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MAN: Number eight!

There you go, just walk normal.

NARRATOR: Selection for the SAS...

..is a test like no other.

There are absolutely no prizes here.

The prize is finding out
who you really are.

Move!

(BLEEP) listen
to simple instructions.

A new group of celebrity recruits

have volunteered
to put their privileged lives behind.

You're about to get tear-gassed.

I'm a lifeguard.
You look like a fucking Viking.

In my eyes,
if you're not first you're last.

Your place is questionable
in this course!

Fight.

They'll be put through a tougher,

more intense selection course
than ever before.

We're going to get to the bottom
of who they really are.

Lean back, lean back.

Go!

Break, break, break, break!

Hey!

Oh.

Let's go!

This is it, this is it.

Let's (BLEEP) go!

The most brutal test so far...

Oh, shit, come on, team.

Let's go.

..drives one recruit.

This is (BLEEP) it.

..to cheat.

What the (BLEEP) are you doing?

Koby.

Cheat!

Plus...

I almost was on the street
with my three kids.

So that was pretty shameful.

..their darkest secrets...

I walk around with it every day
and it's killing me.

..will be reviled.

My sister battled
with mental health.

She's gone now

and I kind of regret
not being there for her more.

What would you like, guys?
Porridge or an egg?

It's dawn on day nine
of SAS Selection

and yet another intense day begins...

Just get out of the way, bro,
when you've had your food.

..as duty recruit
number two, Koby, serves breakfast...

This way, Kob, serve yourself last.

..everyone's exhausted and on edge.

Mate, stop telling me what,
you stand there, I'm doing it.

It's the order.

When it's your turn,
you can stand back there

and I tell you.
OK, just don't tell me.

It's the order, mate,
you have to serve yourself last.

Hey, let's stop bickering, guys.

You've got to serve yourself last,
that's what they said.

Yeah, I don't give a (BLEEP), bra,
just shut your mouth.

Jesus, alright.

Yea, but, bra,
I'm just trying to do me best, bra.

I'm not trying to, I'm not,
I'm not going to get the...

Just make sure
there's enough for you.

I feel like I'm going to faint,
Jett,

and you're telling me what to do.

You're all grubbing and snatching,

Jett, Jett,
you didn't get another one.

Appreciate it.

Jett, sorry for swearing at you,
buddy.

I didn't mean it.
I'm starving and I feel sick.

Hey, everyone's
on a little bit of edge.

I'm just playing,
just playing by the rules, mate.

That's all I'm doing.

I know but Koby's rules
ain't getting the smallest.

Let's have the good lord bless us,
brother.

You want to have a crack, bra?

I'm not very good at it, bra.

That's alright, mate,
it doesn't matter, bra.

Dear, Lord, thank you for this food.

Thank you for the strength
that you've given us

over the next few days,
bless us, give us strength,

courage and resilience
to get through the next 24 hours

and be together as one, amen.
Amen, that's it, brother.

Right, everyone jump on the wagons,
let's go.

As the recruits head out

for another punishing day
on the course...

Find us some food
to eat off the land, bra.

Right, all this roadkill, cuz,
looking (BLEEP) tasty, bra.

Trees or something.

They must dig deep
to find the confidence

to confront
their next combat challenge.

In the special forces,
you have to believe in yourself.

It's not about the physical.

It's all about having the confidence
to commit to a decision.

You need to be confident.

You need to know
what you're capable of

and sometimes you need to push
that to the forefront of everything

to prove to everyone
that you can get the job done.

Confidence is your ability

to perform
in any given task or situation.

Lack of confidence in the SF world
leads to doubt,

leads to hesitation,
all of which costs lives.

I want you all to turn around
and watch the demonstration.

In the ultimate test of confidence,

the recruits must fall backwards
off a 10m high platform,

entering the murky water vertically,
headfirst.

How does this relate to our world?

This relates to standing on the back
of an aircraft,

jumping into the midnight sky
when go cannot be replaced with no.

You've got about three seconds

before it starts going
into hesitation, self-doubt,

all that kind of stuff.

Means you won't do it.

So think about that today, OK,

you're all going to get a chance
to go through that process.

Any questions?

ALL: No, staff.
OK.

Number two, with me.

First to have his confidence
tested...

..is 'Bra Boy', Koby Abberton.

Being a pro professional surfer
at a young age,

you know, I won my first contest
at 17 years old.

Let's go number two, let's move.

I've tortured my body
with big wave surfing.

I've been in a lot of situations
where I've hurt myself.

When I call you forward,

you're going to go
to the end of the board,

you're going to look
over to see,

if it's clear to see
where you're going to land.

Yes, staff.
Yes, staff.

You're going to address me.
Yes, staff.

Thank you.

I was surfing
a really big wave

at Desert Point in Indonesia
and it picked me up

and threw me in the air
and I landed on dry reef.

Feet together.

Hands by your side.

We done the X-ray
and I had a broken back.

When I say go,
you'll put your hands over chest.

Fall backwards. Stay rigid.

Do not tilt your hand back,
do you not tilt it forward.

I'm telling you.

Very simple detail.

Stand...

Well, listen to me.

You trust in me
and have confidence in yourself.

Do you understand me?
Yep.

Yes?
Yes, staff.

Well, we're not going to break
your back now, are ya?

No.

I've lived a life of torture
in some sort of way

of pushing my body to its limits
and it's starting to show now.

Stand by.

I'm constantly in pain,
most days of my life.

Go.

Majorly overcompensated.

Suck it up number two.

Away you go.

Having hit the water with his face
and torso, Koby has failed.

Growing up as the son of
Grant and Lisa Curry Kenny,

you're kind of given this label...

I don't want any (BLEEP) swan dives
off you?

Do you understand me?
Yes, staff.

..but you can obviously
try and make your own path

and try and be your own person.

Please, staff.

I just see myself
as a normal person.

When people ask me what I do,
I just say I'm a lifeguard.

Stand tall for this
and look forward.

Do not break that position.

I think people probably get the idea
that I am confident...

Stand by.

..but I like to think of myself
as an overachiever.

I set my standards very high.

Go!

Not bad, not bad.

Away you go.

Hitting the water headfirst,

number seven, Jett,
has passed the task.

Land on your head.

Alright, let's go.

I think what's really going to be
of benefit to me as an actor...

Let's move.

..is my preparation.

Clear your mind.
You're good at that.

I know when I'm prepared.

I have immense competence
'cause I've led films before.

It's a lot of pressure...

Go ahead.

..so you've got to put the work in.

I'm by your side.

You might see me doing
a lot of breathing exercises,

because I just know that
it's about me centring myself

and then I will perform to my best.

He'll levitate off.

Go!

He looked like
he'd been shot mid-air.

You felt that, didn't you?

Just at the end, staff.

Let's go!

Tilting his head
and landing on his back,

number nine, Dan, fails.

How do you think you did?

I started well
and I felt my core disengage

right before the end, staff,
so I feel I bailed out a little bit.

Total bag of shit.

Hurry up, number four.

Running was never
what I wanted to do in life.

But once I realised
it was something I was good at,

I set out to try
and do the best you could...

Let's go, move.

..so either a world record
or the Olympic gold medal,

I just think, you know,
if you're going to do something,

do it well.

Don't make a song
and dance about it.

Just get it done.
Put your feet together.

I think this is likely to be

one of the hardest things
I've ever done in my life,

which is also why I wanted to do it.

Do not break that position

because you will (BLEEP)
yourself up.

To have a new challenge
and to think

my kids might think I'm cool
'cause Mum conquered the course.

Stand by.

Go!

Good, number four.

Away you go.

Number four, Jana, conquers the task.

The backwards dive...

Oh!

..is an awesome confidence test.

Hold that position
until that massive head

hits the water is that understood?

Understood, staff.

Go!

Good.

Do you have the confidence
not only in the DS...

Oh, he led with his ass.

..but more importantly in yourself?

You have to just stand there,

stiff as a board
and simply fall backwards.

Good, number 11.

I'd like to say
that I'm a pretty confident person.

You know, I have been able
to overcome a lot of things

that I've, you know,
been through in the past.

Put your feet together.

When my mum was inducted
into federal parliament,

I, you know, gave her a quick call
and I said,

"Mum what's your favourite quote?"
And she told me,

"Nothing is impossible
to those who see the invisible."

Look forward, stay straight
and fall backwards.

So in my life, you know,
I try to envision that.

Go.

Oh.

Yeah, you're winded
'cause you didn't listen.

With a painful belly flop
into the murky water.

Number 18, Jessica, has failed.

Move your little legs!

Last to have her confidence tested

is number eight,
actress, Isabelle Cornish.

Face me.

Being a young woman
in the modelling industry

definitely did affect my confidence.

Confidence, easy right?

Number eight, easy right?
Yes, staff.

Yeah?

Going through
a difficult period of time

and struggling
with my mental health.

I like lost a part of myself.

Do not tilt your head back,
do you tilt it forward.

I would never take away anything
that I went through

or that I learned
'cause it now drives me.

It's what makes me, like,
just keep pushing

and what is making me
do this course.

Hold that position.

Do not break it at any stage.

Stand by.

Go.

Oh.

Massive hesitation there.
Absolute shite.

That's what happens when you have
no confidence in yourself.

Lacking commitment in the dive
means a failed attempt.

I don't think I've ever been pushed
completely to my limit.

But I think a really
high-stress situation

where you've got no control
over your circumstance

would be very hard for me.

So, I guess that's when
I doubt myself the most.

Very simple instructions up there,
wasn't it?

ALL: Yes, staff.

Trust in what I have to say
and have confidence in yourselves.

Number eight, I could see
it wasn't in your face.

It was going in (BLEEP) one ear
and out the other

'cause you were too worried
about the consequence

of what's going to happen.

Number two.
Yep.

You had distractions
in your (BLEEP) head.

Agree, staff.

Number 18,
just overthinking everything.

This tells us about
each and every one of you

now moving forward.

Have you got confidence
in yourselves

and now you know
amongst the group...

..who to have confidence in.

Get into the wagons and (BLEEP)
out my sight, move, go, move!

I want to know what your ashamed of,
I need to know everything like that.

The recruits
reveal their deepest secrets.

I found myself unable to put food
on the table for three kids

because I decided
to chase success again.

I'm very insecure
about being a immigrant,

a South African with coloured skin
in an Anglo country.

I don't want to be
that angry black man anymore.

My sister battled with mental health
for 15 years.

I kind of regret
not being there for her more.

I tell ya a story about Russ,

when we first done the, like,
'Bra Boys' thing.

Yeah.

I wanted to get Russel
to narrate it, yeah?

Yeah.

I started getting this bloke
calling me.

Yeah.

"It's Russel Crowe,"

I'm like, "Mate, just (BLEEP) off,
alright?"

I just don't know who this is.

"I don't know
if it's one of the boys,

"just leave me alone."

Here's Rusty.

I went to his house
and I took my manager there.

My manager
doesn't drink or smoke.

Next thing I look across at him

and he's smoking joints
and drinking beers, mate.

No way, no way.

Russel comes out in a,
the, what's the gladiator mask.

The mask, no, he didn't.

I'm like, start going,
"Where's the gladiator mask?"

Ah, we're wrestling and shit,

like, you know,
having the best time ever.

And my manager just starts going
ah, laughing his head off, bra,

just starts projectile vomiting,
bra.

No, your manager did?

All over Russel's house, bro.

Just looking at him.

But Russel's run back in his room,
bra,

and I'm just like,

"Mate, spew in your shirt
right now, guys."

He's like tucking
his shirt in, ah.

I'm wiping it up,
I'm trying to hide it

and Russel walks in and goes,
"I've got video cameras everywhere."

No.

We had the best time, that was it.

While Koby tells stories
of his celebrity life,

Isabelle withdraws from the group...

..after failing her first test
of confidence in the task.

I can be quite extroverted,
but I can be really introverted too.

When I have had time to, you know,
rest and rejuvenate

and then I'm a very
extroverted person

but when things get stripped away
from what makes me thrive,

I will go introvert

and you won't get anything
out of me.

Number eight!

To find out why
she's lacking confidence,

the DS summon her for questioning.

Turn to your left,
put your hands out.

"Isabelle, who's the youngest sister
of actress Abby Cornish,

"reveals her battle with body image
in the modelling industry.

"Diagnosed with ADHD
at the age of 26."

You're alright?

Yes, staff.

How are you getting on?

I'm learning a lot.

That's a start I suppose, isn't it?

How are you finding it?

Challenging...

..the unexpected
is coming every day.

Everything that I've never
experienced is how I'm finding out.

There's this interesting article
about you being diagnosed with ADHD.

Mm-hm.

How old are you now?

26.

So that wasn't long ago right?

It wasn't long ago
but I've known that I have

some sort of ADHD my whole life.

Talk to me about that.

It's just,
I've always been different.

Says who? Yourself?

Yeah.
OK.

Yeah, yeah,
I've always just felt different

and, you know, that's always been
OK with me.

Yeah, that's OK.

And...

Why is it making you emotional?

I mean,
there's definitely, you know,

all layers of my past,

there's definitely emotions
connected to them.

I can see that.

And like, yeah.

And what sort of emotions?

I'm not really sure, it's just like,

I guess the emotions
that come up for me

is just emotions from, like,
being a young girl

and struggling and not knowing why

and I feel like those are the things
that come up for me.

What have you struggled with?

I had an eating disorder
when I was younger.

And then I've just struggled
with always,

yeah, feeling different.

OK, OK.

Feeling different,
not feeling, like, I fit in,

just...

..yeah, just feeling just like,

I just don't fit
into the normal world.

You say that you're OK with it now?

It doesn't seem like that you are,

it seems like you're still battling
with yourself a little bit.

What triggers those, those emotions?

Is there a trigger there?

That's happened or is it just?

I guess it's the label.
The label.

The label, yeah.

I find that label hard
because ADHD is,

you're different,
you like to different things...

Exactly.
..you've got a different mind-set,

you've got a different way
of tackling things.

So I wouldn't label that
too harshly on yourself.

Exactly, and that's what I think
I struggled with was that.

Yeah, trying to...

When that came to light,

when someone said to you,
"You've got ADHD,"

you were like, "Uh-huh?"

It was like, it was almost like,
oh, now I understand

why I've struggled
but then it was, like, a relief

but then it was like, oh,
it was like baggage with the relief.

Mm, yeah.

So talk to me
about this eating disorder.

Have you still got it?

No, no.

No, did you have it growing up,
did you?

Yeah, I got it when
I went into the modelling industry.

A little period after acting
and that kind of started it all.

Got you.

And it was, like,
a bit of a coping mechanism,

I feel like, as well,

and that's why they say
a lot of the time

that ADHD thing and eating disorders
come hand in hand.

It was something that,
if I controlled that,

then I didn't have to think about
my emotions and things like that.

So, yeah,
so I had the eating disorder

for about a year when I was younger
and then I stopped those habits.

I just realised one day that, that,
that's not me.

I just lost everything that I loved,

just kind of like,
I just lost sight of that.

Collapsed, yeah.

And then when I came out of that
and I realised that,

I was just like, (BLEEP),
like, this is my like, life,

I'm going to do everything
that I want to do.

Mm-hm.

And since that,
like, you know, I'm just,

I feel like I've just become such
a bigger, better version of myself.

Good.

And again the more you experience,

the more life experience
that you have,

the more resilience you get,
the tougher you'll become. OK?

So, don't label yourself.

Don't let others label you

because what we see
is a very, very capable woman.

Definitely.

Guard!

We can take things
that we go through in our struggles

and we can turn them into power.

I like her.

Yeah.
I want to see her at the end.

I hope so.

Back in the day I was scared
to be vulnerable, but now, no.

A lot of power
comes from vulnerability,

saying like,
this is me, this is my struggle,

this is what I'm going through
and I'm still showing up

and I am being open
about everything

and that to me is empowering...

OK, here we go.

..that to me is healing

and this is what makes me
who I am today.

7:35.

Mess room,
that includes you, Gandalf.

In another test of confidence,

the DS have summoned the recruits
to uncover and confront

the traumas of their past.

Alright, listen in.
It's important that we communicate.

It's important
that we're honest with each other.

We know each other inside out.

I want to know
about your weaknesses.

I want to know about
your insecurities.

I want to know
what you're ashamed of.

So, when a weakness presents itself,
guess what?

That's the other person's strength,
they come in and they take charge.

And ultimately that's what
humanity's all about,

is being there for each other.

When I call your number out,
you're going to come out,

you're going to tell us
what you're most ashamed of.

Everyone must be honest
with each other.

Number 11.

If you're honest with yourself,

then you can process
what needs to be processed.

You can acknowledge
what you've already done

and you can move forward.

Family is my world.

It's my priority.
It's my everything

and I had a dream to become
a professional tennis player

and my family, you know,
put everything on the line,

my father had a good job
in the bank business

and quit because he said,

you know he wanted to help me
fulfil my dreams,

so he let go of his dreams
and he worked very hard

and was lucky enough to fulfil
my dreams, you know,

and the good news was
that I could take care of my family,

so they don't have to work again.

No one, you know, my father
or my mother didn't have to work,

but, you know, I got into
a touch situation with injuries

where everything stopped
'cause when you're an athlete,

the last thing
you want to think about,

you know, they always say,

"Save for a rainy day,
save for a rainy day."

And if you, I feel like,

you're weak if you feel like
you might get injured

and you have to have something
to back to,

you know, that's a sign of weakness.

You can't think that way

because you,
you're going to keep going

and you're going to get back
from injuries

and you're going to be OK.

I remember having
my sixth knee surgery

and out for a few months,
couldn't afford much.

Actually I had to ask friends
just to shop for food

but we would always, like,
seven days in a row

we would have this cabbage pasta

that ends up being
one of my favourites bits.

My mum calls it
poor people's food

because it's just so simple.

It's just cabbage,
put some spices and pasta.

I felt very much ashamed

because they gave their dream for me

and my responsibility
was to look after them.

You know, I was in a dark place
and depression.

There's no greater pain
in my heart

than watching my loved ones suffer
because of my actions.

Number 18, come out.

Something I'm probably
most ashamed about

was, 2019 I tried to commit suicide.

Instantly, obviously, I regret that.

More so the fact
because I've got my son

and that I could of left him
without a mother.

I got to a point
where I was so low in my life

that I couldn't talk to anybody
about how I was feeling.

So, I thought that, you know,
the easy way out

would be the right way
but it wasn't.

So...

..that's part of, you know,
the reason why I'm here

is to find myself
and to grow as a person

and to learn from my past.

When I'm at home,
I have a vision board

and on that vision board
heavily features my little boy.

Before I came in here, especially...

..I would scroll through photos

just to try to really put...

..many images of him and my partner
in my head as I can.

And I just, every photo,
it's like I see us fishing,

I see what he's wearing,
I speak to him on face mic,

and every single moment
is just in my soul

'cause I was there.

And it was the time
when he was born,

and I just look at the photos
and I was there,

I wasn't, I mean,

I was in the photos
but I wasn't there.

I wasn't there because of my ego.

I was thinking
about the next meeting,

the next this, the next that.

Whatever it is in my mind
and I'm thinking,

(BLEEP), I'm just trying to provide
for my family

and just the outside pressures
that I,

or perceived pressures
that I put on myself.

So...

..I had to pick something
I was ashamed for, it's time.

It's time.

I wasn't there because of my ego

and that's why I do the work
every day.

Mine's not so much a,
anything that I'm ashamed about.

With one of them,
the others more about me,

a weakness that I have as a man.

And I'm very insecure about,
you know,

being an immigrant South African
with coloured skin

in an Anglo country

and I carry a huge chip
on my shoulder about that.

The constantly proving myself
and my self-worth,

it's just what we inherited
as South African's

being a part of the Apartheid.

I inherited it from my father

and I walk around with it every day
and it's killing me.

It's really killing me

and every day I try
and put out love

and overcompensate with my love
and my friendship

because I don't want to be
that angry back man anymore.

I don't want to be that.

So, that's me.

Number 16.

I've had a lot of personal issues
going on

which then
turn me to drink and drugs.

I caused a lot of pain for my mum,
she doesn't deserve that.

She's a great mother.
I love her to bits.

I caused pain
for all my three brothers,

I love more than this world
and, you know, on top of that,

it stopped me seeing my kids
as much as I'd want.

And that's the biggest pain
in my life at the moment.

I've let my addictive personality
take me to the wrong road.

I think I've been,

probably the last five
to seven years,

a pretty average son,
brother, uncle,

and more recently boyfriend.

So...

..as much as I understood
the pressures and the commitment

it took to become
a professional footballer

and get the best out of myself,

I think the collateral damage
with that is your family

and that's definitely one thing
that I've recognised recently

and the people
that are always going to be there,

are always your family.

My mental health suffered
a few years ago

and when I came out of that,

I realised I'd lost my friends
and my family

and everything that was,
mattered the most to me.

Since that time,

I work on strong relationships
with my family

and my friends constantly.

I think my most shameful moment

was in my final year
of medical school.

I budgeted, well, I thought
was I budgeted well for my family

as a single mum with three kids
to get through medical school

and then found myself
unable to pay the mortgage,

unable to pay,

put food on the table
for my three kids

because I decided
to chase success again.

So, I had to go cap in hand
to my old 70-year-old parents

and ask for money
to survive that year,

but it's fairly humiliating
to think at 30 something years old,

I almost was on the street
with my three kids.

You know, all this success,
what does it mean

if you can't provide
for your family?

So that was pretty shameful.

And I'm a bit nervous to admit
that to people.

That's it.

My sister battled with mental health
for 15 years

but for me it was kind of just like
why are you doing this to yourself?

Jett Kenny's inner turmoil.

Everyone wants to do
the best they can

for the people that they love,
but was I a good enough brother?

Number two, let's go.

In an emotional honesty test,

the recruits open up
about their personality anguish.

So we made a documentary
about my life

and my brother's lives.

In the opening scene
I said that

my little brother's dad
hit with me a baseball bat

but he didn't hit me
with a baseball bat.

He chased me out the door
with a baseball bat.

I walked in
and they were using drugs

and they chose me,

they chose drugs over me

and chased me out the door
with a baseball bat

but for some reason in the doc
when I was asked about it.

I said that he hit me.

I think it might affect
my brother's relationship

with my dad and it kind of burns me.

And I've never told him that.

And I think it hurt him,
so it sucks, but it's what it is.

He was a piece of shit but, yeah.

Amen.

Number seven, let's go.

(BLEEP), god.

I guess the biggest thing in my life
is never feeling good enough.

I've set my standards very high,

but if I don't get to them I just,
I put it all back on myself.

And I let that affect me heaps.

I guess a way I kind of
became like that was with my sister,

she battled with mental health
for 15 years

but for me it was kind of just like,
why are you doing this to yourself?

I never fully understood it.

My sister, Jamie,
did struggle with mental health.

We did everything we could do
as a family

and for Jamie to try
and bring her out of it

but unfortunately
that wasn't the case.

She got told she wasn't
going to make it till 30,

she got to 33.

And...

..I guess, there was one thing
I said at her funeral.

I'm not going to say it
'cause it was very personal

but I remember saying it to her
the night that she asked me,

this question,
and I gave her the honest truth

and I was hoping
that was the harsh reality

that she needed.

Hearing it
from her younger brother,

but she's gone now.

I kind of regret not being for her,
not being there for her more.

To me, it was like,
you have the willpower

to change your life
and to turn things around,

but that is me.

I can't speak for someone

who is going through mental
health issues

because I've never been there.

If I feel like I've (BLEEP) up,
then I'm in a different place.

And that's something
that I really struggle with

and I like to set my standards high

but again
when I don't achieve them, it shows.

So...

Everyone wants to do
the best they can

for the people that they love,

but when you can't,
it makes you question yourself.

Like, was I a good enough brother?

It takes a lot to get me to cry

but I cried at Jamie's funeral
and the night she passed away.

That's my older sister,
of course I'm going to miss her.

These regrets,

these things that we're ashamed of,
we can draw strength from them.

There's always a positive to be had,
out of a negative.

That's how we come out on top.

But if we ignore failure,
you're ignoring life.

Embrace it.
Use it to your advantage.

Learn from it.
Grow from it.

Become a better version
of who you are.

This is so important

because it will bring you together,
whether you realise it or not.

And over the next couple of days...

..you're going to need to know
each other inside out,

pick each other up and use...

..whatever insecurities,

weaknesses that you have
to your advantage

'cause the moment
you cut that all out of your life,

is you cutting out 30%
of who you are.

Rather than going in that 100%
of who you are.

Away you go, let's go.

Push it, Jess.

I'm pushing!

A physical test of confidence...

This is it. Let's go.

..sees some recruits play dirty...

Let's break their spirit.

What the (BLEEP) are you doing?

Blatant cheating.

It's not really a win, is it,
if you cheated?

..and others are pushed.

I'm taking one for the team, staff.

..too far.

I'm a liability to the team.

Think about what you're doing.

Deep in the mountain bushland,
the recruits are about to perform

one of the most arduous
SAS exercises,

testing their confidence
in a team against team mission.

Get out, get your Bergens on.

Make your way down to the DS,
move, quick.

Quick as you can, let's go.

OK, I'm going to put you
into two teams.

Red team, listen out.

Team leader, eight, number eight,
team leader, red team.

After failing in the back fall task,

DS Billy has chosen number eight,
Isabelle, to lead team red.

A chance to redeem herself.

Team leader, blue team, number two.

Like Isabelle, duty recruit, Koby,
also failed the previous task

and is made leader of team blue.

OK, you are a part
of a recovery patrol.

You've got to get vital equipment

from this location,
back into safe borders.

Understand me?

ALL: Yes, staff.

Along a 6km bush track,

each team must carry
or drag a 50-kilo tyre,

representing a vital
ammunitions cache

to a checkpoint
where two extra caches are hidden.

All, before lugging them
to a final rendezvous.

The first team to arrive
will be declared the winner.

"Your rendezvous is that prominent
single track coming in

"from that left-hand side."

The caches will be marked
with a red symbol. Understand?

Yes, staff.

It'll obviously be
coloured coded, yeah.

OK.

So, you need to stay alert
as you're covering the ground

to keep your wits about you
as you're moving.

You (BLEEP) put a rock up their ass,
anybody that's lacking,

you keep the team together

and you move as fast
as you possibly can.

Do you understand?
Yes, staff.

I'm a natural-born leader,
but I love a team environment.

Let's go.

Let's go, guys.

Go, grab onto the rope
and let's pull.

I believe that communication
and trust

will be really important
on this course.

Get into the channel, let's go.

Pull team, come on.

Push it, Jess!

I'm (BLEEP) pushing!

Ah!

The long-haul task is
a way of moving heavy kit

over difficult terrain...

Let's go. Motivation.
Speed.

Come on.
Aggression.

..in a war zone,

you're expected to lug loads,
and loads and loads ammunition

up to a high point.

Let's go!

Carry on.
Get a good rhythm.

Come on.

..so with gun position, it's got
what it needs to support you

when you then go back down
and start doing an assault.

Come on guys, pull!

Just keep going.

It's brutal. It hurts.
Your hips hurt. You're back hurts.

You're trying to move
at the best speed

because you've got an enemy
that are coming at you.

It's not nice
but it needs to be done

as quickly as possible.

Let's go.

Straining against the combined
150kg weight of the tyre,

the chain and four Bergens.

Just keep going.

Try and find the flat spots.

Koby's blue team take an early lead.

Come on, team,

that's what you need
some (BLEEP) aggression.

Just keep this lead!

On the left side,
OK, we're looking for a cache.

Right here, guys.

Start looking around.

Better care.

As they search
for the two hidden caches...

This is the RV,
start looking for your bit of kit.

Is it on that?

We're looking for a tyre
with a blue mark.

..leading Koby struggles
to guide his team.

(BLEEP) me.

Raider.

With no direction from Koby,

number seven, Jett,
and number four, Jana, take control.

There's a blue tyre.

We found blue, we found blue.

Come on then, let's get up here.
Come on.

Let's go.

Finding the first cache...

You (BLEEP) looked straight at it.

Get out of the way, let me roll it.

Push it on top. Throw it on.

..then as they attach it
to the chain...

Come on, let's move.
Blues in this lead.

Let's go.

..Jana locates the final cache.

It's over there.
You got it, Jana?

Yep.

(BLEEP) me.

This is next level, bra.

Let's move, let's move.

Come on.

Now, with all three caches,
the chain and full Bergens.

The blue team are pulling 250kg
with a torturous 2km left

to the finish line.

Come on, guys.

Catch them, catch them.
Come on team.

Let's go.

Not far behind,

Isabelle's red team
reach the checkpoint.

Stop.
Quick, come in.

OK, we've got to go left,
left down this track.

Three people left down this track.

(CROSS TALKING)

Oh, I need more one person down
the track.

Go, Jess, until you find the cache.

With clear instruction
from number eight, Isabelle...

WOMAN: C'mon team.
MAN: Here's OK.

One, two, three.

MAN: Tally the red mark.

..red team quickly navigate...

Cache on the top.

Let's get the next cache,
on your left go.

Here, here.

Come on, guys.
Get ready to receive.

..and find both caches.

Give it here, let's go.

This is where we need to catch up.

In a show of brute strength,

number 16, NRL star Sam Burgess,

takes the weight of the last cache
to himself

in order to speed up
the pursuit.

Come on.

I'm open to see
where I can push myself.

You know, I have a lot of respect
for the DS

and what they've done
and where they've been.

Let's go.

I want to look those guys
in the eyes

at the end of the course
and shake their hand...

Come on!

..and have their respect.

Let's go!

Come on, we're nearly getting there.

I want to go deeper
into myself again

and I don't ever want to go
in that place

where I've been
in the last 18 months.

Let's go!

Come on,
if you can get a little lift there

at the back, it'll help us.

I'm hoping that I unlock something
again inside me.

I'll relight that fire
that's always been inside me

since a young kid.

Swing it. Talk to 'em.
Move 'em.

Here we go, one step,
one step at a time.

Motivate them.

With Sam's sheer brawn.

The red team is in spitting distance
of the blue team.

Right, number two.

Clear that (BLEEP) obstacle.

Good point, good point.

Sort the obstacle, go!

Come on,
let's start using your brain.

Come on, you've got more
in the tank than that, come on.

Come on.

As Koby clears the way
for his blue team...

Come on!

Guys, Koby, help with pulling
until we get past it.

Let's go, bro.

..he also replaces the obstacle
in a bid to slow down the red team.

Koby.

Come on then.

Come on, they're catching.

What the (BLEEP) are you doing?

What the (BLEEP) are you doing?

Come on, team.

Hey.

Come on guys,
let's break their spirit.

Sort the obstacle, go.

Yank it out of the way.

In front by the barest margin,
blue team leader, Koby...

Pull all the way.

..has cleared a fallen branch
to make way for his team...

Let's go, guys.

..but then replaces it to
slow down the red team...

Seven, come on!

Eight, nine, ten.

Branch!

What the (BLEEP) are you doing?

..causing Sam...

Come on, team.
Hey!

..to stumble and fall.

Get up.

I think if we're going to do well
as a collective on this course

then we'll need an element
of trust between us.

Let's get back on that train.

I'm all about pushing the boundaries

but just blatant cheating
than yeah,

it's not really a win, is it,
if you cheated to get a win.

It's not really a win.

Number 18. Grab this tyre.

Right, put that
on number 18's head.

Let's go, come on.
Right. That's it.

Now's your opportunity
to catch this (BLEEP).

Let's go, let's go now.
Let's go lot, let's go you lot.

Come on, team.
One foot in front of the other.

Let's go, let's go!
Pull team.

Go, go, go!

Don't stop, team, keep pulling.

Let's go, team.
We've got this.

Motivating her red team,

Isabelle pushes to make up
the lost ground.

Pull!

Ignore the pain!
Let's keep going.

Come on, team.
Let's go.

Confidence means to me
believing in yourself.

And I've got some one-liners
that run over in my head.

Here we go.
Get a good rhythm.

Keep pulling.
Come one. Come on.

You know, it's like,
you can do this Issy.

You're capable of anything
that you believe...

Let's run, let's run, let's run.

..and move forward, just keep going,
rebound, rebound, rebound.

Let's get past them.

Now just a few metres
from Koby's blue team...

Clear that shit.

..as they stop
to clear another obstacle.

Isabelle's red team drive past them.

Let's get past them.

Go, go, go! Don't stop, team.

This is it, this is it!

Let's (BLEEP) go! Let's go!

Let's push, let's push.

Taking the lead for the first time.

Go!

Let's not let them pass,
let's not let them pass.

Good, good.
Run, run, run, run.

Run, run, run.

We've got the lead now.
This is it now.

This is it!
Come on, team.

This is it.
We're nearly there.

Let's go!

Come on, team!

Come on, everything guys!

Now behind in the race

and with a finish line
just 1km ahead...

Come on, let's use the hill.

..blue leader, Koby,
struggles to inspire his team.

I'll try and lead us.

Number seven, 'Ironman',
Jett Kenny...

Give me some chain, man.

..takes control of the team.

If there's someone
that I can question

their way of doing things...

Stay on the left tyre track, go!

Come on.

..I will happily step forward
if I have to.

Alright, little hill, come on,
let's go a little fast.

The biggest thing that will stress
me out is incompetence.

Go, go, go.

Come on, come on.

If there's a weak link in the team

and I if there are people
who I know

who are just
not giving it their all.

Then I don't want to be held back
by someone else.

Koby, we need you on the chain.

Oh, bra, you just told me
to go back there!

(BLEEP) no, I didn't.

Oi, oi, hey.
In there!

Come on guys, let's stay as a team.

(BLEEP) gaps too small, let's go.

With the blue team now gaining ground
under Jett's leadership...

Come on, guys, let's run.

Let's give it everything we've got.

..Isabelle's red team make their
final push to the finish line.

We're sprinting.

We're going to sprint
all the way in.

We're nearly there.
Once the tyre stops, you're in.

Stop!

Coming first,
the red team start to recover...

Good effort, good effort.

..as the blue team
approach the finish line...

Careful.

..and cross in second place.

Line up here.

OK, line up to the left.

Right, stand here,
line up in front of me.

And pin you're (BLEEP) ears back.

Red team dug deep,
believed in themselves,

got their second wind,

the team leader
started to motivate them

and get them together.

They started to pull together,
so (BLEEP) well done, OK?

You're only as good
as your last job.

This was your last job.

There's nothing worse
than a bunch of headless chickens

all (BLEEP) arguing,

'cause all you're doing then
is burning energy,

wasting time,
and it goes to rat shit

and the proof of that was, you lot.

You had it together
when you're up the front.

OK.

It was all together,
as soon your (BLEEP) with challenge,

that challenge is now the enemy
on your ass and you gave up.

Red team, form two ranks in front.

We're not finished.

Now we've got to get back,
don't we, let's go.

As punishment for losing the task...

Move!

..the blue team
must now run the 6km

back to the transport vehicles,

while the red team
wait to be picked up.

I told you this morning,
we're going to wrap things up.

Now move.

Having pushed so hard in the task,

taking over the leadership
of the team

and now having to run back,
Jett is drained of all energy.

Move, run, move.

Number seven, you (BLEEP) move,

what the (BLEEP)
are you doing at the back?

I'm struggling, staff.
Move.

When you suffer a loss...

Move, number seven.

..is when you don't have those wins
under your belt

and the confidence
starts to play on your mind

and you get a bit flustered.

Number seven, what the (BLEEP)
are you doing at the back?

I'm sorry, staff.
What are you doing?

Don't be (BLEEP) sorry,
what are you doing at the back?

I'm absolutely (BLEEP), staff.

I think the only thing
that's going to make me quit,

will be physically
not being able to continue.

Your (BLEEP) place is questionable
on this course.

I'm taking one for the team staff.

I'm a liability to the team
and I know that, staff.

Think about what you're doing.

The thoughts that are going to
get me through mentally,

I think will just be my family.

Three, two, one.

(BLEEP) off!
Sorry, staff.

Finding the strength to carry on,
Jett reaches the end.

I'd like to think that mentally,

I will be able
to get through most things,

I'd like to hope it's going to take
a lot for me to quit...

..and to be honest,
I hope I don't quit

because I will see that
as a failure.

I had my number in my hand,
like hold it out to him.

Which one is that?

Why, aye, fix that, bra.

You're an Ironman.

You are not a liability.

MAN: Kid, that was hard, that.

Oh, (BLEEP).

After a punishing test
of their confidence,

the exhausted recruits
take time to recover.

You're a weapon, mate, you're...

I can't believe you only said
you went 95%.

I saw you drag it.
My legs, mate.

We had a few, yeah.

Oh, no, we just, we,
the technique we, yeah, no we...

It was cooked.

..'cause, you know
how you guys had a flat.

Yeah.

We needed to do that.

How it keeps falling off,
we didn't adjust,

we just, we were (BLEEP).

Yeah.

I was saying to Koby,
he was like tired as hell.

He was the team leader, right?

Yeah and he's like sitting
at the back of the tyres pushing.

I was like we'll rotate,
we'll go, like,

front to back
and make our way up the chain,

keep doing that.

But he spent a lot of time
at the back like pushing the tyres

which didn't really do anything.

Number seven.

With a confident display
of leadership in the task

and then a sudden attempt to VW,

the DS have questions
for number, seven, Jett Kenny.

Right, first and foremost,

take me back to your meltdown.

You know what I mean?

I do know what you mean, staff.

I'm taking one for the team, staff.

I'm a liability to the team
and I know that, staff.

Think about what you're doing.

What was going through your head?

I felt like as soon as I was
going to become a liability,

I probably didn't deserve
to be there.

Because in my head I've failed.

Were you told by one of us
that you were the liability?

No, staff.

I put that in my head.

So you're planting your own seed
of doubt, is in your head.

Do you feel like
you're not good enough?

Where does it come from?

I mean, I guess I know
my physical limits.

The whole point of coming here
is to see

how far you can push yourself,
not see where your barriers are.

Yeah.

I would say today
when you hit that wall,

you've overcome
a barrier by gritting your teeth,

looking at your number
and putting it back on your arm.

And that's something
I've over the years

of growing up in the sport,
sort of my coaches and my dad

have sort of, like,
just because something happens,

you go all the way
through to the end

and you're going to learn
from those mistakes.

That's exactly right.

Is your father a big motivation
in your life?

He is.
He is.

He is, I feel like...

Is it because of him
you're in the sport or?

Yes, so dad was,
well, start by saying,

big sort of name.

He was a hard worker,
same as my mum.

Both went to the Olympics,

just and massive inspirations
in my life.

They're still present in your life?

Very much so.
Good.

They, yeah,
family's a big thing for us.

And then the only thing
that really affects me emotionally

is seeing them upset.

I remember with my sister
passing in September,

we're all sitting there around
the hospital bed with her,

saying our last goodbyes

and I just remember seeing them
sitting there,

holding her hand,
just being like,

"What more could we have done?"

Mum said it perfectly,

she was fighting a demon
in her head, or demons,

but unfortunately the demons
got her in the end.

She beat some away
but then more had come back.

It was good in a way

because it was almost like
her suffering was over.

So, she battled on
for another eight and a half,

nine hours from when I last saw her.

From when they took
the life support off

and that's what she was,

she was a fighter from day one
until the very end.

You just said one thing
right there

which you need to take with you.

That she was a fighter.

She was.

That will be a huge motivator

'cause I would (BLEEP)
live the legacy for her.

Yeah, that came to my head today,
staff,

when we were pulling those tyres.

I was just like every step
is just one more step

and it was just in my,
in the back of my mind,

it was just,
my sister's kind of there.

What you've got to remember

is not taking that armband off...

Yeah.

..when times are looking difficult
or you're facing failure.

Yeah.
That's called resilience.

Taking that off is never knowing
how far you could have got.

Yeah, yeah.
And you'll always wonder.

Yeah.

Now get your head back
in the game now, OK?

Guard.

Everyone knew Jamie as the bubbly,
bright person that she was.

But when you've got to live
with mental health every single day,

it's not always sunshine
and rainbows.

It's the dark storm
and the rain that comes with it.

Like, it's my eldest sister,
I still love her.

But you can only offer so much.

When it comes down to anyone
with mental health,

you don't really know
what they're going through

and you never will.

How you doing, Jett?
I'm alright.

I've set a high standard for myself

and I've just got to try
and live by it.

It doesn't have to be perfect.
Yeah.

You can't, that's not possible.

No, I know and it's,
there's never been pressure

from Mum or Dad in anyway.

I know which is a beautiful thing,

but I know that you push
that pressure on yourself.

Yeah.
Am I right?

Yeah, I mean.

It's the same thing for me,
if my son played tennis,

I almost don't want him
to play tennis.

Yeah.

'Cause I don't want the pressure
of people looking at him

because that's what
they're doing to you.

I guarantee it.
Yeah.

Well, it's like when I was a kid,
I was never just Jett.

I was always Jett Kenny.
Of course, of course.

Like I always had
my last name associated

because of who Mum and Dad were,

and again, I,

like I got bullied at school
and stuff like that

for who my parents were
and everything.

It's (BLEEP) jealously.

That's just made me who I am today.

I'd like to think that I believe
in myself a fair bit.

But at the same time,

it's a matter
of not having done anything

to warrant heaps of self-belief.

In terms of filling the shoes
of my parents.

I don't think that's anything
that can ever be replicated.

I'll just tell you right now.

Life is tough enough.
Yeah.

Why beat yourself up as well?
Yeah.

You've got your own journey.
Yeah.

You've got your own,
everyone's got their own journey.

I think for me, it's trying to be
the best person I can be.

Trying to be, the person
my mum and dad raised me to be.

I don't need the accolades or medals
or praise from other people.

I'm very content
with doing my family proud.