All language subtitles for The Mark 1961

Excuse me.

Is this yours?

Yes, thank you.

I'm sure I'll find it.

Let's say in half an hour.

Thank you.

- Mr. Fuller?
- Yes.

Oh, won't you come in please?

Thank you.

You did get here quickly, didn't you?

The room's upstairs, of course,
if you wouldn't mind following me, please.

Two gentlemen phoned just
after you did, Mr Fuller.

But you were the first, of course,
and I did like your voice.

Here we are.

Oh, it suddenly turned quite hot.

I'm sure our climate's changing.

They say it's due to the uh...
You're not from this town, evidently?

No.

Our last visitor came from Manchester.

He was an engineer.

What work do you do, Mr Fuller?

- Well, I'm an accountant.
- You've come here to work, no doubt.

Yes.

Oh, that's the Blue Boy
by Gainsborough, you know?

I know.

I've always been very
fond of that picture.

You like it, don't you, Mr Fuller?

Because if not...

No, no, it's just that
my mother was fond of it too.

Then you'll feel quite at home!
I'll just show the bathroom.

Don't bother.
I'm more than happy with the room.

Oh, I'm so pleased!

I'll leave my suitcase
and unpack it later.

- I have an appointment at noon.
- Yes, of course.

Well, I won't keep you.

I want you to meet Mr Cartwright.

- Arnold!
- Yes, mother.

Mr Fuller, my husband.

- Very pleased to meet you.
- How do you do?

He's taking the room,
isn't that nice?

Yes, indeed.

Have a cup of tea with us.

Oh no! Mr Fuller can't stay for tea.

You'll be having breakfast
with us, of course.

- Well, if it's not too much trouble.
- Not at all.

And supper any evening.
If you'll just let me know in the morning.

This evening, perhaps?

Well, I'm afraid not.
I'm meeting someone on business.

Well, if you'll excuse me now.

- Here's your key.
- Thank you.

You mustn't feel you're disturbing us,
no matter how late you come in.

Thank you very much.

Where are you from, Mr Fuller?

- London.
- No, I mean you're not English.

No, but I've lived here a long time.

Ever been in this part
of the country before?

No, why?

Your face seems familiar, that's all.

Don't be absurd, Arnold.
We're keeping Mr Fuller.

Yes, sorry, I must run.

- We'll see you later .
- Yes.

He's nice.

Clive Enterprises, good morning.

Yes, one moment, please.

Mr Mayor, Mr Sandersford.

You are through, Mr Sanders.

Can I help?

Would you tell Mr Clive that
James Fuller is here to see him?

Yes, of course.

Mrs Leighton, Mr Fuller
is here to see Mr Clive.

Yes, I will. Thank you.

- Will you go around, please?
- Thank you.

Come in!

Will you say I'll see Mr Milne
after lunch?

And I'll see if he's got
the facts together by then.

- Fuller, I'm very glad to see you.
- How do you do, Mr Clive?

Right on the minute, aren't you?
I like that. Sit down.

I've just been glancing over your paper.

As a matter of fact your experience,
your business background,

are quite impressive for a young man.

- 36.
- Yes.

I'm pleased to see that your first year
in prison they put you to accountancy work.

Work you were trained for.

It's amazing to find the Civil Service
acting so intelligently, don't you think?

They do a good job on the whole, Mr Clive.

You came to England during the war.

- Towards the end of it.
- But your family is still in Canada?

Yes.

- You decided to stay on.
- Well, I preferred it here.

And now to be honest with you, Fuller,

when I heard the entire story,
I hesitated giving you a chance.

A normal reaction, I think you'll agree.

But one man changed my entire thinking.

I don't need to tell you who that was.

Doctor McNally.

You didn't know he came to see me?

No.

He did. When he was transferred here
from his prison appointment a month ago.

You'll be reporting to him, I believe?

It's a condition of my parole.

So he said.
He came to see me one evening.

Several evenings in fact.

I admit I resisted at first but then...

Well, he's a very direct and
very tenacious man, would you say?

Yes, I would.

Now with reference of this prison matter.
Your offense...

your illness, strictly speaking.

He not only convinced me that
you're absolutely cured,

but that he has a great belief
in you and your ability.

As to that I can soon form
my own opinion, Fuller.

Well, now that we've cleared
the air a little, as to your job.

You'll have no specific
duties at the moment.

I want you to familiarize
yourself with this organization.

It is a growing flourishing city, Fuller.

And my organization is
a part of that growth.

I want to be one of the leaders of it.

I want my employees to feel the same.

Well, we may as well get started.

Yes, Mr Clive?

Would you come in a moment, Ruth?

My secretary, Ruth Leighton.

She knows you've been in prison,
but nothing more than that.

And nobody else here knows even that much.

I think you'll like working here, Fuller.

We work hard and we relax hard.

Ruth, this is Mr Fuller. Mrs Leighton.

- How do you do?
- How do you do?

Mrs Leighton will show you
where your office is.

She'll also give you all the material
you need to get started.

The object, well, learn
all you can about us.

Then I'd like to hear what you think.

Yes, Mr Clive. And thanks again.

I don't want to hear any more about that.

Good luck.

These are the general offices.

Foreign interest, investment,
ideas and advertising.

We have expanded so quickly everything's
pretty much lumped together

Salesman, general typing
and secretarial stuff.

You’ll own one of the executive offices.

Well, that's a very sudden promotion.

Things happen that way
at Clive Enterprises.

I think you’ll like working here.

- Mr Clive thought so too.
- Oh?

Ruth, that Waterford chap's
been calling me.

I've been holding him off till
Mr Clive makes up his mind.

He's considering the matter now.

Mr Milne, this is Mr Fuller.

Oh, pleased to meet you.
I heard you were coming.

We can always use another good hand.

You'll like working here.

- Did I say something funny?
- No, Mr.

I'd be obliged if you'd let me know
the minute the chief decides.

Roy Milne, second in command.

He was here at the start with Mr Clive

as a sales representative
for northern manufacturers.

- Do you like it?
- Very comfortable.

Mr Clive supervised all the decorating.

- He probably said that too.
- No, not that.

For a start I have picked
this from the files for you.

Articles of incorporation
of our several companies,

model contracts, lists of
personnel and their assignments,

There's a great deal more to come,

but I didn't mean to overwhelm you
on your first day.

I will have to find my bearings.

The efficiency's a little overwhelming.

The speed at any rate.
Mr Clive's doing as well as the decorating.

But there are compensations that make
Clive Enterprises quite unusual.

There's a free exchange of ideas here,
no politics, no secrets.

And you'll find that most of the people
mind their own business.

What I mean is...

You mean I especially might
resent it if they didn't.

No, of course not.

I'm aware you know I was
in prison, Mrs Leighton.

So there's no need ever to
try to be kind or tactful.

I'm sorry.

If there's any other material you need or
you have any questions, just let me know.

- I appreciate your help.
- Not at all.

Mrs Leighton.

It was rude of me a moment ago.
I apologize.

That's quite all right.

Yes, come in.

- Is that you, Jimmy?
- Yes.

- All right. I'll be with you in a second.
- Take your time

I'm sorry to keep you waiting.

Don't you think it's nice of the state to
furnish me with private accommodations?

Makes me feel like a
High Street specialist.

You look fine.

Take your coat off and sit down.

Now, where's that form of yours?

- How do you like the city, doctor?
- Oh, I don't know.

Sometimes I like it and sometimes
I wish I were back at the institution.

- Same question to you?
- It's a nice place.

You don't have to be polite with me.

I'm not a member
of the Chamber of Commerce.

Where the hell is that form of yours?

Now according to the book,

when you can't find something,
it's because you don't want to find it.

Oh, very amusing. Here we are.

It may be right. If there's a thing
I loathe is filling up these forms.

Now, James Fontaine, new name Fuller.

Released from the institution when?
A day or two ago?

Two, on the 21st.

2 on the 21st, all right?

Attitude of the parolee is good

and seems to be making
satisfactory adjustment.

- That's true, isn't it?
- I suppose so.

- Meaning what?
- Meaning I suppose so.

- A cigarette?
- No, thank you.

Oh, I forget you don't like my Turkish.
Excuse me.

Okay, you light up

while I tell the parole board
exactly what they like to hear.

So then, you can light up if you want to.

Now we'll meet here about three
times a week and we'll talk.

You'll do most of the talking.

I'll tell you why.

This is called group therapy.
It means that a lot of people

get together and talk about
themselves and each other.

They try to find out what makes them tick.

Why they commit crimes, for instance.

The reasons that they do it, you know?*

They're not just born that way.

And these reasons go way back
and we want to dig them out.

They go back to the time you were born.

And then maybe...

maybe you'll find out what's steering
you instead of the other way round.

It won't be easy for you to say some of
the things you have to say.

I won't push you.

There's one thing I want to make clear.

Whatever’s said in this
room stops right here.

If any of you feel that you can't keep
the confidences of your fellow men,

you can leave right now.

Leave the room, that is.
I don't think you'll get much further.

Whoever wants to start?

Any questions?

There's no rush. Plenty of time.

I don't see why the hell
I should sit here.

It may be okay for you,

but I don't even belong here.

- Who says so?
- Come on.

I'm not to blame for the bomb.

It was all a fix, I tell you.

Supposing you tell us about it.
Do you mind?

Do you mind, James?

Jimmy, do you mind?

Oh, sorry.

Your present address.

Well, you live in some place, I take it.

428 Saint Mount's Road.

428 Saint Mount's Road.

- Where were you?
- No place in particular.

Your cigarettes still smell pretty awful.

They're like dirty feet, wasn't it?

The day I said that I wanted to kill you.

Well, it was the day
I knew you were on your way.

- All right, James. How's it going?
- Fine.

- Thanks to you.
- Thanks to yourself.

- The job, I mean.
- Yes, the job.

Well, how's it look?

Looks like you had to work pretty
hard on a fellow named Clive.

- Clive, oh yes.
- Come now, doctor.

We must be direct and
honest with our patients.

All right, so I talked to him.

He's a chap he's got connections
with the prison authorities.

He has jobs and he prides himself
on his social conscience.

So I thought I'd take him up on it.

What do you think of him?

Interesting.

He's an ambitious type.

He's begging for a heart attack but basically
I think he's a pretty decent fellow.

He took some persuading.
Wouldn't you in his place?

Look, Doc. I just want to say thanks.

Well, let him thank me.
He's lucky to have you.

Finding these first few
days a little rough?

Not knowing I was going to see you helped.

- You're sleeping?
- Yes.

- Have you had any of those nightmares?
- Now and then.

How often is now and then?

I had one last week.
The night before I came out.

And a small one, just the other night.

How small is a small one?

Not king size.
Not about problem number one.

There's no sense putting up with that.

You gotta have your sleep. Here... pills .

If you're not sleeping, don't be heroic.
Take a pill.

What's this place like you're living at?

I'm boarding with an elderly couple.

How is it?

I think it's going to be all right.
They're nice people.

- Is there anything not all right about it?
- No.

Then why the frown?

I had a scare for a moment this morning.

I thought the landlady's husband
recognized me.

- What made you think that?
- My face looked familiar, he said.

He could have seen my picture
in the paper at the time.

He didn't recognize you.
Look, James, it was a long long time ago,

and images fade, especially
newspaper images.

Is that the whole story?

Yes. Except for moments
like that, all day long.

Well, that's only natural at first.

The world looks a lot different,
even a little frightening.

Naturally, after three years
you can't expect in two days

to catch up with a life
that's one way ahead of you.

Then what's so good about coming out
and meeting the world head on?

Why not a few more days
or a week in the privacy

of my hotel room where I didn't have
to see so many people?

- You think that would have helped?
- I know but...

Do you know?

Well, I have a few doubts but
that's reasonable, isn't it?

It depends. Do you have doubts
about it happening again?

Well, what have I got? Your word it won't?

I never said it wouldn't.
I said I'd be surprised if it did.

- I recommended your release. I never...
- Stop needling me.

I'm not needling you.

I've had enough of that in the institution.

If I'm all right, why
don't you leave me alone?

Let me uh... warm up your coffee.

It's like old times, isn't it?

Yes, I still want to kill you
now and then.

- It can't hurt
- Why do I if I'm all right?

Well, James, let's say
that you're convalescent.

It takes time to be objective
about the methods

and the people that are trying to help.

But you just remember one thing,
that being out is part of the therapy too.

Your coffee is worse than your cigarettes.

Well, that's all for me.

It's all for me too.

Go on home.

Next Friday again?

Same time. And if you want to talk
just give me decent notice.

It's very kind of you, doctor.

- That's your homework?
- Good weekend company, I thought.

Don't knock yourself out.

- Good night.
- Good night, Jimmy.

- Shall I tell you something funny?
- You can try.

That place I live. Do you know what
I found on the wall near my bed?

I can't imagine.

"The Blue Boy".

- You don't say.
- Funny?

- Did you leave it there?
- Yes.

Then it's funny.

Good night, Doc.

Come on, Fontaine. The earliest thing
you remember as a child?

Just say it. It can’t hurt.

- What are you afraid of?
- Don't just sit there, man.

Come on, boy.
Everybody else is talking, why...?

I'll hold the chat.

Come on, Fontaine.
The earliest thing you remember.

- Are you telling us, Jimmy?
- It was The Blue Boy!

- Make something of that!
- What's The Blue Boy?

- It's a painting of a boy.
- Oh, you don't say!

I've seen it.
It's a pretty boy with curls.

- Where'd you see it?
- At home naturally.

- Who liked it?
- My mother, I suppose.

- Did you like your mother, Jim?
- Naturally.

- What was she like?
- She was my mother.

- What'd your father do?
- He was a clerk in an insurance house.

- The only child?
- No.

- How many others?
- Five.

- Are you the oldest or what?
- The youngest.

And the others?
How many boys and how many girls?

What's the matter, Jim?
Can't you remember?

- All girls.
- Five girls!

I wouldn't have left home!

Three would be enough for me!

All right, I said.

- It makes you pretty special, doesn't it?
- What do you mean "special"?

You’re the youngest and the only boy.

What are you trying to make of that?

- Mama's boy!
- Who says so?

Mama's little blue boy!

- Did they curl your hair?
- And a blue ribbon.

All right, I said break it up now!
Sit down!

- Good morning.
- Good morning.

- Did you sleep well?
- Very well, thank you.

Come and sit down.
I'll have your breakfast in a moment.

- You'll start with porridge, of course.
- Yes, thank you.

- And eggs? Scrambled?
- Well, that'll be fine.

Mr Fuller knows porridge is
the way to start the day.

Which I know, mother.
But eggs every morning, too.

They're good for you.

Yes but they...

I don't want to hear another word
about it, Arnold.

I'm not as well as I might be,
my leg wound acting up again.

First World War that was.

- You were in the last war, I imagine.
- Yes.

- Infantry?
- Merchant Marine.

Oh well, they did their job too.

You'll be having all your meals
with us today, I imagine,

being Saturday and no work.

Well, I did bring some work home with me.

I will have lunch if I may.

Not supper?

Well, I wanted to see something
of the city this evening.

Oh well, if that's what you'd like...

Would be nice if I could
show you around a bit.

But we know that's out
of the question, dear.

Your eggs are getting cold, Arnold.

Yes?

Disturbing you?

It's all right.

I shouldn’t overdo it, you know?

The legs are bad today.

- Oh, you don't mind?
- No.

I was wondering... the last war...

Did you manage to get to Paris?

Yes, once for about three weeks.

38 years since I was there.

Most wonderful place I was ever in.

The girls!
Did you ever go to the “Follies”?

No.

Arnold, where are you?
Are you bothering Mr Fuller?

I just looked in for a moment, mother.
I'll be right down.

We’ll do the round of the pubs
sometime you and I.

Arnold!

And this takes you right up
through the last quarter...

and that's about all I've left to say.

So am I.

You have been through
a tremendous amount of material.

When you're ready for Mr Clive...

would you just let me
know a day or so ahead?

- Has he asked?
- Yes, but not meaning to hurry you.

There's no need to say it
till you're certain.

- Good night.
- Good night.

No, my mother was afraid of men really.

I mean of well... how rough they can be.

It’s quite true, you know?

You heard me tell Arnold
to be back by nine.

Oh, look. Here I am,
chattering about my troubles

and you've troubles of your own, no doubt.

You will tell me about
them sometime, won't you?

Of course, Mrs Cartwright.

But if you'll excuse me now, I have
some reading to do before going to bed.

Mr Fuller...

Yes?

I wish you'd call me Gertrude.

Oh, if you call me Jim.

Good night.

Arnold, you've been
at the pub and you're drunk.

- I only had one, mother.
- I can smell half a dozen.

You made me a solemn promise!

Come on, I just had one drink!

I won't have it, Arnold.
Go up to your room!

-I'm sorry, mother...
- Stop it!

What will Mr Fuller think!

Fine example you set for your son!

Sneaking out with your dreadful friends
and coming home drunk! Don't move!

You sit right there and listen to me
till I'm finished!

Papa, let's fight!

Come on, Papa.

Please!

You hit him where?

- You heard me.
- Why there?

How do I know? It was an accident.

- There ain't no accidents. Right, Doc?
- Right.

Are you saying I purposely hit him there?

- You hated his guts.
- I loved him!

- That spineless clot?
- I did.

But little boy blue loved Mama more.

Fix papa for good and you've got Mama.

- You're a lousy...!
- You’ve got something there, Jim.

- He's got a mind like a sewer!
- Why did you fight at all?

I didn't. I was just playing!

- Is that all?
- I don't know.

Perhaps to make Papa look more like a man.

Look like a man? He was!

Was he? Or did your mother
rob him of his manhood?

Weren't you afraid that
she robbed you of yours too?

And that's why I hit him?
I knew that at the age of five?

Your instincts could have.

- My subconscious.
- Yes.

- Rubbish.
- Why?

How can you say
I was fighting for my manhood

and at the same time
say what Akers said?

- That you wanted your mother?
- Yes!

Both things could be true.
A child of 5 is a big dilemma.

- Besides your mother had a problem.
- Yes.

While taking away your manhood she wanted
you to have it at the same time. For her.

Your mind's as rotten as Akers'!

Let's go over it again.

I won't go over it again and
get that lousy cigarette out of my face.

It smells like dirty feet!

I swear, mother, it was no
more than one draught.

Stop that whining!
Aren't you ashamed?

In short, you seem to think that
our organization is pretty messy.

All right messy. There are at least
10 business activities going on here,

most of them unrelated to one another.

Have you seen our latest
statement of earnings?

Yes.

- Impressive, wouldn't you say?
- Yes.

Achieved by the system we have now,

on the authority of Mr Clive and
the decisions carried out by me.

I don't question Mr Clive's
competence or yours...

You do.
You don't think, for instance,

that we can take over and run
a small plastics factory at this time.

I said you shouldn't
with the present staff.

The present staff can handle it without
working up an extra ounce of sweat.

Yes, but gradually your personnel must
become less and less specialized.

And every activity less
competently carried out.

- The greatest nonsense I've ever heard.
- Roy!

An enormously successful operation.

A business school expert walks in here
to make an important job for himself...

Roy, please!

Now, Fuller, are you prepared to go
to work on the sort of plan you suggest?

- Why, yes.
- And the plastic deal meanwhile?

I'll decide that.
Are you prepared to do this?

As Mr Milne says,
this is an important job.

I'd have to learn a great deal
more about these companies.

Above all I'd have to study the staff,

their training and abilities.

- I'll need time.
- Of course.

You'll be the sole judge
for the time you need.

Then I'd like to try it.

Thanks, Fuller.
That's all for the moment, I believe.

Wait a minute, Roy.

Excuse me.

These are some notes of Mr Clive's

of certain of the personnel.
He thought you might find them useful.

Just what did you do to him this morning?

Why?

- May I have one of your cigarettes?
- Yeah.

Now, Mrs Leighton.

There was a chap in prison who
used to say to his cellmates:

The parole board's been discussing you.

Then he'd lie down and
refuse to say another word.

- Is he still alive?
- I doubt it.

- It's good news, obviously.
- Why is that?

Simply he came into my office
just after you had left and said:

"Interesting fellow, that Fuller".

You're going to work on a plan
for changes around here, aren't you?

Yes.

If I may make a suggestion, Mr Fuller...

There's no need to feel pressure.
Not any longer.

- You mind?
- No, of course not.

For one thing I've seen you dashing out
for a sandwich at noon and dashing back.

Why not celebrate with a proper lunch
for once... an executive lunch?

There's the Cavalier nearby, very good.

That's where I usually go.
Would you like to come along?

Oh, yes. Thank you.

All right. Meet you in the reception room
in half an hour.

Fine.

You say Milne opposed
the idea rather strongly?

How strongly?

Well, he was emphatic, let's say.

You don't seem much disturbed.

Right now I'm experiencing
that executive feeling.

I believe the slogan is,
“Work hard, relax hard.”

Yes.

Mr Clive may seem
a little pompous, I know.

Actually he's very bright.
And a very warm and generous man.

I believe that.

You'd imagine he had no time
for anything outside his work.

Yet I have known him to take time
for a feeling or a principle.

It's one thing to boast about feelings and
quite another to do something about it.

Did you think you had to defend him to me?

No, I didn't.

I am grateful to him if that's
what you meant to remind me.

I meant nothing of the sort.

As for feelings, was it
a feeling like Clive’s

that made you suggest this lunch?

- Part of the rehabilitation...
- Will you stop?

Is there something else, sir?

- No, thank you.
- For me too.

I'm a fool.
Will you accept that as an apology?

If you'll accept a few remarks first.

My husband was a lawyer.
He used to tell me about men in prison.

They were all sensitive, but they
didn't go out of their way to be rude.

When I said those things about Mr Clive,

I was thinking of myself,
if you want to know.

And of my own gratitude for all he did for
me three years ago when my husband died.

Do you understand now?

I'm very sorry.

Inez, can you get me Mrs Leighton, please?

Mrs Leighton has just walked through.

I'll try to find her for you, Mr Fuller.

No, never mind.
I'll try again later, thank you.

- Answer Akers' question, Jim.
- I didn't hear it.

Answer Akers's question, Jimmy.

I'll ask again, sonny.

- Did you ever...?
- None of your business!

- You're just naturally filthy.
- Filthy, he calls it.

Let me put it in another way, Jim.

Did you ever love a woman?

We don't mean to take her
to the pictures, man.

Of course he don't.
His mummy wouldn't let him.

- Suppose I said I did.
- Did what?

Loved a woman!

Glory be!
Would he be known if he did or not?

Quiet.

When was that, Jim?

During the war in Paris.

That was the best time of all.

What are you doing, Akers?
Getting yourself a cheap thrill?

Who was she?

An American girl called Ellen.

Where did you meet her?

The Red Cross, where she worked.

What happened?

Come on, sonny.
You said you made it with this chick.

- I did.
- Was she a pick-up, or something more?

- What do you mean?
- How long did you know her?

- Two or three weeks, why?
- Was she a nice girl herself?

- Yes.
- You were in love with her?

- I suppose so, yes.
- Well, did you or didn't you?

- I said I did.
- What was she like?

Do you want me
to draw you dirty pictures?

- Yes, sonny.
- Could you do that?

- You better...
- The rule is we answer.

Come on, tell us, blue boy.
Did you like her?

I want to go back to the cell
and think about it all night.

- No I didn't.
- No? What happened?

- Why not, Jimmy boy.
- Come on, tell us!

- She was a nymphomaniac.
- What?

- Sex crazy. Do you understand that?
- What makes you think so?

- How would you know?
- Say, Jim... You loved this girl?

-I thought so.
- Did she love you?

- What if she did?
- Don't you know?

Two people care about each other, they
got a right to ask a lot of each other.

- What happened?
- I couldn't stand it.

- I walked out on her.
- What did she say?

- She didn't say anything.
- No? You didn't give it a chance.

You didn't want a chance
in the first place.

That's his trouble, Doc.
He didn't want a chance.

Oh, hello.

- A bit of a nap?
- No.

We had our little differences
in the chief's office,

but that's a matter of business, isn't it?

Yes, of course.

As a matter of fact, I admire
the way you've stuck to your guns.

There may be a certain merit
in this proposal of yours.

I told the chief,
as to the matter of the personnel,

I'd be glad to give you
all the information you need.

Work along with you, so to speak.

- Thanks, Milne..
- Not at all. It's all for the cause.

To start with,
I’m getting up a set of notes.

I’ll let you have them
as soon as possible.

Fine.

Well, good night, Fuller.

Good night.

No hard feelings, I hope.

No hard feelings.

We can use a man with your
training around here.

We can indeed.

Inez, Mrs Leighton please.

Yes, Mr Fuller.

Hello.

Hello, it's Jim Fuller.

- But if you’re busy I can...
- No, not terribly.

I just wanted to apologize again.

That isn't necessary.

I had a nice lunch.

I'm glad.

Perhaps we can again sometime.

Yes.

- Well... back to work, I guess.
- Yes, thanks for calling.

- Go on with your story.
- There is nothing more to tell.

I tried to make myself stand
there for a full minute.

I could only manage a few seconds.

But why'd you stand there
and torture yourself?

I wanted to prove to myself that I could.

I see. If you've been an alcoholic,

would you consider it smart to keep
a case of whiskey in the room?

- Is that a very good analogy?
- It's not very good...

but has certain basic
similarities, that's all.

The fact is the moment I'm
faced with the problem...

Were you, or did you stand
there and imagined a problem?

It's still a problem.

How old? Three years ago
you probably wouldn't have walked away.

All right, James.
What's really bothering you?

What I've told you.

How's the job?

- Fine.
- Really?

Clive thinks I'm an interesting fellow.

Well, well. You give him time.
Is that what he said?

Not to me. Mrs Leighton.

- It's his secretary, isn't it?
- Yes.

I met her. She's a pretty nice person.

That people treat you all
right where you live?

Couldn't be better.

- You're sleeping?
- Yes.

And you put this blue boy
thing in this proper place.

I hope yes. It's made me
remember a bit, that's all.

- And you have much to remember?
- Yes, doctor.

- Well, give me a sample.
- Of what?

Of the stuff that's coming back.

- It's pretty pointless.
- Anyway.

Well, I thought of Ellen
yesterday afternoon.

- Ellen?
- The girl I knew in Paris.

Oh, yes. But what about it?

Nothing, I just thought of her.

And what made you...?

Doctor McNally.

No, as I told you I have
a patient at this hour.

Yes but I specifically asked
you never to call me...

Look, darling. I told you
I couldn't meet you there before 10.

Well, I'm sorry if I gave you
that impression, but I...

Hello?

Hazel?

You think you've got a problem, huh?

When a man, particularly a doctor of
my age, considers marriage, well...

I'm sorry, James.
It's your hour, not mine.

What I meant was, what started
you thinking of Ellen?

- Nothing in particular.
- What did you recall exactly?

That she wasn't a nymphomaniac.
She was just a normal woman

making demands on me that
I wasn't ready to meet.

Normal demands you couldn't meet.

All right, doctor, we know.

Is that all?

Well, and how poisonous
Akers was that day.

- Is that all?
- Doctor, do you mind? That's all.

So you and Clive are
really hitting it off.

We had a battle yesterday.
I had to stand my ground.

And Mrs Leighton told you that he thought
that you were a pretty interesting fellow.

- Yes.
- That's rather charming.

- What's rather charming?
- These little confidences from...

- Are you suggesting something?
- Not really. I just think it's very nice.

Let's not be coy, doctor, it so happens
she and I have worked together

this past week
and I find it quite natural.

So do I. I’d find it quite natural
if you had lunch together once or twice.

Oh, you did.

As a matter of fact we did once.
Yesterday, for the first time.

Oh,Mcnally. You're a genius.

It was a lousy lunch,
if that helps you any.

We had a brawl.

What about?

I was being sensitive while
she was being nothing but friendly.

- You patched it up?
- More or less, I don't know.

- And you went back to work?
- Naturally.

And you thought of Ellen.

It was in the afternoon,
I believe you said.

Well, that's silly.
I don't really know Mrs Leighton.

- But you'd like to.
- I don't have any idea.

You don't have to. Our instincts
run miles ahead of our ideas.

No mystery about that.

So the first normal
attractive woman I meet...

Like Ellen...

All right, like Ellen.

The first after three years
of wrecking up my life

and my fear is am I really well now?

Or will I run away again?

I'm afraid to face the question.
I refuse to see any connection with Ellen.

Why?

Because I'm still that unsure of myself?

Who's sure of anything?

Well, that's no answer.

We have to find our own, don't we?

Yes, doctor. And being out applying
what we know is part of the cure.

We know what happens to
our fears, don't we?

They can lead you to pick a fight
with someone like Mrs Leighton

just to make sure that you’ll never have
to face the test of a normal woman.

Buried stuff like that
can cause an incident

like at the playground this morning.

- Is that right, doctor?
- Very good.

- Let's call it a night, shall we?
- All right with me.

- One point you missed, doctor.
- Yes?

This woman I happen to find
attractive is married.

- I’m safe, you see?
- Good.

Except she isn't, her husband's dead.

- And you found this out at lunch?
- Yes.

It's very amusing
in a ghoulish sort of a way.

What was your first reaction?

I don't know.

Were you pleased?
Were you scared or what?

Both.

- You want to see her again?
- I don't think she wants to see me.

That's not what I asked you.

Yes, I do.

- Satisfied?
- Delighted.

That's Hazel. You better get out of here,
I don't want this call to discourage you.

Yes, my darling.

Yes, darling.

Yes, darling.

- Good morning, Inez.
- Good morning, Mr Fuller.

Good morning.

Come in.

- Good morning.
- Good morning.

I was beginning to think
you were avoiding me.

When I talked to you on the phone
the other day you were so formal...

I'm sorry, I thought you felt
you had to be polite.

Well, I meant what I said.

Well, we have cleared that up.

Ruth, can I see you sometime?

After work, I mean.

Yes, of course.

Are you free this evening?

Yes, I am.

I'll call for you, around eight.

But I could pick you up.
We might as well use my car.

Except I don't know where you live.

Well, you might have trouble finding it.

Let's say outside the Post Office.

All right.

That's OK.

Thank you, sir.

Bon soir, monsieur.
Bon soir, madame.

Thank you.

- Thank you.
- Thank you, sir.

Let's have one cigarette.
Here's nice and quiet.

What did you think of
our French restaurant?

It's very English.

I smoke too much. No willpower, you too?

I smoke any kind tobacco, except Turkish.

You come to like England even
with the rain, you don't?

Just a little.

Were you ever in Switzerland?

- No.
- I was born in Lausanne.

I met Arthur there.
He was with the British Consulate.

What I meant was...

When we married
and he brought me to England,

he was so proud of this country...

He was even proud of the rain.

How long ago was that?

Nearly 12 years.

Mr Clive was one of his first clients.

That is when Arthur set
up his law practice.

He would have had a wonderful career.

I better not get off on that.

Tell me about him.

There's not much to tell.
He was a fine man.

Understanding and sweet.
Irritable only now and then.

- Were you happy?
- Yes.

Years of nice warm happiness.

I didn't know how nice
till they were gone.

You see, he died in his office.

No warning, nothing.

His heart stopped and he was dead.

I remember when he left that morning,

I leaned out of the window
and called to him

something about bringing home some wine,
we were having company.

It's strange...
when lives are cut off like that.

It isn't only the one dying,
the other one dies too.

I died the minute that phone call came.

For a long time I stayed that way.
I was completely destroyed.

I just wanted to be a vegetable.

If it hadn't been for Janey...

and the demands she made,
where would I be?

Children are amazing.

No time for mourning, just living.

It stopped.

- Let's walk a little. Would you like to?
- Yes.

Those painful memories of mine have
stirred up a few of your own, haven't they?

A few.

- Jim, I had no intention of doing that.
- It's all right.

But you've wondered about
mine, haven't you?

I can't deny it.

I know Clive didn't tell you.

Only that he was certain
it was all in the past.

And that was good enough?

It was good enough, yes.

Please, don't tell me now.
Not until it's in the past for you.

Don't you see it couldn't
matter for the moment?

You know? This has been
the nicest evening in a long time.

And that's the only thing
that does matter now.

Isn't it true?

We ought to start home.

Well, thank you, Jim.

When will I see you again?

Will you come to the house next time?

For one thing I don't want to
scramble for a sitter for Janey.

I sent her to my neighbor tonight,
Margaret has two girls.

Janey loves spending the night there.

How about Friday?
She has no school the next day.

For dinner, I mean.

- You can't?
- Oh, yes.

Friday will be fine.

Good night, Jim.

Good night.

Your crime is despicable.

- No!
- A sin... a cardinal sin.

I couldn't help it!

Unspeakably vile!

I didn't want to, please, believe me!

- Jim!
- Please!

Jim, wake up!

Poor boy, you've been having a nightmare.

- I'm sorry.
- Can I get you anything, Jim?

No, I'm all right.

What was it?

Tell me about it.
Was it to do with the war?

- I don't remember.
- You can tell me, you know?

- I don't remember.
- Well, try and go to sleep now.

- I'll sit here quietly beside you until...
- Please, I'm all right.

I'm fine now. You don't have to wait up.

I'll be all right.

Oh, Jim!

Good night, dear.

Good night, Gertrude.

Jim, are you clear so far?

You were sick when you knew Ellen.
You had been sick for a long time.

And after the war, when you grew
older, that sickness became worse.

And because you had a normal natural drive
to find a woman you could live with,

and because that drive you had
within you became distorted,

adult women weren't acceptable.

They made demands,
they became a threat to you.

You were in terror what could happen.

Then when you quit your job,
you began to drift.

You were too restless to work.

You were looking for something.
Do you understand, Jim?

And whether you knew it or not,

you were looking
for an answer to your physical problem.

You began looking for
younger and younger girls.

Girls still too young to have experience,
who wouldn't challenge you.

What I'm trying to point out is, Jim,
that finally you became very very sick.

And what you eventually did
was a symptom of your illness.

Nothing more and nothing less.

You didn't happen to pass that playground,
it was inevitable.

That's what you were looking for,
that's why you came back time after time.

You didn't tell yourself why,
you didn't know.

All you knew was
a great pressure somewhere inside you

had begun to loosen, to relax.

- What did you say to them, Jim?
- I don't remember.

- Come on, man!
- Please, Cole.

When you started
picking them up after school

and buying them sweets and things...

No, Akers!

Day after day, three days in
a row and you had no idea?

- You got rid of the other one, is that it?
- No, I didn't.

- You must have, somehow.
- Patricia did.

She told Doris to walk on ahead.
I didn't do it. Patricia did.

You mean a 10-year-old kid arranged
for you and her to be alone?

Wait a minute, wait a minute,
just for the record,

small girls, even at that age,
can be seductive.

It's not usually conscious,
but it's there.

But he did want it to happen, didn't he?

I didn't. She said why don't
we take a ride in the car.

- She said?
- I'm telling you! Before God I swear it!

It's getting dark.
I don't know where we are.

Let's go back.

Lock me up!

Lock me up!

Please, lock me up!

Why'd you say that, Jim?

Why'd you want to be locked up?

I had to, I was sick.

He was called, that night
he began to help himself.

That last moment in the car,
the control he fought for,

that was the first step on the way back.

That's why he made no
defense at the trial.

He wanted to be imprisoned, ask for help.

Do you understand that, Jim?
Do you understand what happened?

Do you, Jim?
Do you understand, Jim?

First advertising contract we ever had.
Still going strong.

- You're a little out of sorts this morning?
- No.

I had no idea you existed until
the day before you came.

Never even heard of you coming
for an interview. You didn't, did you?

No, a friend of mine put
me in touch with Mr Clive.

Is he a business acquaintance?

- Someone I might know?
- No, just a friend of Mr Clive.

How about the advertising
personnel, Mr Milne?

Yes...um... here we are.

Background, length of employment,
assignments are handling at present.

- Had a nightmare a few nights ago.
- Same one?

With a few variations mostly the same.

Playground, Patricia, the judge...

Anything you couldn't handle?

No.

You're going to see Mrs
Leighton tomorrow night.

Easy guess, wasn't it?
Why else would I ask for a change?

- You've been with her again recently?
- A few nights ago.

- How was it?
- Fine.

You're seeing quite a bit
of the lady, aren't you?

Let's not jump to conclusions, doctor.

Ego, sex, opportunity...

Mix them all together and
you've got the poet's dream.

Love.

That's pretty cynical for a man
who's about to be married.

I still think that marriage is the best
thing that can happen to a man or a woman.

- How does she feel?
- I wouldn't know.

Do you realize that three years ago
you would have been terrified of it?

Are you still a bit afraid? Is that it?

- What makes you think so?
- The nightmare, for example.

She has a daughter, about
10 years old I would say.

- That shakes you a little, doesn't it?
- No, but obviously it shook you.

You know better, don't you?

Yes, doctor. It all came out
beautifully in therapy.

Most crimes are the acting
out of some inner conflict.

All of us have such conflicts, and
so-called normal people control them.

Sick people act them out as I did.

Once you understand your conflict...

You sound normal enough.

And on the surface
I can function normally.

What you don't seem to
understand is that, inside,

half of the time I shake like a leaf.

Everybody does from time to time

and that is something
you don't understand.

Except in my case there
has to be that moment,

that test of whether I'm
actually cured or not.

Not cured, well nobody's cured
of their inner conflicts,

they're always there.

A man is well when he can understand
them and he can deal with them.

And anybody that tells you any
difference is a liar and a quack.

Yes, doctor, I know.

Jimmy, Jimmy,

I don't mean to make light of your doubts.

My date with Ruth tomorrow
night is at her house.

Do you understand now?

- Are you going?
- Would you suggest I do?

- I wouldn't suggest anything.
- Oh, it's my problem.

You work it out.

You're a big help, doctor.

You see the abuse we take
in this profession.

Greatly obliged.

Smells wonderful. What is it?

- Jim!
- Oh, look at him. All spit and polish.

There's plenty here for you too.

No, thanks, Gertrude. I'm invited out.

Don't you know, mother, Jim's got a girl?

Is this true, Jim?

Somebody he's been seeing
a great deal of lately.

- You like this girl?
- I think so.

I hope you'll be very happy, Jim.

I scarcely know the girl.

- Good night, Arnold.
- Good night, Jim.

Suppose he wants to get married, mother.

Be quiet, Arnold.

- You are James Fuller, aren't you?
- Yes.

Detective division.
Will you come along with us, please?

Why?

They want to talk with you at the station.

Come along, please.

- What do they want to talk to me about?
- We don't know, Mr Fuller.

- I'd like to make a phone call.
-Your lawyer?

A place where I'm expected.

Sorry, only a lawyer until
you've been questioned.

What is it? What do they
want to question me about?

Sorry, you'll have to wait.

- James Fuller?
- Yes.

Formerly James Fontaine, is that correct?

Yes.

Sit down, Fuller.

Sorry we kept you waiting,
but it was unavoidable.

Certain things we had to check.

- Any idea why?
- No, but I'd like to know.

Do you know a little girl,
by the name of Louise Springer?

- No.
- Are you certain? A girl about 11.

Pretty little girl.

No, I don't know her.

- Were you in Princess Lane anytime today?
- No.

Have you ever been in Princess Lane?

Well, I passed by there once or twice.

- But not today.
- No, not today.

We'll tell you what we know, Mr Fuller,
then you can tell us what you know.

In Princess Lane there's a bomb site,
rather a deserted place.

Someone took little Louise there,

when she was home
from school just after 3,

and brutally assaulted her,
criminally assaulted her.

Louise may die. If she does the charge is
not only criminal assault, but murder.

Look, I don't know...

There is evidence,
from Louise herself and other people.

It was a man about your height,
about your coloring,

wearing a blue suit like you were.

- I don't know anything about it!
- You don't?

What makes you assume I do?

That should be obvious, Fuller.

Suppose you tell us where
you were this afternoon.

- I was in my office.
- Can you establish that?

Yes, the reception girl would
have seen me if I had left.

- At Clive Enterprises, isn't it?
- Yes.

Just a minute.
It was shortly after three, you said.

At 3:15 I was with Mr Clive himself.

What's Clive's first name?

- Don't you know?
- Andrew.

Home address?

Well, I don't know.
I haven't been with them all that long.

I'll check that on the phone.

May I make a phone call first?

Sorry, not quite yet.

Mr Fuller's free to leave.

You're fortunate, Mr Fuller.

It's not often a person
can say with such precise...

Thanks.

Sorry. You do understand, of course.

Yes, I understand.

- Can I speak to you for a moment?
- Sorry.

Any information on the Springer case?

No, go away, will you?

Uh, Fontaine.

I'd like to have a word
with you, Mr Fontaine.

The name is Fuller.

Oh yes, I understand.

My name's Austin.
You wouldn't remember me, of course,

but I covered your trial in London.

It seems a long time ago now, doesn't it?

I gather you've been questioned
about the Springer case.

- And you've been cleared.
- That's right. I've been cleared.

I'm very glad.
I bet you would have been.

Yours wasn't the usual case at all.

- I'm sure you could use a drink.
- Sorry, I've got to make a phone call.

Well, there's a phone in
the pub up the street.

You could get a bite there too,
if you've missed your dinner.

Ruth, on my way over I was
picked up by the police.

Why?

Nothing important, just
routine about my parole.

But I couldn't call till I was released.

You are all right, aren't you?

Yes, of course. But I ruined your dinner.

Don't worry about that.
Have you eaten anything?

- Well, no.
- I could warm something up for you.

Well, no thanks, Ruth.
It's pretty late.

I'll get a sandwich and then go on home.

Just as you say, Jim.

Good night, Ruth.

Good night.

- Complications?
- No more than usual.

- You might like to have something.
- Thanks.

I've often wondered why you made no attempt
to defend yourself during your trial.

You seemed so confused.

- I was sick.
- Extraordinary.

I mean that you knew that you were
and yet insisted on being sent away.

- And you've had therapy all this time.
- Yes.

- And you judged...
- Others judged that I was well.

I'm very glad.

A new name, new start...

- I take it you're working now.
- Yes.

Oh, good.

What a world! This case this afternoon,
I was thinking...

If such fellows had the treatment
you've had...

- It doesn't work that way, Mr...
- Austin.

You are in a newspaper up here?

For a year or more now.
There are bigger opportunities in London.

What did you mean when you
said it doesn't work that way?

Well, I meant before a man can be treated
he has to commit the crime, doesn't he?

If you excuse me,
I'm really very tired.

I'd like to talk
to you again, Fontaine.

- Fuller.
- Sorry.

- Where do you live now?
- It's on me.

- No, no, no, no.
- Good night, Austin.

Good night, Fuller.

Good luck.

Oh, Jim. I thought it was Gertrude.

- You're very early, aren't you?
- Yes, had dinner, that's all.

I've got some work to do.

We could uh... go around to
the pub for a minute.

I'm afraid not tonight, Arnold.

Oh yes. Have you heard about this, Jim?
Another one of those sex crimes.

Gertrude doesn't allow
me to buy this paper.

Says they print trash.

There's lots of things here that...
11 years old, she was.

It's a terrible thing.

- Would you like to take it up with you?
- No, thanks. Good night.

Good night.

- I had to know if you were all right.
- I was just going to you.

Can you make it tonight, Jim?

- Yes...
- But...

Under the circumstances, hadn't you better
plan on opening a few tins or something?

Certainly no, I'll take one more chance.

7 o'clock?

Fine.

- You're Mr Fuller?
- Well, you must be Janey.

Yes I am. Please, come in.

- Take off your coat, Mr Fuller.
- Thank you.

Come in.

Please, sit down.

That's the most comfortable place.

Thank you.

Mummy will be down soon.
She's a bit behind schedule.

- Would you like some sherry?
- Well, yes I believe I would.

Thank you very much.

- Well, I'll get it.
- No, I will. Please, let me bring it.

Thank you.

Try it.

It's very good.

Mummy said you work at Mr Clive's too.

Yes, that's where your mummy and I met.

I know. We waited a long
time here on Friday.

Please, don't tell mummy I said that.

Why not, Janey?

She told me not to and I promised.

It's quite all right.

She didn't explain, did she?

You thought it was another
evening, she said.

That's right.
It's very simple and very stupid of me.

But please don't say I said it.

I won't, I promise.

- Well, good evening.
- Good evening.

- So nice to see you, Jim.
- Thank you.

What was the big joke when I came in?

Well, it's a little complicated.

Oh, I see. Has Janey looked after you?

- Mr Fuller liked the sherry.
- Good, thank you, dear.

- Are you hungry?
- Very.

You'd better be, because I'll be ready in
a few moments. Will you excuse me?

Janey, will you show Mr
Fuller into the dining room?

This way, Mr Fuller.

You can see that, can't you?

This is very good,
don't you think, Mr Fuller?

Absolutely wonderful.

Well, thank you both very much.

But actually fish was
the only thing I had time to do.

It isn't just fish, mummy.

I was going to say so.
Grape salads, parmesan cheese.

- It's a French recipe.
- Yes.

Mummy has every cookery book in the world.

All right, it's all that.

Friday night mummy made...

What, Janey?

What did I miss on Friday night?

Chicken in wine.

That serves me right.

I'll never understand how I
got my evening so confused.

In any case, it couldn't
have been better than this.

I haven't been collecting very long.

If you don't like pressed flowers,
just say so.

Well I do.

They're more fun than anything.

I'll be here in two minutes
and then it's bed for you, Janey.

There. I haven't found
the names of them yet.

You're not looking at them.

Well, they're very beautiful
and very neatly pressed.

That's an African kind, I forget its name.

I'm afraid I don't remember either.

Oh, wait!

A four-leaf-clover. I found it myself.

You did?

Honest.

I forget this one.

That's a ragged robin.

- You do like flowers, don't you?
- I've learned a lot from them.

- You mean about them?
- No, from them.

- What do you mean?
- Well, let's take this ordinary violet.

You have two of them, you'd say
they were exactly the same.

They are.

No. If you look at them closely
under a magnifying glass,

you'll see there's some difference
in the way nature made them.

In all these millions and millions of years,
nature never made two of anything alike.

Nothing like you ever existed before.

You're brand new.

- So are you, then.
- Yes.

And if you know somebody really,

you know what's different about them.

And if you like what's different about
them, sometimes you can come to love them.

Well, I'm afraid that's
a little complicated.

- Will you say it again, please?
- Not tonight, Janey.

- It's nearly nine o'clock.
- Oh, mummy!

I'm sorry to interrupt but,
if you remember where you left off,

you and Mr Fuller can continue next time.

- Good night, Mr Fuller.
- Good night, Janey.

- Please, will you come again?
- I hope so.

- Will you come up, mummy?
- Yes, in a minute.

You get ready for bed.

- Are you exhausted?
- Not at all.

Oh, she exhausts me.

That little speech about getting
your evening so confused...

How did you know that was
the official explanation?

Was it?

She told you and then
swore you to secrecy.

I have nothing to say.

Half a minute.

I may seem terribly busy,
but it isn't all that difficult.

I have a secret weapon, Mrs Connors.
She cooks, cleans,

looks after Janey's clothes and mine.
I supervise, but on the run so to speak.

It's remarkable the things
a woman can do on the run.

- Yes?
- Well, this home...

Remarkable?

- To me.
- Why?

Whatever it was I sensed
when I first walked in.

And what was that?

Well, I can't explain it..

Exactly... well, this is the first
real home I've ever been in.

First home, you mean that?

Yes.

- You had one as a boy.
- It's still the very first.

Shall I make some more coffee?

Oh no, thanks.
It's getting late, you know?

Another minute, Jim.

Ever since the other day
I wondered why of all nights

I should have talked
about myself like I did.

In fact it was that I
wanted to for a long time.

As if I knew I'd be healthy
in a way if I did.

The trouble was it had to be
someone who wanted to listen.

Someone I felt that...
I mean someone I could be sure of...

Jim, please don't
misunderstand by sure of.

I don't mean... I mean I...

I think you'd better go home.

That's been a wonderful evening.

You know, the last thing Janey said was,

"Couldn't we have Mr Fuller
for dinner again very soon?"

So you see, you made a
big conquest tonight.

And you know now how welcome you are.

Thank you.

Actually Jim, if this is a home you like,

it is yours, in a sense,

whenever you want it to be.

- Good night.
- Good night, Jim.

Somewhere in the evening I understood
I didn't have to be afraid of Janey.

She was a child and I was looking
at her as a child and nothing else.

Evidently I could see
things in perspective.

By perspective I mean

all evening long I couldn't see
what I'd been worried about

before I got to the house.

- Does that make sense?
- The human mind,

what a fabulous piece of machinery!

It was Monday night I was at Ruth's.

I never got there on Friday.
Police picked me up that night, did you know?

- In the Springer case?
- Yes.

They held me nearly three hours.

Ruth was waiting for me and
I wasn't allowed to phone.

Was that the worst of it?

That and they're eager
to put the finger on me.

Is that how it's going to be, doctor?

Are they gonna drag me
down to a headquarters...

No, Jimmy...

Remember I know how far you've come along.

So do you.
But the police are historians at heart.

You were so, you might still be.

When a case like this...

I had to tell Ruth about it.

A parole matter, I said.

Nothing about the Springer case and me.

She still doesn't know.

The first time we were out together
and I heard about Janey,

I wanted to tell her then.

- Why didn't you?
- It takes a certain amount of courage.

She stopped me, in a way.

Couldn't matter, she said.
She meant she wanted to know about me,

what I was now,
not what happened in the past.

I suppose I wanted to think she was right.

And after all I wasn't sure then
how I really felt about her.

- And you are now?
- With things that keep plaguing me.

Am I really in love
or am I trying to prove something?

As I did when I forced myself
to stand near that playground.

A prove that I can have a normal
relationship, that's what I need to know.

And she wants to know me as I am.

Once I tell her, will either of
us have a chance to find out?

Can we go on normally after that?

And yet above all was Janey.
She should know.

The question is exactly when.

No suggestions, doctor?

I'm afraid not.

Is my judgment good enough?

It has to be, doesn't it?

Thanks, doctor.

- By the way, that's sincere.
- I find that a bit disturbing.

Would you like to go out tonight?
Take a drive?

Would you?

No.

I keep you housebound so much.
I can send Janey to Margaret.

I like being housebound.
I think I'd rather stay in.

Mummy! Here's something
interesting, mummy.

- What is it, dear?
- Remember the carnival last year?

- Yes.
- Well, it's coming again.

Oh, interesting.

I couldn't go last time, remember?
I had a bad cold.

Yes, I remember.

When you were a boy, Jim,
did you ever go to a carnival?

Oh, now and then.

I think I'd like to go to this one.

Why don't we all go?

It's a wonderful idea!
Wouldn't you like to, Mummy?

Yes, I'd love to.

Isn't it lucky I happened to see this?

No, really, Jim. I got to get you out.

Couldn't we take a drive on
Saturday or Sunday, if it's nice?

It's beautiful now. Would you like to?

A long drive,
or the whole weekend perhaps.

Do you think we can do that?

- Why not?
- Perhaps even for Janey.

Just to give everyone a change.

It'll take a little explaining but...
shall we plan on that?

All right.

I never thought I'd make it.

I'm absolutely beaten.

Well, I warned you.

My foot aches,

- ...but I don't mind.
- Then you better go right to bed.

- No, not yet.
- You do as I tell you.

Now say good night like a good girl.

Jim, how late can we start back
tomorrow in order to be back by six?

About three o'clock.

Let's get up very early and make
the longest day we possibly can.

- At seven?
- Seven.

I'll wake you up.

- Good night.
- Good night.

It's six o'clock. Janey must be
driving Margaret frantic by now.

You don't have to drive me up. I can walk.

I want to.

I can say goodbye to you
properly in the car.

- I will see you tomorrow.
- Yes.

Oh, that's a comfort.
Come, Jim.

Hello, Fuller. Nice to see you again.

Hello.

This is my local.
Are you from this district too?

Yes.

- Ruth, this is uh... Mr Austin.
- How do you do?

- How do you do, Miss uh...
- Leighton.

Mrs Leighton.

- Been out in the country?
- Yes?

- Far out?
- The Lake District.

That's a long drive for one day.

- We got there yesterday.
- If you excuse us, we have to run.

Goodbye, Mr Austin.

Pleased to have met you, Mrs Leighton.

- Not a close friend of yours, I hope.
- No.

I couldn't help it.
He was such an obvious snoop.

I'm so happy, I just
wanted someone to know.

Even him.

Come, let's run.

- Had a nice trip, Jim?
- Wonderful, thanks.

- Away alone overnight?
- Arnold!

- Would you like to have supper, Jim?
- Well, no thank you.

I may slip down for something
before I go to sleep.

- Jim, this girl you know...
- Mrs Leighton?

- Mrs?
- She's a widow, Gertrude.

Oh, well. We'd love to meet her sometime.

- If you're not ashamed of us, that is.
- Of course you'll meet her very soon.

I promise.

I'll keep something for you.

- Hello.
- Hello.

I've been told I'm sloppy.
What do you think?

Looks like you're working through
your problems very nicely, doctor.

Oh, we're in for one of
them evenings, are we?

What makes you so chipper
tonight, as if I didn't know?

Have you ever been to the Lake District?

It's very beautiful.

- How was it?
- I just told you.

I know but you didn't go to the lakes
to look at the lakes.

- We're fine.
- No problems?

That's good.

Now you sound like a fellow
I once knew named Akers.

I'm sorry, Jimmy, I just meant any plans?

- Not especially, why?
- Oh no, I just asked.

Just asked, that's all.

Oh, by the way,
there's something I wanted to tell you.

Hazel and I are giving an engagement party
in a few weeks

and we'd like you to come.

Thanks.

Do you think I'll do as a married man?

We all have to find our own answers.

Well I wish my judgement didn't
play any part in this problem.

- And what does?
- Instinct and prayer.

You pray that your instincts
are sound, is that it?

Yes. That's right.

Except we don't exactly
know what we mean by sound.

We mean not obviously sick at least.

As to that, it's an amazing
thing I've noticed.

When someone who's been
sick begins to get better,

he's generally more balanced
in many ways than people

who have never been ill.

Immunity?

Perhaps, I never thought of it like that.

Most likely it's insight and understanding

and the knowledge that he's been
right down to the bottom of the barrel

and no matter what happens to him
he can't be as bad off as he was once.

It's a negative way of
looking at it perhaps but...

sometimes I wish that
half the people in this city

had been ill and were getting better.

- Coffee tonight?
- Yes.

Thanks, doctor.

Come in, Jim.

Milne gave me this yesterday.

He proposed a new setup.

Your work, he said, and his.
Sit down, Jim.

I do appreciate the way
you took Roy in on this.

It's a very remarkable piece of work, Jim.

I tried to phone you about it last night.

I was out, I'm sorry.

At Ruth's?

Yes.

Mrs Cartwright at your number said
that's where you undoubtedly were.

I don't mean to pry, Jim.

Ruth's had some pretty rough going.

There's something that I think perhaps
I should have mentioned to you before.

Some time ago the police telephoned me to
inquire your whereabouts on a certain day.

I'm sorry, I didn't want
them to bother you.

Oh nonsense, I don't want
you ever to feel that way.

The fact is I hate to see a
man followed up on like this.

Jim, I go a great deal on feelings.

And I had a feeling about you the first
day you walked through that door.

And the way you've tackled this work
has more than borne me out.

Now to put this plan into operation
needs a competence of its own.

I shall want you to work close
beside me as my personal assistant,

with a considerable amount
of executive authority.

- You'd be willing, I take it?
- Yes.

There is Milne, of course.

Sooner or later he's bound to
know that you've replaced him.

And how does one explain to a man who's
worked with you all these years?

Well, that's not your problem.

Suppose you relax for a while,

begin to think about the first
steps that you want to take.

And we'll have our talks later.

- Is that all right?
- Yes.

Oh, and Jim.
About the salary you started on here.

You leave me to revise that, won't you?

Thank you, Mr Clive.

With executive authority...

I'm very impressed.

This is bound to change things between us.

Well, I can't be found drying
dishes again, of course.

Naturally.

Jim, we have to celebrate somehow.

Yes, but there's the carnival on Saturday.

- That'll do for a start.
- I have an idea.

You go with Janey, I stay at
home and cook a special dinner.

- No, that'll never do.
- Jim, please.

That's the way I'd like
to celebrate with you.

One more time on the
merry-go-round, may we, Jim?

I think so.

- You liked everything too, didn't you?
- Everything.

I love you, Jim.

I love you too, Janey.

We were at our most sickening,
when Janey yelled:

"It shouldn't bother you, Jim.
Mummy said you used to be a sailor."

I said, "Yes, but right
now I wish I was ashore".

Well, this is a lot better than popcorn.

Yes.

Only I wish I was ashore too.

- Janey, not really.
- May I be excused?

- Come, I'll get you to bed.
- Good night, Jim.

Good night, Janey.

And I can see you now.

Not only the good points,
but the weaknesses too and you have some.

- Do I?
- Yes.

You're far too good and far too decent,

but I'll put up with that.

And I suddenly know this about myself too.

That I'm not afraid of liking someone
again, that I don't feel guilty about it.

Much more than that,

that I haven't been trying
to settle for something

only halfway right because of loneliness.

I'm sorry, Jim.

Why?

- Because you don't feel this way yet.
- Ruth.

The first thing you know, I make you
say something you don't even mean.

Ruth, listen.

I love you so very much.

- You see?
- You know that.

Not until I wrenched it out of you.

- Was it painful?
- No.

- Mummy! Mummy!
- I'm coming, dear.

- What a time. Are you waiting?
- No, I think you ought to stay with her.

It's getting late, Ruth.

- I'm sorry.
- Oh, please.

Mummy, quick!

I'm coming, dear.

She's fine this morning.
After school absolutely perfect.

Expects to see you tonight.

Come as early as you can.

Yes, Ruth, goodbye.

- Sorry, Jim. Do you have a moment?
- Yes, of course, Roy. Come in.

I was with Andrew the weekend.
I suppose you know what I'm referring to.

I think so.

I knew something was going on
when he asked me out of the house.

- Hasn't been quite a while, you know.
- I'm sorry, Roy.

I'm sorry, you're always so damn sorry.

Why don't you say what you mean?
Why don't you say you're so happy?

I... I don't know what I'm saying.

Need to make all that difference?

No, I suppose not.

It's just not easy, you see.

Anyway, there's a real
future for you here, Jim.

I wish you luck. I really mean that.

Thank you, Roy.

Well, what's the matter?

What is it, Gertrude?

It's not true.

No? Well, listen to this.

"The photograph on page 1 pictures
James Fontaine, alias James Fuller,

"convicted of abduction of nine-year-old
Patricia Ellsworth of London...

- Arnold!
-"...to commit rape".

"Released after serving a
sentence of three years."

"How this admitted sexual psychopath uses

"his freedom is illustrated
in our photograph.

"It was taken on the
carnival on Saturday afternoon.

"He was in company of this child
for more than an hour,

"buying her ice cream and taking her
on some of the rides.

"One of these rides was a catapult device
operating with particular violence,

"capable of shocking
and frightening a young child,

making her cling to the adult."

Arnold...

"Fontaine has been questioned
in the still unsolved rape and murder

"of 11-year-old Louise Springer..."

Jim, I want to ask you a question.

- You said it isn't true...
- But that picture...

- But three years ago...
- Of course it's true!

Is this you? Fontaine, three years ago.

Well, look at this.
Of course it's true, newspapers don't lie.

That one does.

They print trash!

I've told you time and again
not to bring it in here.

I knew I'd seen him somewhere.
This is what I saw.

Jim, is Fontaine your real name?

Why keep asking him questions?
He's the one.

First that little girl in London
and now probably...!

Quiet! Go into the kitchen.
I want to talk to Jim.

- I won't leave you alone...
- I said go into the kitchen.

All right, mother.

But I'm not going to have him in my house
another night. We're decent people!

He can't come back under this roof
after taking little girls...

Jim, you didn't escape from prison?

They released me, I'm on parole.

- But how could they possibly...?
- The doctors recommended it.

They agreed I was well.

- Well?
- I was sick, Gertrude.

I didn't understand what I was doing.

But how could you do a thing like that?

- I'm trying to tell you!
- It said with intent to commit.

- Then you didn't really?
- No!

But you actually did take
that poor little child!

Imagine the terror!

How she may feel for the rest of her life!

I've dreamed of it,
Gertrude, a thousand times!

The nightmare I had the night
you came into my room...

And Mrs Leighton?

- How is she going to feel when she sees...
- Listen to me.

That little girl in that picture is
her daughter, I was just taking her for...

Her daughter!

Please, leave this house.

Pack your bag at once... and get out.

Northern Reporter?

I'd like to speak to Mr Austin.

Austin here.

This is Jim Fuller.

What do you want, Fontaine?

You wrote that story about me, didn't you?

- Yes.
- Why?

I'm a newspaper man, Fontaine.

I was a dirty rotten thing to do.

Well, I'm sorry you feel
that way about it.

Why did you do it?

I don't owe you any explanations,
but I'll tell you.

Since that night I met you at the police
station I've been interested in you.

I wanted to do an honest story about you.

Honest?

I wanted to know how a sexual psychopath
functions when they let him loose.

When I saw you that day
with Mrs Leighton, I wondered,

- How can a chap that likes little girls...?
- Damn you!

Do you want me to hang up,
Fontaine, or do you want to hear?

And why should you want to know
a woman like that?

I found out where she lived.
I was on the house,

weekends especially.

And the first weekend that I was there
I knew what you were after.

What do you mean?

I knew that sooner or later you'd be taking
that little girl off alone.

Listen to me, Austin.
I'm gonna sue you and your paper!

We have enough lawsuits
pending to pay for half of England

and I'll tell you something else.

Very few of them collect.

- I'll collect.
- Will you?

You have a record of child seduction,

you were called in on the Springer case.

- But last Saturday...!
- You were with the Leighton girl!

Holding her hand, buying her ice creams.

You lousy...!

No, no, Fontaine.
Let's not act like a psychopath.

If you wanted to stay out of the papers,
you should have kept your nose clean.

Stayed away from little girls.

I didn't think you could though.
None of you can.

- Listen!
- I'm listening, Fontaine.

- I want you to...!
- You want me to what?

I don't know.

Yes, Mr Smith.

Room 23.

Number, please.

Give me Wellington 2184.

Sorry, sir. There isn't a reply.

Let it ring, somebody must be there.

Sorry, sir. Shall I try again?

Yes, try it again after a while.

Yes?

Still no answer, sir.

What time did you make it?

At 11:15.
I'll keep on trying if you like.

No, never mind.

- Good morning, Mr Fuller.
- Good morning, Inez.

Good morning.

I wasn't sure you'd be in.

I saw no reason why not.

- Let's not beat about the bush, Jim.
- All right.

I was found about it last evening.

Actually I didn't see the paper
until this morning.

I hate that filthy rag.

It was Milne who called me.

I don't mind telling you
I slept very little last night.

I didn't do much better.

It's barbaric the way they go after
a man and they hound him to death.

- I'm not quite dead yet.
- Jim, will you tell me something?

How'd it happen that
you took Janey to that carnival?

Any reason why I shouldn't?

- I didn't ask you that.
- Ruth asked me to.

She wanted to cook the dinner
and promised Janey we'd take her.

I knew that was it.

- Mr Clive...
- The day the police telephoned me...

- ...that was the Springer case?
- Yes.

You must have gone through agonies.

Mr Clive, you said
we wouldn't beat about the bush.

I've become very fond of you,
Jimmy, you know that.

You're going to fire me, is that it?

It sounds brutal put that way.

- I guess because things are...
- That filthy rag!

I never read it myself, but there are
thousands of people who do.

They mentioned that
I worked here, of course.

Yes. If the basis of this organization
wasn't essentially public relations...

I understand perfectly.

- Do you really?
- Yes.

You'd like me to go at once, I suppose.

Jim, I'm in touch with organizations
of many kinds all over the country.

I should like to help you
to make a fresh start.

- Will you let me?
- Thank you.

There's a check here for two months' pay,
actually it's for work already done.

Please, take it.

If there's anything about the report
you'd like to discuss...

Not, that won't be necessary.

I see. And if you don't mind,
I'd like to wait in until Ruth comes in.

She's not coming in today.
She phoned me earlier.

Goodbye, Mr Clive.

Goodbye, Jim.

Come in, quick!

For God, Jim!

- Jim!
- Ruth!

- You look exhausted.
- So do you.

Come to the kitchen,
I'll get you some coffee.

All last night I waited for you to come.

- Come here?
- Yes, why didn't you?

I phoned till after 11.

- And you were here?
- Let me explain, Jim.

When I got home
from the office just after six,

the reporters started calling.

Could I give them a statement?
Could I tell them where you were?

They kept talking about
the Northern Reporter

and I hadn't even the slightest idea
what they were talking about.

It was Margaret came over with it.

Her husband had brought it home.

They kept calling and calling,

asking all kinds of intimate questions
about you and Janey and me,

and it was so terrible
I just decided not to answer.

And by the time I realized
that you weren't coming,

that you might be phoning,

I just couldn't.

And Janey?

I sent her over to Margaret's
and had to stay the night over there.

I just said I had to go
back to the office.

Jim, I don't understand.

Why did the reporters call here

if the story didn't mention
Janey by name?

Austin must have told them.

The man we met at the pub?

He's been delighted to have the other
papers follow up what he started.

Jim, why didn't you come?

I don't know.

I'm tired, Ruth.

You went to the office?

I spoke to Clive.

He was awfully upset.

- Did he tell you I was through?
- No.

I am.

It took courage to go there.

- Took more to come here.
- To me?

I wanted to tell you.

I know that.

Not just the other night, but long before.

- That is my fault.
- No, none of it.

- Now in this rotten way...
- It doesn't matter, Jim.

It doesn't matter? Ruth, what might
have been possible, barely possible,

but now... this way...

And what about Janey?

Janey doesn't know and there's no reason
why she ever should.

Ruth, you and I alone perhaps.

But Margaret and her husband.
What did they say?

- You can't even tell me.
- Margaret tried to understand.

But he couldn't.

The children on these
streets must be protected.

- Jim!
- Mummy!

- Jim!
- Janey, no!

Margaret said you'd be here
and you'd have my lunch ready.

Well, it isn't ready yet, Janey.

Why don't you go over to Margaret's
and wait until mummy calls you?

Would you do that, Janey?

Yes, Jim.

Leave it, Jim.

Oh, hello.

What time is it anyhow?

Listen.

Two.

Do you think it's tolling for me, doctor?

This is a hell of an hour in
the morning to get literary!

Sit down.

How can you sleep
with all this coffee you drink?

Good jokes.

Pretty funny, I think.

I must admit that I was worried
about you, but I'm not now.

I see you're one of my fans too.

Claudette of the department
told me about it.

Seemed that a reporter from one
of the dailies phoned her.

He's looking for an angle
on you that they can use.

He even suggested that they help him
get an interview with you,

that he'd see that his paper handled
your case with sympathy and restraint.

Sympathy and restraint.

This funny man had the nerve to say
that he thought it would be helpful

if you'd make a statement pleading
with the man who killed Louise Springer

to give himself up.

From one sex criminal to another.

Only, he said, we'd make it perfectly
clear that you had reformed.

Reformed.

It's a good likeness anyway.

You cut that out.

Now, is that Ruth's daughter?

What was going on between you two
when this picture was taken?

I was getting ready to assault her
on the merry-go-round.

All right, I'm sorry.
I asked for that, but you know what I mean.

Well...

I think it was taken right after
she first told me she loved me.

And then I realized for the first time
what I felt for her

and what a beautiful
thing that feeling was.

Have you been waiting here all
this time for me, doctor?

What do you think?

Doctor, I...

Come on now, come on.

That's it.

Here, you drink this.

What's the matter?

Are you offended because
it's not in a glass? It's good whiskey.

Have another.

That's enough, you may
get to like this stuff.

- Better?
- Yeah.

- Did you eat anything today?
- I'm not hungry.

Well, I'm a fool, I'm a sick fool.

I'm sorry to disappoint you,
but you're neither.

I haven't cried like this since...
those first days in prison.

After the way people probably
treated you today...

Oh, I called Clive, he's a human rat.

No, he's not.

Don't you defend him.

He's a gutless piece of human being.

What he had to do he did.

But I don't see when are you
gonna start fighting back.

It's easy enough for you to say, doctor.

I suppose it is.

Jimmy, why didn't you come earlier?

Why didn't you come this
morning, or last night?

I don't know.

Most of the time I've just been
running around in circles.

- Trying to get away from people.
- Pretty hard.

Yes.

They seem to be everywhere.

It's one of the horrors
of our modern cities.

- Have you got a cigarette?
- My usual brand.

How you feel, I suppose
you can smoke even these.

Doctor, I made up my mind.

I want to go back to prison
or to some hospital.

- Why?
- You know why.

No I don't. Tell me.

Let's not play one of those
psychotherapy games on me. Not tonight.

You tell me why you want to go back.

Because I'm sick, because I'm not fit
to live around people.

You mean that people are afraid
to have you living around them.

- What's the difference?
- There's quite a bit of difference.

Believe me, if I thought there was the
slightest danger of your being sick again...

There is.

You're upset and you have
every right to be but...

Doctor, I want to go back.

This girl Ruth. What happened with her?

I see.

- Are you going to send me back?
- No.

What do I have to do?
Do I have to run amuck?

- You couldn't run amuck if you wanted to.
- Doctor, please.

James, people have strange
ideas about mental illness.

They haven't educated themselves
out of the Middle Ages yet.

Do you want me to educate them?

Do you want me
to go through all kinds of hell

so that you can rub your hands together

and say you're making
some kind of progress?

Sit down, Jim.

Well, you're right.

I am treating you as a
statistic instead of a friend.

Friend!

A friend, not a nickname,
not a patient, not a parolee,

but a friend.

And not a man that
you drink a glass of beer with

and he slaps you on the back perhaps.

But I have a feeling if I were
in trouble, in real trouble,

you'd break your neck to help me.

Well, wouldn't you?

- You know I would.
- Thanks.

But you're in trouble now, Jim,

and it's not your fault
and that's what makes it harder,

that's why I have to talk to you straight.

When I'm finished,
if you feel like,

I'll see to it that you're
admitted to a mental institution.

- Fair enough?
- Fair enough.

First, you know that you can lead
a normal life now, don't you?

I mean Ruth proved that.

Ruth and her daughter or rather
you did it with their help.

I don't want to talk about them.

You proved it once, you can do it again.

But if you want to live that life,
you have to start now,

because if you go into an institution,
you'll give up, slowly but surely.

Instead I have to go around posing
for newspaper pictures.

You stop that!

If you want to feel sorry for yourself,
I'm not your man.

Don't you understand
it was the wildest kind of accident that

that vulture from the newspaper
caught up with you?

It could happen again.

Sure it could happen again,
and you could get hit by a car,

and you could drown in a bathtub,
but the chances are enormously against it.

- I'm tired, Doc.
- Jimmy, you can start again.

Right here, if you like.

Or maybe in another city,
the department could arrange it.

And sit on a powder keg
and wait for the next blow-up.

That's a chance you'll have to take.

Because it's either that or slow
deterioration in some mental ward.

- I don't know.
- I do.

I do, Jimmy.

There's one more thing finally.

Something you know pretty well by now.

I can help you, but I can't
solve your problems for you.

It's up to you.

How about it, Jim?

I guess you win, Doctor.

You've got that a little twisted,
my friend.

What you mean is you win.

Hello, Jim.

Hello, Ruth.

Will you come in?

- I'm sorry to surprise you like this.
- It's all right.

I was afraid if I wrote...

I was sure I would find you on a Saturday.

- Can I get you something?
- No, thank you.

- You've had a long trip.
- I got an early start. It's not too long.

It's a nice flat.

It's not a rooming house,
which is what I like about it.

Nobody bothers you.

Usually, you mean.

How did you know where I lived?

Dr McNally.

- Clive told you about him?
- Yes.

- I've seen him several times.
- McNally?

- How's your job here, Jim?
- It's all right.

Clive was a big help,
I suppose you know about that.

I knew you wouldn't want me to come.

- It was nice of you.
- Do you think that's why I came?

- Please, Ruth.
- I don't blame you.

Ruth, whatever the reason,
please don't feel sorry.

Just try to forget it.

Do you think I ever can?

I or Janey for that matter?

She asked about you, by the way.

She asks about you all the time.

I'm sorry, Jim. I don't mean to cry.

All the way down here I said to myself
no matter what happens I mustn't.

- Please, Ruth.
- Jim!

I did that four weeks after you'd left.

All my life...

You couldn't help what you did.

Doctor McNally tried to
make me understand that.

At first I didn't want to
discuss Janey with him.

I was too ashamed that I
just wanted to forget.

All I wanted to ask him
was to reassure me,

to convince me that
there was no chance of anything.

He refused, I was furious at him.

All he would say is that you are well.

And he made me talk about Janey.

Made me tell him what happened,
made me admit...

He can be cruel.

You wouldn't think that at first.

I guess you know that better than I.

In the end he told me
that it was my problem

and that he couldn't solve it for me.

Jim, do you still want me?

More than anything in the world.

You know that.

Yes, but would you hold me
and tell me that?

Oh, Jim!

Ruth, have you thought what
it would be like being with me?

I have.

Any minute some of these memories...

As long as we are together...

And Janey?

I don't know, Jim.

I have to be honest. It'll take time.

Maybe a long time.
I would be lying if I said it wouldn't.

Anyway there is time now.

Lots of time.