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This is the handgun that I used
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when I was on guard duty
with Yogi Bhajan.
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That was back in the '80s.
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I also had a gallery.
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I probably have the biggest
collection of Yogi Bhajans
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"so-called" art, if you want to
call it that.
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As you can see, there are
drawings of phalluses.
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There's a woman here
in the center,
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and then he's put
the word power here.
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I think it's really indicative
of how abusive he was.
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He's got God written here.
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Kundalini yoga is notorious
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for being a highly intense form
of yoga.
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And for more than four decades,
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it has been dominated by
the name of one man --
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Yogi Bhajan.
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His movement, 3HO,
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the Healthy, Happy, Holy Organization,
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currently has 30,000 devoted
followers worldwide.
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They continue to promote
their leader's teachings.
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We have to be healthy, happy,
and holy.
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His healthy lifestyle,
no drugs message
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made him popular amongst presidents
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and people of influence.
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He spoke with the pope.
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This was the power of
Yogi Bhajan everywhere he went.
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Not one president didn't bow
to him.
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They looked like children
in front of him.
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But new allegations are emerging,
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revealing a dark secret inside
the organization
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and pitting one generation
against the next.
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I was sexually abused
by Yogi Bhajan.
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He gave me a wedding ring,
said I was his youngest wife,
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I was his most innocent wife,
called me the Virgin Queen.
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Yogi Bhajan, I've never seen
him as an abusive person.
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I don't believe the people
who make the allegations.
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I wanted to speak today
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because I can finally come out
of the closet, as it were.
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This story's been
a long time hidden.
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There are so many people
who don't believe in us
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and that he did anything wrong.
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I am 100% a believer
that 3HO is a cult.
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I haven't been over here
in years.
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There are a lot of these 3HO
people that live here,
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these Yogi Bhajan followers,
in this neighborhood here.
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That's Yogi Bhajan's ranch entrance
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or one of the entrances.
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That dome is part of
that ranch.
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And Yogi Bhajan
used to lecture in there.
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What is the purpose of
communication?
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What is the purpose of talking?
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Behind these gates hides
the 20-acre compound
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where 3HO founder Yogi Bhajan
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built his headquarters back
in the 1970s.
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Although he died in 2004,
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he is survived by 3HO
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and a community that continues
to revere him.
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A memorial in his honor,
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erected by the governor
of New Mexico,
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still stands today.
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I was around Yogi Bhajan
for about 30 years.
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But in recent years,
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members of his inner circle
have broken ranks
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to describe
the troubling events
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they witnessed behind
closed doors.
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I did the guard duty,
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and I would take him in
the middle of the night
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up to different residences,
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and he would be dressed
just in his underwear
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and then a shawl
he would put over him.
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I started to look deeper into
what was really going on,
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and I was really angry
about it.
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My idea is that
I want to remove
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that Yogi Bhajan Memorial
Highway sign.
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Okay.
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He had women around him all
the time, giving him massages,
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you know, sleeping in the same
room with him.
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There was no criticism of
Yogi Bhajan.
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However, in the eyes of
the first wave of believers,
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Yogi Bhajan can do no wrong.
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I think Yogi Bhajan was
a person with great purpose.
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He came to set up
a yoga program.
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The kind of yoga that
Yogi Bhajan taught
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is basically get high yoga.
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His was doing a very stimulates
your nervous system,
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like, raise your arms up
for three minutes
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and do long, heavy, deep breathing.
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Well, if you do that, you're
going to kind of get stoned.
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Yogi Bhajan's
physical yoga practice
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is rooted in spiritual teachings
taken from Sikhism.
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He made tremendous contributions
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to the Sikh culture,
which nobody ever heard of,
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practically, outside of India
before he came here,
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and to the yogi culture.
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Those who came to follow
the physical and spiritual sides
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of 3HO often stayed
for Yogi Bhajan himself,
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who seemed equally devoted
to them.
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Yogi Bhajan called me Premka.
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The names had spiritual meanings.
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He said it meant
"beloved of God."
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I grew up in Seattle
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with a lot of religion
in my family.
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When I was 21,
I arrived in Los Angeles,
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happy to leave my entire past
behind and start over again.
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I was sort of alone in a very
big new environment.
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I had learned that Yogi Bhajan
was teaching yoga classes.
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I was looking for Eastern
philosophy, Eastern thought,
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and I was looking for a teacher
that could tell me
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what I was supposed to do.
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When I came into class with
Yogi Bhajan,
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it was full of this whole
entire hippie commune
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that had come from New Mexico.
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When Yogi Bhajan comes to
Southern California
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in the late 1960s,
revolution is in the air.
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Yeah, we were the free love generation.
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We were looking for something
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that was different than the kind
of repressed living in the '50s.
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It was kind of a free love movement.
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I was caught up, like everybody
else of my generation,
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in the Vietnam War protest.
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There was a lot of turmoil at
the time with the Vietnam War.
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Draft resisters and deserters,
we were saying,
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We've got to find an alternative
to the current status quo.
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The '60s was an expansion of awareness.
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People were hungry to find out
what makes us kinder.
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There was the music,
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there was the aliveness of
sexual experimentation,
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there was drugs.
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There was a sense of,
"What's life about?
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What are we doing together?"
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This thirst for change
creates a spiritual gold rush,
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as gurus flood into America
from abroad
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to minister the biggest
influencers of the day.
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So Yogi Bhajan comes along,
along with, you know,
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there were probably 20 or 30
major teachers from the East,
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and they bring this kind of
cultural wisdom.
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Again, this is early '70s.
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We didn't have websites that
give this information
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and these teachers.
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We weren't inoculated against
this kind of...
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someone who knew something about
life that we didn't.
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I saw Yogi Bhajan standing in
the back of the room,
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this tall, incredibly
good-looking man
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in a bright pink turban.
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All of a sudden, I saw this
purple aura around his head,
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and I'd keep blinking my eyes,
and it didn't go away.
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It majorly impacted me
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in terms of is this
my spiritual teacher?
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He just kept pulling me into
activities with him.
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What was most enticing
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was his interest and his
curiosity about me.
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As I kept taking more and more
administrative responsibility,
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he created a title of
secretary-general for me.
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With Pamela's help,
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3HO becomes an official
religious organization.
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And as more yogis join,
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Bhajan starts to issue them with
holy names and positions.
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My role was Yogi Bhajan's
driver and confidant.
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One day,
I went to a yoga class,
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and we chant, "Ong Namo Guru Dev
Namo," to start the class.
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The moment I chanted,
"Ong Namo,"
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I saw the universe.
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And I saw so many things
when I chanted,
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and I heard, "I'm home.
I'm home. I'm home."
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And I saw him, and it was like,
"Wow."
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He gave me a job to write
his biography,
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so he gave me a title.
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He said, "Messenger From
the Guru's House,"
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and the rest was on me.
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He wanted people to go out
with it.
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He said, "I'm not creating students.
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I'm creating teachers."
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Come on, come on.
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People would go through these
couple of week trainings,
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and then he would send them out
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elsewhere in the country
and say,
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"Go. Go teach Kundalini yoga
and open an ashram."
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I was the head of the ashram
in Canada for 15 years.
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It started with simply putting
some posters up
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to teach Kundalini yoga.
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People would show up for
a class, 10 or 15 people.
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And then there was this urge
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that we wanted to live in
the same either neighborhood
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or in the same house.
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And that led to,
"Let's buy a house."
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So it became an ashram.
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He actually had a letter go out
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suggesting to people that they
put their ashrams, their houses,
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in the name of
the organization.
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And this would help them with
being tax exempt
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on their property taxes
and stuff
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because it would be
a non-profit.
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And it would be held for
the future generations.
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3HO was growing, growing,
growing the whole time.
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It went from tens of thousands
to 50,000 to 100,000.
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This explosive growth
transforms 3HO
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from a small tribe
into a national movement.
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The momentum brings a constant
stream of believers
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into the fold.
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Slowly bring your hands overhead.
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Yogi Bhajan was empowering
our imaginations and saying,
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"Imagine. Work towards a new tomorrow.
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Work towards a healthy, happy,
holy culture."
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Yogi Bhajan taught us to get up
at 4:00 in the morning,
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to be vegetarian,
no alcohol, no drugs,
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keep ourselves chaste.
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He had a thousand things to do
about everything
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how to sleep, what direction,
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what clothes to wear,
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if you wear your hair up
in a rishi knot,
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it's good for your
electromagnetic field
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in order to become better.
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80% of the marriages
were arranged.
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There would be a course,
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and he would line up all
the unmarried men on one wall
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and all the unmarried women
on the other,
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and they just matched them up,
and said, "You marry you."
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From the marriages arranged by
Yogi Bhajan,
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children started being born
into 3HO.
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The first generation chose to
become part of 3HO
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and told the second generation,
"This is what you have to do."
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And the second generation
had no choice...
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unless we were going to
run away.
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Right? But we had no choice.
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I have no complaints
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because he made us hippies
into something different.
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We lived a pretty clean lifestyle.
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We lived together.
We raised our kids together.
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It was exactly what it said --
healthy, happy, and holy.
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And that's why it was very
difficult to leave.
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I remember that there was
a point when he said to me,
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"Premka,
your faith must be so perfect
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that if I ask you to kill
someone, you will just do it."
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Now, here is the entrance,
Guru Ram Das Estates.
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This is where he lived for five
years of his life.
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He lived...
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in that room at the end.
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He slept in here.
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He had one attendant every night
to attend him.
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He got animals and put them on
the property
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to make it for children,
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just to be like a place
that's natural,
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not just a cold American house
in a suburban division.
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This was all for us,
for the future.
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By 1984, summer solstice celebrations
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at Ram Das Puri ranch
in New Mexico are in full swing.
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It's been 14 years since
Yogi Bhajan
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first arrived in the US,
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and 3HO is now running more than
100 ashrams worldwide.
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But as his influence grows,
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so does the need for money
to sustain the ashrams
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and their recruitment drive.
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We were organized
in a certain way
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where we could create businesses
very quickly,
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and the other ashrams
around the world,
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because they had that kind of --
you could call it worker bee,
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but it's a happy worker bee.
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But it wasn't mindless.
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We started a lot of
yoga centers,
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Toronto's first real
health food store.
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Some of the products are
nationally known, Yogi Tea.
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You've probably seen it. Have
you seen it before, Yogi Tea?
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- Yeah, I think I have, yeah.
- That's good. They call it Yogi.
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That's their main income
producer now.
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Yogi Tea was small.
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All of a sudden, these big
health food stores came,
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and Yogi Tea became
the number one herbal tea
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in the United States
in three years,
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so all of a sudden, we're doing
a billion dollars,
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$1.2 billion of business
a year.
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That was us.
That was the people.
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That was the entrepreneurial
spirit of all of us.
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Of all the businesses
that came out of it,
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the big one was Akal Security.
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The security firm that 3HO
starts is very lucrative.
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The US government pays them to
defend federal courthouses,
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embassies, and immigration
detention centers.
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This was all Akal Security.
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They had a billion dollars in
contracts all over the world.
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He had so many cars.
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These are limousines,
cars that he bought.
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When he would meet the president
of the United States,
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dignitaries,
he went in a limousine.
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Yogi Bhajan was fascinated
with wealth.
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He traveled, and there was
always personal luxury around.
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Most of us were hippies.
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We loved simplicity.
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We worked long hours and made
very little money.
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He called it a spiritual mafia.
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We were always donating money
to him,
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so he was receiving a tremendous
amount of funds
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for the yoga that he taught,
personal donations.
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This property, he had people
who were devoted
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and took a piece of land that
had nothing on it
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and did this with people who
made minimum wage for 40 years.
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All of his subjects essentially
were poor.
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I'd say about 90%.
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And then there was this 10%,
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and then there was that upper
echelon of the 3%.
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I mean, it's just the rich
and the poor, for sure.
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I was really little, 1 or 2.
My parents were very poor.
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There was never enough food.
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Literally, my shoes were
flip-flops.
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My mom held several jobs
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just to make ends meet.
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While 3HO parents
are working around the clock
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to barely scrape by,
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Yogi Bhajan has plans
for their children.
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Do me a favor.
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Tell everybody,
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life comes once
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and chance to get educated
comes once,
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but dying to just learn to
become educated
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is not enough.
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But to become learned
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and to live learned
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is one chance in whole life.
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Yogi Bhajan wanted to establish
a school in India
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where people could send
their children.
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He thought it d be better for
the children to be there.
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There was the idea that this
would make them strong,
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it would serve them.
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Here I am, I'm this kid,
right?
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I'm living in these squalor situations.
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So when India came up to me,
I'm thinking in my mind,
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like, it's "Aladdin"
from Disney.
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I'm going to go to India.
This is going to be great.
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India was this mystical land,
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and it was the land of
the gurus,
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it was the land of the Sikhs.
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It was somewhere that
I dreamed of being.
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We were told that we were
these old souls,
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we were in charge of
our own destiny,
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and that our generation
was the ones that were going to
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be these leaders.
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And Yogi Bhajan was going to be
the physical person on Earth
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that would guide me
in my spiritual life.
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And I was 8 years old.
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When I got to the school,
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that's when the reality hit
that I am not safe.
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People had so much trust.
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Looking back on it,
what were we thinking?
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This is like the neighborhood
that I grew up in.
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Everybody in the neighborhood
were from the 3HO community,
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and there's a lot of dark stuff
in the story of the community.
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But as far as, like,
an upbringing,
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I really do value a lot of
what I grew up with.
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Just -- it's really awful
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that it was...
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it was all being run by
this total sociopath.
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Everything in that community
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absolutely went through
the lens of,
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"Well, you know what Yogi Bhajan
said about that."
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It was really inescapable.
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True believers of Yogi Bhajan
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really believed that sending
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your kids to the schools
in India
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was the absolute best thing
that you could do for them,
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and why would you go
against that?
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In the 1980s and '90s,
at the peak of its powers,
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3HO is running four boarding
schools across India,
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aiming to indoctrinate
a new generation.
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Children as young as 2 are
separated from their parents
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and flown to India.
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Some remain there for a decade,
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immersed in a curriculum that
prioritizes Bhajan's teachings
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over math and reading.
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Every day, you re going to be
doing Kundalini yoga
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and meditation and be learning
Yogi Bhajan's teachings.
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True believers of Yogi Bhajan
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were sent to the school to
administer the school.
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When I was there,
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it was very military-style,
extremely rigid.
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There was an extreme devotion to
Yogi Bhajan
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as a sort of superman
of some kind.
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It wasn't even human.
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He was basically God.
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I was 6, 7, and 8
at the time.
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We always had to work hard,
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we always had to go clean,
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and we were always put in very
tough physical situations,
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I felt.
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And if we complained,
we were weak,
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we were the "problem" child,
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so you just learned to keep
your mouth shut all the time.
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It was a battle of survival.
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We were in a constant risk of
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corporal punishment from
the teachers,
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and it was a brutal,
brutal place.
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I was beaten by teachers,
and there was a time where
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the girls in our dorm were caned
every single morning.
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My parents couldn't afford to
bring me home.
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So, I went over at 8.
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I didn't see my parents
until I was 11.
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One of the things that was
really hard for me to admit to
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was how I tried to commit
suicide twice...
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because I felt alone,
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and I didn't have parents to
mediate or hug me
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or make sure I was okay.
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And so I felt like, you know,
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I have to get their attention by
ending my life.
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He had thousands and thousands
of people trusting him.
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Oh, yeah, you all start sending
your kids to India.
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These kids will be enlightened.
It will be wonderful.
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All bullshit.
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It was power.
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I sent my son away
when he was 2
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at the bequest of Yogi Bhajan.
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We went to pick him up.
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Because of that time period,
he didn't recognize us.
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Pure, pure child abuse.
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Sending my kids to India...
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that's a rough one.
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And I'm working on it.
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I'm working on it.
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There was tremendous
social pressure.
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People were sort of
looked down upon
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who didn't send their kids to
the boarding schools
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as lacking a certain amount of
faith in the program.
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I do think that
the schools were created
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to make willing servants
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out of the children of
the people of this community.
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The parents could work harder
for the businesses,
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work harder
for the non-profits,
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just be more in the hands of
the guru.
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He was the final say
on everything,
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00:24:06,480 --> 00:24:10,160
and he wanted it to stay
that way.
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We all bought into a philosophy
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that really sort of diminished
the importance of familial bonds
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and made it kind of more easy
and acceptable
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to send your kid all the way
around the world
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to a crappy institution.
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And it's something
I've been dealing with
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for my whole life, I think,
because of that.
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Yogi Bhajan separated children
from their parents,
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really so that we'd be reliant
on the religion.
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00:24:45,040 --> 00:24:46,560
But what I think his ultimate
goal was that
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we were reliant on him
telling us what to do.
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We were being groomed to obey
everything he said.
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So off we went to
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whichever place
he told us to go to.
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When some of these kids
came back,
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there wasn't the encouragement
to go to college,
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particularly some of
the young women.
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They were encouraged
to join his staff.
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In March of 1991,
when I was 16,
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I got back from India,
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and then one of the staff
members called my parents
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and said that he wanted me to
come out to New Mexico
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and be with him.
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Right around my 18th birthday,
I was applying to colleges.
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I was told, "Yogi Bhajan wants
you to put off college
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for a year
and work at the Secretariat."
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And of course, this was
considered an honor.
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I absolutely did not
want to do it.
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I wanted to go to college,
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but I did it because my parents
thought this was a great idea,
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and if you decided you didn't
want to be with him,
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Yogi Bhajan, or part of
whatever he told you to do,
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you were excommunicated, essentially,
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00:25:55,160 --> 00:25:58,640
even if you kept
your turban on.
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I was around a lot of
the secretaries.
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There was just this gaggle of
women around Yogi Bhajan
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all the time.
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They seemed like
so happy to be around him
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and do whatever he wanted.
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He created his whole circle of
staff members
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that could go on different trips
with him.
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00:26:22,120 --> 00:26:24,600
We had to just serve him,
be with him,
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practice perfect surrender,
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and give up any autonomy.
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I began to take care of him
at night
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physically, you know,
massaging him.
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If you were being his attendant
for nighttime duty,
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you did not get much sleep.
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I was being taught how to take
care of him at night.
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I was absolutely being groomed
to be one of his concubines,
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100%.
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He did.
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Every summer, women from
the 3HO community
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gather in New Mexico for
Yogi Bhajan's summer camp.
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The intention of the camp,
he says,
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is to provide them with purity
of thought.
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Charming, sexy.
Look at them. Seduce them.
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We were sent to a camp every
summer for about six weeks,
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where he would try to give us
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lectures on how to be a good
wife or a good woman.
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Our only worth was either
a happy husband or a happy yogi,
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00:27:40,800 --> 00:27:43,800
but essentially it was six weeks
of berating
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and making sure those women
were subservient.
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Yogi Bhajan's abuse towards me
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started as soon as I was around
him and his entourage.
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00:27:57,760 --> 00:28:00,840
It turns out the secretaries
are really...
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just a harem of women
at his disposal
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to either groom girls for him
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or be part of his bed.
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00:28:10,040 --> 00:28:14,200
Really, night duty
and cleaning his house,
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those were all things to get you
ready to be in his bedroom.
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00:28:20,320 --> 00:28:23,840
For a number of years,
he was claiming celibacy.
500
00:28:24,000 --> 00:28:29,080
He didn't initiate
sexual contact with me
501
00:28:29,240 --> 00:28:31,480
for a few months.
502
00:28:31,640 --> 00:28:33,640
And by the time he did,
503
00:28:33,800 --> 00:28:37,560
I had hunkered down
into the programming,
504
00:28:37,720 --> 00:28:41,880
and it was okay because
he was the teacher
505
00:28:42,040 --> 00:28:46,800
and he was the one
determining my life.
506
00:28:46,960 --> 00:28:51,320
But I learned that
he had named me publicly
507
00:28:51,480 --> 00:28:54,880
in a way I did not
ever know about.
508
00:28:55,040 --> 00:29:00,520
Premka, it's a name that
actually any Punjabi would know
509
00:29:00,680 --> 00:29:03,720
meant like a mistress.
510
00:29:03,880 --> 00:29:07,960
He claimed to have an exclusive
relationship with me
511
00:29:08,120 --> 00:29:12,360
for eight years
out of my 16 years,
512
00:29:12,520 --> 00:29:14,680
until I found out he was having
513
00:29:14,840 --> 00:29:18,480
sexual relations with
other women at the time.
514
00:29:21,680 --> 00:29:25,080
From the standpoint
of the power dynamic,
515
00:29:25,240 --> 00:29:28,280
anyone that he was with
was rape.
516
00:29:28,440 --> 00:29:31,840
Nobody feels they have much
choice in the situation.
517
00:29:32,000 --> 00:29:33,640
You know,
he's the one in control.
518
00:30:01,600 --> 00:30:06,120
Rape can't happen unless
a woman invites it.
519
00:30:06,280 --> 00:30:08,040
There is no way that a woman
can be raped.
520
00:30:08,200 --> 00:30:10,840
I mean, what an absurdity.
521
00:30:11,000 --> 00:30:14,360
Anyway,
how do I feel about that?
522
00:30:14,520 --> 00:30:16,880
I feel like he was covering himself.
523
00:30:20,120 --> 00:30:23,600
I was cleaning the house
and he said,
524
00:30:23,760 --> 00:30:26,800
"Turn around for me,"
525
00:30:26,960 --> 00:30:28,840
which I have subsequently learned
526
00:30:29,000 --> 00:30:32,280
was a common thing
he did with people.
527
00:30:32,440 --> 00:30:34,640
And he touched my boobs, like,
very --
528
00:30:34,800 --> 00:30:36,760
as I finished turning around.
529
00:30:36,920 --> 00:30:41,000
I remember, it was almost like
sizing me up.
530
00:30:41,160 --> 00:30:44,480
And then he said,
"You're turning out nicely."
531
00:30:44,640 --> 00:30:47,240
You know, like I'm getting ready
for him, essentially.
532
00:30:47,400 --> 00:30:50,720
I was doing dishes, and he came
up from behind me,
533
00:30:50,880 --> 00:30:54,680
and he grabbed my chest,
and he just kind of said,
534
00:30:54,840 --> 00:30:57,360
"I'm just telling you
to stand up straight
535
00:30:57,520 --> 00:30:58,920
and have a good posture."
536
00:30:59,080 --> 00:31:00,360
And he put his hands on my
chest, and he said,
537
00:31:00,520 --> 00:31:03,160
"Be proud of these."
538
00:31:03,320 --> 00:31:04,800
He gave me a wedding ring,
539
00:31:04,960 --> 00:31:06,640
called me his wife, said I was
his youngest wife,
540
00:31:06,800 --> 00:31:10,040
I was his most innocent wife,
I was his virgin wife,
541
00:31:10,200 --> 00:31:13,440
called me the Virgin Queen.
542
00:31:13,600 --> 00:31:15,240
Called me the Virgin Queen.
543
00:31:15,400 --> 00:31:19,680
And he starts yelling at me
about not being a virgin.
544
00:31:19,840 --> 00:31:22,640
I essentially think he wanted to
make sure I was a virgin
545
00:31:22,800 --> 00:31:25,000
so he could break me.
546
00:31:25,160 --> 00:31:27,880
He would force me to come watch
pornography with him.
547
00:31:28,040 --> 00:31:30,760
He then said to me the next time
he saw me,
548
00:31:30,920 --> 00:31:32,800
"Come get in bed with me."
549
00:31:32,960 --> 00:31:34,800
And he didn't stop asking me.
550
00:31:34,960 --> 00:31:36,480
And he changed it into,
551
00:31:36,640 --> 00:31:39,120
"You need to learn how to kiss.
Come make out with me."
552
00:31:39,280 --> 00:31:44,000
And I just got more and more
aware of
553
00:31:44,160 --> 00:31:45,800
that I was in danger.
554
00:31:45,960 --> 00:31:48,240
I was freaked.
555
00:31:48,400 --> 00:31:49,640
And I just wanted to
get out of there.
556
00:31:49,800 --> 00:31:52,680
There was no one else there.
I was so scared.
557
00:31:52,840 --> 00:31:55,720
The adrenaline was rushing,
and I walked to that door,
558
00:31:55,880 --> 00:31:58,400
and I was like,
"I'm never going back."
559
00:31:58,560 --> 00:32:00,960
I think that if I had stayed,
560
00:32:01,120 --> 00:32:05,640
the abuse would have
never ended.
561
00:32:05,800 --> 00:32:08,680
I'm not turning around. I am
not going to give him a kiss.
562
00:32:08,840 --> 00:32:10,520
I am not going to get into bed.
563
00:32:10,680 --> 00:32:13,640
Looked at that door, and I was
just in my mind thinking,
564
00:32:13,800 --> 00:32:15,520
"I need to get out of here."
565
00:32:15,680 --> 00:32:17,480
Walked over to the bed,
and he reached for me,
566
00:32:17,640 --> 00:32:19,600
and my whole body just froze.
567
00:32:24,320 --> 00:32:26,120
My hands were shaking.
568
00:32:26,280 --> 00:32:28,240
I think he might have seen that
I was crying.
569
00:32:28,400 --> 00:32:30,160
And then he just brought my face
close to him
570
00:32:30,320 --> 00:32:32,960
and kissed me on my forehead.
571
00:32:33,120 --> 00:32:34,800
And I walked out of that room,
572
00:32:34,960 --> 00:32:38,160
and I felt, "I will not tell
anyone this,"
573
00:32:38,320 --> 00:32:40,800
because I didn't want to hurt
the community.
574
00:32:40,960 --> 00:32:43,480
And I thought that I was
the only one,
575
00:32:43,640 --> 00:32:45,520
and I thought it was worth
holding it in
576
00:32:45,680 --> 00:32:49,320
so that no one else
would hate him.
577
00:32:52,040 --> 00:32:53,840
Silently, many women in 3HO
578
00:32:54,000 --> 00:32:57,000
are suffering grievous abuse
behind the scenes.
579
00:32:57,160 --> 00:33:00,960
Meanwhile, their venerated guru
was meeting Pope John Paul II
580
00:33:01,120 --> 00:33:04,080
to discuss world unity.
581
00:33:09,840 --> 00:33:12,720
The '90s are jet-set years
for Yogi Bhajan.
582
00:33:12,880 --> 00:33:15,400
When he's not entertaining
dignitaries in his ashram,
583
00:33:15,560 --> 00:33:17,160
he's advising governors
584
00:33:17,320 --> 00:33:19,840
and meeting with the rich
and powerful.
585
00:33:26,240 --> 00:33:28,880
As the noise around 3HO grows,
586
00:33:29,040 --> 00:33:30,760
so do its finances.
587
00:33:30,920 --> 00:33:32,960
And Yogi Bhajan wants it all.
588
00:33:33,120 --> 00:33:34,760
People would open a business,
589
00:33:34,920 --> 00:33:38,360
and as soon as the business was
halfway successful,
590
00:33:38,520 --> 00:33:40,240
he would sweep in,
591
00:33:40,400 --> 00:33:43,840
send some of his secretaries
from the accounting department,
592
00:33:44,000 --> 00:33:46,400
and say, "Oh, we can just take
that now."
593
00:33:46,560 --> 00:33:49,160
And he would do the same thing
with the properties.
594
00:33:49,320 --> 00:33:51,680
In the late '80s and '90s,
595
00:33:51,840 --> 00:33:55,720
he began to come in and take
those properties.
596
00:33:55,880 --> 00:33:59,560
And as far as I know, the equity
went in his pocket.
597
00:33:59,720 --> 00:34:03,240
I think a lot of the money went
towards buying extravagant gifts
598
00:34:03,400 --> 00:34:04,840
for Yogi Bhajan.
599
00:34:05,000 --> 00:34:07,280
I remember giving him envelopes
full of cash.
600
00:34:07,440 --> 00:34:09,800
He would take it,
and then he would say,
601
00:34:09,960 --> 00:34:11,200
"Oh, put it by my altar,"
602
00:34:11,360 --> 00:34:14,680
and he'd pretend that he was
meditating on it.
603
00:34:14,840 --> 00:34:18,040
The scale of Yogi Bhajan's
corruption
604
00:34:18,200 --> 00:34:21,880
in some way matches
the scale of
605
00:34:22,040 --> 00:34:24,520
how big the organization grew.
606
00:34:24,680 --> 00:34:29,320
The depth of corruption was on
so many different levels.
607
00:34:29,480 --> 00:34:33,160
Yogi Bhajan
was a huge swindler,
608
00:34:33,320 --> 00:34:35,840
amassed huge amounts of money,
609
00:34:36,000 --> 00:34:38,400
and he also was actually
a rapist.
610
00:34:38,560 --> 00:34:44,200
The amount of abuse
that he was carrying on.
611
00:34:44,360 --> 00:34:46,560
There are so many people who'd
set up a lot of this abuse
612
00:34:46,720 --> 00:34:48,760
in motion.
613
00:34:48,920 --> 00:34:51,840
I never warned anybody about
what happened.
614
00:34:52,000 --> 00:34:55,920
I knew I wouldn't be believed.
Things never changed.
615
00:34:56,080 --> 00:35:00,320
After 16 years,
I chose to leave.
616
00:35:00,480 --> 00:35:03,600
Literally, I'm sure
there's at least 100 women
617
00:35:03,760 --> 00:35:05,040
that he assaulted.
618
00:35:05,200 --> 00:35:07,920
There are many
who will never speak up
619
00:35:08,080 --> 00:35:10,400
because he kept it covered,
620
00:35:10,560 --> 00:35:12,800
and people were terrified.
621
00:35:12,960 --> 00:35:16,040
If you listen to any negativity
about the teacher,
622
00:35:16,200 --> 00:35:18,760
it will pollute
your spiritual destiny,
623
00:35:18,920 --> 00:35:20,960
and you will fall.
624
00:35:21,120 --> 00:35:24,040
You will fall from grace.
You will fall.
625
00:35:24,200 --> 00:35:26,720
Whenever allegations emerged
about his behavior,
626
00:35:26,880 --> 00:35:29,360
Yogi Bhajan returned fire.
627
00:35:37,320 --> 00:35:40,840
And to this day, he has many who
are prepared to defend him,
628
00:35:41,000 --> 00:35:43,680
even in the face
of overwhelming evidence.
629
00:35:50,600 --> 00:35:55,480
I was raped. I was this.
I was that.
630
00:35:55,640 --> 00:35:58,000
Wow. I don't believe it.
631
00:35:58,160 --> 00:36:00,960
They're barking dogs.
They're barking at the master.
632
00:36:01,120 --> 00:36:02,400
Instead of going on
with their life,
633
00:36:02,560 --> 00:36:04,280
they need to slander him.
634
00:36:04,440 --> 00:36:07,800
When you see them
on this thing,
635
00:36:07,960 --> 00:36:10,760
look at their faces.
636
00:36:10,920 --> 00:36:13,640
See if you think they're lying.
637
00:36:13,800 --> 00:36:18,640
I've looked.
I have my conclusion.
638
00:36:18,800 --> 00:36:21,360
He was celibate.
He had diabetes.
639
00:36:21,520 --> 00:36:24,080
It wasn't possible.
640
00:36:24,240 --> 00:36:26,840
And they imagined it.
641
00:36:27,000 --> 00:36:30,000
Read his lectures, watch his
tapes, research it.
642
00:36:30,160 --> 00:36:31,440
What can I tell you?
643
00:36:31,600 --> 00:36:33,800
You can believe me,
not believe me.
644
00:36:33,960 --> 00:36:35,560
This isn't a cult.
645
00:36:41,400 --> 00:36:45,880
In 2004, after a long battle
with diabetes and heart disease,
646
00:36:46,040 --> 00:36:50,800
Yogi Bhajan dies at his home
in EspaƱola at the age of 75.
647
00:36:50,960 --> 00:36:53,000
Honoring the life
and contributions
648
00:36:53,160 --> 00:36:56,840
of Yogi Bhajan,
a leader of Sikhs,
649
00:36:57,000 --> 00:36:59,480
and expressing condolences
to the Sikh community
650
00:36:59,640 --> 00:37:01,400
on his passing.
651
00:37:01,560 --> 00:37:04,880
Congress hails him as
the king of spirituality.
652
00:37:05,040 --> 00:37:08,520
And recognize his legendary
compassion, wisdom,
653
00:37:08,680 --> 00:37:10,120
kindness, and courage.
654
00:37:10,280 --> 00:37:13,480
But to many, his death means
he'll never face justice.
655
00:37:13,640 --> 00:37:16,040
The amount of women
that he did this to
656
00:37:16,200 --> 00:37:18,600
and the level of abuse.
657
00:37:18,760 --> 00:37:22,400
He sent us to the schools.
He sent us to the camps.
658
00:37:22,560 --> 00:37:25,320
We were told to call him
our grandfather.
659
00:37:25,480 --> 00:37:30,280
And the fact that we were just
sexual beings for his taking
660
00:37:30,440 --> 00:37:33,600
is so infuriating and so hard,
661
00:37:33,760 --> 00:37:37,680
and it's like, I'm furious,
I'm hurt.
662
00:37:37,840 --> 00:37:40,800
This is not the way a Sikh
should behave.
663
00:37:47,640 --> 00:37:48,520
In the Kundalini yoga world,
there has been an upheaval.
664
00:37:48,680 --> 00:37:50,000
I have been rocked to my core.
665
00:37:50,160 --> 00:37:54,280
How do we move forward with all
these allegations?
666
00:37:54,440 --> 00:37:57,440
It is only 15 years after
the death of Yogi Bhajan
667
00:37:57,600 --> 00:38:02,320
that the allegations against him
finally gain traction.
668
00:38:02,480 --> 00:38:05,360
Because of her memoir claiming
sexual abuse.
669
00:38:05,520 --> 00:38:09,400
"My Life with Yogi Bhajan" by
Pamela Saharah Dyson.
670
00:38:09,560 --> 00:38:11,600
I needed to tell my story
671
00:38:11,760 --> 00:38:17,720
to help liberate so many of
the women who were abused by him
672
00:38:17,880 --> 00:38:21,280
and who never spoke until
my book came out.
673
00:38:21,440 --> 00:38:23,000
Pamela Dyson's memoir
674
00:38:23,160 --> 00:38:26,160
exposes the abuse she suffered
at the hands of Yogi Bhajan.
675
00:38:26,320 --> 00:38:29,440
Its release prompts many more
victims to come forward.
676
00:38:29,600 --> 00:38:33,520
This is the first time I'm
speaking out on a public level.
677
00:38:33,680 --> 00:38:35,560
We're all talking about it.
678
00:38:35,720 --> 00:38:39,880
For the first time in my life
after 30 years, I'm believed.
679
00:38:40,040 --> 00:38:42,640
With 3HO's secrets now
in the spotlight,
680
00:38:42,800 --> 00:38:45,600
an independent investigation
launched by 3HO
681
00:38:45,760 --> 00:38:49,480
reveals that at least 25
allegations of sexual abuse
682
00:38:49,640 --> 00:38:52,000
are most likely true.
683
00:38:52,160 --> 00:38:55,800
But Yogi Bhajan's most ardent
followers remain unconvinced,
684
00:38:55,960 --> 00:38:59,200
opening a rift
among the believers.
685
00:38:59,360 --> 00:39:03,520
He didn't like this kind of
nonsense, kind of abuse.
686
00:39:03,680 --> 00:39:04,920
He didn't tolerate it.
687
00:39:05,080 --> 00:39:07,520
And now that people are whining
and crying
688
00:39:07,680 --> 00:39:10,320
and trying to make a case that
he was an abuser,
689
00:39:10,480 --> 00:39:16,080
it's a gross misrepresentation,
by my view.
690
00:39:16,240 --> 00:39:17,920
The side of Yogi Bhajan
691
00:39:18,080 --> 00:39:23,040
that was so charismatic
and embraced us
692
00:39:23,200 --> 00:39:25,400
felt very, very real.
693
00:39:25,560 --> 00:39:29,040
And those people who are still
believing in that,
694
00:39:29,200 --> 00:39:30,960
it's all they know.
695
00:39:31,120 --> 00:39:35,040
They can't understand this other
aspect of him.
696
00:39:35,200 --> 00:39:37,880
Pamela Dyson, you know,
I'm aware of her allegations.
697
00:39:38,040 --> 00:39:40,520
She did an excellent slander campaign,
698
00:39:40,680 --> 00:39:43,720
but it's not truthful
699
00:39:43,880 --> 00:39:47,160
and has no basis in fact,
as far as I can tell.
700
00:39:47,320 --> 00:39:49,360
It's been a little bit hard
for me
701
00:39:49,520 --> 00:39:53,520
because while I'm so grateful
that the book came out,
702
00:39:53,680 --> 00:39:56,160
if it had just been Pamela and
nobody else had said anything,
703
00:39:56,320 --> 00:39:57,680
nothing would have changed
704
00:39:57,840 --> 00:40:00,320
because she had no credibility
in that community.
705
00:40:00,480 --> 00:40:01,840
Nobody believed her.
706
00:40:02,000 --> 00:40:04,120
Her role...
707
00:40:04,280 --> 00:40:07,520
to me, was setting up a lot of
the infrastructures
708
00:40:07,680 --> 00:40:10,320
of what 3HO is now.
709
00:40:10,480 --> 00:40:14,680
I am 100% a believer that
3HO is a cult.
710
00:40:20,480 --> 00:40:22,400
Yes, I do.
711
00:40:22,560 --> 00:40:25,560
However, I was as gullible
712
00:40:25,720 --> 00:40:28,840
and manipulated as everyone.
713
00:40:29,000 --> 00:40:33,040
And I know that's hard for some
people to see because,
714
00:40:33,200 --> 00:40:34,600
especially, I think,
715
00:40:34,760 --> 00:40:36,760
from the eyes of the second generation,
716
00:40:36,920 --> 00:40:41,720
who would see me as Premka
the secretary-general,
717
00:40:41,880 --> 00:40:45,080
and that was an illusion.
718
00:40:48,720 --> 00:40:51,680
He would tell me that
I had no other destiny,
719
00:40:51,840 --> 00:40:53,120
kept me locked,
720
00:40:53,280 --> 00:40:58,240
not looking for or hoping
for anything else.
721
00:40:58,400 --> 00:41:02,360
I didn't ever expect that
I would become pregnant.
722
00:41:02,520 --> 00:41:07,160
I just thought that he could
control that.
723
00:41:07,320 --> 00:41:10,960
A lot of the belief
that we held,
724
00:41:11,120 --> 00:41:15,200
I thought that
he had superior capacity,
725
00:41:15,360 --> 00:41:19,520
and he immediately
just brushed it off,
726
00:41:19,680 --> 00:41:21,280
"Don't worry,
I'll take care of it.
727
00:41:21,440 --> 00:41:25,440
We'll have it cleaned out,"
was his terminology,
728
00:41:25,600 --> 00:41:27,080
when we get to India.
729
00:41:27,240 --> 00:41:31,320
The abortion was performed in
a small, little clinic,
730
00:41:31,480 --> 00:41:33,040
hole-in-the-wall place,
731
00:41:33,200 --> 00:41:34,720
which nearly killed me.
732
00:41:42,680 --> 00:41:45,000
I made a really
difficult choice
733
00:41:45,160 --> 00:41:50,400
to leave all of the friends, all
of the family that I had in 3HO.
734
00:41:50,560 --> 00:41:52,400
I'd like to reconciliate
with the people,
735
00:41:52,560 --> 00:41:54,240
and I'm definitely open to
working with them
736
00:41:54,400 --> 00:41:58,840
and staying here.
737
00:41:59,000 --> 00:42:03,320
I do think there are healthy
things about 3HO,
738
00:42:03,480 --> 00:42:05,520
and that's living a clean lifestyle.
739
00:42:05,680 --> 00:42:07,680
I really do believe that.
740
00:42:07,840 --> 00:42:10,120
Exercise, in terms of yoga
or whatever it is,
741
00:42:10,280 --> 00:42:13,200
and being clear in your mind
in meditation.
742
00:42:13,360 --> 00:42:15,600
I don't think you can have
true happiness
743
00:42:15,760 --> 00:42:20,120
if you can't make your
own choices.
744
00:42:20,280 --> 00:42:25,160
However, I always felt an urge
to still do yoga and meditation,
745
00:42:25,320 --> 00:42:27,800
albeit not Kundalini,
746
00:42:27,960 --> 00:42:32,560
and I still find myself reaching
out to people I grew up with.
747
00:42:38,520 --> 00:42:42,800
I don't think it ends with him
just because he's dead.
748
00:42:42,960 --> 00:42:46,160
The structure is what compels
the behavior
749
00:42:46,320 --> 00:42:49,200
and keeps it cycling on
through time,
750
00:42:49,360 --> 00:42:53,680
and that continued on
after him.
751
00:42:53,840 --> 00:42:57,520
In the long run, I don't think
3HO as an organization
752
00:42:57,680 --> 00:43:02,080
will survive
unless they're truthful.
753
00:43:02,240 --> 00:43:05,760
They have to start reporting
sexual abusers,
754
00:43:05,920 --> 00:43:07,960
not hiding things.
755
00:43:08,120 --> 00:43:10,800
They have to actually be honest
with themselves
756
00:43:10,960 --> 00:43:14,680
and not hold any person up
on a pedestal ever again.
757
00:43:20,200 --> 00:43:23,680
There's been many, many
accounts of the sexual abuse by
758
00:43:23,840 --> 00:43:25,160
Yogi Bhajan.
759
00:43:25,320 --> 00:43:27,400
If I had known, boy,
I would have...
760
00:43:27,560 --> 00:43:29,160
I probably would have shot
Yogi Bhajan,
761
00:43:29,320 --> 00:43:30,920
to be honest with you.
762
00:43:50,120 --> 00:43:53,600
This is the original
Kundalini yoga asana manual.
763
00:43:53,760 --> 00:43:56,800
I practice this one meditation.
764
00:43:56,960 --> 00:43:59,320
You're supposed to be able to
see auras
765
00:43:59,480 --> 00:44:02,840
when you practiced it,
he said for 40 days.
766
00:44:03,000 --> 00:44:05,080
But I never was able to see auras.
767
00:44:05,240 --> 00:44:09,000
And I don't really think that it
increased my aura, either.
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