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[Up-tempo music]

[Meredith] I always said
I'd be happier alone.

I'd have my work, my friends.

But someone in your life all the time?

- More trouble than it's worth.
- OK. Crib goes here.

Apparently, I got over it.

Changing table will go... right here.

But you can't plan a baby room
before you have a baby.

I mean, you're gonna jinx the adoption.

The social worker wants to see where
we live. This is like a death-trap.

I'm trying to create
a reasonable distraction.

- Hello?
- Janet! Welcome!

How are you? Thanks for coming out.
Oh, be careful. Watch those nails.

[Pop music plays]

Perfect for a baby, right?

[Derek] Hm...

I'm gonna stop in the lab.
I'll see you after the intake, OK?

OK. Oh, God.
I forgot it was the Hobarts today.

It always bums me out when we have
an Alzheimer's patient with young kids.

There's no shame in sitting
this one out. I can do the intake.

Stop treating me like I'm your wife.
On the trial, I'm a colleague.

I'm allowed to say, "It bums me out."
It doesn't mean you have to feed me

warm milk and run a bath.
Treat me like a doctor.

Right. Sorry. OK.
Go do the intake, colleague.

Shepherd, you got a minute?
I need to talk to you about your trial.

Oh, um...

I should get Meredith.
I just got a lecture on

the failure to extend professional
courtesy to one's spouse.

I think it's best
you don't get Meredith.

You're in, in very good hands. I still
feel bad that I'm not gonna be here.

For the surgery? I'll be unconscious,
that's not when I'm gonna miss you.

- OK. Then I guess I won't...
- You can feel bad

about all the time that follows.

When I'm not under general anesthesia,
and you're still not here,

you're halfway around the world...
with Arnold.

- Andrew.
- [Exhaling] Ah...

- Excuse me?
- He's a rock star.

I kind of feel like the sound of an
adoring crowd should follow his name.

I don't...
Is that a compliment or an insult?

I don't know, I guess it depends
on how you feel about rock stars.

- OK, well, Andrew's not a rock star...
- [exhales] Ah...

OK, you know what? Can you stop that?
It's starting to get annoying.

My wife's leaving,
I'm allowed to be annoying.

I'm not a real wife, so that doesn't
buy for a lot of bad behavior.

Well, you're my real best friend,
what does that get me?

- I'm sorry.
- Don't be. Go be happy.

With Andrew. [exhales] Ah...

You're impossible.

Yeah. You, too.

[Whispering] Meredith,
tell me exactly what you did.

- I can't tell you.
- We can still fix this,

- but I need to know what you did.
- If I tell you, it'll make it worse.

- It's worse already. Meredith...
- Listen, I... I love you.

And I'm sorry,
but I can't tell you anything.

[Door opens]

You want to be treated like a colleague?
I'm gonna treat you like a colleague.

Alex Karev informed Dr. Hunt that Dr.
Grey tampered with my clinical trial.

She switched around the placebos
and the drugs,

probably invalidating my trial.

- Is this true?
- Nothing I did has any effect...

- Tell me exactly what happened.
- I can't do that.

Do you have any idea what you've done?
You think the FDA

will get anywhere near
this hospital ever again?

[Richard] Meredith, look at me.

If this is wrong,
if there is something going on,

if Karev is exaggerating, this is
the part where you have to tell me.

This is the part where you
have to deny the charges.

Kick me off the study.
There's nothing wrong with the study.

- Nothing I did changes anything.
- But you're not denying it.

I'm gonna have to investigate
what's going on here,

but it looks to me
like you just lost your job.

So they're probably gonna fire me.
Are you happy?

So they're probably gonna fire me.
Are you happy?

- [Alex] Come on, they're not gonna...
- I want your crap out of my house

by the end of the day.

- What the hell was that?
- [Pagers beeping]

A 757 went down in the Sound.

We're looking at about
200 injured passengers.

We're the designated crisis center.
Families will be instructed to come here

to find their loved ones.
We are activating Surge Protocol.

Dr. Hunt is gonna be running the show.
It's gonna be chaotic.

You need to listen carefully,
you need to stay focused,

do not contribute to the panic.

Get to your stations.

Dr. Bailey, clear any beds
that we can. Discharge or transfer.

OK. Uh, Grey.

All right, Torres, you'll be with me.
Kepner, set up the ER for triage.

Other Grey, I want you
running the family center.

Take over in the cafeteria.
Yang, blood bank.

- We might need a Candyman.
- Dr. Sloan'll be our Candyman.

Let's be liberal with pain meds
for our victims

and sedatives for patients that we're
moving. Avery, you can help him out.

- Let's move, people!
- What happened with Meredith?

- Cristina, I can't...
- Owen!

She tampered with Shepherd's study,
invalidated the results.

She destroyed the whole thing.

There was a plane crash.
They're gonna cancel your procedure

and try to send you home. You need
to tell them that you're a D-1.

You don't need to be in pre-op, but you
want to be moved to a regular room.

That way, when the hospital
starts doing surgery again,

- you'll be first in the queue.
- Don't you have a plane?

- Wait, did they shut down the airport?
- No, but we're not leaving

till it's over. They need surgeons
and trauma counselors.

These are your films.

They're gonna schedule your surgery
at Seattle Presbyterian.

Seattle Pres can't take anymore,

- start calling County!
- [Mark] Avery!

Why'd you give me that guy
in the middle of a mass trauma?

- Avery?
- [Mark] The kid quit Webber's study.

What kind of idiot decides working
with the chief of surgery's

too taxing on his schedule?

He didn't quit 'cause
he thinks it's too much hard work.

He quit because he thinks the chief
has a shot at a Harper Avery.

He was worried that if his name was
on it, it would kill Webber's chances.

- [Owen] Kepner! Discharges.
- [April] Yep.

You know, she's the only one
who ever gave a rat's ass about you.

And now you might have
destroyed her career.

You should find some skanky intern
to love you,

'cause next time you're
in a burning building,

no one is handing you a glass of water.

[Lexie] Please make sure you give us
a cell phone number...

- Matthew Ruiz? Do you?
- No one from the flight has arrived.

- As soon as we get...
- [woman] Do you have a list of people

- they're bringing to the hospital?
- [Eli] It can take Emergency Services

quite a long time to move and identify
people in a situation like this.

- Please, just try to be patient.
- I'm sorry, my wife was on the plane.

- Can you please just?
- Sir, at this point we don't

have any information.
Please, just sign the sheets.

I'd like to speak to your supervisor,
somebody that knows what's going on.

Ma'am, my supervisor doesn't have any
information. Nobody has any information.

Please, just sign the sheet.

Dr. Hunt! I had way too many drinks
before I told you that.

- I didn't mean for...
- Not now, Karev.

Look, I told you that because I didn't
think she should be chief resident,

- not that she should be fired.
- If you didn't think this through,

then you're as dumb as she is.

Hey. You OK?

Yeah, I'm fine. Uh...

The plane was from Baltimore,
where my parents live.

I've taken that flight, uh...

...with my son.

You want to come sit down
with me for a minute?

[Sighs] No, no, no.
I can't, uh, there's too much, uh...

OK. Um...

I'm just gonna stand here for a minute.

Is that all right?

- [Cristina] Are you on any medications?
- [woman] No.

- Ever given blood before?
- Nope.

- Any chance you're pregnant?
- Mm...

- I don't know.
- When was your last period?

I'm not sure.

Uh, what were you doing, um, last time
you had to deal with tampons?

Like, maybe it was St. Patrick's Day,

and you ate, uh,
four green donuts and thought,

"Wow, that's disgusting,
I must be hormonal."

Oh, my gosh, you're right!

Except it was these gross cookies
with green frosting.

But that was a while ago. Uh,
I guess I had mine again around Easter,

'cause I was all over the
Marshmallow Peeps. It totally works!

Hey! What the hell?!

[Ultrasound pulsing]

It looks about six weeks to me.

It looks about six weeks to me.

Ahem. I take it this wasn't deliberate.

- No.
- OK.

You want to talk about options?

No.

[Soft acoustic guitar plays]

[Man on radio] Officials say
it's too early to speculate

on the cause of the crash.

But here's what we do know.

The flight originated this morning
in Baltimore carrying 183 passengers

and 18 crew members...

Still nobody? The families are
going crazy. What is taking so long?

[Mark] Fishing 200 people out
of the water is slow business.

You want to play Angry Birds?

They'll do triage at the waterfront.
Takes time.

Actually, with it taking this long,
there's gonna be a lot of hypothermia.

- Kepner!
- Yeah. Warm blankets, heated lamps

- and heated IV fluids. Got it.
- You post chief resident yet?

- No. Not yet.
- [Mark] What's the hold up?

[Sighs] The suspense ain't killing me.
It's gonna be Grey.

Karev made a great play for it.
A plane full of orphans?

- That's pretty impressive.
- [Callie] He's already decided,

- you don't have to lobby for your boy.
- [Richard] Karev.

I want a written account
of exactly what you saw. Every detail.

- When, where...
- Sir, I don't think...

I don't want to know what you think.

I need more sedatives. The people we're
transferring are starting to freak out.

[Mark clears throat]

You're a good man, Avery.

Lexie's yours. Take her.
Take care of her.

- I'll stay out of your way.
- I kind of already have her, but...

...thank you?
- You're welcome.

I need to talk to you.

You know, I think I'm gonna order pizza.
If you want I can get the...

I'm pregnant.

[Exhales]

- Cristina.
- I cannot believe this is happening.

I know.

I know it's complicated. I know it
wasn't supposed to happen like this,

but... Cristina,
this could be something...

What? No.

There is no way we're doing this.
Do you hear me?

- Cristina...
- No, I am not this beautiful vessel

for all that might
be good about the future.

I am not carrying
your hopes and dreams, no!

I get to talk! I'm here!
There's two of us.

We are a partnership. Can we
just think together? Is that OK?

I know who you are.
I know what you want. I love you.

I don't love the incubating potential
of your womb, I love you.

Why would I want to do something
that would make you miserable?

You think I love you more when you're
miserable? Do you think I want that?

You running off to Meredith?
You think I'm looking for more of that?

- But... I think there's a way...
- No! No!

I still get to talk.
There is a way to make this work

without it ruining your life
or derailing your career.

I don't want a baby.

Well, you have one.

Are...

- Are you getting all lifey on me?
- How late are you?

- That does not matter!
- Of course it matters.

OK, fine. You tell me when life begins.
You know, I can't wait to hear this one.

I don't know. Does it have hands?

[Laughs]

- I cannot believe you're doing this!
- I'm just asking a question.

I don't want one.

I don't hate children.
I respect children.

I think they should
have parents who want them.

I want them.

I want them, and maybe you could, too.

I believe... your life can be bigger
than you think it is.

I know you can contain
more than you think you can.

I'm not saying we do this.
I'm just saying let's think.

Let's see what kind of life
we can imagine.

Cristina Yang...

...I imagine such a huge life for us.

[Richard] This is an extremely
serious accusation, Meredith.

- Can't you tell me anything?
- [Meredith] I can't, I'm sorry.

[Richard] Talk to me.

How many patients are we
talking about here?

- Did this happen more than once?
- I can't say that either.

- She can't say anything.
- We're gonna unwind this, Meredith.

Karev is figuring out what cases
he was on when he saw you.

He'll narrow down the dates,
we know which patients...

Nothing I did changed the trial.

- Fire me, do whatever you have...
- You don't get to choose, OK?

[Knocking on door]

[Derek] You don't get to decide who gets
the drug or the placebo.

You don't get to decide
what information the trial gets.

Anything I tell you affects the trial.
If you don't know what I did,

- the trial stays blind.
- The trial is over.

You screwed me, you screwed this
hospital and you screwed yourself.

This is your disease
we're trying to cure.

- I could have picked Parkinson's...
- It was Adele.

...but I I did this for you.
- Derek. It was Adele.

Uh, maybe I should put some IV fluids
in the heater? Warm them up?

- No.
- But if people have been in the water

- for that long, they'll be...
- April.

- But if we just...
- [Mark] No one's coming.

If it's taking this long,
nobody survived.

[Derek] What are you gonna do?

- I don't know.
- The protocol is fairly clear.

- I don't know.
- The protocol is fairly clear.

Are you encouraging him to fire me?

Derek, I basically pressured her
to do it. You'd have to fire us both.

- [Door opens, closes]
- [Sighs]

I'm gonna have to suspend you,
so it doesn't look so bad.

The study... I need to turn
the whole mess over to the FDA,

let them figure out
what to do with it. I can't...

[knocking on door, door opens]

- Meredith, I don't know how to...
- I know.

[Richard] Emergency Services
has begun identifying bodies.

They've given us a list.

The airline reps are on their way,
we've got social workers here,

and more coming. It's a long list.
Each of you have families to inform.

So, uh, please be outside the cafeteria
in exactly one hour.

You'll call one family at a time,
and you'll be assigned a room

to take them to and deliver the news.
It's gonna be a long day.

That's it.

[All chattering]

[Scoffs]

Dr. Hunt, you gave
chief resident to Kepner?

It was supposed to be me or Grey! You
think anyone's gonna listen to Kepner?

- It's gonna be complete chaos.
- Think anyone's gonna listen to you?

You just sold out the one universally
liked individual at this hospital.

Everyone is gonna hate you. Chief
resident's supposed to manage peers,

be a resource and support.
After what you did,

do you think anyone is gonna
come to you for anything?

I was planning to give it to you.
But now...

So it's possible that it won't ever...
That we just...

...we just won't get the treatment?
- It's a possibility. Yes.

[Woman] Oh, my God. This isn't right.

We're so close. He needs this!
Can you just?

- Is it killing people?
- [Meredith] No.

- So give it to him anyway!
- I wish we could.

No, don't give me that!
You can, and you're choosing not to!

- Audrey.
- [Audrey] No!

They say there's nothing they can do?
There's a drug

in a box in this hospital.
You were on the schedule!

My children's father is disappearing!
Give him the damn drug!

I could take a leave
for six months or a year.

- No, you couldn't.
- Sure, I could.

They're not gonna fire me.

- No!
- Stop saying no!

I'm telling you, I want this,
I can do this.

This does not have to be your problem.
It'll be my problem.

- You wouldn't even...
- What, notice?

Lt'll be a baby! I'm not a monster.
If I have a baby, I'll... I'll love it!

That's the problem. [laughs]

That you'll love it. That's a problem
that we can work with. [chuckles]

- I'm sorry, are you laughing right now?
- No. No, I'm just... I'm not. I just...

- I love you.
- What is so?

- Are you even listening to me?
- Yes.

I'm just trying to figure out
some kind of a compromise.

You know what? There is no compromise.

You don't have half a baby!
I don't want one!

OK, it isn't about work,
this isn't a scheduling conflict.

- I don't wanna be a mother!
- Cristina, do you love me?

- Of course I do.
- Do you trust me?

- I... Yes!
- You'd be a great mother.

You would. I know you don't
believe me, but it is true.

Just sit with this for a little while,

this terrible idea
that you might love a baby.

Just, for me, sit with it.

Did you even hear?
OK. Why would I do that?

Because you love me. You love me.

That's why.

I have three names.
I don't think I can do this three times.

One foot in front of the other. I've got
something that'll cheer you up.

Sloan gave us his blessing.
Well, that's not really right,

more like he gave you to me,
which was nice.

- Are you serious?
- Yep. I probably owe him a goat.

- OK.
- All right. Let's do it.

[Indistinct chatter]

Is the Schoman family here?
Jessica and Maxwell?

Jason Schoman, he's our son.

I'm Dr. Altman.
Will you follow me, please?

They think it's good news.

Elaine Chen.

Ma'am, I'm Dr. Sloan.
Why don't you come with me.

- Gilda and Miguel Ruiz?
- This is a nightmare.

[Bailey] Hi, I'm Dr. Bailey.
Come with me, please.

[Woman] I can't wait to see her face.

Hey. I brought some pudding.

That's why you're here?

I've got a good nurse,
she'll hook me up with pudding.

I know. It's just...

I just spent the last two hours telling
people their family members were dead.

And I needed to...
I just wanted to say hi.

Or bye. Again. I don't know...

I really tried to be
a gentleman about all this.

But now you need to get the hell out.

- What are you doing?
- Letting you go

was the worst thing I've ever done.

It's the most painful thing
I've ever done,

and I'm a guy who's had 82 surgeries.

My threshold for pain is pretty high.
You need to get out!

I'm not your best bud.
I'm not your security blanket.

I'm a man who's in love with you,

who waltzed you into the arms
of a damn knight on a horse.

So go to Germany, and have
little spaetzle-eating children,

and please, for God's sakes,
leave me alone.

Cafeteria is pandemonium.
Wailing people everywhere.

You admitting anyone?

We're signing in a few
so we can give 'em sedatives.

That's about it.

[Phone ringing]

[April] ER.

There's a survivor.

- You leaving?
- No. I didn't get fired.

- I know that's disappointing to you.
- My trial is about to disappear.

You really want to act
like I'm the bad guy here?

- No, I don't.
- I know the fact that it is Adele

changes things for Richard,
but it doesn't for me.

- Oh, I understand that.
- You couldn't possibly understand that.

If you were focused on the millions
of people with Alzheimer's

whose lives could've been different,
would've been better

because of this drug, there's no way
in hell you would've pulled this stunt.

How is it that you don't know
the difference between right and wrong?

Because I don't think that things
are simply right or wrong.

Things are more complicated than that.
This was more complicated than that.

It's complicated
that it was Adele and Richard.

It's complicated that we have a drug
in a box that could help her.

There's nothing simple about that.

I am very sorry that
I messed everything up.

But I would do it again.

I don't know how to raise a child
with someone who doesn't understand

that there's a...
a right and a wrong in the world.

So now I'm gonna be a bad mother,
that's where we're going with this?

You've been saying it for weeks.

Maybe you're right.

OK.

- Maybe you're right.
- [Pager beeps]

I just need some time to think.

I just need some space.

[Cell phone beeps]

- [Distant siren]
- [Door crashes open]

Sarah Gordon, GCS at six, head injury
and multiple contusions to mid torso.

- Systolic 70s in the field.
- [Mark] Unaccompanied minor?

- [Arizona] Yeah, she was flying alone.
- On my count. One, two, three.

OK, I need X-ray in here. We need
to shoot a C-spine, chest...

- [Richard] Abdomen's rigid.
- I've got the ultrasound.

Large hematoma
on the left temporal lobe.

- Folks, we've got eyes.
- Sarah, I'm Dr. Shepherd.

You see all these people around you?
They're doctors.

You ever seen this many doctors before?

Don't worry, we're all here
to take care of you, OK?

Hey, honey. They found his body.

Because his wallet
was still in his pocket.

They said because the impact.

I don't know, maybe it was fast.

Oh, my God, I'm so sorry.

[Sobbing] There's no battery.

I'm pushing the button,
I don't hear anything.

- Honey, let me try.
- The battery is dead!

- What are you gonna try?
- OK, OK, OK, OK, OK.

Ma'am, can I help you?

We have to call someone,
but the cell phone's not working.

OK, well we have phones
that you can use. Jenny?

I'll do it. I'll do it.

Why don't you take a seat?

Excuse me. Is the Gordon family here?

The Gordons?

- They found somebody?
- A little girl. Unaccompanied minor.

- They're operating on her right now.
- Thank you.

We should go home, honey.

A little girl made it. She's alive.
I think we should stay.

She doesn't have anyone.
Her parents aren't here yet.

- I think we should stay.
- Gilda.

[Sobbing] If Matthew had been...

I would like to stay.

OK, OK.

We'll stay.

I'll, um... I will
let you know how she's doing.

- [Cristina] Mer.
- The adoption lady's paging me,

Derek's AWOL,
he's not even speaking to me.

Wait. Is it true?
What were you thinking?

I was thinking that the chief's wife
was about to have saline

injected in her brain instead of a drug
that could stop her

from becoming a gorked-out lump.
Derek's head almost exploded.

- Are they gonna fire you?
- I'm suspended.

The chief backed way off
when he found out it was Adele.

- I did what I had to do.
- Meredith...

I couldn't live with myself
if I'd done anything different.

And Karev is trying to ruin my life!

Mer.

- What did you say to her?
- I didn't say anything.

- Janet, anything he says...
- Can you shut up for one second?

This isn't about that.

We're granting you
temporary custody of Zola.

Pending the completion of the petition,
at which point, assuming all goes well,

you'll be granted permanent custody.

And her doctor here
says she's doing great.

So you can take her home.

Today.

Her incisions look fine.
She's tolerating a normal diet.

She'll need neuro follow-ups.
She's still on antibiotics.

Here's a prescription for any pain meds
she might need,

but she's been fine
the last couple of days.

Do you have any questions
about anything?

Meredith, do you have any questions?

- Hey.
- Hi.

- You done?
- Uh, no, no.

I still have some more families.

Sorry I paged you,
I just wanted to see your face.

I think when something
like this happens, you just...

You want to be with
someone that you love.

[Sighs]

So we're booked
on a 9am flight tomorrow.

Let's just spend the night
in some fancy hotel,

just never get out of the bath.

You OK?

[Zola crying]

Derek, I understand that you don't want
to talk to me, but this is important.

I need to talk to you.

I'm your wife.
You need to call me back.

- [Hangs up]
- [Zola crying]

[Sighs]

Does anyone know where there's a nurse
or an information person?

- She should be right back.
- My daughter was in the crash.

They said she had to have surgery.
Are we supposed to?

- You're Mrs. Gordon.
- Yes. Sarah Gordon is my...

They're still operating. The doctors
have been here every half hour.

- They'll be here any minute.
- Say, would you like some coffee?

- I'll get it.
- Here, sit down.

- You must have been driving like crazy.
- I don't under... Are you?

[Gilda] We heard she was alone.

I thought, as a parent,
if my child was here alone, I...

We all thought that she should
have someone pulling for her.

Thank you. That's incredible.

[Nurse] Diapers. Swaddle blankets.

And formula.

These little bottles
are good for the diaper bag.

- You have a diaper bag?
- No.

We'll get you one,
we've got a few in the NICU closet.

We have all this gear. The parents
come in, the baby doesn't make it,

they don't want to see the stuff,
so they just leave it behind.

Now, here's the pacifiers.

She likes the green ones.

Is your husband putting
the car seat in the car?

I don't have a car seat.
I'm not even sure I have a husband.

[Laughs]

Surgeons, right? You probably forget
what he looks like without a mask.

We'll get you one. You're probably
gonna need a portacrib, too.

I'm gonna throw in
some more diaper cream.

She went with her dad
to visit her grandparents.

He had to stay,
so he put her on the plane.

And there was a flight attendant
that watched her,

and was supposed to walk her to her
connecting flight in Vancouver.

You never imagine...

I'm sorry.

I never even asked,
you had someone on the plane.

My son, Matthew.

Is he in surgery, too?

Yes.

- Will he be OK?
- [Sobbing] Yes. He will.

Sarah's out of surgery.
You can come see her now.

[Sighs]

I'm gonna pray for your son.

[Sobbing]

Hey.

Can you stand up?

- I thought I was pretty clear, Teddy.
- Just shut up and stand up.

I have to do something and I can't do it
while you're lying in a hospital bed.

I don't want a goodbye hug.
It's gonna make you feel better,

- it's not gonna make me feel...
- Can you just stand up?

[Soft acoustic rock plays]

You're my husband, and...

...and I think I'm falling
in love with you.

- Hey. How you doing?
- [Sighs]

- Not now, Mark.
- Come on, Lexie.

- You've been in the dead zone all day.
- You have to stop.

You gotta stop talking to me
and checking on me

and talking to my boyfriend.

I love you, and I'm
always gonna love you.

But I don't want to love you,
I want to be happy.

And Jackson makes me happy,

and if you keep pulling at me, I'm...
I'll come back to you.

You're right. I'm sorry.

You got what you wanted.
You wanted a family.

Please, just let me have what I want.

I said you're right.

I told Avery I was letting you go.

- Did he tell you that part?
- Yeah, it's paternalistic and weird.

I'm letting you go, Lexie.

That means you gotta...

...walk away.

Chief friggin' resident. Unbelievable.

- I'm sorry.
- What? Don't be. You deserve it.

I'm happy.

- I have what I want.
- It's been such a crappy year.

- I can't believe we're both happy.
- [Laughs]

I can't believe they like me enough
to make me chief resident.

They hated me for so long. I can't
believe I actually have friends here.

Well, they're gonna hate you again.
It's now your job to boss them around.

You know how much they love that.

Oh, God. Is that true?

- [Jackson laughs]
- That's true!

- [Zola crying]
- OK, so this is the house.

There's another house, where
you're gonna have your own room,

but that, right now,
is just wood and no walls,

so we're gonna stay here
for a while. Derek?

OK. He might be AWOL,
he's had a bad day

and he's a little...

...pissed off right now,
but we're gonna be fine.

So we had a big plan
if this ever worked out.

We were gonna have a lullaby from Malawi
to make everything feel homey for you.

To be honest, right now I can't
even think of an American lullaby.

Lexie?

You know, a lot of people live here.
It gets kind of crazy sometimes,

and it's usually not this quiet.

[Sighs]

Alex?

OK.

We're gonna be OK.

You and I, we're a team, right?
We're tough. We have that in common.

I am very glad you're here.

I didn't think your first day
was gonna be quite like this.

But I'm gonna get it together,
and we are gonna figure it out.

Tell me how much you love me.

[Laughs]

I...

I love you a very great deal.

A lot.

You love me so much.
I want you to remember that.

I made an appointment
to terminate the pregnancy.

- You...
- I'm sorry if this upsets you.

I'm sorry if this isn't
what you wanted, but...

...I cannot talk about it anymore.
I... need to lie down. I feel like crap.

This is a marriage.
I tied my life to you.

You don't decide this without me!

- Do you see me standing here?
- My head is killing me.

You give in a marriage,
you make sacrifices.

I have made many. And I am asking
you to do something for me.

Could you simply consider
doing something for me?

Have a baby? This isn't pizza versus
Thai, you don't give a little on a baby.

- Cristina, I am asking you...
- I'm saying no!

Get out.

Are you?
Because I'm denying you a baby...

Because you denied me
part of the decision.

Because you denied me a marriage.

- Oh, how dare you!
- Get out!

- Hi.
- [Eli] Hey.

I'm gonna go.
I just wanted to say good night.

I wanna come home with you.

N... No, I can't.
Um, Tuck's with me tonight.

I can meet your son.
I'm not gonna bite your son.

No, it's just not the right time.

- I can't...
- This is a relationship.

Things today were bad. We lean
on each other when things are bad.

That information's
not gonna hurt your child.

And if it does, then this is not
the right relationship for me.

[Sighs]

I can control myself in your house.
I'm not gonna touch you.

- OK.
- You can tell him I'm your friend.

- Tell him whatever you need to.
- OK!

[Soft rock plays]

OK.

Oh. I was hoping you were Derek.

Sorry.

Well, he took off,
and the hospital gave me a baby.

She's upstairs sleeping
in some dead kid's portacrib.

Wow. Uh...

I'm getting an abortion
and Owen just kicked me out of my house.

- What? You're?
- Pregnant.

- And you're?
- Getting an abortion.

Well... Why didn't you tell me?

You had a busy, busy day.

[Meredith] There's a reason
I said I'd be happy alone.

[Zola crying]

- Come upstairs. I need help.
- I... I can't.

I've gotta lie down.

[Meredith] It wasn't 'cause
I thought I'd be happy alone.

It was because I thought if I loved
someone, and then it fell apart...

... I might not make it.

Tell me not to go to Africa.

Alex.

Go to hell.

[Meredith] It's easier to be alone.

Because what if you learn
that you need love...

... and then you don't have it?

What if you like it?

And lean on it?

What if you shape your life around it,

and then...

... it falls apart?

Can you even survive that kind of pain?

[Cell phone rings, hangs up]

[Meredith] Losing love
is like organ damage.

It's like dying.

The only difference is...

... death ends.

This...

... it could go on forever.

[Thunder rumbles]