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IT IS NOT THE HOMOSEXUAL WHO IS PERVERSE,
BUT THE SOCIETY IN WHICH HE LIVES
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A film by Rosa von Praunheim
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Are you from Berlin?
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No, it's my first time in Berlin.
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Do you like it here?
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It's too early to say.
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Do you already have a room?
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- I'm staying at a hotel.
- Hotels aren't comfortable in the long run.
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When I travel, I prefer
to stay with friends.
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And when they come to Berlin,
they stay at my place.
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I have a small apartment,
not far from here.
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Is it hard to find
an apartment around here?
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I guess it's always hard
if you don't know your way around.
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But I was lucky...
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Not like with other things.
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The truth is, I'm very lonely.
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I could walk forever,
just talking to you.
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Being on your feet all day,
you must be pretty tired by now.
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I don't live far from here.
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We could have a cup of coffee.
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You have such beautiful hands...
such soft skin...
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At first I didn't have
the courage to talk to you.
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But when you looked
deep into my eyes,
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so gently and tenderly,
you encouraged me.
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I'm so glad you came along.
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It's so nice to hold you in my arms.
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I'm often alone and lonely.
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You can't imagine how much
I long for a true friend.
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But it's hard to find someone... sincere.
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I like you, my boy.
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I'm so glad we've met.
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You seem so natural and honest.
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That's rare.
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Most guys are callous and phony.
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Speaking of love while already
thinking about the next guy.
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I've been let down many times,
believe me...
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But I never stopped looking
for a true friend.
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Gays don't want to be gay.
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They don't want to be different.
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They want to live as kitschy
and bourgeois as the average citizen.
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They long for a home
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where they can live
with an honest and faithful friend
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in a cohabiting relationship.
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The ideal partner has to be clean,
honest, and natural.
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A pure, lively boy.
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Kind and playful... like a German shepard.
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Gays demand each other to be aesthetes,
to care about their appearance.
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It makes them proud
and distinguishes them from the rest.
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Condemned as sick and inferior
by the bourgeoisie,
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they try to be
even more like them,
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in order to wear away
their feeling of guilt
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with an excessive amount
of middle-class virtues.
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They're politically passive
and conservative,
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in gratitude for not being
beaten to death.
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It's not the homosexual who is perverse,
but the situation in which he lives.
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Gays are ashamed of their nature.
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For centuries, christian upbringing
has taught them they're nothing but pigs.
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Hence, they escape this dreadful reality
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into a romantic world of kitsch and ideals.
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They have glossy dreams
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about someone who'll help them
escape their daily hardships
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into a world of love and romance.
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A homosexual relationship,
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as much as both partners want it,
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is doomed to fail.
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They hide like criminals,
forced to start their relationships
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by having sex without foreplay.
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Pure sex ignores the partner's
individual needs.
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It merely serves as an object
of one's own lust.
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With a bit of luck,
this condition is mutual.
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But it's not enough to establish a satisfying
relationship between two people.
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Clemens desires Daniel
and his boyish body,
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which, in Clemens' eyes,
pleasantly differs through it's firmness
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from the soft curves of a woman.
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As long as he can remember,
he's always been attracted to men.
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He loves Daniel's boyish, shy behavior
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and his unspoilt nature.
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Daniel struggles with a feeling of sin,
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which, caused by his strict upbringing,
lies heavily upon him.
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He won't dare to look at Clemens...
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because he likes him a lot...
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which confuses him...
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and he doesn't even know why.
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Clemens's love for Daniel,
and the satisfaction of his touch,
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give him a feeling of purity...
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the beauty and purity
of a man-on-man relationship.
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To prove it, he'd love
to throw open the windows
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and show the whole world
how beautiful
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love between two men can be.
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I'm so happy, Daniel.
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Me too.
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I don't want to let you go.
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Do you think we'll stay together?
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All of this is new,
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and I didn't know
it would mean that much to me
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to sleep with a man.
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Is this really your first time?
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No, it's not, but until now
I couldn't admit to myself
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that I was really interested.
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For the first time I'm truly happy.
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Are you sure?
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Tomorrow you might change your mind.
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With Daniel, a new life began.
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He was the only one who ever
really felt something for me.
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I'll always love him for that.
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Our love was all we cared about.
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Whatever happened around us
lost it's meaning.
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I finally realized
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how dreary and gray
my life had been.
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I never really knew what love was.
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I kept on living without a purpose.
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The power of his love
tied me stronger to him.
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I didn't want to be without him.
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Every hour spent alone
seemed like some kind of punishment.
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I was tormented by feverish desire.
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Our embraces afterwards felt intoxicating.
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We spent most of our evenings at home,
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watching TV to further our education.
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Both of us did the housekeeping,
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and time just flew by.
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On weekends, I spent hours
in the Cafe where Daniel used to work.
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On our days off,
when the weather was nice,
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we went to the countryside,
dreaming the day away.
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Or we just drove aimlessly
through the city.
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When it rained,
we wrote letters, or read.
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"Dear Mother,
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"this is my 4th month in Berlin.
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"Time just flew by.
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"Working at the Cafe is fun.
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"I've rented a room
at a friend's apartment.
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"We get along just fine.
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"He has shown me around the city.
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"Especially the surrounding areas
with their many lakes
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"and forests amaze me."
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Gays attempt to simulate
a middle-class marriage.
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Instead of hating those
responsible for their misfortune,
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they wish for a lifelong relationship
granted by church and state.
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A middle-class marriage is based
on the upbringing of children
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and the oppression of the wife.
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Gay marriage can't be anything
but a ridiculous imitation,
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as the lack of mutual duties
is being replaced
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by a romantic and unrealistic love.
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That romantic and idolizing love
is nothing but self-love.
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Most gays don't realize
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that the love they feel
is in fact self-love.
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The partner is seen as an idol
of one's own hopes and longings.
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They're neither trying to understand
nor pay attention to them.
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They even burden their partner
with their own problems.
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Gay marriage fails due to the rivalry
of two conceited men,
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who were raised not to follow
their interests together,
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but as competitors.
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The lack of mutual duties,
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and the inability to get along,
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due to being self-centered,
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will soon lead to the tragic end
of a romantic friendship.
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What remains is loneliness
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and a vast void,
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that will soon be cluttered
with new imaginary and vain dreams.
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Four months have passed
since I came to Berlin.
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I've decided to leave Clemens.
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I know it's a big mistake,
as I still love him like on the first day.
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We often act contrary to our feelings,
despite regretting it deeply afterwards.
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In the small Cafe
where Daniel used to work,
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he was approached by a wealthy man,
whom he soon trusted.
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He was fascinated by his
knowledge and sophistication.
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The spruceness and neatness
for which he'd learned to cherish Clemens
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and which he, without admitting it,
found stifling,
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laid the foundation for an unforeseen
world of art and culture.
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Overwhelmed by a feeling
of something big and important,
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he agreed to join his benefactor
on a longer trip,
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and afterwards moved into his villa.
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The so-called "Pedagogical Eros",
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with which older gays justify
sleeping with young men,
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simply means an authoritative
relationship of dependancy
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between a smart ass
and a helpless, silly boy.
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Education and art,
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once dead serious
leisure activities of the rich,
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are being gratefully received by gays
as a getaway from their problems.
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The popular belief that gays
are artistically more gifted than others
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is, in fact, an old wives' tale.
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They only engage so much in art,
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because they believe it makes
their life more endurable.
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To them, art is shallow and ineffective,
just like when Heydrich played the piano.
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As long as education and art
are means of the rich and powerful
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to belie human and economical issues,
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they must be radically rejected.
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And as long as gays
think they're special,
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while they imitate the rich,
they must be rejected as well.
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Upholding the oppression of homosexuals
is especially crucial to rich gays.
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They welcome the helplesness
of the oppressed,
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because it makes it easier
to lure them into their beds.
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Do you know, do you know
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where the lemon blossom grows
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In dark foliage
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the golden orange glows
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A gentle breeze
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blows from the azure sky
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Still stands the myrtle
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and the laurel, high?
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A gentle breeze
blows from the azure sky
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Still stands the myrtle,
and the laurel, high?
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Do you know, do you know
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Do you know it well?
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Do you know it well?
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There, there
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Would I go with you,
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oh my beloved
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There, there would I go with you
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There,
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there...
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For gays, culture is a way
to get to know each other.
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In a sultry atmosphere
of overemphasized formalities,
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they soon drop all pretense.
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Being let down their whole life,
many have become cold and cruel.
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All they see in their partner
is a sex object.
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Homosexuals have a more
ambitious urge for independence
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and success than others.
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They know that at an old age,
they won't be loved for who they are.
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The most important thing for gays
is the overemphasis
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of youth and physicality.
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Buying a young man
also means regaining a part
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of their own lost youth.
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On his fatherly lover's
first music night,
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he got to meet his acquaintances:
renowned actors and business men.
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He feels left alone and desperate.
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His friend seems to only have eyes
for that young, exotic singer.
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Once again, he's at the mercy
of the old men's comforting attempts.
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They flatter him, stroke his hair,
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and close a tight circle around him -
everybody wants him for themselves.
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He suddenly feels nauseous
like he needs to throw up.
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He knows he can't stay there,
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where his faith in all that's good
and beautiful has been betrayed.
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He leaves in disgust.
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Daniel has found a new job.
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He now works at an afternoon
meeting place for homosexuals.
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He's rented a cheap room
from a colleague,
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and, through work, makes friends
with people his own age.
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The other gays like him,
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because he knows how to adapt
to their customs.
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He becomes more secure and independent,
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and does not invest
all his feelings in flings.
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Everything's new, and he's happy
to be able to live almost freely
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among a group of like-minded people.
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Interesting conversations about film,
fashion, and grooming
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give inspiration for his leisure time,
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which he spends almost only with gays.
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Most homosexuals are business men
or have service jobs.
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They're afraid
of getting their nails dirty,
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and they also fear
their colleagues' aggressiveness.
251
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Gays have it twice as hard at work.
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On top of the usual shitty job
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comes the unnerving act of self-denial.
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They become "leisure-queers"
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who gladly escape the hypocrisy
at work into the gay world,
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where they may not be accepted
as human beings, but as gays.
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They meet for coffee and cake,
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listen to songs by Zarah Leander
and Marlene Dietrich,
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and make trips to places
like Sylt and Torremolinos.
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The less they're capable of having
human relationships among their own,
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the more they're in need
of a substitute.
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Their longing for luck and fulfillment
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is being exploited by the industry
and deflected into material things.
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For the bourgeoisie, it's all about
home interior, TV sets, and cars.
265
00:18:36,720 --> 00:18:38,900
For gays, it's all about fashion.
266
00:18:39,020 --> 00:18:45,670
Just like a product's packaging
distracts from it's actual content,
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gays use fashion to draw attention
to their outer appearance.
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The lust to adorn one's body
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fits the enourmous vanity of gays,
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who will soon be unable
to love anyone but themselves.
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The light blue sweater
gays used to wear years ago,
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which distinctively differed
from dull men's fashion,
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has turned into exhibitionism
and fetishism.
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Fashion has to be like a second skin,
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indicating the size of the penis.
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Soon, gays won't be capable
of anything but...
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waiting like a high-class hooker
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for a rich man to take them away
into a world
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of sheer pleasure... and lust.
280
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Homosexuals have nothing in common
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but the strong wish
to sleep with a man.
282
00:20:01,630 --> 00:20:06,180
The increasing desire
for the naked male body
283
00:20:06,530 --> 00:20:09,790
makes them leave their families
and go to places
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where they can meet gays.
285
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In the company of other gays,
they can forget for a while
286
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that they're lepers
and outcasts of society.
287
00:20:21,880 --> 00:20:25,240
Nevertheless, they hate each other.
288
00:20:26,060 --> 00:20:30,560
The others are seen as a reflection
of one's own misfortune.
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Fear of sexuality,
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feelings of guilt,
foisted upon them by society,
291
00:20:36,200 --> 00:20:38,720
and a strong feeling of competition
292
00:20:38,940 --> 00:20:43,360
make them secret enemies
among their own.
293
00:20:44,140 --> 00:20:48,420
In order to be able to communicate,
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they make up certain commonalities,
295
00:20:51,990 --> 00:20:54,350
which can only be phony.
296
00:20:54,790 --> 00:20:59,280
They develop superficial
rituals and shapes.
297
00:20:59,610 --> 00:21:05,520
Just like the bourgeoisie, they judge
each other by their appearance.
298
00:21:06,320 --> 00:21:11,680
In order to be accepted
by the gay community,
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00:21:12,050 --> 00:21:15,270
young homosexuals
will soon have to trade
300
00:21:15,530 --> 00:21:19,910
their more personal interests
301
00:21:20,270 --> 00:21:25,370
for so-called
gay interests and ideals.
302
00:21:25,870 --> 00:21:30,850
Meeting points for homosexuals
are vanity fairs.
303
00:21:31,100 --> 00:21:37,440
They show themselves off,
hoping to be wooed by everyone else.
304
00:21:37,970 --> 00:21:42,970
Daniel, who lay dreaming on the
sun terrace at the Wannsee lake,
305
00:21:43,880 --> 00:21:45,640
noticed him right away.
306
00:21:46,570 --> 00:21:51,440
He admired his strong body...
and his butch appearance.
307
00:21:52,420 --> 00:21:56,390
But he wouldn't dare
to show his admiration.
308
00:21:57,590 --> 00:21:59,750
He slightly turned his head,
309
00:21:59,960 --> 00:22:03,970
as if to protect it
from the blinding sunbeams.
310
00:22:05,530 --> 00:22:10,620
Through his half-closed eyes
he gazed at those strong hands,
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00:22:11,340 --> 00:22:15,790
that were slowly stripping down
a pair of tight fitting jeans...
312
00:22:16,320 --> 00:22:19,190
exposing a bulging pair of trunks.
313
00:22:20,060 --> 00:22:21,200
He desired him...
314
00:22:21,850 --> 00:22:27,230
and he wanted nothing more
than to satisfy his desire,
315
00:22:27,560 --> 00:22:30,700
but his pride prevented him
from making the first step.
316
00:22:31,530 --> 00:22:34,250
Until now, he was the one
that others would woo,
317
00:22:34,520 --> 00:22:38,150
and he could always pick those
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00:22:38,450 --> 00:22:40,580
he wanted to give his affection to.
319
00:22:41,260 --> 00:22:45,610
He knew his effect on others,
and he was partly to blame for it.
320
00:22:46,730 --> 00:22:52,520
He enjoyed being the focus
of a pair of lustful eyes,
321
00:22:53,000 --> 00:22:55,480
but he was too shy to spare someone,
322
00:22:56,070 --> 00:22:58,220
who he might have been able to love,
323
00:22:58,890 --> 00:23:00,830
a longer glance.
324
00:23:02,450 --> 00:23:04,620
Wolfgang shared his views.
325
00:23:05,120 --> 00:23:08,200
It was the only time that a fling
326
00:23:08,740 --> 00:23:11,680
had become a tender relationship.
327
00:23:11,800 --> 00:23:13,480
They spent a lot of time together.
328
00:23:13,700 --> 00:23:18,270
They told each other about their
amorous escapades and discussed them.
329
00:23:18,620 --> 00:23:20,640
Wolfgang always offered good advice.
330
00:23:21,030 --> 00:23:22,780
He came from a good family,
331
00:23:22,900 --> 00:23:26,490
and Daniel adopted much
of his sophisticated lifestyle.
332
00:23:26,720 --> 00:23:29,280
He seemed to know what life was about.
333
00:23:29,550 --> 00:23:33,990
They often felt
like they were... truly happy.
334
00:23:35,970 --> 00:23:39,070
A gentle breeze
made the hot day more bearable.
335
00:23:39,910 --> 00:23:41,960
His skin hurt a little,
336
00:23:42,560 --> 00:23:45,770
but he knew that before summer ended,
337
00:23:46,190 --> 00:23:51,410
his troubles would be rewarded
with an even tan.
338
00:24:00,580 --> 00:24:04,370
Daniel, who's been living in Berlin
for more than two years now,
339
00:24:04,580 --> 00:24:10,560
is no longer content with meeting men
in classy cafes, boutiques, and lidos.
340
00:24:11,120 --> 00:24:15,230
He's fascinated
by the exotic world of gay bars.
341
00:24:15,850 --> 00:24:18,600
He gets excited every time
342
00:24:18,720 --> 00:24:21,860
he enters one of those bars
with their huge mirrors,
343
00:24:21,980 --> 00:24:25,670
the pink/red lighting,
and those sensuous rythms.
344
00:24:26,250 --> 00:24:29,480
He loves shoving himself
through a crowd of young men
345
00:24:29,710 --> 00:24:32,140
who gaze at him
in passive admiration.
346
00:24:32,880 --> 00:24:35,060
He needs this kind of self-affirmation
347
00:24:35,180 --> 00:24:37,180
to get over his loneliness,
348
00:24:37,460 --> 00:24:41,210
which, after many numbing nights,
starts growing inside of him.
349
00:24:41,460 --> 00:24:45,590
He's slowly granted access to a world
of unforeseen possibilities.
350
00:24:46,080 --> 00:24:49,530
He gets to meet people of all kinds
of nationalities and occupations.
351
00:24:49,780 --> 00:24:55,030
More often, he drifts into the night,
always astonished anew.
352
00:24:55,670 --> 00:25:00,300
He now has not just one,
but many favorite bars.
353
00:25:00,820 --> 00:25:05,120
An uneasiness is growing inside of him.
He becomes addicted...
354
00:25:05,350 --> 00:25:10,330
to the tantalizing adventures
of which no one knows...
355
00:25:11,030 --> 00:25:12,490
how they might end.
356
00:25:17,210 --> 00:25:22,790
Gays rarely have difficulties
connecting in big cities.
357
00:25:23,840 --> 00:25:27,770
It's easy for them to find men
they can sleep with,
358
00:25:28,450 --> 00:25:32,970
because they offer themselves
on every street corner like whores.
359
00:25:33,710 --> 00:25:36,510
Out of fear of old age,
360
00:25:36,870 --> 00:25:42,790
they believe they must live
their youth to the fullest.
361
00:25:43,720 --> 00:25:49,470
They become moody,
hectic, and more compulsive.
362
00:25:50,440 --> 00:25:53,720
Gays are rarely happy.
363
00:25:55,380 --> 00:26:00,400
They've taken all sexual freedoms
364
00:26:00,930 --> 00:26:03,970
of which the bourgeoisie can only dream.
365
00:26:04,900 --> 00:26:07,350
But they're incapable
366
00:26:07,910 --> 00:26:13,410
of truly enjoying those freedoms.
367
00:26:14,300 --> 00:26:17,870
Like any other kid,
368
00:26:18,380 --> 00:26:23,140
gays were brought up
to live by rules and regulations.
369
00:26:23,650 --> 00:26:30,620
Those rules and duties will also apply
in a marriage between man and woman.
370
00:26:32,030 --> 00:26:36,030
Gays, however, could take
advantage of their freedom,
371
00:26:36,310 --> 00:26:40,090
on their own responsibility.
372
00:26:40,360 --> 00:26:44,920
They could live with someone
for as long
373
00:26:45,240 --> 00:26:47,280
as they can enjoy it.
374
00:26:47,640 --> 00:26:50,920
For gays, freedom isn't about
375
00:26:51,490 --> 00:26:56,100
taking responsibility, but about chaos.
376
00:26:57,160 --> 00:27:01,010
They get stuck at an infantile level.
377
00:27:01,740 --> 00:27:03,390
They're constantly horny,
378
00:27:03,810 --> 00:27:07,300
choosing a cheap fling
379
00:27:07,640 --> 00:27:11,610
over a perhaps
more valuable relationship.
380
00:27:12,400 --> 00:27:14,940
Gays have trouble
381
00:27:15,550 --> 00:27:18,060
engaging in a long-term relationship.
382
00:27:18,700 --> 00:27:21,770
Full of vanity and remorse
383
00:27:22,170 --> 00:27:26,810
they exchange glances,
always looking for true happiness.
384
00:27:27,670 --> 00:27:32,220
They have an ideal image of a man
385
00:27:32,920 --> 00:27:34,370
who doesn't exist.
386
00:27:35,230 --> 00:27:40,600
Two thousand sexual partners
in the life of a gay man
387
00:27:40,820 --> 00:27:43,520
are often just surrogates
for the one...
388
00:27:44,100 --> 00:27:48,780
they long for, deep in their hearts.
389
00:27:49,350 --> 00:27:52,970
Each time they are being
dissappointed anew,
390
00:27:53,240 --> 00:27:58,600
and often all that remains
is a feeling of disgust.
391
00:27:59,210 --> 00:28:05,210
Most gays resemble the type
of 'nice guy from a good family',
392
00:28:05,510 --> 00:28:09,540
who places great value
on a masculine appearance.
393
00:28:10,180 --> 00:28:12,700
They lead a double life,
394
00:28:12,940 --> 00:28:16,620
afraid of being outed as homosexuals.
395
00:28:17,010 --> 00:28:20,380
Their greatest enemy
is the flamboyant "fairy".
396
00:28:20,610 --> 00:28:23,480
Fairies are effeminate homosexuals
397
00:28:23,600 --> 00:28:28,030
who attempt to act
like hysterical women.
398
00:28:28,380 --> 00:28:30,930
They wear make-up
and are the worst nightmare
399
00:28:31,050 --> 00:28:34,040
of the bourgeoisie
and of closeted gays
400
00:28:34,160 --> 00:28:36,630
who could be exposed by them.
401
00:28:37,000 --> 00:28:40,730
Fairies are not as phony
as bourgeois gays.
402
00:28:41,160 --> 00:28:44,690
Gays are often conceited,
moody, and jealous.
403
00:28:45,010 --> 00:28:49,830
Fairies overdo their gay attributes
and ridicule them.
404
00:28:50,250 --> 00:28:57,520
They question society's standards
and show what it means to be gay.
405
00:29:39,920 --> 00:29:43,140
Being gay is all Daniel cares about now.
406
00:29:43,530 --> 00:29:45,740
It has become an addiction.
407
00:29:45,860 --> 00:29:50,510
He's looking for greater thrills
that can satisfy him much faster.
408
00:36:54,050 --> 00:36:57,500
The strangest among gays are,
409
00:36:57,740 --> 00:37:01,660
besides transvestites,
who dress like women
410
00:37:01,900 --> 00:37:07,820
and long for female genitals,
the leather men.
411
00:37:08,370 --> 00:37:13,540
Their masculinity is damaged the most.
412
00:37:14,110 --> 00:37:17,400
In order to compensate
for the loss of their manliness,
413
00:37:17,630 --> 00:37:21,500
they adorn themselves
with symbols of masculinity.
414
00:37:21,840 --> 00:37:29,530
Like closeted gays among Nazis,
in Western films, or in the army,
415
00:37:30,070 --> 00:37:32,700
leather men, too, are longing
416
00:37:33,000 --> 00:37:37,960
for a world of violence
conveyed through those symbols...
417
00:37:38,270 --> 00:37:42,570
...when, in fact, they're as innocent
as kids playing war games.
418
00:37:42,820 --> 00:37:46,740
Lust that can't be
experienced directly
419
00:37:46,960 --> 00:37:48,710
turns into perversion.
420
00:37:49,180 --> 00:37:55,110
Leather men only get satisfaction
through the use of auxiliary means.
421
00:37:55,370 --> 00:38:00,180
Leather is often being associated
with sadism and masochism...
422
00:38:00,550 --> 00:38:04,870
The need to punish and to be punished.
423
00:38:05,390 --> 00:38:08,150
Leather men expect to be punished,
424
00:38:08,560 --> 00:38:14,650
because they feel to have failed
both themselves and society.
425
00:38:15,190 --> 00:38:19,350
They're nice, polite people
who suffer from their weakness.
426
00:38:20,650 --> 00:38:23,750
Looking for new sexual adventures,
427
00:38:24,110 --> 00:38:27,190
Daniel dares to visit
the municipal park,
428
00:38:27,740 --> 00:38:30,990
where he's hoping to find
satisfaction more easily.
429
00:38:32,150 --> 00:38:35,950
The nightly ritual of cruising
in bars has made him tired.
430
00:38:36,290 --> 00:38:40,900
He found it too much of a hassle
to talk to someone
431
00:38:41,260 --> 00:38:44,620
and maybe even spend the night
with them just to have sex.
432
00:38:45,360 --> 00:38:48,870
The park's oppressive atmosphere
was even more captivating
433
00:38:49,300 --> 00:38:53,550
than the thought of having
new sexual experiences.
434
00:38:54,600 --> 00:38:59,550
Afraid of being interrupted,
435
00:39:00,210 --> 00:39:03,210
and with the unfulfilled
expectation of a touch,
436
00:39:04,270 --> 00:39:07,110
he passed the fascinating
choreography of men,
437
00:39:07,770 --> 00:39:10,000
who were timidly walking around
438
00:39:10,620 --> 00:39:13,550
without saying a single word.
439
00:39:15,020 --> 00:39:16,910
Then he leaves the park...
440
00:39:17,230 --> 00:39:21,860
disappointed to not have found
the dominating aggressiveness
441
00:39:22,130 --> 00:39:23,960
he was hoping for.
442
00:39:24,410 --> 00:39:28,540
He reckons it takes the knowledge
of secret signals and rituals
443
00:39:29,030 --> 00:39:33,270
which could open the door
to "perversion".
444
00:39:34,380 --> 00:39:37,860
Daniel knows there's no way back.
445
00:39:38,220 --> 00:39:40,660
He wants a man - tonight!
446
00:39:41,430 --> 00:39:44,310
He often went home, telling himself
447
00:39:44,540 --> 00:39:47,580
he could've had a lot of guys
if he'd wanted to.
448
00:39:47,870 --> 00:39:52,470
That feeling was more important
than if he'd actually slept with them.
449
00:39:52,830 --> 00:39:57,360
But now he won't
control himself any longer.
450
00:39:57,630 --> 00:40:02,590
He doesn't know what else to do.
Nothing matters anymore. It's as if...
451
00:40:03,180 --> 00:40:04,970
he were intoxicated.
452
00:40:05,380 --> 00:40:08,700
Public toilets are the most popular
meeting points for homosexuals.
453
00:40:08,970 --> 00:40:12,270
Gays who have trouble connecting,
454
00:40:12,640 --> 00:40:17,270
are forced to have their first
homosexual experience in a public toilet.
455
00:40:17,770 --> 00:40:21,790
Being punished
for their homosexuality by society,
456
00:40:22,020 --> 00:40:25,830
and left with a guilty conscience,
457
00:40:26,110 --> 00:40:31,780
many have reduced their homosexuality
strictly to sex.
458
00:40:32,310 --> 00:40:37,510
They stand side by side,
in constant fear of discovery,
459
00:40:37,800 --> 00:40:42,850
and if they finally pick someone up,
460
00:40:43,340 --> 00:40:46,450
they have to get off within seconds.
461
00:40:46,570 --> 00:40:50,400
A relationship directed only
towards a man's penis
462
00:40:50,680 --> 00:40:56,380
is for many gays the only kind
of love-making they know.
463
00:40:56,750 --> 00:41:02,500
They go from toilet to toilet,
constantly seeking satisfaction,
464
00:41:02,810 --> 00:41:06,650
which, if they're lucky,
can only be found compromised.
465
00:41:06,770 --> 00:41:11,090
Gays hold public toilets
in low esteem.
466
00:41:11,310 --> 00:41:15,240
They claim to despise "toilet queers",
467
00:41:15,360 --> 00:41:20,420
but secretly go there themselves
468
00:41:20,790 --> 00:41:25,160
if they didn't score
in one of their fancy bars.
469
00:41:25,610 --> 00:41:30,660
Here they appreciate the often
'masculine laborer' kind of guys
470
00:41:30,930 --> 00:41:34,100
who are not interested
in hiding their lust
471
00:41:34,430 --> 00:41:38,050
underneath fashion
and good manners.
472
00:41:38,610 --> 00:41:41,740
In our society, being a hustler
is much more convenient
473
00:41:42,010 --> 00:41:45,180
than working a dull, impersonal job.
474
00:41:45,480 --> 00:41:48,800
We don't make as much
as hookers, though.
475
00:41:49,490 --> 00:41:51,910
Most hustlers are runaways
from foster homes,
476
00:41:52,030 --> 00:41:54,040
who refuse a middle-class life
477
00:41:54,160 --> 00:41:56,930
with it's limited possibilities
in the first place.
478
00:41:57,180 --> 00:42:02,100
Like many rockers, who suppress
their homosexuality with brutality,
479
00:42:02,310 --> 00:42:04,580
most hustlers aren't gay at all.
480
00:42:05,050 --> 00:42:07,440
With gays, they can let off
481
00:42:07,780 --> 00:42:10,170
their rage against the authorities,
482
00:42:10,540 --> 00:42:12,810
which they hold responsible
for their fate.
483
00:42:13,390 --> 00:42:14,780
They hate gays,
484
00:42:14,900 --> 00:42:19,290
because in the eyes of our society,
gays are still worse than decent criminals.
485
00:42:19,600 --> 00:42:23,600
Extortion, mugging, and murder of gays
were daily fare
486
00:42:23,720 --> 00:42:29,020
when, thanks to "ยง 175", older gays
had to gratefully put up with all that.
487
00:42:29,140 --> 00:42:30,740
The law has been abolished,
488
00:42:30,920 --> 00:42:34,800
but not people's attitude
towards certain homosexuals
489
00:42:34,920 --> 00:42:37,890
who still live in constant fear
of being exposed.
490
00:42:38,160 --> 00:42:43,730
In line with society's
hatred of old age,
491
00:42:43,900 --> 00:42:48,490
growing old is the worst
that can happen to gays.
492
00:42:48,920 --> 00:42:53,100
Gays often die young,
493
00:42:53,690 --> 00:42:58,340
because all they do is worship
the young male body,
494
00:42:58,690 --> 00:43:01,940
while ignoring all human qualities.
495
00:43:02,300 --> 00:43:06,790
Quite often, they start aging
at around 30.
496
00:43:07,300 --> 00:43:10,480
Older gays who aren't wealthy
497
00:43:10,710 --> 00:43:17,410
are either forced to exploit young gays
in a cold and aggressive manner,
498
00:43:17,960 --> 00:43:22,690
or to get involved in dangerous
adventures with hustlers.
499
00:43:23,460 --> 00:43:29,580
Sex is more important to older gays
than to married men
500
00:43:30,090 --> 00:43:33,700
who, due to always sleeping
with the same woman,
501
00:43:33,930 --> 00:43:35,590
will soon become impotent.
502
00:43:35,710 --> 00:43:40,200
The sight of young men
arouses older gays each time anew.
503
00:43:40,650 --> 00:43:45,910
Their mostly unsuccessful attempts
to cruise for sex
504
00:43:46,280 --> 00:43:51,330
in dark lit toilets and parks,
since they're not welcome in bars,
505
00:43:51,610 --> 00:43:55,480
are taking up most of their energy.
506
00:43:55,930 --> 00:44:00,950
Many are in denial about their age
out of sheer vanity.
507
00:44:01,260 --> 00:44:04,530
They're trying to artificially
keep themselves young,
508
00:44:05,080 --> 00:44:08,050
but it just makes them
look ridiculous.
509
00:44:08,290 --> 00:44:13,590
The life of older gays
is no bed of roses.
510
00:44:14,060 --> 00:44:18,230
They're often exposed
to inhumane isolation
511
00:44:18,500 --> 00:44:21,630
which, just like a growing ulcer,
deprives them
512
00:44:21,950 --> 00:44:27,100
of every last bit of joy in life.
513
00:45:05,300 --> 00:45:11,880
No! No! No! Those shoes look terrible!
Combined with that shirt and scarf...
514
00:45:12,270 --> 00:45:18,070
I once saw him wear
bright red shoes... Disgusting!
515
00:45:18,190 --> 00:45:20,720
She only gets lucky
when she's cottaging!
516
00:45:20,840 --> 00:45:24,840
I even saw her at the station,
dressed in bright colors...
517
00:45:25,090 --> 00:45:27,170
from dusk till dawn...
518
00:45:27,320 --> 00:45:32,180
And by day she looks like a parrot!
Look at that... Terrible!
519
00:45:37,410 --> 00:45:41,470
Dirty, gay pigs! They're not human,
they belong in a concentration camp!
520
00:45:41,690 --> 00:45:45,300
It's one of the filthiest practices!
They're scum! It's a crime!
521
00:45:45,420 --> 00:45:48,830
If my son were gay, I'd beat him to death!
I'd rip his head off!
522
00:45:48,950 --> 00:45:52,790
Why raise a kid with love and devotion
if it ends up being perverted?
523
00:45:52,910 --> 00:45:57,420
I feel sorry for them.
They're sick, unfortunate people.
524
00:45:57,540 --> 00:46:01,990
Maybe psychoanalysis
could cure them. Who knows?
525
00:46:02,270 --> 00:46:04,260
Nobody wants to have
anything to do with them.
526
00:46:04,650 --> 00:46:06,820
I'd struggle with it, too.
527
00:46:07,050 --> 00:46:11,130
They need to be gassed and castrated!
All you can do is beat them up!
528
00:46:11,250 --> 00:46:14,670
If one of them
would dare touch me,
529
00:46:14,960 --> 00:46:19,590
I'd beat the crap out of him
and make him forget he was ever gay.
530
00:46:19,810 --> 00:46:21,400
They need a good thrashing!
531
00:46:21,520 --> 00:46:26,440
They're so oversexed,
they don't know what else to do.
532
00:46:51,200 --> 00:46:55,870
I'm the dazzling dame you know
from the cabaret show
533
00:46:56,140 --> 00:46:59,930
Look around the fair and you'll see
there's no one else like me
534
00:47:00,050 --> 00:47:03,190
All the guys turn around
and look at me,
535
00:47:03,760 --> 00:47:07,370
and I know exactly
what they want to see
536
00:47:07,590 --> 00:47:11,340
I'm the dazzling dame you know
from the cabaret show
537
00:47:11,460 --> 00:47:14,910
Look around the fair and you'll see
there's no one else like me
538
00:47:15,030 --> 00:47:17,790
All the guys look me in the eye
539
00:47:18,870 --> 00:47:22,090
but the one I fancy
just passes me by...
540
00:47:22,470 --> 00:47:26,170
but the one I fancy
just passes me by
541
00:50:43,260 --> 00:50:46,120
Daniel is desperate and lonely.
542
00:50:46,830 --> 00:50:52,840
He tries to numb himself with alcohol
and cigarettes in his new favorite bar.
543
00:50:53,350 --> 00:50:59,550
Here he can recover from his surreal
escapades in parks and public toilets,
544
00:50:59,780 --> 00:51:01,990
just to go there again.
545
00:51:02,110 --> 00:51:06,660
He needs distraction
from the unnerving silence of his room
546
00:51:06,780 --> 00:51:09,780
and the ongoing problems at work.
547
00:51:10,340 --> 00:51:13,350
It's a fantastic theater of dwarfs,
548
00:51:13,750 --> 00:51:14,900
cripples,
549
00:51:15,430 --> 00:51:17,350
and ordinary tranvestites.
550
00:51:17,680 --> 00:51:22,960
They rarely come out of hiding,
but here they are welcome.
551
00:51:23,280 --> 00:51:25,300
Workers and older gays,
552
00:51:25,420 --> 00:51:28,360
who aren't welcome in fancy gay bars,
553
00:51:28,680 --> 00:51:30,250
can feel at home...
554
00:51:30,550 --> 00:51:34,460
and sit together like one big family,
hectically enjoying themselves
555
00:51:35,040 --> 00:51:37,970
to forget their loneliness.
556
00:52:42,490 --> 00:52:46,080
A rose blooms in Colorado
557
00:52:46,330 --> 00:52:49,820
A rose, beautiful and red
558
00:52:50,200 --> 00:52:53,770
Up in the Colorado mountains,
559
00:52:54,030 --> 00:52:57,720
that's where I'll meet my rose again
560
00:52:57,990 --> 00:53:01,930
She has two cerulean eyes
561
00:53:02,180 --> 00:53:05,830
And her heart belongs only to me
562
00:53:06,180 --> 00:53:09,920
A rose blooms in Colorado
563
00:53:10,140 --> 00:53:14,030
And in the morning I will ride to her
564
00:53:20,090 --> 00:53:23,100
- Hello, Paul. How are you?
- Fine, thanks.
565
00:53:23,350 --> 00:53:25,610
- And you?
- I get by.
566
00:53:25,850 --> 00:53:27,900
Are you still living with that guy?
567
00:53:28,180 --> 00:53:29,530
I hardly see you anymore.
568
00:53:29,650 --> 00:53:31,680
Yes, it's fun.
569
00:53:32,330 --> 00:53:33,820
It's better than living alone.
570
00:53:33,940 --> 00:53:37,100
At first it was hard,
because we only cared about ourselves.
571
00:53:37,220 --> 00:53:39,560
But once you learn
to repect each other,
572
00:53:39,680 --> 00:53:42,080
it's much better than living alone.
573
00:53:42,330 --> 00:53:47,190
- Can I visit you sometime?
- Sure, do you have any plans now?
574
00:53:47,770 --> 00:53:50,590
If you're interested,
you can check out how we're living.
575
00:53:50,710 --> 00:53:55,900
I'd love to! Hanging around in bars
gets exhausting with time.
576
00:53:58,600 --> 00:54:00,360
I don't know why that is.
577
00:54:00,580 --> 00:54:03,930
Maybe I've been let down
too many times.
578
00:54:04,280 --> 00:54:06,380
You're afraid to show your feelings.
579
00:54:06,500 --> 00:54:09,230
So you're waiting for guys
to fancy you.
580
00:54:09,550 --> 00:54:11,800
But when they fall in love,
you break up with them.
581
00:54:11,920 --> 00:54:15,470
I'm afraid to fall in love.
Time makes one cautious.
582
00:54:15,750 --> 00:54:18,060
I'm pretty lonely, actually.
583
00:54:18,320 --> 00:54:21,650
I always hang around in bars,
but nothing new happens.
584
00:54:21,950 --> 00:54:24,170
I've slept with most of the guys.
585
00:54:24,430 --> 00:54:26,820
My longest relationship
was with Clemens.
586
00:54:26,940 --> 00:54:28,440
You still like him?
587
00:54:28,910 --> 00:54:30,690
I'll never forget him.
588
00:54:31,710 --> 00:54:33,250
I won't lose hope.
589
00:54:33,370 --> 00:54:35,920
I want to make the most of my time
while I'm still young,
590
00:54:36,040 --> 00:54:37,830
and experience as much as possible.
591
00:54:37,950 --> 00:54:39,790
I've experienced a lot.
592
00:54:40,030 --> 00:54:43,970
If I'd stayed in my small town,
I would've never known what's out there.
593
00:54:44,220 --> 00:54:48,280
I've been to parties in fancy houses,
I've slept with celebrities,
594
00:54:48,670 --> 00:54:50,940
ironers, coal carriers...
595
00:54:51,060 --> 00:54:53,140
I'm glad I didn't become a bourgeois
596
00:54:53,370 --> 00:54:56,910
with a wife and kids.
The same routine, day by day...
597
00:54:57,330 --> 00:55:00,380
You've told us how it all started,
598
00:55:00,690 --> 00:55:05,320
and that everything was fantastic,
because it was new and adventurous,
599
00:55:05,580 --> 00:55:09,560
but when you came here,
you were sick and tired of being gay.
600
00:55:09,790 --> 00:55:12,180
You've become a "career queer".
601
00:55:12,540 --> 00:55:17,040
All you're interested in
is sex and how to get it.
602
00:55:18,590 --> 00:55:21,800
But you're too weak
to break free on your own.
603
00:55:22,420 --> 00:55:25,370
It's hard for you,
because you have no other interests
604
00:55:25,650 --> 00:55:28,360
besides being gay.
605
00:55:28,770 --> 00:55:33,010
You'll wreck your nerves
and become more addicted and unhappy.
606
00:55:33,420 --> 00:55:36,700
You've become a whore
who's not getting paid.
607
00:55:40,230 --> 00:55:43,350
You've become incapable
of having a human relationship.
608
00:55:43,600 --> 00:55:47,560
Everything is cold,
calculating, and uptight.
609
00:55:47,790 --> 00:55:50,310
I think what you've done
was pretty stupid.
610
00:55:50,430 --> 00:55:53,030
You live like a million other gays.
611
00:55:53,260 --> 00:55:56,240
You're just as uptight,
dependent, and unhappy as them.
612
00:55:56,360 --> 00:56:00,060
In a time where everyone
feared to be put in prison,
613
00:56:00,350 --> 00:56:01,570
it would've been comprehensible.
614
00:56:01,690 --> 00:56:05,050
But now is the time
to help ourselves.
615
00:56:05,460 --> 00:56:08,460
We've all been intimidated
by our families,
616
00:56:08,730 --> 00:56:11,290
and now all we consist of
is weakness.
617
00:56:11,410 --> 00:56:14,930
Because we'll never be able
to forget the restrictions
618
00:56:15,170 --> 00:56:17,210
imposed on us in our childhood.
619
00:56:17,330 --> 00:56:21,320
It's crucial that we change
our fucked up situation.
620
00:56:21,440 --> 00:56:23,210
We can't always blame others.
621
00:56:23,570 --> 00:56:27,880
- We must overcome our fucking weakness.
- We need to start thinking about
622
00:56:28,160 --> 00:56:30,320
what we do wrong.
623
00:56:35,360 --> 00:56:38,840
That's easy for you to say.
How am I supposed to do that?
624
00:56:39,730 --> 00:56:42,560
It's crucial for all gays
625
00:56:43,010 --> 00:56:46,190
to come out of the closet.
626
00:56:46,450 --> 00:56:50,010
We must have the courage
to tell everyone that we're gay.
627
00:56:50,320 --> 00:56:52,850
It's hard, but it's the only way.
628
00:56:53,080 --> 00:56:55,880
We feel dependent and guilty,
629
00:56:56,110 --> 00:56:59,220
and as a result, we'll become
moody and unreliable.
630
00:56:59,800 --> 00:57:04,380
We can't even be honest
to those we love.
631
00:57:04,810 --> 00:57:08,490
We mustn't be afraid
of our parents and employers anymore.
632
00:57:08,740 --> 00:57:10,740
We need to organize...
633
00:57:10,860 --> 00:57:14,930
...against those fucking employers
who want to fire us for being gay.
634
00:57:15,180 --> 00:57:18,770
We must publish the names
of homophobes in our magazines.
635
00:57:18,890 --> 00:57:22,140
Maybe they're afraid, because
they're closeted gays themselves.
636
00:57:22,380 --> 00:57:24,400
We need to end this situation,
637
00:57:24,520 --> 00:57:28,340
that makes us show our cocks
in public toilets,
638
00:57:28,640 --> 00:57:33,560
and stand there for hours,
till we leave... alone and disgusted,
639
00:57:33,680 --> 00:57:35,640
with a bad conscience
on top of it all.
640
00:57:36,000 --> 00:57:37,410
Nevertheless, we'll return
the next day,
641
00:57:37,670 --> 00:57:40,620
because many of us are afraid
to look someone in the eye
642
00:57:40,740 --> 00:57:42,700
and start a conversation,
643
00:57:42,820 --> 00:57:45,430
just to see they're a human being,
644
00:57:45,550 --> 00:57:49,520
and not just someone with a cock
to use and dispose of.
645
00:57:52,360 --> 00:57:54,030
It may seem moralistic and bourgeois
646
00:57:54,280 --> 00:57:56,260
to oppose public toilets and parks,
647
00:57:56,500 --> 00:57:58,240
but it's necessary.
648
00:57:58,360 --> 00:58:01,300
We risk becoming so insensitive
649
00:58:01,780 --> 00:58:04,180
that we'll judge people only
by their body,
650
00:58:04,670 --> 00:58:07,220
and in the end we'll suffer too,
651
00:58:07,530 --> 00:58:10,030
because we're lonely
and out of love.
652
00:58:13,030 --> 00:58:16,810
Gays have a kitschy image
of eternal love...
653
00:58:17,290 --> 00:58:21,290
like you find it in fairytales,
on TV, in movies, or magazines.
654
00:58:21,590 --> 00:58:23,750
Eternal love is bullshit.
655
00:58:23,970 --> 00:58:27,410
People should stay together
for as long as it's fun,
656
00:58:27,670 --> 00:58:30,280
instead of swearing each other
eternal and true love,
657
00:58:30,580 --> 00:58:34,090
which will always lead
to disappointment.
658
00:58:34,550 --> 00:58:37,040
In America,
they now have churches for gays.
659
00:58:37,160 --> 00:58:40,340
A gay priest has started
a cult where gays
660
00:58:40,460 --> 00:58:43,030
can satisfy their repressed
feeling for religion,
661
00:58:43,380 --> 00:58:45,410
and even get the chance to marry.
662
00:58:47,210 --> 00:58:50,200
It's the same old shit
as with man and woman.
663
00:58:50,480 --> 00:58:52,460
We don't want to stay together
out of compulsion,
664
00:58:52,840 --> 00:58:54,240
but of our own free will.
665
00:58:54,730 --> 00:58:56,950
It may be more difficult,
but at least it's honest.
666
00:58:57,250 --> 00:58:59,910
Two guys who isolate themselves
from everyone else,
667
00:59:00,170 --> 00:59:01,760
only to live for themselves,
668
00:59:01,880 --> 00:59:05,210
are being egotistical
and cruel towards others.
669
00:59:07,780 --> 00:59:09,750
We need to live together
670
00:59:10,070 --> 00:59:14,420
and not against each other
like in a marriage.
671
00:59:17,100 --> 00:59:19,230
Gays should be aware
672
00:59:19,470 --> 00:59:21,840
that most guys, considering
today's possibilities,
673
00:59:22,080 --> 00:59:25,170
rarely stay together
for more than two or three years.
674
00:59:25,450 --> 00:59:27,570
After that, it's mostly getting dull.
675
00:59:27,820 --> 00:59:30,560
We should try to make the most
of this opportunity,
676
00:59:30,780 --> 00:59:33,430
and at least engage
in longer relationships
677
00:59:33,890 --> 00:59:36,420
instead of sleeping
with another guy every day.
678
00:59:36,750 --> 00:59:39,700
We have to be disciplined enough
679
00:59:40,160 --> 00:59:44,390
not to risk losing a dear friend
over a cheap adventure.
680
00:59:51,660 --> 00:59:54,900
Gays being together
creates a tense atmosphere.
681
00:59:55,620 --> 00:59:59,300
The others are seen as a reflection
of one's own problems.
682
01:00:05,750 --> 01:00:08,770
We're always cruising,
that's why we dress up.
683
01:00:09,050 --> 01:00:12,330
Refuse the fashion terror!
Condemn high-class hustlers!
684
01:00:12,820 --> 01:00:14,520
Don't wait for rich Johns,
685
01:00:14,640 --> 01:00:18,060
because they'll only exploit
and dump you!
686
01:00:32,160 --> 01:00:34,640
Pretending we're real men is bullshit...
687
01:00:34,860 --> 01:00:38,040
- ...because most of us aren't.
- Let's become more gay!
688
01:00:38,510 --> 01:00:42,650
Closeted gays must have the guts
to come out.
689
01:00:42,930 --> 01:00:46,180
Fairies and leather men
should end their feud
690
01:00:46,440 --> 01:00:49,310
and fight for their freedom
side by side.
691
01:00:49,430 --> 01:00:51,270
Meeting points like cafes,
692
01:00:51,510 --> 01:00:55,370
bars, boutiques, or lidos
are intolerable,
693
01:00:55,560 --> 01:00:58,800
because they're all about self-display.
Especially bars...
694
01:00:59,030 --> 01:01:01,630
with their hostile atmosphere.
695
01:01:02,410 --> 01:01:04,890
Everyone's standing around,
conceited and uptight...
696
01:01:05,010 --> 01:01:06,970
It's impossible
to start a conversation
697
01:01:07,200 --> 01:01:10,210
without feeling obligated
to have sex.
698
01:01:10,330 --> 01:01:11,640
Boycott those bars!
699
01:01:11,760 --> 01:01:16,350
- Push for new bars...
- ...where gays can feel free,
700
01:01:16,470 --> 01:01:20,870
knowing it's not only their money
others are interested in.
701
01:01:20,990 --> 01:01:23,590
Trash those fucking gay bars
702
01:01:23,710 --> 01:01:26,160
if they're nothing but brothels.
703
01:01:26,280 --> 01:01:28,930
Gays need to stop hating each other.
704
01:01:29,050 --> 01:01:31,980
We must love each other
and not be competitors.
705
01:01:32,380 --> 01:01:37,330
The oppression of gays
has made sex and flings vital to them,
706
01:01:37,640 --> 01:01:39,910
and for many, they've become
their main activities.
707
01:01:40,280 --> 01:01:43,280
Try to be more personal,
more independent!
708
01:01:43,540 --> 01:01:46,160
Out of fear of old age, most gays
709
01:01:46,460 --> 01:01:48,330
frantically chase after sex.
710
01:01:48,920 --> 01:01:50,740
Older gays become aggressive,
711
01:01:51,050 --> 01:01:52,630
because they're being despised
by the young ones.
712
01:01:52,920 --> 01:01:56,770
If the time comes when gays not only
care about physical appearances,
713
01:01:56,970 --> 01:01:59,910
old age will not be
such an issue anymore.
714
01:02:00,150 --> 01:02:03,040
Boycott parks and toilets!
Come out of hiding!
715
01:02:03,160 --> 01:02:05,370
Take to the streets!
Rally for your rights!
716
01:02:05,570 --> 01:02:07,010
Help those stupid fashion-fags,
717
01:02:07,130 --> 01:02:09,390
those arrogant pretty boys,
and those bar-queers!
718
01:02:09,620 --> 01:02:14,070
Help those who fuck in toilets and parks
out of their fucked up situation!
719
01:02:14,270 --> 01:02:17,920
Sex shouldn't be a competition
or a way to boost your ego.
720
01:02:18,330 --> 01:02:20,260
It should contribute
to understanding
721
01:02:20,380 --> 01:02:22,880
and not, as is often
the case with gays,
722
01:02:23,120 --> 01:02:26,590
make them strangers
after a one-night stand.
723
01:02:26,710 --> 01:02:28,880
We must try to fuck freely...
724
01:02:29,160 --> 01:02:32,470
and respect the other
instead of seeing him as an object.
725
01:02:32,720 --> 01:02:34,300
The bourgeoisie call us "fruity",
726
01:02:34,420 --> 01:02:36,280
but most of us are cold and uptight.
727
01:02:36,400 --> 01:02:39,780
We must become erotically free
and socially responsible.
728
01:02:40,210 --> 01:02:43,400
Let's unite with the Black Panthers
and the Women's Lib,
729
01:02:43,760 --> 01:02:45,620
and fight the oppression
of minorities!
730
01:02:45,740 --> 01:02:49,480
Take care of each other's
problems at work!
731
01:02:49,790 --> 01:02:53,600
Show your solidarity
if a colleague gets into a conflict,
732
01:02:53,830 --> 01:02:56,670
and you can count
on their help in return.
733
01:02:56,890 --> 01:02:58,720
Engage in politics!
734
01:02:58,990 --> 01:03:00,910
Being gay is not a movie!
735
01:03:01,030 --> 01:03:05,680
We gay pigs want to become humans
and to be treated as such!
736
01:03:05,800 --> 01:03:07,620
We have to fight for it!
737
01:03:07,740 --> 01:03:11,180
We want to be accepted,
and not just tolerated.
738
01:03:11,410 --> 01:03:14,810
But it's not just about
being accepted by the people,
739
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but also about how we treat each other.
We don't want any anonymous groups!
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01:03:19,960 --> 01:03:22,050
We want a joint action,
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so we can get to know each other
while fighting our problems...
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and learn to love each other!
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01:03:29,100 --> 01:03:31,100
We need to organize!
744
01:03:31,480 --> 01:03:36,760
We need better bars, good doctors,
and a safe working environment!
745
01:03:37,170 --> 01:03:40,150
Become proud of your homosexuality!
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01:03:40,580 --> 01:03:43,110
Get out of the toilets!
Take to the streets!
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01:03:43,790 --> 01:03:46,330
Freedom for gays!
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01:03:47,305 --> 01:03:53,412
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