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Previously on "A Million
Little Things"...

We're at the point where
any treatment we try

may affect his quality of life.

I want to celebrate every
second we have left.

And I want to do
that as your wife.

Yo, Gare!

You seeing this? Your
little man's doing it!

Yay!

Gary, Javi is walking!

What are you writing?

"Don't be jealous."

That is very funny.

We're both in wheelchairs,

only I don't need
someone to push mine.

Pay attention, this is a
watershed moment for your son.

Those are not actually
his first steps.

That was last week.

He's doing this whole
"crib to 5k" thing. Yeah.

Well, in that case,
the little punk

is just rubbing it in my face,

and I don't
appreciate it one bit.

Hey, Mendez, you have
to eat something.

And not just 'cause there's a
hungry Mastiff eyeing your eggs.

Yeah, I know you're not hungry,

but, sweetie, you gotta
keep your strength up.

You shouldn't take your pain
meds on an empty stomach.

Mmm. Mmm! Delicious.

You don't know what
you're missing, truly.

Egg-ceptional.Mm-hmm.

I'm sure now that
you've licked his fork,

he's really gonna want that.

You know he's not 2 years old.

You don't have to airplane
it into his mouth-hangar.

No, I wasn't.

Hey, Gare. How about I make
you that thing you like

with the peanut
butter and ice cream

that you call a smoothie
we all know is a milkshake?

There we go.

Cookie dough smoothie coming up.

Hmm? What is it, Powder?

You, uh, change your mind?

You want me to make
the egg choo-choo train

go into the mouth tunnel?

Well, it's coming right up.

Chugga chugga
chugga, all aboar...

Are you sure?

Okay.

Hey, what's up,
man? Hey, Rome.

I'm with Gary.

I need you to meet me
at my place right away.

Are you saying what I
think you're saying?

Yep. I'll be right there.

Oh, my God, Rome, tell
me you're filming.

Oh, you better believe
it.Okay. Alright.

Son, baby mama, anyone
else who's watching,

Ed, I want to... I want to make
sure I get this right, okay?

Because it's going
into the archives.

It was a momentary...
Listen to me.

It was a visceral,
emotional response...

Visceral, understood.

But the fact remains
that in that moment,

you thought Aaron
Burr was a Blackmun.

Because the actor playing
him in "Hamilton" was Black!

I'm never gonna live
this down, am I?

Uh, probably not.

Doubtful, bro. No, no, no.

He thought that Aaron Burr
was Black for the same reason

that you thought umbrellas
could make you fly...

Because you saw it
once in a musical.

Oh, and that's sweet,
though! I do know...

I do know that Barack Obama
was our first Black president.

Wait a minute. What?

You think Obama was the
first Black president?

Yeah.

He is, right? Wha...

You guys are jerks, man.

Hey, you heard it
here first, son.

If you're struggling in
African American studies,

make sure you go to
Rome for tutoring.

Or go to a Black man.

Ooh! Ooh!

Eddie strikes back!

He is not throwing
away his shot!

Give me your best side, bro.
This is going to festivals.

Oh, man. Turn the camera off.

Dude, you said to
never stop filming,

especially when Eddie's
making a fool of himself.

You're right, I did say that.

Now turn it off.

Uh, I need to talk to
you guys about something.

Uh, I got a favor to ask.

Yeah, anything.
Yeah, say the word.

First of all, you two have been
nothing short of spectacular,

hanging out with me at chemo,
helping out with Colin.

And obviously, I'm
gonna beat this thing.

Amen. Of course you are, man.

But if I don't...

I need you two to
help me end it.

Oh, dude, say the word,

I'll hit you over the
head with a blunt object.

We can end it right now.

We walk over to the fridge,
slam it really hard,

or you break wind into this,
we strap it over his face...

He's out. Painless. Hold
him down, hold him down.

Guys, I'm serious.

What? Wait, whoa, what
are you talking about?

If by some chance
things go south,

I do not want to be stuck in
some hospital bed in pain,

crapping myself, and... And
wasting away into nothing.

So if we get to that
point, which we won't...

I need you to go
see Kevin, okay?

He'll know why you're there.

That's right, during
my last round of chemo,

I did all the party planning.

How's that for multi-tasking?

He's gonna give you
the right drugs...

and you're gonna use those drugs
to put me out of my misery.

What? Dude, I...

Hey, I love you, and I
will do anything for you,

but this is completely
off the table.

Oh, really? I've never...

You two rallied around me when
I was at my lowest moment.

You helped me get
on antidepressants,

you helped me deal with things

that not even my
dad would accept.

And now you want
me to take you out?

No, Rome, that's
not what I want.

This is completely different.

If I can get better, hell,
even if I can stay like this,

but if I'm in pain, man...

I was in pain. No,
I am talking about

excruciating physical pain.

The kind that only comes
with Stage 4 cancer.

I'm not gonna even
pretend to know

what you were going
through, but you got help.

You said it yourself,

you had to be reminded that
the dark days would pass.

But if we exhaust all
medical possibilities

and we're just running
out the clock, that's it.

There's no more sun for me.

Look, guys, I-I-I realize

this is a big ask, I do.

You think?

You're the one that's always
talking about the elevator, Ed.

I mean, what did we say?

This is it. This is Rutledge.

No. Rutledge was Jon
making us promise

that we would look out
for each other's families.

Exactly.

I need you to look
after my family.

I cannot let Maggie
watch me suffer and die

from the same disease that
she has battled twice.

It's called death with dignity,

and that's all I want.

That's why we've been
making these videos,

so that someday, my son
can look at his father

and see a man who is optimistic,

living life to the fullest,

and the same goes for
you two, the whole crew.

I do not want you gathered
around my bed ugly-crying

and waiting for me to
take my final breath.

No, I want you all together
at some big ass dinner,

laughing and telling stories

about how Eddie thought
Aaron Burr was Black.

I lost myself in the music.

Have you talked to
Maggie about this?

No, of course not.

And don't you dare
tell her, either.

Game's not over,
guys. I'm right here.

This...

This is Plan Z.

And I just... I want
it to be in place.

I, um...

I need it...

to be in place.

Alright.

We won't tell Maggie.

But if we do need
a Plan Z, youwill.

And by the grace of God,

she won't ever
have to watch this.

How will we know it's time?

Thanks.

I'm not worried
about her falling.

She's annoying everybody.

It's just talkie,
talkie, talkie.

There he is. Okay, I'm on it.

Hey, man.

Oh, no.

Kev...

he's in a lot of pain.

He told us to come to
you when it was time.

Yeah, he said you'd
know exactly what to do.

Uh...

guys, I don't know what
you're talking about.

I can't help you with
anything like that.

Excuse me.

Wait. Hey. Kev, hold up.

So you're saying you and Gary
never talked about any of this?

Then why would he tell us that?

Look, I don't know,
okay? I don't know.

And even if we had, I can't.

What you're talking about
is illegal in Massachusetts.

I could lose my job.

Kevin, he's not eating.

Can you please at least
tell us what to do?

Look, Gary's my dude, okay?

But my hands are tied.

Here's what I can do, though.

You can take him this, and...

Let's hope he eats it.

Grown-ass man loved him
some gelatin, right?

Seriously?

Pre-school snack, that's
your consolation prize?

I thought you cared about him.

I do.

Hey, Rome. Let's
just get out of here.

Thanks for nothing.

D, hey. Is everything alright?

Yes! Hi, neighbor.

Hi. Hi, Javi!

Gary's upstairs waiting for you.

I left the door unlocked.

Okay, perfect.

You sure you don't need my
help with... Oh, we got it.

It's a big help you just being
there with him while he's awake.

I know he'll be
happy to see you.

Okay.

Dude, what the hell
are we gonna do?

Come on, bro, you
were in a band,

you're telling me you
can't track down drugs?

Isn't that 90% of
what roadies do?

Yes, but the last
time I had a roadie,

I also had a flip phone.

What about you, man?

What about me? Dude,
you're a teacher

at a prep school
full of rich kids.

Haven't you seen "Euphoria"?
Of course I've seen "Euphoria."

Well, think about it!

Ooh, what about your dad's
"assisted living facility"?

What are you using
air quotes for?

The place is legit
filled with old people.

And I don't think we can take
our man out with Viagra, either.

What about your sister?
No, she's sober again.

Great. And by the time she's
not, it'll be too late.

Wait, you can't be pissed that
my sister's back on the wagon.

I'm not mad at Lindsay,
that's my girl!

Wha... What do you
mean, "your girl"?

Look, I'm just mad at Kevin

because he lied to
us. Dude, I know.

There's no way Gary would have
made something like that up.

Well, it's irrelevant now

because if we don't
figure something out,

we're gonna have to
go back to our boy

and tell him that we
couldn't come through

with the one thing
that he asked us to do.

Oh, my God.

I can't believe I'm
about to say this.

What?

Say it.

Dakota.

I can call Dakota.

She can score us
whatever we need.

You know, I bet the bastard

didn't even give
us lime flavored.

Hang up the phone, Ed.

Hello?

Kevin gave us more than gelatin.

Eddie, is that you?

Uh, hey, Dakota. Hey.

We should catch up sometime.
Now's not the time. Bye.

Oh, o...

Well, Ed...

I guess we no longer
have a problem.

Yeah, we do.

This just got too real.

I can't do this.

Okay.

I'll be right here
if you need anything.

Thank you.

Hi.

Uh, you ready for this?

No, but, uh, let's do it anyway.

Thank you.

Wait, this is the one

the funeral home
wants 6 grand for.

They only want $4,800 for it.

Not for long. Just,
uh, follow my lead.

What?

Hey, guys. What are you...

Can I help you with something?

I-I hope so.

It's our uncle. He's
about to meet his maker.

I mean, it could be weeks,
it could be tomorrow.

We just don't know.

But that's how life is, right?

You just don't know.

Oh.

How's he doing with all of this?

Uh, this is the first time
he's left Gary's side.

Mm.

Yeah, never thought I'd
be jealous of a dog.

But he knows what's up.

But we're gonna get through
it together, aren't we, pal?

Um, heads up,

I think you're being recognized.

Oh, please.

I don't mean to
sound ungrateful,

but this was hard enough before
my listeners caught wind of it.

Hold that thought.

I'm so sorry to interrupt.

No, please.

You are in the room
with Dr. Bloom.

Uh, I don't know
what that means.

I just wanted to
say I voted for you.

I really wanted you to win.

I hope you think
about running again.

Yeah, that makes two of us.

Thank you so much. I

I have a few years to recover.

We'll see.

But thank you for coming
up and saying that.

No. Thank you.

Look at you! Mm.

Oh, there she is.

Ah! Hey. Sorry I'm late.

I had to go to three
different stores

to find the right
color. No problem.

We are ready. Greta: Okay.

Are you ready? Let's
go paint the town.

- You ready to go?
- Let's do it.

And Charlie learned
to take selfies,

so here are like 47 of them.

But I didn't just pop in
to show you some photos.

I also came because

I wanted to say thank you.

"I don't have condoms."

You're such an ass.

You know, when I heard
you couldn't make a sound,

I was actually looking
forward to our conversation.

You okay?

Oh, God!

Gary, that's... I
felt that on my leg!

Don't you dare lift that up!

Don't you d...

You make me laugh
without saying anything.

Am I that easy?

Don't answer that.

Did you know that
when I first met you,

I pegged you to be
this snarky smartass

who seemed angry
at the whole world?

I was right.

But I was just outside
thinking about, uh...

about the day you
came to the house.

Every day in every
single way since then,

you have stepped up for us.

Me, especially.

No, I'm gonna say all the
good things I want to say,

because for once,
you can't cut me off.

You're the best
friend I've ever had.

You're more than
that. You're...

my brother.

And I want you to know
that you can count on me.

I am going to be
here for Maggie.

I'm gonna be here for your son.

I know his name
is Javi, shut up!

Enough with the board.

Do you remember the day, uh,

you found out
about Eddie and me?

It was your birthday.

Gosh, it was hard to
face you that night

when you came by.

Even though I hurt you, you...

You never abandoned me.

And you took care of my kids
when you knew that I couldn't.

And that night, when
we lit your candles,

do you remember
what you wished for?

Same wish you make every year.

Gary, I know that
the only reason

Eddie and I are together
is because of you,

'cause you told him
to follow his heart.

And I am happy.

We all are.

And in time, Maggie
will be happy again.

I promise you.

So I wanted to say thank
you for making that wish.

Should I be scared?

What are you gonna write?

God.

You're impossible!

Oh, my God, Gary.

You know, off the record,

I've never let
anybody do that to me.

But hey, if I thought
it'd cure your cancer...

I'd flip 'em right over.

That was quite the performance.

Yeah, but we saved a
thousand bucks including tax.

Gary would be so proud.

Yeah, I can't wait to tell him.

On second thought, uh,

maybe we don't mention
any of this to him.

Better. Yeah.

So, I put the item on hold,

and it'll be ready whenever
you're ready for it.

Thank you so much,
you're very kind.

Yeah, my sister's
right, you're very kind.

And... And good luck
with your Etsy shop.

Thanks.

Oh, here's your credit card.

Sophie Dixon?

Yeah. Uh, sorry, do we
know each other, or...?

Hey, wait. Hold the
door, that's my plane.

I'm sorry, sir, we've already
closed the jet bridge.

Here's the head count.

No, no, I have to
get on the plane.

Once the jet bridge door
is closed, I can't open it.

No, it's just... my
name's Sophie, too.

It's kismet!

It really is. You know what?

I'm going to give you
my employee discount.

Oh, thank you.

Hey, sleepyhead.

Delilah leave already?

Very funny, Chaplin.

Alright, we're going
on a field trip.

I gotta show you something.

Hey, Eddie. What
are you doing here?

Hi. I need to talk to
you about something.

I'm not supposed to
say anything to anyone,

but I need your opinion

because from the
moment I met you,

you've had this
unbelievable ability,

despite what you're
going through,

to think about things
rationally and objectively,

and right now, I
need your strength.

Well, in that case,
step into my office.

Coming!

Rome. Hey, Pop.

What's wrong? Nothing.

I wanted to hear your
voice, see your mug,

drop off some bagels, and
hang out with my old man.

Nope.

I know my boy.

Something's wrong.

Gary's not gonna make it.

Oh, Rome.

I'm so sorry.

Come here, son.

That's right. Let it out.

Katherine, I-I can't do this.

Look at me.

I helped Gary with all
his estate planning.

He knew this was coming.

Maggie knew this was coming.

It's why they
didn't go to Mexico.

I know that what he's
asking you to do is...

It's unthinkable, but...

maybe the alternative
is even worse.

Taking care of all of us is
what's giving Gary purpose.

It's how he defines himself.

And now he can't
do that anymore.

And while we may all
have thoughts about it,

it is hislife.

I get that you're in an
impossible situation...

But I can't make that
decision for you, Eddie.

Hey, Dad.

Hey, bud. What are you doing?

I was gonna play
some street hockey.

Oh, that's fun.

Maybe later we can... Dad.

You have to do this.

Buddy, uh...

I don't know how much you heard,

but it is very
complicated stuff,

and maybe when you're
a little older,

it might make more
sense, but... maybe not.

I'm a whole lot older,

and I'm still struggling
to understand.

I do understand.

It's just like when Scott the
cat tried to eat that bird.

I-I didn't want to give up,
but you helped me understand

that we needed to
let the bird go.

He was suffering.

So is Uncle Gary.

He's in pain, Dad.

And as difficult as it is,

it's the most humane
thing we can do.

Sometimes the right thing
to do is really hard,

but isn't that what love is?

Come here.

I know it's hard.

Thank you.

Tell me a story about Gary.

I don't know, Pop.

There are so many.

I remember one time

I was flying out of
Logan to some conference,

and don't ask me how,

but, uh, just as I
got past security,

I realized that I
left my phone at home.

Ah. And it was only, like,

45 minutes till my flight,

and Gina's across
town in the truck.

So I borrow some guy at the
gate's phone and I call Gary.

Gary drives to my
place, grabs my phone,

drives to the airport,

and even though he
didn't have a ticket,

somehow managed to talk
his way past security...

What?!

Runs to my gate,

hands me my phone

just before they close
the doors to my flight.

You see, son?

This is why it's good to
have a couple white friends.

You know Tyrell wasn't
getting through security.

No, he...

Thank you, Pop.

You tell Gary

I said thank you for being
such an amazing friend

to my son.

I will.

I'll check in on you later.

Okay, Pop, and don't forget
to take your pills, okay?

Don't forget to take yours.

I love you, Pop.

Love you, son.

I can't wait for
you to see this.

No looking.

Are those eyes closed?

Alright.

Uh... you crushed it.

This is amazing!

Yeah, I did okay,
considering the canvas

I had to work with,
the time frame...

Oh, my fear of heights...

Just take the compliment.
Thank you so much.

Alright, no peeking, Mendez.

I know you can't talk and
I'm not letting you see,

so you're probably smelling
a lot more of Boston

than you'd probably like to.

Alright.

You can open your eyes.

You keep insisting that
I choose to remember

all of the wonderful
things we've done together.

And you're right.

Well, I made you...

this.

Maybe a little.

Yeah. He... He helped.

It wasn't just me, you know?

- You have fun today?
- Are you kidding me?

I have never felt so alive!

Imagine how you'd
feel if you actually

had been up there
committing the crime.

Right?

Hey, guys. What
are you doing here?

Maggie, we need to
show you something.

What is it?

It's a video that Gary made.

A while ago.

Is Daddy making silly faces?

Yeah.

Hey, Bloom.

If you're seeing this video,

it means none of our
valiant efforts worked out.

And sadly, we don't
have the bankroll

to cryogenically freeze my body
and stash me in an ice chamber

somewhere in
Southern California.

But seriously, we exhausted
every other possibility.

I know how hard you
fought, my love.

And I hope you know, too.

But it's time.

We know this is hard.

But it's what he wants.

Mnh-mnh. You know how
I feel about this.

I do know.

That's why I didn't tell
you about it before.

And, honestly, I don't
know how to do this,

but I don't think I could
live with myself if I didn't.

I just need you

to get Javi.

Take him to Katherine's.

I'll be there as soon as I can.

Gina.

Okay, I-I can't not say this.

You were a terrible
first date, Gary Mendez.

I love you, Gary.

I know.

I got him, Maggie.

Hi.

Yeah.

♪ I've heard it said

♪ That people come
into our lives ♪

♪ For a reason

♪ Bringing something
we must learn ♪

♪ And we are led

♪ To those who help
us most to grow ♪

♪ If we let them

♪ And we help them in return

♪ Well, I don't know if
I believe that's true ♪

♪ But I know I'm
who I am today ♪

You're not doing this.
♪ Because I knew you

Maggie... I am doing it.

You two go to Katherine's.

♪ Who can say if I've been
changed for the better? ♪

Is this a bad time to tell
you I never liked you?

♪ Because I knew you

I love you, man.

I'll keep Eddie in line.

I love you.

♪ I have been changed

And Eddie thought Aaron
Burr was a Black man

just because the actor playing
him in "Hamilton" was Black.

What?

Alright, alright,
my turn, my turn.

Here's something
you guys don't know.

Yeah? Gary has seen my boobs.

- What?!
- I know. That's right.

Oh, yeah, that was for, like,
an insurance appraisal, right?

Wait, what?

Apparently, his cable was out.

Yes, I told him he could come
watch the game at our place.

Yeah. But you didn't tell me.

No, I didn't!

Okay.

So, I made 200 bucks
busking one time,

and it was the most I
had ever made, ever,

and then I find out

that it was because Gary had
gone around Harvard Square

giving out $5 and $10 bills.

♪ It well may be

♪ That we will
never meet again ♪

♪ In this lifetime

♪ So let me say before we par

♪ So much of me Okay.

Alright, "Made you look."

Yeah, well...

♪ You'll be with me ...you won.

♪ Like a handprint on my heart

Wewon.

♪ And now whatever
way our stories end ♪

♪ I know you have
re-written mine ♪

♪ By being my friend

No, he did not pay for dinner.

Ipaid for dinner.

He said he forgot his
wallet, but you know what?

I just think he spent all his
money on those frosted tips.

Probably.

I mean, uh, I'm 12,

my... my dad just died,

and, you know, I-I have
this really big secret.

And, uh...

out of the blue,

Gary has the balls to
turn to me and say,

"When you're ready to
tell me Ella's a boy..."

"I'm ready to hear it."

I mean, who says that to a kid?

Gary Mendez says that to a kid.

I want you to know it's okay

if you want to go now, alright?

I'm gonna be okay

and Javi's gonna be okay

'cause we have
friends all around us

who are gonna help
take care of us, okay?

So you can let go.

Yeah. It's time.

Alright? I love you.

I love you so much.

Okay, here we go.

Hey, pal. It's Dad.

And in some weird, uh

"Back to the Future" way,

that's actually you
crying in the background.

But your mom's on it,

just like I know she's been
on it these last 16 years...

Wait, is it 16?!

What?!

Oh, yeah, happy birthday.

Jav, let's go!

Whoa. Do you have
chest hair now?

I want to get that
driving lesson in

before we get to
Rome and Gina's.

You're watching it again?

I mean, the man went through
the trouble of making it for me.

The least I could
do is run it back.

16?! Oh, my God.

That means you're
gonna be driving.

Good luck, everybody.

Watch out, watch out, watch out!

Says the woman who got a ticket

for driving too slowly.

No, you do not talk to
your mother that way.

And I was looking
for an address...

for a while.

Well, that's fair.

Believe it or not...

this is my last video for you.

Don't worry. You can watch
it as many times as you want.

It's not gonna self-destruct.

I mean, it... It
may self-destruct.

I don't know what videos
are like in the future.

Even though that may seem sad,

I want you to know
something that I didn't know

untilmy dad was gone.

♪ I want to stop and
thank you, baby ♪

It's actually something
your mom taught me.

He's with me all the time.

♪ And thank you

That's so sweet. Yeah.

Even though I'm gone physically,

I am still here.

Our relationship...
It isn't over.

Javi had his first
driving lesson today,

and I thought I was
going to end up here

next to you, in the ground.

It just changes.

I know you're watching,
so I'm not gonna bore you

with all the small things.

Um, I hope you're having
fun with your dad.

Sure, there's gonna be times

when you wish I was still around

and that this story
ended in a different way.

I owe this girl a walk.

Daisy has been very
patient with me.

Hi, girl! You ready?

But you can't let that keep
you from moving forward.

I have a date on Saturday.

He's a father at
Javi's school, and...

he seems emotionally available.

So, if you could, uh,

talk to the big guy for
me, that would be great.

♪ Thank you

I miss you, Mendez.

♪ How sweet it is
to be loved by you ♪

The key is to do what I did.

Surround yourself with an
incredible group of friends

because if you choose wisely,

those friends will
become your family.

We leaned on each other
through the toughest of times.

More pizza for the...

'Cause you're gonna
make mistakes.

Son, you absolutely
have to make mistakes.

But when you surround yourself

with the right group of friends,

they're gonna be there for you

when you lose sight
of the horizon.

But you're also gonna
be there for them,

and you're gonna celebrate
incredible things.

Hey, hey, hey, none
for my baby mama.

Our little man in there
is still training.

How about you?

Theo!

Lana, will you
light the candles?

♪ Happy birthday, dear Javi

So, when you find that
group of friends...

And you will... hold on to them.

♪ ...than I was to myself

♪ For me, there's you and
there ain't nobody else ♪

And as amazing as
they'll be, know this...

I will always be right here,

right next to you, loving you.

♪ I wanna stop and
thank you, baby ♪

And anytime a complete stranger
smiles at you out of nowhere...

I got it.

♪ To be loved by
you There you go.

Thanks. Yeah.

Enjoy the game.

There's a decent
chance that's me.

♪ How sweet it is
to be loved by you ♪

Here you go, guys.

Mmm. Thank you. Soda?

Yeah, that's what we get
for sending a 16-year-old.

Come on.

To the band of dads?

Band of Dads!

♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh

Ohhh!

Let's take a
photo. Okay, okay.

Ready? Ready? Everyone
say, "Go, B's!"

Go B's!

Go B's!

♪ By you

Oh, and mijo?

Have a beautiful life.