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Itsuki

This man's name

is Tajjhei Itsuki

In a single generation he's built a construction firm with close to

1,000 employees

This is his story

He's leaving today for a two month trip to Europe

It's for leisure rather than work

Accompanying him was just one of the younger staff he rather liked

A man called Funazu

Shacho, your daughter's here.

What's going on?

She wants to see you off like this I expect!

Kinuko, do you have something to tell me?

No

No, but...

I think I may be

pregnant

That's good news isn't it. You've been to the doctor?

No, not yet.

Please go straight away and get a check up

and look after yourself properly.

It would be nice to have a boy this time!

What do you mean, this time? This is my first child!

Aiko has a girl

I just mean I'd like you to have a boy for me

But, to be honest, I don't really want a kid.

You mustn't say that.

If you have kids the earlier the better!

Maybe you're right.

Well, bye!

He felt alone

He would be all alone in the world.

The thought surprised and gripped him.

Since the death of his wife

He'd seen his two daughters marry

and they were now rather estranged

Now it was him, just him.

Here we are at last!

It's really is Paris!

France!

What are you going on about?

Well, it's the third time for you but the first for me!

This is PARIS!

This was where he had stayed before

an old hotel, unique

which was famous for being relaxing.

And known for it's high level of personalised service

despite it's size.

But it was not very modern

It was in great contrast to some American style hotel!

It was distinctive.

His room was on the 3rd floor...

or rather the 4th floor in Japanese thinking.

It was a little bit dark

but the room itself was bright and cheerful

The windows looked out

across the Rue de Rivoli towards the Tuilleries

Last time he had been here

he had seen children playing,

happy in the Spring sunshine.

Now it was urban: all wet and grey.

Winter had already begun.

Mr Itsuki, shouldn't I be with you?

No, don't trouble yourself.

If I want to go out somewhere I will.

I see.

You seem rather tired.

4 days in the hotel is not like you!

I've never seen you this knackered before

I'm not 'knackered'

Excuse me, I shouldn't have said that!

Your English and your French are both quite good but,

be careful what you say in Japanese!

I'm sorry. I was rude.

I'll have you know I am not 'knackered' ,

nor lying flat out in my room!

I'm taking strolls around here after you go out!

By the way, where did you go today?

I started by climbing the tower in the Place de Bastille

Height 52 metres, 238 steps! It was a hard climb!

You're always going upwards, like smoke!

climbing a high place every day!

First the Eiffel Tower, then le Sacre Coeur.

Yesterday, Notre Dame wasn't it?

It's a bit much to be treated like an idiot!

It's good to get a high vantage point

and compare what you see with the map

Tomorrow I'll climb the Arc de Triomphe.

Then I'll have done the best five sights!

Wonderful isn't it! Yes, it is.

That's Paris - urban planning!

If you climb up to a vantage point it makes it interesting.

A lot of Japanese people come here and see this but

don't really get much out of the experience, it makes me angry!

It's not that they don't have the chance back in Tokyo either.

This is the Champs-�lys�es isn't it.

Shall we go down and walk along it?

OK

It's apparently easy to walk right down from the Arc de Triomphe

It's slightly downhill

The poet Villon was apparently imprisoned here.

Quite a mansion! It's more like a city hall!

That's (Rodin's statue of) the Thinker, isn't it?

It's amazing he (Ishiki) thought!

He was impressed by Rodin

and felt completely overwhelmed.

So this was how a sculptor had to view the body!

In these pieces

the sculptor

had represented all the forms of the female body: it was amazing!

Rodin is a true sculptor.

Although what does an amateur like me know!

I just know these sculptures are the real thing.

It takes an architect to know architecture

and a banker to know banking.

I'm no good for this.

I have always worked at my own field

and it was stupidly simple.

I didn't want the money; I wanted to work.

You've always done more than enough work.

Really? Actually I haven't.

Yes, but everyone says that. You couldn't have done more!

I think that woman's Japanese!

She doesn't look like a tourist though.

I wonder if she works for one of the trading companies here.

She looks rather elegant.

I wonder how old she is?

I'm not sure. Perhaps 24 or 25?

Older than that surely?

Maybe 30? Perhaps 32 or 33.

She looked like she was going to talk to you.

But she walked off.

She was quite pretty!

A bit short maybe!

Really? I thought she was rather tall!

Perhaps you're right!

He encountered a woman walking past.

And that this man should be talking about the woman

is peculiar when you think about it.

But the woman had something about her that encouraged it.

A few days later

Itsuki was in a car sent by another company

and went to see the famous Cathedral at Chartres.

because there were three other passengers

Funzau decided not to go.

Yes?

It didn't take you long!

- How was it? - Beautiful!

You should go!

You've seen Notre Dame's stained glass, but that's nothing in comparison!

Really? That's great. I'd like to go and see it.

Actually I just saw that woman from the other day.

Which woman?

The woman who walked past us at the Rodin museum: remember?

We talked about whether she was tall or short.

Oh yes. Where did you meet her?

- The park across the way! - When?

Just now!

I wanted to have a look at it. It's quite a good park.

Have you been there?

No.

You should go next time you're out for a walk

Well, what happened?

This time I walked past her again, she's married!

At least I'm pretty sure.

She was walking with a kid and someone who seemed to be a servant.

Maybe her kid I think.

She's not at the age to be pushing a pram.

She was out for a walk.

I think she's still in the park.

If the kid walking ahead of her was hers...

she was getting the kid out for some fresh air.

Itsuki decided to go and have a look.

If she was still there...

...he'd try to meet her.

As I thought! She's with a kid.

Let's go back.

Aren't we better off going straight?

You're heading back to the hotel?

No, let's keep going.

It's nice to be able to do that...

Do what?

Just doing what she's doing!

Standing next to your kid playing

and knitting!

Eh? Oh, you mean the woman we saw in the park just now?

Yes

You seem quite moved by it!

I agree!

Was she that pretty? A nice enough face I suppose.

I'm not saying she was pretty, I'm saying it was nice!

Women who knit...

- They're all good! - Really?

I've always found women wearing mourning beautiful...

Knitwear is not bad either!

Wearing mourning

is how they try to purge the way they feel...

That's what's good about it.

You can see that intent.

That's why they look so smartly dressed, and so tense.

But that woman has lost that will, judging from her face.

Her face is blank.

She just looks quiet, calm...

determined.

The dirtiness in a foreign country makes you feel miserable

Perhaps so.

Mr Itsuki?....

What is it?

Has something happened?

That woman - do you think she's happy?

Unhappy? - I wonder!

Itsuki and Funazu left on a ten day trip to Spain

They went south from Madrid on the train to Granada.

Known for the Alhambra palace built by an Arab king

had been something Itsuki had been

looking forward to ever since he had planned the trip.

The 170 kilometres between Granada and Cordoba was

the great olive growing area.

Itsuki was delighted with it.

The vast mosque

was almost untouched

Everything else was less worth seeing in comparison

But it was amongst the quietest of European cities.

The streets were a maze

and the whole town felt like it had slipped back in time.

It had an especially old atmosphere.

Itsuki spent two days

enjoying just walking with Funazu

Late on the evening of their second day in Seville

the two of them went to a bar in the poorer part of town

But Funazu could not help him,

this Itsuki who he had never seen so exhausted.

His firepower was utterly spent! And he seemed utterly exhausted.

Seemed so fragile.

Itsuki would fall down with the slightest touch

"You're exhausted!"

Funzau thought to himself.

When they came back to Paris

Itsuki slept for three days.

He didn't have a fever

He was just tremendously tired.

He slept almost every day 7 or 8 hours

All night I imagined Arabic patterns gleaming on the walls!

When you've recovered we'll go to Berlin and then to London

Then come back to Paris. Then...

how about Rome?

The flight bookings we have make that easy.

- That's probably best then. - Yes.

OK. Please arrange it.

After that I'd like a couple of days. It doesn't matter where

OK. Actually the office here said they are preparing some event for you.

They've asked me to let them know the best dates.

- When would you like it to be? - Whenever.

You decide for me.

It had better be after London or else there's not enough time.

There's shopping to be done, a few unseen places to visit. Lots of little jobs too.

If it's OK with you let's get the Berlin job sorted our before London

"Sorting it out"

isn't necessarily just a simple formality.

The place and the people have to be considered.

They're making a real effort to do something for me.

We mustn't undervalue it!

Sorry.

But I think doing as you suggested is right.

Today or tomorrow afternoon are OK for the local office then.

I'll let them know.

There are lots of people already there: we should go in.

Have you got a cigarette?

Mr Itsuki! Have you lost some weight?

Does it seem so?

Actually, now you mention it, I think you're right.

The hard work of all this new business!

I've realised I can't compete with what you say!

We thought you might prefer Japanese food.

But the rice isn't good!

Don't worry.

I may not be able to eat properly but I can still enjoy looking at it!

and, speaking of eyes, I just saw a very beautiful Japanese woman.

So I'm delighted you invited me here!

- That must be Madame Marcelin. - Madame Marcelin?

She's married to the well-known and very wealthy Pierre Marcelin.

There's some large event going on

I've seen lots of women very elegantly dressed and made up.

Is she well known then?

Well, her husband is one of the most outstanding and richest men in Europe!

She's got in there as the legal wife!

Not surprisingly others may complain!

I've spoken with her and she seems pretty intelligent.

She may well be.

She was clever enough to seduce Pierre Marcelin!

Do you know her personally?

I wonder if we'll have a chance to talk to her?

She clams up when she sees you're Japanese!

She's tactful!

Apart from by Mr Toyoshima, who was a little bit of a fan,

Madame Marcelin was felt to be a bit stuck up.

Both her personality and her background were criticised.

But as far as he had heard,

nobody here really knew much about her.

After dinner they went to the bar for a cognac.

Itsuki liked to drink.

and had always drank whenever and whatever he wanted

But he really didn't feel like it tonight.

This was unusual.

What's up? It doesn't suit you being teetotal!

Don't worry Yajima, I'm having some.

The smell made him faintly nauseous.

He said he was tired and slept heavily.

He followed the conversation but from a distance.

I'm not myself today!

I must be tired.

He felt slightly nauseous and then,

a slight pain somewhere in his lower belly.

Itsuki wanted to escape to the toilet.

But he realised he couldn't stand up.

He thought he might be able to force himself to stand

but was reluctant to risk it.

And he stayed sitting, his body trying to defend itself.

You seem unwell.

Yeah. I feel slightly sick.

I hope it'll pass off.

Is this from when we first went out?

Since I was in the Ritz's restaurant!

Shall I call a doctor?

It's not that bad.

Where and what kind of pain?

I had...

a brief moment of pain a while back but

Now it's gone.

Maybe something you ate?

It started before I ate.

There was some pain in my lower belly.

It's like the appendix.

But mine was taken out!

I think I should call a doctor.

Will a doctor come, like they do in Japan?

If I ask the reception desk I'm sure they can get someone to come.

It's too much bother.

It'll be fine. I'll just stay like this for a bit.

The pain in my belly isn't so bad if I do this.

I don't need a doctor.

If the pain doesn't go

I'll see a doctor.

I really do think I should call a doctor!

You really do want to call a doctor, don't you!

You have strange hobbies!!

It's not a hobby!

I think you should let the doctor take a look at you.

I really do.

Why?

It's hard to explain but...

I just think I should!

Aren't you getting into what's not your business?

Enough!

How about seeing a doctor in the morning?

It's not worth the bother.

I'll book an appointment for tomorrow!

OK?

Did I say it was OK?

Stop fussing as if you were my wife!

I just want you to see the doctor.

That's why I said you have strange hobbies!

Why?

You've lost a bit of weight.

That's hardly surprising, is it?

I've not had anything much to eat since we've been here!

Not having proper rice and no sushi is the cause!

I'm actually doing well to survive!

You keep saying you're tired.

That troubles me!

- Do I say it that much? - You do!

You say it every day and it was twice today!

Are you counting?

No, I I'm not counting but...

Well I am a bit tired.

It's only you who can do all this overseas stuff and not get tired.

Anyway, if it'll make you happy

I will see a doctor.

But I'd like a woman doctor.

A woman doctor?

But not an old one!

A young woman doctor is best.

Young and pretty. OK I'll see what I can do!

I didn't say pretty, don't get cheeky!

and slim rather than fat please!

Do your best, and if possible someone

like Madame Marcelin!

See you tomorrow.

Call me if you need anything.

If I need you if will, and you needn't remind me!

Of course, Sir, Goodnight.

I won't be beaten...

by this illness

When Itsuki awoke next morning he was feeling cheerful.

Last night he'd been so worried about his condition that he couldn't sleep.

This was very unusual for him.

Good morning!

How are you feeling this morning?

Don't treat me like I'm sick again!

I feel fine in both mind and body!

You do seem well!

Yes, last night feels like a distant memory!

You need to be at the doctor's for ten o'clock.

I spoke with Mr Yashima. It's all straightforward.

He knows someone at the hospital.

Eh? You've already set it up?

Yes, we need to be there by ten.

Thank you, I suppose!

But this morning there seems nothing wrong with me.

No nausea, no pain, I don't feel tired...

and I'm hungry!

It was the hunger that woke me this morning!

That's excellent news.

But until they've had a look at you you can't be completely sure.

Even if I'm feeling fine?

Well I've already set it up and...

Can't you cancel it?

I think Yashima went to a lot of trouble so it's difficult to cancel.

- You were a bit too quick of the mark, as usual! - I'm sorry.

And I didn't ask you to do it before I got up!

I'm not going to the doctor.

But...

What do you expect? There's nothing wrong with me!

It's a waste of the doctor's time.

Don't worry about that. It's just a quick check up and I'd really like you to go...

The hospital is within walking distance.

- I don't want to walk. - Well of course we can go by car...

What the hell is the place called?

The Tous Sante (?).

It has a good reputation as a general hospital.

But there's also the Hospital Hotel de Dieu...

Tous Sante? I don't like the name!

I don't like it!

But that's where Yashima knows someone, a Japanese researcher.

Actually the guy isn't a research student.

but a proper doctor called Shiroazaki here doing research.

OK. I'll let him take a look at me.

Actually he's managed to get the head of surgery to take a look at you.

A surgeon?

Yes...

Why a surgeon?

Even if it's not a surgical issue they can pass you on to another department.

What a strange hospital!

But if I'm going to have a check up...

I'd like it done at a good place.

Is there anywhere like a university hospital?

There is one medical university but

the public hospitals are equivalent to our 'university' ones...

Tous Sante is one of them.

Oh all right then.

I'll let them check me out if it makes you happy.

Good.

So I just need to go to the hospital and ask for Shirozaki?

I'll come with you. Sadly Dr. Shirozaki is away at a conference in Berlin.

Eh? He's not there?

He's away for 4 days apparently.

Let's wait until he gets back.

It's best to get the check up quickly.

Why? What are they looking for? There's nothing wrong with me!

You know that's not true!

Don't say so!

It's my body so I should know!

Listen to what I'm telling you! I'm fine!

- Mr Itsuki! - What?

Please go today! We've made all the arrangements

and if we wait for Shirozaki to come back, we'll be off again...

It's best to know for sure!

What do you mean, 'know for sure'?

There's nothing to 'make sure' of!

I know but... What do I have to say to you to make it clear?

OK. But let's go. Please?

You're really forcing me aren't you?

But if I don't force you it'll never happen!

What did you say? You're out of line!

I'm sorry. You're quire right.

Means you're telling me I do this all the time.

Let me make that quite clear to you! And I don't damn well like it!

Thank you so much for taking the trouble to come.

How are you?

What? Oh, I don't think there's anything much the matter.

But Funazu here keeps on telling me to see a doctor so...

Well it's certainly best to be sure!

It's awful being ill away from home. If there's anything I can do?

My boss told me too look after you!

Thank you very much. I'll let you know.

But I hope not to bother you more.

- Let's hope it's nothing. - Let's go.

Here were are!

The first doctor who had seen Itsuki yesterday

shook hands and then spoke quietly through Kishi as an interpreter.

The message was that he should abandon his trip

and return home immediately

and go to the best possible hospital for a second opinion.

So there are several things?

So it seems.

That's why I hate check ups

I've not seen a doctor in ten years.

There's bound to something if you look hard enough!

Hopefully just a little!

I don't know if it's much

but it doesn't seem to be a life-threatening illness.

Let's have a week or so in Rome and then go home.

Maybe Shirozaki will be back from Berlin before we leave but

It doesn't seem to be much judging from the doctor's attitude

but let's get Shirozaki to report to you at home.

It was time to prepare for Rome

and Itsuki spent a couple of hours packing.

Their plans had changed

so it was more like preparing to go home to Japan.

Tonight he was having dinner with Yashima and Kishi

who had been so helpful with the hospital.

So he needed to pack now.

The rest I will leave to you.

I'll sort it out.

Yes please.

Hello? Mr Itsuki? This is Tous Sainte Hospital....

It was the hotel switchboard saying something or other...

Then a Japanese voice came on the line.

It was Dr Shirozaki.

My name is Shirozaki.

I've just come back from Berlin and spoken with my colleague.

Thank you.

Listen, Mr Funazu isn't it?

That's right.

Itsuki should have identified himself but didn't.

He wanted to hear whatever it was as if he was Funzau.

I'm sorry I was away. Did it go OK?

I'd like to thank you for all your help

and I'm sorry to have troubled you. I was going to get in touch.

Let me get to the point and tell you about the patient.

Yes please.

I suppose I had better report to you what my colleague just told me.

I see. So...

How is he?

What's wrong with him?

It's not very good news.

This is not to be said to the patient but...

But I think you should know

I understand.

Simply put it looks like cancer of the Duodenum.

Cancer!

There are various kinds of cancers so...

As soon as you get back to Japan get to a good hospital.

Can we get it operated on immediately?

If this diagnosis is right you would need to.

The problem is... whether or not it's operable..

And if it isn't?

I just need you to be aware it's in a very difficult place to treat.

I'm actually going down South tonight...

or I would have come to see you.

I could have told you about it

in more detail and brought the papers

I'll pop around to the hospital in the morning and get them.

Could you leave them at reception for me?

Of course.

Can I just ask one question? Bluntly?

Yes.

Is there any chance he'll recover?

Because it's something that's happened on a work trip

I'd really like to know

Does he have much family?

No.

Two daughters but they're both married.

His wife died last year so he's alone.

Completely.

If this diagnosis is right

he's in a bad way.

Three years?

Hmmm...

Two?

So one year?

Well, I suppose so. If it's operable.

Best not to tell the patient.

OK. I won't say anything.

I'll leave the paperwork at reception for you.

Thanks. I'll pick it up tomorrow.

Mr Itsuki!

- Funazu, is that you? - Yes.

I'm feeling like I have a bit of a cold so I'm going to stay in bed a bit.

We're having dinner with Yashima and Kiji at 6.

Can you apologise for me? You go!

I'll tell Yashima.

Do you have a fever?

What about tomorrow's trip?

Leave it as it is.

I'm sure I'll be fine with a good night's sleep.

Please tell Yajima I'm really sorry.

I will. See you later.

I'll drop in when I come back and tell you about what happens.

You can tell me tomorrow.

I'd really like a good night's sleep.

If you're temperature goes up or anything let me know.

I'll be back at 9.

Take your time!

It's your last night in Paris so you needn't rush back!

OK

The bad news from Shirozaki felt as if it was in the distant past

rather than just yesterday.

He felt like he'd come through a long, hard struggle of some years

and was now looking back on it from some distance.

It wasn't something he'd achieved himself.

Just some meaningless pause that God gave all his poor, suffering creatures.

It's Funzau.

Good morning.

How are you?

Feeling much better. And no fever.

So we are not going to Rome. Don't delay it, just cancel.

You can go.

You don't need to stay with me.

You've come to Europe and only seen Paris so far.

You should at least see Rome too.

If you come back in a week or ten days that'll be fine.

Then we'll go straight back to Tokyo.

Go to Rome on my own?

It's easy enough to postpone.

You'll feel better after a day or two of rest and...

I don't want to go.

Are you worrying about what the doctor said?

I think that doctor overstated it!

I'm not going because I just don't want to go!

And I'm telling you to go because I think you should!

Think about yourself for a change!

You ought to go shouldn't you?

But...

What"but"?

Are you worried? Then don't go!

I'm just not sure I should go separately. I came with you.

Next time I'll bring someone else!

I thought to show you some foreign places. You've never been abroad before!

OK. I'll go on my own.

Is it OK to go for a whole week?

A week, or ten days if you like.

I'll be back in a week

Funazu said what he thought he should but

he clearly didn't fancy Italy on his own

but he was off the chain!

Itsuki knew he owed Funazu for looking after him and needed to repay it

and he thought this would be that repayment.

... and If he didn't act quickly

he wouldn't be able to pay back at all!

After sending Funzau off, Itsuki left the hotel

and walked among the people in the street

Until now he had always been with Funazu but now he was alone

Death and he walked through the city at the same pace

He was heading to the hospital

to collect the detailed report

Some papers? Dr Hirozaki?

yes, of course

Thank you

He couldn't tell what was written there,

but it looked ominous to him

Even the livid purple colour of the ink was difficult to look at comfortably

If he looked at it he felt nausea rush up inside him

Tumour

Stomach Cancer - the "crab"

The next day and the day after

he stayed shut up in his room

There was no distinction between day and night

He woke and slept fitfully

He was thinking about suicide

He would die within a year anyway

But there was no need for suicide immediately

He thought about this

and his thought of suicide changed

You! Who are you?

You know very well who I am

You as an angel of death? Why?

Are you saying that I look like her?

Madame Marcelin, was it?

Why her?

I am you!

A version of you

A reflection of you

Hello?

Mr Itsuki?

Yes?

It was from Kishi

but he didn't want to see anyone It was from Kishi

He didn't want to be seen either

Hello

Hello

But Itsuki

had felt close for some time to this youngster called Kishi

If you're eating steak for lunch there's nothing wrong with you!

Just because I'm ill doesn't mean I have no appetite!

Until this morning I haven't felt like eating anything

At last I have my appetite back

Well it's good to hear that

But of course, I am ill

You seem to be enjoying being ill

Enjoying it?

Is that what it sounded like to you?

Itsuki suddenly recalled looking up the German word

and discovering it meant 'cancer'

The German word 'Krebs' also meant 'crab'

There's a crab eating into my duodenum

This piece of meat

was feeding the crab that was devouring him

Mr Itsuki?

Mr Itsuki? Is something the matter?

Err, well...

If he ate he was 'feeding' this cancer, but thinking this way is a bad idea!

He couldn't remove it from his duodenum himself

But if he couldn't, in order to beat it

he had to eat and keep eating

In order to live a bit longer he had to eat!

I don't think it's a good idea

to stay cooped up in the hotel because Funazu will be coming back

How about a trip out of Paris?

This weekend my wife and I

are going to the Bourgogne region to see some Romanesque churches.

Do you fancy joining us?

Bourgogne? Thank you!

Will you come?

You said on...

Saturday?

It's Wednesday, so in 3 days

Yes, it's 3 days from now

I see. Normally I'd be very grateful but I am not sure at the moment...

I'll call you the day after tomorrow and we'll see.

He stopped staying cooped up in the hotel

From the next day Itsuki left the hotel every day at 8:00

and wandered the streets aimlessly

Paris was in the grip of winter

This wandering made him feel more at ease

To a casual observer

he looked like any foreign tourist

but he was not free of this issue of death,

even for a moment.

Death, like his shadow,

followed him

and matched pace with him wherever he went

I often wondered what the word 'transmigration' meant

'the flux of life, death and rebirth'

It means that people are born and then die.

No matter how many times you die

you will be reborn.

Isn't that it?

Just that and no more?

It's obvious, I suppose.

Suffering:

all life is suffering.

.

Don't you remember those words?

What?

They're from a book you read

years and years ago!

You underlined them in red!

You hated your father and your new mother

Around the time you ran away from home, still a junior high school student!

It's from the Bible, the book of Ecclesiastes.

I did, I remember it!

"Vanity of vanities: all is vanity.

What profit hath a man of all his labour which he taketh under the sun?"

"one generation passeth away...

and another generation cometh: but the earth abideth for ever."

the sun also ariseth and the sun goeth down

and hasteth to his place where he arose."

It was so unexpected!

Those words from his youth, almost forgotten...

came flooding back and out of his mouth

Itsuki thought about his dream of the previous night

and wondered who he was waiting for

Who did I want to meet?

Someone who made me glad to be alive

That seemed to be what he was looking for in his dreams.

You mean more than just a friend!

Not just because

you notice that you have been starved of that kind of friendship for a long time

Work. Work. Work!

It was work from dawn to dusk!

I wonder if it was worth it in the end...

I built roads and bridges and buildings.

but whether it was my 'work' I don't know

I did things if they were profitable;

if not I didn't do them.

Is that sort of thing work?

Little insect, so rich and with gold in your storehouse

(the insect in the song symbolises wealth)

Poor insect! Living until it got so cold!

So cold, until it's so shrunken and shivering!

By chance I found out how long I have left to live

There must be loads of people like me

who only have a short life left to them.

It would probably have been better if you hadn't found out!

But it's too late now!

But people are weak and it would be hard for them to live with that knowledge

Yes, you're right.

It's hard.

Unbearably hard!

However hard you try to swallow the knowledge

How can I live with ordinary people

who don't know their remaining life span!

You just have to have faith!

Faith?

That's all you can do now.

When I was young I read about mysteries of religion

I was young and hadn't really thought about belief in anything

What are you telling me to believe in?

Believing all life is suffering? What does that do?

It's much quicker and easier to drink to dull the pain!

Does drinking really ease your suffering?

How ridiculous!

I've not believed in religion for years.

How can I start praying now?

You're not ready yet, are you.

You can think you still have a year. One year.

You think you still have a year

and you cling desperately to that idea...

Even though you think it's critical now

it will get worse and worse.

The next morning when Itsuki awoke it was after ten

He had been awake for 2 hours in the night

so he'd ended up oversleeping.

His mind was unusually clear

He put his hand on his abdomen

It was the first time he had touched 'it' directly

He pressed where he thought the duodenum was,

There was no pain.

But somewhere here

that crab is gnawing away

But this didn't feel as horrible as it had until yesterday.

I can, and people do,

get used to even a declaration of their own death!

Hello?

Mr Itsuki? It's Kishi

I promised to call you yesterday but I'm sorry I wasn't able to.

How about it? Are you coming to see those churches?

Ah! Those Romanesque churches!

Yes please!

That's great.

We'll leave about 12:00!

Fine

Great. See you later.

Itsuki felt himself to be rather passive

In the sense that he was able to simply respond to invitations

He'd never seen a Romanesque church.

The problem of his death could be put on one side.

and he thought he'd go and see these churches

Mr Itsuki!

Have you been waiting long?

Sorry, we'll need to wait just a little more,

We're taking two cars and my wife is slightly late!

Please take a seat.

Thank you for coming to pick me up!

My wife's delighted you're coming

and she's gone to get some food for the trip.

I've not meet her yet but she's quite young, isn't she?

Yes.

Sorry, that's a silly thing to ask: of course she is!

Won't you sit down too?

Err, I'll just go and have a look for her.

I wonder what she's up to? She's always late!

In that respect at least she's become rather French!

That's OK though, isn't it!

Please don't worry about it on my account!

You're being kind enough to take me somewhere, so I am more than happy

to wait as long as necessary!

But I am sorry!

I'm not just saying it, I mean it!

I'll go and take another look.

You're late! But anyway...

This is my wife!

I'm sorry to have been so late! Lovely to meet you!

The trouble caused is on my side I think!

- Shall we be off? - Can we wait a little more?

Why?

Actually....

I wonder...

She really said ten minutes? That means at least thirty!

She's just got to have a word about the kid

You should have said when we left home!

You should have said it then, not now!!

- Sorry, it was my fault! - You only apologise as he can hear you!

I'm sorry, The other person coming had to nip back home but she'll be here soon.

That's what happens if you take a trip with women.

We won't be safe until we've left Paris!

They always forget something or need to do something!

You've sometimes gone back to do stuff too!

It's embarrassing to say in front of my husband

but it's a neurotic need to go back and check the doors are locked!

But it's finally getting better!!

It's not a good thing if it's neurotic!

It's hard in a foreign language

And men soon get used to neuroses!!

Some husbands miss their wives but this husband

just has a phobia about unlocked doors!

Sorry to have this exchange in public!

The women are usually the cheeky ones!

Women tend not to get this way but men

seem to often get that way in the first year abroad!

It's the foreign language problem.

Even those who speak it confidently are noticeably on edge for the first year!

But when the women get neurotic it's hard to cure and

there's nothing for it but send them back to Japan

looking really ill and always complaining...

She even hates the husband...

Yes, so it seems!

Even you had a touch of it!

I had a touch of the neurotic?! Oh no I didn't!!

It's a good idea to go for a drive at least once a week,

- maybe go away for the night! Really? For who?

That's why we're touring these churches.

- It was my idea! - No it wasn't!

It was. At first you were against the idea!

I forced him to do it.

It's nice to see!

When I listen to you two talking,

it's good. You're so cheerful.

She'll be here soon. I'll just go and check.

Itsuki thought how good it was to go on trips as a couple.

His late wife Yoshie

had wanted to go for a few days holiday with him

But Itsuki hadn't been able to

They'd not even had a proper honeymoon like most other people.

Nor even been to nearby (to Tokyo) Atami hot springs together .

He'd been too busy.

But... had he really been that busy?

He had been busy it was true...

but... had he really been too busy to go just a for one night stay??

Itsuki tried to turn his thoughts away from his dead wife.

In his current situation

it was painful to think of the woman who'd lived with him.

How much she'd wanted to see the Japan Sea coast and the Hokuriku region.

Nowhere else.

Just the Sea of Japan and just there in Hokuriku.

Why was she so fixed on that particular area?

For her,

It had been the sea that once she'd seen it she could ask for no more

and would have died happy.

How she must have longed to see it!

She'd died young.

How badly...

she must have wanted to see it.

We can't wait any more so we're going on ahead!

My wife will come later

I'm sorry too have made you wait!

No, it's fine!

Shall we have tea? You must be tired!

I'm just the passenger so I'm fine!

But let's take a break. You must be tired!

What do you think of the plains of Burgundy?

It's a nice area.

The Japanese equivalent would be the Kanto plain

but here the towns and cities are more spread out!

It's good to be outside the city.

The roads so far have been good but tomorrow

we'll hit the deeper and really good bits of Bourgogne (Burgundy)

I see!

The faces on the church carvings,

Christ and Mary, are the faces of Burgundian farmers

These churches have Christs that look like the local mayors

or a Mary that looks like the wife of the hardest working man in the village.

The plains of Burgundy seem to go on and on to the east and west

but they finally hit the Jura mountains.

There's a place on the mountain road

commemorating those who died fighting the guerilla war against the Nazis...

..a grave for the youths and farmers.

There's a statue of Marianne on the cliff as a memorial

Hair streaming in the wind and facing towards the valley

Below the statue is carved the phrase:

'Where I die my country is reborn' (O� je meurs rena�t la Patrie)

It's a phrase by the poet Louis Aragon.

'Where I die my country is reborn'!

Those young farm lads are interred there.

The Marianne who commemorates them

has the face of a farmer's daughter.

Can we go there?

It's not really possible.

next time you're in Paris I'll take you there.

Just hearing about it from you now....

has made me like these farming villages and their people!

It was only briefly,

but I was a private in the army, fighting in South East Asia

There are lots of different ways that people die.

Some of illness,

and some in the war.

We were different...

Not like these Burgundians who fought to defend their villages

we invaded those neighbouring countries and brought war to them...

That 'where we die our country is reborn" thing

was something we couldn't have done!

But we still died, many of us!

We probably should have died.

But I've lived until now.

They've overtaken us!

- Was that your wife? - Yes. I can't beat her!!

- That was pretty fast! - It's a good car!

Your wife was driving?

I couldn't see but I don't think that was her!

But when a woman gets going you can never tell what she will do!

You can see some hills far off, can't you.

That's V�zelay.

The settlement runs half way up the hill

and on the top is the Basilica of St. Magdalene

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