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Hey.

Hey.

Where are you heading?

I'm just going for a run.

I thought we were gonna talk.

Um, yeah, look, I... I know you want
more of an explanation,

and you deserve one. I just...

Babe, babe, babe, it's not...

It's not about me wanting an explanation.

I just wanna know
what's going on in your head.

I know, I...

I don't... I don't know.

All I know is that my body
is telling me to stop.

Look, I know how hard this has been on you

and I don't want to
make it any harder, but...

can we talk?

I mean, you're the one that told me
to open up to you, so don't push me away.

Honey, I'm not pushing you away. I'm...

You're running away.

I mean, literally.

And, look, I get it.

You're hurting.

I'm hurting too.

But you're not alone in this.

Right? I'm with you every step of the way.

I know.

I know, I just...
I need to run to clear my head.

Well...

Would you settle for a hike?

With me?

Okay.

I can't believe I baked scones
for this woman.

Hope, this is gonna be difficult enough
without you stirring the pot.

I can't help it. The closer we get to
Rose's arrival, the more my blood boils.

Fifty years, Vernon!

Fifty years, she lied to you
and kept you from your son!

I intend to talk to her about that.

Just don't feel like you have to forgive
her that easily. I sure as heck wouldn't.

Don't worry. I know exactly
what I want to say to her.

And I know exactly
which scones I wanna serve her.

- Ah...
- What?

I didn't poison them,
if that's what you're thinking.

A few of them are a little burnt,

and I prefer to save
the nice ones for nice people.

Just promise me
you're gonna be on your best behavior.

This means the world to Denny,

and... and I just...
I wanna present a... a cordial front.

It's like I always say, Vernon.

If you don't have anything nice to say
about someone, say it behind their back.

We're here!

Vernon.

Hello, Rose.

It's been a while.

Fifty years.

But who's counting?

Hope McCrea, town mayor, Vernon's wife.

Not always in that order.

You know, I was thinking...

I appreciate you
opening up to me last night.

I know you said
that it was new terrain for you.

But not as rocky as I expected.

Thanks for making it easy for me.

Well, I am enjoying
getting to know you more.

So, what is it you have planned for today?

Ooh, I got a wild day planned.

I get to pick up Jay's prescriptions,
his protein shakes...

I'm basically his nursemaid

until I ship out
and he goes home to Colorado.

So will you go back after fire season?

Yeah. I mean, I guess I have to deal with
the house and the divorce.

Yeah, that's a lot.

I don't envy you.

Hey, that is a problem for Future Kaia.

Present Kaia is just thinking about trying

your "just like Mama made it"
menu tonight.

Wait, wait.

You're... You're coming?

Oh, you bet I am.

And after that perfect panettone,

I am expecting
the best meal I've ever had, so...

No presh.

- Hey.
- Hi.

You, uh,
left the house early this morning.

Yeah.

I just wanted to make sure, you know,
that everything was ready for you.

Doc, uh, he has some
family matters to attend to.

So your schedule is quite full.

- So it's just you and me today?
- Yeah, just the two of us.

And a room full of patients.
So we should probably...

- Yeah, we should...
- Right.

Uh, coffee is ready.
And I will go and pull your files.

- Muriel...
- Please don't say another word.

But, hey, uh, the good news is that
Lydie said I can move in with her

and we know she blow-dries her hair...

- You don't need to move out.
- I do.

We spend most of our days together.

We really do not need
the added temptation at night, now do we?

Ah, being out here always clears my head.

Denny calls it shinrin-yoku.
It's like therapy in nature.

It's still stunning, huh?
Even after everything it's been through.

Subtle.

What? I'm just saying
the forest is... is resilient.

- Mm-hmm.
- Yeah, so are you.

Let's go this way.
I wanna show you something.

Angel's Peak?

Yeah, there's a vista up here
that's so spectacular

it can literally shift your perspective.
It might even change your mood.

Jack, I don't think a vista
is gonna change how I feel.

Well, how do you feel?

I mean, I know you want to stop trying,

but I'm not really sure
all your feelings around it.

How do you think I feel? Seriously.
I mean, I've wanted this my entire life.

And now on top of all of that weight,
I feel like I'm letting you down.

- I feel absolutely awful.
- You're not letting me down.

I am letting you down.
I know how much you want to be a father.

Well, that's because of you.

I mean, this was your dream.
It's what you wanted.

And it was a beautiful dream.
And now it's become mine too.

I know, I just...
I can't try to force it anymore.

You know, not everybody
gets their miracle baby.

I've tried, and all I have to show for it
is just a mountain of grief.

I know, but I'm not disregarding that,
not for a second.

Look, I never want you to suffer
because of something that I want.

There's other ways of having a family.

I know that this sounds selfish,

and I hate myself
for even saying it out loud, but I just...

I always wanted a child that was my own.

You know, I wanted to look down
at my baby's face

and see my mother's hazel eyes
or hear my father's laugh.

That's not selfish.

I think that's beautiful.

I mean, you want a connection
to the family you lost. I get that.

What about surrogacy?

Look, I've...

Yes, I've considered it, but it's just...

it's physically and emotionally draining,
and I just...

I can't...
I can't put my body through that again.

I can't put my heart through it again.

I had so much faith with this pregnancy.

I can't go through any more loss.

I mean, clearly I'm meant to be
on a different path,

and I'm finally trying to embrace that.

So, did you have a good flight?

Yeah. Yeah, thank you.

Denny tells us you're a book publisher.

That's right. I've been in the business
for, oh, almost 30 years now.

Must be some good fodder
for making up stories.

Oh, hey, how about all that rain?
Seattle got more than its fair share.

We could have used some
down here with our wildfires.

Yeah. Yeah, that was so devastating.
I was so worried about you all.

- I'm just happy we're through it.
- Yeah.

And that you're all here now.

It means so much to me
to have my family together.

- I can't wait for you to meet Lizzie.
- Yeah, me too!

That's all
he ever talks about these days!

- Young love.
- Yeah.

It's a powerful thing.

Yeah, it is.

Okay. Well, you two certainly
have some things to talk about,

so we'll leave you to it.

Give her hell.

Okay.

- We'll see you both for lunch.
- Yeah.

- Hey!
- Put me in, Coach.

Oh, you are in.

And I hope all that, uh,

"I played varsity baseball" talk
wasn't bullshit,

'cause this is a grudge match.

Grudge match?
What's so bad about the Liti-Gators?

Uh, they poach clients
and steal bases, okay?

- Huh. I won't let you down.
- All right. I'm counting on that.

Hey, thanks for asking me to sub in today.

Oh, yeah! Well, I didn't do it for you.

I did it to win.

Balls in!

- Knock, knock.
- Hey!

Hey! Hope I'm not interrupting.

No, not at all. Um, what's up?

So Hazel got a new game
at the food and clothing drive,

and we were wondering,

if you're not busy later...

maybe you'd like to join us
for burgers and a board game?

Sure. Yeah.

Um, I'll stop by after work.

- Need me to bring anything?
- Just your game face.

We take board games very seriously.

I'll see you later.

Bye.

Retrofitted for what?

I've been going
over and over in my head

what I wanted to say to you, and, uh...

Now that you're here, I...
I can't find the words.

It's okay, Vernon.

Go ahead, just ask the question.

How could you not have told me?

That I... That we... had a son?

Because you told me
that you did not want to be a father.

Just because I said
I didn't want to be a father back then

doesn't mean that I wouldn't have
taken responsibility for our child.

I know you would have, but I cared
for you too much to let you do that.

I didn't want you to give up
on your dreams, for him or for me.

It was not your place
to make that decision.

And... And at the time,
the dream was us being together.

No, it wasn't.

I know you loved me, but you wanted
to follow in your father's footsteps,

be a great doctor.

You made it very clear that
that was what was most important to you.

No, no, you were the most
important thing to me.

And you vanished.
You left without a word, Rose.

- Without so much as a goodbye.
- That letter I sent you, I was trying to...

Telling me... Telling me that
you were in love with someone else?

Was it even true?

I did love you, Rose.

But it is very clear to me now

that you did not love me.

Or you didn't know how to love me.

Otherwise, you would have
told me the truth.

Vernon, I just wish you could see it.

I did what I did because I loved you.

Yeah...

I don't trust that woman
as far as I can throw her.

Can you imagine
keeping a secret like that?

Poor Doc.

I've always wondered
what my life might be like

if Nick and I were able to have children,

but to actually discover you have a child
that no one ever told you about?

- It's unimaginable.
- I don't see a way past it.

Well, there has to be for Denny's sake.

You know, I've tried for years
to get closer to Nick's sister Melissa.

But if there's one thing
I've learned about family,

you don't have to like them
to live with them.

Well, at least Rose lives in Seattle.

Well, there is that.
Now, on to more important matters.

Are we having a petting zoo
at the carnival or not?

Well, I would like that,
but isn't it too messy?

Do you think they'll be able
to get past everything?

I mean, it was a little awkward at first,
but that's understandable, right?

Totally understandable.

They both told me
they want to make peace,

so, deep down, I know they'll find a way.

I love how optimistic you are.

Well, family means a lot to me.

You know, after my mom died,

Grandma Rose and Dad tried to immerse me
in my culture best they could.

Put me in Japanese school so I could...

feel connected to my mom, my okaasan.

That's so cool that they did that for you.

Yeah.

And then, um,
when my dad passed unexpectedly,

despite her own reservations,
Grandma told me about Grandpa Doc.

So that if anything were to ever
happen to her, I wouldn't be alone.

Well, they both obviously
care about you so much.

Which is why I have to stay positive,
because otherwise,

I have to admit that
my last two living relatives

might never be
in the same room together again.

And I just can't go there, so...

We will not go there.

Play ball!

Yeah, honey, come on, come on.

Whoo!

Let's go, Brie!

Come on, Brie, let's go!

Okay, okay, okay!

Go, go, go, go!

Safe!

Whoo! Out!

Whoo!

- Nice one, Valenzuela.
- Glad you can catch, Sheridan.

Wish me luck.

Good luck.

So, Brie. What's the deal with you
and the guy with the arm?

Or should I say arms?

What? Nothing.

Cool. Then if you're not gonna
to play ball with him, I will.

Okay.

Whoo!

- Oh! Sorry, I didn't realize...
- No, no, I...

I was just doing the billing
and I dropped my pen, but here, found it.

Good.

Yeah, so what do you need?

I was just looking for Mrs. Watson's
prescription history.

She had mentioned that her, um...

blood pressure medication
wasn't working as well as she was hoping.

And I wanted to see if there had
been anything else that had been prescri...

- That was fast. Thank you.
- Yeah. Well, I'm very good at my job.

Yes, you are, and I respect what you do.

And I respect what you do.
And I want Doc to respect it too.

So do I.

But, honestly,
I mean, this is a small town,

and, I mean, I think
it's kind of silly to think that a...

...a workplace personal connection
would never occur.

I mean, yeah. I mean, that's true.

I'm never anywhere but my workplace
except for when I'm in town

and I see other people
who are also patients at my workplace.

And it would be better
to date a co-worker than a patient.

- Right?
- Right.

So your options are limited.
And then you factor in the compatibility...

And it makes it near impossible.

Not that I'm saying we're compatible.
On paper, anyway.

Yeah, I mean, like,
this was really unexpected.

- It's not what I was looking for.
- No, I know, right?

Okay, so then I guess
we just forget about it.

- I guess so.
- Okay.

I'm gonna...

I have...

Okay, Chef, what's next?

This is just a little context in case
people have questions about the cuisine.

You can tell them that I created this menu

to honor my incredible mother

who I don't see
nearly as much as I'd like.

And I wanted to make, uh,
kind of a mother-son fusion.

I... I don't think that sounds
how you think it sounds.

Yeah.

Yeah, I should probably
write up a script or something.

Hmm.

So is there a fancy food critic
coming tonight I don't know about?

No critic. It's Kaia.

You wanna impress her.

Yeah. Yeah, I do.

I've seen the way she looks at you,
Preach.

Nothing you can do in this kitchen
is gonna change that for better or worse.

Yeah. Try this.

Okay, I stand corrected,
that could change things for better.

Mm-hmm!

Oh my God.

Mmm!

So this path
that you're meant to be on,

I mean, what does it look like?

I just want to make sure
we're on it together.

Of course we are. I...

I just don't know if that includes...

us becoming parents.

You know, I've had...
had four miscarriages and a stillbirth.

I had to bring a child into the world
who didn't even stand a chance.

- I know.
- No, you don't.

You don't know. You could
never truly know what it feels like.

I'm sorry, I'm not trying to pull the
"I'm a woman and you don't get it" card,

because I know that you felt
this loss with me.

Yeah, I did.

I do. And not like you.
I completely understand that.

I felt myself holding them.

Like, each time, each one.

I felt them here with me.
They were so close.

I still want you to have that.

I know! I know, me too, but...

Life just isn't
working out like that.

So I'm gonna give in to fate.

You were right this morning.
I was running.

And when I left LA, I was running.

But you know what?

If I hadn't been,
I never would have run into you.

- Huh.
- And I believe that was fate.

And that's just what I'm trying to do now,
trying to run towards what's next.

So can you just
show me the damn vista?

Because I really don't want
to talk about this anymore.

Yeah, I'm not so sure I can do that.

Why?

I'm pretty sure we're lost.

Of course we are.

Of course.

Oh boy.

- So, Ferris wheel or Tilt-A-Whirl?
- I vote Tilt-A-Whirl.

Says here it's triple the price.

- Ferris wheel it is.
- Mm-hmm.

Oh wow. That's her.

She's very attractive.

Vernon's always had good taste.

Everyone on their best behavior.

We should be saying that to you.

- Ladies. Hope.
- Hi.

Where's Vernon?
I thought we were all meeting here.

Unfortunately, our conversation
took a turn, so he won't be joining us.

I see. Well, if you'll excuse me,
I'm going home to check on my husband.

Denny and Lizzie are over there.

- Nice meeting you.
- Of course.

- Hi.
- Hey.

- Hi.
- Hi. You found the place okay?

- Yeah! Easy.
- Great. This is Lizzie.

Oh, I've heard so much about you.

Put it over there.
And after that, that goes there.

We don't have to store
our whole stash in one trailer.

- How many trailers are you thinking?
- As many as it takes.

We should have more coming in next month.

Got five bags right here.

- That looks good, Jimmy.
- Uh-huh.

One more key.

This one's all packed up and ready.

Fantastic.
Let's move it down to the glamping site.

Jack will be thrilled
to help another family in need.

- Okay, that side is covered and...
- Damn it.

Okay, boys. Let's pack this up and go.

- Yeah, come on.
- Move out, let's go.

All right, let's roll.

Okay, all we gotta do is follow the sun.

We just gotta head south-southwest-ish.

What sun? I...
It's overcast. We don't see the sun.

I can... It's still in the sky, come on!

- I can't see it! Where is it? Hello?
- Oh!

I can't see the light through the clouds,
the forest through the trees.

Mel, please. Come on.
I'm trying to do what you asked me to do.

I'm trying to get us out of here, okay?

Because clearly this was a stupid idea.
I'm sorry.

We just can't seem to catch a break.
I mean, seriously, I don't understand.

We're good people, right?

Why does life keep knocking us down
and kicking us before we can even get up?

And now we're just...
we're just lost in the woods.

Just lost in the woods.

I mean, what else could possibly go wrong?

Are you kidding me?

Oh, come on!

Are you freaking kidding me?

♪ Well, I love the rain the most... ♪

Well, at least we haven't lost
our sense of humor.

Now, look, I know you feel lost right now,

but I promise you we're gonna find our way
out of the woods together.

The literal ones
or the metaphorical ones?

Uh, both.

What?

Oh, thank God.

Damn! That game was ours.

Uh, we were down by five.

Yeah, well,
I work best under pressure, so...

Phew!

Well... I guess thanks
for coming out.

Yeah. My pleasure.

I, um... I had fun.

Ha! Not as much fun as my co-workers.
Think they're your biggest fan.

Oh. Well, what about you?

I mean, you're all right, for a rookie.

- For a rookie?
- Mm-hmm.

♪...a perfect picture
Of this river parade ♪

♪ And I know that I love the rain the most
When it stops ♪

♪ Yeah, when it stops... ♪

Oh, here.

- Don't want you catching a chill.
- Thanks.

Let me walk you to your car, okay?

♪ Yeah, when it stops ♪

♪ The rain, when it stops ♪

Vernon.

- Are you all right?
- Yeah.

Yeah.

You know, it's not too often you get
a chance to look back at your life

and realize that it...

...turned out just like it should.

What do you mean?

Well, there were two ways
this could have played out.

But only one way that led me to you.

And I am so grateful.

Oh, Vernon.

I just don't know how I'll ever
find a way to forgive Rose.

Maybe you don't have to.

Your last patient
just canceled because of the rain,

so you get to go home early.

- Oh! Are you, um...
- No.

I, uh, packed everything up this morning
and threw it in my car.

So I'll just head straight to Lydie's.

Well, I mean, it was...
it was nice having you there,

even if it was short-lived.

And it was nice being there.

Cameron...

I didn't mean what I said
about us not being compatible.

I'm just sad.

I'm sad that we don't get to explore
this unexpected connection.

Yeah, me too. It's been a long time
since I felt anything remotely like this.

I know.

And I don't want to have to cut it short
because of the whole Doc situation.

I mean, we're like Romeo and Juliet
except with the same dad.

Regardless, things did not
work out for them.

Yeah, but I do think
things could work out for us.

Do you really?

Yeah, I do.

Okay.

Then let's find a way.

It's very impressive to see
a woman your age with such a prominent job

in municipal government.

- Yeah? Tell that to my mom.
- Oh, with pleasure!

So, Denny, what, other than Lizzie,

is keeping your interest
here in Virgin River?

Getting to know my grandfather.

But you must have time
for other things too.

Well, a lot of hiking,
and rock climbing, some fly-fishing.

I might apprentice at an auto shop,
but I'd say I'm living in the moment.

And I understand why, but you do have
such a long life ahead of you, Denny,

with so much to experience and offer.

Are you sure you want
to forgo going back to Stanford?

And what about all your travel plans?

You know, when my tests
came back positive,

my first thought wasn't,

"Will I get to graduate from college
or climb Mount Kilimanjaro?"

It was, "Will I ever get to fall in love?"

Oh.

I was pretty sure the answer to
that question was no until I met Lizzie.

And there is nothing
more important to me than being with her.

Yeah, no, I can see that.

So, um, how did things go with Grandpa?

Uh, not great, actually.

But I suppose
that's to be expected.

This is a... a very charged situation
for everyone involved.

And I don't fault Vernon for his reaction,
I'm just...

I'm just so sorry
that we couldn't resolve it for you.

I know you tried.

We both did.

And even though we, uh,
don't see things the same way, I...

I am willing to put the past behind us.

Vernon, you don't have to...

Well, Rose, while I will always regret

not having a chance to get to know Ryan,

I, uh, will not let that tarnish the gift

of the second chance
that I have now with Denny.

Thank you, Vernon.

And I... I just want to say that, um...

that I'm really sorry.

I appreciate that, Rose.

Well... I hear there is a...
a new menu to taste?

You mind if... if we join you?

Please, sit.

It is stunning, isn't it?

Yeah, it is.

It wasn't just the view
that I wanted to show you.

There's something
that I wanted to share with you too.

Look, I know I told you
that when I came to Virgin River I...

I knew that I wanted to build the bar.

And I built a life here.

But that's not...

the whole story.

Um...

When I first moved here, I was lost.

I was broken.

I'd been repressing
my brother's death for years,

and then when Lonergan died, I just...

I just fell into this darkness.

I couldn't get out.

I tried.

Jack...

I had no idea.

But...

I made a decision to keep going.

I know how hard it is. Believe me, I know.

But, Mel, we can keep going too.

We can still have our dream, Mel.

It might... It might not look the way
that we... we thought it would.

It might not happen
in the same time frame as we expected.

But it can happen.

You know, and our children
might not have your mother's eyes.

But that does not mean
they can't have her compassion.

Or her cool taste in music.

We can teach them that.

If that's what you still want.

Well, it is. Yeah, I still want it.

Gotta love Pretty Pretty Princess.

I'm into it.

- This is for you, Brady.
- What?

For me?

- Thank you.
- Yep.

I think that means you win.

Really? Hmm. Does it?

Because normally
people cheat so they can win.

- Is that what's happening here? No?
- What? No!

Can I go draw now?

Sure, sweetie.

You can take that off, you know.

What, this? No, I kind of like it.

My sisters used to dress me up like this
all the time when I was a kid.

Sisters. That's why
you're so good with Hazel.

Come to think of it,
you're kind of good at everything.

Except being honest.

Sounded pretty honest to me.

Uh...

When I was growing up,
I used to lie to keep my sisters safe.

And myself.

I guess I just made a habit of it.

There's nothing wrong
with protecting the people you love.

Yeah.

My ex didn't see it that way, though.

Maybe you should be with someone
who appreciates you for who you are.

Um...

I still have some more work to do.

But thanks for this.

It was wonderful.

Yeah, I should probably get Hazel to bed.

Hey, it's okay.

- It's okay, I've got this.
- You sure?

Yes.

Well, thanks again.

Hey, Brady.

Don't doubt yourself.

Hey.

Feeling better?

Yeah, thanks.

If you're good, I'm gonna
take these extra blankets to the evacuees.

Okay.

And then I was gonna grab us dinner
from Preacher's new menu?

Oh, yes. I would like
one of everything, please.

Okay. As you wish.

♪ For you ♪

♪ There'll be no crying ♪

♪ For you ♪

♪ The sun will be shining ♪

♪ And I feel that when I'm with you ♪

♪ It's all right ♪

♪ And I love you, I love you, I love you ♪

♪ Like never before ♪

Okay.

So, we have

Jamaican jerk chicken and biscuit,

blue crab mac and cheese,
and my pièce de résistance,

smoked venison chili.

I am in a food coma
just looking at it.

Ah, well, my mom always said
anything worth cooking

has got to be love at first bite.

Now, I call this one "Total Smoke Show,"
after someone I know.

And I hope that it is
not too hot for you to handle.

- Hmm.
- Mmm?

Mmm!

Wow.

Preacher, you continue to amaze me.

No, honestly, your mom would be so proud.

So, um, tell me a little more
about this Smoke Show.

Well, I'll save that one for dessert.

- Mmm.
- So can I get you a drink?

I have a 21-year-old bottle
of Fuenteseca Reserva

I have been saving for a special occasion.

Mmm.

Ooh, that sounds pricey and delicious.

- Yes, please.
- Okay!

Hey! Hey, I've been calling,
you didn't answer.

So leave a voicemail.

We just got word
that wildfires have broken out in Alaska.

- We ship out tomorrow.
- I thought you weren't fit for...

Not for the field, all right? I...

I can still stand around and give orders.
They asked me to be Incident Commander.

Which means...
I need you to take over as team lead.

Team lead?
I thought you said I wasn't ready.

I was wrong.

I need someone out there I can trust,
someone on my team.

Are you still on my team?

I... I hate to eat and run,

but I gotta get packed
if I'm gonna leave tomorrow.

- Can we finish this at yours later?
- Yeah. Yeah, sure.

Like I said, Kaia loves her job,
and I'll always be part of that.

Doesn't matter who she works with.

Only who she comes home to.

- Oh!
- Here.

Oh, thank you.

You know... it means so much to me

that you and Grandpa
could come to an understanding.

It's just been...

It's been so tough since Dad.

Yeah.

So thank you.

It's pretty great having my whole family
together under one roof.

Yeah! Well, I'm happy you're happy, Denny.

The conversation
I had with your grandfather

reminded me of something, though,

about the choices you make
when you're young.

And how they can affect
the rest of your life.

Okay.

I have to tell you, I think you're
making a mistake staying in Virgin River.

- Jack.
- Brady, what the hell are you doing?