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MICHAEL APTED: In 1964,
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Granada Television brought together
a group of seven-year-olds.
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When I grow up I want
to be an astronaut.
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We have followed their lives
every seven years.
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I don't wanna keep still,
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'cause life, you know,
don't wait for nobody.
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They talked about their dreams...
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If I could have
two girls and two boys...
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..their ambitions...
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I'd quite like to go into politics.
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..and their fears for the future.
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Life is what happens while you're
waiting for something else.
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I don't think life is there
to be regretted.
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You've got to make the most of it
while you've got it.
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That's how you become
the person you are.
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MAN: It's a picture
of how any person, how they change.
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MAN 2: Give me a child
until he is seven,
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and I will give you the man.
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We first met Paul
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at a children's home
in West London...
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..along with Symon.
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Before I'm old enough to get a job,
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I'll just walk around
and see what I can find.
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They say,
"Where's your father, then?
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"You know, when your mum's out
at work instead of your father?"
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And I just tell them,
"I ain't got one."
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When Paul left the children's home,
he moved to Australia.
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Were you happy
at the children's home in England?
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We didn't mind that, really,
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'cause we didn't know
what was going on
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'cause we were a bit young then.
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When I was born, you know,
an illegitimate child,
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you know, that's something
that's only whispered about.
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People, you know, felt strongly
about it in those days,
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but nowadays it's...
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..it's not a serious matter.
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The serious point
is whether you stay with somebody
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or you leave them.
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My father got remarried.
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Um...
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And how do you get on
with your stepmum?
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Pretty well, but,
like I said before,
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I mean, I'm just not close.
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I'm not really close
to my father either.
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I was going to be a policeman,
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but I thought
how hard it would be to join in.
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I was going to be a Phys Ed teacher,
but one of the teachers told me
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that you had to get up
into university.
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As a young man, Paul spent many years
in the building trade,
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and then moved on into factory work.
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Was going to be a film star but...
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..now I'm going to be
an electrical engineer,
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which is more to reality, really.
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By 21, Symon was working
in the freezer room
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of Wall's sausages in London.
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I know I can't stay
at Wall's forever.
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I mean, it's just not me.
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I couldn't stay there for that long,
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my mind would go dead.
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Do you never feel you should be
doing better jobs than these?
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Aren't you worth more than this?
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No, I haven't really.
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I suppose I just like hard work,
I don't know.
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Not really interested
in moving up the scale.
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Why?
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I don't need the hassle
of being in charge,
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manager or whatever.
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Tell me, do you have any girlfriends?
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Well, not many.
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What do you think about girls?
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Not much.
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Erm, since 21...
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..I've got married,
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had a couple of kids and, um...
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By 28, he had married Yvonne,
and they had five children.
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What would you like to give
your children that you never had?
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They've got everything that...
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They've even got what I never had.
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So...
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Which is what?
A father, innit.
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By 35, they were divorced.
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All I want out of life
is to be happy,
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and when I say happy, I want
to be happily married as well.
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What was it
that you fell in love with?
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What is it about him?
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WOMAN: His helplessness, I suppose.
(SCOFFS)
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It was the motherly instinct in me
to pick him up and cuddle him.
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And he's also very good-looking,
I think,
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but he doesn't agree with me.
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In the summer, he's got
this cute little bum in shorts.
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In their twenties,
Paul and Sue sold up,
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bought an old van,
and travelled across Australia.
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I think it brought us
closer together because, you know,
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we really got to know each other
and relied on each other so much.
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I'd never been
so relaxed in my life.
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I felt a lot more confident
in myself.
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By the time they were 28,
Paul and Sue had two children -
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Katie and Robert.
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(SPORTS COMMENTARY ON TV)
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Katie did well at school
and went on to university,
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the first person in her entire family
ever to do so.
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Robert trained as a car mechanic.
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He met Stacey
when they were teenagers,
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and they now have five children.
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By the time he was 42,
Symon had married Viennetta.
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WOMAN: We used to go out
when we were younger.
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We met in the laundrette. (LAUGHS)
Once a week.
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Once a week in the laundrette.
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Viennetta already had a daughter,
Miriam,
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and she and Symon had a son, Daniel.
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WOMAN: Obviously, when children
come into foster care,
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family and friends are
involved as well,
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and we have to ensure
that the children...
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By 49, Symon and Viennetta had
decided to train as foster-parents.
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Went to boarding school
when I was young,
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and I always felt
that that was regimental.
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They didn't allow for personal care,
for loving from the adult carers,
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so I wanted to do something
like that for myself,
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you know, in my own home.
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You know why Uncle Symon
looks younger?
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'Cause he's so laid-back.
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When we first started fostering,
we didn't even realise
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that you actually got a payment
for doing it.
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(CHATTER INDISTINCTLY)
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We just did it
because we wanted to help.
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About four years ago, we were told
that we'd looked after 130-odd kids.
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When you're ready,
you might as well...
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It's a very hard thing,
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but it's also magnificently easy
when it goes well.
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I've still got five children.
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They haven't really taken
the break-up
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of my first marriage too well.
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I've got, still,
to get to grips with that
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and get to them
and make them understand
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that Daddy is still Daddy.
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(MC TALKS EXCITEDLY)
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Last year, Symon invited
his entire family
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to celebrate Viennetta's birthday.
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They're all together now.
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They've come round,
and they've seen
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that Dad is still Dad,
whatever's happened.
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Time is the healer, isn't it?
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You rush and push and pull.
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You might be able to do that
with a parcel,
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but you can't do that with a person.
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It made me feel 110%.
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Everybody together
and everybody here for me.
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It was...
It was nice.
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Yeah, it was beautiful.
It was nice.
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So what's happened in the last
seven years since we were here?
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Grandchildren, lots of them.
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So how many have you got now?
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Got 10 now.
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It's lovely. It just tires me out.
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I haven't got the energy...
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..all the time.
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Run! Run!
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What's happened in the family
in the last seven years?
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So, another grandchild - Brody.
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So there's six.
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PAUL: Talk nicely to him.
Hey, Benny. Benny!
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Katie's a school teacher.
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She has a man in her life now.
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A very nice chap,
which we're pleased about.
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Hopefully more grandchildren.
(THEY LAUGH)
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No pressure.
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Look, they do look very happy
in all that mud, don't they, Shane?
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The fact we've been married
for 40 years
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is just really a fluke, really.
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You know, we might...
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No, but what I mean is
we've tried hard,
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and that's part of the success,
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but you don't know
when you're gonna get married
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that it's gonna succeed and...
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Absolutely.
..and go for 40 years.
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You have no idea.
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SYMON: And you can see
Windsor Castle from their house.
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We don't actually see each other...
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Over the years, Paul and Sue have
met up with Symon and Viennetta
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when visiting family in England.
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SUE: Come on,
let me get you organised.
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But now, for the first time,
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Symon and Viennetta have
come to Australia.
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Hello!
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We got on really well
when we visited them in England.
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I think Symon and Paul
are very similar.
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Symon's very creative, sort of,
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artistic, a beautiful person
to be around,
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and Viennetta, her and I are
just two peas out of the same pod.
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(LAUGHS)
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I just think it's a wonderful thing
to be able to invite them,
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and they be able to come out here,
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'cause it's not like it's
just across the road,
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it's a big trip.
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And they're going to share Christmas
with us and our family.
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Would your life have
been totally different
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if you'd had the chance
that Paul had - to come to Australia?
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For me, then, it probably
would've been better.
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To actually try
and figure it out now -
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would it have been better?
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I wouldn't want to say
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because your life is as it is,
and not as it could be.
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Yeah.
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I don't like
the big boys hitting us,
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and the prefects sending us out
for nothing.
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I remember this path,
but I've never walked...
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At 21, when Paul was in London,
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we decided to take him and Symon
back to the children's home.
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Why were you there?
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I believe it was
a divorce custody dispute.
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Most children at that age,
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if they were taken away
from their parents,
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they wouldn't be overly happy.
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No.
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Did you get to see
much of your parents?
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I can only vaguely remember
my dad coming...
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..to visit every now and then.
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I was there for about six years,
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and the only thing I really,
really missed was my mum.
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She was everything to me,
and she wasn't there.
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You remember the tiles?
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She couldn't cope with the situation
of having to look for me,
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and she didn't have a place
of her own at the time.
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Remember Midgely?
He was a real bastard.
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You felt that you were kept
in order all the time.
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He made me clean all the...
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Kids did get the cane if they were
caught doing anything wrong.
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So did you get caned?
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Not that I can remember.
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I was a very, very good boy.
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(THEY LAUGH)
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He was the tailor. I remember him.
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I didn't get a lot of cuddles.
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And it affects you -
the way you treat your kids -
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inasmuch as you try to do it more,
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but you probably don't do it
as much as some other people do.
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I wanted to love my children,
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but I used to try to give them
discipline instead.
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Instead of just giving the little
hugs and stuff they needed,
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that I knew they needed,
because I needed it.
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That's where the headmaster's son
used to shoot the squirrels
off the trees.
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I definitely felt insecure,
I can still remember that.
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I didn't feel insecure
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when I was being told, "Be here,
be there, do this, do that."
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Yeah.
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Where I felt insecure
was outside of all of that.
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You can't believe,
after so many years,
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that things have really not changed
all that much, you know.
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Paul took Symon
to the children's home
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where he lived
when he first arrived in Australia.
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The track's about the same!
(CHUCKLES)
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So how old were you
when you first came here?
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I was somewhere between seven
and eight years of age, I'd say.
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We pretty much landed in Australia,
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wasn't all that long
before my father arranged
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for us to come up here and live.
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And how was it to be here?
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The best childhood memories I've got
is of being up here.
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Why didn't he take you home
to live with the family?
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Well, I think Dad was
a coat and dress designer,
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and they were also trying
to set a house up,
262
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and that's just the way
that they chose to do it.
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(SPEAK INDISTINCTLY)
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My dad, despite what other members
of the family might...
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He was a good man,
he was a kind man.
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He was strict, but he was kind.
(LAUGHS)
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You know, I was always frightened
of everything as a young child,
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and I think it, you know,
slowly but surely,
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it just slowly
brought me out of myself.
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Like Paul, I was very shy
when I was young,
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and I think this place would
give you the confidence
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to do things for yourself.
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I think, at the moment,
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my main weakness is
I don't really take a grip of life.
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I know if I ever wanted to get on,
I could do it.
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I think what it is really, I'm just
waiting for an excuse to use it.
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There's one just there.
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Both the wives say
that you both lack confidence.
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The lack of confidence,
you sort of second-guess yourself
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or question yourself all the time.
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Just like just now,
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I noticed we both looked
at each other
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because we both knew
exactly what we were going to say,
284
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but we waited.
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(LAUGHS) Yeah.
We waited for the other one
to say it, yeah.
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What's been the saddest,
287
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toughest time for you
in your life so far?
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I think early years -
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going away from the home,
and going to the boarding school,
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and living away from home here
as well.
291
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Here's Grandad.
Hey!
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My father died
approximately four years ago.
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That was very sad.
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He was the one constant in my life.
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(VOICE QUIVERS) Sorry.
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Even though I knew
my mum wasn't well at all,
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and she was probably dying,
298
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I still felt she'd be there forever.
299
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When she actually died,
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there were so many things
that I'd never asked.
301
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Why did you not marry Dad
or stay with him?
302
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So, there were so many things
that were left unsaid.
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Say you had a wife,
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like, say you had to eat
what they cooked you,
305
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and say I don't like greens,
well, I don't.
306
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One of the fundamental premises
of this series of films is
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you can see the man
in the seven-year-old child.
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Basically what you see
is a seven-year-old,
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shy, not very confident,
worried about everything.
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That's what I was like then,
311
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and, to a great degree,
still like that.
312
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I'm not making light
of what I have achieved but,
313
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you know, I wasn't going to make
any wonderful achievements.
314
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I think that was pretty obvious
I was going to be just a worker.
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Alright, Paul, how are you?
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SUE: OK, everybody, tuck is ready!
Anyone for some food?
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Do you have any regrets?
318
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There's just no place
for regrets in this world.
319
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I mean, I've been lucky.
320
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Meeting Susan, I've been with her
longer than I was with my dad.
321
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And she's been an unbelievable
influence on my life.
322
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Getting me to see the positive side
of things, rather than the negative.
323
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Maybe one regret is - probably
would've liked more children.
324
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I feel OK just
getting on with life,
325
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just sort of keeping up.
326
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But I know, if I really wanted to,
I could get on.
327
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And the brother had...
328
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The sooner you understand
who you are,
329
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the sooner you understand
what you can do.
330
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It's taken me virtually 60 years
to understand who I am.
331
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When I leave this school,
I'm going to Colet Court.
332
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And then I will be going
to Westminster Boarding School,
333
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if I pass the exam.
334
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And then we think I'm going to, um,
Cambridge and Trinity Hall.
335
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John went to Westminster,
336
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then on to read Law
at Christ Church, Oxford.
337
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I do believe parents have a right
to educate their children
338
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as they think fit.
339
00:16:45,875 --> 00:16:48,155
I think someone who works
on assembly lines
340
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in some of these car factories,
earning a huge wage,
341
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could well afford to send
their children to private school
342
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if they wanted to.
343
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At 21, we asked him
what career he would pursue.
344
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Might be at the bar.
345
00:17:00,275 --> 00:17:01,755
Doing what?
346
00:17:03,035 --> 00:17:04,555
Perhaps chancery practice.
347
00:17:04,715 --> 00:17:07,075
I now have a career.
I'm a barrister.
348
00:17:07,235 --> 00:17:08,635
Um...
349
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Other than that, life chugs along
in varying degrees.
350
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Well, in a sense, not very much
has changed in my career
351
00:17:14,635 --> 00:17:16,115
over the last 14 years.
352
00:17:16,275 --> 00:17:18,675
I'm still a barrister,
I still wear a curly white wig.
353
00:17:18,835 --> 00:17:21,955
Um, the only visible difference,
I suppose,
354
00:17:22,115 --> 00:17:24,635
is I wear a silk gown
because I'm now a QC.
355
00:17:24,795 --> 00:17:27,995
What's changed in your life
since we last talked?
356
00:17:28,155 --> 00:17:30,355
Seven years older,
seven years fatter,
357
00:17:30,515 --> 00:17:32,195
a bit less hair.
358
00:17:32,355 --> 00:17:33,875
I mean, nothing much, really.
359
00:17:34,035 --> 00:17:36,915
I mean, on a more serious level,
I mean, I'm still...
360
00:17:37,915 --> 00:17:39,715
..a barrister, a QC.
361
00:17:39,875 --> 00:17:41,475
When boys go round with girls,
362
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they don't pay attention
to what they're doing.
363
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GIRL: Yes, they do!
364
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My grandmother had an accident
365
00:17:47,115 --> 00:17:50,715
because a boyfriend was kissing
her...his girlfriend in the street.
366
00:17:50,875 --> 00:17:54,835
By 35, John had married Claire,
367
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the daughter of a former ambassador
to Bulgaria.
368
00:17:59,315 --> 00:18:03,875
WOMAN: It is coincidental
that we met, but it's obvious
369
00:18:04,035 --> 00:18:08,715
that the Balkan connection
was a strong, mutual interest.
370
00:18:08,875 --> 00:18:12,035
It is a great pleasure
to welcome you all here tonight
371
00:18:12,195 --> 00:18:13,795
on behalf of Friends of Bulgaria.
372
00:18:13,955 --> 00:18:16,195
My mother, in fact,
is from Bulgaria,
373
00:18:16,355 --> 00:18:18,435
and that explains why, for me,
374
00:18:18,595 --> 00:18:20,835
Bulgaria is an especially
important place.
375
00:18:20,995 --> 00:18:23,875
The hounds are over there, I think.
376
00:18:24,035 --> 00:18:27,955
I think the more you've had
out of the country,
377
00:18:28,115 --> 00:18:30,555
the more privileges
you're born with,
378
00:18:30,715 --> 00:18:33,075
the greater your duty is.
379
00:18:33,235 --> 00:18:35,675
I still feel,
as I did when I was 21,
380
00:18:35,835 --> 00:18:39,235
that it's important for people
who have had advantages
381
00:18:39,395 --> 00:18:41,875
to try and put as much back
382
00:18:42,035 --> 00:18:46,115
and to help others less fortunate
than themselves if they can.
383
00:18:46,275 --> 00:18:49,875
Recently, I think this charity,
Friends of Bulgaria,
384
00:18:50,035 --> 00:18:53,515
is something
that's very important in my life.
385
00:18:53,675 --> 00:18:58,355
JOHN AT 63: When we first came,
the country really was on its knees.
386
00:18:58,515 --> 00:19:01,235
I remember we were taking
basic things like anaesthetics
387
00:19:01,395 --> 00:19:03,515
round to hospitals,
388
00:19:03,675 --> 00:19:05,635
and blood supplies,
and all of that's changed.
389
00:19:05,795 --> 00:19:11,035
Bulgaria's been in the EU now
since, I think, about 2006,
390
00:19:11,195 --> 00:19:12,675
and it's slowly catching up.
391
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(CHURCH BELLS RING OUT)
392
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We're in Veliko Tarnovo,
393
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which is the medieval capital
of Bulgaria.
394
00:19:20,875 --> 00:19:22,355
And Friends of Bulgaria,
395
00:19:22,515 --> 00:19:24,435
the charity
of which I'm now chairman,
396
00:19:24,595 --> 00:19:26,635
we have various projects,
397
00:19:26,795 --> 00:19:30,155
and we're here to see
how those projects are going along.
398
00:19:31,235 --> 00:19:34,755
This plaque here commemorates
my great-grandfather
399
00:19:34,915 --> 00:19:36,475
who's sitting in the front row.
400
00:19:36,635 --> 00:19:39,155
By then, he'd already been a leader
401
00:19:39,315 --> 00:19:41,515
of the revolution
against the Turks in Plovdiv,
402
00:19:41,675 --> 00:19:45,995
and, actually, he'd been condemned
to death because he was captured.
403
00:19:46,155 --> 00:19:49,555
He also did an awful lot
for charity.
404
00:19:49,715 --> 00:19:52,715
I'm sure he keeps me up to my mark.
405
00:19:52,875 --> 00:19:56,955
I do feel I'd like
to continue the tradition
406
00:19:57,115 --> 00:19:59,915
of doing good things
to help people here,
407
00:20:00,075 --> 00:20:02,155
even if I don't quite have
his means,
408
00:20:02,315 --> 00:20:05,195
personally,
it's on a more modest scale.
409
00:20:07,355 --> 00:20:09,755
I feel I could go on forever,
but the trouble is
410
00:20:09,915 --> 00:20:12,995
many of my solicitor clients are
themselves retiring.
411
00:20:13,155 --> 00:20:15,715
And, you know, the worry is
we'll all end up with no clients.
412
00:20:15,875 --> 00:20:17,915
So, no clients, no cases.
413
00:20:18,075 --> 00:20:21,675
So, as I understand it,
we're going to meet three of the...
414
00:20:21,835 --> 00:20:24,555
So what would you do
when it comes time to retire?
415
00:20:24,715 --> 00:20:26,835
I won't be bored. I love travel.
416
00:20:26,995 --> 00:20:31,075
We're still riding, still enjoying
the English countryside.
417
00:20:31,235 --> 00:20:35,155
I did have a terrible fall
from a horse about two years ago,
418
00:20:35,315 --> 00:20:37,275
and so that was dicing with death.
419
00:20:37,435 --> 00:20:41,435
I had a brain haemorrhage,
and that was definitely un-funny.
420
00:20:44,435 --> 00:20:47,555
I can still play the piano a bit.
421
00:20:47,715 --> 00:20:49,195
I'm not as good as I used to be.
422
00:20:49,355 --> 00:20:50,915
A very nonchalant little theme,
423
00:20:51,075 --> 00:20:53,035
you know, butter wouldn't melt
in its mouth.
424
00:20:56,395 --> 00:20:58,155
Whether it's old age and arthritis,
425
00:20:58,315 --> 00:21:00,835
or whether it's falling off horses
too many times, I don't know,
426
00:21:00,995 --> 00:21:04,595
but, I mean, I don't feel I've got
quite the dexterity in my fingers.
427
00:21:06,835 --> 00:21:09,635
Certainly, I can never tell
the difference between you playing
428
00:21:09,795 --> 00:21:11,795
and the CD playing
when I'm out of the room.
429
00:21:11,955 --> 00:21:13,795
WOMAN: Is he good?
Yeah, very good, very good.
430
00:21:13,955 --> 00:21:16,315
Well, she's very diplomatic.
No, no, it's true.
431
00:21:16,475 --> 00:21:19,155
Are you ambitious?
Yes.
432
00:21:19,315 --> 00:21:20,955
What for?
433
00:21:21,115 --> 00:21:22,715
Fame...
434
00:21:22,875 --> 00:21:24,355
..and power.
435
00:21:26,155 --> 00:21:27,635
What sort of power?
436
00:21:27,795 --> 00:21:29,275
Political power.
437
00:21:29,435 --> 00:21:31,155
I'd quite like to go into politics
438
00:21:31,315 --> 00:21:33,795
but, I mean,
that's easier said than done.
439
00:21:33,955 --> 00:21:37,155
I don't know why I felt like that,
but I did.
440
00:21:37,315 --> 00:21:39,435
Maybe it's because
all the Bulgarian ancestors
441
00:21:39,595 --> 00:21:41,435
were all prime ministers
and things like that.
442
00:21:41,595 --> 00:21:45,035
But, I mean, the truth is, I've been
a big disappointment to myself
443
00:21:45,195 --> 00:21:46,955
because, um,
444
00:21:47,115 --> 00:21:50,995
I've decided not to throw my hat
into the ring for politics,
445
00:21:51,155 --> 00:21:53,595
and I don't have any regrets,
if the truth be told.
446
00:21:53,755 --> 00:21:57,355
How do you think England will change
over the next few years?
447
00:21:57,515 --> 00:21:59,195
Not very much.
448
00:21:59,355 --> 00:22:02,195
England is too English,
if you see what I mean.
449
00:22:02,355 --> 00:22:06,275
People who have things
going well for them,
450
00:22:06,435 --> 00:22:08,915
really ought to stay and, sort of,
help the country out when,
451
00:22:09,075 --> 00:22:11,195
you know,
things aren't going very well.
452
00:22:11,355 --> 00:22:13,515
I don't believe in all this
pulling one's money out.
453
00:22:14,515 --> 00:22:16,595
Where do you stand on Brexit?
454
00:22:16,755 --> 00:22:18,875
I don't mind saying I voted Remain.
455
00:22:19,035 --> 00:22:23,635
I can't say I'm a fantastically
enthusiastic European,
456
00:22:23,795 --> 00:22:25,395
wearing my English hat,
457
00:22:25,555 --> 00:22:27,035
but on the other hand,
458
00:22:27,195 --> 00:22:29,275
I thought it was
a leap into the dark
459
00:22:29,435 --> 00:22:31,035
that we didn't need to take.
460
00:22:31,195 --> 00:22:33,395
(SPEAKS BULGARIAN)
461
00:22:33,555 --> 00:22:35,835
I blame quite a few politicians.
462
00:22:36,835 --> 00:22:38,995
I suppose I blame David Cameron
463
00:22:39,155 --> 00:22:42,995
because I think the decision
to hold a referendum was mistaken.
464
00:22:43,155 --> 00:22:45,995
It's much too complicated a question
465
00:22:46,155 --> 00:22:49,675
to submit to a simple
yes or no answer.
466
00:22:49,835 --> 00:22:51,315
(SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY)
467
00:22:51,475 --> 00:22:54,595
I think it's not a bad idea to pay
for schools
468
00:22:54,755 --> 00:22:59,155
because, if we didn't, schools would
be so nasty and crowded.
469
00:22:59,315 --> 00:23:01,275
JOHN AT 63: The world now is
very different
470
00:23:01,435 --> 00:23:03,595
from what it was when we were seven.
471
00:23:03,755 --> 00:23:09,395
I think there were inequalities
in British society at that stage,
472
00:23:09,555 --> 00:23:11,715
which, I must say,
I don't see anymore.
473
00:23:11,875 --> 00:23:15,475
JOHN AT 21: Something I did
slightly object to in the program,
474
00:23:15,635 --> 00:23:17,915
is that we were shown
at the age of seven outlining,
475
00:23:18,075 --> 00:23:19,715
sort of, the academic sort of career
476
00:23:19,875 --> 00:23:22,635
that most of us did,
in fact, pursue.
477
00:23:22,795 --> 00:23:25,315
You know, it was presented
as if it was just, you know,
478
00:23:25,475 --> 00:23:27,475
part of some
indestructible birth right
479
00:23:27,635 --> 00:23:30,115
that we went to all these places,
and I thought that was unfair.
480
00:23:30,275 --> 00:23:32,675
It didn't show us having to do
beastly jobs in the holidays.
481
00:23:32,835 --> 00:23:35,595
If you're talking
about people from my background,
482
00:23:35,755 --> 00:23:39,115
I think life is probably
more difficult for them
483
00:23:39,275 --> 00:23:40,835
because there's more competition.
484
00:23:40,995 --> 00:23:43,795
So many more people go
to university.
485
00:23:43,955 --> 00:23:48,115
No-one cares at all
what background people go to.
486
00:23:48,275 --> 00:23:50,795
People recruit to get
the best people for the job
487
00:23:50,955 --> 00:23:52,435
that they have to offer.
488
00:23:52,595 --> 00:23:55,915
Shaun McAnessy got
three minuses in a day.
489
00:23:56,915 --> 00:23:58,395
He's a pest.
490
00:23:58,555 --> 00:24:00,515
JOHN AT 35: It has to be said
that I bitterly regret
491
00:24:00,675 --> 00:24:03,395
that the headmaster of the school
where I was when I was seven
492
00:24:03,555 --> 00:24:07,635
pushed me forward for this series
because, every seven years,
493
00:24:07,795 --> 00:24:11,155
a little pill of poison is
injected into...
494
00:24:11,315 --> 00:24:14,595
WOMAN: I know.
Well, that's...
Well, it's the truth.
495
00:24:14,755 --> 00:24:17,075
I'm much more down-to-earth
as a person
496
00:24:17,235 --> 00:24:19,315
than I might've ended up
when I was seven.
497
00:24:19,475 --> 00:24:22,195
And that was probably because,
you know,
498
00:24:22,355 --> 00:24:26,355
I did a year and more in the army
before going up to Oxford.
499
00:24:26,515 --> 00:24:29,155
And, you know,
there were various things
500
00:24:29,315 --> 00:24:30,835
that introduced me
to the real world,
501
00:24:30,995 --> 00:24:34,115
whereas I could've been stuck
in an ivory tower.
502
00:24:34,275 --> 00:24:36,995
What viewers were never told is
503
00:24:37,155 --> 00:24:40,075
that my father died
when I was age nine,
504
00:24:40,235 --> 00:24:41,875
leaving my mother
505
00:24:42,035 --> 00:24:44,835
in very uncomfortable
financial circumstances.
506
00:24:44,995 --> 00:24:49,675
She had to go out to work
to see us through school,
507
00:24:49,835 --> 00:24:52,315
and that I got a scholarship
to Oxford.
508
00:24:54,795 --> 00:24:57,675
You know, I don't regard myself
as particularly typical
509
00:24:57,835 --> 00:25:01,555
of the type that I was,
no doubt, selected to represent.
510
00:25:01,715 --> 00:25:05,115
I mean, apart from anything else,
I'm three-quarters foreign,
511
00:25:05,275 --> 00:25:06,955
which is an odd beginning
512
00:25:07,115 --> 00:25:10,315
for what one of the papers described
after 21 as
513
00:25:10,475 --> 00:25:12,755
"the archetypal Tory squire."
514
00:25:14,555 --> 00:25:16,955
What's the most important thing
in your life?
515
00:25:17,115 --> 00:25:20,875
My wife, my family
and friends, my homes.
516
00:25:21,035 --> 00:25:23,395
If I'm allowed a fourth,
I'd say my animals. (LAUGHS)
517
00:25:23,555 --> 00:25:26,595
How do you think you've changed
since you were seven?
518
00:25:26,755 --> 00:25:29,755
Well, I mean, one grows so slowly
that one never notices.
519
00:25:29,915 --> 00:25:34,395
Any regrets about decisions
you've made in your life?
520
00:25:34,555 --> 00:25:36,435
JOHN AT 63: No, I can't say that.
521
00:25:36,595 --> 00:25:38,075
But it's not really my character.
522
00:25:38,235 --> 00:25:40,355
I always try and make
the best of everything,
523
00:25:40,515 --> 00:25:42,955
even if it's not
the best situation you're in.
524
00:25:43,115 --> 00:25:46,155
(PEOPLE SING)
525
00:25:54,480 --> 00:25:57,200
Tell me, do you have
any boyfriends, Suzy?
526
00:25:57,360 --> 00:26:02,400
Yes, but he lives up in Scotland.
527
00:26:02,560 --> 00:26:04,640
And I think he's 13.
528
00:26:05,840 --> 00:26:07,600
Have you got any boyfriends, Suzy?
529
00:26:11,720 --> 00:26:14,200
What is your attitude
towards marriage?
530
00:26:14,360 --> 00:26:16,760
Well, I don't know, I mean,
I haven't given it a lot of thought
531
00:26:16,920 --> 00:26:18,720
'cause I'm very, very cynical
about it.
532
00:26:20,160 --> 00:26:24,000
Obviously, any child going through
their parents splitting up age 14,
533
00:26:24,160 --> 00:26:27,320
you're at a very vulnerable age,
and it does cut you up.
534
00:26:27,480 --> 00:26:30,720
But there's no point them staying
together for me 'cause it was worse.
535
00:26:30,880 --> 00:26:34,000
I mean, the rows... And it's worse.
536
00:26:34,160 --> 00:26:37,240
When I last saw you at 21,
you were nervous,
537
00:26:37,400 --> 00:26:39,160
you were chain-smoking,
you were uptight,
538
00:26:39,320 --> 00:26:41,400
and now you seem happy.
539
00:26:41,560 --> 00:26:44,560
What's happened to you
over these last seven years?
540
00:26:44,720 --> 00:26:46,520
I suppose Rupert.
541
00:26:46,680 --> 00:26:48,480
I'll give you some credit.
542
00:26:50,080 --> 00:26:52,520
I'm now chain-smoking. (LAUGHS)
543
00:26:52,680 --> 00:26:55,840
I'm not very children-minded
at the moment,
544
00:26:56,000 --> 00:26:57,800
I don't know if I ever will be.
545
00:26:59,640 --> 00:27:03,360
What do you think about them?
Well, I don't like babies. (LAUGHS)
546
00:27:03,520 --> 00:27:06,320
What was the biggest shocks to you
547
00:27:06,480 --> 00:27:08,960
when you suddenly were confronted
with a small baby?
548
00:27:09,120 --> 00:27:10,600
Panic set in, I think,
549
00:27:10,760 --> 00:27:13,520
that I wasn't going
to be able to cope.
550
00:27:15,320 --> 00:27:16,800
We were lucky.
551
00:27:16,960 --> 00:27:20,760
We had a very good family unit
with them growing up.
552
00:27:20,920 --> 00:27:22,640
And that meant an awful lot to me
553
00:27:22,800 --> 00:27:24,280
that I was able to do that for them
554
00:27:24,440 --> 00:27:26,680
'cause I never had it for myself.
555
00:27:26,840 --> 00:27:29,880
What do you think
about making this program?
556
00:27:30,040 --> 00:27:33,320
I think it's just ridiculous.
I don't see any point doing it.
557
00:27:33,480 --> 00:27:36,760
There's a lot of baggage that gets
stirred up every seven years for me
558
00:27:36,920 --> 00:27:38,400
that I find quite...
559
00:27:38,560 --> 00:27:41,000
..that I find very hard
to deal with.
560
00:27:42,680 --> 00:27:44,360
(LAUGHS) I don't know what happened.
561
00:27:44,520 --> 00:27:47,600
I was quite adamant
I wasn't going to do it.
562
00:27:47,760 --> 00:27:49,280
And then...
563
00:27:51,200 --> 00:27:55,880
I don't know, I suppose I have this
ridiculous sense of loyalty to it,
564
00:27:56,040 --> 00:27:57,600
even though I hate it.
565
00:27:57,760 --> 00:27:59,000
Hello!
566
00:27:59,160 --> 00:28:06,850
Suzy decided not to take part
in 63 Up.
567
00:28:06,850 --> 00:28:09,330
BOY: When I grow up,
I want to be an astronaut,
568
00:28:09,490 --> 00:28:14,250
but if I can't be an astronaut,
I think I'll be a coach driver.
569
00:28:14,410 --> 00:28:16,250
This is probably linked up
with the fact now
570
00:28:16,410 --> 00:28:18,730
that I want to travel,
my thoughts haven't really changed.
571
00:28:18,890 --> 00:28:21,090
I definitely wouldn't like
to be a coach driver now.
572
00:28:21,250 --> 00:28:22,730
Watch this.
573
00:28:22,890 --> 00:28:26,010
Neil grew up in a Liverpool suburb
with his friend Peter,
574
00:28:26,170 --> 00:28:28,250
and had dreams of going to Oxford,
575
00:28:28,410 --> 00:28:30,570
but didn't get in.
576
00:28:30,730 --> 00:28:33,170
Instead, he went
to Aberdeen University,
577
00:28:33,330 --> 00:28:36,370
but dropped out after the first term.
578
00:28:36,530 --> 00:28:39,570
At 21, Neil was working
on a building site
579
00:28:39,730 --> 00:28:41,610
and living in a squat.
580
00:28:43,130 --> 00:28:45,930
I would like to be somebody
in a position of importance.
581
00:28:46,090 --> 00:28:47,850
I've always thought this.
582
00:28:48,010 --> 00:28:50,250
But I don't think
I'm the right sort of person
583
00:28:50,410 --> 00:28:52,330
to carry the responsibility
for whatever it is.
584
00:28:52,490 --> 00:28:54,210
I always thought,
"Well, I'd love to be..."
585
00:28:54,370 --> 00:28:55,850
(LAUGHS)
586
00:28:56,010 --> 00:29:00,250
.."possibly even love to be
in politics or something like this."
587
00:29:02,250 --> 00:29:05,450
At 28, we found Neil homeless,
588
00:29:05,610 --> 00:29:08,050
wandering around
the West Coast of Scotland.
589
00:29:08,210 --> 00:29:09,810
NEIL AT 28:
If the money runs out, well,
590
00:29:09,970 --> 00:29:11,970
then, for a few days
there's nowhere to go to.
591
00:29:12,130 --> 00:29:13,610
That's all you can do.
592
00:29:13,770 --> 00:29:17,130
I simply have to find
the warmest shed I can find.
593
00:29:17,290 --> 00:29:18,770
(SHEEP BLEAT)
594
00:29:18,930 --> 00:29:21,410
At 35, he was living
in a council estate
595
00:29:21,570 --> 00:29:23,770
on the most northerly part
of Britain -
596
00:29:23,930 --> 00:29:25,410
the Shetland Islands.
597
00:29:27,050 --> 00:29:30,610
And what would you like to be doing,
say, in seven years?
598
00:29:30,770 --> 00:29:33,050
I can think of all kinds of things
that I'd like to be doing.
599
00:29:33,210 --> 00:29:35,850
The real question is what am I...?
600
00:29:36,010 --> 00:29:37,930
What am I likely to be doing?
601
00:29:38,090 --> 00:29:40,010
What are you likely to be doing?
602
00:29:40,170 --> 00:29:42,530
(SCOFFS) That's a horrible question.
603
00:29:42,690 --> 00:29:46,130
Um, I tend to think
the most likely answer is
604
00:29:46,290 --> 00:29:49,690
that I'll be wandering homeless
round the streets of London.
605
00:29:53,970 --> 00:29:57,850
Can I just point out some
of the considerable disadvantages?
606
00:29:58,010 --> 00:30:00,170
Um, first of all,
they are geographically...
607
00:30:00,330 --> 00:30:03,050
At 42, Neil had moved to London,
608
00:30:03,210 --> 00:30:06,570
and was a Liberal Democrat
on Hackney Council.
609
00:30:06,730 --> 00:30:08,970
When I was in Shetland,
I felt very strongly
610
00:30:09,130 --> 00:30:11,130
that I should become involved
in politics,
611
00:30:11,290 --> 00:30:13,330
simply because I felt
I was not achieving anything
612
00:30:13,490 --> 00:30:15,650
in the ways I really wanted to.
613
00:30:15,810 --> 00:30:18,770
By 49, Neil had left London,
614
00:30:18,930 --> 00:30:21,530
moved to Cumbria
in the North West of England
615
00:30:21,690 --> 00:30:26,330
and was a Liberal Democrat member
of his local district council.
616
00:30:27,330 --> 00:30:30,050
MAN: Neil Hughes is
the Liberal Democrat candidate.
617
00:30:30,210 --> 00:30:33,330
I and the Liberal Democrats
want to see a just and fair society
618
00:30:33,490 --> 00:30:34,970
in which everyone...
619
00:30:35,130 --> 00:30:39,330
NEIL AT 56: In 2006, I was invited
to go to Australia to give a talk.
620
00:30:39,490 --> 00:30:42,410
And the chap
who introduced me said,
621
00:30:42,570 --> 00:30:46,850
"Neil is clearly such
a profoundly motivated politician
622
00:30:47,010 --> 00:30:48,930
"that we can all expect to see him
623
00:30:49,090 --> 00:30:50,930
"as Prime Minister
of the United Kingdom."
624
00:30:51,090 --> 00:30:53,010
Now, this wasn't a joke,
I assure you,
625
00:30:53,170 --> 00:30:54,810
he said this with absolute serious.
626
00:30:54,970 --> 00:30:56,810
Now, it was ludicrous,
627
00:30:56,970 --> 00:31:01,290
but this is how wildly skewed
the perceptions have become.
628
00:31:01,450 --> 00:31:04,450
I mean, do you think I really
would've been invited to Australia
629
00:31:04,610 --> 00:31:07,610
if they were aware
that I was someone
630
00:31:07,770 --> 00:31:09,970
who lives
on a few quid a week benefit
631
00:31:10,130 --> 00:31:13,330
and has as much chance of changing
the future of the United Kingdom
632
00:31:13,490 --> 00:31:17,410
as someone who's serving
a lifetime jail sentence?
633
00:31:18,770 --> 00:31:21,050
NEIL AT 63: I'm not, for an instant,
under the impression
634
00:31:21,210 --> 00:31:23,290
that politics was always
completely moral and so on.
635
00:31:23,450 --> 00:31:25,130
Obviously,
there've always been issues.
636
00:31:25,290 --> 00:31:28,290
But it's very sad
that so few people now feel
637
00:31:28,450 --> 00:31:30,610
that politics has
any answers for them.
638
00:31:30,770 --> 00:31:33,490
They don't see anything in any
of the political affiliations.
639
00:31:33,650 --> 00:31:36,450
Those who protest
outside abortion clinics,
640
00:31:36,610 --> 00:31:39,210
if they do so peacefully,
are actually protesting...
641
00:31:39,370 --> 00:31:41,690
As long as I can still remember
what I'm going to say
642
00:31:41,850 --> 00:31:45,010
when I stand up in council,
which isn't guaranteed,
643
00:31:45,170 --> 00:31:47,530
then I'll keep doing it for a bit.
644
00:31:47,690 --> 00:31:49,490
Um, so you're...
645
00:31:49,650 --> 00:31:52,170
Where do you stand on Brexit?
646
00:31:52,330 --> 00:31:54,970
It's quite
an unbelievable occurrence.
647
00:31:55,130 --> 00:31:58,570
It's as if you're asking everybody
in Britain to take poison
648
00:31:58,730 --> 00:32:01,330
and say this, they thought,
was for their good health.
649
00:32:01,490 --> 00:32:03,810
So, cheers.
650
00:32:03,970 --> 00:32:07,010
The vote wasn't a vote
to leave the European Union,
651
00:32:07,170 --> 00:32:09,890
it was a vote against all
politicians, or whatever parties,
652
00:32:10,050 --> 00:32:12,970
and against the deteriorating
society we live in.
653
00:32:13,130 --> 00:32:17,050
I don't think, erm, I was really
taught any sort of policy of living
654
00:32:17,210 --> 00:32:18,730
at all by my parents.
655
00:32:18,890 --> 00:32:20,450
This is probably
the biggest mistake -
656
00:32:20,610 --> 00:32:22,650
that I was just left
to fend for myself
657
00:32:22,810 --> 00:32:25,610
in a world which they seemed
clearly oblivious of.
658
00:32:25,770 --> 00:32:29,010
I mean, what's your feeling
towards your parents,
659
00:32:29,170 --> 00:32:31,770
both of whom, I know,
have passed away?
660
00:32:33,090 --> 00:32:35,250
It's not resentment.
661
00:32:35,410 --> 00:32:37,570
Er, they did their very best.
662
00:32:39,010 --> 00:32:40,490
I don't say this cruelly -
663
00:32:40,650 --> 00:32:42,450
the problem
was in their own personalities,
664
00:32:42,610 --> 00:32:44,730
which caused me unending difficulty.
665
00:32:44,890 --> 00:32:48,610
My father, very serious,
very secretive,
666
00:32:48,770 --> 00:32:52,690
he could be very harsh
in the punishments he gave out.
667
00:32:52,850 --> 00:32:54,770
My mother, completely different.
668
00:32:54,930 --> 00:32:56,690
Compl... Utterly superficial.
669
00:32:56,850 --> 00:32:58,730
A genuine lover of the arts
670
00:32:58,890 --> 00:33:02,370
but as much of a dilettante
as you could possibly imagine.
671
00:33:02,530 --> 00:33:04,610
So, she knew
a little about everything,
672
00:33:04,770 --> 00:33:06,250
but not a great deal about...
673
00:33:07,250 --> 00:33:08,770
..about very much.
674
00:33:08,930 --> 00:33:12,050
And did you ever have it out
with your father?
675
00:33:12,210 --> 00:33:14,210
Oh, many arguments, yeah.
676
00:33:15,450 --> 00:33:19,010
More often than not,
my father would just sit in silence.
677
00:33:19,170 --> 00:33:21,970
Erm, and my mother would talk,
but it was mostly to herself.
678
00:33:23,450 --> 00:33:27,010
When I get married,
I don't want to have any children,
679
00:33:27,170 --> 00:33:31,490
because they are always
doing naughty things
680
00:33:31,650 --> 00:33:34,130
and making the whole house untidy.
681
00:33:34,290 --> 00:33:36,770
Children inherit something
from their parents,
682
00:33:36,930 --> 00:33:40,930
and even if my wife
were the most, um, high-spirited
683
00:33:41,090 --> 00:33:43,810
and ordinary and normal of people,
684
00:33:43,970 --> 00:33:48,570
the child would still stand a very
fair chance of being not totally,
685
00:33:48,730 --> 00:33:51,010
uh, full of happiness
686
00:33:51,170 --> 00:33:55,210
because of what he or she will
have inherited from me.
687
00:33:56,530 --> 00:33:59,370
What's happened in your life
in the last seven years?
688
00:33:59,530 --> 00:34:06,770
Oh, that takes us back
to when I met my current wife,
689
00:34:06,930 --> 00:34:09,410
um, and, um,
690
00:34:09,570 --> 00:34:14,290
er, and for four or more years
of happy marriage.
691
00:34:14,450 --> 00:34:20,090
And then, uh, an unfortunate series
of occurrences, I suppose,
692
00:34:20,250 --> 00:34:22,650
which means we don't see each other
very often now.
693
00:34:22,810 --> 00:34:25,010
How did you two meet?
694
00:34:25,170 --> 00:34:27,130
Well, I was performing
in the village pantomime,
695
00:34:27,290 --> 00:34:30,090
and she came along and watched it.
696
00:34:30,250 --> 00:34:34,130
We courted in the same way that
any two 20-year-olds would court.
697
00:34:34,290 --> 00:34:38,010
We walked along the River Tees
at Stockton.
698
00:34:38,170 --> 00:34:40,370
There was a lovely restaurant
down there
699
00:34:40,530 --> 00:34:43,210
that, um, we used to eat in.
700
00:34:44,210 --> 00:34:46,170
We did a lot
of lovely things together.
701
00:34:46,330 --> 00:34:49,610
I don't for a minute
regret that partnership.
702
00:34:49,770 --> 00:34:53,250
I'm just sorry that, for reasons
I will never fully understand,
703
00:34:53,410 --> 00:34:55,650
it's...it's got to where it is.
704
00:34:56,650 --> 00:35:02,090
My tendency to get in low moods
was not helpful to her.
705
00:35:02,250 --> 00:35:03,770
I quite understand that,
706
00:35:03,930 --> 00:35:06,690
although she was well aware of that
when we got married.
707
00:35:06,850 --> 00:35:12,610
I made some very strenuous attempts
to reconcile us.
708
00:35:12,770 --> 00:35:14,450
We met a couple of times this year,
709
00:35:14,610 --> 00:35:16,970
and I was hoping
that things might improve,
710
00:35:17,130 --> 00:35:19,010
but they don't seem to have done.
711
00:35:19,170 --> 00:35:23,010
But as far as I'm concerned,
there's time for her to reconsider.
712
00:35:23,170 --> 00:35:25,690
Um... (TAKES DEEP BREATH)
713
00:35:25,850 --> 00:35:27,690
Whether that'll happen,
I don't know.
714
00:35:29,330 --> 00:35:30,810
Do you worry about your sanity?
715
00:35:30,970 --> 00:35:32,970
NEIL AT 28: Other people
sometimes worry about it.
716
00:35:33,130 --> 00:35:34,610
Like who?
717
00:35:34,770 --> 00:35:40,290
I sometimes can be found behaving
in...in an erratic fashion.
718
00:35:40,450 --> 00:35:43,850
Um, I sometimes get
very frustrated, very angry.
719
00:35:44,890 --> 00:35:47,770
Are you having any medical treatment
for your mood changes?
720
00:35:47,930 --> 00:35:49,890
NEIL AT 35:
No, I haven't for many years
721
00:35:50,050 --> 00:35:51,810
because I wouldn't like
to be dependent
722
00:35:51,970 --> 00:35:54,210
upon man-made substances
for the cure.
723
00:35:55,210 --> 00:35:57,490
Do you ever think you're going mad?
724
00:35:57,650 --> 00:35:59,570
Oh, I don't think it, I know it.
725
00:35:59,730 --> 00:36:01,450
Er, I, um...
726
00:36:02,570 --> 00:36:04,930
Well, of course, we...
727
00:36:05,090 --> 00:36:08,090
We're not allowed to use
the word 'mad' but, um...
728
00:36:08,250 --> 00:36:12,930
You know, I think most people are
mad here, really.
729
00:36:14,170 --> 00:36:16,890
NEIL AT 63: It's incredibly
difficult to talk about.
730
00:36:17,050 --> 00:36:19,370
Nobody wants to confess
that they suffer spells
731
00:36:19,530 --> 00:36:22,090
of mental ill health.
732
00:36:22,250 --> 00:36:26,170
Sometimes, if I'm feeling
particularly depressed
733
00:36:26,330 --> 00:36:28,490
and particularly...
734
00:36:28,650 --> 00:36:31,810
There are some situations in which
I do want somebody to speak to me,
735
00:36:31,970 --> 00:36:33,970
but there are many situations
in which, actually,
736
00:36:34,130 --> 00:36:36,770
I want to be left alone
until I'm feeling better.
737
00:36:36,930 --> 00:36:39,370
And I think that this is, perhaps,
the point my wife found it
738
00:36:39,530 --> 00:36:41,930
particularly hard to determine,
'cause I did say to her,
739
00:36:42,090 --> 00:36:44,610
"Say something to me
if you can see I'm depressed,
740
00:36:44,770 --> 00:36:47,850
"but don't keep on saying it,
just leave me alone after that."
741
00:36:48,010 --> 00:36:51,170
NEIL AT 7: In the winter,
if you lived in the country, well,
742
00:36:51,330 --> 00:36:52,810
it would just be all wet,
743
00:36:52,970 --> 00:36:55,210
and there wouldn't be anything
for miles around.
744
00:36:55,370 --> 00:36:59,290
And you get...and you get soaked
if you tried to go out,
745
00:36:59,450 --> 00:37:01,090
and there's no shelter anywhere.
746
00:37:02,290 --> 00:37:03,770
NEIL AT 28: I don't see any way out.
747
00:37:03,930 --> 00:37:05,810
I've thought of everything
I possibly could.
748
00:37:05,970 --> 00:37:08,490
It seemed to me for a long time
that getting a reliable job
749
00:37:08,650 --> 00:37:10,490
and a nice place to live
would be the solution.
750
00:37:10,650 --> 00:37:12,130
Well, I haven't succeeded.
751
00:37:12,290 --> 00:37:15,730
Um, I can't see
any immediate future at all.
752
00:37:18,090 --> 00:37:22,850
Neil still lives in Cumbria,
but he's bought a house in France.
753
00:37:23,010 --> 00:37:25,410
So how long have you had the house?
754
00:37:25,570 --> 00:37:27,490
Two and a half years.
755
00:37:27,650 --> 00:37:30,970
My wife found it
on a website for properties.
756
00:37:31,130 --> 00:37:34,130
She persuaded me that it was
the one that would suit me the best.
757
00:37:34,290 --> 00:37:38,130
(LAUGHS)
And how did this come about?
758
00:37:38,290 --> 00:37:40,530
After my mother died,
759
00:37:40,690 --> 00:37:44,770
there was a legacy divided
between my brother and I,
760
00:37:44,930 --> 00:37:49,050
and some of it was able
to be put towards this house.
761
00:37:50,490 --> 00:37:53,610
So, tell me
what this place means to you.
762
00:37:54,850 --> 00:37:59,050
It's just a lovely quiet place
in the country.
763
00:37:59,210 --> 00:38:03,450
I've lived much of my life
in rural places in the past.
764
00:38:04,450 --> 00:38:07,610
I think rural places have a lot
of shared values, wherever you go.
765
00:38:07,770 --> 00:38:10,290
People tend to look after
one another better,
766
00:38:10,450 --> 00:38:12,050
communication is easier,
767
00:38:12,210 --> 00:38:13,930
and you'll get good local food
768
00:38:14,090 --> 00:38:15,850
and country activities,
that sort of thing.
769
00:38:16,010 --> 00:38:18,930
But I do miss the towns
and the cities sometimes.
770
00:38:19,090 --> 00:38:21,050
Well, I miss London where I lived.
771
00:38:21,210 --> 00:38:23,330
I think if you're healthy
and have good friends,
772
00:38:23,490 --> 00:38:25,130
you can get on perfectly well.
773
00:38:25,290 --> 00:38:27,370
But everybody would like to be rich.
774
00:38:27,530 --> 00:38:29,490
NEIL AT 28: If the state didn't
give us any money,
775
00:38:29,650 --> 00:38:31,730
it would probably just mean crime.
776
00:38:31,890 --> 00:38:35,050
And I'm glad I don't have to steal
to keep myself alive.
777
00:38:38,210 --> 00:38:40,810
How do you manage for money
these days?
778
00:38:40,970 --> 00:38:43,010
NEIL AT 63: I'm lucky in that
779
00:38:43,170 --> 00:38:44,970
what I earn
from being a county councillor
780
00:38:45,130 --> 00:38:47,850
is sufficient
for my standard of living.
781
00:38:48,010 --> 00:38:49,690
MAN: Bonjour!
Bonjour.
782
00:38:49,850 --> 00:38:54,170
(SPEAKS FRENCH)
783
00:38:54,330 --> 00:38:56,290
So, since I've been doing that,
784
00:38:56,450 --> 00:38:58,930
I haven't needed to claim
any state benefits.
785
00:38:59,090 --> 00:39:01,610
And what a great relief it was
not to have to do that.
786
00:39:01,770 --> 00:39:04,770
(SPEAKS FRENCH)
787
00:39:05,890 --> 00:39:08,770
So are you frightened of getting old?
788
00:39:08,930 --> 00:39:11,210
I do have concerns.
789
00:39:11,370 --> 00:39:13,650
I've always relied
on my body very much.
790
00:39:13,810 --> 00:39:15,890
Whatever else has been going on,
791
00:39:16,050 --> 00:39:18,570
I've generally been
in excellent physical health.
792
00:39:18,730 --> 00:39:21,930
I never really seriously believed
when I was a teenager
793
00:39:22,090 --> 00:39:25,130
that I'd be a pensioner, 'cause
it just seemed so implausible.
794
00:39:25,290 --> 00:39:28,170
Despite the fact everybody
who gets the chance does grow old.
795
00:39:29,490 --> 00:39:31,930
I regret that,
having reached the age I'm at,
796
00:39:32,090 --> 00:39:35,690
I've had no success in the sphere
I really want to be successful in.
797
00:39:35,850 --> 00:39:39,610
Being a writer by instinct is
very much about interaction
798
00:39:39,770 --> 00:39:42,490
with the rest of society, which,
in my case, just hasn't happened.
799
00:39:42,650 --> 00:39:44,650
It simply hasn't happened.
800
00:39:44,810 --> 00:39:46,610
Yes, I'd say I believed in God.
801
00:39:46,770 --> 00:39:48,250
Are you religious?
802
00:39:49,530 --> 00:39:51,810
Well, I go to church
with my parents on Sundays.
803
00:39:51,970 --> 00:39:54,890
I don't know, even now,
whether I do believe in God or not.
804
00:39:55,050 --> 00:39:58,250
I've thought an awful lot about it,
actually, and I still don't know.
805
00:40:00,170 --> 00:40:01,770
And how's he been treating you?
806
00:40:01,930 --> 00:40:05,490
(LAUGHS) Well, I said
to somebody last week
807
00:40:05,650 --> 00:40:08,530
that I preferred the Old Testament
to the New Testament
808
00:40:08,690 --> 00:40:12,450
because in the Old Testament,
God is very unpredictable,
809
00:40:12,610 --> 00:40:18,250
um, and that's, I think,
how I've seen Him in my life.
810
00:40:18,410 --> 00:40:20,770
(BELLS RING)
811
00:40:20,930 --> 00:40:23,050
If you haven't already been told,
812
00:40:23,210 --> 00:40:27,250
the proposed pet show is,
unfortunately, cancelled due to...
813
00:40:27,410 --> 00:40:28,890
NEIL AT 56: I'm a lay minister.
814
00:40:29,050 --> 00:40:31,370
I'm licensed to carry out
quite a number of functions,
815
00:40:31,530 --> 00:40:34,970
which includes
leading services, preaching,
816
00:40:35,130 --> 00:40:36,610
taking part in the readings,
817
00:40:36,770 --> 00:40:38,610
helping to distribute
the communion and so on.
818
00:40:38,770 --> 00:40:41,690
In fact, I can do more or less
everything a priest can do.
819
00:40:41,850 --> 00:40:44,290
In the name of the Father,
and of the Son,
820
00:40:44,450 --> 00:40:46,370
and of the Holy Spirit, amen.
821
00:40:46,530 --> 00:40:48,090
Are you still doing that work?
822
00:40:48,250 --> 00:40:51,170
I've just recently been
re-licensed as a reader
823
00:40:51,330 --> 00:40:52,810
in the Church of England.
824
00:40:52,970 --> 00:40:56,530
The title 'reader' is really
that of lay preacher.
825
00:40:56,690 --> 00:40:58,930
(CHURCH BELLS RING)
826
00:40:59,090 --> 00:41:00,610
(CHOIR SINGS)
827
00:41:00,770 --> 00:41:04,730
I wake up every day, and I don't
know what's going to happen.
828
00:41:04,890 --> 00:41:07,290
I don't know where I will be
in a month's time,
829
00:41:07,450 --> 00:41:09,650
six months' time, a year's time.
830
00:41:09,810 --> 00:41:11,730
My Christian faith helps me.
831
00:41:11,890 --> 00:41:14,570
(CHOIR SINGS)
832
00:41:19,410 --> 00:41:21,650
It's made a great deal
of difference to my life.
833
00:41:21,810 --> 00:41:25,930
I would say I clearly have
experienced beneficial effects,
834
00:41:26,090 --> 00:41:30,330
but that's not
what religion is about.
835
00:41:30,490 --> 00:41:34,410
Everybody hopes they do get
beneficial results from it,
836
00:41:34,570 --> 00:41:37,450
but really it's more about
having the relationship with God,
837
00:41:37,610 --> 00:41:39,090
and, in Christianity,
838
00:41:39,250 --> 00:41:42,610
that's through Jesus Christ
and his teaching.
839
00:41:46,450 --> 00:41:49,650
Every time this program starts,
it says,
840
00:41:49,810 --> 00:41:55,770
"Give me a child until he is seven,
and I will give you the man."
Mm.
841
00:41:55,930 --> 00:41:57,930
Is that true or false?
You're probably in a...
842
00:41:58,090 --> 00:42:00,770
You and the audience are
probably in a better position
843
00:42:00,930 --> 00:42:04,290
on the evidence
that has been presented.
844
00:42:04,450 --> 00:42:07,370
We don't do much writing in school
because...
845
00:42:07,530 --> 00:42:10,490
..because we think it's horrible,
and it hurts.
846
00:42:10,650 --> 00:42:12,850
You get to know
different types of people,
847
00:42:13,010 --> 00:42:15,050
people with different,
sort of, brains, you know.
848
00:42:15,210 --> 00:42:18,650
From very, sort of, clever people
to, you know,
849
00:42:18,810 --> 00:42:20,970
people who haven't got
much sense at all, really.
850
00:42:21,130 --> 00:42:22,610
I wonder why I was like that.
851
00:42:22,770 --> 00:42:26,250
I wonder what it was inside me
that made me like that.
852
00:42:28,410 --> 00:42:31,650
And I can see, even at 14, that
I was beginning to get more subdued,
853
00:42:31,810 --> 00:42:34,450
and I was putting a lot more thought
into what I was saying,
854
00:42:34,610 --> 00:42:36,650
to a ridiculous degree.
855
00:42:36,810 --> 00:42:41,170
I mean, you were the classic example
of it not being true.
856
00:42:41,330 --> 00:42:44,890
At seven and 14,
everybody was in love with you.
857
00:42:45,970 --> 00:42:48,050
You were...
And now nobody speaks to me.
858
00:42:48,210 --> 00:42:50,130
Well, I'm sure they do but,
859
00:42:50,290 --> 00:42:54,250
you know, your own life went
into a kind of freefall, somewhat.
860
00:42:56,850 --> 00:42:58,970
NEIL AT 21: I don't know
what sort of stumbling blocks
861
00:42:59,130 --> 00:43:01,210
should be put in a child's way
862
00:43:01,370 --> 00:43:04,170
to get him used to living
in the outside world.
863
00:43:05,170 --> 00:43:07,010
'Cause I think
maybe this is something
864
00:43:07,170 --> 00:43:08,650
that was wrong in my upbringing -
865
00:43:08,810 --> 00:43:10,730
I didn't have enough obstacles
to get over
866
00:43:10,890 --> 00:43:13,010
to toughen myself up against.
867
00:43:13,170 --> 00:43:16,210
The change of you at 14...
Mm.
868
00:43:16,370 --> 00:43:19,210
..to the change of you at 21...
Yeah.
869
00:43:19,370 --> 00:43:22,090
..to on the building site
was staggering.
870
00:43:23,530 --> 00:43:26,850
How can you explain
that vast change in...?
871
00:43:27,010 --> 00:43:29,890
I thought differently.
I had different aspirations.
872
00:43:30,050 --> 00:43:33,690
I wasn't content
with a quiet, domesticised life.
873
00:43:33,850 --> 00:43:37,010
I had to go out and seek adventure.
874
00:43:37,170 --> 00:43:38,650
And it had its downside
875
00:43:38,810 --> 00:43:43,050
because I hadn't really been well
prepared for it in my childhood.
876
00:43:45,170 --> 00:43:48,610
What's the happiest time you've had?
877
00:43:48,770 --> 00:43:51,050
I'm just happy
when something goes right,
878
00:43:51,210 --> 00:43:53,850
and it can be something
very straightforward.
879
00:43:54,010 --> 00:43:56,530
If I can get something done for
someone through my council work,
880
00:43:56,690 --> 00:43:58,210
then I'm genuinely happy.
881
00:43:58,370 --> 00:44:00,050
And in my church work,
882
00:44:00,210 --> 00:44:04,730
if I think I'm genuinely
communicating something to people
about God,
883
00:44:04,890 --> 00:44:07,050
then that delights me inside.
884
00:44:07,210 --> 00:44:08,690
Peace be with you, Philip.
885
00:44:10,090 --> 00:44:13,570
Before I ever met my wife, I did
have a very serious relationship
886
00:44:13,730 --> 00:44:15,370
with an Australian girl,
887
00:44:15,530 --> 00:44:17,290
with who I can say, truly,
888
00:44:17,450 --> 00:44:20,810
the only person I was ever
really deeply in love with.
889
00:44:20,970 --> 00:44:24,290
And I think she was...she felt
similarly towards me.
890
00:44:24,450 --> 00:44:26,370
And she said to me eventually,
she said,
891
00:44:26,530 --> 00:44:28,370
"This is an impossible situation,
892
00:44:28,530 --> 00:44:30,450
"not because of what we feel
for each other,
893
00:44:30,610 --> 00:44:32,930
"but because we live so far apart."
894
00:44:33,090 --> 00:44:34,810
(PEOPLE SING HYMNS)
895
00:44:34,970 --> 00:44:37,850
The idea of true love,
which I do think exists,
896
00:44:38,010 --> 00:44:41,250
occurs so seldom, you know,
897
00:44:41,410 --> 00:44:44,250
if it occurs once in somebody's
life, they're extremely lucky.
898
00:44:44,410 --> 00:44:45,890
For it then to happen,
899
00:44:46,050 --> 00:44:49,810
and then the potential can't be
fulfilled is heartbreaking.
900
00:44:49,970 --> 00:44:52,250
(PEOPLE SING HYMNS)
901
00:44:58,490 --> 00:45:00,850
Wee!
902
00:45:03,090 --> 00:45:06,050
At the end of their very
special day in London,
903
00:45:06,210 --> 00:45:09,010
after their trip to the zoo,
and the party,
904
00:45:09,170 --> 00:45:12,130
we took our children
to an adventure playground,
905
00:45:12,290 --> 00:45:14,610
where they could do
just what they liked.
906
00:45:14,770 --> 00:45:18,450
Those from the children's home
set about building a house.
907
00:45:28,010 --> 00:45:29,810
(MURMUR OF CHILDREN PLAYING)
908
00:45:29,970 --> 00:45:33,010
There's Nicolas...
909
00:45:37,730 --> 00:45:40,130
..and Tony...
910
00:45:43,970 --> 00:45:46,050
..Andrew...
911
00:45:49,130 --> 00:45:51,610
..John...
912
00:45:54,530 --> 00:45:57,130
..and Bruce...
913
00:46:02,770 --> 00:46:05,130
..Jackie and her friends.
914
00:46:10,330 --> 00:46:15,730
Give me a child until he is seven,
and I will give you the man.
915
00:46:23,730 --> 00:46:27,970
This has been
a glimpse of Britain's future.
916
00:46:28,130 --> 00:46:31,130
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(c) SBS Australia 2019
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