 --> 00:21:38,170
I just feel that it’s not me,
though. I’m more of, like--
490
00:21:38,170 --> 00:21:40,500
like, a modest person
that wants to do, like,
491
00:21:40,500 --> 00:21:41,960
like, a--a commercial
or something like that.
492
00:21:42,000 --> 00:21:43,790
It’s just
I don’t want to do it,
493
00:21:43,840 --> 00:21:45,760
and then be like, well,
I wasn’t comfortable doing it,
494
00:21:45,840 --> 00:21:47,420
and now I’m still
not comfortable doing it.
495
00:21:47,470 --> 00:21:49,850
But, Carmella, the thing is,
all that you’ve done
496
00:21:49,850 --> 00:21:51,510
is make the trip out there.
497
00:21:51,510 --> 00:21:54,640
Have you gone through
any of the motions yet?
498
00:21:54,680 --> 00:21:56,180
No, you haven’t,
499
00:21:56,270 --> 00:21:58,190
so the accomplishment
that you’re telling me
500
00:21:58,190 --> 00:21:59,690
you’re glad that you went,
501
00:21:59,690 --> 00:22:02,360
what, that you got on a plane
and went to L.A.?
502
00:22:02,440 --> 00:22:03,850
CARMELLA: Well, I’m not--
503
00:22:03,940 --> 00:22:05,520
I’m definitely not gonna
reconsider. Like, I’m...
504
00:22:05,610 --> 00:22:07,110
I feel pretty strongly about it
505
00:22:10,030 --> 00:22:11,650
-Okay. [sighs]
-I hope you’re--
506
00:22:11,700 --> 00:22:12,860
You sure you don’t wanna
change your mind?
507
00:22:12,870 --> 00:22:14,960
-I really don’t.
-Well, just call me
508
00:22:15,000 --> 00:22:16,500
when you get there.
-Okay.
509
00:22:16,540 --> 00:22:18,880
-Love you.
-All right, bye-bye.
510
00:22:18,960 --> 00:22:20,510
[hangs up receiver]
511
00:22:21,880 --> 00:22:25,220
Um...sad.
It makes me feel sad.
512
00:22:25,300 --> 00:22:31,180
I had a total freak-out moment,
and I probably,
513
00:22:31,220 --> 00:22:33,890
as a 19-year-old,
needed the support,
514
00:22:33,970 --> 00:22:36,550
needed the support
that it was okay to come home
515
00:22:36,640 --> 00:22:39,560
and that it was okay
that I’m not ready.
516
00:22:39,560 --> 00:22:44,560
So, yeah, it’s emotional.
It’s hard. It’s hard.
517
00:22:44,570 --> 00:22:48,740
I felt like
I disappointed my mom.
518
00:23:00,500 --> 00:23:03,090
Even though
this was a reality show,
519
00:23:03,090 --> 00:23:04,880
you weren’t voting at home.
520
00:23:04,920 --> 00:23:06,420
It was Hef.
It was Hef and Hef’s team,
521
00:23:06,420 --> 00:23:09,040
and, really, mostly Hef
that was making
522
00:23:09,090 --> 00:23:11,840
the deciding factors as to who
would make it to the next round.
523
00:23:11,890 --> 00:23:14,890
Half these girls, at minimum,
are good candidates for...
524
00:23:14,930 --> 00:23:16,180
-WOMAN: Yep.
-MAN: Mm-hmm, yeah.
525
00:23:16,180 --> 00:23:17,430
-...for Playmates...
-MAN: Yes, we all agree.
526
00:23:17,520 --> 00:23:18,860
...you know, which puts us
in a very nice place.
527
00:23:18,890 --> 00:23:22,430
Once we were at six contestants,
528
00:23:22,440 --> 00:23:25,450
we all did
the fully nude photo shoot.
529
00:23:28,940 --> 00:23:32,610
The fully nude photo shoot
upped everything.
530
00:23:32,620 --> 00:23:35,580
It upped the ante,
it upped the drama,
531
00:23:35,620 --> 00:23:40,290
it upped the competition,
and a lot of the tension,
532
00:23:40,290 --> 00:23:42,960
just because everything
got more real.
533
00:23:42,960 --> 00:23:45,630
Posing naked for the first time
was terrifying.
534
00:23:48,960 --> 00:23:51,550
So, you walk in on set.
There’s lights everywhere.
535
00:23:51,590 --> 00:23:54,800
I was shaking on my heels,
just...
536
00:23:54,890 --> 00:23:56,890
My eyes just kind of looked...
537
00:23:56,930 --> 00:23:58,970
"Turn your hip this way.
Turn that way.
538
00:23:58,970 --> 00:24:00,430
I need to put light
on this angle.
539
00:24:00,480 --> 00:24:02,230
I need to fix this.
I need to fix that."
540
00:24:05,150 --> 00:24:06,450
In a way, you are the product.
541
00:24:09,320 --> 00:24:11,910
I feel like you weren’t
even seen necessarily
542
00:24:11,950 --> 00:24:14,160
as a person
when you were shooting.
543
00:24:14,240 --> 00:24:15,750
It was almost like a mannequin.
544
00:24:17,790 --> 00:24:20,580
I was very insecure
about my body.
545
00:24:20,620 --> 00:24:22,780
Even though I was
a contestant on this show,
546
00:24:22,830 --> 00:24:26,330
my body image was a big issue
for me.
547
00:24:26,340 --> 00:24:28,300
To pose naked,
548
00:24:28,340 --> 00:24:30,840
it was definitely something
inside of me
549
00:24:30,920 --> 00:24:33,750
that I had to really overcome
550
00:24:33,840 --> 00:24:36,300
because it was probably
my biggest issue with myself.
551
00:24:38,140 --> 00:24:40,020
When I shot my fully nude shoot,
552
00:24:40,100 --> 00:24:42,180
I had shot before for "Playboy,"
553
00:24:42,180 --> 00:24:45,350
but not on that scale
and not at such a big studio
554
00:24:45,350 --> 00:24:49,940
that so many amazing women
have shot before me.
555
00:24:52,530 --> 00:24:56,370
[sighs] You know,
if I had to be honest,
556
00:24:56,450 --> 00:24:58,830
I felt they already knew
who they were gonna pick,
557
00:24:58,870 --> 00:25:01,460
so I felt mine
was a little rushed.
558
00:25:02,830 --> 00:25:06,710
After we filmed
the nude photo shoot,
559
00:25:06,790 --> 00:25:10,370
they cut three girls
and left three finalists.
560
00:25:10,380 --> 00:25:12,550
Today’s the day where
they have to pick three
561
00:25:12,630 --> 00:25:14,710
to move on to shoot
their "Playboy" centerfold.
562
00:25:14,800 --> 00:25:16,680
Christina.
563
00:25:16,720 --> 00:25:18,350
Playmate candidate number two
is Lauren.
564
00:25:21,350 --> 00:25:24,560
And our final Playmate
candidate is Shallan.
565
00:25:27,690 --> 00:25:28,820
I never thought I’d win.
566
00:25:28,860 --> 00:25:30,570
I never thought
I was good enough.
567
00:25:30,650 --> 00:25:34,200
It hurt my feelings
so bad because
568
00:25:34,240 --> 00:25:37,370
that dream of being a centerfold
was over.
569
00:25:37,410 --> 00:25:39,160
[crying] I love you all.
Y’all...
570
00:25:39,200 --> 00:25:40,870
[door creaks]
571
00:25:40,910 --> 00:25:42,580
Maybe that’s why
I had the tears,
572
00:25:42,580 --> 00:25:46,250
because I just
didn’t wanna go home.
573
00:25:49,040 --> 00:25:50,500
So, the final challenge
for the three of us left
574
00:25:50,540 --> 00:25:52,040
was a centerfold shoot.
575
00:25:53,760 --> 00:25:56,100
To shoot the actual centerfold
that comes
576
00:25:56,180 --> 00:25:57,930
in and out of the magazine.
577
00:25:58,010 --> 00:26:00,520
It’s "Playboy." It’s like
the number-one selling magazine
578
00:26:00,550 --> 00:26:02,260
in the world,
and these are the real shots
579
00:26:02,260 --> 00:26:05,390
that will go in the magazine,
you know, if they’re chosen.
580
00:26:05,430 --> 00:26:08,430
I was very concerned
about being fully nude.
581
00:26:08,440 --> 00:26:11,940
I didn’t want to show my body,
um, but I was there competing,
582
00:26:11,940 --> 00:26:15,400
so my competitive nature
kicked in.
583
00:26:15,440 --> 00:26:16,610
Then I wanted to win.
584
00:26:20,780 --> 00:26:22,700
I-I-I never thought
I could have photos
585
00:26:22,700 --> 00:26:24,110
that looked quite so beautiful.
586
00:26:28,960 --> 00:26:30,710
So, we did our centerfold shoot.
587
00:26:30,750 --> 00:26:32,250
The three of us
then just went back to the house
588
00:26:32,290 --> 00:26:34,040
and waited for Hef
to look at the centerfolds
589
00:26:34,090 --> 00:26:37,300
and for them to decide
the winner of the show.
590
00:26:37,300 --> 00:26:41,600
What I like most about Shallan,
is, uh, is the face.
591
00:26:41,640 --> 00:26:46,140
Lauren--you cannot beat
that schoolgirl fantasy.
592
00:26:46,140 --> 00:26:48,470
I think Shallan makes the
biggest impression in person.
593
00:26:48,600 --> 00:26:51,600
Lauren is the most photogenic,
594
00:26:51,650 --> 00:26:53,320
but I am going to go with...
595
00:26:55,230 --> 00:26:57,230
Then they sat
the three of us down
596
00:26:57,280 --> 00:26:58,820
on a couch in the living room.
597
00:26:58,820 --> 00:27:00,480
I have three envelopes here.
598
00:27:00,490 --> 00:27:05,660
Inside the envelope contains
an invitation
599
00:27:05,660 --> 00:27:08,780
to become a "Playboy" Playmate.
600
00:27:08,830 --> 00:27:10,490
You come this far.
601
00:27:10,580 --> 00:27:12,660
I mean, once we’re there,
I mean, we all wanted to win.
602
00:27:12,670 --> 00:27:15,300
You realized, wow, I might--
I might actually do this.
603
00:27:19,510 --> 00:27:21,180
When I opened the envelope
604
00:27:21,260 --> 00:27:23,810
and saw that it said,
"Congratulations,"
605
00:27:23,850 --> 00:27:26,350
you know, I was happy that
I-I had come all this way
606
00:27:26,430 --> 00:27:27,930
and that it was worth it.
607
00:27:27,980 --> 00:27:29,520
I think if I hadn’t won,
608
00:27:29,640 --> 00:27:32,970
maybe it might not have
made me feel more confident
609
00:27:33,020 --> 00:27:34,520
and a-a stronger person.
610
00:27:34,520 --> 00:27:37,810
Even with all these
body image issues,
611
00:27:37,860 --> 00:27:39,450
it made me feel something
612
00:27:39,490 --> 00:27:42,040
that I didn’t know
I felt that I had inside.
613
00:27:46,160 --> 00:27:48,620
Lauren was announced,
and Christina and I--
614
00:27:48,620 --> 00:27:50,370
we were at the hotel
with a tail--
615
00:27:50,460 --> 00:27:51,710
our tails between our legs,
616
00:27:51,710 --> 00:27:53,800
waiting to go home
in the morning.
617
00:27:53,830 --> 00:27:57,210
And we got a phone call,
and it was Hef asking us,
618
00:27:57,210 --> 00:27:59,710
how would we like
to be Playmates, too?
619
00:27:59,720 --> 00:28:01,510
Yeah, it was pretty intense.
We were both really excited.
620
00:28:01,550 --> 00:28:03,470
Like, really excited.
621
00:28:03,510 --> 00:28:05,340
You know, I stayed the winner
of the show,
622
00:28:05,390 --> 00:28:07,060
and that’s what mattered to me.
623
00:28:07,140 --> 00:28:10,230
So, I was happy when Christina
and Shallan became Playmates.
624
00:28:10,310 --> 00:28:12,070
It’s sad
that the experience is over,
625
00:28:12,140 --> 00:28:14,810
but I’m glad I did it,
and I’m glad I won. [laughs]
626
00:28:14,860 --> 00:28:16,900
So, thank you.
627
00:28:19,900 --> 00:28:21,900
I watched the show, yes,
when it came on.
628
00:28:21,900 --> 00:28:24,070
I had a--we had a house party
at my mom’s house.
629
00:28:24,070 --> 00:28:25,570
We had lots of people over,
630
00:28:25,660 --> 00:28:27,500
and every--
we all watched it, yes.
631
00:28:30,750 --> 00:28:33,580
Well, they didn’t show the--
the naked parts on national TV,
632
00:28:33,580 --> 00:28:35,250
so that was--
they didn’t show those parts,
633
00:28:35,330 --> 00:28:36,580
or they blurted out.
634
00:28:36,590 --> 00:28:38,090
ANNOUNCER:
Wanna find the perfect Playmate
635
00:28:38,170 --> 00:28:39,930
Take a behind-the-scenes look
636
00:28:40,010 --> 00:28:43,340
at "Girl Next Door: The Search
for a Playboy Centerfold."
637
00:28:43,340 --> 00:28:46,590
When the women came to the show,
obviously, they knew
638
00:28:46,680 --> 00:28:50,180
they were signing up
for the Fox television show.
639
00:28:50,180 --> 00:28:52,680
And in the paperwork that they
signed, ultimately, you know,
640
00:28:52,730 --> 00:28:56,440
Playboy was going to do their
version of the show itself.
641
00:28:56,440 --> 00:28:59,200
"Who Wants to Be
a Playboy Centerfold?"
642
00:28:59,230 --> 00:29:02,770
My job was to, um, edit the show
for the Fox TV show,
643
00:29:02,860 --> 00:29:05,780
and for the uncensored version,
644
00:29:05,780 --> 00:29:07,940
Playboy had a team
that was gonna come in and make
645
00:29:07,950 --> 00:29:09,710
the uncensored version.
646
00:29:09,740 --> 00:29:14,370
And so they all fully
understood that going into it.
647
00:29:14,410 --> 00:29:16,370
Once the show aired,
it--it was hard for me.
648
00:29:16,420 --> 00:29:20,470
When I first saw
the unedited version,
649
00:29:20,550 --> 00:29:21,630
it was shocking.
650
00:29:24,300 --> 00:29:28,810
Everything that I did,
it was on the unedited version.
651
00:29:28,890 --> 00:29:32,230
This was obviously
before social media,
652
00:29:32,270 --> 00:29:34,980
but there were still blogs.
653
00:29:37,150 --> 00:29:38,980
There was nothing positive.
654
00:29:38,980 --> 00:29:41,480
Went from girl to girl to girl.
655
00:29:41,480 --> 00:29:42,730
They broke us all down.
656
00:29:42,780 --> 00:29:45,150
Everything bad about us.
657
00:29:45,150 --> 00:29:50,150
I think that they fed off of
what they saw on the show.
658
00:29:50,280 --> 00:29:52,660
It was okay
for the men on the show.
659
00:29:52,660 --> 00:29:54,740
They were breaking us down.
660
00:29:54,790 --> 00:29:56,670
-Jill.
-This girl’s face is fantastic,
661
00:29:56,750 --> 00:29:58,960
but there’s some body problems.
662
00:29:59,000 --> 00:30:00,120
The only problem that I have
with her physically
663
00:30:00,170 --> 00:30:01,340
is the breasts.
664
00:30:01,340 --> 00:30:03,420
She’s a little long
in the torso.
665
00:30:03,420 --> 00:30:05,790
She’s a little thick
in the body.
666
00:30:05,840 --> 00:30:09,130
Which led to people online
667
00:30:09,180 --> 00:30:10,930
feeling
that they could do the same.
668
00:30:15,180 --> 00:30:17,310
But they’re kind of nastier
669
00:30:17,350 --> 00:30:20,600
’cause there’s nobody
to filter them, you know,
670
00:30:20,650 --> 00:30:22,200
or edit them.
671
00:30:22,270 --> 00:30:26,270
The very first article I read,
he was quoting me as saying,
672
00:30:26,320 --> 00:30:29,030
"I’d never seen
a ’Playboy’ before."
673
00:30:29,030 --> 00:30:31,950
And his--and then he said,
"Yeah, right.
674
00:30:31,990 --> 00:30:34,820
She looks like
the town’s teeter-totter."
675
00:30:34,870 --> 00:30:39,340
And I was, like, on the floor,
bawling. It, like, destroyed me.
676
00:30:39,370 --> 00:30:47,210
[crying]
677
00:30:47,300 --> 00:30:49,560
Why would I cry now?
678
00:30:54,560 --> 00:30:57,400
Which is... [exhales deeply]
679
00:30:57,480 --> 00:30:59,690
of course, one of the reasons
why even now I’m like, oh, God.
680
00:30:59,730 --> 00:31:01,900
[cries]
681
00:31:04,320 --> 00:31:05,660
Mm.
682
00:31:07,570 --> 00:31:10,700
[laughs] I don’t know,
but everyone’s had a go,
683
00:31:10,740 --> 00:31:15,080
Just a troll.
But being 20, it hit deep.
684
00:31:15,080 --> 00:31:17,500
So, then I didn’t look
at anything else.
685
00:31:17,540 --> 00:31:20,710
My mom’s like, "Well...
[sighs] you picked this world.
686
00:31:20,750 --> 00:31:23,050
You picked this life.
687
00:31:23,090 --> 00:31:24,550
So, you’re either gonna have
to hide away from everything
688
00:31:24,590 --> 00:31:26,180
or get the toughest skin
689
00:31:26,210 --> 00:31:28,750
and know that most people
aren’t gonna agree with you,
690
00:31:28,760 --> 00:31:32,930
and most people
won’t have nice things to say."
691
00:31:32,930 --> 00:31:34,600
That was it.
692
00:31:41,600 --> 00:31:44,060
The three girls that won,
their life changed.
693
00:31:44,110 --> 00:31:47,610
You know, so they--they went
on tour. You know what I mean?
694
00:31:47,610 --> 00:31:51,580
Like, they didn’t really
have to go back to real life.
695
00:31:51,610 --> 00:31:53,610
You know,
I’m from a smaller town.
696
00:31:53,620 --> 00:31:56,710
I mean, I’m outside of Atlanta,
you know?
697
00:31:56,740 --> 00:31:58,110
Lived there my whole life,
698
00:31:58,200 --> 00:31:59,450
so, I mean, everyone knew
who I was.
699
00:31:59,450 --> 00:32:03,200
[sighs] I was an easy target.
700
00:32:06,290 --> 00:32:09,130
After the show,
the jealousy and the judgment
701
00:32:09,210 --> 00:32:12,630
in my small town,
it really brought me down.
702
00:32:12,630 --> 00:32:15,880
I guess people just wanted
to come after me.
703
00:32:15,930 --> 00:32:17,480
At the time of filming,
704
00:32:17,560 --> 00:32:19,940
I was a single mother,
and my daughter was 2.
705
00:32:19,980 --> 00:32:22,100
So, a group of girls
from my small town
706
00:32:22,100 --> 00:32:27,980
started attacking me using CPS.
707
00:32:27,980 --> 00:32:29,940
That’s
Child Protective Services.
708
00:32:29,990 --> 00:32:34,120
They contacted them,
and they told them lies,
709
00:32:34,160 --> 00:32:37,990
and they used "Playboy,"
you know,
710
00:32:37,990 --> 00:32:41,240
as the--the main attack.
711
00:32:44,000 --> 00:32:47,760
When you hear "Playboy"
and nudity and a little girl,
712
00:32:47,790 --> 00:32:50,500
they assume
that you’re a bad mother
713
00:32:50,590 --> 00:32:52,470
and that you’re a slut.
714
00:32:54,680 --> 00:32:58,100
They removed my daughter...
715
00:32:58,140 --> 00:33:00,480
from my house.
716
00:33:00,520 --> 00:33:03,020
[voice breaking]
Yeah, it was really tough.
717
00:33:03,020 --> 00:33:06,020
And I demanded a meeting,
718
00:33:06,020 --> 00:33:09,100
and I said, you know, "I want to
know, like, what are you doing?
719
00:33:09,150 --> 00:33:10,780
Like, why are you coming
after me?
720
00:33:10,820 --> 00:33:12,370
What could I have done?
721
00:33:12,440 --> 00:33:14,190
I want to see
what you have on me.
722
00:33:14,200 --> 00:33:18,700
I want to see this file
that is tearing a family apart."
723
00:33:18,700 --> 00:33:20,610
And they opened it up,
724
00:33:20,660 --> 00:33:23,450
and it was all...
725
00:33:23,500 --> 00:33:24,630
"Playboy" pictures.
726
00:33:26,880 --> 00:33:31,840
I had to spend the next year
fighting to keep my daughter.
727
00:33:31,880 --> 00:33:36,680
I had to hire two attorneys.
I had to take drug tests.
728
00:33:36,720 --> 00:33:38,980
I had to take
hair follicle tests.
729
00:33:39,010 --> 00:33:44,680
I-I-I couldn’t even tell you
how hard that time was,
730
00:33:44,730 --> 00:33:48,060
and it broke me, you know?
731
00:33:48,060 --> 00:33:50,560
It--It--It broke me.
732
00:33:50,570 --> 00:33:53,900
I had to climb out
of many of dark times.
733
00:33:53,900 --> 00:33:56,980
But the vindication came
when the judge stood up
734
00:33:57,030 --> 00:34:00,650
and said, "This woman
has done nothing wrong.
735
00:34:00,700 --> 00:34:04,410
You guys have come after her.
She has done nothing.
736
00:34:04,500 --> 00:34:07,380
She has done everything and more
that you have asked.
737
00:34:07,420 --> 00:34:09,510
Today, this is--ends."
738
00:34:09,540 --> 00:34:11,580
Once the fight was over,
739
00:34:11,590 --> 00:34:14,510
I moved and I left the state,
and I never went back.
740
00:34:14,550 --> 00:34:17,090
I never wanted my daughter
741
00:34:17,090 --> 00:34:20,550
to endure the judgment
that I had to endure.
742
00:34:20,600 --> 00:34:23,230
And I never wanted
to raise another child
743
00:34:23,270 --> 00:34:29,230
in that town, in that mindset,
in that environment.
744
00:34:33,940 --> 00:34:37,440
Y-Yes, does she know?
Yeah. Yeah. She does.
745
00:34:37,530 --> 00:34:42,370
Does she resent me some?
Yeah, she does.
746
00:34:42,410 --> 00:34:45,920
I mean, you know, even though
everything we’ve talked about,
747
00:34:45,950 --> 00:34:49,120
you know, I could not help that
people did what they did,
748
00:34:49,120 --> 00:34:53,960
but...she resents it, me.
749
00:35:02,640 --> 00:35:04,390
Mm-hmm.
750
00:35:05,770 --> 00:35:08,400
[chuckles] Yeah. It sucks.
751
00:35:08,440 --> 00:35:12,400
It’s the textbook
of a blessing and a curse.
752
00:35:12,440 --> 00:35:15,980
People are, you know, it--
753
00:35:15,980 --> 00:35:19,650
People are--People are terrible.
754
00:35:25,450 --> 00:35:26,820
[cries]
755
00:35:28,410 --> 00:35:30,120
It’s not... [chuckles]
756
00:35:30,170 --> 00:35:33,460
It’s like, just I’m sorry.
757
00:35:34,840 --> 00:35:36,090
[sniffles]
758
00:35:45,760 --> 00:35:47,840
Why do we judge?
759
00:35:47,930 --> 00:35:49,760
Why don’t
we just tell every woman,
760
00:35:49,810 --> 00:35:52,110
like, "you’re beautiful"
and be happy for them
761
00:35:52,150 --> 00:35:53,690
and genuinely happy,
762
00:35:53,690 --> 00:35:56,700
and if you’re not, just--
just go your own way?
763
00:35:56,780 --> 00:35:58,280
I don’t know,
764
00:35:58,320 --> 00:36:02,370
and I think Playboy definitely
brings out that question.
765
00:36:02,450 --> 00:36:04,700
As soon as someone finds out
that I have been in "Playboy,"
766
00:36:04,700 --> 00:36:06,540
there’s an immediate judgment
there.
767
00:36:08,790 --> 00:36:10,790
People are uncomfortable
with nudity, you know,
768
00:36:10,830 --> 00:36:12,490
and it’s--it’s--that’s why
769
00:36:12,540 --> 00:36:13,830
they’re uncomfortable
with "Playboy."
770
00:36:13,880 --> 00:36:15,840
They think because
I showed my body,
771
00:36:15,880 --> 00:36:18,130
that means I act a certain way.
772
00:36:18,170 --> 00:36:20,330
You know? I showed my body.
773
00:36:20,380 --> 00:36:22,710
But meanwhile,
I’m in college studying
774
00:36:22,720 --> 00:36:24,390
to be a veterinarian, a senior.
775
00:36:24,390 --> 00:36:27,810
You know, I--now I have
children. I am a wife.
776
00:36:27,850 --> 00:36:30,730
Yes, I showed my body, too,
at one point, but there--it’s--
777
00:36:30,730 --> 00:36:32,570
the two--it’s not related.
778
00:36:32,640 --> 00:36:35,350
You know, you posed
for "Playboy," showed your body,
779
00:36:35,400 --> 00:36:39,240
but then there’s also a whole
nother human being behind that.
780
00:36:39,320 --> 00:36:42,160
JILL: Once I posed for "Playboy"
and I was on the show,
781
00:36:42,200 --> 00:36:44,410
I was no longer Jill Scott.
782
00:36:44,490 --> 00:36:48,580
I was now Jill that posed naked.
783
00:36:48,660 --> 00:36:50,580
It’s so wrong.
784
00:36:52,750 --> 00:36:55,420
Should we really be able
to offer
785
00:36:55,420 --> 00:36:59,180
this much of an opinion
on someone else’s life?
786
00:36:59,210 --> 00:37:02,250
Like, this is an inside job.
Like, at a certain point,
787
00:37:02,340 --> 00:37:05,670
we need to start
taking a look at what’s in here.
788
00:37:05,720 --> 00:37:08,100
Like, maybe we should learn
to criticize ourselves
789
00:37:08,180 --> 00:37:11,900
a little more
and less with someone else.
790
00:37:22,610 --> 00:37:24,230
LAUREN: I mean, I credit Hef
and Playboy absolutely
791
00:37:24,280 --> 00:37:28,950
for changing my image of myself
for the better.
792
00:37:28,950 --> 00:37:31,740
I mean, ’cause it has stayed
with me ever since then.
793
00:37:31,790 --> 00:37:34,960
WOMAN: So, like, are you
missing, like, school and work
794
00:37:35,040 --> 00:37:36,590
and all that stuff right now?
795
00:37:36,620 --> 00:37:38,540
Oh, yeah, I’m a senior
and I’m in veterinary medicine,
796
00:37:38,540 --> 00:37:39,870
and I’m missing two weeks
of school,
797
00:37:39,920 --> 00:37:41,930
which was really hard.
798
00:37:41,960 --> 00:37:43,460
My organic chemistry professor-
799
00:37:43,550 --> 00:37:44,970
he told me
he was gonna fail me. I said...
800
00:37:45,050 --> 00:37:46,640
-Shut up.
-..."All right, bye."
801
00:37:46,720 --> 00:37:50,270
Yes, and he did fail me.
802
00:37:50,310 --> 00:37:53,140
Because I failed that class,
I did not go back to school.
803
00:37:55,980 --> 00:37:57,650
I just kind of saw myself,
804
00:37:57,730 --> 00:37:59,740
my life going
in a different direction
805
00:37:59,770 --> 00:38:01,060
than what it was.
806
00:38:01,110 --> 00:38:04,070
My dream was to--I wanted--
I loved animals.
807
00:38:04,110 --> 00:38:06,610
I wanted to take care
of animals, help animals.
808
00:38:06,650 --> 00:38:08,610
And so, my parents
and my family actually
809
00:38:08,660 --> 00:38:11,750
helped me realize
that being in the public eye,
810
00:38:11,790 --> 00:38:13,790
I could help animals even more.
811
00:38:13,830 --> 00:38:16,920
When I became a Playmate,
PETA asked what I could do,
812
00:38:16,960 --> 00:38:18,630
and so I used to
go to Capitol Hill
813
00:38:18,670 --> 00:38:21,670
in a lettuce bikini
and pass out
814
00:38:21,750 --> 00:38:24,580
veggie dogs
to all the congresspeople.
815
00:38:24,630 --> 00:38:25,840
It was amazing.
816
00:38:25,970 --> 00:38:28,600
I worked with Playboy
until I was--
817
00:38:28,640 --> 00:38:31,520
my last job, I was pregnant
with my first son,
818
00:38:31,600 --> 00:38:34,520
so, um, until 2012.
819
00:38:34,520 --> 00:38:38,320
I got married, and, um,
I stopped working for Playboy
820
00:38:38,350 --> 00:38:40,100
and just, uh, had children.
821
00:38:40,150 --> 00:38:42,360
I have a 10-year-old son
and a 6-year-old son,
822
00:38:42,360 --> 00:38:44,860
and I take care of them
every day.
823
00:38:47,820 --> 00:38:49,980
After I decided
to leave the show,
824
00:38:50,030 --> 00:38:52,700
when I got home, I felt sad.
825
00:38:52,780 --> 00:38:55,030
There’s a part of me
that wished
826
00:38:55,040 --> 00:38:57,370
that I would have stayed
827
00:38:57,370 --> 00:39:01,660
and that I could have overcome
that anxiety.
828
00:39:01,710 --> 00:39:03,720
So, I wrote Hef a letter
829
00:39:03,800 --> 00:39:05,840
letting him know
that I was regretful,
830
00:39:05,880 --> 00:39:09,170
and he later asked me if
I would test to be a Playmate.
831
00:39:09,220 --> 00:39:13,850
And I got to a point
where I felt proud
832
00:39:13,890 --> 00:39:17,190
to have the opportunity
to be a "Playboy" Playmate.
833
00:39:19,690 --> 00:39:22,570
I was April 2003 centerfold
834
00:39:22,650 --> 00:39:25,820
and Playmate of the Year 2004.
835
00:39:25,860 --> 00:39:29,240
Posing nude is liberating.
836
00:39:29,320 --> 00:39:31,570
I did it then,
and I would do it now.
837
00:39:31,570 --> 00:39:36,740
It is empowering.
You’re making a choice for you,
838
00:39:36,830 --> 00:39:40,420
and...I felt good about it.
839
00:39:40,420 --> 00:39:43,210
I did Playboy for a reason.
840
00:39:43,250 --> 00:39:44,540
It was a platform.
841
00:39:44,540 --> 00:39:47,420
I utilized it to get every job
that I could,
842
00:39:47,420 --> 00:39:51,670
and that’s why I feel like it’s
easy for people to look back
843
00:39:51,720 --> 00:39:54,560
and rake everyone
over the coals.
844
00:39:54,600 --> 00:39:56,770
Uh, my experience was different.
845
00:39:56,850 --> 00:40:00,860
I met my husband at the time
through Playboy,
846
00:40:00,890 --> 00:40:03,930
which was another great gift.
847
00:40:04,020 --> 00:40:08,400
And most important, I had four
amazing, beautiful children.
848
00:40:10,740 --> 00:40:12,910
Playboy was not my dream,
849
00:40:12,950 --> 00:40:14,780
but falling into it
so gracefully
850
00:40:14,780 --> 00:40:18,780
has turned it into...
my life is a dream.
851
00:40:18,790 --> 00:40:21,040
I really love where I’ve landed,
852
00:40:21,080 --> 00:40:23,120
and I don’t think
I would have met my husband
853
00:40:23,120 --> 00:40:25,580
or the friends that I’ve made.
854
00:40:25,630 --> 00:40:27,460
I have been
to so many countries.
855
00:40:27,460 --> 00:40:29,290
I don’t think that that would
have ever happened
856
00:40:29,380 --> 00:40:30,880
if I had just stayed
in Las Vegas
857
00:40:30,970 --> 00:40:33,100
and not been discovered.
858
00:40:33,130 --> 00:40:35,710
I think this world
could have potentially
859
00:40:35,760 --> 00:40:37,220
chewed me up and spit me out
860
00:40:37,260 --> 00:40:39,970
if I didn’t get tougher skin
and I didn’t get thrown
861
00:40:39,970 --> 00:40:41,800
in a couple different situations
862
00:40:41,810 --> 00:40:43,110
that made me
a little more well-rounded.
863
00:40:43,140 --> 00:40:47,810
And I-I love who I am today.
864
00:40:47,820 --> 00:40:49,990
So, today I am married.
865
00:40:50,070 --> 00:40:52,490
I’ve been married for 13 years.
I had another child.
866
00:40:52,570 --> 00:40:54,820
He’s 12.
867
00:40:54,820 --> 00:40:57,320
Oh, my gosh, so happy.
868
00:40:57,410 --> 00:41:02,000
After all these years and all
these lessons, I’m really happy.
869
00:41:02,000 --> 00:41:05,250
I am at a place in life
where I know me.
870
00:41:05,290 --> 00:41:08,960
I love me, and I-I love life.
871
00:41:09,000 --> 00:41:13,460
I’m not gonna shrink. I’m gonna
do the opposite, you know?
872
00:41:13,510 --> 00:41:15,930
Honestly,
I found my power in Playboy.
873
00:41:15,970 --> 00:41:19,140
You know, I found, like,
my power
874
00:41:19,180 --> 00:41:20,510
the way I wanted to be seen.
875
00:41:24,100 --> 00:41:28,270
I remember some of the things
from the boardroom
876
00:41:28,310 --> 00:41:29,810
and some of the body comments,
877
00:41:29,860 --> 00:41:33,780
and today
that would not be accepted.
878
00:41:33,820 --> 00:41:36,870
Not only do I not think the show
would be able to be made today,
879
00:41:36,950 --> 00:41:41,120
I think they would cancel
everyone that was part of it.
880
00:41:44,210 --> 00:41:45,500
DE OLVEIRA: There’s a reason why
881
00:41:45,540 --> 00:41:48,380
"Playboy" Magazine
is now extinct,
882
00:41:48,460 --> 00:41:49,720
And what is the next iteration?
883
00:41:49,790 --> 00:41:51,170
I don’t think
anybody really knows,
884
00:41:51,210 --> 00:41:55,340
um, but the business
of exploitation
885
00:41:55,380 --> 00:41:56,670
is not going away.
886
00:41:56,720 --> 00:41:59,020
Um, it’s just done
in a different form.
887
00:41:59,050 --> 00:42:01,380
Do you believe
there was any time
888
00:42:01,470 --> 00:42:03,550
that you might have
exploited women?
889
00:42:03,640 --> 00:42:06,850
Never. Never, and I think you--
you could talk to the women
890
00:42:06,890 --> 00:42:08,350
who have appeared
in the magazine,
891
00:42:08,400 --> 00:42:11,400
and I think you would hear
rather clearly that’s the case.
892
00:42:11,400 --> 00:42:13,240
You know, they say,
"Oh, you’re being exploited."
893
00:42:13,320 --> 00:42:15,200
I’m like,
I’m not being exploited
894
00:42:15,240 --> 00:42:17,490
if Hugh Hefner thinks
I’m attractive enough
895
00:42:17,530 --> 00:42:20,070
to put me in his magazine,
and I get paid. It’s a job.
896
00:42:20,160 --> 00:42:23,580
That’s something that I never
understood of how people judge.
897
00:42:23,660 --> 00:42:26,240
We’re choosing to do it.
We wanna do it.
898
00:42:26,250 --> 00:42:28,590
You know, we find it beautiful.
We find it sexy.
899
00:42:28,670 --> 00:42:30,920
We find it attractive.
900
00:42:30,920 --> 00:42:32,510
Why is that exploitation?
901
00:42:38,590 --> 00:42:40,550
[scoffs] I don’t know, right?
902
00:42:40,600 --> 00:42:44,060
I posed nude
and felt comfortable with it,
903
00:42:44,100 --> 00:42:46,270
but people do.
They lose their mind.
904
00:42:46,350 --> 00:42:48,430
It is wild.
905
00:42:48,440 --> 00:42:51,610
There’s nothing wrong
with following a dream.
906
00:42:51,610 --> 00:42:54,280
There’s nothing wrong
with being naked.
907
00:42:54,360 --> 00:42:57,070
I just think it’s a way
to shame women, you know?
908
00:42:57,110 --> 00:43:00,360
But that’s their problem,
not mine.
71998
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