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You're onstage,
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and you don't know the script,
or you don't know what you're doin'.
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"You don't deserve it."
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"You can't do it."
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You know, constantly havin' to deliver,
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it just makes you feel queasy.
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You just wanna run away sometimes.
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I'm in a situation
that's completely unreal.
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It came true for me
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onstage in Leeds.
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People are just waitin' for me to fuck up.
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Yesterday, with Leeds,
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I had to experience an awful lot.
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I feel as though I'm wearing it today.
It was a prolonged car crash.
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As the days have progressed,
doing this process, it seems that I've...
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I've been on...
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The dark night of the soul
turned into a long weekend.
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{\an8}Hello.
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{\an8}Very gonzo, this.
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{\an8}This filming.
Not a fuckin' clue what I'm doing.
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{\an8}Um...
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{\an8}But that's my life.
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I've already done an hour's blog
on this camera in this room,
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but we didn't turn the mic on.
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It would be good
for people that can lipread.
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I can't remember this.
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- At all?
- No.
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- What... What year is it?
- So this is 2007.
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2007.
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I can't remember
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anythin' about this.
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It's... It's an instantly
uncomfortable watch for some reason
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'cause I'm getting
some sort of energy from me that's...
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All is not well.
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This video blog has turned into somethin'
different than I thought it was gonna be.
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♪ Don't tell anyone I'm Jesus ♪
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♪ All men are fools ♪
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- ♪ And what makes them fools... ♪
- I remember that now.
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I started to write a song today,
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and it's called,
"Don't Tell Anybody I'm Jesus."
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It's a bit like "Mack The Knife" but, um...
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sacrilegious.
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I'm off the wagon.
That's where I am.
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{\an8}Change the battery pack.
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Addicted
to, um, prescribed speed...
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Is it not plugged in?
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...OxyContin, Adderall,
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Vicodins, morphine.
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You know, the greatest hits.
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{\an8}Fuckin' 'ell. Dunno if you can see
the shiner I've got on my eye.
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{\an8}I had an altercation with, uh,
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{\an8}the bathroom floor.
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{\an8}Slipped
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{\an8}and took out the lighting... buttons.
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{\an8}What they called? Lighting buttons?
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Light switches.
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In the middle of the night,
I got up to go to the toilet,
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and my legs weren't working
because I'd just taken a load of stuff.
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I literally couldn't figure out
how to use my legs,
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but I needed to go the toilet,
and I collapsed and fell into the wall.
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I've also decided that
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I'm not fit for purpose
when it comes to relationships.
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I'd be with somebody
but then see somebody else and think,
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"Oh. Want that one."
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I'm a want monster, I...
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I need... everything.
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Concerning who I sleep with,
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it's as old as time,
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the rock star
sleeping with the groupie or the fan.
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You know, I'm not the first,
and I won't be the last.
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A friend of mine
suggested that I have a date
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with this person
that was a good friend of his,
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and, uh, I looked her up
and was like, "Oh yeah!"
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Please welcome the lovely Ayda Field.
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- Well, hello.
- Yeah.
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Hello!
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I was actually
in a really good place, I think,
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when I met Rob.
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I had this dinner party I was going to.
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I was like, "Do you wanna go
to the dinner party with me?"
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He's like, "I'd rather
stick knives in my eyes."
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I was like,
"Okay, that's a strong response."
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He's like, "Let's meet up afterwards,"
and I was like, "Okay."
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♪ My love must be a kind of blind love... ♪
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She came over to my house
after being at a party.
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I'd just seen off my dealer,
that I was sleeping with at the time.
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The house
is completely fuckin' dark.
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No candles. No lights.
I'm like, "Ooh, this is weird."
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So we're just sitting there talking.
We have nothing in common.
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And I was like,
"Oh, this is not working out."
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"I'd better take her back
to the party she's just come from."
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♪ Are the stars out tonight? ♪
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Unbeknownst to me, Rob is actually
gonna ditch me at this party.
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I guess we start... Maybe 'cause
we'd both surrendered to the fact
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that we were not each other's person,
and this was a total mess,
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we were completely loose with each other.
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We were saying funny shit in the car,
and I was like, "Oh, he's funny."
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And I was like,
"Oh. I'll come in for five minutes."
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And there was just this moment
we were laughing,
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and I cannot even tell you what happened.
It was like the universe opened up.
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And I had this moment
where I felt I'd known her forever.
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I guess I chose to ignore it.
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All of a sudden, Rob's like,
"I need to go to the bathroom."
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I'm, like, waiting.
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I'm like, "God.
Is he, like, taking a dump?"
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Um...
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I then did some coke.
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I got this tic. It was like...
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So I'm like, "I'm gonna get out
and see what's happened."
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There he is, pacing.
He's thrown up, and he's clucking.
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I was like, "Ah, we gotta go."
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She ended up comin' home
and nursing me.
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Then we just talked all night.
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I think he explained
that he'd been sober for a very long time.
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He had just relapsed.
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It was like my entryway into addiction.
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I shall try and remember
what it was that I was sayin'.
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{\an8}You wouldn't notice
his personality change,
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but all of a sudden,
he would just throw up, like, watching TV.
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"Robbie Williams is music
for people who don't feel."
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I didn't know this... this area
where someone could be doing drugs
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and have a problem
and it be, like, deadly.
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{\an8}"Robbie's a showbiz chancer." Yeah, I am.
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The meanness, nasty, vitriolic bollocks,
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that "Robbie Williams is a shit joke."
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I remember that being very scary
'cause all of a sudden, I was, like...
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I was really... liking this person a lot.
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Do I hate music, then?
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Is that what I do?
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{\an8}"To me, Robbie Williams
is a crime against music."
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{\an8}"What don't I love about music?"
"You have so much rage."
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{\an8}Fuckin' hate...
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Do you really think God is more proud
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of Bobby Gillespie
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or Gareth Gates?
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{\an8}...wants to set me on fire.
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{\an8}Somebody to hate.
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{\an8}Here was
this incredibly troubled soul
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{\an8}who was, like,
a rock star in some other country
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{\an8}and clearly fucked up about it
and a complete mess
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and yet so
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my person. Like, my fucking soulmate.
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...didn't know who the fuck I was.
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Yeah, I mean, that, um...
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that stare there doesn't look like mine.
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I did have a sense
of what I was doin' to myself.
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And I didn't care.
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And... And there is a... a sense of
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"It would be best if I sorta passed away."
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Um...
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I didn't care, and it'd be all right.
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That's where your addiction takes you.
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That's where it ends up.
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The natural progression
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of "Let's see how far we can take this."
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"Robbie Williams is music
for people who don't feel."
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The thing
that would destroy me
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has also made me successful.
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Big. More.
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Touch the fire. Touch the button.
Push when it says "pull."
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All of those things
have given me my career,
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but there's also
a detrimental side to it too.
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Depends which wolf you feed.
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For me to change, I've gotta be dyin'.
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Die or stop what you're doin'.
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I remember it was, like, 2 a.m.
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I called him.
I was just getting on the highway.
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"Are you driving?"
"Just got on the highway."
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He was like, "Call me when you get home."
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I tell her,
"Look, my management have come,
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and they've done an intervention,
and they're gonna take me to rehab."
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And he is like,
"I can't be in a relationship."
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"I have to get better,
and I can't be with you."
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"I have to break up with you."
I was just like...
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And it was, like, I un...
I understood it 'cause I was like...
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I saw that he was unwell,
and I... I remember thinking,
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"I just want you to get better.
Whatever you need to do,"
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and I was just so crestfallen.
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He was my soulmate, and then he was gone.
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Robbie Williams is waking up
in rehab this morning
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on his 33rd birthday.
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You can't miss
the front pages this morning.
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Full of the tragedy
that seems to follow in the wake
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of Robbie Williams
and his turbulent lifestyle.
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It's claimed today
that he's gone into rehab
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to avoid doing himself some harm.
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After admitting to being hooked
on a cocktail of prescription drugs,
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he needed to check into rehab
before, in Robbie's words,
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he did "something silly."
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Rehab.
It's not a country club.
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It's a hospital.
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Some people can envision rehab
as being like, um,
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a health retreat.
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It's not that.
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Surrounded by
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other people that are completely depressed
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and, um, have just fucked up their lives.
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Understanding the nature
of what and who you are.
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An addict.
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Rehab cut the circuit on the addiction.
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It gave me a moment to recalibrate
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and see if I can live.
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My professional career
had become that big,
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the only thing
that I could do for self-preservation
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was to take myself out of it.
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If you don't start the process,
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then the process seldom finds you.
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At this period
in my life, I know I'm retired.
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Taking down the dam.
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Tryin' to undo all pop-starry apparel.
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Me and Ayda got back together again.
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I remember we went to Morocco,
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Egypt.
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I thought, "Better go and see these places
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that I've been to for work
and never seen."
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I remember me mate, Calvin,
takin' a picture of Ayda.
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She was dancin' on somethin'.
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I just remember
lookin' at the picture and just goin',
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"What a life force."
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"What a spirit."
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But I remember that photo. It's...
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It's burned into my mind.
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There was a cementing of a relationship
between me and my future wife.
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But, um...
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if you'd have asked me
what I was doing during that,
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I wouldn't have known that.
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There became enough space
between me and my career...
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...to fall in love.
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- Okay.
- Do her.
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- I'll just do... I'll do Sarah.
- Do Sarah.
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I'll do Sarah.
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I've lost 17 inches in my face.
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Three in my dimples alone.
All while eating cheesecake.
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- Very good.
- Love creamy foods.
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Really creamy foods.
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That is unbelievable.
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- Isn't it?
- I know, isn't it weird?
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Change to normal face...
So, high five!
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- Change back.
- "Change back"!
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- That is...
- It's a new game. Change!
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I've no idea
how I developed this talent.
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Do you think it's because
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you can fit more marshmallows
in your mouth?
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Yeah, I mean, what a package, man.
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Silly and, uh,
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doesn't take herself seriously
and smart and beautiful.
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Makes me feel great,
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you know?
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When you look there, it's obvious that
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something really special's happenin'.
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It's really cool.
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- You know why he doesn't like it?
- Why?
253
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- He has to win at everything.
- He did it when he was watching.
254
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- Yeah, he was like...
- Try and do it.
255
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- You do it and watch Rob.
- Come on, Boozy, you can do it.
256
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She sees the best in me,
and I see the best in her.
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Fuck you.
258
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- You know how I like to eat a lot?
- Yeah.
259
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That's the face of the future.
260
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- Yeah, you've seen mine, so that's okay.
- Aw.
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So I don't do anything
for three years.
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The powers had gone. The mojo had gone.
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I... I had a big realization
that I needed purpose.
264
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That I needed to be creative
and have a voice.
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This is Robbie Williams.
This is what I do for a livin'.
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Right here.
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I'm a singer, I'm a songwriter,
and I'm a born entertainer.
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Thank God for Ayda.
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Solace and safety and sanctuary and...
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all of the good things.
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She gave me enough space
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for it to be a possibility.
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You're so pretty, aren't you?
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Yes, you are!
You doing your little sashay for us?
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Are we in the right house? Think we are.
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Ah, pretty girl.
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- What you calling the new album?
- Reality Killed the Video Star.
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Or Il Protagonista.
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Or PoliteBox
'cause the last one was RudeBox.
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Ding When You're Ding-Dong Dingin'.
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Uh...
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Or... What were the good ones, bab?
283
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Oh yeah. Robbie Williams
and the Cock of Justice. I love that.
284
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It was gonna take a while,
285
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but Reality Killed the Video Star
was a tentative step back
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into public life.
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After the RudeBox album,
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I head into very safe musical waters.
289
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♪ How do you rate the morning sun? ♪
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♪ Good morning Mr. McCarrower ♪
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♪ We'll love the same old Jesus again ♪
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♪ Stoke the flames lit by the fuse... ♪
293
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I have to collect myself
and... and... and...
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put some real thought
behind this fuckin' thing.
295
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Or else my career's gonna fall to shit.
296
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♪ I always wanted more from life ♪
297
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♪ But you didn't have the appetite ♪
298
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"Find a hit, fatty."
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♪ Tell me how do you
Raise the morning sun? ♪
300
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{\an8}Trevor had made
a lot of albums that I love,
301
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{\an8}and everybody that I work with and me
knew that we were just in safe hands.
302
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- Hey, it's not bad.
- It's not bad.
303
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- It's not bad, yeah.
- Yeah.
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I don't think I've ever been
this much unsure of myself, comin' back.
305
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Returning to the scene of the accident.
306
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Press release was in, uh...
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has gone out sayin' the new album's called
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Reality Killed the Video Star.
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And, uh...
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it's number two in the BBC News most read,
311
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so that's cool.
312
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Uh...
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And apparently, the, uh,
314
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website statistics
have gone through the roof.
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I'm very 'appy. Very 'appy.
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Uh, day two. "Bodies."
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We had three years
of our relationship with Rob
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before I was really introduced to Robbie.
319
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Robbie is like
a completely different person.
320
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I was excited for him,
but I was a little worried
321
00:22:55,720 --> 00:22:59,960
because I don't know what it's like
to have 80,000 people looking at you
322
00:23:00,040 --> 00:23:03,120
on a nightly basis
and what that does to your psychology.
323
00:23:04,240 --> 00:23:07,520
I've gotta
get back on this wild horse
324
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that keeps buckin' me off.
325
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Yeah, it's weird. I've not done any
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singin' and dancin' for three years.
327
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Last time, this wild horse
did the equivalent of breakin' my neck.
328
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What's it gonna do this time?
329
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{\an8}Now he's back,
and boy, is he back.
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He is one of the greatest entertainers
this country's ever known. We love him.
331
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This is Mr. Robbie Williams.
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When I came back in 2009,
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I did a performance
of "Bodies" on The X Factor
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and just completely had a freak-out.
335
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♪ God gave me the sunshine ♪
336
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♪ Then showed me my lifeline ♪
337
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♪ I was told it was all mine ♪
338
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♪ I got laid on the ley line ♪
339
00:23:55,320 --> 00:23:57,240
♪ What a day, what a day ♪
340
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♪ And then Jesus really died for me ♪
341
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How you doin'?
342
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- Robbie didn't come.
- ♪ Jesus really tried for me... ♪
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And the everyday Rob
was there instead.
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♪ Wanna feed off the energy ♪
345
00:24:11,120 --> 00:24:13,040
♪ I love living like a deity ♪
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♪ One a day, one day ♪
347
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♪ And then Jesus really died for me ♪
348
00:24:17,640 --> 00:24:19,880
What a pleasure. What a pleasure.
349
00:24:20,480 --> 00:24:23,280
♪ Jesus really tried for me... ♪
350
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I just couldn't
latch onto anythin'
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00:24:25,760 --> 00:24:28,360
to make it make sense
while I was performin'.
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{\an8}Everything felt
completely unnatural and scary.
353
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♪ Oh ♪
354
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It's just everythin' was
so overwhelming, and I couldn't hide it.
355
00:24:41,480 --> 00:24:42,800
I loved it. I loved it.
356
00:24:42,880 --> 00:24:45,800
Great audience.
What a fantastic audience. Thank you!
357
00:24:45,880 --> 00:24:48,016
The whole thing
that happened in Leeds
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had a... a lasting effect
that had damaged me psychologically.
359
00:24:57,520 --> 00:24:58,560
I'm just unsure
360
00:24:58,640 --> 00:25:01,200
of everythin', everybody, and everything.
361
00:25:01,720 --> 00:25:02,760
Apart from Ayda.
362
00:25:05,720 --> 00:25:07,920
I'm so uncomfortable in my skin 'ere.
363
00:25:12,680 --> 00:25:14,520
The door's always open
for Rob.
364
00:25:16,720 --> 00:25:19,360
If ever he's bored one day,
and we're on the road,
365
00:25:19,440 --> 00:25:21,520
and he's sat at home,
and he wants to come up and,
366
00:25:21,600 --> 00:25:23,040
you know, sing a song,
367
00:25:23,120 --> 00:25:27,400
he's more than welcome to do that.
We'll 'ave a spare mic ready for 'im.
368
00:25:28,200 --> 00:25:31,440
One of Britain's
biggest boy bands, Take That, split up.
369
00:25:31,520 --> 00:25:35,560
But, a decade on, they're back together,
albeit without Robbie Williams,
370
00:25:35,640 --> 00:25:37,760
and they're back at the top of the charts.
371
00:25:37,840 --> 00:25:40,200
I watched
the Circus tour.
372
00:25:40,280 --> 00:25:42,360
It's one of the best shows I'd ever seen.
373
00:25:43,040 --> 00:25:44,040
And I got
374
00:25:45,000 --> 00:25:46,880
incredibly excited by it.
375
00:25:49,080 --> 00:25:51,520
And then a door opened where I was like...
376
00:25:53,560 --> 00:25:54,600
"Cor, I wanna...
377
00:25:56,000 --> 00:25:57,400
wanna experience that."
378
00:26:10,760 --> 00:26:13,520
There's a reason
why I left Take That so angry.
379
00:26:13,600 --> 00:26:16,960
I want you to know
that I probably will be a bit quiet.
380
00:26:17,040 --> 00:26:21,480
I'm just a bit nervous and a bit scared,
and I have been for a few days, you know,
381
00:26:21,560 --> 00:26:22,760
and I wanna, um...
382
00:26:22,840 --> 00:26:25,640
It's gonna take a while though, mate.
It's took us four years.
383
00:26:25,720 --> 00:26:29,000
Shoulda seen us lot
when we got back together after that time.
384
00:26:29,080 --> 00:26:31,600
Took us a long time to get to know
each other again, didn't it?
385
00:26:32,600 --> 00:26:34,840
My anger
has dissipated and gone now,
386
00:26:34,920 --> 00:26:37,720
and all that's left
is the four lads in a room,
387
00:26:37,800 --> 00:26:41,680
and I realized very quickly
that they love me, and I love them.
388
00:26:41,760 --> 00:26:44,400
To me, it seems like
just a beautiful moment
389
00:26:44,480 --> 00:26:46,880
for us to be intro-ing you,
saying hi to you.
390
00:26:46,960 --> 00:26:49,040
"Here's our friend, Robbie." Off you go.
391
00:26:49,120 --> 00:26:51,840
I remember
havin' a meetin' with my management,
392
00:26:51,920 --> 00:26:54,640
Dave and Tim, at the time,
and they got these flip charts out.
393
00:26:54,720 --> 00:26:57,040
They were just, like, "Right, okay."
394
00:26:57,120 --> 00:26:59,840
"So, if you went on tour
by yourself,
395
00:26:59,920 --> 00:27:01,360
this is what you would make."
396
00:27:01,440 --> 00:27:04,360
It was just, like,
unbelievable amounts of money.
397
00:27:05,920 --> 00:27:09,480
"And if you work
with Take That, you get this."
398
00:27:10,320 --> 00:27:11,840
And I was like,
399
00:27:12,360 --> 00:27:15,960
"Lads, I'm still gonna
be joinin' Take That."
400
00:27:19,000 --> 00:27:19,840
"Okay."
401
00:27:23,000 --> 00:27:25,120
♪ Standing ♪
402
00:27:25,840 --> 00:27:29,640
♪ On the edge of forever ♪
403
00:27:30,800 --> 00:27:34,160
♪ At the start of whatever ♪
404
00:27:35,520 --> 00:27:39,680
♪ Shouting love at the world... ♪
405
00:27:39,760 --> 00:27:41,640
When I'm in Take That,
406
00:27:41,720 --> 00:27:47,920
there's four other bodies next to you
displacing the responsibility of
407
00:27:48,640 --> 00:27:49,720
the eyes on you.
408
00:27:50,640 --> 00:27:53,480
♪ Although no-one understood ♪
409
00:27:53,560 --> 00:27:55,920
♪ We were holding back the flood ♪
410
00:27:56,000 --> 00:27:59,240
♪ Yeah, we danced against the rain ♪
411
00:28:00,360 --> 00:28:02,680
♪ We were holding back the flood ♪
412
00:28:02,760 --> 00:28:07,720
♪ They said we'd never dance again ♪
413
00:28:10,200 --> 00:28:12,160
♪ We will meet you ♪
414
00:28:12,240 --> 00:28:14,520
♪ Where the lights are ♪
415
00:28:14,600 --> 00:28:19,080
♪ The defenders of the faith we are ♪
416
00:28:19,160 --> 00:28:21,240
♪ When the thunder turns around ♪
417
00:28:21,320 --> 00:28:27,080
♪ They'll run so hard
We'll tear the ground away... ♪
418
00:28:27,160 --> 00:28:30,160
Rejoining Take That
really helped me.
419
00:28:30,240 --> 00:28:31,720
Propelled me back in.
420
00:28:31,800 --> 00:28:35,360
Helped me to hide in public,
to be camouflaged but seen.
421
00:28:35,440 --> 00:28:37,440
♪ Yeah ♪
422
00:28:38,240 --> 00:28:43,960
♪ Yeah ♪
423
00:28:44,840 --> 00:28:47,680
Great Britain was ours
for that summer.
424
00:28:47,760 --> 00:28:50,480
♪ Although no-one understood ♪
425
00:28:50,560 --> 00:28:53,120
♪ There was more of them than us ♪
426
00:28:53,200 --> 00:28:56,920
♪ Learning how to dance the rain ♪
427
00:28:57,520 --> 00:29:00,240
♪ There was more of them than us ♪
428
00:29:00,320 --> 00:29:04,800
♪ Now they'll never dance again... ♪
429
00:29:05,720 --> 00:29:07,920
I felt
like pop star Robbie Williams.
430
00:29:08,560 --> 00:29:10,480
And rejoining Take That
431
00:29:10,560 --> 00:29:14,360
was a vitally important part of my journey
432
00:29:15,040 --> 00:29:16,520
to where I am now.
433
00:29:18,920 --> 00:29:22,840
Where I've gotten to and what's happened
to my career since then...
434
00:29:24,880 --> 00:29:26,240
is a miracle.
435
00:29:27,320 --> 00:29:29,960
The thing that's made me
feel safe a lot of the time,
436
00:29:30,040 --> 00:29:33,960
is no matter about the slings and arrows
or how I feel about myself in my head,
437
00:29:34,040 --> 00:29:37,320
there's this incredible audience
that comes and sees me.
438
00:29:40,120 --> 00:29:43,320
My audience has protected me
through the years.
439
00:29:45,240 --> 00:29:48,000
It's funny as I get older,
if somebody says,
440
00:29:48,080 --> 00:29:51,480
"I've been to a show
and really enjoyed it," I almost cry.
441
00:29:52,600 --> 00:29:54,320
W... We did that together.
442
00:30:00,080 --> 00:30:04,320
We understood each other,
and we created a moment together
443
00:30:04,400 --> 00:30:08,160
that will remain
etched in our souls and our spirit.
444
00:30:08,760 --> 00:30:14,080
And I'm... I'm ever so grateful
that we get to share that experience.
445
00:30:27,720 --> 00:30:29,520
How has this process been for you?
446
00:30:30,160 --> 00:30:31,960
It's a tough watch.
447
00:30:32,760 --> 00:30:34,800
But I feel good because...
448
00:30:37,000 --> 00:30:40,720
there was a lot of levity
and a lot of humor and a lot of silliness.
449
00:30:41,240 --> 00:30:42,920
There was a softness...
450
00:30:45,440 --> 00:30:48,160
in this footage
that I wasn't expectin' to see.
451
00:30:52,960 --> 00:30:54,480
It is cathartic.
452
00:30:54,560 --> 00:30:56,840
I will walk out of here
453
00:30:58,720 --> 00:31:02,120
less heavy, emotionally,
than I was before.
454
00:31:03,120 --> 00:31:05,400
I can stick a pin in this now and move on.
455
00:31:07,880 --> 00:31:09,880
♪ So many tears ♪
456
00:31:13,120 --> 00:31:15,920
♪ I've cried over you... ♪
457
00:31:20,000 --> 00:31:22,640
I have, uh...
some acceptance and love for me.
458
00:31:24,280 --> 00:31:26,600
That... That feels huge, man.
459
00:31:26,680 --> 00:31:29,240
Yeah, that does feel... that does feel big.
460
00:31:29,320 --> 00:31:33,480
That's not what I was expecting
to feel at the end of this.
461
00:31:33,560 --> 00:31:35,560
♪ And I bite my tongue ♪
462
00:31:38,960 --> 00:31:44,440
♪ Even though it causes the pain... ♪
463
00:31:45,000 --> 00:31:46,720
I'm a different person now.
464
00:31:46,800 --> 00:31:48,240
♪...inside me ♪
465
00:31:49,040 --> 00:31:50,240
Thank the Lord.
466
00:31:52,920 --> 00:31:54,360
There is a happy endin'.
467
00:31:54,880 --> 00:31:56,160
For me, anyway.
468
00:31:56,240 --> 00:31:58,480
♪ Running across the field ♪
469
00:31:59,360 --> 00:32:01,720
♪ Screaming full of joy ♪
470
00:32:01,800 --> 00:32:04,560
♪ Now, baby, I can see ♪
471
00:32:05,080 --> 00:32:07,400
♪ That I'm pretty perfect ♪
472
00:32:08,240 --> 00:32:10,960
♪ And everybody can see... ♪
473
00:32:11,040 --> 00:32:15,040
I guess the god-shaped hole
has been filled with four kids and a wife.
474
00:32:15,120 --> 00:32:20,440
♪ Everybody can see-ee-ee ♪
475
00:32:21,440 --> 00:32:22,560
Good.
476
00:32:22,640 --> 00:32:26,160
♪ Life's pretty perfect to me ♪
477
00:32:26,840 --> 00:32:27,960
Full marks.
478
00:32:56,960 --> 00:32:58,880
- Morning, my love.
- Mornin', darlin'.
479
00:32:58,960 --> 00:33:01,920
- Can I get you anything?
- Uh, no, thank you.
480
00:33:02,000 --> 00:33:03,000
All good.
481
00:33:05,280 --> 00:33:06,640
Okay, I'll put this on.
482
00:33:10,640 --> 00:33:12,840
Daddy's going on a plane,
Beau-beaus.
483
00:33:12,920 --> 00:33:13,760
Why?
484
00:33:13,840 --> 00:33:16,520
- He's gotta go to work.
- I wanna go on plane.
485
00:33:16,600 --> 00:33:19,120
- You wanna go with Daddy to work?
- Yeah.
486
00:33:19,200 --> 00:33:21,640
- Are you gonna sing?
- Yeah.
487
00:33:21,720 --> 00:33:24,120
- What you gonna sing?
- Uh...
488
00:33:24,920 --> 00:33:27,680
♪ Happy birthday to you ♪
489
00:33:27,760 --> 00:33:29,200
Can I have a goodbye cuddle?
490
00:33:29,280 --> 00:33:30,280
Yes.
491
00:33:34,280 --> 00:33:35,760
- I love you.
- Okay.
492
00:33:35,840 --> 00:33:38,040
- Who loves you?
- Uh...
493
00:33:38,120 --> 00:33:39,440
- Mummy.
- Yes!
494
00:33:39,520 --> 00:33:41,280
Who else loves you?
495
00:33:41,360 --> 00:33:42,600
- You!
- Yeah.
496
00:33:44,120 --> 00:33:45,320
Yeah, I do.
497
00:33:45,400 --> 00:33:47,320
We love you so much, Beau-beaus.
498
00:33:47,400 --> 00:33:48,400
Yeah.
499
00:33:51,520 --> 00:33:52,520
Who loves you?
500
00:33:52,960 --> 00:33:54,840
Daddy. Who loves you?
501
00:33:54,920 --> 00:33:56,440
- Mummy.
- Mm-hmm.
502
00:34:00,120 --> 00:34:03,080
I really, like,
have had a knot in my stomach all day.
503
00:34:26,080 --> 00:34:29,440
I'm about to leave
for the longest that I've ever left them.
504
00:34:30,320 --> 00:34:31,320
I hate it.
505
00:34:32,440 --> 00:34:34,120
But it makes me feel happy,
506
00:34:34,200 --> 00:34:37,240
knowing what I can provide
for my kids and my wife.
507
00:34:38,760 --> 00:34:41,320
It gives me purpose, and I need purpose.
508
00:34:41,400 --> 00:34:44,080
Ted, come and give me a cuddle.
Mummy, will you get Charlie?
509
00:34:44,160 --> 00:34:45,160
Charlie!
510
00:34:45,960 --> 00:34:48,160
- Come here, Charlie.
- Oh, there he is.
511
00:34:48,240 --> 00:34:50,400
- Where's Coco?
- I love you, mate.
512
00:34:50,480 --> 00:34:52,680
- Where's Coco?
- I love you, mate.
513
00:34:52,760 --> 00:34:56,960
- Will you get Coco?
- Look at me. I'm really proud of you.
514
00:34:57,040 --> 00:34:58,800
- Do you have to go?
- Yeah.
515
00:35:06,320 --> 00:35:08,600
- I love you, Boozy.
- Love you, guys.
516
00:36:06,760 --> 00:36:08,520
Who knows what's to come?
517
00:36:09,040 --> 00:36:11,480
But now I realize that in this period,
518
00:36:11,560 --> 00:36:14,720
and for the longest period
in my life ever, I suppose,
519
00:36:15,480 --> 00:36:18,360
yeah, this is, um... a golden period.
520
00:36:35,640 --> 00:36:37,440
I live in a different way now.
521
00:36:37,960 --> 00:36:39,800
I live in a different manner.
522
00:36:41,640 --> 00:36:45,720
There is an acceptance to what my life is.
523
00:36:48,240 --> 00:36:51,440
And I don't try
to push against it or fight against it.
524
00:36:52,200 --> 00:36:54,520
And I've figured out how to live in it.
525
00:36:57,920 --> 00:36:58,920
I'm comfortable.
526
00:36:58,960 --> 00:37:02,320
I'm a dad of four
in a lovin' marriage with a lovin' wife.
527
00:37:03,480 --> 00:37:05,760
I'm on my way
to bein' really, really happy.
528
00:37:20,840 --> 00:37:24,280
The miracles that have been
bestowed upon me in this life...
529
00:37:27,560 --> 00:37:28,920
are so bountiful
530
00:37:30,360 --> 00:37:32,040
and so incredible,
531
00:37:34,560 --> 00:37:37,080
there is a need and a want in me
532
00:37:38,520 --> 00:37:42,120
to be able
to figure out how to enjoy this,
533
00:37:42,680 --> 00:37:44,360
by any means necessary.
534
00:37:50,160 --> 00:37:51,440
It's different now.
535
00:37:52,520 --> 00:37:53,720
What a joy.
536
00:37:54,920 --> 00:37:56,480
What a glorious adventure.
537
00:38:19,840 --> 00:38:22,720
♪ Come on, hold my hand ♪
538
00:38:23,920 --> 00:38:27,480
♪ I wanna contact the living ♪
539
00:38:29,320 --> 00:38:32,240
♪ Not sure I understand ♪
540
00:38:34,240 --> 00:38:37,600
♪ This role I've been given ♪
541
00:38:39,280 --> 00:38:41,960
♪ I sit and talk to God ♪
542
00:38:43,640 --> 00:38:47,240
♪ And he just laughs at my plans ♪
543
00:38:48,920 --> 00:38:51,880
♪ My head speaks a language ♪
544
00:38:53,840 --> 00:38:56,560
♪ I don't understand ♪
545
00:38:59,040 --> 00:39:03,200
♪ I just wanna feel real love ♪
546
00:39:03,280 --> 00:39:06,200
♪ Feel the home that I live in ♪
547
00:39:08,680 --> 00:39:10,840
♪ 'Cause I got too much life ♪
548
00:39:11,320 --> 00:39:13,160
♪ Running through my veins ♪
549
00:39:13,680 --> 00:39:16,000
♪ Going to waste ♪
550
00:39:18,640 --> 00:39:20,920
♪ I don't wanna die ♪
551
00:39:22,680 --> 00:39:25,640
♪ But I ain't keen on living either ♪
552
00:39:28,320 --> 00:39:30,720
♪ Before I fall in love ♪
553
00:39:32,720 --> 00:39:36,400
♪ I'm preparing to leave her ♪
554
00:39:38,160 --> 00:39:40,440
♪ I scare myself to death ♪
555
00:39:42,800 --> 00:39:45,640
♪ That's why I keep on running ♪
556
00:39:47,800 --> 00:39:50,400
♪ Before I've arrived ♪
557
00:39:52,320 --> 00:39:55,320
♪ I can see myself coming ♪
558
00:39:57,800 --> 00:40:02,040
♪ I just wanna feel real love ♪
559
00:40:02,120 --> 00:40:05,080
♪ Feel the home that I live in ♪
560
00:40:07,480 --> 00:40:09,600
♪ 'Cause I got too much life ♪
561
00:40:10,120 --> 00:40:11,840
♪ Running through my veins ♪
562
00:40:12,560 --> 00:40:14,360
♪ Going to waste ♪
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