All language subtitles for Xena s03e17 forget me not.eng

Hope.

The child is Hope?

[Sighs] I'm sorry.

I never meant to lie.

[Sighs] Xena, I couldn't
kill her. She's my daughter.

You're a mother! You know this!

I had to save her.
Maybe it's not too late.

She's young. Poison'll kill
her if her powers aren't mature.

Poison?

Xena, she is my child!

She is not a child!

She is a body, a vessel, an
instrument for evil. That is all!

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[Joxer] I'm ready!
I'm ready! I'm ready!

I'm re... [Grunts] Oh.

[Gasping] Okay.

Gabrielle?

Hey.

You okay?

I can't. What's the matter?

Huh? I can't do this.

Okay. Uh, then... Then we won't.

We don't have to. Never again.

What are we talkin'
about? I have to go.

Go? Go where? Hey! Xena told us to
meet her near the Temple of Mnemosyne.

I don't think it's such a great
idea to be walkin' around these...

Wait. Wait!

Hey! Hey. Hey, hey, hey.

Look. Okay. I don't know what's
up, but I know something's wrong.

Maybe I can help you.

No one can help.

It's my memories.
I can't shake them.

I can't sleep. I can't
eat. It's like I'm paying

for something, but I
don't know what it is.

[Sighs]

I have to find the
answer. Okay. Okay, okay.

We'll... We'll meet up
with Xena later. Okay?

Joxer, I have to do
this alone. Wait here.

Wait! How long? I don't know.

[Sighs]

[Ticking, Dings]
That's long enough.

Is this the Temple of Mnemosyne?

Was I supposed
to bring something?

An offering?

Hello?

Wait. Sorry.

Do I know you? No.

I'm not from here. Am I?

Excuse me?

Wait. Did you see her?

You saw the Priestess of
Mnemosyne, didn't you?

And your memory is...

[Squeaking Softly]

The Priestess will see you now.

- Will I end up like her?
- You have questions that need to be answered?

Yes.

I have pain, incredible pain.

I want it to end.

Erasing the pain of
memory comes with a price.

Are you prepared to lose
everything you've ever known?

Yes, I'm prepared.

Enter.

[Man Narrating] In a time of
ancient gods... [Xena Yells]

warlords and kings,

a land in turmoil
cried out for a hero.

She was Xena,

a mighty princess
forged in the heat of battle.

The power.

The passion.

- The danger.
- [Kiaiing]

Her courage will
change the world.

Mnemosyne, Goddess of Memory.

[Woman] You are
haunted by memories,

images from your past.

You want to understand
why they still haunt you.

How did you know that?

When you entered the temple, your
memories became Mnemosyne's, became mine.

We know more about you
than you know about yourself.

But then, that is
why you're here,

to find that part out about
you that you don't know.

Can you help me?

Perhaps.

Your memories are
like a body of water.

Some flow deep,
out of your reach.

Others float easily
on the surface.

Ah. This one's yours.

You could open a pottery shop.

Fill the bowl from the jug.

There is one bowl filled for
every person who comes to us.

Filled with what?
Memories, answers.

Gabrielle, you're about to take a
journey through your memories.

Like a dreamscape? Do not
confuse dreams with memories.

Your memory has three rivers.

To find the answer to your
pain, you must cross them all.

Once you find the answer,
you will have to decide.

Decide what? On whether to
keep your past or forever lose it.

This bowl will hold
everything you know.

If it is every emptied,
so goes your memory.

Do you understand the risk?

I've decided.

I need to know.

[Grunting]

Tough guys, eh?

Well, my friend's in
there, and I wanna see her!

You can see her
when she comes out.

She is with the Priestess of
Mnemosyne, now. Oh, yeah?

Well, um, I got news for ya.

I'll be back.

You're both on my list.

And I'm not takin' any names.

[Grunting]

[Priestesses Chanting
In Foreign Language]

[Grunting Continues]

Gabrielle?

Gabrielle! Aaah!

[Grunts] Ow!

Hah!

Now, I will destroy you
with the ultimate power.

Whahhh.

Gabrielle!

She is on her journey, Joxer.

That Gabrielle is just an empty
shell with no realization of her past.

Get away from her!
How'd you know my name?

I have your memories. Ow.

Whatever. I'm
getting her out of here.

Don't try and stop me.

Your feelings give you away.

If you love her, allow her the
chance to lose the pain she carries.

It's in her memory. Yeah?
Well, I can make her forget.

I'm a very forgettable person!

[Whispering, Indistinct]

[Man] Ah, ah, ah!

I wouldn't do
that if I were you.

What are you doing
here? You don't know?

Oh, yeah!

The memory thing, right?
Got a problem up here?

Bad thoughts
keepin' ya up nights?

Believe it or not, I'm
here to protect you.

Remember when you stole my
powers with that whole scroll business?

I know. Call me a big softy,
but I decided I like ya after all.

Maybe you're here for your
own selfish reasons. Aren't you?

[Shivers] It's called
the River of Wailing.

And just remember,
I did warn you.

[Wailing]

This isn't so bad, Ares.

River of Wailing, is it?

[Gasps]

- Aaah!
- Look out!

- [Shouting]
- Gabrielle!

- [Gasps]
- [Weapons Clatter]

[Groans]

[Wailing]

[Man] I thought you
were different from her.

I thought you had a regard
for life, no matter whose.

You're not going
to die, Crassus.

I said I'd switch you.

Now, if the guards recognize who
you are, I have no control over that.

Don't rely on that. Most
of Rome doesn't know

what I look like, let
alone the prison guards.

They will with this.

Your imperial ring.

It identifies you
in every province.

Show this to the
guards once we're gone.

I'm sorry about what I said.

Wait! What are... I'm
not Vercinix. I'm Crassus!

I'm not Vercinix. I'm Crassus!

My ring. I'm
telling you. My ring!

My imperial ring!

[Cheering]

Tell them who I am!

Yea! [Crassus] Caesar!

No! [Grunts]

[Crassus] Caesar! [Ax Falls]

[Screams]

River of Woe.

You know, it isn't any better
than the one you just went through.

Think about it.

I have.

The last one took me by
surprise, but... I'm ready for this.

I hope so. This river runs deep.

[Cracking]

[Ice Breaks]

Oh, okay. Wait here.

These are your
scrolls. You wrote them.

This is your bag.

[Groans]

Okay. This is your staff.

Huh?

Ooh. Sound familiar now?

Sorry, Jerkster. Joxer.

Joxer. Nothing seems familiar.

In fact, I don't know
what familiar feels like.

High Priestess was right. Gates are
open, but no one's stormin' the castle.

Oh! Oh!

Oh. [Clears Throat]

Now, I am going to teach you...

about yourself.

I'm going to give you
your memories back.

Okay? But, just the good ones.

None of the painful ones.

What you wanted, isn't it?

I don't know.

Sit down.

Sit.

Sit!

All right.

Fix this right now.

Okay.

Good. First one. [Clears Throat]

"Sins of the Past."
[Clears Throat]

"It was a warm day in
Poteidaia, when the bard awoke.

As she moved
softly through the..."

Excuse me. Y-Yeah?

What's a Poteidaia?

[Howling]

[Crunching, Creaking]

[Howling Continues]

So, found a bit of
an ice bridge. Good.

Very good. If I can...

If I can just stay above
the water, it can't hurt me.

Hmm. Interesting.

There's an analogy here, of course.
The water representing our torments,

the ice, the thin layer of control
we'd like to believe we have over it.

- Shut up!
- But it's a false confidence.

If the ice should
suddenly develop a...

[Gasps, Straining]

Help me.

Not my job, my dear.
Well, not yet, anyway.

[Screams]

[Shouting]

I'm sorry, Xena. I
couldn't let you do this.

Is the Green Dragon a person?

Yes. Which person?

The one I'm gonna kill.

So, you have nothing to
say in your defense, Xena.

Xena.

So be it. Tomorrow at dawn, you'll
experience this life for the last time.

You owe someone so much...

that you would just throw
away these last few years?

Yes.

Yah! Say it!

Xena,

if you promise them,
they will banish you.

Please? We can
ride away from this.

[Gasping]

[Chuckles]

Prepared for that, were you?

I can't continue. It's too much.

That's the spirit.
Let it go. [Sobbing]

I mean, what does it matter?

Pain is just nature's way of
saying, "Hey! You're alive!"

Accept it. Who needs the truth?

[Exhales] I can go
back. I have the answer.

Do ya now? Yes.

I thought that I'd never come
to terms with my mistakes,

but I did.

When I visited Xena...

in Ming T'ien's prison.

Can we talk?

Of course not. I betrayed you.

The pathetic thing is...

I thought I was saving you.

My reverence for life kept
a brutal tyrant in power...

and led to my best
friend's execution.

I know you hate me, Xena.
No more than I hate myself.

Scratch my nose, will ya?

Come on.

[Sighs]

You see? [Sighs] Now I know.

Is this something
you... just realized?

Yes. [Shivers]

I-I have come to terms with it.

I just didn't realize it. It
has to be the answer, right?

You are such
a smart little girl.

That's what I like
about you. Hmm.

Now, go back through the
River of Woe, toward home.

Don't worry. If anything
happens, I'll be here to save you.

That is, if it doesn't bother you,
owing a favor to the God of War.

I was right.

I can't see my memories anymore.

Help! What is this?

[Gasping, Screaming]

Aaah!

[Screaming]

[Gasping, Coughing]

[Shivering]

Whoops. I guess you were wrong.

Nice try, though.

You said you'd save me.

No, no. What I said was I will
be here to save you. And I am.

I can't go back. I can't go
forward. I don't know what to do.

Well, seems to me
the answer's obvious.

You could stay here for
all eternity, or... death.

Just tryin' to help.

Very strange. In every story you tell
me, this thing I'm wearing gets smaller.

Is it enchanted?

Uh, yeah, they
are... It is. Hmm.

Gotta be around here somewhere!

I know she...
you wrote about it.

Jerkster, do I live around here?

It's Joxer. Not
Jerkster, it's Joxer.

And no, you don't. You wander
around with me and Xena.

Doin' good stuff, like the stuff
I told ya about in the scrolls.

I'm looking forward
to meeting Xena.

You think she'll
like me? Probably.

Okay! I got it! I
got it. Come here.

Sit down. [Clears Throat]

Are you going to sing that Jerks... "Joxer
the Mighty" song again? I like that song.

Are you kiddin' me?
You hate it. I do?

No, uh, you love it.

But this is the
story of Callisto.

Callisto? Yeah.

Do I like her? No, but I want
you to hear when we first met.

Uh, has, ma... Yeah.

"Suddenly, there he was. He
called himself Joxer, a warrior."

Ha. Well-turned
phrase, I must say.

"But a warrior like no other.
So inept, so clumsy, so..."

Uh, so cleverly disguised
as a bumbler that,

uh, no one suspected
his true warrior nature.

That's nice. Yeah.
Yeah. It gets better.

Lots better. Then I
realized... that's you talking...

Then I realized that I
was completely taken...

by this handsome,
mysterious, dark leader of men.

I'm in love with you?

Yes. Yes, you are.

I think I knew that.

Go on.

So, a thousand men attacked
Joxer. He battled them bravely.

I'm here, Ares.

So you are. I wondered.

I have to go on.

The Priestess said the
answer's on the other side.

What she told you means nothing.

"If you survive, the
answer might be there."

Is it all worth it? Is the quest
for knowledge worth all this pain?

Yes! It has to be. Otherwise,
what's the point of living?

Point? There is
no point to living.

Don't you get it, Gabrielle? Maybe
that's the source of all your pain.

All you've been through. And
Xena... all she's put you through!

Maybe you finally realized it
all adds up to a big, fat zero.

You're wrong! Not with Xena.

We were lost once, and Solan, he took
us to Illusia to give us one more chance.

We found ourselves.

?? [Trumpet Call]

? It begins very small Seems
like nothing much at all ?

? Just a germ Just a
speck Just a grain ?

? But the seed has been sown ?

? And before you
know it's grown ?

? It has spread through
your life like a stain ?

? And its power will strangle
your love and your joy ?

? And its hunger consumes
For it lives to destroy ?

Hatred, Gabrielle. That's
what we're fighting... Hatred.

? Hate is the star It
becomes who you are ?

? Not the hated, but the hater
has a torment that's greater ?

? It will eat you alive
Consume you and spit you out ?

? Hate's gonna win That,
there's no doubt about ?

? Hate doesn't
care who you are ?

- ? Hate is the star ?
- [Straining]

? Learning hate is an art
Even people who are smart ?

? Can be caught Can be
crushed Can be creamed ?

? It has swallowed you whole
Did you think you're in control ?

? Hate you thought Hate
you spoke Hate you dreamed ?

? All your hate gave me
substance Your lives are undone ?

? It's the eve of destruction
Your hatred has won ?

- No!
- Gabrielle!

[Hatred Laughing]

? I never dreamed that
we'd be distanced by a hate ?

? That all the trust
we had would go ?

? How could I hate you ?

? How could it come to
pass This awful twist of fate ?

? How could I hurt you ?

? This madness can't be so ?

? I can't believe it ?

? I never dreamed that
any barriers could rise ?

? Or that I'd ever see
the stranger in your eyes ?

? Our hearts were
hurting both the same ?

? The hurt was
tearing up our souls ?

? The fury in us made us blind ?

? We could not see
beyond the pain ?

? If we can turn again to love ?

? If we can heal
these open wounds ?

? We'll leave this
hatred far behind ?

? So not a trace
of hate remains ?

[Together] ? We'll
overcome our damaged past ?

? And we'll grow
stronger side by side ?

? To stand together
through the storms ?

? We're safe 'cause
love will be our guide ??

[Screams]

[Laughing]

It was worth it.

Then why are you still here?

Answer me.

[Gasps]

Aaah!

Gabrielle, I am catching a ship here that
will carry me close to the Kingdom of Chin.

If there was ever a time
to turn back, it's now.

I understand.

You owe someone so much...

that you would just throw
away these last few years?

Yes.

You!

[Screaming]

[Screaming Continues]

Yes, now you know.

But your strength is gone,
and the truth you looked for...

It's done you no good.

You're wrong!

Wrong! Wrong!
Wrong! Wrong! Wrong!

You aren't Ares.
You aren't a god.

You're from within me. You're that
part of me who wants to hide the truth.

Call me what you will:
your guilt, your denial.

You can't defeat me.
You'll only die trying.

Yah!

That's why you're here as Ares.

Yeah. Ares is the key,

but he's only half
the answer. I know!

It's because of what I did.

It's because of why I did it.

Well, there she
goes without you.

Kinda makes you feel
second best, doesn't it?

Leave me alone, Ares.

Xena has her own
decisions to make.

Really?

Sounds more like
an obligation to me.

Yep. Lao Ma must
be important, all right.

Xena would never do
anything like this for you.

Funny, isn't it? You give
up your family, your home,

your blood innocence,
your daughter,

all because of Xena.

And yet, it's like nothing, compared
to the debt she owes this woman.

Of course, you
could always stop her.

I could never get
to Chin fast enough.

Xena's sure to take
the fastest route. Hmm.

That is true.

You're only mortal, after all.

You could do it.

You could get me
there ahead of her.

Is that what you want?
'Cause you have to ask me.

That is, if it doesn't bother you,
owing a favor to the God of War.

Send me there.

I'm asking.

To prevent a murder.

For the sake of friendship.

Yeah, for friendship.

I wanted to get
there before Xena,

so that I could betray her.

I wanted to betray her!

I gave her everything
and it meant nothing to her!

I hated her for
loving someone else.

Gah! I wanted her to hurt.

I wanted her to be punished.

And I almost got her killed.

Oh.

Why... My hatred and jealousy
almost destroyed my best friend.

[Sighs] So, Now
you have the answer.

The question is,
can you live with it?

Drink. Empty the bowl.

If the bowl is ever emptied,
so go my memories.

And the pain... all that pain.

And the memories of youth,

my parents, my loves.

Your betrayal, the killing,
the death of your child.

And Xena.

Bottom line, Gabrielle,

you won't miss
what you never knew.

Mm-hmm. Yep.

That's it. That's your
whole life right there.

By the gods, I am so
incredibly in love with you.

I wish I could feel that
again. Yeah, so do I.

Take me, Joxer. Now.

Like the time, just
before you saved Ulysses.

Okay.

[Grunts, Muttering]

Wait.

I wanna remember!

Oh! Oh! Oh! Okay, yeah, so do I.

So do I, but not like this.

Is this that centurion gladiator
game we used to play?

No. No.

N-No, no,
Gabrielle. Look. I-I...

elaborated a little bit on some of
the things I told you about you and I.

Um, a little.

Little bit. L-Lot.

Well, a lotta littles.

I lied.

You lied.

What's a lie?

A lie is... me thinking I could give
you back all your happy memories.

I'm just not a part of
those and I really wanna be.

Look. I didn't rescue
Ulysses. That was Xena.

And I didn't give Ares back
his godhood. That was Xena too.

And I didn't convert Hercules
back from being evil. That was...

Well, it was complicated.

And Callisto is not my love
kitten. But look, Gabrielle.

I just want the old
Gabrielle back, you know?

The one that used to smack me on
the forehead and gouge out my eyes.

Just... forget
everything I've told you.

It's not who you are.

'Cept the part about dancing
nude in the rain. That is you.

Joxer? Jerkster... Hey! Aaah!

I have never, nor will
I ever, dance in the

nude in the rain with
you anywhere near me.

Gabby! You're back!

Aaah! Ow. Oh. Yes, she is.

Ah! Oh, oh!

Oh!

Xena.

You knew all along.

That's why you wanted me to wait
at the Temple of Mnemosyne, right?

I wondered how you
made it to Chin ahead of me.

I figured Ares might have a hand in it,
but what I couldn't understand was why.

Nightmares can tell
you a lot of things.

Thank the gods you
talk in your sleep.

I knew this was one journey
you had to make without me.

I'm just glad you made it back.

If I didn't have the painful
memories, then I wouldn't know...

what the good
ones were like, right?

I-I just couldn't let it go,
Xena, no matter what the pain.

- I'm sorry.
- No.

No, it's over. Welcome home.

Hey. Aren't you
forgettin' about me?

No, Joxer, not even Mnemosyne
could help her with that.

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