All language subtitles for ER (1994) - S04E12 - Sharp Relief (1080p WEB-DL x265 MONOLITH)_track3_[eng]

Previously on e.R.:

We'll take care
Of you.

Oh, god.

What?

Are you questioning
My commitment

To this patient's
Best interests?

I got it under control.

So does
Every street junkie I see.

Greg powell. I
Brought in the boy

Stuck in the chimney.

You let me draw some blood

Or nurses will hold you down
And draw it the hard way.

He simply wants to keep
An eye on me.

Don't you, dr. Benton?

Whew!

Hey. I hope that's not
All you're wearing.

It's got to be
Ten below out there.

( chuckling )

What?

How you hide all that
Hair in that hat.

Must be the eighth
Wonder of the world.

You laugh away, elvis.

I can't believe
They give me

The coldest day of the year
To do my paramedic ride-along.

I'm going to go
Regrout the tub

And then I'm going to
Watch some daytime tv.

Springer's doing a special

On teens impregnated
By transvestites.

Get out of here.

All right. Dearborn
And clark. 5:00.

I wrote it down.

Okay.

I really
Hate surprises.

I'd like you to
Tell me what it is.

I can't 'cause I really
Love surprises.

All right, then.
Dearborn and
Clark at 5:00.

Okay.

Hey.

Hmm?

( whispering ):
Say it.

Say what?

You know what I...

What I always say first.

You say it.

I love you.

Sounds good to me.

Is that scott
Anspaugh's c.T.?

It sure is.

Hey, jeanie.

I'm dr. Romano.

Are you new
To the surgical service?

I'm jeanie boulet, a physician
Assistant in the e.R.

I didn't know
You were involved.

The chief
Of staff's kid.

Everybody wants
To get involved.

Dr. Anspaugh requested
I start all scott's lines.

Anspaugh's no fool.

You start more lines
With sugar.

So, what's the verdict?

He's obstructed--
He's going

To need surgery.

Oh, man.

Thanks.

Hey, can I get a decaf
From you?

Decaf? It's 7:30
In the morning.

I've been so jumpy

Any caffeine,
I'd blow an aneurysm.

That's a lovely thought.

Want to sit
Somewhere else?

It's the
Smoking section.

Fell off the gum wagon,
Did you?

Ah, don't start.

Wouldn't dream of it.

What's up? You're
Making me nervous.

This.

Ah, you shouldn't have.

Open it up.
Open that up.

When'd you guys
Pick these out?

We didn't. It's a surprise.

I told her
To meet me downtown

This afternoon,
And then, uh, she and I

Are going to the clerk's office
And get a marriage license.

That is a surprise.

Yeah, I just want
To show her I'm serious.

Well, sounds like
A big night.

And then I'm going
To get a, uh, uh, a limo

And we're going
To the ironhedge lodge

In dundee,
And then, at one minute

After midnight

The justice of the peace
Will perform the ceremony.

That sounds great.

Yeah. Now, all right,
What would make it perfect

Is if, uh, if you would agree
To be the best man.

You think you have to ask?

Yeah? You'd do that?

I'd be honored.

What do you think?

Oh, I can't believe this.

Every other woman
I ever went out with

It was just...
I knew it was wrong

And now I'm going to spend
The rest of my life with her

And... I'd, um,
I'm talking like an idiot.

You're acting like someone
Who's going to be a husband

Tomorrow
Morning.

A husband.
Can you imagine that?

( both laughing heartily )

Hey, carol!

You ready to go?

Yeah. Here,
Let me help you.

What have you got here?

Saline, gauze, et cetera.

Got the fisheye
From some guy

At the admit desk,
But he didn't say anything.

Yeah, I know. It's the
Same with the clinic.

County supplies
Are county supplies.

Everyone else,
Back off.

Whew! You got
The heat going?

Yeah, but powell's
Got dibs

On music selection
Till noon.

Doris doesn't appreciate
Quality musical entertainment.

I didn't know
You two rode together.

We don't.
I woke up blessed.

Greg powell, right?

Good memory

Nurse hathaway.

( woman weeping )

What have we got?

Lower right quadrant pain

With vaginal bleeding.

She's shocky.
B.P.'s 50 palp.

Gave two liters
Of saline in the field.

All right, let's go.

Let's get a c.B.C.,
Type and cross match.

Looks like a
Ruptured ectopic.

Let's get her to the o.R.

Aren't you guys from lady
Of pity catchment area?

Is there a reason
You endangered her life

By bringing her
All the way

To county?

Lady of pity's e.R. Is closed.

You're the closest
Receiving hospital.

That's ten minutes
Right there.

Tell me
About it.

Here's the o-neg!

Hang two units.

She's hypovolemic.

Who's fighting?

I'm spinal,
And that's sabrewolf.

I was doing okay,
But then he sabre-stomped me.

Oh, he did
The fireball. I'm dead.

Hey, I want to talk to you
About the surgery.

My dad already talked
All that noise.

I know.

Would you give me
A hand here?

I just want to talk to you
About it, too.

( sighs )

The tumor you had
Last year is back

And they need to operate
Again to remove it.

I'm not having
Any more operations.

I know you're scared.

I'm not scared.

Just sick of all their crap.

"This is the last one,
Scotty."

"Got it all, scotty."

Yeah.

If you don't have
This surgery

You're going to die.

Good.

I'd rather die.

Okay.

Guess I'll have
To find someone else to share

My rinkside blackhawks-islanders
Tickets with, then.

Nice try.

Like you're
A hockey fan.

Girls can't like bone-crushing,
High-sticking action?

Okay, who's tony esposito?

Blackhawks goalie.

Vezina trophy winner...
'70 and '72.

Not bad.

Yeah. What do you
Care, though?

I mean, you're
Fixing to die, so...

You really got
Those tickets?

Post-op, day two.

Wound is granulating well
Without drainage.

Afebrile on cefotetan.

Well, good. Next.

Lizzie! Long time, no see.

Oh, dr. Romano.

Did you get my message?

I wanted to see
If I could be excused

From the anspaugh
Tumor resection.

And why would
That be, doctor?

I'd like to assist
Dr. Kotlowitz

On allison's
Vocal cord surgery.

No problem. Never
Had you scheduled

To work with me
In the first place.

But my name was on the board.

I thought
Your energies

On head and neck
Surgery meant

You were considering
Changing specialties.

Of course not.

It's only this case.

You have nothing
To worry about.

I taught her
Everything
She knows.

Next.

Ellis! Is it true lady
Of pity's e.R. Is closed?

No, not closed,
But they're not accepting

Paramedic traffic right now.

Critical cases don't
Tend to be walk-ins.

No. What's
The matter, kerry?

I just had a
29-year-old woman

Nearly bleed out because
She was in an ambulance

15 minutes longer
Than necessary.

That's a bad situation.

It's cases like hers
That forced s.P.G.

To reconfigure
Our lady of pity e.R.

I don't understand.

They had a substandard
Trauma panel

And neurosurgical
Coverage was spotty.

As soon as we can
Get some new docs

And upgrade
Their equipment

They should be
Back up at 100%.

How soon
Will that be?

I don't know--
Sooner the better.

How's your patient?

She'll probably live.

She had the world's best
Medical care. That's why.

She was lucky. That's why.

Mr. Dwyer, we're ready

To start the procedure.

Is that a toothpick?

Yes, it is,
But in your case

This is a state-of-the-art
Medical device.

We think you may have
Contracted dracunculosis

From the river water.

Dracun... What?

Uh... Guinea worm.

Native to north africa
And middle east.

You get it from drinking
Contaminated water.

It moves through you for months

Then lays eggs below your skin.

A worm has been crawling
Through me for almost a year?

Yep.

Why didn't the other doctors
Catch this?

It's like an abscess.

When it was drained,
It got worse.

What's to be done?

Controlled removal.

Ow.

Ow!

Sorry.

Harrison says
They grow to be a meter long.

( chuckling ):
I really didn't need
To hear that.

I got about two centimeters.

Toothpick, please...

And a length
Of tape.

Okay. You want
To keep that tape down

And then
Come back daily

To continue
The extraction.

I got to catch
A 6:00 a.M.
Flight to cairo.

Why can't you just yank it out?

If we pull out more than
Two centimeters a day

It'll break off.

I need combat pay.

Hey, john.

Anna.

Hi, chase.

What are you
Doing here?

I feel nauseous.

I remembered
A couple thanksgivings ago

When we had bad pheasants

You hooked everybody up with...
Whatever that was.

Compazine.

It worked
Like a charm.

I-I thought you could...
Give me a script.

Excuse me
For a second.

Come here.

Now, I know that you didn't
Just drive all the way here

From the loop to get compazine.

This isn't exactly
The thing you bring

To the company nurse.

Why? You don't want
Your mom and dad

To find out you've
Been shooting heroin.

I-I'm not.

I mean, I...

I stopped two nights ago,
And I just... I...

I need something
To get over the hump.

If you need compazine
To get over the hump

You're in withdrawal.

Go to the cafeteria,
Have a cup of coffee.

I'll do the paperwork
And get you into detox.

You're overreacting.

You could have gone
To any doctor in this city

But you came to me.

You're asking for my help.

You've read
Too many 12-step pamphlets.

I can't even help
If you slam the door...

No, you can help me--
You just choose not to.

Thank you!

Best thing you can do
Is let him go.

Pardon me?

Sorry.

I didn't mean to eavesdrop.

It's just that a friend
Of mine in med school

Had a drug problem,
And I've had this conversation

More times than you
Could ever imagine.

I appreciate your concern,
But I can handle this.

I know. You
Don't want to talk

But don't let him
Drag you into this.

I'm not going to get
Dragged into anything.

Ugh! What's in there,
Eye of newt?

Cajun tofu gumbo.

And don't make
That face.

Whatever happened to beef stew
And five-alarm chili?

Olbes is macrobiotic

Audia's trying to lose
His holiday pounds

Me and zadro are doing
That zone diet.

Any kings?
Go fish.

I knew I should have taken
The p.D. Exam.

Hoagies and donuts--
Those guys know how to eat.

You have
Any tens?

Uh, yes...

Carol, please, tell me
That you're a real american.

Red meat,
The occasional brewski.

I admit, I'm
Not a big fan of
Nuts and berries.

You hear that?

That's the voice
Of common sense.

Mickey d's
Is up the street.

No one's
Keeping you here.

Although I have to say,
Zadro brought by

Some incredible
Flourless carob brownies.

They were... Good.

Carob.

Why bother, bro?

Powell, you really
Are a caveman.

Eights?
( radio alarm buzzes )

That's us.

More, uh, tofu for you there,
Big daddy.

( laughs )

Romano:
I had a lumpectomy
On my schedule

But when the head honcho
Says "Jump," I say, "Sieg heil."

Benton:
I'll transect the ileum
With a g.I.A. Stapler

Reinforce the staple lines
With 4-0 silk lembert sutures.

Reinforcing
The staple lines.

That's very thorough.

Your british colleague

Is not always so
Detail-oriented.

I haven't noticed that
To be true.

No question, her baby blues
Would look better

Over this bowel than your mug,
But you know female surgeons.

No, I don't. You tell me.

Always something
To prove

Often at the expense
Of the case at hand.

One of the things
I like about you--

You're not one of those

Militant minorities.

We have the results of
The frozen section.

B-cell lymphoma?

Yes.
Damn.

I knew it.

Well, someone's going to have
To tell anspaugh

And I am voting

For you, peter.

Excuse me.

Oh, hi.

Dr. Weaver, glad
You could join us.

I was explaining to dr. Ruiz

About our plan to pursue
Industrial contracts.

Can I speak to you
For a minute?

Ah, sure, sure.

I'm sorry. The e.R.
Doesn't stop for lunch.

Why don't you go on up,
Take a seat

And we'll join you
As soon as we can. Thanks.

What's up?

I've been doing
A little research.

It seems s.P.G.
Has closed down

60% of their trauma
Centers in the midwest.

Where'd you hear that?

It's on the internet.

I wish you'd come
To me first.

I did. You gave me
The party line.

Since I don't know
Where you got your figures

I can't address them
Specifically

But what I can say
Is that a 60% downgrade rate

Doesn't reflect
Our reconfiguration strategy.

Ellis, it's me.

You can speak english.

Okay, let me give you
An example.

Kellogg memorial, in detroit

Was a shambles
As an acute care facility.

Now it's a nationally
Recognized hernia center.

That doesn't help
A stab wound to the chest.

Neither does a hospital

Bankrupted by unreimbursed
Trauma care.

Emergency care is only
For people who can pay.

Now you're trying
To twist my words.

You're avoiding
My questions.

I'm not avoiding
Your questions.

Look, if you're worried
About county, don't.

Trust me,
You guys are essential.

You're not going anywhere.

How could we?
If everyone else closes

Someone needs
To handle the trauma.

Are you going to lunch?

No, thanks.
I'm not hungry.

What to pick, what to pick.

Um, dr. Carter, you got
A couple of messages.

From who?

Your cousin chase.

He says you can call
In your prescription

At de gooyer's
Pharmacy on randolph.

Unbelievable.

Carter, I need
Your john hancock on this.

Hey, malik.

Jeanie,
What's up?

You still got that friend
At startime tickets?

Sure. What you need?

A couple of rinkside
Blackhawks-islanders tickets

On the 20th.

And I want world peace

And a date
With tyra banks.

No, seriously,
Can he get them?

Yeah, he can get them,
But it'll run you.

That's okay.
Just ask, okay?

If you're living
That phat

I might need to get
A date with you.

Hey, chase, this is john.

You there? Pick up.

All right, call me back
When you get this message.

I'm at work.
You know the number.

Kotlowitz:
So, allison...

See, the two cords on the screen
Need to touch and vibrate

In order for you
To regain your voice, hmm?

But, as it is now,
The left one is paralyzed.

So, if you understand me

Blink once for "Yes,"
Twice for "No."

Good.

Dr. Corday. You
Here to observe?

I'm here for allison,
If she doesn't mind.

Oh, fine.

I was just
Explaining

The procedure.
All right...

Now I'm going to make
A slight incision

But you should only
Feel a little pressure.

Okay?

Kerry.

Why aren't you at that
Big s.P.G. Luncheon?

Had some work to do.

Everything seems to be trucking
Right along though.

For the most part, sure

But this is a big
Step we're taking.

I agree.

Thanks to you, we're lighting
A fire under the board

To institute
Some real change.

And I think we should
Be 100% sure

That turning the e.R. Over
To an outside management group

Is what we want to do.

Well, isn't it?

On paper, sure.

Is there something
The matter, kerry?

No. No, not at all.

I thought we could
Delay the board vote--

Make sure we have
All our "I's" dotted...

Dr. Anspaugh...

Dr. Benton. How
Can I help you?

Well, we, um...

We got the results
Of scott's frozen section.

All right.

Uh, we can discuss this later.

No, it's fine.

Let's see.

There's been a recurrence
Of his lymphoma.

Uh-huh.

We got everything
That we could see.

It's hard to know
If we got it all

Until we take a look
At the tumor margins.

Do you see
Any serosal seeding?

No.

What about infiltration
To the liver

Or spleen?

No metastasis.

Okay.

Well, continue then, and, uh...

Let me know when, uh...

Scott is awake.

So, kerry,
Where were we?

Ha! You owe
Me a dollar.

No. I only smoked
Half a cigarette.

Half a cigarette is
Still a cigarette.

No...
At the rate
We're going

We'll be in club med
By february.

That is not true,
Because that was my last one

And I'm going back
On the gum tonight.

You know what we
Could do tonight?

What?
S'mores.

Excuse me?

Remember camp,
Marshmallows

Graham crackers,
Chocolate...

I'd love to,
But I can't, okay?

I got to do something.

What?
It's for doug.

But, uh, maybe
Saturday night?

Take a rain check?

I'll bring the
Marshmallows?
Oh...

Dr. Greene...

What's up, carter?

Could I have the rest
Of the shift off?

Why?
Family
Emergency.

Is everything okay?

Yeah, just some things
I need to take care of.

I'll let doyle know.

Thanks.

Hey, carter.

Hey.

What are
You eating?

Um... P.B. And j. On wheat.

I thought you were on
Until 7:00.

I was.

You feeling okay?

Mm-hmm.

Yeah, fine.

You're leaving in the middle
Of your shift.

It's about your cousin,
Isn't it?

I know what I'm doing.

You don't look like
You know what you're doing.

And you don't know anything
About my family

So just drop it.

Oh, god!
One more flight!

Apartment 3h!
Hurry, hurry!

Please hurry!

In here!
In here!

Oh, please!

( sobbing ):
Hurry!

Oh, my god, she's dead.

She's dead.

No! She's not dead.

Are you
Okay?
Do something!

Some help here.

Do something!
Some help
Here.

How long have
You been here?

About five
Minutes ago.

She wasn't
Breathing.

Get her out of here.

I love you!

I got a faint pulse.

I'm in,
I'm here.
Powell!

Oh, god, no!

I love you, mama!
Oh, come on.

Let's go.

I'll start an I.V.

I'll get a b.P.

Come on, please, please...

I.V.'s in.

B.P.'s 60 palp.

Oh, god.

She's in fib.

Charge it to 200.

Clear!

Nothing.

Come on, damn it!

Come on!

Charging 300! Clear!

Nope.

Charging 360!
Clear!

Oh, mama...

Help her, help her,
Please!

Breathe!

Don't you die on me.

Don't you friggin' die!

Powell!
Amp of epi!

( moaning ):
Oh, mama...

I shouldn't
Have left her.

I shouldn't

Have left her...

( sobbing ):
Ma-mama...

I got a pulse.

Pickman:
All right, let's
Move her out.

Kotlowitz:
Allison, it's imperative
That you hold perfectly still.

Can you do that?

This is the home stretch.

You're doing really well.

All right, now.

I am going to ask you...

To swallow for me

If you can.

Oh, good.

Now, can you
Say "E"?

( whispers ):
E...

That's okay.

You just need to clear
The secretions.

All right, good.

Let's try again.

You can do it, allison.

( weakly ):
E...

Dr. Kotlowitz, you're a genius.

No, I'm just doing
My job, that's all.

You did
Good, kid.

All right, let's
Prepare to close her.

( whispers ):
Thank you.

Let's get a c.B.C.

Chem seven, blood gas,
Portable chest, 12 lead.

Start dopamine
At ten mikes per kilo.

Pulse ox 88.

Call respiratory for a vent.

Jarvik:
B.P. 60 palp.

Looks like
Idioventricular
Rhythm at 50.

Malik:
I lost her pulse.

Jarvik:
She's cyanotic.

We should go.

I'll get
A blood gas.

Come on. Let's go.

Start dopamine.

Atropine!

( knocking lightly )

( knocking loudly )

John, what are
You doing here?

You asked me to help. I'm here.

Uh...

That's really decent of you,
Man, but-but I'm-I'm fine.

( sniffling )

You left messages for me
Every half an hour

And now you're fine?

( stammering ):
Well, I just...
Panicked, you know.

I mean, you know
How it is when
You're sick.

You think the world's
Going to end.

Invite me in.

Yeah, sure. Come on in.

It smells like
A locker room in here.

When was the last time
The maid came by?

She, uh... Quit.

So... Since you're here,
Did you bring any meds?

No. I brought a list
Of drug treatment centers.

Come on, man.

I'm not one of those
Betty ford people.

I...

I mean, half my
Graduating class
From wesleyan

Is in rehab.

I mean... I'd bump
Into somebody I know

And then tongues would wag.

You should take a look
At yourself, chase.

You're a mess.

Thank you,
Mr. Blackwell.

You know, I'd love to
Hang out, but I got to...

I was just going
To... Head out.

Why don't you
Give me a break?

( knocking )

( knocking continues )

You going to answer that?

( insistent knocking )

Chase, buddy, what's up?

I am sorry it took me
So long to get here.

I was in the middle
Of a wicked squash game

And I didn't feel
My pager vibrate, so...

It's all right.

Anyway, um, I got you

A couple of grams
Of the usual

And check this out--

A gram of this.

Dude, this is
Some superb...

I think you'd
Better go.

Who the hell's this guy?

He's my cousin.

Your cousin needs
To learn some manners.

Anyway,
As I was saying...

Hey, I said get out.

Last time I checked,
This was chase's house, okay?

Why don't you go make yourself
A hot toddy or something

And let us talk.

Chase, if you do this,
You are on your own.

You know what?
You know what?

What's it going
To be, man?

Do you want this
Or not? Huh?

Yeah? Is that
A "Yeah"?

Yeah. All right.

Gardner, you...

Better go.

All right. Okay. All right.

You know where to find me
When mommy's gone.

You heard him.
Get out of here.

Oh!

( sniffling )

Last epi?

Malik:
High dose,
Three minutes ago.

Total time down?

30 minutes.

Okay. Let's call it.

Time of death: 4:02 p.M.

Uh, dr. Greene

I'm detective gerald leo,
District eleven violent crimes

And this is
Detective laibson.

Could we have
A minute?

Where are
The other cops?

Our suspect crossed
District lines.

This guy's going
All over chicago?

This is an open
Investigation.

We can't discuss
The specifics.

About louise dickinson...

I haven't heard anything
On the news about this.

A case like
This has to be
Handled carefully.

We have suspects
We're looking at.

I have three victims
From some sick bastard.

There could be more,
Not that my local police

Are telling me
Or anybody else anything.

You're going to have
To calm down.

You're right. I'm going
To pull myself together

'cause I got to tell
Louise dickinson's daughter

Her mother's
Going to the morgue.

We need more
Kerlix and saline.

Powell, are you okay?

You haven't said a word

Since we left
That apartment.

There's nothing to say.

Some things you never
Get used to seeing.

When we got to
That apartment

You really froze.

I apologize.

No, it's not that.

I just... If there's
Anything you'd like
To talk about...

Not really.

( soft thud )

What's that?

It's her, all right.

Let me see.

55 cents off meow mix.

I didn't see a cat up there.
Did you?

Nope.

Someone should go
And see if it's okay.

Dr. Anspaugh,
How's scott?

He's going to have to have

Another round
Of chemotherapy.

How do you tell
A 12-year-old boy

That he'll be in
And out of the hospital

For painful, debilitating
Treatments

For god knows how long?

It's not easy,
But you can imagine

How it is for scott,
Not knowing.

Well, frankly, he could...

We could use some help.

Scott responds to you.

So I was
Wondering if

You might
Be interested

In being a, uh...

Part-time, private duty
Caregiver for him.

What does scott think
About this?

Well, we haven't discussed it
Specifically

But I know he thinks
Very highly of you...

As do I.

If you need time
To think about it, I...

No, no, no. Um...

No, I'm glad that you asked.

When do I start?

Can you turn
The heat up, please?

It's like a freaking
Meat locker in here.

It's cranked
Up to 80.

I'll make some soup.

I don't want soup!

I am sick!

I need something!

I'll make some tea.

I'm going to vomit.

Whoa, whoa.
Wait, wait, wait.

( gagging and coughing )

It's okay.

Next time you feel it
Coming on, use the bowl.

I'll clean it up.
Don't worry about it.

Want to take this shirt off?

I can't do this anymore!

I got to get
Out of here!

I'm not going
To let you do that.

Get off of me!

You are not helping me!

You are not doing jack!

The only way you're
Going to leave here

Is through me.

Fine. I'll call gardner back.

No.

Sit down.

I am sick!

I need something!

You got to help.

I'm going
To help you.

You have to help me!

I'm going to help you.

I'm going to
Help you, chase

But you got to
Stick with me.

( wrenching groan )

Come on!

All right?

Yeah.

( groaning )

Corday:
Peter.

Hey. How did the
Beaumont surgery go?

Very well.
Dr. Kotlowitz is optimistic

She'll have full use
Of her voice in a week or two.

Oh. Congratulations.

How about
The anspaugh
Boy's surgery?

Ah, you know.
Well, as well as we hoped.

It's been a long day.

I could use a drink.

How about you?

No. I don't drink.

Your body's made up
Of 60% water, peter.

You must drink
Something.

Come on, elizabeth.
You know what I mean.

Well, have a lemonade

Or a yoo-hoo.

I just think
It'd be criminal

Oh, unless you
Were going to spend
Time with your son.

No, no, no. He's with
His mother tonight.

So?

Yeah, well. Yeah, you know.

I like lemonade.

Splendid.

Woman:
Can I help you?

We're the e.M.S. Team
With county.

Mrs. Dickinson had a cat.

You haven't seen it
Around anywhere, have you?

No. Anyone seen
A cat around here?

Sorry.

Is it okay
If we look around?

Sure. We're almost
Done here anyway.

Thanks.
Thanks.

( powell making
Kissing sounds )

Hey, sometimes
They come running

If they hear a can opener.

( grinding )

Well, here's
Some stairs.

Maybe it got
To the roof.

Come get your dinner.

I think it hissed at me.

It'll come out eventually.

Whew!

Pretty up here, huh?

I'm just glad
To be out of
That apartment.

Yeah. Yeah, me, too.

Hey, you were right.

What happened back there--
It got to me.

It reminded me of my mom.

Your mom?

When I was nine,
She hung herself.

I'm sorry.

Yeah. Yeah, I was the one
That found her.

Seeing that lady
With the ligature marks

And her head turned
Like that

Cops all around...

I was pissed...

All over again.

I'm sure she didn't mean
For you to find her.

Yeah, but I did.

Then I started
Feeling guilty

Because I was thinking
About myself

Instead of that old lady

Just like my mom
Was only thinking of herself.

What a sick boy I am, huh?

I thought
About everybody but me

When I tried to kill myself.

I'm sorry. I had no idea.

Why would you?

It was a long time ago.

I just got wrapped up

In everyone else's
Expectations of me.

I forgot who I was, you know?

And now?

Now I'm okay.

I even tried to
Go to med school

But it just wasn't me.

You couldn't get the hang
Of that nine iron.

I don't know.

I opened up a clinic
In the e.R. This year.

It's only open a couple
Days a week, but...

But nothing.

That's... That's great.

Yeah.

You're super-nurse.

But what about you?

Me?

What are you thinking about
Right now?

I'm thinking that
It's freezing out here

And I wish that damn
Cat would come out.

Yeah.

I know
It's getting late.

If you got
Somewhere to be...

Yeah.

No, I'm fine.

What are you
Thinking about?

I'm thinking
I'm not feeling the cold.

Yeah?

Yeah, and I'm thinking

That cat will come out
When she's good and ready.

Probably.

And I'm thinking
If I look at you one more second

I'm going to have

Anyone seen carol?

She went on
That ride-along.

Haven't seen her since.

No one's seen her.

I'll do that.

Okay. Bye.

If anyone sees her,
Tell her to call doug.

He's getting worried.

Good night,
Everybody.

Good night.

There you are.

You leaving?

Yeah.

I put together those figures
I promised you.

Thought we could
Go to dinner

Have a glass of wine,
Maybe talk it over in a more

Relaxed setting.

Yeah, I-I think I should...

Think about this alone.

Here, let me
Give you a hand.

I-I'm fine, thanks.

Kerry, what can I do to make
You feel better about this?

Delay the board vote.

We've worked on this
For three months.

I'm perfectly willing

To give you whatever
Information you need

But delaying the vote
Just isn't an option.

I can't support something
I don't believe in.

S.P.G. Is putting profits
Ahead of patient care.

Synergix

Provides the most care

For the most people.

If that means giving
Them an oldsmobile

Instead of a
Rolls, so be it.

Decent health care
Shouldn't be a luxury.

It shouldn't

And that's what
We give people--

Decent health care.

And nothing more?

"More" bankrupts hospitals.

I can't be part
Of an organization

That lowballs people's lives.

( softly groaning )

That's a cheap shot.

Oh, man.

( sighs )

I just need time alone
To think about this.

About synergix or me?

Come on,
Let me

Give you a ride home.

We'll talk this out.

I'll be fine, thanks.

Kerry, don't do this.

Carter:
I don't care if the computer
Says it was processed.

'cause I phoned
The script in hours ago.

Well, if it was processed,
Then I would have the meds

In my hand right now,
Wouldn't I?

Yeah, I'll hold.

Want some of this?

Child:
...In a phosphorescent glow.

( knocking at door )

Finally.

( dishes clattering )

Hey.

Anna.

What are you
Doing here?

You, uh, called in
A prescription for compazine.

You're going to need
More than that, trust me.

Come on in.

Thanks.

Child:
I got a hell of a...

Chase.

Hey, anna.

Sorry I-I didn't tidy up.

Uh, no problem.

You should see
My brother hank's place.

It's a superfund site.

I got, um, clonidine
And propranolol.

Propranolol?

Yeah, I, uh, borrowed it
From the e.R.

I also got
Your saline

And rectal compazine.

Rectal?

Do I get my choice
Of doctors?

I think that's
The sort of procedure

You should keep
In the family, okay?

Okay, I'm going to
Get this started.

Okay.

This'll lower
Your heart rate

And blood pressure
And take the edge

Off the jitters.

You'll be okay.

( sighs )

Visualize the bull's-eye,
Lean into the throw and...

Release.

( chuckles )

It's easier said
Than done.

Try it.

( sighs )

All right...

( laughing )

No, you're too stiff.

Wait a minute.

There you go.

Nice aerodynamic form.

Now...

A small movement
With the wrist and...

Well, that's not bad.

Can I get you
Some refills?

I'll have
Another newkie brown.

Uh, a perrier.

You got it.

Are you an alcoholic?

Excuse me?

Is that why
You don't drink?

Oh, no. No.

Are you a muslim?

I notice you don't
Eat pork either.

Uh, no, I've got
Nothing against liquor.

I just... I don't
Like the taste.

So, it's not

A control thing?

No, of course not.

You know what?

You should try a pimms.

It tastes just like
Ginger ale and fruit.

No. No, thank you.

( sighing ):
You're so resistant
To new things, peter.

I tell you what,
We'll shoot for it.

Whoever gets closest
To the bull's-eye

Picks the next round.

I'll even drink
That frog water of yours.

Yeah, right,
That's fair.

You've done this
All your life.

I've never done this.

Okay. I'll throw mine backwards
With my eyes closed

And you
Shoot yours straight.

Oh, yeah, you will?

Uh-huh.

All right. You got
Yourself a deal.

Come on, watch this.
Look at this...

Aerodynamic thing that
You were talking about.

See? Whoo-whoo.

( both laughing )

Corday:
Oh!

( both laughing )

Okay,
Okay.

Okay.

Here we go.

( chuckles )

All right.

( gasps )

Whoa!

( chuckles )

Hey, jeanie.

Hey.

What are you doing awake?

You need your sleep.

I kept my end of the
Deal with surgery.

What about you?

What do you mean?

Blackhawks, islanders.

Right.

Center ice.

That is so cool.

So we got a date?

Yeah.

Thanks, jeanie.

Sure.

You have a good sleep, okay?

Are you leaving?

Well, not if you
Don't want me to.

It gets kind of creepy

In here at night,
That's all.

Well, why don't I just sit here,
Then, until you fall asleep?

Thanks, jeanie.

Thanks.

Sure.

( sighs deeply )

These are
Great photos.

Those are
Chase carter originals.

Really?

Uh-huh.

Gritty stuff;
Not what I would have expected.

Well, he's got
A lot of talents.

I guess that's why this is
All so hard to understand.

Yeah, well, this happens
To all kinds of people.

Yeah.

Um...

Before, when I said
That I had a friend on heroin

I wasn't being
Completely honest.

No?

How so?

Um...

It was my boyfriend.

I've done
The detox dance

More times
Than I can count.

Oh.

How come you didn't
Cut him loose?

Mmm.

It's not that easy
When you love someone.

No.

No, it's not.

Do you think this
Is the worst of it?

I wish.

Well, you were right.

I don't know
What I'm doing.

No.

You're doing great.

Thanks for coming.

What are friends for?

( "That's life" by frank sinatra
Playing on jukebox )

Whoa.

( laughing )

( laughing )

Oh.

( music stops )

Oh.

I guess
They're kicking us out.

Yeah.

That's life.

Yep, that's life.

( both laughing )

Neither one of us is
In any shape to drive.

Listen, I didn't mean
To get you drunk.

It's just, uh,
I've never seen that happen

From two pimms before.

Thank you.

I, um...

I should call us a cab.

( benton whistles )

I'd, uh...

Uh, I'd invite you
Back to my place

But, um...
I fear

I'd be taking advantage.

( soft chuckle )

My head is spinning.

I'm...

I should just get some sleep.

Mmm, mmm.
It's probably best.

Taxi!

Okay. Now,
When you get home

I want you
To drink plenty of water

And if you have any aspirin
Or b-complex, all the better.

Okay. So, uh, where
Can I drop you?

Oh, it's okay.

I'll get my own cab.

You sure?

Uh-huh.

( benton groans )

( both laughing )

Hey, elizabeth...

Uh-huh?

I had a really good time.

Yes, uh...

It was delightful.

Good night.

Night.

( door opening )

I've been waiting
For you all night.

I'm sorry.

I got...
I got wrapped up.

( keys clattering )

I called here,
But you weren't home.

I was on the corner
Of dearborn and clark.

Right.

I called the hospital

And the firehouse

And they both said that
Unit 57 came back on time.

Yeah, I was talking
To greg powell.

Um...

He's the paramedic
On my ride-along.

It was a really tough day
For both of us.

It was just one of those things
Where you start talking

To someone you hardly know

And you start
Telling them things.

Uh-huh.

Talking to him
All night?

We got coffee,
And we talked

And since then,
I've been walking.

In this cold?

I needed to think.

About what?

About you and me and...

The engagement and the vows
And the rings and, uh...

I think we're rushing into this.

I don't think we're ready.

I'm ready.

But you aren't?

When I was...
Talking to greg powell

It got intense

And, um...

And I kissed him.

( soft sigh )

It didn't go any further

But it was one
Of those moments.

Uh-huh. Uh-huh.

I didn't want it to...

Okay, that's good.
I just was here.

I just wanted to make sure
You were safe and sound.

Doug...

I am so sorry.

Yep. Me, too.

( door closing )

( outer door closing )