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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:06,703 --> 00:00:08,705 - I feel like I'll say the wrong thing. 2 00:00:08,739 --> 00:00:10,120 - You really can't. 3 00:00:10,155 --> 00:00:12,207 There are no wrong answers here. 4 00:00:14,241 --> 00:00:15,725 - Okay. 5 00:00:18,888 --> 00:00:21,373 His kindness. 6 00:00:21,407 --> 00:00:22,984 He's very kind. 7 00:00:26,067 --> 00:00:29,485 - Something you love and appreciate about Maggie? 8 00:00:30,382 --> 00:00:33,013 - Yeah. 9 00:00:33,385 --> 00:00:35,903 I guess I am... 10 00:00:36,250 --> 00:00:38,528 Well, I love... I love that she's here this morning, 11 00:00:38,562 --> 00:00:40,910 because that means that she's finally admitting 12 00:00:40,944 --> 00:00:42,877 that we need help communicating. 13 00:00:42,912 --> 00:00:43,996 So... 14 00:00:46,916 --> 00:00:49,284 And I... 15 00:00:49,932 --> 00:00:54,220 I appreciate how hard Maggie works. 16 00:00:54,789 --> 00:00:57,098 - How is that a bad thing? 17 00:00:57,133 --> 00:00:58,574 - How is what I said bad? 18 00:00:58,599 --> 00:01:01,240 - Every life on the planet begins as a single cell, 19 00:01:01,275 --> 00:01:04,347 which splits and multiplies over and over again. 20 00:01:04,381 --> 00:01:05,866 Each cell has a purpose. 21 00:01:05,900 --> 00:01:07,937 - Okay, the kids are dressed and ready, 22 00:01:07,970 --> 00:01:09,904 and you're... still not up. 23 00:01:09,939 --> 00:01:12,341 - I can't. I feel awful. 24 00:01:12,366 --> 00:01:16,163 Can you take Luna to day care for me so that I can sleep? 25 00:01:16,324 --> 00:01:18,168 - Yeah. - Thank you. 26 00:01:18,193 --> 00:01:21,260 - And as it forms, internal and external forces 27 00:01:21,295 --> 00:01:22,678 converge on it. 28 00:01:24,056 --> 00:01:26,146 - I know what you're doing. 29 00:01:26,171 --> 00:01:27,311 - What, trying to spend a little more time 30 00:01:27,335 --> 00:01:28,656 with my wife? 31 00:01:28,681 --> 00:01:30,316 - Now, you're gonna have to go home 32 00:01:30,341 --> 00:01:31,941 and then come back at the end of the day. 33 00:01:31,965 --> 00:01:34,657 - Yeah, well, I got the day off, so I got time. 34 00:01:34,682 --> 00:01:39,583 - Two extra trips, more carbon footprint, 35 00:01:39,608 --> 00:01:41,962 killing the planet... Think of our children. 36 00:01:41,987 --> 00:01:43,540 You see? 37 00:01:43,565 --> 00:01:46,426 They've extended the security perimeter, 38 00:01:46,451 --> 00:01:47,690 perfectly safe. 39 00:01:47,715 --> 00:01:50,057 - Signaling to the cell what it will become. 40 00:01:50,082 --> 00:01:52,173 We call this process differentiation. 41 00:01:52,198 --> 00:01:53,797 - Thanks for the ride. 42 00:01:54,811 --> 00:01:57,192 - Love you. - It'll be fine. 43 00:01:57,883 --> 00:02:01,473 - An arm, a bone, a brain... 44 00:02:01,507 --> 00:02:02,955 - Hi, good morning. 45 00:02:03,832 --> 00:02:05,178 - Perfectly safe. 46 00:02:05,203 --> 00:02:06,308 - All cells take a journey 47 00:02:06,333 --> 00:02:09,751 from generalized to specialized. 48 00:02:09,776 --> 00:02:11,739 - Sorry, sorry. I know I'm a little late. 49 00:02:11,764 --> 00:02:13,386 I have roommates, tandem parking. 50 00:02:13,411 --> 00:02:15,689 Anyway, I am here for my plasma donation. 51 00:02:15,714 --> 00:02:19,787 - We don't call it a donation when you're taking $75 for it. 52 00:02:19,812 --> 00:02:21,055 - Fair point. 53 00:02:21,080 --> 00:02:22,944 - They go from nothing to something... 54 00:02:22,969 --> 00:02:24,367 - You're three pounds underweight. 55 00:02:24,391 --> 00:02:25,716 Can't give plasma today. 56 00:02:25,741 --> 00:02:26,732 - Not possible. 57 00:02:26,757 --> 00:02:28,545 I do this every two months. Check your records. 58 00:02:28,569 --> 00:02:29,604 - Check the scale. 59 00:02:29,639 --> 00:02:31,231 Come back when you qualify. 60 00:02:32,116 --> 00:02:34,654 - Or what you could be to what you are. 61 00:02:36,577 --> 00:02:38,889 - Hey. - Good morning. 62 00:02:38,924 --> 00:02:40,546 Do you want to meet up if you have a break, 63 00:02:40,570 --> 00:02:41,743 on-call room on four? 64 00:02:41,768 --> 00:02:43,114 - Sounds fun. 65 00:02:43,139 --> 00:02:44,726 Might take me a while to get there. 66 00:02:44,861 --> 00:02:45,827 I'm in Phoenix. 67 00:02:45,862 --> 00:02:47,133 - Why? 68 00:02:47,160 --> 00:02:48,737 - Because that's where my next job is. 69 00:02:48,761 --> 00:02:50,315 I finished my gig in Seattle. - What? 70 00:02:50,349 --> 00:02:51,367 You never said anything. 71 00:02:51,392 --> 00:02:53,429 I was with you two days ago. 72 00:02:53,454 --> 00:02:55,180 - Well, you always seem more interested 73 00:02:55,205 --> 00:02:57,780 in the on-call room on four than actually talking. 74 00:02:57,805 --> 00:02:59,382 - I... 75 00:02:59,407 --> 00:03:00,689 - I got to go. 76 00:03:00,714 --> 00:03:03,164 Let me know if you're ever in Phoenix. 77 00:03:03,488 --> 00:03:05,076 - I mean, I'd just as soon elope, 78 00:03:05,101 --> 00:03:07,586 but Trey and his family... Super into tradition. 79 00:03:07,611 --> 00:03:10,648 When he asked his brother to be his best man, he cried. 80 00:03:10,673 --> 00:03:12,941 My sister and I hardly speak, and... 81 00:03:14,246 --> 00:03:16,352 - She's trying to say that she needs a maid of honor. 82 00:03:16,377 --> 00:03:19,785 - Oh, I like you so much, but I would be bad at that job. 83 00:03:19,810 --> 00:03:20,730 - Hey, what the hell? 84 00:03:20,755 --> 00:03:22,391 You left me again. - Be on time. 85 00:03:22,416 --> 00:03:24,190 - You know, if your silver-spoon, nepotism ass 86 00:03:24,214 --> 00:03:26,595 isn't in the seat by 7:00, you are out of luck. 87 00:03:26,620 --> 00:03:29,338 - Tough, punctual, efficient... There's your maid of honor. 88 00:03:29,363 --> 00:03:30,749 - What? - Forget it. 89 00:03:30,774 --> 00:03:32,160 But you said 6:45. 90 00:03:32,185 --> 00:03:33,738 - Yes, because we gave you a fake time 91 00:03:33,763 --> 00:03:35,984 that's 15 minutes before we're actually planning to leave. 92 00:03:36,008 --> 00:03:37,767 - And yet, you still can't make it. 93 00:03:37,792 --> 00:03:39,311 - Well, you could have woken me up. 94 00:03:39,339 --> 00:03:40,719 Does anybody have my back here? 95 00:03:40,744 --> 00:03:42,041 - No. 96 00:04:01,765 --> 00:04:03,802 - Oh, okay. Yes, I understand. 97 00:04:03,836 --> 00:04:06,115 And I appreciate it, but... 98 00:04:06,149 --> 00:04:07,289 Okay. Thank you. 99 00:04:07,314 --> 00:04:08,460 - Busy morning? 100 00:04:09,006 --> 00:04:11,192 - How come no one ever mentions that part of the chief job 101 00:04:11,216 --> 00:04:13,563 is actually being a reference for other institutions 102 00:04:13,617 --> 00:04:15,380 who are looking to poach your surgeons? 103 00:04:15,405 --> 00:04:16,404 - Not following. 104 00:04:16,429 --> 00:04:18,706 - Harvard Med, NYU, Heart Center of Chicago, 105 00:04:18,731 --> 00:04:20,078 they're all on my call list 106 00:04:20,103 --> 00:04:21,690 because they are interested in Pierce. 107 00:04:21,715 --> 00:04:23,270 How long has she been working here? 108 00:04:23,304 --> 00:04:25,316 Maybe there is something in her contract 109 00:04:25,341 --> 00:04:27,101 that prohibits her from leaving. 110 00:04:27,136 --> 00:04:29,448 - Leaving? Maggie? - Yeah. 111 00:04:29,483 --> 00:04:31,842 That article has given her a lot of attention. 112 00:04:31,867 --> 00:04:33,881 Look, I don't wanna hold anyone back, but we just lost Grey. 113 00:04:33,905 --> 00:04:35,700 I mean, how do we get Pierce to stay? 114 00:04:35,725 --> 00:04:37,378 - Yeah, I'm on it. 115 00:04:37,422 --> 00:04:38,388 Oh, great. Thanks. 116 00:04:38,413 --> 00:04:41,001 I'm sorry... yeah, hi. 117 00:04:41,026 --> 00:04:42,825 This is she. 118 00:04:43,949 --> 00:04:47,087 - So cough and sniffles, bed six. 119 00:04:47,112 --> 00:04:48,607 - Nothing like half a decade of medical training 120 00:04:48,631 --> 00:04:49,863 to use on a runny nose. 121 00:04:49,888 --> 00:04:51,349 - You know, I had a patient who had sniffles. 122 00:04:51,373 --> 00:04:53,859 Turned out he had a CSF leak in his brain, so... 123 00:04:53,884 --> 00:04:56,116 Uh, oh, complex trauma case transferred 124 00:04:56,141 --> 00:04:57,141 from a rural hospital. 125 00:04:57,166 --> 00:04:58,615 Kwan, you wanna see the helipad? 126 00:04:58,650 --> 00:04:59,996 - Oh, yeah. - Just Kwan or... 127 00:05:00,030 --> 00:05:01,031 - Adams, code phlegm. 128 00:05:01,066 --> 00:05:02,481 Bed five needs a Neti pot. 129 00:05:02,516 --> 00:05:04,034 Thank God you're here. 130 00:05:05,507 --> 00:05:07,797 - Ma'am, please try to keep your mask on. 131 00:05:07,831 --> 00:05:09,626 - Agh, help! 132 00:05:09,661 --> 00:05:11,041 I need a doctor. 133 00:05:11,076 --> 00:05:11,830 - Move. - I saw him first. 134 00:05:11,855 --> 00:05:13,236 - Nope. - No... 135 00:05:13,261 --> 00:05:15,058 - Hey, hey. 136 00:05:15,083 --> 00:05:17,878 - Have you been injured? 137 00:05:17,903 --> 00:05:19,870 - Okay, rodeo wreck... Rider in Oregon 138 00:05:19,895 --> 00:05:22,624 got bucked off and stomped on by a 1,000-pound bull. 139 00:05:22,649 --> 00:05:24,924 - It's barbaric... bull riding. 140 00:05:24,949 --> 00:05:26,295 Nothing but testosterone addicts 141 00:05:26,320 --> 00:05:27,666 getting off on torturing animals 142 00:05:27,691 --> 00:05:29,375 because it makes them feel more like a man. 143 00:05:29,400 --> 00:05:31,200 - Huh. Let's go. 144 00:05:31,234 --> 00:05:32,511 Kay, what do we got? 145 00:05:32,546 --> 00:05:34,394 - Georgia Arkins, 16. Crush injuries 146 00:05:34,419 --> 00:05:36,007 from being trampled by a bull. 147 00:05:36,032 --> 00:05:39,166 GCS 15, CT scan shows a retrohepatic hematoma 148 00:05:39,191 --> 00:05:40,460 from an IVC tear, 149 00:05:40,485 --> 00:05:41,900 multiple lumbar burst fractures. 150 00:05:41,934 --> 00:05:43,121 Vital signs are stable. 151 00:05:43,146 --> 00:05:44,419 - She's been given sedatives for transfer, 152 00:05:44,443 --> 00:05:45,789 so she's a little out of it. 153 00:05:45,814 --> 00:05:46,930 Local hospital didn't feel equipped to handle 154 00:05:46,954 --> 00:05:48,577 her complex injuries. - Thank you. 155 00:05:48,646 --> 00:05:50,132 - Can I go again? 156 00:05:50,157 --> 00:05:51,883 The bull, can I go again? 157 00:05:51,908 --> 00:05:53,507 I only got to 5 seconds. 158 00:05:53,532 --> 00:05:54,809 - So anything you want to add 159 00:05:54,844 --> 00:05:57,053 to your initial assessment, Kwan? 160 00:05:57,087 --> 00:05:58,385 Look up for me. 161 00:06:00,953 --> 00:06:02,300 - He's exaggerating. 162 00:06:02,334 --> 00:06:03,656 - Ever since the interview, she's received 163 00:06:03,680 --> 00:06:05,820 half a dozen amazing offers, 164 00:06:05,855 --> 00:06:08,892 including a position in bioartificial heart research. 165 00:06:08,927 --> 00:06:11,378 - So we inject an extracellular matrix 166 00:06:11,412 --> 00:06:14,243 of a pig's heart, which serves as, like, scaffolding, 167 00:06:14,277 --> 00:06:16,866 with human stem cells, that it can grow 168 00:06:16,900 --> 00:06:18,419 cardiac muscle tissue. 169 00:06:18,454 --> 00:06:20,870 - And then we electrically stimulate them to twitch, 170 00:06:20,904 --> 00:06:23,528 cell by cell, until they start to beat together, 171 00:06:23,562 --> 00:06:26,703 essentially as one beating heart. 172 00:06:26,738 --> 00:06:28,015 - It's beautiful. 173 00:06:28,049 --> 00:06:29,268 - Yeah, which means more hearts 174 00:06:29,292 --> 00:06:31,363 for people who need them. 175 00:06:31,398 --> 00:06:34,055 - The research is at the Heart Center of Chicago. 176 00:06:34,090 --> 00:06:37,611 - Oh. Well, that's a fantastic city. 177 00:06:37,645 --> 00:06:39,406 - Yes, it is! 178 00:06:39,440 --> 00:06:42,236 It's the Art Institute and Steppenwolf, 179 00:06:42,271 --> 00:06:43,686 deep dish pizza. 180 00:06:43,720 --> 00:06:45,377 - You can keep those winters, though, 181 00:06:45,412 --> 00:06:48,587 with the wind just ripping in off the lake like that. 182 00:06:48,622 --> 00:06:50,348 - That's what parkas and mittens are for. 183 00:06:50,382 --> 00:06:52,522 - And it's weak pizza, really. 184 00:06:52,557 --> 00:06:54,283 It's just quantity over quality. 185 00:06:54,317 --> 00:06:56,423 - So are you considering it? 186 00:06:56,457 --> 00:06:58,114 - Well, I might like to, but... 187 00:06:58,148 --> 00:06:59,402 - Look, I've already moved across the country 188 00:06:59,426 --> 00:07:00,653 for you once. 189 00:07:00,678 --> 00:07:02,463 And then, when I tried to change my specialty, 190 00:07:02,487 --> 00:07:05,696 also for you, you lost all respect for me. 191 00:07:05,727 --> 00:07:06,442 So... 192 00:07:06,467 --> 00:07:08,179 - Please don't put words into my mouth. 193 00:07:08,204 --> 00:07:09,757 - Those are your words. 194 00:07:09,782 --> 00:07:11,435 You put those words in your own mouth. 195 00:07:18,970 --> 00:07:20,905 I have to go. 196 00:07:20,930 --> 00:07:23,726 - You have to go now? - Can we pick this up? 197 00:07:23,760 --> 00:07:25,969 - God's sake, Maggie, I have waited weeks, 198 00:07:26,004 --> 00:07:27,905 weeks of just tiptoeing around, 199 00:07:27,930 --> 00:07:30,692 going along with this ceasefire that you proposed 200 00:07:30,717 --> 00:07:32,524 until we could get in here and try to fix this. 201 00:07:32,548 --> 00:07:35,378 And now you're on the hot seat, so you just want to walk out? 202 00:07:35,531 --> 00:07:38,948 You know, no, I'm not even that surprised by this. 203 00:07:38,982 --> 00:07:40,846 - I'm on trauma call, Winston. 204 00:07:45,207 --> 00:07:46,829 Please excuse me. 205 00:08:06,872 --> 00:08:09,185 - Hey, what are you doing here? 206 00:08:09,219 --> 00:08:10,241 The kids okay? 207 00:08:10,266 --> 00:08:12,854 - Everyone's fine, except you. 208 00:08:12,879 --> 00:08:14,372 You're not fine. 209 00:08:14,397 --> 00:08:16,537 And you're also not sick. 210 00:08:16,572 --> 00:08:19,432 - I am sick. What are you doing here? 211 00:08:19,457 --> 00:08:22,242 - I took the kids to day care, and I took a personal day, 212 00:08:22,267 --> 00:08:25,995 because your body does this. 213 00:08:26,029 --> 00:08:27,636 - My body does what? 214 00:08:27,661 --> 00:08:30,699 - It aches so that you'll rest because it's learned 215 00:08:30,724 --> 00:08:32,243 that if it aches, you'll stay in bed, 216 00:08:32,268 --> 00:08:34,841 when nothing else works to keep you in bed. 217 00:08:34,866 --> 00:08:37,902 You need a day off, but you're not sick, 218 00:08:37,938 --> 00:08:42,045 which is why you get a latte 219 00:08:42,080 --> 00:08:43,787 and... 220 00:08:48,845 --> 00:08:54,161 The little doughnuts with the pink frosting. 221 00:08:55,841 --> 00:08:57,153 - You took the day off? 222 00:08:57,178 --> 00:08:59,733 - Yeah, I figured you could use the company. 223 00:08:59,758 --> 00:09:03,797 Plus, after I eat three boxes of these, I'm no good at work. 224 00:09:03,822 --> 00:09:05,734 - You ate three boxes? 225 00:09:05,759 --> 00:09:08,065 - No, but I'm about to. 226 00:09:10,211 --> 00:09:11,385 You might want to look away. 227 00:09:12,593 --> 00:09:13,594 - I'm just gonna go. 228 00:09:13,629 --> 00:09:14,771 No. 229 00:09:15,863 --> 00:09:18,496 - Ow! - Any feeling of nausea? 230 00:09:18,530 --> 00:09:21,740 Ah, not really. 231 00:09:21,775 --> 00:09:24,225 Is there anything you can do about the pain? 232 00:09:24,260 --> 00:09:26,745 It feels like someone's dicing my intestines. 233 00:09:26,780 --> 00:09:28,551 - We'll take care of that for you in a moment. 234 00:09:28,575 --> 00:09:30,197 But I need to finish this physical exam 235 00:09:30,231 --> 00:09:31,888 before we can... - Look, I came here 236 00:09:31,923 --> 00:09:34,063 because Grey-Sloan's supposed to be the best. 237 00:09:34,097 --> 00:09:35,905 So please, you gotta help me. 238 00:09:35,930 --> 00:09:37,585 - It could be a positive McBurney sign. 239 00:09:37,618 --> 00:09:38,964 - Which could be caused by... 240 00:09:38,999 --> 00:09:40,310 - Appendicitis. - Diverticulitis. 241 00:09:42,554 --> 00:09:44,249 - Yo! What the hell? 242 00:09:44,274 --> 00:09:45,637 - I was seeing if the pain was exacerbated 243 00:09:45,661 --> 00:09:46,869 by jostling movements. 244 00:09:46,903 --> 00:09:48,388 - Can we wait to play school 245 00:09:48,422 --> 00:09:49,923 until I'm not in agony? 246 00:09:49,948 --> 00:09:51,256 - Let's get him comfortable. 247 00:09:51,281 --> 00:09:52,869 We'll send him up for the basic labs, 248 00:09:52,894 --> 00:09:55,522 and then let's take him up to CT for some scans. 249 00:10:02,954 --> 00:10:04,714 - Did I hear correctly, a bull? 250 00:10:04,749 --> 00:10:06,992 - T-bird. He's feisty. 251 00:10:07,027 --> 00:10:09,270 I just didn't get out over his front end in time. 252 00:10:09,305 --> 00:10:11,238 - When T-bird trampled over Georgia, 253 00:10:11,272 --> 00:10:13,447 he crushed her liver and likely tore her IVC. 254 00:10:13,482 --> 00:10:16,105 There's a big hematoma in the retrohepatic space, 255 00:10:16,139 --> 00:10:19,142 which it looks contained for now, stable HNH. 256 00:10:19,177 --> 00:10:21,938 - She's got unstable T10 through L3 burst fractures. 257 00:10:21,973 --> 00:10:23,369 - Please don't tell my parents. 258 00:10:23,394 --> 00:10:24,917 They freak out whenever stuff like this happens. 259 00:10:24,941 --> 00:10:26,688 - This has happened before? 260 00:10:26,713 --> 00:10:29,682 - I had a huge cut on my back, a broken wrist, a broken leg. 261 00:10:29,707 --> 00:10:31,958 Oh, and I have this massive scar. 262 00:10:31,983 --> 00:10:33,979 - Whoa, whoa! - Push two of midazolam. 263 00:10:34,004 --> 00:10:36,858 - Okay, this burst L3 fracture is too unstable. 264 00:10:36,883 --> 00:10:39,000 Without immediate surgery, we're talking about paralysis. 265 00:10:39,024 --> 00:10:41,288 Once Maggie goes in and repairs the IVC, 266 00:10:41,313 --> 00:10:42,763 I will stabilize the spine. 267 00:10:42,789 --> 00:10:44,377 - I don't think I should go in. 268 00:10:44,402 --> 00:10:45,799 - There's a massive hematoma. 269 00:10:45,824 --> 00:10:47,008 - And it's sitting in a minefield. 270 00:10:47,032 --> 00:10:48,260 The hematoma is stable for now. 271 00:10:48,284 --> 00:10:50,045 But you should go in and repair the spine, 272 00:10:50,070 --> 00:10:51,698 and I will be there to monitor her. 273 00:10:51,723 --> 00:10:53,948 Just use a posterior approach to avoid rupturing it. 274 00:10:53,973 --> 00:10:55,561 - What if it happens anyway? 275 00:10:55,586 --> 00:10:56,845 - Then we'll flip her, 276 00:10:56,870 --> 00:10:58,319 and I will control the bleeding. 277 00:10:58,354 --> 00:10:59,561 - No, I'm not sure I should go in. 278 00:10:59,585 --> 00:11:01,346 - If you don't, she never walks again. 279 00:11:02,427 --> 00:11:04,003 - Are Georgia's parents here? 280 00:11:06,258 --> 00:11:08,502 - Look. All I need is antibiotics. 281 00:11:08,537 --> 00:11:10,470 It'll clear up in a few days or so. 282 00:11:10,504 --> 00:11:11,866 - Maybe. 283 00:11:12,249 --> 00:11:15,488 But I am hearing some wheezing in the left lung. 284 00:11:15,513 --> 00:11:16,473 Okay. 285 00:11:16,498 --> 00:11:18,397 We should get a chest X-ray, make sure 286 00:11:18,438 --> 00:11:19,715 we're not looking at pneumonia. 287 00:11:19,740 --> 00:11:22,294 - No. No chest X-ray. 288 00:11:22,319 --> 00:11:23,873 - There's no discomfort involved. 289 00:11:24,000 --> 00:11:25,830 - Until the bill comes. 290 00:11:28,522 --> 00:11:30,731 - When my husband died, I was lucky enough 291 00:11:30,766 --> 00:11:32,802 to find work in a bookstore. 292 00:11:32,837 --> 00:11:34,494 It's lovely. 293 00:11:34,528 --> 00:11:38,830 The owner is kind, but low wages and no... 294 00:11:38,855 --> 00:11:40,154 No benefits. 295 00:11:40,189 --> 00:11:42,053 - Without the X-ray, I can't tell 296 00:11:42,087 --> 00:11:43,433 how serious this is, so... 297 00:11:43,468 --> 00:11:46,540 - I can hardly afford antibiotics. 298 00:11:46,575 --> 00:11:48,922 Anything else is out of the question. 299 00:11:48,956 --> 00:11:51,925 - Look, I'll get you the antibiotics, 300 00:11:51,959 --> 00:11:54,548 but just stay here. 301 00:11:54,583 --> 00:11:55,894 Okay? I'll be right back. 302 00:11:55,929 --> 00:11:57,275 - Dr. Sutton, Dr. Tracy, 303 00:11:57,309 --> 00:11:58,276 psych to recovery. 304 00:11:58,310 --> 00:11:59,909 Dr. Sutton to recovery. 305 00:12:01,210 --> 00:12:03,108 - He didn't even tell me he was leaving. 306 00:12:03,143 --> 00:12:04,938 He insinuated that I wouldn't care 307 00:12:04,972 --> 00:12:07,078 because I only cared about the sex. 308 00:12:07,112 --> 00:12:08,735 I didn't use him for sex. 309 00:12:08,769 --> 00:12:11,930 He used me for sex, and then he left. 310 00:12:12,259 --> 00:12:13,571 I'm the victim here. 311 00:12:13,596 --> 00:12:15,199 - You're the doctor. He's the nurse. 312 00:12:15,224 --> 00:12:16,315 You've got all the power. 313 00:12:16,340 --> 00:12:18,790 - You clearly don't understand gay male culture. 314 00:12:18,814 --> 00:12:20,263 He's hotter. 315 00:12:20,298 --> 00:12:21,713 He has all the power. 316 00:12:21,748 --> 00:12:23,208 - Doesn't sound like he felt that way. 317 00:12:23,232 --> 00:12:24,854 - Why aren't you sad for me? 318 00:12:24,889 --> 00:12:27,754 I'm the nice guy who, once again, got left. 319 00:12:27,788 --> 00:12:29,618 - Well, the interns who have come in here 320 00:12:29,652 --> 00:12:31,452 after working and being yelled at for 16 hours 321 00:12:31,481 --> 00:12:32,769 definitely don't feel like you're the nice guy. 322 00:12:32,793 --> 00:12:34,635 - I don't yell! 323 00:12:35,002 --> 00:12:36,107 That wasn't yelling. 324 00:12:36,141 --> 00:12:37,590 That was loud talking. 325 00:12:37,626 --> 00:12:38,937 I'm nice. 326 00:12:44,322 --> 00:12:46,384 - I love you. I mean it. 327 00:12:47,325 --> 00:12:50,293 - If the hematoma ruptures while you're fixing the spine, 328 00:12:50,328 --> 00:12:51,467 she could die. 329 00:12:51,501 --> 00:12:52,951 - But if it doesn't rupture, 330 00:12:52,986 --> 00:12:55,126 it could heal on its own? - That's right. 331 00:12:55,160 --> 00:12:59,095 - The safest option is to just monitor Georgia in the ICU. 332 00:12:59,130 --> 00:13:01,753 - She may not walk again, but she would be alive. 333 00:13:01,788 --> 00:13:04,445 - Sounds like this thing could rupture any time. 334 00:13:04,480 --> 00:13:06,182 I mean, hell, it could be rupturing right now. 335 00:13:06,206 --> 00:13:07,621 Cody... She... 336 00:13:07,656 --> 00:13:10,026 - He's not wrong. 337 00:13:18,860 --> 00:13:21,172 - Do the spinal surgery. 338 00:13:21,197 --> 00:13:22,923 - Sir, I wanna make sure that you understand... 339 00:13:22,947 --> 00:13:24,500 - We do. 340 00:13:24,534 --> 00:13:26,705 Save our daughter's ability to ride. 341 00:13:30,679 --> 00:13:33,164 - No stranding, appendix looks normal. 342 00:13:33,198 --> 00:13:35,214 No evidence of colitis. 343 00:13:35,503 --> 00:13:38,816 - That's an awfully quick assessment, Adams. 344 00:13:39,032 --> 00:13:42,345 You know, scans are like a piece of art, 345 00:13:42,380 --> 00:13:44,106 a still life, say. 346 00:13:44,140 --> 00:13:46,936 Maybe you first look at it and you shrug. 347 00:13:46,971 --> 00:13:49,007 Looks like a pear, or tulip. 348 00:13:49,042 --> 00:13:50,699 But you sit with it for a while, 349 00:13:50,733 --> 00:13:52,390 learn to open up your mind, 350 00:13:52,424 --> 00:13:55,324 and maybe it might guide your eye 351 00:13:55,358 --> 00:13:58,499 to something that the artist wants you to see. 352 00:13:58,534 --> 00:13:59,383 - Hold up. 353 00:13:59,408 --> 00:14:01,720 It turns out Seth's been to five different Seattle ERs 354 00:14:01,744 --> 00:14:03,124 in the past three weeks, 355 00:14:03,149 --> 00:14:06,532 all discharged with a script for controlled pain meds. 356 00:14:08,717 --> 00:14:10,995 - Seattle Pres, two nights, Pacific Gen, one, 357 00:14:11,029 --> 00:14:12,686 St. Anne's, two hours. - Okay. 358 00:14:12,721 --> 00:14:13,847 I get what you're implying. 359 00:14:13,872 --> 00:14:15,491 - And according to their records, 360 00:14:15,516 --> 00:14:17,431 you have a history of drug use 361 00:14:17,456 --> 00:14:19,666 that you didn't bother to tell us about. 362 00:14:19,691 --> 00:14:21,532 We can't help you if you're not telling the truth. 363 00:14:21,556 --> 00:14:24,009 - Oh, my God. I... I don't have... 364 00:14:27,080 --> 00:14:29,185 Back in the day, I did Adderall to stay up. 365 00:14:29,220 --> 00:14:30,704 I'm a private equity analyst. 366 00:14:30,739 --> 00:14:32,026 All-nighters go with the territory 367 00:14:32,050 --> 00:14:33,155 when you're starting out. 368 00:14:33,189 --> 00:14:34,743 But I haven't done it in years. 369 00:14:34,777 --> 00:14:36,197 And I didn't tell you because I didn't want you 370 00:14:36,221 --> 00:14:37,687 to write me off like all those other hospitals. 371 00:14:37,711 --> 00:14:38,988 - We're not writing you off. 372 00:14:39,023 --> 00:14:40,403 Addiction is a disease. 373 00:14:40,438 --> 00:14:41,819 - It's a disease I don't have. 374 00:14:41,853 --> 00:14:43,821 - And your scans are clean. 375 00:14:43,855 --> 00:14:45,039 And I got on the phone with colleagues 376 00:14:45,063 --> 00:14:46,238 of those other hospitals, 377 00:14:46,263 --> 00:14:48,261 who also found nothing on your scans. 378 00:14:48,286 --> 00:14:50,251 - Maybe they didn't sit long enough with the scans. 379 00:14:50,275 --> 00:14:51,847 - These aren't interns, Adams. 380 00:14:51,872 --> 00:14:53,115 These are world-class surgeons 381 00:14:53,140 --> 00:14:54,620 with decades of experience. 382 00:14:54,645 --> 00:14:56,085 - So you're just gonna kick me out on the street 383 00:14:56,109 --> 00:14:57,043 like everyone else? 384 00:14:57,068 --> 00:14:58,915 - No, we are gonna exercise our due diligence 385 00:14:58,939 --> 00:15:00,176 and take extra tests, 386 00:15:00,201 --> 00:15:02,145 and if they show nothing, then we will discharge you 387 00:15:02,169 --> 00:15:04,309 with a referral to an addiction specialist. 388 00:15:04,334 --> 00:15:07,138 - I should never have admitted I ever used drugs. 389 00:15:08,155 --> 00:15:10,675 You screw up once, you're a screw-up forever. 390 00:15:23,292 --> 00:15:26,281 - She's about prepped and ready. 391 00:15:28,048 --> 00:15:30,741 Why didn't you tell me about all the job offers? 392 00:15:30,766 --> 00:15:32,630 - Offers come in every time I publish. 393 00:15:32,655 --> 00:15:34,679 Happens to everyone. - Not like this. 394 00:15:34,704 --> 00:15:37,781 Look, it doesn't matter where you are, right? 395 00:15:37,806 --> 00:15:39,900 I mean, it matters what you're doing. 396 00:15:39,925 --> 00:15:41,271 If you just ask Teddy or Richard 397 00:15:41,296 --> 00:15:42,815 for whatever you need research-wise, 398 00:15:42,840 --> 00:15:44,289 they will get it for you. 399 00:15:44,314 --> 00:15:46,833 You don't have to move to do your next big thing. 400 00:15:46,858 --> 00:15:48,029 Meredith and I managed to pull off 401 00:15:48,053 --> 00:15:51,056 the Parkinson's procedure right down the hall. 402 00:15:51,262 --> 00:15:52,825 - She's ready. 403 00:15:53,822 --> 00:15:55,030 - All right. 404 00:15:58,933 --> 00:16:00,693 - So when you all told me about those 8:30 405 00:16:00,718 --> 00:16:02,911 surgical study sessions, what time were they really? 406 00:16:07,838 --> 00:16:08,942 What do you think 407 00:16:08,967 --> 00:16:10,816 about Chilaiditi syndrome for Seth? 408 00:16:10,875 --> 00:16:12,394 - Thinking it's usually associated 409 00:16:12,419 --> 00:16:13,785 with ascitic and cirrhotic patients. 410 00:16:13,809 --> 00:16:15,431 Also, we would have seen it in the scans. 411 00:16:15,456 --> 00:16:16,847 And we have our answer. 412 00:16:16,872 --> 00:16:18,823 All those tests came back clean, except his urinalysis, 413 00:16:18,847 --> 00:16:20,097 which is positive for opiates. 414 00:16:20,122 --> 00:16:22,041 - Because all those other hospitals gave him meds. 415 00:16:22,065 --> 00:16:23,206 - Webber said to discharge him. 416 00:16:23,230 --> 00:16:25,336 I'm gonna discharge him. 417 00:16:25,370 --> 00:16:26,927 - Tessa Hobbes. 418 00:16:28,217 --> 00:16:31,299 - Why would you bring up Tessa? You know that still hurts. 419 00:16:31,324 --> 00:16:32,906 - Because my gut told me that we should have taken her 420 00:16:32,930 --> 00:16:33,982 straight to the OR. 421 00:16:34,007 --> 00:16:36,462 You heard me say it, but I didn't fight for it. 422 00:16:36,487 --> 00:16:38,430 And now my gut's saying that Seth's telling the truth. 423 00:16:38,454 --> 00:16:40,088 - Nothing I've seen makes me think Webber's wrong. 424 00:16:40,112 --> 00:16:41,263 - Yeah, but do you think there might be 425 00:16:41,287 --> 00:16:42,909 a chance that I'm right? 426 00:16:43,002 --> 00:16:44,382 I mean, I've always had your back. 427 00:16:44,424 --> 00:16:46,337 Could you at least have mine? 428 00:16:51,412 --> 00:16:52,562 - I'm already on my second residency. 429 00:16:52,586 --> 00:16:55,021 - He's not gonna fire us. 430 00:16:56,756 --> 00:16:58,378 - Have suction ready. 431 00:16:58,403 --> 00:17:00,290 - Blood pressure's steady. 432 00:17:01,751 --> 00:17:04,685 - Chief, I have a wheezing 60-year-old patient in the ER, 433 00:17:04,720 --> 00:17:05,931 possible pneumonia. 434 00:17:05,956 --> 00:17:08,317 She needs a chest X-ray and a nebulizer treatment, 435 00:17:08,342 --> 00:17:10,620 but can't afford it. Can we do it pro bono? 436 00:17:10,645 --> 00:17:12,624 - You'll have to fill out the forms with accounting. 437 00:17:12,648 --> 00:17:13,972 They're gonna want to confirm her income 438 00:17:13,996 --> 00:17:15,086 and make sure that she qualifies. 439 00:17:15,110 --> 00:17:16,318 It may take a day or so. 440 00:17:16,351 --> 00:17:17,975 - But she needs to be treated now. 441 00:17:18,009 --> 00:17:19,769 - If we break the rules for one patient, 442 00:17:19,803 --> 00:17:21,219 it's not fair for the others. 443 00:17:23,877 --> 00:17:26,259 I was eating doughnuts from the trash 444 00:17:26,292 --> 00:17:28,502 because I need to gain weight in order to be eligible 445 00:17:28,537 --> 00:17:30,032 to donate my plasma because I am broke. 446 00:17:30,056 --> 00:17:31,885 So is my patient. 447 00:17:31,910 --> 00:17:32,959 I don't need your help, 448 00:17:32,984 --> 00:17:34,468 and I am not looking for handouts. 449 00:17:34,493 --> 00:17:36,230 I just want to take care of my patient. 450 00:17:36,255 --> 00:17:37,142 - I'm sorry. 451 00:17:37,167 --> 00:17:39,452 You have to go through the proper channels. 452 00:17:41,158 --> 00:17:45,438 Yasuda, I have protein bars in my office. 453 00:17:45,493 --> 00:17:47,702 You're welcome to them any time. 454 00:17:47,743 --> 00:17:49,159 - Removing the lamina. 455 00:17:49,184 --> 00:17:51,290 Can't stop thinking about that father. 456 00:17:51,326 --> 00:17:54,053 I'm reconstructing a spine just to have her go back out there 457 00:17:54,078 --> 00:17:55,527 and wreck it all over again. 458 00:17:55,552 --> 00:17:56,740 - Yeah, lots of parents 459 00:17:56,765 --> 00:17:58,295 live out their fantasies through their kids. 460 00:17:58,319 --> 00:18:00,600 - So her last shock panel showed a hemoglobin of 11. 461 00:18:00,625 --> 00:18:01,787 So the bleed is stable. 462 00:18:01,812 --> 00:18:04,297 Just be careful with your instrumentation. 463 00:18:04,693 --> 00:18:06,695 - I'm not sure you hovering is gonna make things 464 00:18:06,720 --> 00:18:08,377 go more smoothly. 465 00:18:08,402 --> 00:18:10,312 - How many times have we fixed up a pro football player 466 00:18:10,336 --> 00:18:11,866 just so he can go back out in the field in the hopes 467 00:18:11,890 --> 00:18:13,202 of making the playoffs? 468 00:18:13,227 --> 00:18:15,041 - Don't get me started on football. 469 00:18:15,066 --> 00:18:16,530 - Except rodeo is the only gig 470 00:18:16,555 --> 00:18:18,223 with a poor animal out there against their will. 471 00:18:18,247 --> 00:18:19,360 It's cruel. - Can we keep 472 00:18:19,385 --> 00:18:21,668 all nonessential chatter to a minimum? 473 00:18:21,693 --> 00:18:23,641 Georgia has a giant bleed hanging over her 474 00:18:23,666 --> 00:18:25,806 that could burst in any second. 475 00:18:25,831 --> 00:18:26,832 - Pedicle screw, please. 476 00:18:31,115 --> 00:18:33,118 - I think it's a connection. I think... 477 00:18:33,143 --> 00:18:35,291 - Adams, Griffith! 478 00:18:35,935 --> 00:18:37,509 - Is everything okay, Dr. Schmidt? 479 00:18:37,534 --> 00:18:40,273 - Just checking in on how you two are doing. 480 00:18:40,298 --> 00:18:42,247 How's life? 481 00:18:42,956 --> 00:18:44,475 What's up? 482 00:18:44,509 --> 00:18:45,579 - I don't understand. 483 00:18:45,614 --> 00:18:47,352 - What are you working on? 484 00:18:48,375 --> 00:18:50,757 - Okay, we... we know Webber said to discharge him. 485 00:18:50,791 --> 00:18:53,415 But we really think 486 00:18:53,449 --> 00:18:55,831 that there's something more to this patient. 487 00:18:55,865 --> 00:18:57,429 And if we could just have a little more time 488 00:18:57,453 --> 00:18:58,603 to study his case, we can figure it out. 489 00:18:58,627 --> 00:18:59,697 - Okay. No. 490 00:18:59,731 --> 00:19:00,870 You're interns. 491 00:19:00,905 --> 00:19:02,803 It doesn't matter what you think. 492 00:19:02,838 --> 00:19:05,358 If you can't be trusted to follow instructions, 493 00:19:05,392 --> 00:19:07,291 then you can't be trusted in the OR. 494 00:19:07,325 --> 00:19:09,818 Discharge the patient. 495 00:19:09,843 --> 00:19:11,951 And never question Dr. Webber ever again. 496 00:19:26,413 --> 00:19:30,107 - I should probably go to work and check on Tia. 497 00:19:30,141 --> 00:19:32,488 - Tia and her baby are both okay. 498 00:19:32,523 --> 00:19:34,487 I've checked. 499 00:19:35,388 --> 00:19:37,355 A car drove into human beings 500 00:19:37,390 --> 00:19:39,012 and tried to kill you and your friends. 501 00:19:39,047 --> 00:19:40,576 You've earned a day off. 502 00:19:43,327 --> 00:19:46,905 - Why is it so hard for me to rest? 503 00:19:48,365 --> 00:19:51,551 How am I supposed to know that? 504 00:19:51,576 --> 00:19:54,131 - Because you knew that I wasn't sick 505 00:19:54,165 --> 00:19:55,718 before I even knew that I wasn't sick. 506 00:19:55,753 --> 00:19:57,134 - I've known you a long time. 507 00:19:57,168 --> 00:19:58,570 You notice things about somebody 508 00:19:58,595 --> 00:20:00,769 when you've known them a long time. 509 00:20:00,794 --> 00:20:03,072 - You knew what my favorite doughnuts were. 510 00:20:03,097 --> 00:20:04,471 - Same answer. 511 00:20:04,496 --> 00:20:06,913 - So why is it so hard for me to rest? 512 00:20:07,024 --> 00:20:08,696 You don't have a theory? 513 00:20:09,490 --> 00:20:11,640 I could tell you why I think 514 00:20:11,665 --> 00:20:12,942 it's hard for me to rest. 515 00:20:12,967 --> 00:20:14,623 Would that help? 516 00:20:14,648 --> 00:20:16,663 - Yes, please. 517 00:20:17,878 --> 00:20:22,285 - Well, I was a pretty happy go-lucky kid. 518 00:20:22,310 --> 00:20:25,382 I got cancer, and my parents started to fight all the time. 519 00:20:25,407 --> 00:20:31,137 And I was sick, stuck in bed, listening to my parents fight 520 00:20:31,162 --> 00:20:32,458 through the walls. 521 00:20:32,483 --> 00:20:35,964 So I think I associate rest with misery. 522 00:20:38,554 --> 00:20:40,867 - I don't think that's it. 523 00:20:40,901 --> 00:20:42,179 - Okay. 524 00:20:42,213 --> 00:20:43,904 You know me better than I know me. 525 00:20:43,939 --> 00:20:45,251 - I've known you a long time, 526 00:20:45,285 --> 00:20:46,607 and when you've known someone a long time, 527 00:20:46,631 --> 00:20:47,631 you notice things. 528 00:20:50,124 --> 00:20:52,195 - So what do you think it is? 529 00:20:52,220 --> 00:20:56,327 - I think you only have trouble resting 530 00:20:56,352 --> 00:20:59,217 when you're not taking care of somebody else. 531 00:20:59,299 --> 00:21:02,440 You'll lay around all day with a baby on your chest 532 00:21:02,475 --> 00:21:05,098 if that baby needs you. 533 00:21:05,133 --> 00:21:10,552 You lay in bed with me with doughnuts if I need you. 534 00:21:10,586 --> 00:21:12,554 And when you got cancer 535 00:21:12,579 --> 00:21:15,410 and your parents started fighting, 536 00:21:15,453 --> 00:21:17,145 you started to take care of them 537 00:21:17,179 --> 00:21:19,733 so they wouldn't split up. 538 00:21:19,768 --> 00:21:21,563 You learned to take emotional care 539 00:21:21,597 --> 00:21:23,748 of the people who are supposed to be taking care of you. 540 00:21:23,772 --> 00:21:25,601 And that's why it's hard for you to rest 541 00:21:25,636 --> 00:21:27,914 when you're by yourself. 542 00:21:27,948 --> 00:21:29,778 You don't feel safe when you're not 543 00:21:29,812 --> 00:21:32,416 taking care of somebody else. 544 00:21:32,832 --> 00:21:34,558 That makes you anxious. 545 00:21:44,397 --> 00:21:49,505 - And I think you can't rest 546 00:21:49,530 --> 00:21:53,292 because you never had anyone to take care of you. 547 00:21:53,457 --> 00:21:56,011 So you stayed busy all the time 548 00:21:56,045 --> 00:21:58,186 taking care of yourself. 549 00:21:58,220 --> 00:22:00,472 And when you're still, you feel that pain. 550 00:22:08,196 --> 00:22:10,163 - I need a nap. 551 00:22:10,198 --> 00:22:12,786 - Want me to go? 552 00:22:12,821 --> 00:22:14,685 - No. 553 00:22:21,554 --> 00:22:23,487 That feels nice. 554 00:22:33,669 --> 00:22:39,296 - Harborview Med, last Tuesday, 2311, nothing. 555 00:22:39,330 --> 00:22:41,332 - If Webber or Schmidt finds us, we're fired. 556 00:22:41,367 --> 00:22:42,747 - Yeah, well... 557 00:22:45,362 --> 00:22:46,661 - You'd think that'd be annoying. 558 00:22:48,009 --> 00:22:51,496 - It clears my mind, helps me unwind. 559 00:22:52,205 --> 00:22:53,379 You have anything like that? 560 00:22:53,413 --> 00:22:54,413 - Ice skating. 561 00:22:56,865 --> 00:22:58,082 What? 562 00:22:58,139 --> 00:23:00,248 I just... I wasn't expecting that. 563 00:23:00,282 --> 00:23:03,009 - Well, you don't know everything about me. 564 00:23:04,303 --> 00:23:05,308 - True. 565 00:23:05,333 --> 00:23:06,782 I never pictured you as the type 566 00:23:06,822 --> 00:23:10,067 to have a big fancy wedding or matching dresses. 567 00:23:10,094 --> 00:23:12,338 - I don't want either. 568 00:23:12,452 --> 00:23:17,526 I want the marriage, but not the pomp and circumstance. 569 00:23:17,551 --> 00:23:21,037 - Not even a little pomp, like meat on a stick 570 00:23:21,062 --> 00:23:23,823 or chucking a bouquet at your girls, group pics? 571 00:23:23,848 --> 00:23:26,664 - I truly hate you. 572 00:23:29,139 --> 00:23:30,589 I think it's sweet that Trey wants 573 00:23:30,614 --> 00:23:32,306 to create a moment in our lives 574 00:23:32,331 --> 00:23:33,815 that we're gonna remember forever. 575 00:23:33,840 --> 00:23:35,396 But he's a romantic. 576 00:23:35,421 --> 00:23:36,968 Even when we're just out getting pizza, 577 00:23:36,993 --> 00:23:38,968 he's like, "I wish I could freeze this moment forever." 578 00:23:38,992 --> 00:23:39,770 - Oh, wait. Wait. Wait. 579 00:23:39,804 --> 00:23:41,211 That's it. 580 00:23:41,944 --> 00:23:43,567 Moments... that's.. 581 00:23:43,601 --> 00:23:44,861 Okay. 582 00:23:44,886 --> 00:23:46,279 These scans... They're not works of art. 583 00:23:46,303 --> 00:23:48,063 They're... they're moments. 584 00:23:48,088 --> 00:23:51,160 They're frozen moments in time. 585 00:23:54,198 --> 00:23:56,304 - Oh, good. Glad we cleared that up. 586 00:23:56,338 --> 00:23:58,271 - Okay, look. Here we go. 587 00:23:58,306 --> 00:23:59,650 There and there... 588 00:24:02,788 --> 00:24:05,515 - Do you know where they came up with the eight seconds 589 00:24:05,540 --> 00:24:08,233 as the time the rider has to stay on the bull? 590 00:24:08,350 --> 00:24:10,259 It's because the bull starts to lose its strength 591 00:24:10,283 --> 00:24:12,159 to fight back and they stop bucking. 592 00:24:12,184 --> 00:24:15,169 The official line is that it's for the safety of the animals, 593 00:24:15,194 --> 00:24:17,196 but it's really because they become so weakened 594 00:24:17,221 --> 00:24:18,843 that we stop being entertained. 595 00:24:20,428 --> 00:24:21,877 - BP's dropping. 596 00:24:21,902 --> 00:24:23,225 - Pierce, is that what I think it is? 597 00:24:23,249 --> 00:24:24,630 - She's bleeding out. 598 00:24:24,655 --> 00:24:26,309 - The hematoma ruptured. Stop the fusion. 599 00:24:26,334 --> 00:24:27,911 We need to flip her. - Her spine is exposed. 600 00:24:27,935 --> 00:24:28,795 - It doesn't matter. 601 00:24:28,820 --> 00:24:30,210 Pack it and throw some ioban on it. 602 00:24:30,234 --> 00:24:31,442 Hang 2 units of blood. 603 00:24:31,477 --> 00:24:33,272 Prep for an x-flap and a sternotomy. 604 00:24:33,306 --> 00:24:34,859 Every second counts here, people. 605 00:24:34,894 --> 00:24:36,147 Until we get this bleed stopped, 606 00:24:36,171 --> 00:24:37,172 this is my OR. 607 00:24:58,451 --> 00:24:59,970 - Okay. This is it. 608 00:24:59,995 --> 00:25:01,767 When we get in there, Kwan, you're gonna alternate 609 00:25:01,791 --> 00:25:04,242 cardiac massage with Millin. 610 00:25:04,267 --> 00:25:06,322 Scalpel. 611 00:25:06,410 --> 00:25:10,049 Okay, Georgia, here we go. 612 00:25:10,641 --> 00:25:11,714 - Scalpel. 613 00:25:12,251 --> 00:25:16,300 - ♪ I've been looking for a sign ♪ 614 00:25:16,325 --> 00:25:19,604 ♪ Now I see a shining light 615 00:25:19,656 --> 00:25:21,595 - Get the saw ready. 616 00:25:22,301 --> 00:25:23,833 - Starting pressors. 617 00:25:25,535 --> 00:25:27,606 - ♪ Set me free 618 00:25:40,546 --> 00:25:42,582 - Send a TEG. 619 00:25:48,872 --> 00:25:50,840 - She's becoming more acidotic. 620 00:25:50,865 --> 00:25:52,315 - We can't lose her. 621 00:25:52,340 --> 00:25:53,858 - I need more suction. 622 00:25:53,892 --> 00:25:55,422 - Still no pulse. 623 00:25:56,216 --> 00:25:59,565 - ♪ Head under water and I can't breathe ♪ 624 00:26:03,905 --> 00:26:09,083 ♪ Pull me up 'cause I'm too deep ♪ 625 00:26:09,108 --> 00:26:13,043 ♪ I've been looking for a sign ♪ 626 00:26:13,068 --> 00:26:15,933 ♪ Now I see a shining light 627 00:26:15,958 --> 00:26:18,731 ♪ Oh won't somebody come and set me free ♪ 628 00:26:18,756 --> 00:26:20,620 - Okay, I've got the infrahepatic IVC 629 00:26:20,655 --> 00:26:22,672 and Pringle. Lap pads. 630 00:26:22,697 --> 00:26:25,393 - I've got the cava and the pericardium. 631 00:26:25,418 --> 00:26:26,626 - Millin, switch with Kwan. 632 00:26:26,661 --> 00:26:28,317 - We've maxed out on her pressors. 633 00:26:28,352 --> 00:26:29,799 - Pickups? - Still no pulse. 634 00:26:29,824 --> 00:26:31,537 - I feel the heart. I'm there. 635 00:26:31,562 --> 00:26:34,082 - I see the hepatic vein injury. 636 00:26:42,331 --> 00:26:44,663 Ligating, push epi. 637 00:26:45,929 --> 00:26:48,138 - Packing the retrohepatic space. 638 00:26:48,163 --> 00:26:49,860 - Come on, Georgia. 639 00:26:50,545 --> 00:26:53,133 - ♪ Set me free 640 00:26:53,158 --> 00:26:55,803 The nurse brought the antibiotics 641 00:26:55,828 --> 00:26:57,584 and the inhaler. I'm off to my shift. 642 00:26:57,609 --> 00:26:59,255 - Please don't go before getting an X-ray 643 00:26:59,279 --> 00:27:00,488 and the nebulizer treatment. 644 00:27:00,522 --> 00:27:01,647 We could do it pro bono, 645 00:27:01,672 --> 00:27:03,363 but we just need to fill these forms out. 646 00:27:03,388 --> 00:27:04,837 - If I miss work, I don't get paid. 647 00:27:04,862 --> 00:27:06,177 And if I don't get paid... 648 00:27:06,202 --> 00:27:07,815 - You can't pay your bills. I get it. 649 00:27:07,840 --> 00:27:08,910 - No... - But... 650 00:27:08,944 --> 00:27:10,856 - No, you don't. 651 00:27:10,881 --> 00:27:13,401 You're a doctor with a cushy salary. 652 00:27:13,426 --> 00:27:16,083 - Well, I am a surgical intern. 653 00:27:16,108 --> 00:27:18,766 My salary is government funded, and it is not enough 654 00:27:18,791 --> 00:27:20,379 to keep me from drowning in loans. 655 00:27:20,404 --> 00:27:21,684 Between undergrad and med school, 656 00:27:21,709 --> 00:27:23,366 I owe more than two grand a month. 657 00:27:23,391 --> 00:27:25,162 That doesn't even account for what I send to my parents 658 00:27:25,186 --> 00:27:26,510 to help them with their mortgage payment 659 00:27:26,534 --> 00:27:28,329 because they co-signed all of my loans. 660 00:27:28,354 --> 00:27:31,081 I literally sell my blood in order to get by. 661 00:27:31,106 --> 00:27:32,395 And if I thought that I had pneumonia that could lead 662 00:27:32,419 --> 00:27:34,041 to sepsis and respiratory failure 663 00:27:34,117 --> 00:27:36,084 that could prove fatal if left untreated, 664 00:27:36,109 --> 00:27:37,282 or, at the very least, 665 00:27:37,307 --> 00:27:38,699 keep me out of work for eight weeks, 666 00:27:38,723 --> 00:27:42,106 I would get the X-ray and the treatment. 667 00:27:42,173 --> 00:27:44,221 And when the bill came, I would pay the bare minimum. 668 00:27:44,245 --> 00:27:45,707 And if it went to the collection agencies, 669 00:27:45,731 --> 00:27:47,974 I would pay them the bare minimum too. 670 00:27:47,999 --> 00:27:50,864 And it might be a huge, long, pain in the ass, 671 00:27:50,889 --> 00:27:52,339 but I would be alive. 672 00:27:57,648 --> 00:27:59,823 - Where do I go for the chest X-ray? 673 00:28:06,761 --> 00:28:09,447 - Pick it up, guys, a little faster. 674 00:28:10,987 --> 00:28:13,783 - You know what they called me when I was chief resident? 675 00:28:13,808 --> 00:28:15,006 The Nazi. 676 00:28:15,031 --> 00:28:16,677 - That is wildly inappropriate... 677 00:28:16,702 --> 00:28:19,398 - Yes. - On so many levels. 678 00:28:19,423 --> 00:28:22,061 - I mean, I wasn't a tough child, 679 00:28:22,086 --> 00:28:23,398 not in the obvious ways. 680 00:28:23,432 --> 00:28:26,263 I was sensitive all through high school 681 00:28:26,297 --> 00:28:28,437 and undergrad and med school. 682 00:28:28,472 --> 00:28:31,648 So as a resident, even more so as chief resident, 683 00:28:31,682 --> 00:28:34,754 I thought I had to overcompensate. 684 00:28:34,789 --> 00:28:37,688 And for a while, I became someone 685 00:28:37,723 --> 00:28:39,734 people didn't like very much. 686 00:28:41,699 --> 00:28:43,529 - And what did you do? 687 00:28:43,554 --> 00:28:47,317 - Well, I realized that my idea of myself 688 00:28:47,360 --> 00:28:51,399 had come out of sync with who I had become. 689 00:28:51,424 --> 00:28:54,300 Schmidt, you are chief resident now. 690 00:28:54,325 --> 00:28:56,017 You are no longer an underdog. 691 00:28:56,051 --> 00:28:58,675 It's time for you to stop seeing yourself that way. 692 00:28:58,709 --> 00:29:00,297 - You're saying I shouldn't demand 693 00:29:00,331 --> 00:29:01,526 excellence from the interns? 694 00:29:01,551 --> 00:29:04,085 - I'm saying there's many ways to do that. 695 00:29:04,128 --> 00:29:05,784 And the one that will work best for you 696 00:29:05,809 --> 00:29:08,867 is likely the one that lets you be you. 697 00:29:08,892 --> 00:29:12,551 I mean, you said you want us to be the vagina of the program 698 00:29:12,585 --> 00:29:14,824 because vaginas are so strong. 699 00:29:14,849 --> 00:29:18,128 Well, vaginas also bring pleasure. 700 00:29:18,153 --> 00:29:21,328 They bring joy, bring life. 701 00:29:21,353 --> 00:29:25,650 You got to be the whole vagina, Schmidt, not just the muscle. 702 00:29:30,803 --> 00:29:32,874 - It's like we were staring at a single cell of film 703 00:29:32,899 --> 00:29:34,409 and trying to watch a movie. 704 00:29:34,434 --> 00:29:35,822 We have to look at all the scans 705 00:29:35,847 --> 00:29:38,471 in order to see if they tell a story. 706 00:29:38,496 --> 00:29:42,051 Okay, look... Look here, four to five. 707 00:29:42,076 --> 00:29:44,285 There's a slight thickening in the cecal wall here. 708 00:29:44,310 --> 00:29:47,175 Yeah? And then six and seven... 709 00:29:47,200 --> 00:29:49,422 - No more thickening, but mild fat stranding. 710 00:29:49,447 --> 00:29:50,300 - Yeah. 711 00:29:50,325 --> 00:29:55,327 And then eight, nine, ten, the pattern reappears. 712 00:29:55,352 --> 00:29:56,547 The flare-ups come and go, 713 00:29:56,572 --> 00:29:59,324 but the CT scans only capture one moment in time. 714 00:29:59,493 --> 00:30:01,564 Now our little film tells a different story. 715 00:30:01,589 --> 00:30:02,947 I mean, there's gotta be something in there, 716 00:30:02,971 --> 00:30:05,111 a foreign object causing these reactions. 717 00:30:05,136 --> 00:30:08,001 - Like a fish bone, maybe, or a piece of cartilage 718 00:30:08,026 --> 00:30:09,441 that wasn't digested properly? 719 00:30:09,466 --> 00:30:11,053 - You want to tell me why the patient 720 00:30:11,078 --> 00:30:15,322 I told you to discharge hours ago is still stuck in my ER? 721 00:30:18,247 --> 00:30:21,215 - So she's gonna be okay? 722 00:30:21,240 --> 00:30:22,259 - Uh, yeah. 723 00:30:22,284 --> 00:30:25,668 Georgia did well under the circumstances, 724 00:30:25,693 --> 00:30:28,042 against all odds. 725 00:30:28,067 --> 00:30:29,327 - But we would like to speak with you 726 00:30:29,351 --> 00:30:30,939 about the bull riding. 727 00:30:30,974 --> 00:30:33,099 - I should wait for my husband. 728 00:30:33,745 --> 00:30:36,462 - We would like to have a minute with just you. 729 00:30:37,122 --> 00:30:38,227 - Oh. 730 00:30:41,622 --> 00:30:45,964 Georgia's father, her grandfather, her uncles... 731 00:30:45,989 --> 00:30:48,165 They are all champion riders. 732 00:30:48,190 --> 00:30:51,503 But Cody never wanted Georgia to go near a bull. 733 00:30:51,541 --> 00:30:55,269 Every Christmas, he would give her 734 00:30:55,377 --> 00:30:59,865 a dollhouse, ballet slippers, a soccer ball. 735 00:30:59,899 --> 00:31:01,245 She wouldn't touch them. 736 00:31:01,280 --> 00:31:04,904 She wanted boots, spurs, a saddle. 737 00:31:04,939 --> 00:31:06,872 Cody thought when she took her first spill, 738 00:31:06,906 --> 00:31:09,284 she'd lose interest, but... 739 00:31:09,824 --> 00:31:12,231 but when she got laid up with a crushed trachea, 740 00:31:12,256 --> 00:31:14,534 we said no more. 741 00:31:14,569 --> 00:31:16,675 Guess what? She wouldn't eat, 742 00:31:16,709 --> 00:31:19,712 wouldn't speak, couldn't sleep. 743 00:31:19,747 --> 00:31:23,470 The light in her eyes was just gone. 744 00:31:24,252 --> 00:31:27,428 - To keep doing this will very likely kill her. 745 00:31:27,453 --> 00:31:29,421 - You think I don't worry about that 746 00:31:29,446 --> 00:31:32,044 every single day of my life? 747 00:31:32,069 --> 00:31:35,107 But to take her dream away from her... 748 00:31:35,141 --> 00:31:36,975 That would for sure kill her. 749 00:31:37,690 --> 00:31:38,829 Excuse me. 750 00:31:38,854 --> 00:31:40,014 I'm gonna go find my husband. 751 00:31:44,325 --> 00:31:45,579 - Nothing is harder than parenting, 752 00:31:45,603 --> 00:31:47,957 but you have to be the parent. 753 00:31:47,982 --> 00:31:49,846 - Would it have worked on you 754 00:31:49,880 --> 00:31:51,744 when you were a teenager doing hard drugs, 755 00:31:51,779 --> 00:31:54,091 risking your life? 756 00:31:54,126 --> 00:31:55,852 Was your mom able to stop you? 757 00:31:55,886 --> 00:31:57,370 - I was using drugs to mask 758 00:31:57,405 --> 00:32:00,477 some very real pain in my life. 759 00:32:00,511 --> 00:32:02,173 - Maybe it's the same for Georgia. 760 00:32:02,198 --> 00:32:04,200 Maybe she's masking the pain of having found 761 00:32:04,225 --> 00:32:06,113 her one true passion 762 00:32:06,138 --> 00:32:07,587 and hearing everyone around her 763 00:32:07,612 --> 00:32:11,651 tell her that she is selfish for chasing it. 764 00:32:13,062 --> 00:32:14,802 - Oh, no, no, no, no. Georgia, no. 765 00:32:14,836 --> 00:32:16,006 - She's pulling the tube out. 766 00:32:16,031 --> 00:32:18,343 - Increase her O2 and draw an ABG. 767 00:32:18,710 --> 00:32:20,091 Hey. 768 00:32:20,126 --> 00:32:22,120 - Georgia, you're okay. Just take a breath. 769 00:32:25,722 --> 00:32:28,383 - Georgia, calm down. I need you to put this mask on. 770 00:32:28,408 --> 00:32:29,824 Your body needs additional oxygen. 771 00:32:29,849 --> 00:32:31,794 - I've had kids self-extubate before. 772 00:32:31,819 --> 00:32:33,661 Instinct and adrenaline kick in. 773 00:32:33,686 --> 00:32:35,446 - How long... How long will it take? 774 00:32:35,471 --> 00:32:38,923 - You will be up and walking in four to six weeks. 775 00:32:38,948 --> 00:32:40,348 - Ride. 776 00:32:40,373 --> 00:32:42,756 - Georgia, going back to rodeo would be a mistake. 777 00:32:42,781 --> 00:32:44,748 Most people do not survive the surgery 778 00:32:44,773 --> 00:32:46,005 that Dr. Pierce just did. 779 00:32:46,040 --> 00:32:47,470 - I'm not most people! 780 00:32:47,495 --> 00:32:50,498 Would you be saying the same thing if I was a guy? 781 00:32:50,579 --> 00:32:52,374 - Georgia, I'm not like most people either. 782 00:32:52,399 --> 00:32:54,781 I was really good at something when I was your age too. 783 00:32:54,806 --> 00:32:56,670 I skipped grades, I won prizes, 784 00:32:56,695 --> 00:32:57,924 and everybody thought it was my parents 785 00:32:57,948 --> 00:33:00,088 that were pushing me, but it was me. It was all me. 786 00:33:00,123 --> 00:33:01,780 So I get your focus. 787 00:33:01,814 --> 00:33:03,195 I get your passion. 788 00:33:03,220 --> 00:33:04,501 And I certainly get what it's like to be 789 00:33:04,525 --> 00:33:06,104 a girl in an all-guys' world. 790 00:33:06,129 --> 00:33:07,684 Maybe you'll ride again someday. 791 00:33:07,709 --> 00:33:10,384 But a few hours ago, you were almost dead and paralyzed. 792 00:33:10,409 --> 00:33:12,998 Stop fighting us and let us save the possibility 793 00:33:13,032 --> 00:33:15,138 of your future. 794 00:33:19,191 --> 00:33:20,606 - There's the ileocecal valve. 795 00:33:20,631 --> 00:33:22,564 - I hope we didn't just put a tube 796 00:33:22,589 --> 00:33:24,591 into a patient for no reason. 797 00:33:24,616 --> 00:33:26,756 - Whoa, whoa, what's that in the distal ileum? 798 00:33:26,781 --> 00:33:30,111 - Move the camera down and left. 799 00:33:30,474 --> 00:33:32,856 - There! - Is that a... 800 00:33:32,910 --> 00:33:34,891 - Toothpick. I'll be damned. 801 00:33:34,916 --> 00:33:35,929 - Oh, my God. 802 00:33:35,954 --> 00:33:38,585 How did it not shred his esophagus on the way down? 803 00:33:38,609 --> 00:33:40,508 - Well, it perfed the bowel. 804 00:33:40,542 --> 00:33:42,821 Then it impacted into the intestinal wall, 805 00:33:42,855 --> 00:33:45,133 where it hid from the scanner's radar. 806 00:33:45,168 --> 00:33:46,664 Adams, what's the game plan? 807 00:33:46,689 --> 00:33:49,623 - Use the endoscopy forceps to fish it out carefully. 808 00:33:49,648 --> 00:33:51,696 - Being careful not to break it and leave a piece behind 809 00:33:51,720 --> 00:33:53,671 that could cause an abscess later. 810 00:33:56,927 --> 00:33:58,584 - All right, hold it steady. 811 00:33:58,645 --> 00:34:00,475 - Will this take away all of this pain? 812 00:34:00,500 --> 00:34:01,812 - It absolutely will. 813 00:34:01,837 --> 00:34:03,321 Almost there. 814 00:34:07,706 --> 00:34:09,659 Incredible save, Adams. 815 00:34:18,252 --> 00:34:19,754 Incredible save. 816 00:34:22,632 --> 00:34:24,689 - Have I mentioned that I had my hand 817 00:34:24,724 --> 00:34:26,328 on an actual beating heart? 818 00:34:26,353 --> 00:34:28,428 - Only about six times. 819 00:34:28,453 --> 00:34:31,016 - But hey, I heard you found a bobby pin in some guy's ass 820 00:34:31,041 --> 00:34:33,733 or something, so also cool. 821 00:34:33,767 --> 00:34:35,735 - I convinced a patient to get a chest X-ray. 822 00:34:35,769 --> 00:34:37,564 - Hey, congratulations, Adams. 823 00:34:37,599 --> 00:34:39,542 Yasuda's day was sadder than yours. 824 00:34:39,567 --> 00:34:40,887 - Yeah. 825 00:34:40,912 --> 00:34:43,260 - Hey, thanks for everything today. 826 00:34:43,295 --> 00:34:45,378 If you need anything, I got your back. 827 00:34:47,577 --> 00:34:48,889 - I do need something. 828 00:34:48,914 --> 00:34:50,501 I know this might be weird, 829 00:34:50,526 --> 00:34:52,160 and if it's still hard for you, you can say no. 830 00:34:52,184 --> 00:34:54,979 But you know me better than anyone here, 831 00:34:55,026 --> 00:34:57,891 better than anyone at my old program, actually. 832 00:34:57,932 --> 00:35:01,073 And I could really use a friend to help me get through this. 833 00:35:04,281 --> 00:35:06,456 I'm asking you to be my man of honor. 834 00:35:11,979 --> 00:35:15,442 - Yeah, of course. 835 00:35:15,496 --> 00:35:16,685 It'd be an honor. 836 00:35:18,502 --> 00:35:19,503 - Thank you. 837 00:35:19,538 --> 00:35:22,382 - Hey, everyone, 838 00:35:22,407 --> 00:35:24,967 I want you to know I heard you all did 839 00:35:24,992 --> 00:35:27,220 some incredible work today. 840 00:35:27,277 --> 00:35:29,694 And so, if you're up for it, I would like to invite 841 00:35:29,719 --> 00:35:31,652 you all out for drinks. 842 00:35:34,449 --> 00:35:35,449 I'm actually serious. 843 00:35:36,900 --> 00:35:39,812 - Uh, oh. - So just, you know, 844 00:35:39,837 --> 00:35:41,456 meet me at Joe's. 845 00:35:44,836 --> 00:35:46,705 - Free drinks. - Yeah. 846 00:35:50,719 --> 00:35:52,995 - Any chance you need another bartender? 847 00:35:53,020 --> 00:35:54,607 - When would you sleep? 848 00:35:54,642 --> 00:35:56,230 - I'd figure it out. 849 00:35:57,679 --> 00:35:59,129 - Uh, yeah, yeah. 850 00:35:59,164 --> 00:36:01,028 The manager is hiring for the late shift. 851 00:36:01,062 --> 00:36:02,546 I can put in a good word. 852 00:36:02,581 --> 00:36:03,892 - Thank you. 853 00:36:07,517 --> 00:36:09,139 - Okay, people, this is my treat. 854 00:36:09,174 --> 00:36:10,313 - Thank God. 855 00:36:10,347 --> 00:36:11,566 - Yay, thank you. - You're welcome. 856 00:36:11,590 --> 00:36:13,454 - Thank you. 857 00:36:13,488 --> 00:36:14,731 - Thanks, Dr. Schmidt. 858 00:36:14,765 --> 00:36:15,870 - Cheers. - Yeah. 859 00:36:15,904 --> 00:36:17,182 - Welcome. 860 00:36:17,216 --> 00:36:18,183 - Thank you. 861 00:36:18,217 --> 00:36:19,874 - Mm-hmm. 862 00:36:20,840 --> 00:36:22,497 - Mm. - Oh. 863 00:36:22,532 --> 00:36:24,016 - Oh. 864 00:36:24,051 --> 00:36:25,178 - Chaser? - Mm-hmm. 865 00:36:25,203 --> 00:36:26,477 - What are you, her babysitter? 866 00:36:26,501 --> 00:36:27,744 - Man of honor, actually. 867 00:36:27,778 --> 00:36:28,808 - Oh, thank God. 868 00:36:28,833 --> 00:36:30,959 I didn't wanna have to carry around those blood vials. 869 00:36:32,893 --> 00:36:34,175 You mix them together, 870 00:36:34,200 --> 00:36:35,569 and you pour them out at the altar. 871 00:36:35,594 --> 00:36:37,729 - Why do you think a maid of honor does that? 872 00:36:37,754 --> 00:36:39,135 - My mom did it at my uncle's wedding. 873 00:36:39,159 --> 00:36:41,240 - I cannot overstate how not normal that is. 874 00:36:41,275 --> 00:36:43,139 - Whatever. I'm going to order food. 875 00:36:43,173 --> 00:36:44,633 Anyone else? 876 00:36:45,008 --> 00:36:47,873 - Can you get me some fries? 877 00:36:48,075 --> 00:36:49,075 - I'm starving. 878 00:36:51,088 --> 00:36:53,158 - So when's the wedding? - Next month. 879 00:36:53,183 --> 00:36:55,170 But it's in town so no one has to travel. 880 00:36:55,195 --> 00:36:56,570 And I don't need any extra time off. 881 00:36:56,594 --> 00:36:58,076 Trey is gonna take care of most of the logistics, 882 00:36:58,100 --> 00:36:59,515 so you won't... - Griffin, I... 883 00:36:59,540 --> 00:37:01,922 I was just asking. 884 00:37:01,994 --> 00:37:03,547 - Sorry, yeah. - That's okay. 885 00:37:03,572 --> 00:37:05,608 - Next month. - Okay. 886 00:37:05,633 --> 00:37:07,704 - Wanna get out of here? 887 00:37:07,729 --> 00:37:09,896 - I can't. 888 00:37:10,618 --> 00:37:13,138 We said no feelings, and unfortunately, 889 00:37:13,163 --> 00:37:15,924 I find your staunch support of animal rights... 890 00:37:16,103 --> 00:37:17,759 hot. 891 00:37:17,794 --> 00:37:19,865 - Okay. 892 00:37:19,899 --> 00:37:22,164 What if I have no feelings? 893 00:37:25,629 --> 00:37:26,734 - That works. 894 00:37:34,983 --> 00:37:36,537 - You wanna pick up takeout? 895 00:37:36,571 --> 00:37:38,711 I kind of feel like Italian. 896 00:37:38,746 --> 00:37:41,645 - I already ordered, Chang's Garden. 897 00:37:41,680 --> 00:37:44,693 - Right, of course you decided. 898 00:37:52,967 --> 00:37:54,583 - Stop. 899 00:37:54,858 --> 00:37:56,601 Stop. I need to look at you 900 00:37:56,626 --> 00:37:57,626 when I say this. 901 00:37:59,663 --> 00:38:00,937 - Okay. 902 00:38:01,583 --> 00:38:03,447 - You invited me to dinner with your family, 903 00:38:03,472 --> 00:38:05,681 and then you abandoned me when things got tough. 904 00:38:05,706 --> 00:38:06,795 - What? When? 905 00:38:06,820 --> 00:38:08,995 - The first time that I met your family, 906 00:38:09,026 --> 00:38:11,273 your father showed up, and you became unhappy, 907 00:38:11,298 --> 00:38:16,613 and then you logged off, and you left me there. 908 00:38:16,638 --> 00:38:18,398 My mother always used to quote Maya Angelou. 909 00:38:18,423 --> 00:38:21,736 She used to say, "When someone shows you who they are, 910 00:38:21,761 --> 00:38:24,005 believe them the first time." 911 00:38:24,075 --> 00:38:25,697 Why didn't I believe you the first time? 912 00:38:25,722 --> 00:38:27,321 You showed me who you were, 913 00:38:27,346 --> 00:38:28,771 and I just didn't wanna see it. 914 00:38:28,796 --> 00:38:30,952 - And who am I? - You're a person who retreats. 915 00:38:30,977 --> 00:38:32,910 When the going gets tough, you retreat. 916 00:38:32,935 --> 00:38:35,662 You quit. You disappear. 917 00:38:35,692 --> 00:38:39,765 You protect yourself, no matter what it costs anybody else. 918 00:38:39,794 --> 00:38:42,912 - You're the one thinking of taking a job in Chicago. 919 00:38:42,937 --> 00:38:45,388 - A job in Chicago is nothing, Winston. 920 00:38:45,413 --> 00:38:48,071 Marriages can easily survive a job in Chicago. 921 00:38:48,096 --> 00:38:51,030 But you don't seem to want us to survive. 922 00:38:51,110 --> 00:38:53,595 You just seem to want to punish me with your absence. 923 00:38:53,620 --> 00:38:56,078 - I'm right here! - But you're not. 924 00:38:56,103 --> 00:38:57,514 You're not. 925 00:38:57,549 --> 00:39:00,793 You took your love, and you retreated. 926 00:39:00,828 --> 00:39:04,811 You disappeared inside yourself. 927 00:39:04,866 --> 00:39:07,041 When the going got tough, you protected yourself, 928 00:39:07,075 --> 00:39:09,561 no matter what it cost anybody else. 929 00:39:09,595 --> 00:39:11,528 I am right here. 930 00:39:11,563 --> 00:39:13,662 You are gone. 931 00:39:13,687 --> 00:39:15,801 You couldn't even think of something nice to say 932 00:39:15,826 --> 00:39:18,165 about me this morning. 933 00:39:18,190 --> 00:39:20,019 Even when you wanted to quit cardio, 934 00:39:20,054 --> 00:39:21,935 supposedly to save our marriage, 935 00:39:21,960 --> 00:39:23,272 that was you quitting. 936 00:39:23,297 --> 00:39:24,781 That was you retreating. 937 00:39:24,806 --> 00:39:27,913 That was you giving up your gift 938 00:39:27,938 --> 00:39:29,595 so that you could avoid direct conflict, 939 00:39:29,620 --> 00:39:32,657 and that is what I don't respect. 940 00:39:32,682 --> 00:39:36,666 It isn't your heart, Winston, it's your cowardice. 941 00:39:36,691 --> 00:39:39,023 - Oh, wow, really, Maggie? 942 00:39:39,048 --> 00:39:42,396 - And the pizza in Chicago is the best in the world. 943 00:39:42,441 --> 00:39:44,478 So I'm gonna go there. 944 00:39:44,503 --> 00:39:47,210 And I'm gonna take my extraordinary passion, 945 00:39:47,235 --> 00:39:49,271 and I'm going to use it to build hearts 946 00:39:49,296 --> 00:39:51,267 that will save thousands of lives. 947 00:39:51,292 --> 00:39:53,430 And you can stay here, and you can pretend 948 00:39:53,455 --> 00:39:55,202 like it was you who was abandoned, 949 00:39:55,227 --> 00:39:56,723 but we both know the truth. 950 00:39:56,748 --> 00:40:00,210 - At a cellular level, we are made of forks in the road. 951 00:40:00,235 --> 00:40:04,246 A generalized cell is born, and it splits and splits, 952 00:40:04,271 --> 00:40:05,893 not having much choice in the matter. 953 00:40:07,277 --> 00:40:09,314 Eventually, it's a body. 954 00:40:09,339 --> 00:40:11,134 Eventually, it's you... 955 00:40:11,159 --> 00:40:13,782 - Come here, Scout. - Out in the world. 956 00:40:13,807 --> 00:40:15,602 - He was down. 957 00:40:15,765 --> 00:40:17,249 How are you feeling? 958 00:40:20,287 --> 00:40:22,108 - I... 959 00:40:22,944 --> 00:40:24,974 I feel... 960 00:40:26,455 --> 00:40:27,939 - Better? 961 00:40:28,007 --> 00:40:29,132 - ♪ If we survive 962 00:40:29,157 --> 00:40:31,298 - Yes, better. I feel better. 963 00:40:31,332 --> 00:40:33,058 - Hear that, Scout? 964 00:40:33,092 --> 00:40:35,844 She feels better. Whoo-hoo! 965 00:40:35,869 --> 00:40:37,407 - So maybe you are who you are. 966 00:40:37,442 --> 00:40:40,198 - All right, can you say whoo-hoo? 967 00:40:40,223 --> 00:40:42,619 - Maybe you can't choose who you love or what you want 968 00:40:42,654 --> 00:40:44,311 any more than a cell can choose to be 969 00:40:44,345 --> 00:40:47,952 a liver, a lung, a heart. 970 00:40:48,351 --> 00:40:51,527 But cells only take you so far. 971 00:40:51,552 --> 00:40:52,829 - Rough day? 972 00:40:52,853 --> 00:40:55,027 - Oh, thank you. 973 00:40:55,052 --> 00:40:58,504 Oh, it was humbling. 974 00:40:58,529 --> 00:41:02,154 I missed a diagnosis and almost lost a patient. 975 00:41:02,254 --> 00:41:03,514 - But? 976 00:41:04,434 --> 00:41:07,644 - I was bailed out by a Shepherd. 977 00:41:07,679 --> 00:41:10,198 - Hmm. - You? 978 00:41:12,416 --> 00:41:15,483 - I'm afraid I might be losing another sister. 979 00:41:18,021 --> 00:41:22,106 - In the end, you create yourself. 980 00:41:22,426 --> 00:41:24,429 And your life is the life you've made. 981 00:41:24,454 --> 00:41:28,160 - ♪ But you hold your breath 982 00:41:30,470 --> 00:41:34,163 ♪ If we survive 983 00:41:34,188 --> 00:41:35,575 - What the... 984 00:41:36,535 --> 00:41:39,290 Hey! Hey! 985 00:41:39,504 --> 00:41:42,100 - ♪ If we survive 986 00:41:42,125 --> 00:41:46,268 - Hey! What the... 987 00:41:46,306 --> 00:41:48,101 Oh, no. - Ben? 988 00:41:48,236 --> 00:41:49,376 Ben, what's going on? 989 00:41:49,410 --> 00:41:50,515 - ♪ I'll look for you 990 00:41:50,549 --> 00:41:53,000 - Miranda. 991 00:41:53,034 --> 00:41:55,865 - ♪ On the other side 992 00:42:01,388 --> 00:42:03,355 - We are not fine, Miranda. 993 00:42:13,227 --> 00:42:15,574 - But no one said it would be easy. 994 00:42:15,609 --> 00:42:19,176 - ♪ On the other side 72252

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