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she doesn't want me to be myself tea

subjects she checks to everything I do

she dislikes my friend she thinks had

drinks she criticizes me all the time

she there's nothing else I can do is

this you I mean I have to live here

don't I mean

call it that no I don't think I mean

drawing myself all that much sometime I

had been studying the families of

schizophrenic patients what you will see

are extracts from interviews with the

family of one of these patients Katie

winter when Kate reentered Hospital my

research into her case had of necessity

to cease she's she's sick isn't she yes

I'm back on it you see dr. Kate is a

girl from we have done everything that

is possible I'm sure you have but Kate

still feels that something is missing oh

yes but surely that's the business of

you know the the daughter or the son

however much you do for them they still

want that little bit model can you tell

me why you think she's sick well what

I'm saying you see you've only got to

look at them look at uh no I don't mean

look I mean listen listen to what she

says and what she does she's killing him

alone yes well you see one of Kate's

delusions is you understand is that her

mother is killing her oh yes I know but

I mean that's that's just plain nonsense

I mean surely you know that being a

doctor you see as I have already said

here's a girl she said everything that

it is possible to do dumb for her and

look what happens was it drinking and

all the other stuff as well I don't

believe I've done your hair before ever

what can I do I wanted to leave cutting

off

do what never could you want it long bar

shorter than I know is fallible

suchen if I cut it short here back but

raising it here having two pieces

swinging forward one of the girls has

the style herself we're going to see it

on where I go show everyone

so then Kate drinks mrs. Lipton well no

wait you thought drinking but your

husband says she drinks Gerry's very

hard on drinking he doesn't like it and

any young girl - well it's just not our

way is it don't what I'm trying to get

that is how much does she drink does she

get drunk don't know Katie what's Jerry

been saying to you I mean are we trying

to get this out in the open aren't we

so Katie drinks but she doesn't get

drunk I think we can safely say we

brought that girl up to know how to

behave but she does go in pumps with all

songs and she talks to them but it's her

illness you think her illness makes her

talk to people that she shouldn't talk

to she's brought shame on this house to

me and and her father I know we tried to

do is to help her and do what's best for

her but she defies us

there's mr. winter go to the party what

are you suggesting young man I was

suggesting nothing mrs. winter asked if

mr. winter went to the pub hmm he's a

man isn't he he's entitled to a drink

he has his drink and that's that it

doesn't get drunk nobody in this house

gets drunk doctor including Kate nobody

including Katie we're respectable people

here and we know what's what and that's

how we brought about Katie

you don't want to go listening to her do

you listen to her mrs. winter do I

listen do I do anything else but after

all she is my kid do you know and I love

her

Kate yes okay that's dead

she's dead

yeah she's being killed by a doctor what

do you think well you're just the same

as over at least you won't just have

certain you are you had ma'am yeah she

because your mother

oh she doesn't want me to do why is that

she come Madoff Alan why do I hate you

shake she thinks I'm a [ __ ] how many

boyfriends did you have it so lost you

know and I get so confused I mean I

can't do anything right you see and well

sometimes I sort of lying bed off the

time you know and I just can't move on

it it's frightening my mother is very

kind then you know mission yeah she sort

of brings me up what I want to eat my

favorite meals on peace she looks after

me another I don't mean Oh got to get

Metta for their sakes don't you see you

mean you want to be what they want you

to be I suppose I mean I'm gonna behave

like this up I hurt her she's going gray

over me as but it's natural mentor I

mean I can't keep a job

I get bad-tempered and I've had this

abortion I suppose that was a terrible

shock for her I really I'm wicked did

you have any special boyfriend

yes

I'm chef I was really fond I'll user an

actor what was his name

Jake Morrison or my mum and dad don't

like people like that you know they sort

of think Muriel I did but well I mean I

think awful of my queerest but I do

really I mean he was very good to me

though

oh we had a gay time together you know

we go to these discotheque places them

dancing I mean we used to go to these

pubs down by the river in Hammersmith

just like that they might that Randhir

you know my hair long Jake is tonight

you know I like it long my mother

doesn't know she thinks I look like one

of them beatniks

maybe I'll get it captain

was it his child the two abortive James

oh no no no no she had it by someone

else just simply being a server where

she happens to turn so you turn them

kissing sort of there are you gonna turn

whichever way she something must be

spinning around

sure

you thank you yes thank you

it was good of you to see me some be

daft everything okay

were you in love with her well I

wouldn't say that

were you fondle it then yeah it was fun

oh it's fun all right what do you do

when you wake up with a girl beside you

she says her mother's shaggy Anna

Mishima in literal the mother was

screaming calling her name's filthy

little tart things like that and she

going to these well chances sort of

trances you know what I mean

bloodshed look we'd be the party of

somewhere and suddenly she goes stiff

dead stiff I mean she start crying I can

explain it

she once said she said her mother could

sit at home and watch Kate whatever she

was doing whatever she was on the telly

God watch her and me in bed but I don't

want to give the wrong impression I care

for my got that funny innit I wouldn't

be surprised if her mother did have a

product telly network well it makes

sense as a joke then doesn't it yeah so

what you mean do you look I'm not a

psychiatrist am i a cigar brash and a

beautiful girlfriend she looked English

sort of slipped down straight hair and a

white white face and big black eyes like

she was like very bored of the whole

thing Kate told me that she felt out of

her depth in your world she was a cocky

little kid some fascist government sort

of thing one thing I did any harm

I discovered she was ill why'd you drop

them

I don't have to defend myself do you do

it of course you don't

I meant it strictly as a factual

question yeah well I stopped seeing her

yeah did you tell her why you stopped

seeing her

oh really what did you tell her well you

don't say look darling I don't dig

schizophrenic is that what she is then

should I know

you use the word I'm sorry is your mom

got a telescope watching you if Kate

feels she's being watched thing for her

she is being watched I told you she knew

that she was getting out wasn't she a

professional help yes yes she was I mean

I just told us a small partner job

abroad that was all right I know people

don't lie to me but I think that they do

and I accuse them of it and I get hurts

in me really it's just something in my

head I can't get rid of it

accusing online get frightened of people

leaving them frightened of jet leaving

told me I got this part in the film and

I just accuse them of lying well

came back

never saw him again suppose he thought

no more of her only frightened yourself

you frighten other people away don't you

I know what it is it's just for that

there please people she was as near

perfection as any little girl Kennedy

you notice nothing no she was obedient

clean always had a lovely little smell

for you

never attempt run never assignment and

sweet challenge we never had a minute

struggle with her and what's more she's

still our Katie still the same girl but

with all this going on well she can't

help it can she would it have upset you

achieving troublesome as a little girl

no children when you know what children

are I mean when I don't think any mother

thinks they brought an angel into the

world now doing and children getting

naughty but then they learn it's the

heart growing up isn't it that's what I

call growing up but you had none of this

with Kate nothing out of the ordinary

my grandma used to say the same thing

about me I often think because I'm not a

mean King that is I mean when when she's

being herself like speak up in future

girl if I want to prom I want it loud

and clear

terribly sorry folks we'll carry on now

ah good afternoon mr. winter yeah it's

good of you to see me here Donna doesn't

like this you know she doesn't like the

idea that we've seen you um you know why

that is oh she's so she's a good woman

Dolly's um I mean she's she's doted on

that girl you know if I could remember

when Katie was much younger I used to

say I used to say you know you want to

be a bit more selfish darling get out of

it because

you know girls old enough and after all

I mean we only live once no way have you

always got on with Kate well I've never

been allowed to up I've never been

letting on as you might say I I don't

quite follow well I've always felt that

Dumber you stood in between me and Katie

so now you mean that mrs. winter

prevented you prevent young no no

nothing like that no darling would never

prevent anybody from doing anything no

it's not that easy it's not a nature

with these well you see when Katie was

much younger I used to sort of you know

pick it up take a mini bouncer up and

down I used to make a laugh and I don't

think that mrs. winter here cared for

that why not do you think no I don't

know he seemed to irritate her I think

well quite frankly bit I wasn't much cut

for her it's not a thing will come soon

thank you you see don't Lee had her own

little business and I think that they

thought that you know I was absolutely a

sort of thing but I know what a fact

that the mother had very different ideas

about whom dollish Ruth Marie so me yeah

it's only natural after all isn't it you

know trying to do the best for the

daughter sort of thing if we can see

Katie through this bit of trouble

alright then she'll have a chance

afterwards you know to meet the right

sort of fella and mother will see to

that

she told you about two ik oh yes she

told me she see she's almost been very

open with us this is something that we

were encouraged but at the same time you

can't have this thing going on night

after night you know being late and you

don't know where the are over the width

perhaps you didn't like Jake I never met

him but I didn't like the sound room and

I didn't like what he was doing to our

kids what was he doing mr. winter but he

was making their l1t what did you need

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it's not so bad nobody can just walk out

like that look you can go if you want to

can't you well why don't you I just feel

doesn't to me to choose wrong so you

know what's the point of upsetting there

where would it get me

get you waiting family to start

don't you think it is sometimes I want

to go but then I feel I just feel it did

you feel as though you can't but you can

honestly it's easier to do what she

wants

we're going to be defeated aren't you

then Kate honestly I just don't like

unnecessary trouble this de orden it's

stupid if anything I didn't get in at

the grammar school and my mom and dad

were really upset about that when you

don't make the grade you sort of those

interest you know you give up no I know

the teachers they've they've tried I

think we've had them out it wasn't as if

I'd I didn't want a good education

either I did it what can you do if

there's nothing exceptional about you

you know we haven't anything to convince

anybody room you see the others I saw

some of them I told you some stuff don't

blame them anyway when it comes down to

it they're ashamed of me I don't blame

them fabulous isn't it I think white

Brian are you yes it's a change a lovely

time you know you like it yeah did you

see change

yes is he working yes he's doing a

television play written by Peter

specially told you all about Peter not

very much I couldn't believe it that I

was going around with a real writer me

why not he's just not my world is it no

what is your world what I am what I want

but if you imagined it my sister Mary

she got this job as a secretary she got

her own flat she ran away from here when

she was 17 she got away why didn't you

go away come on come on why not

no just good can you remember how it

happened

it's when you began to get ill well they

told you I want you to well I went for

over the bread-knife didn't know that's

what your parents say certainly they say

it it must be true wasn't it you see I

should lock me out the night before you

haven't got a key of your own oh well

she'd offered me one you know but what

did he need a key for him

she's never locked me out before I got

back and she trusted me she said to come

home at a reasonable time anyway when I

got back the door was working I got

frightened

my bangle you banged on the dovish a

bedroom light went on stuck a head out

of the window well I got in this awful

state in this terrible temper like I

went off to stay the night with a

girlfriend it was a flower one yes yes

on Friday no no it wasn't it was a

Saturday because don't you remember I

said - it didn't matter if she was a bit

late and being weak and you know because

it was the Sunday night and we could

have a line that's right yes that was

Saturday yeah I had no intentions well I

mean we'd Ardley luck our own daughter I

would wait but you told me you would oh

well I admit that but I only wanted to

give her a scare sort of give it a

fright you know I mean now did we know

where she done but you didn't ask her

and down matter when I come downstairs

she'd gone off anything but I mean she's

a girl grown girl I mean she's a black

fella and they're armed to lead but oh

the same I think they could consider you

a little [ __ ] I mean tell me something

so that you wouldn't sort of worry

because after all I doesn't don't know

not in there I know your mother would

entertain here for me oh darling oh well

that's different I mean things have

changed definitely I mean we live in a

different world

children's more free and what's more

they were right to it only expecting you

know she'd been been until it before yes

the abortion don't say that word to me

account bear it I hate it you're against

abortion i am i think it's wicked and

them that do it well this should be

given life sentences but you did help

Kate she's my daughter doctor when I was

done it don't well

I think myself that she'd been a bit

peculiar for quite some time you know

that this this baby business I mean she

well she just wanted to keep it she

wanted the baby mister baby

she didn't want it she said she did but

I knew different how did you know well

I'm a woman answer I mean I've carried

two and I know what sort of woman can

have the all these funny moods when

they're pregnant pregnant with her

husband that alone somebody she doesn't

even know and knows anything about she

didn't even time he knows nothing about

nothing how did she come round to the

abortion well I find it out that I know

how it would end up it would be me that

would have been lumbered with it Oh both

of us but me particularly because let's

face it and young girl she gets old but

it doesn't she

and then she starts going out and

wanting to go and find another job and

all that would have been me wouldn't it

after all she wasn't it was she Oh

wasn't this before her illness oh yes

but then she haven't been well for some

time so so well in the end you persuaded

her enough to have the child

it's where didn't nothing I got our

keiki to see what she already knew in

her own mind can we come back to be

Sunday morn when Katy stayed out all

night no she came slinking all right

because she was frightened to you right

and what you were gonna say to him

proper worked up he was when it's too

late wait and shout his mouth then I

never said oh it's a ghost of what she

was expecting wasn't it

I've never been one to correct yeah she

dumped too far that time look as long as

the girl is undermined oh you've got

your bigoted size Darlene oh he's got

his bigoted side some days she can't do

anything right Irina's wrong a close

around everything's wrong why don't you

be open and tell the doctor the truth

it's

cheerful admit you wanted a son but I

love Katie from the many things she

would have died in a right don't I

should have been if you died you away

via Sunday morning then well she was

running one thing

there was no row there was no

recriminations but just carried on as

though she wasn't there I laid the

breakfast and I got the bread and then I

gave her the bread and the bread knife

and she's looking from one to the other

of us and she's crying but it was there

to say something first wasn't it not me

and when she did she give me a fright I

can tell you what did she say she said

you killed my baby she picks up the

knife mmm goes for darling well yeah

jelly threw it at me but she missed you

completely done it fell at my feet oh

yes but I mean there's no mistaking it I

mean she threw it out darling

what did you do then well catch it on

upstairs he was crying and Dolly were

crying well in the end I had to get our

doctor in and that was the first damn

bit having these face fits fits well I

don't know what you've become a member

when the doctor got upstairs she was no

she was satis stiff as a poker on the

bed and she wouldn't move she wouldn't

speak and I had to tell him that she'd

eject him although and we had a terrible

day Dahlia terrible day

you and mrs. winter did yeah we did I

don't want to go to the doctor that was

your idea are you suggesting I said

maybe you will

your doctor and you agreed we wouldn't

be coming what does he know about I said

I following week it went into the mental

hospital well they talked it over with

me I decided it was the best thing to do

it's as if somebody else inside and

somebody you know in in with it

somebody let's check that now what would

that somebody be something I'll never

know isn't it why not what I want to do

is to get better when I get better I

don't have that feeling of being

somebody else that's a delusion that's

what they call it I mean normal people

don't I have those sort of feelings

doing well when I start to get better I

can tell because what I can tell through

my mother because she gets happier you

know she's not so worried and I can tell

because we just don't have any arousal

you know we got shopping together or

something you know conflicts and well

that's how I can tell that I am

improving when you think about sin or

that you have sinned what does it mean

to you

I suppose it's some hurting other people

isn't it and when other people hurt you

I don't

that way I'm looking they don't um it's

it's probably the other way around that

they're far too lenient with me this

other person inside you you're sure it's

bad you

I'd say that I've learned that something

I've had to learn other people do it and

they're no more responsible people

there's just another Kate who just won't

learn except when she's on drugs and

tranquilizers and she keeps quiet

one evening when I came to your house

you'd seen something on television that

I've sent you you talked about your

other cake there yeah they haven't got

rid of it

you mean the hospital yeah is that what

you want them to do naturally don't want

to be known didn't like I had no able to

do this to you anyway

just think not to be awful if I go back

to the hospital and I shan't come out

again what

I know where they are with you they know

they know where you stand

they know what to expect oh yeah that

way it's a sort of relief being in the

hospital okay they know where they are

you know what

things become sort of regulated and that

gives you some relief yes

stop being a kid again you know you fall

down and hurt yourself somebody comes

along and picks you up they get on with

looking after you and you get on with

feeling your pain and where's your pain

when you're on tranquilizers well it's a

long way away I don't have that feeling

of being unreal you know I don't feel

anything at all raining can you tell me

about this feeling unreal and it's like

I'm a machine all the bits are sort of

whirring and ticking and only it's a

thing a machine it's not me and I'm

outside this machine sort of standing

there watching and only the eye that's

outside isn't real either

do you know once I thought I was done

operated by remote control like a robot

that's a I kept dizzy when I think about

it because you can't my mind just one

you you can't put it into words you

can't express it it it's just something

that you feel hello this is sketchy

sister Mary how do you do

I'm glad you could find the time right

well no dummy yeah you sit down here

she's got great good double-o Mary with

a big Fuhrman mother I wrote and told

you six months ago gave up that job and

I've started modeling that's what I

wanted to do so I saved up to do it oh

well I can save you between jumps as it

were no I don't see what that's got to

do with Kate so you know kind of turns

that one do much of it something I say I

didn't come here to bicker with your

mother are you going to help your sister

aren't you because that's what we're

supposed to be here for yeah yeah that

she's reason

others are this one maybe I'm not going

to have you talking to mother Gary the

doctors got a mind of his own

I just don't see what the point is

having us all here together why did you

agree to come because you asked me to

and I'm here so

so look you're here to help us not to

hinder your no example to your sister

listen dad I sent you something you know

you didn't like me leave me no but sure

let's have you I it meant I couldn't I

know that you forgot you a bit more and

you should have left at all left the

jewel room to get at it alone Capulet

together

you shouldn't I'm sorry you know you're

not him you're weak

I'm sorry but I've got to speak my mind

so that's what I'll do for learning what

somebody who always weak or not to

attack their mother with a knife did she

attack your mother really I've told you

I mean she wasn't just playing with the

knife you know I don't really like

doubting me words Oh No

slap him with a bloody detective yes

it's very yeah well I'm no witness I

mean I left here years ago seem troubled

since the moment I was born so as soon

as I could flip my nose at them at it

Mary

hey listen Katie you could come and live

with me look you know I've kept writing

to you about it have my she doesn't want

to how do you know

ask me on your hands

nobody is she's a sick girl how did you

get that in your head yeah it's

something called skits of rien here

entered are you messing about in all

this well his case was referred to me by

a friend at the hospital ok torso came

to see what you're going to do with it

I have no direct authority from the

hospital but my research is made up okay

well I hope it just okay so mind you

messing about we know that's it I look

nothing this kid I want to know what

you're going to do about dead right get

her out away from these lot were you

engaged very close to me know when you

any girl eco-mat if you saw a cistern

let's stay women love it's alright don't

cry okay what oh he wants to tell what

you don't tell Agnes you want just okay

just listening to it

folks things

this is winter why do you object to Kate

going to live with Mary well is she a

fit person domineering bossing I don't

think so

why do you think there he left home to

begin with she got into her and she's

gone that's that there's no stopping her

why I left home you know you look at

she's so I feel sorry for her I mean

she's she's she's so bitter you know

she's got even wronged you there are

very few evil people could help man what

this morning I shouldn't say that

look I'm just I'm sorry look I'm not

gonna take any more of this you've said

quite enough today you've got a wicked

tongue Mary and that's all there is to

it and this is the last time you're

coming over that role I'm telling that

for a start what do you think I'm sorry

doctor I'm sorry I'm not gonna take any

more this is my house and I'm afraid I'm

just good for what I'm gonna put my foot

down my wife's another doctor let me

tell the doctor Mary right I just seem

to but you know the two of us we just

seem to be so little like little

ornaments you know dressed well look

nice and just to put on show for them

there's no love there

they never loved us I'm sorry doctor

this just is not true you know you can

uh nasty mind Mary and there's no

getting away from it I feel sorry for

you really do know why did you call Kate

week which I can answer that I can

answer that one for you Katie respected

and mother and Mary she didn't she

thought that was being weak she's weak

because she won't leave this I have

something look at she's she's dreaming

me you know and she she found you should

learn to spit in some people's faces

Kate you won't be in this state you're

in today losses of jobs and everything

and then now it's our monitor again

she's trying to be mentally unbalanced

she said she is well it's it's not that

she's just wait I mean that's what off

make Lille this isn't it I mean she just

won't face up to life look at her Oh

I notice satisfied you - your mother

says you've been feeling unwell again

and you want to go back into hospital do

you feel you can't manage outside Kate

did your sister upset you sorry

did Mary upset you in what way well I'm

just getting back what I deserve untie

I'm just weaker that with Jake I was

just picked up

it's got romantic and silly about him

being an actor so different people

aren't they

better or worse than anybody else but I

mean mom can't people be sort of born in

our how would you describe a moral

person then a moral person what a person

who lives by some sort of standards

yes but by whose standards parents whole

world really I mean you can't set

yourself against everybody you shouldn't

should you why not

why not

all I know is that if I do suffer for it

what are the things you set yourself

against are wrong when you in fact her

right like Mary said I'm just too weak

crazy about Peter your writer friend

yeah could see my mother was quite

sensible about it how could I possibly

go back to a man that I've had an

abortion for just gave that up only I

believe you

you never told them who Peter was or in

fact told him about the child that's

right

so you made the assumption that he

wouldn't want it and you gave him no

choice in the matter in the end I just

didn't know what I believed what I'm

getting at Kate is that if you told

Peter you'd have known what he felt one

way or the other

yes but my mother is a very shrewd woman

you know I'm a bit simple-minded I'm not

saying your mother's opinion of Peter

was wrong but it was an opinion and you

knew him and she didn't but yet you took

your lead from her I'm sorry I just I

just can't go on so you asked to go back

into hospital

what did you see

yesterday evening I went for wolf

when this thing happens it has happened

before

I think a nuclear war or something I

want to scream again

the air goes like gosh

I don't screen because I know if I do

the whole world suddenly break up into

bits it's all over in a few seconds

without dannion they're shaking I just

want to cling to somebody

there's nobody there

I can't know long that's a perfectly

sane and viable idea because it

expresses something did you feel yeah

doesn't fall into pieces if I scream so

to have these sort of feelings I thought

it means I'm abnormal

don't you see that I can't expect people

to accept me in it any other way

please leave me alone you feel them you

feel Kate that how can I put it that

you're not entitled to be yourself is

that it if I am myself it leads me

straight back into the hospital don't

you see that I see when it was decided

that Kate should go back into hospital

it wasn't possible for me to continue my

research into the causes of her and

Happiness okay you want me in here don't

you

it's unit wants to be in here isn't it

how didn't you say so how do you be safe

look after that's what I said well yeah

but I didn't know that safe to be in the

hospital I could pass through this you

know doesn't really do look peculiar I

do back from day I've never seen before

what do you send them many times before

dad

you know very well no it is it's your

mother maybe she ate a bottom spinning

ugly I think it's really ugly fans

another self or no Oksana and it did

more you want you've only got two Alison

put it down that okay I said I'll carry

it dad mom what you would spin are you

yes just these on the glass of water

just want to go to sleep what wait what

are they oh just something to make you

sleep

doesn't say what they are well lovely

but one of them long chemical names I

wondered Oh what is it generic of course

I know it what is it well it's not your

concern

really I mean whose concern is it then

Oh Zoe what's a very pretty one isn't it

it's in my bag funny how you've grown up

young girls you must have your dolls

must you didn't bring it I said it was

in my bag something to cuddle while the

sleeping man comes talking that silly

way for no we mustn't be rude

last week you come back to us for a

little while then Kate I hate a lot of

unity

you know I'm putting it on nothing

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nothing going out with people

nobody's saying anything about that it's

what you do when you go out you know

you've grown into a loose girl I know

what you do when you go out I know what

you will all do but don't come to me

when you've got something inside I mean

your sex wrong or something no it's

right and proper in its proper place and

where's that mother in knowledge that's

where in marriage find a man and get

marriage I haven't been with anybody

what more do you want

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resistant quiet dr. Garfield will see

you on the wall tomorrow I've had

hundreds of men you know hundreds I've

had some very well-known people you know

I'm Susan Bryan had to watch you know

she's at home she's wicked I can't see

what she's up to can't you I think you

can't read it I think if you look right

inside you can't see what she's doing

Caillou you're gonna have me if you want

to you know you can it doesn't matter

you see it doesn't make any difference

because what you can't really have me

can you because well I don't exist

though you can't talk to me you can't

really have me you know what I mean

you can even kill her if you want to I

like that I mean that way you see if you

kill her that will leave me you won't it

all that is of course if you if you want

me to exist yes we want to exist Kate

you know I don't know what it is doing

yes you're learning to take your place

in the world isn't it make relationships

marry have children have a house of your

own friends these are the things you

want Kate we know what you want we know

what's best for you and we're here to

help you

sounds very fine to me does now it's

bound to make sure you find yourself I

think I'm not then you are ill

you know when I was talking just now it

was like well I explained it was like

somebody else was talking out of my

mouth what I mean

I'm outside somewhere a long way off

sort of standing there hypnotized

listening I can't do anything I know I

know and you're going to get better

the trouble is when I get better I think

of your words

somewhere far away for him an empty

place maybe one of those long beaches by

the sea there are no people she walks

down the beach she walks down the beach

what am i buying from the outside what

am I really like because inside there's

nothing

cutting this edge it was gonna have a

cigarette

come on no wish I didn't

oh go on then I try one thing are you in

here

yeah maybe at home stop this motion

all right over just did it made my

mother's knees and made her eyes water

I expect your cut in your own room there

the bedroom honest I don't

I don't think I like it very much yeah

let me nip you that don't throw it away

you in here as well then yeah I came in

an iron core they brought me in a [ __ ]

I'm better now

got rid of it all manage to cut it all

out

oh you got to have discipline ever chips

letting your thoughts run away with you

like that I think they put in here they

bring you back to things well making a

go of it you got a plant there way sway

you gotta keep out of trouble eminent

and always been in it yeah yeah picks me

up one night doing a job

the uppers go away I was standing there

crying me crying cry me bleed knives out

what for

there's nothing o few years like that

things like that well I went straight

then I starts going off the nut ends up

in here

I bet the electric shock treatment you

have you know there's nothing to don't

even know it's happening

bit dazed after what the old memory goes

off a bit but they know what they're up

to in here know the outside knows before

you got to get rid of all that nonsense

everything so that's it I'm better now

and I'm a bouncer awful when I first

came in it's not being a kid again

stop being back home with a old bastard

that's missing the point in it they know

you're not a kid if you can show fit in

that you're a dolt which you are if you

can show them that they're on your side

if you rough it up though it's a way

with a few of the old privileges I've

seen in the army you let men get bulky

and bolshy they are and then within in

the Glass House none of that nonsense

here they give you your chance when it's

up to you ya know it's up to me no stop

I'm saying make some a little bit

nervous

we're their responsibility it's not I'm

just asking a business is it courses

yeah we're in here aren't we

we're in their charge lots of them

you're me supposing we wear a track

ticket for shorter just shoot us with me

you mean Lots do with why we're in here

you're an impersonal I'm right otherwise

it wouldn't be in here yes try it from

their point of view you're not fit to be

carrying or not when he was outside

no one's fit to know themselves either

discharged carry on when I was outside

yeah I can see you looking you you're

out and see you like it darling

I just asked you to go for a walk that

was all I'm not promiscuous it nothing

wrong with I seem to go for a while you

come along the more about the same time

have a nice cup of tea for you what do

you want we want a then what do you want

oh yes yes yes I know he told me oh you

two struck up quite a little friendship

do well no not really

not all that keen on aleena good because

well it's not quite the right thing to

be doing me now isn't it you know it

didn't just let my mother what I think

that's something I need to be ashamed of

they're coming to see you uncle come on

yes yes that's right and I don't want

you taking advantage of I know what I'm

doing you know oh I can take care of

myself of course you can but for the

time being I mean I'm a misbehaving or

something

well self-will more than that I see is

that is that what it is you see Kate in

hospitals well would you Paul I don't

think it's quite suitable I've heard

that too not that it means anything

serious but I've heard that your little

walks upset Paul do you follow what I

mean Kate no I'm sorry I don't

well he's not been so good since well

you know since you got penny by what if

I don't mean you haven't done anything

my thing is you it's just well you must

be ambitious I've made him home run

again or something but of course not you

silly girl forgotten ID and your head no

no it's just that he might be you

haven't done anything it's just these

walks and talk that that's what sit in

my little when he is going out of here

you see tell me have I been worse

nothing been too well lately dear you've

been very good and taking your pills but

well we do have to be a little careful

I'm not feeling too good but I don't

feel too bad I mean at the moment I feel

quite bad too bad do you think you're no

better than the doctors and the rest of

us no of course not how it was to be in

bed whether we can to create such a bump

it can be have a great giving it once

was all that then at the chair now we're

going to give you something to let you

have a nice sleep there

hmm you'll feel much better when you've

had a nice rest Katie I don't know what

to make it a big Katie and I really

don't you know that nurse no she was

really put out and I don't blame her but

anyway there yeah

now look Kate you know have you been

right all these years out of wait I

don't know I don't know she doesn't know

it's in the stuck for the chair now look

you said you knew what you were doing at

the time it isn't as though you were

just for a minute now is it I wasn't

attacking anybody and then there's this

boo boo what's going on there nothing

thing it's nothing that ends up with you

going with your admitted picking up the

Jen nobody's lying you know I think

really think that you get things twisted

they're all jumbled up in your melon

afterwards but giving trouble to all

these people

you see cated about your particular like

this it's you anything you do is you

like to go your own way what he told

your father and your mother they want to

suffer the consequences for it you know

I already dad about nurse in the face

well not get you in at you know if you

go on like this let me see a nurse at

all they are trying to help you well

they'll keep you in here forever

sometimes thank you thing if I cooperate

with them I mean that's well that's how

I'll end up in here forever

no she's always dominating me she's

always getting at me

we're trying to put me down darling is

it wrong to give you a bit of advice and

guidance

no why should she do that Dana you see

they're put here is it the Train Katie

you see that love it they train them in

does doctors here they've spent years

now the thing with you is I mean you

know having your trouble the way to look

at it is though it's just an ordinary

physical disease in the body do you see

now

I mean any other way of saying it's a

hope fashion and all these old-fashioned

ideas now that all going out with well

today you see with

books television programs and there

isn't that stigma is the mother with it

really

the nice thing about it it's um it's

just as though you've got a broken out

well that's why bird said anyway nothing

to be ashamed of I'm not a shame no I

didn't say that you were no but if you

were well if you'd be quiet

understandable but with the ignorance is

about these days people who just don't

want to know anything about it or

couldn't care less or can't face up to

things you know that sort of mentality

well now if on the other hand you get

the nurses who've been trained who can

look at you from the outside who can see

you as you can't see yourself

well that disease what they call but

professional and for you to talk about

them persecuting you ever I hope you

didn't actually say that to her face did

you because if you did look I mean she

loaded against you watching dad will you

just well you just asked her did you try

and stop me

yes alright God she doing up what would

happen if they have this on their hands

Debra Thurston do you not see it

did you love you of course rub have you

ever denied that have we ever tried to

take it away from you no just don't

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you're all right you're going to be

quite all right it could only give it

time

I think you had a good night didn't you

yes thanks yes such nice people your

parent I think we were a bit naughty

with them weren't we after they'd come

all this way to see you and then to go

making your mother will you remember

don't you

it's simply a matter of not losing our

temper isn't it isn't the way I'd gone

you see not at all I have to call it

madness

I have to say there's this matter of sex

you have to be careful and obtained

immense respect you give them what they

want and there's no respect I'm no

picture you know better than a

prostitute and one thing leads to

another

now you can't say but what you've

learned nothing that's good and right

for me and your father that's what

you've got to go back I hardly recognize

you sometimes you're a disappointment

and this with men it's dirty its filthy

and until you learn some self-control I

love you I have since you were little

and I've tried I think I can say that

I've been a good father and what have

you done you've pushed it all back in my

face because yourself will you're moving

in lane I mean she's a good woman and I

can't stand to see the effect oh boy you

know

what you do to her undermining their

else I'm ashamed of you I just can't put

my mind to just think about it well you

do know how you're behaving if she has a

breakdown anything it'll be on your

conscience McGee we're not in this world

to do we're alive and I don't get out

free uck you'll find that freedom

doesn't come from self-indulgence but

it's doing what is right and what you

owe people your tongue live as if you're

the only one breathing but can you go so

what we're trying to do in this house

it's to help you to help yourself that's

what we're here for

I don't want to push you about told

regimen should give you orders nobody

had to make it to anything you don't

want to gain you do me like that

everything has its purpose and I think

we know what that purpose is in the end

it's for you to walk out through those

gates and never come back

good morning chase no Kate you're not

very well

haven't

yeah well

I'll let you can

anything

boning

I can good morning listen good morning

well there you are you see in many way

to prepare a typical for his history

having a sociable to their late teens in

our various jobs for a while

reputation for inefficiency that can

burn goodness ultimania dating from the

people's can working with to the nation

that they were somehow puffing against

their or dislike Colonel try to make a

fool of her and she's I don't work for a

tie with the parents there to some

improvements from all accounts she

became childish intractable the mothers

is the big that this was one of the case

well eventually she went again there's

an unfortunate series of affairs

culminating in a pregnancy which was

terminated at 11 weeks the caseloads

here include fault blocking over

inclusion emotional apathy automatic

beatings she was in seclusion for time

and gained a reputation for smashing

delusions of persecution for example

that her mother was killing her and

killed her child but she was under the

control of some all-powerful cosmic

machine the family history is negative

and there's no detectable relationship

between her various symptoms and their

environment what is the posture the

occasional grimace is the tendency to

mumble things to herself well I think

the clinical pictures are there to care

one and the present state of the pain

now this is probably according

schizophrenia yes not treatment for

drugs what blog actual the three times a

day orally yes any other treatment

suggested oh I think you see - yes can

you tell me if that trick shot the

treatment does any more than simply

shake the patient up a patient

completely anesthetized C feels nothing

afterwards some temporary loss of memory

now something between the teeth that's

to stop dislocation of the jaw

notice how the electrodes are placed

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course we don't know how it works all we

know is that it does work quite

remarkably you know how this treatment

originated yes yes it was pigs more or

less an accident really Naples I think

oh my god if we waited until we found

out why these things work we'd be

waiting a long time

do you think so ultimately this girl may

have to have a brain operation in this

condition do you think the fact that she

was associating with friends but her

parents regarded as undesirable has any

bearing on disease what advice would you

give about her employment

do you feel she could be a danger to the

public

hospital treatment failed would you say

at the moment the outlook is not very

good do I understand that you don't

think her family background played any

part in her illness at all what in fact

do you know about this family besides

the one or two interviews with the

mother due respect sir you seem to be

studiously avoiding any environmental

factors the suitor had one of them

brought up and strain relationships with

her mother associating with undesirable

friends a sister leaving home so you

seem to be a studiously avoiding this

I'm saying that the disease is something

almost by itself to me both before as a

cause of her and after as a means of

treatment one's gotta take into account