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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:01:39,344 --> 00:01:41,662 Thank heaven the fog is gone. 2 00:01:42,908 --> 00:01:44,101 I... 3 00:01:44,258 --> 00:01:45,436 I do feel... 4 00:01:45,635 --> 00:01:47,727 Out of sorts this morning. 5 00:01:48,173 --> 00:01:49,624 I wasn't able to get much sleep... 6 00:01:49,625 --> 00:01:52,630 With that awful foghorn going on all night long. 7 00:01:52,733 --> 00:01:55,436 Yes, like having a sick whale in the backyard. 8 00:01:55,608 --> 00:01:57,029 Kept me awake too. 9 00:01:57,134 --> 00:01:57,984 Did it? 10 00:01:58,134 --> 00:02:00,993 You have a strange way of showing your restlessness. 11 00:02:01,484 --> 00:02:04,950 You were snoring so hard I couldn't tell which was the foghorn. 12 00:02:05,621 --> 00:02:07,620 Ten foghorns couldn't disturb you. 13 00:02:07,621 --> 00:02:08,950 You haven't a nerve in you. 14 00:02:09,015 --> 00:02:10,008 You never had. 15 00:02:10,046 --> 00:02:12,024 Nonsense. You always exaggerate about my snoring. 16 00:02:12,786 --> 00:02:14,033 I couldn't. 17 00:02:14,200 --> 00:02:16,026 If you could only hear yourself once. 18 00:02:17,333 --> 00:02:18,747 What's the Joke, I wonder. 19 00:02:18,748 --> 00:02:20,373 It's on me I'll bet that much. 20 00:02:20,374 --> 00:02:22,278 It's always on the old man. 21 00:02:22,671 --> 00:02:25,515 Yes. It's terrible the way we all pick on you isn't it? 22 00:02:25,619 --> 00:02:27,492 You're so abused! 23 00:02:28,347 --> 00:02:29,614 Never mind. 24 00:02:30,010 --> 00:02:33,910 No matter what the joke is, it's a relief to hear Edmund laugh. 25 00:02:34,309 --> 00:02:36,906 He's been so down in the mouth lately. 26 00:02:37,220 --> 00:02:38,920 Some joke of Jamie's, I'll wager. 27 00:02:38,984 --> 00:02:41,991 He's forever making sneering fun of somebody, that one. 28 00:02:42,041 --> 00:02:42,755 Now! 29 00:02:42,873 --> 00:02:44,508 Don't start in on poor Jamie dear... 30 00:02:44,509 --> 00:02:46,104 He'll turn out alright in the end. 31 00:02:46,133 --> 00:02:47,030 You wait and see. 32 00:02:47,164 --> 00:02:49,778 He better start soon then, he's nearly 34. 33 00:02:50,267 --> 00:02:51,717 Good heavens! 34 00:02:51,838 --> 00:02:54,233 Are they gonna stay in the dinning room all day? 35 00:02:54,315 --> 00:02:55,592 Jamie! Edmund! 36 00:02:55,779 --> 00:02:58,633 Come out on the porch, give Cathleen a chance to clear the table. 37 00:02:58,761 --> 00:03:01,187 You'd make excuses for him no matter what he did. 38 00:03:02,412 --> 00:03:05,453 I've been teasing your father about his snoring. 39 00:03:06,026 --> 00:03:08,926 I'll... I'll leave it to the boys James, they must've heard you. 40 00:03:09,069 --> 00:03:11,156 Though not you Jamie I could hear you down the hall... 41 00:03:11,157 --> 00:03:13,434 Almost as bad as your father, you're like him. 42 00:03:13,775 --> 00:03:16,227 As soon as your head touches the pillow you're off. 43 00:03:16,315 --> 00:03:18,791 And ten foghorns couldn't wake you. 44 00:03:20,925 --> 00:03:22,806 Why are you staring Jamie? 45 00:03:22,941 --> 00:03:24,666 Is my hair coming down? Or... 46 00:03:24,746 --> 00:03:25,920 Something? 47 00:03:26,543 --> 00:03:28,646 It's hard for me to do it out properly now. 48 00:03:28,710 --> 00:03:32,096 My eyes are getting so bad and I can never find my glasses 49 00:03:32,124 --> 00:03:34,708 No. Your hair's alright Mama I was just thinking how well you look. 50 00:03:34,780 --> 00:03:36,384 Just as I was telling her Jamie. 51 00:03:36,430 --> 00:03:39,649 She's so fat and sassy there will soon be no holding her. 52 00:03:39,710 --> 00:03:41,510 Yes, you certainly look grand Mama. 53 00:03:41,577 --> 00:03:44,598 And I'll back you up about Papa's snoring. Gosh! What a racket! 54 00:03:44,654 --> 00:03:48,619 Oh, I heard him too, "The Moor, I know his trumpet." 55 00:03:49,066 --> 00:03:51,901 If it takes my snoring to make you remember Shakespeare... 56 00:03:51,969 --> 00:03:55,038 Instead of the dope sheet on the ponies, I hope I’ll keep on with it. 57 00:03:55,109 --> 00:03:56,161 James! You mustn’t be so touchy. 58 00:03:56,211 --> 00:03:58,604 Yes, for Pete’s sake, Papa! The first thing after breakfast! 59 00:03:58,667 --> 00:03:59,924 Give it a rest, can’t you? 60 00:03:59,979 --> 00:04:02,362 Your father wasn’t finding fault with you. 61 00:04:02,691 --> 00:04:04,515 You don’t have to always take Jamie’s part. 62 00:04:04,516 --> 00:04:06,596 - You’d think you were the one ten years older... - Let's forget it! 63 00:04:06,597 --> 00:04:08,805 That's right! Forget everything and face nothing. 64 00:04:08,806 --> 00:04:11,752 It's a convenient philosophy in life if you've no other ambitions... 65 00:04:11,822 --> 00:04:13,058 James! Be quiet. 66 00:04:13,059 --> 00:04:16,055 What were you two grinning about like Cheshire cats when you came out? 67 00:04:16,056 --> 00:04:17,095 What was the joke? 68 00:04:17,096 --> 00:04:19,057 Yes, let us in on it, lad. 69 00:04:19,122 --> 00:04:21,002 You remember, Papa, the ice pond... 70 00:04:21,003 --> 00:04:23,376 On Harker’s estate is right next to the farm, 71 00:04:23,869 --> 00:04:25,973 and you remember Shaughnessy keeps pigs. 72 00:04:26,429 --> 00:04:28,406 Well, it seems there’s a break in the fence... 73 00:04:28,461 --> 00:04:31,199 And the pigs have been bathing in the millionaire’s ice pond. 74 00:04:31,263 --> 00:04:33,297 Well! Good heavens! 75 00:04:33,373 --> 00:04:37,040 The poor pigs, Shaughnessy yelled, had caught their death of cold. 76 00:04:37,082 --> 00:04:38,971 Many of them were dying of pneumonia... 77 00:04:39,018 --> 00:04:40,922 And several others had been taken down with... 78 00:04:40,923 --> 00:04:43,185 Cholera from drinking the poisoned water. 79 00:04:43,385 --> 00:04:46,154 He told Harker he was hiring a lawyer to sue him for damages. 80 00:04:46,585 --> 00:04:48,220 And then he wound up by saying... 81 00:04:48,221 --> 00:04:50,210 He had to put up with potato bugs... 82 00:04:50,211 --> 00:04:54,103 And ticks and poison ivy and snakes and skunks on his farm... 83 00:04:54,156 --> 00:04:56,902 But he was an honest man who had to draw the line somewhere... 84 00:04:56,973 --> 00:05:00,385 And he’d be damned if he’d stand for a Standard Oil thief trespassing. 85 00:05:00,475 --> 00:05:04,197 So would Harker kindly remove his dirty feet from the premises... 86 00:05:04,251 --> 00:05:06,261 Before he sicked the dog on him. 87 00:05:06,350 --> 00:05:07,532 And Harker did! 88 00:05:07,785 --> 00:05:11,126 Heavens! What a terrible tongue that man has. 89 00:05:11,188 --> 00:05:14,390 The damned old scoundrel. By God you can't beat him. 90 00:05:14,660 --> 00:05:17,719 The dirty blaggard, he'll get me into serious trouble yet. 91 00:05:17,833 --> 00:05:19,523 I hope you told him I'd be mad as hell! 92 00:05:19,626 --> 00:05:22,415 I told him you'd be tickled to death over the great irish victory... 93 00:05:22,517 --> 00:05:24,163 And so you are, stop faking Papa. 94 00:05:24,253 --> 00:05:25,459 Well I'm not tickled to death. 95 00:05:25,538 --> 00:05:27,754 You are too James, you're simply denying it. 96 00:05:28,396 --> 00:05:30,655 Oh, what are you laughing at? There's nothing funny! 97 00:05:30,681 --> 00:05:33,622 A fine son you are to help that blaggard get me into a lawsuit. 98 00:05:33,683 --> 00:05:35,413 Now James! Don't lose your temper! 99 00:05:35,414 --> 00:05:36,364 Yes, I suppose you're regretting... 100 00:05:36,386 --> 00:05:37,822 You weren't there to prompt Shaughnessy... 101 00:05:37,823 --> 00:05:39,307 With a few nastier insults. 102 00:05:39,338 --> 00:05:41,627 You've a fine talent for that if for nothing else. 103 00:05:41,690 --> 00:05:43,943 James! There's no reason to scold Jamie! 104 00:05:44,028 --> 00:05:46,036 For God's sake Papa! 105 00:05:46,146 --> 00:05:48,465 If you're gonna start that stuff, I'll beat it. 106 00:05:50,503 --> 00:05:53,201 God Papa. I should think you'd get sick of hearing yourself. 107 00:05:58,294 --> 00:06:01,406 You mustn't mind Edmund, James. 108 00:06:02,149 --> 00:06:04,110 Remember he isn't well. 109 00:06:04,189 --> 00:06:06,698 A summer cold makes anyone irritable. 110 00:06:06,822 --> 00:06:08,946 It's not just a cold he's got. 111 00:06:09,633 --> 00:06:11,433 The kid is damn sick. 112 00:06:11,965 --> 00:06:13,188 Why do you say that? 113 00:06:13,243 --> 00:06:16,990 It is just a cold, anyone can tell that. You always imagine things. 114 00:06:17,117 --> 00:06:19,700 All Jamie meant was is he may have a touch of something else... 115 00:06:19,756 --> 00:06:20,946 Which makes his cold worse. 116 00:06:21,117 --> 00:06:22,517 Sure Mama that's all I meant. 117 00:06:22,637 --> 00:06:25,644 Dr. Hardy thinks it might be a bit of malarial fever... 118 00:06:25,645 --> 00:06:27,042 He caught when he was in the tropics. 119 00:06:27,081 --> 00:06:28,486 Dr. Hardy! 120 00:06:28,834 --> 00:06:32,139 I wouldn't believe a thing he said if he swore it on a stack of bibles. 121 00:06:32,475 --> 00:06:34,189 I know what doctors are... 122 00:06:34,395 --> 00:06:36,127 They're all alike, anything... 123 00:06:36,215 --> 00:06:38,406 They don't care what to keep you coming to them. 124 00:06:39,905 --> 00:06:41,085 What is it? 125 00:06:41,304 --> 00:06:42,984 What...? What are you looking at? 126 00:06:43,120 --> 00:06:45,921 Is my hair coming down? Or... Something? 127 00:06:46,086 --> 00:06:48,287 There's nothing wrong with your hair. 128 00:06:48,730 --> 00:06:51,820 The fatter and healthier you get, the vainer you became. 129 00:06:51,892 --> 00:06:55,003 You'll soon spend half the day primping before the mirror. 130 00:06:56,523 --> 00:06:59,041 My eyes are so bad now. 131 00:06:59,318 --> 00:07:01,136 I really should have new glasses. 132 00:07:01,250 --> 00:07:02,932 Your eyes are beautiful... 133 00:07:03,550 --> 00:07:05,797 And well you know it. 134 00:07:05,887 --> 00:07:08,292 James you mustn't be so silly. 135 00:07:08,608 --> 00:07:10,169 And right in front of Jamie. 136 00:07:10,359 --> 00:07:12,020 He's onto you now too. 137 00:07:12,105 --> 00:07:15,180 He knows all this talk about eyes and hair is only fishing for compliments. 138 00:07:15,244 --> 00:07:16,030 He, Jamie? 139 00:07:16,101 --> 00:07:20,212 - Yes you can't kid us Mama. - Get along with, both of you. 140 00:07:20,956 --> 00:07:23,210 But I... I did truly have... 141 00:07:23,306 --> 00:07:24,973 Have beautiful hair once. 142 00:07:25,044 --> 00:07:26,292 Didn't I James? 143 00:07:26,368 --> 00:07:28,347 Most beautiful in the world 144 00:07:28,808 --> 00:07:32,712 It.. it was a rare shade of... of reddish brown... 145 00:07:32,791 --> 00:07:35,514 And so long it came down below my knees 146 00:07:35,812 --> 00:07:38,012 You ought to remember it too, Jamie. 147 00:07:38,062 --> 00:07:42,443 It wasn't until after Edmund was born that I had a single grey hair. 148 00:07:42,523 --> 00:07:44,309 And that made it prettier than ever. 149 00:07:46,244 --> 00:07:48,141 Will you listen to your father Jamie. 150 00:07:48,236 --> 00:07:50,406 After 35 years of marriage... 151 00:07:50,533 --> 00:07:52,803 He isn't a great actor for nothing, is he? 152 00:07:53,658 --> 00:07:55,364 What's come over you James? 153 00:07:55,466 --> 00:07:57,808 Are you pouring coals of fire on my head... 154 00:07:57,809 --> 00:07:59,689 For teasing you about your snoring? 155 00:07:59,979 --> 00:08:04,227 Well then I take it all back. It must've been ONLY the foghorn I heard. 156 00:08:06,786 --> 00:08:07,805 Well... 157 00:08:08,876 --> 00:08:11,425 I can't stay here any longer, even to hear compliments. 158 00:08:11,746 --> 00:08:14,814 I have to see the cook about dinner and the day's marketing. 159 00:08:15,418 --> 00:08:16,815 That Bridget is... 160 00:08:16,901 --> 00:08:20,843 So lazy and so sly she begins Telling me about her relatives... 161 00:08:20,862 --> 00:08:24,167 So I can't get a word in edgeways to scold her. 162 00:08:24,540 --> 00:08:27,427 Well... I may as well get it over with. 163 00:08:27,827 --> 00:08:31,519 Don't make Edmund work on the grounds with you James, remember? 164 00:08:31,779 --> 00:08:34,650 Not that he isn't strong enough but he'd perspire... 165 00:08:34,928 --> 00:08:36,904 And he might catch more cold. 166 00:08:41,482 --> 00:08:44,350 You're a fine lunkhead! Haven't you any sense? 167 00:08:44,413 --> 00:08:46,361 Don't you know the one thing to avoid is saying anything... 168 00:08:46,456 --> 00:08:48,964 That would get her more upset over Edmund? 169 00:08:49,097 --> 00:08:51,025 All right. Have it your way. 170 00:08:51,342 --> 00:08:54,585 I still think it’s the wrong idea to let Mama go on kidding herself. 171 00:08:54,586 --> 00:08:57,070 It will only make the shock worse when she has to face it. 172 00:08:57,588 --> 00:08:59,740 Anyway, you can see she’s deliberately... 173 00:08:59,852 --> 00:09:02,685 Fooling herself with that summer cold talk. 174 00:09:03,259 --> 00:09:04,505 She knows better. 175 00:09:04,616 --> 00:09:07,619 - Knows? Nobody knows yet. - Well, I do. 176 00:09:10,021 --> 00:09:13,227 I was with Edmund when he went to see Doc Hardy on Monday. 177 00:09:13,370 --> 00:09:17,795 I heard him pull that touch of malaria stuff. He was stalling. 178 00:09:18,513 --> 00:09:20,326 That isn’t what he thinks any more. 179 00:09:21,505 --> 00:09:23,410 You know it as well as I do. 180 00:09:23,639 --> 00:09:26,046 You talked to him when you went uptown yesterday, didn’t you? 181 00:09:26,184 --> 00:09:28,105 He can't say anything for sure yet. 182 00:09:28,739 --> 00:09:31,656 He’s to phone me today before Edmund goes to him. 183 00:09:35,658 --> 00:09:38,209 He thinks it’s consumption, doesn’t he, Papa? 184 00:09:40,272 --> 00:09:42,071 He said it might be. 185 00:09:43,108 --> 00:09:44,685 That poor kid! 186 00:09:46,156 --> 00:09:47,449 God damn it! 187 00:09:51,831 --> 00:09:53,219 It might never have happened... 188 00:09:53,220 --> 00:09:56,060 If you’d sent him to a real doctor when he first got sick. 189 00:09:56,154 --> 00:09:58,753 What’s the matter with Hardy? He’s always been our doctor up here. 190 00:09:59,000 --> 00:10:00,841 Hardy only charges a dollar. 191 00:10:00,842 --> 00:10:03,150 That’s what makes you think he’s a fine doctor! 192 00:10:03,151 --> 00:10:06,588 If you mean I can’t afford one of the fine society doctors... 193 00:10:06,651 --> 00:10:08,048 Who prey on the rich summer people... 194 00:10:08,134 --> 00:10:10,981 Can’t afford? You’re one of the biggest property owners around here. 195 00:10:11,028 --> 00:10:12,251 That doesn’t mean I’m rich. 196 00:10:12,321 --> 00:10:15,201 If Edmund was a lousy acre of land you wanted... 197 00:10:15,202 --> 00:10:16,567 The sky would be the limit. 198 00:10:16,604 --> 00:10:17,342 That's a lie! 199 00:10:17,411 --> 00:10:19,959 And your sneers against Dr. Hardy are lies too. 200 00:10:20,045 --> 00:10:23,929 I recon I'm a fool to argue. You can't change the leopard's spots. 201 00:10:23,936 --> 00:10:25,205 No you can't! 202 00:10:25,207 --> 00:10:27,026 You've taught me that lesson only too well... 203 00:10:27,027 --> 00:10:29,201 I've lost all hope you'll ever change yours. 204 00:10:29,588 --> 00:10:31,755 You dare tell me what I can afford! 205 00:10:31,834 --> 00:10:35,056 You've never known the value of a dollar in your life and you never will. 206 00:10:35,492 --> 00:10:37,984 At the end of each season you're penniless. 207 00:10:38,198 --> 00:10:41,401 You've thrown your salary away every week on whores and whiskey. 208 00:10:41,639 --> 00:10:43,665 My salary!? God! 209 00:10:44,008 --> 00:10:45,087 More than you're worth. 210 00:10:45,176 --> 00:10:47,089 You couldn't get that if it wasn't for me. 211 00:10:47,207 --> 00:10:49,452 If you weren't my son, there's not a manager... 212 00:10:49,453 --> 00:10:50,668 In the business that would give you a part. 213 00:10:50,751 --> 00:10:52,386 Your reputation stinks you. 214 00:10:52,468 --> 00:10:55,103 As it is, I have to humble my pride and beg for you 215 00:10:55,189 --> 00:10:57,851 Say you've turned over a new leaf although I know it's a lie. 216 00:10:58,328 --> 00:10:59,939 I never wanted to be an actor. 217 00:11:00,211 --> 00:11:02,227 You forced me on the stage. 218 00:11:02,323 --> 00:11:03,291 That's a lie! 219 00:11:03,292 --> 00:11:04,941 You left it to me to get you a job... 220 00:11:04,942 --> 00:11:07,298 And I've no influence except in the theater. 221 00:11:07,749 --> 00:11:08,796 Forced you?! 222 00:11:09,010 --> 00:11:12,258 You never wanted to do anything except loaf in bar rooms. 223 00:11:12,698 --> 00:11:15,531 After all the money I wasted on your education... 224 00:11:15,626 --> 00:11:19,302 And all you did was get fired and disgraced from every college you went. 225 00:11:19,361 --> 00:11:22,178 Well for God's sake don't drag up that ancient history! 226 00:11:22,495 --> 00:11:24,367 It's not ancient history that you have to come back... 227 00:11:24,368 --> 00:11:26,421 Every summer to live on me. 228 00:11:26,827 --> 00:11:30,404 Well I earn my board and lodging working on the grounds. 229 00:11:31,428 --> 00:11:33,466 It saves you hiring a man. 230 00:11:34,335 --> 00:11:36,454 You have to be driven even to do that much. 231 00:11:36,691 --> 00:11:38,334 I wouldn’t give a damn if you ever displayed... 232 00:11:38,335 --> 00:11:39,978 The slightest sign of gratitude. 233 00:11:40,342 --> 00:11:44,254 The only thanks is to have you sneer at me for a dirty miser... 234 00:11:44,256 --> 00:11:46,118 Sneer at my profession... 235 00:11:46,119 --> 00:11:49,532 Sneer at every damned thing in the world, except yourself. 236 00:11:50,909 --> 00:11:54,420 That’s not true, Papa. You can’t hear me talking to myself, that’s all. 237 00:11:55,898 --> 00:12:00,163 “Ingratitude, the vilest weed that grows”! 238 00:12:04,707 --> 00:12:07,037 God! I could see that line coming! 239 00:12:08,279 --> 00:12:11,762 God, how many thousand times... 240 00:12:12,845 --> 00:12:14,163 All right, Papa. 241 00:12:14,615 --> 00:12:15,917 I’m a bum. 242 00:12:16,434 --> 00:12:19,120 You’re young yet. You could still make your mark. 243 00:12:19,784 --> 00:12:21,727 You had the talent to become a fine actor! 244 00:12:21,728 --> 00:12:23,474 You have it still. You’re my son! 245 00:12:23,529 --> 00:12:26,415 Oh, let’s forget me. I’m not interested in the subject... 246 00:12:26,558 --> 00:12:28,129 And neither are you. 247 00:12:29,834 --> 00:12:32,143 What started us on this? 248 00:12:34,979 --> 00:12:36,436 Doc Hardy! 249 00:12:37,913 --> 00:12:40,000 When is he going to call you up about Edmund? 250 00:12:40,357 --> 00:12:42,157 Around lunch time. 251 00:12:43,513 --> 00:12:46,037 The less you say about Edmund’s sickness... 252 00:12:46,038 --> 00:12:47,489 The better for your conscience! 253 00:12:47,490 --> 00:12:49,374 You’re more responsible than anyone! 254 00:12:49,532 --> 00:12:52,011 That’s a lie! I won’t stand for that, Papa! 255 00:12:52,107 --> 00:12:53,520 It’s the truth! 256 00:12:58,468 --> 00:13:00,623 He grew up admiring you as a hero! 257 00:13:01,485 --> 00:13:04,024 If you ever gave him advice except in the ways of rottenness... 258 00:13:04,025 --> 00:13:05,001 I’ve never heard of it! 259 00:13:05,458 --> 00:13:07,220 You made him old before his time... 260 00:13:07,269 --> 00:13:09,126 Pumping him full of what you consider... 261 00:13:09,176 --> 00:13:11,136 Worldly wisdom, when he was too young to see... 262 00:13:11,200 --> 00:13:14,354 That your mind was so poisoned by your own failure in life... 263 00:13:14,539 --> 00:13:15,729 You wanted to believe... 264 00:13:15,826 --> 00:13:18,826 Every man was a knave with his soul for sale... 265 00:13:18,991 --> 00:13:21,312 And every woman who wasn’t a whore was a fool! 266 00:13:21,480 --> 00:13:24,024 All right. All right. I did put him wise to a few things, 267 00:13:24,828 --> 00:13:27,106 But not until after I'd seen he’d started to raise hell... 268 00:13:27,169 --> 00:13:30,089 And would only laugh at me if I pulled that good advice... 269 00:13:30,090 --> 00:13:31,264 Older brother stuff. 270 00:13:31,613 --> 00:13:34,517 All I did was make a pal of him and be absolutely frank... 271 00:13:34,580 --> 00:13:36,788 So he’d learn from my mistakes that... 272 00:13:37,837 --> 00:13:40,548 Well, that if you can’t be good you can at least be careful. 273 00:13:44,263 --> 00:13:46,411 That’s a rotten accusation, Papa. 274 00:13:47,916 --> 00:13:49,995 You know how much that kid means to me... 275 00:13:50,051 --> 00:13:51,853 And how close we’ve always been... 276 00:13:52,221 --> 00:13:54,174 Not like the usual brothers. 277 00:13:54,778 --> 00:13:56,413 I’d do anything for him. 278 00:13:56,858 --> 00:13:58,750 I know you may have thought it was for the best. 279 00:13:59,045 --> 00:14:01,425 I didn’t say you did it deliberately to harm him. 280 00:14:01,502 --> 00:14:02,978 Besides it’s damned rot! 281 00:14:03,191 --> 00:14:05,358 I’d like to see anyone influence Edmund... 282 00:14:05,359 --> 00:14:06,922 Any more than he wants to be. 283 00:14:07,330 --> 00:14:09,433 What had I to do with all the crazy stunts... 284 00:14:09,434 --> 00:14:11,108 He’s pulled in the last few years... 285 00:14:11,218 --> 00:14:14,956 Working his way all over the map as a sailor and all that stuff. 286 00:14:15,007 --> 00:14:16,166 No, thanks! 287 00:14:16,482 --> 00:14:18,759 I’ll stick to Broadway, and a room with a bath... 288 00:14:18,760 --> 00:14:20,617 And bars that serve bonded Bourbon. 289 00:14:20,791 --> 00:14:22,831 You and Broadway! 290 00:14:22,958 --> 00:14:24,419 It’s made you what you are! 291 00:14:25,209 --> 00:14:27,756 Whatever Edmund’s done, he’s had the guts to go off on his own... 292 00:14:27,796 --> 00:14:30,426 Where he couldn’t come whining to me the minute he was broke. 293 00:14:30,497 --> 00:14:33,010 He’s always come home broke finally, hasn’t he? 294 00:14:33,090 --> 00:14:35,519 And what's his going away get him? Look at him now! 295 00:14:39,469 --> 00:14:42,415 God! That’s a lousy thing to say. I didn’t mean that. 296 00:14:43,290 --> 00:14:45,005 He’s been doing well on the paper. 297 00:14:45,096 --> 00:14:47,318 You used to talk about becoming a newspaper man... 298 00:14:47,356 --> 00:14:50,048 But you were never willing to start at the bottom, you expected... 299 00:14:50,075 --> 00:14:52,940 Oh for God's sake Papa! Can't you lay off me? 300 00:14:54,944 --> 00:14:57,431 Damnable luck Edmund should be sick right now... 301 00:14:57,495 --> 00:14:59,314 It couldn't have come at a worse time for him. 302 00:14:59,703 --> 00:15:00,974 Or for your mother. 303 00:15:01,707 --> 00:15:03,732 It's damnable she should have this to upset her... 304 00:15:03,788 --> 00:15:06,400 Just when she needs peace and freedom from worry. 305 00:15:06,710 --> 00:15:10,523 She's been so well in the two months since she came home. 306 00:15:11,285 --> 00:15:12,700 It's been heaven to me. 307 00:15:13,352 --> 00:15:15,298 This home's been a real home again. 308 00:15:16,418 --> 00:15:19,492 - But I needn't tell you Jamie. - No. I felt the same way Papa. 309 00:15:19,611 --> 00:15:22,925 Yes. She's been a different woman entirely from the other times. 310 00:15:23,297 --> 00:15:26,454 She's control of her nerves, or she had until Edmund got sick. 311 00:15:26,510 --> 00:15:29,480 Now you can feel her growing tense and frightened underneath. 312 00:15:30,160 --> 00:15:31,953 I wish to God we could keep the truth from her... 313 00:15:31,985 --> 00:15:34,611 But we can't if he's to be sent to a sanatorium. 314 00:15:35,363 --> 00:15:38,413 What makes it worse is her father died of consumption. 315 00:15:38,485 --> 00:15:40,510 She worshiped him. She's never forgotten him. 316 00:15:41,484 --> 00:15:43,019 Yes it'll be hard for her. 317 00:15:43,617 --> 00:15:44,744 But she can do it! 318 00:15:44,839 --> 00:15:46,496 She's the willpower now. 319 00:15:47,324 --> 00:15:48,700 We must help her Jamie. 320 00:15:48,969 --> 00:15:50,813 In every way we can. 321 00:15:51,464 --> 00:15:52,432 Of course Papa. 322 00:15:54,860 --> 00:15:58,385 Outside of nerves she seemed perfectly alright this morning. 323 00:15:58,502 --> 00:16:01,203 Yes, never better, she's full of fun and mischief. 324 00:16:02,953 --> 00:16:04,700 Why do you say 'seems'? 325 00:16:05,441 --> 00:16:08,601 Why shouldn't she be alright? What the hell do you mean? 326 00:16:08,664 --> 00:16:11,032 Don't start jumping down my throat. 327 00:16:12,080 --> 00:16:13,416 God! Papa. 328 00:16:14,095 --> 00:16:17,100 This ought to be one thing we can talk over frankly, without a battle. 329 00:16:17,403 --> 00:16:18,721 I'm sorry Jamie. 330 00:16:19,678 --> 00:16:20,869 But go on and tell me. 331 00:16:20,924 --> 00:16:23,275 There's nothing to tell. I was all wrong. 332 00:16:28,748 --> 00:16:29,735 It's just that... 333 00:16:30,078 --> 00:16:31,188 last night... 334 00:16:32,423 --> 00:16:34,095 Well you know how it is Papa. 335 00:16:34,789 --> 00:16:36,431 I can't forget the past. 336 00:16:37,245 --> 00:16:39,688 I can't help being suspicious anymore than you can. 337 00:16:40,384 --> 00:16:41,550 That's the hell of it. 338 00:16:42,235 --> 00:16:44,026 And it makes it hell for Mama. 339 00:16:44,532 --> 00:16:47,435 - She watches us watching her. - I know. 340 00:16:48,978 --> 00:16:50,097 Well what was it? 341 00:16:50,893 --> 00:16:52,258 Can't you speak up? 342 00:16:53,072 --> 00:16:55,699 Around 3 o'clock this morning, I woke up... 343 00:16:56,079 --> 00:16:58,716 And I heard Mama moving around in the spare room. 344 00:17:00,103 --> 00:17:01,841 Then she went to the bathroom. 345 00:17:02,238 --> 00:17:04,071 Now, I pretended to be asleep... 346 00:17:04,151 --> 00:17:06,306 And she stopped outside in the hall to listen... 347 00:17:06,370 --> 00:17:08,497 As if she wanted to make sure I was. 348 00:17:08,737 --> 00:17:10,690 For God's sake! Is that all? 349 00:17:10,856 --> 00:17:15,419 She told me herself the foghorn kept her awake all last night... 350 00:17:15,436 --> 00:17:17,477 And every night since Edmund's been sick... 351 00:17:17,541 --> 00:17:20,439 She's been up and down going to his room to see how he was. 352 00:17:20,513 --> 00:17:23,712 Yes, that's right. She did stop to listen outside his room. 353 00:17:26,157 --> 00:17:28,892 But it was her being in the spare room that scared me. 354 00:17:31,302 --> 00:17:32,493 Papa... 355 00:17:33,715 --> 00:17:37,385 I can't help remembering that when she starts sleeping alone in there... 356 00:17:37,864 --> 00:17:39,174 It's always been a sign. 357 00:17:39,342 --> 00:17:41,675 But it isn't this time. It's easily explained. 358 00:17:41,786 --> 00:17:44,798 Where else could she go last night to get away from my snoring? 359 00:17:45,466 --> 00:17:48,223 How you can live with a mind that sees nothing but... 360 00:17:48,229 --> 00:17:50,916 The worse motives behind everything is beyond me. 361 00:17:50,985 --> 00:17:53,328 Don't pull that! I just said I was all wrong. 362 00:17:53,795 --> 00:17:55,612 I suppose I'm as glad of that as you are. 363 00:17:55,796 --> 00:17:57,882 Yes. Yes. I'm sure you are Jamie. 364 00:18:00,766 --> 00:18:04,359 It's been like a curse she can't escape if worry over Edmund. 365 00:18:05,681 --> 00:18:08,818 It was her long sickness after bringing him into the world that she first... 366 00:18:08,884 --> 00:18:10,982 She didn't have anything to do with it. 367 00:18:11,030 --> 00:18:12,217 I'm not blaming her. 368 00:18:12,290 --> 00:18:14,377 Well who are you blaming? Edmund? For being born? 369 00:18:14,520 --> 00:18:16,198 You damn fool, no one was to blame. 370 00:18:16,246 --> 00:18:17,897 That bastard of a doctor was. 371 00:18:18,016 --> 00:18:20,870 From what Mama said he was another cheap quack like Hardy. 372 00:18:21,020 --> 00:18:23,498 You wouldn't pay for a first class doctor. 373 00:18:23,570 --> 00:18:24,584 You liar! 374 00:18:24,678 --> 00:18:26,273 So I'm to blame, am I? 375 00:18:26,336 --> 00:18:27,607 That's what you're driving at. 376 00:18:27,862 --> 00:18:30,044 You evil minded loafer. 377 00:18:31,684 --> 00:18:33,558 What were you two arguing about? 378 00:18:33,644 --> 00:18:34,589 Same old stuff. 379 00:18:34,678 --> 00:18:37,005 I heard you saying something about a doctor. 380 00:18:37,133 --> 00:18:39,809 And your father accusing you of being evil minded. 381 00:18:39,899 --> 00:18:42,526 Oh, that? Well I was just saying again that Doc. Hardy... 382 00:18:42,582 --> 00:18:44,987 Isn't my idea of the world's greatest physician. 383 00:18:46,910 --> 00:18:49,578 No. No. I wouldn't say he was either. 384 00:18:50,813 --> 00:18:52,512 That Bridget! 385 00:18:53,051 --> 00:18:55,077 I... I thought I'd never get away. 386 00:18:55,291 --> 00:18:58,850 She told me all about her second cousin on the police force in St. Louis. 387 00:18:58,985 --> 00:19:01,917 Well if you're going to work on the hedge, why don't you go? 388 00:19:03,254 --> 00:19:04,603 I... I mean... 389 00:19:05,238 --> 00:19:09,155 Take advantage of the sunshine before the fog comes back. 390 00:19:10,713 --> 00:19:12,658 Because I... I know it will. 391 00:19:13,203 --> 00:19:15,733 That is... The rheumatism in my hands knows it. 392 00:19:16,170 --> 00:19:18,584 It's a better weather prophet than you are James. 393 00:19:22,036 --> 00:19:23,385 How ugly they are. 394 00:19:23,949 --> 00:19:25,879 Who would ever believe they were once beautiful. 395 00:19:26,095 --> 00:19:28,256 Now now Mary... None of that foolishness. 396 00:19:28,353 --> 00:19:30,670 They're the sweetest hands in the world. 397 00:19:32,211 --> 00:19:33,210 Come on Jamie! 398 00:19:33,347 --> 00:19:35,305 The way to start work is to start work. 399 00:19:35,377 --> 00:19:38,036 The hot sun will sweat some of that booze fat off your middle. 400 00:19:40,073 --> 00:19:42,355 We're all so proud of you Mama, so darn happy! 401 00:19:43,015 --> 00:19:44,848 But you've still got to be careful. 402 00:19:45,792 --> 00:19:48,092 I mean you mustn't worry so much about Edmund. 403 00:19:48,147 --> 00:19:49,290 He'll be all right. 404 00:19:50,100 --> 00:19:51,562 Of course he'll be all right 405 00:19:53,039 --> 00:19:55,210 And I.. I don't know what you mean. 406 00:19:55,323 --> 00:19:56,870 Warning me to be careful... 407 00:19:59,348 --> 00:20:01,436 All right Mama. I'm sorry I spoke. 408 00:20:22,397 --> 00:20:23,627 Here you are! 409 00:20:23,777 --> 00:20:26,589 I was just going upstairs to look for you. 410 00:20:26,948 --> 00:20:29,109 I didn't want to mix up in any arguments. 411 00:20:29,753 --> 00:20:30,911 I feel too rotten. 412 00:20:32,335 --> 00:20:35,391 I'm sure you don't feel half as badly as you make out... 413 00:20:35,424 --> 00:20:36,884 You're such a baby. 414 00:20:36,998 --> 00:20:39,686 You like to get us worried so we'll make a fuss over you... 415 00:20:39,877 --> 00:20:42,226 No, no. I'm only teasing you dear, I know how... 416 00:20:42,306 --> 00:20:44,457 Miserably uncomfortable you must be. 417 00:20:44,835 --> 00:20:46,969 But you feel better today, don't you? 418 00:20:47,436 --> 00:20:49,741 All the same you... you've grown much too thin. 419 00:20:49,836 --> 00:20:51,281 Come on, sit down. 420 00:20:51,341 --> 00:20:53,491 All you need is your mother to nurse you. 421 00:20:53,841 --> 00:20:58,044 Big as you are, you're still the baby of the family to me you know? 422 00:20:58,124 --> 00:21:00,386 Never mind me, you take care of yourself. 423 00:21:00,443 --> 00:21:01,586 That's all that counts. 424 00:21:01,657 --> 00:21:02,832 But I am. 425 00:21:03,627 --> 00:21:06,789 Heavens... Don't you see how fat I've grown? 426 00:21:07,823 --> 00:21:09,886 I'll have to have all my dresses let out. 427 00:21:11,032 --> 00:21:13,097 They started clipping the hedge. 428 00:21:13,559 --> 00:21:14,591 Poor Jamie! 429 00:21:14,845 --> 00:21:18,602 How he hates working in front where everyone passing can see him. 430 00:21:19,650 --> 00:21:21,273 Not that I want anything to do with them. 431 00:21:21,356 --> 00:21:23,528 I've always hated this place and everyone in it. 432 00:21:23,846 --> 00:21:25,521 But your father liked it 433 00:21:25,909 --> 00:21:28,400 And insisted on building this house and... 434 00:21:28,583 --> 00:21:30,360 I've had to come here every summer. 435 00:21:30,841 --> 00:21:32,873 It was wrong from the start. 436 00:21:32,945 --> 00:21:35,906 Everything was done in the cheapest possible way. 437 00:21:36,465 --> 00:21:39,346 Your father would never spend the money to make it right. 438 00:21:40,018 --> 00:21:42,302 It's just as well we haven't any friends. 439 00:21:42,668 --> 00:21:45,100 I'd be ashamed to have them step in the door. 440 00:21:46,096 --> 00:21:46,873 But... 441 00:21:47,809 --> 00:21:50,272 Yo... Your father has never wanted family friends. 442 00:21:51,043 --> 00:21:53,608 All he likes is to hobnob with men... 443 00:21:53,776 --> 00:21:55,561 In bar-rooms or at the club. 444 00:21:56,661 --> 00:21:58,423 You and Jamie are the same way. 445 00:21:58,624 --> 00:22:00,028 But you're not to blame. 446 00:22:02,897 --> 00:22:04,968 I know it's useless to talk but... 447 00:22:06,802 --> 00:22:09,870 Sometimes I... I feel so lonely. 448 00:22:17,487 --> 00:22:19,039 You've got to be fair Mama. 449 00:22:20,074 --> 00:22:21,876 It may have been all his fault in the beginning... 450 00:22:22,020 --> 00:22:24,045 But you know that latter on, even if he'd wanted to... 451 00:22:24,117 --> 00:22:25,712 We couldn't have had people here. 452 00:22:25,994 --> 00:22:28,129 Don't I... I can't bear having you remind... 453 00:22:28,192 --> 00:22:30,496 Don't take it that way please Mama, I'm trying to help. 454 00:22:31,000 --> 00:22:32,595 Because it's bad for you to forget. 455 00:22:32,650 --> 00:22:35,524 The right way is to remember, then you'll always be on your guard. 456 00:22:35,813 --> 00:22:37,725 I... I don't understand... 457 00:22:37,963 --> 00:22:40,680 Why you should suddenly say such things. 458 00:22:41,676 --> 00:22:43,778 What put it in your mind this morning? 459 00:22:43,949 --> 00:22:47,275 Nothing, it just... Well I... because I feel rotten and blue I suppose. 460 00:22:47,498 --> 00:22:48,586 Tell me the truth. 461 00:22:49,528 --> 00:22:52,311 Why are you so... Suspicious all of a sudden? 462 00:22:52,693 --> 00:22:53,691 I'm not. 463 00:22:53,763 --> 00:22:55,934 Yes you are, I feel it. 464 00:22:56,577 --> 00:22:59,449 Your father and Jamie too, particularly... 465 00:22:59,509 --> 00:23:01,727 Now don't start imagining things Mama. 466 00:23:01,728 --> 00:23:03,150 It makes it so much harder... 467 00:23:03,151 --> 00:23:06,444 Living in this atmosphere of constant suspicion... 468 00:23:06,572 --> 00:23:08,809 Knowing that everyone is spying on me... 469 00:23:08,848 --> 00:23:10,697 That none of you believe in me or trust me. 470 00:23:10,771 --> 00:23:12,945 - That's crazy Mama. We do trust you. - If there only... 471 00:23:13,027 --> 00:23:15,575 Some place I could go to get away for a day... 472 00:23:15,634 --> 00:23:17,483 Or even an afternoon... 473 00:23:17,572 --> 00:23:19,627 Some woman friend I could talk to. 474 00:23:19,722 --> 00:23:24,004 Not about anything serious, simply laugh and gossip and forget for a while. 475 00:23:24,261 --> 00:23:26,731 Someone besides the servants... That stupid Cathleen. 476 00:23:26,771 --> 00:23:29,019 Stop it Mama, you're getting yourself worked up over nothing. 477 00:23:29,077 --> 00:23:31,990 Your father goes out, he meets his friends in bar-rooms or at the club. 478 00:23:32,055 --> 00:23:34,501 You and Jamie have the boys, you know, you go out. 479 00:23:34,676 --> 00:23:36,534 But I'm alone, I've always been alone. 480 00:23:36,583 --> 00:23:38,242 Come on now, you know that's a fib. 481 00:23:38,491 --> 00:23:40,587 One of us always stays around to keep you company. 482 00:23:40,690 --> 00:23:42,818 Because you're afraid to trust me alone. 483 00:23:44,514 --> 00:23:47,172 I insist you tell me why you... 484 00:23:47,307 --> 00:23:49,931 Act so differently this morning. 485 00:23:50,630 --> 00:23:52,711 Why you felt you had to remind me. 486 00:23:55,287 --> 00:23:56,597 It's stupid... 487 00:23:57,834 --> 00:24:00,844 It's just because I wasn't asleep when you came into my room last night. 488 00:24:01,886 --> 00:24:03,707 You didn't go back to your and Papa's room... 489 00:24:03,771 --> 00:24:05,763 You went into the spare room for the rest of the night. 490 00:24:06,095 --> 00:24:10,325 Because your father's snoring was driving me crazy... 491 00:24:10,793 --> 00:24:12,691 For heavens sake! 492 00:24:12,836 --> 00:24:16,687 Haven't I often used the spare room as my bedroom? 493 00:24:18,090 --> 00:24:19,334 But I... I... 494 00:24:20,347 --> 00:24:22,504 I see what you thought, that was.. 495 00:24:22,560 --> 00:24:24,115 - I didn't think... - Well I... 496 00:24:26,376 --> 00:24:27,424 So... 497 00:24:28,845 --> 00:24:29,956 You were... 498 00:24:30,716 --> 00:24:33,556 You were pretending to be asleep... 499 00:24:34,111 --> 00:24:35,809 In order to spy on me. 500 00:24:35,878 --> 00:24:38,101 No, I did it because I knew if you found out I was... 501 00:24:38,187 --> 00:24:40,277 Feverish and couldn't sleep, it would upset you. 502 00:24:41,154 --> 00:24:44,170 Jamie was pretending to be asleep too... 503 00:24:44,236 --> 00:24:46,561 I'm sure, and I suppose your father... 504 00:24:46,617 --> 00:24:48,365 - Stop it Mama! - Oh Edmund! 505 00:24:48,454 --> 00:24:50,351 I can't bear it when even you... 506 00:24:50,881 --> 00:24:53,309 It would serve all of you right if it was true. 507 00:24:53,388 --> 00:24:54,546 Mama don't say that! 508 00:24:54,602 --> 00:24:56,779 - That's the way you... - Stop suspecting me! 509 00:25:01,278 --> 00:25:02,492 Please dear. 510 00:25:03,833 --> 00:25:05,095 You hurt me. 511 00:25:08,758 --> 00:25:10,493 I couldn't sleep because... 512 00:25:11,612 --> 00:25:13,819 I was thinking about you. 513 00:25:15,729 --> 00:25:17,785 Th-that's the real reason. 514 00:25:19,014 --> 00:25:22,272 I've been so worried ever since you got sick. 515 00:25:23,775 --> 00:25:25,045 That's foolishness. 516 00:25:25,689 --> 00:25:27,300 You know it's just a bad cold. 517 00:25:27,362 --> 00:25:29,626 Yes. Yes, of course, I know that. 518 00:25:29,672 --> 00:25:30,783 But listen, Mama. 519 00:25:31,243 --> 00:25:32,798 I want you to promise me... 520 00:25:33,149 --> 00:25:35,435 That e-even if it should turn out to be something worse. 521 00:25:35,516 --> 00:25:37,724 - You know I'll soon be all right again anyway. - No! No! 522 00:25:37,763 --> 00:25:39,639 And you won't worry yourself sick about it... 523 00:25:39,662 --> 00:25:41,285 And you'll keep on taking care of yourself. 524 00:25:41,286 --> 00:25:43,422 No! No! I won't listen when you're so silly. 525 00:25:43,423 --> 00:25:45,567 There's absolutely no reason to talk... 526 00:25:45,568 --> 00:25:47,575 As if you expected something dreadful. 527 00:25:47,704 --> 00:25:49,474 Of course I promise you. 528 00:25:49,553 --> 00:25:52,532 I give you my sacred word of honor. 529 00:25:58,704 --> 00:26:00,402 But I suppose you're remembering... 530 00:26:01,365 --> 00:26:03,269 I've promised before. 531 00:26:03,974 --> 00:26:05,430 I've no word of honor 532 00:26:10,510 --> 00:26:11,486 No. 533 00:26:12,170 --> 00:26:13,535 I'm not blaming you dear. 534 00:26:14,228 --> 00:26:15,419 How can you help it? 535 00:26:15,815 --> 00:26:17,277 How can any of us forget? 536 00:26:19,747 --> 00:26:21,137 That's what makes it so... 537 00:26:21,326 --> 00:26:23,718 Hard for all of us. We can't... Forget. 538 00:26:24,648 --> 00:26:25,886 Stop it Mama! 539 00:26:27,169 --> 00:26:28,121 Alright dear. 540 00:26:28,669 --> 00:26:31,831 I didn't mean to be so gloomy. Don't mind me. 541 00:26:32,038 --> 00:26:34,419 Here, let me feel your head. 542 00:26:34,501 --> 00:26:35,367 Well! 543 00:26:35,678 --> 00:26:37,368 It's nice and cool! 544 00:26:37,670 --> 00:26:39,831 You certainly haven't any fever now. 545 00:26:39,981 --> 00:26:41,189 Forget me, it's you. 546 00:26:41,732 --> 00:26:44,700 But I'm... I'm quite alright dear, except... 547 00:26:44,831 --> 00:26:46,910 I... I naturally feel... 548 00:26:47,259 --> 00:26:51,229 Tired and nervous this morning after such a bad night. 549 00:26:54,102 --> 00:26:55,523 I... I really... 550 00:26:56,564 --> 00:26:58,144 Ought to go upstairs... 551 00:26:59,083 --> 00:27:00,425 And lie down... 552 00:27:00,527 --> 00:27:03,035 Until lunch time... And take a nap. 553 00:27:06,393 --> 00:27:07,584 What are you gonna do? 554 00:27:08,250 --> 00:27:09,093 Read? 555 00:27:09,632 --> 00:27:10,497 Here? 556 00:27:13,210 --> 00:27:15,107 It'd be much better for you if you... 557 00:27:15,220 --> 00:27:18,085 Went out in the... fresh air, sunshine. 558 00:27:18,775 --> 00:27:20,693 Don't get overheated remember... 559 00:27:21,980 --> 00:27:23,646 Be sure and wear a hat. 560 00:27:26,088 --> 00:27:28,969 Or are you afraid to trust me alone? 561 00:27:37,244 --> 00:27:39,434 Can't you stop talking like that? 562 00:27:39,617 --> 00:27:42,722 I think you ought to take a nap. 563 00:27:43,631 --> 00:27:45,615 I'll go out and help Jamie bear up. 564 00:27:45,678 --> 00:27:48,562 I'd love to lie in the shade and watch him work. 565 00:29:16,221 --> 00:29:17,816 It'll be lunch time soon... 566 00:29:17,871 --> 00:29:21,358 Will I call your father and Mr. Jamie or will you? 567 00:29:21,715 --> 00:29:22,581 You do it. 568 00:29:22,791 --> 00:29:24,243 Oh and you'd better call my mother too. 569 00:29:24,378 --> 00:29:27,658 What for? She's always on time without any calling. 570 00:29:27,785 --> 00:29:30,787 God bless her, she has some consideration for the help. 571 00:29:30,852 --> 00:29:31,797 She's taking a nap. 572 00:29:31,991 --> 00:29:35,483 She wasn't asleep when I finished my work upstairs a while back. 573 00:29:35,594 --> 00:29:39,527 She was lying down in the spare room with her eyes wide open. 574 00:29:39,594 --> 00:29:41,466 She had a terrible headache, she said. 575 00:29:43,850 --> 00:29:45,796 Oh well then... Just call my father. 576 00:29:46,308 --> 00:29:49,229 No wonder my feet kill me each night. 577 00:29:49,391 --> 00:29:51,049 Mr Tyrone! 578 00:29:51,121 --> 00:29:52,898 Mr. Jamie! 579 00:29:52,992 --> 00:29:54,566 It's time! 580 00:30:11,785 --> 00:30:13,105 Sneaking one, ah? 581 00:30:14,071 --> 00:30:16,838 Cut out the bluff kid, you're a rottener actor than I am. 582 00:30:18,230 --> 00:30:19,650 Grabbing while the going was good. 583 00:30:20,710 --> 00:30:22,146 Why don't you sneak one while you got a chance? 584 00:30:22,201 --> 00:30:24,441 Yeah I was thinking of that little thing. 585 00:30:24,651 --> 00:30:27,888 Hey! The old man was out there talking to old Captain Turner. 586 00:30:34,210 --> 00:30:36,040 Yup, he's still at it. 587 00:30:55,564 --> 00:30:56,992 You don't think that'll fool him do ya? 588 00:30:57,182 --> 00:30:58,978 Well... Maybe not... 589 00:31:00,574 --> 00:31:01,828 But he can't prove it. 590 00:31:03,413 --> 00:31:05,334 God! I hope he doesn't forget lunch... 591 00:31:05,421 --> 00:31:07,033 Listening to himself talk. 592 00:31:07,639 --> 00:31:08,528 I'm hungry. 593 00:31:09,682 --> 00:31:12,118 That's what I hate working out down at the front. 594 00:31:12,292 --> 00:31:15,136 He puts on an act for every damn fool that comes along. 595 00:31:15,224 --> 00:31:16,703 You're in luck to be hungry. 596 00:31:17,084 --> 00:31:19,116 The way I feel I don't care if I ever eat again. 597 00:31:19,890 --> 00:31:20,866 Look kid... 598 00:31:21,257 --> 00:31:22,670 You know I never lectured you... 599 00:31:22,693 --> 00:31:25,241 But Doc. Hardy was right when he told you to cut out the red eye. 600 00:31:25,500 --> 00:31:26,737 Well I'm going to after the... 601 00:31:26,738 --> 00:31:28,421 After he hands me the bad news this afternoon... 602 00:31:28,468 --> 00:31:30,447 A few before then won't make any difference. 603 00:31:31,393 --> 00:31:32,298 Jamie... 604 00:31:32,965 --> 00:31:34,100 What do you think it is? 605 00:31:34,843 --> 00:31:36,032 How the hell would I know? 606 00:31:36,286 --> 00:31:37,278 I'm no doc. 607 00:31:48,315 --> 00:31:49,522 Where's Mama? 608 00:31:51,021 --> 00:31:52,221 Upstairs. 609 00:32:03,381 --> 00:32:04,618 When did she go up? 610 00:32:07,596 --> 00:32:10,173 Oh about the time you started working on the hedge I guess. 611 00:32:10,697 --> 00:32:12,213 She said she was going to take a nap. 612 00:32:13,614 --> 00:32:14,710 You didn't tell me. 613 00:32:15,003 --> 00:32:16,274 Why should I? What about it? 614 00:32:16,873 --> 00:32:19,214 She was tired out, she didn't get much sleep last night. 615 00:32:19,261 --> 00:32:20,985 Yeah I know she didn't. 616 00:32:22,615 --> 00:32:24,577 Damn foghorn kept me awake too. 617 00:32:27,486 --> 00:32:28,692 She's... 618 00:32:29,281 --> 00:32:30,702 Been upstairs alone... 619 00:32:30,900 --> 00:32:32,809 All morning uh? You haven't seen her? 620 00:32:33,127 --> 00:32:34,143 No, I was reading. 621 00:32:34,594 --> 00:32:37,307 I wanted to give her a chance to sleep. 622 00:32:38,250 --> 00:32:39,599 Is she coming down to lunch? 623 00:32:40,844 --> 00:32:41,691 Of course. 624 00:32:41,757 --> 00:32:44,183 No! No "Of course" about it. 625 00:32:44,544 --> 00:32:46,163 She might not want any lunch... 626 00:32:46,195 --> 00:32:48,921 Or she might start having her meals alone upstairs. 627 00:32:48,970 --> 00:32:50,603 - Cut out... Can't you think of... - Well it's happened hasn't it? 628 00:32:53,905 --> 00:32:55,434 You're all wrong to suspect anything. 629 00:32:57,772 --> 00:32:59,280 Cathleen saw her not long ago. 630 00:32:59,320 --> 00:33:01,388 Mama didn't tell her she wouldn't be down for lunch. 631 00:33:01,780 --> 00:33:03,487 Then she wasn't taking a nap. 632 00:33:03,526 --> 00:33:06,938 No, not right then but, she was lying down, Cathleen said. 633 00:33:08,489 --> 00:33:11,488 - In the spare room? - Yes! For Pete’s sake what of it? 634 00:33:11,573 --> 00:33:12,320 You damn fool! 635 00:33:12,368 --> 00:33:14,066 Why did you leave her alone so long? 636 00:33:14,115 --> 00:33:15,353 Why didn't you stick around? 637 00:33:15,385 --> 00:33:17,220 Because she accused me and you and Papa... 638 00:33:17,276 --> 00:33:19,205 Of spying on her all the time and not trusting her. 639 00:33:19,795 --> 00:33:21,296 She made me feel ashamed. 640 00:33:21,923 --> 00:33:23,828 I know how rotten it must be for her. 641 00:33:24,922 --> 00:33:26,739 And she promised on her sacred word of honor. 642 00:33:26,804 --> 00:33:28,145 You ought to know that doesn't mean... 643 00:33:28,200 --> 00:33:30,837 - It does this time. - That's what we though the other times. 644 00:33:33,049 --> 00:33:36,088 Oh, look kid I know you think I'm a cynical bastard... 645 00:33:36,120 --> 00:33:38,884 But remember I've seen more of this game than you have. 646 00:33:39,300 --> 00:33:42,247 You never knew what was really wrong until you were in prep school. 647 00:33:42,414 --> 00:33:43,803 Papa and I kept it from you. 648 00:33:44,989 --> 00:33:47,719 I was wise ten years or more before we had to tell you. 649 00:33:48,787 --> 00:33:50,089 I know this game backwards... 650 00:33:50,167 --> 00:33:53,036 And I've been thinking all morning of the way she acted last night... 651 00:33:53,084 --> 00:33:54,886 When she thought we were asleep. 652 00:33:55,072 --> 00:33:56,993 I haven't been able to think of anything else... 653 00:33:57,119 --> 00:34:00,590 And now you tell me she got you to leave her alone upstairs all morning. 654 00:34:04,845 --> 00:34:05,703 Alright kid. 655 00:34:06,313 --> 00:34:07,615 Don't start a battle with me. 656 00:34:09,204 --> 00:34:10,983 I hope as much as you do I'm crazy. 657 00:34:12,077 --> 00:34:13,441 You know I've been happy as hell... 658 00:34:13,442 --> 00:34:15,656 Because I'd really begun to believe that this time... 659 00:34:17,670 --> 00:34:19,972 She's coming downstairs, you win on that one... 660 00:34:20,027 --> 00:34:21,926 I guess I was a damn suspicious louse. 661 00:34:23,226 --> 00:34:24,794 Damn it I wish I'd grabbed another drink 662 00:34:36,293 --> 00:34:39,253 You mustn't cough like that, it's bad for your throat. 663 00:34:39,610 --> 00:34:42,606 You don't want to get a sore throat on top of your cold do you? 664 00:34:44,048 --> 00:34:47,183 But I seem always to be picking on you telling you "don't do this"... 665 00:34:47,256 --> 00:34:48,225 "Don't do that". 666 00:34:48,264 --> 00:34:50,488 Forgive me dear, it's just that I want to take care of you. 667 00:34:50,696 --> 00:34:51,950 Oh I know that. 668 00:34:52,299 --> 00:34:53,746 What about you, do you feel rested? 669 00:34:54,820 --> 00:34:56,059 Ever so much better. 670 00:34:56,568 --> 00:34:58,672 I've been lying down ever since you went out... 671 00:34:58,695 --> 00:35:01,285 It's what I needed after such a restless night, 672 00:35:01,349 --> 00:35:02,706 I don't feel nervous now. 673 00:35:02,772 --> 00:35:03,701 That's fine. 674 00:35:04,278 --> 00:35:07,267 Good heavens how down in the mouth you look you look Jamie. 675 00:35:07,331 --> 00:35:08,744 What's the matter now? 676 00:35:09,566 --> 00:35:10,476 Nothing. 677 00:35:12,044 --> 00:35:13,393 I'd forgotten... 678 00:35:13,897 --> 00:35:16,635 You've been working on the front hedge! 679 00:35:16,746 --> 00:35:20,051 That always account for your sinking into the dumps, doesn't it? 680 00:35:21,612 --> 00:35:23,569 If you wanna think so Mama. 681 00:35:24,977 --> 00:35:27,573 Well that's the effect it always has isn't it? 682 00:35:28,712 --> 00:35:30,648 What a big baby you are! 683 00:35:31,046 --> 00:35:32,292 Isn't he Edmund? 684 00:35:32,712 --> 00:35:34,805 He's certainly a fool to care what anyone thinks. 685 00:35:35,798 --> 00:35:36,718 Yes! 686 00:35:38,742 --> 00:35:41,423 The only way is to make yourself not care. 687 00:35:42,734 --> 00:35:44,266 Where's your father? 688 00:35:45,049 --> 00:35:47,096 I heard Cathleen call him. 689 00:35:47,302 --> 00:35:51,133 She's down there now, interrupting the famous beautiful voice. 690 00:35:52,123 --> 00:35:53,724 She should have more respect. 691 00:35:55,270 --> 00:35:58,070 It's you who should have more respect. 692 00:35:59,948 --> 00:36:00,694 You... 693 00:36:01,273 --> 00:36:04,434 Who thanks to him have never had to work hard in your life. 694 00:36:07,727 --> 00:36:08,988 Remember, your... 695 00:36:09,677 --> 00:36:11,655 Father is getting old Jamie. 696 00:36:13,946 --> 00:36:14,915 You really... 697 00:36:15,073 --> 00:36:16,865 Ought to show more consideration. 698 00:36:18,050 --> 00:36:21,109 I'm hungry. I wish that old man would get a move on. 699 00:36:22,163 --> 00:36:24,893 It's a rotten trick the way he keeps meals waiting... 700 00:36:24,956 --> 00:36:27,035 And then beefs because they're spoiled. 701 00:36:28,200 --> 00:36:30,835 Very trying Jamie. You don't know how trying. 702 00:36:31,357 --> 00:36:33,511 You don’t have to keep house with summer servants. 703 00:36:34,222 --> 00:36:35,872 Who don't care because... 704 00:36:36,296 --> 00:36:38,352 Because they know it isn't a permanent position. 705 00:36:38,422 --> 00:36:41,170 Your father won't even pay the wages the best summer help ask. 706 00:36:41,224 --> 00:36:42,336 So every year... 707 00:36:42,392 --> 00:36:44,844 I have stupid lazy greenhorns to deal with. 708 00:36:46,071 --> 00:36:48,214 But you've heard me say this a thousand times. 709 00:36:48,311 --> 00:36:50,176 What makes you ramble on like that Mama? 710 00:36:52,793 --> 00:36:53,801 I don't know... 711 00:36:53,999 --> 00:36:55,604 Nothing in particular dear. 712 00:36:55,890 --> 00:36:57,565 It's foolish of me. 713 00:36:58,266 --> 00:36:59,806 Lunch is ready ma'am. 714 00:36:59,807 --> 00:37:02,254 I went down to Mr. Tyrone like you ordered... 715 00:37:02,255 --> 00:37:03,641 And he said he'd come right away but... 716 00:37:03,701 --> 00:37:04,968 Alright Cathleen. 717 00:37:05,029 --> 00:37:06,124 Tell Bridget I'm sorry... 718 00:37:06,170 --> 00:37:09,449 But she'll have to wait a few minutes until Mr. Tyrone is here. 719 00:37:09,540 --> 00:37:10,898 Yes ma'am. 720 00:37:10,945 --> 00:37:12,994 Look damn it! Why don't we go in without him? 721 00:37:13,160 --> 00:37:14,320 He's told us to. 722 00:37:14,716 --> 00:37:15,893 He doesn't mean it. 723 00:37:17,253 --> 00:37:19,969 Don't you know your father yet? He'd be so terribly hurt. 724 00:37:21,864 --> 00:37:22,769 I'll... 725 00:37:24,101 --> 00:37:25,929 I'll go make him get a move on. 726 00:37:33,408 --> 00:37:35,478 Why do you stare... Like that? 727 00:37:37,833 --> 00:37:38,618 You know. 728 00:37:39,038 --> 00:37:39,865 I don't know. 729 00:37:40,256 --> 00:37:42,478 Oh, for God's sake Mama, 730 00:37:42,645 --> 00:37:45,100 You think you can fool me? I'm not blind. 731 00:37:45,645 --> 00:37:47,531 I don't know what you're talking about. 732 00:37:47,983 --> 00:37:48,833 No? 733 00:37:51,377 --> 00:37:53,989 Take a look at your eyes in the mirror. 734 00:37:56,551 --> 00:37:58,212 I got Papa moving... 735 00:37:58,910 --> 00:37:59,871 He'll... 736 00:38:01,116 --> 00:38:02,439 He'll be here any minute. 737 00:38:04,631 --> 00:38:05,652 What's the matter. 738 00:38:06,812 --> 00:38:08,132 - Your brother... - What happened Mama? 739 00:38:08,413 --> 00:38:11,350 Your brother ought to be ashamed of himself, he's been insinuating... 740 00:38:11,636 --> 00:38:13,136 I don't know what. 741 00:38:13,839 --> 00:38:15,736 God... Damn you! 742 00:38:15,783 --> 00:38:17,057 Stop it at once! Do it! 743 00:38:17,067 --> 00:38:17,960 He's a liar! 744 00:38:18,744 --> 00:38:20,145 It's a lie, isn't it Mama? 745 00:38:20,218 --> 00:38:21,180 What's a lie? 746 00:38:26,306 --> 00:38:27,938 Edmund... Don't. 747 00:38:31,235 --> 00:38:34,851 There comes your father up the steps, I must... Warn Bridget. 748 00:38:37,888 --> 00:38:38,656 Well? 749 00:38:39,751 --> 00:38:40,565 Well... 750 00:38:41,137 --> 00:38:41,899 What? 751 00:38:44,329 --> 00:38:45,156 You're a liar. 752 00:38:48,272 --> 00:38:49,328 Sorry I'm late! 753 00:38:49,345 --> 00:38:51,526 Captain Turner stopped to talk... 754 00:38:51,527 --> 00:38:53,830 Once he starts gabbing you can't get away from him. 755 00:38:53,903 --> 00:38:55,754 You mean once he starts listening. 756 00:38:56,485 --> 00:38:59,223 It's all right, the level in the bottle hasn't changed. 757 00:38:59,360 --> 00:39:00,535 I wasn't noticing that. 758 00:39:01,055 --> 00:39:02,777 As if it proved anything with you about. 759 00:39:02,881 --> 00:39:04,127 I'm on to your tricks. 760 00:39:04,430 --> 00:39:06,549 Did I hear you say "let's all have a drink"? 761 00:39:06,776 --> 00:39:09,475 Jamie's welcome after his hard morning's work... 762 00:39:09,577 --> 00:39:12,026 But I won't invite you. Doctor Harding... 763 00:39:12,065 --> 00:39:13,588 To hell with Doc. Hardy! 764 00:39:13,785 --> 00:39:15,329 One isn't going to kill me. 765 00:39:16,166 --> 00:39:17,483 I feel all in Papa. 766 00:39:17,673 --> 00:39:19,858 Well come along then, it's before a meal. 767 00:39:20,090 --> 00:39:22,686 I've always found that good whiskey, taken in moderation... 768 00:39:22,735 --> 00:39:24,925 As an appetizer, is the best of tonics. 769 00:39:25,119 --> 00:39:27,127 I said "in moderation". 770 00:39:28,126 --> 00:39:30,933 It'd be a waste of breath mentioning moderation to you. 771 00:39:38,111 --> 00:39:38,904 Well... 772 00:39:39,460 --> 00:39:40,658 Here's to health and happiness. 773 00:39:43,892 --> 00:39:44,924 That's a joke! 774 00:39:45,936 --> 00:39:46,713 What is? 775 00:39:48,125 --> 00:39:49,516 Nothing. Here's to health. 776 00:39:49,970 --> 00:39:51,225 Well what's the matter here? 777 00:39:51,946 --> 00:39:54,441 There's gloom in the air you could cut with a knife. 778 00:39:54,588 --> 00:39:56,056 You got the drink you were after didn't you? 779 00:39:56,079 --> 00:39:58,298 Why are you wearing that gloomy look on your mug? 780 00:39:58,365 --> 00:40:00,854 You won't be singing a song yourself soon. 781 00:40:00,918 --> 00:40:01,895 Shut up Jamie! 782 00:40:05,735 --> 00:40:07,044 I thought lunch was ready. 783 00:40:07,872 --> 00:40:09,388 I'm hungry as a hunter. 784 00:40:09,737 --> 00:40:10,838 Where's your mother? 785 00:40:10,904 --> 00:40:11,725 Here I am! 786 00:40:12,503 --> 00:40:14,265 I've had to calm down Bridget. 787 00:40:15,163 --> 00:40:17,840 She's in a tantrum over you being late again and I don't blame her. 788 00:40:18,527 --> 00:40:20,813 If your lunch is dried up from waiting in the oven... 789 00:40:20,852 --> 00:40:23,068 She said you could like it or leave it, for all she cared. 790 00:40:23,468 --> 00:40:26,596 Oh, I'm so sick and tired of pretending this is a home! 791 00:40:26,793 --> 00:40:29,233 You won't help me. You won't put yourself out the least bit 792 00:40:29,696 --> 00:40:32,110 You don't know how to act in a home, you don't even want one... 793 00:40:32,117 --> 00:40:34,540 You've never have wanted one since we were married. 794 00:40:34,728 --> 00:40:37,892 You should have remained a bachelor and lived in second rate hotels. 795 00:40:37,900 --> 00:40:40,131 Entertained your friends in bar-rooms... 796 00:40:40,132 --> 00:40:41,143 And nothing ever would've happened... 797 00:40:41,144 --> 00:40:42,120 Mama! 798 00:40:46,318 --> 00:40:47,157 Stop talking. 799 00:40:49,297 --> 00:40:50,605 Why don't we go in to lunch? 800 00:40:53,468 --> 00:40:55,372 Yes... Yes. 801 00:40:55,430 --> 00:40:57,970 It is inconsiderate of me to... 802 00:40:57,971 --> 00:41:00,135 Dig up the past when I... 803 00:41:00,136 --> 00:41:02,823 Know your father and Jamie must be hungry. 804 00:41:03,121 --> 00:41:05,345 I do hope you have an appetite dear. 805 00:41:05,488 --> 00:41:07,250 You really must eat more... 806 00:41:08,841 --> 00:41:10,293 Why is that glass there? 807 00:41:10,692 --> 00:41:11,684 Did you have a drink? 808 00:41:12,200 --> 00:41:14,049 Oh, how can you be such a fool? 809 00:41:14,769 --> 00:41:16,452 You're to blame James! 810 00:41:16,604 --> 00:41:17,835 How could you let him? 811 00:41:18,167 --> 00:41:19,255 Do you want to kill him? 812 00:41:19,923 --> 00:41:21,606 Don't you remember my father? 813 00:41:22,229 --> 00:41:24,205 He wouldn't stop after he was stricken. 814 00:41:24,438 --> 00:41:26,049 He said doctors were fools... 815 00:41:26,088 --> 00:41:28,566 He thought like you that whiskey is a good tonic... 816 00:41:34,884 --> 00:41:35,924 But of course... 817 00:41:36,154 --> 00:41:38,464 There... There... There's no comparison... 818 00:41:39,198 --> 00:41:40,293 At all, is there? 819 00:41:40,957 --> 00:41:43,049 I... I don't know why I... I... 820 00:41:45,135 --> 00:41:46,254 Forgive me for... 821 00:41:46,737 --> 00:41:48,365 Scolding you James. 822 00:41:49,088 --> 00:41:52,464 One... One small drink won't hurt Edmund. 823 00:41:53,174 --> 00:41:54,769 Might be good for him. 824 00:41:55,007 --> 00:41:57,080 If it gives him an appetite. 825 00:41:57,311 --> 00:41:58,854 For God's sake let's eat. 826 00:41:59,536 --> 00:42:01,387 Come on kid, let's put on the feed bag. 827 00:42:01,713 --> 00:42:02,467 Yes. 828 00:42:03,320 --> 00:42:05,130 You go in with your mother lads. 829 00:42:05,573 --> 00:42:07,100 I'll join you in a second. 830 00:42:12,470 --> 00:42:13,479 Why... Why do you... 831 00:42:13,917 --> 00:42:15,156 Look at me like that? 832 00:42:15,241 --> 00:42:16,984 Please stop staring James... 833 00:42:17,381 --> 00:42:19,135 One would think you're accusing me. 834 00:42:20,213 --> 00:42:21,249 James... 835 00:42:23,277 --> 00:42:25,167 You don't... Understand... 836 00:42:25,212 --> 00:42:29,828 I understand that I've been a god damned fool to believe in you. 837 00:42:31,016 --> 00:42:34,024 I don't know what you mean by "believing" in me, all I felt was... 838 00:42:34,253 --> 00:42:36,099 Distrust and spying... 839 00:42:36,433 --> 00:42:37,639 And suspicion. 840 00:42:38,332 --> 00:42:39,722 Why are you having another drink? 841 00:42:40,292 --> 00:42:42,358 You never have more than one drink before lunch. 842 00:42:43,607 --> 00:42:44,266 Well... 843 00:42:44,464 --> 00:42:46,601 I know what to expect, you'll be drunk tonight 844 00:42:47,027 --> 00:42:48,612 And it won't be the first time, will it? 845 00:42:48,748 --> 00:42:49,740 Or the thousandth. 846 00:42:53,562 --> 00:42:54,411 James... 847 00:42:56,493 --> 00:42:58,151 Please... Please... 848 00:43:00,394 --> 00:43:01,982 You don't understand... 849 00:43:02,492 --> 00:43:04,127 I've been so worried... 850 00:43:04,317 --> 00:43:05,652 So worried about Edmund. 851 00:43:05,937 --> 00:43:06,819 I'm so afraid. 852 00:43:06,862 --> 00:43:09,543 I don't want to listen to your excuses Mary. 853 00:43:10,085 --> 00:43:10,990 Excuses? 854 00:43:11,953 --> 00:43:12,604 You... 855 00:43:12,661 --> 00:43:13,558 You mean... 856 00:43:13,589 --> 00:43:15,320 You couldn't believe that of me. 857 00:43:15,384 --> 00:43:17,353 You mustn't believe that James. No. 858 00:43:17,801 --> 00:43:18,507 Shall... 859 00:43:18,587 --> 00:43:20,428 Shall we not go in to lunch... 860 00:43:20,516 --> 00:43:21,420 Dear? 861 00:43:21,760 --> 00:43:24,977 I don't want anything but I know you must be hungry. 862 00:43:30,270 --> 00:43:31,181 James... 863 00:43:37,746 --> 00:43:39,269 I tried... 864 00:43:39,927 --> 00:43:40,931 So hard. 865 00:43:42,943 --> 00:43:44,308 I tried... 866 00:43:44,903 --> 00:43:46,244 So hard! 867 00:43:48,210 --> 00:43:49,139 Please... 868 00:43:50,011 --> 00:43:50,830 Believe me. 869 00:43:50,878 --> 00:43:52,695 Yes I suppose you did Mary. 870 00:43:53,279 --> 00:43:55,231 But for the love of God... 871 00:43:55,302 --> 00:43:57,853 Why couldn't you have the strength to keep on? 872 00:43:58,779 --> 00:44:01,054 I... I don't know what you're talking about. 873 00:44:02,089 --> 00:44:03,320 Have the strength to... 874 00:44:03,709 --> 00:44:05,130 Keep on what? 875 00:44:06,857 --> 00:44:07,663 Never mind. 876 00:44:09,296 --> 00:44:10,596 It's no use now. 877 00:45:11,368 --> 00:45:14,225 It's unreasonable to expect Bridget and Cathleen to act as... 878 00:45:14,226 --> 00:45:16,649 If this were home, they know it isn't as well as we know it. 879 00:45:17,096 --> 00:45:18,819 Never has been and never will be. 880 00:45:19,265 --> 00:45:21,759 No it never can be now, but it was once... 881 00:45:21,870 --> 00:45:22,965 Before you... 882 00:45:23,055 --> 00:45:24,031 Before I what? 883 00:45:24,994 --> 00:45:25,788 No... 884 00:45:25,859 --> 00:45:27,740 No dear, whatever you say, it isn't true. 885 00:45:28,530 --> 00:45:29,776 It was never a home. 886 00:45:30,561 --> 00:45:33,347 You've always preferred a club or a bar-room. 887 00:45:34,409 --> 00:45:35,663 And for me it's... 888 00:45:37,218 --> 00:45:41,312 Always been as lonely as a dirty room in a one night stand hotel. 889 00:45:44,984 --> 00:45:45,769 I'm... 890 00:45:46,110 --> 00:45:48,104 I'm worried about you... Edmund. 891 00:45:48,606 --> 00:45:49,455 Edmund. You... 892 00:45:49,566 --> 00:45:51,472 You hardly touched anything. 893 00:45:53,700 --> 00:45:56,073 It's alright for me not to have an appetite, I've... 894 00:45:56,906 --> 00:45:58,568 I've been growing too fat but... 895 00:46:00,145 --> 00:46:01,133 You must eat. 896 00:46:02,819 --> 00:46:05,392 Pro... Promise me you will dear, for my sake. 897 00:46:05,577 --> 00:46:06,522 Yes Mama. 898 00:46:06,864 --> 00:46:07,896 That's a good boy. 899 00:46:13,093 --> 00:46:14,046 I'll answer. 900 00:46:14,513 --> 00:46:16,451 Maguire said he'd call. 901 00:46:19,774 --> 00:46:20,607 Hello. 902 00:46:23,644 --> 00:46:24,667 How are you doctor? 903 00:46:30,834 --> 00:46:31,778 I see... 904 00:46:35,561 --> 00:46:36,267 Well... 905 00:46:36,584 --> 00:46:39,204 You'll explain all about it when you see him this afternoon. 906 00:46:40,605 --> 00:46:43,145 Yes he'll be with you without fail at 4 o'clock. 907 00:46:46,132 --> 00:46:46,895 Yes. 908 00:46:48,390 --> 00:46:49,256 Yes. 909 00:46:51,276 --> 00:46:51,942 Goodbye. 910 00:46:52,215 --> 00:46:52,974 Goodbye doctor. 911 00:47:06,649 --> 00:47:08,825 Well that didn't sound like glad tidings. 912 00:47:09,158 --> 00:47:10,761 It was doctor Hardy. 913 00:47:11,050 --> 00:47:13,852 He wants to... You to be sure to see him at 4 this afternoon. 914 00:47:13,964 --> 00:47:15,154 What did he say? 915 00:47:15,469 --> 00:47:17,318 Not that I give a damn. 916 00:47:17,381 --> 00:47:20,056 I wouldn't believe him if he swore on a stack of bibles. 917 00:47:20,226 --> 00:47:22,153 Don't pay attention to a word he says Edmund. 918 00:47:22,259 --> 00:47:23,100 Mary! 919 00:47:23,460 --> 00:47:26,071 Oh, we all know why you like him James, because he's cheap. 920 00:47:26,529 --> 00:47:29,827 Please don't try to tell me, I know all about the Doctor Hardy. 921 00:47:30,104 --> 00:47:32,306 Heaven knows I ought to after all these years. 922 00:47:33,040 --> 00:47:34,453 He's an ignorant fool. 923 00:47:34,556 --> 00:47:36,700 Should be a law to keep man like him from practicing. 924 00:47:37,371 --> 00:47:39,014 He hasn't the slightest idea... 925 00:47:39,396 --> 00:47:41,872 When you're in agony and half insane, he... 926 00:47:42,222 --> 00:47:46,193 Sits and holds your hand and delivers sermons on willpower. 927 00:47:46,674 --> 00:47:48,475 He deliberately humiliates you. 928 00:47:48,657 --> 00:47:51,763 He makes you beg and plead. He treats you like a criminal. 929 00:47:51,992 --> 00:47:53,493 He understands nothing! 930 00:47:53,801 --> 00:47:56,444 And yet it was exactly the same type of cheap quack... 931 00:47:56,445 --> 00:47:57,831 Who first gave you the medicine... 932 00:47:57,832 --> 00:48:00,474 And you never knew what it was until it was too late. 933 00:48:00,569 --> 00:48:01,887 I hate doctors! 934 00:48:02,061 --> 00:48:04,142 For Christ sake Mama! 935 00:48:04,214 --> 00:48:05,119 Stop talking. 936 00:48:05,177 --> 00:48:07,273 Yes Mary, it's no time to... 937 00:48:07,387 --> 00:48:08,617 You're... You're... 938 00:48:09,775 --> 00:48:11,857 Quite right dear, forgive me, I... 939 00:48:12,542 --> 00:48:13,550 I... 940 00:48:13,605 --> 00:48:15,091 It's useless to be angry now. 941 00:48:15,737 --> 00:48:18,712 I'm going upstairs... For a moment. 942 00:48:19,453 --> 00:48:20,604 If you'll excuse me. 943 00:48:22,266 --> 00:48:23,789 I have to fix my hair. 944 00:48:24,992 --> 00:48:27,666 That is, if I can... Find my glasses. 945 00:48:28,068 --> 00:48:29,875 - I'll be right down. - Mary. 946 00:48:30,958 --> 00:48:31,926 Yes dear! 947 00:48:32,346 --> 00:48:33,252 What is it? 948 00:48:36,997 --> 00:48:37,846 Nothing. 949 00:48:38,146 --> 00:48:41,506 You're welcome to come up and watch me if you're so suspicious. 950 00:48:42,373 --> 00:48:45,177 As if that could do any good, you'd only postpone it. 951 00:48:45,975 --> 00:48:47,396 I'm not your jailor. 952 00:48:47,509 --> 00:48:48,914 This isn't a prison. 953 00:48:48,986 --> 00:48:49,724 No, 954 00:48:50,335 --> 00:48:52,702 I know you can't help thinking it's a home. 955 00:49:04,186 --> 00:49:06,342 I'm sorry dear. 956 00:49:08,329 --> 00:49:10,219 I don't mean to be bitter. 957 00:49:11,483 --> 00:49:13,055 It... It's not your fault. 958 00:49:15,721 --> 00:49:17,475 Another shot in the arm. 959 00:49:17,713 --> 00:49:19,104 Cut out that kind of talk. 960 00:49:19,225 --> 00:49:23,289 Yes, hold your foul tongue and your rotten broadway loafers lingo! 961 00:49:23,355 --> 00:49:25,792 Have you no pity or decency? 962 00:49:26,203 --> 00:49:28,064 You ought to be thrown out into the gutter! 963 00:49:28,425 --> 00:49:30,584 If I did it you know damn well who would weep you... 964 00:49:30,632 --> 00:49:33,052 And plead for you, and excuse you, and complain... 965 00:49:33,053 --> 00:49:34,658 Until I let you come back. 966 00:49:34,659 --> 00:49:36,405 God! Don't I know that? 967 00:49:37,152 --> 00:49:38,152 No pity? 968 00:49:38,278 --> 00:49:40,952 I have all the pity in the world for her because I understand... 969 00:49:41,007 --> 00:49:43,176 What a hard game to beat she is up against. 970 00:49:43,336 --> 00:49:45,288 Which is more than you ever had. 971 00:49:46,405 --> 00:49:49,691 No, the cures are no damn good except for a while. 972 00:49:50,421 --> 00:49:53,488 The truth is there is no cure and we've been saps to hope. 973 00:49:54,229 --> 00:49:55,363 They never come back. 974 00:49:56,151 --> 00:49:58,493 "They never come back" 975 00:50:00,094 --> 00:50:01,634 Everything's in the bag, 976 00:50:02,402 --> 00:50:04,759 It's all a frame up, we're all fall guys... 977 00:50:04,760 --> 00:50:06,902 And suckers and we can't beat the game. 978 00:50:07,377 --> 00:50:08,758 God, if I felt the way you do... 979 00:50:08,799 --> 00:50:10,609 Oh, I thought you did! 980 00:50:10,715 --> 00:50:13,112 Your poetry isn't very cheery... 981 00:50:13,151 --> 00:50:15,488 Nor the stuff you read and claim to admire. 982 00:50:15,529 --> 00:50:16,655 Shut up both of you! 983 00:50:16,842 --> 00:50:18,428 There's little choice between the philosophy... 984 00:50:18,429 --> 00:50:20,215 You learn from broadway loafers... 985 00:50:20,262 --> 00:50:22,051 And the one Edmund got from his books. 986 00:50:22,196 --> 00:50:24,108 They're both rotten to the core. 987 00:50:24,207 --> 00:50:26,516 You both flouted the faith you were born and brought up in 988 00:50:26,571 --> 00:50:28,628 The one true faith of the Catholic Church 989 00:50:28,970 --> 00:50:32,252 And your denial has brought nothing but self-destruction. 990 00:50:32,633 --> 00:50:34,334 That's the bunk Papa. 991 00:50:34,335 --> 00:50:36,189 We don't pretend at any rate. 992 00:50:36,190 --> 00:50:37,977 I don't notice you've worn any holes... 993 00:50:37,978 --> 00:50:40,255 In the knees of your pants going to mass. 994 00:50:41,317 --> 00:50:43,659 It's true, I'm a bad catholic in the observance. 995 00:50:43,714 --> 00:50:44,501 God forgive me. 996 00:50:44,970 --> 00:50:46,026 But I believe. 997 00:50:46,894 --> 00:50:47,989 And you're a liar! 998 00:50:48,211 --> 00:50:51,087 I may not go to church but every night and morning of my life... 999 00:50:51,143 --> 00:50:52,992 I get down on my knees and pray. 1000 00:50:53,609 --> 00:50:54,844 Did you pray for Mama? 1001 00:50:56,587 --> 00:50:57,571 I did. 1002 00:50:58,467 --> 00:51:01,192 I've prayed to God these many years for her. 1003 00:51:01,816 --> 00:51:03,592 But what's the good of talk? 1004 00:51:04,415 --> 00:51:07,611 Only, I wish she hadn't led me into hope this time. 1005 00:51:08,024 --> 00:51:10,726 By God! I never will again. 1006 00:51:12,054 --> 00:51:13,968 That's a rotten thing to say Papa. 1007 00:51:15,845 --> 00:51:17,020 Well I'll hope! 1008 00:51:17,646 --> 00:51:19,534 She's only just started, it can't have got... 1009 00:51:19,535 --> 00:51:21,606 A hold on her yet, she can still stop. 1010 00:51:22,158 --> 00:51:25,358 You can't talk to her now, she'll listen but she won't listen. 1011 00:51:25,746 --> 00:51:29,826 Yes, every day from now on will be the same drifting away from us... 1012 00:51:30,073 --> 00:51:31,755 Until at the end of each night... 1013 00:51:32,029 --> 00:51:33,130 Cut it out Papa! 1014 00:51:35,664 --> 00:51:36,777 I'll go up and get dressed. 1015 00:51:39,821 --> 00:51:42,768 I'll make so much noise she can't suspect I've come up to spy on her. 1016 00:51:47,776 --> 00:51:49,585 What did Doc. Hardy say about the kid? 1017 00:51:50,222 --> 00:51:51,388 It's what you thought... 1018 00:51:51,935 --> 00:51:53,286 He's got consumption. 1019 00:51:56,055 --> 00:51:56,761 Damn it! 1020 00:51:56,848 --> 00:51:59,143 There's no possible doubt, he says. 1021 00:51:59,654 --> 00:52:00,519 Aw hell... 1022 00:52:01,338 --> 00:52:03,147 He'll have to go to a sanatorium. 1023 00:52:03,245 --> 00:52:04,047 Yes. 1024 00:52:04,173 --> 00:52:06,928 The sooner the better, Hardy says, for him and everyone around him. 1025 00:52:07,503 --> 00:52:08,313 He claims... 1026 00:52:08,448 --> 00:52:09,979 In six months to a year... 1027 00:52:10,281 --> 00:52:12,442 Edmund will be cured, if he obeys orders. 1028 00:52:14,129 --> 00:52:16,161 Who would have thought a child of mine? 1029 00:52:17,282 --> 00:52:19,022 Doesn't come from my side of the family. 1030 00:52:19,610 --> 00:52:23,032 Wasn't one of us who didn't have lungs as strong as an ox! 1031 00:52:23,054 --> 00:52:24,942 Who gives a damn about that part of it? 1032 00:52:31,813 --> 00:52:33,389 Where does Hardy want to send him? 1033 00:52:34,031 --> 00:52:35,658 That's what I've to see him about. 1034 00:52:36,439 --> 00:52:40,066 Well for God's sake pick out a good place and not some cheap dump. 1035 00:52:40,248 --> 00:52:42,321 I'll send him wherever Hardy thinks best. 1036 00:52:42,469 --> 00:52:45,961 Well don't give Hardy your old over the hills to the poor house song... 1037 00:52:46,009 --> 00:52:47,570 About taxes and mortgages. 1038 00:52:47,676 --> 00:52:50,208 I'm no millionaire that can throw money away. 1039 00:52:50,249 --> 00:52:51,677 Why shouldn't I tell Hardy the truth? 1040 00:52:51,757 --> 00:52:54,306 Because he'll think you want him to pick a cheap dump. 1041 00:52:54,937 --> 00:52:56,929 And because he'll know it isn't the truth... 1042 00:52:57,528 --> 00:53:00,941 Especially if he hears afterwards you've seen McGuire 1043 00:53:01,087 --> 00:53:03,809 And let that flannel-mouth, gold-brick merchant... 1044 00:53:03,864 --> 00:53:05,685 Sting you with another piece of bum property! 1045 00:53:05,779 --> 00:53:07,208 Keep your nose out of my business! 1046 00:53:07,209 --> 00:53:09,092 This is Edmund's business! 1047 00:53:09,442 --> 00:53:12,807 What I'm afraid of is, with your Irish bog-trotter idea... 1048 00:53:12,858 --> 00:53:15,405 That consumption is fatal, you'll figure it's a waste of money... 1049 00:53:15,445 --> 00:53:17,129 To spend any more than you can help. 1050 00:53:17,130 --> 00:53:17,894 You liar! 1051 00:53:17,895 --> 00:53:19,243 All right, prove I'm a liar! 1052 00:53:19,479 --> 00:53:22,515 That's what I want, that's why I brought it up. 1053 00:53:22,995 --> 00:53:25,019 I have every hope Edmund will be cured... 1054 00:53:25,053 --> 00:53:26,871 And keep your dirty tongue off Ireland. 1055 00:53:27,020 --> 00:53:30,008 You're a fine one to sneer with a map of it on your face. 1056 00:53:30,207 --> 00:53:32,002 Not after I wash my face. 1057 00:53:36,253 --> 00:53:36,888 Well... 1058 00:53:38,046 --> 00:53:39,872 I've said all I have to say, it's up to you. 1059 00:53:42,656 --> 00:53:45,827 What do you want me to do this afternoon, now you're going uptown? 1060 00:53:46,634 --> 00:53:48,300 I've done all I can do on the hedge 1061 00:53:48,301 --> 00:53:49,813 Until you cut more of it... 1062 00:53:49,814 --> 00:53:52,838 And you don't want me to go ahead with your clipping, I know that. 1063 00:53:52,938 --> 00:53:54,438 No, you'd get it crooked. 1064 00:53:54,691 --> 00:53:56,059 Like you get everything else. 1065 00:53:58,420 --> 00:54:00,262 Well I'd better go uptown with Edmund then. 1066 00:54:01,114 --> 00:54:02,383 Bad news coming on top of... 1067 00:54:02,384 --> 00:54:04,502 What's happened with Mama may hit him hard. 1068 00:54:04,688 --> 00:54:06,053 Yes go with him Jamie... 1069 00:54:06,715 --> 00:54:08,564 Keep up his spirits if you can. 1070 00:54:08,834 --> 00:54:11,328 If you can without making it an excuse to get drunk. 1071 00:54:11,329 --> 00:54:12,891 What would I use for money? 1072 00:54:12,892 --> 00:54:16,133 The last I heard they were still selling booze not giving it away. 1073 00:54:17,369 --> 00:54:18,834 I'll get dressed. 1074 00:54:25,338 --> 00:54:27,741 You haven't... Seen my... Glasses... 1075 00:54:28,138 --> 00:54:29,694 Anywhere have you... Jamie? 1076 00:54:30,989 --> 00:54:32,531 You haven't seen them have you James? 1077 00:54:32,587 --> 00:54:33,658 No my dear. 1078 00:54:34,322 --> 00:54:35,925 What's the matter with Jamie? 1079 00:54:36,521 --> 00:54:38,330 Have you been nagging at him again? 1080 00:54:39,332 --> 00:54:42,906 You really sh... Shouldn't treat him with such contempt all the time. 1081 00:54:43,608 --> 00:54:44,710 He's not to blame... 1082 00:54:44,711 --> 00:54:46,266 If he'd been brought up in a real home... 1083 00:54:46,267 --> 00:54:47,615 I'm sure it would have been dif... 1084 00:54:59,825 --> 00:55:02,014 You're not much of a weather prophet James. 1085 00:55:03,251 --> 00:55:04,977 See how hazy it's getting. 1086 00:55:05,282 --> 00:55:07,298 I can hardly see the other shore. 1087 00:55:07,363 --> 00:55:10,315 Yes I spoke too soon, we're in for another night of fog I'm afraid. 1088 00:55:12,580 --> 00:55:14,975 Well... I won't mind it tonight. 1089 00:55:15,841 --> 00:55:19,294 No... I don't imagine you will... Mary. 1090 00:55:21,177 --> 00:55:22,536 I... I don't... 1091 00:55:23,203 --> 00:55:24,132 See Jamie. 1092 00:55:24,930 --> 00:55:26,065 Going down to the hedge. 1093 00:55:26,614 --> 00:55:27,852 Where... Where did he go? 1094 00:55:28,098 --> 00:55:30,140 He's going with Edmund to the doctor's, 1095 00:55:30,204 --> 00:55:32,522 He went upstairs to change his clothes. 1096 00:55:33,255 --> 00:55:35,668 I have to do the same or I'll be late for my appointment. 1097 00:55:35,724 --> 00:55:37,065 Please wait a little while. 1098 00:55:37,502 --> 00:55:39,443 At least until one of the boys... 1099 00:55:40,182 --> 00:55:41,205 Comes down. 1100 00:55:41,947 --> 00:55:43,551 You... You'll all be... 1101 00:55:43,982 --> 00:55:45,792 Leaving me... So soon. 1102 00:55:46,220 --> 00:55:47,773 It's you who are leaving us... 1103 00:55:48,067 --> 00:55:49,035 Mary. 1104 00:55:50,858 --> 00:55:52,532 Well that... That's a silly thing... 1105 00:55:52,984 --> 00:55:53,993 To say James. 1106 00:55:54,136 --> 00:55:55,232 How could I leave? 1107 00:55:56,100 --> 00:55:57,577 There's nowhere I could go. 1108 00:55:57,783 --> 00:55:59,014 Who would I go to see? 1109 00:55:59,829 --> 00:56:01,009 I have no friends. 1110 00:56:01,118 --> 00:56:02,288 That's your own fault. 1111 00:56:03,688 --> 00:56:05,647 Surely there's something that you could do this afternoon... 1112 00:56:05,648 --> 00:56:07,061 That would be good for you Mary. 1113 00:56:07,229 --> 00:56:09,015 Take a drive in the automobile! 1114 00:56:09,102 --> 00:56:11,747 Get away from the house, get a little sun and fresh air. 1115 00:56:12,035 --> 00:56:13,431 I bought the automobile for you. 1116 00:56:13,432 --> 00:56:15,450 You know I don't care for the damn things... 1117 00:56:15,451 --> 00:56:17,634 I'd rather walk any day or take the trolly. 1118 00:56:17,800 --> 00:56:21,065 I had it here waiting for you when you came back from the sanatorium. 1119 00:56:21,598 --> 00:56:24,076 I thought it would give you pleasure and distract your mind. 1120 00:56:24,703 --> 00:56:28,026 You used to ride in it every day, you hardly use it at all lately. 1121 00:56:28,712 --> 00:56:30,782 Payed more money than I could afford. 1122 00:56:31,668 --> 00:56:32,739 There's the chauffeur... 1123 00:56:32,889 --> 00:56:35,269 I have to feed and board and pay high wages... 1124 00:56:35,270 --> 00:56:36,714 Whether he drives you or not. 1125 00:56:37,363 --> 00:56:38,171 Waste! 1126 00:56:38,984 --> 00:56:42,779 Same old waste that will land me in the poor house at my old age. 1127 00:56:43,305 --> 00:56:44,535 What good has it done you? 1128 00:56:44,805 --> 00:56:47,093 I might as well have thrown the money out the window. 1129 00:56:49,635 --> 00:56:51,923 It was a waste of money James. 1130 00:56:53,713 --> 00:56:56,183 You shouldn't have bought a second hand automobile. 1131 00:56:57,679 --> 00:56:59,489 You were swindled again. 1132 00:56:59,849 --> 00:57:01,563 As you always are because... 1133 00:57:01,753 --> 00:57:04,787 You insist on second hand bargains in everything. 1134 00:57:04,788 --> 00:57:06,017 It's one of the best makes. 1135 00:57:06,018 --> 00:57:07,512 You're as bad as Jamie. 1136 00:57:07,694 --> 00:57:09,241 Suspecting everyone. 1137 00:57:09,362 --> 00:57:10,147 No! 1138 00:57:10,324 --> 00:57:12,671 You... You mustn't be offended James. 1139 00:57:12,703 --> 00:57:15,957 I... I wasn't offended when you gave me the automobile. 1140 00:57:16,445 --> 00:57:19,557 I knew that was the way you have to do everything. 1141 00:57:19,704 --> 00:57:22,863 I was grateful and touched. I knew that buying the car was a... 1142 00:57:23,094 --> 00:57:25,174 Was a hard thing for you to do. 1143 00:57:26,222 --> 00:57:28,426 But it showed how much you love me... 1144 00:57:29,490 --> 00:57:30,720 In your way. 1145 00:57:32,152 --> 00:57:33,089 Especially... 1146 00:57:33,575 --> 00:57:36,010 As you couldn't really believe it would do me any good. 1147 00:57:36,011 --> 00:57:37,767 Mary, dear Mary. 1148 00:57:37,768 --> 00:57:39,514 For the love of God 1149 00:57:39,534 --> 00:57:42,866 For the boys sake, for my sake and for your own... 1150 00:57:42,867 --> 00:57:45,267 Won't you stop? Now. 1151 00:57:47,081 --> 00:57:48,057 Stop what? 1152 00:57:48,223 --> 00:57:49,748 What are you talking about? 1153 00:57:50,379 --> 00:57:51,392 James... 1154 00:57:52,048 --> 00:57:54,221 James we've loved each other, we always will. 1155 00:57:54,222 --> 00:57:56,515 Let's remember only that and not try to understand... 1156 00:57:56,516 --> 00:57:59,910 What we cannot understand or help things that cannot be helped. 1157 00:58:00,460 --> 00:58:01,333 The things... 1158 00:58:01,872 --> 00:58:05,360 Life... Has done to us, we cannot excuse or explain. 1159 00:58:05,745 --> 00:58:07,910 You won't... Even try? 1160 00:58:08,825 --> 00:58:09,944 Try, uh... 1161 00:58:10,333 --> 00:58:11,645 Try to go for a drive? 1162 00:58:12,122 --> 00:58:13,304 This afternoon dear? 1163 00:58:13,824 --> 00:58:16,721 Oh yes... Yes I... I will if you wish it. 1164 00:58:16,912 --> 00:58:17,793 Although... 1165 00:58:18,133 --> 00:58:20,342 It... It makes me feel lonelier... 1166 00:58:20,445 --> 00:58:22,445 Than if I stayed here. 1167 00:58:24,180 --> 00:58:25,013 There... 1168 00:58:25,270 --> 00:58:27,420 There's no one I can invite to drive with me. 1169 00:58:27,421 --> 00:58:29,606 I never know where to tell Smythe to go. 1170 00:58:31,332 --> 00:58:33,619 If there was only some friend's house where I could... 1171 00:58:34,338 --> 00:58:36,946 Drop in, laugh and gossip over a while. 1172 00:58:36,947 --> 00:58:38,383 But of course there isn't. 1173 00:58:39,314 --> 00:58:40,410 Never has been. 1174 00:58:43,740 --> 00:58:45,010 At the convent... 1175 00:58:46,209 --> 00:58:47,939 I had so many friends. 1176 00:58:50,242 --> 00:58:52,616 Naturally, after I married an actor, 1177 00:58:54,082 --> 00:58:55,201 Well... 1178 00:58:55,326 --> 00:58:58,468 You... You know how actors were considered in those days... 1179 00:58:58,469 --> 00:58:59,579 And then of course... 1180 00:58:59,848 --> 00:59:02,507 Right after we were married there was the scandal of... 1181 00:59:03,569 --> 00:59:04,474 Of that... 1182 00:59:05,008 --> 00:59:06,206 Woman who... 1183 00:59:06,582 --> 00:59:08,590 Had been your mistress suing you. 1184 00:59:09,471 --> 00:59:11,915 From then on, all my old friends either... 1185 00:59:12,343 --> 00:59:14,568 Pitied me or... Cut me dead. 1186 00:59:15,675 --> 00:59:17,858 I hated the ones that cut me dead... 1187 00:59:18,303 --> 00:59:20,271 Much less than the pitiers. 1188 00:59:20,281 --> 00:59:24,228 Mary for God's sake don't dig up what's long forgotten. 1189 00:59:24,511 --> 00:59:27,041 If you're that far gone in the past already... 1190 00:59:27,042 --> 00:59:29,307 When it's only the beginning of the afternoon... 1191 00:59:29,355 --> 00:59:31,561 What will you be tonight. 1192 00:59:33,457 --> 00:59:34,822 Come to think of it... 1193 00:59:36,273 --> 00:59:38,554 I do have to drive uptown. 1194 00:59:40,172 --> 00:59:43,122 There's something I must get at the drugstore. 1195 00:59:43,814 --> 00:59:46,762 Yes. Leave it to you to have some of the stuff hidden... 1196 00:59:46,834 --> 00:59:48,675 And prescriptions for more! 1197 00:59:49,712 --> 00:59:52,505 Well I hope you'll lay in a good stock ahead... 1198 00:59:52,506 --> 00:59:53,917 So we'll never have another night... 1199 00:59:53,918 --> 00:59:55,927 Like the one when you screamed for it... 1200 00:59:56,080 --> 00:59:58,289 And ran out of the house in your nightdress... 1201 00:59:58,361 --> 01:00:01,661 Half crazy to try and throw yourself off the dock! 1202 01:00:03,481 --> 01:00:04,711 I have to get... 1203 01:00:05,306 --> 01:00:06,497 Tooth powder... 1204 01:00:07,445 --> 01:00:09,215 And toilet soap... 1205 01:00:09,865 --> 01:00:11,700 And cold cream. 1206 01:00:20,984 --> 01:00:24,475 You mustn't remember, you mustn't humiliate me so! 1207 01:00:24,539 --> 01:00:25,610 Forgive me! 1208 01:00:25,728 --> 01:00:27,082 I'm sorry Mary. 1209 01:00:28,097 --> 01:00:29,855 It doesn't matter, nothing like that ever happened. 1210 01:00:29,903 --> 01:00:31,958 You must've dreamed it. 1211 01:00:37,794 --> 01:00:38,602 I... 1212 01:00:40,221 --> 01:00:41,571 I was so... 1213 01:00:42,200 --> 01:00:43,415 So healthy... 1214 01:00:44,297 --> 01:00:46,035 Before Edmund was born. 1215 01:00:48,902 --> 01:00:50,065 Do you remember James? 1216 01:00:50,935 --> 01:00:52,654 There wasn't a nerve in my body. 1217 01:00:52,864 --> 01:00:54,180 Even traveling with you... 1218 01:00:54,181 --> 01:00:56,500 Season after season, bearing children... 1219 01:00:56,658 --> 01:00:58,057 In hotel rooms... 1220 01:00:58,399 --> 01:00:59,947 I still kept healthy. 1221 01:01:04,159 --> 01:01:05,907 But bearing Edmund was... 1222 01:01:06,050 --> 01:01:07,408 The last straw. 1223 01:01:08,058 --> 01:01:09,798 I was so sick afterwards. 1224 01:01:11,285 --> 01:01:15,661 And that ignorant quack of a cheap hotel doctor... 1225 01:01:16,412 --> 01:01:18,966 All he knew was I was in pain. 1226 01:01:18,967 --> 01:01:21,566 It was easy for him to stop the pain. 1227 01:01:21,736 --> 01:01:22,728 Mary! 1228 01:01:23,007 --> 01:01:26,023 For God's sake, forget the past! 1229 01:01:27,124 --> 01:01:30,037 Why, how can I, the past is the present... 1230 01:01:30,180 --> 01:01:32,267 The future too, isn't it? 1231 01:01:34,627 --> 01:01:36,437 I blame only myself. 1232 01:01:37,111 --> 01:01:39,995 I swore after Eugene died I would never have another baby. 1233 01:01:40,529 --> 01:01:42,140 I was to blame for his death. 1234 01:01:44,249 --> 01:01:45,035 If... 1235 01:01:45,796 --> 01:01:47,558 If I hadn't left him... 1236 01:01:48,346 --> 01:01:49,433 With my mother... 1237 01:01:49,840 --> 01:01:51,418 To join you on the road... 1238 01:01:51,419 --> 01:01:54,158 Because you wrote telling me you missed me and were so lonely... 1239 01:01:54,885 --> 01:01:58,266 Jamie would never have been allowed, when he still had measles... 1240 01:01:58,537 --> 01:02:00,156 To go into the baby's room. 1241 01:02:00,566 --> 01:02:02,596 I always believed Jamie did it on purpose... 1242 01:02:02,597 --> 01:02:04,668 He was jealous of the baby he hated him. 1243 01:02:05,672 --> 01:02:06,672 Oh, I... 1244 01:02:06,828 --> 01:02:09,604 I... Know Jamie was only seven but he was never stupid. 1245 01:02:09,899 --> 01:02:12,073 He'd been warned it might kill the baby. 1246 01:02:12,824 --> 01:02:14,022 He knew. 1247 01:02:14,731 --> 01:02:16,730 I've never been able to forgive him for that. 1248 01:02:16,731 --> 01:02:18,678 Are you back to Eugene now? 1249 01:02:18,679 --> 01:02:22,132 Can't you let our dead baby rest in peace? 1250 01:02:22,650 --> 01:02:23,539 Above all... 1251 01:02:23,852 --> 01:02:25,263 Above all... 1252 01:02:25,264 --> 01:02:27,258 I should never have let you insist... 1253 01:02:27,290 --> 01:02:29,577 That I have another baby to take Eugene's place. 1254 01:02:30,628 --> 01:02:31,953 I was afraid... 1255 01:02:32,194 --> 01:02:34,670 All the time I carried Edmund... 1256 01:02:35,174 --> 01:02:37,482 I knew something terrible would happen. 1257 01:02:37,483 --> 01:02:39,636 I knew I'd proved by the way I left Eugene... 1258 01:02:39,739 --> 01:02:41,946 That I wasn't worthy to have another baby. 1259 01:02:41,947 --> 01:02:44,010 And that God would punish me if I did. 1260 01:02:44,849 --> 01:02:46,610 I should never have born Edmund. 1261 01:02:46,611 --> 01:02:47,987 Mary be careful with your talk... 1262 01:02:48,004 --> 01:02:50,171 If he heard you he might think you never wanted him. 1263 01:02:51,450 --> 01:02:53,103 For God's sake try and be yourself... 1264 01:02:53,199 --> 01:02:55,270 You can do that much for him. 1265 01:02:57,943 --> 01:02:58,951 There you are! 1266 01:02:59,259 --> 01:03:02,274 You look spick-and-span. I'm on my way up to change too. 1267 01:03:02,275 --> 01:03:03,442 Wait a minute Papa. 1268 01:03:03,709 --> 01:03:07,029 I hate to bring up disagreeable topic but there's the matter of car fare. 1269 01:03:07,150 --> 01:03:08,046 I'm broke. 1270 01:03:08,197 --> 01:03:11,041 You'll always be broke until you learn the value of... 1271 01:03:12,188 --> 01:03:13,997 But you've been learning lad. 1272 01:03:14,655 --> 01:03:16,666 You worked hard before you took ill. 1273 01:03:17,516 --> 01:03:18,829 You've done splendidly, I... 1274 01:03:19,385 --> 01:03:20,699 I'm proud of you. 1275 01:03:26,293 --> 01:03:27,721 "Thank you". 1276 01:03:29,218 --> 01:03:32,440 How sharper than a serpent's tooth it is... 1277 01:03:32,495 --> 01:03:34,599 "To have a thankless child", I know. 1278 01:03:34,679 --> 01:03:37,250 Give me a chance Papa. I'm knocked speechless. 1279 01:03:37,468 --> 01:03:39,357 This isn't a dollar, it's a ten spot. 1280 01:03:39,547 --> 01:03:42,740 But why all of a sudden? Did doc. Hardy say I was going to die? 1281 01:03:43,994 --> 01:03:46,141 That was a rotten crack, I was just kidding Papa. 1282 01:03:47,398 --> 01:03:49,145 I'm very grateful, honest Papa. 1283 01:03:49,367 --> 01:03:50,874 You're welcome lad. 1284 01:03:51,081 --> 01:03:53,571 I won't have it! Do you hear? 1285 01:03:54,255 --> 01:03:56,612 Such morbid nonsense. 1286 01:03:57,347 --> 01:03:58,767 Saying you're going to die. 1287 01:03:59,085 --> 01:04:00,433 You'd think you didn't want to live... 1288 01:04:00,435 --> 01:04:02,921 A boy of your have with everything before him. 1289 01:04:03,560 --> 01:04:05,242 It's just a pose you get out of books! 1290 01:04:05,361 --> 01:04:06,750 You're not really sick at all! 1291 01:04:06,751 --> 01:04:07,758 Mary hold your tongue! 1292 01:04:07,759 --> 01:04:09,994 But James it's absurd of him to be so gloomy... 1293 01:04:09,995 --> 01:04:12,169 And to make such a big to-do about nothing. 1294 01:04:13,594 --> 01:04:15,283 But never mind dear, I'm on to you. 1295 01:04:15,284 --> 01:04:17,820 You want to be petted and spoiled and made a fuss over... 1296 01:04:17,821 --> 01:04:19,010 Isn't that it? 1297 01:04:19,011 --> 01:04:20,934 You're still such a baby. 1298 01:04:21,744 --> 01:04:24,149 But please, don't carry it too far dear. 1299 01:04:24,459 --> 01:04:26,278 Don't say horrible things. 1300 01:04:26,608 --> 01:04:29,306 I know it's foolish to take them seriously... 1301 01:04:29,307 --> 01:04:30,874 But I can't help it! 1302 01:04:30,875 --> 01:04:32,685 You've got me so frightened! 1303 01:04:36,104 --> 01:04:38,460 I believe you ought to ask your mother now... 1304 01:04:38,461 --> 01:04:39,611 What you said you were... 1305 01:04:40,151 --> 01:04:41,175 Going to. 1306 01:04:43,530 --> 01:04:45,062 My God! Look at the time! 1307 01:04:46,052 --> 01:04:47,391 I have to shake a leg. 1308 01:04:54,689 --> 01:04:55,813 How do you feel? 1309 01:04:58,867 --> 01:05:00,232 Your head is a little hot... 1310 01:05:00,834 --> 01:05:02,743 But that's just from going out in the sun. 1311 01:05:03,123 --> 01:05:05,404 You look ever so much better than you did this morning. 1312 01:05:06,310 --> 01:05:07,731 Come and sit down. 1313 01:05:08,386 --> 01:05:10,743 - Listen Mama... - No no now don't talk. 1314 01:05:11,109 --> 01:05:12,103 Sit down. 1315 01:05:12,445 --> 01:05:13,651 Lean back. 1316 01:05:14,109 --> 01:05:15,609 And rest. 1317 01:05:16,124 --> 01:05:20,895 It's such a tiring trip uptown in the dirty old trolley on a hot day like this. 1318 01:05:21,517 --> 01:05:23,818 You'll be ever so much better off here with me. 1319 01:05:23,970 --> 01:05:26,006 - Listen Mama... - You could telephone to Hardy 1320 01:05:26,292 --> 01:05:28,396 Tell him you don't feel well enough. 1321 01:05:29,639 --> 01:05:31,955 The old idiot, all he knows about medicine... 1322 01:05:31,956 --> 01:05:34,162 Is to look solemn and preach willpower. 1323 01:05:34,163 --> 01:05:35,362 Listen Mama... 1324 01:05:35,856 --> 01:05:37,373 I want to ask you something... 1325 01:05:38,697 --> 01:05:40,038 You can still stop. 1326 01:05:41,077 --> 01:05:43,379 You've only just started, you've got the willpower 1327 01:05:44,199 --> 01:05:46,067 We'll all help you, I'll do anything. 1328 01:05:46,480 --> 01:05:47,496 Won't you Mama? 1329 01:05:49,820 --> 01:05:51,958 Please don't talk about things you don't understand. 1330 01:05:53,064 --> 01:05:54,334 All right I give up. 1331 01:05:54,344 --> 01:05:55,596 I knew it was no use. 1332 01:05:55,597 --> 01:05:57,051 Anyway I don't know what you're referring to... 1333 01:05:57,052 --> 01:05:58,942 But I do know you should be the last one... 1334 01:05:59,227 --> 01:06:02,374 Right after I returned from the sanatorium you began to be ill. 1335 01:06:03,004 --> 01:06:05,384 But after they had warned me I must have peace at home... 1336 01:06:05,385 --> 01:06:06,734 Without anything to upset me. 1337 01:06:07,139 --> 01:06:09,000 All I've done is worry about you. 1338 01:06:11,328 --> 01:06:12,258 But... 1339 01:06:12,259 --> 01:06:13,616 That's no excuse. 1340 01:06:14,269 --> 01:06:16,444 I'm only trying to explain... 1341 01:06:16,713 --> 01:06:18,193 It's not an excuse. 1342 01:06:19,565 --> 01:06:22,585 Promise me dear you won't believe I made you an excuse. 1343 01:06:24,674 --> 01:06:26,160 What else can I believe? 1344 01:06:29,867 --> 01:06:30,907 Nothing. 1345 01:06:30,965 --> 01:06:32,112 I don't blame you. 1346 01:06:33,502 --> 01:06:35,861 How can you believe me when I can't believe myself? 1347 01:06:37,736 --> 01:06:39,413 I've become such a liar. 1348 01:06:40,482 --> 01:06:42,854 I never lied about anything, once upon a time. 1349 01:06:42,855 --> 01:06:43,904 Now I have to lie... 1350 01:06:44,491 --> 01:06:45,841 Especially to myself. 1351 01:06:48,361 --> 01:06:49,870 But how can you understand... 1352 01:06:50,833 --> 01:06:52,888 When I can't understand myself? 1353 01:06:55,569 --> 01:06:58,847 I've never understood anything about it, except that... 1354 01:06:59,549 --> 01:07:00,692 One day... 1355 01:07:01,345 --> 01:07:02,432 Long ago... 1356 01:07:03,820 --> 01:07:07,274 I found I could no longer call my soul my own. 1357 01:07:11,543 --> 01:07:12,828 But someday... 1358 01:07:13,036 --> 01:07:14,067 Dear... 1359 01:07:15,457 --> 01:07:17,132 I'll find it again. 1360 01:07:20,385 --> 01:07:21,988 Someday when you're all well. 1361 01:07:23,443 --> 01:07:27,359 And I see you healthy and happy and successful. 1362 01:07:28,171 --> 01:07:30,345 And I don't have to feel guilty anymore. 1363 01:07:34,280 --> 01:07:35,407 Someday... 1364 01:07:37,512 --> 01:07:40,968 When the blessed virgin Mary forgives me. 1365 01:07:42,798 --> 01:07:44,163 And gives me back 1366 01:07:44,964 --> 01:07:49,468 The faith in her love and pity I used to have in my convent days. 1367 01:07:51,512 --> 01:07:53,455 And I can pray to her again. 1368 01:07:55,865 --> 01:07:57,293 When she sees... 1369 01:07:57,801 --> 01:08:01,225 No one can believe in me, even for a moment, anymore... 1370 01:08:02,254 --> 01:08:03,937 Then she will believe in me... 1371 01:08:04,920 --> 01:08:07,406 And with her help it will be so easy. 1372 01:08:08,307 --> 01:08:10,869 I will hear myself scream with agony... 1373 01:08:10,870 --> 01:08:12,716 And yet at the same time I will laugh... 1374 01:08:12,938 --> 01:08:15,518 Because I will be so sure of myself. 1375 01:08:28,233 --> 01:08:29,305 Well... 1376 01:08:29,987 --> 01:08:32,957 But of course you can't... believe that either can you? 1377 01:08:34,026 --> 01:08:36,348 Now I... Now I think of it 1378 01:08:37,314 --> 01:08:39,788 You might as well... Go uptown. 1379 01:08:41,539 --> 01:08:42,634 I forgot. 1380 01:08:42,856 --> 01:08:44,439 I'm taking a drive. 1381 01:08:45,164 --> 01:08:47,434 I have to go to the drugstore... 1382 01:08:48,433 --> 01:08:50,834 And you'd hardly want to go there with me would you? 1383 01:08:50,905 --> 01:08:52,453 You'd be so ashamed! 1384 01:08:53,123 --> 01:08:54,203 Mama don't... 1385 01:08:54,204 --> 01:08:56,094 I suppose you'll divide that $10... 1386 01:08:56,095 --> 01:08:57,794 Your father gave you with Jamie. 1387 01:08:57,795 --> 01:09:00,239 You always divide with each other don't you? 1388 01:09:00,240 --> 01:09:01,263 Like good sports. 1389 01:09:01,570 --> 01:09:03,465 Well... I know what he'll do with his share. 1390 01:09:03,466 --> 01:09:05,296 He'll get drunk somewhere where he can be... 1391 01:09:05,297 --> 01:09:08,669 With the only kind of woman he understands or likes. 1392 01:09:12,391 --> 01:09:13,582 Edmund... 1393 01:09:14,787 --> 01:09:16,805 Promise me you won't drink. 1394 01:09:17,204 --> 01:09:19,013 It's so dangerous. 1395 01:09:19,463 --> 01:09:20,968 You know doctor Hardy... 1396 01:09:21,159 --> 01:09:22,588 I thought he was an old idiot... 1397 01:09:29,436 --> 01:09:30,518 Edmund... 1398 01:09:33,590 --> 01:09:35,236 Come on kid, let's beat it! 1399 01:09:36,293 --> 01:09:37,484 Go on Edmund. 1400 01:09:38,023 --> 01:09:39,327 Jamie's calling. 1401 01:09:41,248 --> 01:09:43,240 There comes your father down the stairs too. 1402 01:09:43,241 --> 01:09:44,559 Come on! Edmund. 1403 01:09:44,664 --> 01:09:46,234 - Goodbye Mary. - Goodbye Edmund 1404 01:09:46,235 --> 01:09:48,269 If you're coming home to dinner try not to be late. 1405 01:09:48,978 --> 01:09:50,176 Tell your father. 1406 01:09:50,299 --> 01:09:51,623 You know how Bridget is. 1407 01:09:58,478 --> 01:09:59,424 Goodbye. 1408 01:10:00,657 --> 01:10:01,735 Goodbye Mama. 1409 01:10:42,125 --> 01:10:43,422 So lonely here. 1410 01:10:48,788 --> 01:10:50,604 You're lying to yourself again. 1411 01:10:52,984 --> 01:10:54,868 You wanted to get rid of them. 1412 01:10:56,832 --> 01:11:00,767 Their contempt and disgust aren't pleasant company. 1413 01:11:01,241 --> 01:11:02,892 You're glad they've gone. 1414 01:11:08,328 --> 01:11:10,203 Then mother of God... 1415 01:11:12,838 --> 01:11:16,139 Why do I feel so lonely? 1416 01:12:03,089 --> 01:12:04,865 That foghorn... 1417 01:12:06,435 --> 01:12:07,987 Isn't it awful? 1418 01:12:09,741 --> 01:12:11,230 Yes indeed ma'am. 1419 01:12:12,237 --> 01:12:13,909 Wasn't the fog I minded, 1420 01:12:14,147 --> 01:12:15,790 I really love fog. 1421 01:12:17,032 --> 01:12:19,009 They say it's good for the complexion. 1422 01:12:19,010 --> 01:12:21,494 It hides you from the world and the world from you. 1423 01:12:22,140 --> 01:12:25,943 You feel everything has changed, nothing is what it seemed to be. 1424 01:12:26,461 --> 01:12:28,598 No one can find or touch you... 1425 01:12:28,845 --> 01:12:29,980 Anymore. 1426 01:12:30,817 --> 01:12:33,937 I was scared out of my wits riding back from town. 1427 01:12:34,666 --> 01:12:36,733 You couldn't see your hand in front of you. 1428 01:12:37,145 --> 01:12:38,958 It's the foghorn I hate. 1429 01:12:39,845 --> 01:12:41,524 It won't let you alone. 1430 01:12:42,250 --> 01:12:43,988 It keeps reminding you... 1431 01:12:46,521 --> 01:12:48,476 Calling you back. 1432 01:12:50,420 --> 01:12:53,272 But it can't tonight, it's just an ugly sound. 1433 01:12:54,566 --> 01:12:55,489 It's... 1434 01:12:57,495 --> 01:12:59,455 It doesn't remind me of anything. 1435 01:13:00,368 --> 01:13:03,387 Except perhaps Mr. Tyrone's snores. 1436 01:13:05,354 --> 01:13:07,748 I've had such fun teasing him about it. 1437 01:13:08,275 --> 01:13:09,727 He's always snored... 1438 01:13:09,873 --> 01:13:13,571 Ever since I can remember, especially when he's had too much to drink. 1439 01:13:13,830 --> 01:13:15,695 And then he's like a child... 1440 01:13:16,075 --> 01:13:17,712 He doesn't like to admit it. 1441 01:13:18,175 --> 01:13:21,581 Well... I suppose I snore at times too and I don't like to admit it. 1442 01:13:22,679 --> 01:13:25,133 So I've no right to make fun of him, have I? 1443 01:13:25,251 --> 01:13:27,707 Sure everybody healthy snores... 1444 01:13:28,184 --> 01:13:30,168 It's a sign of sanity they say. 1445 01:13:31,554 --> 01:13:32,855 What time is it ma'am? 1446 01:13:32,902 --> 01:13:34,656 I ought to be getting back into the kitchen. 1447 01:13:35,445 --> 01:13:36,684 No, don't go Cathleen. 1448 01:13:37,105 --> 01:13:38,843 I don't want to be alone... 1449 01:13:39,283 --> 01:13:40,203 Yet. 1450 01:13:40,393 --> 01:13:41,826 It won't be for long. 1451 01:13:42,279 --> 01:13:44,732 The master and the boys will be home soon. 1452 01:13:46,853 --> 01:13:48,846 I doubt if they'll come home for dinner. 1453 01:13:49,612 --> 01:13:51,493 They have too good an excuse... 1454 01:13:51,913 --> 01:13:53,958 To remain in the barrooms... 1455 01:13:54,363 --> 01:13:55,919 Where they feel at home. 1456 01:13:59,068 --> 01:14:01,701 Have a drink yourself, Cathleen, if you wish. 1457 01:14:02,027 --> 01:14:05,118 Well... I don't know if I'd better ma'am. 1458 01:14:05,780 --> 01:14:06,788 Well... 1459 01:14:06,789 --> 01:14:08,947 Maybe one won't harm. 1460 01:14:09,775 --> 01:14:11,817 Here's to your good health ma'am. 1461 01:14:13,210 --> 01:14:15,933 I really did have good health once Cathleen... 1462 01:14:16,584 --> 01:14:18,132 But that was long ago. 1463 01:14:19,636 --> 01:14:21,484 For God's sake ma'am... 1464 01:14:21,485 --> 01:14:22,955 It'll be half water. 1465 01:14:22,956 --> 01:14:24,868 He'll know by the taste. 1466 01:14:27,240 --> 01:14:29,026 By the time he gets home... 1467 01:14:29,354 --> 01:14:31,519 He'll be too drunk to tell the difference 1468 01:14:31,520 --> 01:14:33,188 He has such a good an excuse, he believes... 1469 01:14:33,522 --> 01:14:35,077 To drown his sorrows. 1470 01:14:35,078 --> 01:14:37,495 Well... It's a good man's failing... 1471 01:14:37,982 --> 01:14:39,457 Never mind his weakness. 1472 01:14:39,458 --> 01:14:42,993 I don't mind, I've loved him dearly for thirty-six years. 1473 01:14:43,415 --> 01:14:44,598 That's right ma'am... 1474 01:14:44,917 --> 01:14:46,219 Love him dearly... 1475 01:14:46,528 --> 01:14:49,991 For any fool can see he worships the ground you walk on. 1476 01:14:52,290 --> 01:14:54,163 Speaking of acting ma'am... 1477 01:14:54,385 --> 01:14:56,514 How is it you never went on the stage? 1478 01:14:59,891 --> 01:15:00,789 What...? 1479 01:15:00,903 --> 01:15:01,900 I? 1480 01:15:05,441 --> 01:15:07,811 What put that absurd idea in your head? 1481 01:15:09,162 --> 01:15:11,299 I was brought up in a respectable home... 1482 01:15:11,748 --> 01:15:13,500 And educated in the best convent... 1483 01:15:13,501 --> 01:15:15,851 In the Middle-West before I met Mr. Tyrone. 1484 01:15:16,397 --> 01:15:18,403 I hardly knew there was such a thing as the theater. 1485 01:15:18,443 --> 01:15:20,310 I was a very pious girl. 1486 01:15:20,471 --> 01:15:22,717 I even dreamed of becoming a nun. 1487 01:15:22,970 --> 01:15:25,632 I never had the slightest desire to be an actress. 1488 01:15:25,774 --> 01:15:28,293 I'd never think of you being a holy nun ma'am. 1489 01:15:28,982 --> 01:15:32,441 Sure to God you'd never darken the door of a church God forgive me. 1490 01:15:32,451 --> 01:15:34,255 Well... I never felt at home in the theater. 1491 01:15:35,244 --> 01:15:39,653 Even though Mr. Tyrone has made me go with him on all his tours. 1492 01:15:40,086 --> 01:15:41,221 I've had... 1493 01:15:41,816 --> 01:15:43,786 Little to do with the people in his company. 1494 01:15:44,298 --> 01:15:46,177 Not that I had anything against them... 1495 01:15:46,178 --> 01:15:48,809 They were always very kind to me and I to them but... 1496 01:15:49,302 --> 01:15:50,452 their life... 1497 01:15:50,864 --> 01:15:52,007 Was not my life. 1498 01:15:53,609 --> 01:15:55,370 It's always stood between me and... 1499 01:15:56,914 --> 01:15:57,864 And... 1500 01:16:00,111 --> 01:16:02,171 But let's not talk about... 1501 01:16:02,483 --> 01:16:06,046 Old things that could not be helped. 1502 01:16:11,544 --> 01:16:13,998 How thick the fog is. 1503 01:16:15,917 --> 01:16:17,867 I... I can't see the road. 1504 01:16:19,785 --> 01:16:23,221 All the people in the world could pass by... 1505 01:16:25,675 --> 01:16:27,424 And I would never know. 1506 01:16:30,422 --> 01:16:32,318 I wish it was always that way. 1507 01:16:33,691 --> 01:16:35,331 It's getting dark already. 1508 01:16:36,133 --> 01:16:37,538 It'll soon be night. 1509 01:16:38,177 --> 01:16:39,614 Thank goodness. 1510 01:16:40,764 --> 01:16:46,674 It was kind of you to keep me company this afternoon Cathleen. 1511 01:16:47,442 --> 01:16:50,061 I should have been lonely driving up... 1512 01:16:50,687 --> 01:16:52,706 Driving uptown alone. 1513 01:16:53,629 --> 01:16:56,831 Sure. Why wouldn't I rather ride in a fine automobile 1514 01:16:56,832 --> 01:16:58,317 Than stay here? 1515 01:16:59,230 --> 01:17:01,556 It's like a vacation ma'am. 1516 01:17:02,894 --> 01:17:04,949 There's only one thing I didn't like. 1517 01:17:05,214 --> 01:17:07,122 What was that Cathleen. 1518 01:17:07,233 --> 01:17:09,630 The way the man in the drugstore acted... 1519 01:17:09,631 --> 01:17:11,679 When I took in the prescription for you. 1520 01:17:11,966 --> 01:17:13,831 Oh, the appearance of him. 1521 01:17:16,433 --> 01:17:18,561 I d... I don't know what you're talking about. 1522 01:17:19,291 --> 01:17:21,117 What drugstore? What prescrip... 1523 01:17:21,668 --> 01:17:22,502 Oh! 1524 01:17:22,646 --> 01:17:24,046 Oh yes... 1525 01:17:24,639 --> 01:17:26,114 Of course, I'd forgotten. 1526 01:17:27,840 --> 01:17:30,031 The medicine for the... 1527 01:17:30,516 --> 01:17:31,627 Rheumatism... 1528 01:17:32,374 --> 01:17:33,749 In my hands. 1529 01:17:34,875 --> 01:17:36,537 What did the man say? 1530 01:17:38,043 --> 01:17:40,329 Not that it matter so long as he filled the prescription. 1531 01:17:40,330 --> 01:17:41,465 Oh it mattered to me ma'am. 1532 01:17:41,466 --> 01:17:43,482 I'm not used to being treated like a thief. 1533 01:17:43,867 --> 01:17:45,826 He gave me a long look... 1534 01:17:45,827 --> 01:17:48,631 And said insultingly "where did you get hold of this?". 1535 01:17:49,062 --> 01:17:51,570 "Well" I says "it's none of your damn business"... 1536 01:17:51,795 --> 01:17:54,724 But if you must know, it's for the lady I work for... 1537 01:17:54,835 --> 01:17:57,640 Mrs. Tyrone who's siting out there in the automobile. 1538 01:17:58,452 --> 01:18:00,680 That shut him up quick. 1539 01:18:00,681 --> 01:18:02,765 He gave a long look out and said... 1540 01:18:02,766 --> 01:18:05,306 "Ohh..." and went to get the medicine. 1541 01:18:07,193 --> 01:18:08,082 Yes... 1542 01:18:08,232 --> 01:18:08,978 He... 1543 01:18:09,327 --> 01:18:10,041 Knows me. 1544 01:18:14,735 --> 01:18:17,169 I... Have to take it. 1545 01:18:19,357 --> 01:18:22,492 Because there... There is no other that can... 1546 01:18:22,953 --> 01:18:24,183 Stop the pain. 1547 01:18:24,724 --> 01:18:25,846 All the pain. 1548 01:18:26,275 --> 01:18:27,704 I mean in my hands. 1549 01:18:28,561 --> 01:18:29,848 Poor hands. 1550 01:18:31,797 --> 01:18:33,711 You'll never believe it but they... 1551 01:18:33,972 --> 01:18:36,099 They were once one of my good points... 1552 01:18:36,841 --> 01:18:38,278 Along with my hair... 1553 01:18:38,755 --> 01:18:39,962 And eyes. 1554 01:18:41,513 --> 01:18:43,546 I had a fine figure too. 1555 01:18:48,062 --> 01:18:49,815 They were a musician's hands. 1556 01:18:50,801 --> 01:18:52,388 I used to love the piano. 1557 01:18:53,610 --> 01:18:56,194 I worked so hard at my music at the convent. 1558 01:18:56,733 --> 01:18:58,905 Mother Elizabeth and my music teacher both said... 1559 01:18:58,906 --> 01:19:01,764 That I had more talent than any student they remembered. 1560 01:19:02,260 --> 01:19:04,488 My father payed for special lessons. 1561 01:19:04,968 --> 01:19:07,452 He spoiled me. He would've sent me to Europe to study... 1562 01:19:07,629 --> 01:19:09,263 After I'd graduated from the convent. 1563 01:19:09,264 --> 01:19:12,488 I might have gone if I hadn't fallen in love with Mr. Tyrone... 1564 01:19:12,489 --> 01:19:14,013 Or I might have become a nun. 1565 01:19:21,643 --> 01:19:23,143 I had two dreams. 1566 01:19:25,279 --> 01:19:26,354 To be a nun... 1567 01:19:29,538 --> 01:19:31,126 That was the more beautiful one. 1568 01:19:34,134 --> 01:19:36,069 To be a concert pianist. 1569 01:19:38,083 --> 01:19:39,310 That was the other. 1570 01:19:41,816 --> 01:19:44,000 I haven't touched the piano in so many years. 1571 01:19:44,696 --> 01:19:47,842 I couldn't play now with such crippled fingers even if I wanted to. 1572 01:19:47,843 --> 01:19:49,645 Oh, for a time after my... 1573 01:19:49,806 --> 01:19:52,457 Marriage... I tried to keep up my music but it was hopeless. 1574 01:19:52,516 --> 01:19:53,984 One night stands... 1575 01:19:54,046 --> 01:19:57,795 Cheap hotels, dirty trains, leaving children, never having a home. 1576 01:19:59,000 --> 01:19:59,848 See... 1577 01:20:00,509 --> 01:20:01,332 Cathleen? 1578 01:20:03,407 --> 01:20:04,931 How ugly they are... 1579 01:20:05,312 --> 01:20:07,105 So maimed and crippled. 1580 01:20:07,620 --> 01:20:10,546 You'd think they've been through some horrible accident. 1581 01:20:11,018 --> 01:20:12,947 So they have come to think of it. 1582 01:20:13,155 --> 01:20:14,416 I won't look at them. 1583 01:20:14,622 --> 01:20:17,355 They are worst than the foghorn at reminding me. 1584 01:20:18,246 --> 01:20:20,598 But even they can't hurt me now. 1585 01:20:23,056 --> 01:20:24,563 They're far away. 1586 01:20:25,938 --> 01:20:27,040 I see them... 1587 01:20:27,899 --> 01:20:29,321 But the pain is gone. 1588 01:20:29,872 --> 01:20:31,879 You've taken some of that medicine? 1589 01:20:33,306 --> 01:20:36,701 If I didn't know better, I'd think you'd a drop taken. 1590 01:20:40,104 --> 01:20:41,484 It kills the pain. 1591 01:20:43,005 --> 01:20:44,186 You go back... 1592 01:20:46,134 --> 01:20:47,729 Until at last you're... 1593 01:20:48,070 --> 01:20:49,652 Beyond it's reach. 1594 01:20:50,553 --> 01:20:53,648 Only the past when you were happy is real. 1595 01:20:54,306 --> 01:20:57,566 If you think Mr. Tyrone is handsome now, Cathleen... 1596 01:20:57,567 --> 01:20:59,614 You should have seen him when I first met him. 1597 01:20:59,926 --> 01:21:01,227 He had a reputation of being... 1598 01:21:01,228 --> 01:21:03,339 One of the handsomest men in the country. 1599 01:21:03,723 --> 01:21:05,734 Those at the convent who'd seen him act... 1600 01:21:05,735 --> 01:21:08,243 Or seen his photographs used to rave about him. 1601 01:21:08,903 --> 01:21:10,802 He was a big matinee idol then. 1602 01:21:11,440 --> 01:21:12,352 Women... 1603 01:21:13,130 --> 01:21:15,666 Used to wait at the stage door just to... 1604 01:21:16,111 --> 01:21:17,841 See him come out. 1605 01:21:18,845 --> 01:21:20,012 You can imagine how... 1606 01:21:20,641 --> 01:21:22,989 Excited I was when my father wrote telling me... 1607 01:21:22,990 --> 01:21:25,358 He and James Tyrone had become friends... 1608 01:21:25,668 --> 01:21:26,653 And I... 1609 01:21:27,058 --> 01:21:28,217 Was to meet him. 1610 01:21:28,520 --> 01:21:31,321 When I went home for my easter vacation. 1611 01:21:32,078 --> 01:21:34,208 I showed the letter to all the girls. 1612 01:21:35,524 --> 01:21:37,218 How envious they were. 1613 01:21:38,477 --> 01:21:39,588 My father... 1614 01:21:39,692 --> 01:21:41,682 Took me to see him act first. 1615 01:21:41,683 --> 01:21:45,067 It was a... Play about the French Revolution 1616 01:21:45,572 --> 01:21:46,738 And the... 1617 01:21:46,865 --> 01:21:48,724 The leading character... 1618 01:21:49,265 --> 01:21:50,630 Was a nobleman. 1619 01:21:52,727 --> 01:21:54,936 I couldn't take my eyes off him. 1620 01:21:55,365 --> 01:21:56,111 I wept... 1621 01:21:56,560 --> 01:22:00,124 When he was thrown in prison and then was so mad... 1622 01:22:00,195 --> 01:22:04,242 Because I was afraid my eyes and nose would be red. 1623 01:22:04,440 --> 01:22:07,169 My... My father had said we would go backstage... 1624 01:22:07,170 --> 01:22:10,729 To his dressing room right after the play and so we did. 1625 01:22:12,043 --> 01:22:13,099 I guess my... 1626 01:22:13,313 --> 01:22:14,944 Eyes and nose... 1627 01:22:15,960 --> 01:22:18,238 Couldn't have been red after all. 1628 01:22:21,070 --> 01:22:24,840 I was really very pretty then actually... 1629 01:22:25,451 --> 01:22:29,726 And he was handsomer than my wildest dreams. 1630 01:22:30,562 --> 01:22:31,625 He was different... 1631 01:22:32,070 --> 01:22:34,734 Different from all ordinary men like someone... 1632 01:22:35,171 --> 01:22:36,623 From another world. 1633 01:22:38,563 --> 01:22:40,325 I fell in love right then. 1634 01:22:41,664 --> 01:22:42,621 So did he. 1635 01:22:43,691 --> 01:22:44,989 He told me afterwards. 1636 01:22:48,174 --> 01:22:50,908 I forgot all about becoming a nun. 1637 01:22:53,509 --> 01:22:56,198 Or a concert pianist. 1638 01:22:59,657 --> 01:23:01,990 All I wanted was to be his wife. 1639 01:23:05,451 --> 01:23:06,892 Thirty-six years ago... 1640 01:23:09,819 --> 01:23:11,446 But I can see it... 1641 01:23:11,827 --> 01:23:13,109 As clearly... 1642 01:23:13,562 --> 01:23:14,927 As if it were tonight. 1643 01:23:15,987 --> 01:23:16,738 And... 1644 01:23:17,494 --> 01:23:19,732 We've loved each other ever since 1645 01:23:19,998 --> 01:23:22,426 And in all those thirty-six years there... 1646 01:23:22,726 --> 01:23:25,024 There's never been a breath of scandal about him. 1647 01:23:25,200 --> 01:23:26,819 I mean with another woman. 1648 01:23:28,190 --> 01:23:29,815 He's made me very happy Cathleen. 1649 01:23:32,360 --> 01:23:34,241 He's a fine gentleman. 1650 01:23:37,362 --> 01:23:38,904 You're a lucky woman. 1651 01:24:03,570 --> 01:24:05,661 Sentimental fool. 1652 01:24:08,882 --> 01:24:11,152 What's so wonderful about the first... 1653 01:24:11,699 --> 01:24:15,278 Meeting between a silly romantic schoolgirl... 1654 01:24:15,913 --> 01:24:17,381 And a matineer? 1655 01:24:19,728 --> 01:24:20,831 You were much... 1656 01:24:22,538 --> 01:24:23,747 Happier before... 1657 01:24:24,732 --> 01:24:26,311 You knew he existed. 1658 01:24:27,529 --> 01:24:28,966 In the convent... 1659 01:24:29,912 --> 01:24:31,214 When you could pray... 1660 01:24:31,761 --> 01:24:33,977 To the Blessed Vi... Virgin. 1661 01:24:40,870 --> 01:24:43,535 If only I could find the faith I lost. 1662 01:24:45,459 --> 01:24:47,572 So I could pray to her again. 1663 01:24:51,086 --> 01:24:53,172 Hail Mary full of grace... 1664 01:25:01,411 --> 01:25:02,984 Hail Mary full... 1665 01:25:06,191 --> 01:25:08,108 Hail Mary full of... 1666 01:25:14,794 --> 01:25:16,667 Expect the Blessed Virgin... 1667 01:25:17,066 --> 01:25:18,161 To be fooled... 1668 01:25:19,187 --> 01:25:20,838 By a lying dope fiend... 1669 01:25:21,465 --> 01:25:22,822 Reciting words? 1670 01:25:23,874 --> 01:25:25,532 You can't fool her. 1671 01:25:27,298 --> 01:25:28,751 I haven't taken enough. 1672 01:25:29,514 --> 01:25:31,180 I have to go upstairs. 1673 01:25:31,973 --> 01:25:33,954 When you start again you never know... 1674 01:25:38,402 --> 01:25:41,081 You never know exactly how much you need. 1675 01:25:45,166 --> 01:25:46,762 Why are they coming back? 1676 01:25:51,318 --> 01:25:53,505 Why are they coming back? 1677 01:25:55,616 --> 01:25:56,653 Are you there? 1678 01:25:57,169 --> 01:25:58,019 Mary? 1679 01:25:58,434 --> 01:25:59,307 Yes. 1680 01:25:59,688 --> 01:26:01,746 Yes I'm... I'm here dear. 1681 01:26:02,334 --> 01:26:03,881 In the sitting room. 1682 01:26:04,487 --> 01:26:05,607 I've been... 1683 01:26:05,989 --> 01:26:07,616 I've been waiting for you. 1684 01:26:08,382 --> 01:26:09,318 I'm... 1685 01:26:09,749 --> 01:26:11,694 I'm so happy you've come. 1686 01:26:12,053 --> 01:26:13,442 I'd given up hope. 1687 01:26:13,873 --> 01:26:15,887 I was afraid you wouldn't come home. 1688 01:26:15,888 --> 01:26:16,848 It's such a... 1689 01:26:16,849 --> 01:26:18,625 Dismal foggy evening it must be... 1690 01:26:18,626 --> 01:26:20,749 Much more cheerful in the barrooms uptown... 1691 01:26:20,750 --> 01:26:22,553 Where there are people you can laugh and... 1692 01:26:22,554 --> 01:26:23,684 Oh no, don't deny it. 1693 01:26:23,685 --> 01:26:25,002 I know how you feel. 1694 01:26:25,129 --> 01:26:26,693 I don't blame you a bit. 1695 01:26:26,696 --> 01:26:28,967 I'm all the more grateful to you... For coming home. 1696 01:26:28,968 --> 01:26:30,420 I was... Sitting here... 1697 01:26:30,421 --> 01:26:32,667 So... Lonely and blue. 1698 01:26:33,413 --> 01:26:34,685 Come and sit down. 1699 01:26:37,014 --> 01:26:39,016 Dinner won't be ready for a few minutes. 1700 01:26:39,434 --> 01:26:42,076 You're... You're... Actually a little early. 1701 01:26:42,291 --> 01:26:44,060 Will wonders never cease? 1702 01:26:44,167 --> 01:26:45,325 Here's the whiskey dear... 1703 01:26:45,611 --> 01:26:46,684 Shall I pour you a drink? 1704 01:26:46,779 --> 01:26:48,361 And you, Edmund? 1705 01:26:49,273 --> 01:26:51,085 I don't want to encourage you. 1706 01:26:51,580 --> 01:26:53,143 But one small one bef... 1707 01:26:53,557 --> 01:26:54,739 Before... 1708 01:26:54,850 --> 01:26:56,114 Dinner can't... 1709 01:26:56,519 --> 01:26:57,836 Do you any harm. 1710 01:26:58,028 --> 01:26:58,958 Where's Jamie? 1711 01:27:00,662 --> 01:27:02,257 But I... Of course... 1712 01:27:02,645 --> 01:27:04,576 He'll never come home so long as he has... 1713 01:27:04,791 --> 01:27:05,949 The price of a date left. 1714 01:27:08,025 --> 01:27:09,216 I'm afraid Jamie has been... 1715 01:27:09,528 --> 01:27:10,948 Lost to us for a... 1716 01:27:10,981 --> 01:27:12,496 Long time..dear. 1717 01:27:12,671 --> 01:27:16,736 Oh, for the love of God, I'm a fool for coming home. 1718 01:27:16,952 --> 01:27:17,732 Papa... 1719 01:27:18,177 --> 01:27:19,002 Shut up. 1720 01:27:19,578 --> 01:27:20,951 Who would've... Thought... 1721 01:27:21,628 --> 01:27:23,580 Who would've thought Jamie would... 1722 01:27:23,969 --> 01:27:26,360 Would grow up to... Disgrace us. 1723 01:27:26,538 --> 01:27:28,785 Everyone liked him, all his... 1724 01:27:29,339 --> 01:27:32,287 Teachers told us what a fine brain he had. 1725 01:27:33,399 --> 01:27:36,238 They... They predicted a wonderful future for him if only he'd... 1726 01:27:36,635 --> 01:27:38,873 Learned to take life seriously. 1727 01:27:39,919 --> 01:27:41,972 Poor Jamie, such a pity! 1728 01:27:42,908 --> 01:27:43,997 It's hard to understa... 1729 01:27:48,345 --> 01:27:49,257 No it isn't. 1730 01:27:50,870 --> 01:27:52,570 You brought him up to be a boozer. 1731 01:27:54,202 --> 01:27:56,853 Since he first opened his eyes he's seen you drinking. 1732 01:27:57,496 --> 01:28:00,792 Always a bottle on the bureau in the cheap hotel room. 1733 01:28:01,561 --> 01:28:04,514 If he had a nightmare when he was little or a stomach ache... 1734 01:28:04,840 --> 01:28:06,291 Your remedy was to give him a... 1735 01:28:06,562 --> 01:28:08,459 Tea spoon full of whiskey. 1736 01:28:09,213 --> 01:28:10,332 To quiet him. 1737 01:28:10,800 --> 01:28:12,844 So I'm to blame because that lazy hulk... 1738 01:28:12,845 --> 01:28:14,876 Has made a drunken loafer of himself? 1739 01:28:15,745 --> 01:28:17,466 Is that what I came back to listen to? 1740 01:28:17,467 --> 01:28:18,992 Oh, I might have known... 1741 01:28:18,993 --> 01:28:20,515 When you have the poison in you... 1742 01:28:20,516 --> 01:28:21,907 You want to blame everyone but yourself! 1743 01:28:21,908 --> 01:28:22,956 Papa! 1744 01:28:24,952 --> 01:28:26,627 Are we going to have this drink or aren't we? 1745 01:28:26,629 --> 01:28:27,794 You're right. 1746 01:28:27,795 --> 01:28:29,558 I'm a fool to take notice. 1747 01:28:30,998 --> 01:28:32,330 Drink hearty lad. 1748 01:28:35,003 --> 01:28:36,241 I'm sorry if I... 1749 01:28:37,002 --> 01:28:38,885 Sounded bitter James, I'm not. 1750 01:28:39,427 --> 01:28:40,808 It's all so far away I... 1751 01:28:41,554 --> 01:28:43,879 I was a little hurt when you wished you hadn't come home. 1752 01:28:43,880 --> 01:28:45,237 I was so relieved and... 1753 01:28:45,592 --> 01:28:46,751 Happy when you came. 1754 01:28:47,737 --> 01:28:49,063 And grateful to you. 1755 01:28:49,844 --> 01:28:51,305 It's very dreary 1756 01:28:51,773 --> 01:28:54,465 And sad... To be here alone in the fog. 1757 01:28:55,166 --> 01:28:56,396 With night falling. 1758 01:28:57,535 --> 01:28:59,114 I'm glad I came Mary... 1759 01:29:00,336 --> 01:29:02,171 When you act like your real self. 1760 01:29:02,366 --> 01:29:03,779 I was so lonesome. 1761 01:29:04,238 --> 01:29:07,654 I kept Cathleen with me... Just to have someone to talk to. 1762 01:29:07,655 --> 01:29:09,767 Do you know what I was telling her James? 1763 01:29:10,203 --> 01:29:13,945 About that night my... Father took me to your dressing room. 1764 01:29:14,472 --> 01:29:16,719 And I first fell in love with you, do you remember? 1765 01:29:17,762 --> 01:29:20,104 Can you think I'll ever forget Mary? 1766 01:29:24,205 --> 01:29:25,220 No. 1767 01:29:25,997 --> 01:29:27,597 I know you still love me James. 1768 01:29:28,620 --> 01:29:30,027 In spite of everything. 1769 01:29:30,600 --> 01:29:31,656 Yes. 1770 01:29:32,008 --> 01:29:33,484 As God is my judge. 1771 01:29:34,095 --> 01:29:37,161 Always and forever... Mary. 1772 01:29:42,382 --> 01:29:43,273 And I... 1773 01:29:44,027 --> 01:29:45,297 Love you... Dear. 1774 01:29:47,519 --> 01:29:48,833 In spite of everything. 1775 01:29:49,472 --> 01:29:50,422 But... 1776 01:29:53,485 --> 01:29:55,873 Although I couldn't help loving you, I would never have... 1777 01:29:56,191 --> 01:29:58,318 Married you if I'd known you drank so much. 1778 01:29:58,957 --> 01:30:02,858 I remember the... First time your barroom fellows had to help you... 1779 01:30:03,144 --> 01:30:05,589 To the door of out hotel room and knocked... 1780 01:30:05,803 --> 01:30:06,789 And ran away... 1781 01:30:06,790 --> 01:30:08,106 Before I opened the door. 1782 01:30:08,107 --> 01:30:10,228 We... We were still in our honeymoon, remember? 1783 01:30:10,876 --> 01:30:13,193 I don't remember. It wasn't on our honeymoon. 1784 01:30:13,194 --> 01:30:15,521 I've never in my life had to be helped to bed. 1785 01:30:15,643 --> 01:30:17,482 Or missed a performance. 1786 01:30:22,095 --> 01:30:24,474 I waited... In that ugly hotel room... 1787 01:30:24,634 --> 01:30:25,896 Hour after hour. 1788 01:30:26,988 --> 01:30:31,256 I became terrified, I imagined all sorts of horrible accidents. I... 1789 01:30:31,590 --> 01:30:35,309 Got down on my knees and prayed that nothing had happened to you. 1790 01:30:36,743 --> 01:30:38,092 Then they brought you up and... 1791 01:30:38,584 --> 01:30:40,601 Left you outside the door. 1792 01:30:41,506 --> 01:30:42,731 God! No wonder. 1793 01:30:43,231 --> 01:30:45,678 I'm... I'm sorry I remembered out loud. 1794 01:30:46,494 --> 01:30:47,919 I don't want to be sad 1795 01:30:49,517 --> 01:30:50,866 Or to make you sad. 1796 01:30:53,005 --> 01:30:55,887 I want to remember only the happy part of the past. 1797 01:30:56,594 --> 01:30:57,992 Do you remember our wedding? 1798 01:31:00,381 --> 01:31:01,679 The wedding... Dear? 1799 01:31:07,728 --> 01:31:08,848 I... I... 1800 01:31:09,291 --> 01:31:11,745 Haven't made such a bad wife, have I? 1801 01:31:13,147 --> 01:31:15,352 I'm not complaining Mary. 1802 01:31:20,671 --> 01:31:22,344 At least I've loved you dearly... 1803 01:31:22,345 --> 01:31:24,814 And I've done the best I could under the circumstances. 1804 01:31:28,255 --> 01:31:29,500 That wedding gown... 1805 01:31:30,521 --> 01:31:32,164 Was nearly the death of me. 1806 01:31:32,401 --> 01:31:34,165 And the dressmaker too. 1807 01:31:34,734 --> 01:31:36,710 I was so particular... 1808 01:31:36,813 --> 01:31:38,873 It was never quite good enough. 1809 01:31:39,135 --> 01:31:41,197 At last she said she said she refused to touch it anymore... 1810 01:31:41,198 --> 01:31:42,157 "It might spoil it"... 1811 01:31:42,158 --> 01:31:43,876 So I made her leave so I could be alone... 1812 01:31:43,877 --> 01:31:46,273 To examine myself in the mirror. 1813 01:31:46,555 --> 01:31:49,395 I was so pleased and vain. 1814 01:31:51,053 --> 01:31:52,402 I thought to myself... 1815 01:31:52,568 --> 01:31:55,172 "You're just as pretty as any actress he's ever met. 1816 01:31:56,114 --> 01:31:57,833 And you don't have to use paint". 1817 01:32:04,463 --> 01:32:05,883 Whe... Where is my... 1818 01:32:06,223 --> 01:32:07,987 Wedding gown now I wonder. 1819 01:32:08,625 --> 01:32:09,800 I...I... 1820 01:32:10,483 --> 01:32:13,096 I kept it wrapped up in tissue paper in my trunk. 1821 01:32:15,587 --> 01:32:17,220 I hoped someday I'd have a daughter... 1822 01:32:17,221 --> 01:32:18,872 And when it came time for her to marry... 1823 01:32:18,873 --> 01:32:20,341 She couldn't afford a lovely gown. 1824 01:32:20,917 --> 01:32:23,878 And I knew James, you'd never tell her "never mind the cost". 1825 01:32:24,329 --> 01:32:26,444 You'd want her to pick up something at a bargain. 1826 01:32:28,336 --> 01:32:29,432 It was made of... 1827 01:32:30,105 --> 01:32:31,878 Soft shimmering satin... 1828 01:32:32,993 --> 01:32:33,985 Trimmed with... 1829 01:32:34,207 --> 01:32:38,178 Wonderful old duchess lace around the neck and sleeves... 1830 01:32:38,769 --> 01:32:39,809 Worked in... 1831 01:32:40,189 --> 01:32:43,174 With the folds that were draped around in a bustle effect at the back. 1832 01:32:43,774 --> 01:32:46,417 The bust was bound and very tight I remember... 1833 01:32:46,576 --> 01:32:47,711 I held my... 1834 01:32:47,965 --> 01:32:51,444 Breath when it was fitted so my waist would be as small as possible. 1835 01:32:52,059 --> 01:32:52,845 My... 1836 01:32:52,987 --> 01:32:54,111 My father... 1837 01:32:55,322 --> 01:32:56,418 My father... 1838 01:32:56,574 --> 01:32:57,820 Even let me have... 1839 01:32:58,080 --> 01:33:00,902 Lace on my white satin slippers and lace... 1840 01:33:01,338 --> 01:33:04,211 With orange blossoms in my... Veil. 1841 01:33:08,892 --> 01:33:10,784 How I loved that gown! 1842 01:33:12,551 --> 01:33:13,692 It was so... 1843 01:33:16,667 --> 01:33:17,713 Beautiful. 1844 01:33:21,663 --> 01:33:23,162 Where is it now, I wonder. 1845 01:33:23,938 --> 01:33:24,831 I... I... 1846 01:33:25,435 --> 01:33:26,340 I... I... 1847 01:33:26,919 --> 01:33:29,732 I used to take it out from time to time when I was lonely. 1848 01:33:31,269 --> 01:33:33,212 But it always made me cry and so... 1849 01:33:35,017 --> 01:33:37,336 Finally a long while ago... 1850 01:33:39,004 --> 01:33:40,631 I wonder where I hid it? 1851 01:33:43,361 --> 01:33:46,472 Probably in some old trunk in the attic, someday I must have a look. 1852 01:33:48,350 --> 01:33:49,223 Well! 1853 01:33:49,579 --> 01:33:51,196 Isn't it dinner time dear? 1854 01:33:51,822 --> 01:33:53,726 You're ever scolding me for being late... 1855 01:33:53,727 --> 01:33:55,950 But now I'm on time for once, it's dinner that's late. 1856 01:33:56,971 --> 01:33:58,241 Well if I can't eat yet... 1857 01:33:58,692 --> 01:33:59,541 I can drink! 1858 01:33:59,596 --> 01:34:00,684 I forgot I had this. 1859 01:34:04,224 --> 01:34:06,533 Who's been tampering with my whiskey? 1860 01:34:06,534 --> 01:34:08,569 The damn stuff is half water. 1861 01:34:08,570 --> 01:34:10,076 Any fool can tell. 1862 01:34:11,087 --> 01:34:12,457 Mary, answer me. 1863 01:34:12,830 --> 01:34:15,726 I hope to God you haven't taken to drink on top of... 1864 01:34:15,727 --> 01:34:16,758 Shut up Papa! 1865 01:34:17,735 --> 01:34:19,657 You treated Cathleen and Bridget... 1866 01:34:19,977 --> 01:34:20,763 Isn't that it? 1867 01:34:20,765 --> 01:34:22,955 Yes. Yes I wanted to treat Cathleen... 1868 01:34:22,959 --> 01:34:24,679 Because I had her... 1869 01:34:24,680 --> 01:34:27,682 Drive uptown with me and sent her to get my prescription... 1870 01:34:28,128 --> 01:34:28,970 Filled. 1871 01:34:28,971 --> 01:34:32,219 For God's sake Mama! You can't trust her. 1872 01:34:32,849 --> 01:34:34,523 You want everyone on earth to know? 1873 01:34:34,524 --> 01:34:35,399 Know what? 1874 01:34:35,445 --> 01:34:37,802 That I suffer from rheumatism in my... 1875 01:34:37,889 --> 01:34:40,494 Hands and have to take medicine to kill the pain? 1876 01:34:40,652 --> 01:34:42,446 Why should I be ashamed of that? 1877 01:34:42,548 --> 01:34:45,225 I never knew what rheumatism was before you were bo... Born. 1878 01:34:47,186 --> 01:34:48,586 Ask your father. 1879 01:34:48,613 --> 01:34:50,367 Don't mind her lad, it doesn't mean anything. 1880 01:34:50,376 --> 01:34:52,249 When it gets to the stage where she gives... 1881 01:34:52,250 --> 01:34:56,602 The old crazy excuse about her hands she's gone far away from us. 1882 01:34:57,266 --> 01:34:59,629 I'm glad you realize that James. 1883 01:35:01,020 --> 01:35:04,150 Now perhaps you'll give up trying to remind me. 1884 01:35:05,206 --> 01:35:06,525 You and... 1885 01:35:07,979 --> 01:35:09,092 Edmund. 1886 01:35:12,207 --> 01:35:15,118 Why don't you light the lights James? 1887 01:35:16,679 --> 01:35:17,993 It's getting dark. 1888 01:35:18,880 --> 01:35:22,259 I know you hate to but Edmund has proved to you... 1889 01:35:22,260 --> 01:35:24,961 that one bulb burning doesn't cost much. 1890 01:35:25,777 --> 01:35:30,681 It's too bad you let your fear of the poor house make you too stingy. 1891 01:35:31,046 --> 01:35:33,423 I never claimed one bulb costed much. 1892 01:35:34,326 --> 01:35:37,317 It's having them on one here, one there... 1893 01:35:37,326 --> 01:35:39,564 Makes the electric light company rich. 1894 01:35:40,115 --> 01:35:41,710 I'm a fool to talk sense to you. 1895 01:35:43,087 --> 01:35:45,000 I'll get a fresh bottle of whiskey lad. 1896 01:35:45,190 --> 01:35:46,804 We'll have a real drink. 1897 01:35:52,155 --> 01:35:54,325 He'll sneak around.... 1898 01:35:54,661 --> 01:35:57,185 The outside cellar door so the... 1899 01:35:58,106 --> 01:35:59,816 Servants won't see him. 1900 01:36:02,907 --> 01:36:06,386 He's really ashamed of keeping his whiskey pad-locked in the cellar. 1901 01:36:10,692 --> 01:36:13,004 Oh, your father is a strange man. 1902 01:36:14,683 --> 01:36:17,167 Took many years before I understood him. His... 1903 01:36:17,478 --> 01:36:20,190 Father deserted his mother and their six children... 1904 01:36:20,191 --> 01:36:22,189 A year or so after they came to America. 1905 01:36:22,463 --> 01:36:25,407 He told them he had a premonition he would die soon. He was... 1906 01:36:25,509 --> 01:36:29,133 Homesick for Ireland and wanted to go there to die, so he went... 1907 01:36:29,372 --> 01:36:30,595 And he did die. 1908 01:36:33,206 --> 01:36:35,608 He must have been a peculiar man too. 1909 01:36:38,256 --> 01:36:39,653 Your father had to... 1910 01:36:39,756 --> 01:36:43,187 Go to work in a machine shop when he was only ten years... 1911 01:36:43,188 --> 01:36:44,545 For Pete’s sake Mama! 1912 01:36:45,501 --> 01:36:47,858 Heard Papa tell that story ten thousand times. 1913 01:36:48,028 --> 01:36:48,901 Yes dear. 1914 01:36:48,997 --> 01:36:50,188 You've had to listen. 1915 01:36:50,433 --> 01:36:53,054 But I don't think you ever tried to understand. 1916 01:36:56,625 --> 01:36:57,781 Listen Mama. 1917 01:36:59,628 --> 01:37:01,207 You're not so far gone yet... 1918 01:37:01,350 --> 01:37:02,619 You've forgotten everything. 1919 01:37:04,396 --> 01:37:06,720 You haven't asked me what I found out this afternoon. 1920 01:37:07,817 --> 01:37:09,278 Don't you care a damn? 1921 01:37:10,870 --> 01:37:12,735 Don't say that. You hurt me dear. 1922 01:37:12,957 --> 01:37:14,545 What I've got is serious Mama. 1923 01:37:15,348 --> 01:37:16,771 Doc Hardy knows for sure. 1924 01:37:16,772 --> 01:37:19,009 That lying old quack! I warned you he'd invent... 1925 01:37:19,432 --> 01:37:21,005 He called in a specialist to examine me... 1926 01:37:21,031 --> 01:37:22,549 Don't tell me about doctor Hardy. 1927 01:37:22,550 --> 01:37:24,334 - So he'd be absolutely sure. - If you'd heard what the doctor in the sanatorium... 1928 01:37:24,335 --> 01:37:25,654 Who really know something. 1929 01:37:25,655 --> 01:37:26,884 I said about how he treated me... 1930 01:37:26,885 --> 01:37:28,864 He said it was a wonder I hadn't gone mad! 1931 01:37:28,865 --> 01:37:32,706 I told him I had once, that time I ran down in my nightdress to... 1932 01:37:32,707 --> 01:37:35,353 Throw myself off the dock. You remember that don't you? 1933 01:37:35,642 --> 01:37:38,475 And you want me to pay attention to what doctor Hardy says? 1934 01:37:38,476 --> 01:37:39,890 - Oh no. - Listen Mama! 1935 01:37:40,684 --> 01:37:42,914 I'm gonna tell you whether you want to hear it or not. 1936 01:37:44,182 --> 01:37:46,012 I've got to go away to a sanatorium. 1937 01:37:48,107 --> 01:37:49,388 No! 1938 01:37:54,274 --> 01:37:56,300 How dare your father allow him. 1939 01:37:58,392 --> 01:37:59,765 You're my baby. 1940 01:38:02,304 --> 01:38:04,668 I know why he wants to send you to a sanitarium. 1941 01:38:04,669 --> 01:38:05,995 To take you away from me. 1942 01:38:05,996 --> 01:38:08,624 He's been jealous of everyone of my babies and you most of all. 1943 01:38:08,625 --> 01:38:11,037 He knows I love you most because... You're my... 1944 01:38:11,038 --> 01:38:13,088 Stop talking crazy, can't you Mama? 1945 01:38:14,353 --> 01:38:15,821 And stop trying to blame him. 1946 01:38:18,979 --> 01:38:21,249 And why are you so against my going away now? 1947 01:38:21,645 --> 01:38:24,578 I've been away a lot. And I've never noticed it broke your heart. 1948 01:38:28,655 --> 01:38:31,433 I'm afraid you're not... Very sensitive dear. 1949 01:38:33,327 --> 01:38:34,882 You ought to have guessed that... 1950 01:38:36,001 --> 01:38:37,885 After I knew you knew... 1951 01:38:38,410 --> 01:38:39,512 About me... 1952 01:38:41,293 --> 01:38:44,416 I had to be glad whenever you were away you couldn't see me. 1953 01:38:49,249 --> 01:38:50,333 Don't Mama. 1954 01:38:54,055 --> 01:38:55,395 All this talk about... 1955 01:38:57,206 --> 01:39:00,028 Loving me, and when I try to tell you how sick I am.... 1956 01:39:00,389 --> 01:39:02,643 You're so like your father dear. 1957 01:39:02,644 --> 01:39:06,518 Love to be dramatic and tragic so you can make a scene out of nothing. 1958 01:39:06,748 --> 01:39:08,374 If I gave you the slightest encouragement... 1959 01:39:08,376 --> 01:39:10,228 You'd tell me next you're gonna die. 1960 01:39:11,693 --> 01:39:12,923 People do die of it. 1961 01:39:13,402 --> 01:39:14,646 Your own father... 1962 01:39:14,647 --> 01:39:16,157 Why... Why do you mention him? 1963 01:39:16,445 --> 01:39:19,499 No comparison at all with you, he had consumption. 1964 01:39:19,500 --> 01:39:22,320 I hate it when you become morbid and gloomy. 1965 01:39:22,651 --> 01:39:25,990 I forbid you to remind me of my father's death do you hear? 1966 01:39:26,691 --> 01:39:29,240 Yes I hear you, Mama. I wish to God I didn't. 1967 01:39:30,594 --> 01:39:32,713 It's... Hard to take at times... 1968 01:39:33,395 --> 01:39:35,522 Having... A dope fiend for a mother. 1969 01:39:51,531 --> 01:39:52,806 Forgive me Mama. 1970 01:39:54,488 --> 01:39:55,591 I was angry... 1971 01:39:56,155 --> 01:39:57,401 And you hurt me. 1972 01:40:01,651 --> 01:40:03,631 Just listen to that... 1973 01:40:04,250 --> 01:40:05,586 Foghorn. 1974 01:40:07,174 --> 01:40:08,819 And the bells. 1975 01:40:11,222 --> 01:40:12,246 Why is it... 1976 01:40:12,635 --> 01:40:15,422 Fog makes everything sound so sad... 1977 01:40:15,766 --> 01:40:16,893 Lost. 1978 01:40:18,207 --> 01:40:19,418 I wonder. 1979 01:40:24,911 --> 01:40:26,006 I can't say. 1980 01:40:28,830 --> 01:40:30,487 I don't want any dinner. 1981 01:40:42,113 --> 01:40:45,187 I haven't taken enough, I have to go upstairs. 1982 01:40:47,601 --> 01:40:49,454 I hope sometime without... 1983 01:40:51,603 --> 01:40:53,219 Meaning to or... 1984 01:40:54,247 --> 01:40:55,825 Take an overdose. 1985 01:40:57,708 --> 01:40:59,448 Could never do it deliberately. 1986 01:41:00,717 --> 01:41:03,343 The Blessed Virgin would never forgive me then. 1987 01:41:04,298 --> 01:41:06,399 The padlock is all scratched. 1988 01:41:06,400 --> 01:41:09,421 That drunken loafer has tried to pick the lock with a piece of wire... 1989 01:41:09,422 --> 01:41:12,589 The way he's done before. But I fooled him this time. 1990 01:41:13,154 --> 01:41:16,561 It's a special padlock a professional burglar couldn't pick. 1991 01:41:17,348 --> 01:41:18,436 Where's Edmund? 1992 01:41:19,546 --> 01:41:20,677 He went out. 1993 01:41:22,501 --> 01:41:23,651 Perhaps he's... 1994 01:41:24,548 --> 01:41:26,675 Gone uptown to find Jamie. 1995 01:41:30,421 --> 01:41:31,951 He still had some money left. 1996 01:41:33,590 --> 01:41:36,154 I suppose it's burning a hole in his pocket. 1997 01:41:38,513 --> 01:41:40,451 He said he didn't... Want any dinner. 1998 01:41:41,540 --> 01:41:44,091 Doesn't seem to have any appetite these days. 1999 01:41:45,694 --> 01:41:48,095 But it's just a summer cold. 2000 01:41:49,221 --> 01:41:51,535 Oh... James! 2001 01:41:52,396 --> 01:41:55,143 I'm so frightened, I know he's gonna die! 2002 01:41:55,365 --> 01:41:56,835 Don't say that it's not true. 2003 01:41:57,548 --> 01:42:00,155 They promised me in six months he'd be cured. 2004 01:42:00,156 --> 01:42:02,309 You don't believe that. I can tell when you're acting. 2005 01:42:02,310 --> 01:42:03,907 An the it'll be all my fault. 2006 01:42:03,908 --> 01:42:05,661 I should never have born him. 2007 01:42:05,662 --> 01:42:09,107 It would've been better for his sake. I couldn't have hurt him then. 2008 01:42:09,759 --> 01:42:13,462 He wouldn't have had to know his mother was a dope fiend, then. 2009 01:42:14,723 --> 01:42:15,888 Hush Mary... 2010 01:42:15,889 --> 01:42:17,334 For the love of God. 2011 01:42:17,335 --> 01:42:18,708 He loves you. 2012 01:42:18,709 --> 01:42:22,035 He knows it was a curse put upon you without you knowing or willing it. 2013 01:42:22,036 --> 01:42:24,012 He's proud you're his mother! 2014 01:42:24,013 --> 01:42:26,113 Hush now, here comes Cathleen. 2015 01:42:26,114 --> 01:42:27,861 You don't want her to see you crying. 2016 01:42:28,427 --> 01:42:30,021 Dinner is served sir. 2017 01:42:30,338 --> 01:42:31,998 Dinner is served ma'am. 2018 01:42:32,674 --> 01:42:33,834 Come along dear. 2019 01:42:34,353 --> 01:42:35,741 Let's have our dinner. 2020 01:42:37,160 --> 01:42:38,992 I'm as hungry as a hunter. 2021 01:42:41,617 --> 01:42:42,791 I couldn't... 2022 01:42:43,172 --> 01:42:45,013 Possibly eat anything James. 2023 01:42:45,014 --> 01:42:46,943 I think you'll have to excuse me. 2024 01:42:48,083 --> 01:42:49,599 My... My hands... 2025 01:42:49,978 --> 01:42:51,291 Pain me dreadfully. 2026 01:42:53,116 --> 01:42:55,677 I think the best thing for me is to go to bed... 2027 01:42:56,749 --> 01:42:58,034 And rest. 2028 01:43:00,115 --> 01:43:01,150 Goodnight dear. 2029 01:43:02,508 --> 01:43:06,298 Up to take more of that God damn poison is it? 2030 01:43:07,206 --> 01:43:11,080 You'll be like a mad ghost before the night is over. 2031 01:43:11,536 --> 01:43:13,361 I don't know what you're talking about. 2032 01:43:13,972 --> 01:43:17,611 You say such mean bitter things when you've had too much to drink. 2033 01:43:18,978 --> 01:43:21,107 You're as bad as Jamie or Edmund. 2034 01:44:32,906 --> 01:44:34,013 Who's that? 2035 01:44:34,675 --> 01:44:35,596 Is it you Edmund? 2036 01:44:35,875 --> 01:44:36,788 Yes! 2037 01:44:44,496 --> 01:44:46,496 Turn that light out before you come in. 2038 01:44:47,102 --> 01:44:49,710 Well I'm glad you've come lad, I've been damn lonely. 2039 01:44:49,718 --> 01:44:51,596 You're a fine one to run away and leave me... 2040 01:44:51,597 --> 01:44:53,717 To sit alone here all night when you know... 2041 01:44:54,691 --> 01:44:56,793 I've told you to turn out that light. 2042 01:44:56,944 --> 01:44:58,436 We're not giving a ball. 2043 01:44:58,828 --> 01:45:01,321 There's no reason to have the house ablaze with electricity... 2044 01:45:01,330 --> 01:45:03,195 At this time of night, burning up money. 2045 01:45:03,196 --> 01:45:06,192 "Ablaze with electricity", one bulb! 2046 01:45:06,566 --> 01:45:09,575 Hell everyone leaves a light on in the front porch until they go to bed. 2047 01:45:10,299 --> 01:45:12,134 Ended up busting my knee on the hatstand. 2048 01:45:12,614 --> 01:45:14,057 The light from here shows in the hall. 2049 01:45:14,058 --> 01:45:16,213 You could see a way well enough if you were sober. 2050 01:45:16,214 --> 01:45:18,145 If "I" were sober, I like that. 2051 01:45:18,146 --> 01:45:19,688 I don't give a damn what other people do. 2052 01:45:19,689 --> 01:45:21,237 If they want to be wasteful fools 2053 01:45:21,238 --> 01:45:22,953 For the sake of show, let them be. 2054 01:45:22,954 --> 01:45:25,550 One bulb! God don't be such a cheapskate. 2055 01:45:26,610 --> 01:45:29,791 I've proved to you by figures you can leave the light bulb on all night... 2056 01:45:29,792 --> 01:45:31,421 It wouldn't be as much as one drink. 2057 01:45:31,422 --> 01:45:32,541 To hell with your figures! 2058 01:45:32,542 --> 01:45:34,510 The proof is in the bills I have to pay. 2059 01:45:34,511 --> 01:45:36,504 Yes, facts don't mean a thing do they? 2060 01:45:37,196 --> 01:45:39,423 What you want to believe, that's the only truth. 2061 01:45:41,070 --> 01:45:43,926 Shakespeare was an Irish catholic for example. 2062 01:45:43,927 --> 01:45:46,017 So he was. The proof was in his plays. 2063 01:45:46,018 --> 01:45:49,646 Well he wasn't, and there is no proof of it in his plays except to you. 2064 01:45:51,102 --> 01:45:54,706 The Duke of Wellington, that was another good Irish catholic. 2065 01:45:54,708 --> 01:45:56,096 I never said he was a good one... 2066 01:45:56,097 --> 01:45:58,525 He was a renegade, but a catholic just the same. 2067 01:45:58,526 --> 01:45:59,863 Well he wasn't. 2068 01:45:59,864 --> 01:46:01,418 You just want to believe that no-one... 2069 01:46:01,419 --> 01:46:04,032 But an Irish catholic general could beat Napoleon. 2070 01:46:04,033 --> 01:46:05,907 Yes, now I'm not going to argue with you. 2071 01:46:05,908 --> 01:46:08,733 I asked you to turn out that light in the hall. 2072 01:46:08,734 --> 01:46:09,883 I heard you... 2073 01:46:09,884 --> 01:46:11,709 And as far as I'm concerned it stays on. 2074 01:46:11,710 --> 01:46:15,043 None of your damned insolence. Are you going to obey me or not? 2075 01:46:15,147 --> 01:46:15,855 Not! 2076 01:46:16,542 --> 01:46:19,066 You want to be a crazy miser, put it out yourself. 2077 01:46:19,282 --> 01:46:20,529 Now you listen to me. 2078 01:46:20,844 --> 01:46:23,680 I put up with a lot from you because from the mad things... 2079 01:46:23,682 --> 01:46:26,428 You've done at times I thought you weren't quite right in your head. 2080 01:46:27,429 --> 01:46:29,673 I've excused you and never lifted my hand to you... 2081 01:46:29,674 --> 01:46:32,872 But there's a straw that breaks the camel's back! 2082 01:46:34,132 --> 01:46:36,353 You'll obey me and put out that light... 2083 01:46:36,354 --> 01:46:40,024 Or big as you are I'll give you a trashing that will teach you... 2084 01:46:42,618 --> 01:46:44,885 I'm sorry lad... Forgive me, I forgot. 2085 01:46:45,999 --> 01:46:47,960 You shouldn't goad me into losing my temper. 2086 01:46:48,822 --> 01:46:51,012 Forget it Papa, I apologize too. 2087 01:46:51,543 --> 01:46:53,657 I had no right being nasty about nothing. 2088 01:46:54,402 --> 01:46:55,841 I'm a bit souse I guess. 2089 01:46:57,187 --> 01:46:58,473 I'll put out the damn light. 2090 01:46:58,474 --> 01:47:00,109 No. No. No. Stay where you are. 2091 01:47:00,896 --> 01:47:02,173 Let it burn. 2092 01:47:03,688 --> 01:47:05,022 We'll have them all on. 2093 01:47:06,790 --> 01:47:08,036 Let them burn. 2094 01:47:08,977 --> 01:47:10,168 To hell with them! 2095 01:47:10,834 --> 01:47:14,662 The poor house is the end of the road, it might as well be sooner as later. 2096 01:47:15,508 --> 01:47:17,103 That's a grand curtain. 2097 01:47:17,104 --> 01:47:18,595 You're a wonder Papa. 2098 01:47:18,596 --> 01:47:21,019 That's right, laugh at the poor old man. 2099 01:47:21,020 --> 01:47:22,400 The poor old ham. 2100 01:47:22,924 --> 01:47:25,969 But the final curtain will be in the poor house just he same. 2101 01:47:25,978 --> 01:47:28,025 And that's not comedy. 2102 01:47:29,135 --> 01:47:31,658 Well, well let's not argue. 2103 01:47:32,003 --> 01:47:34,336 You'll live to learn the value of a dollar. 2104 01:47:34,676 --> 01:47:37,119 You're not like that damned tramp of a brother. 2105 01:47:37,463 --> 01:47:39,411 I've given up hope he'll ever get sense. 2106 01:47:39,412 --> 01:47:40,800 Where is he, by the way? 2107 01:47:40,929 --> 01:47:42,083 How would I know? 2108 01:47:42,084 --> 01:47:44,018 I thought you went back uptown to meet him. 2109 01:47:44,259 --> 01:47:46,213 No, I walked down by the beach. 2110 01:47:46,334 --> 01:47:48,340 I haven't seen him since this afternoon. 2111 01:47:48,341 --> 01:47:51,325 Well if you shared the money I gave you like a fool... 2112 01:47:51,326 --> 01:47:54,268 Sure I did. He always staked me when he had anything. 2113 01:47:54,269 --> 01:47:58,296 It doesn't take a soothsayer to tell he's probably in the whorehouse. 2114 01:47:58,297 --> 01:48:00,315 Oh, for God's sake Papa! 2115 01:48:00,316 --> 01:48:02,648 If you're gonna start that stuff again I'll beat it. 2116 01:48:02,649 --> 01:48:05,868 All right. All right. I'll stop. God knows I don't like the subject either. 2117 01:48:06,523 --> 01:48:08,164 Will you join me in a drink? 2118 01:48:08,165 --> 01:48:09,389 Now you're talking! 2119 01:48:09,390 --> 01:48:11,587 I'm wrong to treat you, you've had enough already... 2120 01:48:11,606 --> 01:48:14,837 But if you walked all the way to the beach you must be damp and chilled. 2121 01:48:14,838 --> 01:48:17,538 Oh, I dropped in at the inn on the way out and back. 2122 01:48:18,382 --> 01:48:20,391 Not the night I'd pick for a long walk. 2123 01:48:20,392 --> 01:48:21,985 I love the fog. 2124 01:48:22,950 --> 01:48:23,974 It was what I needed. 2125 01:48:23,975 --> 01:48:25,919 You should have more sense than to risk... 2126 01:48:25,920 --> 01:48:27,514 Oh, to hell with sense!! 2127 01:48:29,105 --> 01:48:30,940 The fog was where I wanted to be. 2128 01:48:31,770 --> 01:48:34,564 Halfway down the path you can't see this house. 2129 01:48:35,361 --> 01:48:37,012 You'd never even know it was here. 2130 01:48:37,520 --> 01:48:39,913 Everything looked and sounded unreal. 2131 01:48:40,756 --> 01:48:41,794 It was like... 2132 01:48:42,144 --> 01:48:43,945 Walking on the bottom of the sea. 2133 01:48:45,057 --> 01:48:47,442 As if I'd drowned long ago. 2134 01:48:48,559 --> 01:48:51,709 As if I was a ghost, belonging to the fog. 2135 01:48:52,660 --> 01:48:55,030 And the fog was the ghost of the sea. 2136 01:48:56,841 --> 01:49:00,813 It felt damn peaceful to nothing more than a ghost within a ghost. 2137 01:49:04,637 --> 01:49:06,321 Don't look at me as if I'd gone nutty. 2138 01:49:06,830 --> 01:49:09,005 Who wants to see life as it is, if they can help it? 2139 01:49:10,633 --> 01:49:13,819 You've a poet in you but it's a damn morbid one. 2140 01:49:15,131 --> 01:49:16,783 Devil take your pessimism! 2141 01:49:18,313 --> 01:49:19,929 I'm low spirited enough. 2142 01:49:21,307 --> 01:49:23,408 Why can't you remember your Shakespeare? 2143 01:49:23,409 --> 01:49:26,079 You'll find what you were trying to say in him. 2144 01:49:28,081 --> 01:49:31,604 "We are such stuff as dreams are made on... 2145 01:49:32,461 --> 01:49:36,057 And our little life is rounded with a sleep" 2146 01:49:38,398 --> 01:49:39,475 Fine. 2147 01:49:40,203 --> 01:49:43,073 That's beautiful. But I wasn't trying to say that. 2148 01:49:43,907 --> 01:49:47,666 We are such stuff as manure is made on... 2149 01:49:47,667 --> 01:49:50,468 So let's drink up and forget it, that's more my idea. 2150 01:49:50,890 --> 01:49:52,631 Keep such sentiments to yourself. 2151 01:49:52,949 --> 01:49:54,512 I shouldn't have given you that drink. 2152 01:49:55,371 --> 01:49:56,865 It did pack a wallop all right. 2153 01:49:57,846 --> 01:49:59,076 On you too. 2154 01:49:59,901 --> 01:50:02,060 Even if you never missed a performance. 2155 01:50:03,266 --> 01:50:05,121 What's wrong with being drunk? 2156 01:50:05,525 --> 01:50:06,954 It's what were after isn't it? 2157 01:50:08,380 --> 01:50:10,555 "Be always drunken... 2158 01:50:10,564 --> 01:50:11,897 Nothing else matters... 2159 01:50:11,898 --> 01:50:13,762 That is the only question" 2160 01:50:14,403 --> 01:50:17,655 "If you would not feel the horrible burden of time... 2161 01:50:17,656 --> 01:50:20,691 Weighing on your shoulders and crushing you to the earth"... 2162 01:50:20,692 --> 01:50:22,391 "Be drunken continually". 2163 01:50:22,395 --> 01:50:23,800 "Be drunken with what? 2164 01:50:23,816 --> 01:50:27,214 With wine, with poetry or virtue as you will"... 2165 01:50:27,215 --> 01:50:28,504 "But be drunken... 2166 01:50:28,505 --> 01:50:31,234 And if sometimes on the stairs of a palace"... 2167 01:50:31,235 --> 01:50:33,104 "Or on the green side of a ditch... 2168 01:50:33,105 --> 01:50:36,006 Or in the dreary solitude of your own room"... 2169 01:50:36,007 --> 01:50:37,871 "You should awaken and the drunkenness... 2170 01:50:37,872 --> 01:50:40,381 Be half of wholly slipped away from you" 2171 01:50:40,382 --> 01:50:41,993 "Ask of the wind... 2172 01:50:41,994 --> 01:50:45,356 Or of the wave, or of the star, or of the bird, or of the clock... 2173 01:50:45,360 --> 01:50:49,027 Of whatever flies, or sighs, or rocks, or sings, or speaks"... 2174 01:50:50,038 --> 01:50:51,546 "Ask what hour it is... 2175 01:50:51,799 --> 01:50:55,889 And the wind, the wave, star, bird, clock will answer you"... 2176 01:50:56,500 --> 01:51:00,402 "It is the hour to be drunken... 2177 01:51:01,109 --> 01:51:02,959 Be drunken continually"... 2178 01:51:03,406 --> 01:51:07,702 "With wine, with poetry or with virtue. As you will"... 2179 01:51:09,676 --> 01:51:12,873 Well I wouldn't worry about the virtue part of it if I were you. 2180 01:51:14,317 --> 01:51:16,092 But you recited it well lad. 2181 01:51:16,992 --> 01:51:17,921 Who wrote it? 2182 01:51:18,731 --> 01:51:19,723 Baudelaire. 2183 01:51:20,618 --> 01:51:21,780 Never heard of him. 2184 01:51:23,960 --> 01:51:27,242 Where do you get your taste in authors? 2185 01:51:27,465 --> 01:51:30,640 This damned library of yours... 2186 01:51:31,335 --> 01:51:34,732 Voltaire and Rousseau and Schopenhauer... 2187 01:51:34,900 --> 01:51:36,226 And Ibsen! 2188 01:51:36,506 --> 01:51:38,919 Atheists, fools and madmen! 2189 01:51:39,052 --> 01:51:42,151 And your poet this... Baudelaire. 2190 01:51:43,045 --> 01:51:47,006 And Swinburne and Oscar Wilde, Whitman and Poe! 2191 01:51:47,172 --> 01:51:49,476 Whore-mongers and degenerates. 2192 01:51:49,608 --> 01:51:52,837 But I have three good sets of Shakespeare there, you could read. 2193 01:51:52,838 --> 01:51:54,453 They say he was a souse too. 2194 01:51:54,454 --> 01:51:55,794 They lie. 2195 01:51:55,796 --> 01:51:58,415 I don't doubt he liked his glass, it's a good man's failing... 2196 01:51:58,416 --> 01:52:01,395 But he knew how to drink that it didn't poison his mind... 2197 01:52:01,396 --> 01:52:03,308 With morbidness and filth. 2198 01:52:03,309 --> 01:52:07,320 Don't compare him with the pack you've got here. 2199 01:52:07,738 --> 01:52:09,523 Your dirty Zola! 2200 01:52:09,740 --> 01:52:10,891 And your... 2201 01:52:11,231 --> 01:52:14,274 Dante Gabriel Rossetti... 2202 01:52:14,275 --> 01:52:16,409 Who was a dope fiend... 2203 01:52:20,400 --> 01:52:22,662 Perhaps it would be wise to change the subject. 2204 01:52:31,086 --> 01:52:33,602 You can't accuse me of not knowing Shakespeare. 2205 01:52:34,735 --> 01:52:36,789 Didn't I win five dollars from you once... 2206 01:52:36,790 --> 01:52:39,433 When you bet me I couldn't learn a leading part of his in a week... 2207 01:52:39,434 --> 01:52:41,897 As you used to do in stock in the old days? 2208 01:52:42,505 --> 01:52:45,972 I learned Macbeth and recited it letter perfect with you... 2209 01:52:46,195 --> 01:52:47,338 Giving me the cues. 2210 01:52:47,339 --> 01:52:48,911 That's true, so you did. 2211 01:52:49,542 --> 01:52:54,092 And a terrible ordeal it was, I remember hearing you murder the lines. 2212 01:52:55,142 --> 01:52:58,430 I kept wishing I'd paid over the bet without making you prove it. 2213 01:52:59,729 --> 01:53:00,997 Did you hear? 2214 01:53:02,201 --> 01:53:03,666 She's moving around. 2215 01:53:07,867 --> 01:53:10,363 I hope to God she doesn't come down. 2216 01:53:11,419 --> 01:53:15,186 Yes, she'd be nothing more than a ghost haunting the past by this time. 2217 01:53:16,184 --> 01:53:17,864 Back before I was born. 2218 01:53:19,167 --> 01:53:21,202 Doesn't she do the same with me? 2219 01:53:21,860 --> 01:53:24,664 You must take her memories with a grain of salt. 2220 01:53:25,471 --> 01:53:28,636 Her wonderful home was ordinary enough. 2221 01:53:29,340 --> 01:53:33,720 Her father wasn't the great noble Irish gentleman she makes out. 2222 01:53:33,737 --> 01:53:36,670 Oh, he was a nice enough man, good company a good talker. 2223 01:53:36,671 --> 01:53:38,601 I liked him and he liked me. 2224 01:53:38,790 --> 01:53:42,183 He was prosperous enough too in his wholesale grocery business. 2225 01:53:42,184 --> 01:53:43,382 An able man. 2226 01:53:44,017 --> 01:53:45,393 But he had his weakness. 2227 01:53:46,258 --> 01:53:48,691 She condemns my drinking... 2228 01:53:48,945 --> 01:53:50,692 But she forgets his. 2229 01:53:51,060 --> 01:53:53,355 Oh, it's true he never touched a drop until he was forty... 2230 01:53:53,356 --> 01:53:55,483 But after that he made up for lost time. 2231 01:53:55,822 --> 01:53:58,906 He became a steady champagne drinker. 2232 01:53:59,219 --> 01:54:00,314 The worst kind. 2233 01:54:00,457 --> 01:54:04,079 That was his grand pose. To drink only champagne. 2234 01:54:05,164 --> 01:54:07,426 Well, it finished him quick. 2235 01:54:08,315 --> 01:54:10,648 That and the consumption. 2236 01:54:14,559 --> 01:54:17,997 We don't seem to be able to avoid unpleasant topics, do we? 2237 01:54:18,793 --> 01:54:19,771 No. 2238 01:54:21,201 --> 01:54:24,252 Well, what do you say to a game or two of casino, lad? 2239 01:54:24,253 --> 01:54:25,054 All right. 2240 01:54:25,741 --> 01:54:29,836 We can't lock up and go to bed until Jamie comes on the last trolley. 2241 01:54:30,653 --> 01:54:32,078 Which I hope he won't. 2242 01:54:33,005 --> 01:54:34,779 I don't want to go upstairs anyway. 2243 01:54:35,592 --> 01:54:37,042 So she's gone to sleep. 2244 01:54:37,367 --> 01:54:38,488 Neither do I. 2245 01:54:41,184 --> 01:54:42,715 As I told you before... 2246 01:54:43,386 --> 01:54:45,649 You must take her tales of the past... 2247 01:54:46,252 --> 01:54:47,807 With a grain of salt. 2248 01:54:48,734 --> 01:54:50,155 The piano playing... 2249 01:54:50,465 --> 01:54:53,235 And her dream of becoming a concert pianist... 2250 01:54:54,279 --> 01:54:56,731 It was put in her head by the nuns flattering her. 2251 01:54:56,961 --> 01:54:58,390 She was their pet. 2252 01:54:58,885 --> 01:55:00,916 They loved her for being so devout 2253 01:55:01,962 --> 01:55:04,540 And the idea she might have become a nun... 2254 01:55:04,850 --> 01:55:05,993 That's the worst. 2255 01:55:07,795 --> 01:55:12,659 Your mother was one of the most beautiful girls you ever could see. 2256 01:55:13,733 --> 01:55:14,932 She knew it too. 2257 01:55:16,008 --> 01:55:17,856 She was a bit of a rogue and a coquette... 2258 01:55:17,857 --> 01:55:20,796 God bless her, behind all her shyness and blushes. 2259 01:55:21,773 --> 01:55:24,515 She was never made to renounce the world. 2260 01:55:25,293 --> 01:55:30,845 She was bursting with health and high spirits and the love of loving. 2261 01:55:31,446 --> 01:55:33,817 Oh, for God's sake Papa, pick up your hand. 2262 01:55:34,882 --> 01:55:36,288 Yes. Yes. 2263 01:55:37,346 --> 01:55:38,990 Let's see what I have here. 2264 01:55:40,288 --> 01:55:41,317 Listen! 2265 01:55:42,195 --> 01:55:43,692 She's coming downstairs. 2266 01:55:44,238 --> 01:55:46,498 Let's play our game, pretend not to notice. 2267 01:55:46,499 --> 01:55:48,110 She'll soon go up again. 2268 01:55:52,508 --> 01:55:53,585 I don't see her... 2269 01:55:53,586 --> 01:55:56,112 She must have started down... and turned back. 2270 01:55:56,382 --> 01:55:57,469 Thank God! 2271 01:55:59,607 --> 01:56:00,766 Yes. 2272 01:56:01,947 --> 01:56:04,549 It's pretty horrible to see her the way she must be now. 2273 01:56:04,936 --> 01:56:08,394 She's been terribly frightened about your illness for all her pretending. 2274 01:56:08,950 --> 01:56:12,256 Oh, don't be too hard on her lad, remember she's not responsible. 2275 01:56:12,358 --> 01:56:14,407 I know damn well she's not to blame. 2276 01:56:14,727 --> 01:56:16,068 And I know who is. 2277 01:56:16,464 --> 01:56:19,032 You are. Your damned stinginess. 2278 01:56:19,846 --> 01:56:22,781 If you'd spent money on a decent doctor when she was so sick... 2279 01:56:22,782 --> 01:56:25,166 After I was born, she would never known morphine existed. 2280 01:56:25,342 --> 01:56:27,581 You must try to see my side of it too lad. 2281 01:56:28,410 --> 01:56:30,838 How was I to know he was that kind of doctor? 2282 01:56:30,981 --> 01:56:32,610 He'd a good reputation. 2283 01:56:32,618 --> 01:56:35,215 Among the souses in the hotel bar I suppose. 2284 01:56:35,216 --> 01:56:38,813 You lie! I asked the hotel proprietor to recommend the best... 2285 01:56:38,814 --> 01:56:40,286 At the same time crying "poor house"... 2286 01:56:40,287 --> 01:56:42,517 And making it plain you wanted a cheap one. 2287 01:56:43,160 --> 01:56:44,519 I know your system. 2288 01:56:45,032 --> 01:56:47,039 God! I ought to after this afternoon. 2289 01:56:47,413 --> 01:56:49,168 What about this afternoon? 2290 01:56:49,169 --> 01:56:51,240 Never mind now. We're talking about Mama. 2291 01:56:52,238 --> 01:56:54,585 I'm saying no matter how you try and excuse yourself... 2292 01:56:54,586 --> 01:56:57,106 You know damn well your stinginess was to blame. 2293 01:56:57,107 --> 01:57:00,108 Well I say you're a liar... Shut your mouth right now or... 2294 01:57:00,109 --> 01:57:02,237 After you'd found out she'd been made a morphine addict... 2295 01:57:02,238 --> 01:57:04,528 Why didn't you send her to a cure then, at the start... 2296 01:57:04,529 --> 01:57:05,973 When she still had a chance? 2297 01:57:05,974 --> 01:57:07,918 What did I know about morphine? 2298 01:57:08,400 --> 01:57:10,801 It was years before I discovered what was wrong. 2299 01:57:11,247 --> 01:57:13,317 Why didn't I send her to a cure you say? 2300 01:57:13,318 --> 01:57:17,162 I've spent thousands on thousands in cures, a waste! 2301 01:57:17,402 --> 01:57:20,206 What have they done her? She's always started again. 2302 01:57:20,207 --> 01:57:21,915 Yes, it's because you've never given her anything 2303 01:57:21,916 --> 01:57:23,638 That would help her want to stay off it. 2304 01:57:24,482 --> 01:57:26,457 No home except this summer... 2305 01:57:26,458 --> 01:57:27,970 Dump in a place she hates... 2306 01:57:27,971 --> 01:57:30,676 And you've refused to spend money even to make this look decent. 2307 01:57:31,149 --> 01:57:32,806 While you keep buying more property... 2308 01:57:32,807 --> 01:57:34,902 And playing sucker for every con-man with a... 2309 01:57:35,196 --> 01:57:38,724 Gold mine or a silver mine or any other get rich quick swindle. 2310 01:57:39,244 --> 01:57:41,679 You've dragged her around the road, season after season... 2311 01:57:41,680 --> 01:57:43,856 On one night stands with no one she could talk to. 2312 01:57:44,257 --> 01:57:46,676 Waiting night after night in dirty hotel rooms 2313 01:57:46,677 --> 01:57:49,609 For you to come home with a bun on after the bar has closed. 2314 01:57:50,394 --> 01:57:52,374 It isn't any wonder she didn't want to be cured. 2315 01:57:52,703 --> 01:57:53,925 God... God! 2316 01:57:54,348 --> 01:57:56,199 When I think of it I hate your guts! 2317 01:57:56,200 --> 01:57:58,731 Edmund! How dare you talk to your father like that? 2318 01:57:58,732 --> 01:58:00,723 You insolent young cub! 2319 01:58:00,724 --> 01:58:02,249 After all I've done for you. 2320 01:58:02,590 --> 01:58:04,538 We'll come to that, what you're doing for me. 2321 01:58:04,540 --> 01:58:07,373 Will you stop repeating your mother's crazy accusations? 2322 01:58:07,976 --> 01:58:10,791 I've never dragged her on the road against her will.... 2323 01:58:10,792 --> 01:58:12,855 Naturally I wanted her with me, I loved her. 2324 01:58:12,856 --> 01:58:14,251 And she came because she loved me... 2325 01:58:14,252 --> 01:58:16,007 And wanted to be with me, that's the truth. 2326 01:58:16,328 --> 01:58:19,068 And she needn't have been lonely... She had her children... 2327 01:58:19,102 --> 01:58:22,188 And I insisted, despite the expense... 2328 01:58:22,189 --> 01:58:24,295 On having a nurse to travel with her. 2329 01:58:24,296 --> 01:58:26,653 Yes, your one generosity. 2330 01:58:26,816 --> 01:58:28,116 And that... 2331 01:58:28,117 --> 01:58:31,121 Because you were jealous of her spending too much time with us. 2332 01:58:31,273 --> 01:58:32,756 And wanted us out of your way. 2333 01:58:32,757 --> 01:58:34,114 And that was another mistake too. 2334 01:58:34,115 --> 01:58:36,162 If she had to take care of me all by herself... 2335 01:58:36,163 --> 01:58:37,759 And had that to occupy her mind. 2336 01:58:37,761 --> 01:58:39,325 Maybe she'd been able to stop. 2337 01:58:39,326 --> 01:58:42,540 Oh, for that matter since you insist on judging things... 2338 01:58:42,541 --> 01:58:45,829 By what she says when she's not in her right mind... 2339 01:58:45,830 --> 01:58:49,144 If you'd never been born she'd never... 2340 01:58:55,399 --> 01:58:56,897 Sure. 2341 01:58:57,844 --> 01:58:59,733 I know that's how she feels Papa. 2342 01:59:00,662 --> 01:59:01,950 She doesn't. 2343 01:59:02,508 --> 01:59:05,168 She loves you as dearly as ever a mother loved a son. 2344 01:59:06,610 --> 01:59:08,752 I've only said that because you've put me in such a... 2345 01:59:08,753 --> 01:59:10,291 God damned rage! 2346 01:59:10,292 --> 01:59:11,612 Making up the past... 2347 01:59:11,613 --> 01:59:13,041 Saying you hate me. 2348 01:59:14,362 --> 01:59:15,902 I didn't mean it Papa. 2349 01:59:19,647 --> 01:59:20,869 I'm like Mama. 2350 01:59:22,204 --> 01:59:24,935 I can't help liking you... in spite of everything. 2351 01:59:25,683 --> 01:59:27,390 Well I might say the same of you. 2352 01:59:28,975 --> 01:59:30,989 You're no great shakes as a son. 2353 01:59:31,965 --> 01:59:34,580 It's a case of "A poor thing but mine own". 2354 01:59:35,330 --> 01:59:37,323 Well, what's happened to our game? 2355 01:59:37,552 --> 01:59:38,595 Who's play is it? 2356 01:59:38,905 --> 01:59:40,087 Yours, I guess. 2357 01:59:42,050 --> 01:59:44,145 You mustn't let yourself get too down hearted lad... 2358 01:59:44,147 --> 01:59:45,956 By the bad news you had today. 2359 01:59:46,295 --> 01:59:48,008 Both doctors promised me... 2360 01:59:48,009 --> 01:59:50,305 If you obey orders, at this place you're going... 2361 01:59:50,314 --> 01:59:52,123 You'll be cured in six months... 2362 01:59:52,124 --> 01:59:53,314 Or a year at most. 2363 01:59:54,866 --> 01:59:56,145 Don't kid me... 2364 01:59:56,971 --> 01:59:58,336 You think I'm gonna die. 2365 01:59:58,772 --> 02:00:00,561 That's a lie! You're crazy! 2366 02:00:00,832 --> 02:00:02,092 So why waste money? 2367 02:00:02,093 --> 02:00:04,143 That's why you're sending me to a state farm. 2368 02:00:04,669 --> 02:00:06,636 What state farm? 2369 02:00:06,637 --> 02:00:09,427 It's the Hill Town Sanatorium, that's all I know. 2370 02:00:09,428 --> 02:00:11,898 Both doctors told me it's the best place for you. 2371 02:00:11,899 --> 02:00:14,240 For the money. Or for nothing or practically nothing. 2372 02:00:14,553 --> 02:00:15,798 Don't lie, Papa. 2373 02:00:15,799 --> 02:00:19,655 You know damn well Hill Town Sanatorium is a state institution. 2374 02:00:20,368 --> 02:00:23,019 Jamie suspected you'd cry "poor house" to Hardy... 2375 02:00:23,133 --> 02:00:24,703 And he wormed the truth out of him. 2376 02:00:24,704 --> 02:00:26,627 That drunken loafer! 2377 02:00:26,628 --> 02:00:28,334 I'll kick him out in the gutter! 2378 02:00:28,335 --> 02:00:30,214 He's poisoned your mind against me... 2379 02:00:30,215 --> 02:00:31,837 Ever since you were old enough to listen. 2380 02:00:31,949 --> 02:00:34,435 You can't deny it's true about the state farm, can you? 2381 02:00:34,436 --> 02:00:35,843 Not trough the way you look at it! 2382 02:00:35,844 --> 02:00:38,368 What if it is run by the state, that's nothing against it. 2383 02:00:38,369 --> 02:00:39,883 The state has money to make a better place... 2384 02:00:39,884 --> 02:00:41,349 Than any private sanatorium... 2385 02:00:41,350 --> 02:00:43,208 And why shouldn't I take advantage of it? 2386 02:00:43,226 --> 02:00:45,367 It's my right and yours, we're residents... 2387 02:00:45,368 --> 02:00:46,519 I'm a property owner. 2388 02:00:46,520 --> 02:00:47,758 I help to support it. 2389 02:00:47,767 --> 02:00:49,838 I'm taxed to death here...! 2390 02:00:49,839 --> 02:00:52,513 Yes, on property valued at a quarter of a million. 2391 02:00:52,514 --> 02:00:54,079 Lies. That's all mortgaged. 2392 02:00:54,080 --> 02:00:56,124 Hardy and the specialist know what you're worth. 2393 02:00:56,125 --> 02:00:57,790 All I told them was I was no millionaire... 2394 02:00:57,791 --> 02:00:59,079 That could afford such a sanatorium 2395 02:00:59,080 --> 02:01:00,388 Because I was land poor. 2396 02:01:00,389 --> 02:01:01,381 That's the truth. 2397 02:01:01,390 --> 02:01:03,904 And then you went to the club and you met McGuire... 2398 02:01:03,905 --> 02:01:07,463 And "let him... Stick you, with another bum piece of property". 2399 02:01:07,464 --> 02:01:09,140 - It's not true. - Don't worry about it. 2400 02:01:10,256 --> 02:01:12,041 We met McGuire in the... 2401 02:01:12,042 --> 02:01:13,772 Hotel bar after you left. 2402 02:01:14,466 --> 02:01:16,751 Jamie kidded him about hooking you... 2403 02:01:16,752 --> 02:01:18,191 And he winked and laughed. 2404 02:01:18,192 --> 02:01:20,422 - You liar. - Don't lie about it! 2405 02:01:22,137 --> 02:01:23,839 God Papa! 2406 02:01:24,745 --> 02:01:27,431 Ever since I went to see him was I on my own and... 2407 02:01:27,432 --> 02:01:30,225 Found out what it felt like to be broke and starved. 2408 02:01:30,571 --> 02:01:32,221 And I tried to be fair to you... 2409 02:01:32,237 --> 02:01:34,112 Because I knew what you were up against as a kid. 2410 02:01:34,817 --> 02:01:36,294 I tried to make allowances. 2411 02:01:37,226 --> 02:01:40,670 You have to make allowances in this damn family or you'll go nuts. 2412 02:01:41,557 --> 02:01:44,430 But to think when it's a question of your own son having consumption... 2413 02:01:44,431 --> 02:01:46,670 You can show yourself up before the whole town... 2414 02:01:46,671 --> 02:01:49,298 As being such a stinking old tightwad! 2415 02:01:49,716 --> 02:01:53,097 Don't you know Hardy will talk and the whole damn town will know? 2416 02:01:53,784 --> 02:01:57,077 God, Papa, haven't you any pride or shame? 2417 02:01:57,382 --> 02:01:59,144 And don't think I'll let you get away with it. 2418 02:01:59,345 --> 02:02:03,679 I won't go to any damn state farm just to save you a few lousy dollars... 2419 02:02:03,706 --> 02:02:06,134 To buy some more bum property with! 2420 02:02:06,694 --> 02:02:09,083 You stinking old miser! 2421 02:02:09,084 --> 02:02:10,465 Be quiet! 2422 02:02:11,333 --> 02:02:12,697 Don't say a thing! 2423 02:02:13,126 --> 02:02:14,333 You're drunk! 2424 02:02:14,923 --> 02:02:16,177 I won't mind you! 2425 02:02:19,325 --> 02:02:21,174 Stop coughing, lad. 2426 02:02:22,622 --> 02:02:24,376 Got so worked up over nothing. 2427 02:02:25,387 --> 02:02:27,745 Who said you had to go to this Hill Town place? 2428 02:02:27,748 --> 02:02:29,860 You can go anywhere you like. I don't care a damn what it costs... 2429 02:02:29,861 --> 02:02:31,836 All I care about is having you get well. 2430 02:02:33,365 --> 02:02:34,412 You call me a... 2431 02:02:34,753 --> 02:02:36,198 Stinking miser? 2432 02:02:36,543 --> 02:02:38,162 Just because I don't want doctors to think... 2433 02:02:38,163 --> 02:02:40,122 I'm a millionaire they can swindle? 2434 02:02:43,359 --> 02:02:44,819 You look weak, lad. 2435 02:02:47,140 --> 02:02:48,759 Better, take a bracer. 2436 02:02:51,486 --> 02:02:52,669 Thanks. 2437 02:03:00,296 --> 02:03:01,496 Well... 2438 02:03:02,039 --> 02:03:03,576 Who's play is it? 2439 02:03:05,117 --> 02:03:07,918 "A stinking old miser" 2440 02:03:09,626 --> 02:03:11,608 Well maybe you're right. 2441 02:03:12,938 --> 02:03:15,078 Maybe I can't help being.... 2442 02:03:16,248 --> 02:03:18,502 Although all my life, since I had anything... 2443 02:03:19,160 --> 02:03:22,742 I've thrown money over the bar to buy drinks for everyone in the house... 2444 02:03:22,796 --> 02:03:26,367 Or loaned money to sponges I knew would never pay back. 2445 02:03:26,368 --> 02:03:29,960 But of course that was in bar rooms when I was full of whiskey. 2446 02:03:31,445 --> 02:03:34,972 Can't feel that way about it when I'm sober in my home. 2447 02:03:36,527 --> 02:03:39,152 It was at home I first learned the value... 2448 02:03:39,153 --> 02:03:41,422 Of a dollar and the fear of the poor house. 2449 02:03:43,223 --> 02:03:46,484 I've never been able to believe in my luck since. 2450 02:03:48,284 --> 02:03:52,070 You said you realize what I'd been up against as a boy. 2451 02:03:52,071 --> 02:03:54,568 The hell you do. How could you? 2452 02:03:55,322 --> 02:03:56,481 You had everything. 2453 02:03:56,560 --> 02:03:58,330 Nurses, schools... 2454 02:03:58,473 --> 02:04:02,309 Oh, I know you've had a spell of hard work with your back and hands... 2455 02:04:02,537 --> 02:04:04,757 And a bit of being homeless and penniless... 2456 02:04:04,758 --> 02:04:06,893 In a foreign land and I respect you for it. 2457 02:04:06,894 --> 02:04:09,962 But it was a game of romance and adventure to you... 2458 02:04:09,963 --> 02:04:11,009 It was play! 2459 02:04:11,010 --> 02:04:14,863 Yes, particularly the time I tried to commit suicide at Jimmy the Priest's... 2460 02:04:14,864 --> 02:04:16,030 And almost did. 2461 02:04:16,031 --> 02:04:17,398 You weren't in your right mind. 2462 02:04:17,399 --> 02:04:19,161 No son of mine would ever... 2463 02:04:19,162 --> 02:04:19,987 You were drunk. 2464 02:04:19,988 --> 02:04:21,687 I was stone cold sober. 2465 02:04:21,688 --> 02:04:23,920 That was the trouble. I stopped to think too long. 2466 02:04:23,921 --> 02:04:27,949 Don't start your damned atheist morbidness again. 2467 02:04:27,950 --> 02:04:29,847 I don't care to listen. 2468 02:04:31,455 --> 02:04:34,265 I was trying to make plain to you. 2469 02:04:35,931 --> 02:04:38,888 What do you know of the value of a dollar? 2470 02:04:39,948 --> 02:04:41,749 When I was ten... 2471 02:04:42,408 --> 02:04:46,578 My father deserted my mother and went back to Ireland to die. 2472 02:04:47,465 --> 02:04:49,131 Which he did, soon enough... 2473 02:04:49,337 --> 02:04:51,782 And deserved to and I hope he's roasting in hell. 2474 02:04:52,416 --> 02:04:56,231 He mistook rat poison for flour or sugar or something... 2475 02:04:57,673 --> 02:04:59,663 There was gossip it wasn't by mistake... 2476 02:04:59,664 --> 02:05:00,722 But that's a lie. 2477 02:05:00,723 --> 02:05:03,914 - No one in my family would ever... - My bet is it wasn't by mistake. 2478 02:05:04,292 --> 02:05:07,052 More morbidness. Your brother put that in your head. 2479 02:05:07,053 --> 02:05:09,849 The worst he can suspect is the only truth for him. 2480 02:05:09,850 --> 02:05:11,223 But never mind. 2481 02:05:13,865 --> 02:05:15,301 My mother was left... 2482 02:05:16,264 --> 02:05:19,945 A stranger in a strange land with four small children. 2483 02:05:19,946 --> 02:05:23,077 There was no damned romance in our poverty. 2484 02:05:24,107 --> 02:05:28,614 Twice we were evicted from the miserable hovel we called home. 2485 02:05:28,615 --> 02:05:32,295 My mother's few sticks of furniture thrown out on the gutter. 2486 02:05:32,448 --> 02:05:34,360 My mother and sisters crying. 2487 02:05:35,491 --> 02:05:38,219 I cried too, though I tried hard not to. 2488 02:05:38,220 --> 02:05:40,356 But I was the man of the family... 2489 02:05:40,357 --> 02:05:42,059 At ten years old. 2490 02:05:43,167 --> 02:05:45,363 There was no more school for me. 2491 02:05:47,226 --> 02:05:50,097 I went to work twelve hours a day in a machine shop. 2492 02:05:50,098 --> 02:05:52,060 Learning to make files. 2493 02:05:53,075 --> 02:05:56,724 Dirty barn of a place where rain dripped through the roof. 2494 02:05:57,737 --> 02:06:00,608 You roasted in the summer, there was no stove in winter. 2495 02:06:00,609 --> 02:06:02,748 Your hands were numb with cold. 2496 02:06:02,749 --> 02:06:06,083 The only light came through two small filthy windows. 2497 02:06:06,084 --> 02:06:08,811 So on gray days I'd have to sit bent over... 2498 02:06:08,812 --> 02:06:12,487 My eyes almost touching the files in order to see. 2499 02:06:13,361 --> 02:06:14,872 You talk of work! 2500 02:06:15,730 --> 02:06:17,254 What do you think I got for it? 2501 02:06:17,962 --> 02:06:22,473 Fifty cents a week. It's the truth. Fifty cents a week. 2502 02:06:23,415 --> 02:06:26,375 My poor mother washed and scrubbed for the yanks. 2503 02:06:26,842 --> 02:06:29,418 Well I remember one Thanksgiving... 2504 02:06:30,273 --> 02:06:31,928 Or maybe it was Christmas... 2505 02:06:32,734 --> 02:06:35,280 Some Yank, in whose house mother had been scrubbing, 2506 02:06:35,281 --> 02:06:37,420 Gave her a dollar extra for a present. 2507 02:06:37,421 --> 02:06:40,031 On the way home she spent it all on food. 2508 02:06:41,418 --> 02:06:45,013 I remember her hugging and kissing us and saying... 2509 02:06:46,446 --> 02:06:50,058 Tears of joy running down her tired face, 2510 02:06:50,999 --> 02:06:52,554 "Glory be to God! 2511 02:06:52,555 --> 02:06:55,128 For once in our lives there will be enough for each of us." 2512 02:06:57,123 --> 02:06:59,028 Fine brave sweet woman! 2513 02:07:00,639 --> 02:07:02,628 Never was a finer or a braver! 2514 02:07:03,401 --> 02:07:04,925 Yes, she must have been. 2515 02:07:05,229 --> 02:07:08,094 It was in those days I learned to be a miser. 2516 02:07:08,372 --> 02:07:10,851 A dollar was worth so much then. 2517 02:07:11,900 --> 02:07:14,562 Once you've learned the lesson it's hard to unlearn it. 2518 02:07:15,436 --> 02:07:17,245 You have to look for bargains. 2519 02:07:18,553 --> 02:07:22,099 If I took this state farm for a good bargain, you'll have to forgive me. 2520 02:07:22,100 --> 02:07:24,035 The doctors did tell me it was a good place... 2521 02:07:24,036 --> 02:07:25,249 You must believe that Edmund. 2522 02:07:25,250 --> 02:07:27,843 But I swear I never meant for you to go there if you didn't want to. 2523 02:07:28,761 --> 02:07:31,459 You can go to any place you choose, never mind what it costs. 2524 02:07:32,107 --> 02:07:33,337 Any place... 2525 02:07:34,185 --> 02:07:36,181 I can afford. Any place... 2526 02:07:36,816 --> 02:07:38,466 Within reason. 2527 02:07:41,648 --> 02:07:42,949 What about our game? 2528 02:07:43,298 --> 02:07:45,434 - Whose play is it? - I don't know. 2529 02:07:46,704 --> 02:07:48,016 Mine I guess. 2530 02:07:49,224 --> 02:07:50,424 No it's yours. 2531 02:07:52,135 --> 02:07:53,220 Yes. 2532 02:07:54,181 --> 02:07:56,780 Maybe life overdid the lesson for me 2533 02:07:57,530 --> 02:07:59,807 And made a dollar worth too much. 2534 02:08:00,557 --> 02:08:02,025 And that mistake... 2535 02:08:02,239 --> 02:08:04,535 Ruined my career as a fine actor. 2536 02:08:07,059 --> 02:08:09,460 I've never admitted this to anyone before lad. 2537 02:08:10,608 --> 02:08:13,353 But tonight I’m so heartsick I feel at the end of everything... 2538 02:08:13,354 --> 02:08:16,141 And what’s the use of fake pride and pretense? 2539 02:08:17,917 --> 02:08:21,178 That God damned play I bought for a song... 2540 02:08:21,179 --> 02:08:22,964 And made such a great success in... 2541 02:08:22,965 --> 02:08:24,645 A great money success... 2542 02:08:24,646 --> 02:08:28,035 It ruined me with it's promise of an easy fortune. 2543 02:08:28,696 --> 02:08:30,472 I didn't want to do anything else. 2544 02:08:31,936 --> 02:08:35,751 By the time I woke up to the fact I'd become a slave to the damn thing... 2545 02:08:35,752 --> 02:08:38,196 And did try other plays, it was too late. 2546 02:08:39,032 --> 02:08:41,316 They'd identified me with that one part... 2547 02:08:41,317 --> 02:08:42,655 And didn't want me in anything else. 2548 02:08:42,656 --> 02:08:43,925 They were right too. 2549 02:08:44,976 --> 02:08:50,181 I'd lost the great talent I once had through years of easy repetition. 2550 02:08:50,182 --> 02:08:53,324 Never learning a new part, never really working hard. 2551 02:08:55,160 --> 02:08:59,744 Thirty-five to forty thousand dollars net profit a season! 2552 02:08:59,745 --> 02:09:01,667 Like snapping your fingers. 2553 02:09:03,192 --> 02:09:05,207 Yet before I bought the damn thing... 2554 02:09:05,208 --> 02:09:07,389 I was considered one of the three or four young actors... 2555 02:09:07,390 --> 02:09:10,842 With the greatest artistic promise in America. 2556 02:09:11,443 --> 02:09:13,000 I'd work like hell! 2557 02:09:14,069 --> 02:09:15,734 I left a good job as a machinist... 2558 02:09:15,735 --> 02:09:19,087 To take supers' parts because I loved the theater. 2559 02:09:19,088 --> 02:09:20,913 I was wild with ambition. 2560 02:09:21,545 --> 02:09:23,122 I read all the plays ever written. 2561 02:09:23,123 --> 02:09:26,443 I studied Shakespeare as you'd study the Bible. 2562 02:09:27,044 --> 02:09:29,971 I got rid of an Irish brogue you could cut with a knife. 2563 02:09:29,972 --> 02:09:33,378 I loved Shakespeare. I'd have acted in any of his plays for nothing. 2564 02:09:33,379 --> 02:09:37,026 For the joy of being alive in his great poetry. 2565 02:09:37,669 --> 02:09:41,690 I could have been a great Shakespearean actor if I'd kept on. 2566 02:09:43,767 --> 02:09:47,146 In 1874 when Edwin Booth... 2567 02:09:47,147 --> 02:09:50,477 Came to the theater in Chicago where I was leading man. 2568 02:09:51,330 --> 02:09:53,488 I played Cassius to his Brutus one night. 2569 02:09:53,489 --> 02:09:55,731 Brutus to his Cassius the next. 2570 02:09:55,732 --> 02:09:58,224 Othello to his Iago and so on. 2571 02:09:59,000 --> 02:10:02,391 First night I played Othello he said to our manager... 2572 02:10:03,352 --> 02:10:07,352 "That young man is playing Othello better than I ever did." 2573 02:10:08,190 --> 02:10:10,157 That from Booth! 2574 02:10:11,938 --> 02:10:14,860 The greatest actor of his day or any other. 2575 02:10:16,192 --> 02:10:21,494 As I look back on it now, that night was the highest spot of my career. 2576 02:10:21,694 --> 02:10:23,655 I had life where I wanted it. 2577 02:10:24,413 --> 02:10:27,444 But for a time after that I kept on with ambition high... 2578 02:10:27,445 --> 02:10:28,773 Married your mother. 2579 02:10:28,774 --> 02:10:31,369 Ask her what I was like in those days. 2580 02:10:31,370 --> 02:10:34,857 Her love was an added incentive... To ambition. 2581 02:10:36,452 --> 02:10:41,857 Then a few years later my good bad luck made me find the big money maker. 2582 02:10:42,675 --> 02:10:45,702 And then life had me where it wanted me. 2583 02:10:46,642 --> 02:10:51,296 At from thirty-five to forty thousand net profit a season. 2584 02:10:52,644 --> 02:10:54,600 A fortune in those days. 2585 02:10:55,477 --> 02:10:56,793 Even in these. 2586 02:10:58,348 --> 02:11:03,093 What the hell was it I wanted to buy, I wonder, that was worth... 2587 02:11:05,989 --> 02:11:07,211 Oh well... 2588 02:11:08,544 --> 02:11:10,510 It's a late day for regrets. 2589 02:11:12,101 --> 02:11:13,556 My play isn't it? 2590 02:11:17,620 --> 02:11:19,517 I'm glad you told me this Papa. 2591 02:11:20,404 --> 02:11:21,866 I know you a lot better now. 2592 02:11:22,252 --> 02:11:24,165 Maybe I shouldn't have told you. 2593 02:11:24,514 --> 02:11:27,047 Maybe you'll only feel more contempt for me. 2594 02:11:27,967 --> 02:11:30,972 It's a poor way to convince you of the value of a dollar. 2595 02:11:33,777 --> 02:11:36,845 The glare from those extra lights hurts my eyes. 2596 02:11:37,808 --> 02:11:39,689 You don't mind if I turn them out do you? 2597 02:11:40,001 --> 02:11:41,166 We don't need them. 2598 02:11:41,167 --> 02:11:43,891 There's no point in making the electric company light company rich. 2599 02:11:44,624 --> 02:11:47,680 No, sure not. Turn them out. 2600 02:11:49,513 --> 02:11:52,741 No, I don't know what the hell it was I wanted to buy. 2601 02:11:54,086 --> 02:11:56,500 On my solemn oath, Edmund. 2602 02:11:57,405 --> 02:12:01,155 I'd gladly face not having an acre of land to call my own... 2603 02:12:01,156 --> 02:12:02,480 Nor a penny in the bank 2604 02:12:03,676 --> 02:12:07,405 I'd be willing to have no home but the poor house in my old age... 2605 02:12:07,406 --> 02:12:13,024 If I could look back now on having been the fine artist I might have been. 2606 02:12:14,121 --> 02:12:15,678 What the devil are you laughing at? 2607 02:12:17,310 --> 02:12:18,787 Oh, not at you Papa. 2608 02:12:19,622 --> 02:12:22,178 At life... It's so damned crazy. 2609 02:12:22,975 --> 02:12:24,681 More of your morbidness! 2610 02:12:25,236 --> 02:12:26,722 There's nothing wrong with life. 2611 02:12:27,256 --> 02:12:29,090 It's we who... 2612 02:12:30,714 --> 02:12:33,500 "The fault... Dear Brutus... 2613 02:12:34,087 --> 02:12:39,251 Is not in our stars but in ourselves that we are underlings" 2614 02:12:42,415 --> 02:12:45,318 The praise Edwin Booth gave my Othello! 2615 02:12:46,750 --> 02:12:49,857 I made our manager write down his exact words in writing. 2616 02:12:50,584 --> 02:12:52,836 I kept it in my wallet for years. 2617 02:12:52,837 --> 02:12:54,800 I used to read it every once in a while. 2618 02:12:55,335 --> 02:12:59,431 Until, finally, it made me feel so bad I couldn't face it anymore. 2619 02:13:00,587 --> 02:13:02,126 Where is it now, I wonder? 2620 02:13:02,628 --> 02:13:03,994 Somewhere in this house. 2621 02:13:04,366 --> 02:13:06,590 I remember I put it away carefully. 2622 02:13:08,383 --> 02:13:10,405 Might be in an old trunk in the attic... 2623 02:13:11,048 --> 02:13:12,770 Along with Mama's wedding dress. 2624 02:13:13,620 --> 02:13:17,426 Oh, for Pete’s sake Papa, if we're gonna play cards, let's play. 2625 02:13:21,414 --> 02:13:23,545 She's still moving around. 2626 02:13:25,080 --> 02:13:27,716 God knows when she'll go to sleep! 2627 02:13:27,851 --> 02:13:31,043 Oh, for God's sake Papa, forget it! 2628 02:13:37,295 --> 02:13:39,566 You just told me some high spots in your memories. 2629 02:13:39,893 --> 02:13:41,266 Want to hear mine? 2630 02:13:41,577 --> 02:13:43,333 They're all connected with the sea. 2631 02:13:44,851 --> 02:13:47,136 Here's one. When I was on the Squarehead square rigger... 2632 02:13:47,137 --> 02:13:48,462 Bound for Buenos Aires. 2633 02:13:48,968 --> 02:13:52,643 Full moon in the Trades, the old hooker driving fourteen knots. 2634 02:13:53,543 --> 02:13:55,843 I lay on the bowsprit, facing astern 2635 02:13:56,506 --> 02:13:59,318 The water foaming into spume under me, 2636 02:14:00,217 --> 02:14:02,969 The masts with every sail white in the moonlight... 2637 02:14:02,970 --> 02:14:04,410 Towering high above me. 2638 02:14:04,897 --> 02:14:08,263 I became drunk with the beauty and singing rhythm of it, 2639 02:14:08,926 --> 02:14:10,646 And for a moment I lost myself... 2640 02:14:10,647 --> 02:14:13,188 Actually lost my life. I was set free! 2641 02:14:13,190 --> 02:14:14,952 I dissolved in the sea... 2642 02:14:15,392 --> 02:14:18,223 Became white sails and flying spray... 2643 02:14:18,228 --> 02:14:20,101 Became beauty and rhythm... 2644 02:14:20,490 --> 02:14:21,863 Became the ship... 2645 02:14:22,356 --> 02:14:25,499 And the moonlight and the high dim-starred sky! 2646 02:14:26,660 --> 02:14:29,001 I belonged, without past or future. 2647 02:14:29,190 --> 02:14:31,497 Within peace, and unity... 2648 02:14:31,498 --> 02:14:33,513 And a wild joy. 2649 02:14:34,555 --> 02:14:37,493 To something greater than my own life, or the life of Man. 2650 02:14:39,139 --> 02:14:40,275 To Life itself. 2651 02:14:43,819 --> 02:14:45,853 To God, if you want to put it that way. 2652 02:14:47,810 --> 02:14:49,835 And several other times in my life... 2653 02:14:50,669 --> 02:14:52,820 When I was swimming far out there, 2654 02:14:52,821 --> 02:14:55,781 Lying alone on a beach, I've had the same experience. 2655 02:14:57,915 --> 02:15:00,654 Became the sun... The hot sand, 2656 02:15:01,903 --> 02:15:04,243 Green seaweed anchored to a rock... 2657 02:15:04,244 --> 02:15:06,127 Swaying in the tide. 2658 02:15:06,814 --> 02:15:09,176 Like a Saint's vision of Beatitude. 2659 02:15:09,864 --> 02:15:11,251 Like the veil of things... 2660 02:15:11,252 --> 02:15:13,997 As it seems drawn back by an unseen hand. 2661 02:15:16,306 --> 02:15:18,266 For a second you see, 2662 02:15:19,603 --> 02:15:22,268 And seeing the secret... Are the secret. 2663 02:15:23,373 --> 02:15:25,417 For a second there is meaning! 2664 02:15:28,836 --> 02:15:29,693 Then the... 2665 02:15:30,240 --> 02:15:32,154 Hand lets the veil fall 2666 02:15:32,366 --> 02:15:35,010 And you're alone, lost in the fog again. 2667 02:15:37,105 --> 02:15:39,169 It's a great mistake my being born a man... 2668 02:15:39,176 --> 02:15:42,473 I'd have been much more successful as a seagull or a fish. 2669 02:15:42,723 --> 02:15:43,936 As it is... 2670 02:15:43,937 --> 02:15:46,972 I'll always be a stranger who can never really feel at home. 2671 02:15:47,796 --> 02:15:50,530 Who does not really want... Is not really wanted 2672 02:15:51,081 --> 02:15:52,730 And never never really belong... 2673 02:15:52,731 --> 02:15:55,726 And... Who must always be a little in love with death. 2674 02:15:57,584 --> 02:16:00,810 Yes, you've the makings of a poet in you all right. 2675 02:16:01,763 --> 02:16:03,185 The makings of a poet? 2676 02:16:05,617 --> 02:16:08,113 No, I'm afraid I'm like the guy... 2677 02:16:08,114 --> 02:16:10,304 Who's always panhandling for a smoke. 2678 02:16:11,687 --> 02:16:14,483 He hasn't even got the makings, he's only got the habit. 2679 02:16:16,831 --> 02:16:19,228 I couldn't touch what I was trying to tell you just now... 2680 02:16:19,229 --> 02:16:20,483 I only stammered. 2681 02:16:21,880 --> 02:16:24,185 It's the best I'll ever do, I mean, if I live. 2682 02:16:27,855 --> 02:16:30,191 That's faithful realism at least. 2683 02:16:31,004 --> 02:16:33,982 Stammering is the native eloquence of us fog people. 2684 02:16:36,482 --> 02:16:39,661 Well, that sounds like absent brother. 2685 02:16:41,356 --> 02:16:43,494 He must have a peach of a bun on. 2686 02:16:43,495 --> 02:16:44,613 That loafer! 2687 02:16:44,614 --> 02:16:47,383 He caught the last car. Bad luck to it. 2688 02:16:47,488 --> 02:16:49,017 Get him to bed, Edmund. 2689 02:16:49,278 --> 02:16:50,975 I'll go out on the back porch. 2690 02:16:51,056 --> 02:16:53,302 He has a tongue like an adder when he's drunk. 2691 02:16:53,545 --> 02:16:55,207 I'd only lose my temper. 2692 02:16:59,713 --> 02:17:01,669 What hooo...! What...? 2693 02:17:04,054 --> 02:17:05,632 Nix on the loud noise. 2694 02:17:06,962 --> 02:17:08,716 Hello, kid. 2695 02:17:10,605 --> 02:17:12,760 I'm as drunk as a fiddler's bitch. 2696 02:17:13,580 --> 02:17:15,390 Thanks for telling me your great secret. 2697 02:17:15,391 --> 02:17:19,004 Yeah. Unnecessary information number one. 2698 02:17:22,275 --> 02:17:24,048 I had a serious accident. 2699 02:17:25,414 --> 02:17:27,950 Front steps tried to trample on me. 2700 02:17:28,593 --> 02:17:30,842 Took advantage of the fog... 2701 02:17:33,729 --> 02:17:35,775 Ought to be another lighthouse out there. 2702 02:17:40,443 --> 02:17:42,720 It's dark in here too. 2703 02:17:44,265 --> 02:17:47,049 What the hell is this, the morgue? 2704 02:17:48,093 --> 02:17:54,334 "Ford, ford, ford o' Kabul river in the dark!" 2705 02:17:57,540 --> 02:18:00,120 "Keep the crossing-stakes beside you... 2706 02:18:01,003 --> 02:18:03,207 An' they will surely guide you. 2707 02:18:03,732 --> 02:18:07,207 'Cross the ford o' Kabul river in the dark." 2708 02:18:18,102 --> 02:18:19,054 There! 2709 02:18:19,721 --> 02:18:21,317 That's more like it. 2710 02:18:25,228 --> 02:18:27,672 To hell with the old Gaspard! 2711 02:18:28,454 --> 02:18:29,990 Where is that old tight wad? 2712 02:18:30,531 --> 02:18:32,082 He's out on the porch. 2713 02:18:34,795 --> 02:18:36,660 He expects us to live in a... 2714 02:18:37,755 --> 02:18:40,424 Black hole in Calcutta! 2715 02:18:50,553 --> 02:18:51,674 Say... 2716 02:18:53,250 --> 02:18:54,748 Have I got the DTs? 2717 02:19:00,178 --> 02:19:01,218 My God! 2718 02:19:01,471 --> 02:19:02,288 It's real! 2719 02:19:07,067 --> 02:19:08,820 Hey what's the matter with the old man? 2720 02:19:08,821 --> 02:19:11,481 He must be ossified to forget he left this out. 2721 02:19:12,662 --> 02:19:14,930 Grab opportunity by the forelock! 2722 02:19:15,319 --> 02:19:16,824 It's the key to my success. 2723 02:19:17,117 --> 02:19:19,122 You're stinking now. That'll knock you stiff. 2724 02:19:19,140 --> 02:19:21,133 Wisdom from the mouth of babes. 2725 02:19:21,280 --> 02:19:24,079 Can the wise stuff, kid. You're still wet behind the ears. 2726 02:19:24,233 --> 02:19:25,153 All right! 2727 02:19:25,154 --> 02:19:26,428 Pass out if you want to. 2728 02:19:26,429 --> 02:19:28,181 I can't, that's the trouble. 2729 02:19:28,182 --> 02:19:29,930 I've had enough to sink a ship... 2730 02:19:30,541 --> 02:19:31,629 But I can't sink! 2731 02:19:32,968 --> 02:19:34,531 Well... Here's hoping. 2732 02:19:35,047 --> 02:19:36,372 I'll have one too. 2733 02:19:38,618 --> 02:19:39,940 No, no you don't! 2734 02:19:40,170 --> 02:19:41,535 Not while I'm around. 2735 02:19:41,805 --> 02:19:43,609 Remember doctors orders. 2736 02:19:44,412 --> 02:19:47,009 Maybe no one else gives a damn if you die. 2737 02:19:47,178 --> 02:19:48,178 But I do. 2738 02:19:49,730 --> 02:19:50,991 You're my kid brother. 2739 02:19:51,373 --> 02:19:52,801 I love your guts, kid. 2740 02:19:53,765 --> 02:19:56,226 Everything else is gone and you're all I got left. 2741 02:19:57,387 --> 02:19:59,327 So no booze for you if I can help it. 2742 02:19:59,328 --> 02:20:00,538 Oh, lay off. 2743 02:20:02,803 --> 02:20:04,925 You don't believe I care, eh? 2744 02:20:04,927 --> 02:20:06,053 Just drunken bull! 2745 02:20:06,405 --> 02:20:08,150 All right go ahead and kill yourself. 2746 02:20:11,176 --> 02:20:13,227 Sure I know you care, Jamie. 2747 02:20:15,113 --> 02:20:16,732 And I'm going on the wagon. 2748 02:20:16,733 --> 02:20:18,106 But tonight doesn't count. 2749 02:20:18,593 --> 02:20:20,466 Too many damned things have happened today. 2750 02:20:20,998 --> 02:20:21,974 Here's how. 2751 02:20:22,145 --> 02:20:23,390 Yeah, I know, kid. 2752 02:20:23,652 --> 02:20:26,118 It's been a lousy day for you. 2753 02:20:27,969 --> 02:20:31,037 I bet old Gaspard hasn't tried to keep you off the booze. 2754 02:20:31,528 --> 02:20:33,757 He'll probably give you a case... 2755 02:20:33,758 --> 02:20:36,634 To take with you to the state farm for pauper patients. 2756 02:20:37,530 --> 02:20:39,787 The sooner you kick the bucket, the less expense. 2757 02:20:40,800 --> 02:20:41,864 Yeah, well uh... 2758 02:20:41,865 --> 02:20:44,182 What a bastard to have for a father. 2759 02:20:45,247 --> 02:20:47,671 God, if you put him in a book no one would believe it. 2760 02:20:47,689 --> 02:20:50,739 Oh, uh... Papa's all right if you try and understand him... 2761 02:20:50,938 --> 02:20:52,835 And keep your sense of humor. 2762 02:20:52,981 --> 02:20:55,933 He's been putting on the old sob act for you? 2763 02:20:56,549 --> 02:20:58,999 He could always fool you but not me. 2764 02:20:59,644 --> 02:21:00,755 Never again. 2765 02:21:02,532 --> 02:21:04,111 Though I do feel... 2766 02:21:04,436 --> 02:21:06,692 Sorry for him in a way about one thing. 2767 02:21:08,097 --> 02:21:10,473 Well, he had that coming to him. 2768 02:21:10,767 --> 02:21:12,124 He's to blame. 2769 02:21:13,931 --> 02:21:14,898 To hell with that. 2770 02:21:16,419 --> 02:21:18,282 The last drink is really getting to me... 2771 02:21:18,283 --> 02:21:19,975 This one ought to put the lights out. 2772 02:21:23,831 --> 02:21:26,831 Hey, did you tell old Gaspard that I got it out of Doc Hardy... 2773 02:21:26,832 --> 02:21:29,072 The sanatorium was a charity dump? 2774 02:21:29,844 --> 02:21:30,629 Yes. 2775 02:21:30,899 --> 02:21:32,456 I told him I wouldn't go there. 2776 02:21:32,457 --> 02:21:35,357 It's all settled now. He said I can go anywhere I want. 2777 02:21:36,525 --> 02:21:38,278 Within reason, of course. 2778 02:21:39,129 --> 02:21:41,076 Yes, "Of course, my boy... 2779 02:21:41,187 --> 02:21:42,608 Anything... 2780 02:21:42,988 --> 02:21:44,005 Within reason". 2781 02:21:44,399 --> 02:21:46,414 That means another cheap dump! 2782 02:21:47,391 --> 02:21:50,569 Old Gaspard, the miser in "The Bells". 2783 02:21:50,800 --> 02:21:52,506 That's a part he can play without make-up. 2784 02:21:52,507 --> 02:21:55,094 I've heard that Gaspard stuff a million times. 2785 02:21:55,095 --> 02:21:58,073 All right, if you're satisfied, let him get away with it. 2786 02:21:58,074 --> 02:21:59,265 It's your funeral. 2787 02:22:01,726 --> 02:22:02,888 I mean... 2788 02:22:03,863 --> 02:22:05,363 I hope it won't be. 2789 02:22:10,057 --> 02:22:12,280 What did you do uptown tonight? Go to Mamie Burns? 2790 02:22:12,685 --> 02:22:13,725 Sure thing! 2791 02:22:14,188 --> 02:22:17,523 Where else would I find suitable feminine companionship? 2792 02:22:17,978 --> 02:22:19,073 And love. 2793 02:22:19,716 --> 02:22:21,170 Don't forget love. 2794 02:22:21,948 --> 02:22:25,349 What is man without a good woman to love? 2795 02:22:26,922 --> 02:22:28,909 A goddamn hollow hole. 2796 02:22:30,563 --> 02:22:31,744 You're a nut. 2797 02:22:33,161 --> 02:22:34,161 Hey... 2798 02:22:34,505 --> 02:22:36,376 Guess which one of Mamie's charmers... 2799 02:22:36,377 --> 02:22:38,791 I picked to bless me with her woman's love. 2800 02:22:39,404 --> 02:22:41,016 It'll hand you a laugh, kid. 2801 02:22:42,314 --> 02:22:43,514 I picked... 2802 02:22:44,788 --> 02:22:46,148 Fat Violet. 2803 02:22:47,382 --> 02:22:48,811 - No, honest? - Yeah. 2804 02:22:48,812 --> 02:22:49,970 No! 2805 02:22:50,311 --> 02:22:51,431 Some pick! 2806 02:22:52,004 --> 02:22:54,919 God! Oh, God! She weighs a ton. 2807 02:22:55,661 --> 02:22:58,534 What the hell for, a joke? Oh, no, no joke. 2808 02:22:58,704 --> 02:22:59,869 Very serious. 2809 02:23:00,279 --> 02:23:01,976 By the time I hit Mamie's dump... 2810 02:23:01,977 --> 02:23:04,368 I was feeling very sorry for myself... 2811 02:23:04,369 --> 02:23:06,549 And all the other poor bums in the world. 2812 02:23:06,675 --> 02:23:09,728 Ready for a weep on any old womanly bosom. 2813 02:23:10,072 --> 02:23:12,925 You know how you get when the Old John barley corn... 2814 02:23:12,927 --> 02:23:15,167 Turns on the soft music inside of you. 2815 02:23:15,794 --> 02:23:19,979 And the as soon as I hit the door, Mamie began telling me her troubles. 2816 02:23:20,343 --> 02:23:22,663 She beefed how rotten business was. 2817 02:23:22,841 --> 02:23:24,767 She was going to give Fat Violet the gate. 2818 02:23:24,928 --> 02:23:26,572 The customers didn't fall for Vi... 2819 02:23:26,573 --> 02:23:28,962 The only reason she kept her was she could play the piano. 2820 02:23:30,463 --> 02:23:32,776 Well, lately Violet has been going on drunks... 2821 02:23:33,114 --> 02:23:34,892 And been getting to boiled to play... 2822 02:23:34,893 --> 02:23:36,741 And was eating her out of house and home. 2823 02:23:37,185 --> 02:23:39,605 And how old Vi was a good hearted dumbbell... 2824 02:23:39,606 --> 02:23:41,111 And she felt sorry for her 'cause... 2825 02:23:41,112 --> 02:23:43,042 She didn't know how in the hell he'd make a living. 2826 02:23:43,369 --> 02:23:45,870 Still... Business was business. 2827 02:23:46,419 --> 02:23:49,397 She couldn't afford to run a home for fat tarts. 2828 02:23:50,806 --> 02:23:52,052 Well it made me... 2829 02:23:52,846 --> 02:23:54,808 Feel very sorry for Fat Violet. 2830 02:23:56,799 --> 02:23:58,828 So I squandered two bucks... 2831 02:24:01,389 --> 02:24:02,799 Of your dough... 2832 02:24:03,031 --> 02:24:04,612 To escort her upstairs. 2833 02:24:04,782 --> 02:24:07,520 Now, with no dishonorable intentions whatever. 2834 02:24:08,736 --> 02:24:09,992 I like them fat... 2835 02:24:10,374 --> 02:24:11,556 But not that fat. 2836 02:24:12,601 --> 02:24:16,086 All I wanted was a little heart to heart talk... 2837 02:24:16,420 --> 02:24:19,254 Concerning the infinite sorrow of life. 2838 02:24:19,263 --> 02:24:20,709 Oh, poor Vi! 2839 02:24:21,445 --> 02:24:23,100 She stood it for a while, 2840 02:24:23,109 --> 02:24:24,816 Then she got good and sore. 2841 02:24:25,157 --> 02:24:27,843 Got the idea I'd taken her upstairs as a joke. 2842 02:24:28,215 --> 02:24:30,060 Gave me a grand bawling out. 2843 02:24:33,187 --> 02:24:34,819 Then she began to cry. 2844 02:24:36,452 --> 02:24:38,665 So I had to say I loved her... 2845 02:24:38,776 --> 02:24:40,316 Because she was fat. 2846 02:24:42,214 --> 02:24:44,090 And she wanted to believe that. 2847 02:24:46,839 --> 02:24:48,166 And I stayed with her... 2848 02:24:48,389 --> 02:24:49,238 To prove it. 2849 02:24:51,233 --> 02:24:52,544 And that cheered her up. 2850 02:24:54,802 --> 02:24:56,488 She kissed me when I left. 2851 02:24:56,880 --> 02:24:58,996 Said she'd fallen hard for me. 2852 02:25:00,186 --> 02:25:02,999 And we both cried a little more in the hallway... 2853 02:25:03,986 --> 02:25:05,541 And everything was fine. 2854 02:25:07,122 --> 02:25:09,729 Except Mamie Burns thought I'd gone bughouse. 2855 02:25:10,874 --> 02:25:14,259 Harlots and hunted have pleasures of their own to give... 2856 02:25:14,260 --> 02:25:16,768 The vulgar herd can never understand. 2857 02:25:16,769 --> 02:25:18,788 Exactly! 2858 02:25:19,103 --> 02:25:21,344 And a hell of a good time at that. 2859 02:25:26,375 --> 02:25:30,439 This night has opened mine eyes... 2860 02:25:30,440 --> 02:25:33,928 To a great career in store for me, my boy. 2861 02:25:35,257 --> 02:25:38,829 I shall give the art of acting back to the performing seals, 2862 02:25:39,507 --> 02:25:41,816 Which are it's most perfect expression, 2863 02:25:42,495 --> 02:25:45,883 By applying my natural God given talents... 2864 02:25:46,112 --> 02:25:47,819 In their proper sphere... 2865 02:25:48,024 --> 02:25:50,979 I shall attain the pinnacle of success! 2866 02:25:51,688 --> 02:25:55,532 I’ll be the lover of the fat woman in a Barnum and Bailey Circus. 2867 02:26:01,701 --> 02:26:03,018 Imagine me... 2868 02:26:03,312 --> 02:26:05,266 Sunk to the fat girl... 2869 02:26:05,433 --> 02:26:07,347 In a hick town hooker shop. 2870 02:26:07,875 --> 02:26:08,875 Me! 2871 02:26:09,303 --> 02:26:12,367 I've had some of the best lookers on Broadway sit up and beg. 2872 02:26:13,990 --> 02:26:16,363 "Speakin' in general, oh, I’ve tried 'em all. 2873 02:26:16,743 --> 02:26:20,123 The 'appy roads which take you o'er the world." 2874 02:26:23,089 --> 02:26:24,523 It's not so apt. 2875 02:26:26,167 --> 02:26:27,844 Happy roads is bunk. 2876 02:26:29,051 --> 02:26:30,875 Weary roads is right. 2877 02:26:31,898 --> 02:26:33,866 They get you nowhere fast. 2878 02:26:35,136 --> 02:26:36,702 And that's where I got... 2879 02:26:37,753 --> 02:26:39,045 Nowhere. 2880 02:26:39,559 --> 02:26:41,264 Where everyone lands in the end... 2881 02:26:41,265 --> 02:26:43,408 Even if most of the suckers won't admit it. 2882 02:26:44,124 --> 02:26:46,816 Oh, can it! You'll be crying in a minute. 2883 02:26:47,708 --> 02:26:48,974 Hey! 2884 02:26:49,808 --> 02:26:52,227 Don't get too damn fresh. 2885 02:26:56,673 --> 02:26:59,623 But you're right, the hell with repining! 2886 02:26:59,730 --> 02:27:01,451 Fat Violet is a good kid. 2887 02:27:01,523 --> 02:27:04,073 I'm glad I stayed with her. It was a Christian act. 2888 02:27:04,074 --> 02:27:06,313 Cured her blues, a hell of a good time. 2889 02:27:07,834 --> 02:27:10,095 You should have stuck around with me, kid. 2890 02:27:11,120 --> 02:27:13,003 Taken your mind off your troubles. 2891 02:27:14,220 --> 02:27:16,081 What's the use of coming home? 2892 02:27:16,394 --> 02:27:18,748 To get the blues over what can't be helped. 2893 02:27:20,668 --> 02:27:21,943 It's all over. 2894 02:27:22,516 --> 02:27:23,539 Finished! 2895 02:27:23,722 --> 02:27:24,539 You know? 2896 02:27:25,895 --> 02:27:26,748 Not a hope. 2897 02:27:38,160 --> 02:27:41,740 "If I were hanged... On the highest hill, 2898 02:27:42,130 --> 02:27:43,725 Mother o' mine... 2899 02:27:44,689 --> 02:27:47,039 Oh, mother o’ mine! 2900 02:27:48,591 --> 02:27:52,326 I know whose love... Would follow me still..." 2901 02:27:52,327 --> 02:27:53,340 Shut up! 2902 02:27:54,382 --> 02:27:56,740 Where's the hop head? Gone to sleep? 2903 02:27:57,852 --> 02:27:59,401 You dirty bastard! 2904 02:28:07,190 --> 02:28:08,481 Thanks, kid. 2905 02:28:09,611 --> 02:28:11,462 I certainly had that coming. 2906 02:28:13,192 --> 02:28:14,743 I don't know what made me. 2907 02:28:15,766 --> 02:28:17,582 Booze talking, you know me, kid. 2908 02:28:18,169 --> 02:28:19,542 Good God, Jamie. 2909 02:28:20,643 --> 02:28:23,125 No matter how drunk you are, there's no excuse. 2910 02:28:25,977 --> 02:28:27,201 I'm sorry, I... 2911 02:28:30,221 --> 02:28:32,413 You and I never... Scrapped that bad. 2912 02:28:32,930 --> 02:28:34,169 Sorry, kid. 2913 02:28:34,638 --> 02:28:35,773 Glad you did. 2914 02:28:37,418 --> 02:28:39,738 My dirty tongue, I'd like to cut it out. 2915 02:28:42,796 --> 02:28:45,520 It was because I feel so damn sunk. 2916 02:28:47,478 --> 02:28:49,709 Because this time Mama had me fooled. 2917 02:28:53,075 --> 02:28:54,969 I suppose I can't forgive her yet. 2918 02:28:57,031 --> 02:28:58,456 It meant so much... 2919 02:29:00,034 --> 02:29:02,484 I'd began to hope that if she'd beaten the game... 2920 02:29:05,033 --> 02:29:06,639 Maybe I could too. 2921 02:29:08,417 --> 02:29:10,166 Good God, don't I know how you feel! 2922 02:29:12,713 --> 02:29:14,081 Oh, God! 2923 02:29:15,521 --> 02:29:18,525 I've known about Mama so much longer than you. 2924 02:29:19,644 --> 02:29:22,649 I'll never forget the first time I got wise. 2925 02:29:23,441 --> 02:29:26,128 I caught her in the act with a hypo. 2926 02:29:27,122 --> 02:29:28,193 God! 2927 02:29:30,595 --> 02:29:32,245 I never believed before 2928 02:29:32,914 --> 02:29:34,914 That anyone but whores took dope. 2929 02:29:37,334 --> 02:29:38,650 Stop it, Jamie. 2930 02:29:45,454 --> 02:29:48,008 And then this stuff of your getting consumption. 2931 02:29:49,617 --> 02:29:51,617 It's... Got me licked. 2932 02:29:52,729 --> 02:29:54,344 We've been more than brothers. 2933 02:29:54,990 --> 02:29:56,653 You're the only pal I ever had. 2934 02:29:57,871 --> 02:30:00,364 I love your guts kid, I'd do anything for you. 2935 02:30:01,889 --> 02:30:03,262 I know that, Jamie. 2936 02:30:05,144 --> 02:30:06,213 Yeah. 2937 02:30:08,199 --> 02:30:10,950 I bet you heard Mama and old Gaspard... 2938 02:30:10,957 --> 02:30:14,500 Spilling so much bunk about my hoping for the worst. 2939 02:30:15,418 --> 02:30:18,355 You suspect right now I'm thinking to myself... 2940 02:30:18,356 --> 02:30:20,098 That Papa is old... 2941 02:30:20,099 --> 02:30:21,797 Can't last much longer... 2942 02:30:22,366 --> 02:30:24,428 And if you were to die... 2943 02:30:24,429 --> 02:30:26,560 Mama and I would get all he's got. 2944 02:30:26,561 --> 02:30:28,576 So I'm probably hoping... 2945 02:30:28,577 --> 02:30:31,061 Shut up you, damn fool! 2946 02:30:31,062 --> 02:30:32,818 What the hell put that in your nut? 2947 02:30:36,871 --> 02:30:38,434 That's what I'd like to know. 2948 02:30:38,786 --> 02:30:39,952 What put that in your mind? 2949 02:30:39,953 --> 02:30:41,741 Oh, don't be a dumbbell. 2950 02:30:41,742 --> 02:30:43,091 What I said... 2951 02:30:43,255 --> 02:30:46,948 I'm always suspected of hoping for the worst I got, so I can't help it. 2952 02:30:49,330 --> 02:30:50,517 Hey! 2953 02:30:52,791 --> 02:30:54,681 What are you trying to do? 2954 02:30:54,682 --> 02:30:56,031 Accuse me? 2955 02:30:56,620 --> 02:30:59,131 Now don't you play the wise guy with me! 2956 02:30:59,615 --> 02:31:02,100 I've learned more about life than you'll ever know. 2957 02:31:02,109 --> 02:31:04,865 Just because you read a lot of high brow junk... 2958 02:31:04,866 --> 02:31:06,476 Don't think you can fool me! 2959 02:31:06,988 --> 02:31:08,829 You're only an overgrown kid. 2960 02:31:08,830 --> 02:31:13,880 Mama's baby, Papa's pet, the family white hope. The... 2961 02:31:14,054 --> 02:31:16,716 You're getting a swelled head lately about nothing. 2962 02:31:16,816 --> 02:31:19,525 About a few poems, in a hick town newspaper. 2963 02:31:19,534 --> 02:31:23,504 Hell, I used to write better stuff for the lit magazine in college. 2964 02:31:23,839 --> 02:31:25,409 You better wake up! 2965 02:31:25,410 --> 02:31:28,334 You're setting no rivers on fire. 2966 02:31:28,926 --> 02:31:33,019 You let these hick town boobs here flatter you... 2967 02:31:33,020 --> 02:31:35,571 With bunk about your future... 2968 02:31:44,398 --> 02:31:45,677 Hell, kid... 2969 02:31:46,558 --> 02:31:47,828 Forget that. 2970 02:31:48,285 --> 02:31:50,125 That goes for Sweeney. 2971 02:31:50,126 --> 02:31:51,927 You know I didn't mean it. 2972 02:31:52,964 --> 02:31:54,686 No one is prouder... 2973 02:31:55,130 --> 02:31:56,632 You started to make good. 2974 02:31:59,912 --> 02:32:02,090 Oh, why shouldn't I be proud, uh? 2975 02:32:03,867 --> 02:32:05,919 You reflect credit on me. 2976 02:32:06,438 --> 02:32:09,200 I had more to do with bringing you up than anybody. 2977 02:32:09,606 --> 02:32:12,813 I wised you up about women, so you'd never be the fall guy... 2978 02:32:12,816 --> 02:32:15,166 And make any mistakes you didn't want to make. 2979 02:32:15,669 --> 02:32:18,433 And who steered you on to reading that poetry first, uh? 2980 02:32:18,434 --> 02:32:20,292 Swinburne, for example? 2981 02:32:20,293 --> 02:32:21,476 I did! 2982 02:32:23,291 --> 02:32:25,615 And because I once wanted to write... 2983 02:32:25,971 --> 02:32:28,571 I put it in your head that someday you'd write! 2984 02:32:28,887 --> 02:32:31,563 Hell, you're more than my brother. 2985 02:32:31,573 --> 02:32:33,567 I made you! 2986 02:32:33,915 --> 02:32:36,825 You are my Frankenstein! 2987 02:32:41,573 --> 02:32:42,815 All right. 2988 02:32:43,399 --> 02:32:45,089 I'm your Frankenstein. 2989 02:32:48,754 --> 02:32:50,195 So... 2990 02:32:50,931 --> 02:32:52,390 Let's have another drink? 2991 02:32:54,344 --> 02:32:55,653 You crazy nut. 2992 02:32:56,348 --> 02:32:57,291 No. 2993 02:32:57,813 --> 02:32:59,038 I'll have a drink... 2994 02:32:59,855 --> 02:33:00,944 Not you. 2995 02:33:03,068 --> 02:33:04,704 I got to take care of you. 2996 02:33:18,938 --> 02:33:20,405 Listen, kid... 2997 02:33:21,289 --> 02:33:22,871 You'll be going away. 2998 02:33:23,458 --> 02:33:26,428 I may not get another chance to talk or I may not be... 2999 02:33:26,429 --> 02:33:28,449 Drunk enough to tell you the truth. 3000 02:33:29,464 --> 02:33:31,046 So I got to tell you now... 3001 02:33:31,047 --> 02:33:33,944 Something I ought to have told you a long time ago... 3002 02:33:34,047 --> 02:33:35,206 For your own good. 3003 02:33:35,720 --> 02:33:37,392 And no drunken bull! 3004 02:33:38,140 --> 02:33:39,918 But in vino veritas. 3005 02:33:40,109 --> 02:33:40,974 Uh? 3006 02:33:41,970 --> 02:33:43,740 You better take this seriously. 3007 02:33:46,030 --> 02:33:47,809 I wanna warn you... 3008 02:33:48,524 --> 02:33:49,801 Against me. 3009 02:33:50,622 --> 02:33:53,856 Mama and Papa are right. I've been a rotten bad influence. 3010 02:33:54,779 --> 02:33:56,515 But worst of all is... 3011 02:33:57,743 --> 02:33:59,582 I did it on purpose. 3012 02:34:00,747 --> 02:34:03,080 - I don't want to hear anymore. - Yes, kid! 3013 02:34:05,017 --> 02:34:06,125 You listen... 3014 02:34:06,616 --> 02:34:09,792 I did it on purpose... To make a bum out of you. 3015 02:34:10,419 --> 02:34:12,572 Part of me did a big part. 3016 02:34:13,146 --> 02:34:16,019 The part that's been dead so long that hates life. 3017 02:34:16,038 --> 02:34:19,579 My putting you wise so you'd learn from my mistakes, uh? 3018 02:34:19,959 --> 02:34:23,468 Well, I believed that myself at times, but it's a fake. 3019 02:34:23,764 --> 02:34:26,360 It made my mistakes look good. 3020 02:34:26,846 --> 02:34:28,935 Made getting drunk romantic. 3021 02:34:29,358 --> 02:34:32,026 Made whores fascinating vampires 3022 02:34:32,027 --> 02:34:36,177 Instead of poor, stupid, diseased slobs they really are. 3023 02:34:36,857 --> 02:34:39,957 Made fun of work... as a sucker's game. 3024 02:34:39,967 --> 02:34:42,207 I never wanted you to succeed... 3025 02:34:42,221 --> 02:34:45,051 And make me look even worse by comparison. 3026 02:34:45,089 --> 02:34:47,010 Wanted you to fail! 3027 02:34:47,011 --> 02:34:48,716 Always jealous of ya! 3028 02:34:48,717 --> 02:34:50,878 Mama's baby! 3029 02:34:50,879 --> 02:34:52,498 Papa's pet! 3030 02:34:54,851 --> 02:34:59,036 And it was your being born that started Mama on dope. 3031 02:34:59,688 --> 02:35:02,697 I know that's not your fault but all the same... 3032 02:35:02,698 --> 02:35:04,277 Goddamn you! 3033 02:35:04,862 --> 02:35:07,004 I can't help hating your guts. 3034 02:35:11,289 --> 02:35:13,720 - Cut it out, Jamie. - Don't get me wrong, kid. 3035 02:35:14,255 --> 02:35:15,880 I love you more than I hate you. 3036 02:35:15,881 --> 02:35:18,199 My telling what I'm telling you now proves it. 3037 02:35:18,655 --> 02:35:21,599 Because I run the risk you'll hate me and you're all I got left. 3038 02:35:24,975 --> 02:35:26,242 I didn't mean... 3039 02:35:26,719 --> 02:35:28,425 To tell you all that last stuff. 3040 02:35:29,407 --> 02:35:31,833 To that far back, I don't know what made me. 3041 02:35:34,357 --> 02:35:36,220 What I wanted to say is... 3042 02:35:37,603 --> 02:35:41,122 I'd like to see you become the greatest success in the world. 3043 02:35:42,347 --> 02:35:44,470 But you better be on your guard, 3044 02:35:45,260 --> 02:35:48,526 Because I'm gonna do my damnedest to make you fail. 3045 02:35:49,892 --> 02:35:51,329 I can't help it. 3046 02:35:53,095 --> 02:35:54,961 I hate myself. 3047 02:35:55,621 --> 02:35:59,203 I got to take revenge on everyone else, especially you. 3048 02:36:00,024 --> 02:36:02,716 The dead part of me hopes you won't get well. 3049 02:36:03,461 --> 02:36:06,870 Maybe he's even glad the game's got Mama again. 3050 02:36:08,390 --> 02:36:11,137 He wants... Company! 3051 02:36:12,107 --> 02:36:15,029 He doesn't want to be the only corpse around the house. 3052 02:36:15,911 --> 02:36:16,938 God, Jamie. 3053 02:36:17,509 --> 02:36:18,412 You're crazy. 3054 02:36:18,414 --> 02:36:20,894 Now, you think it over, you'll see I'm right. 3055 02:36:21,061 --> 02:36:22,068 Think it over! 3056 02:36:22,069 --> 02:36:23,940 When you're away from me in the sanatorium. 3057 02:36:24,326 --> 02:36:26,770 Make up your mind. You gotta tie a can to me, 3058 02:36:26,782 --> 02:36:28,401 Get me out of your life... 3059 02:36:28,402 --> 02:36:29,679 Think of me as dead! 3060 02:36:29,906 --> 02:36:30,975 Tell people... 3061 02:36:30,976 --> 02:36:33,088 "I had a brother, but he's dead". 3062 02:36:33,447 --> 02:36:35,950 And when you come back you look out for me! 3063 02:36:36,057 --> 02:36:39,917 Because I'll be waiting to welcome you here with that "My old pal" stuff 3064 02:36:40,001 --> 02:36:41,673 And give you the glad hand... 3065 02:36:41,688 --> 02:36:43,917 And the first good chance I get... 3066 02:36:43,927 --> 02:36:45,803 I'm gonna stab you in the back! 3067 02:36:45,804 --> 02:36:48,589 Shut up! I'll be goddamned if I'll listen to... 3068 02:36:48,590 --> 02:36:50,426 Only don't you forget me. 3069 02:36:50,697 --> 02:36:52,958 Remember I warned you for your sake. 3070 02:36:52,959 --> 02:36:54,167 Come on! 3071 02:36:54,168 --> 02:36:55,509 Give me credit! 3072 02:36:56,370 --> 02:36:58,577 "Greater love hath no man than this... 3073 02:36:59,290 --> 02:37:01,199 That he saveth his brother... 3074 02:37:01,548 --> 02:37:02,755 From himself." 3075 02:37:08,413 --> 02:37:09,763 That's all. 3076 02:37:10,916 --> 02:37:12,409 I'm finished now. I've... 3077 02:37:12,822 --> 02:37:14,282 Gone to confession. 3078 02:37:15,556 --> 02:37:18,056 I know you absolve me, don't you, kid? 3079 02:37:19,019 --> 02:37:20,620 You understand. 3080 02:37:21,285 --> 02:37:23,220 You're a damn fine kid. 3081 02:37:24,560 --> 02:37:25,757 You ought to be. 3082 02:37:26,281 --> 02:37:27,654 I made you. 3083 02:37:29,491 --> 02:37:30,602 So go... 3084 02:37:31,436 --> 02:37:32,659 And get well. 3085 02:37:34,073 --> 02:37:36,266 Don't die on me, you're all I got left. 3086 02:37:38,774 --> 02:37:40,160 God bless, kid. 3087 02:37:43,461 --> 02:37:45,014 That last drink... 3088 02:37:46,736 --> 02:37:47,881 The old K.O. 3089 02:38:32,394 --> 02:38:34,185 Thank God he's asleep. 3090 02:38:35,379 --> 02:38:37,331 I thought he'd never stop talking. 3091 02:38:38,698 --> 02:38:41,006 Better let him stay where he is and sleep it off. 3092 02:38:42,163 --> 02:38:45,190 I heard the last part of his talk. It's what I warned you. 3093 02:38:45,428 --> 02:38:48,462 I hope you'll heed the warning now it comes from his own mouth. 3094 02:38:49,385 --> 02:38:51,566 You mustn't take it too much to heart though, lad. 3095 02:38:52,317 --> 02:38:55,383 He loves to exaggerate the worst in himself when he's drunk. 3096 02:38:55,932 --> 02:38:57,353 He's devoted to you. 3097 02:38:58,290 --> 02:39:00,228 It's the one good thing left in him. 3098 02:39:02,209 --> 02:39:04,361 A sweet spectacle for me... 3099 02:39:04,687 --> 02:39:06,123 My firstborn... 3100 02:39:06,681 --> 02:39:09,938 Who I hoped would bear my name in honor and dignity, 3101 02:39:10,548 --> 02:39:13,024 Who showed such brilliant promise. 3102 02:39:13,219 --> 02:39:14,903 Be quiet, can't you, Papa? 3103 02:39:15,081 --> 02:39:16,184 A waste. 3104 02:39:16,382 --> 02:39:17,430 A wreck. 3105 02:39:17,985 --> 02:39:19,417 A drunken hulk. 3106 02:39:20,353 --> 02:39:22,276 Done with and finished. 3107 02:39:25,541 --> 02:39:27,661 "Clarence... Is come... 3108 02:39:29,047 --> 02:39:32,240 False, fleeting, perjured Clarence... 3109 02:39:32,241 --> 02:39:35,153 That stabb'd me in the field by Tewksbury... 3110 02:39:36,605 --> 02:39:40,585 Seize on him, Furies, and take him in to torment." 3111 02:39:44,408 --> 02:39:45,997 What the hell are you staring at? 3112 02:39:47,413 --> 02:39:48,770 "Look in my face... 3113 02:39:49,222 --> 02:39:50,952 My name is Might-have-been. 3114 02:39:51,766 --> 02:39:54,472 I am also called No-more, Too-late, 3115 02:39:54,601 --> 02:39:55,473 Farewell." 3116 02:39:55,474 --> 02:39:59,361 I'm well aware of that and God knows I don't want to look at it. 3117 02:39:59,362 --> 02:40:00,163 Quit it! 3118 02:40:00,164 --> 02:40:02,451 You know, I got a great idea for you, Papa. 3119 02:40:02,792 --> 02:40:05,493 Put on a revival of "The Bells" this season... 3120 02:40:05,747 --> 02:40:08,400 There's a great part in there you can play without make-up. 3121 02:40:08,752 --> 02:40:11,135 Old Gaspard, the miser! 3122 02:40:11,136 --> 02:40:12,199 Shut up, Jamie! 3123 02:40:12,200 --> 02:40:14,376 I claim that Edwin Booth... 3124 02:40:14,377 --> 02:40:16,799 Never saw the day... 3125 02:40:17,125 --> 02:40:19,586 When he could give as good a performance as a trained seal! 3126 02:40:19,851 --> 02:40:21,659 Seals are intelligent and honest... 3127 02:40:21,660 --> 02:40:24,170 They don't put on any bluffs about "the art of acting"... 3128 02:40:24,386 --> 02:40:26,477 They admit they're just hams... 3129 02:40:26,478 --> 02:40:28,279 Earning their daily fish. 3130 02:40:28,709 --> 02:40:29,816 You loafer! 3131 02:40:29,817 --> 02:40:32,585 Papa! Do you wanna start a row that'll bring Mama down? 3132 02:40:34,565 --> 02:40:35,840 Jamie, go to sleep. 3133 02:40:36,669 --> 02:40:39,202 You shot off your mouth too much already. 3134 02:40:40,125 --> 02:40:41,149 All right, kid. 3135 02:40:42,810 --> 02:40:44,319 I'm not looking for an argument. 3136 02:40:45,212 --> 02:40:46,306 Too damn sick. 3137 02:40:46,307 --> 02:40:48,760 Oh, I wish to God you'd go to bed so that I could too. 3138 02:40:49,350 --> 02:40:51,096 I'm dumb tired. 3139 02:40:51,775 --> 02:40:54,052 I can't stay up all night like I used to. 3140 02:40:54,053 --> 02:40:56,364 I'm getting old.... Old and finished. 3141 02:40:57,821 --> 02:40:59,708 I can't keep my eyes open. 3142 02:41:02,141 --> 02:41:03,879 I think I'll catch a few winks. 3143 02:41:04,818 --> 02:41:06,659 Why don't you do the same, Edmund? 3144 02:41:07,464 --> 02:41:10,529 It'll pass the time until she... 3145 02:42:22,870 --> 02:42:24,335 "A mad scene." 3146 02:42:25,714 --> 02:42:27,401 "Enter Ophelia" 3147 02:42:27,946 --> 02:42:29,719 Good boy, Edmund! 3148 02:42:29,941 --> 02:42:32,013 The dirty blaggard! 3149 02:42:32,745 --> 02:42:34,141 His own mother! 3150 02:42:36,772 --> 02:42:38,861 All right, kid. I had that coming. 3151 02:42:40,325 --> 02:42:42,193 But I told you how much I hoped. 3152 02:42:42,194 --> 02:42:44,915 I'll kick you out in the gutter tomorrow... 3153 02:42:44,916 --> 02:42:46,734 So help me God! 3154 02:42:48,288 --> 02:42:49,864 Papa. 3155 02:42:50,934 --> 02:42:52,129 Jamie. 3156 02:42:53,894 --> 02:42:55,245 For the love of God! 3157 02:42:55,594 --> 02:42:56,761 Stop it. 3158 02:43:11,471 --> 02:43:13,678 I play so badly now. 3159 02:43:14,747 --> 02:43:16,460 I'm all out of practice. 3160 02:43:16,461 --> 02:43:19,398 Sister Theresa will give me a dreadful scolding. 3161 02:43:20,413 --> 02:43:22,435 She'll tell me it isn't fair to my father... 3162 02:43:22,436 --> 02:43:24,748 When he spent so much money for extra lessons. 3163 02:43:24,749 --> 02:43:26,254 She's quite right. 3164 02:43:26,255 --> 02:43:29,596 It isn't fair when he's so good and generous and so proud of me. 3165 02:43:30,644 --> 02:43:33,433 I'll practice everyday from now on. 3166 02:43:36,623 --> 02:43:37,789 Something... 3167 02:43:38,249 --> 02:43:40,465 Horrible has happened to my hands. 3168 02:43:42,551 --> 02:43:44,327 The fingers have gotten all stiff... 3169 02:43:44,328 --> 02:43:46,997 The knuckles are all swollen, they're so ugly. 3170 02:43:48,094 --> 02:43:50,119 I'll go to the infirmary and show sister Martha. 3171 02:43:50,120 --> 02:43:53,534 She's old and a little cranky but I love her just the same. 3172 02:43:54,561 --> 02:43:56,943 She has things in her medicine chest that'll cure anything. 3173 02:43:56,963 --> 02:43:58,898 She'll give me something to rub on my hands... 3174 02:43:58,899 --> 02:44:01,106 And tell me to pray to the Blessed Virgin. 3175 02:44:01,363 --> 02:44:03,067 I'll be well again in no time. 3176 02:44:04,571 --> 02:44:06,397 Let... Let me see... 3177 02:44:08,682 --> 02:44:10,044 What did I... 3178 02:44:10,433 --> 02:44:11,808 Come here... 3179 02:44:12,419 --> 02:44:13,625 To find? 3180 02:44:15,824 --> 02:44:17,093 It's terrible... 3181 02:44:17,269 --> 02:44:19,554 How absent-minded I've become. 3182 02:44:19,555 --> 02:44:21,214 Always dreaming and forgetting. 3183 02:44:21,218 --> 02:44:22,266 Here! 3184 02:44:22,749 --> 02:44:24,051 Let me take it, dear. 3185 02:44:24,870 --> 02:44:26,372 You'll only step on it... 3186 02:44:26,373 --> 02:44:27,928 And then you'll be sorry afterwards. 3187 02:44:28,501 --> 02:44:30,040 Thank you. You're very kind. 3188 02:44:30,377 --> 02:44:32,630 It's a wedding gown, it's very lovely isn't it? 3189 02:44:34,792 --> 02:44:36,579 I remember now... 3190 02:44:38,370 --> 02:44:39,568 I found it... 3191 02:44:40,314 --> 02:44:42,253 In the attic hidden in a trunk. 3192 02:44:44,320 --> 02:44:46,575 I... I don't know what I wanted it for. 3193 02:44:46,893 --> 02:44:48,385 I'm going to be a nun. 3194 02:44:51,133 --> 02:44:52,143 That is... 3195 02:44:54,386 --> 02:44:56,172 If I can only... 3196 02:44:56,728 --> 02:44:57,839 Find... 3197 02:45:01,026 --> 02:45:03,234 What is it I'm looking for? 3198 02:45:06,962 --> 02:45:09,165 I know it's something I lost. 3199 02:45:09,166 --> 02:45:10,206 Mary. 3200 02:45:10,207 --> 02:45:11,524 No good, Papa. 3201 02:45:12,020 --> 02:45:13,281 Something I... 3202 02:45:13,606 --> 02:45:14,814 I miss... 3203 02:45:15,553 --> 02:45:16,640 Terribly. 3204 02:45:17,601 --> 02:45:19,637 It... It can't be altogether lost. 3205 02:45:19,638 --> 02:45:20,574 Mama... 3206 02:45:21,347 --> 02:45:22,560 Something... 3207 02:45:22,561 --> 02:45:23,390 What's the use? 3208 02:45:23,391 --> 02:45:25,587 I need terribly. 3209 02:45:26,704 --> 02:45:27,980 I remember... 3210 02:45:28,607 --> 02:45:31,500 When I had it I was never lonely nor afraid. 3211 02:45:35,149 --> 02:45:37,195 I can't have lost it forever. 3212 02:45:38,745 --> 02:45:40,731 I'd die if I know that. 3213 02:45:41,437 --> 02:45:43,947 Because then there would be no hope. 3214 02:45:45,926 --> 02:45:47,062 Mama. 3215 02:45:49,613 --> 02:45:51,567 It's not just a summer cold. 3216 02:45:53,212 --> 02:45:54,578 I've got consumption. 3217 02:45:55,277 --> 02:45:56,715 No. No! 3218 02:45:58,441 --> 02:46:00,275 You must not try to hold me. 3219 02:46:00,552 --> 02:46:02,221 You must not try to touch me. 3220 02:46:02,540 --> 02:46:04,579 You damn fool, it's no good. 3221 02:46:05,552 --> 02:46:07,935 It's not right when I'm hoping to be a nun. 3222 02:46:08,200 --> 02:46:10,508 We're fools to pay any attention. 3223 02:46:12,197 --> 02:46:13,725 It's the damn poison. 3224 02:46:14,464 --> 02:46:17,571 I never knew her drown herself in it as deep as this before. 3225 02:46:18,430 --> 02:46:20,813 Pass me that bottle, Jamie. 3226 02:46:25,567 --> 02:46:27,796 I had a talk with mother Elizabeth. 3227 02:46:29,407 --> 02:46:31,148 She's so sweet and good. 3228 02:46:32,691 --> 02:46:33,923 A Saint on earth. 3229 02:46:34,496 --> 02:46:35,502 I love her dearly. 3230 02:46:35,503 --> 02:46:36,219 It may be... 3231 02:46:36,465 --> 02:46:39,124 Sinful of me, but I love her better than my own mother 3232 02:46:40,295 --> 02:46:43,099 Because she always understands even before you say a word. 3233 02:46:43,472 --> 02:46:45,886 Her kind blue eyes look right into your heart. 3234 02:46:46,554 --> 02:46:48,349 Can't keep any secrets from her. 3235 02:46:48,698 --> 02:46:51,551 You couldn't deceive her even if you were mean enough to want to. 3236 02:46:53,464 --> 02:46:55,150 All the same... 3237 02:46:56,074 --> 02:46:59,694 I... I don't think she was so understanding this time. 3238 02:47:00,562 --> 02:47:02,858 I told her I wanted to be a nun. 3239 02:47:03,589 --> 02:47:06,480 I explained how sure I was of my vocation. 3240 02:47:06,775 --> 02:47:10,499 That I'd prayed to the Blessed Virgin to make me sure and to find me worthy. 3241 02:47:12,298 --> 02:47:13,584 I told mother... 3242 02:47:13,801 --> 02:47:15,165 I had had a true vision... 3243 02:47:15,166 --> 02:47:17,983 When I was praying in the shrine of our Lady of Lords... 3244 02:47:18,787 --> 02:47:20,354 On the little island in the lake. 3245 02:47:21,258 --> 02:47:24,134 I said I knew as surely as I knew I was kneeling there 3246 02:47:25,262 --> 02:47:27,533 That the Blessed Virgin had smiled 3247 02:47:28,771 --> 02:47:30,704 And given me her consent. 3248 02:47:32,119 --> 02:47:35,261 But mother Elizabeth said I must be more sure than that even... 3249 02:47:35,262 --> 02:47:36,664 That I must prove it... 3250 02:47:36,665 --> 02:47:38,918 Wasn't simply my imagination. 3251 02:47:39,571 --> 02:47:41,511 She said if I was so sure... 3252 02:47:41,797 --> 02:47:44,583 Then I wouldn't mind putting myself to a test... 3253 02:47:45,165 --> 02:47:48,794 By going home after I'd graduated and living as other girls live... 3254 02:47:48,795 --> 02:47:50,154 Going out to parties... 3255 02:47:50,329 --> 02:47:52,361 And dances and enjoy myself 3256 02:47:53,467 --> 02:47:54,721 And then... 3257 02:47:55,406 --> 02:47:58,252 If after a year or two I still felt sure... 3258 02:47:58,841 --> 02:48:00,644 I could come back to see her... 3259 02:48:00,867 --> 02:48:02,708 And we would talk it over again. 3260 02:48:05,231 --> 02:48:06,358 I never... 3261 02:48:06,579 --> 02:48:09,550 Dreamed the Holy Mother would give me such advice. 3262 02:48:10,512 --> 02:48:12,458 I was really shocked! 3263 02:48:13,088 --> 02:48:14,057 I said... 3264 02:48:14,498 --> 02:48:18,458 Naturally I... I would do anything she suggested but... 3265 02:48:18,562 --> 02:48:21,419 I knew it was simply a waste of time. 3266 02:48:23,448 --> 02:48:24,671 After... 3267 02:48:25,751 --> 02:48:27,307 I left her I felt... 3268 02:48:28,377 --> 02:48:30,078 All mixed up. 3269 02:48:31,097 --> 02:48:32,907 So I went to the shrine 3270 02:48:34,340 --> 02:48:36,775 And I prayed to the Blessed Virgin... 3271 02:48:39,254 --> 02:48:41,090 And found peace again... 3272 02:48:43,252 --> 02:48:45,248 Because I knew she heard my prayer... 3273 02:48:46,012 --> 02:48:47,668 And would always love me... 3274 02:48:49,086 --> 02:48:50,904 And see no harm... 3275 02:48:51,174 --> 02:48:52,794 Ever came to me... 3276 02:48:54,121 --> 02:48:55,415 So long... 3277 02:48:56,632 --> 02:48:57,846 So long... 3278 02:48:58,060 --> 02:49:00,785 As I never lost my faith in her. 3279 02:49:06,183 --> 02:49:08,311 That was in the winter of... 3280 02:49:08,891 --> 02:49:10,232 Senior year. 3281 02:49:11,488 --> 02:49:12,901 Then in the spring... 3282 02:49:14,244 --> 02:49:15,951 Something happened to me. 3283 02:49:17,789 --> 02:49:20,440 Oh, yes, I remember. 3284 02:49:21,523 --> 02:49:24,374 I fell in love with James Tyrone 3285 02:49:27,832 --> 02:49:29,455 And was so happy... 3286 02:49:30,877 --> 02:49:32,326 For a time. 231593