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Yeah, baby.
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Yeah, yeah!
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Yeah. I got spirit.
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911, what is your emergency?
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There's people at the door,banging down the door.
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And there's adult men outside.I'm alone with my children.
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- Do you know these people?- They're my husband's family.
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So you're having a family dispute.
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No, I have an exclusion,an order of protection.
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The police just left a few minutes ago.
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They escorted my husband out,
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and he called family and friendsto come bang on my doors.
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And I'm alone with the children.
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This is very dangerous.
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7:02, they got him served.
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The minute he left, there's guyswith hammers around my house.
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I took my kids to the bathroom.
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It's the only room without windows.And I called 911.
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The whole neighborhood knows.
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There's a religious lawthat one Jew is never allowed
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to hand any other Jew to the,you know, authorities for anything.
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I am breaking a religious lawif I press charges.
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It wasn't my choice, this marriage.
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We met twice, 30 minutes.
Seven months later, we got married.
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He was 18 years old, I was 19.
We never spoke, never saw each other.
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He sat like this.
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And I sat there.
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And I didn't hear a word he said.
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After 30 minutes, it was over. Done.
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"When are we getting married?
Let's get a hall."
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That was it.
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I'm invisible.
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We need to cover our hairwhen we get married.
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I was 18 years old,and I had beautiful, black, thick hair.
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The next morning,I had to cut my hair off.
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My mom came over to do it with me,take all the hair off.
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For like almost a few months,I couldn't look in the mirror.
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As the years went by through my marriageand I was having more children
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and the abuse was escalating,
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his control became insane.
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Friday night sex was mandatory.
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Yeah.
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I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat,
couldn't walk, I couldn't leave my house.
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I was hospitalized
for depression and anxiety.
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I was trained motherhood only.
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And the human being behind it fell apart.
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- Hi, I'm Etty.
- Hi, Etty.
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I lived 12 years with a spouse
who beat me, who yelled at me,
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who embarrassed me, who really, like,
in every possible way broke me,
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and I never responded.
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I just had more babies.
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I have seven children.
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I was post-partum six years in a row.
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I never questioned.
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When you're married off at 18
and you start having babies right away,
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and you have five by the age of 27,
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and ten by the time you're 40 for sure,
where's the choice?
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Like...
I don't see choice there anywhere.
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I don't have any other choice.
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I'm jumping into something insane...
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and I'm terrified.
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The Hasidic communityhas a story about Footsteps.
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And that is that we come intothe community and we take people out.
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But we're not outto make people not religious.
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That's not our mission.
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Nobody leaves
unless they're willing to pay the price.
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And the price for freedom is really high.
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Community is your family.
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If you're sick, somebody will show up,take care of your kids.
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Food will be brought to you.
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You'd be driven to the hospitalif you can't do it.
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You're never alone.
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There's so much help,
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and there's a huge appealto always being helped.
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You lose all that when you leave.
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All the ladies, please go to the ladies.
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All the men, on the street, to the men.
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What made you decide to do it?
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- Didn't want to live the lie.
- All right.
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Didn't want to live the lie.
I was living a lie.
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I was pretending
to be something that I wasn't.
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I thought about it already for a year.
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I decided it's about
damn time, and... I did it.
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It's not appropriate
for you to stand here.
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You should be standing alone.
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I didn't feel likethe person I looked like.
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I looked in the mirror and I saw somethingthat-- this is not what I want to be.
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So I chose a different path.
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My friends that I grew up with
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are not responding to me
when I say, "good morning" to them.
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Many of my old friends.
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-And they recognize you?
-So...
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-Yeah, people I went to school with.
-Mm-hmm.
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They don't want any shichus with me,
any connection with me.
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A lot of people that clearly know me,
but just ignore me.
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It's a human failing. It's a human failing
of not tolerating, uh, the black sheep.
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But is it so unique? Is it oppressive?
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Humanity is oppressive.
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People have to fit in and shut up.
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Why? Because this is the nature of humans.
You belong to a group.
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There's groupthink.
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And if you're a little bit of an outsider,
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people are just gonna walk away from you.
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I get yelled at for asking questions.
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It's been bothering me.
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I have a lot of questions
that I asked a lot of people.
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-The existence of God or...
-Yeah.
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-That's what troubles you.
-Yeah. It's-- It's...
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I think--
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I feel that if I would have an answer
on a lot of the stuff that...
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A lot less anxiety.
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In the Hasidic way of looking at things
is we don't delve
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into the depth of philosophy,
"Does God exist?" and...
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The Hasidim are more about what you do
and doing it repetitively.
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This is the way Judaism always--
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-For me, it's never working.
-It doesn't work for you.
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Okay, it's not working.
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Well, it probably--
It's working for many thousands of years.
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People are entering a different world.
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Like the fly who enters the webof the spider.
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There are those who are already ensnared.
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We are here to heed the call of the...
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...spiritual leaders of our nation...
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...who have recognized and identified
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the dangers of the Internet.
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Something that threatensour continued existence as the...
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...people of God.
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I've seen with my own eyespeople giving children of 11 years old
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Blackberrys, and iPhones, and iPods!Are they out of their minds?
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Dear Jews, dear brothers, dear sisters...
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...what is happening to us?
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Who are we becoming?
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- The nation...
- ...of the Torah...
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...should deteriorate into a people
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of yentayachna.com.
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For years,we've been retreating and retreating.
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"We can't stop this, we can't stop this."Retreat and retreat and retreat.
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We can no longer retreat.
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Tonight,we draw the demarcation line in the sand,
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and from now on, we're going forward!
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I remember being there.
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I was about 13.
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It had an impact on me.
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It was like when I kind of knewwhat the Internet was
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but hadn't figured out its full potential.
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But I really wanted to check it outone more time.
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So I just-- I clicked on it.
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Google? What the hell is that?
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I couldn't Google how to Google,
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I didn't know how to Google
in the first place.
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So, yeah, that was tough.
The first breakthrough was that.
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So I would just go on websites,
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search for random stuff.
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When I found out that there's Wikipedia...
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When I found out
that there's something Wikipedia,
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I was the happiest person alive.
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I could search for anything,
and they have a whole article:
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how it works, how it's made,
who made it, when it was made.
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That was amazing.
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Wikipedia was a...
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a gift from God. I don't know.
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Wikipedia was a gift from God.
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Yeah.
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I'll-- I'll be completely honestright now.
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I don't know anything.
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I don't know the basics of math.
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Never went to college, high school, no.
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I was in Jewish schools since I was born,
since I went to school the first time.
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I have to learn a lot of new things...
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...starting with English,
which I think I kinda got.
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And I also have to know how people live,
actually, in the world.
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Like, how stuff works.
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The little stupid thingsthat I have to ask from strangers.
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I show them a picture of my IDand then ask how stuff works.
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Let's stay to the leftto State Route 110 south,
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Harbor Freeway.
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Stay to the left to State Route 110 South,Harbor Freeway.
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I'm over this song.
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This is way better.
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♪ Well, you can tellBy the way... ♪
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I don't know the lyrics
to any of these things.
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♪ No time to talk ♪
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♪ All right, it's okay ♪
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In half a mile, exit to I-10.
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♪ We can try to understand
The New York Times' effect on man ♪
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♪ Stayin' alive, stayin' alive ♪
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♪ Stayin' alive, stayin' aliveHa, ha, ha, ♪
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Stay to the rightto I-10 West, Santa Monica.
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You know what it is?
I feel less ex-Hasidic in L.A.
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I feel more like a regular person,
less ex-Hasidic.
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I think that's what it is.
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I feel like just a dude.
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Just a dude. I don't feel ex-Hasidic.
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You know, I'm doing what everyone
else in L.A. is trying to do.
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Try to get auditions
and, uh, get acting jobs.
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Trying to survive.
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So now I'm driving Uber
and, uh, doing, you know,
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driadlech, as we call 'em.
You know what driadlech are?
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It's a, you know...
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You know?
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It's not illegal. It's like, uh,
creative ways of making money.
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All right, what else? Oh, shoes, shoes.
I knew I forgot something.
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You know, life is expensive.
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So I live in an RV for free.
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I-- I don't speak publicly about--
about living here very much
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because... it affects my image.
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Not that I have an image,
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but if I had one, it would affect it,
you know?
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I've been in L.A. for three years,I've done nothing.
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I-- I love L.A.
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but, you know, when you get a partto be in a TV show in New York, you go.
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I mean, just, like,
I don't find the point in, like, taking--
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I'm going to New York.
I'm not going to fucking Mars.
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There's nothing I have here
that I can't get at Duane Reade.
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I've always been a performer.
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My first acting job,I found on Craigslist.
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I searched "Hasidic," I searched "Jewish."
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All right, so I think we're gonna start...
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The plan was to keep the payos
and the beard,
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and-- and corner the marketof Hasidic actors
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and then break out from there.
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It's a good picture. I love it.
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That was the whole plan.
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That was the whole hustle.That was the whole idea.
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Listen. Think about it.It's a ridiculous plan.
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It's a completely ridiculous--It shouldn't have worked.
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-Hi.
-Hello.
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-I'm Luzer. I'm one of the actors.
-Hello.
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-Hi.
-How are you?
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- Yeah, exactly.
- She says I need nothing.
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- I mean... very little.
- Very little.
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- You've got a baby face, man.
- Yeah.
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All right. Here we go.
And action on rehearsal.
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I think movieshad the biggest influence on me.
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When I was a young adult,I used to go to Blockbuster.
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You know, I would look around,
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make sure there's no minivans parked
in the parking lot, for example.
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And I would buy these DVDs and stuff them
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with the spare tire in the car
and come here.
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I parked my car here at night
and watched movies in the car.
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Until the cop came over to me one day
and asked me what I'm doing here.
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And I said, uh, "I'm watching a movie."
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"Why here?
Why don't you go home and watch a movie?"
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I said, "I can't watch it at home."
245
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He's like, "What are you watching?"
And I said, "It's a great movie.
246
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It's called Crossroads
with Britney Spears."
247
00:24:41,688 --> 00:24:46,067
You know, my excitement
for the secular world is based on movies.
248
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My understanding is based on movies.
249
00:24:48,820 --> 00:24:53,700
My-- My idea of fun in the secular world
is based on movies.
250
00:24:54,743 --> 00:24:57,621
But when you--
when you look at the outside world,
251
00:24:57,704 --> 00:24:59,122
your perception of it is wrong,
252
00:24:59,956 --> 00:25:03,043
and then you go out and you realize
that, actually, if I leave,
253
00:25:03,126 --> 00:25:04,878
I might have to work at McDonald's.
254
00:25:04,961 --> 00:25:07,339
'Cause you don't have any skills.
What are you gonna do?
255
00:25:08,673 --> 00:25:10,342
They have designed the society
256
00:25:11,176 --> 00:25:13,511
where you're unable to make it
in the outside world.
257
00:25:13,595 --> 00:25:16,556
They've designed the world
where if you leave it, your only way--
258
00:25:16,640 --> 00:25:20,393
the only way you can survive
is by being a criminal.
259
00:25:20,894 --> 00:25:22,562
Everybody who leaves, they say--
260
00:25:22,646 --> 00:25:26,525
Everybody who leaves eventually comes back
or they end up in jail or in rehab.
261
00:25:26,983 --> 00:25:29,527
But they never--
they never make it out there.
262
00:25:41,122 --> 00:25:43,250
Dear Jews,
263
00:25:45,627 --> 00:25:48,505
in critical times like this,
264
00:25:50,006 --> 00:25:56,972
go out and show that you carefor the future of your kids.
265
00:26:00,600 --> 00:26:05,063
Go out and vote for a candidatethat understands
266
00:26:05,146 --> 00:26:10,026
that our rights come from God
267
00:26:10,110 --> 00:26:12,487
and not from government.
268
00:26:15,115 --> 00:26:22,080
Please don't wasteyour precious vote by staying home.
269
00:27:15,800 --> 00:27:18,678
"A father will walk the streetswith a jacket."
270
00:27:20,180 --> 00:27:24,893
"A mother will demonstrate completeadherence to the guidelines of modesty."
271
00:27:27,437 --> 00:27:30,899
"Parents will never read
any secular-oriented books."
272
00:27:32,734 --> 00:27:35,653
"There may be no Internet access
in any area of the home."
273
00:27:37,822 --> 00:27:41,117
"Children will never enter
a secular library for any purpose."
274
00:27:43,328 --> 00:27:46,414
That's a lot of rules.So many, so many, so many rules.
275
00:27:48,124 --> 00:27:50,251
Everything is controlled by the rabbis.
276
00:27:52,712 --> 00:27:55,382
Well, I take baths in the morning,
you know that?
277
00:27:55,465 --> 00:27:56,925
I know, but only today.
278
00:27:58,176 --> 00:28:00,678
So my son who's in second grade
279
00:28:01,763 --> 00:28:03,181
finished this reader,
280
00:28:03,264 --> 00:28:06,810
and it's a chasidish reader, means
all the chasidish schools are using it.
281
00:28:07,394 --> 00:28:09,312
Check out all the girls.
282
00:28:09,896 --> 00:28:11,606
They went through with Magic Marker.
283
00:28:13,483 --> 00:28:16,986
Female, scribble, female, scribble.
Male, male.
284
00:28:17,570 --> 00:28:19,781
I'm surprised they're not putting on
a yarmulke on those.
285
00:28:21,241 --> 00:28:24,285
How did my son circle this answer?
"Sally trips."
286
00:28:24,369 --> 00:28:25,870
How did he know which was which?
287
00:28:31,543 --> 00:28:35,547
Reading and the education
is so deprived of the community.
288
00:28:37,465 --> 00:28:39,426
That's how they keep their control.
289
00:29:03,742 --> 00:29:04,951
You're nasty.
290
00:29:09,164 --> 00:29:10,540
Something is driving you.
291
00:29:14,002 --> 00:29:16,463
- You have something against...- ...God and Judaism.
292
00:29:22,969 --> 00:29:25,138
The way I see it, you're shooting a gun
293
00:29:25,221 --> 00:29:27,766
and shooting yourselfand the kids as well.
294
00:29:31,728 --> 00:29:34,564
I'm asking youto stop harassing me now.
295
00:29:39,152 --> 00:29:40,236
No problem.
296
00:29:41,321 --> 00:29:43,448
No problem. Do whatever you want.
297
00:30:16,981 --> 00:30:21,152
I broke the rulesbecause I wanted a divorce, essentially.
298
00:30:23,780 --> 00:30:27,325
The community makes the decisionthat this man is a man in need.
299
00:30:28,952 --> 00:30:35,625
They hired hotshot lawyers that were knownas winning cases in similar situations,
300
00:30:36,417 --> 00:30:38,378
specifically for Hasidic men.
301
00:30:42,340 --> 00:30:45,844
I don't have the proper lawyersto fight this because I have no money.
302
00:30:47,345 --> 00:30:50,306
They're just waiting for me to fall apartand walk away.
303
00:32:17,143 --> 00:32:19,103
None of this seems surprising to me.
304
00:32:22,315 --> 00:32:25,151
The Hasidic communityhas figured out a way
305
00:32:26,402 --> 00:32:30,531
to look at the secular lawsand to find ways to make it work for them.
306
00:32:33,493 --> 00:32:37,246
There's something in custody casescalled status quo.
307
00:32:38,998 --> 00:32:40,917
And what that means
is they want the children
308
00:32:41,000 --> 00:32:42,543
to have a consistent lifestyle.
309
00:32:42,627 --> 00:32:45,922
So whatever the kids had before
should continue after the divorce.
310
00:32:49,550 --> 00:32:51,886
The Hasidic community is so insular,
311
00:32:51,970 --> 00:32:55,390
that anything outside of it
becomes outside of status quo.
312
00:32:58,017 --> 00:33:01,312
The food you eat,
the way you tie your shoes...
313
00:33:01,396 --> 00:33:04,524
Everything becomes status quo.
It's the way the community works.
314
00:33:04,607 --> 00:33:05,692
And so...
315
00:33:08,111 --> 00:33:11,030
this status quo argumentis what Etty's up against.
316
00:33:25,128 --> 00:33:26,546
Who was there?
317
00:33:27,588 --> 00:33:28,965
- My mom.- Oh, my God.
318
00:33:29,048 --> 00:33:31,300
Two of my sisters, my brother-in-law...
319
00:33:32,176 --> 00:33:33,386
- Mm-hmm.- ...my uncle.
320
00:33:35,930 --> 00:33:37,932
And here they are testifying against me.
321
00:33:38,933 --> 00:33:40,018
Oh, my God.
322
00:33:41,102 --> 00:33:42,437
My upstairs neighbor,
323
00:33:42,520 --> 00:33:46,691
she did a whole petitionabout everything she knows about me,
324
00:33:47,567 --> 00:33:49,861
every single thing I ever told her.
325
00:33:49,944 --> 00:33:51,654
And we're close like sisters.
326
00:33:52,238 --> 00:33:53,281
Oh, my gosh.
327
00:33:54,490 --> 00:33:57,744
Like, I take my daughterto the public library,
328
00:33:57,827 --> 00:33:59,537
and she reads secular books.
329
00:34:01,164 --> 00:34:04,709
She was like, "Etty let her kidswatch a movie on this and this date."
330
00:34:06,002 --> 00:34:08,504
Oh, my gosh, Etty, that is a horror story.
331
00:34:10,339 --> 00:34:13,593
I looked her right in the eyeand I told her, "You betrayed me.
332
00:34:14,886 --> 00:34:16,596
And I cannot talk to you ever again."
333
00:34:47,168 --> 00:34:48,044
Yeah.
334
00:34:48,127 --> 00:34:50,421
- Do you speak Yiddish?
- Yeah.
335
00:34:50,505 --> 00:34:52,632
In this park,
is there free Wi-Fi?
336
00:34:53,049 --> 00:34:55,426
Not free, but I can
give you Wi-Fi from my phone.
337
00:34:55,510 --> 00:34:57,845
No, no, no. I'm just asking.
338
00:34:57,929 --> 00:35:00,431
I see a lot of kids around here.
339
00:35:00,515 --> 00:35:05,812
There's free Wi-Fi at this-- at--
at this corner of the park.
340
00:35:06,687 --> 00:35:09,732
Sometimes there's free Wi-Fi.
There's free Wi-Fi all over.
341
00:35:09,816 --> 00:35:11,025
All over.
342
00:35:11,109 --> 00:35:13,903
You can't really stop Hasidic boys
343
00:35:13,986 --> 00:35:15,822
from having free Wi-Fi in Brooklyn.
344
00:35:15,905 --> 00:35:18,741
It makes boys hang out around here.
345
00:35:18,825 --> 00:35:21,244
That's why they put up
the spotlights there, no?
346
00:35:21,327 --> 00:35:24,413
Does that really help?
The boys come here anyway.
347
00:35:25,331 --> 00:35:28,334
- You can't really stop 2015 progress.
- No.
348
00:35:29,293 --> 00:35:32,171
-You know that? All right.
-Yes, yes.
349
00:35:32,255 --> 00:35:33,756
Are you one of us?
350
00:35:35,466 --> 00:35:37,927
- Yes.
- Where did you go to Yeshiva?
351
00:35:38,010 --> 00:35:41,931
Queens. Satmar Boys School,
then Satmar Yeshiva.
352
00:35:42,014 --> 00:35:43,182
Ari Hershkowitz.
353
00:35:43,266 --> 00:35:46,060
How long have you looked like this?
354
00:35:47,520 --> 00:35:48,521
My hair?
355
00:35:52,525 --> 00:35:53,484
About a year.
356
00:35:56,863 --> 00:35:58,364
-How old are you?
-Eighteen.
357
00:36:00,324 --> 00:36:02,034
- You are 18 years old?
- Yeah.
358
00:36:07,081 --> 00:36:09,250
You could use this place to repent.
359
00:37:13,314 --> 00:37:17,526
Two weeks ago,I got into a dark place.
360
00:37:20,780 --> 00:37:23,616
I ended up taking too much cocaine.
361
00:37:25,451 --> 00:37:26,577
Ended up in the hospital.
362
00:37:29,372 --> 00:37:34,252
And, like, a week or two later,I overdosed on cocaine again.
363
00:37:39,090 --> 00:37:41,550
I asked my dad if he's angry with me,
364
00:37:42,802 --> 00:37:44,011
and he said something...
365
00:37:44,887 --> 00:37:46,347
really nice.
366
00:37:46,430 --> 00:37:48,599
He said that, in his words,
367
00:37:48,683 --> 00:37:51,227
"It's not you who did it,
it's the addiction inside you."
368
00:37:52,812 --> 00:37:55,064
He was-- He was very understanding.
369
00:39:15,853 --> 00:39:16,937
What have I done?
370
00:39:19,565 --> 00:39:20,858
Have I ever hurt the children?
371
00:39:23,110 --> 00:39:26,155
Have I attemptedto make the children not religious?
372
00:39:26,864 --> 00:39:27,865
Never.
373
00:39:35,664 --> 00:39:36,874
It's not about religion.
374
00:40:36,600 --> 00:40:37,977
They terrify me.
375
00:40:39,103 --> 00:40:42,064
They put on the stand
the guy who was following me
376
00:40:42,148 --> 00:40:43,232
for the past few months.
377
00:40:44,150 --> 00:40:45,401
What?
378
00:40:47,236 --> 00:40:49,405
They can see exactly what I'm doing.
379
00:40:51,115 --> 00:40:53,492
They know when I leave,
they know when I come back.
380
00:40:56,036 --> 00:40:58,664
Today, I left my house
with my bike in the morning.
381
00:40:59,290 --> 00:41:01,542
When I came back,
he's taking pictures of me.
382
00:41:04,003 --> 00:41:06,797
He hates the bike.
He told my kids he's gonna get me.
383
00:41:10,092 --> 00:41:12,678
I can't take this man anymore.
I can't take it anymore.
384
00:41:13,679 --> 00:41:16,515
This is not normal!
This kind of control is sickening!
385
00:41:16,599 --> 00:41:20,352
There's no reason why, in New York State,
this is legal to be controlled like this.
386
00:41:24,023 --> 00:41:25,441
Twelve years, I kept my mouth shut,
387
00:41:25,524 --> 00:41:27,693
and I'm not keeping my mouth shutanymore about this.
388
00:42:01,185 --> 00:42:02,561
I can't hide anymore.
389
00:42:05,856 --> 00:42:08,692
I can't go back into, you know, hiding.
390
00:42:10,194 --> 00:42:11,362
I can't do it anymore.
391
00:42:16,325 --> 00:42:18,410
I don't think it would have selfish
to leave the marriage
392
00:42:18,494 --> 00:42:20,329
if everything would have been fine
for my kids.
393
00:42:21,205 --> 00:42:22,081
Yeah.
394
00:42:27,127 --> 00:42:30,422
We don't talk about domestic violence.We don't talk about hitting kids.
395
00:42:30,506 --> 00:42:33,551
We don't talk about sexual abuse.It's not done.
396
00:42:37,846 --> 00:42:39,765
There's no law here. It's not like...
397
00:42:41,100 --> 00:42:45,104
this whole attitude law doesn't affect us.
My husband kept saying that all along.
398
00:42:45,187 --> 00:42:47,481
"No one's ever gonna remove me
from my home. It's my place.
399
00:42:47,565 --> 00:42:49,024
The law doesn't affect me."
400
00:42:49,108 --> 00:42:50,734
I kept telling him,
"You're hurting the kids.
401
00:42:50,818 --> 00:42:53,445
Police can get involved."
"They can't do anything to me."
402
00:42:53,571 --> 00:42:57,074
It's this kind of attitude.
Law doesn't come in here.
403
00:43:00,578 --> 00:43:02,955
This is exactly the opposite
of what you're allowed to do.
404
00:43:03,914 --> 00:43:09,628
To publicize our secrets,
our beautiful secrets.
405
00:43:09,712 --> 00:43:12,798
The beauty of Judaism
is just being private and quiet
406
00:43:12,881 --> 00:43:14,967
and keeping everything under cover.
407
00:43:17,177 --> 00:43:22,099
This can't go on. It can't be
that we're living in New York...
408
00:43:22,891 --> 00:43:26,645
I'm this kind of person that can't stand
for this kind of behavior
409
00:43:26,729 --> 00:43:28,397
and this kind of covering up.
410
00:43:29,398 --> 00:43:31,859
It's so wrong. It's so wrong.
411
00:43:32,818 --> 00:43:34,111
Wrong, wrong, wrong.
412
00:44:41,887 --> 00:44:45,182
"In the forestwhere I hid, I found a dog at night.
413
00:44:47,434 --> 00:44:50,604
Sick, hungry, and perhaps also crazy.
414
00:44:53,315 --> 00:44:56,693
I fell on his neck and cried like a child.
415
00:44:58,404 --> 00:45:01,073
It wouldn't be a surprise
if I were to say that at that moment,
416
00:45:01,156 --> 00:45:02,491
I was jealous of the animals.
417
00:45:04,368 --> 00:45:07,329
What I felt was more than jealousy.
It was shame.
418
00:45:08,038 --> 00:45:11,458
It was shame. I was ashamed for the dog
that I was not a dog, but a human."
419
00:45:11,542 --> 00:45:12,668
Stop.
420
00:45:13,377 --> 00:45:16,130
I was ashamed for the dog.
421
00:45:16,213 --> 00:45:18,090
Can you dig what he's saying here?
422
00:45:18,173 --> 00:45:20,968
Yeah.
I was ashamed to be a human.
423
00:45:21,051 --> 00:45:24,847
You have to take
your time and let it sink in for you.
424
00:45:28,058 --> 00:45:31,103
But I want you to take this piece.
I wanna give it to you.
425
00:45:31,186 --> 00:45:32,855
I would love to do it.
426
00:45:32,938 --> 00:45:35,190
I'm trying to figure out
how I can be bi-coastal.
427
00:45:36,567 --> 00:45:39,153
- It's difficult.
- It's hard.
428
00:45:42,406 --> 00:45:45,534
How old were you when you got married?
429
00:45:45,617 --> 00:45:46,702
Nineteen.
430
00:45:46,785 --> 00:45:51,915
How long were you married?
431
00:45:51,999 --> 00:45:53,041
Three years.
432
00:45:53,917 --> 00:45:54,751
Children?
433
00:45:56,628 --> 00:45:59,006
-How many? One, two?
-Two.
434
00:46:02,092 --> 00:46:03,427
Do you still see them?
435
00:46:04,344 --> 00:46:06,764
Not really. No, I, uh, walked away.
436
00:46:07,973 --> 00:46:09,349
You never see them?
437
00:46:10,726 --> 00:46:13,312
You know what?
Listen. Here's the thing, okay?
438
00:46:14,521 --> 00:46:17,065
I would've spent the last eight years
in courts.
439
00:46:17,149 --> 00:46:21,653
And, uh, defending myself
and defending my lifestyle.
440
00:46:21,737 --> 00:46:23,655
- I don't wanna do that.
- Let me ask a question.
441
00:46:23,739 --> 00:46:25,824
So when the character
talks about his kids...
442
00:46:25,908 --> 00:46:26,783
Yeah?
443
00:46:28,452 --> 00:46:32,998
Can you use your experience
with your own to-- to, uh...
444
00:46:33,081 --> 00:46:34,750
I do. I use it all the time.
445
00:46:36,251 --> 00:46:40,464
Um, I have plenty of shit to mine
from my own life.
446
00:46:40,923 --> 00:46:44,051
I have my childhood,
which was very abusive.
447
00:46:44,927 --> 00:46:46,720
You know, and, uh, very dark.
448
00:46:47,387 --> 00:46:52,518
And I have my, uh, my marriage
and my children, who I don't see.
449
00:46:53,852 --> 00:46:57,147
That's why I can't have
relationships. I don't want relationships.
450
00:46:57,898 --> 00:47:00,108
I don't want drama in my real life.
451
00:47:01,276 --> 00:47:03,153
In real life, I am perfectly well.
452
00:47:03,237 --> 00:47:06,698
In real life, I don't have any children.
In real life, I never lost anyone.
453
00:47:07,783 --> 00:47:08,992
Okay.
454
00:47:27,719 --> 00:47:29,972
What happenedwas that I was living a double life
455
00:47:30,055 --> 00:47:32,808
for a little over a yearwhile I was still married.
456
00:47:33,976 --> 00:47:36,019
And she decided to keep quiet about it.
457
00:47:38,105 --> 00:47:41,733
After a year,
she realized that I am not changing.
458
00:47:41,817 --> 00:47:43,527
That this is not a phase.
459
00:47:43,610 --> 00:47:45,946
That I'm-- I'm heading
in a different direction.
460
00:47:46,029 --> 00:47:47,531
So she went and told her dad.
461
00:47:48,949 --> 00:47:49,950
And that was it.
462
00:47:51,493 --> 00:47:54,746
Within a matter of days,
everything came crashing down.
463
00:47:57,958 --> 00:48:00,419
And you have to understand
that nobody knew anything.
464
00:48:01,420 --> 00:48:03,755
Nobody knew
that anything was wrong at all.
465
00:48:04,923 --> 00:48:07,467
And I called my mom and I said,
"Hey, Mom, can I talk to you?"
466
00:48:07,551 --> 00:48:10,178
She was like, "Yeah."
I was like, "Are you sitting down?"
467
00:48:11,388 --> 00:48:13,849
And she said,
"Yes, I'm in bed. I'm laying down."
468
00:48:14,224 --> 00:48:16,143
I said, uh, "I got divorced."
469
00:48:17,311 --> 00:48:20,564
She's like, "What? Why?"
470
00:48:21,648 --> 00:48:25,193
And I said, uh, "I wasn't happy,
and also, I'm not religious anymore."
471
00:48:28,405 --> 00:48:29,698
And...
472
00:48:29,781 --> 00:48:32,826
...she said, "Okay."
473
00:48:35,203 --> 00:48:37,998
She just didn't know how to handle it.
Then she just hung up.
474
00:48:38,582 --> 00:48:40,792
And then we didn't speak for seven years.
475
00:48:44,004 --> 00:48:44,838
That was it.
476
00:48:47,341 --> 00:48:48,467
Nope. Or my dad.
477
00:49:24,044 --> 00:49:25,003
God bless.
478
00:49:25,087 --> 00:49:27,881
I just wanted to tell you that today,
I have 100 days clean.
479
00:49:31,885 --> 00:49:34,388
By the way, it's my 19th birthday.
480
00:49:38,850 --> 00:49:41,269
All right. Good night. Love you, bro.
481
00:49:52,030 --> 00:49:53,740
I definitely learned a lot in here.
482
00:49:57,661 --> 00:49:58,787
Well, I have shorts now.
483
00:50:02,916 --> 00:50:07,421
Yeah, I just went shopping and...
I don't know.
484
00:50:08,338 --> 00:50:12,843
I remembered a Vine that I saw
that says cargo shorts are cool.
485
00:50:14,803 --> 00:50:17,055
So, yeah.
486
00:50:17,139 --> 00:50:18,724
I had an option of basketball shorts.
487
00:50:18,807 --> 00:50:21,727
Not really my style,
so I went with cargo shorts.
488
00:50:21,810 --> 00:50:23,103
They have a lot of pockets.
489
00:50:28,233 --> 00:50:32,362
As far as I know,my dad had to spend a lot for rehab.
490
00:50:35,073 --> 00:50:37,451
And I am very lucky, I know that.
491
00:50:43,623 --> 00:50:46,334
I just spoke to them maybe once or twice.
I think only once.
492
00:50:46,418 --> 00:50:48,545
Maybe twice,
for the whole time I was here.
493
00:50:50,297 --> 00:50:53,091
Like, they were nice,
but there's not much to talk about.
494
00:50:53,175 --> 00:50:56,219
Except my tiny sister. Two-year-old.
495
00:50:57,763 --> 00:51:00,223
She was figuring out how to talk, so...
496
00:51:00,932 --> 00:51:02,809
She was like... "Hello."
497
00:51:04,686 --> 00:51:05,896
"Good Shabbos."
498
00:51:13,779 --> 00:51:15,280
So she's still pure.
499
00:51:30,295 --> 00:51:33,590
Traumatic experienceshappened to me in the community
500
00:51:35,675 --> 00:51:37,219
that shouldn't happen to anyone.
501
00:51:41,056 --> 00:51:44,643
It's one of the thingsthat I only told my therapist.
502
00:51:49,314 --> 00:51:52,734
There's this organizationcalled Jewish Community Watch.
503
00:51:53,693 --> 00:51:56,404
They have a wall of shameon their website.
504
00:51:57,989 --> 00:52:00,742
And I went with my therapist
on that website.
505
00:52:00,826 --> 00:52:03,912
We checked out the wall of shame
to see if I could recognize someone.
506
00:52:04,704 --> 00:52:09,626
And one of the pictures I saw there
was my principal in summer camp
507
00:52:09,709 --> 00:52:11,127
when I was...
508
00:52:14,172 --> 00:52:15,799
eight years old-ish.
509
00:52:16,925 --> 00:52:18,260
He was my principal at summer camp
510
00:52:18,343 --> 00:52:21,555
and he's on that wall of shame
with a whole thing.
511
00:52:26,268 --> 00:52:27,894
And everybody saw this.
512
00:52:28,854 --> 00:52:30,230
They were peeking in the windows,
513
00:52:32,065 --> 00:52:35,026
all the kids togetherstanding outside of the building.
514
00:52:35,944 --> 00:52:39,531
I ran out of the building, he chased me,
all the kids watched this.
515
00:52:41,992 --> 00:52:45,537
And I was raped and beaten up.
516
00:52:48,665 --> 00:52:51,543
But, basically, the summer camp told me,
517
00:52:52,210 --> 00:52:55,839
"Nah, you're just thinking--
no, it was probably something else.
518
00:52:57,757 --> 00:52:59,926
He slipped and fell on top of you,
I guess."
519
00:53:05,724 --> 00:53:07,851
Those people are still working
at that summer camp.
520
00:53:10,937 --> 00:53:13,398
Never convicted,
never charged with anything,
521
00:53:13,481 --> 00:53:15,817
never went to prison,
probably still doing it.
522
00:53:16,902 --> 00:53:17,819
Yeah.
523
00:53:21,114 --> 00:53:24,326
Or some people say,
"You were a wild kid, you deserved it."
524
00:53:24,409 --> 00:53:25,702
That happened sometimes.
525
00:53:27,746 --> 00:53:29,915
So for a long time,
I thought I deserved it.
526
00:53:50,310 --> 00:53:53,438
- ♪ How old are you now? ♪
- Are you 24?
527
00:53:53,521 --> 00:53:55,190
My goodness.
Will you let me open my eyes?
528
00:53:55,273 --> 00:53:56,149
Okay, open!
529
00:53:56,232 --> 00:53:57,859
♪ How old are you now? ♪
530
00:53:57,943 --> 00:54:02,656
-Wow! This is so gorgeous.
-♪ How old are you now? ♪
531
00:54:02,739 --> 00:54:06,117
♪ How old are you now? ♪
532
00:54:06,201 --> 00:54:12,123
Are you 24? Are you 25?
Are you 26? Are you 27?
533
00:54:12,207 --> 00:54:16,461
-Are you 28? Are you 29?
-Keep going.
534
00:54:16,544 --> 00:54:21,007
Are you 30? Are you 31? Are you 32?
535
00:54:23,218 --> 00:54:24,928
-Can I make a wish?
-Yes.
536
00:54:25,011 --> 00:54:26,304
One, two, three.
537
00:54:29,224 --> 00:54:30,558
Thanks very much.
538
00:54:30,642 --> 00:54:33,186
Happy birthday. Thank you so much.
539
00:54:35,689 --> 00:54:37,107
Thank you so much.
540
00:54:37,190 --> 00:54:39,359
This is the best birthday party
in the whole world.
541
00:54:41,069 --> 00:54:43,780
- Mama, take this. Take the chocolate.
- Okay.
542
00:54:43,863 --> 00:54:46,032
Mama's gonna take it in a minute.
I'm getting plates.
543
00:54:46,116 --> 00:54:47,909
Don't put your fingers in. You gotta wait.
544
00:54:47,993 --> 00:54:50,036
Stop. No touching fingers.
545
00:54:50,120 --> 00:54:52,455
Can look from here.
546
00:54:55,667 --> 00:54:57,919
Thank you so, so much for the present.
547
00:55:28,867 --> 00:55:31,619
How many people hereare looking for a job?
548
00:55:34,873 --> 00:55:37,333
We are all here looking for a what?
549
00:55:37,417 --> 00:55:39,419
A J to the O to the B, right?
550
00:55:39,502 --> 00:55:40,837
Yes, sir.
551
00:55:40,920 --> 00:55:42,672
We all need a job. That's the similarity.
552
00:55:43,423 --> 00:55:46,009
Man, how can we help each other get there?
553
00:55:47,218 --> 00:55:50,513
Sometimes, it's your own family.
554
00:55:51,473 --> 00:55:53,391
I'm not asking you
to stop talking to your family
555
00:55:53,475 --> 00:55:55,560
or stop being around people that you love,
556
00:55:55,643 --> 00:55:58,980
but one of the things in this process
is you have to start circling yourself
557
00:55:59,064 --> 00:56:00,774
with people who are positive,
558
00:56:00,857 --> 00:56:02,650
who are doing something
a little bit different
559
00:56:02,734 --> 00:56:04,319
than what you used to do.
560
00:56:17,957 --> 00:56:20,752
I used to walk on the streetsof Manhattan and feel like...
561
00:56:21,669 --> 00:56:22,796
I don't belong here.
562
00:56:24,214 --> 00:56:28,885
I really want to be part of a bigger world
and be able to, like, go to school,
563
00:56:28,968 --> 00:56:30,720
be able to get a job in the secular world,
564
00:56:30,804 --> 00:56:32,597
be able to have the choices
I want to make.
565
00:56:35,809 --> 00:56:37,769
I want my children to have every chance
566
00:56:37,852 --> 00:56:42,023
that anyone else haswho grew up in a stable environment.
567
00:56:43,483 --> 00:56:45,193
Feeling love.
568
00:56:51,407 --> 00:56:52,784
Mommy!
569
00:56:52,867 --> 00:56:54,119
Ma, let's go.
570
00:57:02,544 --> 00:57:06,005
Why do kids need this much stuff? Lord.
571
00:57:21,980 --> 00:57:24,149
Do you know who called me yesterday?
572
00:57:25,483 --> 00:57:26,568
No, I don't know.
573
00:57:28,153 --> 00:57:29,571
Your husband.
574
00:57:31,531 --> 00:57:34,451
He spoke to me,and he's ready to sit down.
575
00:57:35,326 --> 00:57:38,288
He has no interest to fight in court.
576
00:57:38,371 --> 00:57:40,165
He wants to settle.
577
00:57:40,248 --> 00:57:43,751
But this man is an abuser.I will not sit down with him.
578
00:57:45,503 --> 00:57:47,338
Let's get to the point.
579
00:57:48,756 --> 00:57:52,343
The court is gonna bea benefit more for him than for you.
580
00:57:52,427 --> 00:57:55,096
The courts do everything
581
00:57:55,180 --> 00:57:57,307
in favorof the religious parent community.
582
00:58:00,143 --> 00:58:01,769
I want you to understand something.
583
00:58:02,479 --> 00:58:05,815
The community will never,never, never... ...give in.
584
00:58:07,192 --> 00:58:11,321
They don't want allseven children to be modern.
585
00:58:13,323 --> 00:58:16,784
The rabbis told themto fight this until the very end.
586
00:58:18,703 --> 00:58:21,206
There's nothing you can do.
587
00:59:02,497 --> 00:59:03,831
What's the matter?
588
00:59:05,250 --> 00:59:06,834
Can you come to my house?
589
00:59:10,713 --> 00:59:13,466
Is somebody therethat's not supposed to be there?
590
00:59:13,550 --> 00:59:18,596
No, I was outside on my bikeand a car knocked me down,
591
00:59:18,680 --> 00:59:20,515
and I don't know what happened.
592
00:59:23,393 --> 00:59:25,687
Somebody knocked you down?
593
00:59:27,397 --> 00:59:29,023
This wasn't an accident.
594
00:59:30,149 --> 00:59:32,735
He told my son twice this week
595
00:59:32,819 --> 00:59:35,405
that he's gonna get meand knock me down on my bike.
596
00:59:36,364 --> 00:59:39,158
He said he's gonna do this to me,and he did it.
597
00:59:40,743 --> 00:59:43,871
They're just gonna kill meto get rid of me, and that's it.
598
01:00:21,576 --> 01:00:23,036
Etty, what are you thinking?
599
01:00:29,375 --> 01:00:31,085
What are you doing
to take care of yourself?
600
01:00:35,131 --> 01:00:36,424
Try to live a normal life.
601
01:00:44,223 --> 01:00:46,893
What you're going through
is extremely difficult,
602
01:00:46,976 --> 01:00:49,479
and really hard and unfair.
603
01:00:50,438 --> 01:00:53,524
-It's not me, it's my children.
-It is you too.
604
01:00:53,608 --> 01:00:55,610
It's not me.
I'm an adult, I can deal with it.
605
01:00:55,693 --> 01:00:57,779
It's my kids who have no idea
how to deal with it.
606
01:00:57,862 --> 01:00:59,197
And I have to hear that.
607
01:01:02,575 --> 01:01:03,743
Every day is hell.
608
01:01:05,662 --> 01:01:06,954
Why am I going to court?
609
01:01:08,915 --> 01:01:13,002
Because if you don't show up
in court, then you lose the case.
610
01:01:13,086 --> 01:01:16,339
And not only do you lose the case here,
you lose the case in appeal.
611
01:01:17,131 --> 01:01:18,675
This is why you're going to court.
612
01:01:19,717 --> 01:01:20,677
It's a sham.
613
01:01:21,302 --> 01:01:24,263
I hate to tell you this,
I'm working on a case right now
614
01:01:24,347 --> 01:01:26,224
where it's a very similar situation.
615
01:01:26,307 --> 01:01:27,809
Her kids were taken away from her
616
01:01:27,892 --> 01:01:30,186
and she got so fed up,
she stopped showing up to court.
617
01:01:30,269 --> 01:01:32,814
Do you know that no one
can appeal her case?
618
01:01:49,664 --> 01:01:52,375
The community truly believes
619
01:01:52,458 --> 01:01:54,544
that they are saving the soulsof these kids.
620
01:01:57,004 --> 01:01:58,297
That's the way it is.
621
01:02:02,135 --> 01:02:09,100
The Hasidic community that exists today
is an answer to after World War II.
622
01:02:09,183 --> 01:02:15,523
And so it's an entire community
built on survivors,
623
01:02:16,149 --> 01:02:17,525
with trauma,
624
01:02:17,608 --> 01:02:18,985
and they bring that in.
625
01:02:20,862 --> 01:02:24,031
So now these kids now belongto whom, to the parents?
626
01:02:24,782 --> 01:02:26,409
Or to the six million that died?
627
01:02:28,661 --> 01:02:30,663
The children are the community's property
628
01:02:31,748 --> 01:02:35,793
These souls were brought into the worldto rectify something,
629
01:02:37,837 --> 01:02:39,756
and that is their driving force.
630
01:03:00,902 --> 01:03:02,361
She's kind of cute, actually.
631
01:03:07,909 --> 01:03:10,787
See that open door over there?
That's where I used to live.
632
01:03:10,870 --> 01:03:13,331
It's my first apartment
after I got married.
633
01:03:14,373 --> 01:03:16,876
My ex-wife moved when we--
when we-- after the divorce.
634
01:03:16,959 --> 01:03:19,796
She moved right around the corner.
I wonder if she still lives there.
635
01:03:26,844 --> 01:03:29,013
That's my brother-in-law right there,
with the hat.
636
01:03:30,431 --> 01:03:32,767
He can't see me. He hates me.
637
01:03:34,644 --> 01:03:36,020
He's very, very religious.
638
01:03:42,693 --> 01:03:45,321
Oh, my God, that's my friend.
He runs a check-cashing business here.
639
01:03:45,404 --> 01:03:46,322
Wait a second.
640
01:03:49,450 --> 01:03:53,746
What are you doing here?
Coming back for a visit?
641
01:03:53,830 --> 01:03:55,623
Yeah, I live in Los Angeles.
642
01:03:57,542 --> 01:03:59,085
You have a life?
643
01:03:59,669 --> 01:04:01,379
Yeah, surprisingly enough, I do.
644
01:04:02,839 --> 01:04:03,840
I'm a different person.
645
01:04:04,841 --> 01:04:06,884
Let's put it this way, I've mellowed.
646
01:04:09,428 --> 01:04:11,639
Listen, I try to be-- I'm not an asshole.
647
01:04:11,722 --> 01:04:13,975
Yeah, I understand. Not a problem.
648
01:04:14,058 --> 01:04:16,561
- You know, I've never been an asshole.
- You know, I...
649
01:04:17,228 --> 01:04:18,729
- I don't know about that.
- Okay.
650
01:04:18,813 --> 01:04:20,523
But we're not going there.
651
01:04:20,606 --> 01:04:22,984
-Do you care if I'm happy or not?
-Yes.
652
01:04:23,651 --> 01:04:25,444
I told you then.
653
01:04:26,028 --> 01:04:28,322
That's why we can be friends.
654
01:04:29,740 --> 01:04:31,075
That's why we can be friends.
655
01:04:31,158 --> 01:04:34,662
I'm not gonna judge what world you're in.
656
01:04:35,371 --> 01:04:39,542
Whatever path you take
and what you decide,
657
01:04:40,918 --> 01:04:43,462
let Him deal with it.
658
01:05:24,629 --> 01:05:26,589
Mom's challah.
659
01:05:27,882 --> 01:05:28,758
Orgasmic.
660
01:05:29,216 --> 01:05:31,093
- Not there.
- We don't want...
661
01:05:31,177 --> 01:05:32,803
- All I want.
- This is something.
662
01:05:32,887 --> 01:05:34,680
- This is, you know, home.
- Yeah.
663
01:05:35,389 --> 01:05:36,265
It's home.
664
01:05:37,183 --> 01:05:40,061
- L'chaim.
- Cheers to that. Cheers.
665
01:05:40,144 --> 01:05:42,730
L'chaim. L'chaim.
666
01:05:44,649 --> 01:05:46,817
L'chaim.
667
01:05:58,704 --> 01:05:59,872
How about you get this?
668
01:06:30,152 --> 01:06:33,280
Okay, let's leave
everything out and just come into it.
669
01:06:33,364 --> 01:06:36,283
This is amazing. Join it.
670
01:06:36,367 --> 01:06:38,494
- This is the best thing ever.
- The best thing ever.
671
01:07:15,614 --> 01:07:19,827
I do miss it, this communal experience.
672
01:07:21,495 --> 01:07:23,039
I don't think I'll ever stop missing it.
673
01:07:25,374 --> 01:07:29,253
But the more of a seeker you are,the more of a questioner you are...
674
01:07:31,213 --> 01:07:32,715
the more likely you are to leave.
675
01:07:39,055 --> 01:07:41,474
So I recently asked my friendwho's still in the community...
676
01:07:43,559 --> 01:07:44,852
Like, I asked him, "So why..."
677
01:07:46,437 --> 01:07:48,898
You know,
"Why-- Why do you ostracize?
678
01:07:49,190 --> 01:07:51,025
Why does the community ostracize?"
679
01:07:52,318 --> 01:07:54,195
You know, and his argument was like,
680
01:07:54,278 --> 01:07:57,448
"This is how we are able
to maintain the community.
681
01:07:57,531 --> 01:07:59,200
This is the only thing that works,
you know?
682
01:07:59,283 --> 01:08:01,035
Before that, we had Germany.
683
01:08:01,118 --> 01:08:03,204
They weren't able
to hold the community together.
684
01:08:03,287 --> 01:08:04,914
The way that we designed it here,
685
01:08:04,997 --> 01:08:09,043
the stringency, and the rules
and all these things,
686
01:08:09,126 --> 01:08:11,754
that is why we're still here, you know?
687
01:08:11,837 --> 01:08:13,839
That was the only way we could do it.
688
01:08:13,923 --> 01:08:15,674
To rebuild after the Holocaust."
689
01:08:24,683 --> 01:08:28,187
So it's, uh... it's complicated.
690
01:09:03,347 --> 01:09:09,145
This is gonna take courage
for you to say, "God, I'm broken."
691
01:09:09,854 --> 01:09:11,272
"God, I'm a mess."
692
01:09:12,148 --> 01:09:14,316
"God, I need your forgiveness.
I need your redemption."
693
01:09:14,400 --> 01:09:16,527
If that's you,
I'll ask you to put your hand up.
694
01:09:16,610 --> 01:09:17,903
God sees your hand right now.
695
01:09:17,987 --> 01:09:20,364
God sees your hands
as they are in the air.
696
01:09:21,740 --> 01:09:24,160
Don't worry about what the people
next to you are thinking.
697
01:09:25,119 --> 01:09:29,498
Right now,
God wants to do this work in you.
698
01:09:38,716 --> 01:09:41,218
I've always wanted to try new things.
699
01:09:43,846 --> 01:09:46,307
I do want to learn a lot moreabout other religions...
700
01:09:49,393 --> 01:09:52,980
but now that I've tried it, then great,what-- what can I try next?
701
01:10:15,628 --> 01:10:17,129
Try just blue on this one.
702
01:10:17,213 --> 01:10:18,214
Okay.
703
01:10:19,423 --> 01:10:22,384
This is a disaster.
704
01:10:24,762 --> 01:10:26,764
- Love and hugs.
- Love and hugs.
705
01:10:28,599 --> 01:10:30,184
It's an awesome freedom.
706
01:10:32,519 --> 01:10:36,398
Everything that I'm not supposed to do,
I'm free to do it.
707
01:10:40,778 --> 01:10:45,532
It's just great to just hang out
with friends, eat a burger.
708
01:10:45,616 --> 01:10:46,700
Yes, with cheese.
709
01:10:51,121 --> 01:10:57,044
After tasting this life...
eh, no, delete the old one.
710
01:10:58,504 --> 01:11:02,049
Just out of my face, out of here. Yeah.
711
01:12:03,652 --> 01:12:04,820
Ari, how are you?
712
01:12:05,446 --> 01:12:06,822
God Bless.
713
01:12:07,865 --> 01:12:09,366
You got blonde in Florida?
714
01:12:10,159 --> 01:12:10,993
Yeah.
715
01:12:13,495 --> 01:12:15,706
Are you completely done
with the program?
716
01:12:15,789 --> 01:12:17,124
Yeah, all done.
717
01:12:17,207 --> 01:12:19,251
Yeah. Over seven months clean.
718
01:12:20,961 --> 01:12:23,797
- How about finding a job?
- I'm looking for that as well.
719
01:12:23,881 --> 01:12:28,344
I have a full sack of résumés
that I drop off in stores,
720
01:12:28,427 --> 01:12:30,179
places that I can work.
721
01:12:31,263 --> 01:12:32,723
For now, I'll take anything.
722
01:12:33,807 --> 01:12:37,394
Wow. Keep on.
Don't disappoint everybody.
723
01:12:54,078 --> 01:12:57,581
Judaism has wanted a lot from me.
724
01:12:59,875 --> 01:13:03,337
Being raised the way I am,
restricted from a lot of things,
725
01:13:03,420 --> 01:13:05,839
kind of screwed up my whole future life,
726
01:13:05,923 --> 01:13:07,633
because I was raised that way.
727
01:13:07,716 --> 01:13:11,720
And I had to learn all of that on my own
after I was 18 years old.
728
01:13:11,804 --> 01:13:13,972
I was kind of robbed of my life.
729
01:13:14,890 --> 01:13:19,603
The majority who live this life, uh,
um, are quite content.
730
01:13:20,479 --> 01:13:23,524
The implication of what you're saying
731
01:13:23,607 --> 01:13:27,569
is that we need to stop
this entire enterprise,
732
01:13:27,653 --> 01:13:29,738
this Hasidic whatever it is.
733
01:13:29,822 --> 01:13:32,241
This is extreme, let's put an end to it.
734
01:13:32,324 --> 01:13:34,451
-If someone knows--
-As I'm...
735
01:13:34,535 --> 01:13:38,831
And I'm telling you, you're not the first,
736
01:13:39,915 --> 01:13:41,708
and we are here to stay.
737
01:13:44,753 --> 01:13:47,881
Judaism claims that God can do anything.
738
01:13:47,965 --> 01:13:52,511
If God can do absolutely everything,
right, then there is no limit to God.
739
01:13:54,138 --> 01:13:59,351
You hear stories about kids being raped.
Why is God not stopping that?
740
01:14:02,896 --> 01:14:04,565
How is faith gonna help them?
741
01:14:07,443 --> 01:14:09,278
There's no way you can explain that.
742
01:14:10,154 --> 01:14:12,114
-Yeah, how could the Holocaust happen?
-Who--?
743
01:14:13,490 --> 01:14:17,077
Either... there is a God,
744
01:14:18,370 --> 01:14:21,123
and that thing is evil, very evil.
745
01:14:22,583 --> 01:14:26,503
Or there is no God, and that's why
things are the way they are.
746
01:14:36,138 --> 01:14:38,265
Sometimes you areat a loss for words.
747
01:14:41,810 --> 01:14:45,105
Abuse is such a horrible thing.
748
01:14:46,523 --> 01:14:50,736
I have friends
who have revealed to me things that, um...
749
01:14:52,029 --> 01:14:54,031
that is, uh, you know...
750
01:14:54,114 --> 01:14:56,992
You can't sleep at night
after you listen to them.
751
01:14:59,286 --> 01:15:05,250
There is a tremendous need
for more empathy for people like him.
752
01:15:06,376 --> 01:15:12,549
And the way our community is handling
people like him, handling the issue,
753
01:15:13,509 --> 01:15:15,677
there could be room
for a lot of improvement.
754
01:15:15,761 --> 01:15:17,638
There's no... there's no doubt about it.
755
01:15:21,016 --> 01:15:23,644
Is-- Is there somebody in this world
who could dismiss that?
756
01:15:24,645 --> 01:15:27,981
Imagine living in such a pain constantly.
Constantly.
757
01:15:29,274 --> 01:15:31,652
So I will pray to God.
758
01:15:32,319 --> 01:15:35,864
He should-- Let's reach out to him.
Come back, my little boy.
759
01:15:37,783 --> 01:15:39,993
He should feel an embrace of something.
760
01:15:41,745 --> 01:15:46,041
It's called aruch mi morem,
a-- a spirit from upstairs.
761
01:15:47,251 --> 01:15:48,210
I cry for him.
762
01:15:49,878 --> 01:15:51,213
For his parents.
763
01:15:51,296 --> 01:15:55,926
Because yo-glyden, mish-glyden,
he's in pain. He's in pain.
764
01:16:29,209 --> 01:16:30,794
I got to court today.
765
01:16:34,172 --> 01:16:35,090
My ex was there,
766
01:16:35,173 --> 01:16:39,636
and there were like six or seven
family members with him, and...
767
01:16:56,236 --> 01:16:57,904
Tomorrow, my kids are going away.
768
01:17:03,910 --> 01:17:05,912
And what the judge did say was that,
769
01:17:07,497 --> 01:17:09,541
they keep expressing their hate
towards their father
770
01:17:09,625 --> 01:17:12,127
and they keep expressing
so much love towards their mother
771
01:17:12,210 --> 01:17:13,629
that he's troubled by it.
772
01:17:15,631 --> 01:17:17,174
So he's taking them away from me.
773
01:17:18,759 --> 01:17:21,845
And what he also said
is that I may have no contact with them.
774
01:17:37,194 --> 01:17:38,862
I don't even know how to tell my children
775
01:17:38,945 --> 01:17:41,281
tomorrow morning that 1:00,
you're going away.
776
01:17:47,996 --> 01:17:49,331
There's no basis for it.
777
01:17:50,207 --> 01:17:53,460
The community has been displaying
the children's bad behavior
778
01:17:53,543 --> 01:17:55,671
towards their father as my fault.
779
01:17:56,672 --> 01:17:57,798
Um...
780
01:17:58,382 --> 01:18:01,802
Yeah, and it's just...
My daughter is turning 11,
781
01:18:04,221 --> 01:18:06,056
who I have a special
close relationship with.
782
01:18:07,683 --> 01:18:11,144
He said after two weeks
I can write a letter.
783
01:18:11,228 --> 01:18:12,479
That's what he gave me.
784
01:18:26,868 --> 01:18:30,539
- Sorry.
- Don't be sorry.
785
01:18:54,688 --> 01:18:56,440
The communityis really powerful,
786
01:18:57,858 --> 01:19:02,779
and they have learnedwhat loopholes to use in the system
787
01:19:02,863 --> 01:19:04,114
to get what they want.
788
01:19:07,868 --> 01:19:12,539
It's really difficultto raise your children
789
01:19:12,622 --> 01:19:16,042
in a consistent lifestyleof the way they have been raised,
790
01:19:16,126 --> 01:19:17,878
and to keep status quo
791
01:19:19,671 --> 01:19:23,049
when you're exploring an outside world.
792
01:19:45,447 --> 01:19:49,159
See the line at the bottom
and the line at the top.
793
01:21:11,408 --> 01:21:12,701
There's a lot of letters here.
794
01:21:14,995 --> 01:21:15,829
Mm-hmm.
795
01:21:21,585 --> 01:21:22,460
Oh.
796
01:21:23,336 --> 01:21:24,671
These are letters from my dad.
797
01:21:26,381 --> 01:21:30,427
"To my dear son,
from the sweetness of my soul, Luzer.
798
01:21:32,345 --> 01:21:34,764
How is the studying going?
God should help.
799
01:21:34,848 --> 01:21:37,767
You should have good luck,
and keep excelling
800
01:21:37,851 --> 01:21:40,061
and cause a lot of nachas for God."
801
01:21:42,272 --> 01:21:44,733
I was doing really well those years.
They were really proud of me.
802
01:21:48,987 --> 01:21:51,907
They had no idea
what a fucking nightmare I was gonna be.
803
01:21:56,161 --> 01:21:58,246
I was not happy.
I was not happy at the time.
804
01:22:03,418 --> 01:22:04,669
My sisters.
805
01:22:06,212 --> 01:22:09,466
I think that was the first time
they reached out to me after I left.
806
01:22:10,926 --> 01:22:14,429
And they couldn't really hang out with me,
but they wanted to say hi.
807
01:22:14,512 --> 01:22:15,847
I thought it was very nice.
808
01:22:25,273 --> 01:22:27,108
I'm pretty sure this is me
getting admitted
809
01:22:27,192 --> 01:22:28,360
for trying to commit suicide.
810
01:22:44,042 --> 01:22:46,002
My mom and my sister.
811
01:22:49,631 --> 01:22:50,507
My kids.
812
01:22:53,301 --> 01:22:54,761
I think he's my oldest one.
813
01:22:55,845 --> 01:22:56,930
Yeah, they say he's good.
814
01:22:58,348 --> 01:22:59,349
So they tell me.
815
01:23:22,706 --> 01:23:23,957
Oh, motherfucker.
816
01:23:27,794 --> 01:23:30,588
Oh, man.
817
01:24:11,337 --> 01:24:13,548
I know plenty of happy Hasidic people.
818
01:24:16,551 --> 01:24:19,763
And sometimes,I wish I could just go along with it
819
01:24:19,846 --> 01:24:21,639
and not ask so many questions.
820
01:24:27,812 --> 01:24:29,647
People want to have an ultimate truth.
821
01:24:31,649 --> 01:24:34,986
We're all out here looking for purpose,looking for meaning.
822
01:24:36,988 --> 01:24:38,114
And they have that.
823
01:24:40,366 --> 01:24:42,118
They have purposeand they have meaning.
824
01:24:44,412 --> 01:24:48,917
And I will always be trying to find it.
825
01:25:56,317 --> 01:25:58,736
I thought it would be easy,and it's not easy.
826
01:26:03,825 --> 01:26:07,787
I don't think I'm actually readyto live in a fully secular society.
827
01:26:11,541 --> 01:26:14,586
I have this kind of secular anxiety.
828
01:26:18,506 --> 01:26:21,176
I'm not blaming the communityor this rabbi,
829
01:26:21,259 --> 01:26:23,803
this-- this guy who raped me, that guy.
830
01:26:23,887 --> 01:26:25,054
I'm not blaming anyone.
831
01:26:28,391 --> 01:26:33,271
But I have not found yetwhat I really want to be a part of.
832
01:29:39,040 --> 01:29:39,916
Hey.
833
01:29:41,292 --> 01:29:43,294
- Mommy?
- Yeah, baby?
834
01:29:43,377 --> 01:29:45,088
Today was awesome.
835
01:29:45,171 --> 01:29:48,716
Today was awesome. Yes, it was.
836
01:29:48,800 --> 01:29:49,967
Super awesome.
837
01:29:50,843 --> 01:29:55,181
See? Together, we're double awesome,
that's right.
838
01:29:57,475 --> 01:29:59,060
-Mommy?
-Yeah, baby?
839
01:29:59,727 --> 01:30:00,686
Yeah, I got it.
840
01:30:02,355 --> 01:30:05,066
-Okay, you ready?-I am always ready for a quote.
841
01:30:06,609 --> 01:30:09,862
Okay. "I think it's--" No, this one.
842
01:30:09,946 --> 01:30:11,322
"If we all do the things..."
843
01:30:11,948 --> 01:30:14,242
"If we all did the things that we...
844
01:30:14,325 --> 01:30:18,037
that we are capable of doing,we will literally outstand ourselves."
845
01:30:18,121 --> 01:30:20,039
Oh, wow, that's awesome.
846
01:30:21,457 --> 01:30:22,333
Yeah.
847
01:30:22,416 --> 01:30:24,252
What are you doing
that's capable of doing?
848
01:30:25,670 --> 01:30:29,298
I am not breaking down and cryingevery second of my life.
849
01:30:29,382 --> 01:30:30,424
Oh, wow.
850
01:30:30,508 --> 01:30:32,635
Oh, wow, I didn't think you'd say that.
851
01:30:32,718 --> 01:30:35,096
I thought you were gonna say
that you write very well.
852
01:30:35,179 --> 01:30:38,182
But, wow, that's pretty powerful. Yeah.
853
01:30:38,266 --> 01:30:40,143
And you're outstanding yourself
every single day,
854
01:30:40,226 --> 01:30:41,727
and I'm super, super proud of you.
855
01:30:42,270 --> 01:30:43,229
Thanks, Ma.
856
01:30:45,398 --> 01:30:48,651
What do I always say? You gotta be--
Continue being your awesome you, okay?
857
01:30:49,152 --> 01:30:50,319
You always say that.
858
01:30:50,403 --> 01:30:53,406
I will always say it.
I will never get tired of saying it
859
01:30:53,489 --> 01:30:55,908
'cause I want you to continue
being the awesome you.
860
01:30:57,702 --> 01:30:59,078
-Keep it up.
-Thanks.
861
01:30:59,162 --> 01:31:02,206
-And you'll outstand yourself, okay?
-Okay.
862
01:31:03,416 --> 01:31:04,292
-Okay, cutie.
-Bye.
863
01:31:04,375 --> 01:31:06,460
Okay. I love you so much, okay?
864
01:31:06,544 --> 01:31:08,671
-I love you too, Mommy. Bye.-Bye.
865
01:31:09,505 --> 01:31:10,339
Bye.
866
01:31:10,423 --> 01:31:11,674
Mwah.
71996
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