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Today is the day. Previously...

This is real now.
..four brave singles...

The nerves are getting
stronger and stronger.

..met and married
a complete stranger.

Hello.

While Jay and Luke enjoyed
a fairy-tale wedding...

Look how beautiful she is.
Oh, stop.

The match is perfect.

..a shocking declaration
at the altar...

I love you.

..set alarm bells ringing
for bride Laura.

The vows. It sounds like he's pulled
it off the internet.

He's admitted that he has.

What?

I'll go and Google the rest
of our relationship, shall I?

This is a wedding.
You should be showing up for it.

Especially if you're marrying me.

This programme contains strong
language

Tonight...

I cannot believe
I'm getting married.

..as four more singles take
the ultimate gamble on love...

I'm getting married to a stranger.

..there's an excruciating start
to married life for one couple.

You're not going to drop me.
No, I'm not going to drop you.

We're just...awkward.

I'm terribly sorry.

I just feel awkward.

While one bride's big day...

How gorgeous are you?
Oh, well, you know.

..is overshadowed.

I don't know how this is going to
go, and I am honestly dreading it.

I've got a huge fear
of being rejected.

SHE SIGHS

This queen does not carry
her own bags.

Where's my ring?
Oh, yeah, I've got it.

As two newlywed couples jet
off on their honeymoons...

Shall we find out where we're going?
Yes.

I'll let you read it.

"As you'll head off
to a romantic trip

"to the beautiful Caribbean
island of Grenada."

Oh, my God! "The perfect way
to start your journey together."

Jeez!

Oh, I'm buzzing. Buzzing! I am.

Mexico!

Amazing.

..the experts have matched
four more strangers to embark

on this year's experiment.

My family describe me
as beautiful, talented.

I'm joking!

I don't know. They'd probably
be like, "Nutty."

And that's what I worry about.

Like, am I a bit much for people?

For some guys.

Why are you nodding your head?
SHE LAUGHS

That's hilarious!

You're like, "Yep, I get it."
SHE LAUGHS

I live on the most beautiful farm
in Cheshire...

..and I'm a florist.

When they're open,
they'll be pretty.

I do love being a florist.

I couldn't imagine me doing
anything else now.

And, yeah, life's great.
It's beautiful.

Like, I love farm life.

Good girl, Freya.

Like, I think I'm an
animal whisperer.

I'll put her on the halter,
and she walks better than my dogs.

SHE LAUGHS

Oh, God!

Aw!

As a family, we're all really close.

There's me, Mum, Dad,
and my two sisters.

I'm definitely a bit more
out there than my sisters.

I like to be the centre of attention

and I like to be, like,
jokey and funny.

And I don't take myself
too seriously.

Maybe I lack in confidence,
but I hide it with, like,

being over-chatty,
do you know what I mean?

But everyone around me
is, like, full of love.

Like, everyone in
my family's got married.

And then there's me,
just bumbling along in life.

And then something clicks
in you where you think,

"No, that's what I want."

Like, I do so many wedding flowers.

I don't want to just always
be the florist.

My last relationship
lasted four years.

I was madly in love.

I felt like I've never felt
with anyone before.

It was a really serious
relationship.

We lived together
and I saw my future with him.

I would have married him, you know?

Definitely. But I think,
at the end...

I don't really know.
I think he just...

He didn't want this.
That's what he said.

He was sat here and he said,
"I don't want this."

You've come out of quite
a serious relationship.

And I understand that you guys
were at the stage

where you were looking at rings.

Well, it was like, he knew that
I would want to get married. Right.

So he would always say, like,
"Oh, which one would you like?"

When it came down to it,
I think he was saying that...

..because that's what
I wanted to hear.

Are you able to take any lessons
from that relationship?

Like, I've never had heartbreak
before and it's terrifying.

And I actually can't believe
that your heart hurts.

You know, that badly.

I imagine there's going to be a bit
of an unlearning process for you

to let yourself into
the next relationship.

Yeah, you're right.

I need someone that's, like,
kind, polite, supportive.

I love a guy in a suit, and I
love a guy that smells nice.

It would mean everything to find

the person I'd spend
the rest of my life with.

Maybe he doesn't have to be,
like, a farmer.

He can just be, like, into animals.

Take life by the horns...
of the bull, is it?

The horns of the bull.

And goat!

I think she's perfect.

I think, just accept that I'm
a bit crazy and weird sometimes.

Do you think this guy will love me?

Oh, God.

CAT MEWS

Cat in the background.

Sorry, shall I lock the cats up?

Yeah, can we shut the door?
Sorry, mate.

No worries.
HE LAUGHS

CAT GRUMBLES

I think the first impressions
people get of you

when you have my kind of accent is,

they call me a posho,
a bit of a snob,

and you lift your nose at people,

which is obviously not the case.

I'm a bit of a country boy.

Well, you did beat me,
which I am mortified by.

Best thing about living
in the countryside

is the nature, the quiet.
There's no rush.

Thank you. Oh, perfect.

So I live with my mum.

My upbringing was very unique.

When I was 10 or 11, my
family and I left the UK.

We moved to Indonesia.

Oh, there's Krakatau.

What my brother and I really had
when growing up definitely
was a privilege.

I think at one point we had three
security guards, two maids,

two drivers at one point, and
someone to look after the house.

It feels like we've had
a life's worth of experiences

before we even left our teens.

I've been unlucky in love
in the past.

I've been treated poorly,
especially when it's come to dating.

My ex wasn't entirely
the nicest to me.

For example, she takes a picture
of me as I'm driving home

and she shows me
the picture and goes,

"Oh, look, Tom, you could
really use a nose job."

She was telling me at one point
I was too short,

too skinny, and I'm too weird.

It was just so many instances
of just being told...

..I am not good enough.

I would say it has impacted
my dating quite a bit.

I've been single three years now.

And it's really hard to put your
faith into someone again

after you've had those experiences,
because you just think to yourself,

"OK, what's going to stop them from
treating me like that again?"

My sense is that you've got a bit
of a blind spot when it comes to

what a good, healthy, positive
relationship can give you.

It needs to be mutually
beneficial... Yes.

..as opposed to a one-sided
relationship

like I've had in the past.

I think that is an anxiety
that I'm having. OK.

It has impacted future
relationships,

but only in the last year
have I realised,

it's largely due to
the barriers I've created.

So I'm coming in ready
to let down the drawbridge.

Good.

I'm ready for a long-term
and committed relationship.

And I do think I'm ready and I do
think it will challenge me.

Family values is probably right
at the top of what's important,

because if someone
doesn't like my family,

if someone doesn't like my cats -
especially my cats! -

it's just not going to work.

I mean, I'd hope someone who's kind,
at least someone who didn't treat me

the way I was treated before.

I think that's the deal-breaker.

So you have Rozz,
who's clearly outgoing.

You have Thomas, who's
a little bit more reserved.

But what we know about this
experiment is that you don't

have to be identical people
to complement each other.

Both animal lovers, both enjoy
the countryside and the outdoors.

They have these shared
interests and passions

that they can start to build on.

They share values, and that can be
the basis for a healthy marriage.

The challenge here, though,
I think, could lie with Thomas.

He talks a lot about his
drawbridge being up.

He's holding on to past hurt.

And I get a sense that he'll be
guarded about letting someone in.

Yes, but Rozz is a big ball
of energy,

whose charm,
eccentricity and optimism

should really encourage Thomas to
open up and be vulnerable again.

Where I also think this match
could work is that Rozz has felt

similar pain, so she will understand
and sympathise with Tom.

I really hope they can bring out
the best in each other.

Me too.

Rozz and Thomas.

The next couple I want to discuss
is Ella and Nathanial...

..who I think are a really
interesting match

and bring a set of life experiences
to the experiment

that we've never seen before.

Hey, bitches.

What would you say
your best assets are?

Personality... These.

No, I'm joking.

God, why does all this shit
come out of my mouth?

In 2018, I was crowned in the top
30 most-swiped-right on Tinder.

But it's ironic because I'm still
single and nobody really wanted me.

Oh, God.

I currently live with and look
after my nan, who is 90 years old.

I do all of the cooking
and the cleaning.

I've made you toast,
and there's some rum.

Me and my nan have loads
of fun together.

God, you wouldn't think I used
to be a make-up artist, would you?

I always like being made up. Aw.

Living with my nan has well
and truly affected my love life.

You know, a bit of a cock block.

You are the only single one
of all my grandchildren.

And I got a load of them.
SHE LAUGHS

Can't bring anyone back there.

Although I did have one experience,

and he'd stayed at mine, and I had
to push him out of the window -

thank God we live in a bungalow -

because my nan probably would have
had a heart attack then and there.

Do you not think I've
got good taste in men? No.

Cup of tea for the queen.

I have an amazing family.

My parents and my three brothers.

As a child, I was very happy.

But I was born in the wrong body.

My parents actually gave birth
to a little boy called Evan,

but I have transitioned into Ella,

who I am now
and who I have always been.

So, yeah. That's you.

All the same jumpers on. Yeah.

The transition wasn't
necessarily just hard for me,

but it was just as hard for
my parents and my brothers.

I think it was so upsetting because
you wanted us to forget...

Who you were. Yeah.

..who you used to be,
and we couldn't do that.

And we tried to support
you as best we could.

But I had to say goodbye
to my brother,

Mum and Dad had to say
goodbye to their son.

Yeah.

And I just still feel a sense
of guilt, that for a stage...

..I didn't appreciate
how hard it was.

No, it was very hard.

And I thought at one point
I was going to lose you.

All I want to do is make
you and Mum proud,

and hopefully it will have
all been worth it in the end.

I am proud of you and I obviously
love you very much, and...

It will all be worth it in the end.

I never, ever would have thought
that it would be my dad,

out of everyone,
that was my biggest advocate.

I love him in this world
more than anything.

He's the most amazing man.

And he's always wanted a daughter,
and now he's got me.

He probably didn't expect such
a wild, crazy bitch, but hey-ho.

If you had to sum up
your relationship journey

in one word, what would it be?

Um...

I think reject is probably
the word that comes to mind.

God.

Just give me a sec.

That's OK. Take your time, babe.

Just because I've been with people,

and they've rejected me
based on the whole trans issue.

I have come across guys that,
once I've told them about me,

they're happy to continue dating,
but they want to keep it a secret.

And I've gone through
too much as a person

to be somebody's
dirty little secret.

Not many trans people do get married
because it's such a struggle to even

get to that point of finding a
partner, let alone getting married.

I've always dreamt of
the Disney fairy-tale wedding

and the happy ending,

but I just never thought it would
actually happen to me.

I actually want someone to be
really proud to be with me,

someone who is equally open-minded,

who is going to hopefully
accept my past.

Because, at the end of the day,
that's all I want.

So my perfect husband

would be tall, dark, handsome.

Nice eyes, nice body.

Good teeth.

I want them to be loving
and caring and emotional.

Not too much to ask, I don't think.

Hi, I'm Nathanial.

I'm 37 years old.

I've just lied.
Why have I made myself 37?

My dating history.

Interesting.

So I'd say my sexuality is fluid.

I identify as pansexual.

And pansexual is fall in love
with the person.

I've been with guys,
I've been with girls.

I'm looking for someone,

and the word is someone -
it's not a gender.

It's all about what's inside.

I just want a person that, like,
radiates love and kindness.

And I don't think
that can be defined by gender.

I just think, just fall in love.

All right. God.
You're getting heavy, you.

I lost my mum at a very young age,
and my dad wasn't around.

My friends became my chosen family.

Being a godfather to all my
friends' children is incredible.

I wouldn't want to
live without them.

They're actually what make
me smile every day.

See ya.

It's what I live for now.
They're just...

Love 'em, man.

Lovely seeing you.

For many years, I've always
said that I wanted children.

I know that I'm gonna be
a sick dad.

Get out.

In terms of your younger years,
you've learnt to

look after yourself,
you've learnt to survive.

That must be quite difficult.

Sometimes going through life
and not having someone,

anyone else to rely on,
it's been hard.

And maybe that's what I search for.

That's the most important thing
in me, is having stability.

I want someone...to be my family,

I want someone to be my rock, and
I want to be someone else's rock.

I do need someone in my life
that has experience, has wisdom,

has gone through shit,
because I have.

I need that to sort of connect
with someone.

I want someone to be my
ride and die.

Someone who's got my back - even if
I'm wrong, they have my back.

OK. This couple are
an interesting match.

These two are both outgoing,
big personalities,

and they're both really eager
to find their soulmate,

someone to have a special
connection with.

These two have faced
a lot of challenges.

They've really had to grapple
with who they are to discover

their true identities.

Ella has faced a lot
of rejection in the past,

and all she really wants is someone
to love her for who she really is.

I think that's the reason why
Nathanial is such

a great partner for her.

He's someone who will be open
and receptive to all,

including trans. To be responsible,
and with Ella's consent,

Nathanial's been told his wife
is trans,

but in every other way, he and Ella
will meet and marry as strangers.

Ella and Nathanial.

With the four singles matched...

I am absolutely shitting my pants.

..they now have to reveal all...

Oh, morning. Morning.

..to their friends and family.

I'm going to be marrying a stranger.

SHE LAUGHS

What do you think, Mother?

She's nuts.

The first day I'll meet them
is on the wedding day.

Oh, no.

Are you in shock?
I'm massively in shock.

Like, I actually have no words.

I'm going to be getting married...

Good God.

..to a stranger.

I don't know, Nan. I'm literally
marrying a stranger.

So... Right.

I am going to be marrying
a stranger.

What?!

SHE SIGHS

I know he misses
having a relationship,

but this is just taking
it a little bit too far.

So what do you think about it?

You're a complete idiot.

So what do you think about it?

You're a complete idiot.

Can't believe... Just a silly boy.

HE LAUGHS

But, look, it's your life.

You're going to do
what you're going to do.

You're an adult now.

I will support you, so...
OK. Thank God!

You never know. It might work out.

Yeah, I might get a daughter-in-law.

HE LAUGHS
I do hope she's nice.

It went better than I expected.

I got rinsed as much as I expected,

but overall, I think she
accepted it with good grace.

Thanks, Mum. Love you.
Love you, too.

What do you think he's
going to be like?

I don't really have, like,
an image in my head,

but I think it's more like,

hopefully he doesn't think
I'm too crazy.

With the morning of their
weddings finally here...

..there's hours to go before
four strangers get married.

But as soon as I see him,
I'm pretty sure I'll know

because I'm a great judge
of character.

Are you?No!
SHE LAUGHS

I could be disappointed,

but no, no, you can't
be disappointed!

It's great! It's going to be fine.
Positive thoughts.

Be fair - what's not to like, Rozz?

You've got to say that,
you're my mum!

THEY LAUGH

I think I'll be OK
until I open my mouth,

and then he'll be like,
"Oh, my God."

Hopefully I don't get jilted.

Hopefully she actually walks down
the aisle, she doesn't see me

and go, "No, OK, I'm gone."

You know, offski.
Let's not think about that.

I mean, yeah, she actually
needs to like me first,

which is unlikely,
but we'll move on.

Don't put yourself down, buddy.
Come on. Let's be serious here.

You're a good guy.

You've been unlucky in love,
if we're going to be honest.

I don't know what to expect.

It's one of those things where when
you've been out of a relationship,

especially for so long as I have,
you don't know how it works.

You don't know what it's like.

I literally haven't been past
a fourth date in three years.

But hopefully today is sort
of turning a corner for you.

Let's hope so.
Let's bloody hope so.

Otherwise, I am destitute.

I'm going to be endemically single
for the rest of my life.

Well, it's a bit of a surprise.

In our friendship group, we always
thought Tom was going to be

the last of us to get married.

So it's going to be really
interesting to see what individual's

been picked for him scientifically.

I cannot believe by
the end of today,

I'm going to have my own husband.

Honestly, like,
I could pinch myself.

This is not a moment
I ever thought would happen.

So are you nervous about
meeting him, El? Yeah.

Um...
SHE SIGHS

See, talking about it
makes me, like, nervous.

We're all so proud of you.

I've had so many people reject me.

They don't give me a chance,
they just see trans

and they don't get to know me
as a person.

I don't want to be stood
there being rejected by him

or his family for something
that I can't change.

This is such a big deal.

Like, I cannot believe
I'm getting married,

and I can't believe I'm
getting married as Ella.

Like, I'm actually me.

I would just love to be able
to tell my six-year-old self

that, actually, it's going to be OK.

Stand by yourself and be brave
and be you, because you're going

to have the best life,
and you're going to get married,

and you're going to be
that Disney princess

that you always dreamed of being.

And you're going to find
your Prince Charming.

I can't believe I'm getting married.

I'm nervous.

There's a lot riding on today.

Hey. Hi!

My friends are my family.

I'm so happy they're here
to support me.

I'm getting married, guys.

Ah! That's crazy.

I know who I want to be with.

As soon as I see her for
the first time...

Like, you can read people.
..I'll just know.

Like, everyone I've fallen
in love with and been with,

it's the first time I saw them,
I knew.

And this is really scary,

because I don't want to be
put off straight away.

I think I've got so many thoughts
and things going on in my head.

It's pretty scary.

Like, what do the experts
think I need?

But I'm ready.

I'm really ready to meet someone.

Ella, are you ready?

I'm ready.

I love you.

I love your dress.

I feel like a princess
that I dreamed of being.

I got you a present to wear
for today.

She looks absolutely stunning.

She just looks perfect.

Extremely proud today.

With everything
we've been through in the past...

Yeah, extremely proud.

It's just the icing
on the cake, really.

Come on, then.

SHE MOUTHS: Hello!

I am very nervous.

I've been unlucky in love
in the past.

However, it's time to put an end
to that single-life chapter

and to start anew.

I'm ready to find the one.

How are you feeling?

Nervous, but I'm better now that
I'm sat next to you.

I can't believe I'm getting married.

I've always dreamt of this day.

I've got a chance to find true love.

OK, here we go, folks.

I can't believe I'm about
to meet my future wife.

It is unbelievable.

I'm putting everything on the line.

I just hope I don't get hurt.

Good luck.

You look very smart.

Ooh, ooh, out the window.

Did you see a car?

Oh, yeah.

Is there a car?

Oh, it's a tractor?

Oh, different.

Oh!

THEY LAUGH

Oh!

Today is the biggest day
of my life

and I'm feeling
nervous, anxious, scared.

Oh, thank you.

Nearly there, Rozz. I know.

God, yeah,
the nerves are getting to me.

It's really hit me.

I feel scared.

Is he going to be nice?

Is he going to like me?

I'm terrified.

I'm so nervous.

It's very nerve-racking, isn't it?

At least we both feel the same,
so that's all right.

Yeah, we're in the same boat.

The person who's come down the aisle
I'm so happy with.

She seems so lovely and I'm just
so excited to get to know her.

First attraction, yeah,
he's a nice-looking guy, but...

I don't know.

We have come to this beautiful house
to mark a very special day

in the lives of Rosaline and Thomas.

So, Thomas, if you would
go first, please. OK.

I've got to be honest, this last
week, I've been freaking out.

I haven't been in a long-term
relationship for three years

and now I'm getting married
to a stranger.

But I'm here at the altar
as my best self,

mature, independent,
with a lot to give.

I promise to be sincere at every
point during our time together.

And no matter what,
I'll have your back.

Know you can trust me entirely,

but rather than me saying it,
I'll prove it.

This is going to be challenging,
but nothing worth having comes easy.

Thank you.

And Rosaline.

Thank you.

SHE CLEARS THROAT

It's amazing to meet you
and I hope you think the same.

You must be crazy to sign up
to marry a stranger

and you've ended up with me.

I'm sure there won't be many quiet
moments with me around,

but I promise I do listen sometimes.

I can't wait for this crazy journey
alongside you,

growing together
and building something special.

I mean, I don't ask for much,

just three alpacas,
a handful of chickens,

more dogs and a Jersey cow,
and the list goes on.

We can work with that, can't we?
LAUGHTER

Hopefully, you're
a very kind stranger

with the patience of a saint
I'm calling my husband.

Family and friends,

for the first time, I now give
you the happy couple.

Thomas, you may kiss your bride.

Cheek.Cheek.
LAUGHTER

APPLAUSE

I don't think I've ever had,
like, love at first sight.

I was a bit... It's a bit...
It's a lot.

I'm genuinely happy.
I'm genuinely happy.

I hope that she is,
but, if I'm honest,

I'm not getting
the vibe that she's into me.

You all look absolutely beautiful.

Oh, and you are.

Are you excited?

Excited and very scared. Yeah.

In life,
I'm happy with who I am.

I'm happy with my work
and my friends.

There's just one thing missing.

I think love is one of the most
amazing things

and if I could find that today,
that would be absolutely incredible.

Fucking hell.

Oh, God. Now it's real.

There's so much riding on this.

I don't want to face
rejection again.

If this doesn't work, I don't know
if I'm ever going to want

to be with someone or get
married again.

In my past relationships,

when I've met them for
the first time,

I've known at that moment
that I have a connection.

How's everyone?

Hello.

So when I see them,
I think I'll know there and then.

I actually have never been this
nervous in my life.

I didn't ever think I'd see
this day coming.

And now that it is, it's like,

"Shit, I'm actually getting
married."

I really hope that we have a spark.

I'll be really gutted if I don't get
that feeling.

I'm getting married to a stranger.

Fuck.

This is the biggest moment
of my life.

I just want him to like me.

Wow. Hi. Hi.

Oh, thank God you're sexy. Oh!
LAUGHTER

How's it going?
You look absolutely stunning.

So do you. Sorry...
Oh, my God, you're so handsome.

I'm Ella. Nice to meet you.

Oh. Wow.

She's gorgeous, isn't she?

Hi, nice to meet you.
This is my dad.

Thank you.
Wow, you're absolutely gorgeous.

What was your name?
Nathanial. Ella? Nathanial.

He is ticking all of my boxes.

So tall.

Amazing teeth.

Oh, God. He is so fit.

So fit.

How gorgeous are you?

Oh, well, you know.

Wait till you see me in my bikini.

OK.

Seeing Ella for the first time,

her eyes and that smile,

wow. I'm so relieved.

Ella and Nathanial will exchange
the vows that they have written

to each other.

Hi, Ella. Hi.

So, we're going to keep this short,

like the time
we've known each other.

I stand in front of you today
as a man with an open heart and mind

for this process.

I'll be your rock, your friend
and everything in between.

And all I ask
from you is the same.

Here's to our unwritten story
and I can't wait to read it back.

Ella, would you like to read
yours to Nathanial? Yeah.

OK.

Nathanial.

I've questioned if I've ever
been in true love before,

so no pressure.

I've seen how my parents
are madly in love.

I just... Oh, don't, Dad.

SHE EXHALES

You've got this.
You've got it. You've got it.

Come on.

You've got it, you've got it.
You've got this one. Thank you.

You've got it, come on.

I just haven't felt that incredible
feeling of love for myself yet.

In this marriage,

I'll give you everything I have
and I will try my hardest.

Even when things may get
tough, I won't give up.

Except I'm not the best cook,
so don't expect me

to be like Nigella Lawson.
I'm a really good cook.

Oh, you are? I'm a great cook.
Oh, thank Jesus for that.

OK.

Please be open

and I will promise you
and your family and friends

that I will try and make you smile,
laugh, happy and supported

in everything we're about
to discover.

Thank you. Beautiful.

HE EXHALES

I give you this ring
as a sign of my commitment

and in hope of a future full
of love and laughter together.

I give you this ring as a sign
of my commitment

and in the hope of a future full
of love and laughter together.

So now, if you're happy to do so,

you may share your first kiss
or peck on the cheek.

What would you like?

Isn't it obvious?

CHEERING AND APPLAUSE

I'm married!

I think it suits me.

I'm really happy.

I need that spark straight away.

She's blown that out of the water.

She's stunning,

and I really can't wait to find
out more about her.

I think my face says it all.
I'm absolutely over the moon.

He's... Oh, I was about to say
I love him. I don't love him yet.

I hope he accepts me.

Right, you're very far apart.

Tom, you can put your arm
around your wife.

Yeah.

Thank you, mate.

Ow, my veil. Oh, sorry! Sorry.

He's a bit tense.

It's making me feel, like,
a bit awkward around him.

What I'd quite like you to do
is I'd quite like you

to try and turn and give it a dip.

A dip? A dip? A dip, yeah.

Have fun. I've never done
that before.

And then a little kiss at the end
would be perfect. OK.

Just to make the shot perfect.
Oh, my God.

OK. OK. Come on, then, guys.
You're not going to drop me?

No, I'm not going to drop you,
I promise.

OK, what,
so am I dropping back now?

You can hold my hand if you want,
just in case. Oh, right. OK.

OK? Is that OK?
This is so terrible.

You're good, you're good.

Right, OK, so what,
I'm just falling back?

Just lean back. I've got you.
Are you sure? Yeah, I've got you.
Is that as far as we go?

Just see what feels right.

No... OK, go. OK, like that.

That's it, and just maybe
a little kiss.

Are you sure?
Yeah, yeah. OK.

I feel like I'm, like, stressed.

That's good, that's good.
Maybe a little kiss there.

You can lean in?
OK, just a peck.

OK, just a peck.

Is that OK?

A bit awkward, isn't it?

Rosaline seems very nervous.

I'm not sure whether she's not keen
on me

or she's just nervous
with the whole situation.

It's very, very nerve-racking.

I'm terribly sorry.

At the moment, I wouldn't say...

I couldn't say I fancy him
at the moment.

Are we meant to be talking?
Oh, yeah.

Are you OK?

We're just...

..awkward.

I just feel awkward.

Um...

Where are you from?

I was born in Scotland, grew
up in Wiltshire for a little bit,

then we moved to Indonesia.

So I lived in Indonesia
for six, seven years.

Hold on. Where's Indonesia?

So, you know where Australia is?

Where?

Australia.

Oh, Australia!
So, Australia's there.

You know, there's islands
between Australia and India.

Of course I do.

Where is Indonesia, do you know?

So where did you grow up?
Like, where are you from?

Um...

What was the question?
SHE LAUGHS

Where did you grow up?
Oh, where did I grow up?

I've always grown up in Crewe,
but I like saying Cheshire

because it sounds better.
Mm-hm, yeah.

Dad's mum bought the farm. Yeah.
And then we've just grown up there.

And then I have the business where
I grow the flowers on the farm.

I can't wait till you, if you ever
get down to a farm.

It's not usually what Tom
necessarily goes for.

All I can do is wish them
the best for this experience.

Yeah.

Just looking straight at me.

Oh, gorgeous.

I just keep looking in his eyes.

And I'm feeling the vibe.

So I'm hoping he's just going to,
you know, stick one on me.

I hope he does, because I don't mind
kissing him all day long.

This girl is a bit of me.

She's beautiful.

God, you two are very natural
together.

Whoo! Ah, well, wouldn't you be if
you were stood with him?

PHOTOGRAPHER LAUGHS

You are, no word of a lie,

what I wanted but I didn't think
that they were going to give me.

How you make me feel,
like, it's really easy.

Like, really easy.
Yeah, that's how I feel.

I felt, like, an instant
kind of connection

and I'm trying to play it cool,
but I cannot do this for shit.

I'm like, ah! There's nothing
I don't like so far.

We're taking these pictures
and I'm trying to enjoy it,

but I can't.

Are you OK to just give us
a minute? Of course, of course.

Thank you.

Shall we sit? Yeah.

So...

Um...

Oh... Go on, look, it's... OK.

Um...

I don't know how this is going to go
and I am honestly dreading it.

I've got a huge
fear of being rejected.

So...

Um...

Oh... Go on, look, it's... OK.

OK.

I don't know how this is going to go
and I am honestly dreading it.

So I don't know if you've ever
had experience, but I, um...

I, um...

..am trans, I identify as trans.

So I transitioned about
12 years ago,

so everything underneath this dress,
it matches the inside, so... OK.

Have you had experience?
Like, have you ever dated...?

Have you ever met anyone trans?

I have...

I've never dated a trans person.

OK.

Is it something that would
put you off?

100% no.

I'm pan...like, pansexual.

I have had boyfriends,
I've had girlfriends.

It's all about how someone
makes me feel.

OK.
I will fall in love with a person.

Like, if this is really you,
I just want to get to know you more.

OK, so you don't give a shit?

No. You don't care that I was once
a boy?

I don't care.

As beautiful as you are,
it's not all about the outside.

It's about who you are inside there
and up here,

and how you make me feel.

And I'm really happy.

I really am.

I'm quite shocked because this
is not what I'm used to.

All that worry and all that stress,

and actually he doesn't care
and he just likes me for me.

I just want honesty. Yeah.
And I want loyalness and...

I just want to see
who you are inside.

I finally feel like
I've been accepted

and this is all I've ever wanted.

And now we can just enjoy
being us

and this journey that we're going
to have together without the labels.

Oh, you're amazing.

How are you feeling?
I don't know.

I feel like it's just, like,
surreal, isn't it? Yeah.

At first I was, like, chill,

and then I've been going to,
like, scared.

There probably isn't
an immediate connection,

but it's all about personality.
Attraction can grow. Yeah, like...

How did your, like,
photoshoot go?

It was not natural, you know? Yeah.

Oh, I feel like I was wooden.
Like, we were both wooden.

You just don't know at this stage,
do you,

like, if they like you
or how it's going to go?

I'm always the one that, like, they
have to do, like, the first move.

I think if he doesn't go
forward, then I won't.

I'm that type. Do you know
what I mean? Yeah.

Because you've been, like,
like, hurt... Yeah. ..like, guarded,

so, like... You build that wall up.
Yeah.

But, like, obviously, like you say,
like, you've been hurt.

But I wouldn't say, like,
Tom's any different. Yeah.

So you're both going to be like,
on very, like, level playing...

Do you know what I mean?
Yeah. Like...

How long was he with his ex
for, then?

It was probably about
three years, I think.

Was it? She did knock
his confidence quite a lot.

And I think, like,
the best thing with him

is, like, although he's had that,
he's also then very conscious of,

like, other people. Yeah.
And how, like, their experiences

may have, like, affected them
in the same way. It's hard, innit?

I can see why they've matched
you now.

Yeah, I think you have so much
in common.

I think that's, like, a good sign
to start with.

But, yeah, we'll just see, won't we?

Yeah.

Chatting to Thomas's friends
made me realise

maybe, like, why he was a little bit
awkward because of, like,

past relationships and stuff.

HE EXHALES

And then it made me feel at ease
because, you know, I was the same.

There's not fireworks
right now, but it can grow.

So I was talking to your friends
earlier and they were, like,

mentioning, like,
your past relationships.

I've just been told, like,

"I'm too short, too skinny,
too hairy," things like that. Wow.

It's one of the reasons why
I've been single for a while.

But you can't let anyone in
who's not going to add to your life

rather than take. Mm.

When my past relationship ended,

at the time I was heartbroken,

but really, like, I have no, like,
hard feelings to him.

That's good. I just think, like,
he decided, like, what he wanted.

And it wasn't me, and,
like, I can't be sad about that.

Yeah, I get what you mean.

Sadly, some of us...
They don't want us!

We don't make the list,
so I know how that feels.

I completely empathise with that.

It's so hard.
They just never want us.

When she told me about
her past relationship,

how it failed
and how she was hurt,

I did feel that empathy.

It made it easier for me
to connect over that.

We've got that common ground
and we know what we want

and what we don't want.

How are you feeling now?

I feel a lot better now
because I feel like before,

like, I felt like it was a bit
awkward, like, you know. Mm-hm.

But now we can just...
Get to know each other. Yeah.

Like normal. So, yeah.
Yeah, let's cheers to the day.

Cheers. Oh, yeah.

It's way too early to tell
if he's, like, the love of my life.

Oh... Cheers to no awkward
vibes any more.

True.

But my feelings for him are growing.

It's moving in the right direction.

There's someone that I want
you to meet and speak to.

So my nan's quite an important
person in my life.

At the minute, I, like, care
and work and live with my nan.

Really? Yeah.
So she's a big part of my life.

Get her on that phone. Right,
I'll get her on. I'll get her on.

OK, so...

Hello! Hello, Nan.

There's someone
I'd like to introduce you to.

I never thought I'd say this,
but this is my husband.

Yes, Nan. This is real.
Yeah, we're married now.

This is real. We've done it.

I'd like to introduce
you to Nathanial,

so say hello.

This is Valerie.

Hello, Valerie.
I call her Nanny Val.

Hello. How are you?

What do you think, Nan?

He's sexy, isn't he?

Yeah! Don't be stealing my husband
from me, Nan.

I'm, honestly, I'm so happy.

I couldn't have picked
a more perfect person.

And I promise that I will look
after her, OK?

I know, I know!

I promise.

We've got to dance, so I'll speak
to you soon.

I love you.

Really nice meeting you.
Love you. See you later. Bye, bye.

Aw! Oh, honestly.

This morning I was thinking,
"Shit, what am I doing?"

And I'm happy.
I've met someone special.

She's got lots of guts
and I really admire that in her.

I'm really excited just to get
to know her

and I can't wait to see
where this goes.

Now I'm a married woman,

which is just mad to even
say it out loud.

This is probably the best
day of my life

and it's like a little fairy tale,
and I want to pinch myself

because I'm thinking,
"This is just...

"This doesn't happen to someone
like me."

I think I have found
my Prince Charming.

I fucking hope he is, anyway.

Ah! Ah!

Next time...

..four newlywed
couples head on honeymoon.

Shit!

While some take married
life in their stride...

I enjoyed myself.
And you did as well, don't lie.

..others navigate
choppier waters.

Do you think we should cuddle?

You can't force those things.

There is no romance there.

If you're not yourself,
I can't fall in love with you.

You are just lying again.

You're lying in this whole thing.

Fucking hell, this shit is hard.

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