All language subtitles for Be.Your.Own.Light.S01E06.2023.2160p.WEB-DL.H265.AAC-ANDY

♪Once I was adrift on the boundless sea♪

♪I looked up but didn't see
the stars or the moon♪

♪No one cared who I was♪

♪Stuck in the long dark night
I stumbled around♪

♪Once I went through a lot♪

♪Beside me, you smiled♪

♪When we talked about dreams back to back♪

♪All the regrets became precious♪

♪So, however cold, dark♪

♪Or disappointing it is♪

♪However hard, difficult
or confused I feel♪

♪You're the answer and my eternal faith♪

♪I want my own light and fly up with you♪

♪Where you can hear the pounding of clouds♪

♪I want my own light
and even if the future is checkered♪

♪I'll always be there with you♪

♪Toward the light♪

[Be Your Own Light]

[Episode 06]

Sir.

[File Bag]
Mr. Liu wants me

to take this file to his car.

I've looked everywhere,
but I can't find his car.

Mr. Liu's car?

That one.

That's his privileged parking spot.

Oh, geez.

How could I not see it? Thank you.

That's okay.

Good day.

[Outpatient Dept.]

Your mother had a mild cough,

so I recommended a lung test.

Our equipment

broke down the other day.

I just got the test results.

Is everything okay?

According to the report,

there is a solitary pulmonary nodule
in the upper lobe of her lung.

It has an irregular shape

and is spiculated.

Um...

I suspect that your mother
may have lung cancer.

My mother never smokes.

No one in my family does.

Lung cancer doesn't run in my family.

There is no way my mother
will get the disease.

Well,

I wish it were a misdiagnosis.

But looking at

the CT scan,

it's unlikely
that it's a diagnostic error.

There must be some mistake.

My mother does have a mild cough.

That's because she caught a cold.

While she feels a little short of breath,

it's a result of coronary artery disease.

Isn't that a common condition
in elderly people?

My mother is a ball of fire.

All bright-eyed and bushy-tailed.

She even participated in

an elderly modeling contest.

We have limited resources here.

I suggest you contact

a Grade 3, Class A hospital
as soon as possible.

The sooner you get a precise diagnosis,

the sooner
you can choose a treatment plan.

Your mother
will have a greater chance of survival.

[Since we are here today,]

you have to pay us in full.

Every penny.

[We lent 1.5 million to his father]

[out of kindness.]

[IOU receipt]
[Now pay us back.]

Where's my dad, really?

I'm on the phone with my lover.

[I heard that ]

[she and her boyfriend
moved to another city.]

[I suspect that your mother
may have lung cancer.]

[Read a Good Book will stop airing]

[starting the first day of next month.]

What happened?

A car accident?

Are you okay?

-Are you okay?
-Are you all right?

-Are you injured?
-Are you hurt?

-Don't move.
-Are you badly hurt?

I-I could call an ambulance.

Do you want us to call you an ambulance?

It's okay.

I'm okay.

-I'm all right. No need to call an ambulance.
-Can you stand up?

-Can you stand up?
-Slowly.

Be careful.

You'd better get yourself checked.

-It's okay.
-She's badly hurt.

Yes.

Do you need to go to the hospital?

Let's go.

Excuse me.

Are you okay?

Your head is bleeding.

You might want to wipe it off.

This part.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

What is your problem?

-Sorry...
-You...

What's wrong with you?

I'm sorry, it's my fault.

Of course, it is.

Mr. Liu?

Mr. Liu, it's you.

I'm so sorry

that I hit your car, Mr. Liu.

My name is Zhao Yuanyuan.

We met at the annual designer meeting.

I came today

to pay you a visit.

I didn't expect

this to happen.

I'll pay for your car repairs.

No need.

Why?

Add me on WeChat.

So we can make arrangements
to get your car fixed.

You are lucky

that Mr. Liu didn't ask you
to pay for the damages.

Right.

Huan.

Ms. He.

What happened to you?

I was hit by a car.

What?

Where's the driver?

He left the scene?

Have you called the police?

It's a hit-and-run.

How could they?

I'm calling the cops.

Actually, I threw myself on the car.

I told him to leave.

You what?

Did you have a death wish?

Yuanyuan...

It all really felt like

a dream.

How else do you explain

so many things

happening at once?

Oh, my God! What is this?

Your husband left you,

so what? Don't hurt yourself
because of that.

No.

I just wanted to wake up...

See if it was all a dream.

He didn't just leave me.

He left me for another woman.

He's never coming back.

Oh, geez.

That's such a cliché.

And my TV show

is canceled.

Everything I was once proud of

is gone.

Ms. He,

to tell you the truth,

if the show didn't come to an end now,

it would sooner or later.

Don't tell me

you didn't see thing one coming?

I know you're going through a lot
right now,

but honestly,

I think you're very lucky.

You were born in a city.

You grew up comfortably.

Got into a top-tier college with ease.

Do you have any idea
how many people want to be you?

I was born in the suburbs.

When I was in 10th grade,

I almost dropped out of school
because my family couldn't afford to pay.

It took me a lot of effort
to get into Tier 2.

Sure,

your husband left you.

But you'd led an easy life

for ten years when you were together.

Jiaqi and I have been dating
for two years.

I keep him company all the time.

I take care of him.

Be there for him
emotionally and physically.

But he won't even buy me a car,

let alone marry me.

Hell, it may never happen.

My life is so much harder than yours.

Your show is canceled,

but you've been an anchor

for the company for ten years.

I've been with them for seven years now.

And do I think

others have worked harder than me

in the past seven years? Absolutely not.

Just because of
a 10 million advertisement,

I was replaced by a newcomer.

It was a bitter pill to swallow.

Besides,

you haven't lost it all.

You still have your family,

your parents,

your son.

My mom has been diagnosed with cancer.

My mom died when I was 18.

Sorry to hear that.

Ms. He, I didn't tell you about all this

to make my life sound more terrible
than yours.

I'm trying to tell you that

men cheating on women,

career setbacks, and parents getting sick

are really common nowadays.

Things like these

happen as we speak.

Lack of money, being in debt.

Your hard work doesn't always pay off.

Not getting what you want.

This is what life is all about.

You used to get your own way.

But it was all a big illusion.

It was just a dream.

Now you're back to reality.

He Huan,

welcome back to real life.

You're restricted to the first floor.

One step up the stairs,
and I'll call the police

and file an attempted rape case.

[Jiangdu Television]

A coffee with sugar, please.

That'll be 16.8.

Okay.

He's so hot.

Running out of things to do?

You leave the tables uncleared
and the customers

and the phone unattended.

You're always on your phone.

I only took a glance.

Two coffees.
Finance department, ninth floor.

Pick up the pace.

Take these coffees up to the ninth floor.

Sure.

["News in Progress" urgently needs
two scheduling coordinators]

Sir,

could I apply for the job?

Don't you work at the coffee shop?

Well, I want a new job.

You should know

the job doesn't pay well.

That's okay.

I don't expect to be able
to buy a house with my own income.

The role of a scheduling coordinator
is anything but easy.

Yeah,

I...

I mean, there are no easy jobs anyway.

I can do it.

Can you start today?

You bet.

Hello?

[Ms. He, where are you?]

I'm in the lobby.

On my way to the HR Department
to do a handover.

[Mr. Huang wants to see you
in his office.]

Now?

[Yes.]

Okay, I'll be right there.

Come in.

Mr. Huang, you wanted to see me?

Have a seat.

I've heard you have some family issues.

It's all been taken care of.

Is there anything

we can help you with?

No, but I do appreciate the offer.

Okay. Let me know if you need anything.

Thank you, Mr. Huang.

Now, I'd like to talk about

the cancellation of Read a Good Book.

It must be

incredibly hard for you.

To tell you the truth,

the company's decision to cancel the show

wasn't personal.

It was the result of an attempt

to combine our content with social media.

To be able to get our marketing plan

in full swing,

we'll have to accelerate structural change

in our TV shows and series

and root out homogeneous imitations
of each other.

I completely understand.

But why Read a Good Book?

[News in Progress]

This is your workspace.

Your job is

to record calls from viewers.

Remember,

no matter how emotional they are,

just stay calm. Definitely no backtalk.

Record things as they are

without talking back,

arguing, and/or making things clear.

You're telling me
to be an emotional garbage dump.

That's my strong suit.

Oh, and

in addition to recording

the calls,

you'll also need to keep a close eye on
our official account's updates

as well as other trending topics,

and provide the viewers
with timely feedback.

Did you get all that?

You bet I did.

Hi, this is News in Progress.

Do you have any clues?

Your husband jumped off a building?

-Her husband jumped off a building.
-Write it down.

Get a pen.

Is your husband a male or a female?

I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

Um...

Would you mind speaking more slowly?
I'm taking this down.

Without a doubt,

Read a Good Book

is keeping its standards high.

And your hard work

over the last few years

is well recognized.

I hate to say it,

but the show has a low engagement rate

and is not impactful enough.

Well, we are actually

aware of these issues.

We did come up with a plan
to make adjustments,

but we haven't had the chance
to implement the changes.

It would take more than making adjustments

to solve these problems.

The importance of the Internet

was neglected
at the initial stage of the product.

In the era of social media,

it's sticking out like a sore thumb.

You mean

it's outdated.

Nowadays, when it's all about
meeting the customer's needs

and timely customer service,

it is indeed outdated.

Who would've thought

a show that's been airing
for over ten years

would become obsolete now?

Well, I can't say I'm surprised.

Things change.

Today,

trends are moving at lightning speed,

and innovations are spreading faster
than ever.

Which means

a lack of focus

could kill the business.

Understood.

Ms. He,

we're living in the era of social media.

We all have to start things from scratch.

Start all over and learn from zero.

I'll keep that in mind.

Start things from scratch.

Start all over.

Learn from zero.

[Jiangdu Second People's Hospital
Coagulation Test Results]

[Jiangdu Second People's Hospital
Imaging Test Results]

Ms. Zhong.

Yeah, it's me, He Huan.

[What's up?]

So, um,

my mother has cancer.

You know some people
in the National Health Commission, right?

When Kaige had a toothache,

you referred him to a specialist.

I was wondering

if you could get a...

[I'm in a meeting.]

I'll call you back...

[Got to go.]

Hi, there, Mr. Zhang.

This is He Huan speaking.

[I'm sorry... Who?]

I'm Ou Kaige's wife.

[I don't know any Ou Kaige. Bye.]

[Does anyone...]

[Does anyone of you have friends
working at South Hill Hospital?]

[You have 1 unsent message.]

Guess this is life.

[Outpatient Dept.]

Get plenty of rest.

Avoid spicy and hot foods.

All right. Thank you.

Dr. Xiong, hey.

I'm the daughter of Xie Huiquan.

Yeah, I know.

Yeah, um, I have a question.

Do you know who is the best specialist

in lung cancer here at this hospital?

I'll refer you to Dr. Cai.

Just go to him.

Dr. Cai?

Okay, thank you.

Yes...

lung cancer, too.

Please

add me to the group.

Thanks.

Hello, Dr. Cai.

Dr. Xiong said I could call you.

[CT Scan Envelope]
Did he fill you in?

Right, um,

I was wondering

if you could read

my mother's CT scan.

All right. I'm coming right over.

How do I look?

Yes.

No, no, no.

-Let me strike a different pose.
-Something you can do without wobbling.

Got it.

All right.

Get closer.

There we go.

Again.

Do I look good?

I'm like a peacock.

-Okay.
-Do I look good?

You look great.

Huan, it's you.

Mom!

Huan.

Have you finished your homework yet?

Can you not

be a buzzkill?

I'm a buzzkill?

You hate doing homework, don't you?

Your grandpa will do it later.

Sure.

Are you kidding?

Your dad helped you with yours a lot
when you were a kid.

That's right.

Anyway...

Careful.

what are you doing back here?

Bring Mom her test results.

What test results?

You don't remember?

You got a CT scan

when you were in the hospital.

Dr. Xiong called you two,

but neither of you answered.

So he called me instead

and asked me to get your test results.

Show me it. Is everything okay?

No.

Not at all.

What is it?

Tell us.

It says here that

you are

spoiled rotten.

You always push Dad around.

You can't take care of yourself.

You seek attention,

you like to dance,
and you go out all the time.

It's all written here.

Quit fooling around.

Ugh...

[Medical Record]
Let me take a look.

Let me take a look.

Let me take a look.

Mm.

The lungs are clear.

No enlarged lymph nodes detected.

You're all right.

Good.

Good.

There is a small nodule.

Nothing to worry about.

I've spoken with Dr. Xiong.

He said it's okay to leave

nodules that are less than 6 mm untreated.

But you should have it checked out

the next time you get a physical.

All right.

Sit.

By the way, I just ran into

Mr. Wang's son.

It's been what,

five years since Mr. Wang passed?

He had just turned 60 when he died.

What did he die of?

Lung cancer.

Yeah, lung cancer.

I've just remembered.

It started as a small nodule.

But he ignored it.

Then it turned into cancer.

Do you think your mom's

is cancerous too?

Why would you even think that?

Geez.

Can't you be more optimistic?

Right, right.

Anyway, Dr. Xiong also said that

you could have it removed
using a minimally invasive

surgical approach to be on the safe side.

Hell no.

It's a minor procedure.

An outpatient surgery

that takes less than half an hour.

You should do it.

Just to be on the safe side,

okay?

But I can't handle pain.

Look,

pain management
has advanced with technology.

You won't feel a thing.

I promise.

You said a flu shot wouldn't hurt.

Yet I had a sore arm for three days.

That's not the same thing.

Know what?

I think we should just

get it checked out first
at Grade 3 Class A hospital.

We'll get you a top specialist.

One that's from a Grade 3
Class A hospital only,

-okay?
-Mm-hmm.

I agree with Huan.

-Mm.
-Okay?

Okay.

You'll come home with me tonight.

Can I stay here for two more days, please?

-Is Kaige back?
-Two more days?

Not yet.

Well, then, you can pick Zimo up
when Kaige returns.

Yeah.

You're too busy

to look after Zimo.

But he's been staying here for days.

Mom isn't exactly in good shape.

I'd much rather she took things easy
than babysat Zimo.

Who says I'm not in good shape?

Yesterday, Chen Aili told me

that my body shape

hadn't changed a bit.

Yeah.

Your mom's blood pressure reading
has been normal.

Her energy levels have been high.

I can vouch for that.

Seriously.

Shapes and sizes do not equate to health.

My blood pressure is a little high,
so what?

She's fine.

Fine, then.

Aw.

So what's for dinner tonight, Dad?

Yeah, what are we eating?

What do you say to fried sauce noodles?

Sounds good.

All right.

Fried sauce noodles.

I'll go make it.

Huan, what happened to you?

What?

I accidentally hit my head

when I went down the stairs.

Just a scrape. Nothing serious.

How could you be so clumsy?

What are you doing?

Taking a photo of you.

Taking a photo of me? What for?

Look at your mom's eyes...

[Creative Culinary Fusions]

[Mr. Liu, this is Zhao Yuanyuan,
an anchor for Jiangdu Television.]

[I've been told that Lindu
will be hosting a sales event next month.]

[We could help you get the word out.]

Hey,

are you listening to me?

Yeah, what was that?

I was saying,

is there anything new going on
with Ou Kaige's wife?

She no longer lives with us.

Where does she live now?

Her own home.

[Add to Contacts]
What now?

We're not finished with Ou Kaige yet.

As far as I'm concerned,

He Huan is a victim too.

She knows nothing.

If you ask me,

you guys should find other ways
to get to Ou Kaige

and get your money back.

Yeah, we've been working on it.

But I'm still going to keep tabs
on He Huan.

Well, if you insist.

Yuanyuan,

you've been trying to seek approval
from my parents.

This is your chance.

Don't you think?

Okay.

I, uh...

I'll ask her again

whenever I can.

Oh, you're the best.

Here's to you.

I'd much rather you said I was pretty.

[Outpatient Department]

[Outpatient Department]
So, have you made up your mind?

I'll pass. It's too expensive.

That's what you think? Okay.

What about you?

How much is it?

Only 200.

That's too much money.

Can you work on the price for me?

Knock it down a bit?

I'll just leave you to your thoughts.

You know where to find me.

You?

How much?

200. Price is firm.

I can't afford it.

You can't?

All right, then.

Keep the card.

No, I'm good.

I don't want it.

No?

Fine.

Here, take it.

Call me if you need my service.

[MedTech]

[Appointment Setting Services]

Who is this guy?

Just rethink it.

I'm just a call away,

yeah?

I'm on call 24/7.

You.

Have you decided yet?

It's very pricey.

Pricey?

How about 100?

It's going to be a long queue time.

Look...

I'll give you 100
if we can close the deal now.

You'll come to me.

Mark my words.

What about you two? Is it a deal?

No, not interested.

Hmm. We'll see.

Thanks.

Here's my health plan card.

I want to book an appointment
with a cardiologist, please.

Let's just wait and see

if we can get a specialist slot today.

Could you squeeze me in?

Can you do this afternoon?

I can't wait much longer.

Sounds good.

See?

The queue time is insane.

My health plan card isn't working.

Thank you.

Yeah,

I couldn't schedule an appointment
online either.

Can't you just make an exception?

Please?

Ma'am, I'm just trying to do my job.

You're lucky to be able to get a slot.

Seems like all of them are booked up.

I know Dr. Tong.

How much does a consultation
with him cost?

800.

800?

But it only costs 90
to get an appointment at the reception.

You are not wrong.

The problem is, can you get one there?

[South Hill Hospital]
Some have been queuing for half year.

Patients are dying while waiting

for a timely medical appointment.

Do you want an open slot?

An open slot?

The price is quite reasonable.

Are you for real?

-Well...
-Hi. Do you have any sparkling water?

Can I get one?

I'm not lying.

You know what?

Here.

-That'll be two dollars.
-Take a look at this.

A copy of the appointment confirmation
for a person

whom I scheduled an appointment for
a couple of days ago.

Specialists like neurosurgeons,

cardiologists, oncologists,

you name it, I've got it.

If you're skeptical,

take this with you

and ask around in the hospital.

Just trust me.

I'm basically here all day and every day.

You need to stop shilly-shallying, sir.

Time is of the essence.

Listen to me.

-I just...
-Sir? Sir,

don't listen to him.

Dr. Tong isn't taking any appointments
this afternoon.

He'll be giving a lecture

at a medical school.

That's nonsense.

No, it isn't.

Dr. Tong is a visiting professor
at the school.

It's transparent information.

You can find it on the Internet.

Keep your nose out of it!

What?

No, I'm not going to stand idly by.

Don't listen to her.

She's obviously not in her right mind.

Sir, think twice
before you make that deal.

It may be difficult
to schedule an appointment with Dr. Tong,

but it's not impossible.

You just got to do it the right way.

Look,

Dr. Tong is available

every Wednesday and Friday.

Get here 4 hours earlier,
and you should be able to book him.

-Being scammed is...
-No, no, no.

-Get your hands off!
-Don't listen to any of her bullsh*t.

Being scammed is one thing,

but worsening your health condition
due to delayed care is quite another.

Leave, sir. Shake a leg.

Thank you, miss. No.

-Sir!
-No problem.

-Go now.
-Sir!

-Thank you.
-No...

Don't move, you stupid b*tch!

You're not getting away with this.

What do you think you're doing?

Need I remind you

that cameras are everywhere?

Lay a hand on me,

and cops will arrive in 3 minutes.

Pay me 800,

or I'll hit you.

Oh yeah? Go ahead.

Fine.

I'll beat you up until the cops get here!

What the hell is in your bag?

Want to go again?

That's enough!

There are spying eyes here!

Police will arrive in 3 minutes!

3 minutes?

That's how long I'll beat you up!

All right.

Stop now. Stop. That's enough.

Calm down.

Freaking con artist!

I'm sorry, okay?

Not okay!

Enough. Unless you want to get yourself
in trouble.

Oh, you.

You're a godd*mn crazy b*tch!

What?

-Get the hell out of here.
-Just wait!

I'll f*cking come for you!

Why are you here?

You're stalking me again?

No. I was just...

You're sick, you know that?

Who are you calling sick?

I saw you going out
in the middle of the night.

I was worried, so I followed you.

What for?

I wanted to protect you.

Oh, please.

If you hadn't stopped me,

I could have stopped him
from preying on more people

by beating the hell out of him.

If I hadn't stopped you,

you would've been arrested.

Charged with battery.

So why are you following me?

Did you think I was meeting Ou Kaige?

You need to stop following me around.

I'm trying to make an appointment
for my mom.

Didn't she already leave the hospital?

She's been diagnosed with lung cancer.

If I catch you stalking me again,
I'm calling the cops.

Meet me at the usual place.

Hello?

Hi. Is this Mr. Liu?

Good day to you.

I'm Zhao Yuanyuan,
an anchor for Jiangdu Television.

We've met twice.

Your cold medicine.

Thanks.

By the way, Qiaoqiao came to see me.

She wants to be part of

next week's Sparkling World Opening Livestream.

Did I hear that right?

She just joined the company
a little while ago.

Are today's Zoomers

all so highly ambitious?

Haven't you been complaining

about having to do live updates
all by yourself?

Might be a good thing

to have an extra pair of hands.

That's pretty much it.

I've told you guys everything I know.

She didn't go to see Ou Kaige?

-C-calm down.
-Y-y-you...

Take a chill pill.

And bring it down a notch.

Let me ask you something.

It's been a while
since you moved in with her.

Yet you don't have any leads?

I've rummaged through her entire house.

I didn't see anything useful.

I'm not surprised your effort was in vain.

It's been too long.

The leads must have turned cold.

And I'm sure

she doesn't keep cash at home.

We have to push her harder.

Wait.

I'm with you on that.

No. It's a bad idea.

Her husband left her for another woman.

And her mom is ill.

It's been a hard time for her.

Has it, though?

Come on.

We are the ones with a hard life.

Up until now,

we have received nothing!

Not even a penny!

She's going through a hard time?

My *ss!

Mr. Jiang, you can't...

you can't go easy on her, you hear me?

The hell I will.

I'm known for my ruthlessness.

All right, okay.

Let's just calm down,

all right?

Now, I'm going to speak my mind.

Did Ou Kaige

really walk out on her
to be with another woman?

Because from what I understand,

he spoiled

her rotten.

I'm afraid your sources are credible.

I was told

he was always saying

how proud he was of his newscaster wife.

What's that supposed to mean?

That we've been fooled
by the couple again?

Oh, come on.

I wasn't born yesterday.

-Neither were we.
-Neither were we.

That is correct.

Right.

That's the end of today's
Read a Good Book.

Sadly,

I will not see you tomorrow.

We all have a life to live

in this big wide world.

Maybe

you will soon forget all about this show.

But this much is certain.

The books we've read together,

the knowledge and joy we've shared,

they're going to spark a light in us.

And I...

I'll always remember

the moments we spent together.

Thank you

for the nine remarkable years of support.

I'm truly grateful.

And

to all our viewers...

I humbly thank you.

Ms. He,

that was the last episode of

Read a Good Book.

Thank you, guys.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Aww, you.

Get in here.

Thank you for all the hard work.

So...

have you decided on your next career move?

I'm going to the business news channel.

Xiaoling to Color and Taste,

Jingjing to Blooming Women,

and Ke will be joining
the editorial department.

Well...

you've made good decisions.

You're going to do well.

What about you, Ms. He?

I don't know yet.

I haven't had the chance
to raise the subject.

Guess I needn't worry about you.

After all, you're very sought-after.

You really think that highly of me?

Yeah.

I was charmed

by your on-screen presence.

That's why I chose to be
a television production major

so I could get a career in the field.

I remember when I was a teenager,

my family and I

would sit in front of the television

every day at 6 o'clock on the dot

to watch your TV show.

You were the anchor of

News in Progress.

So sassy and beautiful.

You were widely admired.

That was over a decade ago.

But in my eyes,

you're still the same person.

You're right.

Maybe I should be back in the saddle.

All right, now, don't cry.

[Conference Room]

He Huan just talked to HR today

to request a transfer back

to her previous role in the News Center.

♪Like how the sun shines
through the dark clouds♪

♪Over the bottom of the city♪

♪How many random meetings
can burn into memories?♪

♪Or do they just pop out occasionally?♪

♪Why do we hesitate
when traveling together?♪

♪You're like the sun and also the rain♪

♪The story continues and stops♪

♪The ending glimmers too♪

♪Misunderstandings pull us apart♪

♪Dreams make us expect♪

♪If love can be requited♪

♪I'll forget who I was yesterday♪

♪Then could I make you♪

♪Feel the way I feel♪

♪The sympathy♪

♪Drifts through the tough life♪

♪It's lucky enough to meet each other♪

♪If happiness takes longer, that's fine♪

♪To love anyway♪