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I haven't used one
in so many years.
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Oh good...
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Perfect. A perfect forgery.
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* "My Dearest Darling"
by E.J. Bocage, P Gayten
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* All I need
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* is someone like you,
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* my dearest darling,
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* please love me too.
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* Within my heart,
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* I pray
your answer's yes.
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* I'll make your life
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full of happiness. *
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Hi. I'm Candy
Darling.
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I'm an actress
here in New York.
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I've been in
eight pictures.
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Small parts in big pictures and
big parts in small pictures.
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We're
doing a picture together.
Candy Darling.
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Well, we're calling it
"Blonde on a Bum Trip."
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Jane
Fonda is going to be in
Warhol's next movie
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- at least she thought
so. Warhol did not.
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I hope!
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Who is certainly
going to be in it is Warhol's
newly discovered star: Candy.
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I call myself Candy
Warhol now. (laughter)
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Cash me in!
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I was with
my father and my uncle. I
had done a reading.
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And they came to see it.
And Candy was there.
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They became very courtly with
her: she demanded that.
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I remember when she left, my
uncle and my father stood up,
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and I'd never seen
them do that before.
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Everybody
had left the theater,
it was 3 or 4 o'clock,
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and it was the two
of us, and we spent
like an hour there.
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But I remember this
pasty white makeup that
was kind of coming off,
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and underneath it I could
see a beard, and, um...
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I said
to them, I said, well,
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now I don't know if she is a
transsexual or a transvestite,
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I said, but this is not a
woman that was born a woman,
like when she was born
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the doctor slapped her
on the backside and
said "it's a girl".
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And they went "what?", I
mean, they both, like, ...
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Probably shouldn't say this,
but I went out on the
sidewalk afterward,
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and something about the
division of the sexes,
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or something that must have
gone back to my childhood, I
threw up on the sidewalk.
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And after they
recovered there for
a few seconds,
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I remember my father
taking a gulp of his beer,
a couple big gulps,
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he said, "Well," he said,
"God bless her, she
certainly pulled it off."
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"WALK ON THE WILD SIDE" by
Lou Reed* Candy came from
out on the Island.
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In the back room, she was
everybody's darling.
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But she never lost her
head, even when she
was giving head,
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she says Hey babe, take a walk
on the wild side, hey babe
take a walk...*
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I was
in Max's, and she told me
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that Lou Reed had written
a song about her.
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And I said, "In a pig's ass Lou
Reed wrote a song about you!"
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And she said, "OK, Mr.
Wise Guy, I'll show you,"
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and she walked over to
the jukebox and put on
"Walk On the Wild Side".
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I was totally amazed.
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I made the, uh, transfer
last night. I moved the
ashes from, um, the urn...
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I just wanted to
show this, 'cause...
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I don't know if I can get it
out without much problem...
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um, this picture,
little picture, meant
so much to Candy.
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It could be Germany, it could
be anywhere, it's, uh, sort
of a dark church and a road,
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and Candy, when we lived
together, always wanted it,
you know. She really...
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And I liked it, I kept
it, I said I don't want
to give it to you.
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But when she was
sick, I gave it to her.
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And she said that was her
favorite possession.
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And I believe it, 'cause she
really liked it for some reason.
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And she used to say, "Well,
we'll both meet by the church
and continue on this road."
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So, she's getting it.
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All
right, let's take down
the picture, Jeremiah!
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This is my life.
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Get her
down, she's getting out!
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Get her out of here! We don't
need her in this theater
anymore!
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Get a close-up of this!
Who is it, who is it?
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This is a piece of the
dress that she wore
when she was buried,
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and in it is her hair.
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The cat is interested
in this. See.
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This is her hair, when she
was healthy, and it's still
very full and, you know...
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Uh-uh, get down...
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All right, well, she is
taking all these things
with her on her travels,
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and I wish her the very best.
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And when I was a child,
I used to fill up the bathtub,
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and put blue food coloring in
the bathtub to make the water
blue, like in Technicolor.
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And a few years later, I
discovered, uh, Kim Novak, in
"The Eddie Duchin Story",
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and I was always attracted
to women with white hair.
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I thought it was
the prettiest.
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I remember
Candy once told me that when
she was very young,
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she sent away for an autographed
photo of Kim Novak.
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When the mailman finally
delivered that envelope,
and she opened it up,
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and she saw the photo of
Kim Novak, and it said
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"To James, love, Kim Novak",
or something like that,
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she said that she couldn't
stop looking at the photo...
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...for the entire day.
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And she told me this
story very, very seriously.
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It was apparent that it was
one of the most important
moments in her life.
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I had to understand,
from that point on, that
to be a movie star,
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to be considered a beautiful
woman, to be considered a
beautiful movie star,
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was the most important
thing in Candy's life.
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She idolized women who had
achieved this, and this is
what she wanted to be.
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This was the most important
thing in her life, this is
why she was alive.
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[KIM NOVAK, IN "PICNIC",
You know, some boys,
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well when they
take a girl in their
arms to dance,
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Some boys when
they take a girl in
their arms to dance
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well they make
you feel sort of
uncomfortable.
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you feel sort of
uncomfortable
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But with you,
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But with you I
had the feeling
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that you knew
exactly what you were doing,
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and I could follow you
every step of the way.
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Did you see "Picnic?" You
know when she said that to
William Holden?
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Kim was my favorite star,
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I went nuts over
her when she came out.
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- I know
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You know, she was so strong,
that's why I liked her.
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There was something stable
about Kim, something so
strong and...
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Joan Crawford
had that, and Barbara Stanwyck,
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we were talking about that
before you came in, they had
that very strong thing...
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Oh, but Kim,
Kim was also
vulnerable...
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- I understand
that Kim...
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and I liked
Kim's looks.
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Her model was
something at least one, probably
two, generations previous.
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That comes from, you know, I
guess, watching television.
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Or, you know, looking at
movie magazines, or, living
in someone else's past,
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not even her own past. You
know? So it was all a fantasy.
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No, she
didn't live in the past.
She was a humorist.
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She and her particular type
of humor, had to do with
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making fun, a little bit,
of film stars of the past.
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I don't need you...
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I don't need you!
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I don't need anyone!
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I'm Jeanne Eagels!
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That's Jeanne Eagels (laughter)
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I remember going to the
Cedar Tavern with her once,
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and she was playing out the
scene from Jeanne Eagels
jumping off the fire escape.
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You know, there was a
lot of dying as the
young, beautiful star.
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She lived that out,
it's very odd.
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Yeah, I
want to arrange for a
burial on Saturday.
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Uh, two people, my mom, and a
person named Candy Darling,
who was an actress,
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and my mother's name
was Katherine Newton.
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And they died in 1974 and 1989,
they were cremated.
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And when I di-- When
she died, and I saw her
lying in the coffin,
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it was almost as if I saw
myself lying in the coffin.
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This horrible scream went
through my body, and people
really wrote me off afterwards,
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afterwards they thought,
"well, you remind us so
much of Candy,
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we really don't
want you around."
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I wish she was here,
but she's not.
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There's nothing I can
do about it, nothing.
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I can't mix a potion, I can't
stand on my head in Times
Square,
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I can't do anything. It's over.
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When you're in your 30's
and 40's, you don't
think about death.
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It only comes later, it creeps
up at you at night.
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The little voice says, "Well,
you know, Jeremiah, where are
you going to go when you die?"
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Honey, come on!
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I'm not answering
the door, Lance!
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You open that
fucking door,
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I'll kick
your fucking face in!
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I'll answer it.
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NO!
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Come on!
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Hi, honey! Hi,
honey!
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What the
fuck is going on in
here?
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*
One, two testing one, two,
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And the date is
October 15th, 1974
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I first met Candy on a street
called Greenwich Avenue.
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I must have been about 15 years
old. I was frightened of her.
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I didn't know whether she
wanted me sexually...
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She told me to call her, and
I called her and told her
she couldn't stay with me,
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and she was very,
very disappointed,
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because she was desperate to get
out from where she was living.
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Oh, no! Oh, Lance! Please!
That's all there is!
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You fucking
cheap slut!
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I was living in Flushing,
on a quiet little street,
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and the next-door
neighbors would
have talked.
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I didn't want them to think
that I was living with some
sort of drag queen.
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Stop it!
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Her personality was
just so strong. I
wasn't ready for her.
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(loud thump)
Good riddance
to bad rubbish.
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But, when I got my apartment
in Manhattan, we were best
friends, all of a sudden.
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We became really close
friends. You know, it
was like a book opened.
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Meet Andy Warhol.
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Oh really? Oh.
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"Andy Warhol" by David Bowie
* Andy walking, Andy Tired, Andy
take a little snooze
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Tie him up when he's fast
asleep, Send him on a
pleasant cruise
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When he wakes up on
the sea. Be sure to
think of me and you
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He'll think about paint and
he'll think about glue. What a
jolly boring thing to do *
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Andy came into a
luncheonette where I was
working as a waitress.
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And he came over to me
and said "You should be
in movies". (laughter)
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* Andy Warhol looks a
scream, hang him on
my wall.
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Andy Warhol,
Silver Screen, Can't tell
them apart at all*
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Andy, why is it
you're making these films?
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Um, well, it's just
easier to do.
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It's easier to do
than, um, painting.
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Normal films, the
burden is more on
the director.
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And, I mean, if you're doing
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a scene, and you can't,
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if you don't feel well that day,
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or you can't think
of anything to say,
it's just too bad.
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You know, maybe
you won't do
another scene.
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Candy
wanted to be a movie star.
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Candy was a man who wanted
to be a female movie star.
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And, you know, fell into
the clutches of Andy,
who told her she was.
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And she thought that she
was discovered, by Andy Warhol,
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you know, the new, the biggest,
uh, the MGM of the East Coast,
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that he was going to
really make her the next
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Jean Harlow, Lana Turner,
Marilyn Monroe, all
rolled into one,
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and she would be the biggest
movie star on the planet.
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Tell us about
the film, what's the film about?
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Uh, it's called "Blonde on a
Bum Trip." What's it about?
Candy?
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Islam!
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It's about, um, a naive
young lady...
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who goes to
Hollywood to make it big.
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And the
thing about Candy that was
kind of curious, in that
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here she was in the middle of
this very avant-garde scene,
of Andy Warhol's factory
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and underground film-making,
and Pop Art, and she really
was a throwback, you know,
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she was someone
who wished the studio
system still existed,
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and sort of saw Andy as
Louis B. Mayer, except
Andy, in some ways, was,
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but he didn't have the
resources of a Louis B. Mayer.
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And she wanted to be Kim
Novak, she wanted to be kind
of the queen of the studio.
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*Oh yes we do,
we love you Andy,
and we'll be true...
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When you're not near
to us, we're blue, Oh,
Andy, we love you.*
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I think
Candy was very avant-garde,
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in terms of who she was and
how she invented herself.
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In terms of making
comparisons between Andy's
Superstars, I mean,
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there was nothing
fragile about Candy, she
was just a very potent,
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very confident, very
powerful presence in a way.
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I had Limburger cheese
and bagels for breakfast;
garlic dressing for lunch;
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steak and onions for dinner;
but you'll never know.
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Because I'll always stay
"Kissing Sweet", the new
"dazzle dental" way.
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Cut!
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Nico was the silent type,
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so you really were engaged
with Nico on the level of
the way she looked,
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which was very dynamic
in its own way.
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I think Edie was maybe trying
too hard, on a certain level,
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to assume a certain role or a
certain stance, in terms of
taking herself seriously.
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But I think Edie was searching,
more, for the kind of identity
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that Candy had
already arrived at.
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I think a
lot of artists, their
greatest work is themselves,
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I think Andy is in that
category as well, and
Candy was an artist,
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and her - she was
her own artwork.
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Feel pretty
good about being shown here
at the Whitney Museum?
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Uh, oh, I don't
know... Candy,
what do you think?
239
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Well it's good...
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This is the first
time Candy's been
to a museum.
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Oh, is
it? You've never been to
a museum before?
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Um, maybe when I
was, um, in school, but I
live only across the street,
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so I can come here
all the time.
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What do
you think of the exhibit?
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Well, I think it's,
uh, colorful, and, uh, it's
so... it's all right...
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There's a lot of room here.
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I think
that's more the part where
Andy liked Candy,
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the fact it's a person playing
the part of being themselves,
249
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it's a weird dichotomy,
it's: they're real, but
they're not real.
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I was in Toronto, Canada,
on a publicity tour with
Andy. It was so exciting.
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Did you see my picture in
Photoplay? What? You didn't
know?
252
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Yes my dear: your famous cousin
has finally made page 5 of the
January issue of our old bible.
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Remember how we used to pore
over those fan magazines?
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Drooling over Liz and Kim,
hating Debbie?
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Well, now they can drool
over me, because I'm
famous, and I'm beautiful.
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(In my 82 pounds of makeup.)
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Candy
could be embarrassed. Candy got
ashamed about things.
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Candy, he liked people who
had a sense of shame.
259
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It's funny to say, but it
was like, Jean Michel
Basquiat was the same way,
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he would turn red, you know.
And Andy, it touched him,
261
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because Andy was the same way.
262
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Andy was
older than Candy, quite a
bit, I would imagine,
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and Andy was obviously much more
successful than Candy, um,
264
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but probably, just being
gay anytime before five
minutes ago,
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everyone had the same
childhood, which was: Escape.
And which was: Dream.
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Your real prospects:
not fabulous.
267
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"Pink Shoe Laces" by
Mickie Grant
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* Tan shoes and pink
shoelaces. A polkadot
vest and man O man.
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Tan shoes and pink
shoelaces and a big Panama,
with a purple hat band *
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She grew up
very near where I grew up, in
a town called Massapequa,
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in eastern Nassau County,
and I grew up in Plainview,
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and these were towns that
were sort of built on potato
fields in the mid-1950's.
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It was very flat.
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They built these
developments with all ranch
houses, or all Cape Cods,
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or all split-levels,
and everybody came from
Brooklyn or the Bronx.
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These communities were, like,
uniformly middle-class,
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they were very uniform
in so many ways.
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And all the public schools were
completely new, everything was
completely new:
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the churches were new, the
shopping centers were new,
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and it was all very
sterile in a way.
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Uniformity was really
prized in these communities.
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* ...and a big Panama with a
purple hat band...*
283
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It's evening now. I'm home
and I'm very tired. Thinking
all day about Candy.
284
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Terry showed me some pictures of
Candy, when Candy was 14 or so.
285
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Candy looked so
incredibly adorable, and
sexy, for a little boy.
286
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Candy always had very good legs.
287
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I can picture her as a
little boy, showing her legs
off to the best advantage,
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sneakers and heavy white
socks, and her long legs.
289
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She told
me how abusive her
father had been to her,
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very abusive father, and
that, even in kindergarten,
that she knew,
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again, that there was
something different
about her,
292
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that she wasn't the way other
five-year-olds are.
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I have
lived most of my life
starving for affection.
294
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Both spiritual and
emotional hunger. I lived
through movie stars.
295
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Most of my teen and pre-teen
years were spent very lonely,
looking at movie magazines.
296
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I was in love with
Laurence Harvey.
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Every day I would watch
the Million Dollar Movie
and long for him.
298
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Too gentle. Too gentle
for the bullies.
299
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Nobody loves me,
or wants me.
300
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I lead a dull,
uninteresting existence.
301
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I'm in homeroom now, and
there's a bunch of chicks in
here, and they all hate me.
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Someday, I'll be a
movie star. That's it.
303
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And I'll be rich, and famous,
and have all the friends I want.
304
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And she
told me how her mother
would try to protect her.
305
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Terry said that
Candy would come home and, um,
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she would see, her lips
would be very red, and she'd
say, "Why, uh, Jimmy,
307
00:24:33,205 --> 00:24:37,544
are you wearing lipstick?"
and Candy would say "No,
no, of course not!"
308
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And sometimes Candy's cheeks
would be a little bit flushed,
309
00:24:40,747 --> 00:24:43,550
and Terry would say "Are you
wearing makeup?"
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It was a place for
people who didn't fit in.
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Not people who
pretended not
to fit in.
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People who actually could go
to jail. People who actually
couldn't get a job.
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People who actually did
something that no one
was interested in.
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A lot of people were either
really crazy, or pretending
to be really crazy,
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you know, both of
which were annoying.
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People were so
stoned, and so screwed up, that
from one minute to the next,
317
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you didn't even know who
you were talking to.
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People were becoming
more into image,
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and less into what
was the reality of
things.
320
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And you basically were
what you said you were.
321
00:26:33,926 --> 00:26:38,698
When I
first met Candy, Candy wasn't
even in women's clothing,
322
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because it was illegal in
New York. It was called
female impersonation,
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if you were wearing any,
uh, any women's clothes,
they would arrest you.
324
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You know, you had to wear pants,
or, you know, she... we all
dressed with bulky sweaters,
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mohair sweaters as
a matter of fact,
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tight pants, and just a
little bit of mascara,
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that's all you could
get away with.
328
00:27:00,619 --> 00:27:04,090
And if the cops put a flashlight
to your face, and they said
"you're wearing mascara",
329
00:27:04,123 --> 00:27:06,392
and it was true, (sqwish) they
would throw you in jail,
330
00:27:06,425 --> 00:27:08,995
that's how tough New
York was at that time.
331
00:27:09,028 --> 00:27:12,431
It was dangerous for a man
to walk down the street
wearing a dress.
332
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You know, it was illegal.
333
00:27:14,100 --> 00:27:16,736
And it wasn't just dangerous
with cops; it was dangerous.
334
00:27:16,769 --> 00:27:19,405
And believe me, if someone had
gotten beaten up for doing that,
335
00:27:19,438 --> 00:27:22,141
no one would have felt
sorry for that person.
336
00:27:22,174 --> 00:27:26,746
Well, I'm a surviving
street queen from
Christopher Street,
337
00:27:26,779 --> 00:27:30,850
and, like, a generation
of people who were on the
streets who were gay,
338
00:27:30,883 --> 00:27:35,922
just hung out together,
and Greenwich Village
was the place to do it.
339
00:27:35,955 --> 00:27:42,061
The times were not easy, and, as
I said, a lot of us had to carry
shopping bags with our drag,
340
00:27:42,094 --> 00:27:44,897
and later, stepping into
doorways and what have you,
341
00:27:44,931 --> 00:27:49,769
got further in drag, until
the magic hour, after dark.
342
00:27:49,802 --> 00:27:54,807
But much later, you were
screaming, screaming, and
feeling very comfortable,
343
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because there were so many.
344
00:27:56,608 --> 00:28:02,148
For want or reason, we would
all get out, and stand under the
street sign that said "Gay",
345
00:28:02,181 --> 00:28:06,452
and yell "what is the name of
this street?" "GAY STREET!"
346
00:28:06,485 --> 00:28:12,058
But Candy would do it so
much like a glamorous
star: "Gay Street..."
347
00:28:12,091 --> 00:28:15,161
Not many people really,
like, knew her during that,
348
00:28:15,194 --> 00:28:21,200
because she was "Hope
Slattery" then. She went
through many personas.
349
00:28:21,233 --> 00:28:24,503
She was trying to, like, figure
out where she was going.
350
00:28:24,536 --> 00:28:30,142
The very first time
I met Candy, was,
uh, I remember,
351
00:28:30,176 --> 00:28:37,216
I was facing Washington
Square Park. And Candy
was against the railing.
352
00:28:37,249 --> 00:28:41,821
And, um, she was sort of,
she hadn't gone completely
drag at that time.
353
00:28:41,854 --> 00:28:44,123
She was sort of like at a
transition stage, you know.
354
00:28:44,156 --> 00:28:48,861
And, um, I thought she
was, at first I thought
she was a lesbian.
355
00:28:48,895 --> 00:28:52,832
You see, when we first
met, a long time ago,
356
00:28:52,865 --> 00:28:56,068
she was staying at the Hotel
Seventeen, and I was living
here,
357
00:28:56,102 --> 00:29:00,106
and we bumped into each
other, and she used to wear
the same suit all the time,
358
00:29:00,139 --> 00:29:04,010
so I knew it was her, 'cause
then she was sneaking out of
the Hotel Seventeen,
359
00:29:04,043 --> 00:29:07,847
'cause she wasn't paying
her bill, you know.
360
00:29:07,880 --> 00:29:12,251
She and
Jackie became very close, and
Jackie was into theater,
361
00:29:12,284 --> 00:29:15,988
she was a playwright, you
know, she was into the
Off-off-Broadway thing,
362
00:29:16,022 --> 00:29:20,893
you know, she was into
theater and Candy, you know,
normally, got into it.
363
00:29:20,927 --> 00:29:28,935
And then she got the love from
an audience. Every night. And
started becoming a star.
364
00:29:29,135 --> 00:29:31,337
"Jackie Curtis' campy
'Glamor, Glory, and Gold',
365
00:29:31,370 --> 00:29:35,141
at the Playwrights Workshop,"
and this is by Dan Sullivan
in the New York Times,
366
00:29:35,174 --> 00:29:39,178
"a skinny actress billed
as Candy Darling also
makes an impression.
367
00:29:39,211 --> 00:29:43,015
Hers was the first
female impersonation of
a female impersonator
368
00:29:43,049 --> 00:29:45,117
that I have ever seen."
369
00:29:45,151 --> 00:29:48,988
Warhol came to see the
first "Glamor, Glory, and
Gold" and gave us a quote:
370
00:29:49,021 --> 00:29:52,291
"For the first time,
I wasn't bored."
371
00:29:52,324 --> 00:29:55,594
This was about, this was
about 1967, right?
372
00:29:55,627 --> 00:29:59,465
Right, she wasn't that
notorious yet, you know.
373
00:29:59,498 --> 00:30:04,170
She wasn't always as careful
then about her beard.
374
00:30:04,203 --> 00:30:08,841
She was just a talented girl,
as far as I was concerned,
that at that time,
375
00:30:08,875 --> 00:30:11,310
needed her hair
bleached to blonde.
376
00:30:11,343 --> 00:30:15,447
And then, after
that, she, she stayed blonde.
377
00:30:15,481 --> 00:30:17,950
And she also stayed with
that blonde attitude.
378
00:30:17,984 --> 00:30:22,955
"MAKEUP" by Lou Reed
* Then comes pancake, Factor
Number One,
379
00:30:22,989 --> 00:30:27,193
eyeliner, rosehips, and
lip gloss, such fun;
380
00:30:27,226 --> 00:30:32,331
you're a slick little girl;
381
00:30:32,364 --> 00:30:36,368
you're a
slick little girl...
382
00:30:38,470 --> 00:30:43,342
Rouge and coloring, incense
and ice;
383
00:30:43,375 --> 00:30:47,513
perfume and kisses,
ooh, it's all so nice;
384
00:30:47,546 --> 00:30:53,019
you're a slick little girl;
385
00:30:53,052 --> 00:30:59,225
you're such a
slick little girl...*
386
00:30:59,258 --> 00:31:04,330
I am an irresistible
magnet, with the power to
attract unto myself
387
00:31:04,363 --> 00:31:09,101
everything that I divinely
desire, according to my
thoughts, feelings,
388
00:31:09,135 --> 00:31:13,572
and the mental pictures I
constantly entertain and
radiate.
389
00:31:13,605 --> 00:31:16,075
I am the center of my universe.
390
00:31:17,276 --> 00:31:22,114
There was a period when
Candy was going around
391
00:31:22,148 --> 00:31:29,521
picking up, uh, handmaidens.
Little assistants, little
slaves, all of the above!
392
00:31:29,555 --> 00:31:31,157
You know what I mean?
Without paying them.
393
00:31:31,190 --> 00:31:37,063
Just, you know, just: "You
are in the presence of..."
You know, that was enough.
394
00:31:37,096 --> 00:31:43,302
I, I think Jeremiah,
at one point, was
one of Candy's little,
395
00:31:43,335 --> 00:31:46,072
"Would you like this, would
you like that?", you know...
396
00:31:46,105 --> 00:31:52,311
Jeremiah Newton was
like a younger brother
to Candy Darling.
397
00:31:52,344 --> 00:31:56,482
Um, she knew he was star-struck
by her beauty and her talent,
398
00:31:56,515 --> 00:32:00,086
and therefore would
do anything for her.
399
00:32:00,119 --> 00:32:05,624
He was willing to do anything
for her. And Jeremiah did
everything for her.
400
00:32:05,657 --> 00:32:09,495
She did open doors
for me, no doubt about that.
401
00:32:09,528 --> 00:32:13,199
And of course, the Factory, she
brought me up to the Factory,
402
00:32:13,232 --> 00:32:19,271
and introduced me to Andy
and Fred and Bob and
Vincent and Fran Lebowitz,
403
00:32:19,305 --> 00:32:25,244
and all these people, and
they were very cool, so...
And, um, and great,
404
00:32:25,277 --> 00:32:29,181
you know? That was great,
the fact that I could go
up to the Factory,
405
00:32:29,215 --> 00:32:32,584
and when I got up to the
floor, this eye would
look in the door,
406
00:32:32,618 --> 00:32:34,153
the door was always locked,
407
00:32:34,186 --> 00:32:37,523
and there was a peephole,
and the eye would look in
the elevator, like this,
408
00:32:37,556 --> 00:32:40,159
and you'd still be
standing in the elevator,
409
00:32:40,192 --> 00:32:42,328
and then when they'd see
me, they'd open the door.
410
00:32:42,361 --> 00:32:45,697
"Oh, it's Jeremiah, let
him in," you know? And
that was very cool.
411
00:32:47,533 --> 00:32:53,472
Going out with people
who don't enjoy my fame. And
people who enjoy it too much.
412
00:32:53,505 --> 00:32:57,276
People who are constantly
looking at me when I go out.
413
00:32:57,309 --> 00:33:02,448
There are so many
different kinds of fame.
My type is curious.
414
00:33:02,481 --> 00:33:07,486
When strangers talk to me,
they don't really listen.
They're too busy looking.
415
00:33:07,519 --> 00:33:13,192
If one desires money
and fame too much, it
can poison this life.
416
00:33:13,225 --> 00:33:17,229
I must conquer New York -
or be conquered.
417
00:33:17,263 --> 00:33:19,298
* "In Crowd" by Bryan Ferry
418
00:33:19,331 --> 00:33:26,272
I'm in with the "In" crowd,
I go where the "In" crowd goes
419
00:33:26,305 --> 00:33:34,313
I'm in with the "In" crowd,
and I know what the "In"
crowd knows *
420
00:33:34,413 --> 00:33:37,616
Part
of our life then was going
to Max's every night.
421
00:33:37,649 --> 00:33:42,521
So, you know, you'd go to Max's,
and you'd go to the back room,
and you'd meet Candy Darling.
422
00:33:42,554 --> 00:33:47,259
A wonderful,
simple, minimal, pink sculpture
in the corner of the room,
423
00:33:47,293 --> 00:33:49,628
where I, which was my
table, and Nico's.
424
00:33:49,661 --> 00:33:53,332
And then Andy had a big round
table over in the other corner,
425
00:33:53,365 --> 00:33:59,638
with whoever it was he
was flattering, Candy,
Jackie, whoever.
426
00:34:03,575 --> 00:34:08,814
I wanted to go.
I wanted a cool place to go.
I knew Candy went there.
427
00:34:11,883 --> 00:34:18,357
She'd go into
the back room, and you know...
models, fashion designers,
428
00:34:18,390 --> 00:34:25,397
they were all going oh, oh,
Candy, Jackie, Holly, mwah,
mwah, can I touch you!
429
00:34:26,465 --> 00:34:28,867
Basically,
you're talking about an
entire group of people
430
00:34:28,900 --> 00:34:32,104
who'd have a tantrum if
everyone wasn't paying
attention to them.
431
00:34:32,138 --> 00:34:33,805
And it was not just for
the attention of Andy,
432
00:34:33,839 --> 00:34:39,111
it was for the attention of the
back room at Max's, you know,
they wanted to be stars.
433
00:34:41,880 --> 00:34:45,851
Once in a while
Candy would say "Oh!", let
out a slight shout,
434
00:34:45,884 --> 00:34:51,490
and then go back into her
glamour, just being watched.
435
00:34:54,560 --> 00:34:58,764
I remember
sitting there, and a few
of my high school chums,
436
00:34:58,797 --> 00:35:02,434
that I didn't like, saw
me in the back room.
437
00:35:02,468 --> 00:35:06,605
And the guard at the back room
said, "Boys, you can't come in
here. This is special."
438
00:35:06,638 --> 00:35:10,476
And they were so mad, they
couldn't believe it. And I
loved it, I said "Yes!
439
00:35:10,509 --> 00:35:14,180
This is good, this is really
good. I'm so happy now!"
440
00:35:18,717 --> 00:35:21,620
People
were very interesting. I
mean, even in retrospect.
441
00:35:21,653 --> 00:35:25,157
Not every person. It was a,
I think, pretty interesting
group. It was fun.
442
00:35:25,191 --> 00:35:26,492
I mean, it was really fun.
443
00:35:37,669 --> 00:35:40,939
Oh yes, I'd love to.
444
00:35:40,972 --> 00:35:45,644
Well, um, I'm at the Factory.
I'm at the Factory,
445
00:35:45,677 --> 00:35:49,815
924-4344.
446
00:35:52,684 --> 00:35:57,656
"Dear Candy Darling, I'm
sure you remember me.
447
00:35:57,689 --> 00:36:03,729
I was the manager of the Vista
Theater on Sunset Drive,
Hollywood, California.
448
00:36:03,762 --> 00:36:09,268
You meet me" - he wrote
"meet me" and not "met me" -
"you meet me last November"
449
00:36:09,301 --> 00:36:16,775
- he's an Indian, I think -
"while seeing the movie 'Lorna',
a Russ Meyer production.
450
00:36:16,808 --> 00:36:21,713
I am currently in the New York
area for the next few months,
451
00:36:21,747 --> 00:36:24,350
but will return to Hollywood
for a similar position."
452
00:36:24,383 --> 00:36:29,321
Maybe he'll take me with him...
if I get in a similar position.
453
00:36:29,355 --> 00:36:31,557
"If you are in the
New York area" -
454
00:36:31,590 --> 00:36:33,859
I have a dirty mind
these days, I don't know
what happens to me.
455
00:36:33,892 --> 00:36:39,298
I think that something happened
to me since I became a redhead
- I got more torrid.
456
00:36:39,331 --> 00:36:42,301
Uh... do you like the
color of my hair?
457
00:36:42,334 --> 00:36:45,937
Well, I
think the atmosphere of Andy's
studio in the early 70's
458
00:36:45,971 --> 00:36:49,975
was a big departure from
the Silver Factory.
459
00:36:50,008 --> 00:36:52,878
It was considered by
some more formal.
460
00:36:52,911 --> 00:36:58,350
So there was
this time, I think '70 to '73,
um, when the 60's were over,
461
00:36:58,384 --> 00:37:00,819
but the 70's hadn't started.
462
00:37:00,852 --> 00:37:06,325
And that's when this surge of
Hollywood nostalgia came in,
and Candy was right in there,
463
00:37:06,358 --> 00:37:09,628
somewhere between the
past and the future.
464
00:37:13,432 --> 00:37:15,901
There
was really something there.
465
00:37:15,934 --> 00:37:21,740
There was really something
about to be... really like
Marilyn, it was there.
466
00:37:21,773 --> 00:37:24,410
It needed urging,
and bringing out,
467
00:37:24,443 --> 00:37:29,681
and being in love with by
the person on the other
side of the camera.
468
00:37:29,715 --> 00:37:34,486
And being adored,
and being allowed.
469
00:37:34,520 --> 00:37:39,891
That's the biggest verb in
anyone's life, is to be
allowed, to be yourself.
470
00:37:39,925 --> 00:37:41,793
Candy fit in
perfectly.
471
00:37:41,827 --> 00:37:43,362
Because she was like a real
472
00:37:43,395 --> 00:37:45,864
movie star from MGM or
something, at the time
473
00:37:45,897 --> 00:37:48,967
only in a world that
was filled with LSD.
474
00:37:49,000 --> 00:37:53,305
And speed,
really. Speed.
475
00:37:53,339 --> 00:37:55,907
There
was a concerted effort to
have a stable of stars.
476
00:37:55,941 --> 00:37:59,378
I mean, Andy collected
film stills, framed, of
various movie stars,
477
00:37:59,411 --> 00:38:02,914
there was a studio that
started evolving.
478
00:38:02,948 --> 00:38:10,489
And Jackie, and Candy, and
Holly Woodlawn, those were the
three pre-eminent ladies,
479
00:38:10,522 --> 00:38:15,060
in quotes, if you want to
say, but those were the
three, you know, stars.
480
00:38:15,093 --> 00:38:21,367
And Jackie would give
you an hour of, a philosophical
hour of something,
481
00:38:21,400 --> 00:38:25,771
you know, and Holly'd just,
you know, swig something
and say "Motherfucker",
482
00:38:25,804 --> 00:38:33,545
and Candy'd just give you
that look: the "I'm too grand
to sink to your level" look.
483
00:38:33,579 --> 00:38:36,948
They lived
from hand to mouth, they
moved in with friends,
484
00:38:36,982 --> 00:38:43,121
they would come to the
office once in a while,
drop in to use the phone,
485
00:38:43,154 --> 00:38:46,458
'cause they didn't have phones.
They couldn't have phones,
didn't pay phone bills.
486
00:38:51,062 --> 00:38:55,100
Candy could come
up and just hang around there,
and look through scrapbooks.
487
00:38:55,133 --> 00:38:58,570
Or, you know, wait for
Andy to come, when he was
done shopping, and say
488
00:38:58,604 --> 00:39:00,338
"I want to talk to you
about something,"
489
00:39:00,372 --> 00:39:04,876
and maybe she'd have an idea
for a way to get money out of
him, or an idea for a movie,
490
00:39:04,910 --> 00:39:06,578
and, you know, he'd
be glad to see her.
491
00:39:06,612 --> 00:39:11,650
I remember
when she came up with Jeremiah
Newton, as a young kid,
492
00:39:11,683 --> 00:39:13,985
you know, I think we were
always trying to figure out
what was going on there,
493
00:39:14,019 --> 00:39:17,523
and Andy liked to ponder
these kinds of things,
so it was interesting.
494
00:39:17,556 --> 00:39:20,459
Andy
never was afraid of Candy.
495
00:39:20,492 --> 00:39:23,395
Andy never, never thought that
Candy would turn on him.
496
00:39:23,429 --> 00:39:27,466
Andy never had to be
locked up in the editing
room because of Candy.
497
00:39:27,499 --> 00:39:31,069
He did because of Jackie,
and Holly, when they would
completely freak out,
498
00:39:31,102 --> 00:39:35,173
and demand money, and be
screaming and shouting and
pounding on the door.
499
00:39:35,206 --> 00:39:38,610
You attract a
lot of those people up at the
Factory, though, in your films?
500
00:39:38,644 --> 00:39:40,612
What? Closet
queens?
501
00:39:40,646 --> 00:39:43,081
Not closet queens,
drag queens.
502
00:39:43,114 --> 00:39:49,521
Drag queens...
well, the people we use
aren't really drag queens,
503
00:39:49,555 --> 00:39:55,694
because drag queens are
people who just sort of dress
up, for, uh, you know,
504
00:39:55,727 --> 00:39:58,964
8 hours a day or
something like that.
505
00:39:58,997 --> 00:40:03,535
And the kind of people
we really use are people
who think they, uh,
506
00:40:03,569 --> 00:40:06,638
are really girls and stuff,
so that's sort of different.
507
00:40:06,672 --> 00:40:11,142
Pre-op, post-op,
transvestite, drag queen,
508
00:40:11,176 --> 00:40:17,082
transvestite that's straight
and fucks women, transvestite
that's gay and fucks men,
509
00:40:17,115 --> 00:40:22,754
daytime drag queens, the,
the, the classifications
go on and on and on.
510
00:40:22,788 --> 00:40:26,525
And Candy was not a
transvestite. Candy
was a transsexual.
511
00:40:26,558 --> 00:40:28,326
She wanted to
be a woman.
512
00:40:28,359 --> 00:40:32,531
She didn't want to be called
"he"; she wanted to be called
"she", because she was a she.
513
00:40:32,564 --> 00:40:36,101
She was a beautiful,
female goddess.
514
00:40:36,134 --> 00:40:38,670
Candy Darling,
what is a goddess?
515
00:40:38,704 --> 00:40:43,709
A goddess is someone
that's worshipped from afar.
516
00:40:43,742 --> 00:40:48,246
And a star is someone that has
an unknown quality.
517
00:40:48,279 --> 00:40:53,552
A transgender person,
uh, the medical profession
call them transsexuals,
518
00:40:53,585 --> 00:40:56,187
perceive themselves as women.
519
00:40:56,221 --> 00:41:00,492
They either want to be a woman,
or they already perceive
themselves as a woman,
520
00:41:00,526 --> 00:41:03,729
and they were gypped by
having a male's body,
521
00:41:03,762 --> 00:41:06,565
so what you do, you take
hormones. Candy took hormones.
522
00:41:06,598 --> 00:41:10,602
She took hormones in order
to make her body fit what
was in her brain.
523
00:41:23,815 --> 00:41:27,786
The doctor
told me that, um, the
pills she was taking,
524
00:41:27,819 --> 00:41:31,723
which was the cancerous
pills, did nothing for her.
525
00:41:31,757 --> 00:41:34,225
And I threw them down
the toilet bowl.
526
00:41:34,259 --> 00:41:40,766
They were big, black pills,
shaped like an eye, like
sort of, um, almond shaped.
527
00:41:40,799 --> 00:41:44,903
And they sat in that toilet and
looked at me, so help me God,
528
00:41:44,936 --> 00:41:48,674
they just sat, they wouldn't
dissolve, they just sat there.
529
00:41:48,707 --> 00:41:51,643
And she said "Put your
hand in the toilet and
get the pills out,"
530
00:41:51,677 --> 00:41:52,944
and I said "I'm
not doing that."
531
00:41:52,978 --> 00:41:54,713
And when you get to a
point where you're doing
the hormones,
532
00:41:54,746 --> 00:41:59,851
and you're looking good, and
you can pass in the streets,
you're like, you can breathe.
533
00:41:59,885 --> 00:42:05,724
You're like, no one's yelling
"faggot" at me anymore. No
one's calling me a man.
534
00:42:05,757 --> 00:42:09,761
Someone's saying,
(cat whistle)"Baby,
you want a date?"
535
00:42:09,795 --> 00:42:13,298
And that's a big, hunky
straight man talking.
And Candy loved that.
536
00:42:16,935 --> 00:42:19,805
She was really
cool looking,
I'll tell you.
537
00:42:19,838 --> 00:42:22,641
You didn't care
if it was a guy.
538
00:42:22,674 --> 00:42:25,744
As
a girlfriend, Candy
was totally feminine.
539
00:42:25,777 --> 00:42:33,785
I never thought of Candy as
a man, I never had any sense
of a man there with me.
540
00:42:34,352 --> 00:42:36,788
It was always a woman.
541
00:42:36,822 --> 00:42:39,791
One time she suggested
we get together and wash
each other's hair,
542
00:42:39,825 --> 00:42:43,294
and I thought "I wash my
hair in the shower; I don't
think I'm ready for that!"
543
00:42:43,328 --> 00:42:47,799
"She's About a Mover" by
Doug Sham * Whoa, she was
walking down the street
544
00:42:47,833 --> 00:42:50,969
looking fine as she could be?
545
00:42:51,002 --> 00:42:52,771
It's a
little bit over the top.
546
00:42:52,804 --> 00:42:58,009
Although, Candy kept it, but
there were times, sometimes, you
could see, it was a little...
547
00:42:58,043 --> 00:43:02,848
the reactions, the movements,
you know,
548
00:43:02,881 --> 00:43:07,018
"oh yes", that kind
of thing, even the voice,
549
00:43:07,052 --> 00:43:13,058
the serenity of the voice -
you know, women don't speak
like that all the time.
550
00:43:15,093 --> 00:43:20,398
* Hey, hey, She's About a
Mover, (mover)
551
00:43:20,431 --> 00:43:25,103
She's About a Mover
She's about a Mover *
552
00:43:25,136 --> 00:43:30,341
A real woman
doesn't think about it. You
know, I mean, it's not a goal.
553
00:43:30,375 --> 00:43:33,912
So there's not all that
intention. And there's
not all that desire.
554
00:43:33,945 --> 00:43:38,684
And real women know all
the, also, bad things there
are about being a woman.
555
00:43:38,717 --> 00:43:43,889
Candy loved
it. She attracted so many men.
556
00:43:47,125 --> 00:43:51,863
She dated, uh...
she tended to date, uh...
557
00:43:51,897 --> 00:43:54,966
She
never was with anybody.
Not that I know of.
558
00:43:55,000 --> 00:43:59,738
...European nobility.
Minor nobility.
559
00:43:59,771 --> 00:44:02,941
I...she never discussed any
of that with me.
560
00:44:02,974 --> 00:44:05,744
I don't know anything
about any of that.
561
00:44:05,777 --> 00:44:09,881
She would borrow my
clothes, when she was
living with me in Queens,
562
00:44:09,915 --> 00:44:13,151
and she would go off
in my clothes...
563
00:44:13,184 --> 00:44:17,756
Maybe she talked
to other people about it. But
me, she would just sort of -
564
00:44:17,789 --> 00:44:22,093
and then come back the
next day, and they would
be ripped, shredded,
565
00:44:22,127 --> 00:44:25,897
I would say "well obviously your
date didn't go, you know",
566
00:44:25,931 --> 00:44:29,200
and she would say, "he
wanted me to put out!"
567
00:44:29,234 --> 00:44:32,103
* Yeah, baby what'd I say
568
00:44:32,137 --> 00:44:34,472
She was
engaged to an Italian
count. He was gorgeous.
569
00:44:34,505 --> 00:44:37,042
And
I know she was in love
with Gerard Malanga.
570
00:44:37,075 --> 00:44:38,309
I'm flattered. I
didn't know that.
571
00:44:38,343 --> 00:44:40,378
And I would tell
her, I said, you
know, honey,
572
00:44:40,411 --> 00:44:42,881
eventually you're going
to have to come out,
you know, and be honest,
573
00:44:42,914 --> 00:44:48,887
and say hello, you know,
this, in here, down here,
whatever, you know,
574
00:44:48,920 --> 00:44:53,191
is not what you... you know...
and you either love me for me,
575
00:44:53,224 --> 00:44:59,464
and this is the icing, or, you
know... Keep on looking, Candy.
576
00:44:59,497 --> 00:45:01,833
I am
not a genuine woman.
577
00:45:01,867 --> 00:45:05,336
But I am not interested
in genuineness.
578
00:45:05,370 --> 00:45:10,708
I am interested in the
product of being a woman,
and how qualified I am.
579
00:45:13,178 --> 00:45:20,819
He called me beautiful. I am!
580
00:45:20,852 --> 00:45:27,926
You are. Just...
just beautiful. Come on.
581
00:45:40,038 --> 00:45:45,443
They all had
to say I was beautiful.
582
00:45:45,476 --> 00:45:50,481
Prettier than she is.
583
00:45:53,584 --> 00:45:55,353
She was at
the Italian Consulate,
584
00:45:55,386 --> 00:45:58,223
and she came down the
stairs into the ballroom.
585
00:45:58,256 --> 00:46:03,161
People stopped, dead,
she looked that good.
586
00:46:04,996 --> 00:46:09,434
And she said to me
afterwards, she said, "You
know, all these men love me,
587
00:46:09,467 --> 00:46:13,038
but if they knew,
they would kill me."
588
00:46:13,071 --> 00:46:16,007
I have always
found that socially
unacceptable people
589
00:46:16,041 --> 00:46:20,879
make the best lovers because
they are more sensitive.
590
00:46:20,912 --> 00:46:25,884
Sandy spoke to me on
the phone today and
suggested a sex change.
591
00:46:25,917 --> 00:46:27,986
Tricky Mother Nature.
592
00:46:28,386 --> 00:46:32,958
She realized
that, uh, she wouldn't be
Candy Darling any more.
593
00:46:32,991 --> 00:46:36,427
She had seen other people
who had sex changes, and
they weren't fabulous,
594
00:46:36,461 --> 00:46:38,997
they were like
normal women.
595
00:46:39,030 --> 00:46:42,901
I showed
some pictures to Steven
of how I used to look.
596
00:46:42,934 --> 00:46:50,876
There was a picture of me
about 8 years old. I was
so beautiful and real.
597
00:46:50,909 --> 00:46:52,543
It had a very sobering
effect on me.
598
00:46:55,113 --> 00:46:59,885
There's a
tremendous earnestness in
wanting to be another gender.
599
00:46:59,918 --> 00:47:03,088
I mean, what's more earnest
than that? And naive?
600
00:47:03,121 --> 00:47:06,992
I mean, I think it's
tremendously naive. Especially
a man who wants to be a woman.
601
00:47:07,025 --> 00:47:11,629
You know, I mean:
Keep your winning
hand.
602
00:47:11,662 --> 00:47:18,069
I've been up
all night, alone, wondering
about my identity,
603
00:47:18,103 --> 00:47:23,909
trying to look for an
explanation for living this
strange, stylized sexuality.
604
00:47:23,942 --> 00:47:27,979
Realization cuts feeling off.
605
00:47:28,013 --> 00:47:32,050
I try to explain my identity
as being a male who has
assumed the attitudes,
606
00:47:32,083 --> 00:47:38,957
and somewhat the emotions,
of a female. I don't know
which role to play.
607
00:47:38,990 --> 00:47:42,427
A 25
year old man, who becomes
a 25 year old woman,
608
00:47:42,460 --> 00:47:46,431
is not a woman at all,
because a woman first has
to be a little girl,
609
00:47:46,464 --> 00:47:51,102
okay, a man first has to be a
boy. Candy was never a girl.
610
00:47:51,136 --> 00:47:54,105
Candy was a fantasy.
She created herself.
611
00:47:54,139 --> 00:47:58,676
If you
called Candy a "he", it
was a flinch. Like with me,
612
00:47:58,709 --> 00:48:02,914
if I hear "he", it's a
flinch. It's like someone
slapping you in the face.
613
00:48:02,948 --> 00:48:06,084
You have to accept a
transgender person's
perception of what they are,
614
00:48:06,117 --> 00:48:11,022
or you are disrespecting
their gender, and that
is really wrong.
615
00:48:11,056 --> 00:48:14,993
And to those people that
want to call Candy a "he",
you are transphobe,
616
00:48:15,026 --> 00:48:15,994
and you shut your mouth.
617
00:48:29,707 --> 00:48:34,645
I mean, we were very happy
when we were in the play
that we did last summer,
618
00:48:34,679 --> 00:48:36,247
called "Vain Victory".
619
00:48:36,281 --> 00:48:37,648
Oh, we
had our, you know, tiffs.
620
00:48:37,682 --> 00:48:42,020
Oh yes, but
even that was fun, it
was exciting, you know,
621
00:48:42,053 --> 00:48:47,225
we were always appearing
in front of people, and
getting a lot of applause.
622
00:48:47,258 --> 00:48:50,228
I mean, I love the
sound of applause.
623
00:48:50,261 --> 00:48:54,165
I mean, I suppose these days,
you're not supposed to like
those things, you know,
624
00:48:54,199 --> 00:48:59,170
you're supposed to be very
humble and like the earth,
and all that. And we do.
625
00:48:59,204 --> 00:49:03,208
You know, actually, I'm
very athletic, which nobody
ever seems to realize,
626
00:49:03,241 --> 00:49:08,646
because, I mean, I would
love to go camping
sometime, but, I mean,
627
00:49:08,679 --> 00:49:11,316
my friends never ask me,
because they just, uh,
628
00:49:11,349 --> 00:49:14,685
probably always think of
me as the salon type!
629
00:49:14,719 --> 00:49:18,723
* da,da,da,da,da,da,da,da
630
00:49:23,394 --> 00:49:31,336
* "Oh, Flo, such a
shame you know, When she left
the Village she was shy,
631
00:49:31,369 --> 00:49:39,377
But alas and alack, she's
come back, With a naughty
little twinkle in her eye."*
632
00:49:40,378 --> 00:49:43,748
It was the
first Off-off-Broadway show
to rehearse for six months,
633
00:49:43,781 --> 00:49:47,352
as opposed to a week, and
it ran for six months,
634
00:49:47,385 --> 00:49:52,090
which is the first time an
Off-off-Broadway show had run
for longer than two weeks.
635
00:49:52,123 --> 00:49:54,225
So we were successful
in that way.
636
00:49:54,259 --> 00:49:59,230
And everybody came to see
us, either in rehearsals, or
when it actually opened.
637
00:49:59,264 --> 00:50:02,233
I mean, even Andy Warhol
showed up for opening night.
638
00:50:02,267 --> 00:50:04,302
Candy was the real
star of the show.
639
00:50:04,335 --> 00:50:12,343
* My place tonight fellas,
my place tonight fellas...
640
00:50:12,677 --> 00:50:18,249
Who is that lucky boy *
641
00:50:18,283 --> 00:50:20,818
"Vain
Victory" was a living
piece of theater.
642
00:50:20,851 --> 00:50:25,390
There was a structure and a
story, but it kept evolving.
643
00:50:25,423 --> 00:50:28,526
This is all I could find,
it's done by Bob Gruen,
644
00:50:28,559 --> 00:50:32,163
who was John and Yoko's
official photographer,
645
00:50:32,197 --> 00:50:37,268
and this was taken at
LaMaMa's rehearsal loft,
on Great Jones Street.
646
00:50:37,302 --> 00:50:42,273
We have Ondine, who's in
heaven, Candy, who's in heaven,
647
00:50:42,307 --> 00:50:44,809
Jackie Curtis, who
is in heaven,
648
00:50:44,842 --> 00:50:49,280
and then we have Dorian
Gray, who is in heaven,
and then there's "moi".
649
00:50:49,314 --> 00:50:52,850
Many playwrights were doing
so many kinds of things,
there was no wrong,
650
00:50:52,883 --> 00:50:54,552
you were expressing yourself.
651
00:50:54,585 --> 00:50:56,254
We lived very
hard.
652
00:50:56,287 --> 00:50:59,157
We lived 24 hours a day. I
mean, we were all on speed.
653
00:51:03,361 --> 00:51:09,300
Candy
would say "oh, our tits are
flying now! Let's go!"
654
00:51:11,869 --> 00:51:15,440
I think
that it was probably an outlet
for transvestites as well,
655
00:51:15,473 --> 00:51:18,443
because, well, it was the
Village, a lot of it was
happening in the Village,
656
00:51:18,476 --> 00:51:22,347
and there was such a lack of
discrimination on every level
657
00:51:22,380 --> 00:51:28,153
that everybody had a chance
to develop without society's
judgment on them.
658
00:51:28,186 --> 00:51:35,326
Pacino was in that basement, and
Jill Clayburgh, and DeNiro, of
course, and a lot of people.
659
00:51:35,360 --> 00:51:40,198
She was totally
accepted there. That's
what saved her, really.
660
00:51:40,231 --> 00:51:44,502
And she could get right
into the fantasy world, you
know, of the avant-garde,
661
00:51:44,535 --> 00:51:47,338
because the plays
were above reality.
662
00:51:47,372 --> 00:51:54,179
A story so touching, it
must be told with a whip.
663
00:51:54,212 --> 00:51:58,283
A love tale of vicious
simplicity, involving
two pyromaniacs,
664
00:51:58,316 --> 00:52:01,219
freaked out over a couple
of flip-out hairdressers,
665
00:52:01,252 --> 00:52:03,521
who chained them to
a beige hairdryer,
666
00:52:03,554 --> 00:52:07,458
to match the lithograph of
the Maltese Vertebrae.
667
00:52:07,492 --> 00:52:11,629
It's a very
difficult thing to make
someone believe your fantasy.
668
00:52:11,662 --> 00:52:16,467
And Candy did that.
669
00:52:16,501 --> 00:52:20,471
I was always
looking for something that was
different, that was theatrical.
670
00:52:20,505 --> 00:52:24,375
And I thought she would be
great, theatrical, in a
nightclub act, to do a show.
671
00:52:24,409 --> 00:52:30,415
So I had several meetings at my
office, just with Candy Darling.
672
00:52:32,517 --> 00:52:36,487
Now I'd never seen her
sing. But I didn't care.
673
00:52:36,521 --> 00:52:39,557
Because I know that she
would have been good, and
even if she wasn't good,
674
00:52:39,590 --> 00:52:42,560
she'd be interesting enough just
to sit and talk about her life.
675
00:52:42,593 --> 00:52:46,531
And I could have staged her in
such a way, you know, with
676
00:52:46,564 --> 00:52:51,202
black, with very
white, hot light...
677
00:52:51,236 --> 00:52:53,538
She was witty,
funny, smart, beautiful,
678
00:52:53,571 --> 00:52:58,209
and had a certain cachet as
being revolutionary, just
by how she lived her life,
679
00:52:58,243 --> 00:53:01,379
especially at that time.
She was one of the
front-runners of that.
680
00:53:01,412 --> 00:53:07,252
The other ones were freakish,
and she was beautiful, in a way
that really put people off,
681
00:53:07,285 --> 00:53:10,355
and drew them to her at the same
time, because it confused them.
682
00:53:10,388 --> 00:53:12,657
You could say "well, she
was an actress every
second of her life."
683
00:53:12,690 --> 00:53:15,560
You know, that's what you
would call it now, you know,
but then you might say
684
00:53:15,593 --> 00:53:17,995
"she was phony every
second of her life."
685
00:53:18,028 --> 00:53:19,464
I never went
that far with Candy Darling,
686
00:53:19,497 --> 00:53:22,500
with really getting her
out there to do something
with her, because...
687
00:53:22,533 --> 00:53:25,603
I don't know what stopped
us. Maybe Andy stopped it.
688
00:53:25,636 --> 00:53:29,374
Maybe Andy wanted to get
too involved. Would have
been an amazing thing.
689
00:53:29,407 --> 00:53:32,377
Because I think it would
have been big in Europe.
690
00:53:32,410 --> 00:53:35,246
Paris, and Germany - and
forget about America.
691
00:53:35,280 --> 00:53:36,914
You do a couple of cities
here, and that's about it.
692
00:53:36,947 --> 00:53:44,855
If we still had French
Symbolist poets, they'd all
have written poems about her.
693
00:53:44,889 --> 00:53:50,728
She was just somebody who was
kind of this figure, floating
through all kinds of scenes.
694
00:54:00,571 --> 00:54:04,475
Visually,
photographically, and
conversationally,
695
00:54:04,509 --> 00:54:07,845
she was every time a coconut.
Everything was interesting.
696
00:54:16,487 --> 00:54:21,592
You know, they
gave me a 75 dollar hairdo.
Can you believe it?
697
00:54:21,626 --> 00:54:25,696
I didn't pay for it. I
can see it now, in the
light, what they did.
698
00:54:25,730 --> 00:54:27,532
Was it
good? Was it worth it?
699
00:54:27,565 --> 00:54:35,506
Oh God, no... I
wouldn't even pay for it.
700
00:54:35,540 --> 00:54:41,912
I never pay for anything. I
never have. I don't have to.
701
00:54:41,946 --> 00:54:45,650
I never pay for a thing,
I never pay rent, I never
buy my own clothes,
702
00:54:45,683 --> 00:54:48,386
I don't pay for anything. I
put it all in the bank...
703
00:54:48,419 --> 00:54:51,656
The reality... she
wouldn't deal with it.
704
00:54:51,689 --> 00:54:55,526
You're only the star of an
Andy Warhol movie, and as
we all know, Andy Warhol,
705
00:54:55,560 --> 00:55:00,698
well, we're not talking
MGM here, you get $25 a
scene for Andy Warhol,
706
00:55:00,731 --> 00:55:04,435
everything else is, you know,
your next meal is coming from
707
00:55:04,469 --> 00:55:06,637
hopefully being invited
to a party, you know:
708
00:55:06,671 --> 00:55:11,809
you meet rich people,
and they take you out
to dinner, and then,
709
00:55:11,842 --> 00:55:17,748
the next morning, you're eating
what's left over from the
dinner from the night before.
710
00:55:17,782 --> 00:55:20,651
Do you think I
like eating bean soup
and peanut butter
711
00:55:20,685 --> 00:55:26,023
for strength and protein,
instead of steak? Well I
don't like it.
712
00:55:26,056 --> 00:55:30,561
Do you think I like this mop
of goldish-red hair, instead
of the darkest ash blonde,
713
00:55:30,595 --> 00:55:34,632
with tan pearl streaks?
Well, I don't like it.
714
00:55:34,665 --> 00:55:37,702
And I don't like wet cakes, and
day-old bread, either.
715
00:55:37,735 --> 00:55:44,575
And I'm tired of going to
beauty culture schools for a
permanent. I'm just tired.
716
00:55:44,609 --> 00:55:47,044
She always had
this glamorous aura about her,
717
00:55:47,077 --> 00:55:50,615
but she was always sleeping on
somebody's couch.
718
00:55:50,648 --> 00:55:54,719
I had a studio apartment then,
too, with red walls, I remember,
719
00:55:54,752 --> 00:55:59,757
and I would go to work in the
morning, and she'd be sleeping,
720
00:55:59,790 --> 00:56:03,127
and I'd come home at six,
seven o'clock, and she'd still
be just getting out of bed,
721
00:56:03,160 --> 00:56:04,762
in a black slip.
722
00:56:04,795 --> 00:56:07,532
And I used to get very annoyed,
I'd say, "Look at this.
723
00:56:07,565 --> 00:56:09,767
How does she get
away with that?"
724
00:56:09,800 --> 00:56:15,873
She managed to convince
her mother, and a
number of her friends,
725
00:56:15,906 --> 00:56:22,547
that she needed to devote
her entire life to trying
to become a movie star.
726
00:56:22,580 --> 00:56:25,850
So she didn't even
have to get a job.
727
00:56:25,883 --> 00:56:31,021
I would say that Candy is
probably one of the greatest
hustlers I have ever known.
728
00:56:31,055 --> 00:56:34,625
As a hustler,
Candy was an ace.
729
00:56:34,659 --> 00:56:40,598
I think Candy, in
order to survive -
she was a survivor
730
00:56:40,631 --> 00:56:44,769
- would go and do a
lot of things that she
didn't talk about.
731
00:56:44,802 --> 00:56:49,740
No. She never did
that. No, I'm telling
you, they're wrong.
732
00:56:49,774 --> 00:56:52,943
She didn't do that. She
didn't have to do that.
733
00:56:52,977 --> 00:56:56,113
Too many people loved
giving her money because
she was so fabulous.
734
00:57:26,110 --> 00:57:27,812
I know, she hated it.
735
00:57:32,149 --> 00:57:38,122
I now live at
14 West 68th Street, with
Sam Green, who took me in.
736
00:57:38,155 --> 00:57:41,225
I will live here until, God
forbid, he throws me out.
737
00:57:41,258 --> 00:57:47,464
Not that he will, and even if
something did happen, I could
always go to Jeremiah.
738
00:57:49,734 --> 00:57:53,838
It is now November
24th, about 4 a.m.
739
00:57:53,871 --> 00:57:59,910
Today is my birthday, and I am
happy. Jeremiah is such a dear.
740
00:57:59,944 --> 00:58:05,816
He called and wants to have
a party for me. I hope we
are friends forever.
741
00:58:05,850 --> 00:58:09,186
I had a birthday
party for her, um,
742
00:58:09,219 --> 00:58:13,223
it was fantastic, we invited
tons and tons of people.
743
00:58:13,257 --> 00:58:21,265
Dear Kathy, it
is Wednesday morning,
December 16th, 1970, 5:30 a.m.
744
00:58:21,365 --> 00:58:29,073
I got up a little while ago.
There is a storm outside.
The wind is very scary.
745
00:58:29,106 --> 00:58:32,309
Candy moved in with me,
this is where I had her
famous birthday party
746
00:58:32,342 --> 00:58:37,782
- can I go in with you?
I used to live here. I
lived here in 1969.
747
00:58:40,184 --> 00:58:45,289
The
party was a great success.
Candy was fabulous.
748
00:58:45,322 --> 00:58:47,925
Everyone was fabulous.
749
00:58:47,958 --> 00:58:54,899
I had balloons up, and
streamers, and somebody gave
Candy a 1923 box of Kotex,
750
00:58:54,932 --> 00:58:58,068
all sorts of really
crazy things.
751
00:58:58,102 --> 00:59:01,038
There was a lot of grass.
752
00:59:01,071 --> 00:59:07,612
It's a good
thing you did not come to the
party. I'm glad you didn't.
753
00:59:07,645 --> 00:59:09,914
First of all, these
unexpected people showed up
754
00:59:09,947 --> 00:59:13,884
and left a boy there who
was mentally retarded.
755
00:59:13,918 --> 00:59:17,187
Every time I moved, he
would sit right next to me.
756
00:59:20,124 --> 00:59:24,294
And there
was a boy, who looked
perfectly normal,
757
00:59:24,328 --> 00:59:27,164
except he wasn't,
he was retarded.
758
00:59:27,197 --> 00:59:32,369
And he adored Candy, he
sat at her feet, and he
just adored, he said
759
00:59:32,402 --> 00:59:36,173
"You're so beautiful,
you're so beautiful."
760
00:59:36,206 --> 00:59:39,977
And she said "Yes, I
know, I know."
761
00:59:40,010 --> 00:59:44,014
Jeremiah
said "Do you want to sit
down in the next room?"
762
00:59:44,048 --> 00:59:49,720
knowing he was cuckoo.
And the boy said "No.
763
00:59:49,754 --> 00:59:53,057
I want to sit right
here, next to her."
764
00:59:53,090 --> 01:00:00,097
And every time I looked at him,
he looked away in shyness.
Well, nobody knew what to do.
765
01:00:00,130 --> 01:00:04,301
But Jeremiah took the boy's
wallet, and found his name
and address in Connecticut,
766
01:00:04,334 --> 01:00:07,071
and called his
parents at 2 a.m.
767
01:00:07,104 --> 01:00:12,977
He had been missing for two
weeks. I was not surprised!
768
01:00:13,010 --> 01:00:17,314
At about six-thirty, a very
normal looking man with two
sons appeared at the door
769
01:00:17,347 --> 01:00:20,150
and was very appreciative.
770
01:00:20,184 --> 01:00:25,222
There were tears in the
eyes. It was very touching.
771
01:00:25,255 --> 01:00:30,728
And Jeremiah even refused
the $20 the father pressed
into his hand in gratitude.
772
01:00:30,761 --> 01:00:34,999
That should give you a clue
as to Jeremiah's character.
773
01:00:35,032 --> 01:00:41,706
I do hope the man didn't
hear me whispering "Keep
it, we need it."
774
01:00:53,483 --> 01:00:56,687
Oh, I see: "Politically
Involved Girls".
775
01:00:56,721 --> 01:00:59,189
I don't suppose you've
heard about women's liberation.
776
01:00:59,223 --> 01:01:04,428
Women's liberation has
shown me just who I am
and just what I can be!
777
01:01:04,461 --> 01:01:08,332
I can't stand the
sight of men.
778
01:01:08,365 --> 01:01:12,837
And if I can't make it with men,
then I'll make it with women.
779
01:01:18,408 --> 01:01:19,710
This is absurd.
780
01:01:19,744 --> 01:01:27,451
*
781
01:01:27,484 --> 01:01:31,188
I think in
Women in Revolt, she's
just charming, and lovely,
782
01:01:31,221 --> 01:01:35,793
and funny, and, uh, she's a true
star. She's a real movie star.
783
01:01:35,826 --> 01:01:38,763
I don't think there's anything
that ironic about her.
784
01:01:38,796 --> 01:01:43,200
I think Candy,
certainly, uh, you saw
something totally wonderful
785
01:01:43,233 --> 01:01:49,740
and likable and good.
Enormous identity. Enormous
distinction she had:
786
01:01:49,774 --> 01:01:54,178
not just her beautiful
appearance, but the attitude
and the tone of voice,
787
01:01:54,211 --> 01:01:58,749
and the hard work that went into
doing what it was she did.
788
01:01:58,783 --> 01:02:04,755
We're going to invite
the chic-est, richest,
789
01:02:04,789 --> 01:02:07,758
prettiest, youngest people
790
01:02:07,792 --> 01:02:09,760
- PIG'S - in Manhattan.
791
01:02:09,794 --> 01:02:12,529
I think
Women in Revolt is one of
the best Warhol movies.
792
01:02:12,562 --> 01:02:15,766
I think it was originally
called P.I.G.S, "Politically
Involved Girls",
793
01:02:15,800 --> 01:02:18,535
and I think it was Paul
making fun of feminism,
but in a weird way,
794
01:02:18,568 --> 01:02:21,772
it is a feminist movie.
It's a real feminist movie,
795
01:02:21,806 --> 01:02:24,541
that comes across, I think,
very well, politically.
796
01:02:24,574 --> 01:02:27,912
When the women's
movement started in New York,
797
01:02:27,945 --> 01:02:35,385
they published this manifesto
saying Candy Darling was a
threat to women everywhere,
798
01:02:35,419 --> 01:02:37,855
and she should be destroyed.
799
01:02:37,888 --> 01:02:40,891
And Candy thought that it was
very funny, but she was scared.
800
01:02:40,925 --> 01:02:43,460
She said "Those bitter
lesbians..."
801
01:02:43,493 --> 01:02:44,661
I just
remember at the opening,
802
01:02:44,694 --> 01:02:47,798
we had the "WOMEN IN REVOLT"
up on the marquee, you know,
803
01:02:47,832 --> 01:02:49,633
the typeface that
we had picked out.
804
01:02:49,666 --> 01:02:55,039
It was known as a porn house,
and Candy worked the line of the
people coming to the premiere,
805
01:02:55,072 --> 01:02:58,042
you know, doing her
number down perfectly.
806
01:02:58,075 --> 01:03:01,846
And thinking it was a porn
movie, "Women in Revolt", these
guys would be walking in,
807
01:03:01,879 --> 01:03:05,482
"hey, we're gonna see
something," and it's not
what they expected.
808
01:03:05,515 --> 01:03:08,919
What are you,
anyways, a he or a she?
809
01:03:08,953 --> 01:03:12,957
I'm young.
I wanna be loved.
810
01:03:12,990 --> 01:03:15,893
You've been
loved, and you've been loved
by me, your own brother.
811
01:03:15,926 --> 01:03:21,465
There's nothing like mass
love. My psychiatrist
says I need mass love.
812
01:03:21,498 --> 01:03:28,038
The incest...
Incest, lesbianism...
813
01:03:28,072 --> 01:03:35,980
Incest,
lesbianism: I'm ready for
Hollywood, right, Johnny?
814
01:03:36,013 --> 01:03:40,918
We did get
an invitation to the first
Los Angeles film festival,
815
01:03:40,951 --> 01:03:45,589
with "Women in Revolt",
in, I think, '71 or
'72, I'm not sure.
816
01:03:45,622 --> 01:03:50,594
So we took Candy - not
Jackie and not Holly -
817
01:03:50,627 --> 01:03:55,966
it was obvious that Candy
wanted to go to Hollywood,
and I sat next to Candy,
818
01:03:56,000 --> 01:03:59,536
in sort of a back row, and
at some point she turned
to me, and she said,
819
01:03:59,569 --> 01:04:03,073
"You know, Paul, I can't
believe what I'm seeing.
820
01:04:03,107 --> 01:04:07,544
I'm here in Hollywood, in
Grauman's Chinese Theater,
watching myself in a movie,
821
01:04:07,577 --> 01:04:11,515
and the audience is clapping
and liking the movie so much."
822
01:04:11,548 --> 01:04:14,451
She said "This is
unbelievable to me."
823
01:04:14,484 --> 01:04:22,492
That this dream of hers, to
have, uh, to be in a movie,
to come to Hollywood,
824
01:04:22,659 --> 01:04:30,000
uh, it was unreal.
825
01:04:33,003 --> 01:04:35,139
Andy Warhol
826
01:04:35,172 --> 01:04:41,511
All I can tell you is,
don't get involved with
drag queens. It's trouble.
827
01:04:41,545 --> 01:04:42,612
Truman Capote
828
01:04:42,646 --> 01:04:44,949
Candy
Darling would make
a great mistake
829
01:04:44,982 --> 01:04:47,617
to have that sex
change operation.
830
01:04:47,651 --> 01:04:50,054
Oh,
she doesn't
want one.
831
01:04:50,087 --> 01:04:52,990
You should really
write a play for
Candy.
832
01:04:53,023 --> 01:04:57,261
She's really a great actress,
and there's no chance of her
even going anywhere
833
01:04:57,294 --> 01:05:02,266
unless someone
important writes
something for her.
834
01:05:02,299 --> 01:05:05,135
Tennessee
should write a play for her.
835
01:05:05,169 --> 01:05:10,174
She has a certain vulnerability
about her that doesn't have
anything to do with
836
01:05:10,207 --> 01:05:17,047
whether she's pretty, or not
pretty: She has an aura.
837
01:05:17,081 --> 01:05:19,683
We could line up 300
girls who are prettier
than Candy in every way,
838
01:05:19,716 --> 01:05:24,021
but they just don't
have any aura.
839
01:05:27,724 --> 01:05:31,695
It was Tennessee
Williams who finally decided
to champion her.
840
01:05:35,065 --> 01:05:39,103
She was
so excited about being in
Tennessee Williams' play.
841
01:05:39,136 --> 01:05:44,141
She was so happy. I never saw
her so happy in my life.
842
01:05:47,744 --> 01:05:53,050
Tennessee Williams
didn't suffer fools. I mean,
maybe if they were a cute guy.
843
01:05:53,083 --> 01:05:57,321
But they weren't sleeping
together. He liked her,
plain and simple.
844
01:05:57,354 --> 01:06:01,225
I saw "Small
Craft Warnings" and I loved it.
845
01:06:01,258 --> 01:06:07,031
It was at a small theater
uptown, and Candy was
just heaven, you know.
846
01:06:07,064 --> 01:06:11,035
And it was like, my
wonderful acting teacher,
Herbert Bergdorf,
847
01:06:11,068 --> 01:06:16,406
said he wants to see an actor
go on stage right out of real
life, and just continue.
848
01:06:16,440 --> 01:06:21,211
[ROBERT HEIDE]: Candy, uh,
after the performance, came out
in a white chinchilla coat,
849
01:06:21,245 --> 01:06:24,381
and a big hat, and looked
like a Ziegfeld girl.
850
01:06:24,414 --> 01:06:29,353
Walked down the street
with Tennessee in his
cream-colored Southern suit,
851
01:06:29,386 --> 01:06:32,389
and little hat, and
all eyes turned.
852
01:06:34,358 --> 01:06:39,096
It was her
first chance to get away from
just doing the Warhol stuff.
853
01:06:39,129 --> 01:06:44,201
She was beginning to believe
that she, you know, could do
a lot of other things.
854
01:06:47,137 --> 01:06:51,241
Did you
have any difficulties with
Candy playing Violet at all?
855
01:06:56,280 --> 01:07:01,285
How did
you feel that Candy related to
the other people in the play?
856
01:07:13,297 --> 01:07:16,300
I remember. It was all
cluttered and full of junk.
857
01:07:25,309 --> 01:07:32,149
Here Candy
gets dangled her dream, which,
how could it ever happen?
858
01:07:32,182 --> 01:07:38,555
How could it ever happen that
her dream was coming true?
859
01:07:38,588 --> 01:07:41,158
She was with
Tennessee Williams.
860
01:07:41,191 --> 01:07:42,292
Tennessee?
861
01:07:42,326 --> 01:07:48,298
Yes, darling? (laughter,
conversation)
862
01:07:51,201 --> 01:07:56,206
Thank you for having me
in the play. It's wonderful.
863
01:08:03,180 --> 01:08:08,652
And then, all
of a sudden, it turned out to
be this ephemeral thing.
864
01:08:08,685 --> 01:08:11,221
And the carnival
had moved on.
865
01:08:14,524 --> 01:08:22,132
Saturday morning.
Four a.m. I have no one.
Everyone has left me.
866
01:08:22,166 --> 01:08:28,772
I am alone here tonight, in room
1005 at the Diplomat Hotel.
867
01:08:28,805 --> 01:08:33,643
I was not meant for this
world. I don't know.
868
01:08:33,677 --> 01:08:41,685
All I know is, I love,
and I am not loved. I
do not know happiness.
869
01:08:41,785 --> 01:08:46,590
I know despair,
loneliness, and longing.
870
01:08:46,623 --> 01:08:51,461
My biggest problem is I
have no man to love me.
871
01:08:51,495 --> 01:08:55,665
So nothing else matters, or
makes much of a difference.
872
01:08:55,699 --> 01:09:02,772
"CANDY SAYS" by Lou Reed.
* Candy says,
873
01:09:02,806 --> 01:09:08,945
I've come to hate my body,
874
01:09:08,978 --> 01:09:17,187
and all that it
requires, in this world.
875
01:09:21,558 --> 01:09:27,264
Candy says,
876
01:09:27,297 --> 01:09:33,303
I'd like to know
completely,
877
01:09:33,337 --> 01:09:41,345
what others so
discreetly talk about.
878
01:09:45,515 --> 01:09:53,357
I'm going to watch
the bluebirds fly,
879
01:09:53,390 --> 01:09:57,327
over my shoulder,
880
01:09:57,361 --> 01:10:04,701
I'm going
to watch them pass me by.
881
01:10:04,734 --> 01:10:08,472
Maybe when I'm older
882
01:10:08,505 --> 01:10:13,743
What do you think I'd see,
883
01:10:13,777 --> 01:10:19,783
if I could walk away from me *
884
01:10:21,885 --> 01:10:25,822
Could you pick
this up here, and let me
see how deep that is?
885
01:10:25,855 --> 01:10:32,862
That's three feet, that's
not... that doesn't seem
very deep, does it?
886
01:10:34,764 --> 01:10:38,802
I'll be worried that
somebody will dig them up.
887
01:10:38,835 --> 01:10:45,875
You know, some fan will
come and, you know...
888
01:10:45,909 --> 01:10:50,547
I'm worried that she's not
really protected, and that
it's not deep enough.
889
01:10:53,583 --> 01:10:55,852
Yeah, hi, this is
Jeremiah Newton again.
890
01:10:55,885 --> 01:10:57,687
I just wanted to ask
you something.
891
01:10:57,721 --> 01:11:03,627
The funeral is tomorrow, and
I'd like them a little deeper.
892
01:11:03,660 --> 01:11:08,665
Yeah, but I really want
it a little deeper. I'll
dig it myself, you know.
893
01:11:08,698 --> 01:11:14,504
I want to make sure she's OK, if
there's a flood or something?
I'm just worried about that.
894
01:11:21,345 --> 01:11:25,949
Well, I don't think she
expected to die. Or trust
me with her legacy.
895
01:11:25,982 --> 01:11:31,988
I just, I thought I stepped up
to the plate, because nobody
else was going to do it.
896
01:11:34,924 --> 01:11:40,730
I started doing audio interviews
with everyone I could,
897
01:11:40,764 --> 01:11:45,802
and I interviewed everyone
from Tennessee Williams to
Candy's parents.
898
01:11:45,835 --> 01:11:48,938
And I wanted to know more about
her through these interviews.
899
01:11:48,972 --> 01:11:54,944
I would play them, and
listen to the words.
900
01:11:54,978 --> 01:12:00,884
I stayed in touch with
the mother and, uh, we
wrote back and forth.
901
01:12:00,917 --> 01:12:02,952
She told me she had remarried.
902
01:12:02,986 --> 01:12:07,824
She married a man
who was very, very
anti-gay. He hated homosexuals.
903
01:12:07,857 --> 01:12:11,828
He had no idea that there was
another child that was now dead,
904
01:12:11,861 --> 01:12:16,866
and if I visit her, promise,
don't say anything to anybody.
905
01:12:16,900 --> 01:12:20,837
Well, her husband was away out
of town, so I got on the bus -
906
01:12:20,870 --> 01:12:25,442
it was like a 4 or 5 hour bus
ride - and the mother met me,
907
01:12:25,475 --> 01:12:29,713
and we really talked
about Candy, and her
papers and possessions.
908
01:12:29,746 --> 01:12:34,818
Which the mother said,
"Go through everything,
and take what you want,
909
01:12:34,851 --> 01:12:39,689
and leave the rest, and I'll
send them to you next week."
910
01:12:39,723 --> 01:12:41,858
I took as much as I could carry.
911
01:13:13,089 --> 01:13:17,761
* Getting on the bus,
the mother gave me her
son's ashes, and said
912
01:13:17,794 --> 01:13:22,398
"Take this back to New
York, Candy always
wanted to be with you."
913
01:13:24,734 --> 01:13:27,737
I never saw the mother again.
914
01:13:31,808 --> 01:13:34,978
And I asked for the rest of
the papers and costumes,
915
01:13:35,011 --> 01:13:38,815
and she said that they
were all destroyed.
She'd burnt them all.
916
01:13:38,848 --> 01:13:43,687
She didn't want her husband
to know anything. She was
so ashamed of her son.
917
01:13:48,124 --> 01:13:53,162
Candy
said, "Jeremiah, you must
never leave things behind.
918
01:13:53,196 --> 01:13:55,465
Keep everything,
don't lose
everything.
919
01:13:55,499 --> 01:14:00,504
If you don't want it, you can
keep it at my mother's house.
920
01:14:00,537 --> 01:14:07,176
Don't ever give anything
up." She was right.
921
01:14:14,784 --> 01:14:20,957
The Sixties
were over everywhere.
922
01:14:20,990 --> 01:14:23,793
Andy wouldn't have continued
on in the Sixties mentality
923
01:14:23,827 --> 01:14:28,965
any more than the rest of the
world did, least of all Andy.
924
01:14:28,998 --> 01:14:33,036
There was a
whole turning point. It was
the beginning of yuppies.
925
01:14:33,069 --> 01:14:38,174
I think the baby boom
generation turned its focus
very much towards hedonism,
926
01:14:38,207 --> 01:14:44,247
consumerism, materialism,
and Andy, and "Interview",
927
01:14:44,280 --> 01:14:47,183
and certainly Paul Morrissey,
Fred Hughes, they were all,
928
01:14:47,216 --> 01:14:50,086
we were all part of
that wave, we weren't
resisting that at all.
929
01:14:50,119 --> 01:14:55,258
We were out there trying to
sell ads for "Interview" and
sell portraits to rich people,
930
01:14:55,291 --> 01:14:57,994
so that "Interview"
could exist, actually.
931
01:14:58,027 --> 01:15:01,798
She really believed that Andy
was going to take care of her
932
01:15:01,831 --> 01:15:04,901
like Louis B. Mayer.
He just wasn't.
933
01:15:04,934 --> 01:15:08,605
And he got kind of - Andy
would get tired of people,
934
01:15:08,638 --> 01:15:12,141
and sort of toss them
away like Kleenex.
935
01:15:12,175 --> 01:15:16,179
And they already
made a movie without her.
They made "Heat".
936
01:15:16,212 --> 01:15:19,015
And they didn't even invite her
to the opening of it.
937
01:15:19,048 --> 01:15:22,619
'Cause at that time, Andy
said "Oh, I don't want to use
chicks with dicks anymore,
938
01:15:22,652 --> 01:15:25,555
I want to use real women,
that's what Hollywood wants."
939
01:15:25,589 --> 01:15:27,891
So they started
making other movies.
940
01:15:47,076 --> 01:15:52,949
She was very unhappy
about it. She was very,
very unhappy about it.
941
01:15:52,982 --> 01:15:56,653
She didn't like it at all.
She didn't know what to do.
942
01:15:57,353 --> 01:16:03,226
One: a beautiful
big house in Long Island,
and one in California.
943
01:16:03,259 --> 01:16:07,330
Two: Learn languages and sew.
944
01:16:07,363 --> 01:16:11,267
Three: Cabin on Lake
Winnipesaukee.
945
01:16:11,300 --> 01:16:18,341
Rug for my room, color
TV, fall new clothes,
white backless shoes,
946
01:16:18,374 --> 01:16:22,345
hormone treatment, electrolysis.
947
01:16:22,378 --> 01:16:28,284
Dog. Fur coat. Car. New house.
948
01:16:28,317 --> 01:16:35,191
Well, sometime
in the future, I may
hope to be married.
949
01:16:35,224 --> 01:16:39,228
I mean, I know it might sound
ridiculous to my friends, but -
950
01:16:39,262 --> 01:16:39,996
No, it doesn't
sound ridiculous.
951
01:16:40,029 --> 01:16:41,364
It doesn't? Oh -
952
01:16:41,397 --> 01:16:43,299
We're
with you, behind
you, all the way.
953
01:16:43,332 --> 01:16:49,639
Well, um, I mean...
954
01:16:49,673 --> 01:16:52,408
I've already made myself happy.
955
01:16:52,441 --> 01:17:00,283
I mean, because I am in
film, and, um, well, there's
nothing quite like it.
956
01:17:03,987 --> 01:17:07,957
I feel like I'm
living in a prison.
957
01:17:07,991 --> 01:17:11,728
There are so many things I may
not experience.
958
01:17:11,761 --> 01:17:16,933
I cannot go swimming,
can't visit relatives,
959
01:17:16,966 --> 01:17:23,172
can't get a job,
can't have a boyfriend.
960
01:17:23,206 --> 01:17:30,379
I see so much of life I
cannot have. I am living
in a veritable prison.
961
01:17:32,348 --> 01:17:39,455
What? Are you kidding?
962
01:17:39,488 --> 01:17:46,129
What did I do to you?
Well, where will I go?
963
01:17:51,801 --> 01:17:59,008
Okay... Thank you very much for
making me wish I were dead.
964
01:18:07,083 --> 01:18:11,054
She said "Put
your hand on my tummy," and
I put my hand on her tummy,
965
01:18:11,087 --> 01:18:14,290
and it was swollen.
Like, you know...
966
01:18:14,323 --> 01:18:17,393
and I said "Whoa, what is
this?" She said "I'm pregnant.
967
01:18:17,426 --> 01:18:21,464
God has answered my prayers."
968
01:18:21,497 --> 01:18:25,068
Then she said she was
going to the doctors.
969
01:18:25,101 --> 01:18:30,807
And they examined her, and
they told her she had a tumor,
a huge tumor inside of her.
970
01:18:30,840 --> 01:18:34,343
I didn't believe it. I thought
she was making it up.
971
01:18:34,377 --> 01:18:38,447
I was at work, and she called
me, and she, "I have a tumor."
972
01:18:38,481 --> 01:18:41,084
I, "Oh come on: a tumor?"
973
01:18:41,117 --> 01:18:45,288
The word "cancer"
was never mentioned.
974
01:18:45,321 --> 01:18:48,391
So, uh, off she went
into the hospital.
975
01:18:53,863 --> 01:18:57,867
She said more
than once, like she was acting
in a Susan Hayward movie,
976
01:18:57,901 --> 01:19:00,236
"I don't want to die!
I don't want to die!"
977
01:19:00,269 --> 01:19:04,473
But she was saying it in
a very, kind of, uh, the
way Candy would say it,
978
01:19:04,507 --> 01:19:11,848
as if she was, uh, making
fun of, a little bit,
Susan Hayward, saying it.
979
01:19:11,881 --> 01:19:17,954
I had the
secret feeling that she
was enjoying it.
980
01:19:17,987 --> 01:19:21,390
It was another role
for her to play.
981
01:19:21,424 --> 01:19:25,361
She was going to
play it because
she believed it.
982
01:19:25,394 --> 01:19:29,899
And she believed it, this
time, because it was true.
983
01:19:29,933 --> 01:19:37,941
Jean Harlow,
Marilyn Monroe, they all died
young, blonde, and beautiful.
984
01:19:38,374 --> 01:19:43,813
Candy, in a way,
wanted to go that
route.
985
01:19:53,923 --> 01:19:55,892
Candy had
to be what she was.
986
01:19:55,925 --> 01:20:00,930
She, she had to be what
she was; she couldn't
have been anything else.
987
01:20:00,964 --> 01:20:04,500
And then it was her time to go,
and she could die thinking,
988
01:20:04,533 --> 01:20:10,406
"Well, I lived my life the
way I thought, and I lived
my life the way I felt it."
989
01:20:23,086 --> 01:20:24,921
I went
with him when he went up
to take that picture.
990
01:20:24,954 --> 01:20:28,191
She asked him to come up
and take that picture.
991
01:20:28,224 --> 01:20:36,232
I was kind of horrified at
the idea. I said to Peter,
"She's dying, she's sick.
992
01:20:36,499 --> 01:20:40,136
Why would she want
her picture taken?"
993
01:20:40,169 --> 01:20:44,874
And she loved that picture,
and she really made a big
effort to look like that,
994
01:20:44,908 --> 01:20:47,176
because she already looked very
unwell. She was extremely sick
995
01:20:47,210 --> 01:20:49,412
when that photograph was taken.
996
01:20:58,287 --> 01:21:03,126
I will not cease to
be myself for foolish people.
997
01:21:03,159 --> 01:21:08,364
For foolish people make
harsh judgments on me.
998
01:21:08,397 --> 01:21:15,271
You must always be yourself,
no matter what the price.
999
01:21:15,304 --> 01:21:19,242
It is the highest
form of morality.
1000
01:21:19,275 --> 01:21:23,279
* " Candy Says" by Lou Reed
1001
01:21:38,361 --> 01:21:46,369
* Candy says I've come to hate
my body,
1002
01:21:47,136 --> 01:21:55,144
and all that it requires
in this world
1003
01:21:55,244 --> 01:22:03,186
Candy says I'd like to
know completely,
1004
01:22:03,219 --> 01:22:11,227
what others so
discreetly talking about
1005
01:22:11,327 --> 01:22:19,335
I'm gonna watch the blue bird
fly over my shoulder,
1006
01:22:19,435 --> 01:22:26,042
I'm gonna watch him pass me by
1007
01:22:26,075 --> 01:22:28,444
Maybe when I'm older
1008
01:22:28,477 --> 01:22:36,485
What do you think I'd see, If I
could walk away from me
1009
01:22:40,223 --> 01:22:48,231
Candy says I hate
the quiet places,
1010
01:22:48,631 --> 01:22:56,639
that cause the smallest
taste of what will be
1011
01:22:57,240 --> 01:23:05,248
Candy says I hate the big
decisions
1012
01:23:05,781 --> 01:23:11,154
that cause endless
revisions in my mind
1013
01:23:11,187 --> 01:23:14,423
That's why I'm doing fine
1014
01:23:14,457 --> 01:23:22,465
Oh, I'm gonna watch the blue
bird fly over my shoulder,
1015
01:23:22,798 --> 01:23:28,204
I'm gonna watch it pass me by
1016
01:23:28,237 --> 01:23:31,074
when I'm older.
1017
01:23:31,107 --> 01:23:39,115
What do you think I'd see, if I
could walk away from me
1018
01:24:16,119 --> 01:24:24,127
Oh, I'm gonna watch the blue
bird fly over my shoulder,
1019
01:24:24,327 --> 01:24:31,167
I'm gonna watch it pass me by
1020
01:24:31,200 --> 01:24:33,269
when I'm older
1021
01:24:33,302 --> 01:24:41,310
What do you think I'd see, if I
could walk away from me?
1022
01:24:58,194 --> 01:25:04,133
To whom it may
concern: By the time you
read this, I will be gone.
1023
01:25:04,167 --> 01:25:09,905
Unfortunately, before my death,
I had no desire left for life.
1024
01:25:09,938 --> 01:25:13,676
Even with all my friends, and
my career on the upswing,
1025
01:25:13,709 --> 01:25:18,414
I felt too empty to go on
in this unreal existence.
1026
01:25:18,447 --> 01:25:25,454
I have arranged my own
funeral, with a guest
list, and it is paid for.
1027
01:25:25,488 --> 01:25:30,726
I would like to say
goodbye to Jackie Curtis:
I think you're fabulous.
1028
01:25:30,759 --> 01:25:36,765
Holly, Sam Green, a true friend
and noble person.
1029
01:25:36,799 --> 01:25:44,807
Ron Link, I'll never forget you.
Andy Warhol: what can I say.
1030
01:25:45,241 --> 01:25:51,714
Paul Morrissey, you know I
loved you. Andy, you too.
1031
01:25:51,747 --> 01:25:56,219
Jeremiah, don't take it
too badly. Just remember
what a bitch I was.
1032
01:25:56,252 --> 01:26:01,390
I guess you saw it coming.
I'm better off now.
1033
01:26:01,424 --> 01:26:07,196
Did you know I couldn't
last? I always knew it.
1034
01:26:07,230 --> 01:26:11,400
I wish I could meet you all
again. Goodbye for now,
1035
01:26:11,434 --> 01:26:14,203
love always, Candy Darling.
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