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[Children giggling]
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Olivia, voice-over: The bond
between a father and a daughter...
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There's absolutely
nothing like it.
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I always used to say my
mom gave me my drive but
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my dad gave me my dreams.
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As little girls, we
dream of all the big
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life moments we're gonna
share with our dads...
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First day of school, first bike
ride with our training wheels,
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first dance, pre-k graduation,
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middle school graduation,
just all the graduations.
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And, of course, our weddings.
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My gown is going to be pure
white with tons of lace
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and a train stretching on
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for miles and miles,
just like my mom's.
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Ok, but who's going to
help you carry that train?
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You, of course.
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For my wedding,
I'm going to have
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a simple but
elegant pant suit.
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You can't wear a pant suit
for your wedding, Olivia.
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Of course I can. My dad says
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I can do whatever I want,
'cause I'm a change-maker.
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He says one day I'm gonna
change the whole world.
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With a pant suit?
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All I know is daddy's
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always right.
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Olivia, voice-over:
Problem is, while we're
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dreaming these big dreams
of life with our hero,
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no one ever warns us
that those same dreams
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could be cut short.
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That we could just
wake up one day
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and... our dad's just...
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Gone.
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[Softly] Hey.
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Hey. You ok?
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I just... I'm sorry. I just
really need you to get up.
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Liv, it's the middle of
the night. What's wrong?
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I'm not gonna make
it through the night
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without taking a drink.
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I just... I need
both of you, please.
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[Olivia sobbing]
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Hey, hey. Come here.
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Come here, come
here, come here.
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Kwabs: ? war's over
but I soldier on ?
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? still battling the
ghost long gone ?
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? oh ?
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? oh-oh ?
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? still struggling
to see the signs ?
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? too heavy for a
heart like mine ?
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? save me, save me ?
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? ooh, oh, ooh ?
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? oh, oh, oh ?
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? keep my heritage
to keep me clean ?
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? keep the devil
watching over me ?
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? save me, save me ?
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? ooh, ooh... ?
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Olivia: Thank you.
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I'm glad you have each other.
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Kwabs: ? ooh, ooh ?
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? ooh, ooh ?
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Ok.
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Hey. I didn't
hear you come in.
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I didn't wanna wake
you, and ash let me in.
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Oh.
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Whatcha got here?
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These are my famous hot cakes.
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Well, thank you, but
I can't eat all that
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before a workout.
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Uh, well, my mama always said
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food is medicine for the soul.
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I appreciate you
and your mama,
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but I gotta get to the gym.
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Spence, why the rush?
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I know coach
baker's funeral was
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only a couple days ago.
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I don't think anyone's
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expecting you to rush
back to anything.
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I was thinking we could talk.
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I know how hard
it must have been
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for you losing coach baker.
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It's the cycle of life, right?
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What happened to
coach ain't something
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none of us can change.
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Look, I really gotta
get this workout in,
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so maybe later, you and I can
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tear into that
stack of hot cakes.
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Spencer: All right.
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[Door opens]
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Jordan: Do I call my mom? Do...
Do we keep her with us all day?
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You know what? Screw it.
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I'm just gonna
call her sponsor
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and if Liv gets mad,
she can get mad, ok?
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[Knock on door]
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Layla. Hi.
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Layla: Hi. Nurse joy:
It's good to see you. Heh!
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Layla: Yeah. Jordan?
[Door closes]
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You both look like
you've seen a ghost.
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Layla: Um, no, sorry,
it's just we were
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literally about to call you.
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Yeah, uh, how did you
know to come here?
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Olivia: I called her.
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I called everyone, actually.
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If I'm gonna get through today
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and not drink, i'm...
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I'm gonna need my village.
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Atta girl.
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[Door opens]
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[Door closes]
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[Olivia sighs] These past
couple weeks have been
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really, really hard.
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Um, last night, I just...
I had nothing left,
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and I would've had a drink
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if I didn't get help, so...
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Laura: Why didn't you say
anything sooner, sweetheart?
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Because I'm not the
only one that lost dad,
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and focusing it on
me just felt selfish.
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No one would've
thought that, Liv.
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Nurse joy: Ok, we're here now,
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so how can we help, Olivia?
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I texted everyone
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all my usual hiding places
for my pills and stuff.
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Jordan already did a
sweep this morning,
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so I guess just keep checking
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and keep me honest.
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Jordan: Ok, this is, um, this is
all that was left in the house.
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That's your dad's.
That's from...
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How did you get...
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I took it from his
office the night
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of the memorial and I've been
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holding on to it and, um...
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I just... I can't keep
fighting this alone.
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Coop: You don't have to.
We can do regular sweeps.
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We can take turns
driving you to a.A.
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I mean, whatever
it takes, honestly.
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I don't think I
can be left alone.
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[Sniffles]
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Uh, well, then we
won't leave you alone.
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Asher: Hey, baby.
Jaymee: Hey. How's Liv?
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Impressively strong.
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We're all taking
shifts with her today.
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Hmm. And this is why
the vortex rocks. Heh!
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I'm gonna get a refill.
Do you want one?
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These baby books I'm reading
say that too much caffeine
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can elevate your blood
pressure and heart rate.
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So can sex. You
gonna stop that, too?
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- No, we don't have to follow these books word for word.
- Ha ha!
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[Cell phone buzzes] Asher:
We can just, you know.
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That's what I thought. Mm-hmm.
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Oh! My doctor just
got back to me.
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She can see us at 2:00 today
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for our first ultrasound. Ok.
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Wait. I thought our
appointment was in a few weeks.
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It was, but she wants to
start monitoring me early
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because of my lupus.
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Is that normal?
Is she concerned?
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Does she think that... that
something could be wrong or...
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Hey, ash, slow down. She's
just taking precautions
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to make sure I have
a healthy pregnancy.
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It's a good thing, babe.
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[Door closes]
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Ok.
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Dad must've ordered
this before...
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You know, it's weird to
think that this... this...
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This could've been one of
the last things that he did.
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I'm sorry, Jordan.
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You know, we can
just set it aside
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till your mom's ready
to deal with it.
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No, I don't... I don't
wanna put her through that.
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Ok. Do you want me to open it?
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I don't know. If...
If we open it,
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that's it.
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What's it?
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There'll be no more
packages, Layla.
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The... there'll be no
more moments with dad.
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Markus gleissner: ? yo, i'm
not an underdog ? man: ? nah ?
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Markus: ? not the
undercard ? man: ? no ?
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Markus: ? I'm the main
event ? man: ? uh-huh ?
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Markus: ? stay
uninvolved, and you know ?
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? that I always
go the distance ?
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? and then win by
majority decision ?
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? whatever you do, don't
let your guard down ?
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? so knuckle up, you
gotta knuckle up ?
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? yo, whatever you do,
don't let your guard down ?
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Yo, man. There you are.
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Why weren't you at the
baker house this morning?
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Was I supposed to be?
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Liv called a family
meeting this morning.
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She's struggling
with her sobriety,
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so we all taking
shifts to help her.
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Nah. No, I ain't get the call.
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You serious, man? That's
all you gotta say?
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What do you want
from me, Coop?
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Sounds like she got all the
support she needs, so...
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What's really
going on, Olivia?
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What do you mean?
I... I told you.
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I'm trying not to relapse.
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Your father passed
and you're trying
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not to drink to numb the pain.
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Exactly.
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Losing your dad hurts.
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I understand that.
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And I'm sorry for your pain.
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But that's not
the whole story.
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I've been where
you are, remember?
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You did the right thing
by activating your village
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instead of trying to go
at it alone this time.
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And that is growth.
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But your village can't
babysit you forever.
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So you need to dig deep
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and find your why, Liv.
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Why now do you
want that drink?
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Take the leap and find
those answers, today,
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while you have your entire
village surrounding you,
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ready to catch you if needed.
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Eddy: Coach baker always
had this thing about shoes.
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He said respect
started at the feet.
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I never understood it
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until one day, he gave me
a brand-new pair of cleats.
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Told me everyone always
thought his hands
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were the key to his
success on the field,
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but really it
was his footwork.
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He said I had the
same potential
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and then every day, he
made sure I believed it.
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Preach: Yeah, he was always
good at helping people
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find their value.
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Anyone else wanna share?
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I'ma be in this room,
same time, every day.
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We're all grieving
coach baker,
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but don't nobody
gotta do it alone.
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[School bell rings]
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Y'all can roll.
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[Indistinct chatter]
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We need to talk about Jabari.
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Yeah, I'm worried about him.
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He still hasn't resumed
his after-school tutoring,
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and now he's failed
his last two tests.
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I don't need to tell you
where this path leads
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if he doesn't course
correct, and fast.
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Olivia: Well, how's
that for accuracy?
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Liv, you are not foundering.
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Just wish you could see
yourself the way we see you.
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You mean like a cliche
that's relapsing
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'cause they're grieving?
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No, like a badass
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who I'm incredibly proud of
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for being honest and
letting us be here for her.
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But you've been handling
everything so well and i'm...
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I have not
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been handling my
grief well at all.
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I cry.
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Every day.
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Mostly in the shower so
you guys don't hear me.
253
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And every morning that I
can even get out of bed
254
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is nothing short of a miracle.
255
00:12:00,602 --> 00:12:03,465
Mom, I'm so sorry.
I didn't know.
256
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Because I didn't
want you to know.
257
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[Cell phone buzzing]
258
00:12:07,810 --> 00:12:11,113
I'm sorry, sweetie. I
gotta get this. One second.
259
00:12:11,213 --> 00:12:13,315
Hello? Yes, this is Laura.
260
00:12:13,415 --> 00:12:15,317
[Footsteps retreat]
261
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[Breathing heavily]
262
00:12:26,668 --> 00:12:28,570
Is everything ok?
263
00:12:28,670 --> 00:12:30,532
Yeah. Apparently,
in order to get
264
00:12:30,632 --> 00:12:32,654
a copy of your dad's
death certificate,
265
00:12:32,754 --> 00:12:34,256
the medical examiner
needs a copy of
266
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his social security card.
267
00:12:36,438 --> 00:12:38,380
Well, is it here? I
can help you look.
268
00:12:38,480 --> 00:12:39,621
No. It's at his office.
269
00:12:39,721 --> 00:12:42,224
But I can get it another day.
270
00:12:42,324 --> 00:12:45,107
Or we... we could go
today. I can come with you.
271
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Sweetie, the bottle that
you almost drank from
272
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was in dad's office.
273
00:12:51,173 --> 00:12:53,996
Clearly, it's
triggering for you.
274
00:12:54,096 --> 00:12:57,319
I mean, you're right. I...
275
00:12:57,419 --> 00:13:00,642
Yeah, I did find the
bottle there, but...
276
00:13:00,742 --> 00:13:03,245
I think that's why I
need to go back there.
277
00:13:03,345 --> 00:13:05,808
You know, nurse joy
says she thinks there's
278
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more to my wanting to drink
than just missing dad,
279
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and she said that I need to
use today to dig deep and find
280
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my real "why" if I'm gonna
get through this, so...
281
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If you think it's
what you need.
282
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Spencer: What up, coach?
Coach Kenny: Spence.
283
00:13:28,530 --> 00:13:30,272
Did not expect
to see you here.
284
00:13:30,372 --> 00:13:32,034
Had to get a workout
in, you know?
285
00:13:32,134 --> 00:13:33,355
I can't blame you.
286
00:13:33,455 --> 00:13:35,317
Grief isn't a
straight line, right?
287
00:13:35,417 --> 00:13:37,719
If you need to talk,
bruh, I'm here.
288
00:13:37,819 --> 00:13:39,001
Actually, I do.
289
00:13:39,101 --> 00:13:41,083
Where we at with the team?
290
00:13:41,183 --> 00:13:43,846
[Scoffs] That should be
the least of your concerns.
291
00:13:43,946 --> 00:13:46,488
It's my only concern. Look,
what happened to coach baker
292
00:13:46,588 --> 00:13:48,650
is horrible, but I
can't change the past.
293
00:13:48,750 --> 00:13:51,333
I gotta focus on what's
next, and right now,
294
00:13:51,433 --> 00:13:53,375
that's rebuilding
gau's football team.
295
00:13:53,475 --> 00:13:55,297
We'll get there. Let's
focus on yourself.
296
00:13:55,397 --> 00:13:57,699
Has a.D. Barnes reached out
about the head coaching gig?
297
00:13:57,799 --> 00:14:00,359
- We haven't connected yet.
- And what about you? You reaching out
298
00:14:00,442 --> 00:14:01,859
- to our new recruits?
- A few here and there.
299
00:14:01,883 --> 00:14:03,265
Are you scheduling workouts?
300
00:14:03,365 --> 00:14:04,746
Are you working on
new plays? What?
301
00:14:04,846 --> 00:14:06,304
Hey, Spence, Spence,
take a beat, all right?
302
00:14:06,328 --> 00:14:08,270
Gau football still has
a lot to figure out
303
00:14:08,370 --> 00:14:10,588
before we can even think about
rebuilding the program again.
304
00:14:10,612 --> 00:14:13,035
Sounds like you waiting
to be told what to do.
305
00:14:13,135 --> 00:14:16,038
Why ain't you in there demanding
a meeting with a.D. Barnes?
306
00:14:16,138 --> 00:14:18,760
When did you stop caring about
the future of gau football, man?
307
00:14:18,860 --> 00:14:21,083
I care about this program,
and you know that.
308
00:14:21,183 --> 00:14:23,325
But more importantly,
I care about you.
309
00:14:23,425 --> 00:14:25,367
And it's clear that you
still need more time.
310
00:14:25,467 --> 00:14:28,250
Until then, if
you need to talk
311
00:14:28,350 --> 00:14:31,813
or just get a workout
in in silence, I'm here.
312
00:14:31,913 --> 00:14:33,915
Nah, I'm good.
313
00:14:40,202 --> 00:14:41,944
Layla: Sorry. That
conference call went
314
00:14:42,044 --> 00:14:43,946
longer than I expected.
315
00:14:44,046 --> 00:14:45,988
Jordan, please tell me
you've moved an inch
316
00:14:46,088 --> 00:14:47,870
since I left you.
317
00:14:47,970 --> 00:14:50,472
[Sighs] This is
318
00:14:50,572 --> 00:14:53,075
the last part of my dad
that is still alive.
319
00:14:53,175 --> 00:14:56,078
And I know that doesn't make
any sense at all, but...
320
00:14:56,178 --> 00:14:58,080
No, it makes total sense.
321
00:14:58,180 --> 00:15:01,203
Hey, when we lose
someone we love,
322
00:15:01,303 --> 00:15:03,205
we do everything we
can to hold on to them.
323
00:15:03,305 --> 00:15:05,207
Ok, but Layla, what
if this is where
324
00:15:05,307 --> 00:15:07,209
the reminders of him end?
325
00:15:07,309 --> 00:15:10,012
This last box.
326
00:15:10,112 --> 00:15:13,415
About a year ago, I was
really missing my mom,
327
00:15:13,515 --> 00:15:17,619
and then this track
popped up on my computer
328
00:15:17,719 --> 00:15:20,903
from the recent
batch my dad gave me.
329
00:15:21,003 --> 00:15:23,946
Monica keating: ? just know ?
330
00:15:24,046 --> 00:15:28,190
? I'm on your side when
you're missing me... ?
331
00:15:28,290 --> 00:15:30,792
It's one of my
mom's old songs,
332
00:15:30,892 --> 00:15:34,236
and the chorus goes,
"as hard as it can be,
333
00:15:34,336 --> 00:15:36,798
never stop remembering me."
334
00:15:36,898 --> 00:15:39,641
The universe gave me this little
reminder when I needed it.
335
00:15:39,741 --> 00:15:42,324
So this box,
Jordan, it's just...
336
00:15:42,424 --> 00:15:44,846
Just the beginning of
your dad's reminders.
337
00:15:44,946 --> 00:15:48,090
Keating: ? never stop
remembering me... ?
338
00:15:48,190 --> 00:15:50,852
[Softly] Thank you.
339
00:15:50,952 --> 00:15:53,235
[Sighs]
340
00:15:58,200 --> 00:16:00,102
[Chuckles]
341
00:16:00,202 --> 00:16:01,463
You would've
never have guessed
342
00:16:01,563 --> 00:16:03,145
that this was
just moments after
343
00:16:03,245 --> 00:16:05,547
we both got food poisoning
after dad insisted
344
00:16:05,647 --> 00:16:07,549
that we get street fish tacos.
345
00:16:07,649 --> 00:16:09,591
- I tried to warn you guys.
- Heh! I know.
346
00:16:09,691 --> 00:16:12,934
But dad was so excited I
didn't want him to eat alone.
347
00:16:17,899 --> 00:16:21,203
The memories won't
always hurt so much.
348
00:16:21,303 --> 00:16:24,006
Or so they say.
349
00:16:24,106 --> 00:16:26,148
[Cell phone buzzes]
350
00:16:28,110 --> 00:16:31,413
Um, Coop's here to pick
me up for her shift.
351
00:16:31,513 --> 00:16:33,415
Do you want me to tell
her to come back later?
352
00:16:33,515 --> 00:16:36,178
Oh, no, sweetie. You go.
I... I can look for his card.
353
00:16:36,278 --> 00:16:38,460
Olivia: Are you sure? Laura:
Liv, i'm... I'm ok here.
354
00:16:38,560 --> 00:16:39,941
I promise.
355
00:16:40,041 --> 00:16:41,943
Go. Coop's waiting.
356
00:16:42,043 --> 00:16:44,166
Olivia: Ok. Laura: Bye.
357
00:16:49,331 --> 00:16:52,774
[Door opens, closes]
358
00:16:54,536 --> 00:16:56,538
[Slam]
359
00:16:59,341 --> 00:17:01,343
Girls: Aah!
360
00:17:02,944 --> 00:17:05,347
Watch where you going, fool.
361
00:17:07,589 --> 00:17:10,492
[Students shouting indistinctly]
362
00:17:10,592 --> 00:17:12,494
Preach: Hey, hey. Hey! Hey!
363
00:17:12,594 --> 00:17:15,277
Hey! What's wrong
with you, man?
364
00:17:24,806 --> 00:17:26,148
You're about 7 weeks along.
365
00:17:26,248 --> 00:17:28,070
Baby's measuring perfectly.
366
00:17:28,170 --> 00:17:30,232
And there's your
baby's heartbeat.
367
00:17:30,332 --> 00:17:33,415
[Thumping] We'll get
some bloodwork today.
368
00:17:35,016 --> 00:17:36,954
Asher: Wait, what for?
Doctor: Standard procedure.
369
00:17:36,978 --> 00:17:39,841
Everything's looking
good. Congratulations.
370
00:17:39,941 --> 00:17:42,324
Thank you.
371
00:17:42,424 --> 00:17:44,566
[Door opens]
372
00:17:44,666 --> 00:17:46,288
I can't believe
this is real. Heh!
373
00:17:46,388 --> 00:17:49,291
I'm... I'm gonna let
you get dressed, ok?
374
00:17:49,391 --> 00:17:51,553
I'll be... I'll
be right outside.
375
00:17:53,795 --> 00:17:55,297
[Door opens]
376
00:17:55,397 --> 00:17:56,778
Uh, excuse me?
377
00:17:56,878 --> 00:17:58,660
[Door closes] Yes. Mr. Adams.
378
00:17:58,760 --> 00:18:01,022
Are you sure
everything looked ok?
379
00:18:01,122 --> 00:18:03,465
I've been doing this a long
time. Things looked great.
380
00:18:03,565 --> 00:18:05,147
And the heartbeat.
It wasn't...
381
00:18:05,247 --> 00:18:07,349
Wasn't too fast or too slow?
382
00:18:07,449 --> 00:18:09,969
Doctor: It was perfect. Asher:
What... what about jaymee's lupus?
383
00:18:10,011 --> 00:18:12,394
We're gonna keep a close
eye on her and the baby,
384
00:18:12,494 --> 00:18:14,031
but you really shouldn't
worry right now.
385
00:18:14,055 --> 00:18:15,317
Well, on the Internet, it said
386
00:18:15,417 --> 00:18:16,714
pregnant women who
have lupus are...
387
00:18:16,738 --> 00:18:17,959
Let me stop you right there.
388
00:18:18,059 --> 00:18:19,241
Don't read the Internet.
389
00:18:19,341 --> 00:18:20,922
Jaymee's doing really well
390
00:18:21,022 --> 00:18:22,480
and takes really
good care of herself.
391
00:18:22,504 --> 00:18:25,627
For now, try to
enjoy this moment.
392
00:18:30,151 --> 00:18:32,153
What was that about?
393
00:18:33,595 --> 00:18:35,577
Uh, I... I just had
a few more questions.
394
00:18:35,677 --> 00:18:38,019
Jaymee: About my body?
Asher: About our baby.
395
00:18:38,119 --> 00:18:39,741
Next time, ask them
in front of me.
396
00:18:39,841 --> 00:18:42,264
I know how to take
care of myself
397
00:18:42,364 --> 00:18:44,606
and this baby, ash.
398
00:18:49,331 --> 00:18:51,353
Here we go.
399
00:18:51,453 --> 00:18:53,395
[Chuckling] Uh...
400
00:18:53,495 --> 00:18:55,117
Ok...
401
00:18:55,217 --> 00:18:57,279
Did you leave any
food for anyone else?
402
00:18:57,379 --> 00:18:58,560
Yup, but I figured
403
00:18:58,660 --> 00:19:00,122
as long as your
mouth is chewing,
404
00:19:00,222 --> 00:19:02,164
it can't be drinking.
[Olivia snickers]
405
00:19:02,264 --> 00:19:05,327
That's one way to approach it.
406
00:19:05,427 --> 00:19:07,729
I still feel like...
407
00:19:07,829 --> 00:19:09,731
There's a lot that's been
left unsaid between us
408
00:19:09,831 --> 00:19:11,773
since my breakup with Spencer.
409
00:19:11,873 --> 00:19:14,616
Coop: Yeah, but we ain't gotta get
into that now. Olivia: Actually,
410
00:19:14,716 --> 00:19:16,938
um... it's important
411
00:19:17,038 --> 00:19:19,341
for both my grief and
my sobriety to honestly
412
00:19:19,441 --> 00:19:21,383
speak up about what
I'm feeling, so...
413
00:19:21,483 --> 00:19:23,385
[Sighs] Well, in that case,
414
00:19:23,485 --> 00:19:24,986
go for it.
415
00:19:25,086 --> 00:19:27,088
Full disclosure...
416
00:19:28,650 --> 00:19:30,552
I used to be jealous
417
00:19:30,652 --> 00:19:32,834
of what you and Spencer had.
418
00:19:32,934 --> 00:19:35,437
You were his best
friend at south crenshaw
419
00:19:35,537 --> 00:19:38,160
and I was his best
friend at Beverly,
420
00:19:38,260 --> 00:19:41,803
but truthfully, I mean, there
was... there was no comparison.
421
00:19:41,903 --> 00:19:45,807
I mean, what you and Spencer
had and still have is...
422
00:19:45,907 --> 00:19:50,612
An unconditional love that
most people can only dream of.
423
00:19:50,712 --> 00:19:52,734
It's seen Spencer
through some of
424
00:19:52,834 --> 00:19:54,496
the toughest
times in his life.
425
00:19:54,596 --> 00:19:57,459
And as someone who
loves him, your loyalty
426
00:19:57,559 --> 00:20:00,262
to him is something
that I'm grateful for.
427
00:20:00,362 --> 00:20:04,105
Well, since we're being
all honest and stuff,
428
00:20:04,205 --> 00:20:07,148
I actually was... I
was scared when you two
429
00:20:07,248 --> 00:20:09,871
started dating
that I'd lose him.
430
00:20:09,971 --> 00:20:11,913
That there'd be
no room for me.
431
00:20:12,013 --> 00:20:14,276
But you made sure there was.
432
00:20:14,376 --> 00:20:16,558
I don't think...
433
00:20:16,658 --> 00:20:19,201
I don't think I
ever said thank you.
434
00:20:19,301 --> 00:20:21,523
I learned that from my dad.
435
00:20:21,623 --> 00:20:23,485
He always made
room in his heart
436
00:20:23,585 --> 00:20:25,447
for whoever walked
through our front door.
437
00:20:25,547 --> 00:20:28,770
It never took anything away
from what he felt for us.
438
00:20:28,870 --> 00:20:30,652
You know, he just
made the extra room.
439
00:20:30,752 --> 00:20:32,494
That's such a beautiful thing.
440
00:20:32,594 --> 00:20:35,777
Plus, um, confession
number two?
441
00:20:35,877 --> 00:20:38,500
I made room for you
for selfish reasons
442
00:20:38,600 --> 00:20:41,423
'cause I wanted some of
that Coop magic in my life.
443
00:20:41,523 --> 00:20:44,025
Coop: Come on, man.
[Olivia chuckling]
444
00:20:44,125 --> 00:20:46,668
And look at us now.
We're not just friends.
445
00:20:46,768 --> 00:20:49,351
We're roommates,
sobriety partners,
446
00:20:49,451 --> 00:20:50,592
family.
447
00:20:50,692 --> 00:20:52,514
I missed you, Liv.
448
00:20:52,614 --> 00:20:54,155
I've missed our friendship.
449
00:20:54,255 --> 00:20:56,257
Me, too.
450
00:21:04,185 --> 00:21:06,688
[Door opens and closes]
451
00:21:06,788 --> 00:21:08,250
Hey.
452
00:21:08,350 --> 00:21:10,211
How was your day?
453
00:21:10,311 --> 00:21:12,254
Good. You really been
here this whole time?
454
00:21:12,354 --> 00:21:14,055
No, I left but I came back
455
00:21:14,155 --> 00:21:15,795
and jaymee and Asher,
you know, let me in.
456
00:21:15,877 --> 00:21:17,539
Ok, look, um,
457
00:21:17,639 --> 00:21:19,541
as much as I
appreciate all this,
458
00:21:19,641 --> 00:21:21,178
you really don't gotta
fold my laundry, ok?
459
00:21:21,202 --> 00:21:24,325
Wait. I don't mind, ok?
Plus, it's no big deal.
460
00:21:25,967 --> 00:21:28,390
Hey, how about
we watch a movie,
461
00:21:28,490 --> 00:21:29,671
snack on some cold hot cakes?
462
00:21:29,771 --> 00:21:31,633
Sure. Movie sounds great.
463
00:21:31,733 --> 00:21:33,955
- Ok.
- But we warming up those hot cakes, ok?
464
00:21:34,055 --> 00:21:36,638
Alicia: Ok. Ok. [Door opens]
465
00:21:36,738 --> 00:21:39,000
[Door closes] Coop: Uh, hey.
466
00:21:39,100 --> 00:21:40,802
Is, uh, Asher around?
467
00:21:40,902 --> 00:21:43,605
Alicia: He's not here.
Olivia: Um, it's ok.
468
00:21:43,705 --> 00:21:45,407
We're a little
early anyway, so...
469
00:21:45,507 --> 00:21:47,729
Spencer: Early for what?
Coop: Asher's shift is up.
470
00:21:47,829 --> 00:21:49,651
He was gonna take Liv
to her a.A. Meeting.
471
00:21:49,751 --> 00:21:51,973
I'd do it, but I gotta
make it to another class.
472
00:21:52,073 --> 00:21:53,575
Olivia: I can
wait on the patio.
473
00:21:53,675 --> 00:21:55,537
I'm sure he'll
be here any sec.
474
00:21:55,637 --> 00:21:57,855
Alicia: Actually, he took jaymee
to a doctor's appointment.
475
00:21:57,879 --> 00:21:59,220
I don't know when
he'll be back.
476
00:21:59,320 --> 00:22:01,783
Is she ok? Did her lupus
flare back up or...
477
00:22:01,883 --> 00:22:04,586
I'll do it.
478
00:22:04,686 --> 00:22:06,628
I'll take you.
479
00:22:06,728 --> 00:22:09,471
Are you sure? I don't
want to interrupt.
480
00:22:09,571 --> 00:22:11,148
Spencer: No, you're
not. We was just about
481
00:22:11,172 --> 00:22:13,715
to watch a movie,
but from everything
482
00:22:13,815 --> 00:22:15,517
I heard today, sounds
like your situation
483
00:22:15,617 --> 00:22:17,959
is a little more
life and death so,
484
00:22:18,059 --> 00:22:21,042
um... raincheck?
485
00:22:21,142 --> 00:22:22,283
Yeah.
486
00:22:22,383 --> 00:22:24,385
Of course. Sure.
487
00:22:27,429 --> 00:22:28,570
Thank you.
488
00:22:28,670 --> 00:22:30,211
Both of you.
489
00:22:30,311 --> 00:22:31,853
Mm-hmm.
490
00:22:31,953 --> 00:22:33,955
Ok.
491
00:22:35,957 --> 00:22:37,959
Ok.
492
00:22:40,762 --> 00:22:43,665
[Door opens and closes]
493
00:22:43,765 --> 00:22:45,667
Yo, you good?
494
00:22:45,767 --> 00:22:47,789
Buster got in my way.
495
00:22:47,889 --> 00:22:49,449
You can't be hitting
everybody that gets
496
00:22:49,531 --> 00:22:51,152
in your way because you angry.
497
00:22:51,252 --> 00:22:53,835
Look, I know you hurtin'.
We all are. And I can't even
498
00:22:53,935 --> 00:22:56,393
imagine what else you been goin'
through after being on that bus.
499
00:22:56,417 --> 00:22:57,839
You wasting my
time. Can I go now?
500
00:22:57,939 --> 00:22:59,941
Man, sit your ass down.
501
00:23:06,427 --> 00:23:09,090
Look, I'll never
be coach baker,
502
00:23:09,190 --> 00:23:11,893
but I'm sure as hell gonna
keep his legacy alive
503
00:23:11,993 --> 00:23:13,895
by looking after his
south crenshaw kids.
504
00:23:13,995 --> 00:23:15,377
Am I supposed to
say thank you?
505
00:23:15,477 --> 00:23:16,978
You ain't gotta
say nothing to me.
506
00:23:17,078 --> 00:23:19,020
But you can't let your
future go to waste
507
00:23:19,120 --> 00:23:20,782
because you in pain.
508
00:23:20,882 --> 00:23:22,864
Talk to somebody. Anyone.
509
00:23:22,964 --> 00:23:26,768
Or that grief will
eat you alive.
510
00:23:34,255 --> 00:23:37,519
You're probably wondering why I
didn't call you over this morning.
511
00:23:37,619 --> 00:23:39,160
You called who you needed.
512
00:23:39,260 --> 00:23:42,463
No, I called who I didn't
think I'd be burdening.
513
00:23:45,146 --> 00:23:47,649
You've saved my life
enough times, Spencer.
514
00:23:47,749 --> 00:23:51,533
It didn't feel fair to lay this
at your feet too after everything.
515
00:23:51,633 --> 00:23:55,577
That night at the
hospital, after I got shot,
516
00:23:55,677 --> 00:23:57,579
you thanked me for
saving your life.
517
00:23:57,679 --> 00:23:59,260
You remember what I said?
518
00:23:59,360 --> 00:24:01,543
You said anytime.
519
00:24:01,643 --> 00:24:03,645
And I meant it.
520
00:24:06,848 --> 00:24:09,390
[Olivia sighs] Spencer:
So how bad's it been?
521
00:24:09,490 --> 00:24:11,312
Last night was
the worst of it.
522
00:24:11,412 --> 00:24:14,516
That's why I'm searching
for clarity today.
523
00:24:14,616 --> 00:24:17,038
I miss him so much.
524
00:24:17,138 --> 00:24:19,140
I know.
525
00:24:20,301 --> 00:24:21,803
[Sighs]
526
00:24:21,903 --> 00:24:25,046
[Distant chatter]
527
00:24:25,146 --> 00:24:26,448
Oh, my god.
528
00:24:26,548 --> 00:24:29,010
My dad used to love
pop up carnivals.
529
00:24:29,110 --> 00:24:30,812
[Chuckles]
530
00:24:30,912 --> 00:24:33,414
I called them
deathtraps in the making
531
00:24:33,514 --> 00:24:36,017
but he always used
to say they were like
532
00:24:36,117 --> 00:24:38,419
roses that bloom
in concrete...
533
00:24:38,519 --> 00:24:41,563
A beautiful surprise.
534
00:24:44,485 --> 00:24:46,227
What are you doing?
535
00:24:46,327 --> 00:24:48,710
We got 45 minutes before
your meeting, right?
536
00:24:48,810 --> 00:24:51,052
Trust me.
537
00:24:53,534 --> 00:24:56,157
[Indistinct shouting]
538
00:24:56,257 --> 00:24:58,299
Whoo!
539
00:25:00,782 --> 00:25:02,163
You're not serious.
540
00:25:02,263 --> 00:25:04,365
Yeah, you wanted
clarity, right?
541
00:25:04,465 --> 00:25:07,809
It doesn't get quieter or
more zen than up there.
542
00:25:07,909 --> 00:25:10,572
[Chuckles] Carnivals
were your pop's thing,
543
00:25:10,672 --> 00:25:12,574
so you already got a
connection to him here.
544
00:25:12,674 --> 00:25:15,176
Just try it.
545
00:25:15,276 --> 00:25:18,620
It's the closest to heaven we're
gonna get from where we are.
546
00:25:18,720 --> 00:25:21,583
Can we just take a second?
547
00:25:21,683 --> 00:25:24,025
I don't know. Maybe play some
games or something first?
548
00:25:24,125 --> 00:25:26,067
Spencer: Liv.
Olivia: I'll go up.
549
00:25:26,167 --> 00:25:28,269
I will.
550
00:25:28,369 --> 00:25:30,391
I'm just...
551
00:25:30,491 --> 00:25:32,654
I'm... I'm not ready yet.
552
00:25:36,297 --> 00:25:38,199
How about the basketball toss?
553
00:25:38,299 --> 00:25:41,122
Last time I went up against
you, you whooped my ass.
554
00:25:41,222 --> 00:25:43,280
Sounds like you're scared
to get your ass beat again.
555
00:25:43,304 --> 00:25:45,166
Ok. All right. Let's go.
556
00:25:45,266 --> 00:25:47,168
Game on, woman.
[Olivia chuckles]
557
00:25:47,268 --> 00:25:49,571
Male singer: ? today's
looking like a good day ?
558
00:25:49,671 --> 00:25:51,729
? good vibes, ya, I feel, feel
like it's my birthday... ?
559
00:25:51,753 --> 00:25:53,811
Olivia: It's impossible.
Spencer: It's not impossible.
560
00:25:53,835 --> 00:25:55,977
- You gotta believe.
- You gotta just...
561
00:25:56,077 --> 00:25:57,859
It works. Ha ha!
562
00:25:57,959 --> 00:25:59,581
Singers: ? it's
gonna be a good day ?
563
00:25:59,681 --> 00:26:01,502
[Bell rings] ? and i'm
feeling all right ?
564
00:26:01,602 --> 00:26:03,865
? it's gonna be a good day ?
565
00:26:03,965 --> 00:26:06,507
? so hang around a
while, while, while ?
566
00:26:06,607 --> 00:26:08,550
? gonna be a good day... ?
567
00:26:08,650 --> 00:26:11,512
Spencer: Chill out.
Chill out. [Both chuckle]
568
00:26:11,612 --> 00:26:13,514
Singers: ? it's
gonna be a good day ?
569
00:26:13,614 --> 00:26:15,174
? so hang around a
while, while, while ?
570
00:26:15,256 --> 00:26:16,558
Whoo!
571
00:26:16,658 --> 00:26:18,479
Spencer: Ahh! Olivia: Ha ha!
572
00:26:18,579 --> 00:26:20,521
- Ok. Somebody get me a football.
- Ha ha ha!
573
00:26:20,621 --> 00:26:22,764
Ha ha ha ha! [Seatbelt clicks]
574
00:26:22,864 --> 00:26:25,106
I feel like I was hustled.
575
00:26:27,268 --> 00:26:28,610
You ready?
576
00:26:28,710 --> 00:26:30,612
No.
577
00:26:30,712 --> 00:26:33,755
But I'm gonna do it anyway.
578
00:26:38,359 --> 00:26:41,002
[Machinery hissing]
579
00:26:48,970 --> 00:26:51,652
[Metal squeaking]
580
00:26:53,214 --> 00:26:55,116
Ok.
581
00:26:55,216 --> 00:26:56,798
I'm up here.
582
00:26:56,898 --> 00:26:59,641
Close your eyes.
583
00:26:59,741 --> 00:27:02,543
Take in the quiet.
584
00:27:06,147 --> 00:27:08,149
[Exhales]
585
00:27:11,632 --> 00:27:13,634
Wow.
586
00:27:15,356 --> 00:27:17,398
It's like I'm in the clouds.
587
00:27:20,641 --> 00:27:24,325
This is the closest I've felt
to him since he's been gone.
588
00:27:26,087 --> 00:27:27,989
You wanted clarity
on why his loss
589
00:27:28,089 --> 00:27:30,131
was pushing you to drink.
590
00:27:32,173 --> 00:27:34,075
Talk to him...
591
00:27:34,175 --> 00:27:36,037
In here.
592
00:27:36,137 --> 00:27:39,160
Rum.gold: ? ohh ?
[Olivia exhales]
593
00:27:39,260 --> 00:27:42,383
Only you and him
can figure this out.
594
00:27:43,865 --> 00:27:47,148
Rum.gold: ? father, father ?
595
00:27:49,951 --> 00:27:52,654
? maybe I will leave ?
596
00:27:52,754 --> 00:27:55,196
? just like you ?
597
00:27:57,278 --> 00:28:00,281
? brother, brother ?
598
00:28:04,085 --> 00:28:06,387
? oh, if you're reading this ?
599
00:28:06,487 --> 00:28:09,030
? you probably know by now ?
600
00:28:09,130 --> 00:28:12,814
? I've finally found a lover ?
601
00:28:14,976 --> 00:28:20,962
? oh, I love him, I do ?
602
00:28:21,062 --> 00:28:26,908
? I just couldn't save you ?
603
00:28:31,512 --> 00:28:34,055
Jordan: Spices and
frozen meat? Layla: Hmm.
604
00:28:34,155 --> 00:28:36,257
- Ooh, the meat is a little thawed.
- Oh.
605
00:28:36,357 --> 00:28:38,259
Mm. Heh! I am grateful
606
00:28:38,359 --> 00:28:40,261
you didn't keep that
package sealed forever,
607
00:28:40,361 --> 00:28:41,841
'cause that smell
would've divided us.
608
00:28:41,923 --> 00:28:43,304
- Ok. Really?
- Yeah.
609
00:28:43,404 --> 00:28:45,386
But what is... what is
all this... all this for?
610
00:28:45,486 --> 00:28:48,269
- Oh. Louisiana night.
- What?
611
00:28:48,369 --> 00:28:51,072
Well, I saw a flyer on the
table at your parents' house.
612
00:28:51,172 --> 00:28:53,270
South crenshaw's hosting a
"Louisiana night" next week.
613
00:28:53,294 --> 00:28:57,719
My dad must've been making my
grandma Mary's jumpin' jambalaya.
614
00:28:57,819 --> 00:28:59,841
He always said he
perfected the recipe
615
00:28:59,941 --> 00:29:01,923
with his secret ingredient.
616
00:29:02,023 --> 00:29:03,604
Layla: What is
it? Jordan: Whoa!
617
00:29:03,704 --> 00:29:06,047
A secret. Heh! Layla: Ok.
618
00:29:06,147 --> 00:29:08,409
But now I remember why it's
called "jumpin' jambalaya."
619
00:29:08,509 --> 00:29:11,212
Mm. Well, I mean, we can't
let this go to waste,
620
00:29:11,312 --> 00:29:15,136
so I say we end the day
the same way we started it.
621
00:29:15,236 --> 00:29:17,658
All together. Family dinner,
622
00:29:17,758 --> 00:29:20,221
making your dad's
jambalaya, yeah?
623
00:29:20,321 --> 00:29:21,863
- I say let's do it.
- Ok.
624
00:29:21,963 --> 00:29:23,224
Yeah.
625
00:29:23,324 --> 00:29:25,406
Can I get you anything?
626
00:29:26,888 --> 00:29:29,510
I'm fine...
627
00:29:29,610 --> 00:29:31,913
But you can tell me
what's going on with you.
628
00:29:32,013 --> 00:29:34,916
You couldn't even enjoy hearing
your baby's heartbeat today.
629
00:29:35,016 --> 00:29:38,039
Why are you so freaked out
about the baby all of a sudden?
630
00:29:38,139 --> 00:29:41,082
It's not the baby that
has me freaked out.
631
00:29:41,182 --> 00:29:43,184
It's the bus crash.
632
00:29:44,625 --> 00:29:46,647
One minute everything is fine
633
00:29:46,747 --> 00:29:48,649
and then the next...
634
00:29:48,749 --> 00:29:50,651
We're on the side of a cliff
635
00:29:50,751 --> 00:29:52,954
and coach is dead.
636
00:29:54,755 --> 00:29:57,138
I learned the hard way
that nothing is promised
637
00:29:57,238 --> 00:29:58,619
and now I can't
stop thinking about
638
00:29:58,719 --> 00:30:01,102
something bad happening
to you or the baby.
639
00:30:01,202 --> 00:30:03,144
You both are my whole world.
640
00:30:03,244 --> 00:30:05,466
You're our whole world, too.
641
00:30:05,566 --> 00:30:09,110
And you're right.
Nothing is promised.
642
00:30:09,210 --> 00:30:12,713
That's why we have
to live in the now.
643
00:30:12,813 --> 00:30:16,477
Find joy in the now.
644
00:30:16,577 --> 00:30:18,920
Have you thought about
talking to someone?
645
00:30:19,020 --> 00:30:20,922
I'm talking to you.
646
00:30:21,022 --> 00:30:22,924
I mean someone
that can help you
647
00:30:23,024 --> 00:30:25,446
deal with your PTSD.
648
00:30:25,546 --> 00:30:27,488
Someone that can help
you start believing
649
00:30:27,588 --> 00:30:30,491
that you deserve all of the
good things in your life.
650
00:30:30,591 --> 00:30:33,034
Yeah, maybe you're right.
651
00:30:38,439 --> 00:30:40,741
Olivia: Asher, it's fine.
652
00:30:40,841 --> 00:30:43,344
Really. I got to
my a.A. Meeting.
653
00:30:43,444 --> 00:30:46,707
Jordan's already here to
pick me up. I promise.
654
00:30:46,807 --> 00:30:49,831
I'll see you guys back
at the house later.
655
00:30:49,931 --> 00:30:51,833
So, what was that?
656
00:30:51,933 --> 00:30:53,915
Apology number 9 or...
657
00:30:54,015 --> 00:30:56,117
Yeah, something like that.
658
00:30:56,217 --> 00:30:57,718
Thanks for coming to get me.
659
00:30:57,818 --> 00:30:59,881
Been looking forward
to my shift all day.
660
00:30:59,981 --> 00:31:01,883
How was a.A.?
661
00:31:01,983 --> 00:31:04,305
Everything I needed.
662
00:31:08,269 --> 00:31:10,371
All of today was. [Sighs]
663
00:31:10,471 --> 00:31:12,173
- I'm proud of you.
- You know,
664
00:31:12,273 --> 00:31:14,175
for the first time today,
665
00:31:14,275 --> 00:31:17,778
I can honestly say i'm
really proud of myself, too.
666
00:31:17,878 --> 00:31:20,581
[Sighs]
667
00:31:20,681 --> 00:31:23,624
I think I found my why.
668
00:31:23,724 --> 00:31:26,207
It's the silence.
669
00:31:27,768 --> 00:31:30,591
And not, you know,
just, like, the quiet,
670
00:31:30,691 --> 00:31:35,536
but the silence in
things left unsaid.
671
00:31:37,858 --> 00:31:40,401
Silence in friendship,
672
00:31:40,501 --> 00:31:44,005
relationship, and...
673
00:31:44,105 --> 00:31:47,948
Especially the
silence of death.
674
00:31:49,670 --> 00:31:53,534
Silence is the hardest
thing for me to face.
675
00:31:53,634 --> 00:31:55,736
[Sighs] And I think I finally
676
00:31:55,836 --> 00:31:58,879
realised that up on
that Ferris wheel.
677
00:32:00,361 --> 00:32:02,523
And yet you're facing it.
678
00:32:05,966 --> 00:32:08,869
What about others, you know?
679
00:32:08,969 --> 00:32:11,832
People like me who are...
680
00:32:11,932 --> 00:32:16,417
Equally scared of the silence, but
don't have a village to turn to?
681
00:32:20,421 --> 00:32:22,043
What?
682
00:32:22,143 --> 00:32:24,325
[Chuckles] I know that look.
683
00:32:24,425 --> 00:32:26,327
- What look?
- The look that dad
684
00:32:26,427 --> 00:32:28,329
always said meant you
were about to do something
685
00:32:28,429 --> 00:32:30,991
that would change
the world for good.
686
00:32:32,553 --> 00:32:35,596
All right. Let's go home.
687
00:32:45,286 --> 00:32:47,428
Laura: Am I doing this right?
688
00:32:47,528 --> 00:32:48,829
[Chuckling] Mom,
it's just rice.
689
00:32:48,929 --> 00:32:50,831
It's really hard to mess up.
690
00:32:50,931 --> 00:32:52,954
You'd be surprised.
The one time
691
00:32:53,054 --> 00:32:54,395
your dad asked me to help,
692
00:32:54,495 --> 00:32:56,637
let's just say I was
never asked back.
693
00:32:56,737 --> 00:32:58,839
Jordan: Do you guys
remember the time
694
00:32:58,939 --> 00:33:00,481
that dad threw
out the entire pot
695
00:33:00,581 --> 00:33:02,723
because Liv used
vegetable stock
696
00:33:02,823 --> 00:33:04,383
instead of chicken
stock? Laura: Mm-hmm.
697
00:33:04,465 --> 00:33:07,128
It wasn't my fault. He
bought the wrong thing.
698
00:33:07,228 --> 00:33:09,326
[Laughter, indistinct chatter]
Coop: Asher, you sure you know
699
00:33:09,350 --> 00:33:11,128
what you're doing over there,
bruh? Asher: Green peppers...
700
00:33:11,152 --> 00:33:12,813
[Layla giggles] Jordan: Hi.
701
00:33:12,913 --> 00:33:14,295
Hi.
702
00:33:14,395 --> 00:33:16,497
- My dad would've loved this.
- Hmm.
703
00:33:16,597 --> 00:33:19,740
Kitchen full of his family and
friends, cooking his favourite meal.
704
00:33:19,840 --> 00:33:22,783
He'd probably even use my mom's
rice, which is... Layla: Wow.
705
00:33:22,883 --> 00:33:24,465
Jordan: So thank you.
706
00:33:24,565 --> 00:33:26,707
Why? I didn't do anything.
707
00:33:26,807 --> 00:33:29,350
Jordan: This has been the
worst couple weeks of my life
708
00:33:29,450 --> 00:33:32,994
and every step of the way, you've
known exactly what I needed.
709
00:33:33,094 --> 00:33:35,916
I'm so grateful to have
you. [Layla chuckles]
710
00:33:36,016 --> 00:33:38,018
Ahem.
711
00:33:39,740 --> 00:33:42,243
I guess this is your
coming out dinner.
712
00:33:42,343 --> 00:33:44,845
Jordan: Huh. [Layla chuckles]
713
00:33:44,945 --> 00:33:46,967
Jordan: I guess so.
Coop: Ooh, ok. Enough.
714
00:33:47,067 --> 00:33:49,330
You guys are making me lose
my appetite with all this sap.
715
00:33:49,430 --> 00:33:51,972
Asher: For real. You two need
to get a room, like, asap.
716
00:33:52,072 --> 00:33:54,575
Bro, they already got a room,
and I share a wall with 'em.
717
00:33:54,675 --> 00:33:57,178
Laura: Ok! Thank
you. Olivia: Oh, wow.
718
00:33:57,278 --> 00:33:59,860
Grace: Can we get back
to cooking, please?
719
00:33:59,960 --> 00:34:01,702
Laura: Yes. Grace: I'm hungry.
720
00:34:01,802 --> 00:34:03,780
Jordan: Yeah. Coop: What I
was gonna say was that...
721
00:34:03,804 --> 00:34:06,407
Spencer: No, chill out.
Laura: Oh, no. That's ok.
722
00:34:08,369 --> 00:34:10,371
[Sniffles]
723
00:34:11,972 --> 00:34:14,995
So... [sighs]
724
00:34:15,095 --> 00:34:19,640
In my quest to embrace
full honesty today, um...
725
00:34:19,740 --> 00:34:24,125
I guess we should talk about
what I said a couple weeks ago.
726
00:34:24,225 --> 00:34:26,006
Before your life
turned upside down.
727
00:34:26,106 --> 00:34:28,549
Yours turned upside down, too.
728
00:34:30,511 --> 00:34:33,654
You know, I've always admired
you for how brave you are.
729
00:34:33,754 --> 00:34:36,657
Telling me you wanted me
back couldn't have been easy.
730
00:34:36,757 --> 00:34:40,101
And we owe each other an honest
conversation about what we feel
731
00:34:40,201 --> 00:34:44,065
and where we stand, but...
732
00:34:44,165 --> 00:34:46,787
I want to have it when
we're clear-headed.
733
00:34:46,887 --> 00:34:49,070
- Mm.
- When the battle for your sobriety ain't
734
00:34:49,170 --> 00:34:52,713
at defcon four and I ain't...
735
00:34:52,813 --> 00:34:55,055
What were you gonna say?
736
00:34:57,538 --> 00:35:00,081
[Sighs] Spencer,
737
00:35:00,181 --> 00:35:01,882
my dad was like a dad to you.
738
00:35:01,982 --> 00:35:05,526
It's all good. It's
all good. I'm just...
739
00:35:05,626 --> 00:35:09,650
I'm just glad I could
be there for you today.
740
00:35:09,750 --> 00:35:13,474
And, uh, and we'll have that
conversation when the time's right.
741
00:35:14,955 --> 00:35:16,957
That's a promise.
742
00:35:24,124 --> 00:35:26,467
What's all this?
743
00:35:26,567 --> 00:35:29,470
I think I'm gonna bring
back "live the truth."
744
00:35:29,570 --> 00:35:32,913
Um, I have some things I
want to say to you guys
745
00:35:33,013 --> 00:35:36,617
and anyone else who
needs to hear it.
746
00:35:43,944 --> 00:35:45,846
[Sighs]
747
00:35:45,946 --> 00:35:47,448
[Click]
748
00:35:47,548 --> 00:35:50,591
The bond between a
father and a daughter...
749
00:35:52,393 --> 00:35:54,735
There's absolutely
nothing like it.
750
00:35:54,835 --> 00:35:58,339
I always used to say
my mom gave me my drive
751
00:35:58,439 --> 00:36:02,383
but... my dad
gave me my dreams.
752
00:36:02,483 --> 00:36:05,226
You know, as little
girls, we dream of all
753
00:36:05,326 --> 00:36:08,669
the big life moments we're
gonna share with our dads.
754
00:36:08,769 --> 00:36:10,951
The problem is,
while we're dreaming
755
00:36:11,051 --> 00:36:14,034
those big dreams of
life with our hero,
756
00:36:14,134 --> 00:36:17,037
no one ever warns us
that those same dreams
757
00:36:17,137 --> 00:36:21,282
can be cut short.
That we could just...
758
00:36:21,382 --> 00:36:25,286
Wake up one day and
our dads just be...
759
00:36:25,386 --> 00:36:27,568
Gone.
760
00:36:27,668 --> 00:36:31,051
The silence from
that loss is, uh,
761
00:36:31,151 --> 00:36:33,654
deafening. Heh!
762
00:36:33,754 --> 00:36:35,856
And the desire
to run from it...
763
00:36:35,956 --> 00:36:39,620
[Sighs] It's overwhelming.
764
00:36:39,720 --> 00:36:41,862
But I'm here to tell you,
765
00:36:41,962 --> 00:36:43,864
don't run.
766
00:36:43,964 --> 00:36:45,826
Gather your village.
767
00:36:45,926 --> 00:36:49,430
Face the silence...
768
00:36:49,530 --> 00:36:52,973
And whatever feelings
come with it.
769
00:36:55,135 --> 00:36:58,078
Olivia, voice-over: It can
be feelings of abandonment,
770
00:36:58,178 --> 00:37:00,180
feelings of fear.
771
00:37:03,784 --> 00:37:05,686
[Sighs]
772
00:37:05,786 --> 00:37:08,128
Spencer: "I don't want you
to feel pressured by me,
773
00:37:08,228 --> 00:37:10,531
"so I'm gonna
take a step back.
774
00:37:10,631 --> 00:37:14,114
If you need me, you
know where to find me."
775
00:37:15,596 --> 00:37:17,598
[Knock on door]
776
00:37:22,843 --> 00:37:24,865
Now's not a good time, coach.
777
00:37:24,965 --> 00:37:27,828
Just came to check on you.
778
00:37:27,928 --> 00:37:30,030
Our conversation
earlier, it went
779
00:37:30,130 --> 00:37:32,313
in a direction that
I didn't expect.
780
00:37:32,413 --> 00:37:34,915
Ok, ok, so now you
checked. I'm good.
781
00:37:35,015 --> 00:37:37,678
Coach Kenny: I'm here for you,
son. Corey: I love you, son.
782
00:37:37,778 --> 00:37:40,437
Billy, voice-over: I do consider you
my son. Coach Kenny: I just want you
783
00:37:40,461 --> 00:37:42,202
to know... Spencer:
Don't call me son.
784
00:37:42,302 --> 00:37:45,005
I don't need a daddy, man.
785
00:37:45,105 --> 00:37:48,409
I don't need a mentor
or even a friend.
786
00:37:48,509 --> 00:37:51,412
- Spence, I...
- I need a damn coach.
787
00:37:51,512 --> 00:37:54,575
That is it. Somebody
who's gonna do
788
00:37:54,675 --> 00:37:57,778
whatever it takes to win
and get me to the NFL.
789
00:37:57,878 --> 00:38:02,202
That is all I can count on
and that negro ain't you!
790
00:38:03,724 --> 00:38:06,787
I shoulda listened to those
coaches at tnt and Toledo.
791
00:38:06,887 --> 00:38:09,670
All they cared
about was the game.
792
00:38:09,770 --> 00:38:12,513
I'm done wasting my
time with you, man,
793
00:38:12,613 --> 00:38:15,155
and gau football.
794
00:38:15,255 --> 00:38:18,639
So consider this
my official notice.
795
00:38:18,739 --> 00:38:21,241
I'm entering the portal.
796
00:38:21,341 --> 00:38:24,525
Olivia, voice-over: Sometimes,
it feels like anger.
797
00:38:24,625 --> 00:38:27,528
And that was my
epiphany today.
798
00:38:27,628 --> 00:38:30,531
I'm angry at my dad for dying.
799
00:38:30,631 --> 00:38:32,853
And hiding from that
truth almost cost me
800
00:38:32,953 --> 00:38:35,776
my sanity and my sobriety.
801
00:38:35,876 --> 00:38:39,700
So now I'm speaking my truth
out loud not just for me,
802
00:38:39,800 --> 00:38:43,704
but for anyone else who's going through
something similar. [Door closes]
803
00:38:43,804 --> 00:38:48,188
Jabari: Sorry, Mrs. Baker. I was
just... Laura: No, no, it's ok, it's ok.
804
00:38:48,288 --> 00:38:52,733
Preach told me you were
here. Please, stay.
805
00:39:06,707 --> 00:39:08,749
The silence is loud, isn't it?
806
00:39:11,472 --> 00:39:14,415
Leaves a lot of room for your
mind to play tricks on you
807
00:39:14,515 --> 00:39:17,017
if you don't face it head on.
808
00:39:17,117 --> 00:39:18,979
It don't matter.
809
00:39:19,079 --> 00:39:21,702
I don't matter. Laura:
Yes, you do matter.
810
00:39:21,802 --> 00:39:24,465
That's why my husband
went back for you.
811
00:39:24,565 --> 00:39:28,108
You can't keep carrying
all this guilt, Jabari.
812
00:39:28,208 --> 00:39:30,731
It's not what Billy
would have wanted.
813
00:39:32,212 --> 00:39:34,755
Tell me...
814
00:39:34,855 --> 00:39:37,758
What happened when...
815
00:39:37,858 --> 00:39:40,280
When Billy went
back on the bus.
816
00:39:40,380 --> 00:39:42,282
No.
817
00:39:42,382 --> 00:39:44,485
No, I'm sorry.
818
00:39:44,585 --> 00:39:47,247
I... I've already
caused you enough pain.
819
00:39:47,347 --> 00:39:49,570
And you don't
want to hear that.
820
00:39:49,670 --> 00:39:52,212
No. I don't.
821
00:39:52,312 --> 00:39:55,015
But I need to.
822
00:39:55,115 --> 00:39:59,520
And you need... to release it.
823
00:40:02,883 --> 00:40:05,025
Billy, distorted:
824
00:40:05,125 --> 00:40:07,187
Jabari!
825
00:40:07,287 --> 00:40:10,030
All right, take my hand.
All right, come on.
826
00:40:10,130 --> 00:40:12,032
All right, use this
leg. [Jabari grunting]
827
00:40:12,132 --> 00:40:15,476
Billy: There we
go. Ok. [Bus thuds]
828
00:40:15,576 --> 00:40:17,478
All right, you good?
[Jabari panting]
829
00:40:17,578 --> 00:40:18,999
[Bus creaking]
Billy: All right.
830
00:40:19,099 --> 00:40:20,801
What do you say we
get off this damn bus?
831
00:40:20,901 --> 00:40:21,762
[Loud creak]
832
00:40:21,862 --> 00:40:23,764
Oh! Whoa! Whoa.
833
00:40:23,864 --> 00:40:25,966
Ok, this is gonna be fun. Ok.
834
00:40:26,066 --> 00:40:28,569
All right. We got this. Um,
835
00:40:28,669 --> 00:40:31,171
we're just gonna go
one at a time, right?
836
00:40:31,271 --> 00:40:33,253
Gonna be easy. One at a time.
837
00:40:33,353 --> 00:40:35,416
You go first. One at a time.
838
00:40:35,516 --> 00:40:37,694
Billy: You got it. I'm right
behind you, baby. [Jabari grunts]
839
00:40:37,718 --> 00:40:39,620
[Bus creaking] Billy:
There we go. My man.
840
00:40:39,720 --> 00:40:42,983
Ah! All right, coach.
Come on. It's your turn.
841
00:40:43,083 --> 00:40:45,626
[Loud rumbling and creaking]
842
00:40:45,726 --> 00:40:49,309
Tell my family
that I love them.
843
00:40:49,409 --> 00:40:51,952
[Metal crunching loudly]
844
00:40:52,052 --> 00:40:55,956
Coach!
845
00:40:56,056 --> 00:40:58,519
[Sniffles]
846
00:40:58,619 --> 00:41:01,802
There's nothing you
could have done, Jabari.
847
00:41:01,902 --> 00:41:04,084
[Sighs]
848
00:41:04,184 --> 00:41:06,186
Look at me.
849
00:41:09,109 --> 00:41:11,371
There is nothing
850
00:41:11,471 --> 00:41:14,234
that you could have
done. [Sniffles]
851
00:41:16,997 --> 00:41:19,900
Olivia, voice-over: For
whoever is out there listening,
852
00:41:20,000 --> 00:41:23,984
I need you to know that you
aren't alone in your grief.
853
00:41:24,084 --> 00:41:26,587
Female singer: ? there
are better days to come ?
854
00:41:26,687 --> 00:41:29,389
Olivia, voice-over: And if you
don't have anyone to turn to,
855
00:41:29,489 --> 00:41:31,351
I will be here for you.
856
00:41:31,451 --> 00:41:34,354
Female singer: ? there
are better days to come ?
857
00:41:34,454 --> 00:41:37,237
Olivia, voice-over: Because
when you can't hold yourself up,
858
00:41:37,337 --> 00:41:42,042
it's lifesaving to have a
village that'll do that for you.
859
00:41:42,142 --> 00:41:46,046
Female singer: ? when all
of this is said and done ?
860
00:41:46,146 --> 00:41:50,290
? there are better days ?
861
00:41:50,390 --> 00:41:53,033
? to come ?
862
00:42:14,975 --> 00:42:16,977
Man: Greg, move your head.
863
00:42:17,305 --> 00:43:17,415
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